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[brii-nanas]

Exciting update!  VA!

Partial voice acting has been added to the latest release of my game queer amare game where the enby protagonist dates a giant robot, 'Under the Skies of Ikarus'!

Thanks to Very Berry Studios for their hard work!

Play the game here:

[thepolishlynx]

Sunrise on the Moon - Random talk with a girl I don't know

[hollowmend]

Fetch Re;Quest Dev Log #5

It's time for another (fashionably late) monthly dev log!

The script is coming along, albeit slowly. Thankfully, my cowriter @brii-nanas has stepped in to help me finish up! (ty, Brii! You are the best!) Currently, they're writing the "beach episode"- A post credits scene that will unlock once you've gotten all the endings. Get ready to see everyone in swimwear! It's super cute so far ^^ Here's an excerpt:

??? "Travelers to the Land of Sand!" "A voice suddenly calls out to you and Dan, causing you to nearly jump out of your flip-flops in surprise." "You whirl around to see that what you thought was merely a large pile of sand was, in fact, a large pile of sand with Teddy's head sticking out from the top, a solemn and dutiful expression on his face." Ted "Halt!" "You immediately and unquestioningly do as commanded by the sapient mound of sand, awaiting further instruction." Ted "If you wish to pass by me, then first you must answer these questions three!" Ted "... How's it going?"

As I said in my last dev log- With the script so close to being finished, I've started to focus on making the sprites. Every sprite has, at the very least, been sketched now! We saw Connor's family last time, so here's a look at the other half of the secondary cast- The members of the band Cats Eat Bats.

From left to right- Todd, Teddy, Davíd. It's been 5 years since the original game jam version of Fetch Quest, and Todd finally gets to show off his tattoos 😂

Speaking of sprites, I actually finished one! Meet Nona- lead guitarist, lead singer, manager, and fashion designer of Cats Eat Bats.

She's got a variety of cute expressions as well. I love using the randomize feature of Feniks' Layered Image Visualizer to shuffle through them.

That's about all I have to show this time! I've been dealing with burnout for the past few months, so things have been progressing slower than I had hoped. But thankfully (with the help of some very cool people), I've taken some steps to deal with that. Hopefully that means I'll be back in a creative headspace soon.

[brandonwayneb]

LOL america!!

change americas name to

amerixa,

and keep "potato witch" lol not funny but if you say, smidget, and smiths dungeon,

you blast right through america's lies and party club of lab science crimes

say potato witch,

say bridget's law

say london bridge

say strawberry shortcake

and do NOT accept ridiculous amounts of america's excuses to fuck each other in psychics and psychology,

say potato witch

say bridget's law

say london bridge

say strawberry shortcake

say BayBi

say Brii Anna

say Nana Nana Boo Boo

Jasper.

Not Casper

and listen Stein Palestine

and listen lies to BayBi

and listen lies to Brii Anna

and listen lies to Ex Psy Mint Tea

and listen lies to excitement

Keep Safe!

Love u!

oh and keep Bull

and keep Ox

Oxford Dictionary

And keep rusty scissors

[briology]

BRII ❤︎

AFRICAN AMERICAN, hisagi's certified lover girl, esfp♡, 19, GIVE ME SOME LOVE

KINS

diluc ragnvindr, takashi mitsuya, kuramochi yochi, tooru oikawa

LIKES↥

anime, kpop, scooby doo, space jam, TRAFALGAR D. LAW, apple juice, coca cola, pink and yellow shades, hisagi shuhei, okumura koushuu, haitani bros, takemichi hanagaki, genshin impact. did i mention trafalgar d. law?

DISLIKES↧

racist anime and kpop stans, kisaki simps and stans, anybody that finds reasons to be anti-black, doflamingo.

BRI'S FAVS <3

animes: kuroko's basketball, daiya no ace, ONE PIECE, attack on titan, nana, jojo's bizarre adventures, soul eater, ANY ROMANCE

mangas: TOKYO REVENGERS, blue lock, fire force, MY HERO ACADAMIA

music: jasmine sullivan, ann marie, brent faiyaz, H.E.R, summer walker, red velvet, stayc, bts, TWICE!!!!

movies/shows: SCOOBY DOO, the fault in our stars, girl from no where, squid game, law and order svu

SOCIALSఌ

insta: briannataylorrr_

tiktok: iwantsomemcnuggets

genshin blog: @/briluvsitto

discord: its.briii #7971

[that-girl-is-a-demolition-lover]

Seeking advice for a shitty friendlationship.....

