#big fan of the yearning and the pining........ so i just rolled w it :)

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awareness

all the good and soft vibes to u ✨🌻

rated: g | words: 1689 | tags: royai, there was only one bed, fluff, cuddling, pining, yearning

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there was only one bed: and they were both so aware of each other but unable to speak

This was not good.

Well, it was, his body argued, but it wasn’t.

Sharing a bed was something Roy’s heart and mind yearned for, but his rationale told him he should put a stop to it. To create distance and back away.

There was no other option this evening, however, unless he wished to sleep on the floor.

He did not.

He’d seen some rather questionable stains on the old, ratty carpet. Roy wouldn’t sleep down there even if someone paid him to.

So, they were both stuck in their predicament for now.

How Roy was going to get any sleep, he didn’t know. Not with Hawkeye lying right there, so close and so warm. So enticing, as she always was to him, even with the simplest of movements and gestures. When the softest of sighs left her as she relaxed and drifted off into a slumber, Roy was a goner.

The desire to reach out and touch her was incredible. To draw her in close to his side where she’d be safe and loved as she deserved. To breathe her in and commit every part of her to his memory, so that their time apart, when they couldn’t be together, would be slightly less painful. To hold her and cherish her in this unexpected turn of events, where they were shoved unceremoniously together, but where they could also turn it into something for their own personal benefit.

It was overwhelming. It almost choked him, and Roy looked over at his Lieutenant. At her back and how it rose and fell with her steady breaths.

The pulse in his ears was almost deafening.

Roy’s arms remained rooted to his sides. The hands forming fists as he resisted the urge.

He would have groaned at his inability to stop stressing and overthinking the situation, but he was afraid of waking her. Or disturbing her. He couldn’t be sure if she was asleep yet as he was too high strung to focus and notice. He could hardly hear now anyway, thanks to the heartbeat in his ears. He wouldn’t have been able to strain and listen to determine if that were the case even if he wanted to.

Roy lifted his eyes to the ceiling and started to count the swirls of paint and follow the patterns painted across it.

His body was so aware of her that his eyes were wide open despite his fatigue. Hopefully, his attempt at counting would relax his mind and body and grant him the chance to get some sleep.

Hopefully.

*          *          *          *          *          *          *          *          *

The Colonel wasn’t sleeping, Hawkeye knew that for sure. He should be, for they had a long day ahead of them tomorrow, but he wasn’t.

She should be too, but it was hard to admit the reason as to why that was the case.

Not because she was in denial of any history or was unaware of any feelings or anything of the sort. No, it was because every instinct, despite her heart’s insistence, was telling her to calm down, to stop thinking about him and them and go to sleep before they did something professionally foolish.

Not that they hadn’t done so before, mind you, but… this was different. Riza was adamant about that.

(It wasn’t different).

They needed to be level-headed and undistracted for tomorrow. It was an important day, and all eyes would be on them. Scrutinising closely and criticising any misstep, no matter how small or insignificant. They had to be at their best and give it their all. There was no room for personal feelings or lingering glances. Nothing that would halt progress and make minds wander.

But… Lying awake all night, hyperaware of one another, not getting a wink of sleep would hinder them too…

Her mind was so smart. Her train of thought made a good point.

Riza rolled over, eyes still closed, as she feigned sleep. Her left leg was cramping up anyway from being held so still for so long. She let out a quiet sigh of relief as the blood began to pump through her muscles again and eased the tension and pain, nearly forgetting Roy was less than a foot away from her in the bed.

The Colonel nearly started as her body called for relief. He stiffened beside her and there was a sharp inhale. It appeared he was as aware of her lying next to him as she was.

He was so close, so warm. He was always so welcoming when she was invited into his arms or his bed. His soft smile warmed his heart and as they lay together in silence, simply enjoying each other’s company and holding one another, he always looked so happy. His smiles boyish, his eyes twinkling with his joy. It was so sweet and endearing, and it made her fall in love with him all over again.

Those were her happiest moments with him too. Simply being together.

