#brain-dysfunction chemicals

[arynchris]

WHO TF designed humans this way, why, just why-- --Wait.  Is that we feel better after eating?  Is this sandwich literally *soaking up my brain-dysfunction chemicals?!*

anxiety is so weird like why is my mental illness in my stomach

[ipatrichor]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact) Characters: Diluc (Genshin Impact), Kaeya (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: Rescue, Light Angst, i think it's light? it's mostly the Implications, Mystery Summary:

Lowering his weapon, Diluc turns to face them. Now that the blur of combat is over, he can begin to make out the details of their appearance, and the words of thanks die on his lips as he takes in the sight of what can only be described as a creature made of ice.

It’s mostly turned away from him, head turned to the side just enough for a glowing blue light reminiscent of an eye to be visible. Its body seems to be made entirely of ice despite its fluid moment, and there’s no hiding the danger posed by the large claws and sharp crystalline tail.

.

or, when in an unfavorable position diluc is saved by an icy creature strangely reminiscent of his missing brother

[transmutationisms]

this is probably shaped by my limited frame of reference, but im really fascinated by witnessing the real-time development of adhd as a diagnosis. people attribute so many symptoms to it now or maybe they always did? i was wondering if you have any thoughts on what is the use of adhd specifically as a category within psychiatry. I'm esl so sorry for any confusing wording

no you're right imo; diagnostic categories are always somewhat in flux ofc but ADHD is one that has seen a particularly pronounced shift in the last couple decades. obviously this is multifactorial but my observation goes something along these lines:

'hyperactivity' has been dx'd in children since about the 1950s (also when Ritalin hit the market) but the ADHD dx doesn't really take off until the 90s (also when Adderall, a 2nd-gen reformulation of the 'obesity' drug Obetrol, hit the market). so, it's not all that surprising that 20 years later you see increased patient awareness of the diagnosis, increased popular interest in it, and shifting / expanding ideas of what it means and what ADHD 'is'. it's a relatively young dx.

part of the reason it's young is because it's basically a 'biopsychiatric' dx, meaning it diagnoses certain behaviours as being a 'brain problem' rather than having social causes or context. in practice this is complicated because psychs do use pharmacological approaches in conjunction with psychodynamic ones all the time; nevertheless, the central promise of DSM ADHD and its pharmaceutical treatments has consistently been that the ADHD subject has a physiological, neurological disorder / dysfunction / aberration, and that the drug treatments on the market fix it. that none of this is actually empirically supported is conceptually inconvenient and entrenched by the research process.

the biopsychiatric narrative is worth paying attention to because the context here is one in which it has become commonly accepted that behavioural 'disorders' and affective distress of various kinds can be, basically, either of pure biological origin, or else Your Fault. in the case of childhood hyperactivity, Your Fault historically also included Your Mother's Fault; part of the reason many mothers embraced Ritalin in the 50s and 60s was because the proffered pharmaceutical narrative explicitly challenged the idea that these mothers had done something 'wrong' to result in their (mostly) sons exhibiting disruptive and hyperactive behaviour.

this dichotomy of biology vs personal failing is very overtly present in quite a bit of discourse around ADHD today. if it's my brain being 'wrong' or different, then it's not something I've done wrong but a disease with a simple chemical fix. in this context I don't think it's surprising at all that a lot of popular and patient conceptions of ADHD have seen a considerable widening over the past few decades. often people like to blame this on pharmaceutical companies, and it's true that industry benefits from these discourses and frequently invests in them (eg, via instruments like ADDitude mag). however, that's a pretty simplistic explanation on its own and doesn't really account for the ways in which patients and potential patients also find this diagnostic category personally useful, for reasons ranging from identity-formation to the desire to access prescription amphetamines. ADHD increasingly shows up as a biologised explanation for behaviours ranging from 'eating too many sweets' to 'postural sway' and so on. you can see in such examples how invoking the idea of an aberrant ADHD brain is both reassuring to people who have been made to feel ashamed of certain behaviours, and provides a sense of shared identity and community with others.

