#benny? oh Benny is gonna be a whole other ordeal

[lupismaris]

I am not strong enough to raise a kitten who needs to learn socialization someone help me

[canopy-campsite]

Oh boy, do I have a story to tell. As you can see, I've just made a Majima outfit for New Vegas.

9 HOURS OF LABOR FOR THIS BABY.

I've been working on a Majima Everywhere for New Vegas and i thought it was about time that i figured out how I'm gonna give him his distinct outfit. I look up tutorials, start ripping meshes, pulling apart different outfits from the game files, and stitching them together. It was a few hour-long ordeal, not much longer than 3 hours. Had plenty of hiccups on the way, but it was going good.

It wouldn't export.

Error after error popped up every time i tried exporting from Blender. As it turns out, you, under NO CIRCUMSTANCES, should ever mess with the materials of a NIF file in blender, you change something, it screws over the whole model. And, yeah, I'm really really abbreviating things here. This was after 5 hours of looking up the scarce Reddit questions and help post across many websites, and then trying whatever i found, to no effect at all. So, i give up for the night... or more like the morning. I'd gotten sucked into my own little tech hellhole and hadn't slept or taken many breaks at all. I basically pass out and wake up with an idea. "Screw it, I'm just gonna cut open Benny's suit by deleting some vertexes and retexture the damn thing."

As you can see, it worked. Wonderfully too! It looks good in-game, and didn't cause any problems at all.

You know how long that took me? 2 hours. That's all. And it wasn't even the most complicated thing. It was mostly tedious work of deleting a few vertexes in and moving a few others around in Blender and then assigning the textures (properly this time) in Nifskope.

Well, whatever. I learned, I know what I'm doing, and I'm gonna be releasing the outfit as a standalone on Nexus Mods.

[mbav-2024]

Lemon Dust

Part 1

A/n: okay so i know this took forever...sorry ab that, aha, but we’re back lmao. also if this first part is cringey, pls don’t judge, my writing wasn’t as good at it is now (not that it’s any good at all) but i feel like i’ve improved from the time i wrote this first chapter, so the chapters will improve in quality lmao. but yeah, i hope you enjoy!

The sunny day outside was a stark contrast to what it was inside this school. All of the light looks artificial, and it’s just barely cold enough that you would want some kind of jacket. Fortunately, it’s not totally bland inside (with the few red and blue streaks that color the halls.) It definitely isn’t a terrible place, but you would much rather be spending your day outside. Instead, you have to be a struggling high school student, inside. Once a nice lady behind a desk handed you your schedule, you set out to try and figure out where all of your classes were

Right as you were leaving the office, you noticed two boys standing nearby. They sounded like they were arguing. You figured that they would be somewhat knowledgeable of the campus, so you decided to ask them for help. When you approached them, the taller boy was speaking, “Della totally liked the flowers. That means phase two of ‘Benny Gets a Girlfriend’ is a go.” You furrowed an eyebrow at the boys weird word choice. “Hey, I’m y/n, I’m new here. Would you guys be able to help me find some of my classes?” They both just stared at first, but then the shorter one answered your question. “Oh, um, yeah. My name is Ethan, this is Benny,” Ethan said while pointing to the tall one. A small smile grew on your face. This might not be so hard after all, you thought. “Thank you so much for helping. It’s a little overwhelming,” you said with a laugh. “Tell me about it,” Ethan said, “so can I see your schedule?” Ethan went to grab my schedule and his hand accidentally grazed mine. Which isn’t worth mentioning, but what you saw afterwards was. A bright light flashed, and then an image of blood floating down through water played for a couple of seconds. The scene abruptly ended, and you were back to normal. You looked over to Benny to see if he saw it too, but his focus was on your schedule. When you looked over to Ethan, there was a discernible amount of concern in his eyes. He had obviously seen it too. Judging by his look, he could tell that you saw it as well. Neither of you said anything about it and Ethan just started reading off your schedule. This was going to be a first day to end all first days. 

The whole day flew by for you. You found out that most of your classes were enjoyable, and the teachers were pretty nice. The school lunch turned out to be good, so you ended up eating that instead of the lunch you brought. Ethan and Benny even let you sit with them during lunch, and they introduced you to their friend Rory. Benny also introduced you to a girl named Sarah in your pottery class during second period. Even through all this, though, you and Ethan didn’t mention anything about what happened this morning. Well, until now. It was the last class you had of the day. You had always enjoyed playing games in gym class at your old school, so you thought that you would enjoy it here. You soon found out that the class was neither good nor bad. It was just boring, and was basically just a bunch of teenagers in matching clothes that stood around in the gymnasium. The only plus side to this was that Ethan was in this class. He was in a couple of your other classes too, like chemistry and pre-calc, but you two had talked a lot and you kind of saw Ethan as an actual friend. He introduced you to one last friend of his, Erica, and then he and you went over and sat down together in a part of the gym. 

