#bokushi rages.

[geometricalien]

Between Akashi & Furihata, if one of them died, who do you think is more likely to heal from the pain of loss sooner & moves on with his life?

When has Akashi Seijuurou gotten over anything in his fucking life? This rhetorical jest is an oversimplification of one of Akashi's character flaws which is his need for control. This is all to say, simply based on that, Furihata is the more emotionally intelligent of the two, the one more open and accepting to change. I think they both would require years to fully heal but I think Furihata would be the one to move on sooner.

I've tried to keep it short and direct above for those without brainrot but I AM going to go apeshit below the cut

Oh my god oh my god oh my GOD I'm so glad someone wants to hear me talk about THIS, THIS EXACT CONCEPT- ACCEPTING THE LOVE OF THEIR LIVES DEATH FASCINATES ME ENDLESSLY FUCK

Okay for reference there has been 2 fanfics involving this concept that I read when I first got into akafuri and they have HEAVILY influenced my perception of this question:

- The Truth About Reality; which is literally about Furihata not accepting Akashi's death and through mysticism goes to 4/5 different parallel realities to get him back. It's a favorite of mine and I read it once a year. It has themes of sacrifice and second chances which make it so crucial to the thematic elements of akafuri. Read it please

- Through the Air by Maiokoe; I love the first chapter, literally Kuroko Kagami Takao and Midorima come to Akashi while he is at work and inform him that Furihata's flight just crashed. It is so so so good. The way it plays out, Akashi's mounting fear, his resistance, the way his fear turns to anger then to despair- sometimes I cry when I reread it. And the last lines of the chapter---

What was a world without his lover? What was this life without his easy nature and smiles? What was this life without his affection? What was this world without Furihata Kouki? What did this world mean to him? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. What was Akashi Seijuuro without him? He didn’t want to find out.

Those lines have colored my opinion of what Akashi would be like if his husband died so fucking much that it really was eventual that I started my Greek fic where Akashi is Achilles and Furihata is Patroclus. So if you know the Iliad then you know how my fic will play out and exactly where I take a stance on Akashi’s terrible all consuming love.

To talk about the dissolution of happily in love akafuri by the cruel hands of death is to examine how their relationship evolved them and what being torn from their other half would do to them. To be haunted by their after image, to look at their favorite mug, to wear their favorite sweater- who would wear grief better. Who would welcome it, accept its presence. Who would repress it.

Please do not mistake what I'm saying to mean Furihata would move on quickly. Where Furihata is Akashi's light, Akashi is his gravity. He would be adrift and untethered without Akashi. The world would turn upside down. He would feel the expanse of their house, the emptiness of their bed. Furihata would be lost. It would take years to come down back to earth by himself.

Furihata would eventually move out of that house/apartment too full of memories, at the prodding of well meaning friends he would download dating apps, eventually he would go on dates and try his best to not compare them to his late husband because how could a man compare to a god. And then years and years down the line, when his heart only half aches when he sees a hair of red, when he only wears that old ratty sweater on the occasion bad day, he can look up into the sky and smile, thankful for the memories. I think he could even fall in love again, begin a new chapter.

A large chunk of Furihata is lost the day Akashi dies but he grows around the pain and walks on. Accepting the scars, accepting the love and pain, accepting it all.

As I said though, Furihata is Akashi's light. His metric on good and bad. The saving grace that redeemed him and inspired him to become worthy of such love.

Imagine if the sun was stolen from the sky and we were pitched into utter darkness. Until our eyes adjust and we can make out some shapes, you are surrounded in black black. Complete emptiness. Alone more than ever before and for a moment you think it will consume you. That is how Akashi feels for the first year until his eyes adjust to the darkness. He would continue in this shadow life indefinitely, watching everyone else patch themselves together and move on, while he.is.stuck. And he won't admit it and only those brave enough would say it to his face, but he is absolutely wallowing, sulking, in this darkness as self-punishment. that in some twisted sense, this is what he deserves. he digs his feet in, refusing to move. And if out of the corner of his eye a flicker of light dances, he would refuse to follow it. The dark is where he belongs.

He would bury himself in work. He would refuse to move out of their house. Refusing to touch any of the things that Kouki last left them, his toothbrush bone dry in the holder, the book he was reading on his bedside table.

And when his friends compare him to his father- he becomes furious, alight with indignation. He is not cold and cruel like his father had been. "No... you're empty."

It would take him so so long to accept that Furihata would want him to be happy even if its not with him. That he deserves to be happy. Only then would he take tiny half steps out of the cave he buried himself in, the cave that he would have made his grave.

As a side note, I mentioned Furihata falling in love with someone else afterwards... my personal interpretation is that Akashi could not. He would try if only just because he knows Furihata wants him to be happy and knew that Akashi is the most happy when he is in love- but The Akashi heart is a fearsome terrible all consuming thing.