all of this is to say: I don't find it surprising at all when I see a relative broadening of notions of ADHD, almost always expressed in biological terms (the 'ADHD brain' operates differently, 'seeks dopamine', causes this or that). ADHD is in some ways a particularly blatant distillation of this general trend in popular psychiatric discourses, for reasons relating to expectations about childhood and child behaviour, and the historical and present relationship between the ADHD label and the regulation of amphetamines. but much of what's happening with ADHD in terms of popular discourses about it can also be seen with many, many other psychiatric diagnoses, to varying extents and in various ways.

my experience writing about ADHD on this website leads me to close by explicitly stating the following: I do not think any ADHD behaviours / symptoms are people's 'fault' or an individual failing; I do not think using drugs for any reason is morally bad or needs to be justified; the fact that I do not think ADHD is a 'brain disease' does not mean I think people are 'making it up' or exaggerating wrt any difficulties they experience personally, professionally, emotionally, &c.

[adventuringblind]

Medication Mishaps

Landoscar x Reader

Genre: Fluff and Crack

Summary: When a mix-up in meds leaves her without any, Lando and Oscar are there to her navigate without them.

Warnings:

Notes: for @norizznorris. Sorry I don't do male readers! Regardless, I hope this is what you wanted! :)

Side Note: This one made me laugh the entire time while writing it. My fiancé is unmedicated and very high on the ADHD spectrum. Every day is an adventure!

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Ah, the joys of being neurodivergent. When somehow the world is to much and simultaneously to little. When the nagging impulsive thoughts and continues need for caffeine aren't enough, then the interests that lay dormant for years come back swinging; upset they've been neglected for so long.

Medication helps. Which - of course it does - it's engineered brain chemicals in the form of a chalky pill designed to help someone function in a world where only one kind of brain is excepted. It's better than it was, the world has come further in recent years.

yet here she is, taking her last pill from the bottle. A little piece in her cries knowing she'll have to go pick up her new meds today. The pharmacy feels like to much and she'd rather lay in bed and give into the executive dysfunction. Then she remembers she's flying with Lando and Oscar to their race tomorrow.

With that thought in mind, she groans and hauls herself out of bed. The boys are doing factory work today and won't be back until later. Plenty of time to come home and waste away the hours in bed and pray her energy comes back.

~~~~~

She lied to herself earlier. Any optimism for the day has just disappeared.

"What do you mean you don't have my meds?"

"There was a mix-up with the orders, but we'll have them in a few days." The pharmacist gives her a sheepish smile.

She just sighs and turns on the balls of her feet. How she's going to tell her boys, she has no idea yet. The insecurity of them not wanting her around the paddock because of in burns in the back of her mind.

She still has today at least. Maybe she'll just ride it out and not tell them.

That plan fails miserably the second they walk into the flat. The sight of her visibly distressed on the couch alerts them that something is wrong.

The sit down on either side of her. The question trying to escape their mouths. She beats them to it. "There was a mix-up with my meds. I won't have them until after we get back."

"And we'll help you manage, yeah? You'd do the same for us."

"Lan... she has done the same for you, like, daily."

"Rude!"

~~~~~

Sometimes, she's convinced she lives on a different planet entirely. Like the brain and body she has are simply not meant to be here and there must have been a mistake with the storks.

Lando hands her a Redbull, courtesy of Max since he has to many. "I figured this might help?" Seeing as she nearly just threw hands with whoever was chewing unnecessarily loudly, caffeine might help.

She looks at Lando and Oscar, between the three of them, there are seven drinks. Only one of which is the Aussie's. "Oscar is being boring again."

the man in question huffs. "Water is good for you."

"But it's wretched to taste sometimes."

Lando nods at her in agreement. "See Oscar, boring."