“So much for an actual gym class,” you said, resting your head in your hands. “I mean, we are technically in a gym,” he said back. The two of you laughed, but then an awkward silence fell upon the two of you. You decided that it would probably be the best time to try and talk about what happened this morning, but Ethan beat you to it. “So, did you like, see something this morning?” You looked up at him, head still in your hands, “um, yeah. I was actually gonna ask you that.” Ethan looked around to see if anyone was listening, and then leaned in close. “I’ve been seeing them for a while now, I call them visions. I know it sounds crazy, but basically we’re in this supernatural town full of seers, and magic, and vampires.” You tried to keep your laugh in, “yes, Ethan, I know about all this supernatural stuff.” He looked taken aback, “Oh, so you mean, you’re a seer too?” This time you couldn’t keep your laughter in, “not quite. I’m technically labeled as ‘merfolk,’” you put finger quotations around the last word. “Some other terms would be like ‘mermaid’ or ‘siren’ but my family and I just stick to merfolk.” Ethan sat for a moment, and then spoke. “Oh, that’s pretty cool. Why’d you move here, then?” You sat up straight, “well my parents tell me it’s to change up the scenery, but I overheard my parents talking about some people that were trying to kill all merfolk, and I’m pretty sure that’s why we moved.” Ethan’s eyebrows rose, “oh my god, that must be terrifying.” You rolled your eyes, “oh, I’m sure you’ve dealt with worse. I mean you said yourself that this town has seers, magic, and vampires” Now he was the one to sit up, “well, we did deal with a vampire that tried to turn a dusk screening into his old flock.” You moved to sit criss-cross, “woah, that’s kinda intense.” He went on to explain the whole ordeal in its ‘full glory’.

The gym teacher blew a whistle to end the class, so you and Ethan got up and started walking to the locker rooms to change. “Hey,” you started, “since the supernatural tend to stick together here, do you think you guys would be able to take me under your wing?” He looked back to you, “oh sure. I might be walking home with Benny, if you want to join?” You smiled, “yeah, that’d be nice.” You could now officially say that you made some friends here at Whitechapel.

[destiel-love-forever]

15.4 Thoughts

Well... at least this episode didn’t destroy me, which is something... I guess. Gosh... this season WILL be the death of me. At least they didn’t make us watch the break-up again. I was worried that was going to be in the ‘Then’ opening of the show... 

Anywho, here we go, episode 4 thoughts!

Here are the things I liked (& my feelings didn’t mind): 

HOT DAMN bearded Dean being all sexy and rugged and badass in that red lighting

BENNY!!! (let’s ignore the context of Benny for now... we’re keeping my feelings happy here)

The whole veggie bacon ordeal

the way Dean mouths the quote along with Sam

the way they argue about Dean being the ‘meat man’

Sammy realizing the bacon is real - & Dean being all proud ‘damn right it is’ because he’s the meat man

I’m sorry but that tiny coffee cup in Sam’s huge hand is just adorable

Getting back to the good ol’ days:

Finding a case, “sounds exactly like our thing, so let’s go check it out”

Sam’s face is so DONE with the parents saying the lacrosse game getting canceled will be the end of the world - “The end of the world IS the end of the world”

Dean’s obsession with this mascot lol

Also, that ‘someone has a fetish’ comment about the cheerleaders

The fact that Dean’s eating in almost every scene (do you think Jensen was just super hungry? Since he was the director?)

BECKY!!

Chuck acting like a crazy, desperate, pathetic ex

Becky’s etsy site for unofficial spn merch

Becky putting Chuck in his place about writing/his writing

THE FACT THAT BECKY WRITES #DOMESTIC FANFIC

Let’s be honest - Becky TOTALLY ships Destiel 100%

I need to read all of Becky’s domestic destiel fics (or all of them in general)

All of Becky’s decorations - the spn christmas poster, the Funko figures, the plushies of Sam, Dean, & Cas on the shelf (I totally have that Dean plushie - thank you @foreveranonymousuniverse for that), the mini Harvelle’s Roadhouse 

Is it just me, or is Becky’s wallpaper in her living room exactly like the wallpaper in a lot of the boys’ motels in the show?

“You want me to fluff you”

Becky defending fan-fic “writing is writing”

Her rant about Chuck’s bad story - “Nobody even mentions Cas!”

