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i absolutely cannot believe people are trying to start discourse about whether nex benedict was actually nonbinary / whether it was okay for him to describe himself as nonbinary to some people if he didnât actually identify that way as if he isnât literally DEAD because he was KILLED. this is a MURDERED CHILD and these monsters are so busy getting mad at the possibility that he might have been a trans boy who described himself as nonbinary to his family because that was easier for them to take that theyâre turning a CHILD who was MURDERED into fucking discourse. even when we die at the hands of cis peopleâs violence, our own community finds a way to make us the villains of the story.
and all of this bullshit on top of the ways that cis people are already trying to say our grief over his death is unjustified. all of this on top of people claiming he wasnât murdered and speculating on other causes of death (i literally saw someone say he âclearly went home and took the cowardâs way outâ and i have never been more disgusted) or claiming that he started the fight as if any action on his part couldâve been enough to justify his death. i am haunted by the sound of his father screaming that his child was not filth because that is what people have been saying about this poor kid, thatâs how cruelly his memory is being treated, and even the trans community canât get itâs shit together enough to look past the stupid discourse and see the tragedy in front of us. did you all forget that it was supposed to be up to us to grieve him in the way he deserves when the rest of the world fails to care if people like him live or die? did you all forget that this child was our sibling, the future of our community, a life that we should have had the chance to know and treasure while he was still here but that we now have a responsibility to hold close to our hearts in his absence? nexâs life was precious and it was ended far too soon and if you truly believe that anything is more important than mourning his life and fighting for a world where no more trans people have to meet such an awful fate, youâre a traitor to this community and you do not deserve the place you occupy within it.
iâm so tired. i canât even imagine how tired his family must be, to see the public treat the child theyâre grieving so horribly, to see the world fail their baby again. leave him alone. he was already robbed of peace in life; the least you can do is let him finally have it in death.
#as a trans man whose family still uses they/them and neutral terms for me and would describe me as nonbinary#because that was how i initially came out to them and me being a man is a much bigger hurdle than i have the energy to help them get over#itâs SO deeply disturbing to know that if my life ended in violence#my own community would be more concerned with how my family referred to me in death than with the fact that i was killed#how fucking dare you turn this poor childâs existence into discourse fodder when they arenât even here to defend themselves#when you only even know who he is in the first place because he was killed#tw transphobic violence#nex benedict#tbh it feels wrong to even add my usual tags to this but i need people to see it so. here we go#transandrophobia#transandromisia#transmisandry#virilmisia#virilphobia#anti transmasculinity#transmascphobia#exorsexism#trans men#transmascs
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Yet another just generally bad time for all of SporeClan :')
#clangen#clan generator#warriors oc#warrior cats#sporeclan#crying real tears about spotted and crow. the mentor+apprentice bond persists ;;#poor spotted </3 my boy is severely trying to overcompensate for his guilt over not being able to save his siblings :(#he did also kinda like petunia. accepting his passing isnt really helped by him dying to the same thing that took mushroompaw :(((#sc moons#sc:crowstar#sc:spottedfrost#sc:carolina#sc:piperpaw#sc:puddle#sc:cliffthicket#sc:foxspeckle#sc:mousegrove#sc:minklake#sc:dawnpelt#sc:finchpaw#tw injury#tw death#< implied. its carried over from last moon
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BANG CHAN ⥠LOVE YOUR W EVENT
#stray kids#bang chan#bystay#staysource#channiesnet#createskz#staydaily#skzco#usersa#staytay#dreamytag#userbeepls#usertsu#usersemily#bitsforkitts#melontrack#*mine#flashing tw#flashing#the camera person did this for me#poor guy was being blinded by those flashes
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Can we have Ren/Fox (TPOF) and Mc with a child?Long after Fox decided to stay with MC, they both had a daughter (probably not something with consent and a bit of Stockholm syndrome).The daughter asks her mother how she got the scars and this makes MC have memories of post-traumatic stress.
