#btw ari if u happen to see this i want you to know that i think abt that professor x janitor au all the time

[teddybeartoji]

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii think i wanna make the toji office au with a male reader!!!!!! i just love the idea of him with a little bf soooso much!!!!!!! like c'mon awkward toji bc he still feels a little (read: very) out of place in the office vs the nerdy guy who helps him out with the satanic printer???? i say yes yes and yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hi hello my anglest angel!!! now that i have uh caught a breath from the knight!sugu fic (i went insane btw) i am here to talk about the songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY'RE SO GOOD!!!!!! i know you said that you have Thoughts about them and now i am beggggging to hear more about those!!! please please please more knight!sugu n brat!reader crumbs i loved them so much

THE SECOND GOODBYE MY DANISH SWEETHEART STARTED PLAYING IT JUST CONJURED UP THE PRETTIEST CASTLE AND I WAS ALREADY IN THE STORY I LOVED IT SO MUCH

there’s nobody better than you // it took me a while till i knew // but you knew from the start it was us, didn't you? // it just took me a while till i knew

sad face emoji sugu the all-knowing-one sighhhhh oh i adore him so much ari i nEED TO HUG HIM

I LOVE RISES THE MOON AAAAAAAA I LOVE IT SO SO SO MUCH i think it fits the reader so fucking well. it's such a good pick for them. the little lamb the little fox. sigh they're very dear to me already.

btw i just realized that i asked moss a while ago for their knight!sugu songs and "tongues and teeth" was one of the songs!!!!!! idk if u happened to see that but if not then this is a very cute little coincidence it's the knight hivemind!!!!

i’ve grown a mouth so sharp and cruel // it’s all that i can give to you, my dear // and when you come in quick to steal a kiss // my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear

THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH THIS FITS THEM SO WELL WHAT

no but overall all of these songs were perfect for them i listened to the playlist multiple times and then i listened to classical music lmao don't ask it fit surprisingly well OKAY BUT NOW DON'T HOLD BACK ON ME!!!!! (THREAT!!!! VERY SERIOUS THREAT!!!) I NEED TO KNOW EVERYTHING YOU'RE HIDING IN YOUR BRAIN ABOUT THEM LAY IT ALL ON ME SWEETHEART I'M GIDDY I'M EXCITED I'M READY!!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS<33333

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEY I’M HERE I’M HERE I’M FINALLY HERE 😭😭😭 pls ignore the fact that i’m many months late ok my brain refuses to cooperate with me sometimes but i’ve been soso excited to answer this properly!!!! this got . Extremely long. like. actually. i got VERY carried away . i’m sorry i genuinely can’t stfu when it comes to them <///3

anyway !!!!! knight!sugu & bratty royal!reader our beloveds :333

first off!!!! i’m sooo glad to hear you enjoyed the songs 🥺🥺🥺 and that you got knight!sugu/royalty!reader vibes from them too!!!!! i’m just gonna get right into it bc we have . a Lot to discuss 😭😭 i really didn’t hold back in the slightest AND ON THAT NOTE pls just know that there’s literally zero pressure to reply to this at all, esp since it’s so late!!! i’m so happy just knowing you think of these silly little guys 🥺 i love you soooo much my sweetest little kitty cat mwah MWAHH <333

goodbye, my danish sweetheart

MY FAVORITE MITSKI SONG EVER EVER EVERRR and honestly i think it fits the fic more than any other song on this list . like. just the vibes + instrumentals alone are sooo perfect for a royalty au…. it sounds nostalgic and bittersweet and very tender . and the LYRICS 😵‍💫😵‍💫ohhhh my fucking god mickey . i’m gonna need to go through them one by one but they just … make me think of royalty!reader so much . how they just want to be accepted. the feelings of inferiority …. the belief that nobody can love them as they are . :(((

there's nobody better than you // it took me a while 'til i knew // but you knew from the start it was us, didn't you? // it just took me a while 'til i knew now i lay as i study a blank wall // would you spare me your voice if i call? // ’cause you waited and watered my heart 'til it grew // you can see how it’s blossomed for you

THIS IS SOOOO READER @ SUGU. he’s the one who keeps pushing and fighting for a connection between them and reader keeps resisting until they just . can’t. and they really do think there’s nobody better than their knight !! nobody stronger or kinder. they love him sm :(((( every time they call for him he’s there. and he waters their tiny little heart until it’s not afraid to flourish anymore…..

there’s some kind of burning inside me // it’s kept me from falling apart // and i’m sure that you've seen what it's done to my heart // but it's kept me from falling apart

AND THEN THIS . oughhh . :(((( this is both royalty!reader AND knight!sugu…… they both keep their true self at arm’s lenght to protect themselves. and they both cling to something rotten to keep themselves intact. in reader’s case they cling to the idea of themself as a spoiled, bratty, scummy royal — cling to the anger and bitterness they feel . and suguru clings to knighthood. it burns him but it makes him feel alive. it’ll turn him to ashes but he doesn’t mind. etectc.

strawberry blonde

aaaand then another mitski banger :33 i picked this one mostly based on vibes !!! the instrumental just sounds like it could fit into this au … the more peaceful scenes between the two . but the lyrics are also just brimming with devotion and adoration..

i love everybody because i love you // when you stood up, walked away barefoot // and the grass where you lay left a bed in your shape // i looked over it and i ached i love it when you call my name // can you hear the bumblebees swarm? // watching your arm // i love it when you look my way

IT’S PERFECT BECAUSE . i think the lyrics work both ways !!! i can see both sets of lyrics being from reader’s pov; loving suguru makes it easier for them to love the world . they want him to call them by name. but it also works well from sugu’s pov…. he aches for them and yearns to follow them . he loves it when they call his name, too. they’re both yearners…. what can i say…..

rises the moon

ANOTHER VIBE-BASED SONGGG i also love this one mickey … it’s so beautiful and soothing :((( i imagine it playing during the scene where suguru shares a bit of his past with reader . sitting by the windowsill in their room as the moon glows….. and then he carries them to bed and tucks them in :) i can picture him humming them to sleep with this song.

oh-oh, close your weary eyes // i promise you that soon the autumn comes // to darken fading summer skies you’ll be visited by sleep // i promise you that soon the autumn comes // to steal away each dream you keep breathe, breathe, breathe

and the lyrics are just ???? soooo incredibly soothing. i think knight!sugu brings a lot of peace into reader’s life . they feel very safe with him. and the mentions of dreams and seasons feel fitting, since those are motifs in the fic :3

honestly !! i associate a lot of my character/reader pairings with seasons …. especially this one though. i’m also always thinking about your little knight and prince and how he’s the summer to their spring :3 in my case i think suguru is probably reader’s autumn!! a bridge that softens the gap between summer and winter…. he gives them stability and comfort. and they give him both summer and winter. he meets them right in the middle <33

tongues & teeth

HEAVY BREATHING …… this one is a Must for any knight character or pairing . any character who views themself as a monster . I DID SEE THIS ON MOSS’S PLAYLIST TOO AND THEY’RE SO BIGBRAINED FOR THAT !!!!! it’s just… oughh. i think i mostly associate this one with suguru’s rampage after reader gets kidnapped but the lyrics are more readercoded !!!!

i’ve grown a mouth so sharp and cruel // it’s all that i can give to you, my dear // and when you come in quick to steal a kiss // my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear oh, i will ruin you // it’s a habit, i can't help it // i know that you mean so well // but i am not a vessel for your good intent i will only break your pretty things // i will only wring you dry of everything // but if you're fine with that // if you're fine with that…

IT’S ABOUT . the violence . and tenderness. a person who thinks they’ll bring this brighter, kinder, more ”pure” person nothing but pain . reader assumes they’re too much for anyone to handle so they keep everyone at arm’s lenght . i think they view the people they admire as paintings. and they’re convinced they’ll smudge the canvas if they get too close . but deep down they want to be accepted, claws and all :(((

and suguru does!!! they both accept each other as they are . a fox and a wolf. suguru will let reader bite and hiss and claw at him as much as they need. he won’t love them any less . and reader sees suguru covered in blood, manic and frenzied, and still only thinks about how beautiful he is . how nice their name sounds when it’s falling from his lips . they don’t love each other despite their flaws or because of their flaws . they just like each other. scratch marks and all . i’m normal abt them btw

the garden

THIS ONE 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 MICKEYYYY HOLD MY HAND. this one is almost TOO perfect . i love the crane wives and so many of their songs would fit super well into this fic …. but this one is just . insane . the album cover even has a little fox 🥺 BUT AAA JUST . the instrumental and the LYRICS … i’m gonna need to really pick them apart because they’re so unbelievably perfect for royalty!reader i’m going to. scream.

the crows in the garden are laughing at my expense // drowning out all the lies that i might have told instead

OK SOOO . crows . are a bit of a motif in the fic. crows remind me a lot of suguru maybe that’s why. then there’s also the garden, which is mentioned a lot in the fic too!! all the flower imagery…

but . here’s the thing. royalty!reader is a Liar. they lie. they wear a mask. they’re not honest with their own self and not with anyone else either. and they assume everyone is looking down on them. i can picture them looking out into the garden, seeing those free crows, and imagining their cawing as mocking laughter . it drowns out the sound of their own lies . (crumbles to the floor)

my stone // my shield, my steady hand // hold your light // to the darkness in my head

AND THIS ONE . THIS ONEEEE

mickey ….. grabs your shoulders. i know you’ll see the vision. this is royalty!reader @ knight!sugu and it makes me . Ache . very deeply. he’s their stone. their shield, their steady hand. he holds a light to the darkness in their head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oughhhh they make me insane 😔😔😔 i think reader holds a light to suguru’s darkness too though . it’s more subtle with him but i wrote the fic with the idea that reader saves knight!suguru from his destined doom. he grows to care more for them than knighthood, which saves him from his fate, which is. breaking under the pressure of knighthood. you Get me. you must choose love Every Time.

put your ear to my heart or set your teeth against my throat // give me something pretty to wear beneath my blood-stained clothes

this one is just . really fitting right??? i guess this one is more knight!sugu coded though . i can imagine him returning to the castle after a bloody duel and getting patched up by a worried little reader :((( they give him a clean blouse . maybe bite his throat a little . who knows .

