#best part about growing up at the Aquarium is schooling comes naturally

[montereybayaquarium]

Grow Mahi Mahi Grow!

Mahi mahi (aka dorado or dolphinfish) are robust reproducers, with females spawning two to three times a year, releasing potentially hundreds of thousands of eggs each time. We’ve collected some of these fertilized eggs from our Open Sea exhibit and behind the scenes, and have been raising larval and juvenile mahi mahi for the past several months! 

These open ocean predators are among the fastest-growing fishes in the world, reaching sexual maturity within four to five months and full adult size within a year! (Imagine what it would be like if we grew up that fast?!) We hope these juveniles will grow big and strong, too! Visitors can check out the young mahi mahi in our pelagic red crab exhibit or the adults in the Open Sea wing!

[francaoliveira]

look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.

🦥ʙɪᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ || 🦥ᴄᴏᴍᴘᴀꜱꜱ || 🦥ʙʟᴜᴇ ʜᴀʀʙᴏʀ, ɪʟʟɪɴᴏɪꜱ

🦋ꜰʀᴀɴᴄᴀ ᴅᴇʟꜰɪɴᴀ ᴏʟɪᴠᴇɪʀᴀ🦋

ᴀɢᴇ & ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ: twenty-nine & june 22nd, 1995.

ɢᴇɴᴅᴇʀ & ᴘʀᴏɴᴏᴜɴꜱ: cis-woman & she/her/hers.

ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴛɪᴄ & ꜱᴇxᴜᴀʟ ᴏʀɪᴇɴᴛᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: panromantic pansexual.

ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱʜɪᴘ ꜱᴛᴀᴛᴜꜱ: single.

ᴄʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ: mama to four animals: iria the scarlet macaw ; dulce the iguana ; bruna the guinea pig ; philip the dark calico cat.

ɴᴇɪɢʜʙᴏᴜʀʜᴏᴏᴅ: forest lake.

ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀꜱ: vet tech at bahia wildlife sanctuary ; part-time cashier at earthwave ; part-time zoology masters student at blue harbor university.

ꜰᴀᴄᴇ ᴄʟᴀɪᴍ: giovana cordeiro.

🐊ᴛʟᴅʀ ( trigger warnings: heart attack & parental death )

ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙʟᴜᴇ ʜᴀʀʙᴏʀ, ɪʟʟɪɴᴏɪꜱ…

For the first five years of Franca Delfina Oliveira's life, she grew up in Salvadar, Bahia, Brazil with her parents, Rafael and Bruna Oliveira, and her older sister, Beatriz. Both of her parents were massive animal and nature lovers and held careers in helping the planet. The couple had always wanted to start up their own conservation organization after working with a wide variety of them in their home of Salvador. And so, after moving to the States when their daughters were young, they began to work towards making their life-long dream come true.

ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ʙʟᴜᴇ ʜᴀʀʙᴏʀ, ɪʟʟɪɴᴏɪꜱ…

The Bahia Wildlife Sanctuary has been opened since 2004, and Franca's whole world had been the sanctuary and the Oliveira family farm. Growing up and knowing what she wanted to do, she eventually earned her Wildlife Conservation degree through Unity Environmental University distant learning, spending those years traveling around the globe and volunteering for a wide variety of organizations, especially those for wildlife and conservation efforts. After earning her degree, she moved to Denver full-time and spent twenty-four months getting her vet tech degree from Bel Rea Vet Tech school. She got a job as a vet tech at the Denver Aquarium, working there for a year until, at the age of twenty-four, her mother died from a heart attack. Resulting in her returning back to Blue Harbor and spending the past two years working as a vet tech at the sanctuary and even getting a second, part-time job at Earthwave for an extra income. In fall of 2024, she officially started part-time schooling at Blue Harbor University so that she could earn her masters in Zoology.

ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ʀᴏᴄᴋ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ʜᴀꜱ ᴀ ʟɪꜰᴇ, ʜᴀꜱ ᴀ ꜱᴘɪʀɪᴛ, ʜᴀꜱ ᴀ ɴᴀᴍᴇ.

🦥ꜱᴏᴍᴇ Qᴜɪᴄᴋ ꜰᴀᴄᴛꜱ & ᴛɪᴅʙɪᴛꜱ

🦜While Franca had been living in Denver, the aquarium saved a truck full of animals from a poaching ring. One of those animals ended up being a Scarlet macaw. The bird had lost half of its left wing from the time it'd been taken from Costa Rica to Denver, and Franca had been in charge of taking care of her. The two became bonded and now, Iria the Macaw is under Franca's care. The two are rarely apart from each other.

🦜She had a reputation throughout her schoolyears as being the "Animal Lover Girl", always ready to talk about anyone and everyone about animals and better ways to help the planet. She even started up an Earth Club in high school. Not many people joined it, however.

🦜While her family has always been comfortable money-wise, they're not rich. All of their money has been put into the sanctuary and farm, ensuring that the animals and plants had the best care possible. They live in a fairly reasonable sized log cabin that they worked on themselves, and through the help of friends and extended family members whenever they visited from Brazil.

🦜With that being said, the Oliveiras made sure to visit their home country at least three times a year: Carnaval season, the middle of summer, and around Christmas. Staying connected to their family and culture is highly important to them, though they've been struggling to do so since Franca's mother passed.

🦜The farm is home to four horses, ten cows, a herd of sheep, three goats, five chickens and a rooster, two cats, two dogs, and a pond full of freshwater fish and frogs. They live next to the river and are about a ten minute walk, three minute drive, from the sanctuary.

🦜Along with Iria, Franca is the happy animal mama of Dulce the iguana, Bruna the guinea pig, and Philip the grandpa dark calico cat. And yes, she understands how rare Philip is. But no, she refuses to sell him. She either rescued or adopted all of her babies and loves them all greatly.

🦜Franca is primarily a vegan, but will sometimes adjust to a pescatarian diet every now and then.

🦜She is a certified adventure guide, having earned her certificate through Pure Explorations after partaking in their Nepal Adventure Guide Program.

🦜Summer after she graduated from high school and before she went off to Nepal (as mentioned above), she'd been able to go to Alaska for awhile to participate in Girls On Ice (now known as Inspiring Girls Expeditions): a mountaineering expedition with an alpine ecosystems focus.

🦜As mentioned in her bio, she participated in both SEAmester and Semester at Sea. She spent her fall semester with the first study abroad program, sailing from the Mediterranean, across the Atlantic, before making her way to the Caribbean. For Semester at Sea, she journeyed to Asia (Thailand, Vietnam, Malaysia, India), Africa (Kenya, South Africa, Ghana, Morocco), and Europe (Spain and Germany). I have a wc in mind for an ex-lover that she had been on both voyages with that became her biggest "what if", if anyone's interested!

🦜The best way to describe Franca's style is "hippie, granola girl with Brazilian and global touches". She loves brands like Wondery, Inkkas, FARM Rio, Sandcloud, Fahlo bracelets, Live Your Legend bracelets, Pura Vida bracelets, and others that's all about the great outdoors that has conservation efforts and that are connected to her culture and other cultures that she's able to appreciate. This will be further touched on in other posts.

🦥ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴄᴏɴɴᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴꜱ

🦜Franca's big sister, Beatriz (pls with Lucy Alves as her fc pls pls plsss)

🦜BWS and farm employees and volunteers

🦜Earthwave coworkers

🦜Fellow animal, nature, and earth lovers

🦜Franca's friends

🦜High school first love/ex

🦜Her SEAmester/Semester at Sea ex (AKA her greatest "what if" and the one that got away)

🦜Current and former hook-ups, dates, crushes (those she has crushes on, those who have crushes on her)

🦜Enemies/Anyone annoyed by her granola girl/ecowarrior schtick

[ssealsskinned]

Indie Fandomless OC, sideblog to @/ssolessurvivor

Highly private/selective. Queue heavy/slow activity.

Multi-verse, multi-ship, crossover friendly.

Penned by Saturn (she/her, 28+), minors do not enter.

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Affiliates: @ttheagcd // @wehavefoundthestars // @paramounticebound // @incissam //

Aesthetics: seaside mornings, toes in the sand. Hair wet with salt water, sunglasses perched on a tanned nose. An unknown, aching loneliness for knowing where home is. Conservation efforts for coral reefs and other aquatics. Life in a swimsuit with an old flannel as a cover up. Wetsuits as a work uniform, flippers in the ocean. Grandmotherly hands as a force of nature, encouraging the child to follow her dreams. Found family, big smiles, but quiet when alone.

Bio under the cut. Rules here.

Name: Rain Stirling 

Age: 29

Likeness: Camila Mendes 

Species: Selkie, harbor seal genus 

Immediate Relations: grandmother, father (in hiding), seal siblings (she is unaware of them)

Occupation(s): aquarium diver, coral reef restoration volunteer

Defining Traits: 

-She’s warm all the time, making it consistently hard for her to feel the cold. 

-Can hold her breath underwater for an almost abnormally long time for humans.

-Freediving is something she finds enjoyable, and often something her friends point out is ‘weird’ that it comes so easily to her. 

Biography: 

The first year of her life happened in the ocean, the watchful gaze of her father, a harbor seal, raising her on his own. The pup would grow with confidence and her father would make a decision. Shedding his seal skin, the man would bring his daughter, Rain, to his grandmother on land to raise the girl away from the complexities and rather short life she would have as an animal. Even if the woman he ended up mating with left the two when the girl was born, he wanted the best life Rain could achieve. 

She would never meet her father as she grew older. She would, however, get to swim with a seal who ended up in their harbor town almost every month like clockwork. Her grandmother knows exactly who that seal is, watching as best he can, his daughter begin to flourish.  

Rain was a lively young girl who wanted the most to know where she belonged. Early on, she had an affinity for the water (thank goodness her grandmother lived within walking distance of the ocean). Rain found herself wandering the shallows most of the day and running back to it after school. This affinity for aquatic life led Rain to have a passion for preserving coral reefs and caring for the oceans. This sense of purpose gave her a distraction for the ache of her heart on her worst days when she felt unequivocally lost. 

All through elementary school and high school, she gained and lost friends quite frequently. She didn’t understand why it happened other than typical bullying or loss of interest in her own hobbies by her friends. Only when she got to college did she find a group of like minded people who became a force somewhat close to a family she might want. They introduced her to zoology and Rain takes a few classes here or there trying to learn about aquatic life in the oceans. Does she have a particularly intense interest in seals? Has she stumbled upon the legend of the selkie and thought it fascinating and maybe…familiar? Like she’d seen it in a dream? Maybe. But she keeps all that fanciful talk to herself and from her grandmother. She doesn’t want to feel like more of an outcast than she already is. Whenever she wants to feel normal, she goes to work where she dives into the enclosures and cleans up a bit around all the other fish. Feeding them or even petting some (those who don’t post a threat, that is). Waving to kids who find it so cool and she can serve as a silent role model. 

If only she didn’t feel like something, some part of her is missing. Why she is the way she is and who was responsible for that. Where she’ll curl into herself at night, craving a warmth she doesn’t know is truly missing. 

For now, Rain spends time with her friends who have stuck with her since college, continuing to take classes when she can to further her passion for conservation or zoology. Or folklore.

[fishbreedsblog]

Red Flamingo Guppy & Fascinating Facts

 Red Flamingo Guppies are introduced.

Red Flamingo Guppies are one of the few aquarium fish that can both catch your eye and warm your heart. These beautiful aquatic gems are loved by aquarists who want to add a touch of lively elegance to their tanks. They are known for their fiery red colors and graceful behavior.

How it looks and what it is like

Imagine a fish that looks like it's on fire under the water. Red Flamingo Guppies are exactly what they sound like: flames that live in water and make your aquarium look fiery. Their beautiful colors and friendly personalities make them a great addition to any group of fish in the water.

Two Excellent Cases:

Scarlet Blaze: Imagine a guppy whose body looks like it's been dipped in red molten metal. Its scales have an inner glow that makes them look like a bright red flame dancing in the water.

Crimson Dancer: This guppy has a fiery body with deep crimson highlights. Its flowing fins look like a ballet dancer's graceful moves, making it a real show in the tank.

Information in General

Red Flamingo came from. Guppies come from different parts of Southeast Asia, where they were bred to be bright red.

Size: These guppies grow to be about 1.5 to 2 inches (3.8 to 5 centimeters) long on average.

Red Flamingo Guppies can live for 2 to 3 years if they are cared for well, giving their owners years of fiery beauty.

Character: These guppies are known for how calm and friendly they are. They do well in tanks with other fish and are usually not aggressive.

Red Flamingo Guppies are easy to recognize because of their fiery red color. They have a slim body with beautiful red scales and fins that stand out.

Different kinds and colors: Besides "Scarlet Blaze" and "Crimson Dancer," Red Flamingo Guppies also come in "Cherry Bomb," "Inferno Flame," and "Rouge Radiance," each with its own unique mix of red colors.

Price: The price of Red Flamingo Guppies can change based on their color, age, and lineage, among other things. On average, each fish will cost between $5 and $15.

Needs for Habitat and Tank

In Southeast Asia, where these guppies come from, they live in slow-moving streams, shallow ponds, and rice paddies. They like temperatures between 72°F and 78°F (22°C and 26°C) and pH levels that are slightly acidic to neutral.

Tank Size: A tank that can hold 10 to 20 gallons is good for a small school of Red Flamingo Guppies. A bigger tank can hold more people and keep the water from moving around as much.

The temperature of the water should stay between 75°F and 79°F (24°C and 26°C), and the pH level should be between 7.0 and 7.5. These guppies do best in water that is 8 to 12 dGH hard.

Set up the tank by adding live or fake plants, which give the guppies places to hide and make the tank look like their natural habitat. Use a substrate of fine gravel or sand to protect their fins. Floating plants can help spread out the light and make shady spots.

Putting food in

Red Flamingo Guppies eat everything and have big appetites. They do best on high-quality flake or pellet food made especially for tropical fish. Feed them brine shrimp, daphnia, and bloodworms as occasional treats, either live or frozen, to help their colors stay bright and their health in general.

Feeding: These guppies love to eat, and they often dart to the surface of the water to catch food that is floating there. Feed them small amounts several times a day to make sure they get enough food.

Foods that Red Flamingo Guppies can eat:

Tropical Flake Food is easy to eat and gives essential nutrients.

Pellet food is a balanced meal that can sink or float.

Frozen brine shrimp are a popular snack that can make you look better.

Daphnia is a healthy food that can be eaten live or frozen.

Bloodworms are a tasty treat that is high in protein and makes colors look brighter.

Having babies

Red Flamingo is a bird. Guppies are livebearers, which means that instead of laying eggs, the female gives birth to live fry. It's not hard to get these guppies to have babies, and it often happens on its own in a well-kept aquarium.

Breeding Requirements: Give fry a lot of places to hide, like plants, because adult guppies may eat the young. Keep the water stable and make sure the female guppy is well-fed and healthy before she starts to breed.

During the spawning process, the male will show off bright colors and dance-like movements to attract the female. Once the eggs are fertilized, the female will give birth to live fry. There are usually 20 to 50 fry in a single brood. Keep the fry away from the adults so they don't get eaten.

Most Common Health Problems

Flamingo in red Guppies are usually hardy fish, but they can still get diseases like ich (white spot disease), fin rot, and fungal infections that are common in aquariums.

Methods of prevention: To keep them healthy, make sure the water in the aquarium is well-filtered and test and maintain the water parameters regularly. Before adding new fish to the main tank, put them in a separate tank to keep diseases from spreading. The best way to keep from getting sick is to eat well and live in a stress-free place.

Things to think about

Red Flamingo Guppies get along well with other fish because they are calm and make great community fish. They can live in the same tank with peaceful fish like tetras, rasboras, and peaceful catfish.

Special Care Instructions: You must change the water often to keep it clean. Always keep an eye on the water parameters and don't overfeed, as this can cause problems with the water quality.

Legal Restrictions: Owning or breeding Red Flamingo Guppies is usually not against the law. But it's important to know about any local or regional rules about keeping fish in an aquarium.

Different kinds of red flamingo guppies that can be kept together

Red Flamingo Guppies can live with many different types of peaceful tropical fish. Here are seven species that get along:

Neon Tetra

Rasboras Harlequin

Catfish Corydoras

Shrimp cherry

Catfish (Otocinclus)

Fish Platy

Livebearers by Endler

How Male and Female Red Flamingo Guppies Are Different

Red Flamingo Guppies that are male:

Most males are more colorful than females, with bright red colors and complex patterns on their fins.

They are slim and well-shaped.

In general, the tail (caudal fin) is bigger and has more details.

The gonopodium is a modified anal fin on males that is used for mating.

Red Flamingo Guppies that are female:

The females are less colorful than the males, and they often have more muted shades of red.

Their bodies are a little bit bigger.

