#but I just love the imagery of the carousel and wanted to discuss it

[colossalsquidz]

I think my favourite piece of symbolism in rgu will always and forever be the carousel in episode 39. In the intro, you get this awesome shot of Utena and Anthy riding on horses through the sky, and throughout the whole show you’re waiting for that moment to come to fruition.

Horses, of course, are heavily linked to the idea of the prince. Dios is described as a “prince on a white horse,” Touga explicitly states that horses are part of the “prince” persona, Akio and Touga both ride with Utena on a horse when they’re trying to be her prince. And as the protagonist, most viewers will be rooting for Utena to get her own moment of heroism. To break away from Akio’s abuse and become the gallant prince she’s always dreamed of being.

However, when Anthy stabs Utena, this dream is shattered. She says, “You remind me so much of Dios when I loved him. But you can never be my prince, because you’re a girl.” An intentionally cruel jab, rubbing salt in the wound. But also showing Anthy’s mindset, fear of being abused again by someone who wants to trap her in a power dynamic. She loves Utena and believes she is genuinely trying to help her, but still can’t trust her.

This is when the carousel appears. The same motif of the white horse, but this time a crude plastic simulacrum, going around and around in circles. Utena has been sold the idea of the prince as a way to claim autonomy in a patriarchal society, but in the end the “prince” in power only wants to keep everything in eternal stasis. The flying horses in the sky were always a pipe dream, because that’s not what it means to claim power within the framework of this system. A carousel can never advance. A prince can never truly smash the world’s shell, just accumulate power within it.

The nature of the carnival ride and the children’s laughter in the background are also important here, almost mocking Utena in her lowest moment. It reminds me of Akio’s statement that she was merely “playing�� at the duelling game, like all this was some childish power fantasy. But we know that’s not true. That’s why Utena is able to pull herself up and make her way to Anthy’s coffin. Dios is the one riding the carousel here, offering Utena false platitudes and beckoning her to accept the way things are, join him in going around and around for eternity. However, Utena’s desire to help her friend trumps her desire to be a hero. To help Anthy has always been her main driving force, and Akio is so cynical that he can’t understand that someone might want to help for purely selfless reasons. Ultimately, this is his downfall.

When the curtain falls and the prince is revealed to be a child on a plastic horse, Utena is disgusted by the farce and accepts the painful reality of her identity being ripped from her and discarded. Because being the prince was never Utena’s goal, it was a means to an end to help Anthy from the very beginning.

[doomed-silly]

Ok im finally making a mahiru post because I love her so much and shes really relatable but im in denial about it x)

Spoilers for trial 3 but also trial 3 commencement has been out for a hot minute

This post is mostly gonna be focused on mahirus crime/her and her boyfriends relationship and I'll do a separate post that focuses more on her character (obviously I have to discuss that to get into her crime but you get it)

Ok so I want to start where everybody starts and talk about the toxicity of mahiru and her boyfriend.

I feel like most people when discussing mahiru either fully absolve her of her actions and pin everything on her boyfriend or completely demonize her and I think its in the middle. I've seen multiple people mention the cake in "i love you" being a visual metaphor for affection/attention and i agree with that mote than I do it being a visual representation for toxicity. If that was the case I think we'd see more of an indicator of the boyfriend being toxic. Although in milgram the MV's are extracted from the prisoners state of mind so its also very possible mahiru is subconsciously recognizing he was toxic but trying to underplay it/how much it affected her (im going to get into this later)

When looking at these photos I think this is a big indicator that the cake represents affection. We know from Mahirus videos and even just "I Love You" shes an extremely overbearing and emotionally volatile person. Her idea of what a relationship is really isn't realistic, and i think this shows it with her boyfriend feeding her a small amount of affection while Mahiru is giving him more than can even fit on her fork

I also think that feeds into the relationship too. Obviously mahiru is super affectionate milgram literally describes her "like the sun" and she doesn't hold any ill will towards kotoko who beat her so badly she needed such extensive medical care that when the person providing it died she died. However I dont think mahiru is really acknowledging how much of a toll giving so much is taking on her.

