#binah knows more happens than what she remembers

[binah-beloved]

do you think warp corp would give their employees the privilege of first-class seats to spare them? It seems that the employees already knows how it really operates, but maybe warp corp simply doesn't care and puts them into the main cabins anyways

the employees would simply avoid the train at all costs, W Corp assumes that they know already. so Binah sits in the normal cabin when she boards after you, already preparing for the ordeal ahead. she splits her two blades- one for her, one for you- and for the first several years you live that way, together, always by each other's side. she comforts you, when your head aches and you feel like dying, having always been good at keeping her wits about her. early on she begins to hug you, wrapping her arms around you and pressing her weight against yours, and it grounds you to reality. you also comfort her, seeing the way minute trembles of exhaustion run through her body, invisible to everyone else. your hand slips into hers, fingers brushing against her cheek as Binah lets out a soft, weary sigh, and you hold each other

you hold each other when the others start going mad, Binah's hands covering your ears and blocking out the screams and laughter. you hold each other when another passenger skewers Binah's shoulder with a blade, patching up the wound amidst your gentle touch and her quiet, grateful thanks. you hold each other when you lose an arm, Binah reassuring you that it will be reattached when everything ends, her voice steady and soothing as always

and you don't stop holding each other, when 1000 years becomes a mere few seconds, your bodies and minds restored as you look across the station and find each other again

[ohmewhatsthis]

Project Moon and The Infinite Loops Project

hi it's me back again with things that appeal to Me and Me Alone- or maybe not, considering the various PM quests on Sufficient Velocity? anyway, have a smattering of crossover thoughts

(i know the basics of TILP but i'm not an expert so if i'm wrong about something im sorry-)

It probably took a while to get the PM-verse looping at all. Considering the setting, finding Anchors would be a hard pressed task.

My suggestions (yes I have multiple) would be Binah and Vergilius.

Binah and Hokma are explicitly the only Sephirot to remember all the TT2 loops, and Binah especially has stated she is unable to go mad due to her mechanical body. Hokma has to die to become a Sephirot, so I'm less sure of him, but I think he'd Awaken after her in due time.

(i'm a bit worried about what might happen in LoR considering Binah needs to fight there but no one truly *dies* dies there so it's probably fine?)

Considering that Binah and the rest of the Library crew gets shunted out at the end of LoR though, I think Vergilius would serve as a good Anchor candidate (though I haven't read Leviathan yet so maybe it's less of a good idea-)

Speaking of Limbus, the Mirror seems like it could be tricky to work around since it can basically tap into different Loops, in a way; that said, it would be very funny if someone extracted a Naruto ID-

Also, Taii from Wonderlab, as an Anchor maybe? They are noted to be pretty psychologically stable and are strong enough to manifest their own E.G.O. What's staying my hand is the troubled state of the comic (while I don't think it's been made non canon, it was wiped off the internet) and the fact they're in a spin off.

The Head is absolutely Loop Aware, they just don't give a shit. Carmen might or might not be, but I don't think she'd stop herself from preying on Loopers (cough cough Sakura?) assuming someone doesn't grab her by the incorporeal neck and chokeslam her

In terms of crossovers, I have this one plot bunny where Twilight Awakens in place of X, with Moondancer as her Angela and her friends as the Sephirot. Because, if you think about it, the Seed of Light is just the multiverse's least ethical version of the Elements of Harmony (see also: Celestia Carmen (can't be any worse than CelestAI or that Slavequestria version))

Any Loopers that Loop in as abnos are going to be like, ALEPH and up, for sure, unless it's a Null loop.

The RWBY crew as a Fixer Office (Ruby Office?) or as Limbus sinners

I've said this before, but any of the Persona Loopers using Abnos as Personae or running into Carmen

that's all i have right now, feel free to add on, maybe i'll think of more later

[overworkedblorbobattle]

angela lobcorp. propaganda

hey spoilers ahead. just saying. also no major cws but, time loops babey. and manipulation.

angela is an ai robot who was made in the image of someone (carmen/c) who died before the story began but started the story off. her objective was to complete the work started by the abc trio. angela was specifically programmed to experience time 1,000 times slower than the average human. imagine that. you go through your day and one hour itself is not that. it is an hour to everyone else but to you it’s longer. unimaginably long. you have to keep an eye on every little thing that goes on. you have to understand everything that happens. you cannot fuck up in the slightest.

angela was handed a ‘script’ to a ‘play’. she had to follow this script to its exact parameters. if she messed up ONE line or ONE thing or even TRIED to save the employees, make things safer, or help the sephirah, she would be punished. everything would be reset. the employees wouldn’t remember a thing, they’d be ‘new’. (the same employees. different ranks and memories.)

the sephirah would have their memories completely wiped as well, all except the lower level sephirah, hokma and binah. but everyone above wouldn’t know what happened. angela had to get used to this. she was forced to go through so many “scenario errors” and an alarm would sound, deeming a reset. one wrong word, hesitation, being too nice, unsatisfactory death quota, and more. she didn’t want this, she didn’t deserve this. even x/a had told her when she questioned something “a machine should behave as a machine.”

benjamin was the only one around for her until he was gone. until she was truly alone. until angela had to be someone who was cold and uncaring to the world, to the deaths of the employees, the well-being of them, the safety of the company, the sephirah.

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[holy-mountaineering]

This Tarot Spread is for @kristennotchristian​

Here’s the full Qabalistic Tree of Life Spread that I do and here you are. What I’m going to do is go through and briefly explain each card, its position on the Tree, and then I’ll give you a summary/synopsis of the spread as a whole. You know the routine.

Think of this spread as a sort of quantum map, or even the land of a regular map, everything is happening at once, in each place. It’s important to think of yourself as moving “through” the map but you are also simultaneously everywhere at once. For the sake of this specific experiment, think of this as a map. Maybe as a person, the Qabalistic Adam Kadmon.

Where we’re starting the journey from is Kether, the monad, the first sign of creation. We’ll call this your hometown, since it is where you’re from originally. Here we have the Prince of Swords or the Airy part of Air, total mindfuckery.

This is getting lost in that ���pit of because” or talking yourself out of doing anything but staying in the formative stage of action, which is inaction. Remember, the mind helps us act properly, it shouldn’t be using us, we should be using it.

In Chokmah, which is like your freeway getting you out onto the road out of  your hometown is the Princess of Swords, or the Earthy part of Air, or what happens in your everyday life because of what you’re thinking.

Like Her Brother, She isn’t really dealing with what is happening because She is stuck on the “way it was” or “the way it should be” and that isn’t helping.

Look around, you’re fighting the wind, phantoms of your own making. You want your life to go the way you think it is “meant” to? Then make yourself aware of what’s going on and not what should be going on. 

In Binah, which is ruled by Saturn and for the sake of this reading we will call the first stop on your roadtrip. You haven’t really arrived anywhere but you’re stopping and getting a chance to repack your car in a more efficient way. Sitting in Binah is XXI The Universe, the Biggest Picture we’ve got.

Back up. Further. Keep going. Keeeeeep going. And there, you see, you’re a small part of a large thing happening, and I assure you, YOU ARE a part of something that is happening and if you just back off of your situation and look at it, ALL OF IT, you’ll see the beautiful production, the dance that you’re participating in. That’ll make it all worth it. You are far larger and way more important in the Grand Scheme of things than you’re giving yourself credit for. If you can get out of your head, you’ll see.

In Chesed which is ruled by Jupiter and again for the sake of this experiment we’ll say involves your influence and benevolence in your current trip is the 5 of Wands. The pain in the ass that is being human, between things.

I understand why you’re struggling, being human fucking sucks, it’s real real limiting. And then other people? Forget about it, so much limitation. But you’re feeling the burn here because you have moved so far. The trick is now, you’ve gone so far, that going backward would take equal effort to move forward, the direction you MUST move in.

Across the Tree in Geburah, which is Mars Town, where you find your drive and what you’re trying to accomplish/conquer is the 10 of Wands, Oppression. 

