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French Vanilla pudding with chocolate chip teddy grahams. Fantastic idea and very delicious. 

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My friend Barbie makes things more awesome than they already are. :)

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Easter 2011. My cousins Chloe and Will, Me, and my brothers and sister.

I love how everyone in my family has blonde hair except for me. Even if it wasn't dyed red, I'd be a brunette surrounded by blondes. Wtf

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Found some pics on my gram's computer. My brother, sister and I. I wish the second one wasn't so blurry.

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This guy is one of my best friends and always will be. His name is James. We might fight like a married couple half the time but if I need him, he's there and willing to do most anything for me. He always listens when I'm crying and ranting about whatever might have upset me and does his best to make me happy. :)

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I absolutely adore this picture. :)

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WTF

I'm tired of seeing my best friend's fight. I'm tired of people harrassing or instigating and causing them to fight. I hate seeing them hurting not only because of other people but because of eachother. I'm tired of everyone getting involved with their lives. This insn't a soap opera, it's life and people are making it horrid. Stay out of their bussiness. Let them make their own choices. Let them be. The only people that should be interfering are the people like me in which whom the they confide in. I just wish everyone would fuck off and everything could go back to happier times. They really are all I have and without them I don;t know what I'd do or where I'd be. I'm tired of seeing them hurting because of other peoples douche baggery which in turn causes them to hurt eachother. It kills me to see them like this and sometimes I just want to yell and flip out but that would just make it worse. I don't know what to do to help anymore. I don't what to say anymore. I just know I really fucking hate it. We're supposed to be the three best friends that anyone could have. We're supposed to be together and there for eachother through thick and thin and it's all unravelling and going to shit. There's nothing I can say or do anymore without being a bitch and I really just can't stand it anymore.

I'm shaking and I'm about to cry. I pretty much just slammed a door in my best fucking friends face because she won't even let me say anything let alone listen to what I have to say. Maybe I could try again when she's not so worked up but would it even make a difference. Would I even be able to say the same things I wanted to say and definitely need to say. I really just don't even know what to do anymore and I really can't stand this. I'm tired of the yelling and the fighting, the bullshit pointless drama caused by trvial harassment and instigation of others.

I'm so angry and upset that I'm even having trouble forming the words and sentences that are running through my head. I guess I'm done with this rant. Getting fucked up definitely does not solve anything but I just need to go down on a fat ass blunt right now.