#bro i'm . [FLATLINES]

[bylertruther]

He Is Literally Gay. ... whoa 😦 michael of "our son with a girl? 🤨" fame... good for him 👍

[kfruityouth]

i was listening to yes to err is human and im just thinking about these lyrics

so "walkie-talkie static" could refer to the static at the start of each episode/file, which i at first assumed was, like, radio static? because of the snippets of channels and people talking and stuff.. but i wonder if it could be, literally, on the nose, walkie-talkies. whoever's listening to the files (probably agent7? because agent7 writes the file descriptions? and 23 likely?) is communicating via walkie-talkie i guess?

which kind of leads into "white noise telepath".

so white noise, by definition, is a random signal that includes all audible frequencies playing at an equal and constant level, meaning that spectrograms of it often look like this:

the spectrogram (which i got off wikipedia lol) is a comparison between pink noise (left) and white noise (right). notice how the white noise is completely flat.

so going off of this, a "white noise telepath" would be someone who is able to transfer this noise or frequency into the mind of another, or vice-versa possibly.

funnily enough, because white noise is something that many people fall asleep to, it might also refer directly to the way that adam (so far) only appears in sydney's dreams—something one only does when sleeping. so listening to this white noise, or telepathically placing it in his mind, lulls him to sleep to then allow adam to speak with syd? through the mindscape?

i also was gonna say something about like telepathically communicating somethint "flat", like a flatline if that makes sense. braindead (a la "dead from the neck up // but living just enough"...)

for what reason, i definitely hear you asking? fuck if i know thats a whole other rant

my theory is that he wants to see the extent of sydneys, er, aptitudes. in short.

i like to think the limn (which we're presuming was sydney's resurrection) ignited a new spark of interest in whatever the hell this is, leading to adam coming out of, like, dormancy or something. i say dormancy because of this line:

...which to me, reads as bro up and left for a bit. but obviously he's back now.

anyway back to the lyrics

"can you read between the Morse code lines?" is a bit of an odd one. it follows with the analog theme kinda, like using frequencies and radio waves to communicate (though of course morse can be interpreted in a vast array of mediums, the most famous is probably via radio).

we also know wire radios are one of the only things that work at camp.

so im wondering, based on the physical lack of communications, the restriction of digital comms (lucille's phone), and the mental and emotional, more symbolic restriction of communication (jeddie doing that to syd)... if this line is almost saying "do you hear me? do you copy?" y'know? hashtag manipulation. from both jedidiah and adam. and sydney.

the way this could be read, and the way i'm reading it, is that the speaker (adam, possibly, though i think some lines might be from a different perspective) in the song addressing another person (sydney, likely, maybe jedidiah?) and referring to them in that way, asking "if you can communicate like this, can you then do this?"

yeah im not sure where i was going with this one. just needed to write some of my incomprehensible, far-fetched thoughts down lmao

[scalproie]

Uhhh for the Transformers asks..... ALL OF THEM >:)

🥹👍

• Decepticon, Autobot or Neutral

I like a very specific flavor of neutral which is "picked one side at the beginning of the war but eventually left/deserted/defected" and it often happens to cons so... and also one of my favorite tf trope is when the war is just a part of their history and they end the story united as they once were anyway

• Optimus or Megatron

Megatron lol Optimus may be Dadimus but I'm driving my friend on the autobahn

• Favorite Autobot(s)

Hot Rod, Whirl, Jetfire, Grimlock, Nightbeat, Atomizer, Perceptor by association, Ambulon, Thunderhowl, Wheeljack, Chromedome, Brainstorm, Skids...

• Favorite Decepticon(s)

Soundwave, Shockwave, Tarantulas, Cyclonus, Flatline, Starscream, Waspinator, Skybyte, Thundercracker, Ravage, the Scavengers as a whole...

• Favorite Neutral(s)

Censere🖤 and Quintus Prime💚

• Favorite femme bot(s)

Velocity, Nautica, Firestar, Moonracer, Shadowstriker, Flamewar, Arcee, Swoop

• Favorite show(s)

#CYBERVERSESWEEP BABEYYYYYY

• Favorite comic series

THE WRECKER TRILOGY with mtmte behind having nostalgia points

• Favorite comic company for TF comics (Dreamwave, IDW, Marvel, etc.)

IDW1 wins with nostalgia points

• Favorite human character(s)

Verity, Daniel and The Maltos are my least disliked human characters so they win, one could say I actually like them in fact

• Favorite ship(s)

Soundrod Warrior reporting for duty🫡, Shockwheel, Windstream, Jetbyte, some good ol Megop, cyberverse was the king of good ships actually, then Cywhirl, (poking with a 10ft pole) Taraprowl, Crankcase and his alien bf, also not proud of this one but I saw that one tfp ep like everyone else so KOSS I fucking guess.