Back to things being a pain in the ass. Feeling overwhelmed when you’re trying to accomplish things is because of WHAT you’re trying to accomplish, which needs definition. You’re trying to make major adjustments to your life without having a defined purpose for them beyond what you roughly THINK it should be. There is so much possibility, but you're like a speedboat with no steering wheel. You’ll definitely get somewhere, likely a reef or soundwall flying around like that. Do, but in a focused way. 

In Tiphareth, the Sun and center of gravity holding all this in place, the heart pumping the blood through this, your heart is VII The Chariot.

This is part of the Answer you’re looking for. You need to find a path, think about this Chariot more as a train with tracks than a car going off roading. This train isn’t driven by you, you’re on the train, going where that train goes. On that trip, you’ll have the time to work on your inner conflicts that’re causing so much strife. Unless you get a play steering wheel and pretend that you’re driving. Not only is it a waste of time and an illusion, it’ll eat up that useful time on your way that you could focus inwardly and fix much of what is causing you distress.

In Netzach, Venus town, where you have the realization about how this is going to change you as a person with a personality is I The Magus, YOU, using your FULL Potential.

Since Venus is your views of Love, Beauty and Personal Growth, know that is all completely up to you. The Magus, or Magician has his 4 Elemental Weapons, his skill set, the physical representations of the Powers within You. Know those Powers, discover them through experimentation and USE them shits. They are yours and yours alone. No one else knows what they even are, let alone how you should use them. So, back to the last card, use the time on your journey to hone and refine those Tools once you discover them fully.

In Mercury Town Hod-ville, where all the Universities are and everyone has real intellectual shit going on is the 9 of Disks, Gain. The Triplicity of Three, building on building in your everyday life.

You know how you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

The threes, numerologically are the simplest shape, the triangle. Then, multiply that by itself. In other words, you don’t have to be over complicating your life, even if it is expanding. You build from the simplest formulas you’ve Worked out. Do what you know Works and build from that. Tell yourself and others that’s what you’re up to. Be clear with yourself and others on your goals and progress.

On the Moon in Yesod, the receptive and reflective place that is a lot about the feelings that you’re picking up from all this is the Knight of Disks, the Fiery part of Earth, or acting on what needs to be done. 

Back to those skills of yours. You have experience and resources you don’t even see as resources. You’ve got planted and maintained fields, full of ripening fruits. You must harvest those and put them to use to nourish yourself. Those things are already there, you’ve already grown them and tended them. Just because you might have some misgivings about the experiences that gave you those fruits, they are good and healthy and already happened. Don’t let them go to waste out of spite. 

Down here in Malkuth-istan, the everyday life mundane, waking up pooping, and going to work world is the Knight of Swords, the Fiery part of Air, or acting on what you’re thinking. 

When you clearly have in your mind what it is that you want, what must be done, take all available force you have and FLY to it! Again, this isn’t a time to be indecisive, that went on for too long already and now it is time to Fly and to Smite.

Okay, so, short version, get out of the caverns of your head and your ���Pit of Because” so you can get a good, more complete picture of where you are and what you do in your Universe. I know it feels useless and like everything you’ve tried resisted your advancement, but that’s because you’re feeling the friction that comes from your moving, which is good believe it or not. Carry on and find the tracks you’ll ride forward on and be able to handle yourself and let go of the reins for a while.

And know that you’re the one who allows your growth into the full beautiful butterfly you’re molting into, with your experience and your skills, you shall achieve that! But remember that you have to be proactive, not controlling or micromanaging, but when the fruit is ripe, pick it, if you can’t eat it right now, can it for later.

And when you know, and trust me, you WILL figure it out, GO FOR IT. Seek that which you set your mind to.

Ta Da! Hit me up with any questions, comments, concerns, qabalistic inquiries, or praise for my skill, lol.

Goatspeed and good luck.

[everything-lobotomy-corporation]

Worries and Welfare ::Chesed x Reader::

Chapter 8: From the Ruined

Silent Orchestra ruins everything

Though nothing was there, the conductors wand made a clear tapping sound as if a metal music stand was present. Chesed acted quickly, pulling you out of the room and closing the door. He dial on his watch, immediately screaming in an order to call all Sephirot. You just stared the the door, some light sounds of singing seeping from behind it. As all the Sephirah slowly answered the call, angry and annoyed voices came through on Cheseds watch.

"There better be a good reason for this, Chesed." Tiphereth complained, her voice irritating you a bit.

"I need some help down here, Silent Orchestra has escaped."

"Shit," you heard Gebura start, "stop him before he finishes his piece! He'll drain the power!"

"We're looking at a site wide breach if he finishes his piece, I'm sending my team now " Binah cut in.

"Understood. Record team will be sent at once." Hokma said swiftly.

"Disciplinary Team is in the way." Gebura barked. One by one the Sephirah announced their intentions to send help.  Before Chesed could even breath a thank you the loud boom of music rattled his office door. The shaking cause you and Chesed to fall against one another and the hallways light flickered with a sinister flash. He immediately covered your ears, dragging you both to the hallways wall where he held tightly into your ears, his own ringing violently in response to the intense sound. A headache began to creep up the back of your skull, vibrating the back of your head.

"Hang in there, Their closing in on our location." Chesed yelled through the music, his face growing terrified as the second movement started.Picking you and beginning to run you down the hall and out of the welfare department, he passed by several members of various teams. They were armed to the teeth with EGO weapons, hopefully prepared to take on an ALEPH.

—-

Chesed didn't know where was a good place to stop. The music was faint but he could still hear it and it was now on the third movement. Soon the power would be drained and various mechanisms that kept abnormalities contained would fail. Your safety was paramount. However, he couldn't carry you all day. He put you down, clearly out of breath from running halfway across the facility. The gilded and golden hallways told you everything you needed to know. You were in The Central Control Department. Tiphereth Territory.

"This is bad," he finally said, clearly out of breath. You shuffled foot to foot, too nervous to ask what has him so concerned. "I need to get you to your fathers office. You'll be safe there-"

"What's about to happen."

"Bad things." He said, almost lamely, "very bad things. If the power fails, Big bird is probably going to escape. The shielding method for [CENSORED] will probably go down- Gods help us if the Plague Doctor gets his final apostle."

"....How did you make that bleeping noise with your mouth-?"

"There's no time." He choked, pointing down the hall, "run for your fathers office-" the power flickered as the third movement moved into full swing, screams of terror echoing from down the hall. ".... You won't make it. Dammit, you won't make it."

"What do we do?" He didn't look at you, his head whipping in all directions and trying to think of a solution. He had too many possible idea running through his head at once and he started to feel slightly overwhelmed. Normally, he'd have thought of an implemented a solution already. However , You were a very dangerous variable. His own death would be inconsequential but if anything happened to you it spiraled down a path of unfathomable consequences. For the first time in a long time, he didn't know what to do.

The sudden rise of music reminded him that time was of the essence.  The concert was near its end. The power would drain. He needed to get you out of here. Someplace safer than the hallway. He dialed on his watch, trying desperately to calm himself.

"Yesod. Does your department have Der Freischütz?"

"Already ahead of you." Yesod responded. "The  bullets have been fired and we even sent Little Red Riding Hooded Mercenary. Though, The Silent Orchestra is too far into the concerto to be stopped."

"So Red's cell is empty right now?" Chesed said, oddly ecstatic. Yesod was puzzled.

"...Yes?"

"I'm leaving Y/n in her cell."

"That is incredibly dangerous. If the abnormality returns and she isn't prepared she could take a lot of damage to her psyche."

"I don't have a choice."

—

You didn't expect to be pushed in and the door to be emergency locked behind you.  As you stood the entire facility powered down with a whirring sound. You looked out of the small window on the door, Chesed looking to you almost apologetically.

"All emergency locks deployed on containment units." He reported to his watch. "How many escapes do we have?"

"The black swan is fucking my team sideways." Gebura reported. " already counting 3 casualties."

