#bros lonely don’t judge

[poorkaykay]

i like to think steve would’ve picked up like a TON of useless hobbies from like season 2-3 because he has basically no friends (other than the kids) and no social standing so he would get into like cooking, baking, crochet, knit, etc basically like old lady things cuz he saw some of that stuff in his house that was his moms and was bored out of his mind

[diorsluv]

feather , part 1

“ not another take ”

series m. list next chapter

( socialmedia!au )

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liked by _quinnhughes, markestapa, luca.fantilli, and 78,682 others

yourusername after 19 years of being my brother, jamie still takes the worst photos

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jamie.drysdale I WAS TAKING 50 PICS PER SECOND.

→ yourusername AND I WASN’T READY FOR ANY OF THEM.

→ jamie.drysdale you’re so ungrateful

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trevorzegras is he ruining your trip?

→ yourusername oh my god he’s been annoying me nonstop for the past theee days

→ jamie.drysdale stop spreading rumors

→ yourusername YOU WOKE ME UP AT FOUR IN THE MORNING TO ASK ME IF I WANTED MCDONALDS FOR LUNCH

→ jamie.drysdale THE EARLY BIRD GETS THE WORM

username4 ur so stunning

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markestapa come back to michigan we miss you 😞

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→ yourusername idk who “he” is markie, ur gonna have to specify 🤔🤔

→ edwards.73 he’s WHINING

→ dylanduke25 he just collapsed onto the ground

→ mackie.samo i can hear him crying from the other side of the yost

→ jamie.drysdale WHO IS “HE”??? yourusername DO YOU KNOW WHO “HE” IS??? WHY DOES HE MISS YOU HELLO?

→ yourusername calm ur tits bro ✋

username1 what’s going on in mark’s replies..

lhughes_06 when are you coming back 🙏

lhughes_06 leave cali and come back 🙏

lhughes_06 imysm please come back to michigan 🙏

lhughes_06 i’m so lonely without you i need you to come back 🙏

lhughes_06 THOSE COMMENTS WERE NOT ME I SWEAR

→ yourusername awww i can’t believe you missed me that much

→ lhughes_06 NO PLEASE RUT STOLE MY PHONE YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE ME

→ rutgermcgroarty dude i’m deathly sick rn i physically cannot have stolen his phone

→ jackhughes aw moosey long distance isn’t working?

→ lhughes_06 WHY ARE YOU TARGETTING ME WHAT DID I DO

_quinnhughes are you flying up here when we play the ducks?

→ yourusername YOU KNOW IT

→ jamie.drysdale i’m trying to convince her not to i promise

→ yourusername i wouldn’t miss a chance to spend time with my huggy wuggy bear

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username29 jamie’s an amazing photographer

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username93 LUKE’S COMMENTS LMAOOO

→ yourusername he wants me to clarify that it “wasn’t him” (you shouldn’t believe him)

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mackie.samo how come i wasn’t invited 🙁

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→ mackie.samo it’s okay we can still have our annual cookie baking session

→ rutgermcgroarty COOKIES?? CAN I JOIN

→ mackie.samo NO it’s us two only 😠

→ yourusername mack’s the boss, sorry rut

username47 tag yourself i’m the skeleton mark’s hugging

→ username22 how’d you know it’s mark wtf

→ username90 i’m the yellow glasses ethan’s wearing

jamie.drysdale of course you go and do this as soon as you get back

→ yourusername DON’T JUDGE

adamfantilli luca’s the second right one on the right photo isn’t he..

→ yourusername YES HOW’D YOU KNOW??

→ adamfantilli i could smell the stupidity

→ luca.fantilli WOAH WOAH?? WHAT DID I DO?

→ yourusername FANTILLI FIGHT ⁉️⁉️

→ adamfantilli mom got mad at me because YOU left the house messy before we left to catch our flight

→ luca.fantilli your room was the only messy room in the house stop lying

username65 friend group goals

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trevorzegras come back and watch us play lil drizzy ❤️

→ yourusername first of all never call me lil drizzy again

→ yourusername second of all i’m going to the nucks game when you play BE PATIENT 🙄

next chapter notes ) this was actually so fun to make im excited to make moreeee 🫣 also the official nickname is drizzle i’m calling it rn bc drysdale=drizzle=drizzy=drizz AND I KNOW IT SOUNDS STUPID BUT I SWEAR YOU WILL COME TO LOVE IT

[brattylikestoeat]

Outside of 3 states, women own more homes than men. I read the article and the article says single women, women who haven’t been married.

So why I read the comments and all the men are crying divorce. “She got the home in the divorce!!!”

So they didn’t read the article, but I don’t expect men to.

But let’s address. If the home is in both names, she doesn’t just automatically get the house.

If the married couple has kids, the male is more likely to move out. Why? Because no one wants to uproot their kids from the everyday normal, a divorce is hard enough but imagine kicking your kids out too.

So the male leaves, wife and kids stay at home. When the divorce finalizes, they have two options with the home.

Sell the home and split the profit or give asset over to one party.

But a lot of things come into play and a judge will never give the woman the home just because she is a woman. So to assume a woman owns a home because she divorced someone is crazy.

It’s part of the male delusion that is driving men crazy these days. They assume we all do onlyfans when in reality women have higher paying jobs and make more money than ever.

They assume we all are fucking 50 men a night, when in reality most women are single as hell and want to stay that way. And this part is crazy to me, since men won’t shut up about the male loneliness epidemic.

I don’t think gender wars are going to ever get better for the simple fact that most men refuse to evolve. The days of you just getting a woman because you are a “good guy” with a job are long gone. It takes a lot more to bag most women these days. A lot of men are not kind, very mean spirited, don’t want to offer anything but dick and problems.

Why would a woman sign up for that? She makes good money on her own, have meaningful relationships, a community of friends.

Men tell women we are undateable but complain they are lonely. You’ve deemed more than 75% of the women population not worthy of being with. Women with degrees, women who travel, women who own homes, women with kids, women with more than 2 sexual partners, women with social media, women with male friends, women with pets. I could go on, but redpill has said all these women are undateable.

You deserve to be lonely, and I hope your bros keep you warm at night.

[merakiui]

Hear me out Mera.... STEP BRO IDIA!!!!

He is so nasty and grimy! Ew! He finally gets to fulfil his nasty hentai fantasies with a cute lil sis who will call him "onii-chan". He desperately tries to convince himself that this isn't disgusting because you two aren't related, but he dresses you up with so many disgusting outfits, your parents just assume that it's "cute sibling bonding" because they're 'normies'.

He forces you to call him onii-chan and disgusting weeby things. He makes you watch hentai with him while he plays with you. He puts his 'imouto' on weird sex machines he makes as a tribute to his favourite hentais.

Nasty nasty! If you try talk to Ortho about it, Idia programmed Ortho to malfunction and turn off when you interact with him, so help is not an option.

OMG OMG YES…… slimy, nasty, disgusting step-brother Idia!!!! You’re the only girl he’s ever talked to, aside from his own mother, so naturally when you’re right at his fingertips, so accessible and always just down the hall, it’s hard to not see opportunity at its every angle. You’re the first real, 3D girl he’s ever had these thoughts about, which is strange for him because he’s always been so against 3D. But you’re cute and sweet and you don’t judge him as fiercely as he thinks others might if he steps outside of his room… It doesn’t matter if the two of you are the same age; he’ll still want to be called nii-chan because it sounds so cute coming from your lips, and he giggles and grins each time you shakily say it.

You’re dressed in all sorts of things. Idia says it’s cosplay, but can this really count if most of the outfits feel more like skimpy lingerie? You’re dressed like a maid, a succubus, a hucow, a schoolgirl, a catgirl, and so on. Idia takes too many pictures of you, and you feel incredibly awkward each time (especially when he boldly insists on snapping panty shots because of course he’s also made sure you’re wearing panties that fit his tastes).

I think the first time Idia sees your pussy his brain does,,,, a mental reset and trips over itself because wow this is what 3D pussy is like??????? :0 he’s such a loser… he’s gone as far as fingering you, mirroring the movements in a hentai he’ll put on for you to watch while he’s spreading you open, but he’s never actually fucked you before. He lets machines do the work instead, and they fuck you for hours while Idia grinds dungeons with Muscle Red, his headphones tuning out your gasps and desperate pleas for him to turn it off (or turn up the intensity depending on how mind broken you are). It gets incredibly lonely on the Island of Woe, so you keep Idia plenty company in…unorthodox ways. He tries all sorts of sex toys and machines on you; you’re like his little lab rat.

