#binary boyfriends wtf

[poeticamethyst]

Kiaz is home 🥺❤️‍🩹

[cringefailkralie]

being a TRUE f*g hag means taking your gbf to the hospital after his toxic yaoi situationship breaks his arm

[ihatethebrits]

i’ve never posted on tumblr before, i feel like an old man tryna figure out how this works 😭

anyways these are so fun to make

[misterbenzadrine]

Demetri's Friendships

mainly with a focus on college but also his friends in general

as always, this is mainly me projecting on dem and just pulling from how i am with my friends

Yas

he and yas have a relationship that, from the outside, seems super weird and probably dysfunctional but they somehow know exactly how to understand each other ?? like yeah yas is sometimes mean to dem and he annoys the shit out of her but like it's all done very affectionately and they both know that

while it's not confirmed in canon where yas is going to school, i'm gonna hc yas as a san diego state university girlie

they meet up every other weekend and facetime once a week

it's unclear to others if they're dating or just friends but yas is a surprisingly clingy person and, when paired with dem's fear of abandonment and general anxiety about the worst-case scenarios, they both spend a lot of time keeping each other grounded

"hey loser, i saw this stupid book from that stupid show you like" = "this mha graphic novel reminded me of you and i thought you'd like it. i miss you"

"i'll have you know it's not a stupid show, it's actually an incredible masterpiece that has a large cultural impact, not that someone as uncultured as you would know" = "i miss you too, thank you for thinking of me"

Hawk

they always have been and always will be the same overly codependent duo that miguel met in the cafeteria

but they know how to balance that out with other aspects of their life now (school, extracurriculars, other friends, "girlfriends", jobs, etc.)

he'd explode if they had to do long-distance. like he would actually turn to dust without hawk. he started crackling when eli said he was going to caltech so demetri immediately applied to caltech to stop the disintegration process

i put this in the tags of some other post but i'll reiterate: demetri is like tinkerbell when it comes to hawk. if hawk's not acknowledging him in some way or in his general proximity, he starts to dim and die

they're not even long-distance in a hypothetical scenario, because it's never happening (demetri's words exactly)

they're roommates throughout college (omg and they were roommates)

they do have their own lives, obvi, but they happen to overlap a lot (incidentally making friends in the same friend group, going to the same campus events, taking a lot of the same classes bc they planned out their degree plans almost identically to each other without realizing it)

they also DOMINATE the robotics program at caltech, everyone knows them

even beyond the robotics program actually. they don't try to isolate themselves like at the beginning of high school but they comfortably become an iconic duo on campus, especially anywhere where there's a game they can win together like at parties and campus events (and they try to keep each other in check so neither one becomes too codependent or too frustrated with being associated with one another)

"oh yeah, you mean demetri and hawk, the robot guys" "ooooh demetri and hawk, the science guys" "yeah yeah, demetri and hawk, the karate guys" "demetri and hawk, that's right, those nerdy party guys"

demetri's not very partial to the parties but he's certainly more comfortable with them knowing hawk isn't gonna dump a drink on his head or ditch him halfway through

hawk's bold personality and demetri's need to yap makes them pretty well known (and also their oddly contradictory yet complimentary personalities)

Sam

when they first started talking/hanging out, demetri was SUPER nervous and awkward ("omg an actual human female is talking to me. not just any girl, SAMANTHA LARUSSO, don't screw it up !!") but he eventually realized he could relax around sam

their main dynamic is being nerdy together and also sam laughing at whatever silly or neurotic things demetri says (which subconsciously clues him into what is/isn't appropriate to say and what he should/shouldn't seriously worry about)

post-graduation, demetri is SUUUUUPER clingy to sam, just spending a lot of time around her and talking out of his ass bc of how nervous he is

he finally breaks before they both leave for school and he reveals he's nervous bc flying is dangerous enough but to the other side of the world??? he lists off all the possible dangers of traveling, traveling alone, being in a foreign country, being in a foreign country ALONE, being a GIRL in a FOREIGN COUNTRY ALONE, etc.

sam tells him it's making her feel more nervous about traveling so he tries to shut himself up bc he knows she wants to be excited about the opportunity (she knows this is a feat for him and is immensely grateful that he cares enough about her to filter himself for her sake)

she initially wonders why demetri puts so much stress into spending time with her and making sure she's safe (especially when he's not really doing the same with anyone else). she learns from hawk that demetri views her as his closest friend other than hawk, basically his best friend/sister, and he acts similarly with hawk and yas but not really anyone else. aaaand if she cries a little after hearing that, no one but hawk can confirm and he'll never tell :3

he ends up stressing OVER and OVER that she can call at any time but he tries to be nonchalant about it. he does retain some dignity by not texting her "ARE YOU OKAY" every five seconds but he does so with a bit (a lot) of anxiety

dem: "should i ask her if she landed safely? no, she'll think i'm too clingy. maybe i should say have a safe flight. but what if that jinxes her flight? and now she'll have an unsafe flight. maybe i'm overthinking this. or what if i'm not thinking about it enough?"

eli: "demetri, this is the last time i'm saying this. shut the FUCK up. she'll be fine."

dem: "but we don't KNOW that, eli. maybe miguel can keep me updated by proxy. that way i don't seem too clingy but i still know she's okay...but what if miguel gets hacked and the hacker lies-"

eli: *throws a pillow at dem's face*

sam understands the "casual" memes he sends at 12am in his time aren't just memes but a check-in, wordlessly asking "hello, are you still alive? you haven't forgotten about me right? you're still safe?"

she sends demetri pictures of the scenery in okinawa bc she knows he appreciates the aesthetic and the confirmation that she's still in one piece

when they see each other in person again, he's immensely awkward and distant trying not to show how much he missed her and worried about her so she makes sure to hug him that much tighter and spend a little more time with him

Robby

demetri and robby's whole friendship is weird, even to the two of them. there's not technically a lot of communication, just a subtle understanding of each other after seeing each other at their lowest (when demetri first joined miyagi-do, during the all-valley, when robby rejoined miyagi-do, during the flagship dojo break-in, when they were competing to go to the sekai taikai, during the actual sekai taikai in barcelona, and when demetri helped train robby for the captain fight)

likely due to robby's time and time again proven ability to look out for himself, demetri is a bit more lax about him flying all over the world (also bc he's traveling with tory and a whole entourage of agents/photographers/security/etc.)