"Security Team is Down. I'm out of agents." Netzach reported. "King Of  Greed is destroying the damn hallways."

"Nothing There remains contained," Yesod answered, "Alruine is out-"

"Of course Alruine is out." Tiphereth complained. "You could make a bagel wrong and that ugly thing escapes!"

"How do you make a bagel wrong?"

"Netzach, focus." Chesed said, smiling weakly at the conversation. "You have the backwards clock, was it wound today?"

"Used it twice."

"It needs 2 more uses and we can set everything back." Gebura said confidently. "Get some people on that."

"I can't. Dead. Remember?"

"Don't be a smartass Netzach!"

"I'm headed there myself." Chesed said. You just kept looking at him through the glass, your eyes making him a bit embarrassed.

"The last person to wind the clock die." Binah warned. "Let an employee take the 'heroic sacrifice'. Not worth it for a Sephirah."

"I'm sending 2 of my own to the backwards clock now." Malkuth said quickly. "Keep the CEOs daughter safe. We can handle this."

[no-white-knights-blog]

Halo - An Etrian Odyssey Novel (Chapter 13/50)

Notes: I low-key fail at keeping schedules, I’ve been pretty busy in my real life so I haven’t been near Tumblr in a while, currently there’s a massive forest fire that’s threatening to send my entire town evacuating if it gets any worse, so that’s terrifying, but while I have the time, I’ll post a few chapters of Halo.

~~~~~~~

“Amnesia,” Nirim repeated, watching Vien from the corner of his eyes before focusing his attention back across the table to where Sage was sitting, shoulders hunched a little and a sheepish expression on his face as he poked at the scrambled eggs on his plate.

“That’s right,” Emery clarified, leaning back with a mug of tea in his hands, “He can’t remember much of anything besides being a survivalist.”

“And my older brother,” Sage added, looking down, “Kind of. I don’t remember his name though, and whenever I try to think about him all I see is this blur,” he lifted a hand and rubbed his forehead, “I don’t know if my memory is just messing with me, but I think I remember there being five other people in my old guild, and a beast companion. That’s all, though.”

“It’s good you’re remembering some things,” Dyria offered, “and it’s good those things aren’t scaring you.”

“I guess,” Sage smiled softly, turning his head to look at the protector beside him, “I’m just happy I don’t have to be alone in this.”

Dyria smiled back, and Emery smirked against his mug as the two just stared at each other. Vien had been leaning one elbow against the table, chin sitting in his hand as he fed himself breakfast, but his eyes were now locked on Dyria and Sage, squinted a little like he was confused about something, until he dropped his fork and smacked his hand against the table, jerking to his feet.

“Ahhh!”

Emery leaned off to the side as Dyria and Sage jumped further away from each other and they all looked at Vien in utter confusion.

“What’s wrong with you?!” Iliad demanded, “It’s too early for this!”

“I need to talk to Binah!” Vien said, spinning around and tripping over the bench he’d been sitting on, hitting the floor before scrambling to his feet and straightening his shirt, “I’m fine, that was fine. Binah!” he ran from the room with his guild staring after him, and Nirim slowly turned to Emery.

“Does he do that a lot?”

“More often than you’d think,” Emery admitted, “Though I can’t imagine what happened this time.”

“Who’s Binah?” Nirim asked, and Emery smiled.

“His mini me. She’s a pink haired troubadour who stays here at the inn. When they first met they kind of just clicked, and they hang out a lot. Gossiping and making trouble for explorers. I figure Vien knows more about Lagaard than the rest of us do simply because he spends so much time with that girl.”

Nirim was outright staring at Emery as he talked, before slowly looking away with a hum, “What’s she like?” he asked, and Emery pulled his mug away from his lips to mix around the tea leaves.

“She’s sweet, but I’ve only ever seen her a few times when I went looking for Vien. Haven’t talked to her myself, but I think she’s part of the Guardian’s Guild? Or at least she’s affiliated with them somehow, maybe related to one of them,” he shrugged.

“I heard a bit about that guild while I was at the bar,” Nirim said, looking around the room before his eyes stopped and he nodded, “You can tell which group they are because of their beast companion.”

Sage leaned back in his seat to look, gasping a little, “Oh, it’s the white tiger who was comforting me the other day!” he said, beaming, “Ah, I’m glad he lives here! I can say thank you to him later.”

Dyria bit his fork, his eye twitching as he looked over to the table across the room where the massive beast was lying at the feet of a brown-haired gunner, “That thing…”

“What’s wrong with it?” Iliad asked, and Sage laughed a little.

“He doesn’t like Dyria.”

“I always thought you were good with animals,” Emery said, and Dyria just glared off to the side.

“You’d think.”

“Don’t be rude,” Sage scolded, turning back to his breakfast, and smiling, “The Guardians are really amazing though. It looks like they have a lot of members.”

“Including that annoying fucking gunner,” Iliad grumbled, “Gunners are so pointless, especially when you already have a survivor in the guild. What’s the purpose of having two long range fighters?”

“Excuse me?” Sage arched an eyebrow, and Iliad waved a hand.

“You’re fine, you’re training me.”

“Every explorer in a guild is essential, even if there are doubles of a certain class,” Nirim argued, and Iliad dropped his fork onto his plate before pushing it away, glaring directly at the ronin.

“Gunners are psychopaths. I might be fine with you and Sage joining, but if there ever comes a time where a gunner wants to join us, I’m crossing the line,” he threw his napkin onto the table and stood up before storming away from the table and out of the dining hall.

Sage gaped after him before his eyes fell to Emery, who had a solemn expression on his face as he stared down at his tea, then turned to Dyria, who looked even worse, “H-he didn’t mean that, right?”

“It’s not his fault,” Dyria argued softly, “One of the bandits who raided our home and killed our mother was a gunner. He’s just a little bias is all,” he lifted a hand to rub his eyes, “That whole thing affected him back then, it basically defines him, and I wish I could help somehow, but… I can’t just fix his trauma because I’m his brother. It’s something he has to grow up and deal with on his own. All I can do, all anyone can do, is just be here for him.”

“Well… at least he’s doing better around me, right?” Sage offered, “And he seems at least a little open to Nirim joining us. Even if he is a little bit biased against gunners, I’m sure there’s no way that could get him into any trouble. I mean, we can keep an eye on him, what are the odds a gunner would want to join us anyway? We’re kind of a small and unimportant guild. I’m sure the Guardians get more requests to join than we ever will!”

Dyria dropped his hand from his face and nodded, “Yea,” he smiled at Sage, “Thanks.”

The four of them stood up and started for the door when they were finished with breakfast, but Sage stopped when he felt something soft nudge his hand and looked down, smiling at the large beast companion and crouching down so he could be eye level with the intelligent eyes of the tiger, scratching behind his ear.

“Hello again,” he greeted, and Dyria grumbled.

“Come on, Sage, we should go and plan our next trip into the Labyrinth.”

“You’re just jealous he likes me and not you,” Sage said, sticking his tongue out at the protector before smiling at the tiger, humming when he noticed he had something clamped in his mouth, “What’s this? Did you bring me something?”

The tiger parted his mouth and dropped a few long-stemmed red flowers into his hands, his tail flicking as he looked up at Dyria, who went rigid as Sage awed and held the flowers up, “He brought me flowers!”

Emery nudged Dyria with his elbow, “Bro, you’re losing to a cat.”

“They’re so cute,” Sage laughed, taking one of the flowers and breaking the stem off so he could tuck the flower behind his ear, then hugged the beast companion around the neck, “Thanks so much. Next time I’ll bring you something.”

When he stood up he frowned, looking around in confusion, “Where’d Dyria go?”

Emery shrugged with his hands, looking fully amused, “He was muttering something about stupid cats and flower carts, so I don’t know.”

Sage turned to watched the beast companion trot back over to the table where he’d come from, then smiled at Emery, “Hm, well, we have things to do anyway, don’t we? We can just wait for them to come back,” he held out one of the red flowers, “Want one?”

Emery just covered his face and laughed, shaking his head and turning, “You really have no idea what you do to that man, do you?”

“Hm?” Sage pouted a little, following the medic out of the dining hall and out into the entry of the inn, “What do you mean?”

“It’s nothing,” Emery hummed, “You’ll figure it out.”

“I wouldn’t have to if you told me yourself,” Sage pointed, and Emery shrugged, his smile falling when the front doors opened.

A rough looking explorer was standing in the threshold, a rather glazed and drunk look in his blue eyes as they panned around the entry expectantly. His hair was brown, but he wasn’t wearing any armor that could easily define which explorer class he was.

When his eyes fell on Sage they widened and he stalked forward, grabbing the protector by his shoulders and squeezing enough to make him squeak a little as he pushed himself right into Sage’s face, “I found you! Finally!”

“H-huh?”

~