A long, quiet exhale left the Colonel in the still of the night. Riza buried her head deeper into the pillow and covered her mouth with the back of her wrist to try and hide her amusement.

He was obviously worrying. Fretting. Bless him. Perhaps it was time to put him out of his misery so he could finally get some rest. For the sake of their work and the country, of course. Nothing else.

The Colonel’s body was a tightly wound string when Riza “subconsciously” snuggled closer to him as she “slept” and rested her head upon his shoulder.

It was only natural she’d gravitate towards him, after all.

And he was so much comfier than the lumpy pillows of this hotel.

She could feel the tension rolling off him easily. It was palpable in the air he held his breath. It felt like the whole world was holding its breath – the air heavy and silent – waiting for her next move in her “sleep”. But, really. They’d done this before. She didn’t know why he was stressing about it so much. And if it allowed him to relax and finally get some rest, well Riza felt it was her honour bound duty to help him.

Their situation couldn’t be helped. It had been out of their hands, and they’d been thrust into this so they would be as well to make the most of it.

In a way, she appreciated his resistance. He didn’t want to overstep. He was always this way, but Riza always went to him willingly. Roy knew this. There was never any question about that.

Perhaps it boiled down to their past. Riza knew that, like her, he struggled with acceptance of anything that may bring him even the slightest sliver of joy after their actions. But they were working to atone, to redeem – which was why tomorrow was so important.

They would succeed.

First of all though, she’d see to her Colonel.

His head turned on the pillow towards her and Riza felt his chin bump gently against her forehead.

It made her smile.

He inhaled slowly and let it out, and with it, Riza could feel the strain leave his body.

As simple as that.

Riza shifted to become more comfortable and placed a hand on his chest, right atop his heart. It was hammering beneath her palm and sympathy washed over her. It just made her cuddle in closer. She was drawn to him, to help him, to soothe him as best she could.

Eventually, he stilled, now comfortable. The sigh that left him was much lighter. Riza could hear the relief in it.

“I love you,” he breathed into her hair, his words a quiet mumble.

Her wrist was not large enough to hide the width of her smile this time, however she didn’t want to.

“Are you awake, Lieutenant?”

She grunted quietly to confirm, feeling rather tired now they were both relaxed and in one another’s arms again.

Riza felt at home. She felt at peace. Curled against Roy’s side she could get the sleep which had evaded her so far this evening due to the distance they’d placed between themselves.

He chuckled quietly. “Have you been awake this whole time?”

Riza didn’t answer him. She felt him smile against her scalp.

“I suppose I was thinking rather loudly,” he whispered as he brushed her hair off her face. “You always know exactly what I need.” A kiss was pressed reverently against the top of her head.

“Because I love you, Roy.”

Riza blinked her eyes open finally when a finger lowered to her chin. He lifted it slowly, encouraging her to lift her head, so not to jar her neck. His eyes were filled to burst with his love for her and Riza was enraptured by it. Her breath caught. She gazed into their depths, wanting to get lost in them, get lost in him and his love. She wanted to bury herself beneath his skin and wrap herself around his heart, basking in the affection and care he offered always, without fail or hesitation, in their private moments together. It made moisture spring to her eyes which she blinked away, but Roy saw. He smiled softly and lowered his head to brush his lips against hers. Riza lifted to meet him eagerly, overwhelmed by everything he’d shown and given her.

“Get some sleep, Roy.” Their breaths mingled together once they broke apart from their loving kiss.

“I’ll be able to now that you’re in my arms,” he grinned cheekily. All that was missing was a wink, but it still made Riza smile. It made her laugh. It made her extremely happy, and Roy looked it too.

They both lowered back onto the bed. Roy wrapped his arms around her shoulders tightly and drew her in close against his body. Riza returned her head to his shoulder, her hand to atop his heart, and hooked a leg over one of his, which Roy easily captured. They became tangled together, finally relaxed, and finally able to sleep.

Finally at peace.