Maybe he even considers whoring you out to Azul while he’s at NRC (because he also convinced Crowley to let him bring you <3) so he can get footage of real-life tentacle hentai. >:) if Azul’s not up to it, the twins will indulge Idia and his monsterfucking fantasies, but they can’t (and won’t) promise you won’t be knocked up by the end of it. And maybe STYX Idia makes you get fucked by simulations of the Overblots or he lets you get fucked by some Phantoms and and and OOOOOO orz

[pile-of-secrets]

HI! IM PUTTING MY CASTLEVANIA SEASON 3 EPISODE 9 (and a little of episode 10) THOUGHTS INTO THE WORLD! HERES YOUR SPOILER WARNING NOW!!

oh my god, ok, so. The absolute MADNESS of this episode starts LESS THAN 4 MINUTES IN TO A 28 MINUTE LONG EPISODE. That’s 24 whole minutes of death defining battles and really controlling s3x.

I mean like, the fights were really cool, they were interesting to watch, ISAAC? Bro that’s insane, I really liked the whole mind control concept that town had, I also don’t think the wizard spoke a word the whole time which was an interesting dynamic for a fight. Isaac breaking out of the mind control is like WOO GO ISAAC. But by far, (and yes im aware this was SUPPOSED to be serious) I found all the people slo-mo falling from the building quite funny for some reason?? I guess it was just unexpected.

Then there’s the whole alucard situation, SUMI AND TAKA? WHAT THE FUCK GUYS? YOU WERE GOOD CHARACTERS HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? WHEN DID THINGS CHANGE?? they were genuinely enjoyable, alucard seemed SAD he genuinely seemed like he wanted them to stay as long as possible! THEY COULD SEE HE WAS LONELY 😭 AND THEY USED IT AGAINST HIM! They basically seduced him, tied him up, TRIED TO KILL HIM. And died. They deserved to die hurting the poor dude like that. Alucard has scars everywhere now and I feel so bad for himmm

Trevor and sypha, good lord. POINT 1: SYPHA WAS RIGHT. SHE SAID, “do you think we can wait?” AND JUDGE BEING DUMBBB went “this is my town. You will do as I say >:(“ AND IT MAKES ME SO MAD! SHE CANT DO ANYTHING AND SHE KNOWSSS. “I just didn’t see it” GRAH POINT 2: that WHOLE fight, oh my god, the FIRE the MONSTERS PRIOR “DRUGLORD” SALA. The whole thing was constructed really well, AND SEEING DRACULA AND LISA. AFTER THE END OF EPISODE 9 IT ALMOST MADE ME THINK IT WAS ALUCARD THEY WERE SEEING. JEEZ IT WAS CONSTRUCTED WELL.

And lastly, my dear wife Lenore, I love her with all my heart BUT WHAT A TWISTED WOMAN?? OH MY GOD POOR HECTOR. IN THE BEGINNING I THOUGHT “oh this has to be more consensual than what’s going on with alucard, she’s probably just Seducing him 🤷‍♀️” WRONG. THE SLAVE RING? THAT LOOKS LIKE IT HURT. AND ALL THEIR SCENES I FEEL LIKE ARE WILDLY MORE REVEALING THAN ANYTHING WITH ALUCARD. BUT SERIOUSLY, That whole plan was really pulled off SO WELL she did a very good job of keeping her own face while KNOWING exactly what she was doing every step of the way. All in all this whole episode pulls together really well into a shamble of absolute terror. And I love it.

[rreskk]

First drinks

Summary: Back in the Midwest, a broke thief and criminal had found himself drinking with a lonely, abnormal Canadian drifter after an unusual... Interaction.

Pairings: Michael Townley/ Trevor Philips

Word count: 668

“So…” Michael, having no appetite for the pint of beer in front of him, tried to make conversation.

He had been sitting there uncomfortably as he watched this guy – A fellow Canadian – down a few glasses of spirits even though they both just threw up in the public toilets not even 5 minutes up the road. The stranger was fascinating… He had these creepy, brown eyes that had pupils so dysfunctional. Every time Michael dared looked into those eyes, he swore them black pearls would increase in size and it freaked him out.

“Not thirsty?” The man finally spoke after minutes of being dead silent.

“Not really.”

The stranger looked conflicted. His face was unique. A good couple of facial scars, bushy eyebrows, a growing stubble and manic, overgrown hair; an unusual mixture between mohawk and mangled mullet. Whether or not it was styled, it oddly suited him.

“You said you were called Michael?”

“Yeah… Michael Townley.”

“Ah, Townley. Mind if I called you Mikey instead?”

“Sure, I don’t care.” He responded with a quiet voice, letting the background music disturb the tension.

“So, Mikey, what were you doing with that turd back there?” The stranger questioned as he downed another shot.

Michael paused for a moment. What was I doing? He’d think before answering with short lies.

“Drifting.”

“Oh!” He had peaked the interest of the man opposite, “You’re a drifter as well? So am I. I’ve just been causing shit load of mayhem across the border. No place in mind. You?”

Fuck, he cursed to himself. Why did he have to give such an open lie? He was left to ponder only the truth.

“Nah… I’m not a… Drifter. I was just hoping to, uh, you know…”

“Hoping to what?”

“The usual… Steal and shit. I- I just didn’t expect you to shoot him in the head with a… Flare-gun?” He muttered.

“The guy was an ass anyway.”

Michael breathed out in relief. He adjusted the winter jacket around him and felt the Midwest cold get to him, even through the lively bar.

“You wouldn’t be cold if you’d drink up, Townley.”

He stared towards the Canadian and sighed. Maybe he’s right, and with that, he took a couple of sips before realising he hadn’t of asked for a name.

“Oh, hah, what’s your name? If you don’t mind me asking.”

“I was waitin’ for you to ask,” The guy smirked, “I thought you were too shy to ask. I’m Trevor Philips.”

“Trevor… Well, it’s nice to meet you… Under the circumstances.”

“You best believe it, buddy. That’s how good friendships start, ay.” Trevor murmured, his accent getting stronger at the end.

“If you say so.”

“So you steal?” He’d continue raiding the conversation with his big mouth, “What sorta stuff? Gas stations or are you a proper lad who robs banks? I’m gonna be honest, Mikey, ain’t no good robber gets chased by some lanky American scumbag to my cargo plane.”

“Woah, don’t be so fast to judge, bro. He was on my ass big time.” Michael frowned at his bluntness.

“The cunt couldn’t walk faster than 10mp.”

“I played soccer in high-school, I know what fast is.”

“Really?” Trevor snickered, “Oh, I played hockey in high-school but you don’t see me braggin’ about it when I’m in my late 20s, ay?”

“Whatever…” He rolled his eyes and sipped more of his beer.

“You’re a cool guy, Mikey. Remind me to keep in touch after this. I wouldn’t mind rolling around with your stupid circus show on the run.”

Michael raised an eyebrow at Trevor. He can’t be serious, right? His mind was puzzled at this request. He barely earned enough to live at a motel room for a week and this random guy wants to join the game like it’s nothing?

Fuck… He must be batshit insane.

“I guess I could use a partner.” He mumbled, hiding his surprise.

Mr Philips nodded his head and lifted his glass, “You won’t be disappointed, bro. Cheers.”

[cherryluvrx3]

meat lovers amirite??

Dave Strider x Reader x Karkat Vantas

Chapter 6

[masterlist]

It’s the next day and Dave hadn’t texted me since yesterday. Part of me wanted to ask if I made him uncomfortable with insinuating he was gay (he totally is) but at the same time I didn’t wanna bother him. Or cause another insecure freak out.

Still, I was worried. After all, this is the guy I’m trying to woo and romance, it’d suck if I scared him off already.

I sigh dramatically for the upteenthed time and lean my head on Gamzee’s shoulder.

“Okay! We get it, you’re miserable! We heard you the first sigh.” Terezi complained from her seat across from me at the table we sat.

“And you have yet to ask me what’s wrong! Some friends you are.” I huffed.

“Okay what’s the motherfuckin’ issue?” Gamzee asked not looking up from his phone. I sigh dramatically once again, “ I don’t wanna talk about it.. ” I mutter in faux mysteriousness that they both seem to not care for.

..

…

….

…..

“Okay I’ll tell you! So I know it’s only been one day but I can’t help but feel I bombed that first convo with Dave..” I explain, finally sitting up straight in my seat.

Terezi sighed and rested her head into the palm of her hand. “Hmm.. I can’t help but think you’re being a little…. dramatic ?” She said with a skeptical raised brow.