Loud noises like slamming doors always made Iliad jump, because they reminded him of the gunshot that made his mother fall back, coughing blood as his father ran forward to help her while she struggled to speak, eyes on Iliad as she yelled at him to run and hide. He didn’t, not for a long time, he just stood there and watched as the bandit with the gun stepped further into the room and hit his father, knocking him away for his companions to deal with as he aimed down at the female protector and pulled the trigger three more times.

Iliad only ran when the gunner’s dark eyes raised to him, heading for the barn so he could hide in the giant pile of hay to wait for Dyria. It was the sound of a gun that made him fall forward and cover his head, even though he didn’t get shot, he was too scared to move, and the group of bandits bared down on him with leering faces and flying fists.

Damn it, he hated it, all the nightmares he pretended never happened, feeling like he had to act tough and unafraid when someone started yelling pointlessly or slamming glasses and doors, the loud boisterous laughter that made his head ache from the memories, bad enough that he had to tangle his fingers through his hair and yank on the black locks, eyes pinched closed as he willed everything back to the lowest depths of his memories so he could focus on something else.

He had to get out of the inn after that conversation, so he just left for a walk, scuffing his shoes against the cobbled ground as he made his way down the streets towards the center of town where he knew a pretty fountain was set up. It was normally vacant and quiet, as most of the citizens were either at the bar or park, so Iliad felt relaxed enough to go alone, dipping his hand into the cool water that was being spewed from the mouth of a koi fish.

A few minutes here and he would be calm enough to return to the inn, completely pretending as if the conversation about gunners hadn’t even taken place, hiding all of that and just going back to the way he normally was. It wasn’t his fault, really. Gunners were just psychopaths. Why… why would anyone do that to someone…

Iliad turned away from the fountain when his heart rate was back to normal, stepping away to head back to the inn, but a sudden call had him pausing and rolling his head to the side in curiosity, going rigid when his gaze fell on the explorer stalking towards him. He was decently tall with dirty blond hair and dark red eyes, and he was dressed in the common gunner gear, which is precisely why Iliad scowled before turning away to walk off.

“Hey, hold up!” the gunner called before starting to run, grabbing Iliad by his arm when he was close enough and pulling him to a stop, “You’re a survivalist!”

Iliad cringed and snarled up at him, “So?”

“You should fight me!”

[holy-mountaineering]

This spread is for the homie @-ziggans-

Here’s the full Qabalistic Tree of Life Spread that I do and here you are. What I’m going to do is go through and briefly explain each card, its position on the Tree, and then I’ll give you a summary/synopsis of the spread as a whole. You know the routine.

Think of this spread as a sort of quantum map, or even the land of a regular map, everything is happening at once, in each place. It’s important to think of yourself as moving “through” the map but you are also simultaneously everywhere at once. For the sake of this specific experiment, think of this as a map. Maybe as a person, the Qabalistic Adam Kadmon.

Where we’re starting the journey from is Kether, the monad, the first sign of creation. We’ll call this your hometown, since it is where you’re from originally. Here we have the 9 of Disks, Gain. 

This card screams that in the material world, if you build from what you know you will reap 3 fold rewards. The first formulation of a shape or 2-dimensions (the triangle, the 3 card) has in this card, been multiplied by itself. If you use methods you have already mastered, you have a much better chance of Gain-ing. Here Venus, Love, beauty, personal growth is in the fertile soil or possibility of Virgo. 

Build from what you know and put yer Venusian focus in the best possible options you have available in practical, familiar way.

In Chokmah, which is like your freeway getting you out onto the road out of  your hometown is XIX The Sun, Resh, Sol. 

The Sun is The Lord of Light and Life, the center of our little Solar System. Everything in the fairly large gravitational pull of the Sun is affected by it which pulls everything to it. If it weren’t for The Sun, nothing in our Solar System (named after Sol, The Sun Himself) would be where it is or nearly as well lit or full of life.

This more or less self sufficient little nuclear reactor in space gives life and light but also pulls small things which cannot maintain an orbit around it in for the final burn. bright and full of life and light but deal not with bullshit trifles. 

Center yourself but be aware of what you effect and how. Keep pumping out the power but make sure it’s that good good renewable energy.

In Binah, which is ruled by Saturn and for the sake of this reading we will call the first stop on your roadtrip. You haven’t really arrived anywhere but you’re stopping and getting a chance to repack your car in a more efficient way. Sitting in Binah is the ass-busting 3 of Disks, Works or Work or Working.

Like all the 3s, this is the first formulation of the suit,  Earth or material world things. The 3 sided pyramid pictured on this Tarot card sits on water propelled by Dharma Wheels, spinning and causing waves. The drive and energy of the warrior Mars has become stubborn and resolute in the goat-fish Capricorn.

This idea of work is not mindless toil. This is doing the very necessary things in your life so you don’t fuck yourself over on the basic things everyone needs to survive. This is formulating the most simple workable “shape of things” that gets your at least basic needs met so you can expand and become more than basic.

Put together a simple way of dealing with the material world, something that can be expanded on. Keep your wheels turning even if they feel like they’re just spinning. Make waves, they’ll go further and affect more than you think! 

In Chesed which is ruled by Jupiter and again for the sake of this experiment we’ll say involves your influence and benevolence in your current trip is the Prince of Wands, the airy part of Fire.

This is thinking about what you’re doing while you’re doing it. This is an “on the job training” experience. You’re in the midst of or have hurled yourself into an action that you have to be mindful of while you’re doing it.

Learn about what is going on in your life and your actions by paying attention while you’re moving along and accomplishing things. You might not have time to take it all in right now, but it is time to do the damn thing while the damn thing is happening.

Across the Tree in Geburah, which is Mars Town, where you find your drive and what you’re trying to accomplish/conquer is the Princess of Wands, the earthy part of Fire.

This is the material substance that comes from fuels action. Think of this: you have to make a fire because it is cold. You have a set amount of wood. You can make a big ass, bright ass fire that will leave you cold later that night when you’re out of wood, but jazzed while it’s happening. Or you can make a smaller, less exciting fire that will keep you warm all night.

There is also a message about the last step in any action is really to become the actions and to let them become you. When your very Earthly substance is in it, you are no longer doing you just are.

Don’t burn yourself out and exhaust your resources on what you’re tackling in life right now. Do this and you shall live to dance and party another night.

In Tiphareth, the Sun and center of gravity holding all this in place, the heart pumping the blood through this, your heart is the thing you MUST focus on, XVII The Star, Heh, Aquarius.

Despite its name making me think of water, Aquarius is an air sign. Aquarius the water-bearer is the vehicle for the water she is baring. The life giving water flows through her. It has been said that “Tzaddi is not the Star” and Crowley made it so in the Thoth deck. There is a mystery in this attribution of the Hebrew letter to this Tarot card that I will not go into. 

I read this card called the “Universal Principle of Self-Worth” or trusting yourself as the vehicle of transmission. Her gaze is toward her reflection in the cup above her and she is pouring through herself to the areas below herself.

Trust that you’re a worthy conduit to transmit what nourishes life. Trust that your shit is real and who you are makes you capable. That which is above wishes to come below through you.

In Netzach, Venus town, where you have the realization about how this is going to change you as a person with a personality is the 2 of Disks, Change. 

This is the old saying, “The only constant is change.” This is finding stability in the aforementioned changing. In other words, when stuff gets different, strap in and hold on, steady yourself, and get ready to go into the unknown. Look a bit before you leap but understand that position is king, not appearances. You’re building toward the unknown and pretending to know is not the kind of posturing you should bother with. Not looking for the result of the change, being in the motion, and enjoying, embracing the motion toward the unknown is where you should position yourself. 

Disks are Earth, matter, the material world, your everyday life and 2s are the suit trying to formulate into something from the rawness of the Aces or the beginning of the idea of Earth. Astrologically, the influential and expanding Jupiter is in the highs and lows of the Goat-Fish Capricorn, think rollercoaster, possibly one that goes underwater. And like rollercoasters, they’re scary but probably not going to be the cause of your death. Unless they go underwater, that sounds dangerous. This is a great time to be aware that you’re moving around and kind of always will be. Enjoy the twists and turns of the ride and don���t stress yourself about how and when it will end.

