#bro i haven't posted in almost 2 months

[slutforsanemii]

Literally my type in men. (I only love Sanemi.)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[nostalgebraist]

Honestly I'm pretty tired of supporting nostalgebraist-autoresponder. Going to wind down the project some time before the end of this year.

Posting this mainly to get the idea out there, I guess.

This project has taken an immense amount of effort from me over the years, and still does, even when it's just in maintenance mode.

Today some mysterious system update (or something) made the model no longer fit on the GPU I normally use for it, despite all the same code and settings on my end.

This exact kind of thing happened once before this year, and I eventually figured it out, but I haven't figured this one out yet. This problem consumed several hours of what was meant to be a relaxing Sunday. Based on past experience, getting to the bottom of the issue would take many more hours.

My options in the short term are to

A. spend (even) more money per unit time, by renting a more powerful GPU to do the same damn thing I know the less powerful one can do (it was doing it this morning!), or

B. silently reduce the context window length by a large amount (and thus the "smartness" of the output, to some degree) to allow the model to fit on the old GPU.

Things like this happen all the time, behind the scenes.

I don't want to be doing this for another year, much less several years. I don't want to be doing it at all.

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In 2019 and 2020, it was fun to make a GPT-2 autoresponder bot.

[EDIT: I've seen several people misread the previous line and infer that nostalgebraist-autoresponder is still using GPT-2. She isn't, and hasn't been for a long time. Her latest model is a finetuned LLaMA-13B.]

Hardly anyone else was doing anything like it. I wasn't the most qualified person in the world to do it, and I didn't do the best possible job, but who cares? I learned a lot, and the really competent tech bros of 2019 were off doing something else.

And it was fun to watch the bot "pretend to be me" while interacting (mostly) with my actual group of tumblr mutuals.

In 2023, everyone and their grandmother is making some kind of "gen AI" app. They are helped along by a dizzying array of tools, cranked out by hyper-competent tech bros with apparently infinite reserves of free time.

There are so many of these tools and demos. Every week it seems like there are a hundred more; it feels like every day I wake up and am expected to be familiar with a hundred more vaguely nostalgebraist-autoresponder-shaped things.

And every one of them is vastly better-engineered than my own hacky efforts. They build on each other, and reap the accelerating returns.

I've tended to do everything first, ahead of the curve, in my own way. This is what I like doing. Going out into unexplored wilderness, not really knowing what I'm doing, without any maps.

Later, hundreds of others with go to the same place. They'll make maps, and share them. They'll go there again and again, learning to make the expeditions systematically. They'll make an optimized industrial process of it. Meanwhile, I'll be locked in to my own cottage-industry mode of production.

Being the first to do something means you end up eventually being the worst.

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I had a GPT chatbot in 2019, before GPT-3 existed. I don't think Huggingface Transformers existed, either. I used the primitive tools that were available at the time, and built on them in my own way. These days, it is almost trivial to do the things I did, much better, with standardized tools.

I had a denoising diffusion image generator in 2021, before DALLE-2 or Stable Diffusion or Huggingface Diffusers. I used the primitive tools that were available at the time, and built on them in my own way. These days, it is almost trivial to do the things I did, much better, with standardized tools.

Earlier this year, I was (probably) one the first people to finetune LLaMA. I manually strapped LoRA and 8-bit quantization onto the original codebase, figuring out everything the hard way. It was fun.

Just a few months later, and your grandmother is probably running LLaMA on her toaster as we speak. My homegrown methods look hopelessly antiquated. I think everyone's doing 4-bit quantization now?

(Are they? I can't keep track anymore -- the hyper-competent tech bros are too damn fast. A few months from now the thing will be probably be quantized to -1 bits, somehow. It'll be running in your phone's browser. And it'll be using RLHF, except no, it'll be using some successor to RLHF that everyone's hyping up at the time...)

"You have a GPT chatbot?" someone will ask me. "I assume you're using AutoLangGPTLayerPrompt?"

No, no, I'm not. I'm trying to debug obscure CUDA issues on a Sunday so my bot can carry on talking to a thousand strangers, every one of whom is asking it something like "PENIS PENIS PENIS."

Only I am capable of unplugging the blockage and giving the "PENIS PENIS PENIS" askers the responses they crave. ("Which is ... what, exactly?", one might justly wonder.) No one else would fully understand the nature of the bug. It is special to my own bizarre, antiquated, homegrown system.

I must have one of the longest-running GPT chatbots in existence, by now. Possibly the longest-running one?

I like doing new things. I like hacking through uncharted wilderness. The world of GPT chatbots has long since ceased to provide this kind of value to me.

I want to cede this ground to the LLaMA techbros and the prompt engineers. It is not my wilderness anymore.

I miss wilderness. Maybe I will find a new patch of it, in some new place, that no one cares about yet.

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Even in 2023, there isn't really anything else out there quite like Frank. But there could be.

If you want to develop some sort of Frank-like thing, there has never been a better time than now. Everyone and their grandmother is doing it.

"But -- but how, exactly?"

Don't ask me. I don't know. This isn't my area anymore.

There has never been a better time to make a GPT chatbot -- for everyone except me, that is.

Ask the techbros, the prompt engineers, the grandmas running OpenChatGPT on their ironing boards. They are doing what I did, faster and easier and better, in their sleep. Ask them.

[homestylehughes]

But Daddy I Love Him

instagram au.

♥︎ luke hughes x zegras! sister

♥︎ face claim: marsai martin

"I'll tell you something right now, I'd rather burn my whole life down. Than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning"

yn.zegras

liked by lhughes_06, and trevorzegras, and 159,678 others

yn.zegras no more moaning and groaning, part 1 of my summer dump is here <3

trevorzegras waiting for me to be posted.

↳ yn.zegras answer your phone and then i'll think about it.

lhughes_06 YESS IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS

↳ yn.zegras ME TOO POOKIE BUTT

lhughes_06 i reallllyyyyyyy hope I make the cut this summer!!

↳ yn.zegras baby you're in the first photo..

jackhughes DUMPY!

↳ yn.zegras shit?

↳ jackhughes oh thats not...what I meant...

_quinnhughes so many books, did you read all of those?

↳ yn.zegras i read all of them, matter of fact.

↳ _quinnhughes nerd.

seamsuscasey26 the queen has posted again..gone for a MONTH. how could you leave us high AND dry. where am I supposed to find pictures of mother and father at???? 0/10 never do that again.

↳ yn.zegras IM SORRY! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! IM BEGGING!

↳ seamsuscasey26 just this once, I will. next time we all ride at dawn.

your.bsf my pretty girl ( please post me..I'm begging)

↳ yn.zegras you're next bbg, i would NEVER forget about you my queen.

lhughes_06

liked by yn.zegras, jackhughes and 100,705 others

lhughes_06 summer lovin'

seamsuscasey26 I'm first, where is my shout-out!

↳ lhughes_06 SHOUT OUT TO SEAMSUS CASEY GUYS. THIS GUY IS A NATIONAL TREASURE.