I also wanted to talk about the carousel which I read in two ways. For one a carousel is a loop it doesn't end unless you get off. I also think its worth noting mahiru is IN FRONT of her boyfriend. Usually in carousel or imagery around endless cycles you'd put the person chasing something behind that thing. I am reading this that mahiru is so focused on her boyfriend who she needs to leave behind but shes continuing to stay on this loop. She's looking back at her boyfriend to chase after him because she can't catch back up to him. Looking forward would be her having to acknowledge this relationship isn't right for her. I also think an interesting aspect of this is her boyfriend (im just gonna call him "BF" because I don't want to keep typing it out) is also staying on this carousel. He's looping around with her, BUT i think to him its less about catching up to her and more about keeping her stable. To him this ride is awful the carousel is decrepit but mahiru is still so happy to keep going with it and he's seen her emotions get out of hand which based on "this is how to be in love with you" impact her mental state more than it causes her to lash out at him. I think he loves her and that's why he's staying on this ride. He's trying to catch up to the idealistic dream of what mahiru wants.

Another thing is this scene which is probably the most (in)famous scene in the whole MV. When it first starts and mahiru turns around and BF has fallen to his knees he is shaking. Now mahiru is empathetic to a fault BUT that doesn't mean shes emotionally intelligent. She falls into the mindset of "well this is good for me so it must be good for everyone". You can see shes confused on why he's upset (tilting her head) and then smiles before feeding him the cake or giving him affection because to her shes happy she found the solution to his negative feelings she just needs to love him more.

Then of course we have probably the most famous mahiru imagery in milgram of her feeding her boyfriend cake and it being the rat. I don't have much to add here because everyone's picked this scene to pieces already, but the only thing I'd like to point out here is the difference in scenery which leads me to my next point

(I reached the image limit oops just go with me)

So in the beginning of "I Love You" we start with Mahiru in what ill call her dark place. This is the beginning rap part and shes actively acknowledging that shes a mess shes not happy. But then she goes to sleep. To me I think this is less literal more metaphoric of her using escapism as a coping mechanism. Throughout the rest of the video the only times we return to mahirus dark place is from the boyfriends perspective or at least when he's shown. Mahiru isn't getting her needs met her and BF are just too different and that's ok! People sometimes just aren't compatible BUT they got trapped in this cycle where mahiru doesn't want to leave and sees this relationship as more important than anything else which causes her to neglect her problems with BF and it starts popping up in other ways (like when she talks about the break up rituals and calling him and waking him up) and in turn BF retreats because he doesn't want the constant affection but he also DOES love Mahiru and doesn't want to hurt her by communicating with her but especially by breaking up with her. So it turns into an endless cycle or carousel where BF can't keep up with Mahiru and Mahiru is looking backwards to keep him with neither wanting to get off the ride.

This next part is less about the crime but more about "I Love You" as an inside look into milgram and how it functions in Canon. One thing i found really interesting is that mahiru in her T2 VD isn't accepting of the fact she did anything wrong but mentions she hears voices telling her shes in the wrong (important for later). But she clearly DOES feel bad. The videos in Canon are extracted from the prisoners memories BUT ALSO their mental state. Basically what im getting at is if mahiru truly didnt feel guilty her video would be COMPLETELY different. The fact she even conjured of the image of her feeding BF a rat is a look into her subconscious where she understands she was in the wrong in that regard at least. I also think a lot of the language in "I Love You" is very telling of how milgram psychologically effects the prisoners. Mahiru mentions hearing voices in her head calling her out for lack of a better term and I feel like we can safely assume that's about the fandoms thoughts. This is why I think her language is so aggressive in "ILY" the best example being the quote "that's inconvenient? I dont care!" Cause again she clearly DOES care. And I think further proof of how much the guilty verdict fucked her up is in the rat scene it starts with him falling down and from there on she is constantly in a position over him. When he's fallen over shes standing over him, when shes feeding him she is the one who bends down to him, and after that it shows his body. I think it just really shows how much it affected her.

And really quick note I think the rat feeding scene also shows how much BF loves her because he does not try to resist it at all. We can (obviously) see he does not want that much affection and it's negatively impacting him but he's still letting her give him it. I didnt really have a place to put that but wanted to mention it

i dont really have any sort of backing for this claim but I also think to mahiru a break up would be earth shattering for her she literally said she'd smoke if her partner did i doubt she'd see a break up as an option ever.

So closing argument i think mahiru and BF do hold love for each other. I think they were not a good fit for each other, but mahiru was either blind or willfully ignorant to that fact while BF knew at the very least he could not handle Mahirus love and wants, but he also didnt want to cause her any pain so he stayed but kept distancing because that's the only way he was able to keep his composure to say it in a way simplified version. Eventually mahiru keeps adding and adding to the quantity of affection and BF is now so beaten down by the affection shes giving him BUT ALSO the fact he can't make her happy, so he kills himself as a sort of escape pod.