I was so tickled by this ask that I started manically typing out a response for it nearly as soon as I saw it in my ask box (which at this point, was quite some time ago. Forgive me, I am a mess lul). I wrote the whole damn thing in a fit of passion, excited to release it into the world⌠But ultimately hated it and thought it was garbo, so I scrapped it and tried again. Wrote a second iteration and thought âhell yeah, this is it!!! Sick!â, but then I read it AND HATED THAT ONE TOO AAAHHH!!!
I rewrote this⌠so muchâŚ
But I never give up on my dreams, and you shouldnât either! Persevere! Donât give up on yourself! Hereâs your daily motivation for the day! Keep writing even it makes you cry!!! :D
Anyway, so I wrote this third one, comprised of new stuff and the stuff I actually did like from the first two stabs, and it ended up being the one. Truly it is a Frankenstein of a fic lol. Regardless of all the reworking, I had a lot of fun writing this and enjoyed the prompt very much!!! I I hope you enjoy reading it just as much. :)
Iâm sorry if the writing seems a tad too mature for the readerâs daughter in this, writing children isnât my forte. ^^;
Due to the nature of this fic, IT IS 18+ ONLY!!! Thank you!
WARNINGS: Incessant mentions of abuse of all kinds for reader and mentions of physical abuse for her child!!! Reader is heavily scarred from said abuse and thatâs a main theme in this fic so please avoid if that is upsetting to you. Also, though not the main focus, there are multiple mentions of child abuse in this fic, as well a part where reader goes off verbally on her child, so please be mindful of that as well! Other things of note: reader is a parent in this (which you can probably tell by the prev warning lol), reader getting hurt, blood, manipulation, Stockholm syndrome, being held against your will/isolation, mentions of noncon, sad family stuff :(
Diminishing rays of afternoon light splayed through the open window of your quaint living room, casting a comforting orange glow over everything they touched. The light gave the environment an ethereal and nostalgic feel, wrapping you in peaceful warmth as the sun sunk lower and lower. The loveseat you occupied was plush and inviting, and a mug of your favorite tea stood at the ready on the small coffee table beside you, steadily cooling with help from the last hurrah of winter blowing in gently from the outside. Besides the slight chill, the wind brought with it the heavy scent of freshly bloomed flowers, a delightful precursor to the oncoming spring.
Relishing the rare moment of serenity, you couldnât help but wish that all your days could be this lovely.
You smiled down at your daughter who sat perched in your lap, happily flipping through the newest gift she had acquired from her Father- a thick picture book full of bright illustrations highlighting various exotic animals. As it lay sprawled across her tiny lap, her chubby finger pointed out each animal she took an interest in, her high pitched voice chirping away as she explained what she liked about the creatures. She got particularly excited when she spotted the page full of foxes, jabbing at the red one feverishly as she exclaimed âits daddy!â
Spotting the foxes began her down a path of assigning an animal to not just herself, but you as well. She didnât find it fair that only her father had kin in the animal world, even though you pointed out that she technically did as well by sharing half the manâs blood. Your revelation did little to deter her, she wanted something new, something just for herself, and she wasnât going to stop until she found her perfect soul animal. So she continued on, scanning each page in earnest until she found a creature that suited her.
She ended up picking a bunny for herself, supplying you with a comprehensive reason as to why she chose it. As she explained in great length, skimping no details, you couldnât help but hold back laughter. She spoke as if she were a professor teaching a class, and you did your best to keep a straight face as she yammered on with her shoddy reasoning, deep down knowing she only picked a rabbit because of how cute they are.
After she was done waxing poetic about bunnies, she continued scouring the book, coming to a halt once she reached the wild cat section. She stopped with a gasp, beaming up at you as she pressed her finger firmly against one of the images on the page.
âMommy this one is you!â
Your eyes traveled to the picture she was rapidly tapping, âAn African Wildcat, huh?â You smirked down at the little girl in amusement, âWhy did you pick that one for me?â
âBecause it looks just like you!â
You chuckled at her enthusiasm, âIt looks like me? How so?â
âIt has marks just like you do!â
Her innocuous words sent a chill up your spine. Eying the stripes that crossed the catâs legs, you felt a great unease begin to overtake your body. Her reasoning was not lost on you, the cats coat did quite resemble the jagged scars that covered nearly every inch of your body, and just like the feline in her book, your limbs were the most prominent location of said âmarkingsâ. You quickly shook your head, not wanting to dwell on it further. In hopes of moving on from the subject, the outpouring of words that flew from your mouth were jumbled and messy.
