#but I can't cause I have so mich shit to do

[weeping-vintage-toes]

Lowkey having a bit of a bad day, week, month? It's just bad.

[levi501ackerman]

MASTERLIST by Levi501ackerman

ao3

Hange x Reader

Steel Heart | chapter index

"The Royal King's Guard will lay down their lives and dedicate their hearts to return you unharmed to Mitras Castle where you will marry and become Queen. The Marelyan Cult who believe you are the key to perform their ritual will do anything to obtain your body and unlock their most powerful weapon. You just want to win the heart of a certain Knight."

Stars at Night Turned Deep to Dust | Angst

"You were in an accident that caused you to have amnesia and forget your love with Hange. You've turned annoyed with the person who was once your wife."

Here Before and After Me | Fluff

"Levi overheard another conversation the night before retaking Wall Maria. He didn’t know that his best friend had someone special to them."

Silly | Fluff

A quick story of a reserved reader that wants to make Hange laugh lol.

My Chance Has Come At Last | Fluff

"AU where Levi, Hange, and Erwin go Miche's birthday party. There’s a shit ton of people and Hange sees you in the crowd. Hange thought you were too pretty to talk to her. She didn’t expect her shirt to be the conversation starter between you two."

Crazy Girls | Fluff

"AU where Halloween night Levi watches Hange hype up her hot girlfriend."

Comic |

"Hange worked on your graduation gift for weeks, only for you to end up forgetting about them."

Levi x Reader

She Looks Just Like a Dream | Fluff

"One day the scouts find out Levi has a wife. Everyone wants to meet her."

Living In A Dream | Pining

"Levi refuses to date a subordinate so instead he pines over you. Kind of ridiculous how much he overthinks every interaction with you."

Object of Affection | Fluff

"Some may think Levi is whipped or your servant. But acts of service is how Levi shows his love."

Wish That I Could | Angst

"Levi missed his chance to date you. So he watches you from afar."

Allegiance | Part 1 Part 2 (discontinued)

"You're a wealthy citizen from Stohess. When the survey corps are in the city, you can't help but fall for a cute captain."

That Day | Angst

"Ever since That Day . . . Anytime you became lucid, Levi spent all the time with you that you could offer him."

E X T R A S :

RIP AOT

Levi x social media

[moonempire]

AOT The Office AU

So I've been rewatching the office for probably the 4th time (it's too good) and I just keep thinking of the AOT cast in a similar scenario. Of course since Jean is my obvious favourite he'd be the jim-esque character, Levi and Stanley have similar personalities (maybe Angela too). Hange and Meredith. Erwin is so Michael Scott coded and Floch maybe some Andy vibes. I mean it kind of wouldn't fit perfectly but I want to give my vison ago:

So here we go Sales associate Jean x receptionist reader + overall

Headcanons: .Okie so obviously he finds random reasons to come up to your desk .doesn't say a word when he gets there just stares at you until you give him attention .shares a desk clump with Marco and Floch .used to be with Connie and Sasha too but those two had to get separated. Floch used to work down at the warehouse but levelled up and now Sasha sit with Historia and Ymir who keep her in check good cop bad cop style. Respectively. And Connie sits all by himself like the bad kid in a classroom. .Levi personally set up a desk for him, but its only caused Connie to wonder about from time to time .another desk clump is Reiner, Berthold and Annie, most of the noise coming from there is Reiner. Unfortunately it's sometimes weeping because a deadline is coming up and he's still got loads to do .sometimes Berthold has panic attacks when documents go missing .Poor Annie is basically a caretaker for both of them, to the point Erwin official made her the middle manager of their little department and gave her a raise .Down at the warehouse is Zeke (who Eren denied relation too for a long time) Porco, Marcel, Yelena (who Erwin thought was a really lanky guy for the first two weeks of her employment)and Colt whose still fairly new. Miche is in charge and does not give a shit and cause him and Erwin go way back when, so, he gets away with it. . Miche and Zeke do not get along at all, onetime they were both sent home for having a fight on the parking lot. Bets were placed, popcorn was made and there were tears. .They constantly have to kick Hange out, whose always doing dodge stuff down there. Nobody really knows what but they always emerge from the nook they've made for themselves with mysterious stains Hange Levi and Erwin are all Heads of department. Accounting, HR, and Sales respectively. Erwin and Levi share an office for god knows what reason and Hange likes to switch up desks every now and then. .Levi and Erwin did NOT get along at the start, sometimes they still don't.

Little Jean Scenario: so like I said Jean has a fat crush on you (the still fairly new receptionist). So it's one of those days where he comes up to your desk and just stares at you but you're actually busy proof reading a bunch of documents for Levi cause he didn't have time to do them himself. You look up at Jean with an exasperated look and sigh "What do you want now?" in a rather unamused tone, which he's not used to at all and mutters "Nothing" with a little pout and goes back to his desk. Unfortunately for him, Eren was going to make some copies at the exact moment and Connie was having one of his wonders about so both of his "biggest fans" had seen the awkward encounter. The pair circle behind him to his desk with massive grins on their faces, which Floch can't help but miss so pulls his face out of his screen

"Trouble in paradise?" Connie teases first, to which Jean grimaces at putting his glasses on and looking at his screen at nothing in particular. He would have been able to handle your tone no problem; the three Cheshire cats stood and sat around him are making it it impossible. "Oh look at him he's sulking." Eren adds "Did you get kicked out the bedroom Jean" Floch snorts which earns him three glares that scream "no one invited you". "Aww Jean come on now don't ignore us" Connie says poking the back of Jeans head. All this teasing is unbeknownst to you since you're having a hard time on the documents and Levi keeps poking his head out of his office to see if your done yet. In fact you hadn't even clocked the slight harshness in your tone when addressing Jean. Around half an hour later you knock on Levi and Erwin's office to return the proof read paper. Levi takes them from your hands then looks up at you.

"Can you check on Kirschtein for me" he asked in a stoic tone then mutters "Before he has another tantrum" before rolling his eyes and returning to his office. Levi had noticed Jean's sulky mood for the last half hour but didn't have time to tell him to "pull his socks up" like he normally does. So he unknowingly sent you to go resolve the little spat (as Jean's mind has now blown it up to be) with the now very moody salesman. So you do as you your told and go check on him "I'm fine" he replies not hiding the huff that escaped his throat then adjusting his glasses. "I never noticed you wore glasses." you say to him with an intrigued smile bring your face to align with his for a better look. His narrowed eyes catch your curious wide ones and he can't help but match. "I ran out of contacts, need to reorder." he says in the same tone but this time minus the huff. "They suit you, you should wear them more often" you tell him with sincerity or so he hears. The truth is most of the time when you speak to him it's how co workers (that perhaps like each other) talk to each other. But Jean's ears can't help but pick up every letter, every work, sentence and amplify the slight emotion behind it. "Good to know." he answers with a very small smile God, how could he have been so upset, he thinks to himself. You probably had no idea that you'd used that tone with him, you clearly didn't mean it he realises with the gentle conversation occurring. All his moodiness washes away and he sits up straight. "I don't think I've worn glasses since high school." he tells you feeling alot better. "Oh my god really, I have to see a picture." you giggle at the stroy he begins to tell. You lean on his desk for once while he's the one sitting looking up at you. You stay there until Levi pops out his offcie with more documents to proof read.

Ahh i love the office sm!!!! Also i don't think this is exactlyh what i wrote last time but hopefully its better :))

[ships-bynoa]

"is he still him?" Nat asked with his dying breath.

poor baby Mich is confused and angry in this episode, while Rick is desperate and afraid for her.

first, can we get into her poor imitation of a b as Dana Bethune? cause she didn't even try, looooool. she could not be arsed to pretend, especially after the desperate attempt Rick made to send her away on that boat. after that, of course, she's acting up but at the same time, i was like, babe, look at her where you areeeee. even when Pearl questions her, she's giving snark. now in hindsight, it's hilarious how boss she is that she can't hide it, but in the moment i was screaming at the tv "stooooop it!!" this was such a tense episode. knowing she wouldn't die did not change that. cause if Rick had to blow Pearl's head off for reaching for that knife, all hell woulda broken loose for them both. not being fully prepared for the worst proved a grave mistake when facing Negan.

i get it. she's confused and she was expecting a different energy from him, but at the same time, she's seeing the scale of the place. she could've tried even a little even though things escalated pretty quickly after Jadis. she has no idea all the shit he had to do just to protect her in that one episode. he had no time to get into the details.

it's not that she can't play a b either. she was able to play a b to Rick's a a few times when she got to the prison and went to his home town with Carl to gain his trust. she toed the line between a and b when she needed to.

but for a good minute she's scared with him telling her to go that the man she came for and loves is gone. he has no idea what she went through to find him, to get this far. she left their babies. she almost died and she lost her friends who helped her get as far as she did only for rick to tell her to go? her heart is breaking and she doesn't even know the half of it yet when it comes to rick's ordeal nor does he know her scars. but to her, if he's sending her away then why did she do all of this? if he isn't rick anymore, who did she do all of this for?

love the themes of, who are they now and how do they navigate this new dynamic? living vs surviving and the theme of knowing when to go and when to stay. which i'm sure will be half the battle of episode 4. do they stay or do they go?

i mean Rick would not have survived had he not surrendered to some extent. he had to adapt and she didn't. she still had her freedom. her anger is justified because what has the crm done to her man? but the more time she spent there, hopefully, she could see exactly what he must have had to endure to even entertain staying while she went. Rick is right when he says they have to be afraid - there should be a healthy amount of fear so they don't make the same mistakes they did when they handled Negan and the saviours.

i'll say character-wise, i would have loved seeing Danai play into Dana a bit more just for fun.

Pearl's attempt on her life made him frantic and he made the mistake of telling 'chonne they were done and has a lot of making up to do for that even though it was a desperate attempt to save her. her rage is justified but needs to be directed at the crm because what have they done to him? hopefully she comes to see in 4 exactly what he must have had to endure and vice versa.

gosh, they're both hurting so much and i need Rick to hold Michonne and reassure her it wasn't all for nothing. what she went through. and for her to tell him she understands he did what he had to to survive but that they don't surrender. they fight because they're fighters. and then sexy time and RJ reveal and next steps. together. go back with a plan or run.

outside of Richonne, the actual plot is asking for much. Okafor and Nat both impressed upon our heroes that the crm can't be left to do as it's been doing.