"Nothing is ever boring with you two."

~~~~~

The beginning wasn't bad. Not like it is right now with her brain only wanting to do one specific things, she hasn't remember to eat since early this morning, and the tag on her shirt makes her want to pull her skin off.

Oscar looks at her curled up in his drivers room with a horrendous amount of care and sympathy. He slots in next to her and leans his head against the wall. "Hard day?"

"I need like - five pounds of dino nuggies and a nap."

"Anything I can do to help right now? We'll work on food when Lando is done."

She curls up in Oscar's lap like a cat. The lack of regulated sleep finally catching up to her. She's on the verge of sleep when Lando busts through the door yelling about something.

She throws a pillow at him in annoyance. "You owe me food."

Lando pauses. "That sounds brilliant."

Oscar shakes his head in defeat later that night as Lando gradually sneaks food off her plate and pretends they can't see him. If he's not caught then it didn't happen and Jon can't get mad at him.

~~~~~

She hasn't stopped talking with Lando for the last two hours. What exactly they've been going on about, she has no idea at this point. Their original conversation led to rabbit trails and other distractions that got in the way. The original story now long forgotten as they discuss the possibilities for new shoes.

Her phone dings, an automated message alerting her to her refilled meds. She shows Lando in excitement. The joys of functioning like a human again are nearly in her grasp.

Lando and Oscar both look at her in amusement. The latter has been using their conversation as an excuse to read. He sets his book down, a look she hasn't seen before crossing his features.

"Have you ever thought what it would be like if you didn't have to take meds?"

Lando shoots him a nasty glare. "Oi, she can't help-"

"Not what I meant." The Aussie crashes onto the bed with them, book now tucked away. "I just mean that having a different kind of brain shouldn't be such a difficult thing for the world to cope with. But the second someone is different-" He looks at Lando. "-Like they struggle with reading or processing information." Then he turns to her. "Or they struggle to with focusing and sensory things. They are ready to create some kind of fix to make those brains work like theirs." The genuine concern and sadness from him is almost heartbreaking.

"In a perfect world, yes. For now though, I think me and Lando can both settle for having someone who cares as much as you do."

"Just wish I could do more."

Lando hums and, quite literally, rolls over onto Oscar. "Just like our best is enough, so is yours."

"However, if the world could provide me with free drinks, I wouldn't be complaining."

Oscar chuckles and drags her closer despite Lando's weight on him. "I'll make a note of it for when I become ruler of the world."

"You never said you were planning that!"

"It's been my secret plan this whole time."

"... It's always the quiet ones."

[kiragecko]

[Image shows the tags,

#mental health #ooh interesting # ... how does it work? #I feel like I need a bulleted list on How To Bask In Your Accomplishments

End ID.]

If you have achieved something, please remember to observe a mandatory period of basking in the warm glow of your achievement like a lizard on a stone, lest you teach your brain that effort is futile, actually, because it didn't get to enjoy its happy chemicals, so, naturally, nothing good ever comes of trying. (And no, avoiding punishment is not a reward!)

I recommend, like, 5% of basking time in relation to whatever time you invested into achieving the thing minimum. And if you can't make your own bask, friend-brought is fine (= tell your friends!).

[seasickzig]

Executive dysfunction caused by Autism makes me so mad.

People always talk about it with ADHD, and I always hear people being grateful that their executive dysfunction is fixed with meds.

I cannot be fixed.

And executive dysfunction isn’t just the “Go go chemical” that allows you to get started/follow through on projects, it also impacts your ability to organize thoughts, make plans, prioritize tasks, manage time, and make decisions.

I cannot get out of bed. It has been four hours since I woke up. Meds will not fix this.

I cannot do chores. I must be prompted. Meds will not fix this.

I cannot make plans. I’m autistic and NEED plans, but I can’t make them. Meds will not fix this.

I cannot think straight. Every thought echoes in my head with no conclusion. Meds will not fix this.

I cannot make decisions. People ask me things and my brain goes blank. Meds will not fix this.