I wrote poor Billy down because he seemed to have these crazy, overbearing parents, and he clearly doesn’t want to be this great Lacrosse player they want him to be, and I was getting total Dean vibes from my fic Lucky Charm.... but poor Billy for so many other reasons now that I’ve seen the whole episode... just... poor Billy

Dean calling that girl out on her fake speech (& then the super awkwardness of the boys when they have to slink away because she has braces) - more on the speech below

Here are things I liked (but hit me right in the feels...):

BENNY

I’m so thankful this wasn’t a Dean dream, because if Dean was dreaming this, the moment with Benny would have wrecked me completely

Still, though, that “I’ll see you on the other side brother” came close to killing me. 

The whole dream with Dark Sammy 

Sioux Falls mention! Bobby! Jody!

Dean telling Sammy this isn’t him, it’s the demon blood

SAMMY KILLED DEAN. KILLED HIM. HE KILLED DEAN. 

It’s almost worse that the dream is Sam’s instead of Dean’s, because Dean fearing for his own safety is one thing, but Sam fearing for other people’s safety is heartbreaking. 

Sam in this episode... (no wonder Jared’s mental health isn’t the best right now, jeez...)

His speech about the white picket fence ‘bubble’ that the town gets to live in

His comment about how they have to carry the weight of everything

Dean pulling out his flask as he listens to Sammy say things that Dean has always said - because it’s usually Sam’s job to talk him out of this dark place, and now Dean doesn’t know what to do

Later, Sam admitting he feels empty, and he misses Jess </3

Dean trying to talk Sammy out of it, saying they’re free with this relieved kind of smile, saying they need to keep doing the hard job for the people that cared about them, for Jack and mom and Rowena and everyone else.

& Sammy saying “I don’t feel free” & “Sometimes it’s like I can’t breathe” & when Dean asks what happens if that feeling doesn’t go away, and they silently exchange that look... 

BECKY DON’T TELL CHUCK TO WRITE WTF ARE YOU DOING

At least Chuck admitted to not being able to see them anymore... that’s a plus... 

Chuck’s comment “I’ll give you danger” - gosh Becky, why did you push this man?!?!?!

That girl’s speech: did anyone else see Destiel parallels? It’s literally a speech about how she misses her best friend. How life won’t be the same. Etc. Sure, it’s clearly fake, but that seems to piss Dean off more when he calls her out on that - & Dean can tell it’s fake because he feels those things for real. He has his own special ‘ghost orchard’/’snowflake’ that he’s missing. 

SPEAKING OF DESTIEL PARALLELS

Dean talking to Sammy about ‘moving on’ & he has to pause before saying that, and he looks pained like he’s remembering Cas saying it to him

& Sam putting Dean in his place, shutting that idea down, saying he can’t move on. It’s impossible. 

The scene with Dean, Sam, and the parents. When Dean comments on their ‘awesome parenting’ & the dad says “you don’t have children, do you?”

The look on Dean’s face is heartbreaking... 

& later, when they both admit that they’d do the same for Jack... it hurts. It hurts a lot. 

OF COURSE they have to turn the classic ‘let’s just get back to what we’re good at and try to move on’ episode into something SOUL CRUSHING. 

Poor Billy (I know, a broken record, but omg)

And the fact that Billy just gives himself over, and he sits on his knees crying, and Dean has to execute the poor kid like that, and Sam can barely watch

Chuck is seriously fucked up (I mean, we knew this, but still... my god - pun intended - this dude is fucking crazy)

The ominous ‘ending’ he wrote

How he doesn’t know how he’ll get there, but he’ll get there somehow

Becky saying it’s dark. Saying he can’t do it to the fans. “What you did to Dean... What you did to Sam...” “It’s awful, horrible, hopeless”

"Oh Becky, I can do anything. I’m a writer”

Chuck envisioning “Supernatural: The End” with the gravestone on the cover that just reads ‘Winchester’ (btw, if it’s jut one gravestone, do you think only one of them died? Or are they buried together? Or were they given a hunter’s funeral, and the gravestone is just there to commemorate them???)

Chuck making Becky’s family disappear! Making her panic and cry! Then doing it to her! al;do’rihigjsgk’dma I HATE HIM

Chuck at the very end, writing so hard that Dean & Sam’s figurines are bobbing. “Oh yeah, this is gonna be good”

Yeah... not looking like it’ll be good Chuck. NOT LOOKING LIKE IT WILL BE GOOD AT ALL!

I guess now I’ll go write the CODA... I’m thinking I might take the Becky road and give the boys some good ol’ domestic fluff. Don’t they deserve that? They deserve that. 

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