• Least favorite ship(s)

Every other soundwave ships, every other hot rod/rodimus ships, you need to understand cyberverse did a miracle with me here, other than that, well ofc most drift ships, some other VERY POPULAR TF SHIPS that I shant name here, uuuh honestly? I enjoy a ship more when its a crossfaction one so if theyre in the same team theres a huge chance that I wont care.

• Least favorite Decepticon(s)

Drift, Starscream, the DJD💜

• Least favorite Autobot(s)

Drift

• Least favorite Neutral(s)

Drift

• Least favorite show(s)

I won't say anything in this one bc I dont want my friends to feel bad

• Least favorite comic series

Dark Cyberton but only the ramondelli sections like please for the love of GOD whats going on

• Least favorite human character(s)

tranformers has yet to introduce a human character that I actually like and love. I do not like almost all human characters other than the ones mentionned above.

• A character you love that no one else seems to

I finally feel normal about Getaway. He was a great autobot antagonist like come on we barely get those. Also Froid is fun.

• A character you hate that no one else seems to

DRIFT

• A pairing you love that no one else seems to

Bro most of my fav ships are from a continuity that most people either havent seen or dont care about. Im not getting anything

• A pairing you hate that no one else seems to

Most confirmed canon ships in mtmte/ll💖 and also arguably the biggest ship in tf period that I shant name here but if you know you know

• Favorite underrated character(s)

Atomizer, Makeshift, Krok, Fulcrum, Spinister, Crankcase, Flatline, Vortex, Chop Shop, Fracture, Terrorsaur, Javelin, Venom

• Favorite class/group(s) (i.e. Seekers, Scavengers, Constructicons, Aerialbots, DJD, etc)

VEHICONS/ERADICONS

• Favorite combiner(s)

My own OC Cannon Fodder, Bruticus, Devastator when Prowl was at the head of the polycule bc it was really funny, Victorion, Volcanicus

• Least favorite combiner(s)

OPTIMUS MAXIMUS

• A bot you want to be best friends with

The frat sons of Optimus

• A bot you’d want as a mentor

Put all the mad scientists in a pit I wanna see who'd get custody of me

• A bot you could consider a mortal enemy

I think If I were a bot or con and Drift was joining our ranks I'd defect to the other side so I could be the one to beat him in battle

• Favorite fandom sparklings (if you know of any)

Not a huge fan of the concept of sparklings in the first place. Not a huge fan of trying to push the human concept of (technically) blood family onto the transformers where the appeal is (to me) how socially similar yet biologically different they are from us

• Favorite siblings

Not a big fan of the confirmed ones so I guess I'll go with the unofficial frat sons of Optimus

• Favorite alt mode(s)

I love unusual flying modes like tfp soundwave's drone one

• What your alt mode would be if you were a Cybertronian

• Favorite toy(s)

I probably have an actual one but Im gonna go with this one bc I got to recently torture my friend with it💖

• Favorite game(s)

WAR FOR CYBERTRON WINS BY DOING NOTHING

• Favorite TF universe(s)

#CYBERVERSESWEEP BABEYYYYYY

• Least favorite TF universe(s)

Forever feeling betrayed by shattered glass bc on concept alone if it were simpler in execution I would love that shit but noOO we cant that it has to be a convoluted mess, so I hate it.

• How did you get into transformers

Saw the first bay movie on tv and was too young to realize it was bad, then saw one or two episodes of animated, then nothing until prime which I saw from ep1 as a wee teen and then it was over for me.

• Would you recommend it to others

Yesn't💖

• What would you do if the Autobots landed on Earth right now and asked for your help

Wouldnt even be bothered by it with the type of shit I got going on. Hell yeah I'll play ambassador and unlike most humans in these shows I'd be good at it.

[ultfreakme]

You know, I've been thinking recently about the fact that Damian and Flatline and Jon and Jay are very much like their parents. Like, the obvious similarities between Jay and Lois, Clark and Jonathan (Like father, like son), Damian and Bruce (Like father, like son 2x), and Nika and Talia. I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it.Maybe someone has talked about it, but know I'll be the second person to do it :)

P.S I like the parallel between Jay and Lois the best. People who will fight to the last for their cause, ideals and the people they care about. Both are very smart, brave, cunning and strong individuals who will tear down everything in their path. Especially, Jay is a fan of Lois, which makes this even better for me. It's like his character was built on the Lois archetype, but with a few differences. How can I not love them, bro😭

YESSS!!! Anon a lot of people have mentioned these comparisons so we aren't alone in this, but this is the first time I'm seeing the Talia-Nika comparison. I'd love to know more, since I'm not really an expert on Talia. It's very fun.