The tail fin is shorter and has less detail.

The gonopodium is something that only males have.

What's different and what's the same about Red Flamingo Guppies and other Guppies?

What's the same:

Red Flamingo Guppies are livebearers, just like all other guppies.

Like other kinds of guppy, they have a calm personality.

Similar care needs, such as water parameters, setting up the tank, and food.

Not the same:

Flamingo in red Guppies are easy to spot because of their bright red color, which makes them stand out.

Their patterns and shades of color set them apart from other kinds of guppy.

People like them because they look fiery and act gracefully.

With their fiery beauty and calm nature, Red Flamingo Guppies are sure to light up your aquarium and give fish lovers of all skill levels a lot of joy. These fascinating creatures are a great example of how colorful and beautiful the underwater world is.

FAQ

Red Flamingo Guppies come in how many different kinds? The Red Flamingo Guppy comes in many different color patterns and strains, each with its own appeal.

What are the best foods to feed Red Flamingo Guppies? High-quality flakes or pellets made for tropical fish, plus treats like brine shrimp and bloodworms once in a while.

What to feed Red Flamingo Guppies to make their colors brighter. The color of their fur can be improved by giving them a varied diet of high-quality foods and the occasional live or frozen treat.

How big do Red Flamingo Guppies get? They grow to be about 1.5 to 2 inches (3.8 to 5 centimeters) long on average.

Do Red Flamingo Guppies make good pets? Yes, for sure! They are beautiful and easy to take care of, which makes them perfect for aquarists of all skill levels.

How quickly do Red Flamingo Guppies get bigger? They grow pretty quickly and are fully grown after a few months of good care.

What is the life span of a Red Flamingo Guppie? They can live for 2 to 3 years if they are well taken care of.

How mean are Red Flamingo Guppies? No, they are calm fish that get along well with other fish that don't attack.

Red Flamingo Guppies cost more, yes. Prices can be different, but they are usually not too expensive. Things like color and breeding lineage can affect the price.

How do you feed Red Flamingo Guppies? They eat everything, including high-quality flakes or pellets and live or frozen treats like brine shrimp and daphnia every once in a while.

Are Red Flamingo Guppies dangerous to goldfish? Red Flamingo Guppies aren't known to be mean to goldfish, but their tankmates should be chosen carefully based on how well they get along.

What could kill my Red Flamingo Guppies? Poor water quality, disease, overfeeding, and stress are all common reasons. It is very important to keep the tank in good shape.

How should Red Flamingo Guppies be cared for? Give them a clean tank, keep an eye on the water, feed them a balanced diet, and keep them with other fish that get along.

How do you feed Red Flamingo Guppies? Red Flamingo Guppies are omnivores, so they eat both flake and pellet food, as well as live or frozen treats like brine shrimp and bloodworms.

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* Your eyes open, and your hand flies to your throat 

* You’re thirsty

* You sigh as you sit up in your bed a little annoyed, you were having such a good dream too

* Only when you look to your night stand to grab your blood bottle, past it you see Edward sitting in your desk chair 

* “What are you doing?” Your voice is gravely, and you don’t wait for a response before uncapping your bottle and taking a sip

* Edward fidgets, his hands tugging with the sleeves of his shirt 

* “I like watching you sleep” he admits with a shrug and a boyish quirk of the lips. 

* Of course the dork likes watching you pretend to sleep

* Somethings haven’t changed from the books at least

* Maybe he’s part owl or something

* “Ugh, it’s already Sunday where does the weekend go?” You mumble, it’s around 3 am right now

* To be fair you know  half your Saturday went in self loathing in a tree, and the other half spent with your entire coven congratulating you and Edward on your new relationship

* “I call (Y/N) as my sibling the next time we move!” Emmett grins

* “That’s not fair, I was going to make them my sibling.” Jasper pouts

* “You already have Rosalie don’t get greedy”

* And then they all basically tried to plan out your wedding. 

* So the pressure is on

* At least you still have all Sunday before you have to face everyone at school though. You haven’t even tried to look at your phone 

* “Edward,” he perks up at the sound of your voice “were they really thinking vile thoughts about me?”

* His eyebrows thread together, head tilting to the side

* “Mike and Conner, you said they were thinking vile thoughts when you...came to get me.”

* It’s been bothering you for some time, Conner you can understand, but Mike? 

* You feel....betrayed 

* Edward averts his eyes, you’re half hoping he was lying to you and that he was just upset you were kissing other people

* “Were they thinking of r*ping me?” The second the words fall out of your lips he scampers closer, the chair screeching behind him.

* “No! No of course not-at least I don’t think so-“ His hand cups your face, the other cards through your hair. He sits on the edge of your bed carefully

* “They were thinking of taking you...” 

* oh well that’s no so bad.

* “At the same time”

* So that’s a little worse

* “So they were thinking about a threesome?” Edward winces at the word but nods

* You let out a sigh of relief, a threesome is still kinda sketchy but that’s just normal teenage boy brain for you 

* “At the time I didn’t appreciate their...vivid thoughts but” he looks into your eyes, like two pools of gold. “Maybe you wanted that.” 

*  He had acted instinctively upon seeing their thoughts, but in reality he wasn’t much better

* He had imagined that same needy expression on your face dozens of times 

* Maybe... you might have enjoyed an experience like that. After all two lovers are better than one

* He’s stuck in his own self loathing until he hears you laugh. 

* You’re actually laughing at him!

* He’s worried that you missed out on a vital human experience and you’re laughing!

* The nerve

* And yet, he feels his heart flutters when he see’s you smile at him

* “No, I’m good.” You laugh, and he feels himself let out a sigh of relief.

* “What about Jessica? Does she hate me now” Edward shakes his head

* “I think she might have a bit of a crush on you now.” He grins at your confused expression

* Well that’s unexpected

* You know you can’t really sleep but you feel exhausted, completely emotionally drained

* You snuggle back into the covers  And pat the space on the bed beside you

* “Sleep with me?” 

* Your face feels uncomfortably hot when you realize what you just said. “I just meant like-dream with me-not um no-“

* “I know what you meant” Edward says with a small smile

* He lies down on the other end of the bed, at least five feet away from you

* “You can come closer, you’re my boyfriend now, boyfriend privileges”

* Boyfriend 

* He’s always thought the word was garish. 

* A boy who was your special friend, how idiotic. But hearing the word tumble from your lips makes him unbelievably  happy 

* “What are boyfriend privileges?” He repeats carefully. Shifting so he is lying beside you

* “Normal couple stuff I guess, kissing, hugging, public affection-“ 

* and sex stuff

* “So I get to be as greedy with you as I want?” 

* You feel your face grow warm at the thought of Edward being as greedy with your body as he wants

* The way his hands would feel as they ghost over your body, his sweet rosemary and argon scent filling the air

* You can’t manage to get out words so you just nod, and he grins

* “Let’s go out tomorrow” 

* To like a hotel or?

* “We can go to the aquarium in Seattle, I think it’s supposed to rain so something indoors would be good.”

* Oh like greedy with your time

* That seems more on brand for Edward tbh 

* “The aquarium sounds nice”

* You curl into his chest, breathing in his scent deeply. He feels warm, not as warm as a human, but soothing in its own right. A gentle warmth, like the warmth from a candle

* You feel so safe here with him. You feel yourself drift off into sleep, and Edward’s arms tentatively wrap around you

* Your weight is pressed against him, and he can’t help but wonder what it would feel like to have you pressed against him even more

* Your hands clawing at his chest as you plead

* “Great now I’m the one having vile thoughts” he murmurs to himself 

* You both sneak out early in the morning, while all your other coven members are still preoccupied 

* “Grab a couple blood bags and I’ll get some tumblrs” you nod, shoving it all quickly in his nike backpack, and you both practically jog to your jeep.

* The drive feels a lot shorter than you remember, it’s only 10 when you get there. 

* You sigh as you get out, you’re wearing faded blue jeans and a black coat that cinches at the waist

* Edward is dressed in a similar fashion, faded blue jeans, white shirt and a leather jacket

* Both of you wearing sunglasses 

* You don’t miss the looks you get as you walk across the parking lot. You already get a lot of attention as is  with the hot pink Barbie jeep

* But you and Edward together look like something straight out of a magazine catalog 

* “Did you already buy tickets?” You ask, your arm linking through his. 

* “Yeah, we just have to pick them up at the box” 

* It’s actually pretty busy, it is a weekend day though so it’s to be expected 

* “(Y/N)?” You turn to the voice and feel like the wind got knocked out of you

* “Jessica, Bella...” and there’s someone else with them, brown skin and long dark hair.

* Well he’s kinda hot, for a human that is

* “What are you doing here?” 

* They’re like the weirdest group for a Sunday hang out

* “My Dad had some tickets, he was going to come with my mom but I guess they got in a fight or something.” 

* You get the feeling that there’s more to it than that, but you’re just happy she’s talking to you after you kissed her without consent 

* “Oh um , this is Jacob we’ve been friends since we were kids.” 

* So this is Jacob, he looks older for his age.

* “Hey Jacob nice to meet you, I’m (Y/N)” you extend your hand and you see him stiffen for a second

* Yeah that sounds about right. All humans get afraid when they first me et you, you are technically their natural predator after all. He seems to get over it and grasps your hand

* “Hey, nice to meet you” 

* “Do you go to school with us?” 

*You know he doesn’t, but you’ve found it best to pretend in this situation. 

* You glance at Edward who hiding a twitching smile, looks like he heard something interesting

* “No I go to school on the res, I’m a sophomore.” 

* Oh a sophomore, younger man is more her speed huh? And they’ve been friends for years, he’s to her what Edward is to you

* You ship it

* “Do you guys want to join us?” 

* You can feel Edward’s eyes piercing you in the back. Yeah you know this is a date, and he probably wants some quality time with you or whatever-

* But it’s not like you’re f*cking after or anything

* And honestly you kinda wanna see how this whole Bella-Jacob ship plays out 

* “Well I don’t-“ Bella starts

* “We’d love to!” Jessica interrupts, and then taking a nervous glance at Edward she adds:

* “That is if you don’t mind?”

* Queue everyone looking at Edward. He looks at you, a small pout bowing onto your lips and let’s out a deep sigh

* “No of course not, I’ll get the tickets and meet you at the gate.” He says with a resigned smile

* He leans down, catching your lips in his. You know you don’t have a beating heart, but you feel it stutter when he pulls away and smiles at you

* “See you in a bit daring” and then he walks towards the empty “reserved pass” line

* Darling?

* DARLING???

* (Y/N).Exe is broken

* And you would stay broken if Jessica and Bella didn’t each grab a shoulder and shake you.

* “Oh my god what was that?!?!” Jessica shrieks

* “Are you guys like...dating now?” Bella grins

* “Yeah, I guess we are?” The human part of you understands that you’ve just agreed you feel the same, and that you have just started a relationship

* But the vampire part of you, the primal part, knows it’s so much more than that

* He’s your mate

* And saving any major changes, he is yours for as long the universe will permit 

* “Wait are you guys on a date right now?” Jessica asks, and it pulls you right out of your thoughts

* She’s worried she’s intruding

* “No-I mean maybe? Honestly we both just wanted an excuse to get out of the house.” You sigh

* “Are the rest of the Cullen’s not taking it well?” 

* You do live together, and you’re at that age. Sure Emmett and Rosalie and together, but that seems to be under more transparent circumstances 

* So imagine her surprise when you card your fingers through your hair

* “No they’re taking it too well!” 

* Last night you basically rotated between coven members as they all told you how happy they were you were with Edward now

* “Honestly I thought the nerd would never find the nerve” Emmett confided in you

* “Eleazer you’ll never guess what happened....we’re going to be brothers!” You had heard Carlisle tell Eleazer over the phone before breaking down into tears

* “Carlisle stop crying, the venom is going to make a hole in the floor.” Esme shouted before turning her attention back to you

* “So what colors do you like (Y/N)? I’m partial to gold and white myself-“ she said pointing the color combination examples in her wedding book 

* They were driving you crazy.

* “Carlisle keeps rotating between smiling and crying because ‘two kids are leaving the house’ and Tanya called to give me the most smug speech about it- I just need a break.”

* You sigh

* “Wait-did all of this happen after the party?” Bella asks with a smile creeping onto her face

* Before you can answer though, you see Edward walking towards you

* “We’ll talk about this later” Jessica whispers, not that it matters, going on the smirk on Edward’s lips he already heard everything

* “So Tanya called you huh?” He whispers in your ear when the others move ahead

* His breath fanning against your ear causes your stomach to flip. You’ve been around him so long, you almost started to forget how hot he was.

* “Yeah, she’s basically hoping I crush your heart so she can get revenge.”

* You’re mostly joking, but given past history, you know she wouldn’t mind if that’s how things turned out anyway

* “That’s fair.” He looks almost sad. What the hell happened between them to make him like this?

* You want to ask, but you feel like now isn’t the best time. Not when Jessica and Bella are a mere five feet away arguing about whether to see the jellyfish or penguins first

* So you do the only thing you can: You reach out and hold his hand, squeezing it slightly. Edward doesn’t say anything, he just squeezes back

* It’s a pretty nice day, Bella’s dad bought her a digital camera so you take a bunch of cheesy pictures around the aquarium

* “Oh try to get one like a shark is eating us! Like I’m in Jaws!”

* “You know they’re an endangered species and that stupid movie doesn’t help right?” 

* “There is no ethical consumption under capitalism Bella”

* Edward just makes a pained expression as he holds up the camera. All he wanted to do was go on a date with his significant other

* “Girls am I right?” Jacob asks, extending his bag of popcorn

* For a second you think Edward might hate him, but instead a smile arch’s onto his face

* “You have no idea.” He smiles, taking a few kernels.

* Aw, it’s Edward’s first human friend 💖

* You kinda wish you were the one with a camera now, or at least a smart phone

* Instead you settle for a grainy picture on your flip phone. They both look at you like confused puppy's when the shutter clicks 

* “Aw that’s a cute one” Jessica coo’s

* “You even got a shark in the back” Bella says pointing to a blurry gray blob in the background

* It’s a good day 

* You’re almost sad when you have to part at the end 

* “You sure you guys don’t want to come with us? Jessica’s dad is letting us have his reservation at the revolving restaurant in the space needle”

* You and Edward exchange a look

* “Nah it’s fine, I’m pretty sure Esme is wondering when we’re coming home” 

* “She’ll be pissed if we eat there without here.” You add for good measure 

* “Well alright we’ll see you at school tomorrow” Jessica says with a wave, and you smile

* “See you tomorrow”

* Looks like things are back to normal

* Edward drives on the way back

* You hold the plush sea turtle close to your chest as you watch him

* He really is handsome, chiseled cheekbones and full rosy lips. To add he has that mane of auburn hair, and that irresistible splatter of freckles across his nose 

* The prettiest boy you’ve ever seen

* “I can feel you staring” he says with a smile twitching onto his lips. Oh god you want to kiss that stupid smile right off his mouth

* “What went wrong with you and Tanya?”

* Way to kill the vibe

* “I’m sure Tanya told you all about it.” He shrugs. There’s that sad look again

* “I want to hear about it from you though” 

* And Edward might have denied you if your hand hadn’t found his, resting on top of it 

* He grins

* You don’t play fair, do you?

* He sighs, squeezing your hand while keeping his eyes on the road

* “I just...didn’t like the way she thought about me”

* “Like you were a piece of meat?” 

* He laughs

* “Like I was some charity case besides-“ he stops abruptly, looking at you before swallowing hard. “Never mind”

* “No tell me!” You lean forward cradling your hand intertwined with his against your chest and he chuckles, you really don’t play fair

* “ I didn’t-I don’t feel attraction to people unless-“

* He looks into your eyes, and you feel his fingers squirm against yours 

* “Unless we’re friends first” 

* Oh, he’s asexual. 

*Or  demisexual. 

* Somewhere on the spectrum for sure

* Is he coming out to you right now? 

* You give his hand a squeeze 

* “I get that.”

* You want to smack yourself. 

* The boy you love just came out to you about his sexuality and all you can say is ‘I get that’ 

* You feel so useless

* But Edward doesn’t let you feel useless for too long, he squeezes back looking at you with such warm eyes

* And again you can’t help but think that even though his heart doesn’t beat anymore, he looks so human

* He’s just pulled into the driveway at the house, the car parked. He’s about to say something when you cut him off, tugging him closer to you and placing your lips on his

* If he’s surprised he doesn’t show it, placing his free hand on your shoulder and leaning a bit closer to you 

* He’s so careful and gentle...and dazzling 

* He’s barely touching you but you can feel yourself seeing stars

* That thing he does with his tongue-it’s indescribable 

* Are you sure he’s a virgin?!?

* You can’t help the sigh that passes your lips when he pulls away. You’re still in a daze when he pulls you into his lap, one leg straddled on each side 

* His head is tilted back, an easy smile on his mouth. 