[wiltingbasilplant]

App idea

..in the making (very very small idea still have no clue where to ask or speak about it so tumber)

I'm gonna pretty much ramble a little in this post probably, but i need to post it somewhere and I don't have a clue where to start so tumblr it is.

the thought process ive had for the last..month, on and off mind you cause i have shit to do sadly, is this.

Wanted a way to make an annotated book with friends.

Shipping a book back and forth while so much cooler then maybe using an online app is expensive and hard for long distance (aka other countries friendships)

failed to find an online app for reading the same thing together online and mark it up with comments and stuff.

remembered old wattpad comments on the chapters where you could comment on a paragraph not just at the end of the chapter.

would be cool if someone could make something like that for books/fanfics/og writing/etc.

what if i made app *insert pepeomg emoji*

I don't know code...

scan the web for easy app making. no success without money.

give up.

remember the idea two weeks later.

and here we are

pretty much id like thoughts and idk ideas? cause while i have a lot of them i dont know the first thing about app making/coding and i feel like doing it alone might end up with me just giving up...

BUT can you imagine?! an app like old wattpad and maybe even ao3 or even book books either one sounds nice to just goof off with others also reading it?? or even just finding fans of your type of reading? making silly keyboard spams on a to mich fluff scene?! and maybe I'm weird and crave community a lot but as cool as a lot of reading apps are..most of them have either started to go down hill or there's not much community in the place itself? or its un welcoming almost? which can be a good thing dont get me wrong sometimes you can't welcome everyone to keep a place safe but..i was a huge wattpad, goodreads, and even amino user. and while tumblr and other sites alike are cool! It's hard to find welcoming places.. from my experience. idk im in search for people wanting to make something i guess.. (i totally got off topic-)

if you have any ideas or questions I'll try to answer them but it's a working progress lol

[changbinsboobs]

im the anon from before: told ya in my chan observations "knowing chan and his tendencies for a victim-complex, pick me, delulu and stuff" bound to cause some issues in his personal relationships but also this is why lee know is my fave out of the two bro would not give two hoots compared to chan who seems always on edge, kinda not trouble maker but doesnt mind stirring the pot to make a mountain out of a molehill.

although I do blame their coddeling from the companies for their inability to have stable relationships because they cant seemingly get out of their own delulu bubble (mainly chan).

u know what im also glad for these readings for? bc it makes me less delulu about certain idols lmao, its weird because some idols i thought would have dreadful personalities or types do not and its the ones that i have suspicions of and chan was one of them mainly due to his overly unhealthy attachments to stay but now i still find him interesting i just dont know if i would date him? yaknow? i think sometimes an idol having very very specific ideals can limit their overal perspective in dating bc theyre not really seeing someone for their personality or their natural charms or anything else its literally all about other attributes that they maybe look too much into and not giving some others enough chance becaude if u only look on the outside u never going to see ppl in different way, its very concieted. like what if chan met someone who fitted the appearsnce he wanted but they also had toxic behaviours or would just use him? he would still prolly date that person. im sure the girl he was with was lovely but no one wants to babysit a grown man. period. he actually gives manchild vibes no fr

honestly if anything i dont want him to be defamed cause she may or may not use it against him even if she sign nda but if hes that toxic it may very well backfire even further. i think he would be better more as friend material than romantic but he said he wanted family as well in snother reading. bro got a lot of growth to do before any of that

i hope other stay who maybe too deluded to see thru his behaviour i hope they somehow learn abt it thru readings cause itd suck to put so much attention and for it to all be unhealthy and shit

So first things first - my personal opinion is that nowadays there's just s HUGE gap between men and women in terms of being a a well rounded, capable, mature human being. Sadly. And so i i wouldn't necessarily put the blame on the companies but rather just on the guy himself - at the end of the day he chose that path and no matter what ur environment is you can still learn and choose to be well rounded human being - like thats on u bro🥲and i also do see him as a man child, sry not sry. Ive noticed that for a very long while actually and i think he knows that on some level too and thats part of the reason why he pushes that "taking care of y'all" image on himself so mich to try and make up for what he on the inside knows that he lacks.

And i think too he would date someone for SURE that he finds attractive but knows they're toxic cuz lets be honest - lots of people do😂 some people just crave toxicity and some people are toxic themselves and like attracts like.

Also i don't think the situation is that bad for him to be defamed - as i said i think the whole thing was much bigger in his perception than it probably was for the girl. I don't think he was toxic to the extent where he would be hurting anyone other than himself. In fact i think his toxic is rather embarrassing than hurtful. Its the type where you just sit there in shock and wonder how someone like him, with a certain image, status, money, power even, life experience etc - can act and be so immature and cringey. I think he could also be someone that would be kinda gaslighting but not out of malice but rather because he's just too sensitive and cant regulate his emotions so well hence why he can't really grasp the situation in a right way. But thats as far as it gets.

As negative as readings like that might sound im actually happy to read on energy like that because as you sed it helps delude people a bit and also just plain shows you a persons bad side (which we all have) and makes them much more human. And the best part - i would much rather stan an idol thats a manchild and is just a bit cringey, than stanning an abuser and not knowing it. That way you at least know his red flacks aren't THAT type of RED iykwim...👀

[mydarllinglover]

Alone || Guilty as Charged

Previous

"Y'know, ages ago, when we were still in Georgia, our community had just collapsed, one we spent seven months putting together and defending. Me, Daryl, and our friend, Beth, got out."

"Beth?" Lydia asked.

"Yeah, like Elizabeth, my Bammy's middle name. She was this young kid, about your age, blonde, and she was strong. Anyways, we... we ended up losing her, we got separated. I blamed myself for it, it was over a stupid dog. So It was just me and Daryl, man, we chased that car till the sun rose up, think that was one of the worst stitches I ever had in my life." She chuckled. "Well, we ended up stopping cause we hit a fork in the road, no idea where the car went, so we gave up, layed on the ground and just stayed there in the sun. Until this group approached us, about six men, I don't know about you, but that's a warning sign for danger, and it was. They didn't give us a choice to join their group, well, they initiated Daryl into their group, and I was with Daryl. These people were horrible, horrible people, but they lived by a code, a shitty code, but they had it. One of their people, he kept giving Daryl shit, trying to compete with him, turn the others on him, shit like that, just messing with the new guy, y'know. Our second day with them, Daryl had snuck out to go hunting for the both of us, I hated hunting, but he has always been good at it, even back then. So he was up, even before the sun, hunting this one single rabbit, and just as he was about to hit it, y'know what happened?"

"What?" Lydia asked, hanging off of her every word.

"The guy came in, shot the rabbit from behind him, and "claimed" it, said it belonged to him. It didn't matter how much time and effort Daryl put in, cause he still only ended up with the ass end."

"But that's not fair!" Lydia rebutted.

"No, it wasn't, and I said the same thing, but Daryl didn't react, he just got over it and he continued, I didn't, but that's not the point. Well, we had been outside talking, away from them, planning our departure, and whilst we were outside, the guy had snuck his half of the bunny into Daryl's stuff, yeah, I know, sounds weird and random." She smiled at the confused expression on Lydia's face. "But that's just men for you. Well, it turned out that he did this, so that he could frame Daryl, turn the others against the Newby, why would they believe a stranger over their friend? Besides, according to his story, Daryl had broke a few of their code laws. So, he makes a scene, woke me up, by the way, going on and on about this stupid rabbit, coming up to us trying to initiate a fight, so the leader steps in, and he asks what's going on, and obviously, we deny the whole thing, we're innocent. So then he checks the mans story, and he still confirms it, and as I prepare myself for the attack, he swings round and throws his fist into the mans face, knocks him flat on his back, and then he orders the others to beat this man to death. It turned out, he had watched the man do the whole thing, knew it from the start, he knew the kinda fucker he was, and he allowed that to play out, because he knew he was guilty as charged, and he paid for it, with his life."

"Did you end up leaving the group?" Lydia asked, understanding why Natalia told her that story, so she wouldn't take any blame for Margo, even if she didn't feel it right then.

"Yes and No, something came up, we reunited with Michonne, and RJ's dad, Rick, and Rick's son, Carl, and the group were hunting them down, so we had no choice but to kill them, in complete self defence, by the way."

Lydia swallowed, staring at the ground.

"Are you going to kill my mom?" She asked.

"Lydia..." Natalia sighed, having no idea what to tell the girl. "I don't want to lie to you, your mother, what she put you through, what she did to our people, what she's continuing to do, we can't just let her get away with it, Mich, she doesn't want to cause anyone harm, trying to find a balance, but it won't always work out that way."

"But you didn't kill Negan."

"Yeah, but believe me, we all wanted to, but this, this is a completely different situation, where we all had a united enemy, we haven't got anything on your mother, but she has that herd, that could wipe out all of us, my kids especially, so I have to sit by and wait for a plan, it sucks, but I grew discipline, I wasn't always so patient, but I soon learned my lesson, no matter how much it kills me, and that's probably shitty to hear, but you would've thought the same thing of us, if you didn't get to know us, and just listened to what your mom told you."

After their conversation, the kids were all put to bed, including Lydia, whilst Daryl and Natalia went to go speak to Michonne via the radio.

"Everything alright?" Daryl asked. "We've been tryin' to reach ya."

"Rough day, but things are looking up. I gotta tell you, If Evie didn't come with us, it wouldn't be that way, I'm proud of that kid. What about you guys, what's going on?"

"Something happened." Daryl started.

"That bitch and the little weasel attacked Lydia, attempted to kill her." Natalia dropped the bomb. "You'll never guess who stepped in for her, though."

Michonne let out a long tired sigh before answering.

"Negan..."

"At the expense of Margo's life, he killed her, by accident, but everyone's pissed about it."

"She's a stranger, with everything going on, no one's rooting for her." Daryl added. "Negan's on the right side this time. I don't know if it's gonna make any difference, though."

"Should I come home?" Michonne asked.

Daryl glanced at Natalia before answering.

"Nah, not if Hilltop still needs you." He said.

"We got it handled, Mich, you do what you gotta do, we can't let Hilltop fall."

"How's Lydia?" She asked.

"Not good." Daryl told her.

"Nat, Daryl, you both have to protect her."

"Yeah, well, We're trying." He scoffed.

"No. You have to protect her for all of us." Michonne whispered.

Natalia side eyed Daryl, what the hell was this deeper meaning Michonne was eluding to.

"When we went to the border, we went there to de-escalate the conflict and buy time and strategic advantage. And it was working till Carol took her shot and Natalia punched her. Alpha could have killed us right there. Why didn't she?"

Natalia let out a sigh, dropping her head into her hands.

"You think she won't attack if we got Lydia?" Daryl spoke her thoughts.