I know Jay and Lois the best and I really like it too. Jay feels like a standout to me because there are a lot of characters who are based on the Lois archetype. Lois and Clark/Superman are such huge pop culture icons, their relationship dynamic permeates every medium where there's even an inclination towards the superhero genre. Lois shaped plenty of character tropes.

A lot of love interests across Marvel and DC have been given the "journalist" role. It's often directly journalism, but writers try to copy by changing the answers a little by making the love interest's job journalism adjacent, like news reporter, writer, anchor, etc(MJ has been forced into that role, Linda Park-West was a journalist, and now a fiction writer. It's a trope to a point it got parodied in Phineas & Ferb and a bunch of different shows).

Jay is the first male character to be given the archetype, and it's done in a really innovative way. His journalism doesn't exist solely to fulfill the role of being a superman love interest. His interest in it stands independent of Jon and has longstanding effects in the story of DC overall, as we see in the current events with Waller and Suicide Squad.

Lois is the character who upholds 'truth' in Superman stories. Her desire for this comes from her rebellion against her father and her disapproval of corruption and American imperialism. But she is often a white American woman. She has to go to other places, she is not a part of the struggle. She's a medium of sorts.

Jay, on the other hand, lived through the news story Lois was reporting about(she actually investigated Gamorra on her own waaaay before). He's an amplifier, he's the story. His drive to be a journalist comes from a deeply personal place, and his desire to deliver truth is an act of rebellion and liberation for his people. He highlights the voice of a marginalized community the DC Universe. And yeah its a fictional country but Gamorra's struggles are so easily spotted in the real world, it's uncanny. With Jay, it's a lot more focused, it isn't about just a news story anymore. Jay's struggle and the story of Gamorra is ever-present in the DC universe. I think Jay really elevates the "journalist" archetype.

He's also got powers obviously, so he isn't just reporting, he's also taking direct action. It's amazing rep and I think jay and Gamorra's story is really relevant to current times which is why I love it even more.

[crystalelemental]

Zinfogel just recently posted a showcase of Variety Lance (he said Variety Lance is extremely good for Clair) and Variety Agatha, including his thoughts about Masters nowadays and Variety Scouts. I wanna know what you think about it.

Goddammit Zinfogel, this couldn't wait until tomorrow? I'm trying to save gems over here.

Oh wow, nevermind, that's depressing. The video itself is short, and having run Clair constantly, I'm content with her ability to off-type with just SS Kris/Lucas, Lance isn't necessary. Moreover, his discussing is exactly correct. Variety scouts are a known scam, they're far lower effort, and it seems wholly unnecessary in the era of 5/5. I actually agree with the 5/5, there's something to that. Not always, but it's a nice boost for older pairs, and brings in incentive for long-time players to try again for old favorites. The Variety thing is...odd. The Eevees all being copies of one another, Bruno and Lorelei being virtually identical pairs, they're just not doing much that's interesting. And we're in this odd space of a lot doing the same jobs as always, unless they're Master Fair, which the rats set the tempo at "unspeakably broken for the game we're in, to the point they're not fun to use."

I agree with him that the game is flatlining. I think the problem is an over-emphasis on too much at once. There are just too many sync pairs being thrown in each month, with like a whopping six in most situations. It's a lot of focus on developing the kit and the grid and doing something new without being broken, and it comes at the cost of everything else.

That said, one thing I will argue is the irrelevance of sync move animation. Bro, I'm sorry, but you watch those one (1) time and then skip forever to get back to the action. Even in showcases, that's how it's done. From a design perspective, why would you shell out the money for those animations that literally no one watches? That's not the problem. The problem is really more in the lack of unique designs, the unnecessary "limited" gimmick, and that the game hasn't done anything too novel in a while. I think it's at least trying with the rebuffs, but it's just not enough to be interesting when Zones are better.

And to argue with myself, I realize six sync pairs is a lot in a month, but also that if we didn't get that, a lot of characters just wouldn't get anything. The Variety scouts are a lame cash grab, but in the case of Lorelei, it was a lame cash grab for a sync pair I kinda like, that definitely wouldn't exist otherwise. So it's this awful space of recognizing yeah, this sucks, the game shouldn't be this way, but also if it wasn't it's not like all our dreams would come true either. There's a healthy middle ground between the two somewhere, but I don't think DeNA has a reason to pursue it.