I cannot do anything for myself. Executive dysfunction has stolen control from me. Meds will not fix this.

[drawingrainbowsonthewalls]

Episodic Water Dependency [Disorder] [EpWD or EWDD]

Definition: A disorder characterized by having episodes of extreme water dependency that cause discomfort, distress, stress, and/or depressive thoughts, feelings, or actions. These emotions often result in impulsive or compulsive actions in order to be in, near, or consume water/another liquid. [this could also be used as a symptom or aspect of another disorder]

[tw: mentions sh and suicide below]

[Ones Dependent Liquid or DL may vary however this Disorder was made with water in mind… you could call it ELDD, Episodic Liquid Dependency Disorder if you wish or if that fits better]

Symptoms/Criteria:

      1) Distress, discomfort, dysfunction, stress, or dysphoria when one has not been in, near, or in—some cases—consumed water/their DL[dependent liquid] recently.

      2) Having a strong connection to water or your DL[dependent liquid] that may intertwine with various aspects of ones identity.

      3) during an episode being unable to function/experiencing a difficulty in functioning when one has not come in contact with water or their DL[dependent liquid] for short or extended periods of time [this can be as long as a month or as short as a few minutes].

      4) [If one experiences sensory differences] having ones sensory issues get worse during episodes where they have not had contact with water or their DL for an extended or short time. 

      6) experiencing depressive episodes, suicidal and/or self-harm induced thoughts/actions, or similar during/as a result of water dependency episodes. One could also turn to water/their DL for the answer/solution to problems. 

      7) Having these symptoms and experiences be more extreme than typical water/liquid dependency. 

      8) noticing episodic patterns for at least 3 months; an episode, worsening of symptoms, or development of this disorder may occur for a variety of reasons such as external factors like stress or fear as well as internal factors such as self-esteem, brain chemical levels, and/or other mental health problems. 

      9) Fear or distress caused by being dirty or feeling like your dirty even if you’ve recently showered, bathed, or washed off.

Possible causes, triggers, and risks:

      1) The cause/causes for this disorder are unknown however possible causes may include:

           - Neglect

           - Being without proper ways to clean/clean oneself fro extended periods of time

           - Low-self-esteem or poor mental health

           - Paranoia or a fear of germs

      2) You may be more at risk if you have another mental health disorder/syndrome such as Major Depressive Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, OCD, DPD, PTSD, etc. etc.

      3) Common triggers for an episode include but are not limited to; overwhelming / intense emotions, stressful and / or traumatic events, being away from running water / water / their DL, being unable to wash yourself, etc.

      4) Some of the possible risks that come with EpWD[D] is:

            -  Becoming overly dependent on water/your DL and running the risk of it becoming an addiction.

            -  Being unable to function or get work done because of distress, stress, or discomfort surrounding feeling messy/unkempt  -OR- being unable to work or function because you’re too caught up cleaning yourself and surroundings. 

            -  A disconnection in relationships as they don’t/wouldn’t understand and/or feeling too stress/distressed/uncomfortable to make strong bonds and connections

This term can be used by anyone // we have no DNI so neither do our coins // please follow your own DNI

As long as you use this term in good faith [genuinely, not as a joke or troll] we will have no problems as it is not our place to tell you what to do.

if this term or something similar has been coined prior to this consider it a recoin / redesign as we often do not know or realize

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[bloodbruise]

wednesday snippet

thank you for the tags lovely mar @messymoony and chris @godsofwoes !!! writing has been a challenge this week, but i dug through my drafts to give u guys some random rosekiller mush <33