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in your expert opinion what are some of the most destiel-heavy episodes of spn? i stopped watching around season 7 and have no interest in engaging w the plot of the show at all but i’m in the mood for some gay yearning ykwim

Hi anon! Thank you for reaching out to me about this, I’m, no-joke, very flattered. I’d seen a couple posts on this same question, very thorough and detailed lists on Destiel-centric episodes, but at the moment I cannot find any of them, that would’ve answered your request much faster. So, in advance, sorry, my reply is probably coming in extremely late, but I did write this from scratch, so yeah.

Even though storylines in SPN can be very shitty and hollow, I do feel that to get the full Destiel experience -that long-drawn yearning- one would have to watch the entirety of the show, even if Cas isn’t in the episode or if there’s no explicit mention of their relationship/bond because it gives you a better understanding of them as characters and of how their relationship affects the narrative.

Now, you mentioned you stopped around S7, which is completely understandable and justified given the Dick plot game was very weak and, in my opinion, annoying (so little Cas!). I’m going to start listing from S7 in case you want to refresh your SPN before jumping straight into unseen episodes. Also, since you mentioned no interest in the plot and are specifically craving those sweet crumbs of gay yearning, I’ll skip most one-sided / too subtle episodes and cut to the chase.

Lastly, I hate spoiling things, but you’ve probably seen it all on Tumblr. I tried to keep the episodes’ descriptions short, as it might come in useful. Stuck to key words, quotes and/or little comments.

 Season 7

7x01 – Meet the New Boss: Godstiel, sincere apology. Cas: “I'm gonna find some way to redeem myself to you.”

7x02 – Hello, Cruel World: Mourning. Trench coat melancholy. The heart-wrenching eulogy: “Dumb son of a bitch.”

7x17 – The Born-Again Identity: Emmanuel!Cas, reunion, longing, hurt.

7x21 – Reading is Fundamental: Honey!Cas, hug, hurt, reunion, that painful SORRY (board game) scene.

7x23 – Survival of the Fittest: Honey!Cas, forgiveness, adorable, wified Cas. Dean hits us with: “Nobody cares that you're broken, Cas!" but also “I'd rather have you, cursed or not.”

Season 8 (this season is so good and Destiel is the driving motor of it, I swear. If you can, watch it complete.)

8x01 – We Need to Talk About Kevin: Dean in Purgatory looking for the angel.  Cas is referred to as “your [Dean’s] angel.”

8x02 – What’s Up, Tiger Mommy?: HUG!!!, Purgatory reunion, face touch, very romantic. Monster: “ You'll find your angel there.” //  Dean: “Let me bottom-line it for you. I'm not leaving here without you.”

8x05 – Blood Brother: Cas vs. Benny cat fight lol. Dean: “Cas... we're gonna shove your ass back through the eye of that needle if it kills all three of us.”

8x07 – A Little Slice of Kevin: Cas comes back from Purgatory, but before that Dean starts seeing him in places. Very tragic; hallucinating your dead significant other trope. Has That boner scene. Dean: “I did everything I could to get you out! EVERYTHING!” Cas helps Dean see what truly happened in Purgatory and not his self-altered memories. PACKED!

8x08 – Hunteri Heroici: Hilarious, romantic, intimate. Dean and Cas have an heart to heart. They actually communicate. Cas “I’ll watch over you.”

8x10 Torn and Frayed: They work a case together, and when I say heart eyes…

8x17 – Goodbye Stranger: THIS. EPISODE. Dean “I need you.”

8x19 – Taxi Driver: Separation. Naomi to Dean: "You're hoping Castiel will return to you. I admire your loyalty; I only wish he felt the same way."

8x22 – Clip Show: Lack of trust, hurt, tense interactions. Romantic too (basically, Cas gets Dean an apology basket).

8x23 – Sacrifice: Meaningful conversation and a gay couple hit by Cupid parallel. Dean “So this is it? E.T goes home?"

 Season 9

9x01 – I think I’m Gonna Like it Here: Dean prays to Cas IN.A.CHAPEL. Worry, longing, separation. Dean “Please, man, I need you here.”

9x03 – I’m No Angel: Human!Cas and jealous!Dean.

9x06 – Heaven Can’t Wait: Human!Cas TEXT-BOOK LONGING. GAY AS FUCK. Gazing, touching, they even TALK (for real).