…. i think they also really love the sound of his heartbeat. it helps them sleep :3

get on your knees and // dig up the garden // won’t you throw down that spade and // dig up the garden, darling? // get your hands dirty and // rip up the garden // won’t you cut down that apple tree for me?

and finally This …….. i think the garden is like. a Metaphor . you know how it is . something something reader is a flower growing under the soil…. suguru has to dig their heart up…. etcetc. but i also love the devotion of it all . the loyal knight gets on his knees and digs and digs at his lord’s request. he’s eternally devoted to their joy.

my love is sick

dies . explodes .

mickey this song …. this goddamn song….. oughhh i love madds buckley sm :((((( she’s so good!!! i adore this song and i think it fits very well for both of them but especially royalty!reader…. it goes back to the whole thing where . they think they’re unloveable. their love is ”sick.” but they still crave tenderness and companionship……

my love is sick // it’s messy and wrong // but i pray for a bit of contagion // hands without fingers // like spoons at the source // coat evenly // oh, won’t you touch me? you’re an infection // i am keeping // no matter the sepsis // you are staying my love is sick // it’s taken me whole // i’m simply a host to a haunting // ghosts without corpses // still linger in flesh // holding on to a love they keep wanting

THESE LYRICS ARE JUST . soooo good. so good. the idea that they view their love as messy and wrong but still want him to touch them . they view him as an infection because intimacy scares them so much but they still don’t want him gone.

and then the final line ….. ”holding on to a love they keep wanting”…….. yeahhh . suguru and reader are both afraid to bare their hearts to one another but they keep holding onto that love anyway.

anything, anything, anything

aaaand then finally!!! another madds buckley song :33 this one is ADORABLE and it’s just . dripping with devotion and adoration !!!! i guess i see it almost as a post-fic song ??? like. after the final scene. the culmination of their relationship. it encompasses their love for each other really really well and the lyrics are just so sweet 🥺🥺

honey, i hate wine // but i’d gladly down a bottle of your name // just to get another taste of you // a single drop not on my tongue would be a waste and i hate mornings // but i like waking next to you // you always wake up before i do // so i can sleep in your embrace and i hate time // the minutes shared will never last enough // no amount of time will ever be too much // and parting leaves a bitter taste

THESE LYRICS ….. soooo royalty!reader. they’re a little sap but they don’t want to admit it!!!! i think their love comes down to making Exceptions. like. suguru is their exception. they hate wine but they’d drink some if he brewed it for them. they hate mornings but wake up early just to get a glimpse of his sleeping face . they hate time, but cherish the clock-ticks they spend with him. they’re a little softie and i love them :(((((

we burn like gentle firewood // we yearn like vines and leaves // and we settle in the comfort of // the bones that rest beneath // and i’d stop staying home and wasting time // to keep your soul with mine

THIS IS BOTH OF THEMMMM. they burn and yearn and settle in the comfort between each other…… they’d stop staying home and stop wasting time to keep each other close .

i’d do anything, anything, anything // anything, anything, anything…

this is really like . the Core of the fic i think. especially on knight!suguru’s side . he’d do anything. there’s something very gentle and tender about this repetition and it makes me wanna cry. sniffle . i adore them mickey :((((( he’d do anything for themmmmm

BUTTTT OKAY . songs aside…… the reason it took me so long to answer this (faulty brain aside) is that i really wanted to include some siken poems for you too :’3 since his poetry inspired me sooo much when i was writing the fic!!! and so many of them are knight!sugu +/ royalty!reader coded….

i’m just gonna go through the ones that remind me of them the most !!!! :33

the way the light reflects

title of the fic was snatched right from this so ofc i had to include it 🫡🫡

the paint doesn’t move the way the light reflects, so what’s there to be faithful to? i am faithful to you, darling. i say it to the paint.

i think this. encompasses the fic. i really do. the paint and the light. the Faith. what’s there to be faithful to? well, the knight by your side has something to say. if reader is faithful to the paint then he is faithful to Them. he’s made out of it. and all reader wants is for someone to have faith in them. they’re the paint, and suguru’s the light.

i paint in his face and i paint it out again. there is a question i am afraid to ask: to supply the world with what?

and this … royalty!reader is really . confused i think. to supply the world with what? what’s their purpose? what good can someone do when they’re stuck in a castle? they don’t know, so they keep painting. and maybe that’s enough.

…. i can’t remember if i mentioned this to you before but. i imagine that reader paints suguru a Lot once the events of the fic are over. as in…… eventually a corner of their room is dedicated to him and no one else . he’s very embarrassed about it. cutie <333

portrait of fryderyk in shifting light

THIS POEM . richard siken when i fucking catch you. it’s one of my absolute favorites of his and it…. really really REALLY helped me write some scenes 😭 especially the one where reader is painting. the writing is just so beautiful and flows so well. and it fits the themes of the fic perfectly !!

i sussed the gesso into foam and white roses, stalling. i troubled the shadows and silvered his edges. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light.

silvered his edges …. something something royalty!reader @ knight!sugu . BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING …. what can you know about a person? they shift in the light. that’s another quote that really gets to the core of the fic i think….!!! both sugu and reader aren’t what they seem to be. they shift in the light!!!

i find the parts that overlap with mine and light them up in clayd and creams, yellow music singing pink, the flicker of his mouth a purple rust. his face congeals as he settles in. his hair is bronze in here, not gold: walnut, bark, and cinnamon, chipped brick tipped in ink.

OUGHHHHHH AGAIN I’M JUST . so . enamored with the way he writes 💔💔💔 the colours…. the paint……. this is what goes through reader’s head when they’re painting suguru

difficult, to be confronted with the fact of yourself. opaque in the sense of finally solid, in the sense of see me, not through me.

SEE ME NOT THROUGH ME 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 yeah. reader wants to be Seen but not Discovered. suguru does both. he sees them and sees through them and stays anyway. it’s difficult to accept yourself but he does it for them. he sees the wolf and the lamb and the little fox beneath !!!! and reader sees him for the kind wolf that he is :333

litany in which certain things are crossed out

h … heavy breathing …. another of my favorite siken poems . this one was my absolute fav for a while….. it’s a really long one and there are just . soo many lines that reminds me of them!!! :((((

of course, she wakes the dragon. love always wakes the dragon and suddenly flames everywhere. i can already tell you think i’m the dragon, that would be so like me, but i’m not. i’m not the dragon. i’m not the princess either. (…) okay, so i’m the dragon. big deal. you still get to be the hero. you get magic gloves! a fish that talks! you get eyes like flashlights! what more do you want?

THE DRAGON/PRINCESS IMAGERYYYY. LOVE ALWAYS WAKES THE DRAGON !!!!!!! reader views themselves as The Dragon while suguru views them as The Princess . he’s The Hero obviously. i think reader is bitter towards suguru at the beginning for a Lot of reasons but one of them is jealousy. knights are domesticated creatures so they aren’t exactly Free but . they have more freedom than a chained royal . they get to run around in the forest and by the sea and they get to see the world :((( what more could he want?

you said i could have anything i wanted, but i just couldn’t say it out loud.

throws up blood . yeah . the knight offers his lord anything they wish for but they can’t say what they truly wish for . they can’t push the words out of their mouth .

forget the dragon, leave the gun on the table, this has nothing to do with happiness.

EXPLODES !!!!!!!! one of my favorite siken lines Ever. idk it’s just the vibes . i know you’ll understand mickey!!!!!!!! forget the dragon, this has nothing to do with happiness……

i want more applesauce. i want more seats reserved for heroes. dear forgiveness, i saved a plate for you. quit milling around the yard and come inside.

🥺🥺🥺 this line is so…. pretty. and hopeful. it makes me think more of knight!sugu than reader because i think he’s done many things he can’t forgive himself for . but the forgiveness he yearns for is just within reach . all he needs is a push. and i think reader more than anyone wants the better things in life — for themselves and for their knight.

suguru is passive in his suffering, but reader is willing to reach for what they want. and i think that inspires him. quit milling around the yard and come inside!!!!!! stupid silly knight >:((

unfinished duet

this is knight!suguru’s anthem . boy oh boy do i have thoughts about this ……

he wants to be tender and merciful. that sounds overly valorous. sounds like penance. and his hands? his hands keep turning into birds and flying away from him. him being you.

heavy breathing …. he wants to be tender and merciful. sounds like penance. 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i have …. soooo many thoughts about knight!suguru but the center of his character really is Guilt. shame. he wants to repent for things he can’t remember doing. knights are meant to be ashamed . it’s the catholic in them i think

then there’s the bird line ….. as much as he pushes and pushes for that connection, he’s just as scared as reader is when it comes to intimacy!! his hands turn into birds and fly away from them . he’s afraid of crossing a line or boundary. i tried to show it in the fic but like …. he’s very particular about certain things . he’s willing to bend certain rules (esp later when his devotion starts sticking more to his lord than his knighthood) but he’s Very firm about other things . like not calling them by name at first . it’s a little… too much for him. knights really have to tiptoe that line.

…. there’s this one arthurian work that i love. that you’ve definitely heard about bc it’s so popular + they made a movie out of it and i don’t think it was a good adaptation but it was soooooo so good as a movie . gawain and the green knight….. I DON’T WANNA RAMBLE TOO MUCH BUT UM. i love the arthuriana :333 and i’m mentioning this story because gawain is tested on his value as a knight right. there’s a whole thing about how he kisses a man’s wife because it’d be impolite to deny the lady’s wishes (rejecting her would go against his honour as a knight), but he can’t sleep with her because that would go against … his honour as a knight. it’s a whole. purity thing. you need to be chivalrous but also chaste. so knight!sugu acts all charming and flirty but when reader wants him to cross the line between them he’s like 😳 yeah. he’s . a silly little guy .

what did you really want? someone to pass this with me. you wanted more.

cries . throws up . this is both knight!sugu and royalty!reader actually …. they limit themselves because they don’t think they capable of / allowed to have the thing they really want :(((( just having somebody by their side is enough for now….

was there no one else? his hands keep turning into birds, and his hands keep flying away from him. eventually the birds must land.

…. yeahhhh . 😔😔 yeah . sorry this poem is wrecking me a little . eventually the birds must land!!!! knight!suguru can resist and royalty!reader can resist in kind but one day that distance Will be breached. they’re doomed to fall (positive).

snow and dirty rain

and finally …. this beast . it’s the final poem of siken’s crush collection and it goes…. insanely hard. soooo many lines here remind me of them mickey :((((( it’s sickening actually . just a little push more and then you’re free 🫂🫂🫂 here is a drink for u to sip while reading i made it just for you ☕️

we can do anything. it’s not because our hearts are large, they’re not, it’s what we struggle with.

OUGHHH . yeah . knight!sugu and royalty!reader both have pretty small hearts but they’re kinda…. overfilled . i think . they both struggle with kindness despite wanting to Do Good .

my dragonfly, my black-eyed fire, the knives in the kitchen are singing for blood, but we are the crossroads, my little outlaw, and this is the map of my heart, the landscape after cruelty which is, of course, a garden, which is a tenderness, which is a room, a lover saying hold me tight, it’s getting cold.

….. i just realized every single one of these quotes is gonna wreck me entirely . I’M JUST???? THIS IS THEM?!????? IT WAS MADE FOR THEM?????? MY DRAGONFLY MY BLACK-EYED FIRE. MY LITTLE OUTLAW. the landscape after cruelty which is OF COURSE a garden which is OF COURSE a tenderness which is OF COURSE a room of sleeping lovers. tenderness is a garden . etcetc.

we have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven, which brings us back to the hero’s shoulders and a gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

just kill me actually . i wrote some of these lines here wayyyy back when you first sent this ask so being forced to read them again is . hurting me mickey 😭😭😭 FOR THE RECORD. this one is extremely knight!reader/prince!toru coded. the gentleness that comes not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it… yeahhh. you get me.

you said tell me about your books, your visions made of flesh and light and i said this is the moon. this is the sun. let me name the stars for you.

🥺🥺🥺 reader asks about his life and visions and dreams . and suguru tells them about the moon and the sun and the constellations ….. ”let me name the stars for you.” <- SUCH a sugu thing to say. i can’t stand him . he’s so devoted it hurts when i think about him

we were in the gold room where everyone finally gets what they want, so i said what do you want, sweetheart? and you said kiss me.

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😵‍💫😭😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 KISS ME . this is literally the final scene between them . under the stars. suguru asks what they want and all they want is a kiss. THE SWEETHEART …… lowkey his favorite petname. i’m partial to it. they go through all the suffering and growing together and finally arrive at the gold room. where they get what they want. and all they want is each other . (sound of muffled sobbing)

we are all just trying to be holy. my applejack, my silent night, just mash your lips against me. we are all going forward. none of us are going back.

and finally …… this 💔💔💔 it’s just . perfect. it’s so hopeful and it makes me so emotional. just mash your lips against me; none of us are going back. even though they were both born for doom there’s a bright future ahead of them :’3

OKAY I’M DONE . FINALLY . if you read all this then just know i’m smothering you in kisses…. i’m doing that regardless though . i love you!!!! thank you for loving them with me!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺 i hope this was a fun read despite the wait </3

[ritz-writes]

I’m back! ( “your never ever getting rid of me”)

What if for the School of rock performance it takes place after the whole LBD thing and the hostess preforms in it with macaque like she plays summer and he plays Dewy or something. ( they use actual kids in most performances btw it’s super impressive look up the tony performance on YouTube).

