okay uhm. to be honest. when I see whole studios and huge teams participating in the game jam (and their entries are PHENOMENAL, absolutely stunning) I get very very intimidated as well as frustrated because I'm a beginner solo dev and I just can't keep up with teams full of artists, writers and programmers (especially the programming/coding part, I'm a super beginner).
I'm fully aware of the fact that it's not about winning, there’s no way I’d win anything at all, but I still feel really bad. I look at my rustical, absolutely beginner VN and feel... ashamed of it. I'm quite confident in my storytelling skills and I'm a really good artist with an eye for atmosphere and setting the mood - but this whole thing just feels like I have no place there.
well, I'm gonna opt out of the game jam! I just don't feel like this is a good place for me to learn this new media. I will finish Jupiter Exitus so you guys can play it (and hopefully enjoy it!), but I don't think I'll submit it to the jam.
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need to get my gender dysphoria comic project done asap i am so sick of being misgendered by my twitter followers lmao :')
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I know this is a pet peeve of mine but I really hate that media keeps calling these things "artificial intelligence" when true AI doesn't exist yet. there is no such thing. everything that is AI or machine learning right now are just super fast pattern matching algorithms trained on very very specific or incomplete datasets. they can cobble similar looking data together and make it seem "coherent" (regardless of truthiness or factual basis), but they can't make decisions or assign values to anything. they aren't intelligent!!! they just know how to look intelligent!!!
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Suuuuuuper nice sunny day yesterday. Even one of my planes came overhead :( but I was soooo good and didn't even go out on the bike two hours of shoveling and moving heavy potplants doesn't count. That's still rest.
Anyway, the latest issue is what I thought was just a continuation of the first issue, so I've spent an hour reading scientific reports to see if it's okay to restart the first prescription they gave me at the hospital which made my second infection worse.
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the chainsaw man people are starting to really make me irritated. no i’m not going to reblog your jjk 212 fanart when you write under it that megumi just got treated like aki. sorry to break it to you but megumi’s fate was first hinted in may 2018, half a year before the first chapter of csm was published. i don’t care fujimoto got there first. what’s going on in juju rn isn’t some riding the coattails of csm. it’s very clearly been the plan all along.
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the craziest thing about me, a noted tragedy defender, wrote my thesis on antigone, self-described no. 1 crais girl, is that i... never actually finished farscape seasons 3/4 and i never watched the last five episodes of bbc merlin and i never watched the end of bbc robin hood and i've found it impossible to pick up the silmarillion again. not because i don't want to, because i am also most of the time a dogged completionist. but because i would be an inconsolable wreck watching my favorite characters actually irrevocably die. i'm barely psychologically stable enough to think about their canon deaths let alone watch their canon deaths.
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idk all I'm saying is I'm an Elder Queer, at this point, and all I hear when I see some fuck claiming that David J or anyone on the staff of OFMD is """homophobic""" or some other such tripe is "I'm an ungrateful twat who doesn't know anything about how bad shit used to be for the LGBT community"
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