↳ seamsuscasey26 thank you. I'm glad I'm getting the credit that I earned.

_quinnhughes little bro back on the gram

↳ lhughes_06 back like I never left

jackhughes WE ARE BACK BABBBBYYYYYY

↳ lhughes_06 BACK BABBBBBYYYY

trevorzegras luke. we talked about this..the first picture is..ridiculous.

↳ lhughes_06 yes father.

yn.zegras my pretty boyyyyyyy

↳ lhughes_06 my pretty girl

yn.zegras ANOTHER BANGER POST!!!!!!

↳ lhughes_06 yn..you sound like seamsus

adamfantilli miss you brotha! see ya on the ice this season!!

↳ lhughes_06 miss you too! they're not ready for us this season

nick_moldenhauer lukie pookie posted!!

↳ lhughes_06 I know you missed my posts sooo much

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an: HIIIIII!!! I MISSED YOU GUYS!!! GUESS WHOS BACKKKK!!! MEEE! well I'm kinda back, life has been so crazy and I literally haven't had time to write but I'm home for the weekend from school so I'm hoping to have at least 2 fics out while I'm here!! I hope you all are doing well. also I just realized this series is almost over SAD!!! anyways I'm done yapping. bye for nowwwwww, I love you all sooooo much<3

tags🎀: @lukey-pookie-hughes43 @bruinsfan234 @bunbunbl0gs

[akayralylegacy]

EMESIS BLUE IS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS I EVER WATCHED

Yeah, this is going to be some sort of analysis bc I am having a massive brainrot about this movie and I HAVE to share my thoughts of it somewhere, so I hope you enjoy reading this huge post ig lmao

Btw, if you're a person who doesn't like spoilers... SPOILERS WARNING IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT YET (and plan to do so)!!!

First, yeah, for those who didn't know I've been really into TF2 since last month, and being a very new fan, I started watching lots of SFMs and vids in a row to catch up with all the memes and lore, and well, I stumbled across EMESIS BLUE. And, it got me caught up with its plot/concept and the overall movie itself SO MUCH that I will never think of TF2 the same way-

No I mean, I know TF2 is more humoristic and stuff most of the time, the canon comics themselves have lots of funny moments of nonsense and weird situations, and not even counting the zillions of memes the community has created, those being pure gold. I love the comedic silliness from the comics and memes, plus the chaotic vibe from the game itself is just so fucking funny and stupid I always burst into laughter

But, TF2...with... horror? That's a combination I never thought I'd like so much. The whole concept of the respawn machine not working like it was supposed to, making them suffer from physical and/or mental problems after each respawn, creating an eternal loop of suffering, breaking the characters' sense of reality, torturing them by having to wait an eternity within some sort of limbo of "afterlife"...bro that's so...so disturbing yet so amazing at the same time. The fact the respawn machine caused Scout to develop brain atrophy, decreasing his IQ score and causing dementia and schizophrenia symptoms, while Medic developed some sort of split personality and schizophrenia as well, and you know that each time they return it will just get worse and worse, even them reckoning it later on. It's...just, it is simply horrifying.

The movie's atmosphere is so well made and constructed that I was tense from start to end, I felt like I was inside the movie, like I was witnessing all the carnage and agony of each one of the characters from up close. Like, there was practically no calm moment during those whole (almost) 2 hours of movie, but at the same time so many stuff happens very quickly, it also seems to go a bit slow but not in a bad way, and the details are shown here and there bit by bit. I like very detailed stories that construct the events based on its slow pace, revealing stuff on its right time, but on the other hand, being mixed with agitation, brutality and things happening in a flash. I hope you can understand what I'm saying? I hope I am being able to explain it well, but I think you get what I mean.

Cinematography wise, everything is stunning. The animation, the effects, the light and shadow, the colors and textures, sounds and background music, everything so well made, if you pay attention you can notice tiny details that make a lot of difference and make it even more agonizing yet thrilling to watch. I was so impressed with it just from the start. I mean, the animation>>>>

The quality being SO. GOOD considering it was animated purely on SFM??? THAT'S SO FUCKING IMPRESSIVE AND JAWDROPPING LIKE THAT'S SUCH A BANGER I COULDN'T EVEN BELIEVE IT.

Dialogue and quotes is something to be noted out as well. Many dialogues made such impact to the movie, some quotes making more sense later on as the movie progresses. I swear, that moment where Soldier is in a black n white room, with all those skeletons sitting around a table, and the sound at the background is a phone call from Jules to Blutarch, where Jules says: "We have about 800.000 corpses on the site," that line hit me SO HARD I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN. This is SO. FUCKING. DARK AND MORBID BRO I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK

Not only this one but lots of lines caught my attention and hit me so hard, like:

"You ever get the feeling like you're being watched?"

"Doc, I was at the second floor"

"Some get stuck inside trying to come through"

"You don't want to know..."

"It's eternity in there"

"Longer than you think..."

"Who was there to save me, Jules?"

"And I'm giving you exactly what you deserve"

"See you on the other side..."

ISTG THESE ARE SO??? LIKE, THEY HIT SO HARD AND I GOT CHILLS FROM SOME OF THOSE

Also, the voice acting, OOOH THE VOICE ACTING. Some people say it wasn't that good because many characters were voiced by Chad Payne himself, however I think it shows quite a talent from him to voice numerous characters tbh, even if he couldn't perfectly change the voice to fit all the characters 100% it doesn't mean his voice acting isn't good! I think he did an amazing job :]

And all the other voice actors as well, all of them are so amazing and I loved their acting so fucking much, but shoutout to Jazzyjoeyjr (voice of Soldier) and Cameron Nichols (voice of Scout) bc bro YOU DUDES DID A *PERFECT* JOB I SWEAR-

Talking abt moments of the movie that impacted me so much, I think it was Scout's death, and well uh, many Soldier moments tbh. Scout's death scene was agonizing to watch, I was in total despair hearing his screams at the background while Medic was trying to kill Maynard, I was almost having a crisis I was almost yelling of desperation I was like: COME ON MEDIC PLEASE GO SAVE HIM ISTG

It was SO. FUCKING. SAD. AND UNFAIR. I will never get over that moment.

Soldier's moments? Bro, he was the most sane out of everyone, which says a lot... and he was the ONLY one to indeed survive, without dying at any moment. He witnessed it all, the death of his best friend, Fritz shooting himself right in front of him, the pile of bodies, the truth being revealed....everything.

It even saddens me to imagine what could be passing through Soldier's mind after all those events, he seen gruesome and horrifying shit throughout the movie.

So, long-story short, EMESIS BLUE is a fucking MASTERPIECE that traumatized me for LIFE (in a good way), and I highly recommend you to watch it if you haven't yet, I am impressed with it and it doesn't get out of my head I am so fucking obsessed with it ISTG-

[tachiharastanacc]

hello fellow tachi fan, do you have any tachi fic recs, also here to say tysm for your contribution to the tachihara tag, our strongest tachihara soldier fr 🫡🫡

I be out here fighting tooth and nail (I hyperfixate on one character at a time and it's him and I need to talk abt him 24/7 actually) so ty for acknowledging my efforts for our cause.