"Alpha wanted you to protect her. Look, Lydia's presence might not help us, but if Alpha thinks she isn't safe with us or if Lydia runs off because of all this, it'll definitely hurt us. She has to stay at Alexandria."

"All right. We'll make sure." Daryl answered for the both of them.

"Let's just keep this between us for now." She paused for a moment, before changing the subject. "How's RJ?"

"He's great. He won't eat his vegetables, so I'm a little afraid for him. And Amelia want's ta speak with you when you get back, been causing trouble at school... with the twins." Daryl told her.

"Other than that, he's been a delight, he tried to be the voice of reason within the three of them, but you know mine are too headstrong, they get it from their father." Natalia joined in, earning a scoff and an nudge from her husband.

"And if that isn't the biggest lie I've ever heard from the mouth of Natalia Isabelle Dixon." Michonne laughed. "Remember when I had to drag your ass away from chasing after a dog, after you'd been shot, or... or-"

"Okay, we get it, you've had your moments, too."

Daryl covered Natalia's mouth, so that he could have the microphone again.

"Hey, the council's meeting right now. An' Nat's an key witness."

"Daryl... I want you to be my proxy when they vote. I know that Nat will do the right thing, too."

"All right." He agreed. "We should go."

"I know you'll both do the right thing." She finished.

They had left the building, making their way  to the town hall, where the meeting was still going on, Aaron was the one talking, when they had entered.

"I get why people might think Negan's been redeemed. I've... I've wondered it myself. Hell, he... maybe he has changed. But a man like that, who's done the things he's done, killed the people he's killed, something inside him is broken. We need to face that fact." He looked to the pair, noticing their arrival.

"Yes, but killing him now over this undermines the civilization that we have built." Siddiq countered.

"What about the people who never got to witness that civilization because of him?"

"And what the hell are you even talking about? The Whisperers are attacking us."

"Okay, let's take a break." Gabriel intervened.

"No. Let me finish." Siddiq stood up. "Look at what's going on at Hilltop. We're taking our eyes off the ball."

"The council wasn't make for this, deciding on a man's life in the dead of night because people are carrying pitchforks and torches."

"If I could so politely give my imput." Natalia stepped forward. "As the person who was actually there and witnessed what happened.

"Yes, Natalia." Gabriel waved her to continue.

"If we are here to discuss the execution of Negan Smith for the murder of Margo, whatever her name is... we'd also have to be discussing the execution of Gage and that other guy."

"Uh..." Nora looked at the others, confused at the woman's "Speech."

"Tonight, those three had formed a plan and tried to take the life of an innocent young girl, a child of this community, our people did that, we are all aware of what Negan has done, and as you may remember, Laura, I am very aware of how low that man can stoop, but what he did tonight, he saved her life, I could tell his intention was never to kill her, that was merely done in the crossfire of saving another's life, now, if Margo had never initiated the attack, she would still be here, wallowing in her self pity, picking on a girl half her age like she was sat in the canteen at the local high school. If we punish him for this, man, that would just be the biggest, and I mean the most fucked up, slap in the face to everyone who had suffered even the tiniest bit, by that man, all those years ago, when his sweet death was taken from us." She then stepped back.

"Thank you, Natalia." Gabriel cleared his throat. "...What did Michonne say?"

"She wants me to be her vote." Daryl answered, placing his hand on Natalia's back, rubbing it in slow circles.

"Lydia said Negan saved her, and Natalia saw Negan save her, so he saved her. I'm a "no."

"So we're tied." Aaron grumbled.

"Oh, I'm not sure if I was clear enough, but I'm a no, too."

"Yeah, we got that." Laura rolled her eyes.

It was early in the morning when an banging had woken the couple.

"Daryl, door." Natalia grumbled, rolling off her husband and tightening the blanket around herself.

"Probably just the girls playing." He followed her, stretching as he wrapped his arms around her waist, again.

"Daddy, door!" Daisy screamed at the top of her lungs, from downstairs. "It's the one eyed guy!"

"It's Gabriel!" Bambi shouted up.

"Oh, god!" Natalia jumped up, grabbing the nearest sweater and throwing it on, whilst Daryl scrambled for his own clothes.

"We gotta tell them 'bout answering the door."

"The hell were they doing to get to it so quickly?" Natalia looked at him, as she rushed to pull up a pair of jeans.

"Mommy! Daddy, now!" Daisy continued to scream.

"Coming!" Natalia shouted down.

The banging on the door, had also alerted the youngest Dixon, waking him in a fit of tears.

"I'll get him." Natalia sighed, changing course and heading for Archies room whilst Daryl continued down the stairs.

"Girl's, RJ, go in there, go play." Natalia heard Daryl almost growl at the kids, as she left Archies room, bouncing him on her hip to stop his crying.

"What's going on?" She asked, when she was close enough.

"Negan, he's gone." Daryl relayed the information given.

"Oh, fuck sake." She clenched her jaw.

"Fuck." Archie shook his head.

"Yeah, that's right, buddy." Daryl grumbled, leaving the house to go investigate.

Whilst Natalia was preoccupied with making breakfast for the kids, Lydia had managed to catch word of what had happened, slipping out, right past the woman, to take blame for whoever let Negan out of his cell.

Daryl had also been recruited to go looking for the man of the hour, causing an ruckus in the house, the girls getting upset that he was leaving, again, that Natalia was left to take care of.

Before he had left, though, he had tried convincing Lydia to leave her cell, but had failed miserably.

"Mommy, why does Daddy always have to go?" Bambi asked, refusing to touch her lunch, later in the day.

"'Cause people need his help, honey."

"There's sooo many people here, though, so why does Daddy have to go? He has kids, he should be taking care of us." Daisy told her.

"He's good at his job." She sighed.

"My Mommy's always away, too." RJ sighed, his face supported by his knuckles.

"And she's gonna be back soon, so will He, but we all have jobs to do, okay?" Natalia told them, taking Archie's spoon away from him to wipe his oats from around his mouth.

The front door opened, alerting them.

"Hey, where are my favourite fighters?" The voice of Rosita called, walking into the kitchen.

"Auntie Ro!" The three cheered, their glum expressions disappearing, almost instantly.

"Did I come at a good time?" She asked Natalia, giving all three kids an kiss on the head before sitting next to Archie's highchair.

"You always do." She nodded, brushing Archie's hair away from his face. "Hm..." She rolled up her sleeve, placing her wrist against his forehead. "Ro... he feel a little hot to you?"

Rosita copied her, feeling the baby's head.

"Uhm, I'll get him some water, sure it's just the food." She said, a millisecond before the coughing started.

"Mommy, I'm not feeling too good." Bambi told her, after taking a sip from her own water.

Rosita got up, feeling the girl's head, nodding at Natalia before feeling the others.

"I feel fine." Daisy leaned away from Rosita's touch.

"Are they okay?" RJ asked.

"Yeah, fine, uhm, I'm just gonna take them on a little walk, to get fresh air, Auntie Ro is gonna..."

"We are gonna... learn how to throw knives." She finished.

"We are?"

"Since it was the first thing I could think of" She smiled, ignoring the heated stare from Natalia.

"Yay, okay!" Daisy cheered.

"I wanna colour." RJ groaned.

"Yeah, that sounds like a cooler idea." Natalia gritted through her teeth, picking Archie up from his high chair. "Bam, baby, come on, get your shoes on." She waved her daughter over, who was coughing into her elbow. "That's a good girl, keep your mouth covered."

"Momma, I'm gonna-" The poor girl couldn't hold it in as she vomited on the floor, her eyes filling with tears almost instantly.

"Oh, god, it's okay, we're gonna go see Dante, and make it all better."

"I got this, go get our lil deer fixed up." Rosita told her, reaching for some supplies to clean up the puke.

"Is BeBe gonna be okay?" Daisy asked, worry in her voice.

"She's gonna be fine, so will your brother." RJ was quick to assure her, hugging the girl. "They're only poorly a little bit, but my mommy says that being sick makes you stronger, 'cause you will never be sick again."

Natalia rushed towards the infirmary, bursting in just as Bambi was about to blow again, but luckily for her, Dante was quick to grab the trash can, holding it under the little girls chin.

"Stomach bug?" He asked.

"Guess so, they were fine like not even ten minutes ago." She answered. "First Archie's head started burning up, then she was coughing, now... this."

"Yeah, this lil fella is turning green, go get these guys seated on the bed, we'll give 'em a check up, get them better than ever."

"Thanks, Dante." Natalia politely smiled at him, leading Bambi over to one of the beds, sitting down beside her whilst holding Archie in her lap, the trash can balanced between them. 

"Mommy, I don't feel good." Bambi groaned, feeling sorry for herself as she latched on to Natalia's arm, leaning her head against her shoulder.

"I know, baby, but that's why we're at the doctors, so they can make you and Archie feel better." Natalia soothed

"When is Daddy gonna come back?" She pouted, looking up at her mother.

"Soon, honey, he just had to do something, then he'll be here."

"He's out looking for Negan, isn't he?" Bambi sighed, rubbing her tummy.

"How do you know that, Bam?" Natalia asked her.

"Daddy's loud when he's mad, and I know he doesn't like Negan, he told us that he was mean to you and that we shouldn't go near mean people, that's why he doesn't live in a house, and isn't allowed to walk around without Brandon."

"Alright, then, time for a check up." Dante clapped his hands together, grinning at the three.

"No! Mama." Archie yelped, a tight fist around Natalia's curls as he hid his face in her chest.

"Baby, it's okay." Natalia pulled him away, adjusting him on her lap so that Dante could get a better look at him, but he still clung to her, as though he was trying to get as far away from the man as he can. "Doctor Dante is gonna fix you up all brand new, he's not gonna hurt you."

"I'm scared." Bambi admitted.

"Oh, it's nothing to worry about, I won't even ask to take blood." He tried to comfort them, but that seemed to make it worse. "Alright, fine, how 'bout I give your ma a check up first, then you can see it's not so bad."

"Where's Siddiq, I want him to be my doctor."

"Honey, Siddiq's gone with Daddy, but Dante's a good doctor." Natalia assured her children, though, she still didn't like the man, she didn't know what it was about him, maybe the constant flirting, the weird tongue clicking tic, or just the stupid smirk he always had on his face, like he managed to pull off the greatest prank yet, and was patiently waiting for everyone to find out what it is.

Dante had managed to bribe the kids with a lolliepop, in exchange of letting him give them a check up, but ended up putting it down to just a sickness bug that would soon pass, and for the meantime should have plenty of rest and lots of fluids.