Akashi Seijuurou, is a man who celebrated the anniversary of each milestone of their relationship. Akashi Seijuurou, is a man who is head over heels in love and worships the ground his beloved walks on. Akashi Seijuurou, is a man who calls their partner love- because they are the manifestation of their love. Akashi Seijuurou, is a man who would go to the far corners of the world to see if there was some way to still communicate with their partner if said partner was turned into a worm and would build a terrarium of utmost luxury for said partner and talk to the worm as if it was them, take the worm to see the sun meet the ocean, because they have to hope that their partner still has some consciousness. And if not, then he needs to do that for himself. To fool himself. And once that worm passes, he would be extra compassionate to earthworms because they remind him of them.

The Akashi heart is a blessing to the receiver for there is nothing stronger or purer. The Akashi heart is a curse to the creator if only because they have that one single heart and they are physically unable to take it back.

[tenkasato]

Fanfic Recs: Kuroko no Basket

For my second round of Kuroko no Basket fic recs, here are some AU fics that knocked me off my seat with their creativity. What-if fics are a good avenue of showcasing an author’s imaginations, hence my love for them. Surprisingly, KnB offers a rich source of alternate paths. So go ahead and try these out.

AU

Ray Of Shine by Aglio - Saggezza 

Author’s summary: "If you thought they were wrong, you should've just punched them or something." Not exactly anyone's definition of sound advice, but, well – what if Kuroko had? One-shot, gen, rated for minor violence and profanity. (Status: complete)

Thoughts: Crack! I’m not lying when I say I was snorting during the whole time I was reading this. I mean, we’ve seen how terrifying Kuroko can be in canon that even the GOMs fold over to his rage. Read on to find out what Teiko!Kuroko has to say to Aomine under that dramatic atmosphere.

Nineteen: A Truth of Red on Blue by hokkyokukou 

Author’s summary: When they were nineteen, Kuroko was no longer with them. It was an accident that no one liked to talk about. They called it an accident, because the alternative was too horrific. But, when they were nineteen, they realized... it may not have been an accident after all. The red truth was beginning to surface no matter how much they rejected it, so they took it head on... for Kuroko. (Status: complete)

Thoughts: Great writing here. The author masterfully tricks readers into thinking one before actually revealing another end of the spectrum. Gut-wrenching angst. On-point characters. Bittersweet friendship. Unique. Give it a go.

Redo by Master_Procrastinator

Author’s summary: With nothing else to do, Kuroko's just going to have to keep trying until he hopefully gets it right. The only problem? He doesn't know what getting it right means. But time loops are dangerous places if you're stuck too long. (Status: ongoing)

Thoughts: Another unique fic. If you’re into time loops exploring multiple paths and characters (the ultimate AU), this would be an exhilarating ride.

Next, OC/reader-inserts. Because, of course, fic recs cannot be complete without some good OC/reader-insert fics, right? Here are my recs!

KnB x OC/Reader

Liar, Liar by YokohamaBeans (Liar, Liar by YokohamaBeans) (tumblr: @yokohamabeans​)

Author’s summary: All Sugiyama Saeri wanted was to stick it to the boy who broke her heart. "Yes, so I lied to everyone about dating a prodigal basketball star who also happens to model part-time at Zunon. Big deal—I'm never gonna see him again!" Spoiler alert: she does. KiseOCAkashi. (Status: ongoing)

Thoughts: If you want a fic with Kdrama feels, this is it. The author writes Kise and Akashi so well. The OC, my goodness, don't let me start. OC is amazing, unique, flawed and therefore realistic, and a force to reckon with even for our favorite boys. You have to read this. It won't disappoint. The author actually rewrote this fic. The first version was such a good ride, so I’m very eager to read the new, revamped version.

Lionheart by TheKiro (tumblr: @thekirouniverse​)

Author’s summary: There was something about this simplicity. The taste of warmth and silence. And home. Things he hadn't known before. And he came to know a single thing throughout the seasons which changed their colors in time. If he was a king. Then she was a lionheart. [Akashi/OC] - [AU] (Status: ongoing)

Thoughts: In this fic, Rakuzan won the Winter Cup. So how exactly was a simple granddaughter of Akashi’s shogi playmate going to ease into his Bokushi heart and help piece himself back together? Great and compelling writing. (The author also wrote for Aomine entitled “Egoistic”. I haven’t read that but it’s complete, so you might want to check that out, too.)

Bubble of Eternity by Dragonseatingme 

Author’s summary: One chocolate milk-shake, an exchanged smile, three heart-breaks and one love story. She meets him when she is sixteen and from then her life is filled with moments revolving around a boy with golden eyes, golden hair, a golden smile and a golden heart. A story told in parts. KiseOC One-shot. (Status: complete)

Thoughts: Lovely. Gives those high school first love vibes that mature into adulthood where second chances are given.

Thank you! Please give these awesome works a try. ^^

Check my other rec list for KnB here!