demetri also knows robby isn't the type to text frequently so he keeps his texts a bit more spread out

but ofc, with robby's job, it's not like he's in a shortage of life updates to confirm his friend's well-being

demetri still sends him memes and occasional movie/book recommendations, which robby appreciates since most people only ever want to talk to him about his salary, karate (on a surface level), and brand deals

robby will occasionally send him pictures of random stuff he sees while competing/traveling and just says "you" (one of which is a squashed soda can that looks completely thin and crumpled) (this is exactly his and robby's type of humor)

even tho they don't talk/hang out much, at least nothing with much substance, they're still suuuuper close, which is weird, all things considered. again, they're just vibing so hard, stuck on the same wavelength, that distance and lack of communication can't kill their bond

Moon

their whole dynamic is demetri lowkey insulting her beliefs but still appreciating the intention behind it

"moon i'm not trusting that i'm gonna pass this class bc of a post some fifteen-year-old made on canva about how the stars are aligning tonight if i like and share to my story. i need to study if i want to pass...i guess if you like and share for me, that's fine...thank you, i hope i pass too"

hc her as a uc santa barbara girlie (idk why, i just felt like it) (probs bc that's one of four colleges i know from california)

demetri facetimes her once a week, sometimes he and yas will do a three- or four-way call with her and sam (with eli popping in from demetri's screen occasionally)

she sends him the weekly horoscope (he doesn't put much faith in it but he appreciates the sentiment)

she also keeps track of when he has a test or big event coming up and manifests a positive outcome for him (texting him to let him know each time)

Miguel

demetri jokingly laments over the fact that they could've been "hidden ivy brothers but eli had to ruin it"

he sees miguel pretty frequently compared to his other friends (a few times a semester) when him and eli meet him halfway between their schools either to spend the day in a random city, go to a national park, go to the beach, etc.

miguel takes him and eli around stanford on one trip; he knows demetri did want the hidden ivy experience and appreciates the peek into his life

miyagi-do

just like the other kids, he visits miyagi-do during the summer for a couple years when nate/bert/devon/kenny/anthony are still there. he stops when the whole dojo is full of students he doesn't know anymore but will occasionally see daniel and johnny when he visits with miguel/sam

(oh this made me weep. the passage of time is such a prison. wdym they all grow up as normal adults and don't stay cute little karate kids in the valley forever. if there ever is a reboot, i would love them to capitalize on how depressing this is and emphasize how everyone went their separate ways and didn't stay very close. i love angst !)

[praisekoala]

I dont like todays society like we've come very far. dont get me wrong, but it's shaming everybody for everything. Dont wear dresses or feminine clothes if you're a boy that's gay. Youre non binary? Im not calling you by they them because i don't believe in that. You use she/they or he/him? That's stupid. Just be a girl or boy. Your bi? Just pick one. Your pan? Isn't that bi? You're too fat. You're too skinny. You're too masculine. you're too feminine. Ew your emo, hippie, be original, follow the crowd, be your self, you're so weird. You were raped? What did you wear? You're a man that can't happen to you. My wife is abusing me, your weak shes a girl you're a man. Put on some makeup, you look ugly. Why are you wearing so much makeup? You're a man dont wear makeup. You're nerodivergent? Just act normal. Just focus on the task. You're throwing a tantrum because they didn't have your order? That's pathetic and childish. You can't play or have fun. You're older than 10. You dont have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Virgin, incell. Your gay? You belong in hell, pray the gay away. Posting a video of yourself having fun? Kys, this is so cringe. You're a furry? Ew wtf you wanna fuck animals?

But atleast we dont burn people for being able to read am i right?

[dhianawaini]

Idk what else to post but uhh, here my Silent Nemesis Family Au (I dont have a name for them but whatcerrr. Ignore why Joe looked like hes dead)

I hate this so much wtf. But uhh whatver, heres long story short for all of them.

Thomas Flyswatter is known for the father of two sons, he is now currently at around 53 years old (IDK). He is gay (casual😭)

Gradient Joe is known for their mom, he's 49 years old. He's trans and pansexual, yet he's fine with people still using He/Him pronouns on him (also he got that femal organ below him). So thats why both of their sons in thid fucking damn world.

Their oldest son, Insectkiller Roit (or just Roit) is 18 years old now. He's a casual male who is Aroace (also an only son who doesn't have either bitches or lads). He is mature and can be rude when it comes to his younger brother (only when Rowan started it). [He's the another flyswatter with gradient black on the top right on their point of view and also a small bandage on his left side of cheek]

Lastly, the youngest child, Rowan Incline. He's only at 15, he's Bisexual and Grey Sexual. He is already taken by his Non-binary boyfriend (which my moot is the one who made him). Also he uses either He/Him pronouns or Zir/Zes pronouns, prefer to use He/Him. [He's the other dark blue gradient head with weirdly shaped eyes and a toxic/radioactive (idk) logo on his shirt, he also have a darker skin and some bruise like shit]

[sepiamestus]

HOW ABOUT some raydon hcs perhaps :] -world's most normal normalest guy

OUGH hiii skye this has been sitting in my drafts for *checks timestamp* EIGHT DAYS bc executives stopped functioning the day i got it so i saved it to come back to latee and then i. Forgor. But anyways ummm ummmm

I imagine the development of there relationship was Slow at first. Immovable object (Ray, who has harbored catholic levels of guilt since he was six years old and doesnt think he deserves affection from the people he hurt) vs unstoppable force (Don, who is obsessed with him)

Furthered by the fact that neither of these fuckers know how to talk ab their feelings. They spend months post escape being totally convinced the other hates them. Its like mutual pining but theyre both being hunted for sport so they dont really have time to talk it out

Don had years to stew over his crush on ray so hes (read: a little) more functional ab it. Ray, on the other hand, never really had time for crushes, and is hit with these very distressing newfound feelings like a ton of bricks and is an absolute disaster about it

The start of their relationship is pretty tentative, seeing as neither of them know wtf theyre doing, which leads to ice cream dates that consist of them staring at each other in silence for twenty consecutive minutes because theyre both waiting for the other to speak first

They both make up for their incompetence in verbal communication in different ways. Don is very tactile and shows affection via small bits of physical contact. Ray is more of an acts of service kind if guy, and likes to give Don random little gifts out of the blue

Once they get over the initial awkwardness tho, they are the clingiest motherfuckers alive. If they are not holding hands 24/7 they will cry and scream and wail

They are soooooo t4t omg. This is true

Don is very secure in his identity, whilst Ray is very new to the idea of messing with his gender (that one post thats like "im probably non binary but i have a job so idc ab that rn" except said job is trying to save your friends from being killed and eaten)

Don says stuff like "this is Ray, she's my boyfriend" as frequently as possible. Ray thinks this is hilarious

Gilda is their main supporter mostly because "oh my god ray you have to go out with him just so he'll shut the fuck up about you"

They ermmmm unmmm ummmm. Are cute 🥺

[bloodmoon24]

Hi, its me again (📼 anon) and I hope you don't mind if I vent a little since you seem the kind of person to talk to. My main topic on this vent is about abuse so just a heads-up as a trigger warning.