9x09 – Holy Terror: Adorable Cas, flirty vibes, happyish, funny. Cas: “Cas is back in town!”

9x10 – Road Trip: Cas comforts Dean, Cas and Crowley bitching at each other, overall protective!Cas.

9x18 – Metafiction. Cas finds out about the Mark of Cain.

9x21 – King of the Damned: Hug, strong boyfriends vibes.

9x22 – Stairway to Heaven: Cas gives up an entire army, for Dean. Metatron about Cas “He's in love………………………. with humanity.”

9x23  – Do You Believe in Miracles?: At this point, it’s canon stated that Cas will do anything and lose everything if that means saving Dean. Metatron to Cas “You draped yourself in the flag of heaven, but ultimately, it was all about saving one human, right?”

 Season 10

10x01 – Black: Demon!Dean and sick/brokenhearted Cas in a slutty robe missing his man.

10x03 – Soul Survivor: ICONIC. Angel on Demon action! Cas turns down Hannah because he’s too gay and in love. Intimate Deancas talk.

10x05 – Fan Fiction: No Cas, but Destiel references. 

10x09 – The Things We Left Behind: That.Lunch.Date. Deancas introduction to co-parenting.

10x14 – The Executioner’s Song: We get Daddy Murder aka Cain. This is a Pivotal episode to understand Dean’s character development. Plus, it has Deancas interactions.

10x16 – Paint It Black: No Cas, but Dean opens up in confessionary; repressed BISEXUAL AS FUCK.

10x18 – Book of the Damned: Charlie meets Cas. Gay energies everywhere. Cute domestic little scene.

10x20 – Angel Heart: PARENTING! Essential to understand Cas from this point forward.

10x22 – The Prisoner: Just… just watch it. One of THEE Destiel episodes.

10x23 – Brother’s Keeper: No Deancas interactions but it’s the finale, and I recommend watching it because next season takes off literally right from here. No time jumps.

 Season 11

11x02 – Form and Void: Could skip to the very end which is when Cas comes back.

11x03 – The Bad Seed: Cursed!Cas. Dean takes care of him, even wraps him in a blanket. He also cradles his face. Extreme Hurt/Comfort. Jacting joices rejoice.

11x10 – The Devil in the Details: Could skip but has Casifer in it. Interesting to see his dynamic with Dean.

11x18 – Hell’s Angel: Casifer. Dean "It? It's not an it, Sam, it's Cas!"

11x23 – Alpha and Omega: Huggg! Cas willing to go on a guaranteed suicide mission with Dean. Very tender and sad.

 Season 12

12x02 – Keep Calm and Carry On: ANOTHER HUG! Dean presents his boyfriend to his mom<3 Soft and romantic.

12x09 – First Blood: Reunion hug<3, Cas pining… as in he counts his every minute without Dean.

12x10 – Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets: Direct parallel with canon couple. Crystal-clear mutual affection. One of the best. Angel Ishim to Cas about Dean “I'm gonna help you. I'm gonna cure you of your human weakness same way I cured my own… by cutting it out.”

12x12 – Stuck in the Middle with You: A dying Cas confesses his love. “I love you. I love all of you.”

12x19 – The Future: We find out Dean gave Cas a MIXTAPE!!! Very romantic and full of yearning, also worry and what could be seen as a betrayal (ish…).

12x23 – All Along the Watch Tower: Hands down, one of the most distressing Destiel episodes. Cas dies.

 Season 13

13x01 – Lost and Found: This is the worst because you have Dean trying to assimilate Cas’ death. Core of Dean’s widow’s arc. Jack introduction, that’s their new kid.

13x02 – The Rising Son: Widow’s arc (you could skip it, but why would you?).

13x03 – Patience: Widow’s arc (you could skip it, but why would you?). Dean to Sam “He manipulated him, he made him promises, said, ‘paradise on earth’ and Cas bought it and you know what that got him? It got him dead! Now you might be able to forget about that, but I can’t!”