I gasp, “ Dramatic!? Me ? I would never .” I joke.

“Well, if we bein’ real then yeah. I mean it was just the first motherfuckin’ convo.” Gamzee spoke half paying attention.

“I guess.. But like, I feel like I was being a little dry. I mean Dave’s such a cool guy he’s probably got way cooler people to talk to and I spent a vital first impression on not showing him how cool I am- because I’m totally cool right!? Like way cooler than at first glance right!?” I frantically look between the both of them for validation but receive nothing but judging side eyes.

“You guys can at least feed into my delusions y’know…” I slump into my seat with a pout.

“Well unfortunately for you, I am immensely tired from devious 3 AM activities that I will not name so I have neither the time nor the energy to feed your gluttonous delusions. We have a substitute teacher this period so I am going to take a nap, thank you.” Is all Terezi says before she slips to the floor and lays down, head resting on a bundled up sweater.

I look to Gamzee, he looks to me. We look at each other. As I begin to open my mouth he shakes his head solemnly, no … and slowly goes back to texting who I assume is Tavros.

I sit, dejected and abandoned by these supposed “for lifers.”

I twiddle my thumbs for a bit then drum my fingers on the desk.

Wow, I feel like a loser.

My phone buzzes in my pocket, It’s a text from Dave.

A TEXT FROM DAVE?

I look around expecting some sort of reaction as if either of them are able to see my phone.

I open his message- after waiting a few seconds, to not seem desperate obviously.

Pizza Dave

-sup

-wyd

Me

-Oh nothing just sitting in this chemistry class abandoned by my friends who would rather sleep and text their boyfriend

Pizza Dave

-damn sucks lol

-now ya know how I felt

Me

-Idk bout that chief

-Wouldn’t really call this feeling jealousy ha

-but wyd?

Pizza Dave

-I already said I wasn’t jealous that would be weird

-but I’m in math bored asf

-I know like no one in this class and ain’t really up for making friends with em

-don’t think we’d be able to vibe

-or that they’re open for vibing in the first place

Me

-Oh you don’t have John or Karkat in that class?

-They’re like the only friends of yours that I know tbh

Pizza Dave

-nopee

-I’m in honors math

-cuz I’m soooo smart

-they got regulars math so I’m all alone

-I finished my work already so m just sittin here

-lonely n bored

-n hungry

-got lunch next period

Me

-Oh me too

-School lunches aren’t that good tho

-U be eating that shit bro? 😭

Pizza Dave

-nahh

-ur right

-foods ass

Me

-nah dude don’t lie u be straight gobbling that shit huh

-licking the plate and everything

-own up to it

Pizza Dave

-no seriously 💀

-usually I bring a snack or something to hold me through the school day

-but me and kat r gonna go out to eat lunch

Me

-Whatttt

-Your school lets y’all get lunch from outside?

Pizza Dave

-nah we just sneak out lol

Me

-Damn maybe I should do that

-The lunches here aren’t good either I usually just eat whatever fruit they got

Pizza Dave

-u wanna come?

-we going panda express

-think it’s pretty close to ur school

Me

-Uhhhhhh

I want to go. I want to hang out with him! And Karkat, can’t forget he’s gonna be there too. So it’s not like I can have one on one time with him but maybe it would be better that way? The less awkwardness between us the better.

Pizza Dave

-u scared of getting caught?

Me

-No

I am. A bit.

I mean I’ve only snuck out once with Roxy but we just went to a corner store down the street and back. I guess I can just ask Nepeta to open the door for me at one of the back entrances like last time since she has class on the first floor after lunch again.

Me

-Okay I’ll go

Pizza Dave

-bet

-I’ll let kat know

-he gets fussy with sudden plan changes lol

Me

-Hehe fussy is a cute word

Pizza Dave

-ikr

-bros an absolute cutie patootie

-but yappy

-like a chuhuawa

-chihiuaua

-however tf u spell chiwawa

Me

-Chihuahua

Pizza Dave

-okay big guy so you know words n shit

-I’m in honors math not english for a reason

Me

-Whatevaaaaa

-Byee I’ll see y’all then :p class about to end

Pizza Dave

-bet

I’m so excited I know I’m smiling hard like an idiot but I couldn’t care less. I check my backpack and luckily I have enough money with me to buy my lunch. As I turn my head I notice Gamzee’s been staring at me for some while now.

“Uh..?” “So I’m guessin’ you got some good news lil’ mama?” Gamzee asks, picking up my phone and putting in the password he already knew to snoop through the messages.

“Oh now you care?” I cross my arms and he doesn't respond as he reads the texts.

“I’d say good luck on your date but it looks like you got a third wheel- or maybe you’re the motherfuckin’ third wheel?” He teased and tossed my phone back to me.

“Yeah but I mean Karkat’s cool- Kat is Karkat by the way.” I say and start packing up to go.

“Oh really? Tell the guy I said hi.” Gamzee chuckled as he went over to Terezi, lightly kicking her awake. She shot up and banged her head on the table, grumbling as she stood up and stretched.

“Kay but could you do me a favor and tell everyone else at lunch? I don’t feel like getting a barrage of questions asking where I am.” I laughed as the bell rang and we started to walk out the door.

“hUh..?” Terezi asked, still confused from her brief but deep nap.

“Aight I will- tell ya in a bit.” He told Terezi as he dragged her stumbling body off to the lunchroom.

I quickly ran down the stairs and headed to one of the back entrances of the school that no one really went by.

I did a quick look around to make sure the coast was clear before opening the door as silently as I could and dashing out the door. I ran down the block before stopping, I don’t think the security guards would give chase but if they did, the walk of shame back to school would’ve been so embarrassing I’d just drop dead instead.

I hadn’t been to the Panda Express Dave was talking about so I put in the location in maps to get the directions before heading over and Dave was right, it was pretty close.

I pushed the door open and looked around but they weren’t here yet. I mean, since their school is a little farther from here it’d probably take them a bit longer so I just ordered and waited.

Not long after sitting down I could see them crossing the street, the light about to change and Karkat aggressively shoving an incredibly unconcerned Dave forward so they could hurry and get to the other side. I chuckle to myself as they come in, Karkat complaining.

“Jeez, do you think we have all the time in the world!? Or do you just not care if you become roadkill!?” He yelled.

“A car would never run me over. I’d just stop it with my bare hands like a man.” Dave said as they walked over to where I sat.

“Sup.” He nodded to me coolly

I let out a strangled hi, embarrassing , and Karkat just grumbled a hey to acknowledge my existence before sitting down.

Yeesh, guess he’s still on edge.

But I’ll make sure he warms up to me too!

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remember when I warned about background ships? gamz x tavros is one of em !!! This chapter still isn't that interesting or long but :p

[popentertainment-moviereviews]

JOKER: FOLIE Á DEUX (2024)

Starring Joaquin Phoenix, Lady Gaga, Brendan Gleeson, Catherine Keener, Zazie Beetz, Harry Lawtey, Steve Coogan, Ken Leung, Bill Smitrovich, Jacob Lofland, Leigh Gill, Sharon Washington, Gattlin Griffith, Mac Brandt, Tim Dillon, George Carroll, Mike Houston, John Lacy, Sam Wren Vincent, Troy Metcalf, Jimmy Walker Jr., G.L. McQueary and Brian Donahue.

Screenplay by Scott Silver & Todd Phillips.

Directed by Todd Phillips.

Distributed by Warner Bros. Pictures. 138 minutes. Rated R.

I know I’m kind of in the minority on this point, but I can’t even start to tell you how much I hated Todd Phillips’ 2019 movie Joker.

Five years later, here comes the follow-up, and it’s like Phillips said to himself: Hmm… how can we make this story even more annoying? I know! Let’s make it a musical. Better yet, let’s not even completely commit fully to the genre and make it sort of a stealth musical. The cast will start singing inappropriately, but mostly in a relatively subdued manner. None of the other trappings of the style – the dancing, the frenetic movement, the wild visuals, the boisterous chorus lines – need to be used. And we won’t even write our own music, we’ll just dust off some 60s and 70s pop songs and overly familiar standards from the Great American Songbook.

On the plus side, this time around, I don’t think I’ll be all that lonely in hating Joker: Folie à Deux. Because I really, really did hate it. If possible, this sequel is even more unbearable than the original. Imagine that.

I can’t imagine anyone actually liking Joker: Folie à Deux – then again, I felt that way about the first one, too, so maybe I’m not the best judge. Nonetheless, early buzz on the sequel seems pretty negative, so hopefully it’s not just me.