So I'm going to admit this to you: a while back before Helluva Boss was out, I was a HUGE Vivziepop hater--like, I use to hate on her nonstop and not to mention I would also interact with antis and "critics" and rant with them. However, I was young and stupid and, honestly, I don't remember why I even started to hate her--probably because I was one of those people who seem to join in groups without any second thought.

And then, HB came out--and so I decided to watch it. I watched episode after episode, and I did rant after rant about how much wrong each episode was and did "critques" on them (it was only just stupid shit--even nitpicking the little things and just doung overlooked dumbass rants). However, one thing about Helluva Boss antis/critiques just LOVE to bash about was Stolitz--though, for me, I started to love the ship itself. Though, in fear of me of not wanting to look like I was starting to like it, I pretended to hate it even though I was starting to make it my OTP.

But then, when the first episode of the second season came out, that was when I made an 180 about my views on the show--mostly cuz I was now being more mature and I was now starting to notice how none of these critiques made no sense and/or they were just dumb because these antis were just hating on vivienne for no reason other than she just existed. Yeah, I know, its terrible because it is; not to also mention that most of these antis/critics always made assumptions that made me go "woah, wtf???"

One of the things antis/critics made it clear was one thing: Stella is a victim and Stolas is not and he's a bad guy cuz he cheated on her + many other ""opinions"" as to why she's a "good guy". This made me cringe and VERY infuriating on my part. I, a bi/pan genderqueer guy, was in a toxic and abusive relationship with an ex-girlfriend of mine who was also like Stella (minus being British)--she would hit me, calls me harsh names and insults, and would also throw things at me. I was with her for a good three years, before I decided I had enough of her shit and I promptly dumped her and called the police (she's still in prison to this day since I wanted to press charges and took this to court with a ton of evidence I collected to prove that she did those things). I've been with my boyfriend (non-binary demiromantic gay guy) for two-and-a-half years now and he makes me more happier than what my ex had for me. Obviously, I still have trauma from her, but I'm still trying to work it out with my best friend who is a therapist to go through it.

Seeing how these people will defend Stella, who is an ABUSER, just boggles me because I'm a victim of abuse and antis/critics will be like "stolas abuses blitz cuz he uses him for sex!!" but at the same time they'll support Stella and praise her for when there is implement/reference to her abusing Stolas. Like, I get it to how ppl will say she's a victim as well cuz she was forced into marriage with Stolas--which I get it, no doubt. I am not denying that--but people seem to forget that, in forced marriages, there is that one "spouse" who is a horrible person and will abuse the other. My oldest cousin on my mother's side is a victim of forced marriage, and he was abused by his "wife" for five years until he gained his independence by the help of his friends (including myself) to help move out and divorce her. He's now openly gay, and getting married to his fiancé in late October of this year.

It grosses me out, because I know damn well Stella is not a victim and these people are so hypocritical when it comes to it. She's not a savior, she's not a hero, nor does she deserve praise. I know Stolas is not perfect, but neither is Blitz and that's TOTALLY okay since no relationship is built to perfectness--and it were, then that's just being toxic and unrealistic. And since then, I am now a huge fan of Vivziepop and I rightfully got merch of both shows.

So yeah, that's my vent. Sorry if you had to read this wall of text in your inbox, but I know you would understand on why I had to vent like this. I kinda accidentally doom-scrolled the "anti stolitz" tag and I came across a post of someone cheering on for stella on abusing Stolas (ew, yucky, gross). But yeah, tl;dr: was a huge anti, turned my life around and became a fan after seeing ppl defend Stella of abuse as some who was a victim of said abuse, and fuck stella defenders :)

First of all, thank you for venting. You look like you really needed it, and I appreciate it

Second of all, thank you for telling me. Haters just don’t know when to shut up about these kinds of things. For me, I just ignore their ranting and just enjoy both shows that Viv made. There was literally no reason to hate on her. I JUST WANNA ENJOY A SHOW ABOUT GAY DEMONS WITHOUT PEOPLE COMPLAINING ABOUT IT

Third of all, Stella defenders are also idiots as well. To be honest, I thought Stella was a victim in the second episode, until we saw her again, and now I’m like, “Yup. Stella’s a bitch, and she can fuck off”

Fourth of all, I’m so sorry you had to went through that kind of stuff with your Stella (glad you broke it off with her. She just seems terrible), and found someone that actually cares and loves you. It just seems so sweet

Fifth of all, congratulations for your cousin

Sixth of all, I’m glad you turn things around for your point of view, and that just makes me happy

[on-poetry]

I’m genuinely unsure if most poets are queer or if I just mostly come across queer poets because I’m queer too. What do you think?

LOL this question made me chuckle

I think poets are by and large heterosexual but, per capita, there are definitely more queer poets than queers in the general population

Additionally, I think a lot of poets have learned from queerness and queer culture. My (straight poet) friend was telling me that, when she first started dating her (non-poet) boyfriend, she asked him if he wanted an open relationship, and he was like wtf?? No?? No one has ever asked me that before??? But it was so normalized for her in poetry spaces, including the straight ones, because poets have unlearned a lot of the social structures (heteronormativity, monogamy, gender roles and binaries, etc) that most non-queer people haven't

I also think that close attention to language can liberate you from the confines of heteronormativity. Once you deconstruct the seeming binaries of language, sex, gender, etc., and once you embrace the freedom and liberation inherent to poetry, you start to uncover new possibilities for your own life, even if it is a heterosexual one, a monogamous one, etc.