"Sorry about earlier, Siddiq took care of the twins when they were new born's, could be why they trust him so much, without barely knowing him, either." Natalia opened up to the man, as the two children napped, snuggled up together.

"And by that you mean?" He asked.

"Oh, uhm, me and Daryl used to live here since, uh, had to have been about a couple years in, but when the girls were two, we moved into the woods, lived there for the past three years? Where Archie was born, y'know, kinda surprised we hadn't run into those mask freaks, before all this." She chuckled.

"I just wanna let you know, that if-"

"I'm happily married, nothing's changing that." She held up her left hand, refusing to take her eyes of her kids.

"Alright, then." He held up his hands in surrender.

The pair turned around when the door of the infirmary opened, Rosita came trudging in.

"Oh, Ro, you caught it too?" Natalia asked, wrapping an arm around her friend, helping the pale and sweaty looking woman.

"No, no I'm fine, Daryl he's back, so is Siddiq and Evie."

"Oh, perfect, let's get the kids home, have Eve's look over them, is she alright?"

Dante shrugged off the obvious "hidden" insult in Natalia's sentence.

"She's... fine, yeah, uh, they didn't find him, though." Rosita shook her head, seeming to breath a little harsher, struggling to catch her breath.

"Rosita, you sure you're alright?" Natalia asked, putting the back of her hand to her friend's forehead, feeling heat.

"Hey, stop Momming me, kid's want their dad." She reminded.

"Oh, right, they'd be better off resting in their beds, anyway, I don't wanna get this bug out in the air, if I can help it, you're coming back with us, too."

"No, no, that's alright, I'm gonna go talk to Eugene, he's still at Hilltop, fixing things up, apparently. Give the kids my love and wishes, specially, my lil Archie."

"I will, go sit down, before you fall down."

"Yes, Ma'am." Rosita rolled her eyes, going back out the infirmary.

"Thanks for your care, Dante, but I'm taking the kids back home." Natalia told him, as though he wasn't stood there, listening to their whole conversation.

"Are you sure, I don't mind stopping by later, giving them another check up, or you, preferably whilst Daryl's out doing whatever he-"

"Not a chance." She smiled, politely, gently stirring her kids awake. "Babies, Daddy and Doctor Evie are back home."

Archie yawned whilst Natalia picked him up, sitting him on her hip as she helped Bambi off the bench.

"Really, when?" The small girl asked.

"Aunt Rosita just come and let me know, quick, let's go tell Daddy how poorly you are, so he can tuck you back into bed."

"Okay, Mommy." Bambi held her hand, wiping her nose with the back of her own free hand as they left, crossing the road and down the street to their home.

As Natalia opened the door, she was met with the sight of Daryl walking down the hallway, Daisy clinging to his leg as she sat around his foot, him practically dragging her across the floor as he paced.

"What's... going on?" Natalia asked as he looked up at her.

"Where you guys been?" Daryl avoided her question to ask his own.

"I don't feel good." Bambi told him, her voice still whiny as she gave the puppy dog eyes.

"We were at the Infirmary, these two caught an nasty bug, what's Daisy doing?"

"Showing off her clingy problems." He grumbled.

"I missed you, Daddy, and Mommy doesn't love me anymore." Daisy's own expression was an pout, the same as her sisters.

"Yeah, an' yer pulling Daddy's jeans down." He told her, bending down to lift the girl off him. "Swap." He told his wife, taking the baby out of her arms as Bambi let go of her mother to go to her father, whilst Daisy did the opposite.

"Mommy still loves you, angel." Natalia told her.

"But you've been with them for the whole day, what about me?"

"Honey, they're poorly, and need to be taken to bed, with their bottles." She hinted to Daryl, as he nodded, picking up Bambi as well, as he moved towards the stairs, his fingers touching their foreheads, feeling the heat radiating off of them. "But, as long as you're healthy, you got me all to yourself, why don't we find the ingredients to make your siblings some soup? Where's RJ?"

"Evie, yer mom's back, but I need ya in here." Daryl called from upstairs.

"He's busy, come on, Mommy, I love cooking with you, just the two of us." She pulled Natalia towards the kitchen, attempting to distract her from the five year old colouring in the living room, or the seventeen year old emerging from the basement.

"You got your father's jealousy issues, too." Natalia sighed.

Next

[yoke9494]

Y/n I need to pee...🥺

Rewind, teenage Erwin, Nile, Mike/Miche, and Hange.

Training days .

Crack one shot based on my fic Our Defeat is not Certain (Mike ZachariasXreader) check it out if you ever wondered what it would be like if he survived? Along with a few others?...AO3 Wattpad

(one shot book is only on Wattpad. Will be transferring it soon!)

Mike/Miche is just so underrated!. 😭♥️

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You and Miche sat side by side on one of the large branches in the mock Titan forest.

You were on a team with him, Erwin and Nile. You all decided to stay a little after your session to get some extra practice in. Nile had completely bombed it and kept having his hooks pop out of the tree.

He and Erwin were trying to race while you two just watched and made small talk.

"I'm telling you N/n. It was real! The Garrison officer said he saw it himself."

You snorted and shook your head. "Bullshit! Miche there's no such thing as a two headed Titan. The guy was probably just drunk off his ass."

Miche shrugged. "You're just a non believer. When we get to The Scouts I'm going to look for that Beast. Then when I find it, I'll lead it towards you and rub it in your face."

"Yeah, okay. If you do find it, and show me proof. I'll do whatever you want for the rest of my life."

"Really now? Well I know for sure the first thing I'll have you do."

"And what's that?"

"I'll make you marry me."

Again you snorted. " Well it looks like I'll be jumping straight into that double headed Titans mouth when you find it."

Mike grabbed his heart and fake cried. "You wounded me woman. My heart has been slained! . I- I can't take it... I see the light. I hear the angels... Papa? Is that you papa? Where's grandma?"

Mike pretended to pass out and laid his head on your shoulder.

You held in your laugh and leaned in to whisper in his ear. "Go to the light Zacharias. Don't be scared."

Miche snorted. "At least the angel who meets me in the afterlife is pretty. Mean as shit, but beautiful..."

Before you could say anything a loud crash and yelling made you both jump. You both nearly fell off the branch.

"What the fuck?" Miche looked up and tried to see what was going on.

"Y/n! Miche! Help! I think I killed my eyebrows!"

You and Miche quickly deployed your gear and made your way over to Nile and Erwin. They were a few meters away but you both made it there fast.

When you arrived Nile was trying to get Erwin out of his gear. He had blood dripping from him and he hung upside down.

"Nile! What the fuck happened?!"

You rushed over to Erwin to undo his belts while Miche helped him down.

Erwin thanked you both. He had a small gash on his side and deep cuts on both palms.

Nile was freaking out. He had small splatters of blood on his face and uniform from Erwin.

"My shit came undone again! Erwin tried to catch me but my hook caught his wire and caused his hooks to unlatch too! One reeled itself back in so fast it hit his side and jammed. When he tried to catch himself he got tangled in his other wire and cut open his hands! I'm so sorry Erwin!"

Erwin shook his head and let out a pained chuckle. "It's okay Nile. Accidents are bound to happen. I'm alright."

Nile looked at Erwin in disbelief. You were trying to stop the bleeding from his palms with your Cadet jacket. Miche was trying to pat Niles back so he'd calm down.

"Alright? You're alright?! You look like Y/n when it's her time of the month!"

Your neck snapped twords Nile. Erwin and Miche went wide eyed.

Miche's hand slowly went up to his mouth in shock. "Nile! We said we weren't going to--"

He was cut off when you yelled at Nile.

"You horsefaced bitch! You all promised not to bring that up again! It came early one fucking time!" You reached for Niles ear and pulled it!

Mike watched you two with amusement. That was until Erwin spoke. "Miche break them up."

Mike took your hand off Niles ear and kissed your palm. He then flicked Nile on the forehead.

You looked at him with wide eyes. ' Did he really just do that?! '

Erwin cleared his throat and looked at Nile. "Miche take Nile to go get changed. Nile I expect a letter of apology to Y/n for shaming her over a perfectly normal, womanly occurrence?"

He then turned towards you. "Y/n. Can you please accompany me to the infirmary? It'll give you some time away from Nile to cool off."

"Yes mom." All three of you said in unison.

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You walked side by side with Erwin. He still had your jecket scrunched up in his hands to slow down the bleeding.

"I'm sorry for ruining your jacket Y/n. I'll find you a new one."

You waved him off. "It's alright Erwin. Are you sure you're okay? Even the small one on your side is still bleeding."

Erwin let out a chuckle. "It all hurts like hell but that's it. I'll be fine. Though I think I might need stitches on both my palms and side."

"Y/n?! Are you alright?!"

Erwin was cut off by another males voice.

Moses ran up to the both of you. He quickly stopped when he saw the states you were both in. You had a good amount of Erwin's blood on your stomach. It looked like you were hurt as well.

You followed Moses' gaze and gasped. "Oh no! Don't worry Moses I'm alright. This is all Erwin's blood. He and Nile had a gear malfunction in the mock forest."

Moses relaxed a bit, but he then went stiff. "The doctor who's usually in the infirmary just left a few minutes ago. He won't be back till morning. With all that blood you'll for sure need stitches."

You groaned and threw your head back. "Fuck! Why is he always leaving?! My coochie could fall off and I'd just have to carry it around till he decides to do his damn job!"

Moses snorted while Erwin raised a brow at you. "Y/n! Don't talk like that!"

You rolled your eyes. "Sorry mom... Moses have you seen Hange around?"

He thought for a second. "I believe she's in the dining hall."

"Can you tell her to meet us in the infirmary? Tell her, Y/n said it was an emergency."

"Sure thing."

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Erwin sat on one of the small beds and watched you in amusement. You were focused on cleaning his hands and grumbling about the doctor. The gash on his side stopped bleeding and you patched it up. That was going to leave a cool scar.

"Stupid old bastard. He probably just took this job to feel up on teenagers. At least Hange knows how to stitch nicely. She's ten times better than that piece of shit."

Erwin let out a low chuckle. "Calm down Y/n. You might burn holes in my palms next"

You took a breath. "I am calm."

Hange ran into the infirmary. She was panting while she had her hands on her knees. She took a few breaths and looked up. She gasped when she saw all the blood on your shirt.

Y/n, my love! Are you okay?!"

You smiled at her. "I'm okay Hange. But Erwin needs your skilled hands to stitch him up."

"Eh?" Hange walked over to you and Erwin and gasped one again. "What the hell happened?!"

"Nile" you both said in unison.