I think a big reason why I groan every time I see people try to pin mahiru OR bf as the guilty party because they weren't toxic in a way they had ill will. I'd say the OPPOSITE both loved the other to the point they weren't willing to let each other go (think bird cage imagery in T1 song). They should've communicated and they should've either worked towards a compromise to each find a way to be happy in that relationship or gone their separate ways and acknolwdge they love each other but also that love can't sustain a relationship alone

That's my final thoughts and I also think mahiru is HEAVILY R(elationship)-OCD coded but im also going to get into that with her character analysis post

Which i will do probably tomorrow because its 2 AM and there's severe weather right now and im a bit freaked out! Goodnight!

[fabdante]

1, 5, & 10 for the book ask!

Thank you for the ask my friend!! (for the book meme linked, also thank you for linking it for me asdfghj)

1.) Rant to me about a book you absolutely hate

I'm putting this one under the cut asdfghjk I shortened my thoughts quite a bit to make my rambling more concise but I felt like I had to explain my qualifications as to why I hate this book asdfghjk that and I thought, while the discussion is brief, it could be potentially triggering for some. So my answer is under the cut with more specific warnings

However for those who don't want to go down there, my second most hated book is Rapture, the tie in Bioshock novel. I just hate it. It butchers every character in that series s2g. It's bad. Also not very well researched. Did I mention it's bad? And unnecessary?? However 10/10 for the part where Sander Cohen runs into (I think) Julie Langford at the park while he's wearing leather shorts and at least one boy on his arm that's the funniest thing he could have ever done ever. Julie and Sander are the opposite of wlw/mlm solidarity, they are wlw/mlm hostility to me.

5.) Tell me about the genre you always find yourself reading? Is it surprising to you that you always read that one?

I'm not sure if it's a genre exactly? But I love like 'bad' romance novels, I call them popcorn books (entertaining and fun to eat, will fill you but is low on like substance). Like self published, formulaic, booktok mining, nonsense asdfghjk I wouldn't call it my favorite genre or anything (as much as I love love stories) but its the one I find myself most often writing books down for because I just find them fun and entertaining to read and also analyze asdfghj I firmly believe you learn a lot about writing by reading not only good books, but books that you personally find less good. Like it does the brain good to consider like why you personally might not be finding this as good, what do you think is missing, if you don't consider it particularly good what about it has hooked you still, what do you think is appealing to it's more target audience, so on and so forth. Like that's just as beneficial as studying a good book to figure out what's good about it, in my opinion.

I plan my reading schedule around this asdfghj i divide books into 'popcorn' books and 'substance' books, which just means the book is going to be like more intense, probably went through formal publishing, is usually in a less formulaic genre, so on and so forth. And then I alternate them because I find it keeps me engaged. Right now I'm reading a popcorn book, so for my next book I'm going to treat myself to a substance book, for example.

None of this is to begrudge popcorn books, I think reading can and should be both things. And like there are many popcorn books I enjoy genuinely asdfghj

Am I surprised that I like popcorn romance novels? Not really asdfghj this is exactly what I expect from myself. I love romance in my fiction as much as I love tragedy and grief narratives so I'm not at all surprised to find that I'm often going to like romance based genres.

10.) Tell me about your top (any number you want) favorite books?

So this is my like, yearly reread list of books, books which I return to like yearly. They are also ones I tend to collect copies of asdfghjk

Catcher in the Rye is my like favorite book. I realize this is a weird take but I...I love Catcher. Something about it caught me when I first read it and it just never really has let me go. I enjoy what Salinger does with his prose. I enjoy the character study a lot. I enjoy how it handles being a grief narrative, because it is a grief narrative. I love the imagery Salinger evokes like...I don't think that's something a lot of people bring up but I think a lot about Holden in that rye field, trying to catch kids from falling over the ledge. Or the carousel. Or Holden feeling like he's trapped on an endless street, moving no where. Or like when he goes on his long meandering tangent on museums. I think it has a lot of worth and it's kind of a shame it's legacy tends to be what it is for a mixture of reasons. Also I like personally spiting J.D. Salinger, I live my life around if it'd personally piss off J.D. Salinger. (I collect vintage copies of Catcher in the Rye asdfghjk I don't have many but I'm working my way up)