[justanxioustrash]

so it's done... i'll probably make a proper post when i have more time to sit with it but for now enjoy notes i took while watching each episode. 

warning it's long so have fun 😁

episode 11

holy shit this really feels like a final season

like fr there's a referential monologue every few minutes

we need a full time therapist for theses kids

Kreese is definitely gonna die

Conflicted on the attempted Kreese redemption

yes Amanda call Daniel out on his shit

holy shit we were right about Terry

love that lawrusso can finally have healthy conversations

is everyone gonna die???

where's tory?

episode 12

give Daryl his blue mats

Kumiko thank you for not falling in love with the man who put a knife to your throat

who tf is Tory living with?! like isn't she a minor how is she living with no guardian 

and where's her brother???

can't say i love the hyper realistic vr that's somehow is supposed to prepare Robby

i fucking love the samtory friendship. it's one of the few that feels genuine and not needed just to move the story forward

SENSI MIGUEL

👏healthy conversations👏

these boys are literally planning their future together and there's been not a single girlfriend mention...but no no they're platonic i promise

this women is having contractions let's get married later

you can tell a man wrote this cause this is not romantic 😭😭

AWWW LAURA

Johnny can we please stop putting so much pressure on your son winning this thing 

episode 13

yeah i'm definitely not a fan of the Kreese "redemption"

thank you Daniel for finally pointing out all the shit Robby's been through

this really is a kk1 reference to a slightly too obvious level 

wait no Robby has to fight don't make him lose

i know he doesn't need it but the writers have literally put so much emphasis throughout the season on how good Robby would feel if he won...now it's suddenly unimportant?!? let this man have one singular win i beg

is Miguel gonna fight as the Cobra Kai male fighter??

cgi Miyagi is ROUGH to look at but good try i guess

Sam not fighting makes sense cause she hasn't had much to fight for for awhile now but ROBBY ON THE OTHER HAND

no stop trying to redeem Kreese it's getting annoying 

okay acting chops 👏👏

HOLY SHIT I CALLED THAT

THE OG COBRA KAI

side note but love Tory's gold eyeliner

episode 14 

how tf is a show about karate making me emotional over a literal building

i get that the focus is the core four but i really miss the teens group dynamic 

johnny please spend more time at home you literally have a new baby 

sam and tory are so lesbian coded this season

wtf if the final episode gonna be about

BINARY BOYFRIENDS ON TOP

MY KINGS ARE HUGGING

coach Miguel makes another appearance

i know for a fact those flips were not necessary Zara but pop off ig

I LOVE YOU TORY TOO

kiss of confidence worked for eli in s4 so it better work this time too

no fucking mercy bitches

KNOCK OUT KNOCK OUT KNOCK OUT

TORY MY LOVE IM SO PROUD

Miguel do not let this get in your head istg

kiss of confidence x2

king shit Miguel

Carmen just gave birth give this women a break

sometimes the show forgets that Johnny is a good sensei but they popped off here ngl

Axel just join cobra kai please

the writers can be a bit much with flashbacks sometimes but this is actually cool as shit i can't even be mad

shout out the fight choreographers

MIGUEL MIGUEL MIGUEL MIGUEL

nah if there's a tie i'm actually gonna kms

FUCK

ahhh so that's what the final episodes going to be about

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

wait Johnny's so gonna die

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

nah keep Laura out if this shit

how tf did Kreese get on the boat?? this man gotta move away from karate and be a spy atp

can they both die please

oh good

episode 15

ooooo i like the name of the episode

APPLEBEE'S (also wtf is an applebee's cause they're only in the usa so i'm confused)

there's no way Johnny's gonna win this there has to be some reason the fight doesn't happen

🎵you're the best around🎵

THE FUCKING NECKLACE WAS HIS MOTHERS

like no shit Mr Miyagi wasn't a terrible person so idk why Daniel is acting so surprised

MY KING AND QUEEN ARE SUCCEEDING 

my man Daryl got back his mic!!

are we not going to address the ship exploding??

ITS KARATE TIME

god i love the og ck gi's

FEAR DOES NOT EXIST IN THIS DOJO

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I FUCKING LOVE THIS STUPID GODDAM SHOW

COBRA KAI! COBRA KAI! COBRA KAI!

how am i not supposed to ship elimetri when these are the scene they give us

they literally have matching shirts, a custom joint license plate, and are going off to uni together...but no they're totally straight 🤨

Robby and Tory have some how become my fav canon ship from this season despite not liking them previously 

we needed more Sam and Anthony scenes earlier i love them sm

WHY AM I CRYING THIS IS A SHOW ABOUT THE KARATE KID????

wait are we really not going to address the  literal yacht that BLEW UP

STINGRAY?!

YES SENSEI

will my feelings change after sitting with this a little longer? definitely. am i still running on adrenaline and incredibly happy despite my issues with the show? 100% 

[crimsonblackrose]

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Chozen are you just ignoring the line? I do love undercover Chozen on a hunt for the kids. He's like in his own genre film. Some like kid friendly family action comedy. Meanwhile Daniel's in like a horror film or something. I also love that this bouncer is like hell no no fighting here. Try the beach district. (This series will always fight on the beach/beach district)

I also love that Chozen just runs off in search of his teens mean while Da-Eun is like taxi. Working smarter, not harder.

Wow girl, buying Tory's drinks. First she talks about your boyfriend and now she's flirting with you. Oh boo, she's being mean.

NO ROBBY NOOOO don't drink! Go Amanda go! (Though Anthony did not do this)

Yesss! I love that someone gave Johnny an emotional support dog. He needed it so badly and that dog totally knew didn't it? Oh whose a good little baby? That fluff ball is. PICKLES good job! I'm sorry, but Johnny literally just said "I want to talk to my kid, we had a family emergency and I want to make sure he's okay" and she didn't go "oh shit, I separated a kid under 18 from the adult they're traveling with/their parent just because they don't look the same?" Well Johnny go back and sit with Pickles. Okay I am a fan of Da-Eun and Chozen chasing after their kids to keep them out of trouble.

Chozen leaving a conversation on an electric scooter is not what I expected to need in my life but I love it because it's so dorky. There he goes. Not super fast but faster than walking/running. Ope shirtless muscled enemy on the beach. Good luck Sam. (This Axel guy reminds me of the Riverdale guy for some reason) What even made those?

Sam out here like one of those church kids trying to get people to join her church every other second, that that's where her brain goes as soon as Axel asks if he can join her. Aka walk her back to the hotel. Yasmine, he's just dancing. Robby, I want you to throw up on him. Since you've been drinking so much. Best revenge, gross him out. I'm honestly shocked that Robby is just sitting by himself drinking at the bar. Mr. I don't drink. What's Devon even doing? This is the worst like teen hang out ever.

Those are some pretty flowers. They almost look like magnolias but I'm not sure. Amanda is so done. But of course these two are not going to come to an agreement because Devon's the true perp.

Johnny is I guess in a heist/spy movie. I love his big floppy hat. Best look this season drop yet.

Those flights truly do suck. Okay I love that Johnny moved out of the way and the other guy swung at Johnny first and Miguel jumped up and struck the guy. I also love that they got applause. Wait a second. Sam. Seriously? Daniel wtf? Sam has been to Disney World. Aka florida but not Newark? Not New Jersey? Not New York? How can she be "jersey tough" and yet have never been there? Honestly thought they were going to mess with Robby not Sam.