Hange only clicked her tongue and walked over to the supply cabinet. She then sat infront of Erwin and got the needle ready.

"Sorry Smith but your going to be our of commission for a while. I'm sure Commandant will understand."

Erwin winced as Hange pressed the needle in his palms. The cuts looked a lot worse then they actually were. But Erwin still needed a stitch or two the rest would scab up if he took care of them.

When Hange finished she kissed your head and said her goodbyes to Erwin. She had gone a bit overboard and wrapped up both his hands.

You and Erwin found it unnecessary and tried to unwrap them. But you both couldn't figure out how she did it. She used so much fabric that even the scissors had a hard time cutting it.

"Y/n. I need to pee."

You looked up at Erwin and put down the scissors. "Oh? Okay. I'll wait out here."

".... I may need assistance."

"..... Pardon?"

Erwin motioned to his nubs and the belt, button, and zipper on his pants.

"Oh! I got you eyebrows."

You and Erwin made it to the toilet in the infirmary. You were close with Erwin in your friendship but not alot of physical touching close. You could count the hugs you two shared so far in the year of training on one hand.

"Alright. You ready?"

Erwin nodded.

You both kept eye contact as you undid his belt and button. When you looked down and grabbed his zipper Erwin twitched a little bit.

*Zip*

You both locked eyes. You're stupid teenage minds taking over. You and Erwin both started laughing.

"Why did that make me feel dirty?" You both asked at the same time.

You were holding your stomach while Erwin was trying to use every fiber in his body to talk clearly.

"Y-Y/n. St-op laughing! I-ill piss myself! Turn around please!"

You quickly did. Your laughing died down and so did Erwin's. His was replaced with curses he said under his breath.

"Y/n?"

"Yeah?"

"Your my friend right?"

"That's right."

"Friends help one another?"

"Of course. Thats why I'm here eyebrows."

"I need you to hold little Erwin."

"......."

"Y/n. I'm serious. Please hurry!"

Erwin looked over his shoulder to see you gone. "Y/n?"

"Hang on Erwin! I'm looking for tweezers so I can hold it."

Erwin furrowed his brows. "I find that very offensive! They won't be big enough! You do know the skin is sensitive also?!"

You quickly ran back to Erwin. "How would I know that?! Incase you didn't notice, I have a vagina!"

"I know! Y/n please just grab it! I'm already leaking!"

You rolled your eyes and held the base right under the tip of little Erwin. It was warm and soft, but you didn't make eye contact with it. You looked into the toilet only to make sure you wouldn't make a mess.

Erwin let out a sigh and began to relieve himself. He was calm while you were dying on the inside. Your face stung while you thought about the position you were in. Your hand twitched when you felt his urine pass through.

"I'm done. Shake me, please."

You dropped mini Erwin so quick it made a small sound when it hit Erwin's body. "No. Hurry up and put him away so I can fasten your pants and belt."

Erwin quickly did as he was told. He was able to get his nubs under the elastic in his underwear and tuck himself away. He felt a lot better but what you didn't notice was how red his ears turned.

When you helped him with the rest the both of you walked back to the cabins in silence. You were the one to break it.

"Well eyebrows. I guess it's official."

"What is?"

"We have to stay best friends forever, cause that's something we both need to take to our graves."

Erwin chuckled. "Deal. I'd rather die with it then have to deal with Niles questions... And Mike probably beating me up."

"Ha! Yeah same here."

"There you guy's are!" Nile ran to the both of you with Mike behind him.

"You guys took forever! Are you alright Erwin?"

Erwin nodded. "I'm good now. Hange actually had to stich me up."

Miche sniffed you. "N/n why do you smell like Erwin?"

You looked at the giant. "Uh. Well I was with him this whole time. And I do have his blood on my shirt too."

Nile smirked. He could tell Miche was getting jealous. What his eyes caught next gave him joy.

"Hey Commander eyebrows?"

"Yes rectum activity?"

"... Why is your zipper undone?"

Miche snapped his eyes twords Erwin. His ears turned red again and you looked at the ground. Waiting for it to open up and swallow you.

Nile let out the loudest laugh. "ERWIN SMITH! YOU LUCKY DOG!!"

Erwin tried to put his nubs up. "N-No! It's not like that! We didn't-"

Miche punched Niles shoulder to shut him up. "Quiet! You loud ass horse. She wouldn't do that!... Right? N/n?"

You pinched the bridge of your nose. "No. We did not. I just had to help him with his buckle and button when he needed to pee."

Miche relaxed while Nile still snickered. "Y/n you absolute legend! You got to third base way before any of us. Ha!"

"Shut up horse face." You, Miche, and Erwin said in unison. You all began to walk away from Nile.

He quickly ran after you three. "Bitches! You're all just mad I'm hung like one!"

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[svampira]

🍋🍆🍟 per elias mwah un bacio

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Miaooo green

🍋: What is your OC's most painful memory?

His first memory being dying would take the number one spot but when it comes to what affects him the most then it's the whole mess with Imesh🤔 Basically after Imesh finds out Elias has befriended his wife (he literally shows up for dinner) he decides to finally do his job and kill him, so he stakes and restrains him but is unable to go through with it. Elias starts spiralling after he's let go, doesn't feed for a couple days and shows up at their house where he kills both Imesh and his wife Miriam, only to get his shit rocked by Imesh's* 14 year old daughter (he survives). Both Imesh's betrayal and him killing two people he cared about (while being mostly lucid, not frenzying) is something he can't emotionally deal with so he shoves it down completely, but it taints all of his relationships afterwards cause 1 it was the first time he'd ever been betrayed 2 it was his first time feeling any shade of guilt or remorse. After a year or two it stops hurting as much though, i feel like no matter how much he cares about someone in the moment he's still going to forget them relatively easily, and he goes through so mich shit in his first few years of unlife this first disaster starts feeling less and less meaningful as time goes on.

🍆: Does your OC have any favourite form of affection, physical or otherwise?

He likes biting people and drinking their blood^^ he's very touchy feely in general like constantly needing to have some physical contact going on whenever he's talking to someone. The biting was kind of a joke but also not😭 he genuinely sees it as a way of showing and being shown affection. How many blood bonds would he accidentally end up in. Many

🍟: What does your OC admit to be their guilty pleasure? What actually is their guilty pleasure?

The thing about him is he genuinely doesn't feel any sort of self consciousness i dont think he'd ever be embarassed of liking something🤔 wahhh my mind is blanking here.

[mazuwii]

Them as your sibling

A/N this is an anonymous request, by a lovely person who asked if I could write a headcanons chapter on them being an older brother/sister to reader

Enjoy it. My ass went numb from how long it took to type it out

Word count: 4k

Characters: Levi, Eren, Bertholdt, Reiner, Jean, Erwin, Armin, Zeke, Hange, Porco, Pieck, Miche, Mikasa

Levi:

It's no shock that Levi would be one of the most overprotective brothers in the cast. He'd do anything to keep you out of harm's way and while it seems like a privilege to most, this can be quite annoying to you when you are dating someone or making new friends. He stares them down when he takes you to places, telling them that they best not have any bad intentions with his cold grey eyes. You've told him to quit doing that because it scares people away a majority of the time. Although Levi pretends to be annoyed when you ask, he'd prefer to drop you off in his car at any place that you want to go to, he can't risk you getting into any accidents- after all, you're all he has left. So to conclude it all, he's an overprotective and paranoid brother that won't let you breathe unless he knows your exact location and whoever the hell you're with.

This may cause you to lie to him about your whereabouts sometimes, and it creates such a catastrophe. Because he's spam-calling you and when you finally pick up he's yelling, cursing at himself for ever trusting you and demanding to know where you are. Panicking, you close the call and nervously laugh at your friends who had heard the conversation.

You went back home and told him you did. Although terrified for him to come back and scold you, you only sat by the couch, contemplating the outcome of this bad decision. Yet, when he arrived and found you sitting by the windows, he sighed out in relief, his face relieved of any tension- he goes to hug you. But that doesn't mean he isn't going to scream his head off

Eren:

Talk about annoying. He loves harassing anyone coming over about you, showing them ugly photos of you in the family album, telling them secrets and embarrassing shit you've done.

"Ay, I wouldn't sleep with that one, she wets the bed." He cackles as you shriek at him. Your boyfriend cocking a brow, "But wouldn't you not want to sleep with her because you're her brother?"

"Oh and that too I guess."

He likes coming into your room and annoying you, making fun of any new posters or extensions you've added to your room. I guess your room isn't safe when Eren can get in any time- he likes randomly taking your stuff and then saying he was only 'borrowing' when you catch him.

You find your favourite scented candle in his trashy man cave and he just rolls his eyes. "Okay take it, it smells of ass anyway."

Which you'd quickly snap back, "Even the scent of ass crack smells better than you." Only to have him chuck a pillow at you.

Also just a sidenote, Eren can't fucking cook to save his life. When Carla goes on vacation with Grisha she'll give you both a kiss on the cheek and tell you she left a lot of money in the safebox in case you get hungry while they're gone. Eren of course, just orders take out with it. You're only eating greasy food with this hairy ass mf for the entire two weeks that your parents are gone.

And when they do come back, they go on a rant about the disgusting greasy fast food boxes that overflowed the bin. (I say they but it's only Carla, Grisha doesn't give a fuck, mans is almost always in his office like a gremlin)

Though I can say you both tried cooking once, it was fun at first, with you both using a camera to record this memory and laughing at each other's epic fails. Flour was all over you both, eggs and ingredients battered all over the table and floor. However, it was only funny for such a long time before the smoke alarm went off- your parents had to give you a lecture about leaving food in the oven to go watch that stupid show you've been bingeing with each other.

Bertholdt

He's so caring and gentle with you, even when you were an obnoxious child, his favourite part of his day was getting out of the school bus at hometime and finding you run to him with your short stubby toddler legs. He'd embrace you and make a weak attempt at spinning you around. His dad would chuckle at the both of you from afar, thanking the heavens for giving him two angels.

There's a shit ton of photos at home of you and Bert when you were younger, his canine tooth is yet to come out in these photos but he smiles so happily you'd think he was hallucinating about heaven.

These photos show moments like you sitting on ten-year-old Bertholdt's back, hugging him and facing the camera or you both holding onto a fishing rod, cute hats and all. You two are all that your dad has and he'll be damned if he doesn't capture every special moment with you two in.

I'd say you barely ever bicker, only when he's stressed does he (rarely) yell at you. Like the time your dad was stuck in the hospital due to his cancer getting worse. Poor Bertholdt had to juggle going to school, checking up on his dad and taking care of you only at the age of thirteen.