BUT YES FIC RECS (below cut bc I've figure out how to use them)

After All, Spies Are The First To Die In A War

One of my favorite Tachi fics of all time. I'm a sucker for both post-canon and blind Tachi, and this one is great. It's Tachigin, so heads up if that's not ur thing, but I think they're very cute.

Together At Last

Unfinished, probably never going to be finished. But it's a cute couple chapters in the apocalypse. Atsushi-centric but Tachi gets cool moments.

are we there yet?

Hunting Dog road trip fluffy. Silly crack, very cute.

blocks, boy bands, bones, and birthdays

Also not Tachi-centric, but very, very cute. Baby DOA and HD at preschool.

Hunting Dogs (& Cat) Adventures

HD as Fukuchi's dogs (and cat!Jouno) except they cause chaos. Puppy Tachi is there, he's very cute.

It's Still Raining

HD (specifically sgk angst). Tachi isn't there much, but again, I love aftermath fics.

The More The Merrier

Another one of my absolute favorite fics! PM and HD meet at Tachi's apt by accident during the Holidays.

undercover (a table for three)

Ima be so fr this one is a MHA crossover and probably not gonna be updated, by Tachi was one of the main characters

lock picks and rusted metal

by @karmicpunishment

First one is lil Tachi using his ability for the first time and the second is Tachi almost missing his surgery (I'm low key in love with the whole HD surgery concept, so immediate win for me)

government projects club and blood vs water

by @starfocks are also both relatively short and sweet.

First one is most HD surgery pain but with the mafia and the second is found family meets Tachi's shit parents

Wind flower

Really well planned out Chuuya-centric ADA AU, but Tachi is a big part of it and their friendship makes me happy. Poor lil bro is a victim of the Tanizaki's tho.

Solace

by @miammey

Tecchou-centric, but I never see people write Tecchou and Tachi together and it makes me happy whenever I see them.

How to Raise Your Hunting Dog

I'm going to move my fics to ao3 at some point probably (I've been meaning to) and probably just make a Tachi one shot collection. Especially bc I have more that I haven't gotten around to posting here yet. BUT. This one is posted and if u wanna see my ao3 acc when I will end up posting them, that's where it'll be.

I might make a part 2, bc there are definitely more one shots and stuff that I'm missing, but that's what I had in my bookmarks.

I've gone thru pretty much the entire Tachi tag (Sorted by new and just scrolled back to front, it was a few months long process), so there are others. There is just also a lot of junk to sort thru (I'm looking at you skk fics that have Tachihara tagged except he's either so out of character and awful that it's unbearable or he just shows up to say one line and then leave).

[crescencestudio]

๋࣭⭑ Devlog #40 | 5.1.24 ๋࣭⭑

Happy April (pretend I'm not late on this devlog)!!

April flew by in the blink of an eye. It's been a really busy month for me personally--I'm not sure about you all!

This devlog is going to be structured differently from the past devlogs for two reasons: 1) my concussion is lowkey kicking my ass and 2) I had a release going on almost every week this month because I am a Crazy Person HA!!!!

This month was filled with some kind of release every weekend, which is equal parts exciting and exhausting. Because releases always take a lot out of me, I basically spent every day this month cycling between phases of post-release euphoria, post-release depression, pre-release excitement, recovery burnout, burnout guilt, and just about every emotion in between.

THEN!! I got into an accident about a week ago and have been throwing hands with the resulting concussion since. So it's basically been a crazy month in the Crescence world.

That being said, let's run through the month in chronological order, and every weekend release :crazy eyes & hysterical laughter:

Kayn's Beta Route Out Now!

Kayn's Beta Route has been Finished!

In Extremely Exciting news, Kayn's beta route was finished during the first weekend of this month! I had put off publicly announcing it because I didn't want to clash with the demo release. But it was released quietly to patrons and beta-testers. Feedback so far has been very kind, and if you'd like to get access to Kayn's beta route, you can play it with the Hydra ($10) tier on my Patreon ^^

I will publicly announce the route sometime later. But for now, for those who bother reading my devlogs, here is a treat!

Enhanced Demo Release

Bro we fucking did it

Second weekend of April, we released the ENHANCED DEMO OFFICIALLY!!!! It was so exciting (and nerve-wracking) to be able to finally get this out to the public. Reception has been so nice, and it's been rewarding to see people finally be able to play the enhanced demo and see what I've been working so very hard on these past couple of months. I'm really glad you all liked it and appreciated all the details that I've painstakingly polished <3

I mentioned it before but I was really nervous for the release---I had no idea how it would go. But as always, I could not be more appreciative of the support you all give to little old me. Thank you, and I hope you all like the taste of what is to come in the Alaris world!

If you haven't gotten a chance to play the demo yet, please check it out here!

ALSO..... if five people want to rate the demo and haven't rated it yet...... it would make me very happy....... we are so close to 300 ratings.....

Velox Formida

Yes, I did help make a game in 36 hours.

Adding to the madness, I got sucked into this game jam by beloved and crazy @shewassaying. You have to make a game in 36 hours. It was a crazy whirlwind of an experience, but with people I always love being with. We finished a beautiful fantasy game if anyone would like to check it out!

Are you tired yet? I sure am.

A Faerie's Tale

We aren't done yet gamers

Finally, to round out the marathon, I created the GUI for this beautiful little game that was submitted to Amare Fest (which you should check out, since a lot of other cool games were submitted!). I had the opportunity to work with some extremely talented devs (@steamberrystudio, @jeneara, @windchimesgames, @tuffmallowinteractive, and feniks of OL fame), some of which are like titans in the VN community to me ;_;

The game is an enchanting, short little story (and FREE!) about a Fae. Something I know many of us are suckers for nyeheh. Please feel free to check it out here

That's it... Kinda.

And that's about it for this month! As you can see..... it was very much a back-to-back month. Because of that, I'm trying to use right now as a break (everyone thank my concussion for forcing me to take a break, yippee!).

Some other things that I want to highlight this month:

We released an official trailer for Alaris. She's stunning, and if you haven't seen it yet...... well, what are you waiting for....

intertwine is part of a Palestinian Relief Bundle. For only $8, you can get access to over 300 cracked games and support an important cause. If you haven't donated yet, please consider doing so. We are close to almost half a million dollars raised! Bundle ends in 4 days, so please consider buying if you haven't already

Alaris is part of a small little collaboration/cross-promotion of other magical and mystery otome. If you like sexy games by cracked devs, please check them out at the bottom of my itchio page. Some of the other games include Obscura, Lost in Limbo, The Good People, Save the Villainess, Snow White Ashes, and more! I would link them here, but I'm starting to get a headache teehee.

Anyways, that rounds out this month and a bunch of exciting news! I know it can be overwhelming to look at. Per usual, I never expect anyone to play every single game I am involved with. But if any of them catch your eye, I encourage you to check them out since many of the people I work with are very talented and you never know what new devs/games you'll get introduced to as a result!