At least she's not alone. I love that this dude is also like leaning down to her height and patting his cheek and literally asking her to hit him. Sir. You are wild but so fun. Axel, have you heard of the concept of 'friendship'? You don't have to kiss everyone whose nice to you. You can just...be friends? And of course binary bros exploded. I'm surprised Yas broke up with him for dancing with someone. And poor Devon. That was probably no fun for her at all. Also did they grab Robby? Or is he just sadly drinking rum and cokes at the bar. Alright Devon, time to tell Kenny that you did it. I can't believe Amanda stayed with Kenny at his house. You're kinda over stepping. Also for some reason I really like this shot:

I cannot believe how much he's grown up. He was so tiny! Same with Anthony. Go become a world champion Kenny! Anthony is still there? Omg what did she do just leave him to sulk in the car for hours and hours? Like how long have they been there? Anthony you are a weirdo. Though that is a good gesture, to be like I didn't do it, but I get why you'd think that, so to make it up to you I will drink a laxative and join you in solidarity. Also congrats on Anthony just downing the drinks instantly. I guess he walked to a corner store or something then came back with his stuff. Which I would like to point out this whole series started because Miguel was buying pepto for Rosa and Kyler messed with him, which is a very weird Cobra Kai specific thing. I do like the idea that Chozen's enemy is the orchid. (Which sucks since the airport in Okinawa is full of them literally everywhere) This poor bartender. "Did the kids get into a fight?" no. Immediately the adults who came asking get into a fight. 😅😂 (though it does look like they're dancing) Also again, where's Robby? (was not expecting Da-Eun and Chozen to get together) Oh, there's Robby. Oh man she took advantage of him while he was drunk. And poor Tory who keeps ending up spots where she catches another girl kissing her boyfriend (though they're on pause so...doesn't count?)

The fact the police actually thanked Johnny and Miguel for starting a flight on a plane and then escorted them to the hospital? What world are we living in? Okay blood covered bedding is terrifying. I hope Carmen is okay. These boys deserve all the hugs and more of Pickles. I love Carmen telling them to go kick ass and win. Omg her hair is down. This is a cute awkward date.

I also love her shaking sand out of her clothes. I really do love their fashion.

Do I ship it? No. But I do love a good enemies to lovers and this is fun. Plus they both look so freaking happy that, you know what good for them. I also love that Da-Eun is now joining in on the "who put Daniel in a cage" This is not the mystery solving scooby doo gang I was expecting but it's honestly kinda fun.

Is this guy literally just standing there watching Silver bathe (Spoiler I know but I already saw gifs that he's around for this drop and recreates the bathtub scene which I assume is where we're going to end on) Lol I was right! So sensei wolf and this dude are just standing around watching Silver bathe? Okay. Someone truly likes an audience.

The amount of angles the went for for this final shot. Someone really was into TIG and couldn't decide which angle to go for. Like the slow mo of the cigar being putting in his mouth. I'm dead. omg lol.

Love this cartoon villain and how he's so extra even now. We're finally back at our roots.

[storytimewithnova]

From Ignorance to Betrayal: Hinata's Journey

Introduction

Tendou Shoyo a bright Bubbly boy know as everybody sunshine Age 18 years old Gay/Non Binary 2nd year karasuno Sibling to Tendou Satori Relationship soon to be ex Daichi captain Of karasuno Childhood bestfriend yamaguchi and Tsukishima Kei Sugru Daishou Cousins Semi Eita Ushijima Kozume siblings Step brother Yuiji Terushima

Beep Beep Beep

“Ugh why do I set that blasted thing god for sakes alarm Well time to get ready for school let’s see what to wear today need to be looking cute but feeling like the bad bitch I am umm this cute but dangerous plus extra hight”

Once I double checked in the mirror and I felt the way I wanted I went downstairs to see my brother had made us breakfast “morning Sato-Ni-chan what did you make for breakfast today” “Morning baby brother are you dressed for school or a date also I made Your favourite so eat then I am taking you to school now get your stuff and let's go” Shoyo ran and got their stuff then ran to their brother's car.

Chapter 1 I turned up at my school said goodbye and thank you to my brother and went straight to the gym now I slightly regret showing up at the gym because I heard them talking Suga: “So he is officially off the team at least I'll be free of that brat if I hear him call me Mom one more time I will swing for him”

Kags: “hopefully so when are we kicking Hinata off the team”

Daichi: “Today as so as he shows up”

Yachi: “About time I don't think I can take one more stupid questions”

Tsukishima: you're meant to be his boyfriend and the rest of you are meant to be his friends

Daichi: “No I just used him for his body and we used him to beat Shiratorizawa

Luna:” Wtf you used my cousin like that you sick fucks”

Everyone: Cousin

Yams: I've been knew

Tsukishima: I've been knew

Luna: “Thanks Kei for keeping to yourself you to yams

Yams:”what are childhood best friends for

Shoyo Walked away and went to the principals office to ask for transfer papers he was transferring to his brothers school the next thing he had to do was call his brother and tell him everything that happened that he was gonna call his bestfriend Suguru see if you could come over

Chapter 2 Shoyo was upset and heartbroken his so-called friends would betray him like this so he calls his brother

In a phone call 📱 with tendou

Shoyo:📞Tendou I am leaving Karasuno and me and Daichi is over

Tendou:📞what happened

Shoyo:📞they were using me and Daichi Was just using my body

Tendou:📞the fuck what school are you transferring too

Shoyo:📞 I’m transferring to your school I'm going to be with you, Sato-Ni-Chan Eita-Ni and Ushi-Ni right now I am just waiting for Suguru

Tendou:📞okay go home I'll see you, late love you, little bro

Shoyo:📞love you too Daishou is here now I'm going to go now

Chapter 3

In the mixed team's group chat

Suga: hey guys have any of you see Hinata he didn't show up to practice

Luna: yeah I wonder why

Yams:^ Tsukki:^

Kawa: what happened to chibi chan

Luna: ask them

Ushi: what happened to Sho

Kenma: Cuz Calm down I am sure they are fine

Daishou forced his way into the chat

Kuroo: why is the snake here

Daisho: Because i am the one with Sho i am the one claiming them down all they keeps saying is they were used So who upset my Sho

Luna: it’s true Suguru-Ni karasuno was using them to beat their brothers team and daichi san was just using them for their body

Tendou: how is my brother is he okay Suguru

Daishou: does me sitting next to them in a hospital while they have a severe anxiety and panic attack count as being okay because that is currently what is happening with them and where we are

Kyio: karasuno you fucked up I hope you come to realise what you lost

Kawa: I second that you lost a sweet loving kid a genuine loyal friend and a literal ball of sun