He's glancing over at Evan, and this, he thinks, this is the moment. The stage light bathes half his face, casting his skin a pretty lilac hue. And god. Evan's bopping his head to the music, a gentle smile playing on his lips. He's not even doing anything particularly special. Still, Barty can’t help but feel bested. Played at his own game. His heart has turned to mush, slipping down, down, down before he could even realize it. Too distracted looking the other way, and by the time he does—realize, that is—it's too far out of his reach. His heart has gone and attached itself to Evan. Parasitic, he thinks. Heart parasitic and feeding off Evan’s bright and his mirth his good. Evan can’t fix his problems, Barty knows that. It’s chemical, he briefly hears echoes of doctors discussing something about receptors and dysfunctional neurotransmitters. Which—fitting, for Barty. That not even the fucking chemicals in his brain could work properly. But he can’t help but think it would be nice—to have Evan. For him to be there when Barty is too listless to get out of bed. To have him be the first tinglings of feeling once the depression-induced, full-body novocaine shot starts to wear off. His stomach feels funny, like all his insides were scooped out and replaced with Sprite. Bubbling, sparking, and—yeah, maybe it’s not the most romantic metaphor, but he thinks it fits. It fits them. 

np tags: @fromagony @bellaxisworld @ecstarry

[smytherines]

trying not to think about how Owen Carvour starts out as property of a government that would imprison him or force him to take estrogen if they ever found out he was gay, goes through a catastrophic trauma caused by the man he loved and trusted, and ends up with his personhood functionally gone, as a thing without an identity, a weapon that only exists to kill and cause pain

I mean seriously, during Owen's time the UK was actively imprisoning gay men, or forcing them into "chemical castration," forcing them to take estrogen to induce sexual dysfunction (thought to make it so gay men couldn't act on their desires)

So the idea that his relationship with Curt is the one place he gets to feel safe, gets to be himself, gets to be a human being instead of somebody's useful tool, and then that one person he had, the person he loved and trusted, left him to die. The bottom drops out of his life in a spectacularly violent fashion, and the only people left to scrape him up off the floor make it very clear that he is useful to them.

At least as Owen Carvour, he had an identity. Even if he had to keep it a secret, at least he had someone he trusted to share that secret with. After the fall, he has nobody. Nothing. His body and his brain are not the same, he has pain and mobility issues and emotional dysregulation and burns and scars that he never had before. He doesn't recognize himself. That last little scrap of ownership he had over his life is gone.

He is what Chimera wants him to be, because Owen Carvour died in that weapons facility in 1957

[so-called-yokai]

So, fun fact. Eshra('s species) is immune to capsaicin. He has no idea he just chemically attacked his boyfriend/best friend/packmate.

An idea that's been living in my brain for ages now and brought to life by the delightful @dysfunctional-doodle. Go check out their Ko-fi!

[rin-and-jade]

Hullo! I am not a system (probably), however I’m having a really, really hard time fighting the dissociation off.

I have ADHD, so when I zone out (due to that the ADHD disorder) it is like my brain just cannot ‘go back’. I have to struggle and force myself, mentally, to go ‘back into my brain’. But even if I do it successfully, I am stuck in a sort of derealization where nothing is actually real, and it feels as though I am stuck in a daydream.

Normally this would be okay, as it only would last for an hour or three, but lately it is becoming longer. And, when in these dissociative moments, I find myself becoming confused with actual memories versus false memories.

Hi there. Im also convinced that i may have a chance to have other neurodivergent conditions like adhd outside of being an ex-system (my father shows too many obvious signs to miss that) which means i might be able to understand your situation better!

I do still struggle with this too,, most prominently with outdoor activities, but also when I don't sleep enough or overworked.

If you're aware that you daze off more often than usual, then there's some probability that you have more physical/mental demands or health not taken well for the past few days.

The process for this underlying issue is how adhd is often correlated with lower dopamine levels in the brain (or receptors) which controls almost all important cognitive functions such as focus, alertness, attention, memory, motor skills (i mean, when you have executive dysfunction where you couldn't move as you'd like), and motivation. Sweet, then we just need more dopamine!--sadly, it's not like that buddy.