See you all next month! <3

[proboblynotstriaght]

I put far too much effort into my shitposting and screenshot taking...

Oh well! you all seem to enjoy them! And I like having all my best screenshots in a place that doesn't take up a crazy amount of space in my computer!!

As usual past the cut there are spoilers for episode 40 but I try to keep it away from any major spoilers

(also psst, @raeemar this is for you! your reblog made my day!)

Let's get into Episode 40!!!! Rich : The bean footage is a DM thing I can't say it! ||| Mike : eeeeeehhhh we can change it?

Bro bonding moment, bullying lornings edition

Twig : *explaining fae deals and how to make better deals* |||| Gricko : *not paying attention*

Nikkie : *doing a fantastic Torbek impression!* ||| A++ Nikkie Torbeks voice is hard

"Twig we haven't run a successful business in all the 8 years-" "Woah now!" uh oh! the couple is Fiiiighting

"Think of the margins we'll have on the Displacer Beast piss"

Frost : So are we going to kill these fucker or what?

"I guess that makes sense... fucking nerd"

"I knew a guy who would make and sell this kinda stuff, 5 people died it was a whole thing in the news and everything" "Well how many people did he sell it to" "Like... 5"

"Well, I'm just going to say... shit that was funny"

"How long did it take those goblins to die?" "the last one lingered... for a good three months"

Twigsy, blacked out from all the alcohol, and flailing around as Gideon picks her up

His face haunts my dreams...

Derek : *a punny name for the drink* || Gricko : that's not very good

Frost and Kremy are drunk, Gricko and Gideon are trying to be the smart ones for once

"Frost you realize that you've been writing with a chicken leg, and what you thought was parchment, is now clearly human skin" "Well, I've completed page one of my cookbook, the Necro-Nom-Nom-Nom"

"He is continuing to do whatever Torbek does" "Pump his fists" "NO HE DOES NOT"

Grickos imitation of Gideon, I just need you to know that Mace is laughing so hard that it's not actually audible.

This man is laughing so hard he is completely silent and shaking, I'm genuinely concerned for this mans health

Derek : It doesn't even give Gricko a little wink? Like John Void at the end of Anaconda?

I love when Derek makes a joke because they are funny, but also he's almost laughing himself as he's telling the joke

Richie : I'm sorry I thought he was saying something else

guys it took me like four trays to get the screenshot of his face, IT'S SO FUNNY

MIke in Gricko's voise : Gimmie that Bussay

"The Stream Kill-inator" "beep beep beep"

Husband moments be like. FRosty really likes to irritate Kremy about his hat huh

SHUT THE STREAM DOWN

"BEEP BEEP BEEP"

I don't understand most of the references they make but I like how hard they all laugh at them

Derek telling a ridiculous story of how he had too watch the same movie twice in one day and he hated the movie both times

Nikkie : *Horrifying description of Torbek eating one of the Lornlings* Just kidding that doesn't happen!

Singing : It's Torbek It's Torbek, Everybody hates Torbek

Part 2 of this post is one the way! These posts keep getting longer and longer

Edit : Part 2 is here!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/proboblynotstriaght/760423614759714816/part-2-of-my-episode-40-screenshots-despite-andy?source=share

[7grandmel]

Todays rip: 17/05/2024

Athletic Doctor

Season 1 Featured on: GilvaSunner's Highest Quality Video Game Rips: Volume 1 Also on: SiIvaGunner: Starter Kit & Essentials

Ripped by Psynwav

ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY SPECIAL!!

I haven't slept in so long...I forgot what dreams were like.

Honestly - what better way could there be for me to celebrate the 365th main post on the blog, than to be fashionably late by a whole weekend? It's unfortunate, but...oddly befitting, really. Back when I was first starting out with the blog, I actually forgot about posting daily for a solid two weeks - and so, some old-ass posts like Chillin’ Like A Villain and (YTPMV) Bob​-​Omb Battlesources were made in quite a hurry retroactively. Nevertheless, it was on May 17th 2023, over on my main blog @melblur, that I suddenly decided that I wanted to write about one SiIvaGunner rip a day just for fun. After File Select Fusion Collab, I realized that it made more sense just to put these on their own blog, and with Snowball Park - Super Mario 3D World I moved everything onto here. It's all been a bit of a bumpy ride, is my point. But today, I've reached the big milestone that I was originally aiming for all the way back with Running Through Cookie Country - a year's worth of almost-always-daily posts on the weird and wonderful world of SiIvaGunner. And what better rip to discuss alongside this milestone than the channel's biggest hit, the milestone rip to stand above all others: Season 1's Athletic Doctor.

Now, I've been following SiIvaGunner since some of the earliest moments of Season 1, following along with the initial GiIvaSunner termination, the entire Reboot saga discussed in I Saw a Brainwasher Today, the Mashup Crusaders arc of Mr. Rental [B Side] ~ Out of Options, the channel ending of Epic Flintstones... Basically, I was there for just about the entire initial 9-month run, and have with but one Season's worth of an exception (Season 5) been following the channel damn near obsessively since. The point is that, through this, I have been able to follow the channel's most popular videos chart up and down with each passing month: I recall, for instance, how Nintendo GameCube Startup - Console/BIOS Music soared past all other rips back in the day and stayed on top for five month's time. That was, of course, before finally being surpassed by we are number one but with outdated memes over it and subsequently helping kickstart the entire We Are Number One meme trend (funny enough - you can actually find a youtube comment left by me on the rip in late December 2016/early 2017 expressing mild annoyance over the rip's popularity...). Athletic Doctor in comparison was of course always popular, but it took a while to truly climb its way up there - it was in the top ten, then top five, always rising, bubbling in the background. Eventually, starting with Season 3's premiere, the team decided to just make the rip the trailer for the channel for new viewers - where it still sits today, now as the far-and-away most popular rip on the channel.

I feel like the reason the rip became used as the defacto channel trailer, the reason it keeps being referenced in videos demonstrating what SiIvaGunner is all about, is pretty obvious. I've talked a lot in posts like Live and Ooooooooooooooh about how outright *effective* many of Season 1's rips were, and Athletic Doctor is the most prime example of that imaginable - it is a damn near pitch perfect joke executed shockingly well for the time of its upload in the channel's history. EVERYONE knows the music to Super Mario World, either through its usage in the game itself in the 90s, its appearances in games like Super Smash Bros. Melee in the 2000s and Super Mario Galaxy 2 in the 2010s - or just through sheer overexposure to it in just about any era of gaming YouTube. The game's soundtrack is the perfect blend of being immediately recognizable and incredibly easy to hum along to given the entire game basically only has three or so melodies, relying on its central leitmotif to a degree bordering on parody. Likewise as well, EVERYBODY knows Witch Doctor, either through excessive radio play, being a big hit with Alvin & the Chipmunks...or the 2007 Live Action Alvin & the Chipmunks movie that I myself grew up with, it's the kind of vaguely obnoxious (also arguably quite racist) nonsense novelty music that's incredibly appealing to young kids, the same way something like Crazy Frog or its ilk was in the 2000s as well.