The last thing I'll say, and I hate saying it but it's what happens to me...I wonder if Zinfogel isn't just burning out of the game. Doing the same things for so long wears on you regardless of enjoyment, and maybe he's just hitting that wall. There are times I feel like I'm hitting it. And to be frank, the explanation of "I gave in to my impulses" occurring multiple times in the last two months between variety and SC and tapu? From experience, that's the feeling of chasing a feeling no longer there. That's when you step back and make sure addiction isn't creeping in, because now you're pulling stuff you weren't that excited about to hope it's more fun than you thought. The insidious thing is sometimes it works. Sometimes you get SC Zinnia. Other times, you get Palentine's Mallow. It's unreliable and a bad habit to form. So I dunno. I'm kinda worried about him, honestly.

[kimarisgundam]

Wtf was I/my Netrunner thinking 😭???

Why did I think I could get away with blackmailing the literal head of Arasaka's R&D department 😭

I should have known dad wasn't going to just let me walk 🥲. But dad wanted to flatline Rockerboy's friends and make him watch them die. How did dad think I'd react??

My Netrunner is loyal to her dad and Arasaka, if he didn't make that threat I would have just stayed in my lane

I get why he helped facilitate the hit on her mom. Even my Netrunner's big bro accepts that once you betray Arasaka, you're a walking corpse

He pushed me to fight back, and my only ace was threatening to hand over my DNA sample to Arasaka and letting them find out dad had an affair with a traitor 🥲

My Netrunner was handed a shard containing security cam footage of Solo's cyber psychosis meltdown 😭

Dad said not to push my luck, cos if I keep pissing him off he's going to pass that shard to MaxTac 🥲

Dad also told Exec that he let Exec leave Arasaka cos he feels Exec has potential... he will back Exec's fixer career in exchange for Exec occasionally helping him settle some business

^ he said this isn't a proposal, it's an order. Exec must accept 🥲

Dad said he wants my Netrunner to know that he does care about her cos she's his kid. If she feels so strongly about being chooms with Rockerboy, he's willing to forgive Rockerboy for her sake

He handed a shard to Rockerboy containing "info that he may be interested in, and may help him"... and I'm worried cos Rockerboy suddenly went silent after reading it 🥲

^ I asked my friend who plays Rockerboy what our DM sent her, but she won't tell the party?? Like dude, me and Exec keeping secrets created this mess, maybe you shouldn't keep secrets too??

[daisyteardrops]

Why do you cry?

You asked me that question when you saw me at home during my work hours. I didn't think about it then, but now I do.

Is it because I'm tired? Because I just lost a job? Because life feels like it's gone beyond my control? Is it because a loved one's remaining time is being counted in seconds by the heartbeat monitor? And he might die without knowing how much I truly love him?

I crossed my fingers with yours, watching, wishing, praying for a sign. Something to assure me that you were coming back. There was none. Not even the twitch of a muscle. You laid there, as still and pale as a corpse.

"Big bro," I called.

I didn't know if you could hear me. The doctor said that coma patients could hear what was going on around them. But he was the same person who said you would wake up in less than three months. That was five months ago.

Perhaps these people knew nothing. Or they made money off the sick by feeding their loved ones with false hopes.

Or perhaps, I hoped, it was a truly honest mistake.

I wondered how I would react if you woke up. Would I laugh or scream? Or just hug you and tell you how sorry I was?

I know I act so stupid sometimes. I lost my job and even though it wasn't your fault, I raged at you. I hurled hurtful words at you, and I knew, because I wanted you to hurt with me. I guess I was so full of bitterness, and I wanted to pour it out somewhere. I didn't know that I was doing that already through my tears. You asked my why I was crying, and I should have said that I was hurting because I just lost my dream job. If only I had.

It was because of me that you left home that night. It was because of me that you sped off straight into an accident. I've never felt so rotten in my life.

"Big brother," I called to your still form again.

You didn't still answer. The tear that rolled down my face was saturated with regret and tinged with hope. Hope that your other hand would somehow raise to wipe off the tears on my face. And what happened next wasn't a product of my hope, but just as miraculous.

It was a twitch.

Your finger twitched.

My eyes went to your face just in time to see your lashes flutter. Just before your eyes opened and one corner of your lips quirked up in the smirk I missed so much.

"Crybaby," you said.

I didn't laugh or scream. I didn't hug you and apologise to you and tell you how much I loved you. You were right. I was a crybaby. I cried so hard. So, so hard, I could taste the happiness in each teardrop. Why did I cry here? Because my heart was overflowing with happiness and it could burst if I didn't let out some.

I wish the dream didn't end there. I wish you had actually woken up and called me a cry baby. I wish I'd just slept off like you, in a coma, forever living in my dream. I wish the flatline beep of your heartbeat monitor didn't wake me up to my cruel, cruel reality.

I'm sorry, dear brother. I'm so sorry.

That's why I cried after you died.

So why do I cry? Because my heart can't contain my feelings.