Kita: now look where it’s got we should have your team disbanded

Luna: some of us stayed loyal to my cousin babe

Kita: who moonlight

Luna:Well besides me because family Kei yams childhood best friends The only ones under question is noya tanaka enno and asahi

Semi: thanks cuz for the info

Luna: always Eita-Ni

Daishou: Oh sho said they are moving to shiratorizawa to be with you guys I would like my baby sunshine to be with me but I know they would never leave their brother and cousins so I will pop by when I can right now I am staying because they are very emotional and Tendou you know how clingy they can get

Tendou: yep look after them

Ushi:I’m Happy to have my baby cuz come to our school and the best part is they can play any position we throw at them

Semi: they’re mainly a setter like me trained them myself the blocking you can guy who was the mentor there

Shira : and they could also be an ace which means Ushijima san they could take your position

Ushi: they are next in line to take it

Suga: You all keep call him they

Tsukki:Yes because shoyo is non binary they don’t gender themselves as male or female

Yachi:Is that why he cross dresses i said he was a weirdo

Kiyo:So misgender them its offencive crows put your manager on a leash

Everyone was absolutely disgusted by the way karasuno just carried on misgender Sho like it wasn’t a big deal

Luna:How my Cuz Su

Daishou: They cried themselves to sleep

Yams:Me and kei will be there later

Tsukki:Yeah i’ll bring the meatbuns

Daishou:Okay see you later

Chapter 4

Next thing all of Karasuno knew they Message from the teacher Takada sensei saying this

Me and coach Ukai heard everything that happened in the gym and we read everything here as of now karasuno are disbanded till they can prove themselves daichi you don’t have a say who gets kicked Ukai does pull that stunt again you will be stripped from your position do i make myself clear

The team:Yes sensei

Takada:Now before you start plotting revenge you are not to go near shoyo if I hear from one of the other coaches you have gone anywhere near shoyo then this team will be disbanded for good

The team:Yes sensei

Takada:And daishou was it tell shoyo to get better and we will miss seeing them around

The team:Wait you knew about shoyo being non binary and never told us

Takada:Its not my place now everyone offline and I mean everyone

Everyone: Hai

Chapter 5 Today Shoyo starts their new school with their brother and cousins they made sure to take Sho every class and made sure no one starts on them or they will be anwsering to the family Sho had a good day overall but they were looking forward to volleyball practice they watched the clock tick down the hours for volleyball Shot time skip to volleyball practice

Half said though suguru showed up at the gym and yelled “knock knock come to see how my baby is fitting in and settling” “Su I am fine I would be a lot more happy if these lot weren’t be on guard and act there ready to attack people like rabid attack dogs literally anyone tries to come near me to talk these idiots will start barking and Eita-Nii starts turning mother hen I thought I came to school to get away from that adverts I’ve got it here too”. Daishou was on the floor laughing his ass off at this point “sorry luv I’ve known your family from when we were kids I forget how Nutz they are at times” “I’m beginning to wonder if that was a compliment or a backhanded insult at me” “ it was a compliment babe I swear come on let’s play show me how good you got”

Like Sho daishou can play any Position so right now he is setting for sho to spike daishou sets the ball all falling toss and Sho darted gave it 100% the ball bounced off the wall and out the gym

“Wow babe was that your full power” “Yep I was at 100% but I think I can push past that” “Okay I‘ll set again show me I want to see a dent on the wall or the floor luv” “Bring it edgelord” “Edgelord should I feel flatter or insulted by that” “Both Suguru” “Yuiji-Nii you’re back how was your trip to Europe” “It was fine” “Your not allowed back are you” “Nope now set the ball for our Sho I can see him getting fidgety over there” “You going to tell me about it” “ were you going to tell me about Karasuno betraying sho and hurting them” “But look at them happy and they are more faster hang on Yo E set for Sho for a bit I am going to talk Yuiji” Semi worked with Sho because he knew they had a practice match against karasuno the next day

Chapter 6 Next day practice match Sho was starting out as a setter then they were making him switch as a junior Ace and take Ushijima spot while Sho and his family members were warming up Daishou quickly ran to them and said “Do your best out there love and make your old team look like idiots then dinner on me regardless weather you win or lose okay baby” “Okay thanks for the pep talk Suguru” “Love you baby have a good game” “Love you Su and I will”

Match start the captains greeted each other and it was karasuno up to serve which worked for Shiratorizawa Tendou received and passed it to his little brother who set it to ushijima who slammed it down Kageyama said “your a setter since when” “Didn’t you hear us say my brother can play any position that includes setter” Goshiki served noya received it went straight to Sho who did a setter dump right under kageyamas nose after making it look like he was going to set to Tendou and got salt boy out the way in the end shiratorizawa won the set it was time for Sho to switch position and ushijima went off not before saying “kick their asses out there Cousin” semi came in as the setter and the match started again karasuno served they thought Sho was still the setter Sho recieved and sent it semi sent it back to sho who used 100% power and they didn’t see the Ball coming or going “ what the hell was that” Asked Daichi “ we’re we holding him back this whole time” asked noya

“Finally someone gets it’s done you shouldn’t of sent it to my brother what you thought he was still playing setter no ushijima walked off they are their cousin’s junior ace that’s what they are playing wish you still had them don’t”

Daichi thoughts 💭 how does them know we still want them but we fucked up

In the end Shiratorizawa won straight sets

Daishou ran to Sho and kissed him “great job Hunny”

“Daichi: “that’s my boyfriend you’re kissing

Sho: no I’m not not anymore right here right now I am officially ending us I couldn’t end us in the karasuno group chat because someone kicked me out Babe let’s go after dinner want to study with me I can help you with math

Daishou: sure hunny and for the record daichi how can Sho be your boyfriend when they don’t have a gender stop trying to claim and label my life partner glady to see you have come to your senses babe

Sho: mum and dad are right we have to get married our business depends on it any way dinner and homework

Kageyama: when did you become smart Boke

Tsukki: always they always been smart when they were in karasuno you know their grades were 100% right

Kageyama: so why did he get held back that practice match

Yams: some bitch was trying to start something she was about to clam r@pe if me and Tsukki told the teacher that Sho do go for girls their gay and stop Misgendering them

Chapter 7

Teru:Also Suguru Sho is right you two need to get married the fate of all our businesses rest on you two

“Then I guess I should to this properly hun give me your ring our parents gave you” Shoyo handed over the ring he kept on a chain around his neck and Daishou got on one knee and said “ Tendou Shoyo will you be my life partner and marry me”

“Baka Suguru Baka of course at least I am marrying for love as well as business reasons”