So it’s 3 in the morning and as per usual, I’m doing anything but sleeping.

I have found myself caught up in my feelings and not really sure of what to do.

Let me begin this long winded story about a boy and my stupid feelings about him and maybe someone out there in wide tumblrverse can help advise me or just tell me that I’m being a fucking moron.

First off, I’m Jazy. I’m a 22 year old lass from Indiana

I met a kid named Joshua roughly 8/9 years ago. We went to the same school and shared a mutual best friend. When we met he was just some dorky chubby kid with a weird sense of humor.

After about 2 years of pining and mutual best friend matchmaking we decided to give a relationship a go when I was roughly 15. Things were swell, because we went to the same school and had several of the same friends and as stated prior, shared the same best friend, we saw each other quite frequently. Things were really good for a couple months.Then as good things always do, came to end. I had received an IM from him asking if he could call because we needed to talk. As a child with terrible anxiety, my heart immediately sank. He called and gave me the news that he would be moving away to live with his aunt and uncle roughly 40 minutes away and likely wouldn’t make it back every weekend. I took this really hard. And at that juncture we decided to part ways.

After a few weeks once he was finally gone, we found ourselves still talking consistently and he eventually convinced me that we could make the long distance work(Yes, I am aware that 40 minutes away is hardly long distance but when you’re from two very poor families with limited transportation and it’s your first real love, it feels like an ocean between you) And things were okay for another few weeks before I started to get little bugs in my ears telling me that long distance was a sham and that we would never work, and let’s face it. I was very impressionable at that age. Even our mutual best friend at the time(Her names Brii, in the event I just name her without telling who she is later on.) And I promptly broke things off again.

After that there was some bad blood, his friends that were still at my school started being very nasty to me and it took a lot out of me. We didn’t see any of each other for quite some time after that. A good year or so I think. 

Fast Forward to what I believe would be October 2012. Things with Brii had been rocky(for reference they always were and would remain until the end of our friendship in Dec 2012.) We had been hanging out regularly and she had texted me and said she had a surprise and would be over soon. She showed up and Nana had let her and she came down to my room, with Joshua and in that moment my heart leapt. I haven’t seen him in ages and let’s be real. He was lookin’ damn good. We all hung out and had a good time. He was in town for a few weeks and had apparently wanted to see me. Sometime to understand about Josh is when we first knew each other was very straight edge. No drinking, or smoking. Fuck, it was hard to get that boy to say more than hell as a swear in his youth. But here he was dropping all kinds of shits and damns with the occasional fuck here and there and it was wonderful. We kept in touch here and there for a bit, but he had a girlfriend back home and I wasn’t crossing that boundary.

Between Oct. 2012 to MidSummer 2013 my life was shit show. I’d lost my best friend to her shitty controlling boyfriend. My dad had died. I wasn’t coping well with my mental illness, fighting the medication. Inevitable dropped out of high school 9 credits shy of my diploma. Total shit show. Then out of the blue in September of 2013, I start receiving messages from Josh, saying that he’s back in town for while and wanted to see me and so forth and such which, to which I would agree. We hung out a couple of times and just enjoyed each other company, reveling in our past relationship, talking of how we missed each other. That kind of thing.

He was still friends with Brii so he could go see her and her boyfriend and then visit me. Then a night or two before he was supposed to go back, he wanted to see me. It was like 10 oclock at night. I told him I was unsure but if he wanted to come over he could. He’d come over and we’d sit on the porch for a while before deciding to go for a walk. He’d be nervously fidgeting and I would pretend not to notice. we didn’t go far, just a couple of blocks to a park nearby. We sat on a hill that overlooked the football field of the school I attended elementary. When he started talking about how much he still liked me and wanted to work this thing out between us. That he would be moving back to the city soon and really wanted to be together(Inserting here, at this juncture, I was told he had been broken up with his girlfriend at home and therefore didn’t know that I was being a scuzzy human) He woo-ed me with his words and instantly I fell for it. I was ecstatic. I thought I was actually going to get him back. After a few minutes we got into a pretty heavy makeout sesh when we then tried to make a voyeur of me to which I shut down. I was not about to fuck this guy in a park in the middle of the night. So we headed back to my house hand in hand, stopping here and there for his to shove me against a tree or a bridge and kiss me hard. He left the next day and we chatted very briefly for the next two or three days, I got my nose pierced and had sent him pictures.