I take no joy in saying that. I actually was rather looking forward to the original Joker movie until I saw it. Because the truth is, Batman is a relatively dull superhero, but the one thing he always did have going for himself were the best villains. And a movie about arguably the most interesting of Batman’s villains could be amazing.

It’s just not this series.

At least the first Joker had something of a storyline. Granted, it was a pretty blatant rip-off of Martin Scorsese’s 1983 cult favorite The King of Comedy – they even cast that film’s star Robert De Niro in a major supporting role to make the connection even more obvious – but it was something of a plot.

Joker: Folie à Deux, on the other hand, is nearly two and a half hours (!!!) of Arthur Fleck (Joaquin Phoenix) being psychoanalyzed and mistreated in an insane asylum. (Like we didn’t know he was mentally deranged from the first time he appeared on screen in the first film.) Then it switches to being a courtroom drama about Arthur’s criminal trial for the mayhem he committed in the first film, although it plays out like an episode of Law & Order: Super Villains Unit.

While in the asylum, he meets his one true love, Lee Quinzel, who becomes Harley Quinn. (Of course, in the first Joker movie, Arthur imagined Zazie Beetz’ character – who reappears here as a witness for the prosecution – was his one true love, so Arthur isn’t too reliable in matters of the heart.) Lady Gaga is okay, if way too subdued, as the future Harley. She certainly won’t make anyone forget Margot Robbie’s powerhouse performances in the same role.

My biggest problem with Joker: Folie à Deux is the same as my problem with the first film. In both of these films, the Joker is played as a sad, pathetic, miserable loser who has life take a massive dump on him throughout the entire running time. Is this really supposed to be the guy who is going to be Batman’s greatest nemesis?

At least in the original film, Arthur eventually snapped and went on a violent killing spree, which was not a great, moral or relatable storyline, but at least he did something. In Folie à Deux, any violence or mayhem which he commits is mostly done in fantasy sequences, which just makes him seem even sadder and more impotent in real life.

After it was over, someone who apparently enjoyed the movie much more than I did tried to convince me that Folie à Deux is a movie that shows the depths a man will go to for love. However, his relationship with Lee is so dysfunctional, so toxic, so driven by mania, that it’s hard to root for a happy ever after for these two crazy kids. They – and the world – are probably better off with them separate. We know that is not the case from the comics, although the ending does put that in doubt.

As I said in the original review five years ago, Joker has been known to inspire many complicated emotional reactions. Pity has never really been one of them.

However, even more than I pitied the Joker in these two movies, I mostly pity myself because I have now wasted about four and a half hours of my life watching this sad saga.

Jay S. Jacobs

Copyright ©2024 PopEntertainment.com. All rights reserved. Posted: October 3, 2024.

[dashawns-world]

Escaflowne the Movie (2000)

I’m probably dating myself immediately by choosing this movie, but it’s what came to mind after a joint last night. I recommend watching (at least) the opening scene of this film up until the title comes on at around 5:20. You can watch it here. I will spoil the movie, though, so here’s your warning. Also, this movie deals with heavy themes such as depression and nihilism. If that isn’t your thing, run awaaaay!

Where was I? Oh, right- 

So, why this movie? Well, let me paint a lil’ picture for you. (With words, I don’t wanna paint rn, sorry.) 

I was 10 or 11 when Escaflowne came on TV one night, I think. (This painting sucks, leave me alone.)  I remember it being faaairly late, and I was fiending for anything with the vibe of Dragon Ball or Cowboy Bebop. Though I didn’t know it at the time, it was anime that I wanted to watch. I felt like a cool grown-up watching them because they had violence and adults smoking. Simpler times.

Escaflowne started much slower than I would’ve liked as a kid. Now, I can appreciate the time given to showing shots of the sky and the massive airship that dwarfs a damn mountain. But as a kid, I wanted something to happen.

I got my wish when this anime boy fell from the clouds. I’m like, where’d this guy come from? I’m locked in now. Suddenly he lands on the airship, and a guard is rightfully like, “Bro, who tf-“ SLICE! The guard is dead, and my lil developing brain decides, “Yup, here’s a core memory.” What proceeds is the most intense opening of a movie I’d seen up until that point. The drums kick in, and this anime boy runs into a hull full of soldiers and sprays everybody. The animation, choreography, music, and cinematography are outstanding. Truly unmatched stuff. I won’t go into detail here because I want to break this scene down later, but yeah, the anime boy’s lone assault on this airship is incredible.

I NEVER got that opening scene out of my head. It started my obsession with anime guys and their samurai swords before Samurai Champloo, and solidified my appreciation for airships/sky battles. Maybe it’s because I recently beat “Tears of the Kingdom,” but I’ve been thinking more and more about how I like fighting in the sky. (Not irl, though.)

Now the thing is, the opening scene is ALL I ever remembered from the movie. I could recall elements of the rest of the film, like the fact that there were giant robots, but the story and characters never stuck. And that’s why I decided to rewatch this as an adult and figure out why. 

Here we go!

I won’t dissect the entire movie beat for beat. It’s tempting, but I want to discuss the story and its themes today. I’ll need to let you in on another small fact to do that. This movie is an adaptation of an anime TV series called “The Vision of Escaflowne.” I didn’t know that until last night because while watching it, I could see the story introducing many elements and dropping them just as quickly, so I googled it. At this point in my life, I’ve watched many films based on books. You can just tell after a while. What’s interesting, though, is that this adaptation took a lot of liberties with the source material. I only knew this version, so I’m judging it on its merits. 

I’m also ghetto, so here’s Wikipedia’s summary. 

“Hitomi Kanzaki is in crisis. Her life has lost its meaning, and she is plagued by unusual dreams. She is depressed and wants nothing more than to disappear. After falling out with her only friend, she is mysteriously summoned to another world, Gaea, where she finds herself inside Escaflowne, a doomsday weapon destined to come to life at the appearance of a prophesied "wing goddess". The world of Gaea is facing its own crisis: relentless conquest by the Black Dragon Clan, the rebels against which become convinced that Hitomi is the prophesied goddess who will revive Escaflowne. Never certain of her identity in Gaea, Hitomi finds her destiny as she becomes closer to the rebel leader, Lord Van, and helps to bring about the fall of his vengeful brother Lord Folken, the master of the Black Dragon Clan.”

Say thank you to Wikipedia! ...I’m sorry if this is annoying to read.

Anyway, I’ll say that’s a reasonably exciting story! Maybe not now when tons of Isekai have done it arguably better in all these years, but It’s interesting. A depressed person with the power to make or break a world? What a concept! Indeed it’s enough to make you curious. I’m gonna stop talking like this now.

Nihilism is the name of the game in this film. Each major player (Hitomi, Van, and Folken) represents different stages of it. Whereas Hitomi deals with how much modern-day living sucks, Van and Folken’s conflict involves war and their entire world. That said, Hitomi was ready to self-destruct in her introductory scene due to her depression. VERY HEAVY. After the opening scene's thrill, this was like whiplash. None of this stuck with my childish brain; I was very dumb. Thankfully, the imagery was not disturbing (otherwise, it probably would have), but the stuff she said resonates with me now. 

Ultimately, she finds she’s not alone in feeling this way, as Van is similarly alone in his world as the sole heir to his kingdom. He has only known struggle thanks to his dickhole older brother, who is coo-coo-crazy with his nihilism, and is hell-bent on taking the whole world out with him. Hitomi and Van only defeat Folken thanks to finding and understanding each other. …Except they don’t defeat him… in fact, the story and many of the themes get kinda screwy.

I’ve buried the lead, but in my opinion, this movie starts off strong and then drops the ball. I will say I liked what the story was doing. The theme, learning that you’re not alone when you’re depressed, is beautiful. Sure, one can argue that it oversimplifies a real issue, but stories can do that. I see stories as extensions of their creators. The writing is genuine here. Hitomi’s dialogue in the intro was legit and also beautifully directed. I’m definitely assuming here, but if this is how the writers chose to tell the story of someone struggling with depression, I won’t dismiss it because they didn’t match how I feel you should write about it.

The problems I had were more on the missed potential side. And letting dialogue take the place of visual storytelling. The first act had me completely engrossed. I couldn’t take my eyes off it. The troubles started to arise when they started introducing maaaaany characters. I started to lose track of them. I love ensemble casts, but in a 90-minute movie, they’re not all going to get to shine. This is only a problem for me when I actually LIKE the characters. (which I did, the freakin goobs) So if they were to… suddenly eject from the plot, I’d be sad. This is where the film, initially being a show, reared its ugly head. Van is part of a resistance group, but he’s not even the leader. I don’t know why the Wikipedia synopsis said that.