You would still be here if I gave you that simple answer.

Love,

Your Crybaby.

[finchcritter]

And in case anyone asks: Yes, I watched the video.

But I still remain only cautiously optimistic. I have doubts.

The tech bros who like to use AI will probably dwindle over the years, I agree. 

But he The Art Mentor still has given minimal concrete examples of what's happening in the art world now in favor of real artists. It's mostly his opinions on the situation and generalizations. Until I see real world examples of AI becoming less desirable to everyone, then I'm not going to give myself the luxury of believing that it's dying.

Sure he only mentioned artists leaving ArtStation, and I've seen people leaving Deviantart too, but I have not yet seen how that has impacted the AI users in a meaningful way.

Also, one thing that a human artist will never be able to replicate is the speed at which they can render a drawing, unless they use AI assisted technology of course. AI sure helped in Spiderverse, can you imagine how much time and money it would take to draw all those in-betweens??

And I have not yet heard of any substantial legal action yet either. So when that happens, please tell me. I genuinely want to know so that it can inspire me to take action too. You have no idea how much I want to hear news on the legal front.

My ideal scenario of what will happen to AI art stuff is that it'll enter the art sphere and empower real artists, like The Art Mentor mentioned in the "flatlining" section of the video. You know, like I've mentioned in my last post concerning Spiderverse and Glaze. That's what I was hoping for when I said "it will become an art form in and of itself." Because it will be used ethically by real artists who know how to use these tools properly. Like the ones who worked on Spiderverse.

So instead of attacking fellow artists (you know who you are), find ways in which to do art that will safeguard you from AI, and stay tuned on more news on this situation. Tattoo art comes to mind. But that's just one way artists can adapt.

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[rosyspectraldoll]

Hi, I know nobody is watching or really caring, but I had to put this somewhere and I don't have the energy to be a chuunibyou about it right now... so yeah.

My name is Rose Euphemia P[redacted]. Or rather, my true name, since I never got the chance to be able to legally change it to this... I do wish I could though. Yes, my middle name is a Code Geass reference, and it's very, very, very important to me. My deadname, although legal, is irrelevant. And it's just a chuuni naming convention thing, because I am and was always a cis woman.

I'm not planning to be around much longer. But the chuuni-posts that I write do have some spiritual truth to them. What parts, I don't care to elaborate because I find them too personal to me to divulge... but I miss the past life I had within the stars of Cassiopeia. A lot. Whether you think I'm delusional before, during, or after my attempt to flatline myself on the worm moon is also irrelevant, I'll be doing it anyways. I just wanted to be able to live with my soulmate. He means everything to me, he's my only happiness. I worked my hardest to be able to bridge this long distance gap between us that we both are in so much pain about and have been in pain about for four years now, roughly... but the harder I tried and the more I struggled and persevered and fought my hardest, the more I realized that I did everything right and would have always still failed with all the cards stacked against me and my success to make any sort of secure living like they are in North America and have been for decades... even with me and my soulmate sharing half the bills each.

It would have been this way for anyone, but I also just couldn't handle the burnout that comes with being ASD diagnosed in this allistic hell-world and trying to find a job at all, then keep it when any entry level job was always going to chew me up and spit me out in a very unforgiving fashion.

I have dreams of owning my own business, but unfortunately, I'm a weeb whose dreams, ever since I was a child after having watched my gateway anime, Tengen Toppa Gurren Laggan, was to have an animation studio of my very own. Animation is startlingly expensive of a profession on the industry level, so starting an animation studio in this state of affairs in the world would be suicide without licensing connections or an established industry connection... You know, all those anime industry connections that exist locally in North America lmao. It's funny... My actual older brother introduced me to Gurren Lagann as a younger kid. A probably way too young for Gurren Lagann third grader introduced to Gurren Lagann and anime as a whole by my literal Big Bro. He's also kind of Kamina-esque irl, good with ideas, bad with commitment, but is a hype-man and wild older brother if nothing else. I should have been an amazing success story of beating all odds irl anime style in the name of my passion, and damn did I try. I researched everything I could about the industry, practiced animation, watched so much of my favorite shonen stuff because it was just my favorite type of anime, always was, learned how to direct something from a creative director's standpoint, and I did actually make connections in like, Sakuga Foundry on discord and on Twitter (@RosePalaceTTKE) if you really want to count my earnest efforts and persistence but barely even meager returns as anything worth noting. At least the guys in Sakuga Foundry would recognize my "GOOD MORNING MINNA-SAN!!!!!" greeting habit from a mile away, so I know somebody besides my love would mourn me. At least I was noticed, even while I failed.