-♈️

Aries!! I was wondering where u went <3

Man I still need to listen to School of Rock, I only watched the movie when I was younger but it was always one of my favs. I just watched the Tony performance and HOLY SHIT THAT LOOKS SO COOL.

Fun fact! You remember B from the other posts? One of Macaque's castmates? She has a name now! Bai Biyu. She goes by BB (this might change later but thats her name!) 白碧玉. Bái Biyu.

And, as you can see by her family name, she and Bai He (the fandom name for the hostess) are related! They are sisters. (This also comes into play as to why Macaque is going after the gang for LBD. Cuz he doesn't want to hurt them. But knows Bai He and needs to keep her safe. If he doesn't help, LBD will kill her. Ahhhh, i love the smell of angst in the morning hehe)

So it honestly could happen before season 3. But, since there is so little time between Wukong finding Macaque and then Macaque getting taken back to LBD, it would probably be after. Maybe Macaque wanted to give Bai He something else to focus on, so he suggests School of Rock to the theater and they run with it. Bai He says she wants Macaque to be the teacher, and they're like "Well, he came up with it, and we KNOW this dude can sing, so sure."

I think it'd be a lower budget due to them needing to do repairs and stuff after the city got taken over and stuff, and it probably wouldn't run for very long. Maybe a week or two. But they think that, if people see the kids on stage having fun, it'll bring people hope for the future.

Or something cheesy like that lmao

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☁️ hey again! I don't have anything new to offer... I'm just checking up on u :D how's your sickness going? I bet it's gone now right?

Patiently waiting for your return.... No need to reply to this btw! I've sent quite some more asks so just see this as a one-way msg!!

Have a good day! Or night. Or afternoon :))

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Hey hi hello!!! I'm fully aware that I've been disappeared for a good while now... so I'm sorry if you have had to wait forever to get this replied :(

I want to apologize for being absent without warning beforehand also. It just ... it happened so suddenly, and I just couldn't help it. I had no idea whether it was the side effect of the sickness or the outburst of all the suppressed pressure. Or both. Either way, I had been depressed and couldn't bring myself to interact with anyone... I rarely got depression tho, because I tended to bottle things up and kept them all to myself until everything just snap one day :'( So yeah...when I got it, it took me way longer than other people to get over. I know it might sound like an excuse...but I've had been in such darkness for weeks and have been avoiding social media ever since. The main reason why I chose to delete all the social apps when I felt down was that I didn't want to spread negativity by talking about it with anyone. I didn't want to ruin my friend's day by whining about my situation, plus I didn't really want to talk to anyone (but then I would complain if I did you get me? It's complex. Hard feeling.) I don't want to taint everyone's dash by rambling about it today either, I just hope to make you understand why I vanished so suddenly. And I hope that I didn't give you the feeling that you were being ignored, cause that would be my last intention😿

Thank you for caring tho, Aris🥺 I appreciate it so so so much, it made me feel so warm knowing that there's at least one person waiting for me to come back...I just have no words... 😭😭😭 I successfully fought back the negative feeling by the way...and I hope to have this blog back to normal sooner or later. Thank you so so much for your love and support, againnnnnnn!!!!❤ I love you tooo❤❤❤

[hoenn-is-my-home]

So @strawbat wants me to post a song I listen to for every letter of the alphabet? When I get to Q I'm just gonna die okay? Okay.

A- All Time Low - Jon Bellion

B- Bad Girls Club - Falling in Reverse

C- Circles - Pierce The Veil

D- Dancing with the Devil - Set It Off

E- End of the Road - Boyz II Men

F- Fading Memories - Famous Last Words

G- Game Freak (Acoustic) - Ghost Town

H- Hell in the Hallways - Ice Nine Kills

I- I'm Not Bulimic (I Just Wanted To See How Far I Could Stick My Fingers Down My Throat) - Lower Than Atlantis

J- The Jig Is Up - Ice Nine Kills

K- Kiss My Sass - Cobra Starship

L- Love Song - Yungblud

M- Merry Christmas, Kiss My Ass -All Time Low

N- No Walls -Famous Last Words

O- One Of THOSE Nights - The Cab

P- Perfect - Across The Atlantic

Q- The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New

R- Racecar - Aries

S- Sarah's Song - Sander Van Zanten, Nola Klopp (BTW play Deliver The Moon because it's one hell of a game and an emotional rollercoaster, like I actually cried)

T- Tamagotchi - Sea in the Sky

U- Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold

V- Vultures- Asking Alexandria

W- Way Away - Yellowcard

X- X Gon' Give To Ya - DMX (Fucking christ this was hard, Q was way fucking easier)

Y- You Give Me Something - Jamiroquai

Z- Zombie - Bad Wolves (Brilliant Cover, sad that the collab that was planned wasn't able to happen)

Uhh yeah so that was painful. And now comes the best part: choosing who will share the pain 😊

So uhhh @vidibit @smashedpumpkinprincess and @nostalgicsadface you guys can suffer with me 😅

[angcliics]

(    cherry  chapstick  coated  lips  inhaling  from  a  dab  pen  ,  oversized  flannels  hanging  off  of  bare  shoulders  ,  an  easy  laugh  over  a  constant  hum  of  music    )     *    ╱    hey  ,  was  that    andrea “andi” cahill    i  just  saw    ?    yeah  ,  i  heard  they’re  a    twenty - two    year  old  and  studying     political  science    and  that  they  live  in    hermes   . you  might  be  able  to  recognise  them  by  their   cartier  love  necklace   ,  but  people  around  campus  describe  them  as    generous    but  also    impatient    ,  which  i  guess  makes  sense  since  their  mbti  test  showed  up  as    infj   .  their  reputation  would  be  completely  ruined  if  people  found  out  that    she’s  struggled  with  drug  addiction    ,  but  let’s  keep  that  between  you  and  me  …  for  now  .   +  zendaya  ,  cisfemale  ,  she/her  ,  junior  .  

hi, hello, ur trash ari checking in with my trash baby, andi. let’s get right into the viDeO !!

i tend to ramble so i’m gonna try to keep it short...ish.. and sweet...ish. hehe 

the WINDHAM-CAHILL family

andi was born to a bit of a tumultuous household. her mother is a renowned actress from the windham family-- think a dash of kennedy and a hint of the roberts, with old money going back generations on the east coast and a few well-known hollywood elites with accolades out west. 

her mother had developed a bit of a substance abuse problem, and was inconsistently present in her daugher’s life, always choosing to travel or hand andi off to the nanny or her father instead. when she was around, she was often interested in material things and shallow aspects of her daughter’s life– her clothes, her looks, her popularity– and was hardly satisfied with andi, always reminding her of where she came from and what she needed to be. 

her father, a wealthy self-made financier, is kind and well meaning, but unequipped to handle his wife’s issues oftentimes. the pair got into shouting matches and fights over her substance abuse issues and  and frequent absences often enough. regardless, andi is very devoted to her father, fiercely defensive of him in any family argument, and close with him, seeing him as a rock amidst the instability of her mother. 

she’s the eldest of three, with two younger brothers. she’s very protective of them as well, but as the only daughter, andi usually took the brunt of her mother’s nitpicking, perfectionistic projections and arguments. although easygoing, when continually faced with conflict, andi would at times fight back with her mother. part of her despises her mother, part of her still desperately wants to be good enough to finally get that mark of approval and hear “i’m proud of you.”

on the surface of course everything looked lovely: the beautiful, shining oscar-winning elizabeth windham, the american dream success story andrew cahill, and three children with talent and poise. andrew himself attended bellecotte for undergrad, and andi is proud to follow in his footsteps, although her father was a member of the house of zeus. 

personal HISTORY

feeling the pressure from her mother and the increased attention due to her family name and fame, andi always felt like she was the kind of student that had to “do it all” in high school. so she tried. she took the AP classes, sat on student council, went to football games and every party and was even prom queen. 

she has ADHD, so using adderall was first nature to her and doesn’t affect her the way it affects others, but after long days of going, going, going and feeling stress and pressure and having to do it all on all sides, she started using xanax and smoking weed often to chill out and deal with it all, and on the weekends you could find her drinking straight liquor straight-faced in between puffs off her pipe at house parties. 

still, she managed to keep it together enough to get into bellecotte, where she’s kept up much the same-- her struggles with xanax and other benzos in particular ebbing and flowing with how stressed and anxious and burnt out she is, and whatever she’s going through. she doesn’t hide her frequent marijuana use really-- always taking hits off of her dab pen, she’s quite a functional high after so many years.

studying political science because it interests her, and because she knows she’s ultimately lucky enough to have opportunities presented to her because of her parents’ careers, and wants to learn how to create and advocate for a more equitable system for those less fortunate. her father, as he’s self made, often took her back to his hometown and showed her how he grew up, so she knows it doesn’t all just come for free. unsure what exactly she wants to do post grad, whether that’s politics, film, writing, business-- but she’s interested in a lot of things. 

PERSONALITY

the GOOD: creative, determined, altruistic, passionate, insightful, protective 

the BAD: reticent, moody/sensitive at heart, prone to burn-out, possessive

has a tendency to hold grudges when hurt, desperately wants to be enough for someone to stay, really wants to be needed and loved for who she is instead of what she does or her name or anything else. 

an introvert that’s very good at extroverting, although it can exhaust her and by the end of the party she’s always found somewhere quiet to smoke and sneak off to. 

is the kind to be casually smoking a joint and then make a point about how the misconceptions of the aztec empire upon the arrival of white settlers were overblown and eventually grew into contributing to the general ethnocentric/westernized perspective of native american peoples being savages and uncivilized, right? god. and then laugh and go back to watching whatever’s on tv

a Flirt. u know it now. has always had lots of Boy things happening and tends to get herself into lots of messy shit in that arena. hookups, exes, boyfriends, fwbs, etc– handles it and talks about it with self depricating humor. part of it goes back to that kind of low self value she has deep down since she’s afraid she’s not enough for who she is, just good for the relationships she has and what she can give other people and such. 

tends to keep her sensitivity/insecurities to herself. copes with them by forcing herself to extrovert  harder and going out more and keeping herself busy. like i mentioned, she’s struggled with substance abuse to some extent since high school– drinking, smoking, dipping into some prescription pills to help with her grades, or her anxiety, or any number of things. you might suspect it if you’re very observant, but probably not- it’s usually hidden by a shimmering smile, the glint of a cartier love necklace, and a tight outfit with a warm “CHEEERS.” 

this is one thing she’ll get defensive about and deflect from, btw. she doesn’t want to acknowledge it because acknowledging it means she has another problem to deal with and it feels like she’s been dealing with this shit forever.

sarcastic, but not mean unless she’s comfortable with someone, in which case it’s a teasing-kind of sarcasm-mean. laid back– just as comfortable wandering around target for two hours, kind of high, as she is at a night club with a crowd of friends and expensive bottle service. definitely more adventurous when she’s a little drunk or high. very typical to find her on the roof watching the sunset and smoking a joint while writing or listening to music or just being there with someone. 

can be self-sacrificing, self-deprecating, will martyr herself, burn herself out, and become possessive and demanding at times in stress. she’s an enneagram type 2 if that helps u understand hehe. 

wanted CONNECTIONS

i have a tag, but generically, i’d love and am always down for ride or die, best friends, skinny love??, longtime friends, childhood friends, housemates, sibling like relationship, exes, ex one night stand/fwb, current fwb, enemies-ish, crushes (unrequited either way or mutual), maybe a roommate??, neighbors??  all of it ok *sharpay vc* i want it all !!

and this got long ofc even though i tried JESUS i hate me ok anyways hmu here or on discord for plots?? i love u all?? i’m so sorry??

