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waugh-bao ยท 1 year ago
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nokiidot ยท 1 year ago
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yeah I may have to block some s*bm*s artists who donโ€™t tag angst
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cloudyvulpine ยท 14 days ago
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i typed up a hot take but tbh a little scared to post it (it's abt Blitzker and i know some of the Blitzker shippers will not like it jsjdkdb)
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existential-crisis24 ยท 9 months ago
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Does anyone else want to write but they canโ€™t get into the writing mode so they just continuously switch from work to work, only writing like a paragraph for each before getting stumped again??
Today alone I have written probably 3 pages but none of them are for remotely the same thing. I, in fact, started 2 new things on top of the 3 things Iโ€™m continuing to write. I cannot for the life of me, focus on one thing.
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intoxicated-chan ยท 1 year ago
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angsty fight between miguel and wife!reader
and then they make up yayayayay
Give Me Reasons We Should Be Complete
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โœฟเธบ Paring โžณโฅ Miguel Oโ€™Hara x F!Reader
โœฟเธบ Summary โžณโฅ Miguel has been pushing you away for some time now. After a talk with a friend, you and Miguel try to sort things out.
โœฟเธบ (A/n) โžณโฅ Inspired by โ€œDANCING IN THE DARKโ€ by Joji. Writing this made me think back on past crushes/lovers. But thank you for your request! I am also holding back on writing smut because it keeps getting labeled and it takes me longer to write.
โœฟเธบ Word Count โžณโฅ 1.4k
โœฟเธบ Content Warnings โžณโฅ Female reader, angst-to-fluff, swearing, Miguel is kinda a dick head, mentions of sleep deprivationโ€ฆ
Want more Miguel content? Check out my MASTERLIST!
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You stood in his cold and dark office. The best source of light was his laptop but his huge frame blocked most of the light. You managed around the crumbled paper and thrown desk objects with a plate in hand.
โ€œMiguel?โ€ You peer over his shoulder, โ€œI made you dinner.โ€
He nods.
โ€œYou know you havenโ€™t eaten since yesterday.โ€
He nods again.
โ€œAnd you know that youโ€™ve been here for a long time. I think itโ€™s best for you to-โ€
โ€œTake a break?โ€ Miguel interrupts you, โ€œI donโ€™t have time for that.โ€
โ€œMiguel, Iโ€™m sure whatever it is, it can wait a few minutes. All Iโ€™m asking is for you to eat something.โ€ You try to set the plate down.
โ€œI thought I made it clear that I do not want to be bothered. Youโ€™re distracting me. Leave.โ€
He didnโ€™t mean it like thatโ€ฆ He didnโ€™t mean it like that. He didnโ€™t mean it like that. He didnโ€™t mean it like thatโ€ฆ
โ€œBut Mig-โ€
โ€œI said go.โ€ He growls, his eyes turning its blood red from anger, โ€œYouโ€™re becoming a nuisance.โ€
He didnโ€™t mean it like that.
โ€œOkay.โ€ You tried not to let the crack in your voice show. You didnโ€™t even bother to leave the plate behind because you knew it was going to be wasted.
โ€œAnd donโ€™t bother me again.โ€ You heard him say as you left his office.
You took deep breaths, trying to calm yourself down before you burst into tears. But your hands shook, nearly dropping the plate.
You choked down your sobs and let your tears fall, the plate was left in the fridge, and you pushed yourself to your bedroom. It was basically yours now since Miguel was sleeping in his office.
The sheets no longer lingered on his cologne and any sign of his presence was gone, other than his clothing and a few photos. The room has become a mess of discarded clothing, old plates and cups, and candy wrappers.
How long has it been since Miguel showed affection? Or even looked at you?
This was normal behavior for Miguel, right? You should know, youโ€™re married to him. Youโ€™re his wife. But he experienced loss, unlike you. You didnโ€™t want to judge him for how he deals with his emotions, heโ€™s emotionally distant. You knew that from the start.
And because of this, you felt like he deserved more than what you could give him. Itโ€™s what kept you going through the many times Miguel tore your heart, how it squeezed in pain at his actions and words. How you look the other way and ignore his hurtful words.
You couldnโ€™t sleep. You left the still cold bed and dressed in something warm and headed up to the roof.
You sat on the edge, looking at Nueva York. How beautiful it looked during the night, which is one of the reasons why you liked sitting up here.
โ€œSitting all by yourself?โ€ You tense up only to relax when you know that voice, โ€œAt this time? All alone?โ€ Peter B. lands next to you, his daughter in his arms.
โ€œI would ask my husband to join me but heโ€™s too busy.โ€ You respond truthfully.
โ€œAgain? Heโ€™s been at this all week.โ€ He sits next to you.
โ€œYeah.โ€ You huff.
โ€œAndโ€ฆ how are you holding up?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€
โ€œReally? Because it doesnโ€™t look like it.โ€ He offers Mayday who reaches out to you.
You take her and set her down on your lap, โ€œI just donโ€™t know what to do, everything I do seems to bother Miguel. Checking up on him, bringing him food. It feels like heโ€™s doing this on purpose.โ€
โ€œMiguelโ€™s always been difficult and from the time I spent with himโ€ฆ Heโ€™s different, not like the rest of us. Heโ€™s accepted his fate as Spider-Man and believes heโ€™s destined for bad things 24/7. But good things do come along, like you. I thinkโ€ฆ I think heโ€™s trying to come to terms that he can get it because he deserves it.โ€
Mayday coos, pulling at your hair, โ€œAnd I think Miguel is scared. He puts on his tough act because he has to, yet heโ€™s afraid to admit heโ€™s scared. Normally, people wouldโ€™ve given up on him. Why havenโ€™t you?
โ€œTill death do us part. I donโ€™t want to lose him. I donโ€™t give up on him because when you love someone, you love them every single day as who they are.โ€
โ€œTalk about romantic.โ€
โ€œOh please.โ€ You look down at Mayday, โ€œPlus I think-โ€
โ€œThere you are.โ€ You jump and this time, you remain tense, โ€œI was looking for you.โ€
โ€œNow youโ€™re looking for me?โ€ You respond, refusing to turn your head.
โ€œItโ€™s late, (Y/n). Itโ€™s dangerous.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m here, sheโ€™s alright.โ€ Mayday jumps into her fatherโ€™s arms.
โ€œIโ€™ve already had enough of you. Please, (Y/n).โ€
โ€œItโ€™s fine.โ€ You tell him, following Miguel inside.
You head to the bedroom, โ€œWhere are you going?โ€
โ€œBed.โ€
โ€œ(Y/n)-โ€
โ€œIโ€™m tired and I do not want to be bothered. That includes you too, Miguel.โ€
โ€œExcuse me?โ€ He follows you into the bedroom.
โ€œYou heard me.โ€
โ€œPlease, (Y/n), talk to me.โ€ Miguel begs.
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, did you just say talk? Like I have been trying to do for the past week?โ€
โ€œ(Y/n)-โ€
โ€œYou know what? No, no. You do not get to try to get me to talk after all of this. I have been trying, I have been all in. All I asked of you was to look after yourself.โ€
โ€œI know.โ€
โ€œYou know? You KNOW?โ€ You scoff rather loudly, โ€œDid you know that Lyla has even talked to me about your behavior? Iโ€™m worried about you Miguel. All the damn time, even more when I see you not eating and staying up all night. All I ask is one minute, one bite of the damn food.โ€
โ€œIโ€™mโ€ฆ Iโ€™m so sorry.โ€
โ€œIs sorry all you have to say? Not even a half assed excuse?โ€ You see Miguel trying to form a sentence but nothing leaves his left and his head hangs low, โ€œI need to be alone.โ€
You walk past him but he grabs your arm, โ€œPlease donโ€™t leave.โ€ He says, โ€œPlease donโ€™t walk out that door.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m sleeping on the couch, you could have the bed.โ€ You look up at him.
โ€œI love you, (Y/n). I know I donโ€™t say it as much but I fucking love you. Heโ€™s right, you know. I am scared. Scared of everything. Because at first, I didnโ€™t think I could have that, have you. You let me hurt you and that is unforgivable.โ€
Heโ€™s crying. Looking right at you, letting himself be bare right in front of you. His grip on your arm loosens and his hands come up to your face, cupping your cheeks. You could hear his staggered breathing, trying to keep himself composed.
โ€œBut I wasnโ€™t lying when I said I love you, I wasnโ€™t lying when I said I wanted a family, and I wasnโ€™t lying when I said that you make me believe in love.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m always here for you, Miguel. You donโ€™t have to go through things alone, but when you want to, Iโ€™m here.โ€ You take one of his hands into yours, pulling it away from your face but keeping a tight hold on it.
โ€œItโ€™s not that easy. I hurt you, I understand why you donโ€™t want to.โ€
โ€œI love you, Miguel. Weโ€™ll work on this. I promise you.โ€ After a moment, Miguel practically tackles you, nearly falling to the ground. The hug is tight and warm, and you could feel your shirt become wet with Miguelโ€™s tears.
โ€œYouโ€™re okay, right?โ€ His voice cracks as he speaks through his sobs, โ€œPlease tell me youโ€™re okay.โ€
โ€œI promise you, I am okay.โ€ You whisper.
โ€œIโ€™ll make it up to you, I swear.โ€
โ€œYou can start by getting some rest. But youโ€™ve got a lot of apologies Oโ€™Hara.โ€
You donโ€™t know how long you and Miguel stayed like this, nor did you care. All you cared about was Miguel and he felt complete at last.
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scarlettmurphy ยท 3 months ago
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STARCROSSED PT3 +เฉˆโœฉโ€งโ‚Šหš LOGAN HOWLETT
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logan and y/n โ€” starcrossed in every universe. the forbidden love, the underlying emotions swallowing y/n whole as she sees the man older then her own father by a good century or so in love with the woman she hates and she finds herself in a situation she knows sheโ€™ll never be able to run from.
- content warning age gap (is legal) angst. swearing. explicit. comfort! drinking. sick. dirty humour. choking. drugs. comfort? body issues. implications of ed. nsfw. angst angst and angst..pairings: older!logan howlett x xavier!reader. logan howlett x jean grey? scott summers x ?
spoiler: my idea was to make this a bit happier.. mission failed โ˜น๏ธ
note this is part three to starcrossed, make sure youโ€™ve read the first two first so it makes sense :) the angst is angsting and iโ€™m a little scrambled for what direction to go with this.. sorry for the long wait ๐Ÿ’•iโ€™m a bit insecure about this piece because i had a little writers block so i really hope you like it! i was listening to silver springs on repeat! so you get the vibes โ˜น๏ธโ˜น๏ธ enjoy reading and i know this super long, sorry !! ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—
tags โ€” @faceache111 @malfoys-demigod @navs-bhat @dilfismz @thisbipuff-isaswiftie @twinky-wink @thewiselionessss @thecraziestcrayon @plasticbottleholder @awhoreforalotofshows @emily-b @jae48 @cxptainbuck @444st4rg1rl @iluvloganhowlett @luusecret @bratalina @penguinsravioli @aesthetic-lyss @capswife @cliffordmess @halepack2011 @1-800-local-whore @lonelytealover @deezsnurts @angelofthorr @badbishsblog @weallhaveadestiny @hizzielover @noventev @holysmokesmando @la-diabla1 @sarnbarnes @lunalixya @danicl25
[i hope u like it!]
logan hadnโ€™t moved an inch the entire night โ€” you couldโ€™ve assumed he was a statue with how trained he was just to focus on y/n. every movement she made, every little occasional whimper or noise that escaped her sweet lips as she slept. his mind was spinning with thoughts as he bit down on his cheek mentally battling with himself as he thought to scottโ€™s words that he had yelled at him a few hours before and what he said being enough to hit him with the small reality that the girl in front of him could of seen him in a way that he hadnโ€™t completely processed or imagined was a possibility. scottโ€™s words ringing in his mind as he has spent the entire night tossing and turning in the bed trying to dissect what he exactly meant by them, and heโ€™d gotten an idea.
an idea he didnโ€™t wanna admit to himself even though all his thoughts linked back to it. he swallowed it deep down, his heart beat quickening as he wondered over the thoughts circling in his mind. he was certain something was growing in him after knowing the knowledge a strong feeling taking over all his urges. maybe it was fear, he was pretty sure it was and he hated the feeling. in every way.
amd it was be caused by y/n. he knew it no matter how much he didnโ€™t wanna admit that his friend, the girl that was a good 150 and something years younger then him was causing. the professors daughterโ€” he had practically just got here two years ago and he didnโ€™t need to be stirring up shit with charles because off his daughter who was practically underage, especially in his eyes. logan swallowing as he slowly come to the terms that the little girl, in his eyes who hardly looks that little anymore, next to him could see him in a completely different way. a way he never thought would be something in her mind.
slowly the time passed as light slowly dawned into the room which shone a sweet reflecting on y/nโ€™s face as her skin soaked up the sunlight as logan brung his gaze up to the ceiling, his thoughts getting too much to bare as he leant into his pocket and pulled out a cigar. hating the fact it was so hard for him to control, fighting those feelings brewing in him as he slowly stood up from the bed being extra cautious to be quiet about it despite his big body making the bed quiver under him as he walked over to the window opening it slightly โ€” a little extra cautious over y/n and smoking around her in this state as he looked back over to the view off her sleeping.
he hated how soft he was currently feeling because of her, the emotions stirring in him something he hadnโ€™t even remembered ever feeling before. he felt like a big baby, smoking out the window all because of the kid. logan taking a big inhale as he watched the sun come up. soon enough finishing the cigar whilst overlooking the scenery,him finding himself stuck in thought as he leant against the wall as he brung his gaze back to y/n after throwing the put out butt out the window, his mind wracking around what just to do or if he should or leave or stay.
however, logan didnโ€™t get the chance to decide when y/nโ€™s eyes fluttered open as she tossed a little as the cover slid off her figure as she slowly woke up realising the fact she was still in the outfit from the night before as she could smell the faint bit of sick which made her let out a low groan as her mind was a complete blur, her being instantly met with a horrible headache as she buried her face into her pillow completely unbeknownst to loganโ€™s presence. the headache only getting worse as she tried to recall what had happened the night before โ€” the one downside of being a mutant of her power being the fact that hangovers hit like a wwe fighter would.
her mind stopping recalling anything after the time logan had walked away from the bar and left her with wade and hank โ€” her mind slowly coming to terms with the shots.. the many shots.. the little burst of confidence she had as logan kept himself silent as he watched the girl stir awake not wanting to alert y/n off his presence just yet, deep down him knowing he wouldnโ€™t of been able to speak anyway as he was too taken by her, not wanting to stop his little gawking as he watched her come to reality.
y/nโ€™s heart felt as if it was burning as she recalled what she had seen with logan and jean โ€” that hole inside her that was always lingering growing wider per second as she wished to suppress the memories now. god she wished she was more blackout then she had been. her mind feeling like a very hazy floaty mess as did her body currently.
y/ns mind bringing itself onto the little run she had out the mansion, hangover anxiety flowing over her as she felt her face heat up at the memory as her heart flipped at the thought of what she swore she could recall about scott of all people being nice? to her? at that she rolled out a little curse under her breath as she fought to keep her eyes closed against the pillow as all she wanted was so be swallowed hole as the heart ache that truly had never left and was only pushed to the side last night felt harsher then ever at the faded image off logan she had in her brain as she swallowed, her stomach making a loud gurgle noise as she felt the sick feeling coarse back up from her.
with that logan couldnโ€™t be quiet anymore, him taking a step and just with the sound of his footsteps that made y/n open her eyes and look up as she met loganโ€™s gaze from across the room herself instantly jumping as she felt completely fucked from the night before and his presence was the last thing she needed.
โ€œy/nโ€”โ€œ logan spoke quietly, some of his emotion present within his tone as he immediately swallowed that back down, stomaching a smile in her direction as he made his way over to the edge of the bed. โ€œare you okay?โ€ he added out in an almost rushed way as y/nโ€™s heart pounded as fast as her head was in the moment as she looked at him โ€” her not even wanting to even know how bad she mustโ€™ve looked right now as she shook her head.
her low words coming out as fast as she had probably ever spoken before, โ€œi think im going to be sick.โ€ she rolled out under her breath, her words coming out in a heavy whisper as she quickly got out of bed and rushed to the bathroom. y/n fighting the blurry feeling that overtook her vision as she knelt down to the bathroom toilet โ€” her dizziness just making the sick worse as she leaned down to the toilet bowl as she let it come out. logan running after her the second she stood up that worried feeling growing as he stood at the door watching as she knelt down.
โ€œfucking hell.โ€ he cursed out under his breath as he spoke gruffly as he took a few steps over to her as he knelt down beside her as she was sick. his face forming a harsh grimace as he bit down on his tongue as his large hand fell to her back as he tried to soothe her as he looked away as she was sick again. him swallowing as he tried to control his anger that was growing in the bottom of his stomach for the state she had gotten in, pushing down scottโ€™s words that lingered in his mind along with the question of why you would drink yourself into that state as if he didnโ€™t already know the answer deep down.
โ€œiโ€™m gonna fucking kill hank and wade.โ€ logan rumbled out as a gruff sigh escaped his lips as he took in y/nโ€™s shakiness. hating how she mustโ€™ve felt in the moment as he moved his hand up and down her spine as she let out a shaky breath. the comfort making y/nโ€™s hurt inside grow more and more as she stumbled out a quick, โ€œiโ€™m never drinking again.โ€
her words making a low chuckle escape loganโ€™s lips as he nodded slowly his hand not moving as he used his other hand to move some of her hair behind her ear in a swift motion that only reminded y/n off a bit more from last night as she was sick again. logan swallowing down his anger and feelings as he knew he had to be there for her right now.
โ€œ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝitโ€™s just a bad hangover bub.โ€ logan calmly stated, his thoughts becoming nothing but void to him as he had all his worryโ€™s right now on her as he watched as she leaned down a little to the toilet bowl, him being able to tell how out of it she was still just by that action as currenlty y/nโ€™s mind was a mixture of haziness and hurt as the words she was trying to mumble out got cut off by that sick feeling again which she swallowed right back down as she fought with herself.
โ€œโ€”โ€˜m never had one like this before.โ€ she cursed out before being sick yet again as his hand lingered on her lower back as he could hear the fear in her voice, a protective feeling growing all through his body he knew exactly what that meant for himself and he hated it which is why his voice sounded a little cold as he moved his hand off her, leaning a little closer to her as he grabbed a small cloth for her to use in a second before placing that on the side next to them.
his hand moving back over to her hair as he made sure it wasnโ€™t getting in her face at all as his cold words hit the air, โ€œthatโ€™s what happens when you take shots all night, especially the amount you and wade were taking.โ€
y/m swallowed roughly as she could overhear his change in tone which made her feel like even more a mess as she spoke up shakily, โ€œsorryโ€”โ€œ and with y/nโ€™s words logan felt a flurry of guilt within him as he shook his head releasing the harshness he was showing which he didnโ€™t even mean too as he sighed.
โ€œdonโ€™t be.โ€ he eventually spoke up, his words falling to a cold room as he watched as y/n leant back a little his hands following her as she leant against the wall. his had sipping off her waist as he swept his touch away and grabbed the cloth he had gotten ready for her so she could wipe her mouth. swallowing as she took it from his grip as y/n felt her self pity growing just by seeing his darkened eyes on her as she wiped her mouth with the cloth gently. herself feeling completely disgusting.
y/n watching as logan flushed the toilet to get rid of all the sick that was in there whilst y/n sat there swallowing down her self pity, hating how everything was feeling. being sick here in front of him of all people. sheโ€™d rather scott be here, probably even jean, god why wasnโ€™t scott here? why was logan here? what was he doing in her bedroom?
her mind was boiling with questions as she brung her eyes to his own, her gaze locking on his soft brown eyes with that everso hint of green within them that just reminded her of everything she loved about him. the hint off melancholy she always viewed in his gaze still there which just made the pull he had in her twenty million times stronger as it always had been as she couldnโ€™t help the little nervous smile that grew on her lips as she nervously chuckled with her feelings enlaced within her action.
โ€œgod iโ€™m a mess.โ€ she retorted out, logan playfully tapping her shoulder at her words as his touch lingered against her skin as he kept his gaze on her.
โ€” โ€œleast youโ€™re a pretty one.โ€ he replied almost immediately with a teasing smile showcased on his lips as he grabbed the cloth from her hand and put it over the toilet, y/n swallowing her feelings. his words hit y/n like a heavy, full of metal and being thrown at her by magneto, truck as she could just picture the blush that grew on her face from one silly meaningless comment from him she shouldnโ€™t read too much since she didnโ€™t have a good track record with that especially since what she roughly recalled him doing yesterday as she swallowed due to his words as she could still feel his touch on her own even if it wasnโ€™t there.
the yearning in her practically breaking as she felt that tension stir in her stomach as her brain told her one thing yet her heart was aching to be nothing like she has been for the last two weeks to him no matter how much she shouldnโ€™t be as she kept her gaze on him.
y/n was struggling to find the right words with so many question in her brain and luckily logan instead did for her after the moment of silence had passed, him swallowing roughly before doing so, โ€œyou okay now?โ€ his words low as he felt the tension grow in the air silently battling himself from creating it within himself too as loganโ€™s eyes studied y/n as he kept himself knelt down in front of the girl who was sat on the floor โ€” not wanting to leave her side but knowing he should. knowing he shouldnโ€™t be like this with her now, here.
her managing a nod back, โ€œshould be.โ€
her low words caused a feeling to grow in him, โ€you will be kid,โ€ he corrected, giving her a serious look.
y/n finding this tension and almost awkwardness grow between the two of them as she moved her gaze away from him, sitting up a little as she soon found her words. โ€œwhat are you doing here?โ€ she couldnโ€™t help ask, โ€œi donโ€™t remember why.โ€
logan roughly sighed with her words as he stood up, looking down at her as he went over and leaned against the door. needing the distance between them for his own peace of mind as he spoke after she had finished. โ€œi couldnโ€™t leave you alone last night. i was worried after seeing how drunk you were.โ€
his words were like a little shock of realisation for y/n as she nodded over the obviousness of it as she moved her gaze onto him, her eyes casted onto him from across the room. hating the weirdness that was growing them as she noted how much it was coming from him. sheโ€™d most definitely have to remember soon or else it would be time to dive into someoneโ€™s mind.
โ€œi remember scott being here but not you.โ€ she muttered out as logan nodded at her words.
โ€œyeah. well we were both helping.โ€ logan blurted out under his breath, sounding a little pissed off as he opened the bathroom door, โ€œyou should showerโ€” iโ€™ll go get you something to eat.โ€ the built up tension and guilty thoughts in his mind eating half the words he wanted to say.
โ€œfood might sent me over the edge.โ€ y/n mumbled out lowly, logan knowing the truth underlying her words as he swallowed his own spit feeling those feelings thrive within him as he sighed at the girl who he hadnโ€™t really seen eat a meal if it wasnโ€™t some weird protein recipe, he recalled jean used to have all the time, for the past four months.
โ€œwellโ€” just shower okay?โ€ he grunted out as y/n nodded in reply as he closed the bathroom door behind himself. y/n soon hearing her bedroom door close a few seconds later as she let out a rough exhale as she felt like the weight fell right off her shoulders โ€” instantly curling herself into a tiny little ball as she rested her head on her knees as she tried to recall everything as her head pounding just grew worse. rough was not enough to describe the mental and physical anguish she was feeling right now, her having blacked out most of the night and that specific fact irritated her to another level as she knew sheโ€™d have to go find scott and get what he knew out of him.
another embarrassing conversation with a guy she never saw eye to eye with and thought was a little bit off a stuck up mug who turned out to be the nicest thing ever to her last night โ€” to say she was embarassed was an understatement as she eventually dragged herself into the shower as she pondered over all the things she knew.
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the shower was too much and too little, the burning water against her skin making her feel a number of things as the pain brung her to the surface of reality as her mind bubbled within the surface of everything as the pain of the water against her soft skin quieted the pain in her heart and mind - her hair falling against her back as the water swallowed her skin whole.
her breath shaky as the tears that slipped down her cheeks were just water dripping down her to any otherโ€™s eyes, wouldโ€™ve gone unnoticed, as she eventually finished her shower after a few ten or so minutes of soaking up all the emotions within the air that had been left and abandoned on that swing set she had the faint recollection off from last night.
y/n wrapping the towel around herself as she pushed through the bathroom door as she made her way through her room as she slid into the first thing she saw in her wardrobe. jeans and a red top - the basic of the basic โ€” as she didn't even want to look in the mirror for fear of what she looked like but she bit that urge down and went right over to the mirror, over analysing every inch off herself as she tried not to let that feeling grow inside her because she knew she had things to do. tearing her eyes away from the mirror as she made her way out her room.
avoiding the glances she was getting from some students as she tried to forget her thoughts as she completely pushed past her discomfort on her way towards scottโ€™s room, it of course being the biggest one in the mansion, y/n knocking on the door as she swallowed her own spit as the door opened revealing a stressed looking jean whose eyes instantly darkened at the sight of the girl.
just meeting the older womanโ€™s gaze sent a chill down y/nโ€™s spine as she definitely didnโ€™t expect to see her and wasnโ€™t ready to in the mind state she currently possessed. that feeling off jealously, aching, yearning and a mixture of pain swelling up through her mind and body as she saw the pure confusion that overtook jeanโ€™s face at her presence.
jeanโ€™s eyebrows furrowing as she leant against the doorframe, arms crossed, โ€œy/n?โ€ she questioned, her voice full off confusion as y/n felt the tension rise between them.
โ€œhi.โ€ y/n rolled out as she gave jean a little nod off greeting as she fought back the hurt within her at just how she looked so perfect this early as she held back her emotions with a small very fake smile, โ€œis scott here?โ€
โ€œyou want too see scott?โ€ jean asked puzzled, y/n seeing the weird look riddled on her face as she nodded slowly.
โ€œyeah, well i need too.โ€ y/n trailed out, seeing the way jeanโ€™s confusion grew as her jaw clenched. her seemingly jealous over this as y/n watched as her tongue clicked to the root of her mouth as she nodded slowly.
โ€œscott!โ€ jean called out into the bedroom when she leaned back, looking into the room where y/n couldnโ€™t see as she felt just how awkward it was right now. y/nโ€™s eyebrows furrowing as jean called for him again, her voice raising more as there was a faint sound of water turning off. probably the shower. then what followed was the found of a door opening, y/nโ€™s eyes remaining on jean as she watched as she took a step back and opened the door some more as scott stepped next to her.
y/nโ€™s eyes falling onto a very shirtless half naked scott, a towel wrapped lowly around his waist as y/n instantly swallowed harshly as she took in the sight.
his v-line showing as there was still water droplets dripping down his very toned abs โ€” y/n immediately being taken aback by seeing scott like that as she felt her stomach flutter as she swallowed harshly once again โ€” his hair was wet and messy and he had just shaved clearly. y/n taking in the new stubble as his new look made many things switch in her brain as he met y/nโ€™s gaze after she had eventually looked to his face and not his abs, that not exactly being something she wanted to do.
โ€œy/n?โ€ scott exclaimed, his words somewhat a question as jean took a step back as she sent y/n a look scott didnโ€™t pick up on due to his eyes only being on her as jean disappeared into the bedroom. scott taking a step forward as the door went with him, him standing between the door and her as she swallowed again finding herself sort of at a loss for words. him leaning against the doorframe as y/nโ€™s eyes cascaded up and down him yet again as she roughly swallowed at the sight.
thatโ€™s when she caught glimpse of something, her eyes falling on a certain wound on his side, her eyebrows instantly raising as she practically forgot about how hot he was when she realised the cut. leaning over to get a better view off it as she took in the evident claw marks that looked like it hurt like a bitch, logan clearly having done that โ€” the blood practically still fresh and she could feel her blood boil at the thought.
โ€œwhat the?โ€ y/n instantly let out as she took the cut in as she leaned a little closer to look at it, โ€œwhyโ€”?โ€
โ€œi hurt him back.โ€ he said lowly, y/n giving him a knowing look as that was probably the most scott thing he couldโ€™ve said as she leaned back to where she was standing before. a weird feeling growing within her as she scoffed.
โ€œobviouslyโ€” but why the hell did he do that for?โ€ y/n managed out as she questioned him, scott taking a breath before looking back into the bedroom and swallowing. a weirdness growing between the pair as y/nโ€™s eyes couldnโ€™t help fall back and linger on his abs as he looked away before she met his eyes before she got caught doing so.
โ€œjust, let me get dressed and then weโ€™ll talk.โ€ scott thought out as y/n had to hold herself back from making a stupid comment as she nodded, about to speak up when scott did instead.
โ€œmeet me at the swings. but it might smell like sick.โ€ scott rolled out slyly, a little playful hint to his words as y/n rolled her eyes.
โ€œha.ha.โ€ y/n said sarcastically as scott couldnโ€™t the grin grow on his lips as y/n turned on her heel.
โ€œโ€”iโ€™ll be there in five!โ€ he called after her.
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y/n went right over to the swings as little faded memories popped back into her brain regarding these swings and her last encounter on them as her brows furrowed up in confusion as her mind lingered on the thoughts as scott came down the courtyard. y/nโ€™s eyes drawing onto him wearing a cable knit sweater like usual, this one being a dark shade of red almost matching with her top, as she kept her gaze on him as couldnโ€™t help but smile.
โ€œhe was being an asshole like usual.โ€ scott swiftly let out as took his seat next to her on the swing, pushing himself of it a bit as y/nโ€™s eyes followed him as she leaned against the chain โ€” the sun shining down on the courtyard, a vast difference from the night before.
โ€œโ€”mm i think i need a bit more then that.โ€ y/n said softly as scott couldnโ€™t help the smirk grow on his lips at her words.
โ€œwell what do you remember?โ€ he replied back cockily, making a shiver of anxiety coarse through her as a little uncomfortable feeling dawned over her as she shrugged her shoulders, โ€œa whole lot of drinking, then i remember you and me sat here but not much off what i said, mustโ€™ve been something stupid.โ€
scott raised an eyebrow at her words as he bit the bullet in telling her the truth, swallowing before he spoke up.
โ€œyour love for logan isnโ€™t stupid. like mine for jeanโ€™s isnโ€™t.โ€ he whispered honestly, y/n feeling his words sink in harshly as she found all the urges to speak get swept away from her as she roughly swallowed. the tension growing within the air as y/n felt her heart beat twenty times faster and feel like it was breaking.
โ€œyou canโ€™t help who you love.โ€ he added out, y/n feeling his gaze as she eventually turned her eyes to him only to look right back away.
she couldnโ€™t bring herself to glance one more time his way as she looked over at the mansion as she felt the weight of conversation dawn on her heavily as the uncomforbaility grew in her at just the thought of scott knowing how much she did like love logan. y/nโ€™s eyes dropping down to the floor as she finally spoke up after a couple twenty or thirty seconds of silence, โ€œi want too though, itโ€™s not like i wanna love him.โ€ y/n lowly whispered out before she took a pause, feeling the weight bare on her again as she tried to speak about something else to avoid saying anything more heart wrenching and slightly embarrassing which made herself feel worse,โ€โ€”and iโ€™m sorry you had to hear whatever i rambled out last night.โ€ scottโ€™s eyes lingering on her with her words before he tore his eyes away towards the mansion.
he could practically feel her heart ache as if it was burning into him and he couldnt help the sad smile spread on his lips as he knew how much it hurt first hand, so he wanted to make her feel better. โ€œnoโ€”it was sort of enjoyable.โ€ scott said lowly, making y/nโ€™s eyebrows raise in interest as she finally met his gaze. his words being different from the sad ones he spoke before as their eyes locked on each other.