Wuthering Heights has also entered as like my second yearly reread. I genuinely did not think I'd like it this much? I was actually really worried I wouldn't? Which is odd as I think it was engineered as catnip for me? Like the tragedy, the drama, the love story, the horror, there's a ghost???, the madness, the complexity of perception and how that also plays into everything, the themes?? Also just I love how Emily Brontë articulates emotions. Like she really delivers a lot of incredible quotes. I also just really appreciate Cathy and Heathcliff which probably sounds insane but like find both of them just so compelling both in their dynamic together but also just them separately. I really just kind of want to put them in a jar to study. Perhaps I will change my mind when I reread it more, but I was writing essays on the book while reading the book so, I think that says a lot about it in my eyes asdfghj that and the fact I already collected 4 copies of it and am always on the lookout for more.

Anyway back to, 1.) Book I Hate

Content Warnings: this rant will involve discussion of the Holocaust, Holocaust fiction, and genocide! My credentials are minoring in genocide studies!

Thank you for asking! This is going to get long as I have a lot of festering hatred for this one asdfghj

If I ever meet John Boyne, I am going to fist fight him for penning the Boy in the Striped Pajamas!!

Before anyone says anything, my hatred of that book is rooted in the fact I minored in genocide studies with focus on the Holocaust. It is equally rooted in the fact that every Holocaust survivor in my local area will not teach classes which only teach this book (I know this because I knew the people who work with survivors to match them to classes, the survivors will not go to classes that only teach this book) I personally think that book genuinely has single handedly set back Holocaust studies by decades. It's just...it's an insult. It's bad and John Boyne should feel bad for writing it. I hope he does, though I doubt it, as he at least in the past thought himself to be some sort of hero for writing a bad book on the Holocaust.

There's a lot of bad, poorly researched, insulting Holocaust fiction in the world but I think what makes this book stand out is the fact it's not only bad and historically inaccurate, it's the fact that it's taught frequently to children. It's formulating their understanding of this subject. For a lot of kids, due to how poorly we teach genocide studies, it's going to be all they know about this subject. Like it's, at best, a shaky foundation for Holocaust and genocide education that a child will hopefully improve upon as they learn better information. And at worse, it's all they have and ever will have. It's their only understanding of the Holocaust and genocide as a whole, which is bad given it's historical inaccuracy and it's sanitized version of events which prioritizes the comfort of the perpetrator over the reality of the victims. Also the fact John refers to it as a fable, which is just insulting on a number of levels.

I'm sure this book helped someone. I don't think it's worth the damage it's done and is doing. There's good books written for the same age group which do a much better job at what this one fails at. The fact we as a culture latched onto this god awful one is something that'll piss me off until I die.

For further reading on why this book is bad for kids, it's target demographic, here's a website that put together that Pajamafication twitter thread from a few years ago into a handy dandy article

[crechi]

🀫: individual traits

🀨: stuff we've said

additional system notes

for reference: redacted, amalgam, and placebo - the three alters in our head kymaera - a previous alter who split into amalgam and redacted; existed at the same time as placebo in a two-alter system karrion [yes, as in an animal carcass] - our name for our physical body, as all of us view it as separate 【:text】 - amalgamの備考 〘:text〙 - redactedの備考 ❴ :text ❵ - placeboの備考 [:text] - general note. could've been written by any of us, not important to specify who word.word - a typing quirk of ours. not purposely meant to emphasize anything, and has no meaning

☣＿content warning for: a suicide joke, sexual content, violent and/or disturbing imagery, body horror, sadist/masochist dynamic[s], semi-graphic description of fracturing, in-depth discussion of osdd system dynamics + mentions of; a mischaracterized sense of self, dissociation/derealization, psychotic hallucinations, manic episodes, in public mental breakdowns and panic attacks, anxiety disorder, emotional unresponsivity, emotional amnesia, maladaptive coping strategies, osdd system based duress, arguing within osdd system, autism masking, menstruation, and age regression

✧quot; 'spinning the wheel' [our carousel]

when we're under extreme emotional duress, our individual control begins to weaken. this causes all three of us to have full control at the same time, turning karrion into a kind of conglomerate of our personalities. [the inspiration for amalgam's name; from 'amalgamation'] 【kind of like eclipse :D】〘yes, mal-mal. like eclipse.〙

one of two things will happen;