* You suddenly feel shy, that look in his eyes should be illegal 

* “So-“ you lean back a bit “do you-um-do you have feelings like that for me?”

* He tilts his head to the side in confusion and you gulp

* “Y’know sexually speaking” 

* He actually laughs at you

* Right there, when you’re only a handful of inches away from his face

* But you’re not annoyed, instead all you can feel is a rush of affection

* His eyes crinkle at the ends, his pearly white fangs sparkling as he grins. Your hands cup his face as he looks up at you with adoration 

* You can imagine the rosy blush that would light his face so clearly, the deep emerald green of his eyes. You’re almost starving for the image you see in your mind to be real

* He pulls you out of the image with a simple touch. His arms wrapping around your waist to pull you closer

* “I - like the rest of the entire student population at Forks High School- find you absolutely bewitching” 

* The way he says it makes you shiver, and Edward’s hand trails up your back. 

*He sits a little straighter, bouncing you slightly in his lap as he does, so you’re looking straight into his eyes

* “I find it hard to believe you don’t know that I have been dying inside everyday watching you walk around in those short shorts you love so much,” he whispers in your ear. 

*“That I haven’t been dying to absolutely ravish you .”

* You gulp.

* It’s all you can do when he’s looking at you like that

* If you thought Garrett’s bedroom eyes were intense, then Edward is on an entire different level

* You feel your heart stutter, butterflies erupting in your stomach...and something else

* A certain heat you haven’t felt in a long time

* You’ve never seen him look at anything like that, like he’s hungry- 

* Starving even 

* His lips brush against your neck, trailing down to your collar bone and you sigh

* He really knows everything about you doesn’t he? All your sweet spots, all your stories, every one of your secrets.

* Your hand trails up his chest, entangling in his hair and a low gasp tumbles from his lips

* And then your phone rings

* You hear him groan, and you shake your head

* “Ignore it” you mumble, your mouth meeting his once more 

* And you continue on for a few moments, until his phone rings

*He pulls away from you with a groan

* “Rosalie’s calling me a long list of profanities right now” he mumbles, you sigh pulling away to lean against the steering wheel 

* It’s probably for the best, no point in getting too turned on when you knew he was going to say ‘you should wait until marriage’

* Like honestly, he died, and you died, and now you live an alternative lifestyle where literally nothing matters anymore 

* But you’ll respect his wishes 

* “Guess we should go inside” You sigh, you move to get off of him

* But just as your about to crawl off, he tugs you to face him once more

* His thumb brushes over your cheek, and those deep gold eyes bore at you with that same intensity as before 

* He pulls you in for one last kiss, before getting out of the car and closing the door behind him

* “We’ll pick up where we left off later.” 

* (Y/N).exe is broken

* You walk to the house slowly, like humans do 

* “Are you ready?” He asks, holding out his hand

* You smile, placing your hand in his and nodding

* “Ready”

* So imagine your surprise when you and Edward get inside, hand in hand, to find the entire coven is laughing in the living room. 

* From where you’re standing you can only see Carlisle 

* “Ah your home! Come, I want you both to meet someone-“ 

* You move forward but Edward stays rooted to the spot

* Three people come into view, a woman with flaming red hair, a man -no older than 25- with rich mahogany skin, and a dazzling young man with hair the color of the sun.

* “Meet our new friends, Victoria, James and Laurent” 

* You turn to look at Edward, his mouth pinched into a frown

* Well F*ck 

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[frosted-night]

Do you have any headcanons for cast as humans? I mean as a human au. (If this is too big of an ask thats fine)

BOY DO I

Let me just get my tome out n read y'all the lore I've made for no reason.

Jack

Left home after graduating to join a caravan and traveled across the country. He came back home after his parent's sudden deaths. He didn't want to leave his brother to deal with the estate by himself.

He still has his van from his adventures and he wants to paint it again to symbolize his new phase in life. It still has living accomdations inside it and Jack has little desire to change it.

He has a few tattoos, such as a hurricane symbol on his neck and a snowflake above one of his ankles. Jack also has a few ear piercings he did himself and he's surprisingly good at it.

If Jack isn't driving he travels by longboard. He had a skater boy phase but it payed off since he can still do a few tricks here and there.

(Sometimes I see human Jack either as cis or trans. It depends on how im feeling. A trans Human Jack post will be seperate from this one)

He's a skilled forager and grower since he had to do that as his years as a nomad. Jack wouldn't claim he's as skilled as Aster but he can be a runner up behind him.

Jack never had a solid relationship on the road. It was very fleeting feelings but he didn't seem to mind. Settling back down at his hometown had reawakened some buried feelings though.

He's fairly well known in his hometown for being a mischievous bastard in his teen years and his past with playing on the local hockey team.

Jack would describe his aesthetic as a love child of punk and free spirited hippie lifestyle.

He has unmedicated adhd

He's 6 or 7 years older than his younger brother Manny and it can make their relationship a bit strained. These days they are trying to mend it while taking care of their parent's old home.

His hair was originally brown but he bleaches it and dyes it white these days.

Manny (Mim)

He's one of the youngest in his friend group, beating Tooth by a few months.

Manny is the 2nd shortest, Sandy being the shortest.

Jack leaving home wasn't easy for him and after a while Manny fell out of contact. He regrets it to this very day but never stopped thinking about his big brother.

He has Thalassophobia, a fear shared with Jack, and Pitch teases him endlessly about it.

He's a natural blonde and his mom used to tell him that he got it from his dad's side of the family. Manny has yet to meet any of his extended family for some reason.

Cleaning out his parents house of their things was one of the hardest parts for him and would have been impossible if his friends didn't help him. (Jack coming home really changed the game too.)

He was a fairly average kid but had a streak of being kind of mean in school. It lasted until high school but he still carries that silver tongue between his teeth.

Tooth jokes about how often Manny visits the local aquarium and he deflects any guesses she makes. North knows Manny is crushing hard on a employee there and has a code word for the guy, "Ocean Man". Aster hums the song whenever he feels like he can poke fun of Manny.

His occupation is working at a pre-school/daycare. He's shockingly amazing with children and has considered a teaching position there but he has yet to decide on it.

Manny has been called a "night owl" by all his friends since his productivity increases when the sun goes down. Thats usually the time he gets to work on all the cleaning he's missed.

He currently lives in his childhood home with his brother. Thankfully their home was paid off by their parents so they just split the bills, but they have considered getting a roomie to help with the expenses.

His dream is to have any kind of a pool in his backyard but he has to wait til the finances balance themselves out.

Pitch

Was the newest person in the group before Jack joined. He's also one of the oldest.

His occupation is a horror novel writer and lives off of coffee even when hes not crunching to meet deadlines.

Pitch fights with insomnia but Sandy convinced him to start taking medication to help him sleep. He got kind of sick hearing Pitch make quick meals at 3am and tripping over his cat.

He has a cat named Onyx and he has that backpack with a window on it that he can put Onyx in. Onyx likes it very much and if she knows hes leaving somewhere she sits by the backpack and stares at him.

Halloween is when he's at his strongest. If he feels like it, he competes with North on who has the best decorations. Jack gave Pitch the idea of using dry ice and its a feature he brings back every other year or so.

He's one of the tallest people in the group, only coming a few inches shorter than North. Contrary to people asking him, he was never into basket ball and was was in the military for a period of time.

Pitch was living a hermit life until he was adopted into the group. With his wife long deceased and freshly dumped, he softly considers it a saving grace that everyone accepted him.

Katherine

An aspiring writer, she currently works at the neighborhood library. She finds it really relaxing since its sat right by a river bed.

She tries not to bug Pitch too much but on occassion she asks him to beta read her works. His criticism and tips energize her to get her works out there ten fold. Kat really wants to write fantasy, a little romance and a lot of kid's books.

Her favorite task at work is reading to kids. Shes an animated storyteller and the kids eat her antics up.

She was great friends with Jack when they were growing up but she followed his antics on a few of his accounts online.

She listens to a lot of rock music and punk pop due to North's influence when she was growing up. He's taken to her to her first concert and she treasures the merch and memories.

She gets around by bike because she hasn't gotten her lisence yet but North gives her lessons on the weekends. Kat's become a local cryptid because everyone has seen her whiz past on her bike at least once though.

A child(Jamie) she read to got her into cryptids and now she eats up any lore she can. They like to infodump on each other when they have the time.

This is post is long enough golly gosh. If y'all are interested i can post the others but for now take these samples. (The Hockey player Jack hc n ex military Pitch hc were influenced by a lovely fic written by my friends over at @bunnimew. Their fic is Surviving On Twinkies And Hope and i highly reccomend it)

[koganegawasimp]

Hello! I’m so happy about how my request had turned out! I noticed how you said you would live some poly seijoh requests... that would’ve have been apart of my last one but I didn’t think you wrote for that. So! What I’m saying is, how about you write some of your own poly seijoh headcanons! Anything you’d like! I really love those boys and would kill to read it! 🤍🤍

Hi!! I loved writing these so much oh my god!! I also added to my rules that I’ll write for poly relationships!! I kind of went a little bit overboard with this, and I wasn’t 100% sure about how to end it, but I hope you enjoy!! I tried to write an equal amount about each boy but I feel like I didn’t write as much for Iwa but oh well. And thank you SO MUCH for requesting them I love them so much!! (There’s a part two now, you can find it right here!

Poly Seijoh Third Years

Word Count: 3000 words (...yeah)

Warnings: some timeskip spoilers, proceed with caution if you don’t know their timeskip occupations

You’ve all been very good friends since first year, and are practically inseparable

Since you’re all a pretty popular friend group, there are a lot of people who have crushes on you guys and end up confessing

But none of you ever end up accepting any confessions, which leads to some rumors about how you’re all hooking up or how some of you are dating

And I mean the rumors are at least a little bit based in reality; I mean no one can miss how Makki and Mattsun walk around with their pinkies practically interlaced, or how Iwaizumi always buys you and Oikawa lunch and snacks, or how Oikawa stares at Makki in class when he thinks no one is looking, or how Mattsun teases you in the hallways, or how you all borderline cuddle in public whenever one of you have a bad day

You’re all hanging on a precipice between friendship and dating, and everyone’s too terrified of making a move and risking “the end of your friendship” (even though I don’t think any of them would actually end a friendship over a crush)

One night after their practice, you’re all hanging out at Oikawa’s house

The fast food you got earlier is strewn all over the coffee table, and everyone’s draped all over the living room furniture while you watch (heckle) shitty horror movies

Oikawa is sitting in Mattsun’s lap, Makki’s head is on your thighs, Iwaizumi has his arm flung over your and Mattsun’s shoulders

It’s somehow both incredibly calm and comforting, as well as tense

Out of basically nowhere, Mattsun picks up the remote and pauses the movie

“Hey, is everything ok?” Iwaizumi asks, clearly very concerned.

Mattsun just sucks in a deep breath

“Hey, I really like you guys” he finally says

“Uh yeah I sure hope so? We’re best friends it would kind of suck if you couldn’t stand us” Makki laughs nervously

“Not like that dumbass. I mean I like you like I want to be able to hold hands with you guys and kiss you and go on dates that we actually call dates instead of just ‘hang outs’ you know?”

Everyone breathes out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding

“Oh thank god, I was so worried I was reading all the signs wrong” Oikawa says

You just kind of sit in silence for a little longer, it’s a lot to process! You just found out that your friends all want to date you, and you want to date them too!

“So...does this mean we’re all...dating now??”

Everyone just kind of nods in agreement and in an incredibly anticlimactic fashion, you all just go back to watching the movie

So now you’re all officially dating!

Literally no one at school is surprised

Going from a platonic friend group to a romantic polyamorous relationship is incredibly smooth

It’s basically the same as it was before, but now you hold hands walking around school, and you kiss each other goodbye, and you finally get to tell each other how you feel about them whenever you want, and Oikawa stares at Makki in class without caring about who’s watching (once they got detention because they were literally blowing each other kisses in the middle of Calculus. You and Mattsun found it absolutely hilarious. Iwaizumi was not amused.)

You also all had a pretty long talk at the very beginning about boundaries (communication is super important especially if your relationship has more than two people!!)

Everyone is on a different level of comfort when it comes to PDA, but they’re all ok with at least some of it

Oikawa is the most comfortable and oh my god he is so clingy

He will literally drape himself on top of you in public if he feels like he’s not getting enough attention

Hanamaki is in second, he has no shame and he really likes physical affection (I think one of his main love languages is physical touch) and he’s also really flirty (but more in goofy way)

He tends to stick to holding hands and cheek/forehead kisses, but he will occasionally pick you up and kiss you all over your face while calling you his “personal ray of sunshine” to make you giggly and embarrassed

Matsukawa is in third, he is also pretty shameless but he does prefer being affectionate at home and in private

He does almost always have his arm around someone’s shoulder or waist, and sometimes he’ll just hug you from behind and rest his head on your shoulder while you’re in the middle of a conversation

Iwaizumi is the least comfortable with it, but he still likes it!! He’s just worried that he’ll end up making the people around you uncomfortable if you’re all too affectionate

He likes it when you lay your head on his shoulder whenever you’re both sitting down

Also, because there’s so much communication and because you’ve all been close to each other, there’s almost never any jealousy or fighting

Even when there are arguments and fights, it’s almost always resolved by the end of the day, and there are no hard feelings after the fact

You all go on dates every weekend! Oikawa likes going on super fancy and romantic dinner dates, Hanamaki likes amusement park dates, Matsukawa loves arcade dates (once you all had a laser tag date and it was incredibly fun but also so competitive that you almost got kicked out) and Iwaizumi actually really loves museum and aquarium dates

Whenever you guys don’t really feel like going out for a date you just watch movies together at home while cuddling

Once Iwaizumi tricked Mattsun and Oikawa into studying by promising a “study date” which actually just ended up being Iwa yelling at both of them to focus

Also sometimes some of you will go on dates with only two or three of you (you all have a groupchat, and everytime there’s a date like that everyone on the date spams the groupchat with cute date pictures)

Pet names! There are so many pet names!

They use such a wide variety of pet names on you and each other, Iwa usually sticks to the classic ones like baby, Makki calls you sweetheart (both in a genuine way and to be a little shit), Mattsun calls you gorgeous/handsome, and Oikawa has SO MANY names for you (sunshine, prince/princess, angel, my love, etc.)

Once Mattsun called Oikawa his “handsome prince” as a joke and Oikawa blushed SO hard (he never lived that one down)

Whenever you all have sleepovers it is so soft and wholesome oh my god

They’re all so so cuddly

Oikawa is definitely a little spoon BFDBGBSG he just really likes being held! He genuinely loves how safe and warm and at home he feels in your arms

Hanamaki likes sleeping on his stomach with his head on your chest so he can hear your heartbeat

Matsukawa is a little bit of a starfish, so he’s always just super spread out. He usually ends up just kind of draping his limbs on top of everyone else

Iwaizumi sleeps like a koala! He will fully wrap his whole body around one person, and it’s somehow both incredibly comforting and a little bit suffocating

It doesn’t really matter how you guys are positioned when you fall asleep, when you wake up in the morning you’re all just a huge tangle of limbs

Getting up is a challenge because in addition to being stuck in the middle of a bunch of ridiculously tall dudes, you have to deal with Iwa holding you hostage and Oikawa whining about how he just wants to stay in bed all day

Makki is absolutely the type of person who would fart and trap you under the covers while cackling maniacally

Mattsun has the WORST morning breath but he also loves sleepy morning kisses

When Oikawa wakes up before you, he likes to turn around in your arms and play with your hair and watch your face, he just thinks you look so peaceful and happy in your sleep!

Lazy mornings with them are the absolute BEST you can not convince me otherwise

Even after you’re all awake, you all just stay in bed cuddling until someone has to get up to pee or you’re just too hungry

Mattsun is such a good cook! He makes everyone a really nice breakfast!

Oikawa helps him out by decorating all the food, he definitely knows how to cut fruits into like flower shapes and all that fancy shit

Once graduation rolls around, you’re really worried that you’ll all grow apart and break up once you’re all in college and actually working

But they’re all quick to reassure you that they all love you so much and they’re all willing to try and make the relationship work

You all go to college pretty close to each other, so instead of moving into a dorm, you just get an apartment together

Some of your parents are worried that you’re all moving too fast, and that you’ve only been together for just over a year, but you’ve all been this close for such a long time that moving in together just feels natural

Speaking of parents, not all of your parents were really 100% accepting of this relationship

But over time, everyone can see how happy you make each other, and eventually accept it

So anyway, now you’re all officially living together!