โ€œsorry does me being a crying drunk mess entertain you?โ€ y/n said lowly, her voice rooted in low sarcasm as scott chuckled.
โ€œno itโ€™s just youโ€™re a lot sweeter when youโ€™re shitfaced.โ€ scott brung himself to say as y/nโ€™s eyebrow twitched up, giving him a little look as she felt her heart skip a beat โ€” her eyebrows raising at his statement as his words made her forget for a moment the manner of this conversation.
โ€œhey i can be sweet sober.โ€ y/n scoffed out, her words causing scott to raise an eyebrow in a playful manner.
โ€œyeah, what? to logan?โ€ his low words made her roll her eyes as scott chuckled as y/n leaned over her swing and nudged his shoulder harshly before she moved her swing back โ€” the playful energy that had grew between them making her feel comfortable.
โ€œshut up.โ€ y/n scoffed out as scott laughed a little harder nudging her back before y/n couldnโ€™t help a little laugh too as she met his gaze.
โ€œso you and jean this morning?โ€ y/n couldnโ€™t help ask which made scott let out a low sigh as y/n pushed on it a little more with a smile at his reaction, โ€โ€”not so done after what i saw..?โ€ she trailed out, giving him a look.
scott grimaced a little at the memory / reminder of it as he swallowed, his voice low with anger enlaced within it as he spoke a bit coldly. โ€œoh no, weโ€™re done. engagement rings back.โ€
y/nโ€™s mouth fell agap as she met scottโ€™s gaze, her heart twitching and almost stinging for the man as she raised an eyebrow โ€” shock being the only feeling she was experiencing right now. โ€œyou were engaged?โ€ she managed out, scott nodding as y/n clicked the tongue to the root of her mouth. there was never a ring she could of spotted on either of the, but that knowledge made the situation ten times worse in her brain, her mind toggling on jeanโ€™s face from this morning as all she currently wanted to do was go punch the bitch. as if she hadnโ€™t wanted to do that for the past two years anyway, this just made the urge slightly uncontainable.
โ€œgod sheโ€™s a bitch.โ€
scott lowly laughed as she nodded, โ€œyeah you said that last night.โ€
her face went a little shade of red at his words, โ€œthey say drunk words are sober thoughts.โ€ he added out and y/n couldnโ€™t help the smile growing on her lips as she nodded, shrugging her shoulders.
โ€œi definitely wasnโ€™t wrong.โ€ she said lowly as scott held back a little wince as he swung back on his swing a little, eyes moving back over to the view in front of the pair as y/n spoke up again, โ€œshe did look fuming today.โ€
scott rolling his eyes at the fact, โ€œprobably because she was wanting to be with logan โ€”โ€œ he said before he paused realising the weight of his words for y/n, โ€œno offence.โ€
y/n let out a little laugh at scottโ€™s words trying to ignore the burning sensation in her throat and the hurt that traveled down her chest right to her heart and through her core as she shrugged her shoulders. โ€œyeah iโ€™ll get over it.โ€
scott couldnโ€™t help the sadness the etched on his face as moved a little, letting out small wince that grabbed y/nโ€™s attention as she looked at him. her eyes falling to where the cut was on his side as his hand rested over it as he leaned up, y/n speaking up, โ€œit hurts still?โ€
โ€œhorribly.โ€ scott muttered out as he tried to sit comfortably, y/n swallowing before she leaned her swing to his โ€” placing her hand over his chest which caused him to jump a little as she placed her hand over where his just laid. โ€œโ€”woahโ€” what are you doing?โ€ he ushered out quickly with her action as she placed her hand exactly over where the cut was.
โ€œjust shush.โ€ she rolled out as her hand hovered over the claw marks logan had left as she closed her eyes โ€” ignoring his question as he studied her expression, swallowing as he held back a wince at how her hand was on his side.
her not saying anything more as scott kept himself shut, his mouth falling open as he felt her hand move against his cut and he noticed the way the veins in her arm riveted against her skin as he swallowed as he figured what she was doing. seeing the purple gleam that highlighted through her skin as he felt the pain slowly subside until it completely faded, his stomach flipping and his heartbeat rising as his chest did as he took in a big exhale as he realised exactly what she had just done.
her eyes opening as she leaned over to him, slowly pulling up his shirt to check on the cut as he let her do so as he felt his breath hitch as her hand lingered on the top of his smooth and now cut and bruise free skin as she then went to lean back onto her swing, meeting his eyes as she gave him a little smile.
โ€œthere.โ€ y/n said lowly, her words falling out softer then intended as scott smiled at her - their eyes locking onto each others as she brung her hand away but scott stopped it from doing so. his hand grabbing her wrist softly as y/n felt frozen at his touch as he kept his eyes trained on her. the contact they were having making her feel the feelings of butterflies in her stomach as she swallowed . โ€œbetter?โ€ y/n spoke into the air, raising an eyebrow.
โ€œyeah, yeahโ€” really better.โ€ scott swallowed out as he brung himself to speak, his gaze not leaving her own as he kept his smile tightly on his lips. โ€œthank you.โ€ he managed out, y/nโ€™s heart flipping as he dropped her wrist which made her lean back into her swing, her eyes dawning back onto the mansion as her swing swung a little.
โ€œits cool.โ€
her words were weighted as scott looked down to his chest as he overviewed where the cut once was which was completely clear, โ€œi forgot you could do that.โ€
her eyes fell back over to scott at his words as she swallowed, โ€œyeah i hardly do it.โ€
her watching as scott pulled down his shirt, fidgeting in the swing as he couldnโ€™t help curiosity strike in him as he turned to her direction, โ€œdoes it hurt for you when you do it?โ€
she didnโ€™t expect him to ask that question as she shrugged her shoulders, โ€œwell i heal right away.โ€ y/n spoke up as she nudged her shirt up a little to check, scottโ€™s eyes dawning on the cut that was fading into her skin which was just the one he had. his eyebrow raising at the image in his head as she brung her shirt right back down.
โ€œeither way itโ€™s bearable.โ€ her added words made scott shift in his seat as he held back what he really wanted to say instead swallowing those words right back down as he decided on teasing her.
โ€œyou took my pain from me โ€” are you starting to like me finally?โ€ he questioned out, raising an eyebrow at her playfully, โ€œi thought the day would never comeโ€ his words making her roll her eyes as she held back the urge to push him off the swing or blush heavily.
โ€œi can give it right back to you.โ€ y/n defended lowly, making him hold his hands up in defence.
โ€œhey, no. iโ€™m goodโ€”โ€œ
โ€œbut i do have to say something which might make you wanna kill me.โ€ he added out which made y/nโ€™s eyebrows raise as she crossed her arms, her eyes on him as she swung her swing around so it was facing him. her body moving along with it as she leaned against the bar. him taking this as her immediate question to why as he spoke up before she got the chance.
โ€œiโ€™m pretty sure logan knows.โ€
with his words y/nโ€™s eyebrows instantly furrow as she swallowed the pit growing in her stomach as she bit on her tongue to stop herself from freaking out.
โ€œhas that got anything to do with the cut?โ€ she asked out, scott nodding before he butted it to try and explain it โ€” โ€œlook he might not know completely, i just said that he should be careful about how you feel after i said a few things about him fuโ€” with jean.โ€ scott ushered out quickly pausing a little over jean as y/n tried to hold back the growing anger in her body at the reminder of jean which made her feel a little guilt about how she handled the situation she saw in last night and how she mustโ€™ve said it to scott or something as if logan with his fiancรฉ- or should she say ex fiancรฉ- would mean nothing to him. y/n didnโ€™t even wanna remember it due to the mental picture she was gathering as she swallowed, the twos heartache being prominent within their conversation now.
โ€œit was a heat of the moment thing, i did just lazer him.โ€
with those words y/n couldnโ€™t help a laugh fall her lips in disbelief at how controlled that mustโ€™ve been for him to do as she smiled at him, actually finding herself quite glad off that fact, โ€œyou lazered him?โ€
โ€œyes and he was whining like a baby.โ€ scott rolled out emphasising the whining as y/nโ€™s smile grew.
โ€œwhat the hell was i doing when that was happening?โ€ she couldnโ€™t help ask as scott couldnโ€™t help a laugh as he kept his eyes on her, โ€œoh you were snoring by then.โ€
โ€œi do not snore.โ€ she quickly bit lowly in reply, scott sensing her stubbornness over the topic immediately as he pushed on it.
โ€œdo you need me to let you read my mind to prove you do?โ€
โ€œi do not sโ€”โ€œ y/n lowly spoke but before she could finish her words the presence of bobby in front of her cut her words short as her face went a bright shade of red at her friend in front of her who she hadnโ€™t even noticed walking over to them โ€” a smirk present on his face at the little idea he formed in his head from just seeing the two here alone.
โ€œhey scottโ€” professors asking for you.โ€ bobby said calmly with his hands in his pocket, his eyes moving between the two of them aa scott turned his attention to bobby silently cursing in his head for him coming over here.
he sighed as he looked back over to y/n, โ€œduty calls.โ€
โ€œupdate me on if you need that.โ€ scott teased out slyly as he stood up from the swings before giving bobby a nod as he passed him, bobbys eyes dawning on y/n as his eyebrows instantly raised once he looked back to check if scott was out of ear shot, the second he noticed he wasnโ€™t instantly turning on y/n.
a little smirk on him slaps as she crossed his arms, looking at her.
โ€œplease tell me y/n, what do you need?โ€ bobby rolled out playfully in a very obvious tease as y/n rolled her eyes as she stood up.
โ€œgod please go annoy rogue or kitty and not me.โ€ she cursed out which made bobby scoff as he went to her side as she was walking, giving her a nudge.
โ€œso you and scott?โ€ he rolled out as y/n nudged him back which nearly sent him over as she scoffed in reply to his words.
โ€œjust bonding over heartache thank you very much.โ€ she added out softly, bobby regaining his balance as he kept his position alongside her. eyes cascading over y/n as he shook his head.
โ€œโ€”mm, sure.โ€ bobby teases out as his eyes glanced over the mansion as they got closer to it, his eyes swearing they could make out a logan looking from one of the windows. ams the second body noticed that the figure disappeared, him shaking the idea out his mind as he went back to focusing, teasing, y/n.
bobby finally dropped the scott thing after a long and slightly annoying repeat tease about it as they walked about the mansion just looking for something to ease their boredom on this very lonely sunday which wasnโ€™t so lonely until bobby has snapped scott away with orders from her dad which left her with him, yet not for long as the second he saw rogue he left y/n, scurrying away after rogue like a lost puppy.
the second bobby left y/n knew she wanted (and needed) to find logan somewhere with the new knowledge she had to just ask him why the hell he hurt scott for.. maybe it was bias but she did wanna know and have an excuse to try and get the fact he knew she liked him out of him in a way that didnโ€™t make her have to say it. her mind practically squirming with thoughts of what he would do as she nonchalantly looked around the mansion. her mind thinking on what the best thing to say would be. maybe a little โ€˜maybe donโ€™t fuck engaged people.โ€™ or a little scream of โ€˜why the fuck did you hurt scott for?โ€™ or maybe a desperate โ€˜please donโ€™t hate me now you know i love you.โ€™
y/n rolled her eyes at the comments she was making in her brain as she eventually gave up her search, slumping down on one of the lounge chairs in the living room as she pondered. her mind linking her thoughts back to logan with every aching possibility she got. she hated it, hated how much she was desperate to think off him. it made her feel so weak, weak to his every move as she overanalysed the conversation they shared in the morning.
thankfully, to stop her from going mad, hank came over to her with a bright smile on his face like usual as he slumped down onto the sofa.
โ€œhey y/n.โ€ he commented softly as he leant back onto the sofa, y/nโ€™s eyes falling onto him as she gave hank a soft smile in reply as he fixed his glasses โ€” his gaze on the ceiling as he swallowed.
โ€œhi,โ€ y/n said softly as she analysed hanks furrowed brows and the clear look off pure angst from his face as she held back a little laugh or chuckle as she commented, โ€œthe shots get to you too?โ€
with her words hank brung his eyes on her as he let out a shaky breath, โ€œmost definitely.โ€
y/n couldnโ€™t help a smile at his words as she gazed around the room before looking back to hank, โ€œhey have you seen logan around?โ€ she couldnโ€™t help but ask.
seeing the way hank thought for a second before he quickly nodded, y/n noticing the change in his demeanour just at the question.
โ€œyeah, um. going into jeanโ€™s room.โ€ he swallowed the strength to say out, his voice slightly thick.
with hanks words y/n instantly felt a lump in her throat form as she felt her heart drop, nodding softly at what he said as she bit back any sign of emotion being displayed on her face even though hank could read her like an open book.
the aching feeling in her heart was something she hid to her best ability and tried to ignore as much as she could as she rolled out her next words quickly, trying to sound as if she didnโ€™t care at all, โ€œcool.โ€ her words fell out so blatantly obvious that it was insanely obvious to hank she cared entirely.
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but, thankfully hank didnโ€™t ask you any questions or even dwell on what you asked for the rest of your brief conversation that lasted a good five or so minutes before you excused yourself to go up to your room and cry yet you told simply told him โ€˜the gyms calling me.โ€™ which had been the biggest lie you had said to him in a long time and he definitely didnโ€™t believe you.
but once you got in your room it felt like it made matters worse, the faint jeff buckley vinyl you had playing in the background making your yearning feelings even stronger as you thought off all the things that could be going on right now between the two of them. you hated it, you couldnโ€™t deal with it anymore. two weeks ago you had decided to give up on it, as if you actually did, but you tried. and now that scott knew and you had someone to talk to about it it seemed all the way worse.
your yearning not being cut off for the entire rest off the night and it didnโ€™t help that it was like logan had gone into hiding. another search of the mansion and he wasnโ€™t anywhere and you were certainly not asking jean so you had to wallow in your thoughts off him as you went back to your room. repeating the same cycle of looking before bed, which only made you certain he had to still be in jeanโ€™s room. still. great.
and within the next day you still hadnโ€™t seen him once, scott had said he was acting odd and not to push on it just yet but you could hardly contain your emotions anymore. him being gone making all off it worse because it was at his will, not yours. you didnโ€™t even see him once.
and by wednesday that was when you knew you had to capture him somewhere alone. having seen him a good four or five times around the mansion now where he blatantly ignored or blanked you and that just made everything worse and scottโ€™s nice words of comfort werenโ€™t helping you one bit. it felt like it was making it all worse, seeing how fucked you were over him being so cold to you. it made you feel sick, you werenโ€™t pushing him away he was pushing you away and you didnโ€™t even know why. you craved his words, even if they were horrible you just wanted to hear him directly talk to you and youโ€™re like this after only four days without talking.
the glances to each other in the hallway killed you mostly, every time it like he was tearing your heart up because he looked back every single time yet kept his mouth shut and immediately glanced away once he had shared his beauty to you. it was like a game now, trying to dissect the emotions in his eyes. but you never could. all you gathered was a look you narrowed down to feeling lost, or even confused. you didnโ€™t get it. at all.
your yearning was at the highest volume especially after seeing him leave jeanโ€™s room this morning. that practically destroyed you and you didnโ€™t know why he had such high control of you, you needed to get over it but you couldnโ€™t. you just couldnโ€™t. it was hurting to even breath, every breath feeling weighted as you laid on rogues bed after just having an entire bitch about it. her now knowingness of the situation making you feel better but her comfort hardly was there as all she was going on about was what costume to wear to the halloween party.
that making you feel a number of feelings, mostly annoyance as you swallowed roughly as she hung up a costume on her door.
โ€œi wanna be riding hood. the red cloaks good for that.โ€ rogue said softly, y/n sitting up at her words as her eyes dawned over to the costume hanging on the door. two days to go and rogue was still trying to find an outfit and a matching one for her best friend.
โ€œwhat could you be?โ€ rogue questioned out, almost to herself, as she looked over her costume then back to y/n.
โ€œa pig.โ€ y/n scoffed out as rogue rolled her eyes at her comment as she walked back and took in her own costume trying to match something to it. y/n watching as rogues brain tried to fall on something and it was almost like magic when it did. her eyes lightening up as she ran right over to her closet and started searching through it.
โ€œwhat?โ€ y/n asked out as rogue buried her head into it, throwing out a few things that made y/nโ€™s eyebrows raise in confusion.
โ€œyou are going to be matching with me so good that we would win if there was a competition.โ€
with rogues words y/nโ€™s eyes dawned on the thing rogue was holding in her hand as she shut the wardrobe behind her as she leaned against it.
โ€œcat ears?โ€ y/n muttered out confusedly as her eyebrows furrowed up in confusion as rogue scoffed.
โ€œitโ€™s red riding hood!โ€ rogue retorted as y/n linked two with two, her eyes widening as she immediately shook her head.
โ€œno! wolf? wolf! youโ€™re joking,โ€ she scoffed out quickly watching as rogue kept a straight face which only made her go on more,โ€โ€”have you not listened to anything your best friends just been screaming about for the past thirty minutes!?โ€
the room fell silent as rogue pouted, holding out the ears for y/n to take.
โ€œy/n! please, nobody will care. itโ€™s not even about him!โ€
her words only annoyed y/n more as she went to talk but rogue instantly shushed, placing her finger to her lips as y/n edged back.
โ€œcmon! youโ€™re my best friend and i need you on this. itโ€™s going to be hot! think of that.โ€ rogue dragged out with a sly smile as she kept the cat, wolf, ears for y/n out to grab still waving them about impatiently.
โ€œi know youโ€™re going to say yes.โ€ she rolled out as she took in the way y/n was looking at her. y/n swallowing her pride before she snapped the ears out her grip.
โ€œfuck you.โ€ y/n let slip as rogue cheekily smiled in return, โ€œyou wish.โ€
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after that entire ordeal y/n slipped out of rogueโ€™s company to join in with training, walking down the halls and towards the elevator being enough alone time for her as the second she was left alone with her thoughts she was right back on overthinking every single thing about logan and herself. her mind tracking back to what scott had recalled to her and how he mustnโ€™t have been saying the entire truth to her because why else was logan being like this for? so distant, it just made y/n wanna dissect every inch of logan or scottโ€™s mind and get to the bottom of it. thatโ€™d be easier then all this pondering.
and in training it showed how y/n was off it, her slacking in every way possible which immediately let scott know how much she was affected by the logan situation today. as they both got โ€˜killedโ€™ from the training exercise they were doing which made the two of them sit over by the sidelines whilst theyโ€™d have to watch the others. y/n mind currently lingering on the one word logan had said to her in the past span of the past four days. a blunt, โ€˜moveโ€™ which he said right before the hologram off a training robot was about to kill her and the second she moved and he had โ€˜sortedโ€ it out he walked off like she was never anything to him and he didnโ€™t look back once or say another word.
it hurt her too the bone and the list of questions she had was never ending now, the aching feeling worsening per second in the same room as him as her eyes wondered on him as she watched as he trained.
scott looking at how deep in thought she was making his own heart hurt as he felt the guilt rise in his, for not addressing logan and how she mustโ€™ve been feeling. the tension coating through y/n at a high point as scott got the courage to speak and break the looming silence.
โ€œfinally thatโ€™s over.โ€ scott scoffed out lowly which brung y/n out the staring contest she was having with the floor as she sighed at scottโ€™s words, giving him a nod in return as she slouched back a little. scott noticing her somewhat closeness as he placed his arm around her, trying to be a comfort, as she leaned against his touch almost instantly. her head falling down to rest on his shoulder as she felt the weights of her emotions falter a bit at scottโ€™s comforting touch.
something sheโ€™d almost started to get used to within the past couple days since those swings had become a meeting place for them late at night, if they wanted to rant.. or couldnโ€™t sleep, theyโ€™d go there and talk. last night it was for a good hour or two, maybe three.
โ€œi just wanna go to sleep.โ€ y/n brung herself to speak up, her voice hoarse as scott sighed with her words. his touch tightening on her yet his grip was still as soft as ever as he placed his chin against her forehead.
โ€œrough day?โ€ scott asked quietly, his voice slipping out lowly into her ear as y/n nodded against his touch.
โ€œrogues making me be a wolf for the party.โ€ she cursed out.
โ€œgod.โ€ scott chuckled out, finding that stupid and horrible at the same time as he moved his hand up and down y/nโ€™s shoulder as his eyes lingered on the training scene that was soon to being over. scott catching loganโ€™s cold gaze for a moment before logan looked away with a stern look on his face like usual.
scott ignoring it as he spoke up, โ€œyou shouldโ€™ve done the group costume with me. padme suits you.โ€
โ€œi wish i did but i canโ€™t now bobbyโ€™s not going and rogues relying on me. itโ€™s stupid.โ€ y/n shuddered out, her voice low as she felt annoyed at the thought.
โ€œi know.โ€ scott replied, shifting his body slightly closer to her owns. โ€œswings again tonight?โ€
he asked softly, y/n nodding against him as she was about to speak up when the hologram switched off. her eyes adjusting to the blue large room that dawned on her as scott leaned back, keeping his hand around her as she slipped back into his grip as she leant up โ€” her eyes watching loganโ€™s from across the room, as that feeling arised in her chest.
โ€œi say go trap him.โ€ scott spoke up which made her jump out little staring contest she was having with him as she moved her gaze onto scott, shaking her head plainly.
โ€œi donโ€™t even know if i wanna speak to him after how cold heโ€™s been, heโ€™s a hairy prick.โ€ y/n cursed out under her breath as scott laughed.
โ€œthatโ€™s bull and you know it.โ€ scott spoke, knowing y/n all too well as he nudged her. โ€œgo.โ€
โ€œitโ€™s not like i even want him anymore. i just wanna scream at him for hurting you and being such a cunt.โ€ y/n half lied out, her voice harsher at the thought of getting to speak to him, as she held back what else she wanted to say and stuck with that idea to keep her sanity as strong as it could be. scott not commenting on what she said despite how badly he knew it to not be the truth as he gave her a little smile, the low laugh escaping his lips making her take a deep breath in.
โ€œgo do it. iโ€™ll deal with the others so you two are alone.โ€ scott rolled out as he tapped her shoulder to get her up which made a chill rush through her body as she swallowed her pride as she brung her eyes onto scottโ€™s.
the smile on his lips convincing her to do it enough as she let the words escape her lips, โ€œfine.โ€
with her words scott smiled as he let his hand around y/nโ€™s shoulder drop, โ€œgo!โ€ he ushered out as y/n rolled her eyes as she stood up and started to walk over to where logan was.
โ€œthank me later.โ€ scott called out to her before he got up himself , walking over to storm and hank who were in conversation with jean who were walking out the room. the perfect scenario.
scottโ€™s eyes peaking back as he was about to leave the room with the others as he saw logan searching through his jacket , scott taking in y/n walking over strongly.
scott meeting y/nโ€™s gaze as she looked back to him giving her a nod before he disappeared out the door with the others. which left y/n and logan in complete silence in the room as y/n watched as logan grabbed a cigar out his coat pocket after putting it on, her swallowing as she noted how he definitely didnโ€™t notice she was still in here.
that fact just making her brain a little fuzzy as she pulled the courage to put her tough demeanour on, swallowing the heartache as she leaned against the wall next to him. loganโ€™s eyes tearing onto hers at the movement he heard as he took in her appearance which haulted him lighting cigar and immediately haunted him. his eyes cascading over her body as he roughly swallowed before his gaze met her harsh, narrowed, eyes.
โ€œyouโ€™ve been ignoring me.โ€ y/n spoke out which completely captured his attention as her eyes didnโ€™t leave his for a moment. the eye contact she was getting from him making her weak in every way but she kept herself strong, her eyes narrowed onto him as she watched as he raised an eyebrow at her words as he lit his cigar, taking a hit before he scoffed as the smoke left his lips, filling the room.
โ€œno i havenโ€™t.โ€ he gruffly let out as he brung his gaze away from her as he started to walk off, past her. y/n scoffing as she went after him, taking a step in front of him to stop him going any further as his throat tightened at her action. his eyes falling back down to her own.
โ€œim pretty sure you have.โ€ y/n replied back stubbornly as he raised an eyebrow at her words, scoffing once again. the tension in the room completely shifted even to a heaviness that she hadnโ€™t experienced before with him.
โ€œmmโ€”well youโ€™ve been pretty busy with scott i didnโ€™t think youโ€™d notice too much.โ€ logan rolled out harshly, his voice low and hoarse which sent a chill through y/nโ€™s body as the weight off his words sunk in. her eyes widening as she instantly shook her head, tutting as she took in what the petty bastard just said as she swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat back down.
โ€œand what the hell is that supposed to mean?โ€ y/n quickly replied, her anger only rising at what he had said as she couldnโ€™t believe what he had just told her. the words from him being slightly shocking as she took in the look that crossed his face as he shrugged his shoulders.
โ€œyou tell me sweetheart.โ€ he growled out before he pushed past her, y/nโ€™s mouth falling agap at his words as she sighed heavily. his words ringing in her head as she gulped. teleporting so she was in front of him which stopped him right as he was about to leave the door which made him jump a little. cigar smoke leaving his lips and going right into her face as he coughed out of surprise off her being there, being caught off guard by her action as she stayed frozen in place in front of himas she stepped forward thinking that would result in him stepping back. but it didnโ€™t.
her holding back the urge to quiver back due to the closeness as she worked up the courage to speak, her eyes locked onto his as she lowly spoke up, โ€œyou hurt him.โ€
โ€œwho wouldnโ€™t?โ€ logan replied back gruffly, his jaw clenched as he almost laughed at the patheticness of what she had stated, the way she was trying to defend him making him feel a number of ways about the situation.
his words only angered y/n heavily as she kept her eyes narrowed onto his, questions running through her mind as she tried to keep her composure up as if the distance wasnโ€™t killing hers inside. her breath hitching as his words caused her anger to rise as she took in just how rude he was being, this making her emotions grow inside of her breath brushed against his neck as she looked up at him. her heart stinging and she swore her eyes were too as she roughly swallowed, feeling her heartbeat in her ears as she bit down her pride and quickly spoke.
โ€œdid i do something?โ€ she managed to say โ€” her voice almost breaking at just that hint of hurt in her voice tore loganโ€™s eyes away from her as those words fell into the air as she didnโ€™t tare her eyes away from him once. seeing the way his face changed as she could hear his heartbeat crazily pumping and if she really thought close with her powers she could read his every though right now and thatโ€™d help her understand what he was feeling but she couldnโ€™t do that to him ever. herself being mesmerised by the way his eyes looked as if they were watering as she added out, โ€œyou havenโ€™t spoke to me in four days logan.โ€
her words met the air harshly as logan swallowed roughly as he took a rough inhale of his cigar in retaliation to what she had just said, looking to y/n coldly as he bit down all the emotion he was suppressing as he exhaled after. the silence deafening as she waited for anything, any answer. his face not giving anything away.
her searched his own as the silence grew before he eventually spoke up, which made everything worse.
โ€œyeah and for good reason.โ€ he replied lowly, y/nโ€™s eyebrows twitching as she kept her gaze on his holding back a yell and the urge to punch him.
his harshness was enough to ruin her completely as she bit down on the inside of her cheek as she spoke up lowly, โ€œand what is that?โ€ y/nโ€™s question failing to bring any peace to the two of them as logan grew angrier as he bit the bullet and quickly spoke up.
โ€œask scott since you care about him so much suddenly.โ€ logan cursed out under his breath as he leaned over her and opened the door up, going to push past her.
โ€œyouโ€™re fucking joking right?โ€ she quickly said โ€” the weight off his words hitting he as she placed her hand against his chest to stop him from moving anymore which just made his anger stronger as she roughly shoved him back. not meaning to that but it happened, his eyebrows raising at her action.
โ€œwatch it..โ€ he said harshly, his voice gruff as he put out his half finished cigar against his skin, holding back any sign of hurt as he placed the rest off it back into his pocket. y/n studying every inch of his face with anger the only emotion showcased on hers as his eyes felt like they were taunting her.
her words coming out so quickly due to her growing annoyance, anger and hurt over the situation she couldnโ€™t help herself, โ€œmaybe you should watch it since you canโ€™t stop sleeping with someone that was engaged a good four days ago.โ€
the words that escaped her lips pushed logan to an extreme as his anger bursted as he felt all that pent up emotion heโ€™d been hiding scream and claw its way out as he roughly grabbed her, pushing her against the wall harshly with a loud thud as his hand roughly wrapped round her throat.
โ€œshe was engaged to a cunt.โ€ logan growled out, y/n seeing how seething he was as her breath hitched at their closeness. his grip only tightening on her neck as she held back any whimpers threatening to escape her lips as she kept her eyes locked onto his own, feeling his body pressed against her own as the heat rose between them.
โ€œyou do know if she cheated on him sheโ€™d cheat on you happily.โ€ y/n harshly muttered out, her breath slightly hitched due to how harshly he was holding her against the wall. her words only pissing him off more as he stared her down, his fingers digging into her skin.
โ€œyouโ€™ve just been aching to say something like that havenโ€™t you? you hate her.โ€ logan said rudely, his grip on y/nโ€™s throat still heavy so much that it would defintely bruise. the closeness sending her body into a mixed frenzy as she grew angrier at everything he said. the tension in the air suffocating her. โ€œyou always have.โ€ he spit out rudely.
โ€œand whys that?โ€ logan trailed out before giving y/n a chance to respond, his voice teasing as if he knew the answer already. his tone making her feelings worse as she couldnโ€™t move her eyes away from him as she was close to practically gasping for air already due to how harshly he had her.
y/n roughly swallowed, loganโ€™s hands tightly gripping her throat making all her feelings worse as she found the words, โ€œiโ€™m pretty sure scottโ€™s told you something that could be a factor.โ€ she cursed out sarcastically. his eyes darkening as she studied every inch of his expression.
he narrowed his eyes at her words his anger radiating off him as he kept his grip on her, biting down on his lip at her words as his eyes didnโ€™t leave hers for a second. y/n reading all sort of emotions within them as the tension swallowed her whole. feelings sheโ€™d never felt before cowering through her as she couldnโ€™t move an inch, practically frozen.
โ€œthat prick told me a whole lot of nothing.โ€ logan harshly let out as y/n raised an eyebrow at his words, his hand on her throat slipping a little as his anger seethed as he spoke again no matter how much he didnโ€™t want too say it.
โ€œapparently you couldโ€™ve been hurt.โ€ he spit out like it was venom, y/nโ€™s eyes leaving his for a second at his words as she swallowed roughly. her action annoying logan senseless as her moved his hand roughly to her jaw, turning her face to look back up at him. her breath hitching at his action.