1 .we'll be noticeably unresponsive, because with all of our different mentalities piled on top of and contradicting each other, we wouldn't know how to feel, let alone react. [the inspiration for redacted's name]

2 .karrion will rapidly flicker between our individual personality traits, never quite being stable in which one.of us they are. [basically, a quiet manic episode] hence, 'the carousel' of rapidly spinning over and over. ❴ round and round and round we go~ where will we stop? nobody knows! ❵

✧we can make projections to each other. basically just weaponized psychosis; used to be involuntary, and sometimes still is, but we can create them on purpose now. [the inspiration for placebo's name]

the projections feel incredibly real to us, and can:

―touch us [squeezing, tapping, caressing, rubbing, etc.]

―push and/or pull us

―make us feel pleasure enough to cum

―obstruct our ability to see

―obstruct our ability to move

basically anything that an actual, tangible object could do and feel like.

the form of the projection is determined by the person who created it, but common ones are:

.vessels of 'ourselves'

.placebo's projections

.detached appendages

.sun and moon from security breach【i don't want to hear it. you should've figured we were freaks by now】

visual projections are easy for us, because we're a visual learner, but auditory projections are considerably more difficult because we are, decidedly, shit at recalling and identifying audio sounds [we love vocaloid and screamo, but i swear that they're, like, the worst genres for us]

the one and only exception to this is the voices of people; any other audio we are completely blind to, and can't make projections of. likely something we learned because it was useful for autism masking;being able to analyze different intonations and inflections[also probably why we have such a strong emotional reaction to voice actors]

✧we are able to identify the point of kymaera's fracture into amalgam and redacted, because it happened recently. for a couple of weeks, we had:

—rapidly developing dyslexia that dissapeared after the split was complete.

—photosensitivity, in which flashing black and white images, intense eye-searing colors, and excessive glitch effects would trigger our split to worsen quickly, or just make.us consciously aware of it [either way, it felt like our mind was splitting, and.it was ♢not_good.png♢]

―sensitivity to static, garbled noises, and high-pitched.noises[< specifically the sound a computer makes when it turns on/is charging][atp low-key convinced that i'm an android]. hearing these would cause the same worsening splitting that our photosensitivity did.

―increased audio.sensitivity; we were two people at once, still sharing sensation since we weren't fully split, so on top of already being audio sensitive, it would ring in our head twice over! how fun~

―a complete lack of our prior pan/omni desires, being romance averse entirely and having no sexual attraction at all

[my guess, is we didn't want to remember or feel. so we stopped anything that might contribute to that]

*the fracture between placebo and kymaera happened too long ago for us to remember, and we actively erased everything that happened during that fracture via assisted.emotional amnesia.

✧if one of us tries to move karrion while another is fronting, the movements will be delayed, uncoordinated, off balance, and/or.lethargic. 〘there was a time placebo was making us food, so it had primary control, and amalgam was zoning out and.making karrion sing; he tried to dance a bit, and we almost fell several times〙

this disparity is flexible, as it is possible for us to have a near 50／50 split with control, or a different ratio, but it depends on how much energy we have, how much emotion we're feeling compared to apathy, and how.focused we are.

✧as mentioned in the last bullet point, the severity of our emotion determines how.much control we have. if we feel strong enough emotions, it's entirely impossible for someone else to take control, or for us to give.up control to someone else.either.

unrelated /j:

1 .amalgam and redacted are prone to panic attacks.

2 .placebo doesn't share emotions with us, unless extremely potent.

so, in conclusion, it would be nice, and probably was intended based on how our system is structured, if placebo could take over while we are panicking and allow us to decompress/ride it out.in our headspace, but it can't, because in the moment of panicking, our emotions are too strong.

instead, it resorts to projections:

―things[usually hands, sometimes tentacles] surrounding us and putting pressure on us, as a form of hug [sort of]

―our body being ripped apart by clawed hands.

―our head being pealed open [common one]

―[this one's more recent] collars/cuffs with chains adorning our neck, wrists, waist, thighs, and [maybe] ankles, but that last one makes it a challenge to walk/makes.us trip

―gagging our mouth with an unknown object [can't see it, can.only feel it.]

―skin peeling and melting off

―placey's tail constricting around us and [depending on how severe] tearing us apart

surprisingly effective; a lot of these involve us being torn apart because amalgam is severely more vulnerable to panic attacks than redacted [and his are.more violent on average], & he's an extreme masochist. pain calms him.down.