After a few days I get this long winded message from him talking about how he was going to get his girlfriend a promise ring and he wanted to be with her forever and talking about how much he loved her, and he thought that I deserved to be the first to know. I was gutted. absolutely fucking gutted. My heart crumbled. I voiced my outrage. My Hurt. The amount of betrayal I was feeling. He apologized once and then promptly blocked me on facebook.

I assumed that would be the complete end of the Jazy/Josh saga, but god fucking damn it if I wasn’t ridiculously fucking wrong.

Fast forward a year later. I’m out at a friends and I get a message from none other than Joshua. It’s a brief but sturdy apology and an invitation to see him and talk. I told him I didn’t trust him and that I was still angry for what he had done. He understood but insisted, said something a long the lines of that I had “scared him” that night when I was so prepared to just fully envelop myself with him. I caved and we met up, walking around a different park. He was looking good, thinner. Happier. He talked about how much he’s thought about that night over the last year and how things with that girl didn’t last long after we had spoken last. He was apparently really into drugs and drinking now, which should have been enough to frighten me off, but I was naive. I told him I forgave him and that I accepted his invitation for friendship. 

Probably two days later I get a series of messages and some phone calls from him asking me to go to a friends house with him. that’d itll be fun and he wants to make everything up to me. After several hours of convincing I decided to go to this friends house with him, only to end up being trapped over there for a series of days. His friend was big into drugs at that point, lived with his parents and his girlfriend. Josh and I would crash on the couch for 3 nights, when Josh had had too many pills or too much booze. He would always get affectionate in those hours though. Wanted to hold my hand, and play with my hair. Gave me kisses frequently. It was a heavenly feeling, even if I knew at that point that it wouldn’t last.

After that I didn’t hear from him for a few months, he chalks this up to “he loses track of time and doesn’t realize that it’s been months when he only thinks it’s only been a few days.” He would get ahold of me here and there just to chat but I don’t think I actually hung out with him again until Valentines Day 2015

My friend Lisa and I had been planning for her to come over and us to get drunk that night for atleast two weeks in advance. We were both single, full of sorrow, and just needed to be drunk. So that night Josh had gotten ahold me and asked to come over, I had agreed. And he came over, very nervous. We had chatted briefly before Lisa got there and then we sat in a coumbaya circle in the middle of my living room killing a bottle of tequila and a bottle of rum. Throughout the night he would grab my hand and whisper sweet nothings into my ears and he got hot so we had gone outside. He kept trying to saying something before inevitable vomiting all over his shirt. We went back inside, I put him to bed, put his shirt in the wash and went to check on Lisa. In between checkin on lisa and him, he kept trying to get me to come cuddle and and talking about how glad he was he got to spend time with me and whatnot. He planned on coming over and asking me to be his valentine, I guess. The next morning after his shirt was clean he skeddaddled. We had hung out another time at the same friend’s house once he got out from under his parents and he and his girlfriend had their son, we had gone over with the intent to just hang out and spend time with them which ended in us all getting drunk. Josh kept trying to be sweet and hold my hands and kiss me and I kept refusing him, when finally confronted with why, I told him because it wasn’t right anymore. It wasn’t fair for him to love me when he was fucked up. To which we went back into the living room, Josh cuddled a bottle of vodka, cried for ten minutes and then passed out.

Didn’t much from him until late that year, I had my own place, my pregnant sister was living with me. I had heard from him here and there. Halloween of that year I got a call that he was in the hospital, he had had a really bad blood clot from his leg move and shut down his lungs. They found out he had Factor 5(genetic Blood clotting disorder which earlier in the year had claimed his mom) I visited him in the hospital and tried to keep in contact with him after that to little avail. He would come by a few weeks later and crash in my bed. And then he kept crashing in my bed. Then he started bringing clothes and his playstation over and that was okay, he was a good cuddler and I loved spending the time with him. He wasn’t taking care of himself like he shoul’ve, not taking his medications, drinking and doing other shit all the time, it was nerve wracking for me. Shortly after Christmas he had come by and taken all his things and left. I tried more than once to get ahold of him looking for some kind of explanation and got nothing. I ran into him in April of 2016 and we got coffee and talked some more. He had put a little weight back on and looked like he was doing good. He would come over to meet my sisters baby. And then would come by quite frequently for about two weeks before I finally told him if he just wanted to stay there he could. I didn’t mind. I loved having him around. Loved it. He would go to work, I would go to work. we’d come home to each other and just cuddle and watch movies. It was never a sex thing, I feel like I need to clarify that because so many think that’s what it was. And it wasn’t He would get drunk from time to time and want to fool around and of course, I’d shut him down.