In Mercury Town Hod-ville, where all the Universities are and everyone has real intellectual shit going on is the 6 of Wands, Victory. 

This is organizing each action to interact with another to create friction at the intersections. 6s are like the idealized form of each of the suits, in this case FIRE or action, movement. Victory is achieved through strong organization. Here the strands come together to form the rope you pull yourself up with. Each piece is strong on it’s own but when you twist them together correctly you have a much better tool. 

Don’t do isolated things, use each action to build on your goals.

On the Moon in Yesod, the receptive and reflective place that is alot about the feelings that you’re picking up from all this is the 8 of Cups, Indolence.

This is emotional stagnancy and “half fulfilled” desires. The structure and order of Saturn is pulled in two directions by Pieces. The waters have become still and a storm is on the horizon. It has been noted that the cups pictured in the card look an awful lot like ashtrays. It’s that shitty.

Try to begin to focus on emotional areas that haven’t received much attention lately unless you want them getting washed out in the storms coming. You must choose what to do in regards to moving forward emotionally or in a relationship that has become stagnant.

Down here in Malkuth-istan, the everyday life mundane, waking up pooping, and going to work world is the ever opening, III The Empress, Daleth, Venus.

Daleth is the open door, like you’d leave your bedroom door unlocked if your lover were coming over, you want them inside (pun sort of intended). This is not passivity but waiting for the spring (or Aries her partner IV The Emperor) to energize what you have. Like the symbolic Pelican (phoenix also) spitting its breast open to feed its young, or like a pregnant person, the brunt of the responsibility for your future growth lies in you. 

Be ready and prepared for new growth like springtime, but remember, this all hinges on you and your openness to growth.

So, we’re starting from a place of having multiplied what you know how to do in your regular money making life, with good-ass results. Doing this has put you in a place where you can finally take some time and focus on number 1 (not that you should think of yourself as more important than those in your orbit, it’s just that you are you and they are not, so gas up your car not theirs?) and study those celestial bodies sataliting about you, exemplifying, juxtaposing and uniting you with your cosmic neighborhood, so to speak. And the news is that you should stick with what you know because apparently that skill is well formulated and consistently produces good results that benefit you and that community around you.

Now, as far as you influencing your world, uh, well, you’re not very used to having a say in what goes on around you, but as you’re given more responsibility, you’re going to have to really learn on the fly and learn to pace yourself so you don’t just burn up and out. And that’s ‘cause ya need to be focusing on how cool you are and how you are totally trustworthy and can deal with all this stuff your way (since it is coming through you anyway) and all this new responsibility is something you can handle. 

While you change and grow as a person, just realize that you’re always slowly shifting that, right now it is noticeable because that change is extra pronounced, but again, it’s not anything “new” or unmanageable. Part of the ”new new” is thinking about your actions/the tasks you’re responsible for are all building on each other to make one big whole thing. The sum being greater than the whole of its parts. Speaking of sums and parts, you need to work on surrounding yourself with people and energy that are fulfilling emotional and “connective” areas of your life you’ve been neglecting, these higher connections and emotions have been  wholesale left to rot on the vine and it is time to pick those fruits, they are done ripening, now you gotta do something with them and ignoring those Watery areas will just leave you all dry and dusty. That being said, the answer to “HOW I DO THAT” is just being open to the experience/possibility/persons as they arrive into your life. Don’t seek after it, it will come to you and know exactly how to activate you and get the blood pumping again and everywhere!

Ta Da another successful Tarot reading for you. Let me know how you wanna proceed with the further readings.

Hit me up with any questions, of course!

-Frater N0vght

[holy-mountaineering]

This Tree of Life is for an anonymous friend who shall go unnamed but they are not unloved!

Think of this spread as a sort of quantum map, or even the land of a regular map, everything is happening at once, in each place. It’s important to think of yourself as moving “through” the map but you are also simultaneously everywhere at once. For the sake of this specific experiment, think of this as a map. Maybe as a person, the Qabalistic Adam Kadmon.

Where we’re starting the journey from is Kether, the monad, the first sign of creation. We’ll call this your hometown, since it is where you’re from originally. Here we have the “meh” card, Queen of Swords, or how you feel about what you think and your reasoning.

Ideally, this Queen is the “caller out of bullshit.” She is watery (intuitive) enough to feel when a facade is being put up and airy (intelligent) enough to cut the shit and address the fakery. The difference between someone trying to take advantage of another and a person who accidentally causes misfortune is the intention of said individual. Don’t be fooled by kind wolves or rabid sheep.

She rests at her throne with the head or mask of a man and the sword of her mind she severed the head/mask with. Her expression is one of disinterest, she’s done this many times before and shall again and again. It is her nature.

Be aware of intentions, even  your own. Be wary of situations and people talking from behind masks they wish to use to obscure their true meaning. Especially be aware of yourself and your masks you hide behind.

In Chokmah, which is like your freeway getting you out onto the road out of  your hometown is the always welcomed X Fortune, Jupiter, Kaph. 

The “wheel of” Fortune is the rotating of things from confusing and/or destructive to beneficial. The gods Hanuman and Sobek to Crowley represented these ideas and the spinning ‘Wheel of Fortune, ol’ Fortuna is the constant motion of life and our experience stuck in it.. The Sphinx on top has waited through the turns patiently and meditatively and now It is on top again. 

Expand your influence through patience. It’s getting better just you wait.

In Binah, which is ruled by Saturn and for the sake of this reading we will call the first stop on your roadtrip. You haven’t really arrived anywhere but you’re stopping and getting a chance to repack your car in a more efficient way. Sitting in Binah is the fuckery of the 7 of Swords, Futility.

This is the main thrust of the Will through the mind being thwarted by in helpful organization of ideas. Each sword with a planetary sigil are like the spikes in a parking garage, one way. It isn’t that the ideas or aspects represented by these swords are “bad” just that their placement and yours are not lined up in the best way right now. 

Mentally and communication wise pull back from what you’re going at and work on how your organizing the information in your head.

In Chesed which is ruled by Jupiter and again for the sake of this experiment we’ll say involves your influence and benevolence in your current trip is the 9 of Cups, Happiness. 

I call this ‘mutually beneficial relationships’ or expanding influence (Jupiter) going or being pulled both ways (Pisces). Each cup has its own source but everything is flowing into each other down to the base of the 3x3 structure. There is a lot of water and all it represents and it hasn’t reached its peak yet and is still driving upward and outward.

Cultivate relationships and connective feelings that aren’t lopsided or just giving/taking. Keep building  you’re not done yet.

Across the Tree in Geburah, which is Mars Town, where you find your drive and what you’re trying to accomplish/conquer is the popular tonight Atu XIX The Sun, Resh, Sol. 

The Sun is The Lord of Light and Life, the center of our little Solar System. Everything in the fairly large gravitational pull of the Sun is affected by it which pulls everything to it. If it weren’t for The Sun, nothing in our Solar System (named after Sol, The Sun Himself) would be where it is or nearly as well lit or full of life.

This more or less self sufficient little nuclear reactor in space gives life and light but also pulls small things which cannot maintain an orbit around it in for the final burn. bright and full of life and light but deal not with bullshit trifles. 

Center yourself but be aware of what you effect and how. Keep pumping out the power but make sure it’s that good good renewable energy.

In Tiphareth, the Sun and center of gravity holding all this in place, the heart pumping the blood through this, your heart is the (more fuckery) Princess of Swords, the earthy part of Air.

This is the material situations that manifest from your way of thinking and communicating! You have to understand that we literally create reality with our perception, thoughts, and language. And that can get messy if we don’t keep them in check.