*you could imagine how confusing this was before we knew we were seperate people: having hallucinations of being eaten alive during a mental breakdown; the.horrifying visions calm me down, but i also feel a slight sadistic satisfaction at knowing i enjoy being torn apart. like wtf?? bro, what are you on?

✧placebo's tail: [since we realized forgot to explain]

a consistent projection, appears when placey's mad

―a long, thin, black.demon's tail

―typical club-shaped tip

―spikes protruding from everywhere down the length of it. they increase in length, sharpness, and frequency depending on how badly it wants to rip someone's throat out

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even before we knew we were a system, we'd do things in effect of our system. as.an undiscovered system, we thought we were just wildly unstable and volatile.

examples:

―placebo would intentionally make itself livid to keep control, because the alternative was karrion beaking down in the middle of the street.

―there.was always a period after a breakdown or panic attack where i was uncharacteristically calm, and i.just figured i'd overexerted my emotions and couldn't feel for a while; it was actually placebo taking control to give me a break

―the times kymaera'd feel more "in control" of ourself because we had faster reaction time, said things without second guessing ourself [because we didn't even hear the thought before karrion said.it], and.were more coordinated because we had less anxiety, were, ironically, the times.placebo was fronting and kymaera wasn't in control.

―kymaera called placey "Mr. Voice" and would have screaming matches with essentially what he thought was.himself

―one of our favorite songs was chonny jash's cover of 'the bidding' by tally hall, cuz it made us feel seen

―we'd talk to each other, only half the conversation aloud depending on who was in control; we'd use differientiators: 'you' v. 'me' v. 'us' as if we weren't actually monolouging. because we weren't. and it didn't feel that way to us. we still somehow convinced ourselves that we were one person, and it was just easy for us to create a faux dialouge because we have adhd.

it'd confuse.us when there.was a disparity in knowledge or understanding; the frequency of the phrase ｢[but] you're me.｣ made us question things several times.

we'd talk between us before and after kymaera split, though the feeling.of disconnect was even.more.pronounced when there were three of.us.

*in the same vein; before we found out we were an age regressor:

―｢i'm too big.｣

―｢i'm small right.now.｣

―｢he doesn't wanna be big!｣

―｢i'm too small [for this]..｣

―｢a nice place. where i can be warm and small.｣

―｢xe make me feel small. like xem.｣

〘he'd say things like this and not.bat a braincell. like bro−〙

【just thought i was being 'tistic.】

✧we can control a lot of things about karrion; placebo, in particular, is really good at this. [second inspiration for placebo's name, since this is basically just intentional placebo effect]

perception; we can:

―alter karrion's sense of smell and taste

we can make meat taste like candy or root bear soda like strawberries

for some reason, subconsciously? i think?? we changed the taste of chicken eggs. they still taste like eggs, but now come pre-seasoned with spinach and cilantro

―turn off our reception to pain

makes fist fights easy

painless periods babeyy

―dissociate incredibly easily

can turn it on and off like a lightswitch

works better if we use an ｢activation phrase｣; 'it's fine', 'whatever', 'bye-bye'【goofy ahh―】, 'anyway'

―turn off our motion sickness

is sometimes difficult because we'll forget we can, or it won't register to us that we're motion sick until it's more severe

we've been trying to comepletely turn off/alter our hearing and sight, too, [basically trying to make an extremely real daydream]【escapism yippee】 with mixed results so far. i think.the projections are as far as we can go with hearing and sight.

physically; we can;

―slow down our heartrate

a necessity chronic anxiety created

if we really wanted, we can hold it long enough to pass out [insomnia cure]

can't stop it completely, unfortunately

―extendedly hold our breath without triggering asphyxia heaving

mainly used to keep singing even after our lungs are empty 〘will stetson, spare us please〙

✧we have seperate cognitive function. meaning, we can multitask, and do entirely seperate activities at the same time.

currently, the most impressive example of this would be the instance where amalgam was writing down our story ideas while redacted was listening to instructions; amalgam did not pause to listen once, and redacted recieved the full instructions with no misconceptions

we've heard of a case where someone was able to have a full conversation while copying information from a board, and we've been trying to get to that level, though that would require at least two of us to both have 100% motor control over different parts of karrion, which we haven't mastered yet.【been kicking our ass ；−；still trying, tho】