Thanks, Wikipedia.

You find this out after his and Hitomi’s introductory scenes. They throw this lovable gang of misfits at you, and they do it well. I was on board and was even starting to worry for them because I knew a dark fantasy story had the potential to kill off mains. None of them die, though. In fact, around the halfway point of the movie, they all become completely irrelevant. The actual leader? Diet-Sephiroth? He can keep UP with Van, who is, on all accounts, a killing machine. They seemed to think showing us this was important. Too bad he’s useless by the movie's midpoint, too, because he never has to show that strength again. They don’t even get a scene at the end where they tell Hitomi goodbye. Why the hell were they even there? Why did we spend any time learning about them? I’m sure they get more relevancy in the show, but this isn’t the show; it’s a movie. A movie that purposefully isn’t anything like the show, either. From what I read, this movie cut a lot of the fat from the show, but I guess this couldn’t be helped. That said, there’s a scene where a VERY detestable character gets a farewell scene. Why him and not Van’s crew? I’m very upset, lol.

So what happens when the crew is gone halfway through the movie? Well, Hitomi and Van bond. But… not in any way that’s immediately noticeable. This is my major, major issue. Too many characters tell Hitomi things about Van before we see them bond. I really wish she’d SEEN that he wasn’t such a bad guy instead of people telling her. They also tell her the whole point of the movie, which is a no-no for me. The lion dude is straight up like, “Yeah, Van wants to die.” He may as well have said, “Just like you did earlier in the movie because he’s depressed too.” I was hoping she’d learn this from her interactions with Van himself, but up until this point in the movie, they don’t interact much. This is where my tastes come in, as I want to grow attached to the main characters in a story. Hitomi and Van, despite being very profoundly written in this film, are only their sorrow, it seems. Hitomi, at least in the beginning, is less so. But Van is about as interesting as a wall in this movie. (A wall that can fight good, mind you, but fight good is not a personality trait.) 

Stories about emotionally stunted, stoic-lite dudes that need a woman to show them how to care make me cringe. I can’t help it; it’s just not my thing! “Man strong, he need woman to lie head on.” I personally think that’s weak irl, so stories like that don’t resonate with me. To each their own. I think it could’ve at least been done a bit more tastefully. But heeey, this movie is a 2000’s movie, baybee, and hindsight is, of course, 20/20. In the movie’s defense, though, Hitomi and Van don’t seem to develop feelings or intimacy beyond understanding one another, so that’s why I could keep going! One could even say the stoic dude thing wasn’t their intention! But that’s the problem when you don’t give HIM (Van) any agency, and everyone talks about him like they did. I forgot he wasn’t a machine until ⅔ into the film.

I gave it some thought, and the only reason this bothered me was that Van’s humanity was all there, but AFTER these scenes with Hitomi being told about it. Van DOES open up and IS a good guy in a bad position. There’s a scene where he sculpts a figurine for one of the crew members. I actually love how the scene was directed because you couldn’t tell he was doing it. It was a reveal. And a very good reveal, to me. I enjoyed that! If they had put that scene earlier than it was placed, that could’ve been the visual moment to know that he’s not all “kill, kill, destroy.” But it wasn’t new information where it was placed. The movie said, “Sorry, I know Van seemed a lil coo-coo-crazy initially, but we promise you he’s a protagonist.” And I’m like, “I knoooow, you told me so many times that this seems redundant now.” Okay, I’m done with my lil rant.

The intention to make Hitomi and Van two peas in a pod was great, but it felt like Hitomi didn’t think he was tight until he saved her and was told multiple times Van’s cool... After that, she becomes a “Van’s the Man fan girl.” So if you look past all that, they bond, and it’s nice. But the rest becomes kind of a slog. Characters are introduced and given nothing; Before I end this, lemme talk about Folken real quick. His motivations were weird. Basically, he hated the world? And wanted it destroyed by the apocalyptic arrival of Hitomi. The head-scratching came from the fact that he didn’t need her to fuck up the world. He was doing a pretty good job being evil and ruining everyone’s lives without her. His misinformation about their lil prophecy was his own undoing. In fact, he knew he was going to die and welcomed it. The prophecy said he’d die, but it didn’t say how it would happen. I guess he wanted it to be Hitomi, but she was like a school girl so that didn’t happen. Lol, sorry, bro. I skim over stuff all the time; these are the results. The plot was “Folken was wrong about everything.”

So, due to being wrong about everything, Folken is betrayed by one of his own soldiers and KILLED lol. If you didn’t watch, you’re probably like wow that’s underwhelming. But if you SAW how impossibly powerful they made Folken seem, this is even more of a wet slap on your cheek. His climactic battle with Van and Hitomi is underwhelming because they don’t fight. It seems like, through Hitomi’s influence, Van no longer wants to be a fighter ANYWAY. He just wants peace. But the movie definitely made it seem like they were all going to fight more. I guess I like climactic fights if you give me too powerful badasses. Theme be damned, lol. That’s not a fair critique, but it’s what I wanted. Not a single clash of a sword between Van and Folken. The ending just had me scratching my head. After the lack of character stuff, all I was looking forward to was a sick animated fight, and I didn’t get it. There are more things I could nitpick, but ultimately it was the lack of believability in Van and Hitomi’s relationship that kept this from being a classic in my eyes. I’m fairly lax about plot shit when the characters are hitting, but if I’m bored of your mains, I don’t care, yo; I’m going to sleep. So much potential, though! 

There are a few scenes I’d like to go over in detail because, despite the movie’s lack of a satisfying whole, there were some REAL TASTY parts. But I’ll do that in another post, as this one is too long now. I’d say at the end of it all, I did learn something about my own tastes. And now you did too. Thanks for reading if you got this far!

-Dashawn

[cakejerry]

Listen whatever is the deal with jungkook right now I just know that something seems very sinister. Like there is something very wrong happening here. Doesn’t he have any real friends to tell him to maybe not broadcast his quarter life crisis to everyone to see? And mingyu and eunwoo aren’t real friends by the slightest😭😭😭 where is his family? His brother? Anyone? JIMIN?? Like whatever road he is going on won’t end well. Trying so hard to succeed in Hollywood which is known to be the most toxic industry on earth and the people in control are willing to take everything away from you just so they can get their money. And he is with scooter Braun out of all people. Literally the worst. Like he is literally throwing temper tantrums. Boy this is the industry you chose. Like I understand you had to give up a lot but like he needs someone genuine in his life. Someone to guide him before he throws himself in some serious shit just because he can’t control his phases and wants to seek “cool”. Like bro we get it many people think your cool and have been thinking that since you debuted. Koreans and international fans alike.

I don’t know what his current relationship with jimin is and if they were even ever more than friends because he just seems like a very lonely person. I think ms will be a very big change for him. He needs to step off the limelight for a good while and reassess what he wants and who he is. Because it feels like he has been in a constant battle for quite a while now lol.

anon ily 😭😭 you're literally putting into words everything I'm too scared to because I don't want people to call me a hypocrite for judging JK but... it is, truly, 'sinister'.

I'm not expecting jimin to parent him or anything but do they even talk about the big things atp or do they just fuck? because how did jk not learn anything from him? has that man not conquered his public image perfectly? jk was literally in the studio working on face, was that not what that album was about? finding yourself???

I feel like his 'friends' and family all tell him 'what's there to complain about you're literally bts' and management only sees the media buzz of 'loving idol who meets fans frequently' and no one cares that he's obviously going through something in these lives? pointing a camera at himself saying "I'm just doing all of this naturally with no thoughts" but his brain is so scrambled up with thoughts that he can't go a second without contradicting himself. trying to make a coherent sentence but failing. doesn't know what to do with fans, doesn't know what to do with fame. he doesn't even know what he wants except MORE. just deep deep in some type of denial or just plain immaturity

he needs to be humbled, and quickly. looking at the average idol lifespan since literally the start of kpop, when jungkook debuted he should have been expecting nothing else but to be RETIRED by now. it was only through sheer luck that bts did what they did and are still even active a decade later I don't think he understands how close he was to being a failed solo singer turned gym instructor by now. all he ever knew was steadily going UP and now he's moved the goalpost so far for himself he can't see how ridiculous he's being. fucking scooter brown...

he himself is the sole argument we need against debuting idols underage because bro has internalized the panopticon and is struggling to grow up in every sense of the word and I feel bad for even being one of the eyes on him. he's a person for real but most people (including himself) only see him as our entertainment.

no matter how we look at it, the military will be a much needed reset...