âO-oh, I see,â you stuttered, clearing your throat to steady your voice, âwell you certainly picked a cute animal for me! Thank you baby, it was a good choice.â
She smiled at you innocently, a gesture that usually made your heart melt with affection. But as her tiny hands moved from the book to your arms, that smile did nothing but fill you with dread, the realization that you wouldnât be getting out of this sticky situation hitting you like a brick to the face.Â
âYeah mommy, the kittyâs marks are just like these ones,â her stubby fingers gently traced the old wounds, a look of reverence reflected on her cherubic features. âThey make you look like that kitty mommy,â her little voice cooed, âI like them a lot!â
Your muscles constricted at her words, a slight tremor coursing through you as you involuntarily tightened your grip on her. She took note of this, looking up at your strained features with a puzzled expression on her face.
âDonât be sad mommy,â she spoke assuredly, âI really do like them! I think they are pretty!â
Her words burned you, scorching the inside of your frozen shell of a body, leaving you feeling sickly and discombobulated. The room around you started to spin in a hazy blur, a wave of nausea making you nearly wretch. Your breathing grew erratic as you tried to calm yourself, inwardly repeating that your daughter was just a child, a little girl barely four years of age who had an incredibly limited view of the world. Her words were not meant to upset you. Her opinions were coming from a place of total naivety.
Yet still, the mental assurance did little to help with the extremely uncomfortable position you now founds yourself in. It wasnât as if this was her first time noticing your scars. She had mentioned them before, her curious mind trying to piece together the reason that her arms appeared different from your own. Each time she brought your old wounds up you couldnât help but feel flustered, responding with weak explanations and misdirection to try and quickly brush off her questioning.
The marks came from a silly mistake, or a childhood accident, or from a careless moment when mommy should have been paying more attention. It was always excuses on repeat. How many lies had you told her on this topic alone?
But even if they were lies, it beat telling her the truth. You didnât want to have to explain where the scars on your body actually came from to anyone, let alone a child, and especially not to your own daughter. How could you possibly word it gently, or in a way that she would understand, when you barely understood why you had them yourself? How could you look her in the eye and tell her that these markings were a permanent sign that you had been very, very hurt and that it was her own fathers hands that inflicted the pain?
Reliving the horrific moments that left your body in such a state was overwhelming enough on its own, but to also have to lay bare her fatherâs sins, relay to her the unsavory proclivities of a man who she idolized and adored, was not something you were keen on doing.
She didnât know her daddy like you knew him. She was ignorant to the constant state of concern you lived in, unaware of the worries that plagued your mind and kept you up each night. All the troubles of the hell she had been born into were completely lost on the small, carefree girl.
But honestly that was for the best. You had made an unspoken promise the moment she entered your life that you would protect her no matter what. From the day of her birth onward it became your mission to keep her as happy and healthy as possible.
Ren had broken you, but she did not have to suffer the same fate.
At this point in her life, your daughter knew nothing of her daddyâs profession or âhobbiesâ, and you wanted it to remain that way for as long as possible, if not for the rest of her life. You dreaded each time Ren came home from an auction, terrified he may let casually slip too many details about his âlively clientâ or that he would carelessly step through the door with the stains of his liaisons still littering his clothes. Your daughter was at an age where she was brimming with questions, and she was relentless in getting answers to each question she asked. Everything had to be explained in complete detail for her to be satisfied, drop the subject, and move on. She was a smart little thing, possibly too smart for her own good. You highly doubted a silly joke or wave of the hand would assuage her whirring mind should Ren grow too impetuous in her presence.
And should her questioning become too pesky, you fretted over what Renâs reaction to it may be. The more you tried to avoid thinking about it the more you seemed to fixate on the topic, pondering just how much goading it would take from your daughter before his temper would rear its ugly head. Â You, above anyone, had firsthand experience in just how volatile the man could be, the scars that littered your body a testament to his turbulent emotions and violent outbursts.
Looking back on it now, itâs a wonder you survived any of it at all.