I was born in the wrong time to pursue my dreams. I accept that now. But I also know that I can do one last ditch effort: rely on the fact that I very much know that I am not my body, just a soul in a body, and that I have the right to discard this mortal body whenever I wish. I'll be able to hold my soulmate for the rest of his mortal days as a ghost, and distance won't be a problem anymore since I won't be temporally locked anymore. I won't suffer failed dreams after I gave it my all and got nothing in return, not even any closer to co-owning that same anime studio with my soulmate and the love of my life. I call him Bby-kun as a nickname irl because I feel safe to be my cringe self around him. His arms are the safest place in the world, they're home to me. And a life without him at my side every morning... I can't see why that's worth living through.

I'm sorry I couldn't be your Simon, big bro. But if we're going with Gainax lineage references... I guess I'm about to be like David Martinez. That's something. I mean hey, extra points for failing to finally be able to save any money to pay for half bills with my soulmate and having "I Really Want To Stay At Your House" hit... WAY too deep for me. Especially since I could tell you so, SO much about the Gainax lineage, from the pre-history as Daicon Film to Gainax from their Wings of Honneamise era to their grand finale with Gurren Lagann all the way up to Studio Trigger, aka Neo Gainax... I looked up to that story of six nobody nerds making anime in their garage with the wrong tools for painting cels in the 80's eventually becoming titans of anime history, and I had the persistence to see it through if only the world were just a little bit kinder on me to provide me with a decent world where I had a chance of success if I just persisted on with my hard work like I was doing... if only, I guess. I'm picking the Worm Moon to do it because the Gurren Lagann movies are finally getting an English Dub after all this time and I wouldn't be caught dead without seeing that. After that, February has my Bby-kun's birthday in it and I want him to be as happy as possible, even from a distance. After that it's March, and picking a full moon to end things on is only poetic, I feel. I mean, you have that "Full Moon = Metaphor for Suicide" Gainax thing going back all the way to Neon Genesis ShitVangelion to current day with Cyberpunk:Edgerunners... At least I didn't pussy out of life before giving it everything I had. Well, whatever now. I'm glad I wrote this somewhere.

Most of my entries will be Chuunibyo until that final day, I might as well go out with style while looking cool and edgy about it, I guess.

To the dreams of those who have fallen and the hopes of those who will follow,

-R.E.P.

[ziodyne-amax]

☤ - a memory of death/loss

[Spoilers for Persona 4/Persona 4 Golden under the cut.]

[Trigger warning: Child death]

Yu held the girl's hand tight, hovering over the hospital bed. The rhythmic beeping of the monitor drowned out by his own thoughts. While normally he would have come in with his friends, now he was alone..

The girl's eyes fluttered open for a moment, her face in excruciating pain.

"Big... Bro?"

"I'm here, Nanako. You'll be okay... Daddy will be here soon, and you'll be okay."

She winced, squeezing her eyes shut.

"I'm... Scared..."

He felt her hand's grip loosen slightly.

"Big Bro... Da...dd...y..."

Her head fell to the pillow, and the monitor flatlined. Yu hung his head, feeling his eyes burning but not being able to cry.

The door flung open, and Dojima was carried into the room by a nurse.

"Nanako!"

He shook the nurse off, rushing to the bedside.

"Nanako..."

Yu heard the footsteps of four others, but he couldn't look up. The doctor gave Dojima his condolences, but Yu blocked out the voices.

He heard Dojima shamble out of the room, but kept his eyes closed. He couldn't open them. Not now. Not with what he had just seen burned into his mind...

He heard Rise call for him, but hesitated. Just a moment. Just one moment that he couldn't stand to see anyone. Not friend. Not family. Not enemy.

Yu Narukami was alone.

[down-thedrain]

literally what about mark though. do you think shes trapped on this plain because its their after-lively task to get cesar to forgive roself. but even before she died how do you think he coped with it. cesar probably had jealousy issues, maybe, and mark too. they both wanted to be each other's best friend so hard it hurt the other. they talked shit behind each other's backs because they wanted to be the only people in each other's lives. bro im flat on my back

BRO!!!! BRO IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF IM DEAD I'M FLATLINING THEYBNEED TO PUT ME DOWN LIKE A SICK DOG

[dxrkenedheights]

★・・・・・・★

Ryan smirks and he quickly falls into a joke that he effortlessly plucks from the space between them. His brows raise and he gives a soft but mocking gasp. "You didn't know you were supposed to have it all figured out!?" he tsks, a tilt of his head in exaggerated confusion. "You ain't meant to make a single fuck up ever, you didn't know that?" he laughs at her and then his nose scrunches about Beau, head shaking as the joke falls away. "Fuck sayin' sorry to him, Tam. You know what-" he switches gears, hands up again to take hold of her face. "This, right? You listenin'? A face like this," he shakes his hold gently. "Already, us guys are fighting for our lives. Boom. Literally in the trenches. I see 'em, all turnin' their heads and all you're doing is walking. Just one after the other and I'm like God damn, bro. Chill."