[gg-astrology]

Hi❤️ can you please tell how Garnet and Onyx affect a Cap? I’m a girl and I want to buy a ring but can’t choose which stone😭 I already read info on internet and it got me confused plz help❤️✨

Hey there! 💕❤️ Wow this is so interesting!! 💕❤️The topic of birthstones have always been so cool? 💕❤️ 

Crystal Shopping + Astrology?  ⬇️

For me, I think joining it in with astrology… you get to see that your ‘birth’ has to do with what’s happening on a different scale as well– thus why you get more than just ‘one’ placement for your chart! 💕❤️ 

Having your birthstones won’t hurt, essentially pulling it apart (like how we dissect your birth-chart) -- consider seeing what you resonate with and gravitate towards your own specific needs/purpose would also help as well because you’re more than just one element/energy right? 💕❤️  

This is just me btw, the crystals I gravitate towards helps with balancing my placements or boosting me up when I need it? 💕❤️It’s not necessarily because I’m a Capricorn that I picked them, buy those onyx/garnet if it resonates with you! 💕❤️ You can never go wrong with that, but also looking at your chart– what else do you have in there that can help you figure out what crystals could help you with balancing/boosting your energy as well? 💕❤️  

I keep a collection of them, but you said you’re buying a ring so I’m assuming this is like– ‘which one (out of all the crystals) should i buy’ situation? I’d say going into a store and seeing which crystals resonates with you would definitely help more. Remember that you can always cleanse your crystals, but getting that initial connection to it can be extremely helpful.

If you don’t have access to that, just seeing which ones does what you need it to do most or want help with or is pleasing to you can certainly help too (with online shopping, but I recommend going to a store to see how it fits/works out first so you can see different types of crystals as well)💕❤️

Me, with my 2nd house stellium (Capricorn/Aquarius) really likes Rose Quartz (Cancer, Taurus, both modern) bc really resonates with what I need. It’s protection, it’s soothing, it’s reassuring and it also helps with protecting/guarding my12th house stellium (Scorpio/Sagittarius) Venus/Pluto/Jupiter as well (*multi-purpose and hits my two main stellium? nice!)  

The Rose Quartz can symbolize different things, but one of the things I need most is protection and soothing/reassurance. I need it to be more pro-active/energetic, that I feel something that will knock some senses into me. But also chill enough that it doesn’t need a super-complicated charge-up (I’m no crystal expert but it’s pretty– it’s pretty solid.) 

I also keep Lapis Lazuli and Amethyst with me (Sagittarius, Ancient, Traditional and Modern, Aries, Aquarius, Pisces, Ancient, Modern) 

I have four Lapis Lazuli I bought for warding but then discovered I actually really like it for it’s ‘presence’ around me. To me, it has a ‘weight’ to it that I appreciate. The solidity of it’s presence and quality it has to it that kinda knocks me in my head/sound board as well. In this case, Lapis Lazuli to me is like– an open space for me to talk to, but then it goes ‘that’s nice but you’re paranoid.’ and I appreciate that firmness a lot? 

There are also other Capricorn crystals – Tiger’s eyes, Black Tourmaline and Smokey Quartz are the ones I gravitate to. Compared to the crystals above (Rose quartz, Amethyst, Lapis Lazuli) – these Capricorn crystals I usually used when occasion calls. 

I don’t necessarily carry or keep them with me, most of the time it’s because I don’t need to be 100% Capricorn full-powered all the time– I have other placements, other needs or maybe areas I want to fill up. Most of the time, I just want to get what I’m missing, maybe some of which I’m lacking or need to work on/balancing out. 

Honestly my only advice is probably to choose the crystals that helps ‘you’ best as well. What your body needs, it’s like a diet. 

If it helps my earth sun/moon + aqua mercury direct itself, note that my earth sun/moon + aqua mercury is working fine. It ain’t wrong but it could be better. The aspects to my venus/jupiter/pluto square also makes it tense up sometimes. 

So my interests are in balancing/helping that out, and thus the crystals I’d want to invest in, that I can keep with me and actually serve a purpose for me (and probably affects me and my placements) is something that can help with that part of my energy/life, y know? 💕❤️

The crystals are there kind of like a facilitator/reminder of energy that could potentially help you or help you help yourself. If it helps me gain some leveled grounds to stand/work on (i.e. say my mutables, Sagittarius and Virgo placements are acting up) — it’s more helpful for me with that problem assisted with. 

Like say, I keep Celestite (Gemini, modern) with me to help my Aquarius Mercury in 3rd chill tf out a bit. Also because my Virgo Mars rx (9H) has always been a little less pro-active, Amethyst (Aries, Sagittarius, Aquarius, Pisces) helps with making my nervous Virgo feels like it’s ok to start acting/doing things as well. 

So!! 💕❤️Sorry for the long answer hhhHHH but I hope this is helpful and didn’t — make u anymore confused ;; 💕❤️ I can’t answer personally what you should get, I think that depends alot on you and what you resonate with/in your life and energy 💕❤️  BUT I hope this gave u something to consider/think about or get excited about!! I hope it doesn’t stress u out basically jsdnkjnks 💕❤️

Tbh Onyx and Garnet (as a cap as well) gives a lot of power, like innate power. I feel like it certainly helps a lot with ‘knowing’ I have It™️. And that definitely boosted my confidence when I need it (my Capricorn is in the 2nd – so self-worth, value, skill-sets and assets, etc.) I also find that I – my Capricorn in 2nd– always wants to colour-co-ordinate them with my outfit all the time (so sometimes I don’t have them with me). Plus I don’t typically carry them because that’s just not what I need or feel re-assured by. Sometimes I’m out and about and I  know I’m the shit, I just need something else instead.

So take this as you will!! 💕❤️ I hope it helps you!! 💕❤️💕❤️  

[apricotpicotty]

so it was really easy making this entp *feel* for me

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!

You both like Mbti.

Stranger: Hey

You: hoii

Stranger: Hoi

You: do u watch shin chan?

Stranger: Nooo

You: ohh

Stranger: What is this

You: it's a kids cartoon lmao

You: btw wht's ur type?

Stranger: Helicopter helicopter

Stranger: I’m an entp

You: aight cool cool

Stranger: Wby

You: guess

Stranger: Enfj

You: nah

Stranger: Esfp

You: nah

You: nvm,

Stranger: Intj

You: intj 5w4 lady here nice to meet ya

You: oh yea now we're talking

You: wassup buddy

Stranger: Ahaaaa

You: u good?

Stranger: 🤪🤪🎉🎉

You: nah my man's high af

Stranger: Where are you from?

You: i'm in malibu rn, gonna go back to india in a week or so

You: wbu?

Stranger: France

You: fuck fr?? tht's soo cool

Stranger: What’s your mbti ?

You: told you...

You: intj 5w4

Stranger: Am I talking to an intj rn ?

You: umm yea.../

You: why? u don't want to?

Stranger: I don’t know what’s your name?

You: i'm deelea

You: wht's urs?

Stranger: Walid

Stranger: Crazy man

You: yea indeed

Stranger: But not like u obviously lol

You: i'm a woman.

You: so.. yea

You: anyways

You: wassup?

Stranger: How old t?

Stranger: Are u*

You: i'm 18 wbu?

Stranger: 19

Stranger: When it’s your birthday?

You: it's 19 july

You: when's urs?

Stranger: 26 March

You: ouu an aries man

You: tht's cool

Stranger: Yeah yeah

Stranger: What are you doing in your life actually studies?

You: well, i'm doing pretty good ig, considering the scholarship i got for a med school

You: how are u doing?

Stranger: I’m a med student 🙃🥱

You: omfg- fr??

You: nah bro i don't believe you

Stranger: Yeah in my 3rd year

You: oh yea:? and ur only 19?

Stranger: Give me your instagram

Stranger: Yeah yeah exactly

You: i got no socials srry, i was raised in a typical asian fam

You: oh wait, got a discord tho

You: u hv a discord acc?

Stranger: Yes

You: astxrim#1063

Stranger: U should make an instagram account

Stranger: It’s more practical

You: why? so tht u can fap to my pictures? nah i'm good

Stranger: What kind of your pictures mhmm

Stranger: Nature beach... I like those

You: i take polaroids of myself while i masturbate

You: now i can't post those on insta srry

Stranger: Why you can’t?

Stranger: It’s not embarrassing 😳

You: ik it's not, the thought of someone seeing me masturbate is pretty kinky ngl

You: but why show it to everyone lmao

Stranger: U can make a private account 🤣

Stranger: I’m crazy don’t do this

You: no don't wanna too lazy to do tht, when i can enjoy the show all to myself

You: nah bro fr i'm genuinely not interested in social media jokes aside

Stranger: Why you masturbate instead of sex ?

You: umm too shy to ask a man to fuck me the way i want

You: no ones knows tht i;m a virgin :(

Stranger: What way you want ?

Stranger: It’s not a big deal

You: well i prefer being dominated, till i end up crying and begging you to stop

You: i'm into all sorts of stuff for tht matter

Stranger: Tbh I like dominate 🤪

You: u like to dominate or do u want to be dominated?

Stranger: It’s hard for you to make it happen by yourself only

Stranger: I like to dominate *

You: ikr, i masturbate while imagining it all

You: pretty sad ik

Stranger: Do you like bdsm?

You: hmm, chains and blindfolds are great

You: but not beyond tht

Stranger: I like that

You: like wht?

Stranger: Bdsm

Stranger: Not to me but for the partner

You: oh yea? tht's cool ig

Stranger: Yeah yeah

You: welp it's hard to type with one hand in my cunt

You: gtg now

Stranger: Let’s talk more

Stranger: 🥸

You: eh? already in love with me?

Stranger: No love ... but interesting

You: ikr relationships with no strings attached are the best

Stranger: Where are you now !?

You: in my room?

Stranger: 🤣🤣 crazy girl

You: u think so?

Stranger: What place like city...

You: i'm in malibu rn, gonna go back to india in a week or so

Stranger: Where is this?

You: in california

You: i'm in usa rn

Stranger: Holidays?

You: yup yup

Stranger: There’s no holidays in med school

You: i'm not in med school RN, i still hvent decided tbh tht's the scholarship cuz i passed the entance exam

Stranger: Where you want to study ?

You: not decided, life's pretty dull atm

You: might just go to med school inly cuz tht's the only career option i can see

You: only*

Stranger: It’s will be cool if I have an Indian med friend

Stranger: It will *

You: u wanna be my friend ??

Stranger: U want to

Stranger: Too*

You: do i?

You: i wonder

Stranger: Yes ig

You: wbu? u don't wanna be my friend?

Stranger: What do you think ?

You: i don't make assumptions u tell me

Stranger: It’s obvious

Stranger: I found you interesting

Stranger: So it’s a yes

You: i'm not here to entertain u, so u better be a good friend

Stranger: We are here to entertain

You: woah this is my 1st time making an entp confess his feelings, aight aight tht's cool

Stranger: I don’t confess my feelings easily in real life

You: yea ik, it's easier here

Stranger: Here it’s different

You: but ya'll are pain in ass in reality

You: welp i only hv a discord acc, so text me whenever u want

Stranger: No pain no gain

Stranger: Pain it’s an obligation 🤷🏻‍♂️🤣

Stranger: I will send you a request

You: aight

You: ngl u cute

You: and my man's dead with just one compliment

You: god wht will u do when i'll bring u flower to propose u???

Stranger: Hahahahaha

Stranger: Do it then u will know

You: ahaha sure

Stranger: Tel me your compliment again

Stranger: Tell

You: u are cute

You: wht? r u blushing behind the screen?