13x04 – The Big Empty: Continuation of widow’s arc and Cas wakes up in the Empty. The Empty to Cas: "I know who you love. There's nothing for you back there." // Dean to Sam “I need you to keep the faith, for both of us. ‘Cause right now, I… Right now, I don’t believe in a damn thing.”

13x05 – Advanced Thanatology: Suicidal and hopeless Dean gets his win. Cas comes back. Gives me the chills.

13x06 – Tombstone: COWBOY BOYFRIENDS!

13x14 – Good Intentions: Happy and fun Destiel scene. So Very Married.

13x23 – Let The Good Times Roll: Season finale, Dean talks about retiring (plans include Cas of course) and just very nice to see them interact.

Season 14

14x03 – The Scar: Reunion.

14x08 – Byzantium: Deanand Cas dealing with their child’s death, then bringing him back by Cas making a deal with the Empty. IMPORTANT EPISODE.

14x09 – The Spear: Cas uses the royal We – married behavior.

14x10 – Nihilism: Dean is stuck in his own mind, and Cas and Sam try to bring him back. Cas “Please, you have to -- you have to try to remember, because the people in your life -- in your real life, out there -- we need you to come back.”

14x12 – Prophet and Loss: Dean gets his very own Dr. Sexy, aka Dr. Cas.

14x14 – Ouroboros: Basically another date (their kid tags along) and They TALK. Very intimate and established marriage vibes.

14x18 – Absence: Shits starts to go south. [ Dean: “Who cares what Jack said? We don't know what happened! But I swear, if he did something to her, if she is -- (points to Castiel) Then you're dead to me. (Castiel looks crushed after Dean says that).]

14x20 – Moriah: Tense and very upsetting. Relationship very damaged.

 Season 15 (I would advise watching the entire season because it relies heavily on Destiel. They’re the heart and the emotional motor leading the plot onwards.)

15x01 – Back and To The Future: Deancas’ in the aftermath of their kid’s death. Tension gets worse.

15x02 – Raising Hell: Tension rises, this is very intense. Cas “Dean. You asked, "What about all of this is real?" We are.”

15x03 – The Rupture: Breaking point ends in divorce.

15x06 – Golden Time: Painful phone call which speaks volumes about the current state of their relationship at the time. Also, good to see where they’re standing and how they’re coping.

15x08 – Our Father Who Aren’t in Heaven: Strained relationship so obvious they’re offered couples’ therapy.

15x09 – The Trap: MASTERPIECE. Back to Purgatory. Can (and is) taken as Dean’s love confession (because it is). 

15x12 – Galaxy Brain: So married. Little domestic date, you can see LOVE written in their faces.

15x13 – Destiny’s Child: AU!Dean and Sam. Not a yearning episode per se, but AU!Dean? SO GAY.

15x17 – Unity: God reveals that the only act of free will in any universe he ever created has been Cas choosing Dean.

15x18 – Despair: Cas confesses his love to Dean.

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Hello and Happy New Year,  @nyankocatnyan ! Here’s your gift for the Scum Villain Gift Exchange. I’m sorry for being late with it, but I hope you’ll like it! ;w;/

Pairing: Luo Binghe/Shen Qingqiu

Summary: Luo Binghe combs Shen Qingqiu’s hair and pines for him.

Word count: 1686

Genre: Fluff

Rating: T

It was a peaceful and beautiful summer morning. Sunlight had crept its way through the light curtains on the windows, dazzling Shen Qingqiu’s eyes behind his closed eyelids, waking him up from his meditation.

He heard Luo Binghe, his disciple, already finishing his daily morning housework.

Since everything had been good and peaceful at Qing Jing Peak, Shen Qingqiu had allowed himself a much-needed day-off to relax and take everything easy for once, between teaching his disciples and stressing about advancing the plot and the points and what-not. Even the System had left him alone for a good while, which he was extremely grateful for.

But there was one thing that could maybe be a threat to his relaxation.

The thing was that while cleaning, Luo Binghe had been stealing glances at him the whole morning. Which wasn’t that strange in itself, but he appeared as though he wanted to speak about something, but didn’t quite dare to. The tension in the air was barely noticeable, but still enough for Shen Qingqiu to be mildly annoyed by it. He decided to get straight to the point and opened his folded fan before addressing his most adorable disciple.