Ryan cackles and he swears he's going somewhere with this. "Then add that to your damn attitude. Tam, it's over for us." he swipes a hand through the air like a flatline heart-rate but it raises straight back to her cheek. "Remember when you didn't talk to me from that Sunday to Wednesday? Every time I was callin', you was just hanging up. And I knew if you didn't give a fuck, you woulda just let it ring out. So I dropped everything, almost started shit with my dad and made that one hour drive like thirty-five minutes." Ryan's nostalgic laugh follows again, and he can see the day flash behind his eyes as if it's happening all over again. Bringing even more of a smirk to his face.

"You came outta the house with that damn face on you, making me talk my ass in circles for another twenty minutes. You think that kinda shit...you think Beau can handle that kinda shit? Fuck off." he takes the pause to look at her, the laughter trailing after his words as his head shakes. "He don't deserve any kinda explanation, because you're you and if he fuckin' knew you, he'd know when you didn't wanna talk because you didn't wanna, or when you weren't talking because you got shit going on." to Ryan it's that simple and he doesn't care if feelings are hurt in the process. "All he was ever gonna do was make you small, and you saying sorry to him, is kinda a way he still can. So, fuck that."

Ryan doesn't even care that Tammie can read him in the same way as he can her. Beyond his brothers and his son, nobody else has even come close to the way Tammie syncs with him. "Yeah, it's all uphill." he nods in agreement, no issue now in telling her because all tension has slipped away. And along with it the pride that usually follows him. "I...look, I don't hate it, right? I see where Wolf wants to go and I wanna go there too but it's just wall after wall. And after today, I...Tammie, I don't feel fucking guilty for any of it. I don't feel guilty about Jack, I don't feel guilty about the fact people should just leave me the fuck alone unless they want a new face. I don't give a fuck."

The air is clearer and easier to breathe and Tammie wonders why she insisted on polluting it as much as she did. Avoiding the inevitable left her with nothing but constricted lungs, and finally she can fill them to their capacity. Her body mirrors the sensation and she lets out a slow and long sigh. There's a frown as Ryan wipes at his hands and Tammie carefully hoists herself to sit on the counter. She wants to know but she can see the sincerity he talks with. Maybe it's for the best that she doesn't.

"I feel...responsible, I guess." she shrugs, and she's never denied for one second how easy it's been to talk to Ryan. About anything, too. Their conversations could wind for hours, touching deeper and deeper topics until they confused themselves into laughter. "I don't know. It feels like everything has caught up to me?" Tammie isn't used to it. Life has changed in many ways but she simply feels like she can't shut down and close up the way she used to. She could ignore consequences, be entirely blind to them. Whatever she said or didn't say always worked out in her favor, and she always moved too fast for life to touch. Until now. "I didn't wanna tell him because I thought it'd all go away and not even matter." she lets out a slight laugh to Ryan, arching a brow to him. "And I didn't wanna talk to you because I knew it wasn't gonna go away and did matter."

Her boot lightly connects to his leg and she nods at him. "And, I also hate that every time we've talked, it's been about me. You keep sayin' how good you know me as if I don't know you just as good. You're going through it too." and so he can't avoid it the way he has been, Tammie waves a hand around to the cabin as a vague gesture of proof. "You didn't answer me about how you feel about everything. And then, you're not heading over to Wolf right now when I know and you know that you should."

[kimarisgundam]

I don't like where things are going in my Cyberpunk Red campaign 😣

Our party's Exec is still shell-shocked cos his only 2 friends (his bodyguard NPC and the exec NPC from the same department as him) got executed in front of him by enforcers from our own corp...

He can cry if he wants, but do it AFTER we're safe. I will NOT allow him to drag the party to their deaths with him. I need him to tell me what's going on so I can at least cover our tracks if needed

I managed to knock some sense into him and got a vague summary of the situation:

I guess was kinda right, his 2 friend were framed by his superior for a crime against Arasaka they didn't commit

I don't know the full details, but his superior (the same superior I caught Exec tipping off during our job) throw Exec's friends under the bus to protect himself

When Exec lead the enforcers to us, he thought the enforcers were supposed to back his friend and his hired mercs (Rockerboy and Solo??) up

But instead of doing that, they opened fire on everyone, then charged his friend with treason against Arasaka and eliminated him

^ based on that, I know our party isn't in immediate danger cos this wasn't an attack aimed at us. Rockerboy and Solo just unfortunately got caught in the crossfire

Exec isn't in danger too cos his superior gave him a promotion for a "job well done"

What I'm worried about is Exec's reaction to this situation. Now that the shock is starting to fade... he's seething 😣

He asked me to arrange another meeting with my big bro... I know what he's thinking 😣. He wants to switch departments and work for my sponsor/dad now 😣

Arasaka is full of infighting at the lower ranks, he's out for revenge against his superior... but I don't want him to get involved with my big bro and dad 😣

My dad expects perfection and absolute loyalty... if Exec messes up my bro will remove him

Like sorry for not wanting my choom to get flatlined??