[energyanon]

(Kinda long post ahead sorry)

Really hoping next year will be a better year for Henry, im tired of this non-personal-cold interaction he has going on. Yeah he fucked up and made a whole mess of a lot of things, but idk. Drama like this happens every time he gets a gf so this obv wont be the last time.

I wish the fans would stop setting themselves up for disappointment every freaking time he gets a new gf. Like cmon, most of u r grown women, yall should not be making hate pages on instagram about his gfs and making him the victim every time and perhaps use ur brains and start questioning his actions and intentions instead. (@ the fandom not u)

It makes us look like one of those obnoxious kpop fandoms that get wild over the smallest rumors. I wouldnt even be surprised if Henry thinks his fandom is a joke given that hes barely posted anything personal this year (dont blame him but still?, just shows the drama and everything has affected him mentally) and that his co-stars and ppl he knows irl probably thinks his fandom is immature too

All i ever want from him is more nerdy laid back stuff or just sharing his hobbies in general (though i think his only hobby is gaming & working out?, but like thats enough for me (i love gaming too). Fans would eat that shit up! No matter if they dont even like his hobbies, theyll take anything! Deadass

Hes shown he can do it with the PC build that caught a lot of attention. Man literally went viral. He should just relax and be himself more, but i feel like there is something stopping him, maybe not a person, but his mental state.

(Btw i enjoy ur acc, ur seem rly nice, tho i was kinda OOF by the aries post bc im an aries too 😂)

The HC fandom certainly has a trend from what i've seen of just straight up not liking his GF's, and that can be said for all of them, not even the problematic ones. It's just going to be the case from here on out, I don't think things will really change for the people that are apart of the continued cycle (and that isn't EVERYONE before people bite my face off, it's certain people who have a trend of hating every single one and still slagging them off, like on certain forum sites etc) but even if he dates mother theresa, there is going to be an issue cause it seems that with HC people create a more intense parasocial relationship probably because he does date relatively normal women and therefore is attainable? Idk, but I don't think it will change. Once again, that's not the entire fandom, but you can't deny there is a trend with quite alot of people within the HC fandom. I also would love to see more of his interests cause he was actually kinda fun and goofy when he was more himself. Even when he's near Sam Claflin he is really enjoying himself when he's usually just a bit dry tbh. I wonder why he has decided to stray from that. I know the MT thing is DG's influence, but that doesn't mean you need to hide the rest of yourself.. Also, Sorry Babe, My whole inbox is full of "an Aries has PERSONALLY ATTACKED ME" so maybe it's just the sun sign of some firey people heheh, but, I do have to say the rest of the aries that have contacted me have had methods of self reflection and seem like pretty good people, so I think that it's more that we're bringing afflicted aries' into our life in order to learn something. I read somewhere that we tend to draw certain signs into our life at times that we need to learn something that those signs specialise in, and I am currently in my Aries' phase of people. They're both the exact same people two and it's causing me alot of strife where one I finally broke off with and now the second is alot harder cause they're just always there and no matter how much I ignore they always will be, so I'm trying to find out what it is about them that I need to learn through the pain if that makes sense. So all signs are a blessing. That being said - also someone I thought was a Taurus (they're just on the cusp, and very much more Taurus traited than they are Aries) turns out that they actually are Aries, and although she does have some :\ traits, she is also Super loyal, and super fierce, and loving and giving. So there are good Aries out there for sure, I think it may just be a sign where, if you're drawing from the dark part of it, you're gonna burn the people around you, and if you're drawing from the good part of it, you're gonna be probably the best friend anyone has ever had. Which is where you can draw comfort from Anon cause you sound like you got the good parts :) That can be said for the rest of the signs btw. But it seems like hell hath no fury like an Aries scorned 😈

[teddybeartoji]

so 🤓 i’ve noticed u and ari like doing uquizzes and it reminded me that i actually made one a while back.. it’s like a choose your own adventure kinda thing n it took a good minute to find the link to it again but here it is heh, i hope u like it :3

quiz: i assign you a type of dream !!! ⭐️

LOGANSHAHSAJGSHWDGJAGHDAHW HELLO??????????????? YOU CAN'T JUST CASUALLY SAY THAT YOU'VE MADE AN UQUIZ AND THEN EXPECT ME TO BE NORMAL??????????????????? LOGAN????

THIS WAS SO COOL???? HEHEHEHEHHE YOU KEEP GETTING COOLER AND COOLER I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LITTLE FANGIRL HEHEHEHEH WHO WAS THE PERSON BEHIND ME LOGAN I WANNA KNOW I WAS GETTING SO INTO IT AND THEN IT FUCKING ENDED AHHHHHH ur way too good at this smh....

lost dreams

a foggy, mysterious dream where you wake up and don't recall a single thing that happened. did i run across a busy intersection chasing down a supervillain, or was i the one being chased because i possessed the key to something unknown? did i see the face of my soulmate, or were they the personification of something entirely different? you're hard to read in the same way these dreams are - in the moment everything makes sense, until you wake up and suddenly it doesn't anymore.

anyway i'm just putting some mickey lore under here bc why not I LOVE DREAMS BTW i always have the most obscure ones too lmao

like just this week both barry keoghan and jacob elordi showed up in my dreams??? with barry it was literally just me being in a cinema after the film had just ended and then i saw him sitting a few rows in front of me and then i woke up??????? and with jacob it was just us on a bus, we had to stand up bc there was so many ppl there and the only thing i remember is that i was holding onto him and i had to crane my neck so badly just to look at him??????

and the result fits bc i usually remember exactly One Thing and nothing else and then nothing makes sense and it makes me so upset SIGHHHHHHHHHHH

okay but i wanna know what'd you get as the result lmao is that even a thing can the uquiz masters take their own quizzes? do you remember what answers lead to what results?? i hope not i really do want you to take it hehehehe AAANYWAYY THANK YOU LOGAN FOR THIS TREAT I LOVED IT SO MUCH KISS KISS KISS LOVE U

[alyjojo]

Today is the story of how my pregnancies came to be, without the fun stuff. It plays a very large role in why I believe in God tbh.

So my ex. It’s a relevant start. Him and I were together four years, never used protection, dumb as that is. I bring that up at because, for much of that time, I just didn’t have periods. Like at all.

After about a year of waiting and taking pregnancy tests wondering what the hell, I went to the doctor (I hate doctors...back then fear won, a lot) and she gave me pills to force me to have one.

I would have one sporadically after, so I didn’t feel like a mutant, and I’d be like well okay...and didn’t go back to the doctor. But it was every few months.

PCOS seems to run in my family, my cousin has used years of fertility treatments to have children, and though it’s worked it’s been a hell of a struggle for her. I was always kind of afraid I couldn’t have kids.

July 2007, I felt a way that was different, didn’t have a period as usual, took a pregnancy test. This was a regular thing with the lack of periods. Positive. ....what?? Told him, and he lost his fn mind. I can’t describe just how stupid he acted, and I was lost. How I knew later he was a cheating pos. We went to Planned Parenthood to take their test. Negative. Idiot danced to his car, and something in me knew he was an idiot but I just let it go.

We broke up a few days later, he did, of course.

The day after we broke up, midst all my emotions yanno how that goes, I started on my own for the first time in...I couldn’t remember. And it stayed that way, regular, every month, ever since.

Mom said “it’s the guy”, who by that point she was kind of disgusted with too lol. Well. Yeah. It was? Seems so. Angry and blaming and rawr at God like I was and they were like nope sorry...not that one, and I just showed you that 🙏

He continuously plays a role in this story. Idk if he was A soulmate of some sort. I’m definitely one of his life lessons. It’s always been...deeper, even if we don’t even get along. At all.

Ok so hubby. Years later. Ex was long gone, didn’t talk didn’t nada, I lived with my boyfriend 😜 and his parents for a year, working on my car and saving money for a place. Which I did, we moved in August and September 18 (my late gmas bday), I hadn’t had a period and took a test like oh this crap again. Honestly didn’t think I could have kids...never had a scare in the year I’d already been with hubby.

Pregnant. Whaaat? So my EX sends me an email the next fn day. How? I have no idea. I had told hubby...that’s it. I don’t even remember what the email said, how are you or something idk, I avoided it like the plague before being like omg just answer and writing something quickly, send, delete. Never read it again. I’d gotten him out of my brain space tyvm bye. Well in my response was something like lol I’m pregnant. He was the 2nd person to know. And considering he flipped out and left over a baby...karma.

In my later belief system, and seeing my oldest’s chart, she has much Libra/Scorpio influencing her (10th, Saturn/Moon). I felt like initially that positive may have been her, just long enough to get him tf out. The timing of his message blew my mind. Didn’t speak again for like 10 years, baby daughter got the name I had always wanted, and gmas middle to honor her. I still see 9:18 periodically. Love u Gma ❤️

So next baby. After two years in our first apartment, we were bombarded with BEES 🐝 Like this was insane level of bees, you couldn’t leave the house without these threatening mfers chasing you to the car, management was shit, we moved.

Moved into a bigger nicer apartment in a nicer part of town. August again. Had a fun night with some drinks to celebrate the night we moved in...no protection, big fun, hubby joked drunk, there’s #2.

So September 11th...I bought it 😆 But I refused to do it on that day. September 12th...hello baby girl #2.

Years and years pass, we use condoms regularly. Very careful always. Idk how my son came to be and I’ll say it till I die. I went back to work, I had lost a bunch of weight lol, I was not in baby mode at all. I was 100% done. So much that for two months I didn’t even realize. Until my jeans stopped fitting and I was like WTF. Sure enough. Hello baby boy.

I had been playing the sure let’s be friends game 🙄 with some of my ex’s after hubby’s stupid bs. Nothing more trust & believe, hell no. And it just doesn’t work as friends either so idk why we ever tried. Will never get along. The other ones were just drama...was my Saturn return, that was a nightmare. Then we entered his, and that was also a nightmare. That’s as much as I’ll say about that 💯

The last thing I said to that same ex, 10 years later...I’m pregnant 😆 It’s a kind of karma somehow. Goodbye again, the same way it’ll always be. Like God was like I’m sorry, you need a reminder?

My children ❤️

I always blamed my husband for doing it on purpose. Because he was so happy when I was. He’ll always deny it, but the boy came out DADDY’S boy and I just let him take over because...well he wanted to. And for the first time, the baby wanted, demanded, him too. It was actually insanely sweet, still is.

I went to the doctor and said I guess I’m due in February? She’s like try Christmas. I literally threw away the whole doctor and got a new one because I thought she was lying to me 😆

So on Christmas DAY, 6pm, I’m making meatloaf bc I knew a baby would be coming soon and we didn’t want a fridge full of leftovers...water breaks. 7cm dialated by 7pm, they gave me meds to slow down while hubby dropped off the kids at gmas. Little Aries moon was OUT in four hours 🤣 My biggest baby.

Jane...we were again very careful. Condom flew off inside of me completely. Like flew. Idk how tf that happens and it was very uncomfortable to fix btw. We knew, and when it was positive, we knew. We were not in a good place at that time. It was bad.

She was due on my cousins bday, and down to the very signs they would’ve been similar, and my cousin has lost babies...kind of how we had our falling out. She was mad at me for having my boy, but she was petty and rude to me for months, it broke my heart, then her mom my aunt tells me how she and my mother just talk shit about us both, when I trusted her the most, I just...bye. Gtfo ur one of them. Cried.

Well Jane. I lost Jane. I’ll always be sad about it. Cap with Gemini moon (supposed to) ended up being a little lost Leo. Same middle name as my cousin.