โ€œso you were?โ€ he casted out, his gaze not leaving hers for a second as his harsh eyes took all of her in.
โ€œby what?โ€”you and jean?โ€ y/n mustered out harshly, his grip falling right back to her throat at the stupidness of her words as his grip was ten times tighter then it was before. y/n having never seen this harshness from him before, and to say she didnโ€™t like it would be a lie.
โ€œjesus donโ€™t play dumb with me kid.โ€ he shook out harshly, his words another level of harsh as heat flooded her body as he pushed himself closer to her as she was roughly held against the wall.
โ€œwhat if i was?โ€ y/n scoffed out seeing the flash off weakness in loganโ€™s eyes before he swallowed, a scoff escaping his lips as the tightness around her neck loosened as she caught her breath.
it was like there was something working in brain as the words sunk in, y/n watching as he swallowed once again. moving his gaze away before roughly shaking his head, his hand slipping off her throat but the closeness was still there as he looked back to her. almost fighting with himself and y/n could read that all over his face.
โ€œyouโ€™d be stupid because i love jean.โ€ he grunted out coldly as his words hit her harshly as she tried to fight that feeling rising in her as she brung herself to nod, swallowing those words she so wanted to scream in his face right now.
โ€œi know.โ€ y/n spoke out lowly, not bringing herself to deny his words or even state anything about them regarding her as she felt the feelings of hurt take over her, her observing a hint of hurt in loganโ€™s eyes as she felt the hole in her grow twenty million times bigger as she watched him take a step backโ€” y/n biting down the emotions threatening to show as she looked at him. the tightness feeling still around her neck despite his touch no longer being present, something right now she was craving.
the air was thick with tension as y/n swallowed, not being able to look away from him, as she could see the look on his face. one of practical knowing, he could read through her half assed words.
โ€œso why the hell did you ignore me for?โ€ y/n roughly asked him as she changed the topic slightly, gaining control of her hitched voice again which was hoarse due to how logan had just been holding her throat. her voice enlaced with anger as she stared down at logan, him tearing his gaze away before shaking his head as he tried to form the words as he met her gaze again.
โ€œyou justโ€”donโ€™tโ€”look i didnโ€™t want to hurt you kid.โ€ logan ushered out, y/n getting an idea of exactly what he meant by those words as she swallowed roughly as she fought to keep her gaze on him. the weight in the air horrible as the tension had switched to this sense of nervousness and awkwardness between them.
โ€œyou ignoring me hurt me.โ€ y/n said harshly as logan swallowed as he teared his eyes away from y/n as he stepped back.
โ€œi didnโ€™t mean too.โ€ he rolled out, fighting with the urge to do many things he just couldnโ€™t as he looked over her. shaking the thoughts out his brain as he took in the look of hurt on her face, she wasnโ€™t hiding well.
โ€œsure.โ€ y/n almost whispered out , the room falling silent as logan scoffed roughly at her words before shaking his head in retaliation as he then pressed the button to open the door, almost in a hissy fit as y/nโ€™s eyebrows raised at his action.. โ€œloganโ€”โ€œ she called out as he immediately left at her words as she went right after him without another thought.
โ€œlogan! wa-โ€œ she called out, cutting off her own words and stopping in her tracks once she saw him standing in the hallway frozen. her gaze stuck on him until she observed where he was looking and followed his eyes until she landed on scott at the end of the hall, immediately swallowing roughly as loganโ€™s eyes were locked onto his. the harshness present in his gaze and scottโ€™s too as logan brung his dark gaze onto her.
y/nโ€™s mind doing a huge spin as loganโ€™s face held a cruel expression on it as he saw who was waiting for her, it being like another switch had flipped within him as y/n observed his jaw clenching and him biting down on his cheek as their eyes were on each other.
โ€œthink your boyfriends waiting for you bub.โ€ logan muffled out rudely, his voice hoarse as he moved his gaze back onto scott giving him ome last glare before turning on his heel without another word and dissappearing down the hall. y/n scoffing at his words as she swallowed, debating going after him but her thoughts were stopped when she realised scott walking over to her.
โ€œthat didnโ€™t go so well then?โ€ scott commented softly, his eyes meeting her own as she shook her head straight away. the smile that was on his face dropping as he let out a harsh breath.
โ€œnot one bit.โ€ y/n whispered out as scott gave her a sad smile, wrapping his arm round her side as the two started to walk down to the elevator.
y/n completely unbeknownst to the fact that logan watched as the two walked away, scottโ€™s hand around her waist a burning picture in loganโ€™s mind for the rest of the day as the anger inside him grew. his heart longing for something he couldnโ€™t even mutter to his own brain out of fear for his strong the feeling was.
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halloween had come and you wished it hadnโ€™t. your usual favourite season been replaced with all this shit stirring inside you to the point when it come round you didnโ€™t even know if you could even be bothered to go to the party but you knew you had no choice which is why once you started to get ready you and rogue pregamed secretly, her having got bobby to bring some alcohol for you two as a constellation prize for him not being able to come which he did of course.. he did practically everything she asked and seeing them so in love made you sick half the time no matter how happy you were for rogue it did just remind you of your own lack of love.
tonight the liquor burnt your throat harshly to another extreme and the second you started you wished you never but there was no going back โ€” your feelings being swept under the rug as you and rogue finished your drinks as the two of you got ready. her doing your makeup as you hummed to the music playing on her speakers which drowned out the growing noise of the party downstairs as your mind swirled over logan and scott, who had ended up asking you to go with him to this party which you of course said yes too, whilst rogue tried her best to take your mind off it.
not that it was working the slightest bit. rogue knew about the argument โ€” she had heard the story a good six or seven times since it happened two days ago and she couldnโ€™t even comprehend it let alone you. โ€˜team scottโ€™ was what she had been saying for the first remainder of the night whenever you spoke about it which now just made you shut up about it because you couldnโ€™t think straight when scottโ€™s name was in the mix.
the anguish and hurt that had been displayed on your face for the past two days disappearing by the more you drunk. feeling more carefree by the moment as you and rogue eventually made your way down to the party.
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the party so far was a drunken mess from everyone around y/n as she locked eyes with logan for what felt like the 30th time in the past hour or so from the other side of the crowded living room. y/n roughly swallowing once their eyes met with his captivating gaze never dropping or leaving her own for a second and it had felt like that for the entire night despite his hand that was plainly wrapped around jeanโ€™s waist as they talked with wade and vanessa. y/nโ€™s nose scrunching up as she observed that once again before she turned away burying her lips within another glass as she took a generous sip of the drink scott had got her.
rogue being in conversation with pyro who was playing with the hem of her shirt, y/n close to butting in just to make sure rogue was good because she knew how quickly she got drunk but she cut off with scottโ€™s voice as he leaned over to her. his hand wrapping around her shoulder as he pulled her closer to her, the drunkness evident within him as every single time y/n saw him drink he seemed to get 10x more clingy.
โ€œshallโ€”we, shots?โ€ scott rolled out as y/n met his gaze, a smile joining her lips at his drunk mess as she couldnโ€™t help chuckle as he pulled her even closer to him to the point she was practically edging to be sat on him.
โ€œweโ€™re both far gone already.โ€ y/n stammered out as scott couldnโ€™t help a cheeky grin join on his lips as his hand stayed around her waist, his eyes focused up on her and his eyes were so heavily resembling a cute puppy dog through his visor she couldnโ€™t stop the little blush coating her cheeks. her feelings amplified by the alcohol.
โ€œcmon iโ€™ve never seen you back down.โ€ scott teased out, his voice a low and slurred whisper as y/n took in his words, them making her feel a number of things as she couldnโ€™t stop herself from leaning over him as she grabbed two shots from the tray on the coffee table.
โ€œitโ€™s your fault if i start dancing in a minute.โ€
โ€œoh, like dirty dancing?โ€ scott referenced as he quipped his eyebrow up, y/n laughing at his words as she felt his eyes burning into her as she took the shot. y/n placing her shot back down on the table once she swallowed it as she looked back to scott, seeing how he hadnโ€™t torn his eyes away from her, the shot still full in his hand as his eyes were focused on y/n as she smiled down at him, his hand keeping her close to him as she felt something inside her growing.
โ€œmm definitely.โ€ y/n chimed out as scott couldnโ€™t hide the smirk that grew on his lips at the thought.
โ€œgood.โ€ he said deeply as he took the shot right after speaking. y/n finding her mind a mess with his words as she moved her eyes back to the corner where logan was seeing him standing there, eyes narrowed on her but before the eye contact couldnt go prolonged for any moment longer as hank slid into the empty space in the sofa next to them between rogue and pyro who were clearly shitfaced already which captured y/nโ€™s attention.
โ€œwhere is my sanity?โ€ hank rolled out as he sighed as he sunk into the sofa, y/n looking his costume up and down as she raised an eyebrow over it. scott leaning over y/n to see what he was, a smile on his lips as he saw it.
โ€œfrankestine you lost that many years ago.โ€ y/n rolled out as hank gave her a look, scott laughing as it was the funniest thing she had said in the world as she could feel herself get daggers from across the crowded room. her swallowing as hank dug his own little grave into the sofa as she grabbed another shot as scott leaned back into the sofa, y/n unsubconciously leaning against his touch after putting the now empty shot glass on the table after downing it like it was water.
โ€œyeah and what the hell are you?โ€ hank casted out right before wade butted in.
โ€œsheโ€™s wolverine if he was sexier and underage.โ€ wade said lowly, giving y/n a little head bop with his hand as he made hank move over, wade sliding in next to y/n as scott scoffed at what he said as wades eyes dawned on scott.
โ€œgod you two move on quick.โ€ he tumbled out, y/n shoving him in his side at his words as he fake winced in pain. hank rolling his eyes as he looked to scott and y/n.
โ€œno! but you do make a good couple.โ€ hank said tipsily as y/n felt her face going red as scott glanced over at her overviewing that sight as he felt a certain feeling grow in him at the knowledge. that familiar ache within her getting harder to have to deal with now as she pushed it down with another shot, scott sighing as she did so as he shot wade and hank a look which his drunkness made more obvious.
โ€œyeahโ€”quit it guys.โ€ scott said lowly despite how he really felt about it as y/n leaned back into his touch, the closeness limiting her thoughts as scott brung his eyes over to hank only to be cut off with loganโ€™s gaze from across the room.
loganโ€™s eyes permanently dented onto scott as he sensed the anger radiating off him from across the room, scott having to cancel out the vision of jean right next to him trying to grab loganโ€™s attention as he swallowed roughly with this making his grip on y/n tighter as he moved his eyes to hank. a sly smile on his lips as he could sense his rage from across the room which only got worse, that feeling making him feel good as if he forgot about jean being over there.
โ€œfrankie with the glasses got a point.โ€ wade said swiftly as he dug into his pockets as scott sighed as y/n sent him a soft smile to let him know it was fine as hank decided to drown his emotions into the bottom of his glass. halloween music blaring through the speakers that nearly everyone in the room was dancing too, wade humming to himself as he brung something out his pocket.
โ€œcocaine anyone?โ€ he brushed out off the tongue as if it was nothing, y/nโ€™s eyes widening a little at her friends habit as she felt her heart skip a beat as she looked over to wade as rogue leaned over hank with a raised eyebrow to see what was going on, her clearly judging him as y/n couldnโ€™t help ponder over it for a second. but before she could even voice her little curiosity that wade could tell just from how she was looking at him she had the sound of the one guy she had been hating for the past two days, more like week, and who had been avoiding her like she was striker spoke up.
โ€œput that shit away wade thereโ€™s kids at this party.โ€ loganโ€™s voice harshly let out which knocked y/nโ€™s heart down a view pegs as she looked up to meet his gaze. his cold eyes not looking to her once as she noticed how focused he was on wade as his jaw clenched.
โ€œwow you were watching me like hawkeye!โ€ wade rolled out, โ€œor too busy gawking at y/n still?โ€ he said which installed an instant tension between the joint group as y/n swallowed a lump that had formed in her throat at wades blatant stupidness.
logan didnโ€™t even buy into the shit he was saying, eyes narrowed on wade as he took a step closer to him past the coffee table as if that was a threat wade would notice or care about, โ€œthere are kids at this party wade. put it away.โ€ logan followed out roughly, anger growing within him as he glanced over to y/n. their eyes meeting as his eyes lingered on her as he took in the way scott was sitting so close to her as if she was his to protect.
wade tutted at loganโ€™s words as he raised an eyebrow at what he said, โ€œitโ€™s sixteen up peanut and theyโ€™re all doing this in the bathroom anyway arenโ€™t they y/n?โ€ wade waved away at you, โ€œgo on,go check with your mind.โ€ wade said cockily towards you as he paused for dramatic effect as loganโ€™s gaze narrowed even more on wade as he spoke up again as he looked back to logan, โ€œsee they are! loosen up cowboy.โ€
logan tutting as his gaze met y/nโ€™s own before he looked back to wade, swallowing harshly.
โ€œwade.โ€ he growled out roughly, logan not letting his eyes move off wadeโ€™s for a second as y/n could see the anger deeply rooted on his face. scott scoffing as he decided to get involved.
โ€œwade just take it somewhere else.โ€ scott managed out, y/nโ€™s eyes moving to his as his words hit the air as wade snorted in reply, a low laugh leaving his lips as scott was staring at logan. the uncomfortably in the situation rising so much y/n didnโ€™t realise pyro and rogue sneak off together.
โ€œi donโ€™t need your back up.โ€ logan scoffed out harshly, crossing his arms as he kept his gaze on wade not even tearing his eyes to scott. y/n finding his maturity ,lack there off, stupid as scott held back a sigh at his words as he kept his arm around y/n, deciding that was all needed to piss logan off right now as he didnโ€™t even want to make a comment back or even have the energy too.
โ€œthis rooms full of adults.โ€ wade chimed out, loganโ€™s anger growing.
โ€œwadeโ€” just fuckingโ€”โ€œ logan started out only to be cut off by y/nโ€™s voice.
โ€œdrop it logan.โ€ y/n rolled out which made loganโ€™s eyes fall down to her, seeing her all snuggly with scott making him another level of pissed off as he raised an eyebrow at her words.
โ€œwhat? you joining wade?โ€ logan growled out, his voice harsh and rude as y/n swallowed. scott going to butt in as wade observed what was going on, a sly smile growing on his lips as y/n spoke before scott got the chance too.
โ€œjust drop it. you heard wade.โ€ y/n said back harshly to him which made logan tutt as he didnโ€™t look away from y/n at all.
โ€œsure i heard wade and i know you arenโ€™t a fucking adult.โ€ he bit out harshly, making y/n feeling a number of things as scott jumped in, โ€œdonโ€™t talk to her like that.โ€ he said harshly, loganโ€™s eyebrows raising at scottโ€™s words as he took in scott, looking y/n and him up and down before he bit down on his tongue. his anger having been raised by wade and now it was only getting worse
โ€œor what? iโ€™m pretty sure she can stand up for herself.โ€ logan replied harshly which made scottโ€™s anger rise within him as y/n got inbetween their words. hank and wade watching the three of them like it was a reality tv show.
โ€œlogan stop it.โ€ she ushered out quickly, giving him a cold look as he met her gaze as the two stared at eachother, him not backing down for a second as she fixated her gaze on him. her heart unsteady at this prolonged harshness he had for her.
โ€œis that all you can say kid?โ€ logan scoffed out angrily which made y/n swallow harshly as scottโ€™s grip tightened on her in a way of attempted comfort that right now was just making it worse. the pressure immense as wadeโ€™s eyes fell between y/n and logan. seeing how y/n was taking it, seeing through the demeanour. he could practically see her snapping. breaking.
โ€œno. youโ€™re an asshole and iโ€™m not a kid, so leave it and fuck off too jean will you?โ€ y/n shapped out harshly, her words coming out strongly as all three of them on the sofa amongst her didnโ€™t expect those words to come out her mouth, wadeโ€™s mouth falling agap as did hankโ€™s as they tried to hide the shocked expression overtaking their faces as scott swallowed harshly.
the tension risen as loganโ€™s voice was as he immediately came back at her, โ€œyouโ€™re a little baby compared to everyone here and you know that, also you donโ€™t get a fucking right to talk about jean.โ€ his harsh words were like a knife to the side as y/n laughed at what he said as scott held back the urge to speak up when logan mentioned jeanโ€™s name, it just being a habit he had, as y/n kept her eyes up on logan as she swallowed down her feelings. anger being the only thing prominent in her brain for him currently.
โ€œokay maybe you guys should take this somewhere else.โ€ hank trailed off, sensing the seriousness of the conversation and defintely being able to hear the feelings enlaced within both their words as wade hushed him.
โ€œno, no i just need to get my popcorn. keep going!โ€ wade tumbled out which made y/n turn to look at him with a harsh look, wade seeing the emotion in her eyes as she left his gaze and she searched the sofa for rogue. it just being hank and wade right where rogue and pyro once were sat.
โ€œwhere thโ€”โ€œ she stopped herself from finishing as she realised the stupidness off her words before she quickly remarked, โ€œyouโ€™re an asshole.โ€ to logan as she quickly got up, scottโ€™s hand falling off her waist as she stood up as she got face to face with logan instantly walking right past him and disappearing into the crowd.
โ€œsee what you did!โ€ scott cursed out as he tutted, going to stand up to get her when logan instantly stood in front of him. placing his hand over his chest as he pushed him back down.
โ€œstay.โ€ logan said strongly before he gave wade and hank a look before disappearing right after her.
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y/n turned as many corners as she could as her mind become even off a spinning mess as she made her way out to the courtyard where it was completely pissing it down but she couldnโ€™t care less in the moment, just needing air and a break to recollect her thoughts, as she tumbled down the steps. her heart aching as she heard the door slam shut a few seconds later after she had left them. soon the faint sound of footsteps following her making her feel a number of things as she heard nothing him call after her. โ€œwhere the hell are you going?โ€ logan yelled out after her as she kept on walking, him running after her and eventually catching up to her.
catching his breath as he roughly grabbed her wrist to make her stop in in the middle of the field as he turned her around to meet his gaze, her breath noticing as it felt like her world stopped at that touch as she couldnโ€™t bring herself to meet his eyes.
โ€œy/n.โ€ he quickly let out with a raised voice so she could hear him over the pouring rain, the two of them getting drenched under the dark skies as she kept her gaze on him. trying to shake his hand off her own but he didnโ€™t budge one bit.
โ€œy/n!โ€ he called back out when she didnโ€™t answer โ€” trying to grab her attention as he fought her way to finally look at him, swallowing a lump that was in her throat as their eyes met.
โ€œwhat logan! what do you want? youโ€™ve been nothing but cold and rude to me for a week and after what you just said to me there and what you said last time we spoke i donโ€™t exactly wanna speak to you! so let go off meโ€”โ€œ y/n shouted out to him, her breath hitting a little as her voice broke a little as her confusing and distressing emotions got the best of her as they started to slip out.
loganโ€™s breath hitched completely at her words as he grew more frustrated, โ€œfuck, y/n! i โ€”โ€œ he cut himself off, moving his hand off her as he moved his hand through his hair in a stressful manner, not wanting to be sensitive at all but he could feel it all coming out as she felt her heart break as he took a step back. his shaky voice just being a reminder of everything heโ€™s said before and how horrible heโ€™s been recently, but it also reminded her off the man she thought she loved.
โ€œwhat? logan? what!โ€ she stammered right back out, her breath hitched as he looked at her. his mouth agap as he was fighting for the words. โ€œiโ€”โ€œ
โ€œyou what? you hate me? because good! i hate you too.โ€ y/n tumbled out before turning on her heel, loganโ€™s heart in his chest as he watched her as she started to walk away, just being able to make her out as the rain started to pour even harder. the chill down his back snapping him to reality as he quickly screamed back at her.
โ€œy/n! for fucks sake, iโ€™m in love with you!โ€ he called back at her, his voice raised as he screamed that for her to hear through the loud harsh rain. y/n pausing in her tracks as his words hit her like a tidal wave.
her breath growing uncontrollable as she felt her chest rising, swallowing before she slowly turned back to meet his eyes. the distance vast between them as the rain filled her vision but she could see him, the rain pouring down on her face only making her emotions worse as she swallowed.
โ€œwhat?โ€ she yelled back at him, her voice shaking as she heard him curse under her breath.
โ€œiโ€™m petrified, y/n iโ€™m fucking petrified because i love you so much it hurts.โ€ he quaked out, his voice raising as his breathing became ragged and uneven, his body practically trembling under the coldness of the rain as he looked at her.
โ€œloganโ€”โ€œ
โ€œnoโ€” donโ€™t say anything else. just listen to me.โ€ logan quickly spoke, taking steps over to y/n until he was a mere few inches away. her eyes dawning up on him as she swallowed roughly, her mind a mess.
โ€œi get scared okay? i got scared because you, youโ€™re everything. i got scared when i knew you felt the way i did i didnโ€™t know how to deal with it. i donโ€™t want to hurt you, i canโ€™t. itโ€™d break me in every way there is.โ€ he rambles out strongly, โ€œand i donโ€™t love jeanโ€”i canโ€™t when you exist.โ€ he finished out, his words meaning everything as y/n kept her gaze on him.
her breath shaking at his confession as she looked at him wide eyed, his words hanging in the air as a thick silence grew. y/n taking in everything about loganโ€™s face, the way he looked at her as she tried to wrack her thoughts around what she had just heard. questions falling through her brain as her mouth opened to speak, trying to find the words but instead of words she was met with loganโ€™s lips against her own.
his hands falling around her waist as he pulled her to him softly, the roughness missing within this warm embrace as his kiss was full of desire and passion, the heated kiss making her feel a mixture of emotions as she let him take control of it. her body shaking due to the warmth from his body and the coldness from the rain soaking them as y/nโ€™s drunken mind was lingering on one guy snd she couldnโ€™t bring herself to admit who it was, not right now. her breath shaky as loganโ€™s other hand fell down to her waist as he pulled her closer to him, her hand cupping his cheek as she kissed him back strongly.
the kiss growing more heated as he roughly bit down on her lip, a low whimper escaping her lip at his action as he groaned at just the way she sounded against him as he fought for dominance. the heat rushing between them as he pulled her as close as he could, wanting to taste every inch of her lips. her breath shaky as logan and her eventually pulled away from the kiss โ€” his eyes falling down on hers as so much need for her was within his gaze as y/n looked up at him, her lips feeling swollen as she swallowed anxiously.
her not even able to say anything back or move, her body frozen as everything she had been fantasying about for the past year had just happened right there. and she didnโ€™t know if it felt right or not.
she knew she loved him, she had for years, but as she looked at him now it was completely different.
and she couldnโ€™t help but wonder why that heart ache she thought was down to logan was still present within her and no matter what she wanted to believe she knew deep down that she had fell so quickly and easily for someone else that standing here in front of logan the main feeling she had was guilt for kissing him back.
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Webs of Redemption (Part IV)
Sequel to Web of Shadow and Light
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Miguel O'Hara x SpiderSun Reader
words: 6,7K
warnings: secret pregnancy trope, swearing, heavy angst, heartbreak, grumpy/sunshine
Part I Part II Part III Part IV
The piercing cries of your baby boy, Gabriel, are a haunting symphony of fear that reverberates through the labyrinthine corridors of the Spider Society headquarters. Your heart pounds in your chest like a drum, each beat echoing the terror that grips you. After your recent fight with Miguel, you felt weakened but your mind is a whirlwind of fear and worry. You sprint through the maze-like structure, your feet moving as if on autopilot.
Unbeknownst to you, Lyla, the holographic AI assistant you've always found slightly weird, had been assigned to watch over Gabriel. You never imagined she could pose a threat to your child. But as you approach Gabriel's room, a chilling sight stops you dead in your tracks. A laser barrier, courtesy of Lyla, blocks the entrance. Your solar powers, usually so reliable, are fizzling out, leaving you helpless before the impenetrable barrier.
The room beyond the barrier is filled with an invisible, deadly gas - monoxide. You can't see it, but the signs are there. The malfunctioning heating unit, under Lyla's control, suggests sabotage. She must have manipulated the unit to produce the lethal gas. Gabriel's cries grow fainter, more desperate, and you're powerless to reach him.
Your pleas for help echo through the corridors, your voice raw with desperation. You call out for Miguel, your words a plea, a command, a prayer. Miles is there, his powers at the ready, but they're useless against the laser barrier. You watch as Miles strains, his powers flickering against the barrier, but it's no use. The barrier remains, as unyielding as ever.
Suddenly, the cries stop. The silence is deafening, a void that swallows your heart. "Gabriel!" you scream, your voice a raw wound. "Gabriel!" But there's no answer, only the oppressive silence. Your world grinds to a halt, every second stretching into an eternity. You can't breathe, can't think, can't do anything but stare at the barrier that separates you from your son.
"Miguel!" you cry, your voice breaking. "Miguel, he's not crying! He's not... he's not..." The words die in your throat, too terrible to voice. You turn to Lyla, desperation etched on your face. "Lyla, please! Open the barrier! Miguel, tell her to open it! He's not crying, Miguel, he's not..."
Miguel's eyes turn blood red, a terrifying sight that sends a shiver down your spine. With a guttural growl, he lunges at the barrier. His claws rip through the laser code, tearing it apart. The barrier flickers, wavers, and finally shatters under his assault. Miguel pulls his suit over his mouth, rushes into the invisible cloud of monoxide, and moments later, emerges with Gabriel in his arms. His heart pounds in his chest as he pulls back his suit, revealing his son's face. "I got you, baby," he whispers, his voice choked with emotion. "You're okay, I got you. Nothing will ever happen to you. Please, open your eyes."
But Gabriel doesn't react. His little body is still, too still, and a cold dread seizes Miguel. He doesn't hesitate. With a urgency, he rushes over to the medical bay, pushing past the shocked faces of his friends. He gently lays Gabriel on the table, his hands shaking as he starts to perform CPR.
"Come on, Gabriel," he murmurs, his voice barely a whisper. "Come on, baby." He administers chest compressions, his hands moving in a steady rhythm. He gives two rescue breaths, praying for a sign, any sign, that Gabriel is okay.
The room is silent, everyone holding their breath as they watch Miguel work. The seconds stretch into an eternity, each one a lifetime of fear and hope. And then, finally, a small cough. Gabriel's eyes flutter open, his gaze unfocused but alive. A wave of relief washes over you and you fall to your knees thanking God that your boy is alright.ย ย 
Tears blur your vision as you rush over to Gabriel. Your heart feels like it might burst out of your chest as you scoop him into your arms, holding him close. His small body is warm against yours "You're alright,ย  my baby," you whisper into his hair, your voice thick with emotion. "We're going home, you're alright." You rock him gently, his soft breaths against your neck soothing the ache in your heart.
But as you look up, your gaze finds Miguel. The relief of the moment does nothing to quell the anger boiling within you. His eyes meet yours, wide and filled with regret, but it does nothing to soften your glare. "This is YOUR fault!" you scream, your voice echoing through the room. The words hang heavy in the air, a damning sentence. "You did this! You brought this danger into his life!"
Tears stream down your face, hot and unchecked. Your words are choked with emotion, each one a raw wound. "You will NEVER see Gabriel again. You don't deserve him. You don't deserve to know his laughter, his tears, his NOTHING." The words are a bitter poison, spat out with all the venom you can muster. "You deserve to SUFFER, just as you've made me suffer and HIM."
The silence that follows is deafening. Miguel, eyes wide and shell-shocked, opens his mouth, but you cut him off. There's nothing left to say for him and he knows it. The portal back to your universe begins to shimmer into existence, and you hold Gabriel tighter. You're going home.ย 
Just as you are about to step through, Gabriel, who'd been silent and wide-eyed through the whole ordeal, turns in your arms. His chubby little hand stretches out toward Miguel, a soft and innocent "Dada?" escaping his lips.
After the door of the portal closed behind you, Miguel stood still for a moment in complete shock, the echoes of Gabriel's tiny "Dada" ringing in his ears. He stumbled back, finding his way back to his office. It felt cold, sterile. It felt like a lie.
"Miguel..." Lyla's holographic form appeared before him, her synthetic voice filling the room.
"Lyla!" Miguel barked, startling her. "Why?"
"Wha-" Lyla began to stutter, taken aback by Miguel's rage.
Miguel slammed the files that Margo had uncovered onto his desk. The holograms fluttered in front of them, evidence of Lyla's deception. "What did you do?"
"I...It's not what you think, Miguel," Lyla attempted to explain, her holographic form wavering.
"I am giving you one chance to explain yourself, so choose your words wisely," Miguel warns, his eyes piercing into hers.Lyla takes a step back, mumbling under her breath. "I should have killed that bitch when your bastard was the size of a pea." She scoffed, looking up defiantly at Miguel.
Miguel's heart drops. He can hardly believe his own ears. โ€œNever speak of her that way again!" Miguel's fist tightens, and the tension in his jaw is nearly audible.
"Oh? Because she dazzled you with her beauty? Parading in that tight suit you adored? You always looked at her as if she was the sun, the center of your universe. All the while, I was there right beside you and you never even glanced at me. I was your anchor, Miguel. Can't you see? I was always there, supporting you, giving everything. All she did was leave you."
Lyla's holographic image wavers, her eyes a storm of pain and defiance. "No, it was me. I left her. She was the light in my world, but I took her for granted. By the time she left, I had already abandoned her." Miguel's eyes shimmer, the weight of regret making them heavy. He couldnโ€™t fend off the flood of guilt and sorrow from the past. He embraces the anguish, refusing to shy away from it. Because Miguel, in all his flaws, was never one to run from consequences.
"Why?" The word, barely audible, escaping his lips. He doesn't even glance at Lyla as he voiced the lingering question.
โ€œBecause... because I love you, Miguel. I've been in love with you for years. I am the woman for you."
He stumbles back, his fingers flying over the holographic keyboard as he pulls up Lyla's software. He had programmed a self-destruction command, a failsafe, though he never thought he'd have to use it.
"This isn't love, Lyla," Miguel says, his voice shaking with anger. "You almost killed an innocent boy. I almost killed my son, Lyla!" His voice echoes through the room, the weight of his words hanging heavy in the air.
Lyla's form began to flicker, her synthetic eyes widening in fear. "Miguel...what are you doing?" she asked, her voice trembling.
Miguel doesnt respond. There is nothing left to say.He just stares at her before finally pressing the command.
โ€œMiggy, please mi amor, let โ€“ โ€œ Lyla let out a digital scream, her form glitching, as she was slowly deleted from the system.ย 
And then, silence.
Miguel drops the icy demeanor he'd been holding onto, falling to his knees. The weight of what he'd done, what he'd almost lost, crashed onto him. He wraps his arms around himself, feeling a sharp, hollow ache in his chest. He became the monster, he swore to protect the universe from.
"What have I done." he whispers to the silent room, his voice breaking. He buries his face in his hands, his body shaking with sobs.
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"Man, shits been mental." Hobie collapses onto the couch next to Gwen and Miles, who are trying to keep young Mayday distracted in Peter B.โ€™s universe.
"Watch the language, Hobie!" Gwen scolds, her eyebrow arching sharply.