It doesn’t really change your relationship much, besides doing chores and getting ready in the morning together

Everyone divides up chores pretty evenly between the five of you

Matsukawa still cooks for everyone, and sometimes if he’s feeling really sweet he’ll pack lunches for everyone

Oikawa usually requests being on laundry duty, something about it is super comforting and relaxing for him

Getting ready in the morning is...interesting to say the least

Iwaizumi wakes up at the asscrack of dawn to go for a run, and usually drags Oikawa out of bed to go with him

Mattsun gets up around half an hour later to make breakfast

Makki stays in bed as long as possible, usually until Mattsun announces that breakfast is ready

Oikawa and Iwa get home sometime while Matsukawa is in the middle of cooking, and take a quick shower (once they did not shower before breakfast and the rest of you complained about how much they stank the whole time BFGFBFDBGH)

You all sit down to breakfast and talk and laugh and joke around until someone points out that you’ve all gotta leave in twenty minutes

After that it’s a mad rush to get dressed, brush your hair and teeth, and do the whole rest of your morning routines

On weekends or any days where you’re all free, it’s a lot more relaxed, Iwa and Oikawa stay in bed with the rest of you until past 10 a.m

Also speaking of showers! They all really like taking showers with you (NOT in a sexual way, it’s just really cute and domestic) as long as you’re comfortable with it!

When Oikawa tells you all that he’s moving away to pursuit volleyball, he is in tears, and he’s terrified that your relationship won’t work out while he’s so far away

But you reassure him that you’ll all still love him no matter how far away he is

Long distance actually works out really well for you all

You keep the group chat going strong in his absence, you all send him pictures of your lives and he sends some back!

You also videocall him almost every single day

It feels almost as if he’s never left, since he’s still so involved in your life

He visits whenever he can, which is not as often as you’d like, but you all make the most of it

The years pass, you’re all still together, Iwa’s still lecturing Oikawa for staying up too late, Mattsun’s still making shitty puns constantly, Makki’s still posting the goofiest candid photos if everyone else, and you all love each other so much

Iwaizumi is such a stable and comforting presence, always checking to make sure that you’re feeling alright, holding you whenever you cry

He is pretty busy helping out the Japan team though, and Matsukawa also has work, so if you’re ever at home during the day you’re probably hanging out with Makki

Mattsun and Makki are constantly teasing each other about their respective professions (or lack thereof)

“Oi Mattsun, what’s it like spending your whole work day with dead people?”

“Oi Makki, what’s it like spending your whole work day-oh wait.”

When the Olympics roll around, you, Matsukawa, and Hanamaki go to support Oikawa (and Iwaizumi)

He looks a little bit nervous before the game, but the second his eyes fall on the three of you sitting right at the edge of the court, he visibly relaxes

The whole game, everyone around you is staring at you because of how loud you’re cheering, but you’re just so proud of them!

You take a moment to think about how much those four have changed since you met them as first years so long ago. If someone told you at that point that you would end up in a strong romantic relationship with them, you wouldn’t have believed it, but now looking at the guys you love, it feels like the most natural thing in the world

You can’t believe how far you’ve all come, and how happy you all are

When Oikawa finally sets up for the winning point, you all scream and run outside to meet up with him and Iwa

You run into Iwaizumi first, who tells you about how Oikawa’s swamped with fans

When you finally find him in the middle of a crowd, he makes eye contact with you and smiles, pushing through the crowd and coming straight for your little group

He pulls all four of you into a big group hug, everyone’s laughing and crying and taking pictures and screaming as you all just hold onto each other

Oikawa breaks the hug first, and takes a few steps back, before getting down on one knee

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Goodbye, Eri Analysis (Part One)

Source: Tatsuki Fujimoto, Goodbye, Eri

By: Beata Garrett | @zhongxia246​

What is there to say about Tatsuki Fujimoto, the creator of Chainsaw Man, Fire Punch, and the devastating one-shot, Look Back? We could dive into so many aspects of his works. I love Fujimoto’s stories because he does ultraviolence in a way that cracks open the shell of humanity. Fujimoto’s work is raw, funny, and gut-punching in turns and sometimes all at once.

I heard about Goodbye, Eri, Fujimoto’s latest one-shot the day before it was released on Viz to read for free (no longer the case, sadly). I was immediately onboard. While Fire Punch didn’t do much for me, Chainsaw Man and Look Back rank amongst my favorite manga. I opened the website, eagerly began, and half an hour later, I was in shock. I didn’t quite know how to feel, which is a very typical Fujimoto feeling.

After processing it more, I’ve been able to start articulating what Goodbye, Eri meant to me. There are many things to take from the one-shot, but I was especially interested in how Fujimoto approached film as a way to remember and memorialize those we love. It’s even more poignant considering this is a coming-of-age manga about a boy who is forced to confront his relationships with those around him and his own insecurities as he grows older.

This is also a one-shot that I could talk forever about. As such, this will be a two-part analysis of Goodbye, Eri, with each part tackling half of the one-shot. Thanks for joining me on this journey and, without further ado, let’s get into it.

[Editor’s Note: Please assume from this point forward that everything–quotes, images, and summaries–in this post, unless cited otherwise, comes directly from Goodbye, Eri (2022). This post also goes into in-depth spoilers for the movie. Thank you.]

Disclaimer: This post contains discussions that may be triggering for some readers. Content warning for suicidal ideation and death of a loved one. By clicking “Read More,” you understand that you may encounter such content. Reader discretion is advised.

The first page of the manga appears wholesome on the surface: a twelve-year-old boy has just started middle school and is celebrating his birthday with his parents, who pose for his camera. On the next page, the mother asks the boy, “You know how I could die from my illness? How does that make you feel?” She then proceeds to tell the boy, later called Yuta, that she wants him to begin shooting videos of her for the family to remember her by.

It’s a harsh thing to ask a child. Yet I felt some sympathy, and I’m sure others did, for the mother too. But in that instant, something very innocent (the exhilarating discovery of filming something) is turned into a responsibility and something much more serious.

Despite the serious nature of the mother’s request, Goodbye, Eri doesn’t shy away from humor. Yuta captures the best and worst moments of his mother, from family trips to the aquarium to her laughing and telling him to turn off the camera because she’s pooping. These moments make you smile and then you get the classic Fujimoto gut-punch: Yuta films his parents sleeping and says, “I’m keeping watch in case she dies in her sleep.”

As Yuta follows his mother from home to hospitalization, he shows his face only a few times. He also tries to film his father, who laughs and says, “There’s no need to film your dad!” This brings up an interesting question: who gets to be part of the memorialization and what is the right way, if there is any, to remember someone? Was filming the dad a mistake on Yuta’s part or does the absence of him leave something important out of Yuta’s videos?

This idea of erasure continues on the next page as Yuta films himself in a mirror. His eyes are obscured, which erases part of his humanity, and he talks about his feelings as the one responsible for filming his mother. He doesn’t break down or pretend to be super happy, but his reaction is a little ambivalent. At first, he’s not even sure whether he’s sad, but rectifies it, stating, “No…I’m sad. I am.” It’s almost as if he’s confirming it to himself. There is no correct way to grieve or prepare yourself for the death of a loved one, but this uncertainty in oneself is refreshing to see. It eschews any morality (such as the sentiment that “Yuta is bad for not feeling sad!”) and honestly portrays how some people would process this kind of situation.

Through these three panels and the next page, Fujimoto also shows us how film, especially documentaries, requires a level of honesty from the filmmaker. The next page depicts an insect’s carcass being carried away by ants, and it’s a distinctly somber tone compared to the previous pages. In many ways, the visual mediums of manga and film overlap throughout Goodbye, Eri (though there are definitely differences), but there remains an issue of what is shown and, again, what isn’t. Why is Yuta filming this insect being eaten? Why film himself in the mirror instead of directly as we’ve seen before?

Funnily enough, by diverting attention away from his mother, Yuta ends up being the center of attention and his feelings on his mother’s illness come into focus. He is unable to directly face his mother and this is hammered in when he runs from the hospital, unable to film her final moments.

As he runs away from the hospital, the scene becomes blurry and we wonder how Yuta is holding the camera. Then it pulls away to show him clearly, running towards the camera. The hospital explodes and it’s revealed that this is a movie. The character of “Yuta” in this movie yells, “Goodbye, Mom!” as he runs away, watched by an audience full of students.

This is the first meta layer of Goodbye, Eri and I especially love how “Goodbye, Mom!” echoes the one-shot’s title. As I’ll talk about later, Eri and Yuta’s mother are very intertwined for him and are the two women who influence his life the most.

Unfortunately for the filmmaker, the audience is disgusted by the movie. Ironically, the expressions of shock mimic many people’s reactions to Fujimoto’s works. It definitely mirrored mine towards Fire Punch. It’s made worse when the title of the movie is revealed to be Dead Explosion Mother, a satirical poke at Fujimoto’s violent and simplistic titles.

What’s unusual is that the movie continues. Outside of the movie that is. Yuta captures the reactions of his classmates, who laugh at him and call the movie garbage, and then the individual reactions of those who saw it. Many of them see the movie as insensitive and as a mockery of his mother’s death.

One of the teachers asks him, “Why did you go and turn it into a movie?” and becomes physically violent when Yuta says the explosion was awesome at the end. The question of why we make movies, why any art is made, is an interesting one. Especially in the case of “unpalatable” art. I don’t think Fujimoto provides any clear answer to this question except for two, one of which is “to remember.” The other, which I’ll get more into in Part Two is, is for catharsis.

I believe that it is up to every individual to decide what they deem worthy of remembering. Fujimoto expresses this agency and desire to remember strongly in Goodbye, Eri. After interviewing his audience, Yuta films himself about to commit suicide by jumping off the roof of the hospital where his mother died. He asks his father to show the video to those that made fun of him for the movie and tells the camera (and us), “This world is filled with death. Memento mori.” Like his mother, Yuta wants to exist and live on in someone’s memory. There is also a power in remembering “memento mori,” remembering that you will die, and choosing to accept it and show your most vulnerable moments.

Despite asking his father to take the video, Yuta takes the camera with him and is about to jump off with it. This is a somewhat bizarre move that I’m still reflecting on: does it mean the movie ends only with the filmmaker? That despite wanting to be remembered, Yuta simultaneously wishes to be erased and punish himself? Or is it to heighten the emotions even more as we see his final moments from his perspective? I’m not sure.

The next few pages build dread as we watch Yuta climb the stairs and see the houses and parking lots below him. Any panel now, we could see him falling and it’s very effective. But suddenly, the camera focuses again. And we meet the star of a new movie, a girl named Eri.

This is the end of Part One of the analysis for Goodbye, Eri. Rereading Fujimoto’s one-shot has only made me certain of how talented he is at writing and composition. Every panel adds something interesting to the story and the inner world of its characters, and his reveals are still shocking even though they’ve been done before. Fiction that comments on making movies through movies is nothing new, but there’s a simplicity in Fujimoto’s writing that emphasizes the beauty and horror of his works.

The first half of Goodbye, Eri leaves many unanswered questions to be pondered upon in the next half, and, like a good movie I’ve already seen, I look forward to experiencing it again. Goodbye, reader!

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[ madison bailey, cis female, nineteen ] let’s give a warm welcome to one of sparkwood’s finest, KIARA CARRERA !! before coming here, she once lived on the pages of OUTER BANKS. though now they currently spend most of their time as a STUDENT / PET STORE EMPLOYEE. if you ask the townsfolk about what they are like, you will hear that they are INDEPENDENT but also REBELIOUS. if they had a theme song it would be GOLDEN - HARRY STYLES. let’s see how their story unravels this time.

𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐀𝐘 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄.

warnings : n/a.

 ever  since  birth,  kiara  carrera  has  been  the  kind  of  girl  that  does  the  opposite  of  what  she  has  been  told.  rebellion  runs  through  her  veins  &  as  much  as  her  mother  would  hate  to  admit  it,  she  probably  inherited  that  trait  from  her.  born  &  raised  in  sparkwood,  she  is  the  only  child  of  mike  &  anna  carrera.  her  mother  came  from  an  extremely  wealthy  family  &  her  father  was  from  the  wrong  side  of  the  tracks,  the  two  unexpectedly  falling  in  love  &  finding  themselves  dealing  with  an  unplanned  pregnancy  out  of  wedlock.  anna’s  parents  were  quick  to  disown  her  &  leave  her  to  figure  out  things  on  her  own,  something  that  was  far  from  easy  for  the  spoiled  heiress.  

 out  of  both  guilt  &  love,  mike  became  determined  to  build  a  stable  &  beautiful  life  for  his  soon  to  be  wife  &  baby.  he  was  able  to  prove  everyone  wrong,  opening  his  own  successful  seafood  restaurant  in  town  called  the  wreck.  the  profit  that  he  made  from  the  restaurant  allowed  him  to  build  the  life  that  he  had  always  dreamt  of,  something  that  he  believed  both  anna  &  their  newborn  daughter  kiara  deserved.  growing  up,  kiara  was  a  wild  soul  that  loved  to  explore  &  yearned  to  protect  every  living  creature  she  came  across.  this  led  to  several  occasions  where  she  would  bring  home  strays  or  injured  animals  to  her  parents’  dismay.  

 growing  up,  she  quickly  befriended  a  group  of  boys  that  her  parents  were  less  than  approving  of.  but  despite  her  parents’  disapproval,  john  b,  jj,  &  pope  became  her  saving  grace.  she  felt  as  if  she  could  be  herself  around  them,  feeling  true  joy  whenever  she  was  in  the  company  of  the  three  boys.  her  mother  was  terrified  that  she  was  headed  down  the  same  path  that  she  was  &  decided  to  take  kiara  &  enroll  her  in  private  school  for  a  while.  she  felt  like  a  fish  out  of  water,  leaving  her  to  be  taken  in  by  a  girl  named  sarah  cameron.  sarah  soon  became  her  best  friend  &  then  eventual  girlfriend,  the  two  falling  out  over  one  petty  argument.  

 she  begged  her  parents  to  let  her  attend  public  school  again,  promising  that  she  would  let  them  re-enroll  her  into  private  school  if  she  wasn’t  able  to  keep  her  grades  up.  they  reluctantly  agreed  &  kiara  was  able  to  graduate  from  high  school  with  honors.  she  felt  as  if  things  were  falling  back  into  place,  especially  since  she  was  able  to  be  reunited  with  her  three  best  friends.  after  graduation,  she  decided  to  head  to  university  where  she  now  majors  in  marine  biology.  she  also  works  part  time  at  the  local  pet  store  to  earn  some  independence  from  her  parents’  wealth.  

𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐎 𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍.

very politically active, always tries her hardest to stay up to date on important current events. she’s also a loud socialist

currently living with her best friend john b to avoid going home as much as possible, not to mention that her living situation pisses her parents off & that makes her satisfied 

feels the most comfortable whenever she’s in nature

not afraid to yell at people to remind them to recycle

she has a pet turtle & a few fish ... due to this she likes watching a lot of fish tank videos on youtube to learn tips 

dreams of working at a big aquarium one day 

embodies boho chic in her wardrobe 

wants to fix things with sarah one day, but until then she basically has been treating her ex-girlfriend as if she’s the incarnation of evil

bisexual pisces queen

𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐄𝐂𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐍.

wanted connections : i’m very open to anything for kie, but i’d also like to see pope around to complete the pogue squad. 

[multific]

The Housekeeper (Part 3)

Part 1 Part 2

Geralt x Reader

Modern!AU

Summary: You moved to the big city not too long ago. And you became the housekeeper to the handsome bachelor, Geralt Rivia. At first your relationship is purely professional, but what happens when you start developing feelings for him?

 You really thought that maybe, just maybe, he’d see you a woman. Just one time it would have been nice. Just one time.

So, you decided to do what everyone with a disappointed and hurt heart would you decided to give up and move on.

After you saw Geralt with that woman, you tried your best to avoid him. When you had work, you made sure you finished as quickly as possible. This way, you would save your heart from the break.

You could still do it. You could still forget him.

And that’s what you really tried to do.

You were about to finish with your cleaning. You were in the kitchen, putting his washed plates into their places.

The front door opened and in came a man, but his voice was louder than anything you ever heard.

“Geralt~ it is me. I came by, no need to thank me, it-“he immediately stopped once he saw you.

Since he said Geralt’s name you assumed they knew each other.

“Hi.” was all you could say, you didn’t want to sound rude. And as soon as you did, he started talking, you felt like he might never stop.

“So you are the new housekeeper Geralt told me about, I’m Jaskier. Geralt’s bestest friend in the whole wide world. Wow, you are a beauty. What’s your name? Where did you grow up? Do you like music? I’m a singer, do you want me to sing for you?” but before he could start you stopped him.

“It’s okay. I do like music and stuff, but I have to work now. My name is Y/N Y/L/N.” Although you found him a bit annoying with his constant talking, you found him to be a funny man. You decided that you instantly liked him. But then you remembered something. “How did you get in?”