Put simply, Athletic Doctor was a match made in heaven - and the joke is pulled off so expertly that it feels redundant to put into words. The Athletic Theme intro is iconic enough to where you're led into a false sense of security right off the bat, the melody swap is subtle enough as to not immediately be noticeable, making the moment you notice it even more noteworthy - only for the track's second loop to become a full-on mashup with the Witch Doctor track. Absolutely perfect escalation, just the right amount of buildup - but most importantly, it ends up actually sounding really good! The joke's great to be sure, very much like Live and Ooooooooooooooh - but I feel like the core reason why Athletic Doctor has continued to endure for so long on the channel, why it keeps getting remixed and referenced and paid tribute to on so many instances, is because it's just a genuinely good listen once the joke sets in. In other words, it is the purest distillation of SiIvaGunner's appeal - a joke so simple, yet pulled off with a magical appeal that remains even all these years later.

Through running this blog, it's that very specific appeal that I've wanted to try and encapsulate with the rips I cover, with what I write about them, to uncover that elusive magic of this dumb shitpost channel. Joel's big Grand Dad reaction that kicked the channel off is a good bit, to be sure, but its not a bit that could've lasted eight years and counting: In its earliest days, its easy to see how the channel could've just become naught but a novelty and fallen off the face off the earth once interest in it died. Yet through each year of the channel's life, with every Season that passes, it's evolved and adapted. Be it the spontaneous chaos of Season 1, the building storyline of Season 2, the mystery and nostalgia of Season 3, the sheer talent on display in the King for Another Day Tournament in Season 4 Episode 1 and the sheer joy of celebration found in Season 4 Episode 2, the whimsical experimentation of Season 5, the sudden introspection and moodiness of Season 6, the pure adoration and love for everything the channel stands for in Season 7, and the ongoing pure silliness of Season 8 - each period of this channel feels as if it's growing in a new direction, never content sitting in one place for too long - and yet the appeal of a rip like Athletic Doctor remains oh so core to the entire SiIvaGunner experience. The experience of which I've made my best effort to cover across all 365 posts on this blog. To show everyone the layers in which this channel goes in.

That's what I've been wanting to show you... but now, before I end this post, I want to briefly talk about what you've shown *me*. I know its a cliché thing to say, but really - it warms my heart EVERY time I receive messages about the blog. This all began as just a way for me to practice my writing ability, but suddenly I was having the actual rippers - the names that I'd admire from my MP3 player but hardly ever considered able to actually interact with - messaging me in private to express how happy my posts made them...not to mention the people in SiIvaCord discussing rips with me, digging into my writing, sharing anecdotes I'd never heard of, and everyone who requested rips genuinely eager to see what I had to write about them...like, again, its the biggest cliché on the planet, and I know this blog really isn't all *that* big in the grand scheme of things - but I never expected to even get more than five people actually engaging with what I post? To everyone, and ESPECIALLY to the silent majority reading my posts without a Tumblr account, the ones engaging from a distance - thank you SO much for validating all that I've done on here.

Now, there's still plenty of posts I have left in me, plenty of ones already in the drafts and unfulfilled requests well in the dozens. But like...tons has happened since when this all started 12 months ago. I got a summer job! I'm wrapping up what's hopefully my final three school courses! I've started listening to so much new music, expanding my music tastes, in huge part thanks to all the digging this blog has made me do! And, of course, getting to be this open about what's likely my absolute weirdest special interest has honestly made me feel more confident in myself as a person, made me a more outgoing individual in general. And so, to get all of my ducks in a row, to help straighten things out for a bit...I'm going to take a break from regular posting on here. I'm aiming for it to be no longer than a month's time - again, I have much I still wish to write about!! - but you'll of course still see me reblogging fanart and other such things on here just from using Tumblr casually. And hey - if you haven't already, I recommend you take the time to go scavenging through The Archive for daily posts that you might have missed! Having a blog with so much writing on it, so many posts, so much to discover for readers old and new...In a way, I've basically made it so that navigating the blog feels just like navigating the vast seas of the SiIvaGunner channel itself. And isn't that just the most fitting way to leave it all on - an ocean of posts, waiting for you to uncover them?

THAT SIIVAGUNNER TUMBLR BLOG WILL RETURN IN SEASON 2

[tonberry-yoda]

*slides in and gives you the biggest smooch on your forehead* hi miss Berry-boo, I love you <3 ahem! Gojo going to the beach headcanons? The last month of summer is here and I LOVE those silly beach episodes some animes have so why not huh? (I would bury the babygirl in the sand btw) mwah i wuv u <3

Gojo at the Beach

notes - BABE HI <3333 I love this literally so so much! I know that he does go to the beach in season 2, but I haven't seen it yet, so I'm making this up lolol but no i love this idea so much and I love YOU so much! Now let's bury bbygurl in sand <3

I made the goofiest ass graphic and im not even mad because it's THAT stupid

bro sunburns so easily

^ LOOK HOW PALE HE IS

^ please pack sunscreen for him because we all know he won't

maybe he's good at swimming, maybe he's not, but it doesn't matter because i know that he's the dude who plays dead to see if you'll notice

^ ignore him, it's funny. like just sit with your sunglasses and watch him float face down

all these girls oggle over his body, which rightfully upsets you, especially when he plays into it

^ you have permission to actually drown him :)

he is too good at volleyball, and too strong (almost knocked out a child)

he will draw wieners in the sand

^ please stop him from doing that

always loses a flip flop whenever y'all go

wears dad Hawaiian shirts when he knows he's getting too burnt on his body

and flamingo sunglasses

don't let him BBQ please thank you

he will fall asleep and burn if you're not careful

^ with food in his mouth too dfksljjkdfkjfd

when you bury him in the sand though, he loves it and really makes a deal with you to see if you can dig a hold deep enough to completely bury him

^ you want that twenty bucks so bad that you end up winning by a lot

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2023 @tonberry-yoda – do not repost or claim ANY of my work as your own! likes, reblogs, and comments are not only welcome, but appreciated

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[glitterpeachdelusion]

Ladies, I have returned.

I'm sorry I was ever gone. I left because I forgot myself. But I'm fucking back now and you can't stop me from making this post bitching about my ex boyfriend. Behold.

Haven't spoken to my boyfriend in 5 days.

I hung up on him when he called me "f*cking stupid" and said he didn't know why he even bothered speaking to me at all anymore. "Why?" You might ask.

Because he tried to tell me that women being allowed to join the military is apart of a global communist plot to weaken the US armed forces, and I guess the WEF and Klaus Schwab were involved somehow???

I was with this man for almost 4 years (he's 38 and I'm 30). And over the last 6 months or so he really let his freak flag fly with the misogyny. When Roe was overturned, I was horrified and ready to go on a crusade. He said that no one actually cared as much as I did and I was in a small minority. (Midterms determined that was a lie[/mauryvoice]) He kept bringing up weird shit about women and it would almost always devolve into an argument. Womens right to vote was actually not that great for women at the time, women are so privileged in family court/divorce, men only want a woman who is obedient and submissive and attractive, etc etc.