”Binghe, you look like you have something on your mind. Is there anything you want to talk about?”

Hearing his name, Luo Binghe tensed, but turned around to face Shen Qingqiu. He took a couple of shaky breaths.

”Shizun…” Luo Binghe was faintly fidgeting, but Shen Qingqiu pretended not to notice.

”Yes?”

Some more nervous fidgeting.

”Shizun, I have already cleaned the rooms and I’ve been doing my studies diligently every day… so…”

Shen Qingqiu quietly nodded and waited for his disciple to finish.

”W-would it be alright to make a request?” he stammered and his gaze shifted slightly to the direction of the floor.

Shen Qingqiu was honestly surprised and a little bit worried. What could Luo Binghe possibly want? Shen Qingqiu’s mind drew a blank, and suddenly he was dying to know what his cute disciple was having in mind. Of course Shen Qingqiu waited patiently on the outside but internally he was screaming. What is it!? Hurry up and tell me!

”What is it?”

A pink tint rose to Luo Binghe’s cheeks.

”Can- can I - this disciple wants to, Shizun’s…”

Please! Shen Qingqiu already thought exasperatedly. Out with it already! Stop being so bashful, too much is simply too much!

Not letting his curiosity show through, Shen Qingqiu controlled his voice and gently urged his disciple to continue.

”Yes?”

Luo Binghe took a deep breath closing his eyes, and when he opened them Shen Qingqiu could see a sudden determination in his eyes.

”I want to comb Shizun’s hair!”

That Shen Qingqiu didn’t know to expect. At all. Part of him was left positively dumbfounded and the other part of him wanted to yell. So that’s why you have been antsy this whole morning?! And who do you think you are, my mother?!

While Shen Qinqiu was quietly ruminating over this unforeseeable twist, his disciple was already ready to give up on his request, looking embarrassed having even thought he could comb Shizun’s hair.

Shen Qingqiu opened his fan to hide his face as he briefly thought over the situation. Where was the harm, seriously speaking? Maybe it was a bit embarrassing, but wasn’t it best to make some happy memories for the protagonist to later look back to? Maybe this particular scene would be the reason for Luo Binghe to show him some mercy later. Wasn’t this actually a win-win situation?

To hell with it, let’s do this!

Shen Qingqiu sighed before saying, ”Go ahead, then”.

Luo Binghe’s eyes immediately lit up, and he nearly scrambled to get the combs from a side table. Shen Qingqiu was torn between rolling his eyes and smiling gently at his disciple’s antics. Was he really that excited from simply been granted permission to comb his hair? Was it really that big of a deal?

To Luo Binghe, it truly seemed to be.

In Shen Qingqiu’s previous life his mother had been the only one who had combed his hair, besides himself of course, so he couldn’t exactly see what was so special about it.

But Luo Binghe had been a bit weird after having moved to the shed next to the bamboo house, so it was nothing new, really.

Luo Binghe found two beautifully ornate wooden combs, one fine-toothed, and the other wide-toothed. He slowly stepped behind Shen Qingqiu, who was already sitting by the table. Shen Qingqiu closed his eyes and waited for his disciple to start with his hair. But nothing happened for a while. In the quiet room, Shen Qingqiu could hear Luo Binghe’s uneven breath. Shen Qingqiu briefly considered turning around to see what Luo Binghe was waiting for, but decided against it, and instead said,

”Binghe, you may begin”.

He could hear a small gasp and a sigh behind him.

”Y-yes! Thank you, Shizun.”

Luo Binghe gently grabbed Shen Qingqiu’s hair and started to carefully untangle the hair with the fewer-toothed comb, starting from the tips, and gradually continuing from further up.

Shen Qingqiu felt quite relaxed. Having fingers occasionally brush through his hair and massaging his scalp, he really could feel the tension melting away from his muscles. If having someone combing his hair felt this good… Shen Qingqiu thought he could definitely get used to it.