“Oh, I have a key. You see, I’m Geralt’s only friends, so…I have authority.” his smile made you smile. But you knew that your feelings for Jaskier were different than for Geralt. Jaskier was more like a funny guy who was easy to laugh at, even if you only knew him for a few minutes. Geralt was more serious and intimidation yet still kind. And the way Geralt’s smile melted your heart was not the same as watching Jaskier smile.

“I see. Well, I just finished, so I’ll be on my way.”

“What? Do you have to work somewhere else?”

“No. I’m going home, I finished today-“ you couldn’t finish since he interrupted you.

“Ooooooh. Let’s go and eat then. I wanted to go with Geralt but since he’s not here.” you looked at him and contemplated the idea.

“Sure.”

***

As it turned out Jaskier was just as rich as Geralt was. He took you to a fancy restaurant and you felt so underdressed. And the food looked just as big as the tip of your finger and costed more than your home.

“You know what?” you asked looking at Jaskier as the waiter was looking for a table for us. “I’ll decide on the place, let’s go.” Jaskier looked rather surprised but followed you.

You went into your favourite fast-food restaurant. Jaskier looked out of place while you looked out of place in the restaurant he took you.

“Come one, let’s order.”

You and Jaskier had a really great time. Although he was flirty in his nature, you could tell that he wasn’t very serious about it.

“Are you single?” he suddenly asked.

“Yes. Why? Would you like to volunteer?” you asked playing along.

“No, but I might know someone.”

“Oh really? Who?”

“You might know him already.” he said winking at you.

“Shut up! Don’t lie to me this is not funny.” you knew he was referring to Geralt.

“I’m not lying. I’m just saying.”

“Can we talk about something else, please?”

Jaskier was a pushy person, but your expression got to him, so he changed the subject.

“There will be an event next week, would you like to come?”

“I like parties.”

“Fancy parties? We can go and buy a dress for you, I know a couple of shops.”

“I’m sure you do, you are very well dressed. But your tease is rather expensive.”

“Yes. But it mustn’t be a problem. I will buy it as a… birthday gift.”

“My birthday has already passed.”

“Doesn’t matter, then late birthday gift. You will have to come.”

You that there was no point in arguing with Jaskier, so you agreed.

***

You were excited to go shopping with Jaskier. His style was really nice, so you were sure you’ll end up with a rather nice dress.

Jaskier sent a car to you that picked you up and drove you to the rather rich part of the city and stopped in front of a well-known brand.

“Good morning, Y/N.” said Jaskier as he stood in front of the shop.

“Morning.”

“Okay, let’s get you a bit… changed.” he said motioning to your clothes. Sure you were only wearing jeans with a shirt and a leather jacket since it wasn’t that cold outside.

You had a really great time with Jaskier. He basically filled your wardrobe, even if you tried to stop him buying you stuff, he insisted.

You didn’t want him to feel like you are using him for money or anything like that.

“Come one, Y/N. I know you are not. It is great to have a friend who’s not always grumpy like Geralt.”

“How did you become friends anyway? You are so different.”

“Well, that’s the magic of it. We met in middle school and we have been friends since.”Jaskier picked up a gorgeous dress and put it against your body.

“Try this. With this and this.” he said giving you shoes as well as the beautiful dress.

You went to try them on.

You put the dress on with the black pair of shoes Jaskier chose for you.

You honestly rather liked it on yourself.

“Okay, we are getting this for the party!”

“By the way what kind of party is it? Like a charity event for the rich to show off their sugarbabys and wives that only married them because they are rich?” you laughed at your joke.

“Yes.” you stopped laughing.

“What?”

“Yes. It is a charity event.”

“Shut up!” you told him as Jaskier started laughing.

“Your face!” he said holding his stomach.

“Shut it, Jaskier!” you said as you walked back to get changed.

***

Since you had work on the week of the event, you went to Geralt’s place every day.

Geralt had an aquarium installed in on the weekend. Which he told you about, and that your duty will be to clean the glass.

The aquarium was in his living room and it looked magnificent. It was basically glass from top to bottom and the fish in it were as elegant as Geralt himself.

The day before the event, you were fortunate to have Geralt at home, so you could tell him about you going. So, while cleaning his bedroom, when he came in to take a shower after he was done working out, you initiated the talk even if he still made you week. You’d say you were hiding your feelings quite well.

“So, you know I met Jaskier right?”

“Hmm.” you heard him comment.

“He invited me to an event for tomorrow.”

“He told me about it. Why are you telling this to me? Are you asking for permission?”

“No of course not Mr Rivia. I just wanted to inform you so you wouldn’t be surprised.”

“I won’t be.” he was as cold as ever as he went into his bathroom.

You quickly left after that.

His rude tone made you want to prove a point. So, you promised to yourself you’ll look the most stunning you ever did.

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Four Drinks I’m Wasted

Angst lite Staubrey standalone AU oneshot. 

Something I didn’t plan on writing and then I had ideas while driving home. I’m annoyed that I’m writing angst. I’m even more annoyed I picked on Aubrey but it… fit.

Inspired by King Princess’ ‘Talia’ (YouTube / Spotify / Lyrics) but I’m a soft and useless human so the angst is merely ‘light medium’.

Thanks as always to @tiny-maus-boots for the beta and to @wlwoolf for helping classify the angst level.

Rated: Mature-ish. Drinking & almost driving.

Words: 3,286

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~A~

Aubrey groaned quietly as she swam through the thick whiskey haze toward consciousness.

As had become standard, she ran through a mental hangover checklist to try and take stock of what she’d been up to the night before and how rough her morning might be.

Headache – check.

Feeling like something died in her mouth – check.

Nausea – check, though she knew it could be worse.

At home in her own bed instead of passed out on the couch, or the bathroom floor, or once in the shrub outside in her backyard… she listened for the comforting bubble of the aquarium across the room – check.

Imagined warmth of the woman who left her lying beside her in bed?

Fucking. Check.

Faint memories of the night before were slow to surface.

“Goddamnit Aubrey, give me your fucking keys.” Hands pulled at her arm, trying to pry her fingers apart.

“Fuck you, Beca.” Aubrey shot back, lifting her hand above her head. “Why do you even care? You’ve never really liked me, so what the fuck business of yours is it if I live or die?”

It wasn’t that she had a death wish. It wasn’t like she wanted to die. She had just stopped caring one way or the other.

“Seriously? You can say that to me?” Beca looked hurt – shocked and devastated Aubrey would think later – and even though part of her was horrified at what she was saying, it was at the bottom of a sea of liquor and she didn’t care. Wouldn’t let herself. “If I didn’t fucking care, Aubrey, I wouldn’t fucking be here stopping you from fucking killing yourself by getting into your fucking car!”

Aubrey sneered and keyed the remote lock. “Who asked you to?” She opened the door and prepared to get in when she was staggered forward by a weight on her back. Shock worked its way through the alcohol in her system as she realized Beca had literally jumped on her back and was trying to bodily prevent Aubrey from sitting in the driver’s seat.

“I am not going to let you leave us! I am not going to let you fucking leave me and Chloe behind to explain to Stacie what the fuck happened! I am not going to fucking let you fucking quit! Posens don’t fucking quit!”

Aubrey swung in a half circle, trying to dislodge the arms and legs that were wrapped tightly around her body. Beca’s words were bouncing around in her head, trying to remind her that she wasn’t truly alone, she had people who cared and it was she who was pushing them away. With a strength she didn’t know she had she flung Beca off her in an attempt to remove all the guilt that had slammed into her harder than Beca’s tackle.

Anger suffused her, made her want to lash out and in the cold light of morning she would realize it was at herself but at the time Beca had all her focus. She swung her fist at Beca’s head, noticing her friend’s (because she still was, despite everything Aubrey had been saying to her and Aubrey knew it) eyes widen in shock and move too late to miss it entirely but it merely skimmed off her cheek and Aubrey’s hand slammed into the metal frame between the front and rear doors.

“Aubrey!”

That explained the throbbing that had been slowly getting worse in her hand. Still laying with her eyes closed she flexed her right hand carefully, relieved that it didn’t seem to be broken, just swollen and painful. The rest of the night was only bits and pieces but she thought that a terrified Beca had frantically checked her for broken bones and carefully deposited Aubrey in the passenger seat and drove them home. There were flashes of red hair, ice packs and possibly someone had brushed her teeth for her? She also thought that Beca had undressed her and dumped her less than carefully into bed, but tucked her in.

She really had been shitty to Beca and Chloe since Stacie had walked out on her three months ago. She knew they loved her. That they had been there for her. Trying to keep her from the spiral they could see happening. Comfort take-out food and movie nights that Beca hadn’t said a word about. Nothing had helped.

The drinking hadn’t been the plan. She wasn’t an alcoholic, even though that’s exactly what alcoholics said. She came from a family of high functioning alcoholics and knew the signs. Even if she could lie to others, Aubrey could almost never lie to herself. Her self-hatred would have jumped at the chance to call her a failure for joining the ranks of her boozy relatives after a life of vowing never to become them. She could stop whenever she wanted. Except she didn’t want to.

Because the only time Aubrey could lie to herself was when she was drunk.

She could make herself believe that Stacie was still there.

Drink enough and she could see the love of her life in front of her, dancing; smiling that sexy smile that was meant for only Aubrey. The one that promised sinful things in silken sheets and made her body sing in anticipation.

Feel her touch. Taste her lipstick.

Feel her lying in bed when Aubrey finally collapsed into it, certain she would remain when Aubrey woke.

They had been together for years, waiting to get married until Aubrey had finished law school and got settled at a firm. The wedding was small, immediate friends and family only, and the honeymoon was heaven on Earth. When they got back, Aubrey began to work her way through the ranks, lured ever on by the promise of being made a junior partner if she just worked hard enough.

The fights began their second year of marriage.

“I’m doing it for us, for our future!” Aubrey slammed down the notepad she’d been writing on. “Why can’t you see that?”

“What future, Aubrey?!” Stacie stood in the doorway, back straight and eyes snapping fire. And, Aubrey would only realize as she played the memories back after it had all fallen apart, pain and loneliness. “What kind of future are you working towards if I never get to fucking see you?”

“I just need a little more time! They have to promote me this time!” She gritted her teeth. “I’m doing it for us!”

The fight was always the same.

Until one day it wasn’t.

“I don’t think I have any more time to give, Aubrey. I miss you even when you’re here. Buried in the next case… and the next.” Stacie wasn’t sobbing but tears streamed down her cheeks and Aubrey’s chest went cold. “It hurts too much.”

Every night she would sort through her memories, pulling out favorites until she cried herself to sleep, wondering how she could be so stupid.

Three weeks after Stacie had walked out and not come back except to pack her bags, Aubrey had hurt so much she drank just to numb the pain. There was a block of ice that ached in her chest until she drowned it in whatever was handy. She’d mentally joke that she herself was on the rocks as she took another drink. She imagined what she would do if Stacie were there. What she’d say. How she’d vow to do better, be a better wife. Make up every missed dinner, missed phone call, missed nights on the couch binge watching Netflix.

As the night grew late and the bottle grew lighter, it was almost like Stacie had been there and Aubrey fell asleep thinking Stacie was beside her.

She was shattered when she woke alone in the morning and called in sick for the first time.

That was only the beginning.

She chased the dream every night, while growing more and more irritable at work. Stormed out of meetings after arriving late. Snapped at clients and yelled at interns. Counted the seconds until she could get home and open the bottle she’d buy on the way.

Two weeks ago she’d gone to work still half-drunk from the night before.

She was put on suspension pending a review. She’d been a model employee until then and her boss gave her three weeks to get her shit together. Personally she thought they were giving her a chance because she was their best researcher and the boss thought her legs looked great in a skirt.

Aubrey stayed home and drank for the first week.

Chloe and Beca had been alternately furious and cloyingly concerned when they found out.

“Why didn’t you tell us? We could’ve-“ Chloe somehow looked ready to scream and cry at the same time.

“Helped?” Aubrey laughed derisively. “No, you can’t.”

“We love you, Aubrey. We just want you to be happy.” Chloe’s hand on her arm had burned and Aubrey jerked free and stalked to the kitchen.

“Got a time machine in your pocket, Chlo?” Aubrey snorted and poured herself another shot.

It was the same old shit every time. They couldn’t help her and she didn’t even know why they would try. There was obviously something wrong with her; something that made her unlovable. She had ruined the one thing that gave her life meaning. Stacie had left her and it was just a matter of time before Beca and Chloe figured it out and left. She didn’t deserve them and maybe it was just better to lose them now than later when she failed them too.

She had started going to their favorite bar because there were different memories there that she wanted to relive.

Winning at darts despite Stacie’s long arms that Aubrey teased gave her an advantage.

Slow dancing to the jukebox in a dark corner as if they were the only two in the room.

Losing at pool because Stacie was a natural born hustler.

Unfortunately the problem with going to your favorite local bar is that sometimes they know you.

Sometimes they know your friends.

Sometimes they call annoying busybodies who try to tell you that you have to stop.

But she couldn’t stop because then the pain would find her and Aubrey had always been an amazing runner in school. It translated easily from physical activity to metaphorical sprints void of her own mind.

She had to drink to keep Stacie with her any way she could. Why couldn’t they see that?

She sighed and tried to find the energy to move. To dispel that feeling of warmth in bed with her. The more awake she was before she got up, the more that seemed to hurt. Bracing herself she reached out her left hand to sweep through the empty space that matched the one in her heart.

Her fingers brushed against warm, soft skin.

She froze, her mind somewhere between ‘I’ve finally done it - I’ve drunk myself into insanity’ and ‘Beca must have stayed to make sure I didn’t actually kill myself.’ She pulled her hand back to her side and clenched both fists, increasing the throbbing ache from where she’d punched her own car.

“Aubrey.”

Everything shut down. Because that wasn’t Beca.

She was afraid to look - it couldn’t be. She couldn’t be here. Because Aubrey had fucked it up, fucked it all up: her friends; her work; the reason for her very existence.

“Bree.” Warm living fingers took her cold nerveless ones and pressed them to lips Aubrey could see clearly in the screaming darkness of her mind.

“You can’t be here.” Aubrey’s voice shook so bad it was almost intelligible. “I pushed you away.”

“I’m here.” Warm breath skimmed over her fingers. It felt so real. More real than the alcohol dreams usually did. She must have really fucked up if she was still this drunk. “All you have to do is open your eyes and look at me.”

“I always see you,” Aubrey said softly. Since this wasn’t real, she squeezed the hand holding hers. “At least when I drink... You’re here. You’re in my arms. And I stop feeling like I’m dying in slow motion.”

“Oh baby.” The broken, sorrowful tenderness in it further opened wounds that had never even begun to heal. “This isn’t who you are.” Drops of liquid hit her hand and Aubrey wondered how a dream could cry. “I know this isn’t you.”

“I don’t know who I am without you.” Aubrey said softly. “I don’t know how to find myself without you to catch me.” Introspection wasn’t normal for her - overthinking, yes, but not this two way dialog with her subconscious. But she had to admit, she found it comforting to hear Stacie’s voice wrap around her once more.

“I’m sorry I left.” Lips kissed her hand again. “I shouldn’t have. I should have stayed and fought for us.”

“It’s all my fault. I was so wrong,” Aubrey stirred restlessly when the warmth shifted closer to her. “I couldn’t see I was working toward nothing at the cost of everything.” She gave a bitter laugh. “They weren’t going to make me a partner; I was just too blind to see he was just using me to win his own damn cases.” She shook her head against her pillow. “Doesn’t matter, they’re probably going to fire me.”

“You’re better than them, Bree.” Another shift and the long, lithe body that pressed against her brought tears to Aubrey’s eyes. “I’ve always told you that you need to find a place who appreciates you as something other than a drone slave.”

“Maybe,” Aubrey shrugged carelessly. “But what does it matter now? I’ve thrown away the only future that ever really mattered.” A sob choked her. “I miss you so much, love.” The advantages of hallucinating were you could say anything and the only person to hear it was you. “The world has no laughter. No color. No light. No purpose. No hope.”

“Honey.” Lips pressed against her temple. “Please look at me. See me.” She sounded so sad, so desperate that Aubrey felt new guilt lap at her.

“You’ll disappear. Like you always do when I wake up.” Aubrey licked her dry lips. “I’m not ready… for that yet.” It hurt, oh it hurt to feel her so clearly after months of smoke and shadows. But to lose this dream would be so much worse.

“I won’t disappear.” Another kiss to her temple as a long arm stretched across her stomach. “I promise you.” The sense of comfort – of home – the achingly familiar touch brought was so strong Aubrey’s body relaxed of its own volition.

“I’ve broken my promises so many times… ” Aubrey said wistfully. “I would give anything to go back and do it over. Treat you better – because you deserve nothing but love. Not be ignored or asked to wait a few minutes that stretched late into the night. Show you that nothing else in this entire fucked up world matters but you.”