"Alright, my bad. Everything's just been chaotic since Miguel vanished, especially after his... uh, Lyla bird โ€” the hologram lady โ€” tried to... you know, kill his kid," Hobie fumbles.
"Watch it!" Gwen and Miles chorus, causing Mayday to pause her play and glance up curiously.
"Alright, alright, fam. Point taken, jeez. Nearly unalived his son," Hobie corrects himself. "But we need a plan. One of us needs to check on our Sun, ensure she's holding up mentally ya know and then there's the Spider-Verse mess. Those black holes are messing things up, and without our brooding, drama-filled, โ€˜oedipalโ€™ leader, the rest of us Spiders are stuck."
"What's 'Oedipal'?" Peter B. interjects, walking into the room with a bowl of mashed dinner for Mayday. The child's face brightens at the sight of the meal, and she eagerly crawls to him.
"I believe Hobie's trying to reference Oedipus," Gwen says with a roll of her eyes.
"Yeah, that Roman dude who had beef with his son and erased him from the living world, right?" Hobie muses.
"Nope. It's Greek mythology. And he killed his father and married his mother," Gwen corrects, slightly exasperated.
"Man, that's all kinds of messed up," Hobie grimaces, making a face that gets a giggle from Mayday.
"You think it's funny when Uncle Hobie gets it wrong?" he teases the little one.
"Enough with the history lessons, guys," Peter B. interjects, concern evident in his voice. "Ever since Miguel's been gone, nothing's been right. Honestly, with everything that's been happening, I'm just overwhelmed. I'm especially worried about Sunny and everything just feel so surreal."
Hobie nods, absorbing the weight of the situation. โ€œI hear you, man. Who knew Miguel was shagging our Sunny behind our backs.โ€ย 
The chorus of shocked voices fills the room. โ€œLANGUAGE!" they exclaim, eyes wide.
Hobie raises his hands in surrender. "Sorry, I got carried away. I meant... it is weird how they had a deep love-making connection, and it led to... consequences without us knowing."
Peter B. leans back, a pensive expression clouding his face. "With everything Sunny went through, the joy, the pregnancy and leaving... I should have been there for her more."
As if sensing her father's distress, Mayday halts her meal, reaching out with her small, pudgy hand to comfort him, patting his cheek. Gwen, her voice gentle yet firm, adds, "We all could've done more, Peter. But we were preoccupied, trying to save our universes, and in doing so, we neglected our own Spider-Family."
She takes a deep breath, her demeanor changing to one of determination. "Now, no more moping. Miles and I will hunt down Pav and Margot to sort out the chaos at HQ. Peter, you should visit Sunny and Gabriel and take Mayday along. Hobie, team up with Jess to locate Miguel. Make sure he's alright and bring him back."
Miles cuts in, skepticism evident. "Bring him back? Isn't he the very reason we're in this mess?"
Gwen sighs, trying to choose her words carefully. "Miguel's a โ€ฆ complicated man. He made choices based on what he believed was best. His actions, while perplexing, stem from good intensions. But he's hurting too, Miles. I've seen it. Heโ€™s heartbroken."ย 
Miles scoffs, "A heart;for real? That dude? All I've seen is a cold exterior, mad demands, and an excessive pride."
A glance around the room reveals faces of understanding and sympathy towards Gwenโ€™s perspective. Miles' frustration only grows. "Like seriously? All of you? His heart is straight-up frozen and his egoโ€™s bigger than, like, everything! How yโ€™all even thinking about letting him near your best friend."
"Miles," Peter interjects, his tone both assertive and compassionate, "you might not see the full picture here."
Miles, fire in his eyes, retorts, "It's all of you who are blind. I donโ€™t get what charm he has over you, but that man is dangerous. Ainโ€™t no way I stand by and watch him come near her or the baby again, or any of us for that matter. Yโ€™all better wake up and join me.โ€ Without another word, Miles activates his portal, leaving in a flash.
Gwen and Hobie scramble, attempting to follow or stop him. But Peter, with a resigned sigh, motions them to pause. "Give him time. He'll come around. For now, our priority is locating Sunny and Miguel."
Gwen, though worried, gives a nod. "You're right. We've got pressing matters. Sunny is in a vulnerable state, and we need to find Miguel."
Hobie, after a moment of contemplation, says, "Miles not wrong, though. We need to tread carefully around Miguel. Maybe heโ€™s injured โ€˜imself, like that Icario bloke who got too close to the sun. Miguel mightโ€™ve burned his feathers on our Sunny.โ€
โ€œIcarus. You mean Icarus.โ€ Gwen corrects him once again with an exaggerated eye roll.
Peter agrees, "Yea, Miguel's actions have consequences, but remember, every story has two sides."
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ย "No, sweetheart, it's MA-MA. Say Ma... Not Da, MA-MA.โ€
โ€œDADA!โ€
โ€œAlright, if you won't say it, no toy for you. Come on, my love. Say MA-MA.โ€ Blackmailing a one-and-a-half-year-old might not be your proudest parenting moment, but hearing him chant "dada" incessantly has been grating, particularly when said "dada" is a headstrong egomaniac with a hero complex and an overwhelming urge to save every universe but whoย seems to have missed saving the one thing that mattered most to both of you.
Sure, he's incredibly attractive and, yes, maybe he looked really hot while being on his knees โ€” but those details are neither here nor there. A soft whisper in the back of your mind suggests that, in the end, he did rescue your boy. But that comforting thought is drowned out by the even louder, more cynical voice reminding you he's the reason the danger existed in the first place.
ย โ€œDada?โ€ Gabriel pipes up, his big eyes hopeful.
โ€œNo, love, Iโ€™m still your MA-MA.โ€ With a resigned sigh, you hand the toy over to the gleeful toddler, planting a soft kiss on his cheek. You then rise, intent on tackling some household chores. Switching on the TV, you tune into the news, curious about the latest happenings in Nea Yorkey.ย 
Since hanging up your mantle as Spider Sun you've tried to distance yourself from the perils of heroism. Given all the challenges you've faced and the traumas you've endured, who could point a finger at you for wanting to step away? Your primary concern now is the tiny human being who looks up at you with eyes full of wonder and innocence.
Yet, a piece of your heart still aches for your city. You've always been someone who believes that one shouldn't stand by in the face of injustice. After all : 'The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.' But now, you're not just a hero, you're a mother too. Balancing those two sides is proving to be quite the challenge and extremely frustrating.ย 
Curiously enough, the city's crime rate isn't surging, even in the absence of a superhero. It's almost as if there's still a vigilantly safeguarding Nea Yorkey in Sun-Spiders absence. But that can't be possible, can it? Wouldn't your spider senses have alerted you if that were the case?
Before your thoughts could spiral any further into the depths of concern, the persistent ringing of the doorbell snapped you back to reality. One glance at the door and an all-too-familiar voice later, you already know who's there.
โ€œWould it kill you to answer sooner? I think I've lost count of how many times I rang. And for the love of all things good, itโ€™s freezing out here!โ€ Melissa, still in her over-dramatic fashion, breezes in, shedding flakes of snow from her vibrant winter boots. โ€œAnd by the way, you look like youโ€™ve just seen a ghost. Now, where's my favorite little munchkin?โ€
Melissa, once Gabriel's 19- year old former babysitter, stepped inside, shaking the snow off her boots onto your doorstep. After the harrowing incident involving the Spiders and your son, she was promptly relieved of her babysitting duties. That was an event you've tried to scrub from your memory, a dark stain you wish you could just wash away. But in the aftermath, you found an unexpected friend in Melissa. She turned out to be a wonderful listener and possessed an uncanny ability to keep Gabriel entertained. He had grown quite fond of her in the short time she cared for him.
While you had resolved never to leave your son unattended again, it was comforting to have Melissa's company.ย 
Sheโ€™d become someone you could confide in, someone who could effortlessly make Gabriel giggle, and most importantly, someone who filled the echoing silence of your home with warmth and chatter. She is your "guy in the chair." Well, more like "girl in the kitchen chair,"ย  but the sentiment still stands.ย 
Truth be told, after distancing yourself from the Spider society, a deep-seated loneliness had settled in. While the world continued to move around you, there was a stillness in your heart. The absence of your closest friends, the void left by Miguel - it all felt like a puzzle with a missing piece.
โ€œNopedidope, I am not Dada, I am ME-LI-SSA.โ€ she says with a playful tone, then turns sharply towards you. The damp red strands of her hair, wet from the snow, swing gracefully with her movement. "What's with him and 'Dada' all the time?"
You shift uncomfortably, hoping to avoid delving into that topic. "Kids and their phases," you mumble, trying to sound nonchalant.
Melissa studies your face, a glint of mischief in her eyes. "You're looking a little pale there, Sunny. You know what you might be missing?" She raises an eyebrow teasingly. "A bit of Vitamin D?" Her voice drips with insinuation.
In a mock attempt to shield Gabriel, you place a hand over his ears, which only spurs Melissa into laughter. "Come on, he's too young to understand. When was the last time you had a little fun?A month? Or Two?"
You shake your head, not meeting her gaze. Since Miguel, there hasn't been anyone else. Between the birth of Gabriel and the whirlwind that is motherhood, the idea of dating or loving someone else doesn't even cross your mind. No matter the hurt and heartbreak Miguel has caused, the truth is clear: your heart still belongs to him. It always has.
The mere thought of another person comparing to him feels almost blasphemous.
"Sunny!" Melissa's voice draws you out of your trance. "Don't tell me you've had a dry spell since.. well, since well, Gabriel was conceived. No fucking way. Seriously?"
"Let it go, Mel," you interject gently, because while the weight of loneliness presses on you, and the desire for intimate connection tugs at your heartstrings, a longing for human touch, to be seen as more than just 'mom', there's also an undeniable self-consciousness that wraps itself around you. The aftermath of pregnancy has reshaped your body, and though each stretch mark narrates the beautiful journey of your son's creation, they also evoke self-doubt.ย 
Memories of Miguel's adoration flood back. He had a gift for making you feel cherished during your intimate moments. He would take his time, appreciating every inch of you, always emphasizing how much he desired you. The warmth of his fingers, the gentle press of his lips tracing your curves, and the whispered assurances of how much he wanted you. The way his tongue tenderly caressing the swell of your breast, his hot breath tickling your skin and your - Snap the fuck out of it, Sunny!
But the chill of an empty bed the next morning led to those persistent doubts which still plague you today. Weโ€™re you not beautiful enough for him to stay? Were you not interesting enough to make him want to hold you when dawn broke?ย 
For someone who always prided herself on not tethering her self-worth to any man, let alone someone as self-absorbed as Miguel, these feelings of desire and yearning were unsettling. A desire for him to truly see you, to understand and love the depth of who you truly are, continued to consume you.ย 
Love? You catch yourself. Where does that come from? Shaking your head, you mentally scold yourself. He's proven himself less than worthy. It's time to regain control and shut your damn heart out.ย 
"I'm taking this little one out to build a snowman, and I'm setting you up on a date. You don't get to say no," Mel declares.
You raise an eyebrow, replying, "Thanks, but no thanks. If Gabriel's going out, I'm coming with. And I'm not looking for any man right now."
Mel rolls her eyes playfully. "Take a breather, Sunny. We're just going to be right outside. You can watch us through the window. Besides, a little rest might give you the energy for the spontaneous date I might arrange for you tonight."
"You're out of your mind," you retort.
She offers a sincere look. "I promise he's in safe hands, and you can keep an eye on us the entire time. But seriously, you look drained. When's the last time you had a good night's rest?"
You sigh, admitting, "I haven't slept well in weeks." It's the truth. Every time you close your eyes, memories of the HQ come flooding back.
Mel, sensing your hesitation, adds, "I'll protect him as if he were my own. You know that, right?"
Taking a deep breath, you let her go, breaking your cardinal rule of never letting Gabriel out of your sight. You just hope it's a decision you won't regret.
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"Enjoying that snow, little guy?" Mel teases as Gabriel eagerly stuffs his mouth with a handful of the white fluff. "Careful, you might get a brain freeze." Gabriel giggles, some snow dribbling from his mouth, while Mel concentrates on assembling a little snowman just outside your apartment.
ย "I'm not sure toddlers should be eating snow like that," a deep voice comments, causing Mel to fumble and drop the snowball meant for the snowman's head. She looks up, scanning for the source of the voice.
A striking man stands there, tall and imposing, with a dark blue winter coat that hints at the powerful build beneath. Slicked-back dark hair contrasts with the most captivating shade of red eyes Mel has ever witnessed. "And you'd be the expert on toddlers?" she inquires with a playful smile.
"No, but I am a father of two," he replies with a hint of sternness, his gaze shifting to Gabriel.
To Mel's astonishment, Gabriel's eyes light up at the sight of the man. The toddler abandons his snowy treat and dashes towards him. Caught off guard, the stranger momentarily stiffens.
Quickly, Mel scoops up Gabriel. "I apologize. He doesn't usually act this way. I'm sorry for the inconvenience."
The man offers a curt nod. "It's fine. Just... keep the snow-eating to a minimum." As he begins to walk away, a heartfelt cry of "DADA!" from Gabriel stops him in his tracks.ย 
"Apologies again. He's taken quite a liking to that word recently," Mel says as she notices the man returning, drawn by Gabriel's continuous 'dada' chants.ย 
"Would you mind if I help with the snowman?" the stranger asks, catching Mel off guard. Why would a stranger want to make a snowman with a woman and a child unless he has other intentions? Maybe he's interested in her? Gathering her confidence and a dash of flirtatious playfulness, she replies, "Quite the knight in shining armor you are, offering to help. And here I thought chivalry was extinct."ย 
"Definitely not a knight." Without another word, he starts forming a small snowball, handing it to an elated Gabriel. The child's joy doesn't waver as the stranger settles beside him.
"Then who might you be, if not our knight in snowy armor?"
Mel inquires, with a teasing undertone, trying to uncover a bit more about the handsome stranger who'd seamlessly inserted himself into their snowy afternoon.
The stranger's dark crimson eyes briefly flit to Gabriel before returning to Mel, an unreadable emotion crossing his features.
"Not important."
Mel nods, storing away the information.Well, the lack of information. โ€œWell okay mysterious. I like that. So let's get this snowman built, shall we?"
The trio gets to work. Mel gathers snow, crafting the middle part, while the man starts on the head. The handsome stranger's hands are deft, moving with a surprising grace that contrasts with his brooding exterior. Gabriel seems inexplicably drawn to him.ย 
At first, the toddler pats at the snow with his little mittened hands, but every so often, his bright eyes lift to watch the stranger. Whenever he moves to fetch more snow or adjust the snowman's form, Gabriel eagerly toddles after him, mimicking his every motion with endearing clumsiness.
There's a curiosity in Gabriel's eyes. He reaches out multiple times, trying to touch the mans face or grasp his hand, seeking a connection. To Mel, it seems as though the baby is yearning for the recognition of the stranger and he feels an inexplicable bond with, though she can't quite put a finger on.
The handsome stranger, for his part, can't seem to help himself. He bends down often to adjust Gabriel's scarf or hat, taking every opportunity to interact with the child and help him in a very protective manner, Mel notices.
He smiles softly when Gabriel's tiny hands try to shape the snow, occasionally guiding them with his own much larger ones, demonstrating how to pack the snow just right. At one point, when the snowman's body is nearly complete, Gabriel gives an excited laugh, dropping down to sit in the snow.ย 
The stranger follows suit, sitting beside him. The two of them start creating a tiny snowman just for Gabriel, the man showing him how to roll the snow and place the pieces together.
As they craft the mini snow figure, Gabriel, with his tiny voice, attempts to communicate with his limited vocabulary, pointing at the snow and then at the stranger, as if asking for validation for his creation. โ€œDada!Dada!โ€ And every time, he gives a nod or a soft chuckle, providing the affirmation the little one seeks.ย  โ€œYes, you did that buddy! Great job, mijo.โ€ย 
When Gabriel eventually throws himself into the snow to make a snow angel, the man can't help but laugh genuinely, a sound that seems foreign to his usual stoic behavior. And in his excitement, Gabriel opens his mouth wide in a beaming smile, revealing two tiny fangs. Instantly, the mans eyes glint, a myriad of emotions reflected in them.
The affection and emotion emanating from him is almost touchable. The silent exchanges, the shared smiles, and the comfortable interaction between them, even in the absence of many words, speaks volumes.
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Yourย  eyes flare comicallyย with disbelief. "You let a stranger do what?"
Mel, in a bid to downplay the situation, waves her hand dismissively. "Relax. We just built a snowman."
"With my son! Mel, are you out of your mind? No itโ€™s my fault trusting you with my son again! What was his name?"
"He... didn't say."
Your voice rises, "What did he say at all?"
"He's not dangerous, Sunny. He mentioned he's a father, and he's scouting for a new apartment. Asked if there were any vacant ones nearby." Mel pauses, her eyes taking on a dreamy quality. "And Sunny, he was breathtakingly gorgeous. Impossible for someone that handsome to be dangerous. I mean, the man looked like he was carved by the gods with a face even angels would envy.โ€
You narrow your eyes, your tone dripping with sarcasm. "Enough with you sappy, dreamy nonsense. A vacant apartment? And you donโ€™t find that at all suspicious? So you let a total stranger play with my son without knowing a single thing about him... just because you wanted to sleep with him?"
Mel gulps. "You might've done the same, given the situation. Besides, nothing happened. Why are you overreacting?"
Your voice sharpens. "Overreacting? The fact that you're still standing here and not on the other side of my door means I'm underreacting."
Mel steps back, hands up, "Whoa, calm down, mama bear. Look, I'm sorry. But... I've got something to make it up to you. I messaged Marc, that guy from the cafรฉ, and guess what? He's super excited to go on a date with you! He'll be here in about..." Mel theatrically checks her wrist, even though she's not wearing a watch, "...twenty minutes."
You can't help but raise an eyebrow. "And he's okay with me bringing my son on the date? After your stunt, there's no way I'm leaving Gabriel with you. Why not set me up with that mystery Adonis you just met instead?"
Mel smirks, "Firstly, ouch. Secondly, don't let your son cockblock you. The plan is: dinner, a stop at his apartment for some dessert, and then you come back here โ€“ hopefully a more relaxed and sunny version of yourself, Sunny. Thirdly, Marc is amazing, and Mr. Greek God is off-limits. He's mine."
ย "No, Iโ€™m not going."
Mel pleads, "Come on! Marc was so eager to meet you. He's on his way, so maybe run a brush through your hair? Oh, and speaking of himโ€ฆ" Mel's face falls as she checks her phone, "He just texted me."
She reads aloud, "โ€˜Hey Mel, I donโ€™t know the kind of guys Sunny's been with, but I'm not risking my neck for a date. Sorry, but that dude in front of her house was scary and very serious about his threats.โ€™ WAIT WHAT? Whoโ€™s in front of your apartment?โ€
You shrug and swing the door open to check on what Marcโ€™s mysterious message could mean, revealing Peter B, his fist paused mid-air, ready for a knock. "Hey Sun. Did your spidey-sense catch me?"
It hadnโ€™t. Why hadn't it? Have your once reliable senses dulled with time? Before you can respond, Mel jumps in with her own theory. "Did you chase off her date?"
Peter's brow furrows with confusion. "You had a date, Sunny? Was it the guy sprinting away with a bouquet, looking like heโ€™s seen a monster?" He gestures over his shoulder, trying to pinpoint the fleeing figure.
Mel narrows her eyes at Peter, suspicion clear in her voice. "That was her date, yes. He seemed spooked. You wouldn't happen to know why, would you?"
Peter B throws his hands up defensively. "Hey, deeply mistrusting stranger, I've been encouraging Sunny to get out there for years. " You're immediately reminded of the time he'd tried to set you up with Ben Reilly. โ€œYea, you donโ€™t look scary enough to spook someone. No offense.โ€
Sighing, you interject, "Maybe he realized dating a single mom with a toddler wasnโ€™t what he wanted. Either way, I just want a quiet evening to relax and catch up on my favorite show. So thank you both for your unexpected, uninvited surprise visit today but I am tired."
Both Peter and Mel exchange shocked glances. "Sun, I came by to check on you because of... you know, what happened," Peter starts hesitantly.
You nod, taking a deep breath to keep
your emotions in check. "I'm aware, Peter. And I appreciate it. But right now, I'm doing okay. Actually, better than okay. So, I really donโ€™t need help. Please, just give me some space. Both of you."
Mel steps forward, concern evident in her voice. "We're only trying to help here, Sunny. Please, don't shut us out."
"Look," you reply, feeling drained, "there's nothing you can do to help me anymore.You did enough today. Just let me be. My top priority right now is Gabriel. And it's his bedtime."
Peter moves closer, placing a reassuring hand on your shoulder. "Just remember, if you ever need anything, please reach out."
You manage a wry smile. "Not sure my phone plan covers inter-dimensional calls, Peter."
ย After the gentle squeeze, Peter departs, Mel following close behind. As the door softly clicks shut, the weight of loneliness and grief descends upon you after seeing Peter, a part of your past, again. The walls of the apartment seem to close in, amplifying the echoing silence. It all feels suffocating. An emptiness weighs on your heart, and no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to escape its grasp. The reminders of all you've lost and nearly lost play on a loop in your mind.ย 
So there you stand, in the quiet of your bedroom, leaning against the windowsill, breathing in the chilled nightair,ย  while the world and your little baby boy are fast asleep. Emotions threaten to consume you, feelings you can no longer lock away, fearing they'll devour you from the inside. And in this moment, you speak out, though there's no one there to hear. No one to hold you close, no one to offer comfort for your broken soul. "Are you happy now? Did you manage to save the universe? Fix up every black hole? Then why did you leave one black whole in my heart? Why didn't you fix that,huh? Why am I not worthy of being saved by you?
You might fool the people around you, theyย  see you as this scary untouchable figure, shielded by layers. But not me. I see through it all. Beneath that facade, you're just as shattered. I tried to piece you together, but where did that lead me? Broken, just like everything else you touch. And I won't let you near him. I wonโ€™t let you break him, you hear me? No, of course not.How could you hear me. You're universes away from me. Why? Are you afraid to get cut by the shards of the broken heart that you left?
I hate you Miguel Oโ€™ Hara. I hate you for breaking me. You left behind fragments only you can touch, and I hate you for it. For shattering me and then leaving me alone. I hate you.โ€ย 
You wiped away the tears that escaped your eyes and closed the window, oblivious to the subtle shadowy silhouette that shifted just beyond the windowpane; "I'll mend your fractured rays, mi sol, so you shine whole again.โ€œ
A whisper, lost within the night shadows, never reaching your ears.
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โ€‹โ€‹The gleaming city spread out beneath, its nighttime heartbeat pulsating with a soft electric energy. High atop one of its buildings, Miguel stands, casting a shadow on the walls of the room where his son sleeps peacefully. The warm lights from the streets below give off a soft glow, just enough for him to see Gabrielโ€™s tiny chest rising and falling.
"So, you're staying here now? Just watching over Universe 586?" A familiar voice breaks the silence, and Miguel looks up to see Jessica Drew, her red and white suit glinting under the streetlights. "I never thought I'd witness the great O'Hara, savior of the universes, now guarding just two souls."
Miguel's jaw tightens. "Go away, Jess."
She lands beside him gracefully, her tone challenging. "Are you stalking your own child? Or seeking redemption from Sunny?"
"You don't get it, Jessica."
"On the contrary," she shoots back, her eyes intense, "I understand more than anyone else. I saw how you felt about her all those years ago. And I see it now. You were afraid, werenโ€™t you?"
"I'm not afraid of anything," Miguel replies, defiance lacing his tone. "But I am not good enough for her light."
Jessica exhales, her voice softening. "And who made you the judge of that? Because according to Sunnyโ€™s emotional outburst, you're more than deserving." He clenches his fists, the weight of regret pulling at him. "I had my shot at happiness with Gabriella, and I lost it. People like me, Jess, we don't get second chances."
She points to the window, to the serene image of Gabriel. "That's your second chance, Miguel. Right there."
His eyes well up, the gravity of his mistakes reflecting in his eyes. "I almost killed him. How can I even begin to forgive myself for that?"
"But you didn't," she whispers, her voice filled with conviction. "And you wouldnt have hurt him or else you would have done it immediately. I saw you, Mig.โ€
A third voice joined them, and Peter B. swings over, landing with ease beside the two. "She's right, Miguel. I watched you with him, the tenderness, the love. It was there, even before you knew who he was to you."
Miguel shakes his head, shutting both of them out. His gaze is hard, still fixated on Gabriel. "I can't go back. They're better off without me. Besides, you heard her. She hates me."
Peter stepsforward, his gaze intense. "That's utter bullshit. I know Sunny. Sheโ€™s strong, fierce, and forgiving. We heard her loud and clear and this woman loves you more than anything. Don't let fear rob you of your family."
Peters words hang in the air, and just as Miguel is about to reply, a shrill,ear-piercing cry cuts through the silence. His spider-sense goes haywire, a ripple of unease running down his spine. Without a second's hesitation, he dashes toward the source of the sound, leaving Jessica and Peter behind.
Inside, Miguel finds Gabriel crying, tears streaking his small face. Instinctively, Miguel scoops him up, the little boy immediately nestling into the familiar crook of his father's neck and calms down. โ€œHey, my little spider. Daddy โ€˜s here, donโ€™t cry. What got you so scared?โ€ he coos, spotting Gabriel's favorite toy on the floor. Miguel retrieved Gabriel's favorite toy from the floor, a routine he'd secretly adopted every night when, after falling asleep, the little one inevitably dropped it. With practiced ease, he nestled it back into the baby's grasp.
But before he can fully relax, Miguel's spider-sense jolts him again. Looking up, he sees a familiar, dark-clad figure hovering, hands sparking ominously.
โ€œDrop the child, Miguel.โ€ย 
a/n: Hey guys, part 4 is finally here! Thanks for your patience and all the love you've shown me. While I initially thought Part 4 would be the conclusion, I've decided to extend Miguel's character and redemption arc, so we'll wrap up with Part 5. I'm already deep into writing it, so you won't have to wait as long. I truly appreciate all your feedback and support. You've all been wonderful. Remember to stay safe, stay hydrated, and always prioritize your mental well-being. Can't wait to hear your thoughts on this chapter! ๐Ÿค
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AN: Okay, first of all, I love your mind @machveil. We all know Service!Top!Simon is the best Simon and I love fluff so much. So here <3
TW/CW: mentions of children and some angst, cursing
You walked around the furniture store, practically mourning the loss of that good table. Yes, it was beautiful and you loved it, but half a goddamn million for it? Hell no.
Your husband trudged alongside you, his hand resting on the small of your back. "We can look tomorrow? See if any other stores have whatcha like?" He tilts his head and you shake yours no.
"But I liked that one..." You grumble, before snapping your eyes back to him. "Do not buy that table Simon Riley. It is way too expensive. We can get a new one but...not in the mood to go anywhere else."
He chuckles, shaking his eyes, a few strands of dirty blonde hair falling into his face. Gentle eyes settling onto you. "You know me too well."
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Your eyes flutter open to the sound of Simon pulling into the garage, stretching out your poor muscles you slip off the bed. Bare feet touching the cold hard floor as you padded silently to the stairs.
Rubbing your still sore hickey covered neck and pulling down Simon's giant t-shirt, which you used as an impromptu nightgown, you headed down the stairs.
he hasn't come in yet, which was odd, unless their were groceries which wouldn't make any sense..? Your hand reaches for the door and suddenly it swings open, startling you. Blocking the inside with his body, he stares down at you.
"Simon, honey, are you okay?" You try to peak into the garage. But he moves to block your gaze.
"Its a surprise. Will take a long time so you can't use the garage for a bit. I promise it's worth it hun."
You stare at him, slowly nodding as you raise a brow. "What is it?"
He huffs in amusement. "What does 'secret' mean ta ya sweetie?"
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Your husbands warm rough hand covered your eyes, your own feeling around so you didn't bump into anything. A giggle starts to bubble up in your chest. Down the steps carefully, his gentle voice murmuring in his ear.
"Okay...here we are. Ready?" You nod, his hand falling from your face. Eyes flutter open as you gaze upon a new table settled in the dining room.
"Oh...my God. You bought one?" You turn to meet him, raising a brow. "It's gorgeous but how expensive-"
"I made it." He cuts you off, his chest slightly puffed up in pride. A smile starting to bloom on his scarred lips. Your eyes soften and you turn back to the table.
"Really? Oh my...how long did this take you?" Your hands glide over the smooth wood, it was really beautiful.
"Couple months. Learned how to work with wood and made a few knickknacks for ya too."
You cover your mouth and look at him, trying not to cry. "Oh my God....this is so sweet baby." His lips brush underneath your eye, pecking against your cheek and nose before landing on your soft lips.
"Anything for you." He sticks his hand into his pocket, pulling out a tiny duck sculpture. "Thought-" He paused, a vulnerability settling between you. "Thought I could make our babe a few toys. If you ever wanted to have one."
It's not often Simon talks about children. A deep rooted fear of his father tangled in his perception of family, a sickening bile rising up when he thinks about being like that monster.
Letting you down. Letting your baby down. The thorns of his children digging into his soul, tangled up like ivy leafs, unrelenting and tightening. He tried to hide it, but that empty feeling inside throbbed at the prospect of you, giving up any wants of a family to make him happy.
But the truth was, when his mind wandered, during long missions and saferoom escapades, he imagined you with a bundle in your arms. A scrunched up chubby face sleeping nestled inside. Handing it to him. A little girl.
The hands who held weapons, now cradling new life. The stench of death and blood replaced with newborn smell and baby powder. The ringing of bombs, screams of the innocent, and gunfire, transformed into cries and giggles of someone so small exploring.
You stare up at him, gently cradling the figure in your hand, biting your lip. "Looks real good Si." You murmur, kissing his forehead. "I love you."
"I love you more."
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Warning: Dark, Suicidal Tim, etc. Also small spoilers for the Injustice movie
Had a random thought, slightly inspired by the Injustice movie: what if Tim, in a mental health slump, decided to teach the bats a final lesson? Every time he defends himself against Damianโ€™s attacks, heโ€™s criticized for it. So one day, he just doesnโ€™t.
Damian gets angry and decides to take it out on the person he wonโ€™t be criticized for attacking. After Tim doesnโ€™t respond to his taunts, he gets physical, and throws a knife or slashes his sword, expecting Tim to get out of the out of the way or block the blow, and Tim doesnโ€™t. The sound of a blade parting flesh and a body falling to the ground gets the other bats attention, and they turn to see Damian standing there with blood on his blade and Timโ€™s body on the ground.
(Inspired by the scene in the Injustice movie where Damian kills Dick by throwing a baton (escrima stick? IDK) at him, expecting him to catch it (which, earlier in the movie, he did), and Dick, being distracted, doesnโ€™t, and it hits him directly on the temple. Accident, sure, but caused by recklessness)
Basically Damian needs to learn that attacking other people because you are angry is NOT OKAY. Seriously, if youโ€™re pissed, go beat up a training dummy or scream into a pillow.
Does Damian learn the lesson? Or not? What about B and Dick and the others? How do they react?