It’s here I’ll mention our foster kids. Hubby’s niece by blood, nephew by marriage. They were hard, that situation was hard, the boy is on the spectrum (which I now know means dick all really, he’s incredibly normal despite his horrific early circumstances) and he alone needs a lot of care. And their parents broke up and his dads side wanted them...he’s not ours, how could we claim him first? Our niece fits like a glove, she is ours. His sisters. We felt it was taking away from our kids after awhile, having two more suddenly, with DFS and court and visits and phone calls. We were getting screamed at by the parents for trying to be good people...then my car broke down with this timing chain nightmare, his was totaled (fk u forever)...then came the positive with boy, and we gave the kids to their Dad’s mom. Who is a very nice lady, with money, sister in law be pissed or not. We all felt we just couldn’t do it.

The boy was a Christmas Eve boy. Hilarious and so smart and adorable and sweet, just a lot of work. Our niece, a Leo, born way too early (late Oct due date). Small, tiny, but healthy.

My son is Christmas Day. Hilarious and SO smart and adorable and so sweet...a lot of work. Can not look away for two seconds. Also breaks things. Also punches his sisters. Even looks kinda like our nephew. Its eerie.

I tell my husband we didn’t keep the kids...we had the kids 😞 Because I ended up losing my little Leo, born way too early 😢

These kids are why I believe everything, they’re why I have faith, they’re how I notice the funny little things others wave off as oh it’s coincidence. No, it’s not.

Whether there’s another in the future idk. With Covid it’s not something I want right now. I did have my heart set on 4, once Jane came into the picture.

Maybe someday. Maybe not. Besides #2, which hubby joked about, and she’s a silly sarcastic goose just like her Daddy 😆, it seems God has more say on that then I ever have. With everything.

Take charge types scold me like “you have the power”, and I’m like oh yeah watch this. Try to work or try to do anything, car tires burst or something, some emergency, hubby has some insane project he needs me with them for, a baby appears, or foster kids, something always happens to keep me home. They all need me here. Just how it works in my life.

Someday...who knows? For now, this year, I’m a homeschool teacher ❤️ We’re happy 😊

[de-lu-si-o-nal]

So what did you learn? Because all I’ve learned it that I’m bad at reading signs women give me; like my self-assurance took a hit. She took my confident & made me feel arrogant, do you think I’m arrogant? 🤔 I didn’t know my negativity was so transparent 😭😭😂 I need optimism in love is what I need. Yes & I thank you for sharing, I just wish I could absorb your positive energy or the generally warm vibe you give off💖 kay well someone needs to loan me a scooter so I can zip to the end already.

GURRRLLLL. I LEARNED NOTHING YOU MAKE ME THINK DEEP IN THIS  HAAHHAHA NO IM JUST KIDDING. I learned that love is not enough when there is not a good communication. and with that relationship i was afraid to tell my feelings or what i really feel because if i’d say it i will hurt her and i ddnt wanted that to happen, i ddnt think much about myself back then because all i thought was her. i learned that u shouldnt push urself to that person if she already told u from the beginning that she just sees u as a friend, thinking now i guess she just gave me a shot, for me, because i wanted her so much that she gave me a chance, that maybe we could work together, or maybe it was hard for her to end things as friends cause she will feel like not a good friend (but we tried,yeah, end things 2/3 times but she end up writing me so my ass feelings felt that “we are meant to be cause she come back” -.-hm bicht no you are just so blinded of love cause you were madly inlove with her, btw its her fault too by the way she writes me, being sweet af lol and because she was the first i was reading that signs sooo bad hahaha but now i learned to read them lmao when someone likes you, you can really tell by how they speak to you, how they really care about you, how they care about your feelings (now im crying cause u know lol) ). i lost myself with her and i dont want to happen that again. i learned that if its hurting you should walk away or like put a stop to it (but you know heart and mind sometimes they dont co work u,u) i learned more but for now thats what. You have to regain that confident back gurl, come on aries !!!!. No i dont see by the way u write me. You are very welcome. absssooorrbb it feeel it hahahaha. it will come aries dont worry :) . sorry for this one-ass-long-i-dont-know-if-this-make-sense reply. :) okay now let me cry all night, hahahahah kidddinggg 

[gg-astrology]

As a fellow 'I eat out of nutella jars too' I would like to tell u HOW WHOLESOME YOUR BLOG IS uwu. Can I know what you think about my Aqua sun and libra moon? thank/love u bye

ksdjnfksn OOOF thank u so much!!! 💕💕💕 I finished that nutella jar btw, i snacked on it for like 3 hours a tiny bit at a time (it was mostly empty anyways so i was scrapping off the sides skdfndk) 💕

[Below Cut: Aquarius Sun - Libra Moon ♎️ ]

I say this a lot for decans, but these people are one of the most well-balanced one out of their group of friends, internally and externally

Like yeah they have their own Shit too, but in terms of Dealing with their actual problems– people really admire them for it (bc most other people are like, weird with ‘woe is me’ kind of thing or not realizing themselves)

They rarely open up to others surprisingly, tend to have a few good close friends who they do (maybe 1-2 that they trust enough to tell their problems to)

Most of the time they just— if people are concerned about their personal/private shit they kind of just shrugs it off like ‘its cool, well not cool but you know its ok– i’ll deal with it’

Doesn’t want to get messy, for some reason they think venting is being Messy

It’s mostly because ‘venting’ implies letting out feelings that doesn’t do anything productive/go nowhere, like yeah it helps others who needs to do it to move on (mostly their fire sign friends). They understand that, so that’s why they’re there for them (with a tissue and calm soulful eyes to be the ‘stability’ in all this). But when it comes to themselves? It’s like they think they won’t gain anything out of venting their frustration bc ‘emotions arent supposed to work that way’ (if it’s not productive)

Thus why they find themselves being the person other people go to to vent to. Because they’re like ‘shrug, this is taking nothing from me im just here to be support’ they might look to saying yes alright to others. 

People might used to think of them as push-overs, but they’re not. It’s because they know they can offer tolerance, acceptance, understanding and support for others. Coupled with gentle reprimanding/encouragement, their advice are productive. But they do so gently like ‘you know what I mean right? I think it’s both of your problem, not just one of you is wrong. This is your responsibility, not mine.’ 

Aquarius is ruled by Saturn after all, they have a keen eye on their friends. Often pulling them in with a quick ‘do you need help? are you ok?’ offering it privately. If the friend doesn’t want to expose their problems in public, they leave it alone (bc they respect that). If their friend bursts out crying, they reel them in and tell the public that they’re ‘taking them away for a bit to calm down and see what the problem is’

They have tact tho like, they understand personal problem is a private thing. They aren’t going to come back and tell the rest of the world what the problem is because they themselves is a rather private person despite being a public personality. They aren’t of the mindset that sharing the problem with the friend-group/majority is going to help the person in question, unless it’s getting really serious/dire and they really do need outside intervention.    

See, beneath all the romanticism and ‘sigh i wish things like that happen to me’ — they have so much experience with helping others that they may tend to forget about themselves. They forget to delve deeper into their subconscious and the lessons they’ve emotionally picked up for others.

This leads them to maybe  subconsciously denying certain emotions they may also feel, certain things become catalogued as ‘messy’ without them realizing it. They think they don’t have/need to go to others for their problems, mostly because they’re used to being the one people go to for help.

If they lose their ‘stability’ then that would affect the group’s dynamic right? What if others who has proved to be ‘less stable’ than them started breaking down too? The overall mayhem and consciousness of the group emotionality/dynamic is what stops them from reaching out to people or letting others help them. They’re afraid to ‘break’ the type-cast of their strong emotional character (fixed sign remember) and thus they tend to underestimate their own emotional needs (’its fine i’ll deal with it)

Some may even have an aversive view to letting themselves show/go through their actual emotions because of this. Learning how to give equal emotionality in their relationships will be important to them, I know they might not like getting ‘vulnerable’ in front of people– but it will help them drastically with their own progression/development. 

Aqua/Libra people (who are still youngings) might even think crying is messy. But this depends on them honestly. The thing is, they might be afraid to show old friends (who they haven’t seen in a while) that they’ve grown and develop, and thus being quite a passive character or trying to reach back into who they were before in order to connect with them (which they will immediately regret later)

These people are optimistic tho, like they have a general positivity about them that they exude consciously. They’re one of those people who’ve probably read ‘the secret’ book by Rhonda Burne back in the days ( a self-help book, actually they read a lot of self-help books) 

They believe in the Law of Attraction– that if they exude positivity, then positivity will come back to them.

This is a teaching they demonstrate to their friends, those who may be feeling down, they do it to help others as well as themselves. They try to remain positive and have a positive influence with people– but in this case, that’s why they don’t expose themselves to others a lot of the time.

The people they open up to though, are people who are quite chill and personal. Like they’re as much of an individual as them, maybe kind of a trail blazer/admirable to them. They understand them, so they trust them to give good solid advice.

Most of the time, it’s understanding and practical answers. Like how they give to other people, these people become their close friends and ones they keep for life– they trust them and depend on them. 

Love their friends to bist, I know this is like cheesy BUT its in the WAY they love/show their love for their friend that’s really the 👌 of Aqua/Libra

Did you know they have sparkly eyes when they are happy/supportive of people? Sometimes it’s like, teasing– soft and gushy (and if you tell them this they’ll try to ‘cure’ it somehow sdknf)

It’s their facial expression that really does people in, they also tend to use like a calming voice for others. Not that they do it consciously, their calming voice is usually panic ridden for stressful situation (exerted consciously) but their normal voice is calming itself is what I mean.

Another thing is, ahh they may be attracted to those who are more ‘active’ – because they have such a strong sense of perception and inner peace. Those who are abit more cardinal (Aries/Capricorn/Cancer) or those with stress tensions (squares) tends to attract them towards those people. 

That’s it for now!! 💕💕 This is quite long but I hope it’s good for you!! ;; 💕💕💕💕 Thank u for dropping by and being so sweet to me aaaah 💕💕💕

[arituzz]

nineteen firsts and one last

-SNOWBAZ-

Summary: It’s Simon’s nineteenth birthday. He’s not expecting anything unusual, just some messages from his tumblr friends. But Baz has different plans.

Word count: 3.7k

Rating: T

Tags: tumblr au, friends to lovers, distant relationship, first meeting

Ari: This is just an edit from last year’s fic, because I didn’t like the format. Happy 20th birthday, Simon ♡

SIMON

I wake up to the doorbell ringing. I look at the clock. 5:59 am. Fuck. Who could it be at this unholy hour? Probably my father, coming back home drunk after a night of partying. Damn, why didn’t he stay in the hotel, as usual?

The doorbell rings again. “I’m fucking coming, dad!” I yell.

I put on some clothes and go to the door. I open it, ready to scowl at my father but, instead, there’s a delivery girl looking at me through her pointy glasses.

“Good morning,” she says. “A packet for Simon Snow.”

“Uhm… that’s me,” I tell her, a little bewildered.

She gives me the packet and makes me sign a paper. I tell her thanks and make to go back inside. “Wait,” I shout before she leaves. “Next time, could you come, I don’t know, in the afternoon? When I’m not sleeping?”

“Sorry, the sender wrote specific instructions to deliver this on 21st June at precisely 5:59 am. He even paid an extra and called the company to make sure we followed the instructions. Sounded rather bitter. I wouldn’t risk my job,” she explains. Ha. Like dying her hair blue wouldn’t risk it. Though, I have to say it looks awesome on her dark skin.

“Oh, in that case… Thanks. Have a nice day,” I wish her.

“See you later!”