 Luo Binghe, on the other hand, was having the time of his life, in both good and bad.

He desperately tried to force his breathing steady, and stop his hands from trembling so much. Shizun didn’t seem to notice though, so it was probably alright.

Probably.

But at the same time Luo Binghe was so happy he thought he was going to pass out any moment now.

I’m touching Shizun’s hair, I’m touching Shizun’s hair and combing it, I can die happily now!

Luo Binghe heart sang in joy and he almost missed a small tangle. Shizun’s hair felt smooth under Luo Binghe’s fingers, and the dark hair contrasted beautifully the light skin. Of his neck. That Luo Binghe tried not to think of touching, or maybe (maybe!) even… kissing!? But Shizun would definitely kill him for that! Strike him down at once!

Mulling over the situation, Luo Binghe got careless, and his hand slipped and he combed down rather hard. Poor Luo Binghe felt like his heart had stopped cold, and he was ready to apologize one hundred times, but Shizun didn’t say anything at all.

So Luo Binghe continued his work, this time even more carefully, as he really didn’t want to risk hurting Shizun in any way.

Luo Binghe checked Shen Qingqiu’s hair for any hiding knots and tangled clumps of hair one last time before swapping the wide toothed comb for the finer one. He once again started to comb from the tips and then from the top of the head, every stroke making Shen Qingqiu’s black hair truly shine in the shimmery sunlight.

Luo Binghe didn’t want this very special moment with Shizun’s hair to ever end, so he slowed down, savoring every stroke. He felt brave enough to to just appreciatively run his fingers through Shen Qingqiu’s softly combed hair and just enjoying the feeling on his fingertips. Shizun’s hair feels so soft!

He decided to push his luck, and lightly grazed his pinky against the behind of Shizun’s earlobe.

Luo Binghe held his breath and waited for Shizun’s reaction, his heart beating anxiously. But nothing happened?! He combed couple of slow strokes before trying again. This time he took a part of the earlobe between his thumb and index finger, and gave it a light tug. Still nothing.

”Shizun?” Luo Binghe tried.

Said man didn’t answer, only breathed evenly in silence. Luo Binghe felt a little baffled about this turn of events. Shizun had… fallen asleep?!

Upon understanding the situation at hand, Luo Binghe almost died from happiness that swelled in his heart. Having the great, unattainable Shen Qingqiu just casually falling asleep before him, what a day!

What an opportunity, some would say.

Luo Binghe’s heart was racing like crazy as he set the comb in his hand aside. Now he could get a good look at his Shizun’s face. Binghe admired his beautiful features for a while, before deciding to comb the rest of his dear teacher’s hair before he would wake up and see his disciple slacking off.

One last stroke from the top of Shizun’s hair and he was finally ready! Once more did Luo Binghe run his fingers through the hair, which was as smooth as it could ever be. The cascading hair ran easily between his fingers, Luo Binghe didn’t ever want to stop! Then he dared to come up with another idea.

In the heat of the moment Luo Binghe took a couple of strands in his hand and after making sure they really were alone, he lightly pressed his lips against them. Shizun smelled warm and sweet and the fragrance made Luo Binghe’s head spin. He wondered if he could ever be this close to Shizun again. Probably not, he somberly thought. He wanted to be by his Shizun’s side forever and ever, he didn’t want them ever to separate. Luo Binghe’s young heart ached, and he yearned to hug Shen Qingqiu.

But before he could decide whether it would be too insolent towards his master, Shen Qingqiu sighed and stirred in his sleep. Luo Binghe could only put his hair to his usual hairstyle before retreating quietly into the kitchen. The sun was already high. They had surely taken their time.

It was a while before Shen Qingqiu’s eyes opened slowly and soon he was completely woken up by the delicious smell coming from the kitchen. It seems he fell asleep, how embarrassing! But he didn’t lament that for long, for he felt rejuvenated and unusually relaxed. Luo Binghe appeared by the room’s door and called,

”Shizun! Food is almost ready!”

Shen Qingqiu smiled, feeling content and quite happy.

”Shall we ask the others to join us too?”