We have limited stocks for every chemical and hormones that controls both body and mind functions. If you overproduce dopamine to function daily, then you risk squeezing your reservoir and your neurons 'burnt crisp'. (also take notes that low dopamine or overworked receptors cause you to have brain fog and dissociate more, those bad stuffs)

So, to maximize your dopamine usage (again, because adhd has issues with the bioavailability and the receptors that interacts with dopamine not working properly) it is best to implement a holistic approach to reduce stress or work demands, whilst also making sure you take care of your health--both mental and physical, and also listen to your body if you cannot go any further instead of pushing through to rest for a while before resuming.

This makes sure ya got enough fuel between intervals to keep on running and also negating potential risk of overheating your engine, good luck!

- c

[rollerska8er]

one of my least favourite online phenomena has got to be when someone gives tips on how to cope with depression and the replies are all people saying stuff like "oh?? i should just STOP BEING DEPRESSED? why didn't i think of that before?? don't you know DEPRESSION is a MENTAL ILLNESS? it's caused by BRAIN CHEMICALS. i don't think GOING OUTSIDE will help"

like, i hate to tell you this, friend, but a belief that recovery, even a little bit, is impossible and that small incremental steps can't make it easier to deal with this illness that affects you in a uniquely untreatable way is, like, textbook mental illness. you are mentally ill in a supremely normal way.

nobody's forcing you to go through the difficult and painful process of recovery but you see hands reaching through the darkness to try and help you as feet kicking you while you're down because you are depressed.

i know this because i suffer from depression (actual depression, as in, i have been dangerously dysfunctional at various points in my life, not just "feeling sad") and i can recall seeing people post stuff like "if you're depressed you should try and do one thing to take care of yourself today" and thinking "pfft yeah like that will cure me" and you know what? cleaning up a bit or showering or going for a walk or eating some vegetables doesn't cure depression, but it makes this often bleak world a little more bearable.

depression is caused by brain chemicals and capitalism, sure, i don't dispute that. but wallowing in it and telling yourself "well, it's not me, it's my brain chemistry, so it's out of my hands" is, quite literally, just learned helplessness. complete recovery may not be possible for you. i'm not sure it's possible for me. but you have to try.

[aressida]

Wrote a long one cos the in law family wanted him to take the flu shot, I said no.

"Dear Family, Friends, and Medical Professionals,

I am writing to share some thoughts and questions about vaccines, particularly in light of recent developments.

Do we believe that vaccines are the ultimate solution in medicine?

It is commonly known that influenza vaccines are reformulated each season due to the virus’s constant mutation, making it challenging to predict and protect against new strains accurately.

Is it true that these vaccines bypass the liver’s natural filtration system, potentially causing a shock to our bodies?

How should we classify these ingredients—as toxic or benign?

Here are just some vaccine ingredients, and these are being injected into your body and into your children’s bodies if you choose to vaccinate:

– Formaldehyde/Formalin – Highly toxic systemic poison and carcinogen.

– Betapropiolactone – Toxic chemical and carcinogen. May cause death or permanent injury after very short exposure to small quantities. Corrosive chemical.

– Hexadecyltrimethylammonium bromide – May cause damage to the liver, cardiovascular system, and central nervous system. May cause reproductive effects and birth defects.

– Aluminum hydroxide, aluminum phosphate, and aluminum salts – Neurotoxin. Carries risk for long-term brain inflammation/swelling, neurological disorders, autoimmune disease, Alzheimer’s, dementia, and autism. It penetrates the brain where it persists indefinitely.

– Thimerosal (mercury) – Neurotoxin. Induces cellular damage, reduces oxidation-reduction activity, cellular degeneration, and cell death. Linked to neurological disorders, Alzheimer’s, dementia, and autism.

– Polysorbate 80 & 20 – Trespasses the blood-brain barrier and carries with it aluminum, thimerosal, and viruses; allowing them to enter the brain.

– Glutaraldehyde – Toxic chemical used as a disinfectant for heat-sensitive medical equipment.

– Fetal Bovine Serum – Harvested from bovine (cow) fetuses taken from pregnant cows before slaughter.