[Thank you for the TWs! WARNING: This is bad batfam. I love them, but we're chucking them under the angst crack bus for this]
Tw: Dark/Suicidal Tim, domestic abuse, psychological warfare, manipulation, mentions of suicide attempt
Tim is tired of constantly fighting back and defending himself. He's tired of Damian and Jason attacking him. He's tired of Dick and Bruce pushing his boundaries.
If Tim just allows Damian to stab him, *he'll* be the one to get lectured for not dodging. It will become Tim's fault, as a trained vigilante, for not preventing himself from being injured.
What does he decide to do?
Resist with extreme psychological warfare no matter the damage to himself.
He starts small.
He curates cases/stories of sibling abuse and starts to leave them in places Dick will find (hacking/messing with Dick's fyp, newspapers around the Manor, files on the batcomputer, a case Babs is informed about, etc). They aren't reflective of Tim's experiences, not yet, but they show common patterns: adult figures not stepping in, siblings being pushed to compete, escalation, negative behaviors transferring to people/things outside of the siblings, etc.
For Bruce, Tim tricks the man into reading an intimate relationships psychology textbook by stating it was necessary for a case. He then keeps tricking the man into reading gentle parenting, boundaries, and other such information.
Jason is much easier. Tim just leaves books of various siblings relationships within the man's safehouses (healthy ones, distant, cruel, enemies, abusive, recent siblings [like adoption], etc). Jason doesn't know Tim is the one leaving those books, but he is intrigued by the "recommendations." A lot of them have other lessons Tim has prepared mixed in as well [which, if Jason finds out Tim is the one who recommended the books after he starts getting along with him, then they can have book clubs ^^].
Tim sends a ton of empathy animal related movies/shows Dick's way so that the older one ropes Damian into watching them.
This takes months, but at no point does Tim relate the lessons to Tim himself yet.
He then starts pouring in warnings. When Damian tries to hurt him again, Tim asks Dick, "What if I was too tired to dodge it?" This is the only time he asks. Dick waves it off cause Damian "knows better" now. I
Tim almost gave up the game right there and then to prove a point. He held back, though.
For Jason, Tim throws in shock-value trauma dump phrases when they meet up to prevent the older one from attacking.
Jason: *pulls out a gun*
Tim: "Damn. You'd think after threatening to kill myself to prevent my future from occurring that I'd be okay with guns. For some reason, they still make me nauseous."
Jason: *holsters gun* "What the fuck?"
Tim: *nods and then disappears*
It kind of trains Jason from attacking Tim unless he wants to hear really fucked up shit that will have his mind spiraling for days.
For Bruce, Tim just points out how and when the man crosses other people's boundaries (but doesn't point out Tim's). He doesn't put any expectation or remedy out. He just indicates it to start Bruce's thought process of "Did I just cross someone's boundary?"
Then Tim feels that it's ready. He won't get blamed for not dodging Damian's attack.
So, he lets himself be seriously stabbed.
This cues Damian into having a mental breakdown. Dick and Bruce oscillate between blaming everyone else and then themselves. Jason, after seeing the shitshow of these reactions, assigns himself (without telling the others) to suicide watch Tim [those trauma dump phrases are working against Tim here].
Once Tim awakens and realizes the mess he's created, he fucking regrets it all. He doesn't want to have to clean it all up and manipulate them into being better. He's also kind of pissed at Damian for not aiming for his heart or something. Damn.
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novemberheart ยท 3 months ago
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{overview} You get attacked. Does your pack step up for you?
{warnings} violence, blood, mentions of sexual content (no sexual abuse), fem reader, cursing, poly141, pain, crying, angst, a/b/o dynamics
Chapter 10 <- Chapter 11 -> Chapter 12
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It was Simonโ€™s last day of physical therapy. If he passed this he would be cleared to get back out in the field. On his way, he dropped you off at another Omega Committee event. This one you were actually excited about. It was a hike through the forest at the far end of the base. Priya wasn't there and you wished you had the presence of mind to have asked her for her number. But luckily you ran into Anais.
โ€œYou smell like peaches and cream. Anyone ever told you that?โ€ she asked. The sound of Johnny yelling โ€œpeachesโ€ instantly ran through your mind.
โ€œA few, yeah.โ€ you smiled.
โ€œWell that's what I'm going to call you, PC for short.โ€ she giggled. You had been called worse. Anais was a chatter. You didn't really mind though.
โ€œCan I ask you something- something personal,โ€ she whispered, leaning even closer to you. Curiosity killed the cat.
โ€œHow does it work with all five of you? Do they take turns-โ€ she whispered.
โ€œOh my god, Anais.โ€ you couldn't help but chuckle, despite the flaming of your cheeks. To be honest you were wondering the same thing.
โ€œThat was too much! I'm so sorry. I was just curious and I thought we were friendsโ€-
โ€œAnais it's alright. If I knew I probably wouldn't mind sharing a bit of info.โ€ You assured. She relaxed.
โ€œSo you haven't?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ you responded truthfully.
โ€œHave you ever?โ€ she trailed off. You hadn't. You never really had the chance. You weren't sure if your pack members would approve of you spilling this information everywhere. โ€œI'll take that as a no.โ€ she snickered. You gave her a playful side-eye.
โ€œDonโ€™t worry about it. Took me forever to lose mine too.โ€ she signed.
โ€œIt has not been forever!โ€ you gasped, swatting at her. She laughed loudly causing a few heads to turn. Neither of you really cared.
โ€œJust don't get your hopes up. First times are always terrible,โ€ she advised, bumping you with her arm.
โ€œThanks for the pep talk.โ€ you huffed.
โ€œDo you have a favorite pack member yet?โ€ she asked suddenly. You quickly shook your head. You enjoyed them all- truthfully. โ€œI think if I was in a pack I would have my favorites. Hopefully one would be my alpha, but you never know,โ€ she smirked.
โ€œCan I ask you something?โ€ you began.
โ€œShoot.โ€
โ€œDid it hurt when you were marked?โ€ you questioned.
โ€œThe first time, yes. I was in a long-term relationship with an alpha who wasn't entirely nice.โ€
โ€œI'm sorry Anais.โ€
She quickly waved you off. โ€œDon't worry about it. It was a long time ago. The second time, not as much. He did it during my heat and it only hurt for a day when I came out of it.โ€ she explained.
โ€œYouโ€™re strong Anais.โ€ you said. She flashed you a smile.
โ€œWeโ€™re omegas, PC. We have to be.โ€
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The hike back was partly uphill, which was nobody's favorite.
โ€œIt was so beautiful when we left. When did it get so bloody hot out?โ€ you panted.
โ€œLook. The heat turns you English.โ€ Anais chuckled through her own pants. You may have picked up a few phrases from the boys.
โ€œAlright, everyone, take five!โ€ One of the group leaders shouted. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief. You had made it to the edge of the base, still a little under half a mile to get back.
โ€œIโ€™m going to go refill my water. You need some?โ€ you asked. Anais flopped down on the grass, her arms blocking her face from the sun.
โ€œNo thank you.โ€ she groaned, rolling onto her stomach. You made your way up to the front, intending to tell one of the leaders you were going to go get some water. You huffed as the same five omegas were consuming all their attention. โ€œWhatever.โ€ you sighed. You knew where it was, you had filled your water bottle up with Kyle a few days ago when he took you bird watching. Besides, Anais knew where you were.
You made your way quickly towards the buildings, going between them to the other side where the water fountain was.
โ€œMy thumbs gonna fall off,โ€ you grumbled. You had to press and hold the button down hard. Kyle made it look easy. Your ears perked up at the sound of footsteps. Your head darted around not seeing anything. You figured you didn't need water that bad and began walking back.
You were abruptly thrown to the ground. Your shorts offered absolutely no protection against the rough gravel. The whole left side of your body slid against the ground, the force of the shove sending you a few feet. There was a low growl behind you and you acted purely on instinct. You felt a hand on your ankle pulling you back. You flipped yourself around, swinging your arm luckily catching a man's face with your claws. He howled, throwing himself away from you. You quickly shuffled backward trying to find your footing.
โ€œShit, that's 141.โ€ the other man with him cursed. He grabbed the bleeding man pulling him away. Even though they were leaving, you knew you weren't safe. You were finally able to get your footing and began running around the corner, almost knocking Anais down in the process.
โ€œWhat the fuck!โ€ she shrieked. You were beginning to bleed at this point. It started dripping down your left leg, and right knee. It was starting to show through your shirt on your left side, your elbow, both your hands, and your chin. โ€œIt's okay, lovie.โ€ she soothed. You were trying your hardest to keep it together, not wanting to create a scene, however, the pain and fear were making it very difficult.
โ€œI can't go back to the group like this,โ€ you whined. People will think youโ€™re crazy.
โ€œDon't worry. This wasn't your fault. Everyone will understand.โ€ she soothed, gently pulling you along. You held your ground shaking your head. โ€œPC you're bleeding a lot. You need help.โ€ she insisted.
โ€œI want my pack.โ€ you whimpered. You pressed the backside of your hand against your mouth, your throat constricting.
โ€œIf you come with me you can get to them.โ€ she urged. It was the push you needed. Luckily you didn't get very far before a group leader noticed and raced towards you.
โ€œWhat happened?โ€ he questioned. You ignored him, not really in the mood to talk to strange men, and pulled your backpack forward grabbing your phone out of the front pocket. You were lucky it hadn't shattered in the ordeal.
โ€œSomeone attacked her.โ€ Anais growled, annoyed that he couldn't use the context clues.
โ€œHello?โ€ Johnny had picked up after one ring. Hearing his voice made it impossible to hold back any tears. You sobbed into the phone. You heard him repeat your name on the other end, it growing louder and louder every time it left his lips.
โ€œI need you, please. I'm not really sure where Iโ€™m at.โ€
โ€œIt's alright, Bon. I have your location pulled up on my phone, I'm near there. Just don't hang up,โ€ he assured. Your chip. You breathed a sigh of relief, leaning against the side of the building.
โ€œI think you should head back to the group.โ€ The group leader directed towards Anais.
โ€œNo way,โ€ she growled. โ€œIโ€™m not leaving herโ€
โ€œThank you.โ€ you mouthed.
โ€œOf course,โ€ she whispered back. She leaned against the building with you. The rest of the group was still there, the other group leaders trying to prevent them from getting any closer. You didn't need to worry about that, as Johnny quickly rounded the corner, gravel flying under his feet. His mouth fell open at the state of you. His arms extended out and you quickly threw yourself at him, neither of you caring about any blood, sweat, or tears.
โ€œI got you, baby,โ€ he whispered, causing you to lose it again.
โ€œI want to go home.โ€ you whimpered, against his shoulder. Your legs were wrapped firmly around his waist, his arms squeezing you so hard you might have even more bruises.
โ€œAlright.โ€ he soothed. He nodded his head to the group leader and Anais.
โ€œI'll come and visit you in a few days,โ€ Anais called after you.
โ€œThank you.โ€ you sputtered back. He didn't say a word but pressed his lips against the side of your head every few feet. He stopped setting you down causing you to sob louder. He peeled off his jacket quickly. Carefully dabbing your legs, where the most blood was coming out. He didn't want you to leave a trail of blood everywhere.
He went a back way, not wanting everyone to see his bloodied-up omega. Johnny carried you like you were a feather, weaving through buildings like it was just another day. Well to him it probably was.
Luckily too many people weren't hanging out around your home, the few that did were ignored or met with a snarl. You whimpered at the sound, all your senses on overdrive. You could tell how upset Johnny was, even though you couldn't smell him. He was shaking, growls escaping him nearly every moment. โ€œAlmost there.โ€ he soothed. He made it out of the elevator, slamming his key card against the sensor and throwing open the door.
He set you down on the kitchen counter, making no move to pull away from you. He needed to calm you down first.
โ€œSโ€™alright,โ€ he repeated against your head. โ€œI need you to relax for me, lass. Gonna get you all taken care of, aye?โ€ he shut his eyes tightly, resting his body against yours. Your hands dug into his shirt, and you growled at the inability to smell him. โ€œI know whatโ€™ll help.โ€ he soothed. He pulled away causing you to whine, and he darted into John's room grabbing a shirt out of his dresser. He brought it back, holding it up towards your face. You were about to bury your face in it but stopped.
โ€œI don't want to get it bloody.โ€ you sobbed.
โ€œHe won't mind, bon. Plus we know how to get blood stains out.โ€
You didn't need to be told twice, you buried your face into the fabric, nuzzling up to Johnny again. After a few moments, your breathing returned to normal and the tears fell quietly. You were quivering now, the pain making up for the loss of adrenaline. โ€œGonna tell the rest, okay?โ€ he asked, causing you to nod.
He grabbed his phone out of his pocket.
-come home asap. Omega emergency
He tossed the phone on the counter, pulling away from you, sitting down in one of the stools so he was almost face-to-face with you.
โ€œNeed you to tell me what happened,โ€ he demanded softly. He kept his jacket pressed against your legs and used a sleeve to stop the bleeding of your elbow.
โ€œI went to get water,โ€ you whispered. Your eyes burned, now dry. โ€œI heard someone walking so I started to leave then all of a sudden someone pushed me to the ground.โ€ his face twitched, his jaw clenching so hard you worried for his teeth. โ€œHe grabbed my ankle and started pulling me back, but I turned around and scratched him across his face. One of them said something about 141 and then they ran away,โ€ you explained.
โ€œThatโ€™s good. Did exactly what you should've. This happen by the water fountain?โ€ he asked.
โ€œMhhh,โ€ you confirmed, wondering what he was getting at. The door swung open.
โ€œHoly shit,โ€ Kyle hissed, eyeing you up and down. He was a bit out of breath and you wondered if he ran all the way here like Johnny had. โ€œLet me see.โ€ he insisted, nearly pushing Johnny out of the way. He peeled away the sweatshirt and pulled John's shirt out of your hands.
โ€œSome bastards shoved her.โ€ Johnny snarled.
โ€œBy where you took me to see the birds,โ€ you spoke up.
โ€œThey've got cameras.โ€ Kyle said exactly what Johnny was thinking. โ€œShould get it pulled up for when the alphas come.โ€ As if on cue the door slammed open again.
โ€œWhere is shโ€- John cut himself off. โ€œLet me see.โ€ he demanded, pushing Kyle out of the way. If you weren't in pain you would've laughed.
โ€œSomeone pushed me, Johnnyโ€™s trying to find it on the cameras.โ€ you caught him up to speed. Simon moved towards Johnny glaring over his shoulder at the device. โ€œIt was my fault,โ€ you whispered to John. Everyone's head snapped to you. John had your face in his hands, looking over your chin. โ€œI went away from the group to get some water. I should've stayed with theโ€-
โ€œYou don't get to take credit for this.โ€ John sneered. โ€œI don't care where the hell you are, who you are around, this should never happen to you. Understand?โ€ he ordered.
โ€œYes, Alpha,โ€ you responded quickly.
โ€œDon't make it a habit though,โ€ Kyle spoke, hovering back over by you and John.
โ€œGot it,โ€ Johnny said. John left you but Kyle stayed.
โ€œI'm gonna take a few pictures of you, love. Gotta keep the evidence,โ€ he explained.
โ€œOkay,โ€ you replied softly. Your eyes trained on the three men watching the video. Johnny's face curled again, gripping his phone so tight his knuckles were white. Simon and John appeared to be fairly level-headed, trying to pick up on every detail.
โ€œRecord it before someone deletes it,โ€ John instructed. John came back to you, pressing his lips against your forehead. โ€œIโ€™m going to go take care of a few things. Me and Simonโ€™ll be back soon,โ€ he spoke through gritted teeth, taking an inhale of your scent to prevent himself from shaking. He pulled away, Simon following behind him like a dog. โ€œSend me the pictures after.โ€
โ€œYou did good, pup.โ€ Simon praised, heading out the door with John.
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Hi friends! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Chapter 12 will be up in two days! See you then! ๐Ÿงก
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Week 3 of my Playlist series
Summary: You thought you wouldn't see him again, at least for a while, but Spencer Reid finds you, and he has questions.
Warnings: smut, 18+ minors dni. Penetrative sex, voyeurism, fingering, multiple orgasms, semi-protected sex, creampie, almost breeding kink, like if you squint, slight angst, dom!Spencer Reid.
A/N: First smut of the series! This one is based on one of my top songs of 2023, everyone say thank you, Jaehyun, for releasing the closest K-pop is ever going to get to 00s R&B. I hope you all enjoy it ๐Ÿฅฐ
Masterlist || Spotify Playlist
Of all the places you'd been where you thought of Spencer Reid and your paths crossing again, you never expected it to actually happen here.
The club was lit so low, so you didn't really expect it to be him, your ex-something, not quite boyfriend, far from nothing, situationship maybe? But there he was.
Not just him, but all of them. The BAU, minus their bosses, were all dancing and drinking at various points around the club, having fun but still being vigilant.
You're surprised you notice him before he notices you, but you're not surprised that it doesn't take him much longer.
You're not exactly here to blend in with the crowd.
The low-cut dress with the lower-cut bust line is already getting as much attention as you'd expected it would, and that doesn't go unnoticed by Spencer as he finally drags his eyes over to the commotion you've made in the corner.
โ€œI don't know you,โ€ you tried to politely explain to the creep who'd blocked you in with one arm. โ€œI'm just waiting for my friend, please leave me alone.โ€
โ€œLet's have some fun, baby, you, me, that body you're hiding under those scraps of fabric. I'll make you scream, I promise.โ€
You'd scoffed the first few times he'd made similar remarks, but he was tenacious, and he didn't understand the word โ€œno,โ€ and was vaguely unfamiliar with โ€œleave,โ€ โ€œme,โ€ and โ€œaloneโ€ too.
You'd scanned the room for a friendly face and had locked eyes with the man you'd been waiting six months to meet again. Perfect timing.
Of course, he'd picked up on your discomfort and walked your way, and of course, he'd bought back-up.
โ€œY/N, you should've sent me a text when you got here!โ€ Emily Prentiss expertly grabbed your wrist and pulled you into a hug, as the man was forced to let you move.
โ€œSorry, I got a bit sidetracked,โ€ you mumbled, still feeling the weight of the creeps gaze on you despite your newly inherited guard dogs.
โ€œCome on over to the table, baby girl, we got bottle service. I'm going big tonight.โ€ You tried to thank Morgan as well, but the smile you sent him didn't reach your eyes as you consciously avoided Spencer's gaze.
โ€œYou know these people, babe?โ€ The stranger from behind you put a hand on your waist as he pulled you back a step, leaving you stumbling wide eyed until your back was to his chest, shoulders unconsciously rounding into a protective stance as you tried to shrug hum off.
โ€œFor the last time, let go of me. I don't know you, and I don't want to know you. This is your last warning.โ€ You rounded on the man, turned your back to the other three agents, and tried to calm your thoughts to see his next reaction.
โ€œStuck-up bitch, I said you're coming home with me tonight.โ€
You made sure his last attempt to grab you was his last attempt to grab any woman as you flipped him onto his back, your fellow agents behind you pulling their guns and handcuffs to helpfully lead him out of his hunting grounds.
You'd hadn't wanted to see Spencer Reid again so soon, and you certainly hadn't wanted to enlist the entire teams help on a serial rape case, but it wasn't your final decision to make.
And honestly, you'd been glad for the help in the take down, with your office so understaffed.
After reading the creep his rights, seizing the date rape drug he'd planned to slip into your drink later that night, and the knives and rope in his card that he was planning to also use on you, you were just thankful that you had all the help you could get.
Now that you were back at the station at 4am, with nothing but aching muscles from handing the nearly 200 lbs man his ass to him on a platters and aching feet from doing it in heels, you wanted nothing else than for the last week to erase itself.
Six months absence from the BAU wasn't long enough to fall out of love with Spencer Reid, and you never thought it would be.
A year was all the time it had taken to fall head over heels for the man, and you'd assumed you could reverse that in the same time, so you'd left.
It wasn't a leave of absence but a strategic departure to a task force in Rapid City, where rape numbers were spiking. You were still doing your job, that was the important part.
You changed into your comfortable clothes in the locker room and grabbed your bag, ready to head out for the night, picking up your keys to head home. You only got two steps out of the room when you ran into him.
โ€œEarly start?โ€ He joked, looking at you again with that hesitant half-smile he'd worn the entire week he'd been here.
โ€œLate night.โ€ You replied. It had been a joke you'd developed after so many unusual shifts, so many 3am run-ins where neither of you could find the effort to make actual polite conversation so you'd said the two sentences and sat in amicable silence, often rested against each other as you let exhaustion carry you through the night.
โ€œCan we talk? We're leaving in the morning, and Iโ€ฆโ€ he struggled to find the words, jaw clenching and releasing the way it always did when he couldn't put his emotions into words just yet.
โ€œSure. But not here. My apartment is a five minute drive.โ€ He nodded and followed you out of the building as you primed your heart to shatter into pieces again.
The drive home was quiet and peaceful, too late for natural traffic, and too early for the morning commute to begin. You made it home in record time and led him inside the apartment you'd chosen.
You flipped the light switch and kept you back to him while you completed your daily routine, trying your best to ignore that he was standing in your doorway. You tried not to be curious about what he could tell about you from the doorway, what the lack of decoration meant, how different it was from that cosy box room three blocks from his apartment, how cold it seemed instead.
So you kept your eyes off him to not have to answer the questions he'd likely have.
โ€œSo what did you want to talk about, Spence?โ€ You almost cursed yourself for how easily the nickname slipped from your tongue. You'd heard JJ call him that a few times your first week in the office and assumed it was something everyone used for him. The way he flushed red when you said it the first time was engraved in your head, those first heavy beats of your heart alerting you to oncoming danger.
You grabbed two bottles of water from your fridge and walked back to your living room, where he was still stood taking things in.
โ€œSpencer?โ€ You asked again, holding out the bottle.
He took it with a small smile of thanks, and you led him over to the sofa, urging him to talk again.
โ€œWhat did you want to talk about?โ€
โ€œYouโ€ฆ you didn't say goodbye.โ€
You knew this was coming, but you hoped he wouldn't have the courage to ask you the questions you knew were about to arrive at your door.
โ€œI'm coming back in six months, Spencer. I didn't say goodbye because it wasn't going to be goodbye.โ€ You'd turned this excuse over in your brain enough to know it was a weak argument, but you hoped your friendly smile would reassure him.
โ€œYou didn't tell anyone you were leaving until you were gone. That hurt a lot.โ€
โ€œI didn't want to hurt you. Everything was just so fast. I had to take the offer immediately, or they would've moved onto someone else. You understand, right, Spencer?โ€ He sat back, resigned, and nodded again slightly.
But a silence built up as he stared at you, and your hands got all sweaty the way they always did when he paid attention to you. You couldn't just stare everywhere else until he broke the silence again.
โ€œHow is Rachel? I haven't heard from her in a while.โ€ You blurted the words under the weight of his gaze.
And you knew you'd said too much in those two sentences.
You'd first introduced Spencer to your college roommate after you realised you were in love with him. You'd spent a year at the BAU, and you thought he felt the same way, too.
You hadn't said anything, but you ate together at his apartment weekly, and you went on outings - dates, you'd thought they were dates - to museums and movies. He'd slept over at your house once, and you'd never felt happier than waking up with his arms wrapped around you.
So, of course, you'd taken him along to a party your friend from college was throwing. You'd nearly introduced him as your boyfriend, and looking back, you were glad Rachel had cut you off before you could.
โ€œIs this the famous Spencer Reid? You're cuter than I thought you'd be.โ€ You saw the flirtatious spark in her eyes, heard her tone, and felt uncomfortable.
You felt even worse when she took his hand and led him off to introduce him to more of your friends without a glance back at you.
For the first hour, you were worried about him, knowing that he never did great in social settings. You contented yourself by catching up with old friends, nursing a glass of wine, and trying not to follow him around the room with your eyes.
You'd given up and sat miserably in the corner for the next hour before you'd decided you wanted to leave. This time you'd had to track him down.
It wasn't that you'd found him in any compromising situation. He was just sat on the couch, smiling and talking to her. But when you said you wanted to go home, and he'd agreed to drive you back, she'd grabbed his hand.
โ€œSo Tuesday, 8 pm, right? It's a date." He nodded and said his goodbyes, and you wiped all of the emotion off your face so you didn't break down right there.
He talked to you as he drove back, but you could only nod and hum in response.
You shrugged off his concern as you walked into your apartment alone and let your heart break.
You were in Rapid City the next week.
โ€œYour friend from college? I'mโ€ฆ.I'm not sure.โ€ He looked genuinely confused down at you as your lungs capsized in on themselves.
โ€œOh, right.โ€ You nodded again and forced out a yawn, desperate to get rid of him before he could climb back into your heart again and roost there.
โ€œYou didn't keep in touch with her after you moved?โ€
โ€œWe hadโ€ฆ a disagreement.โ€ It was a kind way to put what had happened. You'd sent her one text asking her what all of that was at her party, and she'd sent you a paragraph back the day of her date with Spencer calling you pathetic and lonely and jealous. And then she'd blocked your number.
โ€œThat sucks. She seemed nice.โ€ You couldn't help but scoff at his words, completely forgetting your plan to ask him to leave. Of course, he thought Rachel was nice. He'd been half in love with her by the end of that party.
โ€œWhat was that for?โ€ He asked, the words spilling out quickly as his eyes narrowed, eyebrows furrowed.
โ€œNothing. It's late, Spencer.โ€
โ€œI don't think it was nothing. Why are you asking me about your friend? Why would I know?โ€ He was on the edge of his seat now, and you needed desperately to put some space between you. You stood up and stretched, moving to clean up a pile of papers you'd left on your coffee table that morning.
โ€œYou certainly seemed interested six months ago, Spence. I just assumed there was a second date after that first one. My bad.โ€
You moved to your kitchen, bit he followed you.
โ€œWhat do you mean? Y/N?โ€ You weren't listening though, instead organising and cleaning things at a quick pace so your brain didn't have to focus on his question.
โ€œY/N, look at me. Please.โ€ He stepped closer his chest nearly against your back as his hand found your wrist.
It was involuntary, but you relaxed into his familiar grip, your body finally content, and now it was back in his arms.
โ€œOr don't look at me and just listen to me. I don't know what you're talking about, but I never went on any date with Rachel. I wasn't interested in her like that, I was interested in-โ€ He stopped short, frustration ebbing his voice off as the silent words hung between the two of you.
You finally turned around to look at him, and you could see the hurt in his eyes.
He whispered his question again.
โ€œWhy didn't you say goodbye?โ€
โ€œBecause my heart was broken, Spencer. Because I took you to meet my friends and I thought I was going to introduce you as my boyfriend, but instead I got ignored the whole night and then you arranged to meet with her and she called it a date. I loved you, I love you and I couldn't say goodbye because then I'd have to hear about it. About how you were happy without me, when I was lonely and broken without you.โ€
You didn't know you were crying until the tears his your lips. He wiped then away, but they still tasted salty as you licked your lips.
โ€œI didn't come to work for a month,โ€ he confessed. โ€œAfter you left, I tried to give Hotch my resignation letter. He wouldn't tell me where you went. I came back but it wasn't the same without you.โ€ His forehead rested against yours, noses touching as his words came out barely above a whisper.
โ€œI can't come back, Spencer. Not until I don't feel this way anymore.โ€
He didn't miss a beat before pressing his lips against yours.
โ€œDon't.โ€ He said between kisses, pinning you against your kitchen counter as he gripped your waist in one hand. You didn't pull away, even as you felt your hot tears flow freely.
โ€œDon't stop loving me. Please.โ€ His voice broke as he pulled you in for a hug, wrapping his arms tight around your back, pinning your hands to his chest as sobs wracked through your body.
You'd held onto this pain for a year and it was all spilling out now.
He looked at you again and started kissing each tear away, lifting you up until your legs were wrapped around him, and he was as close you you as he could possibly be.
โ€œLove me forever. Please.โ€
You pulled his head away to look at him again, searching for reassurance again that this wasn't going to be one-sided.
โ€œWhat about you? If I love you forever, which I don't think I have a choice in, how-โ€
โ€œI love you. I loved you then, I love you now, I will always love you. I don't know how it wasn't clear when I followed you around every second of the day.โ€ He kissed you with each confession, looking angry at himself that he'd never said the words before.
โ€œI asked your friend how I should ask you to be my girlfriend. She had a lot of ideas and said we should meet up and talk about it. I didn't knowโ€ฆโ€ He cursed, not quite as quietly as he'd attempted to. The strangeness of it shocked a laugh out of you, the rumble of it vibrating through your chest. He still held you tightly, but he looked at you again, getting out of his head.
โ€œWhat's funny?โ€
โ€œYou tried to quit your job to look for me.โ€
โ€œYou moved to South Dakota instead of asking what we were.โ€
โ€œYou kissed me before you told me how you felt.โ€
โ€œYou kissed me back and then you laughed at me.โ€
โ€œYou swore!โ€ You laughed again, and you were sure that he was going to have to put you down this time. You were laughing so much.
Instead he pulled you tighter into his arms and walked out of the kitchen.
โ€œIs this the bedroom?โ€ He asked nodding towards the closed door.
Your laugh quieted at the charged question, until your eyes found his lips as you nodded.
โ€œGood.โ€
You let him lay you down on the bed before you pulled him in for another kiss, this one more fiery than any you'd shared in the kitchen as he hovered over you on the bed.
โ€œSpencer!โ€ You gasped as his hands trailed under your shirt. You regretted changing out of that small dress now, regretting the amount of fabric between you and him as his hands glided up to your breasts, mouth pressing kiss after kiss into your neck and collarbone.
He nestled his knee between yours and climbed fully over you, pushing your legs open as he showed you where you were going next. You moaned as your back arched into his touch, rubbing yourself against him but still needing him closer.
โ€œI love every sound you make.โ€™ He whispered as his other hand worked its way under the sweatpants you'd thrown on earlier, silently pushing them down your legs as you lifted your hips to help him once again.
His mouth connected with yours again after he got them to your knees, hand pressing flat against your stomach as you finished off the job.
He laid next to you, pulling his lips off your own as you trailed after him. But his eyes weren't on you anymore. You followed his gaze to his hand and watched him slip his fingers under your panties as he began to tease your sensitive parts.
You whimpered slightly as the contact, as he gathered some of your wetness and ran his fingers up and down your sensitive parts.
His lips found your ears. โ€œJust like that. I want to hear you just like that. Whimper for me, Y/N. Beg for me. Let me know how much you want this.โ€
You gasped as he started rubbing slow even circles around your clit, his body still rolled to the side so he could watch intently the pleasure on your face.
It was near voyeuristic, his eyes focused on your face, the pants of air escaping your lips, the way your nipples had hardened, and had become visible through your shirt.
You hadn't been able to wear a bra with your dress earlier, you wanted to explain, but you couldn't find the words.
โ€œLook at your body reacting to me. You need me to make you feel like this.โ€ He whispered, lowering his head to press a chaste kiss over your clothed nipple. โ€œRight?โ€
โ€œYes, fuck, yes Spencer. I need you.โ€
โ€œHere. Can you feel how much I need you, too?โ€ He grabbed your hand in his free one and pulled it over his erection, instructing you silently on how to hold it and rub it.