Ren often told you he loved you, each confession spoken through honeyed words that spilled from his lips easily and often. Â And while you didnât doubt those words (you knew better than to, at this point), you also knew his sweet nothings werenât merely a term of endearment, they also served as your curse. He loved you, but he also loved your fealty to him, your adoration and worship of him and only him. Should you not reciprocate his feelings as quickly or ardently as he expected, the mere thought of whatever punishment he would concoct was enough to send you into a debilitating panic attack.
There were few things he loathed more than when you flinched from his affection or if you exhibited any sign of distress towards his presence, especially after he had spent so many years going above and beyond to provide for you, devote himself to you. You had learned early on to keel any feelings of aversion you had to his advances, several of your more prominent scars a brutal reminder of that misstep alone.
 If your daughter uncovered the truth and saw her father for who he truly was, if she began to fear him the way you feared him, how would he respond? If not only his partner, but his own daughter started shying away from him, what length would he go to to correct this behavior?
Dwelling on it made your skin crawl.
But perhaps all of your worries were asinine. Despite his inclination for cruelty, Ren had never so much as raised a hand towards your daughter, even when she did act up. If anything, he was overprotective of her, barely letting her move faster than a brisk jog lest she fall and hurt herself. He hated seeing his little girl experience even a modicum of physical pain, mentioning to you previously that were he able, heâd keep her locked up in a padded room all day and night to prevent any foreseeable accidents or injuries. Surely it was just his idea of a joke, but the insinuation still made you cringe.
It was almost comical, just how greatly the manifestation of his affection for her differed from how he showed his love for you.
His domineering nature shielded her from experiencing any true pain. Every scrape, bruise, and cut she ever received was superficial, nothing that caused major bleeding or left a lasting impression. She had no way of knowing what had been done to you to cause the scars that marred your form, the torment and hell you experienced with each slash, smack, burn. Hell, she probably didnât even really understand what a scar actually was. All she knew was that her mommy and daddy had strange marks on their skin that didnât follow any kind of set pattern, weird jagged lines and indents that her soft skin was curiously free from. The mystery of it all was as puzzling to her young mind as it was enticing.
However, some mysteries were best left unsolved, and just as with each other time she brought up this hot topic, you found yourself unable to look into her clear, bright eyes and tell her any semblance of the truth. She may have been forced upon you, but she was your daughter. You loved her, and you refused to be the one to shatter her innocence. You would keep her ignorant for as long as possible, shielding her to the endless nightmare of your daily lives, even if it cost you your sanity.
âMommy,â her voice jarred you, dragging you from your thoughts, âmommy did you hear me? I said I think they are pretty!â
âT-thatâs⌠IâŚâ You stuttered, struggling to find the right words to say, your voice coming out much smaller than you intended it to. The room felt like it had dropped thirty degrees, your body twitching in response to the sudden chill.
âDaddy told me he gave some of them to you, like this one,â her pudgy, cold finger pressed into the faded heart that resided on your chest, the first of many indelible sins he had etched onto your form. Only the top half of the carved symbol was viewable above the collar of your shirt, so she tugged at the loose hem until she could see it in its horrible entirety.
âDaddy said he gave you this one because he loves you so much,â her voice grew quiet, a thoughtful look in her eye as they drank in wounds you wished you could forget, âDaddy loves me too, right mommy? You think heâll give me a cute heart someday too?â
You felt as if you had been hit by a train.
âS-top,â the words were forced from your throat, airy and breathless, as if someone was wringing your neck to make them come out, âp-please, just stop talking.â
âWhat did you say mama,â your daughters sing-song voice responded as her fingers continued to trace and prod your scars, âYou are whispering, is it a secret?â
âI told you to SHUT UP!â
As if following your command, your booming voice instantly silenced the small girl. Unused to such a violent outburst from her mother, her happy-go-lucky nature quickly shifted to one of alert, her tiny body going rigid as she stared up at you with fearful eyes.
Seeing her in such a state and knowing that you were the cause of it would normally have killed you inside, making you fall to your knees to beg for the childâs forgiveness. But right now, the thin thread that had been holding you together had snapped, and your words rushed out in a torrent you couldnât begin to quell.