We would go on drives and I would try to put into words the way he made me feel. To be fair, we weren’t dating. He nowadays, “thinks they’re a dumb waste of time” He would come home every now and again and talk about the girl he fucked, and I’d pretend I wasn’t hurt by this. As the time went on, things got complicated, my sister ended up leaving, I ended up losing my really good job, and we were being evicted. I broke this to him and he took it very personally, mind you he had never paid for anything living with me. Never even offered to. So he got really angry. I remember one of the last drives we went on before I left, we started to get into an argument and I yelled that I wished I could do anything besides love him, because it was nothing but misery. His response was something along the lines of “don’t love me, I’m barely even human”. The last week was nothing but fights. Lots of yelling. Lots of me crying. And the last thing I said to him was that I never wanted to talk to him again. In July of 2016, I moved 2 hours north to live up by my mother and try to start over. All contact with Joshua ceased.

I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t the occasional I got too drunk and tried calling him but never got an answer, because that’s true. In that spanse, I tried dating this cool guy names James. He was sweet and kind of dim, but he was good to me. And even when we first met and he knew I was healing from Josh, he knew that competing with Josh in my heart wasn’t a contest. Yet he still tried to love me. Obviously it didn’t work out, we’re still friends and I know I was unfair to him.

Okay, present time, almost. A month ago I get a phone call from him. I reluctantly answer, I mean, it’s Josh I have to right? He proceeds to go on about how he stalked my instagram and saw I was back in the city and was offended that he hadnt heard from me. And I told him its probably because I said i never wanted to see him again. Either way, he wanted to hang out. So we went for a walk on the canal, he came over. We made food. Then we went for a walk around the circle. We stopped and sat down and he started getting really up in his feelings and started crying. actually started crying and apologizing. I guess while I was gone he had started seeing a girl. It’d been brief but he really cared about her, and she broke his heart. He kept asking if thats how I felt everytime he left. And if it was, why did I keep letting him come back? I didn’t have an answer. We left it at that and parted ways for the night. Much to my surprise when he showed up at my door the next night. We hung out jsut about every day for 2 weeks. Then after that it was always he needed to go somewhere or I had to pick him up somewhere, so the next time he was at my house my roommate had no qualms telling him that I wasn’t a fucking taxi service. He took this offensively and insisted he didn’t think I was such. We’ve hung out here and there since then, never talking about things until the other night we were out driving and I noticed he was being overly flirtatious. More so than just Josh being an ass, flirty. When i confronted it, he asked why we’d never slept together and I told him I don’t sleep with people I don’t date. Which is true, I personally think of it as a special thing and therefore am not promiscuous. He then went on a tangent about how it would happen one day that the tension has been building for years, that he’d “trick me” one day, and he laughed as he said this. I didn’t get it until he said he knew my conditions. At that moment, I saw red and just yelled, “I hope you don’t think that’d I’d be stupid enough to accept a dating advance from you only for you to fuck me then break up with me.” He just kept laughing and agreed. At which point I had to pull the car over. My face was hot and I was shaking, so i got out of the car and walked for ten minutes. I came back and he acted like it never happened. Has only even mentioned it once since then when he was drunk and we were at a friends house. 

I just don’t know what I’m even doing anymore. Am I stupid for sticking around through all of this? Should I tell him to go fuck himself and to leave me alone for the rest of our lives? Has anyone else ever dealt with something/someone like this? How did you cope? What did you do?

[hollowmend]

Fetch Re;Quest Dev Log #2 - 01/16/2024

Whew, first dev log of the new year! Let's get right into it, shall we?

Backgrounds

I've mostly been focusing on the script lately, but since I'm not doing the backgrounds, those have been slowly rolling in!

Kind of a strange mix of places, I know! The graveyard and Todd's apartment are places you'll visit if you play a lot of Deathpocolypse 2, where as the bar and the board game shop are visited if Flora and the gang get into Techno-opolis instead. Of Fiends and Fangs takes place exclusively at the bar, and if you play Clockwork Mercenaries, Flora ends up spending a lot of time in her room.

Sprites

I've decided to focus on writing the script before moving on to anything else, so the sprites have been put on hold for the time being. I did get a few blobbly sketches done before I switched gears, though!

I've been doing this funky color blocking thing lately to get a better feel for how my sprite silhouettes look together before moving on to the refining stage. Obviously Flora's sprite is already done, but I blobed her out anyway just to see how she compares to the rest of the characters.

Also, for everyone's consideration- Dan small.