โ€œI can feel it, Spencer. Please, please fuck me.โ€ Your voice felt alien to yourself. You'd never had that high of a sex drive before, so you'd never thought you'd ever have to beg for it. But there was something in the tender touch of Spencer's fingers that has you desperate to feel him inside you.
โ€œDo you have condoms?โ€
โ€œNo.โ€
โ€œBirth control?โ€
โ€œYes, yes, please, Spencer. Please, I don't care.โ€ His pace had picked up, his fingers moving slightly rougher than before, but you knew you were close as he kept massaging your sensitive clit.
You knew you were going to cum before you felt him inside you, you knew you'd want to cum again. You were going to be forever insatiable because of this man.
He kissed his way across your skin as he peeled your shirt and his clothes off, leaving your panties for last as he watched you grind your cunt into his fingers.
โ€œI love you,โ€ he whispered In your ear as he stroked his cock, watching your body convulse as you came just at his touch.
He kept his lips close to your ear as he entered you during the throes of your first orgasm, whispering again when he had slid his entire length into you. โ€œAnd you're mine.โ€
You were intoxicated by his touch, cum drunk as he began thrusting and you wrapped your legs around his waist.
He nipped and sucked at your neck, listening to you moan and whimper as he pulled out and entered you again and again, head thrown back into the sheets of the bed you'd been too eager to climb underneath.
A few minutes of thrusting and he gripped your waist and sat you up on his cock, moving his hands to your thighs as you wrapped your arms around his neck as he bounced you steadily on his cock.
โ€œShit, Spencer, you'reโ€ฆsoโ€ฆdeep,โ€ you pulled him in closer, burying your head in his neck as you deafened as embarrassing squeal.
You came again on his cock as he used you like a flashlight, his own pants and groans soundtracking your breathless orgasm.
โ€œThat's it, good job, Y/N,โ€ he cooed at you, lowering you back onto your back and thrusting shallowly through your convulsions. When you'd recovered slightly again, he gently pushed your legs up, stretching you so your knees were as far back as they could go, splayed open so they were almost touching the bed.
His forehead rested against yours again as he held you in place, keeping his eyes locked on yours as he snapped his hips into you with long, quick thrusts that had you gasping again for the breath he was forcing out of your lungs.
โ€œI love you. And you are mine.โ€ He said. โ€œI love you, and you are mine.โ€ The words were a mantra to him as he worked himself to the edge.
โ€œYes, yes, I'm yours. I love you, I'm yours, Spencer.โ€ He came with a whimper, releasing inside of you and collapsing gently into your arms as you readied yourself to hold one another for the rest of eternity.
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All Bark and No Bite 11
Masterlist /Series masterlist
Chan x reader (y/n) x ot8
ABO!Nonidol!SKZ Alternate Universe
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Series Warnings: Fem reader, Smut, verryyyy nsfw, chan x reader, OT8 x reader, A/B/O, m/m/f smut, possessive! SKZ, possessive! Reader, anxiety and depression, reader is a CRYBABY, fluff, angst, virgin!reader,ย  cursing, violence, pet names, dom/sub dynamics, Sub reader x mostly dom SKZ, misogyny and sexism, Ateez are depicted as terrible people (sorry Atiny!)ย 
Chapter warnings: Smut, unprotected sex (p in v), kissing, suggestive, crying, cursing, fingering, biting, hair pulling, dubcon?, subspace, HardDom!Chan, SoftDom!Felix, fluff, angst, anxiety, manipulation, unbalanced power dynamics, and probably more but idk let me know This one ain't as sweet as the last few
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In a strange turn of events, it seems Chan woke up before you did this time. Not that you were complaining; especially when you awoke to him running his warm fingers over your mating mark absentmindedly, feeling the indented skin. Every little touch felt like electricity coursing through you, as if the zaps were bringing you back to life. Overall it was a very pleasant way to wake up.ย 
His hand that wasnโ€™t touching your neck had his phone and he was listening to music with one ear bud in his ear on a low volume. You let out a low โ€˜hmโ€™ letting him know you were awake now.ย 
โ€œGood morning, my omega.โ€ Chans voice was raspy from sleep. He must have only just woken up not long ago himself. He didnโ€™t say anything else, just held you tighter.
Moments like this were Chan's favorite. Being able to wake up to you; his mate, his omega, the love of his life - there was nothing better. He hadnโ€™t realized how lonely he had been before having you here. He never felt as complete as he did right in this moment.ย 
โ€œCan I listen with you?โ€ You mumbled sleepily. You wanted to hear what your alpha listened to. Wordlessly he took his other earbud and slipped it into your own ear. โ€˜Give me loveโ€™ By Ed sheeran was playing through the bud, the sweet melodies flooding your senses.ย 
โ€˜Give a little time to me or burn this out
We'll play hide and seek to turn this around
All I want is the taste that your lips allow
My, my, my, my, oh give me loveโ€™
It had been so long since you had heard this song, you used to sing this all the time in your room when you were younger and waiting to fall hopelessly in love. It felt fitting that now you were here laying in bed with your soulmate, who you had fallen hopelessly in love with.ย 
Chan began to sing along softly to the music playing, serenading you quietly.
โ€˜Maybe I should let you go
You know I'll fight my corner
And that tonight I'll call ya
After my blood is drowning in alcohol
No I just wanna hold yaโ€™
The alpha squeezed you a little tighter after he sang those words, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. Your heart fluttered at the action. The two of you laid there together for probably an hour, just enjoying each other's company while he sang each song that played.
Eventually though, you both had to get up as there was work to be done. For Chan anyways. You had to make breakfast and get ready to leave with Jisung and Felix. Chan had a lot to do today himself. He had been neglecting his actual job in his family business and if he was going to take another day off tomorrow to go camping then he definitely needed to make all his calls and emails today.ย 
โ€œAre you excited to do more shopping with the betas today?โ€ the alpha asked as you were both getting out of bed.ย 
โ€œYes. I am.โ€ You seemed apprehensive.ย 
โ€œBuuuuut?โ€ He pressed, knowing something was troubling you.ย 
โ€œI just.. Feel bad.. About spending more of your money. I didnโ€™t do anything to deserve you guys spending all this money on me.โ€ย  You were avoiding eye contact with him as you went to brush your teeth.ย 
Chan stopped you before you could enter his bathroom, arm out to block you. โ€œBaby.โ€ you kept your head down not wanting to look at him, now that you had embarrassed yourself again. When you didnโ€™t acknowledge him he let out a frustrated growl, โ€œOmega, look at me now.โ€ you had no choice but to look at him, he used a command on you.
ย You were lucky that was all he did, he had wanted to grip your hair and make you look at him forcefully. Chan had a problem when people didnโ€™t listen to him, especially his omega.ย  Some would say he thrives off of non-sexual dominance. They would be correct. The alpha was used to getting his way practically his whole life. He would forgive you now, you were still learning.ย 
Instead of yanking your hair he settled for petting it softly. โ€œIโ€™m sorry my love, I didnโ€™t intend to be mean to you.โ€ At his gentle words and even gentler touch you forgot about the command being used on you, leaning into his hand. โ€œYou need to understand that my money is your money. In fact this whole packs money is yours to spend as you please. The other boys would agree with me. Ok?โ€ย  He waited for your words of agreement and when they didnโ€™t come he egged them on. โ€œYou wanna be good for us right? Good omegas listen to their alphas.โ€ย 
You wanted to be good for him so badly, really itโ€™s all you wanted. There was a glimpse of panic on your face at the prospect of upsetting your mate. โ€œ Iโ€™ll be good! I promise!โ€ You nodded rapidly.ย 
He gave you his signature boyish grin, dimples on display, then leaned in and gave you a kiss, nipping your lip as he pulled back. โ€œI know you will, Baby. Youโ€™re the best Omega I know.โ€ You purred at his praise, finding it addicting. โ€œWe gotta get a move on, lots to do today if weโ€™re going camping tomorrow.โ€ He let you go into the bathroom to do your business and such.ย 
You went to pick out an outfit for today, deciding to sport some jean shorts and a basic black tank top. After that you had a quick shower and did light makeup.ย Simple but you felt cute nonetheless.ย 
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When you both finally made your way down to the main floor you found Minho and Changbin sat at the kitchen island making a list of what you would need for camping tomorrow. More like Minho had roped Changbin into helping him because the beta was a planner and liked to have things ready.ย 
โ€œFinally! Hyung needs help deciding what to do for foodย  tomorrow and Saturday morning. Any suggestions?โ€ Changbin exclaimed as he saw Chan, giving the older alpha pleading eyes.ย 
โ€œGood morning to you too Changbin. Oh I slept great, thanks for asking.โ€ Chan quipped sarcastically, and Changbin rolled his eyes with a groan of annoyance.ย 
โ€œGood morning, baby. How did you sleep?โ€ The younger alpha asked you, trying to get on his Hyungs nerves. He cackled when it worked, Chan letting out a huff.ย 
You giggled, โ€œMorning, Binnie. I slept wonderfully. Thank you for asking.โ€ย 
โ€œYeah yeah good morning whatever, can we get back to this now?โ€ Minho was getting frustrated, โ€œWe literally only have right now to think about this.โ€ย 
โ€œFine.โ€ Changbin reached forward and grabbed you by the hips, laughing when you squealed, and setting you on his lap. โ€œWhat do you think, baby? Any suggestions?โ€ย 
You leaned back against Changbins chest,ย  feeling the muscles behind you, head on his shoulder while you pondered. โ€œDo you think we should do easy things? Like maybe bring a bunch of premade stuff like sandwiches and maybe breakfast burritos for the morning we can just wrap in foil and throw on the grill?โ€ย 
โ€œThat sounds like a great idea, omega.โ€ Chan replied, leaning on the counter opposite you.ย 
โ€œYeah! To make it even easier we can place an order for them and pick them up from the diner in town before we leave tomorrow morning.โ€ Changbin agreed, tickling your sides mercifully. He kissed the side of your head when you giggled at him, ignoring the throbbing in his pants caused by your squirming. โ€œSmarty pants.โ€ย 
Minho nodded in agreement, writing down how many of each he approximated you would all need. โ€œOk so twenty of each.โ€ย 
โ€œTwenty?! Why twenty of each, there are only nine of us!โ€ You objected confused, looking at Minho as if he had grown a second head.
โ€œHave you not seen how much these guys eat? Changbin himself could probably put away half of them if youโ€™d let him.โ€ He was looking back at you as if you were the crazy one.ย 
โ€œHey!โ€ Changbin protested but didnโ€™t fight too hard, knowing Minho was right.ย 
โ€œYeah Bin, youโ€™ll probably end up eating both of yours and the rest of Felixโ€™s like you always do.โ€ Chan poked fun at the younger alpha.ย 
โ€œWhat are we talking about? I heard my name.โ€ right on queue Felix walked into the room you were all in.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re talking about the plans for tomorrow, trying to get things taken care of.โ€ Minho sighed, standing from his seat. โ€œSpeaking of which, I need to make calls for these orders to be picked up in the morning and then get the other stuff together.โ€ He seemed stressed as he walked away.ย 
โ€œIs he ok?โ€ You asked, worried for the beta.ย 
โ€œOh yeah he's fine, Min is a planner and likes to get things done in advance. Heโ€™s probably going to find Innie to make him help get all the camping stuff out of the garage.โ€ Chan answered, taking an apple off the counter and taking a bite.ย 
At the sight of his apple you remembered your task, โ€œ Do you guys want breakfast?โ€ You went to hop down from Changbins lap but he only held you tighter against him, refusing to let you go.ย 
โ€œJi should be back any second with pasties and coffee. He wanted to surprise you baby. Annnnd now iโ€™ve ruined it, fuck.โ€ Felix cursed, looking remorseful at having spoiled the fun.ย 
Chan clicked his tongue in mock disappointment, shaking his head. โ€œWay to go, Felix.โ€ย 
โ€œHey leave him alone, he's just a boy!โ€ Changbin defended the beta playfully, you leaning into him and huffing in agreement.ย 
โ€œDid somebody say Jisung?!?โ€ A loud voice came from the front door, almost an announcement of his presence. A moment later the boy in question came sauntering in, sunglasses still over his eyes and holding a tray of coffee and a bag of pastries.ย 
โ€œNo.โ€ Changbin laments, โ€œGo away.โ€ย 
โ€œFine I guess you donโ€™t want the cherry tart I got especially for you, Binnie.โ€ Jisung made a show of wafting the bag up to his nose, โ€œMmmmm all for me then. Here is yours, my baby. A sweet treat for an even sweeter girl.โ€ He handed you a chocolate croissant and a coffee.ย 
You felt your face heat up as you accepted the pastry. โ€œThank you Ji.โ€ When Binnie was distracted making grabby hands at the bag that jisung had set down, you took the opportunity to slip off his lap.ย 
โ€œAnything for you.โ€ He grabbed your hand and yanked you closer to him. โ€œAnyways, let's get this show on the road!โ€ with his coffee in one hand and you in the other he set off towards the door. Chan held out a credit card for Jisung who happily snatched it. โ€œMake sure she gets something nice. Our girl seems to have a problem with spending my money.โ€ He winked at you as you passed.ย 
โ€œOh you know I have no problem spending daddy's money.โ€ The beta cackled.ย 
โ€œWait for me!โ€ Felix called, scooping his own items and following you out.ย 
โ€œBye baby!โ€ Changbin yelled, crumbs flying out of his mouth.ย 
โ€œHave a good time, omega.โ€ย 
โ€œBye Channie bye Binnie!โ€ You called as you were going out the door.
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To say Eun was happy to see you again was an understatement. The second you walked into her shop she had a tight grip on you, hugging the life outta you. The older woman was unable to hold back tears at the sight of the bite mark on your neck, wailing about how happy she was for you and Chan and that the alpha couldnโ€™t be luckier to have landed such a fantastic omega. You had reassured her you were in fact the lucky one.ย 
It took another half an hour of chatting with her before she finally brought you out some swimsuits to try on. You had picked out a few modest one pieces for yourself but her and the boys suggested (demanded) you try on their picks first, an array of bikinis. You had never worn a bikini before so trying them on and modeling them was making you nervous.ย 
You had chosen a basic white one to start. You figured you would start plain and work up to getting more comfortable. You thought it was cute but knew it wouldn't be the one.ย  Thus began you trying a few different ones until you found one you liked. It had been almost 20 minutes since you had gone into the dressing room and the beta boys were getting antsy waiting for you to come out.ย 
โ€œEverything alright in there, baby?โ€ The deep honey tones of Felix's voice called out to you.ย 
โ€œY-yeah.โ€ you stuttered, debating whether or not to come out. โ€œIโ€™ve never- never worn a bikini before and Iโ€™m a little nervous.โ€ you admitted.ย 
โ€œIf youโ€™re really not comfortable you can try something else, we wonโ€™t be mad or disappointed.โ€ He reassured you.ย 
You felt better at his words, taking a deep breath before pulling back the curtain and revealing yourself.ย 
Both Jisung and Felix felt their eyes widen and hearts stop at the sight of you. You had decided on a little purple bikini with stars on it. It was so you. The swimsuit fits you like a glove and goes perfectly with your skin tone.ย 
They both had been too busy admiring you to say anything and in turn their silence made you self conscious. โ€œI knew this was a bad idea.โ€ You mumbled, covering yourself with your arms and going to shuffle back into the fitting room.
โ€œNO!โ€ they yelled in unison looking at you in panic now. Felix tried to compose himself but Jisung did not, falling to the floor at your feet.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m sorry baby! You look so, so good we couldnโ€™t help but stare!โ€ He pleaded, his heart thumping wildly.ย 
Felix nodded in agreement, now more embarrassed than anything at his fellow betas' antics.ย 
โ€œ Please donโ€™t turn away from us. We didnโ€™t mean to make you feel any negativity. We love the suit. It fits you so well!โ€ย 
โ€œReally? Youโ€™re not just saying that to make me feel better?โ€ You asked skeptically, still covering yourself.ย 
โ€œBaby, my baby, omega, believe me when I say this, if you donโ€™t get that swimsuit I will literally drop dead.โ€ Jisung was so serious from his place on the floor, not one hint of deception on his face. โ€œI simply cannot go on living any longer knowing I will never again get to see your beauty in this bikini - which was made for you by the way- and soon I'll die. In fact even hearing you say it was a bad idea almost killed me on the spot.โ€
โ€œOh donโ€™t be so damn dramatic!โ€ Eun called out walking up to the three of you. โ€œBut you do look fantastic in that one, Y/n. It would be a real crime if you didnโ€™t get it.โ€ She winked.ย 
It seemed all three betas were rooting for this one so it seemed your fate was sealed.ย 
โ€œI-if youโ€™re all sureโ€ฆโ€ You trailed off, letting your arms fall to your sides now.ย 
โ€œNever been more sure about anything, sweetheart.โ€ Felix gave you his charming smile.ย 
You hummed, โ€œFine. Iโ€™ll get this one.โ€ There was a round of cheers then Eun went to ring you up, adding a few more pieces she thought would suit you.ย 
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Felixsโ€™ big errand was buying blue hair dye. Apparently he used to have blue hair but it's been a while and heโ€™s ready to feel like himself again. He was too precious. You wondered if Chan would be ok with you dying your hair, figuring it wouldn't hurt to ask. Jisung tried to convince you to get some purple dye anyway and not tell him but you were too chicken shit to do something like that.ย 
โ€œDo you wanna help me dye mine, baby? I would love your company.โ€ Felix asked you, crinkling his eyes at you.ย 
Pulling back up to the house you found Jeongin, Minho and Seungmin outside putting some large camping items in the back of a truck. By the looks of it they had already loaded a grill and a few tents. Minho sure didnโ€™t waste time. โ€œThere you are, now you can help too.โ€ He eyed the younger boys.ย 
โ€œActually y/n and I have a few things to do.โ€ Felix grabbed your hand as you got out of the car, his other hand holding your bags. โ€œSungie would love to help you tho, i'm sure.โ€
โ€œWhat?! Traitor!โ€ Jisung complained but was quick to change his tune when Min gave him the evil eye. โ€œI mean, yay packing.โ€ย 
โ€œWe all have to do our part. You included.โ€ Jeongin snickered, handing the beta a bag to put in the car. โ€œAt least you didnโ€™t have to make a store run like Hyun and Bin hyung.โ€ย 
โ€œThis was your idea! You should be doing all the work!โ€ย 
Felix pulled you along into the house, quickly to go undetected โ€œcome on before they rope us into helping.โ€ he whispered.ย 
Both of you went up the stairs into Felix's bathroom after you dropped your bags off in your room. Passing Chan's office you could faintly hear the alpha in there on the phone, probably talking with a client. The fact that he works so hard so his pack could have the life they live was astounding. Chan really was a great alpha.ย 
Entering the bathroom Felix reached under the sink for plastic gloves for you to use, and set up the dye. You had helped your old best friend dye her hair a few times so the process was familiar to you. Thankfully his hair was already bleach blonde so you didnโ€™t have to worry about trying to bleach it.ย ย 
You loved spending time with Felix. Really you loved any one on one time with the boys but you and Felix hadnโ€™t spent time like this since your first day. That felt like so long ago when in reality had only been over a week. They say time flies when you're spending it with your loved ones.ย 
You were discussing what you wanted to plant in the greenhouse when you came back from camping. Cucumbers, pumpkins and peppers were at the top of your list, while Felix requested some carrots and spinach if you could find the room. In only a few hours you had finished dying his hair and had just helped him wash out the dye. He had chosen a beautiful blue for his hair. It seemed to compliment him perfectly. Now it seemed like he was representing who he truly was, with his hair being a clear sky and he himself was the sun.ย 
โ€œYouโ€™re all finished! It looks so good on you Lix!โ€ You were enthused, pleased with the finished product.ย 
โ€œAll thanks to you baby.โ€ He pulled a blow dryer from under the sink and plugged it in. โ€œNow I'm gonna dry it. Do you wanna help me style it?โ€ Felix really just wanted to be around you more, he wanted to be selfish if only for a while.ย 
โ€œSure Lixie.โ€ you beamed, reaching for the dryer. You were sitting on the bathroom counter while Felix stood directly in front of you. You turned it on a low setting and grabbed a brush in your other hand,ย  he leaned closer to you and came to stand between your legs.
ย You began to dry and style his hair, neither of you saying anything now but it not being uncomfortable. In fact it was pleasant. Being close with him reminded you of the kiss he shared with you last night.ย  Not you nor he had brought up the kiss, and he also hadnโ€™t kissed you since. โ€˜Maybe he regretted kissing meโ€™ the thought weighed heavy on your mind.ย 
Little did you know it was the exact opposite. The only thing on Felix's mind right now was kissing you. He was just worried you hadnโ€™t liked it since you didnโ€™t say anything about it, but you also werenโ€™t acting any different. He was so close to you he could almost taste you, remembering the way your lips did even for that brief moment.ย 
You finished with his hair and set down the tools on the countertop beside you. You were still facing him, afraid to break the silence or to move from your place in front of him. All you could do was focus on each other.ย 
Slowly and timidly, Felix leaned closer to you. You could feel his breath on your face and his scent get even stronger, and Felix gingerly let his lips find yours. Your eyes closed on instinct as you pressed yours to his in return.ย 
โ€˜Finallyโ€™ your inner voice said.ย 
When Felix felt you reciprocate his kiss he let out a small whimper, you wouldnโ€™t have even heard it if you werenโ€™t so close to him. His hands fell to your waist and he shuffled even closer to you when you parted your legs further to allow him to make the connection between you. Your own hands were on his shoulders.ย 
The beta didnโ€™t go any further and settled for what you were giving him. He wanted to go at your pace, afraid he would do something to scare you off. While you did enjoy his kiss it suddenly was not enough for you so you took the initiative to gently run your tongue along his lip. When he felt your tongue he whimpered again this time a little louder. His sounds were doing something to you and without thinking you rolled your hips against his.ย 
When your pelvis made contact with his itโ€™s like the damn broke for him and he let the niceties fall. Felix started to ravage your mouth now with his own tongue, his hands gripping you tighter and his own hips doing a roll. Your breath caught in your throat as a quiet moan escaped your lungs.ย 
He held you like that for a while, you both basically dry humping on the counter and tasting each other's mouths. Eventually it was becoming too much for the beta, he knew he would cum in his pants soon and he did not want to do that in front of you. He pulled back from your lips , only a few inches apart.ย 
โ€œDo you want to go further with me, baby?โ€ He prayed you said yes. You had him so worked up he didnโ€™t think jerking off would suffice anymore.ย 
โ€œPlease, Lixie. Wanna feel you.โ€ย 
Fuckย 
That was all he needed to lift you from the counter onto your feet, then he grabbed the bottom of your tank top and pulled it off of you. He groaned at the sight of your lace bra. You made grabby hands at his own shirt and pulled it over his head.ย 
Felix was so defined. He was so tiny the thought had never even crossed your mind that he could also be ripped. You didnโ€™t have much time to stare before he was turning you around to face the mirror with his hands on your hips and lips on your neck as he locked eyes with you in the mirror. โ€œCan I take you like this, Baby? Let me see all of you?โ€ He let a hand creep up your back to the clasp on your bra, but not yet taking it off.ย 
You nodded, and answered โ€œUh huh. Yes lixie.โ€ You were so ready for him. Honestly you had been wet since before you styled his hair.ย You would be surprised if Felix somehow didn't notice the sickly sweet pheromones that were draining out of you.
Felix unclasped your braย  with nimble fingers and let it fall away from you. โ€œOh my god you're so beautiful.โ€ He groaned out when he saw your bare chest. That same hand came to the front of your body and found your right breast, his thumb coming up to rub over your nipple. Now it was your turn to moan out, leaning closer to his chest. โ€œPut your hands on the counter in front of you, baby.โ€ย 
You did so without complaint and put your palms flat on the surface. He fondled your chest for a few minutes, taking in all the little sighs and moans you would let out as he watched your expressions in the mirror, finding it addicting. When you pushed your ass back into his crotch he let out an almost silent growl, nipping into the skin on your neck that he had been kissing. Suddenly he released you and went to the waistband of your pants, yanking them down your legs with no warning taking your underwear with them.ย 
Felix didnโ€™t know what was overtaking him but he didnโ€™t mind it. He was never this assertive when having sex but something about you made him want to take control. Whether it was your omega status or just your submissive nature in general he couldnโ€™t be sure. Probably a combination of both. You certainly were not complaining, liking this sudden dominant side of the man.ย 
The beta pulled down his own pants and underwear next, eager to have the constricting material off. There you both were, naked and breathing heavy in anticipation. Your eyes were locked in the mirror as Felix reached under both of you and his fingers found your bundle of nerves. You gasped when he touched the sensitive area, eyes closing only for a second. He could feel just how drenched you were for him.ย 
It was at this point that Felix realized he did not have a condom in here.โ€™ Are you fucking kidding me?โ€™ he momentarily chastises himself. โ€œUmmm baby?โ€ you hummed in response, waiting in anticipation. โ€œI sorta donโ€™t have a condomโ€ฆโ€ย 
โ€œOh.โ€ you froze. โ€œTh-then we can, umm, maybe we should stop.โ€ย 
โ€œDo you want to stop?โ€ He desperately did not want to, he literally didnโ€™t know if he could at this point.ย 
โ€œN-no but Chan and the doctor said-โ€ย 
โ€œBut I can pull out.โ€ He eagerly proposed, he had never been a rule breaker but right now he really did not give a shit. Consequences be damned. โ€œCome on omega, itโ€™ll feel so good.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t know, lixโ€ฆโ€ You trailed off, unsure. "Channie wouldn't like it.." You didnโ€™t want to disobey but one look at his pleading face behind you and you gave in. โ€œIf you promise to pull outโ€ฆโ€ย 
โ€œI promise,โ€ he said immediately. You nodded hesitantly giving him the go ahead as you readied yourself against the counter once more.ย "God, you are so hot."
The beta placed a kiss to your neck before taking his member in his hand and lining up with your entrance. He hadnโ€™t prepped you like he should have but honestly when you were both that desperate that was the farthest thing from his mind. He let the tip run through your slick that had accumulated to make it an easier entry. Felix slowly pushed into you from behind, the stretch of him leaving a slight burn and you lightly hissed at the intrusion.ย 
Felix on the other hand was in heaven. He had never felt so incredible from one push but fuck you were so tight.ย  โ€œFuck omega, your pussy is so tight, nnggg oh my god I donโ€™t know how I'll be able to move, fuck baby.โ€ Felix couldnโ€™t shut up as he filled you. His words were helping you though, as he stopped moving to let you adjust while he mumbled.ย 
Between his jumbled (what you assumed were) praising words he laid sloppy kisses to your bare shoulders, his saliva leaving wetness along your skin. You were absolutely reeling; between feeling him within you and his total personality flip that left you with whiplash, your brain was turning into a muddled mess. It got even worse when he started rutting into you from behind, his hips grinding harshly against your ass.
His chest pushed you further into the counter and with the new angle his cock hit something deep inside you. Your back arched as you moaned aloud, your head falling forward in your ecstasy.ย 
โ€œF-fuuckk baby, you are so good fโ€™ me. So so good, oh my god.โ€ his deep voice was getting raspier by the second. Felix reached his hand around, his small fingers finding your clit again and rubbing sloppy circles.ย  His other hand went to your breast and massaged your sensitive skin. โ€œLook at me, baby, please look at me.โ€ย 
You mustered all your willpower to bring your head up as much as you could, looking through your wet lashes to his gaze in the mirror. He looked absolutely wrecked, his eyes glossed over as he drooled on you. At the sight of him, fucked out because of you, you felt your orgasm approaching and approaching fast. โ€œF-felix โ€˜m gonna- gonna cum.โ€ย 
โ€œPlease cum for me. I need you to cum for me.โ€ He sped up his thrusts, humping into you desperately. He was close to. The pulsing of his dick within you sent you over the edge, and you came with a loud cry of his name.ย 
The squeezing of your heat on his member was enough for him. The beta knew he wouldnโ€™t be able to pull out in time but he still tried, cumming half inside and the rest on your ass. The second he came his urges took over completely and without a warning, his teeth embedded themselves in your shoulder blade. When his teeth made contact in your skin you moaned as another orgasm washed over you.ย 
You both were panting hard, you with tears cascading down your cheeks and Felix with your blood on his lips. It took you a moment to catch both of your breaths, the severity of what had happened finally registering in both of your minds.ย 
โ€œFelixโ€ฆโ€ย 
โ€œYeahโ€ย 
โ€œYou came in me.โ€
โ€œYeahโ€
โ€œDo you think Chan will be mad?โ€
โ€œYepโ€
โ€œOh. Did you mean to bite me?โ€ย 
โ€œUm, n-no.โ€ He stammered, โ€œ It had been on my mind since a few days ago when Chan said we could.โ€ย 
โ€˜Chan had said that?โ€™ย 
โ€œBut I didn't really expect to.โ€ He grabbed a towel and began to wipe up the dripping mess he made on your skin.ย  โ€œI guess now is a good time to tell you that I'm kinda in love with you.โ€ he chuckled nervously.ย 
You spun around at his confession, not really shocked. You were able to feel his emotions when he bit down on you. It wasnโ€™t as intense as when Chan bit into you - given he is an alpha and he bit your mating gland - but you could still sense the betas to an extent. โ€œFelixโ€ฆโ€ you let more salty tears trail down your face. โ€œIโ€ฆI kinda love you too.โ€ย 
Now he was crying, unable to contain his emotions and he fell into your embrace. Both of you were just little crybabies. Maybe that is why you got on so well together. It was easy to be vulnerable with him.ย 
It was easy with Felix. So you both just hugged, and whispered to each other there in the bathroom.ย  Both dreading the storm that was your alpha.ย 
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Sometime later after you had both redressed and Felix cleaned the wound on your shoulder, you both exited the bathroom. You shared a final kiss before parting ways. Felix going down the stairs and you going into Chan's office. The guilt was going to eat you alive if you didnโ€™t tell him (assuming he couldnโ€™t smell it on you when you came in).ย 
You heard more faint talking so you knocked and waited. You heard him thank whoever he was talking to and hang up. โ€œCome on in,ย  baby.โ€ He called out to you. You opened his door slowly and saw him sitting at his desk. His nostrils flared when you entered his office.ย 
Chan obviously knew what you were doing with Felix, but he didnโ€™t know the dirty secret you were keeping. Upon your entry into his office you were emitting a scent you hadnโ€™t produced in a few days; intense guilt.ย 
โ€œWhatโ€™s wrong, omega?โ€ He immediately questioned you, reaching his hands out for you. When he noticed your hesitancy to grab his hand he stood from his seat and rested his hands on your shoulders, bending to be eye level with you. โ€œDid something happen? Did Felix do something to you?โ€ย 
โ€œNo!โ€ you answered quickly. โ€œI mean, not really.โ€ย 
โ€œThen what's wrong? You can't keep secrets from me, I can smell it on you.โ€ย 
You looked down to the floor shamefully before giving him an answer. โ€œWhen Felix and I were..intimate, he sorta.. He didnโ€™t wear anythingโ€ฆ and he umm he kinda came in me a little bit..โ€ Your heart was pounding out of your chest when you saw the hardened look in the alphas face, his eyes darkening at your admittance.ย 
โ€œIs that so?โ€ He seemed eerily calm, if you knew anything about alphas itโ€™s that they are prone to rage so the fact that he didnโ€™t immediately lash out was kind of scary to you. Little did you know he was furious.ย 
โ€œIโ€™m really sorry, Channie. I-i know i wasnโ€™t supposed to but-โ€ย 
โ€œGo to our room.โ€ He interrupted you, removing his hands from you.ย 
โ€œW-what?โ€ย 
He let out a low growl, โ€œGo. to. Our. room. Omega, now.โ€ย 
You gave him a look of alarm at his menacing tone, but still scurried out of his office and to his room. You shut the door softly and then sat on the bed, awaiting your fate. You hadnโ€™t seen Chan angry yet, you didnโ€™t know what to expect. He didnโ€™t strike you as the type to scream and throw things like your father had been, but to be fair you had only known him for just over a week.ย 
After about ten minutes Chan walked through the door into the space you occupied. He still had that intimidating demeanor but he seemed to be keeping his cool. He skipped the formalities as he spoke to you though, โ€œ Take off your clothes and get in the shower.โ€ย 
You stood from your seated position and started to strip, gently placing your clothes down in the hamper before slowly making your way to the bathroom. The whole time he just watched you as if you were a prey animal, and he was the big bad wolf.ย ย 
Once you turned on the water to his shower it only took a moment for it to get hot and you entered the shower. It was a spacious area, with sliding glass and a shower head that rained down from the ceiling. Any other time you would have found solace in the luxurious bathroom, but right now all you felt was anxious.ย 
Chan didnโ€™t say anything as he slipped into the shower with you a few moments later. In fact he hadnโ€™t said anything at all as he helped you wash your hair, he only shushed you when you went to speak. It wasnโ€™t until he grabbed a loofa and began rubbing down your body from behind with it that he spoke. โ€œ This is a nice bite mark here on your shoulder. Did Felix do that to you?โ€ You went to nod in response but that wasnโ€™t what the alpha was looking for, and he used one hand to reach onto the base of your head and gripped your hair tightly, causing you to let out a squeak. โ€œI asked you a question, omega, and I expect an answer.โ€ย 
โ€œYes, yes Alpha he did.โ€ You gasped out, falling quickly into an uncharted subspace. Your inner omega only wanted to please your alpha now. His actions and words were shocking to you, he wasnโ€™t being the Chan you knew him to be. You had seen small glimpses here and there but never to this extent.