“Do that now. Open your eyes and look at me, Aubrey.” The whisper in her ear was everything Aubrey wanted to believe. Everything she’d tried to believe before and woke to an empty bed. An empty house. An empty heart.

“I’m afraid to.” Tears slipped from her eyes as she began, for the first time, to wonder.

She was afraid to be alone.

Suddenly terrified she was not.

“Don’t be - I’m here, love.” Lips trailed over the side of her face. “I swear.” Hands took hers and pressed it against a strong and fast beating heart. “I’m here.”

“That’s why I’m afraid,” Aubrey whispered, unable to recognize herself in the broken voice that hung in the air.

“Please.”

Aubrey swallowed thickly as she balanced on the knife edge of indecision.

If she did and Stacie wasn’t there, the weight of loneliness would quite likely crush her.

If Stacie was there… Aubrey’s shame would kill her. She wasn’t proud of who she’d become. She knew she was out of control. She just didn’t care anymore.

If Stacie was actually there… Aubrey could smell the alcohol coming from her own pores. She knew the state of their house. The bottles left carelessly on counters. Take out containers piled up on top of a garbage can too full. She didn’t want to see the disappointment or, worse, the pity.

“I’m ashamed.” She hadn’t meant to say it and wished she could take the words back. “I’ve… I’m not… I don’t deserve…” she trailed off as a sob rose viciously in her chest and all but strangled her as it refused to come out. “You.”

“I love you,” Stacie said softly, still holding Aubrey’s hand against her chest. “We’ll get through this. There’s nothing that we can’t work through as long as we’re together. Nothing is lost forever.”

“You still love me? After… everything?” She didn’t want to believe… couldn’t stop hoping.

“I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Aubrey Posen.” Stacie’s voice was still quiet but the truth in her words was louder than the rush of blood in Aubrey’s ears. “The past three months all I’ve done is miss you. I told myself otherwise, but when Beca called me last night… in hysterics… told me how you didn’t care if you lived or died…” A tremor shook the bed as Stacie’s breath hitched. “Nothing that had happened mattered  anymore. I couldn’t live in a world where you were not. I came right over; Beca let me in. She and Chloe are passed out on the couch and I’ve been watching you sleep, afraid you’d slip away if I closed my eyes.”

“Funny,” Aubrey gave a humorless chuckle. “I’m afraid you’ll slip away if I open mine.”

“I know,” Stacie whispered. “But I’m here, love.”

Aubrey steeled herself. Tried to harden her heart so when she opened her eyes to an empty room it wouldn’t destroy her.

“Before I do, there’s something I have to tell you. While I can. Before you’re gone.” Aubrey took a careful breath. “You are the best part of me, Stacie. I was nothing before you and I’m less than nothing without you. You brought a love into my life I thought I didn’t need and I broke the promises I made when we got married. I took you for granted and mere words cannot express how sorry I am that I hurt you. If you were really here, I would spend the rest of my life trying to be worthy of your love.”

Gentle fingers against her cheek followed as Aubrey turned her head, her heart trying to break its way out of the constraints of her ribcage.

“I know, Aubrey… but you already are. We just lost sight of that.” A gentle kiss was placed against her lips. “I promise we’ll be better. Both of us.”

Slowly, as if she were expecting a blow, Aubrey opened her eyes to stare into liquid emerald pools that shimmered with tears. She waited for several seconds, waiting for the mirage to vanish like so many had.

But she didn’t.

Stacie smiled at her, so tenderly that Aubrey’s heart almost broke with the love that welled up inside her.

Wonderingly Aubrey reached up and touched her jaw, tracing one thumb across her lips.

“Stacie?” Hopeful. Terrified.

“Always, my only.” Stacie pulled her in close and Aubrey buried her face in her neck, inhaling deeply as the scent that was uniquely Stacie’s filled her senses. One she had been unable to replicate no matter how much she drank. She shuddered as giant glaciers cracked and fell away, freeing her from the weight that had been pressing on her for months. Years. “Always.”

Real.

Solid.

Hers.

[komatsunana]

My Yuri/wlw Manga Rec List

Heeeey I’m bored so I’m making a Yuri manga/webtoon/etc recommendation post of some of my faves that are underappreciated or deserve more love. Obviously this isn’t a comprehensive of all great Yuri series out there, just some that I enjoy & think are worth reading... And have (obviously) either read or are caught up on.

All of these are available to read as online scans, but I’ll indicate if you can legally purchase it in English as well.   I’ll also indicate if they are on-going as of April 2019.

There’s a lack of yuri series that aren’t set in a high school but I’m going start with all of those first, just to get them out of the way, but this list will mostly be dedicated to college and older aged characters.

Additionally, my recommendation of these series is not my personal endorsement of everything about the series. Don’t expect any of these stories to be perfect by any standards, much less Western standards.  Additionally, I try to give warnings for some series with dark themes: that is not me giving the series a condemnation.  Just a heads up for common triggers, that I caught and remembered to warn for.

A Tropical Fish Yearns for Snow (Nettaigyo wa Yuki ni Kogareru) by Makoto Hagino

Summary:

Konatsu Amano is a high school girl who has just moved to a seaside town in Ehime Prefecture after her father is transferred overseas for his job. Lonely and unsure of her new surroundings, Konatsu finds herself gravitating towards Koyuki Honami, an older girl at her school who is popular but is seen as out of reach by her peers who view her as too perfect. Koyuki is also the sole member of the Aquarium Club, which in turn makes her feel cut off from others. In an attempt to help ease Koyuki's and her own feelings of loneliness, Konatsu befriends Koyuki and the two gradually grow closer together.

Why I think you should read it:  This is SUCH a sweet but impactful series.  At a surface level read, it’s a beautiful and enjoyable series that I’m interested in seeing where these girls’ relationship goes, but a deeper look at the series really shows the amount of thought that went into the characters and their surroundings.  Honestly [this] YT video by Zeria is why I finally started this series and covers why this is such a good worthwhile series much better than I can so I recommend watching it, if not jumping straight to reading!

Status: On-going, first English volume will be released in late 2019!!

Their Story (Tamen de Gushi) by Tan Jiu

Summary:

Tamen De Gushi manga is a slice of life manga that revolves around two high-school protagonists, Sun Jing and Qiu Tang, and how they meet and fall in love and start dating.

Why I think you should read it:  If you’ve been on tumblr long enough and follow enough queer fandom blogs you’ve probably heard of this series.  Everything you’ve seen about it is true: it’s sweet, cute, funny, and fluffy.  It also covers topics like victim blaming without derailing from something you’re reading to distract you from reality.

Status:  This one is a webtoon and currently on-going.

Pietà by Haruno Nanae

Summary:

A story about two classmates, Sahoko and Rio. Rio is depressed and self-harms due to lack of loving relationships with her "family" -- which consists of her negligent father, selfish stepmother, and stepbrother; and Sahoko quickly becomes her only comfort in life. Sahoko on her part has a frigid relationship with her otherwise loving parents, and lives with her aunt.

Why I think you should read it:  Prior to meeting, these girls dealt with mental illness and that’s what bonds them very quickly as they come to rely on each other.  I debated whether or not this series should be with the school-girl series or the adult ones, I decided to keep it with the school-girls because... they’re high school girls! Even though the girls’ school is really only ever the place they first meet, it’s the fact they are high school girls that colors their perspectives for the best and worst.  

But the reason I think it is worth reason it is that it portrays depression, self-harm, and suicide the way you think about it as a depressed high schooler but it is narratively treated with the seriousness it deserves, and to be responded to with love and compassion.  While we’ve got Rio’s parents who don’t take her mental illness seriously and compassionately enough (or at all), but there other adults who do from the very beginning.  It’s 1 volume long and despite all the trigger warnings I am about to give for the series: I promise a happy ending. 

*Warings* Self-harm, suicide attempt, forced institutionalization, parental abuse, gaslighting

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are available.

Kase-san by  Hiromi Takashima

Summary:

Yui Yamada, a girl who enjoys tending to her school's greenery, falls in love with the athletic Tomoka Kase. The two eventually begin dating, and the story follows the pair as they face various challenges in their relationship

Why I think you should read it:  Another one I see on tumblr a lot and, again, it’s everything you’ve been promised: cute, fun, and a natural progressing romance.  What I think is worthwhile about the series is that it’s continued into their college years, but that hasn’t automatically made them adults. They continue to deal with the same insecurities they did in high school, but even still they’ve been maturing since the start of the series and they continue to do so. 

This series is unlikely to ever delve into darker or political themes, but we need series like this - where problems don’t linger but are resolved relatively quickly without losing the character’s defining traits and flaws.

Status:  Ongoing and available to buy in English.  Also has an OVA.

Ano Musume ni Kiss to Shirayuri o (Kiss and White Lily for my Dearest Girl) by Canno

Summary:    

In middle school, Ayaka Shiramine was the perfect student: hard-working, with excellent grades and a great personality to match. As Ayaka enters high school she expects to still be on top, but one thing she didn't account for is her new classmate, the lazy yet genuine genius Yurine Kurosawa.

Why I think you should read it:  A rivals-to-lovers story, for all my rivals-to-lovers lovers out there! <3 While Shiramine and Kurosawa are definitely the protagonists of the story, roughly only 40% of the time are chapters focus on them and their relationship, as the series spends a lot of time on their many, many side characters and relationships... which are all wlw too.  Lots of different relationships explored in the side characters, including a triad that forms together wonderfully.  

A part of the series that particularly tickled me was that male characters are barely ever mentioned, if ever.  It’s entirely possible that that men do not exist in this world.

*Warning*  One romance between a student and her aunt (though the aunt is only 4 years older).  The two chapters depicting their relationship are skipable and even then it’s vague enough that you can interpret it as a family relationship imo.

Status:  Completed and available officially in English.

Bloom Into You (Yagate Kimi Ni Naru) by Nakatani Nio

Summary:

Yuu has always loved shoujo manga and awaits the day she gets a love confession that sends her heart aflutter with bubbles and blushes, and yet when a junior high classmate confesses his feelings to her...she feels nothing. Disappointed and confused, Yuu enters high school still unsure how to respond. That's when Yuu sees the beautiful student council president Nanami turn down a suitor with such maturity that she's inspired to ask her for help. But then the next person to confess to Yuu is Nanami herself.

Why I think you should read it:  What, did you really think it wouldn’t make my list (lol)?  Of course everyone should give this series a try!  I’ve been following this series for a while so I’m glad to see it blow up in popularity recently because of the anime because it really deserves it.  This series is very far from your typical straight-forward cute high school yuri romance, it’s an awkward fumbling as the girls have their first relationship and all that comes with that - including learning consent and boundaries -  in a very unusual set-up (that I’ll let you read to discover).  

Additionally, an adult relationship between two women is also portrayed, proving the usual “lesbianism is transient” is many school-girl manga wrong, but the adults tend to mentor Nanami’s also gay friend more than Yuu and Nanami (who could frankly use some adult guidance, since they can’t seek out their parents). 

Yuu reads as very aro-spec too, if that resonates with you, and I (personally) don’t think that anything in her relationship with Nanami negates those feelings.

Status:  Currently ongoing and available in English.  Anime which covers the first half of the series.

Nameless Asterism (Nanashi no Asterism) by  Kobayashi Kina

Summary:

Tsukasa, Nadeshiko, and Mikage have been inseparable since they began junior high, but Tsukasa has a secret she's been keeping from her best friends—she actually has a big crush on Nadeshiko. Not wanting to risk their friendship, she planned to keep it a secret forever, but when Tsukasa learns that Nadeshiko has a crush on Mikage, her desire to support her friends now conflicts with her own feelings. First love blossoms in unexpected ways for these three young women and their circle of friends.

Why I think you should read it:  This one is actually a junior high school one, but I’ll stick it here regardless.  But it’s a fun series, and for a love-triangle story it’s not over-wrought at all.  More than a series about love, it’s about the concept of romantic relationships at the characters’ age as well as friendship. One of the character’s in particular thinks her feelings are transient, but it’s also rather clear that they are not and she’s just scared after a bad past experience. Despite being in a love triangle that not all of them are completely aware they are in, it’s also very clear they want to keep being friends and fear losing their friendship more than anything else.

It ends prematurely so some things are left unresolved but still a fun read and I still give it a huge rec.  YMMV on the handling of one cross dressing character, especially as he takes over the story for a bit, but it’s far from the worst handling but. ya know.  Heads up, he exists.

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are available.

Aaaaaand that’s about it with the light-hearted (mostly) school romances.

On to college-age and working adult yuri series which don’t get nearly enough love!

It’d be great if you didn’t exist by Carbonara

Summary:

Why did she meet her ideal girl in the worst situation?

After catching her boyfriend with another woman, Han Guk-hwa promptly breaks up with him and expects to never see him again. What she didn't expect was to keep thinking about the woman who was with her ex and develop a begrudging crush on her.

Jang Mi, the crush in question, also didn't expect to see such a beautiful girl approach her and finds herself thinking that she could do so much better than the scumbag Guk-hwa was dating.

Why I think you should read it:   There’s.... a lot of reasons I could give you about why this series is worth reading.  It’s a wonderful balance between funny and a soft, tender romance between two women, even while dealing occasionally with darker themes and topics.  The characters are both well fleshed out with flaws and a rationality to their actions.  More than that: for every bad experience they had in the past which gives them insecurities about themselves and others, they are rewarded for trusting each other with a happy, loving relationship.  Inter-relationship problems (like insecurity) are resolved with communication, while their separate personal problems they share mutual support. 

BUT ALSO, I mean... it’s pretty much like that text from last night that goes:  “ I just found out two girls I dated met each other, bonded over how much they hate me, started dating and are gonna get married soon.”  And I just.... really enjoy and appreciate it. Because it’s like: that’s it that’s the series.

*Warnings* Stalking, abuse, bullying

Status:  Another webcomic, completed at 80 chapters all available online in English

Cheerful Amnesia by  Tamamushi Oku

Summary:

Arisa wakes up in the hospital, with no memory of the last three years. When Mari, a girl who's just Arisa's type, arrives at the hospital and informs her that not only are they living together, but they're actually in a relationship, Arisa is over the moon.

Why I think you should read it:  MC has amnesia, but as the title suggests, it’s light-hearted series.  Afterall, MC wakes up to discover she has a beautiful girlfriend!  What couldn’t be better in life?  Well, there are... like sex with your girlfriend.  Wait no, that’s way too good for Arisa to handle (lol). And it just gets better for Arisa as the story plays out.

Usually the amnesic lover trope is played for the drama, but here it is only played for laughs.  A little eye-roll-y regarding some aspects and maybe even down right stupid but still cute and a fun romp if you need mindless fun. It’s a 4-koma so it’s not particularly deep, but a fun exploration of the story’s premise.  Let’s be honest: all the jokes about sex probably won’t make you laugh and probably won’t even titillate you, but you’re not here for laughs you’re here for something cute and see an adult relationship between two women get to be fun, silly, and mindless.

Status:  On-going and not officially in English but completed online scans are available.

Ultramarine (Gunjou) by  Nakamura Ching

Summary:

Out of desperation, a woman asks an old high school acquaintance to kill her abusive husband for her. The acquaintance, having long been in love with this woman, does it, and now they are on the run from the law.

Why I think you should read it:  I’m going to be honest.  This isn’t a series for everyone or even a series that most would like and that’s ok. The summary just covers the first few pages - everything devolves from there as they avoid the police and the stakes get higher - or rather, revealed to us as the readers.  Definitely not a series for a fun, quick read and I don’t rec it if you want an ideologically pure series - but the series mostly acknowledges the fucked up nature of everything going on.  If you’re interested in story where the main characters aren’t clear-cut “good” and “bad” and you don’t mind not rooting for the main characters’ romance, give it a try.  Because this is not a series about two women learning to be good to each other.

It’s a heart-wrenching read for those that read it and explores themes that aren’t often explored without being edgy for the sake of being edgy.  I think if you can stand to read this series in one sitting, you’ll be absolutely gutted and be thinking of this story for a while.  It’s a powerful read, awful in a very necessary way.

*Warnings* for rape, abuse, dub-con (between the main characters), lots of talk of suicide, infant death, death of a wlw (not main romance).

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are.

Lonely Wolf, Lonely Sheep by Fuka Mizutani

Summary:

Two women with the same name happens to meet each other when they're at the same hospital for the same injury. They want to become closer, but both must overcome their insecurities and self-loathing first.

Why I rec it:  Ehehe.  If you follow me, then you probably know I’m half-way to being a NANA blog.... Well this has the basic premise of NANA, with two girls with the same name (in this case first AND last) meeting under similar circumstances.  It’s a short & sweet series, but not without a lump of angst mixed in, because despite their meet-cute they’ve still got a shared loneliness and fear of rejection to contend with.  Despite that: it’s not drowning in angst and unnecessary, drawn-out melodrama.