I close the door and go to the living room, to open the packet. It’s a basket full of fresh-baked cherry scones and some blocks of butter. There’s a card with a note. It reads:

Some like it hot (page 38)

5:59 am - First breakfast to your door

I’d bring it to your bed if I were there

Baz

(Gampire Chaz to my Craigon Rain)

Oh my God. Baz. Right, it’s my birthday. It’s nice of him that he remembered. Baz is my best friend on tumblr. Well, he is my best friend, period. Although I’ve never met him in person, I feel like we’ve known each other for years. And to think that we used to be at each other’s throats!

When I first read the book A Charmed Life, I became hugely obsessed with its characters—i.e. the protagonist, a half-dragon named Craigon Rain—so I created a tumblr blog to obsess about them. At that time, there were very few people in the fandom: gampire-chaz-loves-craigon-rain (Baz), rainchaz61 (Penny), tape-exists-and-im-glad-for-it (Agatha), trixiethelesbianpixie (Trixie), gampirhys (Rhys), so-noted-rainchaz (Niall), and craigonsnowrain (me). And we were like a little family.

But I hated Baz. And he hated me. We would make stupid competitions to see who had the most notes on their posts. I finally gave up because the fucker draws the most brilliant fanart. So I decided to befriend him and make some projects together.

A smile draws in my face as I eat the delicious over-buttered cherry scones. Just the way I like them.

I grab my cellphone to send a thank you message to Baz.

When I’m done with breakfast, I scroll down my dash on tumblr. No happy birthday message. Well, it’s still early. Not for Baz, though, he lives in England, so it must be the afternoon already.

I decide to watch TV for a while—I have nothing planned for today. The fact is that I don’t really have any friends in real life. I don’t know many people here in Nebraska, and the ones I know are complete idiots. So my plan is to stay in all day and read a freaking lot of Rainchaz fanfiction.

After a while, I turn off the TV and go to tumblr on my laptop. Oh, one notification: gampire-chaz-loves-craigon-rain mentioned you in a post.

I open the link and it’s a beautiful doodle of me and Baz, fighting a chimera—as in one of the book’s scenes. I’ve posted some pics of me before, so he has references. The post says:

“Do it. Fucking unleash. Now.” (page 5)

First doodle of you (and me)

Baz

I hit reblog and add:

“I can’t. It doesn’t work like that.”

BTW it’s fucking WONDERFUL!! tysm <3

I’m reading a smutty Rainchaz fic when the doorbell rings again. It’s not that I’m gay, I just love the characters so much. And the smut is great, I love it. The authors in this fandom are just brilliant.

I look at the clock. 7:59 am. It’s still too early for dad to come and I’m not expecting anyone. (Ever.)

I open the door and the same delivery girl brings another packet, this time smaller.

She smiles at me and says, “You know the procedure.” I sign the paper and she leaves with a “See you later!”

“Later,” I reply.

I go back into the apartment and open the packet. It’s a book. The book. A Charmed Life. I go to the first page and, holy shit, it’s signed by the author! It’s so difficult to get a signed copy, I’ve been trying for months, but the author is not very sociable. She wrote:

To Simon Snow,

May you fight your own battles and forge your own wings.

Cather Avery

Wow. It’s perfect.

There is also a card with a note that reads:

“It’s the good things that’ll drive you mad with missing them.” (page 11)

First signed copy of your favourite book.

(I miss you even though I’ve never met you)

Baz

Jesus Christ. This is the best birthday present of my life. I take a picture of it to post it on tumblr and add: @gampire-chaz-loves-craigon-rain I wish you were here so I could hug you into oblivion! Thank you, best b-day present ever <3

I grab my old copy of A Charmed Life—don’t want to ruin this one—and start running through its pages. With all these gifts I feel like re-reading it. Again. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve read it.

It’s a Young Adult fantasy novel about a very special chosen one. A chosen who doesn’t want to be chosen. Craigon Rain is the last half-human, half-dragon alive. He’s never met his mother—that’s where he got the dragon part. His father wants him to take part in a battle that’s not his own. A battle against the vampires. At first Craigon—the half-dragon—obeys his father’s orders until he meets Gampire Chaz, a teenage vampire who finds himself in the same situation as Craigon, but on opposite ends. The two boys fall in love, defying everything that’s been established by their families and it’s precisely their love the thing that saves them all.

I identify myself quite a lot with Craigon Rain—my name is Simon Snow, see the irony. I never met my mother either and I also think my father is the responsible of everything bad that happens in my life.

Baz identifies himself with the antagonist, Gampire Chaz—only because he’s got brown skin like him, and their middle names rhyme. The moron.

My phones buzzes and I leave the book on the table. Another tumblr notification: gampire-chaz-loves-craigon-rain mentioned you in a post.

I open the link. It’s an aesthetic with six pictures of us—separately, duh—and three pictures with vampires and dragons. It’s beautiful. Under the post, Baz has written:

“Strong. Graceful. Fucking ruthless.” (Page 14)

(You are)

8:59 am - First aesthetic of us!

Baz

I hit reblog and add: This is too much Baz. I can’t even!! tysm <3

I can’t believe any of my tumblr friends—we call ourselves raindrops—has wished me a happy birthday yet. Except Baz, sort of. I mean, he hasn’t said it explicitly. Penny lives in India and Agatha in France, I think they should have posted something by now… Now that I think of it I have no clue where Rhys, Niall and Trixie live… Well, Niall is clearly asian but that doesn’t mean that he lives in Asia. I don’t know.

I’m hungry. Thinking too much makes me hungry. Thinking makes me hungry. I go the kitchen to see if there’s anything to eat.

Nothing. Fuck. I’m gonna have to go buy something.

I go to the closest supermarket and buy some popcorn and a peanut butter cup ice cream. Perfect combination for fanfiction reading.

As I climb the steps to my apartment, I bump into the delivery girl from before.

“Hey, watch out,” she scowls and extends me yet another package.

I sign the paper and tell her, ��later?”

“Later,” she answers, with a smile.

Once I’m inside, I open the packet—the third one today, and it’s only 9:59 am.

There are some papers inside the packet, a photo of a star, I think?

I read the note that Baz has left:

“Twinkle, twinkle little star!” (page 260)

9:59 am - First star

(These are official documents that prove that this star is named after you and is now yours.)

(Sorry I couldn’t give you the Universe, but this is a star-t.)

(Yes, I knew you wouldn’t understand shit of what the papers say.)

Baz

I’m at a loss of words. What the fuck. It must have cost him a fortune. Well, it must have cost his father a fortune. I guess they can afford it.

I send him a message on tumblr: got the star. what the actual fuck? speechless.

And then I add: why arent u replying to any of my posts? u ok?

Right after reading the first fic, halfway through my ice-cream, the doorbell rings again. 10:59 am. I’m guessing it’s not dad, just yet.

I open the door, and a familiar blond haired girl with the most beautiful brown eyes I’ve ever seen is standing there, looking bored.

“Agatha!” I scream.

“Happy birthday, Simon,” she smiles at me and kisses my cheek. “I’ve come to bring you your next gift.” She shows me what seems like a tattooer box.

I know what Agatha looks like and that she’s a professional tattooer. She’s posted several pics on raindrops faces day. And the rest, too. All except Penny. (She says she can’t be bothered to take a selfie.)

“Agatha!” I shout again. I still can’t believe it. “Come in,” I add.

We sit on the sofa and she gives me the next note. It reads:

“Flames and Blazes—The Art of Burning.” (page 203)

10:59 am - First tattoo

(This is a combined gift from Wellbelove and me)

(I made the design and she’s going to tattoo you)

(You actually asked for it, so it’s no surprise)

Agatha shows me the design. It’s a constellation. And there’s fire surrounding it.

“Simon,” she says. “This is going to hurt.”

“It’s wonderful, Agatha,” I say when it’s finished, looking at my back through the mirror. “You could’ve been gentler, though.”

“I was gentle, Simon, believe me,” she replies.

The doorbell rings again. I think that it has rung more in one day than in nineteen years.

“Lunch,” Agatha says, and goes for the door. She opens it. “Hi, Penny,” she says to the delivery girl.

What?

“Penny?” I ask, stupidly.

“Sorry, Simon, it was too fun seeing you all clueless,” she apologizes.

“I am still clueless,” I retort.

She takes me into her arms and gives me a tight hug. “Happy birthday Simon! Let’s have lunch. Where’s the dining room?”

“Uhm, here, in the living room. I eat in the living room.”

“Oh, your note,” Penelope says as she gives me the card.

“Because roast beef and Yorkshire pudding are fucking real as Rain.” (page 84)

11:59 - First roast beef and Yorkshire pudding from Watford

(Because you haven’t eaten real roast beef if it’s not from England)

(And Watford Restaurant serves the best one)

(Enjoy your meal)

Baz

We sit on the sofa and start eating our lunch. I’m so happy. It’s like we do this everyday. But I miss Baz. I miss him so much. Where the fuck is he?

We finish eating and Penny looks at her watch. “It’s 12:59,” she says. “Dessert is here,” she smiles wickedly.

“Open the door, Simon,” Agatha says.

I go for the door and open it.

Baz.

Baz is here. With a cake in his hands.

Baz is here. And I can’t hug him.

“Baz!” I say, grinning widely.

“Hey, Snow, happy birthday,” he says, and hands the cake to me. There’s a card on it, too.

“But he just stood there for as long as he could stand it. I don’t know how he resisted the pull; I felt like my intestines were going to burst out and wrap around him.” (page 167)

12:59 - First meeting

(I’m here.)

Baz

Baz looks like he’s trying to hide the huge smile that’s drawing in his face. But I can see it.

“Fuck, Snow,” he says, finally giving into the smile. “I wanted this to happen at 1:59 pm, but here you go.”

“What?” I ask

He takes out another card from the back pocket of his jeans and reads it.

“Trying not to crack a smile. Page 517.”

Then, he looks at his watch and adds, “ 1:01 pm, first smile. First real life smile from me to you.”

“The presents are getting better,” I say, trying not to smile from ear to ear.

We eat the cake on the sofa. Baz tried to oppose to it, but I don’t really have a table with nice chairs to sit down and chat while drinking tea. I’ve never had anyone come over.

We talk about our lives. Well, they talk about their lives and I listen. And look at Baz. His eyes are prettier than I had imagined. And oh my God, his skin. It reminds me of toffee. It has such an appetizing color it makes me want to taste it.

After a while, Baz leads us downstairs and into a cab that’s parked in front of my building.

The taxi drives for around twenty minutes before it comes to a stop. “We’ve arrived,” the driver anounces.

Baz tips him and gestures us to follow him. We enter a place called The Wavering Wood Cafe.

“Happy birthday!” Rhys, Niall, Trixie and other fellow raindrops I identify from tumblr say at the same time as I go through the door.

“Jesus,” I say. I’m stupefied. A surprise party. For me.

Baz hands me another card and our fingertips brush. He cracks an undecipherable smile and looks away.

I read the note.

“It feels like a party.” (page 40)

2:59 pm - First birthday party

(First of many to come)

Baz

I’m having a great time. It’s so fun talking to all my tumblr friends in real life. I finally got to meet Keris, Trixie’s girlfriend. She always posts pics of them together. (Penny finds it gross.) (But that’s personal. She doesn’t like Trixie.)

I keep giving glances towards Baz’s direction. I don’t know why I can’t stop staring at him.

Suddenly, my phone buzzes. It’s a tumblr post from Baz.

I open the link. It’s a fic. It’s called Snowbaz. Not Rainchaz. I read the summary:

“Because I’m disturbed.” (page 205)

“Ask anyone,”I think out loud, smiling. And then continue reading the summary:

3:59 pm - First fanfiction about us

Baz

I start reading the fic. It’s all fluff and love until the last part. Smut. I read it all. And love every word. Fuck.

I look at Baz. He’s already staring at me. I step towards him.

“Hey, Snow,” he says. “Ever tried a flaming shot?”