You'd cry and ask where daddy was and he'd just give in to his biggest fears and anger, yelling back at you with his undeveloped voice, "Can you stop crying for one second, Y/n?!" You ran off to your room in tears, slamming the door shut behind you. He immediately regretted it, you're six years younger than him- he was supposed to be the older brother and he just hurt you.

Of course, he'd make it up to you, gently knocking on the doors and speaking in his normally soft voice. "Hey... I'm sorry that I yelled at you, we can go out for ice cream if it'll make you feel better?"

When you both grow up, Bertholdt usually comes to you for advice, or to rant. And you do the same, he's very reliable and to you, he's just your superhero and always has been. (There's probably a small card you made for him when you were in kindergarten where Bertholdt is badly drawn in a superhero outfit using crayons)

Reiner:

Gym nut brother (I know a lot about this trope:,) it's a sad life). Reiner just loves bragging about his GAINZ and joking about how he's an Alpha male (Ironically. Only because he knows how much alpha males make you cringe)

Genuinely, he'll come back from the gym (He goes at five AM and comes back at eight AM or nine) and find you in your PJ's, probably playing on your phone and peacefully eating cereal like a normal human being and he'll interrupt this peace by flexing his arm.

"Oi, Y/n, am I getting bigger?"

"Bruh, this again?"-

"No seriously, have I?" He flexes harder, still smiling cluelessly, it's so funny to you for some reason that you just laugh and shake your head. "Yeah, sure."

Despite how annoying he is, he's just like a second father to you but you'd never really admit it. After all, you only grew up with a mum and no father- once that never paid any child support so all you had was him. Reiner is the type to come into your room, look at himself in the mirror and do a bunch of poses where he's showing off his body.

It's like a weird NPC that comes into your house and you're confused as to how it got in, but you still just tell him that he looks like an uncooked chicken. He'll always insult you back, but he keeps it on the low because he doesn't want to hurt your feelings- (He also don't wanna get slapped up by mama XD)

But Reiner has moments where he stresses too much, with work, gym, university and marriage that he can't help but fuck himself over by ruining his routines and before you know it he gets two hours of sleep a day.

Sometimes you'll arrange movie times with him to help destress, and it works- except he falls asleep in the first twenty minutes, he tends to subconsciously hug something nearby when sleeping because it reminds him of when you both were younger and how he'd hug you to sleep when your mum was out late to make you feel safer

Jean:

Jean is such a bighead. He tries to be kind and thoughtful but he's just obnoxious, especially when you go out, he'd pay for anything you get with his own money because he's so 'alpha' or I guess 'traditional'. I don't know, he has such a big ego when it comes to money and he feels like it's wrong to let his younger sister pay when he's around.

You like to call him Jeffrey Bezos because he's always telling you about how much money he has- like he once took you to a Walmart to buy some groceries for your mum and he said, "Do you want anything else? I could buy this entire store if you wanted me to." Please slap him back to reality.

But he is admirable, he is reliable and never breaks promises, it's just the way he is, if he said he'd do something, he'll do it without faltering.

Also, you tease him about how he sleeps like a princess. Like you once were ordered by your mum to wake him up before he's late to work and when you walked in on him, he was laid on his front side, his left leg kneeling while he drapes his arm across his pillow as if he's sleeping on a man's chest. All while the blanket wraps around his curves and leaves his shaved legs and shoulders exposed. It's hilarious because he's already engaged to a woman who knows this.

You and your sister in law tease him all the time, though he's more lenient when she does it- he goes hard on cussing you out but it never gets serious, it's always laughter between you two. He'd never have the intention of scaring or hurting you.

Armin:

Armin reads weird fucking shit and barely ever comes downstairs, he's that one gremlin sibling that only ever leaves their room for food and to check who turned the wifi off. It's so funny that he presents himself as this organised smartass but we all know that isn't the case.

His fashion sense is that of Rocky from the amazing world of gumball. All you find in his wardrobe is graphic rock band tees, long sleeves that go under these T-shirts and baggy jeans. He also enjoys the Minecraft world and has probably quoted, "Get out of my room! I'm playing Minecraft!"

His room smells of soggy cereal and your mum has to always come in once a month to air it out and clean it. He always feels guilty about it and apologises, telling her he'll do better.

Now just because Armin is a game doesn't mean he's not a hardcore nerd. He has a large bookshelf and more books in the home library, he just can't get enough information. His fat brain usually leads to the both of you getting into arguments and his snobby ass pushing his glasses up as if he's in anime and being snobby, "WeLL aCTuaLLy Y/N, I tHInk YOu sHoULd fINd ThaT"-

"Well, I think you should find some bitches."

He's still a nice brother, he'll invite you out with Mikasa and Eren when he sees you're getting lonely and will even tolerate you around when he's on an XBOX party. Though Armin doesn't apologise, he does leave sweets on your bed with a passive-aggressive note stuck to them

Erwin:

Do you know when your father is hella political? And your sibling is hella political? So then that turns dinner time into the house of bloody parliaments- or some kind of debate club.

Erwin has always been an opinionated kid and still is- he's only better at hiding it. He's a snob that joined every single club without being asked to, he can play piano, violin, he probably does ballet for the fun of it and even took archery on. Your mum takes huge pride in him but your dad takes pride in you- for some reason.

He's always been seen as a man to your dad, I think Erwin was a homunculus, that was not a child.

Either way, he's always been a responsible brother, he picks you up on time and carries your things for you, he even had his lunch switched by accident with you once during school, (Silly mother) and he came right up to you and took his lunchbox and gave yours back. "You're allergic to (said thing) I hope you didn't eat it."

"No, I'm not that stupid." You grunted, begrudgingly watching him as he walked back to his friends' table like the adult stuck in a child's body he was.

He is the king of those photo's where both kids are dressed in smart attire and they take a picture in a studio. He didn't need anyone to tell him what to do, he'd slick his own hair back, button-up and tuck his shirt in, all at the age of eight years old. Hell, he told you to dress smarter when you showed up in pigtails. Sir your sister is like, what? five years old?!

You may be smiling in this picture but Erwin has a straight face, straight up.

Also, he had an evil fat pet cat that for some reason really fucking hated you growing up but loved Erwin. And every time she'd try to sabotage you by making you trip or scratch you, she'd hop onto Erwin's arms, he strokes her like a grandma and sighs, "Now now, Churchill, that wasn't a polite thing to do."

Zeke:

Best bro ever! Zeke is kinda like a young dad, he tries to seem like he knows what he's doing but he really doesn't. By the time you were born, he was already eight years old. Despite his age, he was really gentle when holding you for the first time, he was so excited about finally having a sibling.

Although you were moody and bratty growing up, Zeke could handle you, he'd always manage to gently bring you back to reality but also cheer you up even when your mum divorced your dad.

There are probably framed photo's where he's giving you a piggyback ride or carrying you on his hip. He's just always been protective and caring of you. Even when your dad remarried, he stuck by your side and never let you feel like anything would change between you both.

He loves spoiling you, it's just a habit of his. He'll accidentally smack your head while trying to reach something and quickly flinch towards you with such a horrified look, hastily asking if you were okay because you were wincing from the impact. Later on, he just gives you like five dollars for it. It didn't hurt that bad but K.

Also, Zeke got his driving license at like- seventeen so he loves taking you to places when he's free, sometimes it's just a small drive around the village after he gets you ice cream, talking about life and catching up on anything he's missed. He doesn't miss. Not at all.

He also always makes sure that you both visit your grandparents on a daily basis, especially for holidays. Last Christmas you had a vote and Zeke and you voted to be with your grandparents. Grisha and Carla didn't mind, they weren't going to keep you away from your own grandfather and mother. But Eren wanted to stay since they were inviting Mikasa over so-

Also, sidenote- Zeke calls you by your name but mostly he nicknames you 'Squeak'. This will often be followed by a head pat or a cheek pinch. "Hey squeak."

Porco:

He is a messy brother that just loves to bicker with you, he's so bratty and sassy around you and your mum. Even Marcel has to tell him that he isn't all that. SMH.

The family budget is always blown on his hair gel and products he uses that are specifically catered to men despite the fact that Porco has never been able to grow a beard- or even stubble. That privilege went to Marcel, he grew up to be popular amongst everyone and Porco was just the class clown that never meant to be the class clown.

You and Porco have always been the deathly siblings that teachers look out for. It's like 'prepare for trouble! And make it double!'

The number of times you've gotten into fights at the same times during school and both see each other at the office, it's like the spiderman pointing meme. "What are you doing here?"

"What're you doing here?"

"I asked first!"

"GALLIARDS!" The teacher yells at you both, face red and tired from the issues you both cause. it's a pain in the ass. Especially to your poor mum. Marcel is usually the one who picks you both up, in his car.

You and Porco will argue about who goes into the passenger seat and Marcel will have a clear vein pulsating on his temple, on the verge of knocking you both out. "Backseats. Both of you." And of course, you oblige because holy shit, no one is scarier than Marcel when he's mad.

When you see the McDonalds sign up ahead you both rise up from your slouched positions and start frantically begging Marcel to stop by the drive-thru like two whiny kids. And frankly, you're lucky he's so nice- and that he stress eats like a mum.

Now you're all sitting in the parking lot, listening to him eat like it's his last meal, crying on about how you both put a lot of work on mum and him and how the family can't afford more issues. But it's okay because you and Porco got happy meals, with apple slices.

But then it isn't okay because Porco wants to switch with your toy but you don't want to switch yours and now Marcel is roaring at you both to shut up, almost choking on his food.

May I remind you, you're both sixteen years old at this time.

Despite this, Porco is still a great brother that has beaten people up for you. He may come out of fights full of blood and scars, but he will never come out of a fight being the losing one. He will do anything to protect you, despite how often you two argue, you both love each other and have moments where you get along calmly- until your mum points it out and you both bicker again.

Hange:

Quite the odd sibling that you never really understood. The most memories you'd have of her is dropping a package off to her room (That she was never bothered to collect herself) Only to walk in on her creating what seems to be a nuclear bomb?!

"WOAH WOAH WOAH Y/N! Careful, buddy!" She tiptoes to the door frame where you are and takes the box from your hands. "Thanks, you're really awesome." She ruffles your hair with her chemical-covered gloves and closes the door behind her, leaving you dumbfounded.

Even during dinner, she'd have messy hair and raggedy clothes as if she was just plucked from the gutters. Most of the time during these family gatherings she'd either be staring menacingly into space or just shovel food in her mouth like an animal. You always were confused by her and how she never wanted to play with you.