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are.

Fluttering Feelings by Ssamba

Summary:

The comic follows the life of two Business University students, the average slightly immature Kim No-Rae and the beautifully captivating Baek Seol-A but equally immature, as well as their friends and family.

Why I think you should read it:  This series is a beautiful exploration of two women slowly falling in love - or rather, slowly realizing and accepting that they are in love with each other.  A lot of will they, won’t they story get stale very quickly but here the characters are so expertly explored that you understand why they aren’t kissing right now this second and it just makes you hope that one day they will and be happier.

Additionally, just because they aren’t dating doesn’t mean that they friendship doesn’t continually progress and flourish as they continue to get closer and more emotionally intimate with each other.  As their friendship gets closer, they struggle more and more to define their feelings for each other.  

Unfortunately Ssamba passed away last year, before completing the series.  So the series will likely remain forever unfinished but I think this series is so great that it’s a worthwhile read even unfinished.  I think Fluttering Feelings maybe even is a series that especially proves that unfinished series are worth reading, because for me: the ending to a story is one of the most important parts... but not for this series.  This series is all about the journey and the journey until where it left off was worth it.

Status:  Unfinished Webcomic, available online in English

Ohana Holuholu by  Shino Torin

Summary:

Maya, who works as a translator, lives with her bisexual former girlfriend, Michiru, and Michiru's son, Yuuta. Residing in the same apartment building is an actor called Nico, who drops by for a visit almost everyday, and knows about Michiru's past. Somewhat like family, and somewhat not, their lives interweave full of warm days.

Why I think you should read it:  This one is about family, at it’s core.  A found family, in particular.  I think for many like me, that’s enough of a recommendation (lol).  The rekindling of Maya and Michiru’s relationship is an important part to the story, but just as important is the fact that they have formed a family even before then.  Michiru isn’t always the best friend, roommate, lover, or even person and she definitely isn’t the best mother, but watching over her growth through the series to take responsibility for herself and for her family is incredibly rewarding.

Status:  Complete, still in the process of being translated online into English.

Collectors by Nishi Uko

Summary:

Two women in a relationship disagree about the other’s spending habits.

Why I think you should read it:   Most of this list is comprised of series that are about before the relationship begins, but Collectors is here for everyone who desires a pre-established relationship!  It’s very sweet and very obvious how much the two women love each other.  

This is the bickering couple done right - with love, especially after the initial few chapters, and it’s honestly just a form of flirting as the characters just as often find common-ground on their spending habits.  

It’s primarily 4-koma style, so not much happens story-wise but it’s well worth it just for to see their day-to-day interactions, how much they enjoy spending time with each other, and their friend’s commentary about their relationship. Also, if you’re a collector or hobbiest that compulsively buys things related to your interests... be prepared to be called out!

Status:  I thiiiiink it’s on-going - definitely the English online translations haven’t caught up as far as I can find.

The Robot Next Door (Tonari no Robot) by Nishi Uko

Summary:

In an ordinary neighborhood, a team of engineers are developing a robot they call Praha, who looks like an ordinary human high school girl. Chika, a 4-year-old girl who lives next door, meets her neighbor and learns her secret. The two girls become friends and high school classmates, and Chika teaches Hiro—as she calls Praha—about human emotions, including love.

Why I think you should read it:   Another story by Nishi Uko!!! There is a severe lack of sci-fi Yuri works!!  It’s a short and sweet feels trip as it explores the premise - a robot and human girl having feelings for each other.  While the bulk of the series takes place while both characters are in high school, I’m sticking it here with the “adult” series because it’s not about youth so much as it is about the premise.

Anyway: one of the interesting things about the series is how Praha expresses her love for Chika, which is obviously different than how humans feel ”love” because she’s a robot.  Meanwhile, Chika pines for Praha in her youth but insists that Praha’s feelings aren’t love.  She thinks their feelings for each other are “different,” which is both true and untrue.  As it is thought, robot/human love stories are often bittersweet because the premise predicates that the human will age while the robot will not.  Honestly, the ending is not bitter in the least, but it’s something that looms over you as you, the human reader, know as inevitable future.

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are.

Poor Poor Lips by Gotou Hayako

Summary:

Okashi Nako is a young woman living in poverty. When she applies to work at a Gem store, she learns that store owner, Otsuka Ren, is a lesbian. Ren promises that Nako's not her type, but she may be lying.... Nako takes the job and so begins a comedic tale of rich and poor, sickness and health, for better and for worse!

Why I think you should read it:  It’s a boss/employee romance but tastefully done imo - it’s been a while since I read it but I remember it fondly. It’s primarily set-up as a comedic series (another 4-koma!) but by the end the ladies *are* explicitly in a relationship, after some “will they/won’t they.”

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are.

Octave by Akiyama Haru

Summary:

This story revolves around 18-year-old Miyashita Yukino and her life as a former idol. As a child, Yukino had always been fascinated with TV. And before she knew it, she wanted to be one of those idols behind the screen. At 15, she entered the entertainment industry and debuted as a member of the four-person group "She'sN." However the group wasn't very successful and they broke up shortly afterwards. Returning home in disgrace, Yukino was welcomed with people's curious looks and hurtful words. Wanting to find herself, regain her pride, and perhaps experience love, Yukino decides to move back to Tokyo. There she meets a certain woman, former composer Iwai Setsuko. Together they embark on a very interesting and mysterious relationship.

Why I think you should read it:  Don’t be fooled by the simple, minimalist art... The characters are complex and each of them realistically flawed.  The series explores themes unfulfilled dreams and miscommunication and most of all: maturing into a decent person.  A lot of people are turned off of this series because the choices Yukino sometimes makes are, but it’s worth seeing her journey imo.

The series also deals with coming out not being an entirely positive experience and... it’s gutting but real and in the end says more about other people than Yukino.

Status:  Completed, not officially in English but completed online scans are.

And that’s it for now!! Let me know if you read any of these, whether or not on my recommendation or not!  Depending on if people liked this I might do another one, because I discovered a whole bunch of series while researching plus cut some from the list last minute that I still think deserve a rec!!

[seesgood]

5 TIMES KISSED DO IT

the first time  they kiss, it’s her first. like, ever. because she’s saving herself for marriage, okay? not that she’s really sure what that means. she just hears people say it sometimes on tv. obviously it has to mean kissing. because kissing is gross, and it’s something you only do with people you love. and she loves noah. and she’s allowed to kiss him, because they’re married now. complete with little dandelion rings ( she spends a half hour twisting them into perfect circles, make no note of the small pile of discarded imperfect attempts on the grass not far off ), a veil that elena’s made of toilet paper, bonnie does the vows. she doesn’t know a lot about love. or marriage. but she knows that you should marry someone you like. and she likes noah. he’s cool. and not mean. and he always lets her play with the blue shovel in the sandbox and he doesn’t complain about using the pink one because he doesn’t seem to think it’s girly. but anyway --- they’re married now. so they’re totally allowed to kiss. even if it is gross. and even if, a second after his lips touch hers, she cringes back and resists the urge to wipe her mouth. 

they’re older now. old enough that she no longer thinks kissing is disgusting. she’s not really sure if he’s her boyfriend, and she’s too scared to ask because elena says that’s not the kind of thing guys like to be asked. so she just goes with it. they hang out. they hold hands. when they’re still in grade school, he asks her to the winter formal and they dance while teachers prowl the makeshift dance floor ( really, it’s just the gymnasium ) reminding people to keep space between them. her arms are draped around his neck, his hands are on her waist.  the second time  he kisses her, she doesn’t cringe away. it’s chaste. like it should be. just his mouth pressed against hers for a matter of a few seconds before they both pull away blushing. her cheeks red, his ears pink. after that, she’s allowed to call him her boyfriend. and they kiss. because that’s the kind of thing you do with someone you love. and there’s no one in the world she loves more than noah.

the third time, well, it’s not really the third time. they kiss a lot. everyone does. it’s high school. and she’s head cheerleader and he’s the star of the soccer team and they’re stupid and in love and naive enough to think that the rest of the world and the rest of their lives is this easy. she always catches him right after practice. still in cheer uniform, grabbing his wrist and yanking him beneath the bleachers before he can file into the locker room with the rest of the soccer team after they’re done scrimmaging for the day. his mouth finds hers effortlessly. easily. his arms curl around her waist, fingers tug through her hair. it’s her favorite way of losing track of time: kissing noah. he tastes like mint and sweat and pure happiness, so much so that she barely ever notices the gum stuck to the poles beneath the bleachers, or the discarded cigarette butts. it’s their own little haven. 

life gets more complicated, as it’s prone to do when you grow up. noah ribeiro is her first everything. the first boy to hold her hand, her first kiss, her first love, first sex. she never expects him to be her first heartbreak. the fourth time  she watches him leave, she knows he’s not coming back. because she knows. she felt it. after the fighting had dissolved into exhaustion, and they both stood there at opposite ends of the room and hammered the final nail in the coffin ---- i can’t do this anymore ---- there’s no going back. he steps forward just before the door closes behind him, and for a moment she thinks he might say something. but he doesn’t. instead he just brings a hand up to rest at the back of her head, pulling her in the way he’s done a million times before. his lips press to her forehead and her hear breaks a little more knowing it’s goodbye. he’s left before. for college, or porto, or in the heat of an argument. but he’s always come back. this time, when the door shuts behind him, she knows he won’t. now all she can do is learn to live with half a heart.

the fifth time  they kiss, it’s her last time. like, ever. because she’s freaking married, okay? and she one hundred percent knows what that means. it means all the pain, and the heartache, and the losing one another and finding their way back and time between one another --- it’s all worth it. they’ve both known life outside of the other, and they’ve both grown, and he’s always going to be the boy she loved before she knew what love was, and the kid she gave her first valentine heart to, and the guy who made her realize how badly love hurts. but he’s also always going to be the man that comes back. every single time. even when they fight. even when she’s being irrational and neurotic. he’ll always be her person, in and out of love. it’s not the only day in life that she’s allowed to be a total sap about how much she loves him, but it’s the only day in life where absolutely nobody is allowed to give her shit about it. because they’re married. and when she kisses him in front of all their family and friends and two dogs with dandelions in her bouquet and a smile so wide her face actually aches ---- she knows they can do this. she might not know a lot about marriage, or even all that much about love, but she knows the best person to do either one with is someone you like. and she likes noah. noah who she has to peel away from the couch whenever there’s a nature documentary on, or who is known by all the security guards at the local aquarium, and who makes her laugh more than she ever thought possible and who doesn’t make her cry anymore. but anyway ---- they’re married now. so they’re totally allowed to kiss. until death do they part. and even then, she’s not so sure god himself could keep her away from this man.

five times kissed.          /          NO LONGER ACCEPTING. 

[cleocazo]

ultimate ship meme: calder n rhea yeehaw

ultimate ship ask meme   /   accepting !

General:

How long will they last? : when i think about them, i think about them going the distance. in spite of anything that comes between them ( usually their own doings, and yes, i’m looking at calder thorson for straight up ghosting ) i like to imagine they find their way back, eventually. 

How quickly did/will they fall in love? : it’s weird, because it happens without either of them even realizing it is. she makes him smile, and he makes her feel… important. they do something for one another that no one else has in a long while, and they become very attached to the feelings they have in each others presence quite quickly - but love, and calling it so, evades them a little while longer. 

How was their first kiss? : long awaited. sexy. awkward. it was the culmination of a lot of mutual pining, and it MEANT something - but it was also a lot very, very fast, and it went very far very quickly, too. their first kiss kicked off their first time ( and rhea’s first, ever ), so… big feels. 

Wedding:

Who proposed? : they live in sin a few years, but eventually i feel it could go either way - but i think it would be very rhea and very sweet for her to propose on leap day, you know… entirely serious, but trying to give the vibe of ‘if you say no, this COULD be just a joke’. it wouldn’t be over the top. she’d try and treat him to something he liked, and she’d probably make a bumbling mess of it, all considered - but she’d get there, and it wouldn’t go horribly bad. he’d try to match it eventually and propose too in his own way ( at the aquarium, a la their first ‘date’? ), but he’d also mess it up a lil even if they were already engaged - so they’d have two wholesome if not funny stories to tell. 

Who is the best man/groomsmen? : i would hope that by this point, the relationship would be… healed, enough, for it to be the remaining next gen. let daniel be best man and rylie and troy be groomsmen, it’s what they deserve. ( if phoebe barton is rocking around, she gets to b flower girl bc i said so )

 Who is the bridesmaid(s) : meghan would be maid of honor by grace of being the only married person that rhea knows, and stephanie would fulfill a more traditional bridesmaid role along with the only friend i can remember rhea having, felicia. 

Who did the most planning? : rhea and jane, together. imagine the bonding sessions to boot.

Who stressed the most? : rhea and jane, haHA.

How fancy was the ceremony? : considering one of them is royalty ( was, probably, at this point ) and the other an asgardian, they went full casual compared to past weddings in their families past. it was a very small gathering, definitely more reflective of them as people. rhea wore the white dress and calder donned a suit, the people fulfilling a role all took them seriously, but their ceremony was in a modest chapel and the afters in a function hall not too far away from. it looked beautiful ( rhea thinks calder’s mum has the best eye for such things she’s ever seen ), but it was done on a small budget.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? : i mean… i don’t think i gotta say loki, but… loki. rhea’s ‘dad’ sure was NOT.  

Sex:

Who is on top? : to b fully honest… they both love rhea being on top. for him i can imagine it being about looking up and seeing her - not to b crass - riding his d*ck. for her, it’s something about the feeling of control. they switch it up because there’s nothing really like the opposite, for rhea ; but… yea ! 

Who is the one to instigate things? : varies too much to have any one answer at their best ( though for a long while, calder ).

How healthy is their sex life? : i would say very.

How kinky are they? : ‘kinky’ is a strong word. they experiment, as they get more comfortable with one another, and as they grow. they try diff things. sometimes they watch some dumb movie, i don’t want to name an actual movie and offend someone so ill just say ‘fifty shades of grey’ and they think ‘oh, that’d be fun to try’ and they do and it ends disastrously, but, like, who am i to judge them-

How long do they normally last? : how is calder’s bedroom stamina affected by him being an asgardian ? does it make it easier for him to last longer ? is he able to get it back up quicker ? i have questions, where are my answers.

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? : yes, this is an equal opportunity household.

How rough are they in bed? : depends on the kind of fucking, my friend. both of them enjoy a little bit of roughplay - but that doesn’t mean it’s every time, either. 

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? : a lot. and calder is only the big spoon 40% of the time ! 

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? / How many children will they adopt? : i’m combining two qs in one because… i feel they’d have three full stop, but how many of those are natural / adopted could be up for debate. something to discuss someday !

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? : calder. rhea’s, like… ‘totally fine’ with them, but… also, that’s dad’s job-

Who is the stricter parent? : it honestly varies on child and on the day. o might tell you that it’s calder because he stopped him from doing something wildly stupid, and he’s still pretty butthurt about it. tova might tell you it’s rhea because she didn’t let them dye their hair bright orange when they were nine and they’re still holding a grudge about it. 

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? : honestly… their kids are pretty dumb ( love them ), so… neither? they come home w broken bones or whatever and calder and rhea are like how in the fuck-

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? : rhea ! she never got them as a child, or, u know, basic human affection, so… she packs little notes of affirmation in each one even when they’re old enough to call her cringy, and makes sure they get all their essential nutrients every day.

Who is the more loved parent? : much like the question of who’s stricter - it varies. for the most part the title goes to rhea, not for any particular reason outside of her being more open with her feelings and being more… emotionally present, i suppose the term would be. but tova’s favorite will always be calder, and the boys can vary.

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? : they want to go together, but it depends on work for them both and other varying factors.

Who cried the most at graduation? : rhea thinks it was her because she was a blubbering mess, but calder was real up in his emotions about it.

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? : rhea never gets the chance, and calder is always first in. 

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? : rhea, after she learns how. not to show my jane stan, but she learns a lot from the most intelligent woman in all the galaxy-

Who is the most picky in their food choice? : pretty decisively rhea.

Who does the grocery shopping? : they take it in turns, but rhea isn’t as trusted doing it - she caves to the kids demands way too easily.

How often do they bake desserts? : once a month or so, but for the most part they are a carton of ice cream in the freezer family.

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? : calder’s a meat lover, rhea went vegetarian sometime in her senior year and never went back.

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? : calder ! softie.

Who is more likely to suggest going out? : neither. they like staying in, let them have that peace.

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidentally while cooking? : calder. absolutely lethal man. only ask him to make soup.

Chores:

Who cleans the room? : calder, for the most part. rhea says its because he can reach all the shelves to stack things / his arms don’t get tired from hoovering / etc.