“I’m underaged, you know.”

“Not in my country,” he smirks.

“Okay, fine, give me a shot.”

“A flaming shot, Snow,” Baz says. “Here.”

He hands me a small glass of liquor and sets it on fire with a lighter. He does the same with his glass.

“To us,” he says.

“To us,” I reply.

He blows out the fire and drinks all the liquor. I mimic him. Ugh. I grimace.

“Sharing a room with the person you want most is like sharing a room with an open fire,” Baz starts saying, looking directly into my eyes. “He’s constantly drawing you in. And you’re constantly stepping too close. And you know it’s not good—that there is no good—that there’s absolutely nothing that can ever come of it. But you do it anyway. And then…”

“Then you burn,” I finish. God, his eyes are fire.

“Page 177. 4:59 pm, first flaming drink.”

“First drink,” I correct.

He laughs and orders a couple more.

We have a couple more shots and talk about our favorite AUs. We talk more than we drink.

Suddenly Baz looks at his watch, and then back at me. With the same blazing eyes from before. He stays silent, just looking at me, for a moment. He looks hesitant.

I think he’s going to kiss me.

But he doesn’t. He keeps staring. Some minutes pass. I stare at my watch. 6:10 pm. Where’s my 5:59 pm gift?

“Simon…” Baz starts, flaming shot in his hand.

And then I kiss him.

We kiss for a long time. Then I let go and make him reach for me. And we kiss again.

After a while, we break the kiss and smile at each other. I’m grinning. I can’t help it.

“I was going to say You were the sun, and I was crashing into you,” Baz says. “But I guess the best quote for this is And then HE kisses ME.” He can’t hide his grin, either.

“Page 342,” I say. “6:10 pm, first kiss.”

“Shite, what time is it?” He asks, already looking at his watch.

“6:50 pm,” I answer, moronically.

“Let’s go have dinner, Simon. You and me, only.”

“Okay,” I say. And I follow him to the next room.

There’s a small table for two with two candles. It’s always fire with Baz.

We sit down and he takes out another card.

“You smell like something I’d gladly eat, page 421,” he says, staring at my eyes. “6:59 pm, first romantic dinner.”

I blush.

After dinner, we all go to a pub. It’s called The World of Mages.

It’s great and I’m so happy to be surrounded by friends and the person I like. Baz. That’s new. Liking boys. No, not boys. Only Baz. Wanting to kiss him over and over again.

He takes my hand and says, “Want to dance?”

I nod and smile at him. I’m crap at dancing but I don’t care.

Baz puts his hands on my waist and leads me through the song. Queen’s Bohemian Rhapsody.

“I should have known that this is what it would be like to dance with Craigon Rain. Fighting in place. Mutual surrender,” Baz whispers into my ear. “Page 508. 7:59 pm, first dance.”

I place both my arms around his neck and slump into him.

We’re still at the pub. Dancing. Well, at least I’m trying.

“What are we going to do?” I ask him. “You’re going to leave back to England.”

“I know,” he answers with a crack in his voice. “We’ll figure it out, little puff.”

“Baz,” I say. “What’s the next gift? I think I have a better idea.”

“Huh? I was going to take you for a drive…”

“I want to be your boyfriend. Your terrible boyfriend,” I say. “Page 390.”

Baz looks surprised. He places both his hands on my face and kisses me, tenderly. “Of course,” he says. And kisses me again.

“8:59 pm,” I say. “First boyfriend.”

And I kiss him again.

After the pub, we say goodbye to our fellow raindrops. There’s a lot of hugging and kisses on the cheek. God, I’m gonna miss them.

“We have to do this more often,” I say. Even though I’m broke. But I’ll find the money somehow.

They all agree.

Once they’re gone, it’s just me and Baz.

“Let’s go back to my apartment,” I tell him.

“What if your father is there?”

“At this time? Not likely. He must be out, drinking again.”

“Okay,” he says.

We go to my apartment and settle in my room. It’s full of constellations on the walls. Because I love astrology. Hence the tattoo.

“Baz, you haven’t seen it,” I say.

“Seen what?”

“The tattoo, idiot!”

I take my shirt off and show it to him. He places his fingertips on my back and starts tracing it. The touch sends shivers down my spine.

“So beautiful…” Baz says.

I turn around and look at him. I reach for his shirt and take it off. Eyes locked on his. I close the distance and kiss him. And then my hands go down. I can’t stop myself. I kiss every spot of his dark olive skin. And I want more. And I can see that he wants, too.

So I take more. I take it all. And I give it all. To him. To Baz.

“Because we match,” I say after a while. My head is resting on Baz’s chest. Our fingers laced. “Page 420.” I look at my watch. “10:58 pm, first time.”

“When did you start giving yourself birthday presents?” Baz asks.

“I think it was when I did this,” I answer. And I kiss him.

“God, I love you, Simon Snow.”

“I love you, Baz.”

“Fell in love, didn’t you?” He smiles.

“10:59 pm, first I love you,” I say.

I go with Baz to the airport. I’m sad that he has to go. But I’m happy that he came. And he’s going to move to the States with his aunt, Fiona, next year. So I just have to wait for a year. And I’m going to visit him soon. Maybe for his birthday.

He looks at me with watery eyes. He holds my hand so hard it hurts a little.

“I’ll come to England, in a couple of months,” I reassure him. “And then you’ll come back. We’ll be seeing each other a lot. You won’t get rid of me that easily.”

“When I come to live in America with Fiona, I’m going to haunt your door day and night.”

There’s a shout for all the passengers of the flight to Southampton Airport.

Baz kisses me, before letting go.

“Goodbye, Simon,” he says. “This is a first and a last goodbye. Because the next time I see you, I won’t let you go for anything in the world.”

“Go on, then,” I say. “Carry on, Baz.”

-FIN-

[monsterpie]

My thoughts on Electrified

Under the cut!

Here’s the link on Kisscartoon to watch Electrified btw!

 Why did the let Moanica go to their school.... Did they not think that through?

 Twyla is as precious as ever 

Mayhaps a concert is not the best place to take an introvert, hmm?

The song Moanica and the zomboys played in the library was honestly so....good and catchy omg

Give me a Silvi sig or give me death

 Why... are there.... pauses... between everything Twyla....says...

Webby is so precious

draculaura doesnt do ‘baby steps’

cleo is acually the heir to a construction company

ari what the helll

is twyla supposed to be the same age as the main ghouls now??

ive got to admit that the animation for the rain on the ghouls/when theyre wet is really good

nice to know the zomboys can run and they still look like nerds doing it lol

why doesnt twyla stay in the shadows the entire time shes investigating

give us blue green iridescent skin frankie

honestly the skelebros/bone bros are so perfect

u can see the scales on deuces snakes and thats good

so if frankie is told what to think about hwen manipulating the lightning to make the dress patterns.... and she made the heart on lala’s dress without any prompting... was she thinking about a certain crush of hers??

raythe use your words and also your voice sounds so much like deuce

the way they animated znap is soooo coool omg

how did they build a cavern with NO SUPPORT BEAMS underneath the salon without the salon floor caving in? cleo wouldnt have let this happen.

“professor dracula” nice to know even moanica is worried about figures of authority and calling them by respectable names still

if moanica was like basically psyched to kill the normies in the first movie and now she just wants to scare them... what theheck.... she could use that electricity to set up a volt field and kill a whole horde of normies but like... whatever

also her hair is so cute when its not handing over her face

frankie sounds like a drang 8 year old and i cant get over it she sounds TOO YOUNG

okay but when moanica is being sweet to the zomboys thats so precious

‘heavy metal’ ‘monster alternative’ ‘goth rock’ ‘smooth jazz’ let wooly/woolie decide literally everything

clawdeen frankie and draculaura are all dating together thanks 

did it seriosuly not feel like a trick walking into a deserted cavern that was previously hustling and bustling and overflowing with zomboys

“i think you ruined my project!” yeah thats.... thats the important thing....

raythe and deuce please stop talking 

ok u got a point rayhe.... where are your (and deuce and the skelebros) electric outfits at

do u really think thats enough refreshments for hundreds of people on the salons opening night....

frankie has so much electricity in her body she could straight up electrocute some hundreds of people

who wants to bet the normies are going to think this is all just some cool trick

“under the cover of perpetual darkness” u know that.... the sun comes out....

salt in ur sugar bowls and ur shoelaces tied together?? how terrible

did the main ghouls forget that they have powers or?>?>

that same normie was at the salon was he seriously not worried about the zomboys like...

yeah lets put more elctricity into frankie

cant believe frankie is actually a hummingbird

now we can see the electric tribbles (which would be a better name for the band than all the rest of the stuff they said)

the zomboy using tp as binoculars is so cute and honestly all of them are so cute 

so we r still gonna let moanica and the zomboys back to school again... serriously

zombeautification omfg

how do u even propose keeping the salon open i mean.... u have school... no time for a salon??

boom, i knew they would all think it was part of the opening.. not like it took a genius lol

the electrified song is also good

lets just keep shocking the zombies.... 

twyla and ari have the same voice actor! huh

okay so final thoughts: it was cute but not really groundbreaking or even especially memorable.... not even moanica was as hardcore/badass as in the first movie. its cute, and i dont regret watching it, but it isnt something i would go out of my way to watch. (still gonna buy it tho to support the brand, esp since i watched it online  👀 👀 👀 👀 👀 👀 )

[seventeentrash17]

Alphabet tag!

Rule: copy and paste a-z questions, answer them and then tag 10 people! 

Thank you, @thespacesbetweentrees for tagging me! It was fun to do it :)

A (age): 18, turning 19 in April:) 

B (biggest fear): Failure, never leave my hometown, deep water and clowns

C (current time): 1:35pm

D (drink you last had): Coffee:)

E (easiest person to talk to): My brother or my male bestfriend!

F (favorite song): omg, I have so many: Happen ending- Epik High, 12:30 BEAST, Selene 6.23 - SHINee, Heaven - EXO, Crossroad - Jo kwon, Can't see the end/Don't listen/Simple/20 - Seventeen and Narcissus - Heechul :)

G (grossest moment): I saw and did a lot of gross things on my microbiology class, like really disgusting things, but it was really fun! :D

H (horror yes, horror no): Yes. I love it! But I get scared easily tbh

I (in love with): I have a crush, but my true love is Jihoon my precious dog:)

J (jealous of): Confident and beautiful people, I’m just a mess

K (killed someone): Not... yet(?)

L (love at first sight or should I walk by again): Walk by again?

M (middle name): Yasbeth,it’s weird but I like it

N (number of siblings):  Just the one, my younger brother

O (one wish): Happiness and be proud of myself

P (person you called last): My dad, I think?

Q (question you’ve always been asked): Why do you always wear black?, are you lesbian? or are you mad at me? I just have resting bitch face, I’m bi and I like black, that’s it.

R (reasons to smile): Lately, just Seventeen and my pets.

S (song you last sang): Fast pace - Seventeen:)

T (time you woke up): 3 pm? I stay awake all night and sleep through the day

U (underwear color): White and pink

V (vacation destination): Tokyo, Bali, Cabo San Lucas and Jeju, I live by the beach and I just love the sea (even if you don't know how to swim lol)

W (worst habit): Overthinking, bitting my nails, cracking my knuckles and being too direct

X (X-rays I’ve had): Dental x-ray 

Y (your favorite foods): Pizza, pasta and of course mexican food ( but real mexican food)

Z (zodiac): Aries:) 

I don’t know who should I tag so...

@woozioppa (Hi! I love your blog btw) @woozi-ble (Hi, again!) @svt-woo (Hi!)  @sm17esforever (Hi!) and anyone else who wants to do it but you don’t have to if you don’t want to. :)