#black women nonbinary

[theworthynerodivergent]

More on being nonbinary

I have joined some communities since coming to this conclusion and they have made me feel more confident in my thoughts and feelings.

After doing some research I can say that I believe that I am a nonbinary trans masc. I know this can be defined differently from person to person so for me I’d say I feel like I can go between feeling masculine and feminine but I feel that I lean more toward masculine majority of the time. Sometimes I feel like I do feel like neither and I’m just here existing.

For me, I’ve noticed discovering this has been more emotional for me than coming to the conclusion I have adhd. I think it’s because this has the potential to drastically change my life. If it does I’m pretty sure it will be for the better but still change is scary.

While discovering adhd is more of an ah I understand and I can work to work with this being nonbinary is more like time to begin the journey of acceptance, learning, and unlearning and I think it’s forcing me out of my comfort zone of putting myself last to appease others.

With this, I no longer wish to put myself last. I want to feel comfortable in my skin and be proud of who I am. This is going to be a long journey but it’s one I want to take being scared and all.

I told my boyfriend of… wow 8 years yesterday and while he’s not entirely surprised he said that he needs time to process. It was hard for me to do it so it was nice to hear that he accepts me for who I am and loves me no matter what. Tho this still may change things in our relationship and I’ve decided I’ll be ok with whatever happens.

As far as pronouns idk yet I say for now I’m ok with any and all this may change later.

As far as my appearance I already dress sort of masculine but I want to fully commit now and I was thinking of also getting a binder but I have a big chest (44 F) so idk what would be a good one for me. If anyone has any suggestions I am open to hearing them.

This self-discovery journey of mine has been very eye-opening, emotional, draining, overwhelming, stressful, and reassuring. I’m learning so much about myself and realizing I’m not lazy, crazy, or dumb and there is a reason for my experiences and they are valid just like my feelings.

From learning about adhd, the trauma that I’ve been in denial about (more on that later), and identifying as nonbinary this has been a wild transformative few months. I am very curious to find out more about myself.

[genderqueerdykes]

here's to black trans women with anger issues. here's to black trans women who get misgendered for being "too loud" or "too aggressive". here's to black trans women who are stereotyped as angry and aggressive just by virtue of being black even when you are calm. here's to black trans women who are viewed as "angry" for being loud. here's to black trans women who struggle with controlling the volume of their voice due to neurodivergence, trauma or otherwise, here's to black trans women who are traumatized and struggle to regulate their emotions. here's to black trans women who become irritable, agitated, and annoyed easily due to neurodivergence and/or trauma. here's to black trans women with violent intrusive thoughts and impulses. here's to black trans women with personality disorders who are treated like assholes and monsters.

here's to black trans women with psychotic disorders who react to delusions and hallucinations and "scare" people. here's to mentally ill black trans women who are seen as "scary". here's to black trans women who snap and yell when reacting to abuse and get abused further. here's to black trans women who get misgendered when they defend themselves. here's to mixed black trans women who become furious when having their racial background challenged. here's to black trans women who are jaded, disenfranchised, bitter, hurt, and spiteful from dealing with racism & transmisogynoir.

you're not a bad person, by any stretch of the imagination. you have dealt with brutal mistreatment in a white transmisogynistic society and you are tired. you are dealing with constant abuse, and it's okay if you are angry and bitter about it. it's okay to be mentally ill, neurodivergent and traumatized as a black trans woman. you don't deserve further mistreatment while you are attempting to cope with and adjust to a society that refuses to accommodate you.

[angelfacemjj]

Hey, this is your friendly reminder that cisnormativity and gender binarism are products of colonialism and racism, so I really recommend you, white trans people, to start engaging with anti racism, because ignoring our experiences and upholding white supremacy is only gonna worsen the situation. <3

[lgbtqtext]

[spinfader]

I was feelin myself this weekend 😌

This is my best fit ever haha.

[punkeropercyjackson]

Terfs be like 'I have so much gender trauma so i think gender shouldn't be real' and then didn't even get forcefably degendered and misgendered their entire childhoods

[1trilliongrams]

The scariest part is it’s not contained to the borders of the US. I wish it were. I wish we were an isolated cesspit.

But the kind of hatred it takes to vote for him is present or spreading all over.

I won’t tell you to have hope, calm down, see a silver lining. Fuck that. Grieving is healthy.

Take care of yourself. Take care of your loved ones. Take care of your neighbors. All we have is each other.

[thenatureofbutch]

You playing ball with these handsome ass studs or you watching from behind the fence?

Screen grabs taken from ‘studs world’ a lesbian masculine off centre series on YouTube.

[theworthynerodivergent]

Hey everyone! So it’s decently late and I’m actually tired so I’ll be heading to bed soon. First I just wanted to write a quick little thing saying that:

I haven’t really been on here because I’ve been busy with my new job. I like it so far the people are cool tho I can tell I’m going to be very busy. I already have a full caseload and got ton of paperwork to do. I’m trying to not become overwhelmed and take things as they come but easier said than done. One good thing is it is a 9-5 an no weekends so I do get time to myself so yay for that.

Also I had my final session today for the adhd assessment where we go over the results and it is official I have been diagnosed with adhd and I can stop saying I think I have it. Idk if it’s weird to say I’m happy but I think it’s because I always felt like something was different about me an after being told nothing is wrong with me all my life it’s nice to have an actual answer. Results also came back for anxiety an depression but that’s nothing new. I think I will try meditation just to see how it goes for me. A lot of people in my life are against me trying meditation but I have no issue with it. It’s not their body or Brain so they will be alright.

Last thing I guess I will bring up is my non binary journey. I’ve told all the physical people that I’ve wanted to know except for like 3 people and I may tell them one day but not now. An I haven’t done much in changing myself but I feel better I guess just by acknowledging it an knowing that I do have people around me who accept me. Oh also when I first applied for the adhd assessment I put I’m non binary and I was told that my result papers that will be uploaded say Mx which is pretty cool. I still don’t have a preference for pronouns when people ask I just say she/they. Tho one thing I have noticed I’m ok with being called she but if something says like woman, girl, female, in my head I’m like no 😡. So that is also interesting lol. (Tho I do acknowledge that I am a black woman)

I said this was gonna be quick sorry I lied but I’ll wrap up now. So new job, new diagnosis, new gender an same ol anxiety about everything but I am happier so yay me.

Thank you for reading my ramblings and now I am off to bed night!

[seven-juniper]

My back camera>>>

[lgbtqtext]

[thrydes]

“i am both at once and neither one”

[spinfader]

Tummy Tuesday and bicep day at the gym.

[punkeropercyjackson]

Yes trans women are women but also trans women are trans.Please stop acting like trans men and enbys are the ultimate say so's of transgender people and that something being transmisogynistic is outweighed by (often white) transmasc/unaligned people liking it

[iamneosoul]

Closer get closer to me

[crossdreamers]

Jackie Shane, the black transgender R&B icon

Any Other Way: The Jackie Shane Story is a documentary by Michael Mabbott and Lucah Rosenberg-Lee, focusing on the life of Jackie Shane, a Black, openly trans R&B singer from the 1960s.

The filmmakers faced challenges due to limited footage of Shane, using live albums and phone conversations to recreate her story with Black trans actors and rotoscope animation.

The film highlights themes of overcoming fear and the erasure of trans history, showcasing Shane’s strength and musical talent.

IN Magazine has more.

See also: Trailblazing Black trans singer Jackie Shane finally gets her due in Tennessee

Here's Jackie Shane singing Walking the Dog back in 1965.