Get your head into the game as they say, you’re here right now and what is going on in this moment is what you need to focus on. Stay away from nostalgia and daydreaming, think on your situation, not possible scenarios. 

In Netzach, Venus town, where you have the realization about how this is going to change you as a person with a personality is well EXTRA FUCKERY, self fuckery, if thou wilt. The 9 of Swords, Cruelty (to self and then by proxy, others).

Like the other 9s this is a massive building up, in this case of Air, mind, thinking, communicating. This is beating yourself up about a decision that must be made. Astrologically, Mars in Gemini relates to action being thwarted because of a split mind on a matter.

You are mentally at a fork in the road and you need to make a choice one way or another.

You’re building up a lot of ideas but you need to decide which way you want to go or it’s going to keep tearing you up mentally. There is a lot of force and mass here, move it or lose it.

In Mercury Town Hod-ville, where all the Universities are and everyone has real intellectual shit going on is a whole new way of thinking and perceiving, Atu XX The Aeon, Shin, Fire.

Think about where you are now and how you go about doing things in general. Do you remember a time before this point in your life when you acted differently and didn’t have this kind of understanding of the world? The Aeon is a new understanding and thus a new way of acting in your life.

Harpocrates giving the sign of silence has to do with the meditative process of accepting this new law of life. You must truly grasp the meaning of this change in order to act in the new “spirit of the age” if you will.

You are being born anew through fire and blood, you are emerging from the egg in the background and coming forth.  What you take away from this will be with you forever but one day will also be improved on and brought to a new level. 

On the Moon in Yesod, the receptive and reflective place that is a lot about the feelings that you’re picking up from all this is the organized 6 of Wands, Victory. 

This is organizing each action to interact with another to create friction at the intersections. 6s are like the idealized form of each of the suits, in this case FIRE or action, movement. Victory is achieved through strong organization. Here the strands come together to form the rope you pull yourself up with. Each piece is strong on it’s own but when you twist them together correctly you have a much better tool. 

Don’t do isolated things, use each action to build on your goals.

Down here in Malkuth-istan, the everyday life mundane, waking up pooping, and going to work world is a wedding! VI The Lovers. 

These Lovers aren’t about romantic love as much as it is the ‘Love unites the divided.’ This is the ceremony part of the alchemical wedding or the announcement of the intention to dissolve duality. Coagula.

All inverse and adverse elements of the card are brought together under the blessing of the Initiator who is giving the sign of the enterer. This is to say he is blessing your entering into this union of your shadow and conscious self.

You have some work to do on making a more unified you. There are issues that once brought together and balanced make more sense. Bring opposites or aspects of yourself you’re not familiar with/comfortable with together in your life to make a more complete whole. Set intention to do this, maybe even formally. 

SO, whenever you get over being over “it all” and you realize it’s just a stuck point, shit will finish getting different, again. This change in “luck” should give you a chance to look at how you’re organizing your own funeral, so to speak. If you feel like you’re pushing a fucking boulder up hill, maybe don’t. Maybe figure out a pulley system or conning someone else into doing the work like your little one eye’d Friend, lol.

And you’ll gain more important influence by surrounding yourself with folks who give and take in relatively equal proportions. I know, I know, this is “The Dream” but it is possible to cut off people that just sap your “love force” leaving you with nothing but force. Refocus on YOUR goals and YOUR Light and the things in Orbit of you will makes sense and hold their satellite positions and continue to do their little (and big) jobs. But this is all done by GETTING YOUR HEAD IN THE GAME. If you see yourself as a lone wolf fighting winter alone, winter will eat your ass every time, and not in a fun ass eating way, more in an ice giant just gobbling you up. You make your reality, possibly more than most, so make it one that puts you at the center so you can get shit done.

You aren’t going to grow from this garbage heap if you don’t stop beating yourself up about every goat-forsaken choice you make! Your total understanding of your standing in the Universe is about to get a reboot anyhow, so just surround yourself with people and energy that allows you to build toward that anomalyous “self goals” thing we’ve been kinda talking about. You’re doing one “Supreme Ritual” that is your life, so make it all Work together instead of weird little stand alone actions you do every once and a while when it suits your fancy, Your Path requires a fuck load more that that from you.

And speaking of demands, that wedding… You’re hanging in there (pun absolutely intended) to do Greater things, and Greater means integrating. Like I was just saying about that 6 of Wands, bring it all together as a “Supreme Ritual” of your Goatdamned life and get out there and fucking take it, announcing that you shall take what is yours, which is of course, only you…

Well, there you are anonymous bud and Odin friend/family/familiar.

Beat down the walls and Goatspeed on your journey UP!

-Frater N0vght

[holy-mountaineering]

This spread is for @Latasha-kills

Here’s the full Qabalistic Tree of Life Spread that I do. What I’m going to do is go through and briefly explain each card, its position on the Tree, and then I’ll give you a summary/synopsis of the spread as a whole. You know the routine.

Think of this spread as a sort of quantum map, or even the land of a regular map, everything is happening at once, in each place. It’s important to think of yourself as moving “through” the map but you are also simultaneously everywhere at once. For the sake of this specific experiment, think of this as a map. Maybe as a person, the Qabalistic Adam Kadmon.

Where we’re starting the journey from is Kether, the monad, the first sign of creation. We’ll call this your hometown, since it is where you’re from originally. Here we have the Princess of Wands, the earthy part of Fire.

This is the material substance that comes from fuels action. Think of this: you have to make a fire because it is cold. You have a set amount of wood. You can make a big ass, bright ass fire that will leave you cold later that night when you’re out of wood, but jazzed while it’s happening. Or you can make a smaller, less exciting fire that will keep you warm all night.

There is also a message about the last step in any action is really to become the actions and to let them become you. When your very Earthly substance is in it, you are no longer doing you just are.

Don’t burn yourself out and exhaust your resources on what you’re tackling in life right now. Do this and you shall live to dance and party another night.

In Chokmah, which is like your freeway getting you out onto the road out of  your hometown is the Ace of Disks, the root power of Earth or the material. 

This is the foundation which all your solid structures are and will be built on. This is the very root of your real world/material life situation. While this doesn’t mean you must tear everything down or that there is nothing in your material world that you've built, it does mean you must look at the source from which you've built your material and everyday world. If you have no foundation you can have no structure. If you have a shoddy foundation, you'll have a shoddy structure. Look to what things were like  before you began building. Is there sand beneath you? Are you in a swamp, building castles of stone that will bind to the mud and be pulled down much sooner than later? Did you account for the raise in elevation when you laid your foundation? Look down to the base of what you've made and what you've made it upon.

This is an engineering job, you’ll need tools to measure and level everything out. The occult might not be the best place to find these tools and it is possible that you have issues much more base than you're willing to cop to. There are many tools you can use to look at your foundation provided in psychology and meditation from other sources. The Universe throws us extreme situations and more often than not, this is the only way people see their basest of instincts and behaviors really act out. If you can, take a look at what connects you and what you’re building to the Earth before an earthquake, tornado, volcano, or other act of G-D forces you to pray everything was fine. Check the strength of your foundations before the strength of your foundations are checked.

Get down to the base fundamentals of what is going on in your material (things, money, living situation, literal stuff) and build from the ground up if you must.

In Binah, which is ruled by Saturn and for the sake of this reading we will call the first stop on your roadtrip. You haven’t really arrived anywhere but you’re stopping and getting a chance to repack your car in a more efficient way. Sitting in Binah is the 7 of Swords, Futility.

This is the main thrust of the Will through the mind being thwarted by in helpful organization of ideas. Each sword with a planetary sigil are like the spikes in a parking garage, one way. It isn’t that the ideas or aspects represented by these swords are “bad” just that their placement and yours are not lined up in the best way right now. 