I didn't want to arrange a meeting, but Exec threatened to tell Rockerboy who my dad is, and he said he'll also tell my brother I left Night City with Rockerboy last week @_@

I'm stuck, I got to do what he says or my bro will go berserk @_@. I left the city without permission and I'm hanging out with a rockerboy, my bro will kill someone @_@

[smallbirdy]

Robin #12 2021 spoilers!!

About the end

bro I just want that not to be Damian's heart, that he changed it or something, I don't care if their relationship works or not, I'm not someone from ships but I don't want her to betray him so soon, I liked Flatline regardless of the shipp and Damian doesn't need a betrayal like that now, just leave him alone

I have much more to say about this issue

[mangasstuffcomics]

I'm glad connor hawke is asexual and while being still being a normal hero thats going to help damian and flatline stop villans like lord deathman

Can't wait for the bros road trip and maybe respawn and rose will join them

[theflyingfeeling]

no one asked but after some more evaluation, here's my fresh ranking of all the songs with commentary:

1. Die Another Day

-> really love this song 🖤 it's not often that I find songs that really resonate with me lyric-wise but this one definitely does, particularly the lines 'holding on to errors I find in myself' and 'maybe life would be easier without a heart'

2. Flatline

-> still a banger, great chorus, even my mom likes it

3. Phobia

-> no deep analysis, I just like the melody, even in the chorus, although ngl it does sound sorta familiar and like I've heard it before in a different song by a different band/artist, but then again so do pretty much the choruses for all of these songs (I'm letting it slide this time though because I just really like this song okay)

4. XOXO

-> this is growing on me day by day! I have never listened to From Ashes to New and I'm not sure if I'll check them out but I really like their feature here

5. Keeping It Surreal

-> big ouch

-> in some crazy way the how to [...] parts remind me a little of A Thousand Years by Christina Perri 😂💓

6. Red Tail Lights

-> I reaaaaaally really like the sound in the very begginning and end (don't know what I should call it). this could easily be on 5th place as well

-> fast tempo which I looooove. I also like how the songs just. keeps going, ya know? wish it had kept going a little longer though 💀

-> especially I hope Joonas' guitar solo will be longer in the live version

7. Not Your Bro

-> imagine this and Like a Brother being played back-to-back. yeah I know they're about different themes but still lol

8. Deadzone

-> you know those songs you're not really feeling when you first hear them but then they get better and better the more you listen to them? I feel like Deadzone is the opposite of that for me 🤔😂 I'm not saying I hate it, but I think it's a little...overappreciated? but it's on the Billboard, so obviously I'm the one in the wrong here

-> also, I'm obviously Very Stupid and don't understand anything about music or song lyrics, but this song's been out for 6 months and I still haven't figured out what exactly it's about? I know what the music video is about, but in my opinion the song is not what the mv is about (=the birth of the band) 🤨

9. One Last Time…Again

-> it's okay

10. Wolves in California

-> Wolves in California they say but the sound effect sounds more like The Neighbour's Dog in the Backyard and I lose it every time I hear it

11. Happy Doomsday

-> this is not on the last spot only because the bring the fucking popcorn line is still hilarious 🍿

-> actually the verses overall aren't that bad, but it's the chorus that has me snoring (and the English teacher in me cannot help being annoyed by the pronunciation and word stress issues lol)

12. Where's the Exit

-> sorry Mattson, I know this was one of your faves but the chorus in particular is biiiiiiiig yawn. the verses are kinda fun, but that's not enough

just listened through Exit Emotions for the first time (yay my old CD player still works!), minor spoilers under the cut:

gonna need to listen to the new songs again but my favourites were Phobia and Red Tail Lights. kinda liked Not Your Bro and the last song on the album too

genuinely chuckled at the very beginning of Wolves in California 😂

One Last Time...Again being over 3 minutes is such a fucking scam?? 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

overall I like the verses in all songs but the choruses are hella boring (the only exceptions being Flatline in which I like the chorus better, and Die Another Day which is chef's kiss from start to finish imho)

Joonas' guitar solo was cool. already forgot which song it was though

maybe on the next album we'll get a bass solo from Olli 😔