âShut up, shut up, shut UP!â You seethed, clasping your hands to your ears to try and block out your own intrusive voice, âJust STOP TALKING about it! What are you even saying? Why would you ever want to look like this?!â
Tears started to flood your eyes, blurring the image of the girl who had quickly jumped from your lap and was now cowering before you. Through your bleary vision, you could see tears were brimming her eyes as well.
âYou⌠You have no idea,â your voice warbled, shaking in equal parts grief and frustration, âYou have no clue what you are saying, so just STOP IT. KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT AND DONâT YOU DARE SPEAK OF IT AGAIN!â
You slunk from the chair down to the floor, burying your face in your cold, stiff hands. The soft blubbering of your daughter could be heard through your own sobbing.
âI-Iâm sorry mommy. I didnât mean to make you cry.â
Hearing her broken voice began to shatter the spell you had been under, instant regret jerking you roughly back to reality. Your head sunk lower, your body scrunching itself up as tightly as possible to hide from this cruel reality.
Your screams were born from deeply buried feelings of hatred, tucked far, far away as a means of self-preservation. For a moment, you felt as if you despised your daughter, her existence tethering you to this wretched excuse of a life, binding you irrevocably to Ren. But as you lifted your heavy head, glancing up to stare into her young face, a face so very similar to your own, a face contorted in panic and sadness over her motherâs abrupt descent into madness⌠you realized it wasnât her that you hated.
It was yourself.
Your daughter didnât deserve this. She deserved normalcy. She deserved a father that didnât pose a threat to her. She deserved a mother that wasnât ruined by his hands. She deserved a happy and untroubled life, not to be stuck being raised in a barbed cage, navigating her way through life with nothing but the shattered remains of a battered woman to guide her.
âIâm so sorry,â you choked under the weight of your overwhelming emotions, snot and tears running freely down your ruddy cheeks and chin, âIâm so, so sorry babyâŚâ
âWhat the hell is going on?â
You hadnât heard the front door open, nor had you heard Renâs jubilant greeting as he entered your home. He had no doubt been upset by the lack of welcome-it was one thing to be ignored by a child, but his doting wife? That was not something he was not apt to look past.
But surely any feelings of annoyance or frustration fled from his mind the moment he entered the room, his eyes falling upon your crumpled, messy form collapsed on the floor. You cursed his arrival, upset that he entered the scene at such a compromising time, right as you were struggling to regain an ounce of composure and properly apologize to the little girl who had done nothing wrong.
âD-daddy,â your daughterâs voice warbled as she barreled towards him, colliding into his waiting embrace. You wiped at your face in a desperate attempt to hide your previous outpouring of emotions, doing your best to avoid eye contact with Ren as his sharp gaze quickly flicked from you, to his daughter.
This had already become enough of a scene without Renâs interference, it was best to try and begin damage control now.Â
âDaddy I-I made mommy cry!â Tears continued to pour from your daughterâs eyes, her face twisting into a look of pure dismay. Her misguided admission of guilt made you recoil, knowing full well it would grant her no favors with the person she seeking comfort from. âIâm really sorry daddy! I didnât mean to!â
After several endless seconds of silence, Ren spoke.
â⌠You made her cry?â
His voice was far sharper than it needed to be, further agitating the precarious state of affairs. In most cases he would have offered your daughter leniency, letting her get away with far more than she probably should. However that leniency was null and void if you ended up suffering in the process. Â Ren could not forgive anyone that caused you any duress (himself, of course, being the exemption) even if that person was his own flesh and blood.
âWhat do you mean you made her cry? What the hell did you do to her?â
âI-I donât know,â she wailed, a fresh wave of tears spurred on by the accusatory tone of her fatherâs voice, âI just told mommy I thought her marks were pretty and then she started crying! I wasnât lying daddy, I like them! I think they make mommy look really pretty!â
âHer marksâŚ?â Renâs look of vexation began to dissipate as the meaning of her words donned on him. He lifted his arm, rolling up his sleeve to reveal his own scars to the little girl. Pointing a clawed finger to them, he leaned down until he was looking her in the eye, âYou mean like these?â
As she nodded her head vigorously in confirmation, Ren tutted, âThatâs the reason for all the water works? An innocent compliment started all this fussing?â He scoffed, shaking his head, âIsnât that a little bit⌠silly?