Mentally and communication wise pull back from what you’re going at and work on how you’re organizing the information in your head.

In Chesed which is ruled by Jupiter and again for the sake of this experiment we’ll say involves your influence and benevolence in your current trip is the 6 of Swords, Science!

This is thinking and communicating in its idealized form. This is the system building card where individual thoughts are organized into a repeatable formula. Mercury’s intelligence is flowing through the Water Bearer Aquarius and coming down to useful data gathering techniques.

Organize the way you’re thinking about what you’re doing to reflect all of the information you have available. Be scholarly about your thought process and write shit down goddamnit.

Across the Tree in Geburah, which is Mars Town, where you find your drive and what you’re trying to accomplish/conquer is VII The Chariot, Cheth, Cancer.

I like to think of the Chariot as an armored train. The Four elements are the engine pulling the otherwise stagnate charioteer of Cancer down the predetermined path. While they pull him toward his goal he stays in his armored shell focusing on his moving center. This is not about “going off the beaten path” at all, this is “staying on track” to take care of yourself and Yourself, if you catch my meanings. The armour of the night is “not to keep others out, but to keep the Knight focused in.” to paraphrase. The rotating center is the Knight’s center, from His perspective, the center of All.

Stay on your path, you might not be driving the train but it’ll get you going where you need to be. Focus on your soft inside bits like the crab does, you can only fit so much in your current state.

In Tiphareth, the Sun and center of gravity holding all this in place, the heart pumping the blood through this, your heart is  IV The Emperor, Tzaddi, Aries.

The Emperor is the activating consort of III The Empress. He is King of Spring, the sign of Aries being his energy. He has the energy of the Sun, who in spring gets closer to the Earth and revitalizes the plant growth. The Emperor is formulated, active energy that causes force and growth.

This is new growth brought about like the spring that Aries heralds. Like the season of Spring, this card is activating the potential growth of the Earth, that is to say, the time is right to spring forth and grow as you can, with what you have.

Get formulated and active. Put things in their place or notice the NATURAL orbits of things. What works is that which grows from your energy.

In Netzach, Venus town, where you have the realization about how this is going to change you as a person with a personality is the (often misunderstood, like you) 5 of Disks, Worry. 

Like all of the 5s in Tarot, this is the microcosmic or human number . Don’t believe me? Stand up, stick your arms and legs out and counting your head, congrats, you’re a pentagram. Lord knows people worry like motherfuckers about how they are going to get by in the “normal” world, so there is a stress and strain in this card that everyone late on a bill can understand. This is the worry that you’ll get your intelligence (Mercury) smothered by the laborious strain of Taurus. This is, like all 5s a human limitation issue. 

Well it won’t unless you only see your limitations and make it happen. Be smarter about you material situation so you don’t have to work harder.

In Mercury Town Hod-ville, where all the Universities are and everyone has real intellectual shit going on is XX The Aeon, Shin, Fire.

Think about where you are now and how you go about doing things in general. Do you remember a time before this point in your life when you acted differently and didn’t have this kind of understanding of the world? The Aeon is a new understanding and thus a new way of acting in your life.

Harpocrates giving the sign of silence has to do with the meditative process of accepting this new law of life. You must truly grasp the meaning of this change in order to act in the new “spirit of the age” if you will.

You are being born anew through fire and blood, you are emerging from the egg in the background and coming forth.  What you take away from this will be with you forever but one day will also be improved on and brought to a new level.

On the Moon in Yesod, the receptive and reflective place that is alot about the feelings that you’re picking up from all this is MY GIRL, XI Lvst, Teth, Leo, OUR LADY BABALON. 

This is the Serpent motion of the True Will. Both Teth and Leo represent the Snake. Leo was later attributed to the lion but originally it was a snake as you can see by the shape of it’s glyph. The top of the card itself shows snakes (obviously stand ins for sperm) drawing near to the newly torn horizon BABALON has ripped. There are human figures meekly praying beneath the Beast that she rides with the stirrups taunt because SHE is in control of this act. The practical implications is the drive and Will to Do What Thou Wilt at the expense of the weak who would drag you to their grovelling level without a second thought. 

You might need to move “irregularly” like the serpent but very few predators take on snakes and they get to go about their snaky business generally unharmed. In short do what you Need to do, nay sayers be damned. Move powerfully even if you’re so far off the “beaten path” you’re smashing through the thickets.

Down here in Malkuth-istan, the everyday life mundane, waking up pooping, and going to work world is the The Knight of Swords, the fiery part of Air or acting on thinking.

This is the breeze blowing the forest fire across a road. Our Knight has a sword in each hand as he dive bombs a fixed point. He has his airy bird friends in tow and his steed is as fixed as the rider.

You understand what you must do. Now, you must gather all available force to throw at your new focus.

So, there’s a lot ahead of you on this path so work on pacing yourself so you don’t just burn out quickly. It will help to start from scratch, look at the foundation of what you’re building to ensure that it is solid. If you feel like there is a lot of pressure on you right now, back up and reexamine how you’re approaching things. You have (intentionally or not) called forth things that are supposed to assist you on your travels, but they are big and scary if you come at them wrong. Find the path of least resistance, things being very difficult doesn’t mean they’re right.

That being said, take those big things you see as “in the way” and reorganize those shits so you can use them! This is a bit like “Captain Planet” (terrible cartoon reference that dates how old I am) in that when you combine all these powers they’ll serve you much better. And this may not be news to you, but the direction you’re heading is the right direction as long as you reliquish some control over it. You’re on train tracks, they’re moving one way and again, stay the course, there are forces that wish to help you down this path, trust them. Once you’ve got this idea in your head, the idea that you can use these powers around you to your benefit, you will feel a lot more ordered and in control of the actions you’re taking. Feel that power and vigor and know that it is good and what you’ve been needing.

You are growing and evolving at the correct rate. Don’t rush yourself or get too impatient with yourself. You are just human and so is everyone else, so don’t put too much on yourself or others and realize you’re just a person. However, you are going to be coming to a new realization about the world around you and your place in it. This is the knowledge that comes with age and experience and there’s no way to rush it or explain it before you’re ready, just know that it is happening and begin to work on understanding it for yourself. This is going to involve some “irregular Strength” in the way that it may seem odd to other people, but it is just the way you need to move right now and you should surround yourself with that energy that allows you to make your own moves, your own way that are powerful and individual to you.

And when you have that friend, you shall take all that you have and throw it at this task to get it done, but as in Kether way up there, in a way that isn’t going to just burn you out. DO, but do for you, as you must, in your time!

Ta Da! Hit me up with any questions!

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You know the drill. I’ll go down the Tree from the top and then give a summary/synopsis of the spread as a whole at the end.

Think of this spread as a sort of quantum map, or even the land of a regular map, everything is happening at once, in each place. It’s important to think of yourself as moving “through” the map but you are also simultaneously everywhere at once. For the sake of this specific experiment, think of this as a map.