Who is really against chores? : she’s not against them per say, but rhea doesn’t love ‘em.

Who cleans up after the pets? : oh, that’s a rhea job. she’s the reason they have ‘em, she’s responsible for care.

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? : rhea.

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? : also rhea.

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? : calder. 

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? : calder with showers, rhea with baths. 

Who takes the dog out for a walk? : rhea is in the routine, but the kids would join her and if he’s around, calder isn’t opposed to it either.

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? : rhea goes all out every single year, almost to make up for the fact that calder doesn’t entirely… get the holidays.

What are their goals for the relationship? : happiness ?

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? : rhea, usually. calder if he’s been busy.

Who plays the most pranks? : the kids.

[rukakikuchi]

LOONAverse timeline theory - Breakdown (Part 3)

Now that we’ve concluded the story of Eden and the girls who once resided there, it’s time to return to Earth.

...

Chapter 3 - Love & Live

So, Heejin, Hyunjin, and Haseul are still going to school together, but Yeojin is missing. They’re still unaware of the existence of the Cosmos and Eden, but the appearance of a certain pink haired android is about to shake up their normal school days even more.

ViVi meets Heejin, Hyunjin, and Haseul

ViVi moves to Korea and transfers to the school where the three attend. They all join the track team, Heejin, Hyunjin, and Haseul trying their best to help ViVi be included in their group.

However, ViVi struggles to connect with them because of her nature as an android.

She is stronger and faster than a normal human, and she doesn’t need to eat food, having instead to rely on a battery strapped to her back to recharge. 

Deep down, she wants to be a human girl.

Haseul is the first to become suspicious that something about ViVi isn’t normal.

(The screenshot above is a deleted scene that was included in the “You and Me Together” special MV. We don’t know what exactly Haseul sees here, but maybe she takes notice of how ViVi doesn’t eat food like everyone else.)

Then, Heejin finds her recharging in an empty classroom and tells Hyunjin and Haseul.

At one point, ViVi unplugs her battery and runs as far as she can before the timer runs out. Once it hits zero and flashes “Low Battery”, she loses energy.

Despite ViVi’s wish, she’s still dependent on technology because she’s a robot girl.

Hyunjin finds her and plugs her battery back in so she can recharge, ViVi taking notice of this. This ultimately leads to her friendship with the others improving.

Overtime, she starts to feel like she’s becoming more human.

ViVi’s dream and warped memory

Heejin, Hyunjin, and Haseul take ViVi to a roller skating rink they frequently hang out. As if drawn to the place by some forgotten memory, she decides to start working there part-time.

(Update: Recently, I have been thinking that “Everyday I Love You” actually happens earlier in the timeline and that ViVi’s been working at the skating rink for a while before she started school, since we see Yeojin appear in the video, meaning she might have met or seen her with the other 1/3 girls before she disappeared.)

While dozing off, she has dreams of roller skating with a boy she appears to like.

But these are actually her memories from when she met Yves as a human, which have been distorted now that she is an android.

She’s also in possession of a cassette tape player, which she actually received from Yves.

And we know that Yves took the cassette player from Kim Lip because we see her running circles around the Odd Eye members at the end of “Girl Front” and in an extended scene in the “LOONATIC” lyric video.

When she’s listening to her tape on the cassette player, ViVi is dreaming of her warped past memories with the boy, who is actually Yves.

And Yves was able to relive the moment she first met ViVi when she played her cassette tape.

(The broken case for ViVi’s tape shows it’s been damaged.)

This means the cassette player and tapes may hold significance in accessing past memories of the 1/3 members and Yeojin, as they are the only ones we see have their own cassette tapes. 

There might be tapes for the other LOONA girls, but we aren’t shown them.

Another thing to note is that when ViVi has her tape, the case has not been damaged. Perhaps Yves receiving the damaged case was the result of a sort of butterfly effect that occurred after Olivia went back in time and killed ViVi.

It might even have resulted in a diverging timeline; one before ViVi was killed and one after.

I joked about it in the previous chapter, but I do actually think that The Carol 2.0 actually happened, but it’s in an alternate timeline where ViVi wasn’t killed and turned into an android.

Note that ViVi has blonde hair here, meaning she’s human, and Yves is wearing a green shirt, re-establishing her connection with Haseul. (She even opens The Carol 2.0, just like Haseul opened the original The Carol.)

And of course, Choerry is there, as well. 😊

OK, back to the main story.

ViVi’s Letter to Hong Kong

As ViVi is starting to grow closer with the girls, she’s slowly regaining the ability to feel emotion.

She says in her message, “Sometimes, when I see them laughing happily, I get a bit jealous. But since I am living with the members, I, too, can now laugh happily. It’s like the memories of the past are slowly coming back.”

ViVi is starting to regain more of her human memories, as well. Being with the other girls is helping her remember her past and what happened to her.

One day, Haseul takes her to the aquarium, and she catches sight of a familiar figure while filming.

It’s Jinsoul, with an eyepatch over her left eye (where her Odd Eye is).

Almost immediately, ViVi can sense something inside Jinsoul. Something dark, and angry... And familiar. The camera cuts off, and ViVi also short circuits and collapses in the aquarium.

(Note: Something I’ve noticed is Jinsoul’s powers seem to have this strange affect on technology. We see a static affect frequently in her solo video “Singing in the Rain”, and when she’s seen placing the cherry on the cake for Choerry, we can see a TV showing static in the background.)

When she wakes up again, she regains her memories on how she died.

The secret of secrets

After the incident in the aquarium, the girls of 1/3 are starting to become more aware of the truth behind the world they live in.

Their world exists on a Moebius strip, which has trapped the girls in an unending time loop. They know that there are other girls like them, somewhere out there, who were chosen by a greater destiny to unite and break the loop.

Haseul now knows that Yeojin is lost somewhere in the Moebius.

Hyunjin’s long lost memories of her former home, the Cosmos, are starting to re-emerge.

ViVi tells Heejin the name of the girl who killed her; Olivia. 

And somehow, Heejin knows exactly what she’s supposed to do and where to find her.

This Heejin is the one we see confront Olivia at the end of “Egoist”.

Even the lyrics in “Sonatine” reflect the girls realizing the truth of their world and their growing awareness of the time loop.

Time, hidden by a mysterious secret Every minute, every second I want to narrow the distance between us We will be aligned now Just don’t stop I’ll hurry up, I’ll have strength The secret of secrets will be revealed

Perhaps they all went through the same struggles many times over, unaware of the loop. All trying to find each other, but unsure of how or why. Their hearts were trapped in a continuous cycle of turmoil, lost without each other.

But this time, they know, and they have each other. Now they need to find the others to unite as one.

And with that, Chapter 3 is done! Next chapter, we will finally cover the reunion and birth of the new Odd Eye Circle!

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Now, onto the heart of the post!

   ♛   Who the heck is my muse, anyway? Elizabeth Eva Alexandria Cross, the only biological daughter of Kaien Cross, her father (a canon vk char), and Eva Liliya Cherie Cross, her mother (an oc muse)! Elizabeth is a vampire hunter by blood like all in her family before her! But, shh! Your character isn't supposed to know that .  .  .  unless they're also a hunter .  .  .  or a perhaps a vampire (since her family from both sides are famous hunters, but even then they don't have to know she's a vamp killer if you don't want them to) .  .  .  or they're some sort of ally to her / the hunters association since she can't just tell anyone her actual work on a whim. Where she's from, the existence of vampires are a secret from most of humanity and it's her job to kill the dangerous people-hurty ones and keep that nice and secret so as to avoid a world war! 'Nothing about her is complicated at all', I say, lying through my teeth like Bethy does to society every day by keeping her job and true lifestyle hidden :'D

Further information below the cut, please take time to read if you’re stuck on what to plot and how Bethy operates!

   ♛   Points of Interest:           - She was born and raised to fight against unruly beasts and composed foes alike. Despite her youth, she's a one-woman powerhouse and is not afraid to take herself down with an opponent if she deems it necessary. She's like the Smash player who hits the fake smash ball to take out an enemy on their last legs, even at the expense of her own life. She'll do it! Except in Smash she'd probably just win the match because she had an extra life and not, you know, not die forever for real in a last grand battle.

          - She's got vamp genes all over the place and is rare among hunters. She's biologically immortal like a Pureblood despite not being a vampire herself and is living testimony of what her predecessors took from Purebloods both by honorable bestowal of blood from the mysterious Hooded Woman, and straight up [insert painting of Jupiter Devouring His Son here]. Her great grandparent is 3k+ years old, her father is 200+ for devouring his own twin-- it's messy as mythology, but anime :'D  She herself is only 18 on default though (19 in K Crossover--), the youngest of her entire bloodline, and she can still be slain in battle even if she is much hardier than a typical human being. She's also sensitive to auras, and capable of sensing vampires.

          - Things characters might notice? She's ghostly pale and kind of looks like she stepped out of The Last Unicorn. She looks cold, sophisticated, and vaguely otherworldly-- she really doesn't radiate the friendliest of vibes unless she's doing something she loves, and the calculated yet seemingly effortless grace of her movements are prominent in and outside of combat. She is descended from an ancient royal line, and those posh, stuffy mannerisms and formal speech pattern live on through her even if the Adrasteian monarchy no longer exists.

          - She truly isn't a trigger-happy person, whatever the title of 'hunter' implies, and keeps a level head in most situations. Sure, Bethy looks as if she could bite someone's head off and can display some seriously threatening flashes of anger, but she's not going to do something rash and will only resort to drawing her weapons in a serious matter. She's here to save lives, maintain peace, and keep order, not disrupt it and set off a war! No pressure on her, right?

         - She is also notably, NOT a high school student, though she may be mistaken for a high school senior or young college student since her age fits the bill. Elizabeth actually graduated from her high school at age sixteen and took to hunting full-time immediately after. She was convinced to slow it down by her grandparents and began preparing for college when her assignment at Cross Academy arrived and, uh, pretty tragically, hasn’t been able to attend any classes due to her work demands. Come to choose between the world and personal fulfillment? Her conscience only let her have one choice; a hunter must hunt.

    ♛   What they’ve been up to recently:           - Work. There's hardly a time when this girl isn't working or planning what to do next, and the workload only grows after the previous president is outed as a dishonorable, self-serving traitor to the hunters. She's seriously injured after trading blows with him and is promptly benched to deal with the fallout and mental agony, but she's back within a year (and in K's crossover? Only six months later!).

          - Having said that, Elizabeth does have days off and will spend them quietly with her friends, or alone with music and a rejuvenating swim.

          - Depending on the time in her life? Her life circumstances vary drastically-- she can go from a young huntress travelling on her own as duty demands, or she can be a mother of five children and trusted right hand of the new hunter president, Zero Kiryuu. She lives for a long time, so she's always up to something! And of course, she's always motivated to fight for a better future. 

   ♛   Where to find them:            - Aside from work, check the beach! Or find her on methods of cross-continental transportation since she travels around the world for her job (she walks whenever possible, so it's rare to see her on a bus, but she’ll begrudgingly take one or a train)! Otherwise, a place like an aquarium, clothing store, or coffee shop, or any place in a city is your best chance.... write w me pls... q-q she is Around Somewhere.

          - If not found in any of those places and your character is someone inside Cross Academy, she can be found there, helping the prefects in some way and is familiar enough with the building to help out new students if they ask.

    ♛   Current Plans:           - Elizabeth is chained to her work as a hunter for as long as she draws breath, or until there is no need for her to end hostile vampires. Her ultimate goal is to keep the world from falling into a repeat, all-out war between vampires and humanity. Her living and family situation might change through the years, but that will always be her primary drive-- she's got an indomitable will.

    ♛   Desired Interactions:           - please ovq

          - In all seriousness, I’m up for pretty much anything. She needs more friends, more enemies, people to protect, people to be protected by, people she looks up to, people who legitimately unnerve her, everything! I just don’t feel comfortable killing her. Elizabeth fought really hard to get her future and deserves to find comfort after her entire childhood-young adult life was spent thinking the only thing of worth she had was her role as a huntress. I do really, really love angst though, so anything else goes, really c:

     ♛   Offered Interactions ( please sit tight for this! it will be divided into multiple sections! ) :           - IF YOUR CHARACTER IS HUMAN:                - She’ll assume your muse is an average civilian until shown otherwise (be it with unusual powers, whacky aura, combat prowess, or prior knowledge from a report or something-- a plot specific thing). Unless they truly know about vampires / work with the Hunters Association, Elizabeth will not be sharing any information about who or what she is without a legitimate reason (such as the human character being bitten by a Pureblood and thus is being turned into a vampire themselves). However, the other party being kept in the dark about vampires can open the door to a more relaxed Elizabeth without her professional, perfectionist mindset. She’s more likely to have a pleasant conversation with humans since they have no part in the hunt-- but in that same vein, she does aim to keep them at a certain distance and not develop a deep emotional bond (but she’s also a lot softer than she looks and acts and tends to care for others quickly, should they get along). It’s a tricky slope .  .  . She’s thawed out and the nicer aspects of her personality are far more prominent, but at the same time, she’s not being entirely genuine. Give her time and she’ll become more open about personal things, just, not her work.

               - Applies to her K Proj. Crossover.  Working with S4, Elizabeth takes some time to adjust, but ultimately loves the organization and the people within it. They’re an exception to her ‘no ties with average humans’ rule because....errr.... they’re not the average human she’s used to protecting and in that verse they’re aware of her occupation and peculiar heritage. She’s not as cold first impressions might suggest and loves Reisi’s weird af team building nights, it’s hard for her to not have a soft spot for them, even as an outsider and unofficial member (as in, she has none of the abilities the Blues have, but she has her natural abilities).

         - IF YOUR CHARACTER IS A HUNTER:                 - Elizabeth is a known figure in hunter society; her great grandfather, grandfather, and aunt were previous heads of the organization and each are still alive at present. So, it probably makes more sense if your hunter character at the very least knows about her-- unless they’re an off-series muse in which case go wild and do what you think is best! I always did like the idea of two vampire hunters chilling together with neither one knowing the other is a fellow hunter until they’re attacked by a vamp and they’re both like ‘Oh!’

               - A simple but always reliable plot idea is two hunters on a joint mission! It’s really important to know that Bethy does not take kindly to poor performance and expects her partner to take whatever assignment they have seriously. If not? Things get tundra-cold really fast-- o-o;; People’s lives are at stake and in her opinion, if a hunter wants to mope or complain about their blood-given obligation, they’re not fit to be hunters in the first place. ‘Can’t do the job? Then finish what you started with me if you have any shred of integrity, and get thee gone’ sort of thing. Otherwise, uh :’D;; she’s highly cooperative and always aims to reach the outcome with the least amount of damage.

               - As a teenager, she attended a hunter-run private academy in Adrasteia for four years. If it’s possible for your muse to attend (as in, they are from a vampire hunter family and can pass the rigorous entrance exams), throw em in for a slightly younger, less stringent Bethy? A national fencing champion at the top of her classes, and great granddaughter to the legendary hellfire headmaster, Elizabeth’s not easily missed! It could be the start to an amicable relationship to carry into future interactions?

        - IF YOUR CHARACTER IS A VAMPIRE:                 - Bluntly put, for vampires, it’s probably better to interact with Elizabeth after Cross Academy has fallen in the large battle that took place there. Her mother is revealed to have been alive and held captive as a vampire, she’s already friends with a hunter/vamp, her two friends turned out to be Purebloods, and ‘oh....my mother and father got together again and now I’ve got a younger vampire brother’ .....and her boyfriend’s half sister is also a vampire who marries the former vamp senate heir..... so...vamps everywhere; she simply accepts them as part of the family. Prior to that, while she isn’t hostile to vampires and certainly has no intention to attack a vamp unjustly, it’s not a place she’s eager to put herself in. Depending on how threatened she feels, she’ll even swallow her pride and keep her head down-- mostly.

               - If your muse is a hunter-turned-vampire, she doesn’t treat them as a vampire, rather, she still sees them as a compatriot, like in the case of Zero Kiryuu. Whether or not your muse received the blood of their keeper is up to you, but in the case that they haven’t-- she’s always there to assist in granting mercy whenever the time comes :’)

       - IF YOUR CHARACTER DOES NOT FIT INTO ANY OF THE ABOVE CATEGORIES / REGARDING OTHER VERSES:                - Please help me find something that works, I’m willing to try! Memes are incredibly helpful! Send one in, the tag is here, and we can go from there!

                  - My currently finished and ready-to-use Crossover Verse is K Proj., which can be read about right here.

      ♛   Current Open Post/s: Linked right here. There's no expiration date to these, and it doesn't matter if another person has replied to one, you are more than welcome to reply to one if it catches your eye at all.

      ♛   Anything else?:  YEAH, wow I am so sorry that got so long. Please note that this post may be updated periodically!