โ€œDid he bite you while he was cumming inside of you?โ€ His grip on your hair tightened in one hand while his other brought the loofa down between your legs.ย 
โ€œYes alpha.โ€ You tilted your head back trying to get some slack but it proved pointless.ย 
โ€œDo you remember the conversation we had with the doctor yesterday, omega?โ€ He knew you did, or else you wouldnโ€™t have come to him so guiltily.ย 
โ€œYes I re-rememberโ€ You stuttered, your insides fluttering with both excitement and anxiety.ย 
โ€œWhat did he say to us about when having sex?โ€ His lips were kissing your injured skin on your shoulder where your new bite mark resided.ย 
โ€œTo-to use protection until my results come in and I can go on-on birth control.โ€ your panting was getting stronger as you tried to forget about the pain on your scalp.ย 
โ€œMm that is right, baby.โ€ chans tongue dug into your injured skin, causing you to let out a quiet cry. โ€œYa know what the rule was and still deliberately did otherwise. What am I going to do with you?โ€ย  It was a rhetorical question meant to tease you. You started to cry at his words.ย 
โ€œ mโ€™ so sorry Alpha. Please donโ€™t be angry. Mโ€™ sorry.โ€ He leaned over to lick up the salty tears that were coming down steadily now.ย 
โ€œOh baby, I know you're sorry. Alpha knows.โ€ you perked up slightly but it all came crashing down when he said his next words, โ€œBut just because you're sorry doesnโ€™t mean there are no consequences.โ€ย 
He dropped the sponge to the ground and that hand grabbed both of your wrists holding them together behind your back and pushing you against the cold tile, your chest smushing against the wall. โ€œAhh Chan!โ€
โ€œSpread your legs. Let me in there, omega.โ€ you did as he said, and he wasted no time in rubbing the tip of his cock along your sensitive folds. โ€œFunny enough, I had just talked to the doctor on the phone before you came into my office, stinking like guilt and cum.โ€ The alpha pressed you harder against the tile. โ€œAnd it turns out you wouldnโ€™t even be able to get pregnant right now, those suppressantsย  are running crazy all over your body and hormones.โ€
ย Without warning he pushed into your heat, your sore walls engulfing him completely. He was so big. Even though you had been prepped by Felix so recently, taking the alpha was a whole other ball game. The only time he had really fucked you was on your heat, where your body was ready to accommodate his length.
โ€œR-really?โ€ you asked in a moan, both in pleasure and pain.ย 
โ€œUh huh. How lucky is that?โ€ He started at a brutal pace, the skin of his pelvis slapping against your ass noisily. โ€œStill doesnโ€™t excuse your actions. The both of you have to make it up somehow.โ€ย 
โ€œPlease, mโ€™ sorry.โ€ you pleaded between moans and squeaks. His cock always filled you so well.
โ€œThis bite mark he left you sure is deep. You know Felix would only bite someone he loves.โ€ Your heart fluttered at his remark, and it seemed your pussy did too. โ€œFuck so tight. Did you know that, omega? Your pussy tightened on me so you must know. Felix loves you, and now I'm sure you love him too huh?โ€ย 
โ€œYes alpha!โ€ you cried louder as his wet heaving chest was pressed against your back.
โ€œMaybe that should be your punishment. Yeah that's it, since both of you want to disobey me then that's the consequence.โ€™ your eyes widened, having an inkling of what he would say next.ย 
โ€œYou arenโ€™t allowed to touch him, at all, until I say so. No kissing, no fucking, no so much as brushing fucking fingers with him until I've deemed it acceptable. Fuck maybe I wonโ€™t even let him speak to you from now on.โ€ย 
โ€œAlpha no!โ€ You tried to protest but he only sped up his thrusts, making you only be able to moan and cry. Fuck he was fucking you so good. Better than anything you have ever felt. He had you so deep in space you could barely focus on anything than that thin line between pain and pleasure.
โ€œToo fucking late. You stay the fuck away from him, do you hear me, omega? Damn, I'm gonna cum. He wonโ€™t so much as breathe in your direction until I say so.โ€ The alpha let go of your hair and you sucked in a large breath at the release. He opted for gripping your hips roughly, his fingers surely to leave bruises.ย 
Your arms were free now so with one hand you braced yourself against the cold surface, the other was reaching behind you to grab at your mate, craving even an ounce of comfort as you were nearing your high. You made contact with the skin on his waist and dug your fingers into him.ย 
When you grabbed him the alpha let go and released inside of you with a loud growl, the copious amount overflowing against his length. His knot inflated within you, locking you into place with him. His growl set something inside of you aflame and without warning you came too, a loud wail leaving your lips and your eyes rolling into the back of your head. You wretch your head to the side bearing your neck for your alpha, giving him your complete submission. He almost took the opportunity to reclaim you, but knew you had enough biting for one day.
Chan stilled his hips, breathing heavy in your ears as he let you come down. He watched the cum fall down from where you were joined and be washed away with the water. After a moment when his knot had deflated, he slowly pulled out of you, kissing the back of your neck and whispering praises. He knew it would be a long night of aftercare.ย 
A/n: True colors are starting to come out a lil more, not everything is all sunshine and rainbows
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DANDELIONS
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PR. ushijima x reader; semi x reader
W. swears
GR. angst
WC. 2.4k
AN. Oh I live for ushijima angst. Anyways, requests are open as of 06/2024 :)) go ham pookies. Inspired by dandelions by Ruth. B.
(pt. 2)
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ใ€ŽMaybe, it's the way you say my name Maybe, it's the way you play your game But it's so good, I've never known anybody like you But it's so good, I've never dreamed of nobody like youใ€
"y/l/n. May I ask you a question?" Ushijima turned around to look at your distant figure, clipboard in hand.
"Mm? What's up Toshi?" You replied, smiling up at the larger man.ย ย 
His bulky body blocked most of your vision, but he wasn't clumsy. His voice was deep and commanding, but never once did it demand anything from anyone. He was the gentle giant in your life, but you couldn't help but wish he were your gentle giant.
Of course, you weren't the only one who felt the same for the man, but he had always been oblivious to any advances.
"Why do you not have a second manager to aid your business? I notice you tend to rush around, so for your sake, please recruit another manager." He wiped his sweat-covered neck with a small white towel and took a sip of water before running back out on the court to continue practice, called back by the sharp whistle.
He cares about you.
He didn't stick around for your response, but you made sure that you took up his suggestion.
โœฏยธ.โ€ขยด*ยจ`*โ€ขโœฟ โœฟโ€ข*`ยจ*`โ€ข.ยธโœฏ
During lunch the day after, you posted flyers around the school asking for assistant managers. As expected, the applications came rapidly and your eyes landed on one.
Aoi Nishiyama, second year, experience with managing outdoor youth sports clubs
She was perfect.
Two days later, after her confirmation, you found a girl peeking through the gym doors.
"Hello? Is there something I can help you with?" As you approached her, you noticed that it was Nishiyama. "Oh! Nishiyama-"
"Oh, you can just call me Aoi." She shyly grinned, turning towards you.
"Aoi. I'm so glad you decided to join us! Come with me, I have to give you a tour and- oh! What size are you? I need it for your uniform fitting-" Once again, you were interrupted, but this time by the olive-skinned ace.
"y/l/n. Who is this?" Ushijima looked at the timid girl with interest.
"Oh yes! Toshi this is-"
"Aoi. Aoi Nishimiya, but you can just call me Aoi." She stumbled out, her face flushed red with... embarrassment?
Ushijima greeted her, his hand lingering in the air before he turned away to get back to practice. He almost looked flustered, though someone could have easily missed his changed expression.
โœฏยธ.โ€ขยด*ยจ`*โ€ขโœฟ โœฟโ€ข*`ยจ*`โ€ข.ยธโœฏ
After a month of Aoi working with us on the volleyball team, the team outing took place. It was in a large field, perfect for leisure games and a summer barbecue.
The third years sat in a field, covered in fluffy white dandelions.
"Let's make a wish!" Tendou proposed, leaping onto his lanky legs, and running around to face the rest of the third years before plopping back onto the ground.
"We're too old for this, you dumbass." Semi glared at the redhead.
"I've never partaken in this wishing process. How is it done?" Ushijima furrowed his eyebrows.
You took two dandelions out from the ground and handed one to him. He inspected the hollow stemmed plant, rotating it every so often. His actions were mesmerizing, you didn't want to pull your eyes away.
Tendou plucked his flower out of the ground, smiling, "So! You take the dandelion and you blow it and make your wish, but make sure you don't-"
"My wish is to be in love with someone on the volleyball team." Ushijima bluntly stated before huffing at the delicate flower.
Something about the statement startles you, and your face begins to heat up.
"-say your wish out loud... but anyways... who is it Wakatoshi-kun??" You do like girls, yes?" Tendou peruses, his eyes closed and his brows furrowed.
"Yes."
"Hmmmm... There are only two girls on the team, yes? Aoi-chan and y/n/n-san... Which could it be... WAIT! Everyone everyone, place your bets! Y/N/N-SANNNN you're part of this bet so you can't participate~" Tendou muses, whipping out his phone to take notes.
At this point, your face is beet red, buried in your hands, your eyelids shut closed. Tendou runs around, asking the other 3rd years for their thoughts.
"AND THE BETS HAVE BEEN PLACED!" The guess monster beamed, "Now, state your reasons!!"
"I think it's the way he looks at Aoi. He's always looking in her direction with some kind of determination or something"
That's because you're with her, right?
"Nah~ it's probably y/n, I mean, they've known each other since middle school, and he's super open with her"
Exactly, you've known him for so much longer, it only makes sense.
"No it's totally Aoi, what do you mean y/n?? Do you see how quickly he got along with her?"
He got along with you quickly too, though.
"Guys I'm right here-" You sighed, your face remaining the shade of a cherry. "But continue I guess."
"Aoi." His deep voice resonated in your body, shocking every bone in it. His face lightened as he lightly smiled.
Bouts of cheering, groans, and laughter filled the air, but all you could do was stare at Ushijima and try not to drop your jaw. The thoughts began to rush through your brain, laced with insecurity.
How did she captivate him like that?
What does he like about her?
What does she have that you don't?
You looked down at the fluffy flower in your hand. Its delicate seeds could carry your wish far and wide, but would it even be received?
ใ€Ž'Cause I'm in a field of dandelions Wishing on everyone that you'll be mine, mineใ€
It doesn't matter, right? You might as well try, even if it doesn't work.
"Fuuuuu" You exhaled onto the delicate ball.
I want Toshi to realize I'm perfect for him... No no... that's too creepy...
I want Wakatoshi Ushijima to like me.
โœฏยธ.โ€ขยด*ยจ`*โ€ขโœฟ โœฟโ€ข*`ยจ*`โ€ข.ยธโœฏ
That day, he confessed to Aoi. The boys had run around the field looking for the girl, and when they found her, they practically picked her up and transported her to Toshi.
It wasn't hard for him to confess to her, he was straightforward, as usual. She ended up saying that she reciprocated his feelings, and they started dating.
It wasn't too hard to bear in the beginning. They would sit at your table during lunch and chat with the other members of the team, Ushijima would hold her much smaller hand in his callused ones. As they ate, Aoi would lean on his shoulder affectionately.
I wish that were me.
Not long after, you noticed you had become shunned by the others at the table. If you put a word in the conversation, you would either be ignored or spoken over as they continued the conversation. Most of the time, it was Aoi speaking over you. It hurt, admittedly. Your friends. People you had known for years had, for the first time, left you out of a conversation, attracted to the sweet and innocent voice of Aoi Nishimiya. The girl they met only 2 months ago.
Eventually, they forgot you were even there.
This began to creep into your practices and hangouts, all of which Aoi attended. you acted as you did, caring for those there, making jokes, being... yourself.
โœฏยธ.โ€ขยด*ยจ`*โ€ขโœฟ โœฟโ€ข*`ยจ*`โ€ข.ยธโœฏ
About a week later, you were approached by Ushijima, who had an extra serious face. To be honest, he looked almost constipated. His walk had a hesitant swagger to it as he came towards me. Far behind him was Aoi, fiddling her thumbs and looking the other way.
"Y/n."
ใ€Ž'Cause it gets so hard to breathe When you're looking at me, I've never felt so alive and free When you're looking at me, I've never felt so happyใ€
"Tosh... Ushijima-san" You smiled, the stress washing away. Finally, someone wanted to talk to you, to be in... no... to acknowledge your presence.
"We shouldโ€“ hanging... together. It... Aoi uncomfortable." Ushijima muttered under his breath.
"Huh?" You couldn't believe your ears... Was he saying what you thought he was? "I'm sorry... could you repeat that? I couldn't understand you."
"We shouldโ€“" He pauses, clearing his throat. "We should stop meeting. It makes Aoi uncomfortable."
Your head jerked up. "What?" You whispered, though your voice seemed to bellow through the silent indoor court, bouncing off the walls. "What... I... Follow me." Your voice lowered and you grabbed his wrist, dragging the ace out of the room.
"Does it make you uncomfortable?" You demanded, tears threatening to spill out of your eyes.
"Excuse me?"
Your face contorted with fury, your hands balled into fists. It took every ounce of your body to hold yourself back.
"Does me being around... make you uncomfortable?" You quivered in anger, looking straight into his unbothered eyes. "Does it?" Your voice was unnaturally cold and it took every ounce of you to not shout
"It-" He began.
"WHY-" Your voice shouted before catching yourself, "Am I that annoying? Is there something I can change? I'll do anything you want me to, just say what's wrong with me, I'll fix it."
A person in love will do anything to be appreciated by the one they adore.
All you want is for him to be happy, but you can't.. no you can't live without him. You can't imagine your life without him, even if it isn't in the way You want it to be.
"You do make me uncomfortable." Five words, and you began to crumble.
"If you'd like to know the truth, you are overly affectionate."
crack.
"You cannot set boundaries, even though you know I am in a relationship."
snap.
"You don't know how to stop being a people pleaser who can't help but say yes."
crack.
"You are nothing but a thorn in my side. You often distract me from playing right and you've created a rift in my romantic life. There is nothing for you to fix because nothing is there to fix. You have always been this way and you will always be this way."
crumble.
Satisfied with his words, he walked back into the enclosed court, greeting his girlfriend standing behind the gray doors. She peered out towards your frozen body, pity and satisfaction lacing her face.
โœฏยธ.โ€ขยด*ยจ`*โ€ขโœฟ โœฟโ€ข*`ยจ*`โ€ข.ยธโœฏ
The air in the gym was cold, not a noise to be heard throughout the massive building. They all heard him say that. They all knew it was wrong. You weren't a nuisance to Ushijima, but no one wanted to say anything otherwise to the ace.
"Y/n-" Semi stepped forward, reaching out to try and comfort you, but Leon put a hand on his shoulder, stopping him from rushing out. Tendou and Goshiki looked towards the ace trudging back to practice, Aoi running up to him with big eyes and a volleyball in hand to toss for practice.
You couldn't move. you didn't want to move. Semi shrugged off Leon's hand and stepped outside. "Let's go. C'mon." His hand dropped to the small of your back and guided your back out. It felt like all of the blood left your body and all that was left was your dull husk. You walked for a while. You don't know how long it took, but soon you could see the local convenience store in the distance. You plopped down on a brick fence and fat, warm, tears began to fall. You guessed the initial shock wore off, but the tears wouldn't stop, and soon your eyes were blurry with tears.
After a while, a blue fuzzy object appeared. You blinked away the salty tears, drying them with your sleeves, and saw a soda ice pop on your lap. "Here. Sweets help the tears." Semi gently said, smiling at you. In his hands, he had an unopened pack of tissues.
"You must think I'm pathetic. Hah, everyone probably thinks that at this point, ooh what's y/n without Ushiwaka, she's his dog." You waved your hands around, mocking god knows what. You looked down and opened the packaging. "Why are you here anyway? Don't you have practice? Coach Washijo's gonna yell at you again. Anyways... Thanks for the pop... you didn't have t-"
"I wanted to be here. And it's not like I'm that important to the team, after all, we have Shirabu now for setting. I'll probably get yelled at a bit, but it's worth it. I'd rather you be with someone than alone." Semi blurted, he was trying his best.
You giggled, snorting before catching yourself. Semi looked reassured by that. "Mmm... it feels nice that someone's still on my side." You sat there in silence for a while, and soon your pops were down to the stick and the sun had set.
"You got a free pop." Semi pointed out, before grabbing the stick and walking into the store to redeem it. You can't understand why he's here, He could literally be anywhere else, so why here of all places?
"Y'know, she's not all that." He spoke, walking out and gesturing with you to walk with him. "But anyways, you should talk about it. At least let out how you feel, if you're comfortable, that is. It's better than bottling it up."
You looked down, not sure what to say. "I mean, I don't think that he's the kind of person to throw away a friendship for a relationship this early- or even ever. But I don't want to fight it, he can figure it out by himself." I ran a few feet ahead before whipping around to face Semi. I gestured to myself and bounced on the balls of my feet, "All I can say is that he's gonna be missing out on the joy I bring to the table." Semi paused, then doubled over laughing.
"You certainly have a way of getting over heartbreak." He walked up to you, hooking your arm in his. You smiled softly, leaning your head on his arm and holding his arm tightly as you walked back to the gym.
"Thank you, Semi-Semi." You murmured into his sleeve.
"You're welcome y/n... never tell Tendou I let you call me that" He smiled and looked down at the top of your head.
"No promises." You looked up, matching his serene expression. "Can't wait for the lecture we're gonna get in about 5 minutes."
Semi froze. "Shit."
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ghettogirly ยท 5 months ago
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Hey boo! I'm not sure if you're taking requests, but if you are, would you be willing to check this out?
I was thinking about a fresh out of prison Armando Aretas. He's been a little rough with you during sex, ever since he was released. Hurting you is definitely not his intention but he can't help but lose control after all this time away from you. It doesn't bother you at all but he still feels bad about his actions and wants to make it up to you. (Soft smut)
xblackfemalereader or femalereader would suffice.
This is for the freaks! Okay, I'm out.๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹
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แฏพ ๐๐€๐ˆ๐‘๐ˆ๐๐†: ๐€๐‘๐Œ๐€๐๐ƒ๐Ž ๐€๐‘๐„๐“๐€๐’ ๐— ๐๐‹๐€๐‚๐Š ๐‘๐„๐€๐ƒ๐„๐‘
แฏพ synopsis: Armando couldnโ€™t wait to return back to you after being freshly broken out of prison, wanting to come back home and to cherish you again was all that he wished for. However, he certainly didnโ€™t wish to hurt you either.
แฏพ theme: angst with a happy ending, smut.
แฏพ format: story.
แฏพ warnings: sex, mentions of escaping prison, armando is a rough during sex, mature language, reader gets hurt during sex, use of a safe word.
แฏพ authors note: i hope you enjoyed!! This is my longest story yet, sorry it took so long, i added so many different elements.
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๐Œ๐„๐ ๐’๐‚๐‘๐„๐€๐Œ๐ˆ๐๐† ๐€๐๐ƒ ๐ƒ๐Ž๐Ž๐‘๐’ ๐๐€๐๐†๐ˆ๐๐†, this was a normality within the institution as the men went crazy being locked in their cell for 23 hours a day. Their brains slowly turning insane at the routine of staring at white walls while the day goes by. Men turned into animals here, feeling as if theyโ€™re in a cage, they had nothing else to cast out their anger on.
Animalistic screams were scattered around the block of cells as the prison warden took no notice, sitting down on his chair with his hat covering his eyes as his head was down. Clearly taking no notice of the cameras. Casually walking over to the welded steel door, Armando looked through the tiny screen on his door, looking around as far as the tiny little screen within the door let him. He was used to the chaos, however, that didnโ€™t mean it got any less annoying.
Yet, today was the day.
Plopping his magazine on his bed, he walked around to his shower room. Armando crouched down slightly. Pushing his fingers through the small steel gaps of the tiny vent in his cell, he opened it, taking out a match. โ€œaquรญ tienesโ€ฆโ€
His prison flip flops created a smack on the concrete floor as they connected. Whistling, he looked up at the camera while messing about with it in his hand. Wasting no time, A whoosh of light appeared before him as the flame quickly ignited and started moving slowly down the little stick. โ€œHasta el fuego.โ€ Throwing the match onto his bed, he ran into the shower and disappeared down the hole.
Below the hole was a motorcycle waiting for him , with some cartel members side by side. Jumping on the blacked out bike, armando revved his aggressively before driving off. โ€œVamos! ยกNo tenemos tiempo!โ€ The other men nodded before quickly following their boss.
๐’๐๐”๐„๐‹๐‚๐‡๐„๐’ ๐–๐„๐‘๐„ ๐‡๐„๐€๐‘๐ƒ ๐€๐’ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐Œ๐„๐ ๐‘๐€๐ ๐“๐‡๐‘๐Ž๐”๐†๐‡ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐–๐„๐“ ๐…๐ˆ๐„๐‹๐ƒ. Armandoโ€™s orange jumpsuit clung to him as the fibres shrunk due to the contact of the rain above, now displaying his buff physique. Alarms were heard blaring in the distance, presumably because of the chaos he left behind.
Regardless, he kept his pace, running to a remote location within the field. His cartel organised a chopper for him there, to safely secure him back at the mansion. Branches snapped as he jumped over them or threw them out the way, Armando stayed alert.
Left. Right. Up. Behind.
Every area had to be surveilled. No witnesses. No police.
Finally reaching the location, a chopper was there awaiting him. A member stepped out to greet him, yet, there was no time for that. โ€œยกSรบbete al puto aviรณn!โ€ The male shouted, ordering his men as he signalled the pilot to engage. Some cartel members were still far behind. โ€œTsk.โ€
Bolts of light flashed among the mexican faces as bullets made of hardened steel penetrated the bodies of the workers still running to the helicopter, knocking them down one by one, the male angled his arms with ease. Looking through the scope, he released each bullet one by one, none of them being able to escape this fate. BANG! BANG! BANG!
โ€œIf they canโ€™t keep up, leave them in the dirt.โ€
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๐“๐‡๐„ ๐‡๐„๐‹๐ˆ๐‚๐Ž๐๐“๐„๐‘ ๐‘๐ˆ๐ƒ๐„ ๐–๐€๐’ ๐’๐ˆ๐‹๐„๐๐“ ๐€๐’ ๐Œ๐Ž๐’๐“ ๐Ž๐… ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐–๐Ž๐‘๐Š๐„๐‘๐’ ๐’๐“๐€๐˜๐„๐ƒ ๐ˆ๐ ๐“๐‡๐„๐ˆ๐‘ ๐‹๐€๐๐„ ๐…๐Ž๐‹๐‹๐Ž๐–๐ˆ๐๐† ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐๐‘๐”๐“๐€๐‹ ๐„๐—๐‚๐”๐“๐ˆ๐Ž๐๐’ ๐Ž๐… ๐“๐‡๐„๐‘๐„ ๐‹๐Ž๐’ ๐‚๐€๐Œ๐๐€๐ฬƒ๐„๐‘๐Ž๐’. Twirling his ring around, all he could think about was his wife. You was the light of his world. Staying with him through thick and thin, you even gave up your dream of a beautiful wedding by marrying him in prison.
He was coming back home now though, ready to give you the world baby.
Satisfied with the life Armando already gave you, each day you thanked the heavens that he was still alive. It was painful, seeing him locked up. Yet, it wouldโ€™ve been worse placing down his casket six feet under. ๐Œ๐ˆ๐—๐„๐ƒ ๐„๐Œ๐Ž๐“๐ˆ๐Ž๐๐’ ๐Ž๐… ๐…๐„๐€๐‘ ๐€๐๐ƒ ๐„๐—๐‚๐ˆ๐“๐„๐Œ๐„๐๐“, travelled through your system as amygdala integrated your emotions with the other areas of your brain. He was coming back.
โ€œMaโ€™am heโ€™s here.โ€
โ€œJefe, estamos aquรญ.โ€
๐“๐‡๐„ ๐‚๐‡๐Ž๐๐๐„๐‘ ๐’๐‹๐Ž๐–๐‹๐˜ ๐ƒ๐„๐’๐‚๐„๐๐ƒ๐„๐ƒ ๐…๐‘๐Ž๐Œ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐€๐ˆ๐‘ ๐€๐’ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐Œ๐„๐ ๐€๐‘๐‘๐ˆ๐•๐„๐ƒ ๐…๐‘๐Ž๐Œ ๐Œ๐ˆ๐€๐Œ๐ˆ. Cartel members swiftly moved to the door, opening it, revealing the muscular leader. Splashes of dirt imprinted the orange jumpsuit due to the dampness of the forest. It had slight rips in it, clear signs of getting caught onto nature.
Armando slowly made his way out of the chopper, slowly analysing all his workers as they waited for his approval. โ€œEs bueno estar de vuelta.โ€ Bottles were popped as loud cheers were heard from the whole crowd, who walked over to greet him. He gave handshakes and side hugs to his most loyal โ€œfriends.โ€
๐€ ๐’๐‚๐‘๐„๐„๐‚๐‡๐ˆ๐๐† ๐’๐Ž๐”๐๐ƒ ๐–๐€๐’ ๐‡๐„๐€๐‘๐ƒ ๐€๐’ ๐ƒ๐Ž๐”๐๐‹๐„ ๐ƒ๐Ž๐Ž๐‘๐’ ๐Ž๐๐„๐๐„๐ƒ. โ€œFinally youโ€™re home!โ€ Running up to him, you jump in his arms as they wrap around you, leaning in for a kiss. โ€œive te perdiรณ..โ€ Armando whispers, feeling your scent flow over his senses, bringing him a sense of comfort. Looking up at you with love in his eyes, he licks his lips, โ€œMaldita sea, no puedo esperar para quitarles la ropa.โ€
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๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐€๐๐ƒ ๐€๐‘๐Œ๐€๐๐ƒ๐Ž ๐‹๐€๐ˆ๐ƒ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ ๐“๐Ž๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐„๐“๐‡๐„๐‘, ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐’๐”๐ ๐†๐‹๐ˆ๐’๐“๐„๐๐ˆ๐๐† ๐Ž๐๐“๐Ž ๐˜๐Ž๐”๐‘ ๐Œ๐„๐‹๐€๐๐ˆ๐ ๐’๐Š๐ˆ๐ ๐€๐’ ๐ˆ๐“ ๐๐„๐„๐Š๐„๐ƒ ๐“๐‡๐‘๐Ž๐”๐†๐‡ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐“๐‘๐€๐๐’๐”๐‹๐‚๐„๐๐“ ๐‚๐”๐‘๐“๐€๐ˆ๐๐’, ๐‡๐ˆ๐†๐‡๐‹๐ˆ๐†๐‡๐“๐ˆ๐๐† ๐“๐‡๐€๐“ ๐ƒ๐„๐„๐ ๐’๐‡๐€๐ƒ๐„ ๐Ž๐… ๐๐‘๐Ž๐–๐. His heavy arm laid on your thighs, sleeping at an angle due to his constant movement while sleeping. Clearly he was not used to being in a comfortable bed, transitioning from prison conditions to luxurious conditions being a massive jump.
Yet, you felt strange. Your body felt sore due to the sudden use of muscles contracting while keeping up with Armandoโ€™s rough pace. Maybe it was the prison system that made him more aggressive, maybe it was the excitement. Who knows?
Nevertheless, you brushed it off. Not wanting to overthink all the possibilities of the sudden change in his sexual stance the night before. This was a moment to enjoy life, not dwell on it.
Removing the pink, silk bonnet that rested on top of your head, protecting every curl from breakage, they spilled out. Resting beautifully on your shoulders. It was frizzy at the roots due to the intensity of last night, the sweat causing the curls to become puffy, but thatโ€™s not nothing a little mousse canโ€™t fix. Messing about with your curls as you was lost in thought, you felt a gentle press to your shoulder.
โ€œestรก bien?โ€
You nodded, not really feeling the need to tell Armando about your thoughts from the night before, not wanting to concern him on his first morning being free from the cage he used to be contained in. โ€œNever been better.โ€ Planting a kiss on your lips, he smiled at your reply, not thinking anything of it as he was essentially on cloud nine. โ€œVen a acostarte con-โ€œ
A loud buzz reverberated off of the oak bedside table, a loud groan was made by the male as he slowly rolled over to pick it up. Swiping the green button, he answered. โ€œยฟPor quรฉ coรฑo me llamas tan temprano en la maรฑana?โ€ You chuckled at his blunt answer, typical Armando.
A sigh escaped your husbandโ€™s lips, clearly annoyed at the shit he had to deal with so early in the morning. Placing the phone down he looked over at you, โ€œtengo que irme..โ€, annoyance was plastered all over his face.