“But your a first year” kageyama said “I thought setters were meant to be observant I am a second year kid I am coming up for my 3rd year your a 1st year me tsukki and yams will be in our final year” “the joys of being older shrimpy anyway don’t you have a homework and dinner date with your husband to be” “shit you right Su babe let’s go I’ll help you in your weak subjects” “It helps having a smart partner as a personal tutor” “For that smart mouth comment should I really help you”

Chapter 8 After the match Karasuno went home sour but also regretful they really did screw up daichi felt like he lost a part of him why did he have to say he was only using Hinata for his body daichi walked into the gym “anyone else feel disgusted and disappointed in themselves” everyone said yes daichi said “I feel revolted by myself and what I said”Kiyoko walked in and said you all woke up to yourselves and how disgusting you are glad Sho is away from this toxic team because of your behaviour you have given karasuno a foul name in other prefectures other teams don’t want to know you if that’s the way the crows treat teammates” “So you are saying we messed up that bad other teams don’t want to know us we are back to square one what if we make it up to sho” how do you plan to make it up to them you find every way to lower their self esteem and misgender them” “I don’t know maybe if we learn more about Non binary so we can avoid making the same mistake for future players joining the team

Chapter 9 Today was a weekend so Daishou decided he would take Sho out on a Date he had a rough idea what he wanted to do so he set some clothes out for sho and left a note

Hey baby i left you this outfit and breakfast I am taking you out of a this is the location just punch it into your phone GPS and I’ll see you there love your Sugu

He went down stairs and made sho some heart shaped pancakes and then left for the location Sho started to wake up he was hoping to get a hug but the bed felt cold he woke up completely and saw the outfit suguru picked out

Which was leggings one oh Daishou’s hoodies and and trainers he read the note and then ran downstairs to indeed find breakfast he then put in the coordinates daishou left him and took the car his brother gave him on his sweet 16

I drove to the location and found myself outside the gates of an amusement park I got out the car and went to find Suguru Before I could walk anymore I felt two sting hands wrap around me and a pair of lips on my neck “hey baby we have the whole park more or less to ourselves so today I am going to spoil you and treat you like a queen”

They had a great time and Suguru said “Sho I want to start planning our wedding but I want you to have a say and Unless you still have your future plans journal where you planned out how to want your future including your future wedding “

“Of course I still have it that journal was the biggest part of our childhood”

Chapter 10 I went to get my journal when I got home and we went though it “Su remember this one I said I was gonna get a horse and make it look a my little pony”

“And you did get a pony load knows you tried as well omg I just saw the next page I remember that Christ”

Sho turned over and there was plans for barbies wedding to action man “enlighten me why we planned a fucking dolls wedding” “I believe your exact words were I am practicing for our wedding” while going though the journal sho got a message from their old GC

The crows —their sunshine

Daichi: Shoyo please come back to us

Noya: we are sorry kohai

Tsukki: shrimp come back we were out of order

Back with daishou and Sho

Sho: are we going to let my siblings tell them I’ve graduated already or let them beg a little more

Daishou: baby you’re evil

Sho: now tell me something I don’t know I’ll text my brothers

Sho text Tendou and Teru and they said they were on it and asked how the wedding planning was going which he said it is great but they are think private just family no fuss

Chapter 11 In the main group chat karasuno thought they would ask Sho there to come back to them yeah they really don’t know the meaning of the word quit

Noya: Shoyo please we need you

Kags: Boke please come back I need you

Akaashi: oya

Bokuto: oya oya

Kuroo: oya oya oya

Tendou: leave my brother alone crows

Teru: our brother ten

Kenma: whose gonna tell them

Semi: let sho do it i want the 🍵

Suna: someone say tea 🍵

Back with daishou and Sho:

Babe my phone is blowing up mine to let see Sho baby it’s your team

Sho is online

Daishou is online

Sho: hey brothers cousins

The fam: hey Sho

Suga: my baby we want you back

Sho: pfft no can do

Kags: whys that Boke

Sho: Eita Nii do want to tell them

Semi: let your brother do it cuz I want to see how they react

Tendou: Bet my baby brother graduated already with honours and is currently planning a wedding before him and Daishou start college in the USA he would of gaduated with honours from karasuno but you lot had to chase him out

EVERYONE-the family:what ?!

Sho: yep and I am not planning a wedding it is just a privately cermoney with close friends and family right hun

Daishou: that’s right my baby sunflower also babes I’m ordering take out tonight as nither of us feel like cooking what do you want

Sho : you

Daishou: lovely thought hun I’m not on the menu should I just get our usual Katsudon

Kags: so wait how does a Boke like you graduate with honours

Teru: I am gonna smack a bitch in a minute listen here you little shit they aren’t dumb Kiyoko can confirm this but when they were at karasuno there were a top student

Kiyoko: it is true they use to help yachi study they was the smartest in the school

Sho: 😆 leaving a traitor school best thing I did I graduated I am getting married then going to the same college as my husband

Daishou: while also signing up and playing for MSBY black jackels and the Japan International team while also signing up for a team in argentina for 2 years

she : yep very true so Atsumu Bokuto and sakusa I will be on the MSBY with you and Yaku and suna are the only names I've been given but I will be on the Japan International team with you and Oikawa I will be on the Argentina team with you

All names mentioned: works for us

Daishou: And wherever Sho goes I go so yeah I will be going with them to Argentina

Kenma:see what you could of had karasuno expect you lost them when they went to my cousins school and faired a lot better

Suga: we were holding them back

Kuroo: seems like it look at chibi chan now okay I don’t approve on who they are marrying but you can’t stop the childhood best friend trope

Bokuto: like me and Akashi and you and Kenma it’s like a curse but the best curse

Chapter 12

Karasuno after reading everything agreed they were holding Sho back and decided to give up Kageyama moved on he figured that Sho was happy and all he was doing was causing heartache not just for himself but Sho as well and as for sho he is currently in America with their husband in college studying as well as preparing for Argentina along with their husband because wherever Sho goes Suguru goes The time had come for Sho to fly to Argentina and they are going to be their for 2-3 years while they was there they earned the name Ninja Sho and will be representing Japan with Kawa in the Olympics after that after that they Joined MSBY and the Japan international team and was slowly ready to settle down and start a family he finally got his life together and he also know as best and number one decoy in Japan and what happened to karasuno they disbanded to avoid anything happening like this again.

[someones-here-for-sure]

OKAY SO

I can’t remember which one but until the episode where they go on a plane and dean is scared I actually didn’t care about Dean at all but now I love him and I want him to go through irreparable damage and like explode.