– Human Diploid Fibroblast Cells – Aborted fetal cells. Foreign DNA has the ability to interact with our own.

– African Green Monkey Kidney Cells – Can carry the SV-40 cancer-causing virus that has already tainted about 30 million Americans.

– Acetone – Can cause kidney, liver, and nerve damage.

– E. Coli – Yes, you read that right.

– DNA from porcine (pig) Circovirus type-1

– Human embryonic lung cell cultures (from aborted fetuses)

You can view all of these ingredients on the CDC’s website. I encourage everyone to do their own research. Look up the MSDS on these chemicals. Read the thousands of peer-reviewed studies that have evaluated the biological consequences these chemicals can have on the body, especially when being injected.

Injecting foreign substances directly into the bloodstream—viruses, toxins, and proteins—has been linked to various diseases and disorders. These include conditions like atypical measles, cancer, leukemia, multiple sclerosis, and even SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome).

Conditions like Addison’s disease, anaphylactic shock, arthritis, asthma, asymptomatic COVID-19, Crohn’s disease, epilepsy, facial paralysis, fibromyalgia, fetal distress syndrome, foreign body embolism, genital herpes, hepatitis, hyperthyroidism, inflammatory bowel disease, jugular vein embolism, lung abscess, lupus, meningitis, MERS-CoV test positive, migraine-triggered seizures, multiple organ dysfunction syndrome, multiple sclerosis, multisystem inflammatory syndrome in children, pneumonia, stiff leg syndrome, stiff person syndrome, stillbirth, sudden heart attack, sudden respiratory failure, type 1 diabetes, uterine rupture, viral bronchitis—and much more.

This does not mean everyone will experience these reactions, but a significant number of test subjects have experienced one or more.

It is more than enough evidence to show that vaccine mandates are completely anti-scientific.

How can you make an informed decision if you do not have all the information?

We have also seen a shift where flu vaccines are now mRNA-based. But does a "vaccine" really prevent a virus or its recurrence as we expect it to?

The annual flu shot is, at best, a partial defense, aimed at last year’s strain. Does it truly help against the ever-mutating new flu, or is it just a temporary fix?

My concern is that this mindset—that a vaccine is a quick fix for everything—is flawed. The immune system may struggle to handle these types of agents, leading to breakthrough infections and potentially higher mortality rates.

For those who are vaccinated, I respect your choice. I simply ask for the same respect in return for my decision not to vaccinate. My reasons are personal and grounded in a belief that the government should not dictate my health choices and my family's.

Have you heard about Pfizer’s side effects?

Have you read the Pfizer documentation? Ask yourself if a drug with 32 pages of side effects is right for you.

The list of potential vaccine side effects released by Pfizer is alarming, ranging from autoimmune disorders to serious conditions like multiple organ dysfunction and sudden respiratory failure. Yet, this information was kept under wraps and only recently made public. Shouldn’t we be informed of the risks?

Do we even know the medium- or long-term effects of these vaccines?

Are they still in clinical trials? Is there a control group? What about Antibody-Dependent Enhancement (ADE) – has it been adequately tested? And why are ingredients like formaldehyde and mercury, known toxins, included in these vaccines?

Do you truly think this vaccine is 100% safe?

Transparency is crucial.

How can we make informed decisions if we are not given all the information?

We must ask ourselves, do we trust the pharmaceutical companies and their relationships with organizations like the CDC and FDA?

The FDA requested 75 years to release data on the Pfizer vaccine—why? Why did it take only 108 days to approve this vaccine, yet it supposedly requires decades to fully understand its effects?

Do you believe that SARS-CoV-2 has been isolated?

How well-informed are you about the CDC, FDA, pharmaceutical companies, and their donors? Do you think their qualifications are reliable?

These are important questions that deserve honest discussions. And, I believe it is crucial to acknowledge the existence of these alternative perspectives and engage in open discussions to gain a more comprehensive understanding.