You tensed at the sound of his barking laugh, your frown deepening as an amused grin spread wider across his lips. You wished that you could say it was shocking for him to have such disregard after finding the two of you in such an agitated state, but it was painfully in character of him to shrug off your misery and suffering as inconsequential. How he could so nonchalantly normalize this hellish situation he kept you and your child ensnared in, you would never understand.
Your daughter was apparently sharing similar thoughts, as her face began to once more morph into a pre-sobbing scowl. She was no doubt wounded that her father was not offering her the comfort she was seeking, her emotional state already greatly weakened by her motherâs venomous tantrum.
To help quell another round of tears, Ren pulled the child closer, wrapping her up in his arms so that her tiny form was nearly enveloped by him.  âShhh, no more tears angel,â he cooed sweetly, patting her head gently to appease her, âThere isnât any reason to cry, especially because⌠Well, youâre right! Mommyâs whole body is pretty, isnât it? Her marks just compliment the beauty thatâs already there.â
Slowly but surely, her tears began to dissipate. Hunched over shoulders loosened, and sniffles and hiccups gave way to even breathing. Like clockwork, her fatherâs gentle handling soothed her, the same touch that destroyed you offering her salvation.
As if under a spell, the turmoil that had overcome your daughter quickly began to vanish, her sobbing fading into quiet sniffles. Once she was fully calmed, Ren continued speaking, âThatâs all you meant to say to mommy, right angel? Iâm sorry she took it the wrong way, sheâs probably just tired or hungry, you know how mommy gets. Sheâll get over it in no time flat!â
Heat spread through your body at his flippant dismissal of your feelings, an indignant blush lighting your cheeks as you gripped your hands tightly at your side. Your previous emotional episode left you all but drained, but your will to fight back against his callous commentary could never truly be contained.
âIn fact, I bet she is already over it now,â Renâs voice took on a jovial tone as he directed his focus solely on you, âArenât you, pumpkin?â
With the ball suddenly in your court, you flinched as both sets of expectant eyes fell on you. Your own eyes darted from Renâs piercing glare, down to your daughterâs wide-eyed look of unbridled hope. You felt much like the rabbit that had been caught by the fox, stuck in a lose-lose situation. Seeing him hunched over her small body as she clutched to him as a life line, openly concerned that her mother may once more reject her while her father remained a bastion of strength and understanding, left you reeling. Either you would get heated again and stay the villain, but possibly hold on to an ounce of your dignity, or concede to Ren and have yet another piece of your soul wither away and die-the price to pay so that your daughter could remain in blissful ignorance for another day.
âArenât you, pumpkin?â He repeated himself slowly, enunciating each word. The kindness in his voice serving only as a mask for the threat buried beneath.
âY-yes,â you responded quickly, shooting them both a smile you hoped was convincing, âI am very sorry, baby. Daddy is right. Mommy is just⌠tired.â
A serene smile lit her face, your words placating her. Seeing her happy once more helped relieve a bit of the ache in your own heart, making the lie worth it.
âGood, good,â Ren affirmed with a nod, carefully detaching himself from your daughter as he stood, âbut you know little one, mommy deserves some love too, donât you think? She may have been in the wrong, but itâs not nice to make her cry like that. Why donât you go give her a hug, hm?â
With no further persuading necessary, she quickly padded over to you, hopping on your lap with so much enthusiasm that it nearly knocked the wind from you. Her arms tightly latched around your torso as she smushed her face into your chest, rubbing it back and forth like she was trying to burrow beneath your skin.
âI love you mommy,â her voice spoke clearly, any hint of previous sadness long gone. You sighed, relieved that this dramatic chapter was over as you pulled your daughter closer to you.
âI love you too.â
During this show of affection, Ren had made his way behind you, slinking so deftly you hadnât even known he had moved until you heard him chuckle softly behind you.
