#bhanniversary

[waitemaliklevison]

The day we moved in was the first day of my life. Before then, before them, I had no chance. I didn't think I could feel human. Feel love. The little things. Coffee grounds, laundry day, sleeping late, living life. Thank you for every small moment of this world.

4.13 There Goes the Neighborhood: Part 3 (April 7, 2014)

[waitemaliklevison]

I was the kind of guy who thought that life was just a series of choices. And if you kept making the right choice over and over and over again, that it would all add up to something safe...and constant. A reasonable facsimile of what you thought you wanted for yourself, for your future. But things get derailed. Stuff happens and you don't always get a choice. And uh...for a long time, I thought that was really unfair. Because I had big, big important plans. But I never would've met you. So I'm thankful that I was a complete blockhead. Because as it turns out, life is just a series of accidents. And one of those accidents led me here...to you. 'Cause you are just so, so awesome. So thank you...for choosing me. Thank you for choosing me.

3.12 Always a Bridesmaid, Never Alive (April 1, 2013)

[waitemaliklevison]

I've managed to cobble together a tiny existence of maybe not happiness, but okayness. And you keep trying to pry it out of my hands and blow it up. Your interventions don't help. Whatever charmed life in a brownstone you think we had...is over.

4.09 Too Far, Fast Forward! (March 10, 2014)

[waitemaliklevison]

I know what it's like to be stuck in this house. I do! If I never met you guys, if I never figured out how the hell to get out of here. She's been here for fourty years! Fourty years! And you guys are all moving on and [...] Yes, you are. You are. And I don't have a life to move on to. I don't. That's the truth. Not really. No matter how much we wish things were different. So...I'm gonna help her. Because at least that gives me some sort of purpose.

4.12 House Hunting (March 31, 2014)

[waitemaliklevison]

I'm starving and I may not be able to control myself.You guys need to walk down the aisle intact! I wanted to be at your wedding, you know. I know this sounds cheesy, but you guys are seriously the hope for the future. I wanted to make a toast. I wanted to cry and I wanted to get drunk and dance. And say inapprpriate things. I love you guys! So, please just...please lock me up. And use two locks. I may have zombie strength and not realize it.

3.11 If I Only Had a Raw Brain (March 25, 2013)

[waitemaliklevison]

We'd all like to think that we're strong. That we're capable of solving our own problems. We say to ourselves: "I can do this. I will conquer this rough patch and emerge a more confident, a more accomplished me." Sometimes you're right. Sometimes all it takes is focus, direction, and your own will to make it through. But to solve a problem. you first have to acknowledge that it exists. And sometimes your most challenging obstalce isn't circumstance, isn't some external force, or another person. It's you. And in the end, most of us don't have that strength to face that music. To admit that we're flawed. And then you're stuck. You can't save yourself if you don't know the danger you're in.

2.10 Dream Reaper (March 19, 2012)

[waitemaliklevison]

That awful need to touch someone. Be touched. For some of us, it just won't die. And eventually that need will take you to your breaking point. Frankenstein's monster, poor bastard, couldn't stop reaching out. And Dracula had it easy. He drank, he killed. End of story. He wasn't interested in being friends. It doesn't matter if you're dead, undead, or somewhere in between...because it's you humans that haunt us. And you won't let us go.

1.09 I Want You Back (From the Dead) (March 14, 2011)

[waitemaliklevison]

I used to be afraid of the dark. When you're six years old, a shadowed bedroom can seem as terrifying as the night sky must've been to acient man. And those things said to go bump in the night can feel just as real. I'd imagine something was hiding in the dark corners of my room. A monster. A ghost. And I'd bolt upright in bed, terrifed, screaming for my mother. Eventually, I grew up, got over it, learned that if I could just hang on, the sun would always rise again. But then everything changed. In the night, "dark" came to mean something very different. That the turn was coming. So the childish night terrors came right back. Because now, I'm one of those things that go bump.

2.12 Partial Eclipse of The Heart (April 2, 2012)

[waitemaliklevison]

I can't do that. I can't. I got a second chance. I got one more opportunity than I was supposed to have. Than anyone is supposed to have. I lived while I could. But the price for hanging on is just too high. How long until I need something more substantial than a mouse? I can see the slippery slope from here and I'm not going down it again. I'm not. So I'm just cutting myself off now before it gets out of control. [...] I'm just gonna live while I can. And then let go when it's time to let go.

3.09 Of Mice and Wolfmen (March 11, 2013)

[waitemaliklevison]

One of mankind's greatest abilities is the power to lie. Whether it's for good or bad, profit or survival, we bend the truth. It's a skill we pick up early and hone over time. Pulling the wool over the eyes of our parents, our teachers, our boss...even ourselve. We tell ourselves we'll lose weight, quit smoking. That at the end of the day, we're really a good person.What happens when we call our own bluff? When we can't convince ourselves that, deep down, we really aren't the stuff of nightmares?

1.08 Children Shouldn't Play With Undead Things (March 7, 2011)

[waitemaliklevison]

Every monster has their own version of an addiction. It's written into our nature. We need the blood, the strength, the power. But the curse of those of us with darker urges is that when we let the cravings inside us take over, someone else pays the price. And when a monster sets sail for rock bottom, there's no telling what destruction he'll leave in his wake.

2.05 Addicted to Love (February 13, 2012)

[waitemaliklevison]

What sets a human apart from the monster? Aside from genetics. Aside from the terrible truth. We walk the same streets. We wear the same clothes. You take a breath, and there we are. Gulping the same air. We're walking in your footsteps. And even a monster can possess that most dominant of human emotions: fear. We know enough to remember what we once were. We know enough to fear what we can now do. And, like a human, we obsess. Over love. Over life. Over every lost cause. We have the same weaknesses as you. But even this doesn't make us normal. But it does make us...unforgettable.

1.06 It Takes Two to Make a Thing Go Wrong (February 21, 2011)

[waitemaliklevison]

Just because you've read everything about vampires that you can get your hands on, does not mean that you understand our nature. A vampire is a killer. I...am a killer. At my core. That's what I am. And I have to fight against that every day. [...] I don't know if Blake is planning to keep her end of the bargain. But even if she does, the relationship between a vampire and his maker, it's complex. You are bound together. And Blake is not the kind of person I want to see you bound to for eternity.

3.07 One is Silver and the Other Pagan (February 25, 2013)

[waitemaliklevison]

Alone? You're alone? What about me and Josh? We used to be enough. I'm sorry you didn't get your freedom exactly the way you wanted it. You know what? I'm sorry I didn't get my body back with no strings attached, but that's just how it goes. Nora is a werewolf and Josh isn't. We all have problems and we're still here.

3.04 I'm So Lonesome I Could Die (February 4, 2013)

[waitemaliklevison]

Why do we insist on looking when our every impulse tells us... "Look away"? Maybe it's because we all have something to hide. That thing we bury down deep. Beat back into the darkness with everything we have. We're secretly hoping to see that the monster inside each of us is inside us...all. There it is. Look hard enough, you'll see it. You will be seen.

1.04 Wouldn't It Be Nice (If We Were Human) (February 7, 2011)

[waitemaliklevison]

Look at these people. Look at the couples. Every one of them is a monster. Every one of them is as dangerous and damaged as I am. But they get love. They get to be with someone. What do I get? [...] I get to either be with someone like me and that ends in disaster. Or...I get to be alone. Or I get to live a lie. And those are my choices, right?

4.05 Pack It Up, Pack It In (February 10, 2014)