Also I liked the plot up until the plane episode too, not so much the characters, but then after the plane episodes all I want is the characters to exist and be silly

ALSO the only thing I knew about supernatural before watching it was about the 2 ships of cas & Dean and then fuckin- Wincest- so like I was watching it and I’d randomly remember that wincest exists and like gag internally

also I was like “wait WTF why does Dean keep getting smooches after every mission” and my ACTUAL FATHER SAID “well look at him?!” And that was genuinely the funniest thing ever because the entire conversation was just me being blatantly not attracted to men. (and my dad being low-key attracted to Dean Winchester like what)

Also I keep making up headcanon for the one off characters from each mystery in each episode. Like in the wendigo episode, that girls younger sibling is totally a closeted non-binary and then Lucas from the lake episode is totally gonna end up with a boyfriend once he’s an adult/teen

and then also the hottest character in the show is EASILY their stupid double barrel guns that they put the salt in./j

I really really like it so far and I wanna watch more :3

hello there kitty :33

HELOO!! :3

[agayobsessedwithmurder]

im currently hyper fixationing on demetri and eli😟😟 i need help seriously i fixate on so many Fucking things i need help. i read a lot of demetri x eli fanfics on ao3 and i have a doctors appointment which makes me leave at 9:30 and its currently 5:49 am.

help <3

[indecisive-behaviors]

“Hey, I’m Robby and this is my dad Johnny and his boyfriend Daniel who’s also kinda my stepdad and his wife Amanda and their daughter Sam who is my girlfriend, and this is my boyfriend Miguel who is also her boyfriend, and Miguel’s other girlfriend Tory and her girlfriend Aisha. Oh and those are our friend’s Hawk and Demetri who we’re pretty sure are dating but haven’t said anything yet.”

[pooklet]

Hey pooklet!!! How did you discover you're non-binary? Did your friends go well with it?

Hey anon!

Short answer: "Girl" never felt right to me, heard about nonbinary as a concept in my 20s on a random livejournal, exactly one of my close friends was cool about it and she's now my wife, lol.

Much, much longer answer under the cut.

I know it's a trope to say "I always felt wrong in my assigned gender" but in my case it's true. For me it was very confusing because I do like a lot of the femme stuff that kind of gets pushed at you when you're AFAB. Pink and dolls and dresses and long hair, stuff like that. But the idea that those things made me a "girl" just never sat right. I remember being like 13 and asking my first boyfriend "would you still like me if I wasn't a girl" and he was like "ew no" and it made me feel so deeply sad for reasons I couldn't quite explain. There were a lot of little instances like that, but that one really sticks out in my mind.

I first ran across the concept of being nonbinary on a livejournal community that I don't think had anything to do with gender? I don't remember where, it was some fandom or hobby thing. Like, I don't think it was this exactly, but it was something as silly as someone posting pictures of their BJD and being like "I decided this doll is nonbinary!" Something like that. And I was like wtf and immediately went down the rabbit hole. Which was much shorter like 12-13 years ago than it is today, but what I found made me go "oh shit, this is the thing, huh?"

Around that time, I was also starting to make more of an effort to get involved with Native American communities and studying the history of my specific nation (Oneida). I was raised by the white half of my family so it wasn't something I really got to experience growing up. And in doing so I learned about being Two-Spirit, and even though that's not how I identify per se (there's a lot of debate around exactly how you define being Two-Spirit and who has access to the label, etc.) it felt sort of like, idk, permission? Like, "this is part of my cultural heritage, it predates the gender binary, I'm allowed to not be a girl."

But it wasn't an all-at-once coming out sort of thing. I kinda floated it at the people closest to me, like "how would you feel if I wasn't a girl lol wouldn't that be crazy lol."

One of my two best friends at the time was very resistant to me not being a girl, us not being best girl friends, who had the sort of romantic-Victorian platonic-but-intense girl friendship. So we ended up having no friendship at all.

The person that I was dating at the time was outright hostile to the idea. Abusively hostile. And the thing about it was he (pronouns at the time, don't know if he's changed them, not going to look him up to find out) had also just come out as trans. He/him agender. And when I repeated that same question that I asked my 13-year-old boyfriend "would you still love me if I wasn't a girl?" His response was something to the tune of "I guess it's fine as long as you still have a girl's body." Which was a wild thing to hear from someone who was also AFAB. Weren't too long after that we broke up.

My other best friend @skulldilocks, maybe you've heard of her, she was my oasis. She never judged, she was curious and interested and so kind about it. The second I told her "I don't think I'm a girl" she was like "yeah, okay, you would know best" and that was it. She was one of maybe three people in my life (the other two being my cousins) that didn't tell me I was wrong or pushed back at all. She called me by my chosen name, used they/them pronouns, corrected herself when she got it wrong, and that was it. It was just, idk, easy. And it made me feel like maybe this wasn't some forbidden, shameful thing that I knew was true about myself, but I still couldn't tell anyone.

So I started to assert my gender and pronouns in online spaces. I was really clumsy about it at first, and my terrible experiences with the people that I had been closest to had me feeling very defensive, expecting a lot of pushback. Aaaand, I got it!

Some of it was definitely my own doing, like, getting upset with people who misgendered me out of confusion rather than active hostility, but there was a big faction that went right to work on the trolling. Most of it was contained on simsecret at first, with lots of secrets as well as huge threads of people saying that I was lying, calling me slurs, discussing my genitals, claiming to know me personally IRL and to have insider knowledge that I really was a girl and I was just doing all of this for attention.

And then it spilled over from simsecret to GoS, to my livejournal, to every part of the community that I engaged with. I went into lockdown mode. Deleted my livejournal, changed my email, turned off commenting or messaging where possible. I left the community completely for about a year and a half. I still played the game, still shared pics with @skulldilocks but I had no intention of returning.

But then stuff just kinda changed. It didn't have anything to do with me, it was just that more people were starting to identify outside the gender binary, so it stopped being so stigmatized in the community. Forums started cracking down on people being shitty about gender. And some very kind people sent messages to me through @skulldilocks saying that they hoped I came back some day. So I did. I still get the occasional hateful anon message but at this point there's literally nothing left that they can say to me that I haven't already heard a decade ago.

And there is definitely more kindness and love, now. Turns out if someone treats you like shit, you can just leave! Tell her to give you back your Sailor Moon manga and to never call you again! Kick him out of your house and take custody of the cats! Excise the assholes, curate your online space, don't get involved in bad faith "discussions" about parts of yourself that you know to be true. Who you are just ain't up for debate.

Also, if you find someone who is your oasis, who never presumes to know you better than you know yourself, who can answer the question “would you still love me if I wasn’t a girl” with an emphatic “fuck yes,” get your shit together, tell her you love her, and marry her. 10/10, highly recommend.