âThis is what I like to see,â he spoke with a sickeningly dreamy sigh, ânothing makes me happier than when my two girls are happy.â
He placed his hands gingerly atop your shoulders, trailing them down until they rested on your arms. His thumbs pressed gently against the marred skin, rubbing in a small circular motion in an attempt to subdue you. His claws grazed your flesh, uncomfortably scratching against you as they snagged against your skin.
He planted a firm and lingering kiss to the side of your head, pulling away just enough that his lips grazed the shell of your ear. âThere really was nothing to cry about,â he whispered breathily, his words quiet enough that despite your daughtersâ proximity, she would have no chance of hearing them. âItâs almost unfair how gorgeous you are, scars and all. But you must know that, right my sweet pet? I tell you all the time.â
Ren took in a deep breath, releasing it in a shaky sigh, âSeeing these scars reminds me of all we have been through, all that we share. They are a symbol of our bond.â
One of his claws pressed down sharply, a small bead of blood pooling around the piercing. Leisurely he began to drag his finger up your arm, a thin red line following in its wake. You shivered at the burning sensation, but deigned to give him any reaction further than that.
âDonât forget pumpkin, these pretty marks are a reminder of my constant love for you.â He chuckled softly, peppering a few kisses to the back of your neck while his claws slowly sunk deeper, âAnd right now I am feeling  terribly sentimental, so for old timesâ sake, why donât I add a few more to remind you just how precious to me you are~?â
#ren btd x reader#ren hana x reader#ren hana x y/n#ren btd x y/n#fox tpof x reader#fox tpof x y/n#ren hana#ren btd#fox tpof#boyfriend to death strade x reader#ren boyfriend to death#fox the price of flesh#the price of flesh#dark fic#yandere fic#tw child abuse#tw childhood trauma#tw abuse#I know I am being kind of annoying with all the child abuse tags but I want people to know whats up ya dig#poor reader#I don't write kids much but I think I did decently this time round#but geez did this fic put up a FIGHT it had HANDS#Regardless I had a great time writing it!!!#Thank you for reading!!!#I hope you enjoy!#mothresponse#mothwingswritings
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do you think bruce has ever gotten drunk before? i don't mean brucie flirting about at the gala either i mean well and truly intoxicated lol. like the type where you wake up and have the worst headache known to man
Thank you for reminding me about one of my long lost headcanons. Which is that yes, Bruce has gotten that drunk (stealing liquor from the pantry as a child, normal stuff) but the only time he woke up and truly prayed for an end was during training with Raâs Al Ghul when, as a reward, he and the other trainees were given a night off and a mysterious local liquor (something grain derived) spiked with something. and their ânight offâ became a test the next day, where they had to meditate and work through the after effects, flushing the toxins from their bodies while still completing their regular duties. it was all a lesson â learning that being poisoned can happen when you least expect it; that alcohol is a poison; and that sometimes you will have to work through it no matter how awful you feel. and so poor, pitiful hungover Bruce learned how to do what he does with ease as Brucie Wayne later â work through anything, whether itâs drugs, poison, fear toxin, alcohol, and be largely unaffected.
#late night thoughts#bruce wayne#batman#dc#asks#anon#raâs al ghul#the league of assassins#alcohol tw#poor Gotham boy thought he knew what hangovers were#he was so wrong#and so pitiful#ras had to scrape him off the mats later that night#he did a little mercy hit in the stomach so Bruce finally stopped being stubborn and just puked#and then informed him that sometimes thatâs the most efficient way#to rid your body of toxins#and to never discount it out of pride#sometimes you gotta barf Bruce
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DPXDC Prompt #123
Danny found himself at Clockworks bothering the old ancient again. Ever since the nasty burger incident Danny didnât have anyone else to really talk to. Vlad wasnât an option the old guy was a creep and Danny wanted nothing to do with him. The other ghosts left him alone in his mourning as well, the attacks stopped after Danny defeated Pariah Dark something Danny didnât quite understand why but he was thankful for it.
Clockwork looked over at the young halfa and then tells him something he wasnât ever planning to. Danny didnât belong to this dimension and had actually been taken from his home (He was stillborn and was thrown in the lazurus pits but never emerged) as a child and Clockwork decided it was time for him to be sent back. He opens a portal for the unknowing prince and closes it behind him before Danny can ask anything.