Our health and freedom are at stake, and I urge everyone to think critically and seek out all the information before making decisions.

Thank you for taking the time to consider these points."

[pyrrhiccomedy]

what do you do when you're ADHD and know lots about your brain and how to Make Things Work For You but nonetheless the executive dysfunction persists! and you let all the important tasks build up because you don't want to do them and literally anything except 'the stuff i know i ought to do' is distracting/preferrable? like i KNOW what i need to do to break out of executive dysfunction but i... don't...? any insight on this? cheers mate

I mean dogg this is just not something you can think your way out of. parts of your brain are smooth where they shouldn't be smooth and other parts have holes in them that shouldn't have holes. you are not cranking out the chemicals you need to compensate for that. all the productivity tips in the world are not gonna change that. you need medication. I take three separate meds for my ADHD and it's changed my life. I still have ADHD, the meds don't make it so that I'm just like someone who doesn't have ADHD. But getting through the executive dysfunction is now like needing to shoulder through a stuck door, instead of, like, needing to break down a brick wall with my bare fists. I'd rather not, but it's doable, in a way that it just wasn't, before.

If for some reason medication is not available to you - and I'd really strongly recommend looking into that deeply before you do anything else, because basically all healthcare now covers these meds and most of them are very cheap - then the honest to god real answer for adults is to get some stimulants on your own. start with caffeine and like...go from there. I self-medicated with all kinds of fun additives before I finally figured out that the reason I felt more productive on amphetamines wasn't just because amphetamines are a great time.

if you are not of an age or background where you feel comfortable acquiring substances of questionable legality, uh. I don't know dude, take up knife juggling or something? adrenaline will get you there too.

my point is that if you already know everything there is to know, you know all the hacks and tricks and tips, and that's not cutting it, then you need to alter your brain chemistry. there's the easy, safe, cheap, medically advisable way of doing it, and then there's all the other ways of doing it. I'm not your mom or your pastor, so like, do what you've gotta do.

[shirajellyfish]

A thought on writing

I don't know if this is just how writing works or if it's the executive dysfunction talking, but man is writing HARD. And like, that's weird, because I used to write 4K words a day and then would want to write even more. I used to jog my walk home so I could get home a little faster and write more. It used to be harder to not write. For a while, I couldn't stop even if I tried.

And now suddenly it's not like that anymore. And it's so frustrating. Vent/rant under the cut.

I remember someone talking once about their cat that had gotten sick, and was put on medication by the vet. Every day they had to give the cat a shot, which would make it drowsy. They'd let the cat into a room it normally wasn't allowed into so it could lie on the comfy human bed, would give it the shot, and then kitty would get sleepy and take the most glorious kitty nap there ever was. The cat didn't like the needle, but loved the nap.

Then kitty got better, and no longer needed medicine.

The cat got mad it wasn't allowed into the room with the comfy bed anymore, so the owner relented and let it in. The cat laid down on the bed and tried to nap. And rolled over and tried again. And tried again. And the cat just didn't get why this wasn't working. Why wasn't it getting sleepy and taking the most glorious of all kitty naps, like it used to?

Without the drowsy medicine, it wasn't the same.

I feel like that cat right now, I swear. There's so much I want to do, but for some reason or no reason at all my brain has just... cut off the happy chemicals that made it enjoyable. Or possible, even. Suddenly everything is a struggle. Suddenly things I loved are so hard.

It's so frustrating to feel so incapable of doing things for so long, and then everything clicks and I GET it. I can DO something! I'm having a good time! And just as fast as it came, like a switch being flipped it's gone. Holding something in my hands and then it just melts right out of my grasp.

I want to write so bad. Why does the writing not go? Why isn't it happening? Why doesn't it feel good anymore?

'Why can't I nap like I used to?'

I try my other projects and it's the same story.

There's no conclusion here.

I wish I had a way to fix this, instead of just waiting around hoping some day my brain will suddenly decide to be useful again.

I want to write.