Now the kicker of this whole thing is that we've pretty much been LDR since he *made me a truck driver* at the start of our relationship. He got me into a highly independent and lucrative male dominated field. And ladies. I'm fucking *killing it*. I'm a single mom, i'm 30 years old. My house is gonna be completely paid off this summer. Each year I make more and more money and within 2 or 3 more years I can stop doing this and work part time training fucking gerbils to be support animals or whatever once my debts are paid.

I say all this because I had the sudden realization today that all of this started because about 6 months ago I started making more money than him. He got me into my company. He rage quit over some drama last year. He has been trying to find a better logistics company for an entire year and he has problems at every single one. My company, the one he left, will not take him back because of how he left. He's been trying to undercut my success ever since and apparently the only logical reason for my success and his failure is that I'm succeeding at my job because i'm a woman and people are nicer to me.

And women are only successful because its a plot to destroy America or some shit.

Bro.... i'm gonna have to let you travel down that rabbit hole all by yourself. You are absolutely insane and good luck finding a tradwife that you don't eventually accuse of being a gold digger.

I will not be calling him back, and the first thing I'm doing is ordering band shirts and converse high tops and shorts since that is my fucking aesthetic and i stopped wearing all that stuff because he said it was childish.

[vizthedatum]

very brief/abbreviated post of my own awareness of my autism/ADHD for the parallel co-validation during Autism Awareness Month

I don't remember if it was last night or in the past couple of nights, but I dropped my super flamboyant gold glasses (I currently have 2-3 pairs of glasses I cycle through, but I mostly wear my blue colorful ones because it makes me really really happy) and the lens came out.

I nearly had a meltdown - it's just that I don't know if people know how hard it is to manage living by yourself. Especially when you're autistic, trans, working full-time, healing from traumas, etc. (Like, I get that more able-bodied people may think I'm using it as an excuse (it's now laughable when I hear or see that sentiment from people... because they literally don't know what it's like to be executively disabled in this way... they think I'm being lazy or just making up excuses - like nah, bro, I'm impaired.))

I juggle and mask living alone really well—and I get help from my friends. But largely (especially when I'm not partnered), I do it alone. I have to do things in stages or all at once. Sometimes, I'm so spent or low on spoons that I can't do anything—I have to rest. When I do end up cleaning, it's meticulous. When I'm in chaos mode, I clutter things up.

I forgot to take out the trash last night for the third week in a row >.< I even had the trash and recycling in their appropriate cans/bins in my garage. I just forgot to take it out to the curb by this morning. I kept reminding myself, too. I tried to do all the steps to do this methodically (mind you, *my* methodical way... which I guess is the perk of living alone: you can do things your way without people hounding you or lecturing you... I had to complete many kitchen cleaning tasks before I could *almost* take the trash out. I was so close. At least it's not piling up in my kitchen).

I have to spend hours sometimes prepping myself to do a five-minute task.

I'm chronically late to friend hangouts, dates, appointments.

Sometimes, I miss medical appointments entirely because I'm having a meltdown.

I used to think my meltdowns were panic attacks FOR YEARS (and I think some of them were).

I am incredibly sensitive to noise and light. I can hear electricity.

I also crave noises - and I have noise stims. It feels contradictory but my brain wants what it wants.

I also have palpitations and get SUPER startled when I hear an unexpected noise or a very loud noise (yay PTSD /s).

I have to recover from large group settings - just kind of lying there, wide-eyed, on my back... like a dead bug. (but I don't mind going to or even hosting some large group things, sometimes? it depends on the conditions and how prepped I am)

Changes in scheduling/routines (mind you, I also have ADHD so I crave chaos and stimulation too) fuck me up.

One time, a colleague changed a major plan, and I couldn't respond. I couldn't respond even if I wanted to. It was so last-minute, and I couldn't understand the social context, and I was working really hard... ugh. I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HIM IN MONTHS NOW - and I need to at some point. >.<

I mask a lot at work because I have to - my workplace does not accommodate my neurotype. I have disability accommodations, but the institution is not a friendly environment for neurodivergent people (and I don't know if I'll ever find a workplace that is, honestly?). I mask so I can get past the social and administrative etiquette and do my actual job (which I think I'm good at). Sigh.

And more. Blegh.

[springatito-moved]

Mall AU scene setting balony.

Big post for the major characters (well. just my personal favorite characters) in my babychild Mall AU since I actually kinda wanna do more with it lol

The jobs & small descriptions of the other characters can be found in this post

NOTE: This is basically a collaborative effort AU bc of how goofy silly it is. If you have an idea (esp for the characters I clearly haven't/won't develop) shoot me an ask!!!! talk to me !!!! lets all have fun with this thing!!!

If you have maybe an idea for a ficlet (Like @anonymous-dentist 's series of knapity getting together (pt 1 / 2 / 3) just shoot me a dm abt the idea and ill help talk thru the concept to keep things at least a little consistent but I most likely won't say no!!!

- Set in a coastal town in Oregon (but a fake one. Like how Stephan King does it)

- Population is just slightly above “everyone knows everyone”, but everyone at least knows someone who knows someone you don’t know

- Aside from the beach, the mall is like the Big Attraction which is why so many people flock to work there as their first job

Quackity (Manager at Spencer’s)

- In the foster system most of his life after being taken away from his parents as a kid

- Bonded with Tubbo extremely fast and was honestly more of a parent to him than their actual foster parents

- Foster parents passed in an accident, after a month of confusing legal junk he & Tubbo were left a house on the oregon coast and Quackity was made Tubbo’s sole caregiver

- He was given a year (the length the house was prepaid off to) to prove he could be a reliable caregiver

- Met Schlatt a couple months into the move, the two started going out almost immediately

- Schlatt was very possessive and only let Q hang around people he “approved of” (those being Schlatt’s own friends, one of which being Wilbur)

- Despite the downhill of the relationship Schlatt was helping with payments on the house and keeping everything in order so Quackity could remain in care of Tubbo so Q kinda just put up with everything

- Two years into the relationship Schlatt ended up dying bc [bro idk he just dies i dont care enough to sort this out]

- Despite rarely seeing eye-to-eye, Wilbur was quick to step in and help Quackity find his footing. He offered him a job at the HT in the mall, but Quackity ended up getting the manager position at the Spencer’s through chance.

- Is still scarred and blinded in his left eye, but not as intensely. Got it from a less-than-ideal foster family prior to his one with Tubbo.

- Gets a new piercing every time there’s a crisis in his life

- A couple of tattoos here and there (Most significant are the golden wings on his back)

- Occasional stress smoker but not an addict

- Wasn’t actually aware poly was a thing before Sapnap & Karl came along

- Has psychosis but is slowly starting to manage it better

- Ossium is his pet Python, has a pet deathstalker scorpion as well

- Despite his complaining, he really does appreciate Sam’s parental-ish care for him since he’s not very used to the concept

Sapnap (Disney Store)

- Adopted by BBH when he was 8

- Met Dream and George when he was 10 and decided at that moment they would be his besties forever. He has very much held true to this.