[sibswin]

Erm this isn’t a “rape threat” but idk if this is a bad case of hyper-sexuality or you being touched to the point you think incest and rape kinks are desirable(?), but out of all the kinks why these two? I will never judge anyone, this is a genuine question 🤷🏾‍♀️

OH ok I can answer this actually ok SOOOO (also should I change my askbox name to something else? I just like encouraging em but I don’t mean I only will accept those lol)

There are a few reasons. It’s mostly to do with repression, social anxiety, the need to match my freak, and a way to express my sexuality without feeling guilty.

(the below involves some personal backstory. Not anything super crazy, pretty tame by this websites standards, but like, if u don’t wanna hear about someone’s issues when they were younger, now is your sign to leave.)

so basically, first, I’m going to explain all my Lore, and then explain how my kinks connect to that.

so bare with me, this is going to be a long ride

I had an incident years ago when I was a lot younger - I wasn’t raped or anything like that, I just made a few mistakes that led to some consequences and made me go “NVM this is a bad idea I’m out” in regards to expressing my sexuality.

Problem is, at least on meds, I’m very hypersexual. Even now, it’s kiiinda annoying. It just, takes me over.

Soooo yknow I was constantly trying to push it down, get rid of it, find methods to stop.

Annnnnd this led to me basically developing a dichotomy of acting like a bit of a prude, but having a secret shameful crazy sex side that I had no escape for.

Additionally, it severely stunted my learning of how to express my sexuality - like, socially. Everyone around me was growing, making sex jokes, talking about this and that in public, laughingly using kinda flirty language, etc. and…I barred myself from a lot of that.

The entire culture of that, I rejected. Couldn’t do this, bad idea. Adding to this, up until recently, I had lots of social anxiety. Even was a bit of a hermit.

Was nervous, didn’t know how to talk to people. I was…so lonely. I didn’t have many friends. Much less people I’d fool around with.

friend groups irl? Hardly. even when I had them, I was always on the outer part of it, yknow.

There were other factors too thst aren’t really relevant to how they developed as kinks, but, that’s the gist of it

Now….putting it like that.

incest, sibcest, specifically, is really about having someone close to you, someone there all your life, who you know, have just as much sex drive as you. Or more. They’re always there. They’re always going to be there.

And they’re often, growing up with you. Learning with you. or, alternatively, they could be older than you…always there, an older sister who is more experienced, wanting to show you the way, guide her slightly younger bro through sexuality.

Furthermore, I am an only child. I don’t have any experience with real siblings, what they’re like.

So, I either usually fantasize this about someone similar to me, or someone who would guide me.

And look at where I was at; Socially anxious, unable to connect with my main peers about sexuality, while still having this secret side…thst felt shameful.

Who else would be better than someone else who could share this with me, who also had this secret side but we’re learning and exploring together? And it felt so shameful anyways, but we could be thst together. Someone just me, who will always be there.

or, a guiding force, someone who would assuage all my doubts. Guide me through the process, taking the lead, making all my insecurities go away, while also understanding me or well….taking it by force. Which brings us to my rape kink.

Feeling shameful, feeling repressed, like I wasn’t able to get it out, but it was there and I couldn’t stop it bjt I hated it….and being socially anxious, being unable to express myself, feeling wrong for doing so,

Who would be better for that, than someone who forces themselves on me?

I wouldn’t have any shame, nor any worries of being bad or wrong, no social anxiety to worth about, they’d forve open my sexual side whether I liked it or not, etc.

They’d be the one taking the lead.

theyd show me through this, even if it was forceful, and if it was forceful, I couldn’t feel bad about it either, or worry about my end.

That doesn’t entirely capture it tbh, I’m having trouble putting it all into words, even though the vibe is crystal clear in my head, but oh well.

the idea of someone being there and just taking me, in all those years, was and is attractive to me. even if I’m doing better in life now, some of that still remains. Esp due to being neurodivergent. Someone telling me what they want, being so clear thst they’re doing it without me getting to stop them, is so…nice. In that context.

but there’s at least one more big piece.

THIS LAST PIECE IS REALLY REALLY LONG THOUGH AND LARGELY ME VENTING BEFORE I EXPLAINu HOW IT CONNECTS AS A KINK. BJT ITS LARGELY VENTING TBH LOL

……rape kink is a good way to feel good about expressing my sexuality, but not guilty about doing so because I am a guy.

. I am very socially conscious. In fact, maybe too much so.

And, I don’t know how to express this without being rude or insensitive so I’m going to not even try

Hearing constantly all your life about how men are pigs, how male attention is unwanted, creepy, how flirting can quickly become harassment, how…just, all my life. Hell about how disgusting guys are in general, how they can be horrible just to get a pic or to get whatever. I feel bad to be a guy.

And like. Even when I’m saying that.

Those statements aren’t exactly wrong

in fact, I have seen it first hand, through some of my female friends.

I have seen some of the most disgusting, vile, guys I’ve ever seen, because one of my friends complaining about them. To the point my jaw regularly fucking drops.

I’ve gone on angry rants before, even, after seeing how some of my friends are treated.

So. Im also faced with the fact that those things aren’t exactly wrong.

And well…..

I also am a people pleaser. A giant, people pleaser. Who, a while ago would rather do the most tedious routines, thst only really hurt me, than ever make someone uncomfortable.

And…honestly I can’t even say whether that’s just being a good person sometimes it’s. lets say I walk on eggshells.

I have OCD.

and I walk on eggshells sometimes. And I used to even more.

And yknow what? It’s okay to walk on them sometimes. Hell most of what i did, and do, is just being nice and considerate.

But the way I dedicated myself to it….day in and day out, always, always, wearing myself down over months and months and years eroding me little by little every little bit

I…I can’t communicate it, really, without going into exaclty how I act, and I don’t really think I’m explaining how I acted and it’s sounding like I’m jus being nice when it was more than that maybe but…

Point is. Eggshells. People pleaser. Constantly.

and then…even IRL, a common thread I’ve had for lots of my life is different friends throughout time independently telling me something like

“You’re really nice for a guy.”

I’m not a nice person. I’m a nice guy. And not in the Reddit way, but in specifically….with the quality of being a guy. Like!

Even when I was being complimented, it was with the fact that it was not expected nor really a quality my gender, part of my identity, is seen as having. And that’s not to blame any of the people who told me this. Genuinely, thisisnt their fault, but…

It gets to you, yknow?

and combine thst with the fact that I’m walking on eggshells. Combine that with the fact that only when I go so out of my way to be nice and extra considerate thst it mentally wears me down and erodes me, that, only then am I nice for a guy. I’m only thst when I’m walking on eggshells.

…..so,

how does this connect to my rape kink?

Wellllllll

I feel bad because of my gender, am constantly worried about overstepping, always facing the idea thst I shouldnt make advances or I might end up being awful, feel like I have to walk on eggshells, hear stories again and again and again about guys being awful and creepy, and

Feel unwanted specifically in terms of my gender.

Like, guys, aren’t….attractive. Or wanted.

. So

A common fantasy of mine is a woman making advances on me, forcing me, I can’t overstep because I’m literally being raped, no eggshells cuz I am literally being raped, it doesn’t feel wrong or bad, and they’re making the advances, they’re being evil to ME, I’m okay, and they want me, they rape guys. They want guys so badly that they take them. THEY WANT GUYS SO BADLY THAT THEY TAKE THEM.

and…I can’t overstep cuz I’m literally being raped. No matter how I act, no matter whether I hold back or not, I’m the victim.

I’m allowed to not hold back on myslef

because I’m the victim.

Even now, I like propositioning myself as a “boytoy”. Something for others to get use out of.

Cuz I can’t be wrong if I can be THEIR free use stress toy! Like!!!

I get pleasure, but i don’t feel bad about it cuz they’re the ones using me for their own gain!!!

like! I wanna be a free use boytoy cuz then I can be a sexual person without being the one who, idk, is in control.

You can do whatever you want with me. It’s your choice. Therefore, i can let myself be out there, without being creepy.

am I explaining this well? I hope I’m explaining this well cuz this still affects how I like, do stuff with people, and is still one of my core things.

If I’m for your pleasure, then there’s not a problem with me.

And that’s how I still do stuff with people.