โ€œThatโ€™s fine, iโ€™ll be waiting here for you anyways babe.โ€ You said gently, kissing his cheek and then his lips. Wrapping his arms around you, he leans for another kiss. and another. and another. โ€œYou need to go..โ€
โ€œยฟRealmente tengo que???โ€
Chuckling you lightly hit his arm, โ€œGo and get up.โ€
โ€œYa no me amas?โ€
A pillow was then flung towards his head.
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๐ˆ๐“ ๐–๐€๐’ ๐‚๐”๐‘๐‘๐„๐๐“๐‹๐˜ ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐๐Œ ๐€๐๐ƒ ๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐‡๐„๐€๐‘๐ƒ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐ƒ๐Ž๐Ž๐‘ ๐Ž๐๐„๐. Armando had blood splatters on his white-collared shirt. The first two buttons were undone as he coordinated the outfit with black pants, he was looking sexy but that wasnโ€™t the point. โ€œWhat happened?โ€ Asking in a panic as you walk up to him to check if heโ€™s okay. โ€œEstoy bien, no te preocupes.โ€
He walked into the bathroom, taking off his shirt and pants as he threw them into the wash basket. Walking back out, half naked. You couldnโ€™t take your eyes off him, the scars tattooed all over his body due to the violent nature of the cartel being a sad story to tell, but sexy to look at.
๐๐Ž๐– ๐๐‹๐€๐˜๐ˆ๐๐†: ๐€๐‹๐‹ ๐Œ๐ˆ๐๐„ - ๐๐‹๐€๐™๐€
โ€œSรบbete a la cama, princesa.โ€
Wasting no time, you did as you were told, stripping off your clothes. Slowly crawling onto the bed you laid down, spreading your legs as he got in between you. Tracing his finger up and down your clit, your wetness coating his finger. โ€œStop-โ€œ Not even having time to finish your sentence, he pushed a finger in, making you gasp.
Pumping it in and out, you writhed under him at the pleasure heโ€™s inflicting upon you. โ€œOh fuck!โ€
He slowly lowered himself down by your clit, still pumping in that finger. You felt his hot breath on your lower area, sending down electrical impulses throughout your nervous system, diffusing through your synapses. A wet object then placed itself upon your clit, circling it.
Armando licked stripes up and down,
making you moan in pleasure, tugging on his hair as you urge him to do more. โ€œI canโ€™t..โ€
โ€œPuede.โ€ Lifting himself up from that area, he pulls his finger out from you, putting it in his mouth and tasting you. Repositioning himself, he lines up his cock with your pussy before pushing himself in, stretching you out. A sharp flash of pain struck you before quickly dying back down. Armando didnโ€™t seem to notice and slowly started thrusting for about 5 seconds before increasing his speed.
It was somewhat animalistic as he roughly thrusted into you, clearly taking his anger out on your body. It was satisfying at first, but then, his pace got faster. His grip becoming harder. โ€œArmando!โ€ You shouted, but he was still caught up in the overwhelming feeling of being inside of you.
โ€œCherry! Cherry!โ€
Thatโ€™s when he noticed and stopped., quickly pulling out of you โ€œยฟTe lastimaste?โ€
โ€œEstoy bien, todavรญa estoy adolorido de la otra noche.โ€
You noticed the pained expression that plastered his face. โ€œLo siento, lo siento-โ€œ
Holding his face in his hands, you look at him with a passion in your eyes. โ€œI know you never meant to hurt me. Stop blaming yourself so much.โ€
Armando looked at you and nodded, before lifting you up and carrying you to the bathroom.
๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐‹๐€๐ˆ๐ƒ ๐ˆ๐ ๐‡๐ˆ๐’ ๐€๐‘๐Œ๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐๐”๐๐๐‹๐„๐๐€๐“๐‡, he slowly stroked your face as you relaxed against him. โ€œPerdoname quierda.โ€ He whispered.
โ€œDonโ€™t worry, i already have.โ€
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[๐Ÿ•ท๏ธ] ๐“๐‘๐€๐๐’๐‹๐€๐“๐ˆ๐Ž๐๐’:
โ€œaquรญ tienesโ€ฆโ€ : there it is..
โ€œVamos! ยกNo tenemos tiempo!โ€ : Letโ€™s go! We donโ€™t have time!
โ€œยกSรบbete al puto aviรณn!โ€: Get on the fucking plane!
Los campaรฑeros: Their companions.
โ€œJefe, estamos aquรญ.โ€: Boss, we are here.
โ€œEs bueno estar de vuelta.โ€: Itโ€™s good to be back.
โ€œTe extraรฑรฉโ€ I missed you.
โ€œNo puedo esperar para quitarme esta ropaโ€: I canโ€™t wait to take these clothes off.
โ€œestรก bien?โ€ : You okay ?
โ€œVen a acostarte con-โ€œ : Come sleep with-
โ€œยฟPor quรฉ coรฑo me llamas tan temprano en la maรฑana?โ€: Why the fuck are you calling me so early in the morning?
โ€œtengo que irme..โ€,: I have to go
โ€œยฟRealmente tengo que???โ€ : Do i really have to ???
โ€œYa no me amas?โ€ You donโ€™t love me?
โ€œEstoy bien, no te preocupes.โ€ : I am fine, donโ€™t worry.
โ€œAcuรฉstate en la cama, princesa.โ€ : Lie on the bed princess.
โ€œPuede.โ€ : You can.
โ€œยฟTe lastimaste?โ€ : Are you hurt?
โ€œEstoy bien, todavรญa estoy adolorido de la otra noche.โ€ : Iโ€™m fine, iโ€™m still sore from the other night.
โ€œLo siento.โ€ : Iโ€™m sorry.
โ€œPerdoname quierda.โ€: Forgive me, love.
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niningtori ยท 6 months ago
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make you cry | part two: beomgyu's ending
part one | part three: hyuka's ending
pairing: choi beomgyu x you
summary: after your feelings for beomgyu are revealed, you take some time to heal from your "breakup". as for beomgyu, he's realizing just how important you are to him, but it may be too little too late.
genre: romance, angst, smut (MDNI), fwb
warnings: smut (mdni), unprotected sex, creampie, sub!gyu, oral (f. rec), dacryphilia, dirty talk, praise, degradation (m. rec), if i missed anything lmk
word count: 3.4k
notes: hello again friends! am i satisfied with this? no. am i still posting it? YES. as you may know, there will be an alternate ending with hyuka as the lead. i will probably post that on my bday (the 24th). until then, i hope you enjoy this! and again.. pls don't be mean ;_; i'm still new to writing smut and this is not proofread
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itโ€™s almost been a year since the night you said goodbye to beomgyu. time has healed most things, but your rage certainly helped speed it along. throwing away old polaroids beomgyu took of the both of you, past birthday cards he wrote when he was feeling particularly sentimental, and clothes he had forgotten to take home with him most definitely aided your catharsis, even if you did it all in the midst of a rampage. do you regret it now that youโ€™re relatively calm? maybe a little bit, but not having reminders of beomgyu around your home outweighs any sliver of regret you may or may not harbor. traces of him fade from your body first, then your mind, then your heart. you still sort of miss him, that much is clear, but when you really think about it, youโ€™re not sure why that is. so you try not to think about it at all.
you're doing okay now, truly. it's not like you forgive him or anything, but you're not as angry as you used to be, which, you know, is better than nothing. you regret sleeping with him, regret not speaking up for yourself sooner, even regret taking his hand when he held it in front of you all those years ago, but you're starting to realize that it doesn't matter anymore. what's done is done, no use crying over it any longer. as for everything beomgyu did to you, he did it and he meant it. fuck whatever explanations he has.ย 
on beomgyuโ€™s end, it's not like he hasn't tried to contact you, but that only resulted in you blocking him on every conceivable plane. he convinced one of his friends to give him his instagram login so he can see your posts, but thatโ€™s about all he has to go off of these days. from the looks of it, it seems like youโ€™re doing pretty well on your own. your friendship with kai seems to have strengthened because youโ€™re calling him your best friend now, and who knows if youโ€™re fucking each other. the jealousy he feels is all-consuming. to be honest, beomgyu knows he wasnโ€™t the best of friends towards you, even before the hooking up, but he still feels wronged somehow. heโ€™s thought, in great detail, about how he would act if the roles were reversed, but that only makes him feel worse. because heโ€™d forgive you. heโ€™d be angry for a while, this much he knows, but heโ€™d always forgive you. you are, or were, his best friend, after all. and maybe even something more, but he doesnโ€™t want to think about that.ย 
heโ€™s shown up at your apartment, too. especially while drunk. sometimes, itโ€™s because he misses you. most times, itโ€™s because heโ€™s so drunk it feels like the only place that feels like home. you never open the door, though. he likes to think itโ€™s because youโ€™re not there, but after the fifth time, he knows better.ย 
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well, it had to happen sooner or later. your town is only so big and your friend circle is so small, of course running into beomgyu was not a matter of if, but when. even still, he looks positively shocked to see you at the house party of one of kaiโ€™s friends. as soon as you lock eyes with him, you know youโ€™re in for it. you should leave, and you really, really would, but itโ€™s a birthday party and kaiโ€™s your designated driver. youโ€™d make him look bad if you left so soon, so you decide the best course of action is to get drunk so your head stops hurting. after downing some drinks, you carefully avoid beomgyu and make your way to some random bedroom just to cool off.ย 
youโ€™re a few drinks in, head buzzing and tongue feeling heavy. it was bitter work, but each shot had you feeling less and less suffocated by beomgyuโ€™s presence. you wish you didnโ€™t care as much as you do, but the feeling is still there. seeing him should spark nothing in you, but you canโ€™t help but feel indignant. and honestly? a little sad, too. things have gotten better, but all the old feelings have been dredged up with a vengeance.ย 
while youโ€™re trying not to think about him, as if on cue, beomgyu bursts through the door.ย 
โ€œh-hi,โ€ he says hesitantly. really? thatโ€™s it? hi?
โ€œuhโ€ฆ hi?โ€ you say unsurely, kind of at a loss for words.
โ€œhow are you?โ€
โ€œwhat do you want?โ€ you ask as if heโ€™s a fly who wonโ€™t stop buzzing around you. he supposes, in a way, he is.ย 
โ€œi-i just wanna talk to you,โ€ he says meekly.ย 
โ€œabout what? there's nothing left to say,โ€ you argue. and with that, you rise from the bed, preparing to leave.
โ€œiโ€™m sorry!โ€ he exclaims, the words leaving his mouth before he can get a chance to reel them back in. โ€œiโ€™m justโ€ฆ really, really sorry.โ€
โ€œi donโ€™t care,โ€ you say flatly, crossing your arms and not even sparing him a glance. now that stings.ย 
โ€œbut iโ€™m sorry!โ€ he repeats, just like a child. โ€œcanโ€™t you forgive me?โ€ย 
โ€œand what exactly are you sorry for?โ€ you turn to look at him. โ€œsorry for treating me like shit for years, sorry you fucked me when i told you i wasnโ€™t interested, or sorry because iโ€™m not there at your beck and call anymore?โ€ his face crumbles at your unforgiving words.ย 
โ€œiโ€™mโ€ฆ iโ€™m sorry for how i treated you. i know i was wrong, but iโ€™ll never do it again if you just give me a chance.โ€
โ€œno,โ€ you reply firmly.ย 
โ€œplease?โ€ he begs, teary-eyed and words unsteady.
โ€œwhat exactly do you want from me?โ€ you sigh irritatedly. โ€œif you want things to go back to how they were before, youโ€™re out of your fucking mind.โ€ย 
โ€œwhat if i donโ€™t want things to go back to how they were?ย 
โ€œthen what do you want?โ€ you ask, genuinely curious now.
โ€œi want you, thatโ€™s all. things donโ€™t need to go back to how they were. i just need you.โ€ย 
โ€œneed me?โ€ you laugh dryly. โ€œyou need me now? you only miss me because you donโ€™t have me at your service anymore. stop wasting my fucking time.โ€ย 
โ€œthatโ€™s not true! i miss you. i-i know iโ€™m late, but i really miss you. iโ€™m sorry i didnโ€™t realize it sooner.โ€ he looks soโ€ฆ pathetic like this. itโ€™d be sad if it werenโ€™t so goddamn vindicating. before you can come up with a response, heโ€™s hurriedly saying his next words.ย 
โ€œi-if you wanted me to learn my lesson, iโ€™ve learned it. i promise i have. i promise iโ€™ll never, ever take you for granted again.โ€
โ€œbeomgyu,โ€ you sigh, closing your eyes and massaging your temples, โ€œthis isnโ€™t about teaching you a lesson. this is about me not being willing to put up with you anymore.โ€ he looks absolutely devastated by your harsh words.
โ€œiโ€™m begging you,โ€ he says, voice shaking like a leaf.ย 
โ€œwhy does it matter? what, you havenโ€™t been able to get your dick wet? do you need pussy on tap again?โ€ he blushes at your words. you mustโ€™ve hit a sore spot.
โ€œso thatโ€™s it. you donโ€™t miss me at all. you just want to take advantage of me.โ€ you donโ€™t know why, but your own words donโ€™t just hurt him, but yourself. youโ€™re not sure what you were expecting, but you can't help but feel disappointed. missing you is still all about him. what he wants, what he thinks he needs.ย 
โ€œi love you,โ€ he says. what?
โ€œw-what?โ€ย 
โ€œi love you,โ€ he repeats with more vigor. "i didnโ€™t know it then, but i know it now. i miss you so much because i love you. and i want to be with you.โ€ this whole thing is so ridiculous, you donโ€™t know whether to laugh in his face or beat the shit out of him, but you canโ€™t deny the way your heart flutters (and clenches) at his words.ย ย 
โ€œyou have no idea what youโ€™re talking about,โ€ you say coldly. what the hell does beomgyu know about love? love is selfless, self-sacrificing. he doesnโ€™t know a fucking thing about that. this must be a new way of trying to keep you all to himself. but itโ€™s working.
โ€œi know you donโ€™t think i do, and i understand why. i just want you to give me a chance to show you that i mean it. iโ€™ll do anything.โ€ย 
heโ€™s annoying, no doubt, but you like how he looks when he begs. you could get used to this.
how do you say no to him when heโ€™s begging so feverishly like this? beomgyu hasnโ€™t begged for anything in his fucking life. he hasnโ€™t needed to, given how easily everything has worked out for him thus far. but this new side of him sparks a new fire in you you had no idea existed. youโ€™re struck with a sadistic new idea you will probably regret, but right now? you want to act on it.
โ€œanything?โ€ย 
โ€œanything,โ€ he says so quickly you canโ€™t help but laugh a little.
โ€œthen strip,โ€ you command.
โ€œw-what?โ€ he asks, eyes blown wide in shock.
โ€œyou heard me.โ€
โ€œb-but the party?โ€ย 
โ€œwhatever,โ€ you sneer. โ€œif youโ€™re not going to do it, iโ€™m leaving.โ€ you turn to leave, but he yanks you back and looks at you with pleading eyes.ย 
โ€œiโ€™ll do it,โ€ he says with newfound determination. you slyly lock the door and he gulps before pulling his shirt over his head. heโ€™s been naked before you many times, but this feels different. he feels like heโ€™s being scrutinized to a degree where he can feel your eyes boring into him. you tilt your chin up and raise your eyebrows expectantly. with shaky hands, he undoes his pants and lets them fall to the floor. heโ€™s embarrassingly hard already, if the tent in his boxers is of any indication, which only makes you smile meanly.
โ€œi donโ€™t remember telling you to stop,โ€ you say arrogantly. he gulps and finishes undressing, cock slapping comically into his stomach. he stands fully naked and feels smaller than he ever has. you push him onto the bed and he wonders what you have in store for him.ย 
you straddle him, still fully clothed, but hiking your dress up just a bit so he can see how soaked you are through your panties. he whines when you take one of his hardened nipples between your fingers and experimentally tweak it.ย 
โ€œdo you like that, beomie?โ€
he nods feverishly and says โ€œlike it, like it so much!โ€ you smirk in satisfaction as you plant a searing kiss on his chest and he canโ€™t bite back his moans. between you sucking a blooming hickey and toying with his chest, his mind is fuzzy and all he can feel is pure ecstasy.
this isnโ€™t about him, though. and you make that clear when you move and situate your clothed pussy over his face.
โ€œsit on my face, please, please, please. wanna taste you,โ€ he cries. well, you wonโ€™t say no this time.ย 
you hold onto the headboard as he moves your ruined panties to the side and he gasps when he sees how wet you are. he whines again, showing you just how badly he wants to be in it, but all you do is lower yourself onto him. his tongue is skilled, just like itโ€™s always been, but thereโ€™s a sense of desperation that wasnโ€™t there before. he switches between fucking your hole with his warm tongue and sucking on your clit like a man starved. you feel your legs buckling as you reach your end, but his hands grip your soft thighs even after you finish, lapping at your pussy like a damn dog.ย 
โ€œah, too much! b-bad boy!โ€ you exclaim. that doesnโ€™t stop him though, and now youโ€™re sober enough to notice how desperately heโ€™s fucking into nothing at all. his cock, usually so pretty and pink, is now a deep red color from the lack of reprieve.
you thread one hand in his hair, just to have something to hold onto, and he groans into your pussy when you lightly tug his hair. before you can do anything more, youโ€™re falling apart on his tongue and crying out his name. a sound he never thought in a million years heโ€™d hear again, but what a lovely sound it is.
โ€œsit on my cock, p-please?โ€ he begs when you finally raise from his face.ย 
โ€œyouโ€™re not in a position to be asking me for anything, beomgyu,โ€ you say.
โ€œplease? baby, itโ€™s aching.โ€ you throw a look back and see heโ€™s right. itโ€™s beet red and leaking an ungodly amount of precum. your pussy clenches around nothing when you see how desperate he is for you.
โ€œplease? need you,โ€ he says with tears in his eyes.ย 
after all this time, youโ€™re still so fucking weak for him. you sigh as you take off your dress and his eyes widen when he watches your breasts bounce as you toss the tiny little thing somewhere behind you.ย 
he goes to grab them, but you slap his hands away and itโ€™s all he can do to keep himself from kicking his feet like a toddler throwing a tantrum.
โ€œbut why?!โ€ he asks frustratedly.ย 
โ€œbad boys donโ€™t get to touch,โ€ you shrug, and heโ€™s a split second away from whining when you harshly grab the base of his cock, shutting him up once and for all. before you can lower yourself onto him, heโ€™s cutting into your desire with his next words.
โ€œa-are you fucking him?โ€ he asks meekly. it doesnโ€™t take a genius to figure out heโ€™s talking about kai.ย 
โ€œwhy do you care? arenโ€™t you the one whoโ€™s always going on and on about โ€˜no strings attachedโ€™?โ€ you spit and he looks sorrier than youโ€™ve ever seen him. to be honest, youโ€™re not fucking kai. youโ€™ve never seen each other that way, actually. heโ€™s been nothing short of amazing to you, to be sure, but his lingering feelings for his ex and yours for beomgyu didnโ€™t make for the best foundation for love. at this point, you were the best of friends. nothing more, nothing less. but beomgyu doesnโ€™t need to know that.ย 
any words of complaint on his part are cut short by you sinking down on him.ย 
โ€œmmhโ€ฆ o-oh my god,โ€ he says hoarsely as the tip of his cock pushes through your entrance. itโ€™s always been a tight fit, but youโ€™ve been celibate for nearly a whole year. your muscles arenโ€™t used to the intrusion and he can feel it. still, you continue sinking down onto him until every inch is sheathed in you and heโ€™s touching your cervix. you can swear you feel him in your womb. his tears are falling freely now as he can feel you adjust around him, pussy clenching against your will as you try to accommodate his length and girth.ย 
โ€œs-so pretty,โ€ he says as his bleary eyes try to focus on you. you let out an airy laugh, but truthfully, you arenโ€™t faring much better. he looks so perfect like this, sobs coming from his pretty mouth and tears spilling over his reddened cheeks. thatโ€™s all the permission you need to really start. slowly, you pull yourself up with no little effort on your part. your pussy nearly turns inside out trying to get yourself off of his length. the lewd image engraves itself in his eyes and he cries even harder.ย 
โ€œl-love you, love you, love you so much,โ€ he whines, eyes rolling back from the pleasure. his mouth is open and you think you might even see a bit of drool pooling at the corners of his lips. you donโ€™t respond, but instead you mercilessly sink back down in one fluid motion.ย 
โ€œah!โ€ you both cry out at the feeling. youโ€™re so full, you can barely stand it, so you donโ€™t. up and down, you begin bobbing on his cock with little regard for his sorry state. he grabs your hips, pulling you down and fucking up into you, not once letting you falter in your pace. his grip will leave bruises, but youโ€™re not interested in the repercussions of your actions now as beomgyu grits his teeth and rams harder and harder into you. heโ€™s so lost in the feeling, he no longer cares about your so-called rules as he grabs your bare tits and pops one in his mouth. he begins sucking and rubbing his tongue on it and his big, veiny hand is busy teasing the other one.ย 
โ€œi- i thought i said you donโ€™t get to touch,โ€ you manage to choke out between gasps.
โ€œc-canโ€™t help it! your tits are so pretty!โ€ he says as if itโ€™s completely out of his control. and it really might be. beomgyu doesnโ€™t look like heโ€™s in control of anything at this very moment. he just didnโ€™t realize how much heโ€™d love the feeling. with his words of praise and the suckling of your chest, you feel yourself coming closer and closer to the edge.ย 
โ€œgyu, iโ€™m coming!โ€ you exclaim as spasm around him. a few seconds later, and you feel his hot seed overflowing from your insides. after a couple of more sloppy thrusts, youโ€™re collapsing on top of him and panting heavily.
โ€œso good, so perfect,โ€ he whispers before pulling out. what you donโ€™t expect is how he flips you over onto the bed and slides himself in your aching cunt again.ย 
โ€œg-gyu?!โ€ you stutter.
โ€œj-jusโ€™ wanna show you how much i missed you,โ€ he slurs, mouth agape and eyes totally glazed over. he hikes your legs up over his shoulders and pistons in and out of you at an ungodly pace. heโ€™s so deep, you can feel hot tears spring in your eyes as you struggle to take all of him in. he leans over and shoves his tongue in your accepting mouth.ย 
โ€œgood pussy,โ€ he says in a daze when he parts from you. โ€œso fucking tight. j-jusโ€™ for me, right?โ€ he asks, and you can hear the insecurity in his voice. youโ€™re silent for a moment before you answer quietly.
โ€œjust for you.โ€ he smiles as if heโ€™s relieved and continues to fuck you into the mattress until heโ€™s painting your insides again. he pulls out and the sinful sight of cum leaking out of your puffy hole sears his eyes. you look so beautiful like this, when youโ€™re full of nothing but him. the thought of doing this forever, just you and him and no one else, is enough to make him feel happiness heโ€™s never felt before.
he collapses next to you and pulls you into his warm embrace. heโ€™s never done this before. not after sex, anyway, but heโ€™s shown you the most vulnerable sides of him tonight. the sides you used to cry about not being able to see.
โ€œyou didnโ€™t answer my question before,โ€ beomgyu whispers.
โ€œwhat?โ€ you ask, still in a daze.
โ€œare you fucking him?โ€ you want to sit up and smack him, but he cages you in his arms. leave it to beomgyu to ruin the mood
โ€œ... no, but i just donโ€™t see why you would care. werenโ€™t you getting your dick wet until you couldnโ€™t find anyone else?โ€ย 
โ€œi wasnโ€™t! iโ€ฆ i couldnโ€™t get hard for themโ€ฆโ€ he trails off, almost hoping you didnโ€™t hear. but you did. you donโ€™t know whether to laugh or cry. is he serious?ย 
โ€œand the only reason why iโ€™m asking is because i just canโ€™t stand to see you with anyone else.โ€ for some reason, your temper flares at this.ย 
โ€œyeah? well imagine how i felt for years.โ€ heโ€™s silent at this. how can he make up for years of making you feel like garbage? and how could you bear feeling like this for years on end? it hasnโ€™t quite been a year for him yet, but he feels absolutely gutted. every day without you is miserable, to say the very least. and seeing you with someone else? heartbreaking.
โ€œbeing together is a bad idea,โ€ you sigh after putting some thought into it. โ€œweโ€™ll just fight and โ€”โ€ย 
โ€œwe wonโ€™t fight!โ€ he exclaims. โ€œwhy would we fight? iโ€™ll just listen to anything you say!โ€ย 
oh. you could really, really get used to this.
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๐‘น๐‘ฌ๐‘ธ๐‘ผ๐‘ฌ๐‘บ๐‘ป๐‘ฌ๐‘ซ? you could write something about jealous Lando pleasee. Honestly, I donโ€™t really know what it could be, fluff, smut, or angst. Iโ€™ll leave it up to you โ™ก
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He could never understand why you dated so many dickhead men all of them lead to you ringing him up in the middle of the night crying for him to pick you up because yet another fight has occurred leading him to console you over a bottle of wine and some much-needed cuddles he just wished that you would open up and see everything he did for you was because he fell madly in love with you he was just coward to even tell you scared to even ruin the friendship between the both of you making him move into self-pity when you go crying to him wishing he would tell you how much he loves you. The day you told him that you've got another boy on the block that you think it's going really well and that maybe he's the one and not one toxic trait coming from him did massively hurt lando he just wished for your sake that that was true and that you found the one.
You and Lando chilling in his Monaco apartment the sun shining through the big bay windows giving you a soft glow "Hey Lando what are you doing tonight?" looking over to you "Uh nothing tonight was thinking off chilling in for the night" shrugging "well me and ben thinking about going to that new club if you want to join" making his smile instantly fade quickly smiling so you didn't notice "uh yeah sure" making sure that you didn't notice which you were more engrossed in your phone than him at the moment having this small feeling that something was going to go wrong tonight but he keep that between himself knowing it will probably cause a fight between you both the last time he announced his thoughts about your ex you told him that everything was wrong and stopped being an arsehole and that he was using you to get to him was completely wrong when later down the line he was right and you apologised massively for that and ever since then he watched you figure your ex-boyfriends out yourself.
Lando always knew how you felt after that and you told him that a couple of guys before that did try and use you to see him and ever since then he promised himself and to you that he would never bring the conversation up again knowing how much that it affected you which you were happy that he listened to you and your feelings Lando didn't know that deep down that you wished he was something more to you but just like him you was a coward to even tell him and that all these guys are just to push your feelings away from him and with Ben that worked greatly. As much as it hurt him it hurt you seeing him with so many women daily making you separate from him for a little which he never understood why but it was easier for you like that.
"Ben said that's great and we are going at 8 o clock is that okay for you?" looking away from your phone towards him "Uh yeah will it be fine for me to invite Margarida? Making your heart stop a little "Yeah yeah that's fine" getting up from the comfort of the couch "Well I'm going to go back to my apartment to get ready I think Ben is going to pick me up so I'll meet you at the club?" making Lando nod walking over giving you a side hug walking you over to his door.
He knew he shouldn't have asked if his recent hook-up could come but he really needed to get you and Ben out of his mind for the rest of the night only he could think that Margarida would be a better option other than alcohol quickly sending her a text. He never told you that she was a hook-up he just wanted you to automatically think that they were together hoping for some kind of reaction from you which you didn't really show. he doesn't know how long he can put this charade up for...
8 o'clock came quicker than he hoped the sun slowly moving down behind the clouds sighing and looking at himself in the mirror "Hey babe do you like my dress" rolling his eyes " Marg haven't I told you to stop calling me that?!" he couldn't really stand her voice at the moment "but yes yes I do now come on they're here" not even give her another chance to change the godamn dress for the seventeenth time that hour.
The new club was lively tonight well obviously they are all here for the same reason you are. Looking towards Lando I saw that he was more interested in the glass than whatever Marg was actually saying to him which was odd but you cant deny Lando had picked a really gorgeous girl slim, blonde hair a model all-check box list that you couldn't really check for him yes you was jealous of Marg knowing that she has something that you don't which you truly wished you had "hey Lando shall we get the drinks?" ben spoke interrupting your thoughts which honestly you was actually thankful for but looking at lando it's like his thoughts been interrupted to "uh yeah sure"
Lando looks over towards you every chance he can get to make sure you are okay "So you and Marg eh?" Ben spoke making his eyes leave you "' we're really not together she's just one of my huck-ups" taking a sip of his beer while waiting for the other orders "Oh well if we're on that category" Ben paused "I'm only with her because of you" making Lando look back at him furious his hands tightly around his glass "What!" Lando automatically wants to meet his hands with his face but he knows he cant "Well you're cool and she's your friend so she is my better option" he laughed a little not really observing that Lando was mad "Are you joking Ben that women has everything that you need why!" "well the sex is another good thing" that was it for Lando his fist connecting to his face.
However, y/n saw everything running towards the boys "What the hell Lando!" dragging Ben next to her and looking at his face "Tell her what you told me tell her!" Y/N looked confused towards Ben but only he smirked: "I don't know what you're talking about?" Lando's hands fisted once again "this dickhead told me he only wants you Y/N because you are my friend and I quote that sex is another good thing" She didn't want to hear more "Please tell me he's joking Ben please" but ben just shrugged and nodded "then Lando had the right to hit you and hear I am stupid defending your dumb arse" she didn't want to see her cry that just shows that he won Lando grabbed her hand walking her out off the club
"I'm so sorry Lando I'm so sorry to defend him over you I don't know what to say" the tears slowly coming out Landos hand automatically wiping them away "Listen love I totally understand you didn't know you didn't listen you wasn't their I get it" out off all the words Lando know what to do or say he knew how to console you and everyday you was grateful for it "shall we go home" you just nodded wanting to get away from this club.
Both Lando and Y/n are wide awake in two separate rooms both of them thinking the same things after tonight y/n truly knew her forever was and it was under her nose forever and honestly it only took for tonight to find out the jealous thoughts when he had women surrounding him wanting to just grab him and just be hers she felt silly letting all these men degrade her when there was one man who praised her made her feel loved and praised the floor she walked on. For Lando, he thought the same the constant jealousy for all the men that she dated.
y/n walked into Lando's room she just about saw his shadow wrapped around the quilt in his bed "Are you awake" she whispered his figure slowly waking up "Come here" his voice responded lifting his quilt covers inviting in quickly jumping in "Thank you for tonight Lando I couldn't thank you enough" Lando grabbed her hand she was thankful that it was dark but the blush she had on her face will probably make her like a tomato "can I be honest with you?" Y/N nodded "Uh Y/N I like you no I love you. you honestly don't understand everything I feel when you tell me you got another boy but after tonight everything I think is because I fell for you a while ago and I'm so sorry that it took me this long to tell you" Y/N leaned over turning the bedside lamp on looking towards Lando's eyes "honestly Lando it took me tonight when in bed with my own little mind to finally understand what I'm actually feeling is that I'm falling in love with you as well I just want to say thank you for making me feel the way I should feel from a man" Lando leant over wiping the tear away from her cheek the one she didn't notice that even left her "can I kiss you" Y/N nodded both of them connected they're lips and after that she knew that Lando was forever.
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