So your favourite times growing up were camping trips where she'd help you toast marshmallows and tell you scary stories while your dad was fixing up the beds inside the tents. It always scared you but she managed to get you to lighten up by tickling you, exaggerating her voice to sound like a monster child.

She's always been blinded by her interests and ideas that she never learnt how to properly form a human relationship with anyone. It took her like eighteen years to finally understand that she needs to bond properly with you. Because accidentally creating toxic explosions in her room that results in the entire family having to be evacuated out of the house for a month isn't really bonding.

She'd stalk your Instagram pages to understand what you like and take you out on sibling dates, engaging in your interests and genuinely being enthusiastic about it.

Hange quickly became your best friend in the span of a month and she wonders why she never did this sooner.

Pieck

She's the older sister that resembles a mum, she'll be the one who taught you how to do your shoelaces, what to do in certain situations, taking you out to stores to buy things for school and sometimes she'll even drop you off.

Pieck is less the protective kind and more, I'll throw my baby out of the nest when she's ready and when she shows signs of struggling, I'll help give her a small lift to the right direction.

She's the type to encourage you to beat a bully up before they get too confident with you. She also helps to do your homework and even does small drawing activities with you. Really, she's just perfect and hasn't ever been aggressive with you, even when she has to take you out with her friends, she hugged you and introduced you to her friends as, "My wonderful little sister."

I think she just has an inner child that enjoys the things you would. Even if it means being stuck in a cinema watching a boring cartoon, she'll pretend to be shocked at boring plot twists and pull funny faces, making you giggle.

The only negative about her, that I can identify, is that she's a product stealer. When you grow up and have makeup/fragrances/body washes or any of that jazz, she'll go to your toilet to take some of yours when she runs out. It's obvious because she smells like your products and you're like did you just- you racoon...

Mikasa:

The cool sibling, you've always looked up to her when you were young. She was everything you wanted to be.

You grew up being around Armin and Eren. Armin was always kind and sorta shy around you but you liked him because he always gave you lollipops- Eren on the other hand, was a total creepo, you didn't like him.

Anytime him and Mikasa were around each other, you'd cockblock instantly before they have a cute moment together. No one deserved Mikasa but yourself. You always would tell Eren, "Mikasa deserves a better man and you're a boy with cooties!" He'd only scoff and argue back- even though he's like five years older than you. Hello?! Eren arguing with a toddler?!

Mikasa will drag you around everywhere with her just to know that you're safe because she gets paranoid when you're not with her, safe and sound. She also likes to help around with your life, kinda like an overbearing mother, she doesn't want you carrying things that are too heavy, she doesn't let you go out by yourself, she just doesn't want you to get hurt.

Miche:

When Miche speaks in grunts and hums, only you understand him. It's a wonder to other people, how when he does a certain noise, you'll give him water. It confuses everyone, how do you get what he's saying?

Anyways, he enjoys standing at the edge of your bedroom and just staring at you, waiting for you to say somrthing.

"Something you want...?" He grins.

"Let me guess... You want me to walk the dog."

Negative grunt.

"You want... me to call your friends and tell them you're busy?"

Negative grunt, impatient tone.

"You want"-

"I want to rewatch Encanto with you." He finally says, seemingly exhausted with how long it took for you to guess that. You'd only sigh in disbelief, you swear you've seen it millions of times, he's like a child with concentration issues.

You slip off the covers of your comforter and follow him to the living room, "Fine... but can we watch something else?"

Negative grunt

[shinondraws]

More eventful dreams. So mich happened that I can't even remember everything. My cats woke me up in the middle of the night and I remember thinking "holy shit what a dream, I have to remember this".

Sadly now there are only two things I remember of the original dream and the rest is from when I fell asleep again.

One thing is that the setting was sort of apocalyptic because of course it is. I remember trying to purify the soil by removing toxic mushrooms that grew underground, right below surface, that would cause severe reactions upon touch.

I don'r remember what the main plot was but it all arrived to a point in which people tried to open a portal through spacetime, perhaps to escpe someplace that wasn't dying. They were using magnetism to open the portal but something went wrong and they opened a gate to the realm beyond.

From the open portal Giratina emerged. And I mean my version of Giratina which is basically a giant centipede. Yesterday I was playing BotW and Farosh kept randomly appearing. It's perfectlt designed to evoke awe and also fear. My Giratina was at least that big and it was tearing new holes into the sky. It wasn't happy.

I forgot what happened next, so here's the next dream. Again, don't remember what the plot was but I think it was somehow continuation for the previos apocalypse. It wasn't safe outside so me, my family and a bunch of random people who probably were my party in some sense had taken over a big mansion or sth.

Every now and then creatures would break in and we'd have to dispose of them. It wasn't ideal because the corpses spread some sort of infection or were toxic like the mushrooms from before.

There was some character development and stuff but I don't remember it very clearly. What I do remember is that I had a black rabbit named Kari who I always thought as a cat but when I looked more closely I could see he was a rabbit. Oh, and we also had a dog who had eaten another dog and absorbed its powers. This dog got eaten by an infected black wolf but once the wolg absorbed the dog's powers it also absorbed its character so we then had very obedient kinda undead black wolf and everyone was like "ok".

[pvremichigan]

“Maybe this hasn't been said enough,” Jack starts, not looking at Mich from where he stood at the sink… washing dishes. “But, I'd never thought I'd be with you, nor, anyone for that matter.” With a soft smile on the immortal's face, the man keeps his gaze lowered. “I feel like for once in my life, with the many years I've lived… I'm truly happy.”

Mich was just going to the fridge for some water, quite a change of pace for her. How funny, the urge to drink has lessened over time ever since the last time she was drunk.

Wonder why.

Her gaze drifted over as Jack began to speak, causing her to pause in place and listen after grabbing the bottle. God as soon as they're alone at home, he gets so sappy. Never mind the fact that she does too, this isn't about her, this is about him in a complain-y tone!

She can't complain forever... Not when he talks like this.

"Is this sappy shit going to continue to be daily? Jeez, gimme a fuckin' break..."

That was, by no means, genuine. She adores it, she hadn't gotten this type of recognition and appreciation in years, not to mention the fact that she barely even got it in her last relationship since he was barely around in the first place! Jack treats her better than anyone ever has... She can't possibly mean it when she complains about it. It means the world to her.

Mich couldn't help but cock her head in confusion when he mentioned the 'anyone' part. Call her bias, but with his kindness and compassion and good looks, she doubts he'd be single forever. Normally this would strike paranoia since she'd start thinking about other women even coming near him, but all that worry was washed away once he finished what he was saying.

He's truly happy...

She did, however, share his surprise that he ended up with her. Or even vice versa. She will never let it die, the fact that she tried to MURDER this man so many times before they got together is so absurd. The utter hatred she had for him was astronomical, yet now she wakes up every morning next to him and receives a kiss on the daily. How they got here... She can't put a finger on it. Was it hell? Was it his devotion to helping and protecting her? Was it just fate? She doesn't know, but whatever caused it doesn't matter. She's happy with the results.

Just spotting that smile caused that dog tag to harness and reflect to him every single flutter in her body. She awaits the day she gets used to the expressions and affections he shows and gives. Only then will she be able to face him with a straight face and mind. Until then... It's a constant melting pot. Truly happy... With life, with her - she assumes in good conscience - and just knowing that gives her inexplicable feelings. It was euphoric, painful, shocking, heartwarming, energizing, exhausting, weakening, strengthening, overwhelming. Something that can only be felt intensely rather than said or described. There was no way she can convey this, not verbally, probably not physically, so all she can do is just...

Feel.

And feel vigorously.

"..."

And she can't help but return that smile. Trying to hide it but it fought through her stone expression.

"Truly happy, huh? Guess we got somethin' in common then."

Just say it.

"I'm happy with how things have turned out. I'm happy that I'm alive with my soul... I'm happy to wake up next to you every day...." "Knowing you're happy means more to me than you think."

The redhead walks over to him slowly, very casually as if time weren't a thing. Once she reaches him, she sets the water bottle down on the counter and lets all her defenses fall if only for a moment. Mich wraps her arms around him, resting her chin on his shoulder from behind. Shutting her eyes for a moment, she can relax. This was... Quite difficult to do emotionally, since so many alarms were going off in her mind. The only solution was to not think about it and just let her body do what the mind told it to. And what it wanted... Was just to hold him.

"And just like you defend me... I will protect you and defend your happiness for the rest of our lives."

"It's the least I can do for you."

After everything... Repaying him fully will be impossible. Might as well start somewhere, right?

"You better be happy, anyway."

"We've got a whole eternity to live through together, y'know."

And with that, she places a soft, small peck on the side of his neck, sighing contently as she returns to her rested state upon his shoulder.

[dearmomimissyou]

So yesterday I tried to make a post explaining the back story of what caused Sunday's mental breakdown to happen and I tried to save it to drafts after spending 30 minutes on it while walking Miss Phyre outside but Tumblr decided to cock out and didn't actually save it which led to another mini meltdown afterwards so I'm just going to skip the background. It hurts to mich to relive it a g a i n. So thanks Tumblr.

Sunday I went to Sam's house after donating plasma cause dad was working on the electrical and I figured I'd just spend time there instead of being home. Instead, I ended up having a breakdown on Sam's back porch. I started crying inside while in the fetal position on the floor and figured that I should go outside so nobody heard me. I violently sobbed for at least ten minutes and dug my nails into my arm because I wanted to punish myself. I also went outside because I wanted to destroy Sam's living room and I can't do that but I can destroy myself and my things. I kept wanting to smash my head into something and eventually I did on the banister twice and screamed both times when I did it. After some time like five minutes of so Nemo came out and tried talking to me and I blew up on them and basically blamed them even though it wasn't their fault. They were crying and begging me to get help dad came out too crying because he heard me say that somebody was tearing me down and making feel like shit about myself but he didn't hear who and at the time it didn't make me feel anything but looking back fucking hurts. Sam came out too after Nemo went inside I think to talk to dad about what was happening and she brought Nala Tyler's cat and asked if I wanted cookies or soda to feel better. I just remember ignoring her and being so annoyed with her in the moment.