So…..yeah.

that’s why I have a rape kink. And incest kink

[no-ctrl]

I feel like a loser. Another Saturday night spent in. Another night with endless tears thinking of you. You haunt me. Did I do something to deserve this? I feel so hurt. Why am I the only one hurt? I feel like a loser. You always get to move on with your life while I get stuck in this place where I can’t move forward. Why? I feel tortured by these feelings. I don’t want to be sad over you anymore. Why? That’s all I can ask. Why? Why can’t I get over you? Why was it so easy to drop me? Why aren’t your mourning as hard as I am? As pathetic as it’ll sound you call the shots. If you took the time to reach out and tell me you miss me and explain why you didn’t talk to me I would be there. But you never gave me the option. You moved forward with your life and you just forgot about me. You literally never watch my stories you literally are liking her pics. I look stupid crying over you. I feel like a loser crying over you. I feel like I’m being laughed at right now. I feel so pathetic for being so sad over you. I want to break the no contact so bad but you left me. I didn’t leave you. All you do is leave me. Just like everyone else. This is so difficult bc a person like me can’t help but blame myself. Something is wrong with me which is why I’m not worth fighting for. Something is wrong with me which is why I’m so easy to leave. My own best friend choose her man over me. My mother chose her man over me. My father chose a new family over me. This is a deep rooted pain and you just added to it. Of course it hurts. I wish I can just tell you these things but I can’t. You decided to no longer be apart of my life. You decided you do not want me in your life. I feel so pathetic. I just want to feel loved and heard and wanted. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of being strong. I don’t want to live this way anymore. Why did you fail me? You literally switched up on me so bad. You made me feel so ugly and disgusting in the end. You literally used me like if I was some insignificant person. How could you have done taht to me? You saw how vulnerable I was for you, I tried and you just walked away. How could you do that to me? How can I be the one crying all these nights? You deserve to be crying but I’m stuck with the pain of you hurting me so bad. Why did you not care? I literally unblocked you on everything so if you wanted to talk to me you would but you never tried. I feel so pathetic for wishing you would talk to me again. I felt pathetic when I was hoping to getting flowers from you on Valentine’s Day… I miss you but you’re not the person I miss anymore. This is so difficult. I waited for you. I fought for you. All for you to walk out on me. My pain comes from a place of love, my love for you feel betrayed bc you left me. How could you leave me? What did I do wrong? Why didn’t you tell me I could’ve fixed it? You see how pathetic I am? I’m the pathetic one thts so sad. I’m such a loser. I wish I could just have one person to confide in tht will validate me and make me feel heard without judging me. I feel so alone so these feeling honestly get intensified bc it feel like I have no one in the world. No one wants to hear me and that’s okay but I’m just so lonely. I want to be held. I want to be taken care of. I don’t want to responsable i don’t want to be reliable I don’t want to take charge I don’t want to do this anymore. I just want to be held. I’m tired of being alone like this. I’m so tired of being alone that my mind tricks me into missing my ex who literally made my life so miserable. How sad is that? I miss a man that used me and made me feel so ugly and the last few months of our relationship. I miss someone who literally did not give a fuck about me. That’s how lonely I am. I can’t stand to live like this anymore it’s literally torture. I want to be held bro this isn’t fair. I don’t want to live this life anymore.

[ddlockk]

god no because this actually got me think-thonking again.

Man, what if Raul saw himself before the fire at Hidalgo Ranch? Looks at himself in the mirror then halfway expects to see Rafaela outside. I don’t think he remembers what his life was like before the bombs fell (judging by in-game dialogue), but he does remember what it was like after, when he and his family took in refugees and cared for them best they could.

I can see him making jokes about how his cataracts are gone, how he has a full head of hair now, or how much better his knees feel without 200 years on them. I feel like it’d make him a little sad though?? Like a, “damn. this is what it was like and now it’s gone.” It’d feel bittersweet to him, the memory of a bygone era.

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Hancock is a little iffy? I feel like he’d load in as he is. He does make jabs at his appearance and poke fun at his own insecurities (imo, to cope with the change of it) but ultimately he seems to prefer his life as a ghoul, as John Hancock, above his life as John McDonough. Even if he is a ghoul, he has the ability to say that he chose that life and along with it comes that “of the people, for the people” mentality. He defended a whole town of drifters, arguably saved them, and makes sure everyone is more or less safe under his watch. He even distributes chems to addicts himself because he’d rather they be safe about it, v.s. potentially getting something that’s laced or cut with something more dangerous.

Being a Ghoul means more to Hancock than being smooth, so I think he’d load in as a Ghoul.

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Charon is another iffy one — I don’t think he remembers what he would have looked like pre-Ghoulification, whether it’s because of how much time has passed, or it’s memory loss brought on by the captial-T Trauma he experienced to turn him into the contract-bound mercenary he is.

Part of me wants to say he’d load in as he is now, because he sees no point in loading in as anything else. Bro barely sees a point in interfacing to begin with — the only reason he’d ever go in there is to backup Lone, and even then I feel like he’d prefer to keep watch of their actual body.

The OTHER part of me wants to give into the “Charon has feelings” thoughts, because I’m a little sappy slut for emotionally constipated men feeling things (probably stems from my love for hurt/comfort).

Imagine Charon trying so hard to remember what he looked like and only catching glimpses at it in his memory. He knows he had these beautifully striking blue eyes, the kind that could rival even sapphires. He knows he had a head full of Auburn hair, and a LOT of it, often needing to tie it back just to see what he was doing. He remembers the bandages on his knees from scraping them when he fell out of trees, and the calluses on his palms from climbing them. He hopes that if he thinks hard enough, he can remember what his name was before they called him Charon, before all the shit they put him through to turn him into whatever a future employer wanted — before they forced him to harden into the man he is today.

Maybe it’s a mix of the two? Wanting to remember, but ultimately fighting against himself and choosing it doesn’t matter what he wants. (I want to tell him his thoughts matter so badly.)

if your favourite ghoul of the series got loaded into Tranquillity Lane, what would they look like?

[lilyundertaker]

April bullies day 4 - Lil bro's girlfriend

Pairing: bully!Edward Elric x reader, Alphonse x reader;

Genre: college AU, one-shot, smut;

Warnings: non-con/dub-con, 18+, vaginal penetration, blowjob, fingering, bit of violence;

Synopsis: Ed and Al are infamous troublemakers, but it all changes, when Al meets y/n, who become his girlfriend, so to get back at his brother, Ed decides to fuck you.

The Elric brothers were known far and wide for their mischievous behavior and creative pranks they pulled on the mass of students. They were the kings of your school, and everyone were their subjects, allowed to be tormented however they saw fit.

Due to their father’s influence, they rarely got any punishments and even if they did, it would only be suspension from school, which they enjoyed a lot. But despite missing school, they would pass all the tests anyways, because it was impossible for the sons of the great Van Hohenheim to fail at anything.

It all changed drastically, however, when Al, the younger of the pair fell in love with y/n – a simple and kind girl, who despite being pranked as well, saw something in Al, leading to a blooming relationship. Such things didn’t sit well with his brother though, who now instead of being a king, became a lone wolf. As Al stopped his diabolic behavior and, on your beckoning, began to focus more on academics, Edward was now made to look like the villain.

Edward being Edward, kept gluing people’s belongings to random surfaces, swap random students notebooks in different bags, pour his coke on whomever he deemed “too happy” for a Monday morning and even went as far as to beat people up, when they spoke against him or wouldn’t do his bidding.

All the backlash he received would quickly turn to hatred, and who better to blame than y/n – his lil bro’s pathetic nerd of a girlfriend.

He did attempt to put you in your place by casually pulling your hair, tripping, or pushing you in hallways and even stealing your clothes, while you were on PE, but it wasn’t long till Al intervened and defended her.

“What the fuck is wrong with you Ed? Can’t you seriously stop this childish behavior and start acting like an adult?” he chastised his brother before getting you as far away from there as he could. It was after this incident that it clicked to Ed. You weren’t the problem – his brother WAS. And so, Edward began to devise plenty of strategies on how to get back at Al for this. “What better way to put that little shit in his place than fuck that nerd!” he exclaimed to himself and before long he set his plan in motion.

Using the day, when his brother had to go for a health session therapy, due to his weak immune system, Ed casually pulled you in an empty classroom once the lessons were over.

He held a hand against your mouth to prevent you from shouting. “Hello there little sheep. You’ve just been caught by the big bad wolf.” He mused before throwing your body against a wall, making you crash to the floor right afterwards.

“Now, let’s have some fun, shall we!” he said and pulled you up by the shoulders, only to bend you over one of the student’s tables. While he held your neck with one hand in a painful grip, the other one lifted your uniform skirt and brushed over your clothed cunt.