- Eryn was adopted into the family when he was 12. He dedicated his life to caring for him.

- Ended up becoming pretty close with Wilbur bc of their brother’s friendship

- Is also just generally close with Tommy and hangs out with him a lot on their breaks

- Applied to work at Vans in the mall pretty much the second he turned 18

- Became the asst. manager like 7 months in

- Has abandonment anxiety so he likes to hold people’s hands a Lot

- Runs hot naturally

- Has a pet skunk named Sketchers that he got for free from some guy on the beach (stink gland removed)

- Proposes to Karl & Q daily. They’re not sure if he’s serious. (He is.)

- Does fencing + archery for fun

- Volunteers on weekends to help rehab ex-military dogs

- Drives a bright orange two door jeep wrangler

- Really good with kids and gets lots of compliments at the Disney Store

- Soft-banned (aka not actually banned, Hannah just gives him a mean look) from Yankee Candle for trying to steal something 

- Used to play drums in a band with D&G, still messes around on his kit sometimes

Karl (Manager at the Disney Store)

- Parents are important political figures of [fake New York city here]

- Book Nerd ! Book Nerd !

- Worked at a disney store in his hometown but a really good manager promotion led him to packing up and moving across the country

- Forcibly dragged Connor out with him so he’d have someone he knew there

- Lives almost basically on the beach

- Runs a tiktok page for his cat Rutabaga, has like 2M followers on it

- Overacessorizes to hell and back

- Slight kleptomaniac, quells this by taking Q & Sap’s clothes

- Major romantic

- Bites people (affectionately)

- Wants to open a library in the town someday

Wilbur (Manager at Hot Topic)

- Tommy’s bio older brother & main caretaker

- Rarely talks abt his own problems so he kinda just listens to everyone else’s

- Feels bad for Quackity so he never takes issues with letting Tubbo stay over if Q has to avoid spending money on other basic necessities to keep up with house payments

- Is very nosy but has a charm that kinda makes people wanna rant abt their problems to him

- Loves his HT job, is very bitter towards his friends who chose other places in the same damn mall to work instead of working with him

- Jokingly calls Phil “dad”, unclear if him saying he’s twins with Techno is a joke or if he’s tricked himself into fully believing it despite to age gap

Tommy (Build-a-Bear)

- Started working at BaB when he wasn’t even old enough

- Sam just likes him a lot and fell victim to the puppy dog eyes

- Applied to the lego store first bc he wanted to work with Eryn. Refuses to shop there now after being rejected

- Barely ever actually in the store if he’s not on the clock. Loves bothering Sapnap specifically

- Unironically calls Phil dad but tells everything it’s totally ironic

- Doesn’t rlly gaf abt his lack of an actual parent and is cool with just having Wilbur around

- Rivalry with Dream that he’s not sure how it started but loves to encourage it

- Is also soft-banned from Yankee Candle

Tubbo (Manager of most of the food court places)

- Most of his life prior to moving to the town is a blur in his mind

- Kinda shuts out the past and just focuses on his happiness living with Quackity

- No one is sure how he ended up as the manager of most of the food court places. And he will never tell.

- Didn’t have a lot of chances to make friends before moving so he grips pretty tightly to the ones he has now

- Michael is a pig BaB he got with Ranboo

- Really wants to get a matching tattoo w/ Q

Charlie (Spencer’s)

- Didn’t have a huge plan for how his life was supposed to go so when Q called and said “my life sucks please move here”, he moved!

- Very charming loved by basically everyone

Sam (Manager at Build-a-Bear)

- Had a very lonely life for a while

- Was basically like a dad to a lot of people but never had someone to Truly care abt bc everyone always had someone else

- Met Q through Tommy and they got along pretty well from the start

- Sam could tell Q was going thru things just based on his behaviors so he started doting on him (asking if he’d eaten, constantly doing check-ins, driving him around if he felt too anxious to do so himself)

- Gave Q his old car

- Has a…. Thing. with Ponk and Foolish. No one can describe their Thing. No one dares try.

- Very particular about the way the store looks

[mrsbsmooth]

BRO life has been so damn (aggravating) crazy this past month, anyway tell me your thoughts about 'ex in the villa' before i update the app and go play it 🥺🥺❤🙏

Hi beautiful! It's not a full season like S1/2/3 were. It's a mini-season which gives us a different scenario to play. If you play it with this in mind... it's actually not bad, so far at least.

Side Characters:

💎Alfie's a sweetheart, and I think it's actually nice that he's a little unsure. @amalasofmonterisso did a great post about this, but the more 'unsure' he is, the more I like him. It makes him seem like a real person, with real doubts about his feelings. I'm looking forward to seeing where things go with him.

💎Kat is a walking tantrum, and I love her for it. She's got some of the best one-liners, and is quite upfront about what she wants, so I'm interested to see if they boot her early or not.

💎Dana is a LI, and is pretty clearly on MC's side early on, and I like how she seems like she's a little more chill. I hope they give her a bit more depth though, especially if you're not on her route. I don't want her to fade in to the background like Najuma if you're not romancing her. She's also quite honest and seems like she'll be a good friend if you're not pursuing her. Angie vibes.

💎Suresh is.... eh. I'm not vibing with his writing yet, mostly because he doesn't seem to be very good at arguing for someone who's supposedly a corporate lawyer. Although, I'm not a lawyer, and that could just be my perception of him haha. I'll be going into this a bit more if/when I write a fic for him. However, I love his story arc and I'm looking forward to it.

💩Eddie is... also present? Even in the spoilers up to Episode 13, I haven't seen much in way of a personality for him yet. We'll see.

MC Design:

💎The outfits are cute compared to the ones we got at the start of S4, especially the sleepwear.

💎There are a lot more character design options, including more hairstyles and a bigger body type.

💩This might just be me, but I cannot for the life of me make my MC look the way I want her to. I miss the characters from S2/S3, where it was almost impossible for her to not look cute as fuuuuuck.

💩There are a distinct lack of features for non-white players. I've heard a lot of concerns about the eyes, noses, and hair, and I hope they rectify them. Hopefully we get more customisation options in future updates.

💩 We have almost zero choice over our backstory. We don't even get to decide our own secret! We don't get to decide our own ex, either, so WLW players... yeah, no.

Gameplay:

💎Drama central. I'm currently icing Suresh out - playing it cool and turning him down at every opportunity, but there are options for both a 'fuck you' playthrough and a ' please fuck me' playthrough, which will be cool.

💎With all the characters, they started off very sunshiney and shallow, and then started showing negative traits. I love this. I love my characters to have a little complexity. I hope they continue this and make the characters really deep!

💩It's really hard to earn gems.

💩There's a long, interactive ad after every episode and it's really annoying.

💩They recently moved from three episodes each week to having mostly two

💩 They're ending episodes MID-CONVERSATION to simulate drama. Which I hate.

Overall

As a standalone game? 5/10? 6/10 if I'm being really generous?