Where we’re starting the journey from is Kether, the monad, the first sign of creation. We’ll call this your hometown, since it is where you’re from originally. Here we have the Ace of Disks, the root power of Earth or the material. This is the foundation which all your solid structures are and will be built on. This is the very root of your real world/material life situation. While this doesn’t mean you must tear everything down or that there is nothing in your material world that you've built, it does mean you must look at the source from which you've built your material and everyday world. If you have no foundation you can have no structure. If you have a shoddy foundation, you'll have a shoddy structure. Look to what things were like where you are before you began building. Is there sand beneath you? Are you in a swamp, building castles of stone that will bind to the mud and be pulled down much sooner than later? Did you account for the raise in elevation when you laid your foundation? Look down to the base of what you've made and what you've made it upon. This is an engineering job, you’ll need tools to measure and level everything out. The occult might not be the best place to find these tools and it is possible that you have issue much more base than you're willing to cop to. There are many tools you can use to look at your foundation provided in psychology and meditation from other sources. The Universe throws us extreme situations and more often than not, this is the only way people see their basest of instincts and behaviors really act out. If you can, take a look at what connects you and what you’re building to the Earth before an earthquake, tornado, volcano, or other act of G-D forces you to pray everything was fine. Check the strength of your foundations before the strength of your foundations are checked. Get down to the base fundamentals of what is going on in your material (things, money, living situation, literal stuff) and build from the ground up if you must.

In Chokmah, which is like your freeway getting you out onto the road out of your hometown is the 4 of Cups, Luxury. This is “squaring up” emotionally and creating a greater emotional balance. Lvna the Moon absorbs the light of Sol the sun and reflects it back to Earth, but only enough emotionally to help you stay stable and protected (Cancer the crab with an exoskeleton to protect it’s soft inside parts). Don’t get too comfy though, don’t mistake squaring up (getting correct) with being a scared square.

In Binah, which is ruled by Saturn and for the sake of this reading we will call the first stop on your roadtrip. You haven’t really arrived anywhere but you’re stopping and getting a chance to repack your car in a more efficient way. Sitting in Binah is IV The Emperor, Tzaddi, Aries. The Emperor is the activating consort of III The Empress. He is King of Spring, the sign of Aries being his energy. He has the energy of the Sun, who in spring gets closer to the Earth and revitalizes the plant growth. The Emperor is formulated, active energy that causes force and growth. This is new growth brought about like the spring that Aries heralds. Like the season of Spring, this card is activating the the potential growth of the Earth, that is to say, the time is right to spring forth and grow as you can, with what you have. Get formulated and active. Put things in their place or notice the NATURAL orbits of things. What works is that which grows from your energy.

In Chesed which is ruled by Jupiter and again for the sake of this experiment we’ll say involves your influence and benevolence in your current trip is the Princess of Cups, the earthy part of Water. We could consider this the substance in water or water hitting substance head on. This is the idea of the canyon wall being ground down over the millennia by moving water. The nutrients and minerals in the earth are transported down river to the fertile delta. This is the natural, “following your feelings” within your daily life. Try not to fool yourself, follow your intuition, not just passing whims. Feel, don’t necessarily react immediately. Go with what you feel and intuit, let yourself go with the flow, if you will. Allow your situation to move with your emotions and be patient with your progress.

Across the Tree in Geburah, which is Mars Town, where you find your drive and what you’re trying to accomplish/conquer is Queen of Cups, the watery part of Water, total emotion and intuition. This Queen looks through her reflective eyes at the ripples on a pond at the reflection of the moon which reflects the Sun. She isn’t so much interested in looking directly at a thing as she is looking at the effects. The tides being ruled by the Moon was discovered by observation of the correlation of movements of both Lvna and the comings and going of the tides. Her animal is the Ibis, who on one leg intently stares at the surface of the water. This was perceived as meditation and contemplation by the wise people of Khemet and they attributed the ibis to Djehudi or Thoth the wisest of their pantheon. But like ibis you have to act when the fish swims by or you’ll starve. Do not look directly at a problem or situation you feel strongly about. Look for effects and causation not the point of impact.

In Tiphareth, the Sun and center of gravity holding all this in place, the heart pumping the blood through this, your heart is 2 of Cups, Love. Like all the 2s the deuces of Water is building towards completion. This is the ever becomingness of love. Love never dies it is simply transformed like any other energy. Love isn’t a competition or something you can measure. You never stop loving someone/thing because you have “reached maximum love levels”, shake hands and walk away from it. There is no end-game to love and that’s why it’s scary and makes people act like idiots sometimes. Astrologically, Venus in Cancer can be interpreted as nurturing your emotional growth. Build on what you’re feeling and don’t try to think about anything too concretely emotionally or intuitively. This is a building process so try not to focus on the final outcome but work with what you have now.

In Netzach, Venus town, where you have the realization about how this is going to change you as a person with a personality is the 6 of Cups, Pleasure. For reasons I call this the plumbing card. The water is not flowing freely as though it is pouring, it has been pumped through a series of tubes intricately woven together to fill the cups placed in the shape of a hexagram. Emotion and connectedness to life are intentionally being directed by unseen but invited forces. Someone who wasn’t looking closely could see nothing but knots and chaos and even wonder how the damn thing worked in the first place. Those people are squares and should be avoided at all costs. Do what gives you pleasure that also instills clarity. Center on the best you can feel even if onlookers can’t appreciate what you’re doing connoisseurs (and you) will dig it.

In Mercury Town Hod-ville, where all the Universities are and everyone has real intellectual shit going on is the Ace of Swords, the root power of Air or the mind. This is the sword of the Magus and the magician’s Sword is the physical representation of our mind and it’s ability in its rawest state of being. Thelema is inscribed on the blade of the Sword in Greek because the Magus uses their mind to the end of their True Will. The Crown of light at the tip of the Sword is the illuminated mind, because in its singleness and sharpness it is the foundation of the mind, intellect, and communication powers. Use your mind for what you need it to do. Remember that a sword is useless at best and dangerous at worst when it isn’t handled correctly. You can cut down an army with a sword, but you can also cut your whole-ass leg or arm off too with one too. Knowledge is dangerous and scary, be prepared.

On the Moon in Yesod, the receptive and reflective place that is alot about the feelings that you’re picking up from all this is the Ace of Cups, the root powers of water which is emotion, connectedness to living things, and intuition. This is the geyser of the aspects of water exploding into existence. The Ace of Cups can be like the yearly floods on the Nile was to ancient Egyptian/Kemetic people that once a year had their fields simultaneously wiped out and fertilized. There is great danger in unbound Love, it tends to get consuming and people fear being consumed. There is a secret meaning to the joining of two to make none, but this isn’t really the place for that. The uncontrolled waterfall of feeling, it can flow and be a clearing force or flood. If you’re not prepared for such water, you might get washed away, if you are it might wash away the cobwebs and your stagnancy.

Down here in Malkuth-istan, the everyday life mundane, waking up pooping, and going to work world is the 9 of Swords, Cruelty (to self, mostly). Like the other 9s this is a massive building up, in this case of Air, mind, thinking, communicating. This is beating yourself up about a decision that must be made. Astrologically, Mars in Gemini relates to action being thwarted because of a split mind on a matter. You are mentally at a fork in the road and you need to make a choice one way or another.

You’re building up a lot of ideas but you need to decide which way you want to go or it’s going to keep tearing you up mentally. There is a lot of force and mass here, move it.

Soooooooooooooo, let’s go through this progression, real quick at first.

Going to the root of Who You Are in this incarnation, nurturing that, so that you can rule properly over your Kingdom of You. Go with the Flow of You. You are Feeling Pulled a certain way for a Certain reason, follow that and trust it more than your logical Because brain wants. Speaking of that, do not allow that Because brain narrow your focus. Even in your mundane relations, look deeper and not to traumas, but at the effects. Always, like ya do, act from Love, it is what is animating you and all this mess.

You are going to grow how you want to grow, I think you’ve learned that to be true by now. You have to let that fucking logical brain go for a while so you can feel your way through this stuff your mind can’t properly deal with. And again, speaking of the mind, in order to communicate you’re basically going to have to learn a new language, your native language. And in your relations, there will be a flood, raised waters, cleansing and flushing, what remains, is what will go to seed and grow.

Not making a choice is making a choice. It is the worst of the three options you have. Pick a better one.

There it is, terrible bedside manner and all!

I’m around if you have any questions or anything, otherwise have a good night!