“Such a lovely thing you are. Shame that I’ll have to destroy that pretty picture of you.” He said before pulling your panties to the side and plunging a finger knuckles-deep into your pussy.

“My, my, look how wet you are.” He teased and added another finger into your tight walls.

“Judging by the tightness of this pussy, Al hasn’t fucked you yet now, has he?” Ed sniggered whilst adding a third finger, which made you squeal in displeasure.

“Don’t go crying on me darling. I’ll make sure to stretch this pussy out just fine, so that you’re all ripe and ready for my baby bro.” and with that he pulled out his fingers and unbuckled his trousers to pull out his rock-hard cock.

“Mind you, that this will kinda hurt, but you’re a good gyal n I’m sure you’ll pull through.” He cooed before slowly entering your cunt, making sure to enjoy every last bit of torture that he inflicted on you with the stretch. As he was all the way in, he pulled out in the same agonizingly slow pace and entered you the same way again.

Your eyes were so tightly shut from the pain, your body so tensed up that it felt as if any minute you would explode. You sobbed quite loudly, but you doubted anyone would here you at this place, at this time.

“Relax there baby, otherwise you’ll suffer more.” Ed whispered in your ear.

Despite hating him so much at that moment, you obliged and tried to relax your muscles as much as possible, allowing Edward to slide in and out of you more easily. He took your state as a sign to build up his pace, until the whole desk was shaking from the power of his thrusts.

The slapping sounds of his balls against you pussy made you want to throw up there on the spot, however, you couldn’t deny it that the feeling had become nice, pleasant even. You cursed yourself, when a moan slipped passed your lips, spurring Edward even more, if that was possible.

With encouraging traces of hi hands under your shirt and over your nipples you stopped shying away from the moans that were begging to be released from your throat. With each passing minute you became more daring, your moans louder and the air against you even hevier.

Edward leaned lower to suck hickies on your neck – a mark of ownership and proof of his deed to throw in his little brother’s face. Glancing upon his artwork he felt so satisfied that he came deep inside of you only a few moments later, and as he pulled out, he was fascinated by how much cum leaked out from you.

With few brutal thrusts of his fingers you came down hard on his hand with this being the first orgasm you ever experienced in your life.

“All right. Since we got some more time, I guess I’ll bless your mouth as well.”

Before you had the chance to rise fully up, Edward had walked around the table and forced your head down. He positioned his cock at your mouth and thrusted upwards, throwing his head back in pure pleasure, feeling overwhelmed and satisfied with his actions. Oh, I will take a picture of Al’s face, once I tell this to him, he thought and kept fucking your throat with his harsh thrusts.

In less than 5 minutes Edward came again, but this time he pulled out, to release his seed all over your face – yet another mark of his ownership over you.

At this point you were emotionally exhausted, not to mention – ashamed of the acts that took place in this classroom. But the sharpest knife in your gut was the fact that you had enjoyed Edward’s cock as he had fucked you raw. In your head you were goddamn sure that Al would never show such primitivity nor such harshness, but currently, you seemed to crave more of it, more of Ed. And hopefully, next time he’d make you cum more than once.

As Edward pulled his trousers back up, the door suddenly burst open with a loud bang and Al came in. He could barely comprehend the whole situation once he saw you laying on a table, your skirt pulled up, panties bunching down at your ankles and the essence of his brother leaking out of you.

“Sorry to disappoint you brother, but you’re a little late for the show.” Said Edward, an evil grin plastered on his face from the sweetened victory and an even sweeter trophy he had decide to rip away from his little brother COMPLETELY.

[dmwrites]

“Oh Eddie, it’s so nice to have you back with me! And Bubbles too, of course! We’re one big happy family again- I can’t even begin to tell you how numbingly lonely I was out here by myself.” Sausage smiled at his dad, handing him a cup of tea. Eddie was slowly getting back into his blacksmithing, now that Sausage had made him a place to work, and they’d spent the morning working on a new chest piece.

Eddie smiled, ruffling Sausage’s hair and humming. He wasn’t much for talking, Eddie was, but Sausage knew exactly what he was feeling. Sausage reached for a second mug to put his own tea in when someone opened the door.

“Hey there, Daddy Sausage! Nice new building!”

“Oh! Hi Joel!” Sausage turned around in surprise. “Thanks! I built it for-”

“Can’t stay long, unfortunately, I know how much you’d love if I did.” Joel continued. “I gotta drop Hermes off early for your weekend, there’s like some hashtag drama going on in and around Stratos.” Sausage saw that Joel was holding Hermes in his arms. “Now Hermes, I’ll see you soon, okay? Love you.” He hugged Hermes and set him down. Hermes scampered over to Sausage and hugged his leg.

“Oh, okay! That’s perfectly fine, I heard some whispers about the drama.” Sausage said, ruffling Hermes’ hair.

“Oh, and hey, thanks for giving me your hard wood, it was pleasure-inducing. I used it for hours, and it looks really good on my walls now.” Joel winked at him. “Anyway, gotta go byeeee!” And he took off, leaving the door wide open.

Sausage stood there for a second, steeling himself for the look he was sure Eddie was giving him. And indeed, when he finally looked to the side, it was to find Eddie with an incredulous look on his face, head tilted to the side in question. Oh, of course Joel had to mention the hard wood thing.

“Right… so, Eddie, I may have forgotten to mention a few things… to be fair, it’s been very busy since I found you and Bubbles… hey, don’t give me that look!” Sausage picked up Hermes and walked over to the couch, sitting down next to Eddie. “Eddie, this is your grandson, Hermes. Hermes, this is my dad and your granddad, Eddie!”

Hermes gave Eddie a perfunctory look, then slid off of Sausage’s lap and went over to play with some scraps of metal in the corner. Eddie looked at the kid and then to Sausage with eyebrows raised.

“Right, okay, so that guy who was just here, that’s Joel, he’s a god, actually, like eleven feet tall and full of godly powers. He’s the other father of Hermes, and we share custody of him.” Sausage smiled nervously. “No, no, we’re not, no, we’re just bros, buddies, even. We constructed Hermes over a sweet, sweet one night armor stand- oh my god why did I say it like that- it’s fine, it’s just godly magic and maybe, like, nature magic too? I don’t really know how it worked, but Hermes was created, and now I have him here at Sanctuary every other weekend.”

Eddie sipped on his tea judgmentally.

“What, okay, so you’ve never been young and risky? Sure, whatever, I’ve heard stories of you, Mr. Innocent. Hey, judge me all you want, but Hermes is my pride and joy, and I finally understand what it’s like to be a dad.”

Eddie stood up with a humph, and walked over to his worktable. Sausage opened his mouth to say something to defend himself, but Eddie picked up a small bit of metal he had made into a ball earlier, and squatted down, rolling it over to Hermes. Hermes took it and smiled brightly at Eddie. Eddie hummed, a content noise, and pulled himself back up and started working again. Sausage joined him at his own table, smiling down at the metal before him. It was worth all the judgmental looks just for cute moments like that.

[peachyys-posts]

Yandere (??)Jack Frost as your older brother

Warning:cussing,manipulation, slight mention of death

•so you either met later on, you died with him protecting his sister too or you died later on (you can pick or mark your own idc) and you got brought back

🌨he is very protective of you like anywhere you go he’s tagging along or if he needs to go somewhere he’ll just bring you along.OH also if you’re something like me and someone says something bad about jack and you stand up for him he will feel so grateful (ngl those scenes with bunny was being a bitch like I wanna to fight him but I know if any of us try to fight him we would get our shit ROCKED)

❄️speaking of which dont fight anyone you could try but Jack would put a stop to it before you could actually try anything. He would talk you out of it.NOW if someone is saying something bad about you or trying to hurt you he will fight them(hypocrite😒) you have to hold him back like really hard (like from a different point of view it might be funny but from your point it’s highly dangerous his eyes be glowing like bro you okay????)no one wants to piss off a winter spirit ESPECIALLY since he’s a guardian

⛄️he will vent every now and again about how lonely it was all those years.he would use this against you if you try to do something he doesn’t like.

☃️it physically hurts him when you cry like he will cry with you depending on how bad it is like if got seriously hurt and/or traumatized by someone or something he will make sure you are okay and basically holding you telling you it’s gonna be okay whenever you end up passing out from crying he will make sure to put you in bed and “handle” whatever caused you to be upset.

🥶IF pitch hurts you it’s over no matter what you say Jack will attack him to the point where you think pitch might die but he will live that was just a warning

This was made on the top of my head so don’t judge please