Eventually I got to the point where I couldn't physically talk and typed a message to Nemo:

I want to me normal I WA. T to be fixed and go just can't cause miss Phyre needs attention and the dress fitting and I don't want to worry mom and tge family but fucking here I dpimg just that all the God dam. Duckknf time vsvauar I can't fucking control my stupid fucking brain

They asked if I wanted to go to the lds hospital crisis center or if I wanted to wait til tomorrow:

I have to go today cause if I don't there be an excuse tomorrow like I feel better it always happens

So they drove me home so I could get some clothes and stuff to bring to be admitted into inpatient. The whole time I was getting stuff I cried and kissed miss Phyre and told her over and over how much I love her and that I'll be back I'm not abandoning her.

So we get up to the access center thing and because of covid Nemo has to leave but I get taken back pretty fast for the physical part and asking the standard health questions. They also take my stuff including my phone and the pieces of paper that I wrote down all my problems on and a brief breakdown of my childhood traumas. I sit in a pretty okay chair for what feels like an hour. I cry a bit but nothing too noticeable when I finally got back to see the crisis counselor she basically said I'm very knowledgeable about my mental illnesses and told me that she'd let their therapy coordinator know to give me a call on Tuesday and also gave me her business card so I could call too and said as long as I'm not a danger to myself I can go home. In that moment I wasn't in danger of hurting myself more and I did want to go home instead of being admitted so I could take care of Miss Phyre but this was the second time a crisis counselor told me I wasn't in enough danger to be admitted like? Excuse me? Sorry my fucking emotions turn on a fucking dime but I absolutely need professional fucking help please?

She led me back to my chair to wait for the psychiatrist or whatever and that time I didn't have to wait as long. I got a turkey sandwich box thingy that came with a fruit cup chips and a string cheese as well as mustard and mayo in packets to put on it and tomatoes and Lettuce on the side so you can add them if you want them. I only had time to eat the fruit cup and started spreading the mayo on my sandwich before the psychiatrist came to me and we talked and he said the same thing as the counselor thag I'm very insightful about my failings and then put me on welbutrin instead of Lexapro and said I'm good to go home. I went back to the chair finished making the sandwich and then ate it while filling out their crisis sheet thingy that's like when I'm in a bad place who can I go to type shit. I still had to wait to actually be discharged so J ate the string cheese too. I finally left and had to wait another thirtyish minutes for Nemo to come pick me up.

What the scratches looked like right after being discharged. We went back to Sam's house because dad was still doing the electrical and we stayed there for another hour or two before going home. Don't remember much after the discharge honestly.

Monday was labor day and we went shopping I got my pills and stuff from Smiths. Then we went back home to wait for mom and Karleigh to get up so we could go to Joanne's tk make a playyard thing for aidrian and the dollar store for other stuff I don't remember. Then we went to the grocery store to get pita bread for dinner and something else I forgot but we ended up shopping and spent like 200 dollars. We also went to Lowes to get more pvc pipe for the playyard because dad apparently didn't get enough the first time. We ate dinner with Dave which was tikki masala and it was pretty dang good. Also before we got my pills I walked Miss Phyre for a while outside and she loved it. I decided to give her a bath afterwards since she doesn't wash herself and she was oaky the entire time she didn't meow or hiss or anything. She tried to climb out of the tub but not like in an aggressive manner like she didn't want anything to do with the water. She was such a good girl.

When Dave left we started working in the playyard. We wrapped some pink tulle on the sides and tied it to the pvc with some thin yarn. It took us hours to do and it was just mom Karleigh and me because dad went to bed. It was grueling work because my body was already exhausted from shopping all day and I had to hold my arms above my head for extended periods of time. My heels were in excruciating pain but we finally finished half of the playyard at about 1230 only to find out the other tulle we bought was the wrong stuff. It was too small to have it folded over to keep the sides secure and wasn't long enough to reach both ends of the other tulle so we had to give up for the night which actually pissed me off more than finishing it would have probably. I ended up only going to sleep at 5 am and waking up at about 9 on Tuesday but it was a nice cool day so I took Miss Phyre out for another walk and while we walked I typed up the previous Tumblr post. When I was ready to go inside and take a break from reliving the shit that happened I saved it to drafts so I could finish it later and brought Miss Phyre inside. Then I realized that it didn't actually save it and I had another breakdown but not nearly as intense as Sunday. It didn't help that the therapy coordinator never actually called me. I got a call from a bit for Intermountain that asked a bunch of questions like do I understand my discharge orders am I feeling safe did I get medication and do I understand how to take the medication and I had to hit 1 for yes 2 for no and 3 for unsure and one of the questions was like am I still feeling like I'm in a crisis or something and I had to hit 1 three times because it just wouldn't register it and that pissed me off and made me mad that it was automated and they didn't even bother to have areal human call and talk to me. After every question I answered basically they said were sorry to hear that well have a nurse follow up with you later today. I ignored both calls from the nurse because I just didn't have the energy to deal with it after the Tumblr thing. Like I wasted so much energy just typing it out and what little I had left just instantly sapped after I realized it was gone. The second voicemail the nurse left mentioned that it would be the last time trying to get into contact with me but also that our insurance has mental health advocates so thats something I need to look into.

Eventually Cavell told my dad that I needed to be watched I guess and since dad was still at work and mom had just left to take aidrian back home mandi came downstairs and spent time with me. Cavell told my sad that I needed to eat so he texted mandi to make sure I ate something and we went upstairs and made pizza and waited for dad to come home. After that we had to wait for mom and Karleigh to get back so we could go back to Joanne's to get the right tulle and while we were there I bought some double pointed needles so I could make some wrist warmers to hide the scratches. I also wrapped them up which just made it seem way more serious than it was since they were too close for bandaids to work right I had to use gauze and ace wrap.

We thankfully didn't finish the playyard yesterday we're supposed to some time today but hopefully I'll be asleep before then.

I also left the access center a review since they only had two. One one star review that was basically my experience and one five star with no description from an account that only gives 5 star reviews and seems like a bot.

Nemo wanted me to call the center for evidence based treatment last night because Google said they closed at 7 but when I called they closed at 5 so I called today instrad and nobody answered so I filled out their online form and I just got the response email from them so I'm going to hopefully get better soon I guess.

Love you always.

[jeanwantsatumblr]

~

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Brandon bought one of the dams from Malcolm about 4 years ago.

And so Jimmy from Kid Rock was hoping to repair and buy them all and he asked me about it about last summer/spring and I says yeah it was a good idea as long as he wasn't interested in making money because it didn't look like a money making opportunity.

And it looked it a lot of hard and complicated work but those things need a lot of care and were allot of responsibility, especially if it fails then they're on the hook and a lot of insurance companies, if they find out about the damage that was previously done would want to sue if the dam failed

And Jimmy explained he feared it would soon fail, he had a miserable feeling and wondered how responsible financially would be be if so

I told him if you like just bought it and it fails in less than 5 years and you're trying to repair and not just sitting around then you shouldn't be held responsible.

But Jimmy never got to buy it. Because Malcolm and Brandon refused to sell

They're both kidnappers and Brandon does bomb specialty.

Brandon said he didnt want to sell because he had the "Eden Valley" and so Jimmy asked him to let him just repair it, the dam was too stressed and it wasn't his fault. It was too old. "No cost to you"

And he refused. Jimmy offered to pay him up to $3 million USD to let him repair it and Brandon refused.

He simply did not want it repaired.

So thats why i offered the insurance for the people, Because it could had been avoided had Brandon and Malcolm allowed Jimmy to repair the dams.

And because that lady lost everything and nothing was covered and I can't believe any one would let her have insurance and not make sure she had Flood Insurance and had been ripped off the entire time she lived ON a lake side and i hate that shit. That's absolutely horrible.

I thought it was dumb i live almost a mile from the Rio Grande River which runs plumb dry and had to have flood insurance. Until this girl's pipes bust in her house and ruined her floors and her insurance didn't cover it Because they considered it to be a flood type situation. Then I was all ohhhhhh fuck yeah for me!

So living on a lake. That lady was not treated right by her insurance representative. Maybe she bought it online on her own But she should had been notified it didnt cover flood.

And mostly that's why.

But it could had been avoided.

He asked him, on his knees to let him repair it and went up to $5M and Brandon said "that's nasty, no"

And Jimmy said "how rude of me to care!"

Jimmy doesn't even live near the dams. He just had a feeling they would fail. He just wanted to prevent that. Nothing more.

And unfortunately Brandon isn't that kind of person. Malcolm is more So but also ... But Malcolm would had taken the money if he had been solo. Unfortunately, He was dealt in with Brandon and he also refused. $20 million USD in cash under the table and debit card and clean money and all. Business trades.

Jimmy tried everything he could think of.

He even sent bags of cement to the dams just in case they would repair and Malcolm did repairs to one using all the cement. 10,000 bags that he had gotten from his 5 dams.

But his pride, upon seeing the damage did not want to ask for more. So then he used his own money to repair two.

But one was damaged late last year the Denton dam I posted about earlier saying had failed not due to a person causing the failure as it was damaged last year.

I believe Brandon's Eden was damaged this week, after the Denton failed.

So after Malcolm saw the condition of the dams he did consider late last year to sell. Regardless of what Brandon thought.

But the company was also including Brandon as a partner thus the holdup

And Brandon wanted to damage them all first and then i began busting human trafficking and then Brandon side tracked it. Because he got busy.

Malcolm sold to Brandon because Brandon swore he turned a leaf and would be good. But he also admits he lies.

And so....

The trouble was attempted to be avoided by some.

And while I have no interest in dams and Jimmy just asked me to help talk to Brandon because he was frustrating every one. We have given an opportunity for insurance.

The most we have sold is in Australia. Followed by Connecticut for regular non emergency flood and renters. Houston is in third, I know y'all been,waiting and suffering and y'all aren't the richest. Then Michigan a mix of emergency and flood for most then renters coming up midway.

So we're doing worldwide which is kinda unusual but we prefer it this way. That y'all don't lose everything.

And we've sold a lot of life insurance policies. We do whole life only. So that is great! Whole life we start premiums at pennies for babies and they pay pennies their whole life. The price never changes.

So the price for a 40 year old is $49 for the whole year. For $20k that your family/beneficiary gets when you die. Then we also give up to $1000 for funeral costs. Like here it's $899 to cremate so... With taxes it just covers it. That's a side bonus on top of the 20k. And it's $49 per year the rest of your life. If you're 100 or 59 when you die. Doesn't matter.

It took us 3 years to balance out. Financially. after we started and still we take about $1 Billion every 2 years from Geico car insurance. We do it as a *loan that gets forgiven. Not a grant. So there's taxes paid.

So y'all with Geico pat yourself on the back! You're helping make some person's life better by paying your hundreds or so per month

So any way. I hope this straightens out as far as the dams. The article says it will be investigated.