Script

As I said, right now I'm prioritizing the script. Currently, the game is sitting around 26k words, but I expect it will be at least 40k when it's finished.

Garden;Verse

And speaking of the script, there is a special game that Flora and Dan play together in the evenings. It's called Garden;Verse, and it's an otome!

My cowriter @brii-nanas wrote 10k+ words of (really good) fake otome routes for me to use... and most of it won't even show up in the main game 🥲

Not to worry, though. As Flora and Dan progress through the story, the actual scenes they're reading will get unlocked in the Extra's section. Please look forward to reading about some cute (and in one "bad end" case, rather tragic) boys themed around flowers.

Until Next Time

That's all I have for now! Since I'm focusing on the script, I'm not sure how much I'll have to share next month, so February's dev log might end up being pretty short.

[hollowmend]

Happy birthday (for tomorrow)!! 🥳 I hope you have an awesome day! For my question, what are your personal favourite indie VNs (can be otome, amare, BL, non-romantic, etc.) that you’ve played? Do you have any favourite MCs and LIs? Favourite tropes?

I have a confession to make... I haven't been keeping up on a lot of indie VNs 🥲 I read them here and there, but my "to read" list is waaay longer than my "read" list.

That being said, here are some that have stuck with me:

Soul of Sovereignty

Aelfric the Wonderous

The Five Steps to Ensuring Momo Graduates Successfully

Dear Devere

One Night, Hot Springs

I might be a bit biased, but if you like scifi, check out my friend @brii-nanas games! Their most recent one, Under the Skies of Ikarus is getting a voiced update soon ✨

And here's a quick list of VNs I've been eyeing up but haven't played yet - Quaint, Our Wonderland, Tattoos and Tulips, The Summit Library, To Die in the Shade

Favorite MC - I'm not usually very good at picking favorites, but the MC that's coming to mind is Lee from Dead Man's Rest. I ended up liking him way more than any of the LIs, which is almost never the case for me.

Favorite LI - I know this isn't an indie, so it might not be in the sprit of the question, but Kent from Amnesia. I love that strange boy.

Favorite Tropes - Kuuderes. I like when a normally stoic LI has strong feelings for someone and is cute and/or awkward about it.

Some more specific ones - Overly affectionate drunks who accidently reveal their feelings to their crush, that thing where a character wakes up from being sick/injured and their LI has fallen asleep watching over them.

Thanks for the birthday wishes!

[hollowmend]

it's yaoi day or something so here's a look at Rae's sprite from @brii-nanas and my upcoming BL game, Counter-Side!

for someone who considers himself cold and aloof, he's embarrassed enough to get a special pose for it...

[brandonwayneb]

LOL america!!

change americas name to

amerixa,

and keep "potato witch" lol not funny but if you say, smidget, and smiths dungeon,

you blast right through america's lies and party club of lab science crimes

say potato witch,

say bridget's law

say london bridge

say strawberry shortcake

and do NOT accept ridiculous amounts of america's excuses to fuck each other in psychics and psychology,

say potato witch

say bridget's law

say london bridge

say strawberry shortcake

say BayBi

say Brii Anna

say Nana Nana Boo Boo

Jasper.

Not Casper

and listen Stein Palestine

and listen lies to BayBi

and listen lies to Brii Anna

and listen lies to Ex Psy Mint Tea

and listen lies to excitement

Keep Safe!

Love u!

oh and keep Bull

and keep Ox

Oxford Dictionary

And keep rusty scissors

[hollowmend]

Somewhere within the infinite expanse of the universe a lonely sub-station drifts aimlessly, orphaned from its mother station...

The NaNoRenO game I’ve been working on this month with my friend Brii-Nanas is available for download! I did the sprites, CGs, and some misc art here and there.

This is the first part of a three part release, and it’s free! Come for the cute robots, stay for the existential dread.

You can download it over on itch! Link: https://brii-nanas.itch.io/the-directive

[hollowmend]

There once was a large, old house that sat atop an equally large hill. Within the old house’s attic there lived a spider. Small and unassuming.

And every full moon, the house had a very special guest.

The Spider and the Bride is a short fairytale-esque story about a smitten little spider and the woman it loved.

Play it for free over on itch! https://brii-nanas.itch.io/the-spider-and-the-bride

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My friend Brii-Nanas made visual novel for this year’s Spooktober VN Jam! Check it out if you like creepy/cute fairytale vibes. 

(If you enjoy the game, don’t forget to leave a rating! It really helps <3)