#bonehagramblin

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I LOVE WHEN THE SHIP HAS A SMALLER GUY AND A BIG FAT GUY. I LOVE WHEN THEY ARE BOTH INSANE.

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Rent lowering gunshot, I don’t give a fuck what fictional thing you like as long as you’re committed to being kind to real people in real life and not a fucking coward and apparently that makes me proship so like. Idk keep that in mind lmao.

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Just thought of a bear gf approaching me w/ tears in her eyes and I fly into a frantic panic like a stressed chicken like ‘whats wrong baby! Omg who made my darling girl cry?!’ And my bear gf does the worlds wettest and most pathetic sniffle and shows me her paw thats as big as my head and the little thorn stuck inside it. And I go ‘oh nooo my sweet baby. My dear my love let me get that.’ And I carefully tweeze the thorn out of her paw and bandage it up and kiss it better. And she is so happy and feels so much better and gives me kisses w/ her big wet bear tongue.

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Every time an older adult, especially a woman, compliments my taste, I get a lil achievement over my head. “Wow you like the old school stuff!” “I haven’t heard of those since I was a teenager.” “I remember when that song came out!” YES infodump about MTV and radios and old cars to me. You are so cool and interesting. I wish I had known you when you were my age. I hope we would have been friends.

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Bluh hi im alive howre we all

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Do I HAVE to make my characters explicitly non-men for people to understand that theyre lesbians. Shouldn’t people just understand I’m a dyke and therefore everyone is a dyke too or am I being unrealistic

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Do we think Eddie would try to “adopt” children if he happened upon any kids wandering around (a la Mother Gooseberry?) or is he just so obsessed with birth and consummation of marriage that he’d just kinda be blind to them maybe?

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If I could go back in time and be a little girl again I would want to be a billion times less well behaved because I think theres a certain magic in a kid who chooses to be a problem

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“ugh masculinity is a prison…manhood is so lonely…you wouldn’t get it 😔” Amazing, maybe you should try being something else. Just a thought.

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So my thoughts recently have been these:

• queer masculinity got watered down and pushed out of queer spaces and its annoying to see the aftermath bc everyone wants a domtop daddy partner but is grossed out by like. Idk body hair? Cargo shorts? Ill get back to you on that

• we have this weird breed of transmascs who dont necessarily want to admit that they have the privilege of being transmasculine in relation to transfems (something youre able to have while also being affected by transphobia and misogyny as separate events, just not transmisogyny bc thats not rlly how it works)

• a weird breed of queer people who dont want to be assertive or dominant or capable of like?? Anything at all? ‘I cant do the dishes im neurodivergent’ or whatever? So this weird avoidance of responsibility, accountability, independence, even in sexual situations (see top shortage, whatever that is)

• a weird fear of penises which most people associate w/ masculinity and therefore the transmisogyny that ensues because of that

• inability to communicate, organize, or basically behave like adults because of like. Idk the fear of being wrong? Why do I feel like a lot of other transmasc queer folks ive met irl recently have the tendency to be weird and catty ?

• competing victim mentalities, trauma olympics etc. instead of a focus on healing from wounds. The weird sense of individualism some folks get about mental illness, individual trauma, what have you. Something that singles you out from the crowd or excuses you from accountability instead of something you can use to relate to other people w/ the same issues or a way to help you like. Look at yourself and your habits better.

• people who dont want to put effort into friendships, bad faith, not wanting to give help without immediate reciprocation?

Weird relationships between capability, masculinity, bioessentialism, responsibility, and community maybe? I think we have a lot of queer transmasc folks who dont feel comfy w/ their own masculinity (or assertiveness or dominance or things we associate w/ masculinity in the West ig) because they believe any connection to masculinity/men/ whatever is like. Inherently evil maybe? Because misandry? Fear of perceived masculinity? Idk? Help?

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I think per my previous faux-pas, what I meant to say (and I’m not sure how true this is) is that I worry abt the way we transmascs see transfems especially what with theweird fetishy attitudes some tguys have (nooo you dont have to transition to be valid, etc.). Like please for the love of god tell me you see that girl as a person I’m scared bro-

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I need to redo this so it looks pretty or just make another blog entirely where ill feel better about being cringe I’m shedding my skin if you will

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All “I will die your daughter.” Characters are transgender to me talk to the wall.

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Ohmygod Ithink I might be into giantesses

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Personally I think that Crystal Winter should have been Inuk and Jackie and her brother are Sámi thank you goodbye

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The Outlast Trials but its just Leland Coyle in a jar and I toss in all of my favorite characters to kick his ass and murder him in gruesome ways