Compared to earlier seasons? I don't know... a 3/10? It's really not the same game.

If it wasn't for the fandom/community, I would've given up already. I'm personally not that engaged by any of the LI's so far, but I'm sure that will change. God, look what happened to me when they introduced Bruno omg.

But I love the community and I'm looking forward to reading the fics that come out about the season. So I'd encourage you to play it anyway, even if it's just so you can do fix-its with us :)

Thank you for the ask!

[lynnloves-thestars]

Ranking bts by how delulu they make me on a scale from 1 to 10, personally.

Crossposted on twt. All of this have an extended version that will be posted soon. Mind me for any spelling error, it's 2 am.

Seokjin: 10/10

best friends (low-key liking each other romantically) that kissed a few times. One time it was a joke, the next one it was a dare and so on. "I dare you to kiss me" "we do it all the time, get creative Bro" "I dare you to go out on a date with me".

Yoongi: 46536/10

our friends set us up for a blind date. It ended up being love at first sight. We've been dating for a few years, and he recently moved in with me. We love to cook together and drink when he's not working. Next week we'll go to the shelter to adopt a kitten.

Hoseok: ♾️/10

Childhood best friends and roomates. He kissed me on new years as we were watching the countdown go off. I steal all his clothes, we visit places together and snap 584828 pictures all the time. I scrap book all our memories to treasure the 38282 cute polaroids we take.

Namjoon: 11/10

we met at the library accidentally. He slipped a note in a book he noticed I was taking often, and for a while that's how we communicated. One afternoon he offered to help me prepare an exam but we ended up making out against a shelf. A book fell from it when he slammed his hand against the shelf and almost gave him a concussion... The past month as been amazing. He picks me up every morning with his bike before going to class. Sometimes we hide in empty classrooms to make out without being seen or at the back hidden behind a book.

Jimin: 8+2/10

in a long distance relationship, we try to be there for each other as best as we can but we haven't seen each other for a full month now. Little does he know that I'm planning to surprise him and drop everything here to move near him.

Taehyung:12/10

newly Weds, currently enjoying our honeymoon. He woke me up with room service and kisses. Tonight he wants to stay awake and watch the sunrise with me, I can't wait.

Jungkook: 9+1/10

we hooked up at a party after getting wasted, but now we are too afraid to talk to each other. I like him, and he clearly likes me back, but the situation is too awkward right now.. I don't know if I should text him first or wait on him to make a move..help??

In conclusion they all make me extremely delulu

[drawing-way-outside-the-lines]

Story update. (That means you, Bool XD, nah, I joke, I think I still have a couple more readers out there)

Anyway…. the part of my story I have been sharing here on Tumblr, the past, I dunno, year or so? How long has it been? Was originally meant as an AU set in a not so distant future (just about a couple months ahead of the original story) It was supposed to just be one chapter, then turned to three. Then I simply liked so much where the story was heading, that I kept writing and it soon enough became my main story, as I stopped writing on the original.

That said. The past months I have had to go through a big life change, and haven't been able to write much, which means, the part of my story I was posting here, is slowly running out of chapters to share. I am by no means done writing the story, and will get back into it, but how fast I can have new chapters ready for posting, will be a bit of a mystery, an up and down thing perhaps? (As explained in my previous text post, I'll be moving towards living in a place where I'll have less access to internet/power, specially during the winter months, so I simply can't say how much writing time I will have from now till spring at least) Anyway, I am not stopping the story by any means, but there may or may not be some breaks here and there, we'll see.

However. I have at least a handful times been playing with the idea of sharing the main story, which would be my story (almost) from the beginning. My story originally started out as a roleplay between a friend and I, and although some of that roleplay was included in some of the early chapters of my story, most of it was left behind as I started writing my story on my own.

But yes, my main story, starts from a chapter one, where everyone gets a proper introduction. You get to meet old characters in a new light, and see them evolve into the characters you know today. There's going to be characters that are no longer part of my story, or perhaps not as often mentioned anymore. You'll get to witness growth, couples you know and love will start dating, so you get to see everything from the 'beginning'. Baby's first steps. All that. It's the same characters (though some wont appear in this part of the story, since they weren't introduced till the "AU" that I am currently posting, but since I wont stop posting that, you'll still have them over there) it's the same shenanigans though at least for a while my main story will be more on the darker side. There's still a fair amount of sex (perhaps even more?) that will get a proper warning you can skip past each time, as usually. And there's more focus on some of the kids as they get to grow up.

Is there any Adrian? Yes… there is, we actually get to meet Adrian the first time, but in what chapter he makes his first appearance, I'm not so sure of?

What can I guarantee? More drama, more Andy, more love, more background on each character, more supernatural stuff and backgrounds to that, first introduction of the demon bro's at some point (also unclear when they will bother to step in) more filth, more banter and almost 300 chapters (not kidding) which also means I'd probably have to share at least 2 episodes each week, or this story will run in epic snail pace and never reach anywhere.

Now, I'd post it with a series of warnings and disclaimers again, just like the AU…. One of the reasons for that, is that this time, for at least the first many chapters, there will be on/off more focus on the mental health of some of the main characters, due to the fact that we start of in a place in their life where they are facing a lot of harsh changes, and have to come to face with a lot of self evolving. This can of course be triggering to some, so every chapter will have appropriate trigger warnings on them. As usual, if you think something should be tagged that isn't, feel free to poke me. Not every chapter will be on a dark note, but some of them will, I'll also try to figure how to properly tag that, so you can avoid reading darker stuff, in case you aren't up for that for whatever reason.

I am not here asking if anyone would want to read this part of my story, I am here simply announcing that it will get posted. I post this for me, and my characters, as it is a part of my own evolution, and finally posting it somewhere online will be huge personal growth. I don't care as much about numbers of readers, but if anyone will be kind enough to read it, I'll care about that individual and appreciate them endlessly. But it truly is not about the numbers, but me moving forwards in life. However, IF, anyone should read, you're as usual more than welcome to throw inputs at me. Do I post too much, too little, should there be more trigger warnings? Feel free to chime in.

As this story is already written, I do not take suggestion how to write it or suggestions as to what you'd like to see happen. It is what it is and I wont edit anything more than spelling errors. It's an old story, started in 2014, and whatever I'd edit, would then no longer fit with much never chapters…. I'd have to spend at least a year editing everything then… so as usual, sorry, but, take it or leave it. And I don't mean to be mean on that statement, it's just… It is what it is. When will I start posting, I don't know? Could be as early as this weekend, could be next week? It will be soon-ish I suppose. The writing format is slightly different, as it is written in first person perspective and it's strange getting used to that, so maybe I'll consider editing it, however that would once again be an insane amount of editing to commit to. So I guess I'll most likely leave it as is, and then both I and any potential reader will just simple have to invest some patience to get used to reading it. It will of course get it's own tag, and it's own header picture so you can easily separate it from the story I am already posting, to hopefully avoid confusion. I'm blabbering, so I'll stop here. It's a huge step, but I'll simply rip the "bandage" off and get it done this time. No more stalling.