Danny didnât know where heâd ended up but he did know that he hated clowns, including the guy in front of him. The guy introduced himself as the Joker and Danny lost all interest in what he had to say except that he looked like this Damian Wayne kid except his eyes were green instead of the icy blue that Danny had. Oh and the guy was threatening to fill the tube Danny was trapped in with acid. Danny had half a mind to see if heâd actually do it.
Damian knew he had a twin that was stillborn, his mother liked to remind him that his brother was weak and a failure while he was strong. He held his head high at the praise at the time but now after living with Father for 5 years he began to wonder what it would have been like if his twin survived. That all changes when they find an apparent clone being held by the Joker.
#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny fenton#danny phantom#writing prompt#poor danny#damian wayne#danny and damian are twins#ghost prince danny#but he doesnât know#Danny was stillborn but revived by the pits#tw stillbirth#Clockwork being cryptic because clockwork#Danny gets kidnapped by the Joker#my asks are open#all my prompts are free to use
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Clueless Alpha Bakugou not realizing that his Omega coworker is being a brat because they're broody as hell because their heat is coming up and all they want to do is nest and prepare for another heat and instead they have to work with him and his stupid scent that sticks to everything and isn't helping their situation
#bnha bakugou#mha bakugou#alpha bakugou#tw omegaverse#poor bastard is so lost#âthey're being a brat about everything and I didn't do shit to âenâ#âhuh? no I don't use scent blockers shits annoyingâ
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teĂŚ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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#just watching this was so wild i cannot imagine dancing the way they do while singing.. also poor sunwoo always being held up when he hates#heights like.. face card so good he forced to be stuntman. also sorry this set IS abt changmin i just cant help my raccoon adoration#002#changmin#ji changmin#the boyz#tbz#tbzinc#kpopco#malegroupsedit#aleksbestie#useroro#eritual#rosieblr#awekslook#higabi#mg:the boyz#m:changmin#flashing tw
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life is unpredictable sometimes, which was a fact that benji was forced to come to terms with when tragedy struck the apartment complex in the form of a freak laundry fire.
as hard as benji tried, there wasn't anything he could do to help save iris' father, and nothing could ever prepare him to watch someone die in front of him.
(this is what happens when u have laundry rooms in ur apartment buildings and none of the npc neighbors clean the lint trays. lmao)
#death tw#ts4#the sims 4#simblr#gameplay#fitch legacy#fitch legacy: gen 1#benji fitch#iris yuan#flashback to me screaming at my pc trying to get benji to extinguish that poor man but the game being unresponsive and broken#gotta turn it into plot i guess đ¤Ş
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Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)
#my ârt#crush depth#crush depth spoilers#fnaf#tw blood#tw drowning#idk how many others apply#anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you#first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too#im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard#I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more#just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it#I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap#the THOUGHTS#poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly#the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point#they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live#naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done.#this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way#and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen#god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in#yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just#I am EXPLODING the more I think about it#thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again#wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive#asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air#I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor#ough.#I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing#this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.
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hey gangalaaaaang remember when i posted a callout here. lol. anyways it happened again here's the twt thread (huge tw for grooming abuse & victimblaming)
tl;dr for those who need a basic rundown stay away from the users @ / horrorbrewery and @ / alliumcrowns . hb (M) is my groomer who knew me since i was 13 and allium (Curse) is their partner who KNOWS they're a groomer / straight up pedo . we all dated each other for a time and once they were done playing with me they both pretty much abandoned me . proof & indepth story is in the qrts + thread itself , and i know aside from twt they're also here so
curse's accounts (fandoms are pretty much listed above but currently she's mostly into fnf, mario's madness/horrorbrew, sonic.exe as well as unused & majin)
M's accounts (fyi for my toontown and rainbow friends mutuals !!! they used to go by oswaldddavis and cogsincorporated / cogsink ! theyre also in the horrorbrew, toontown, rainbow friends , and pacman and the ghostly adventures fandoms.) they're both liars who'll say whatever they need to to get out of this shit, and curse has actively claimed im at fault for my own grooming + abuse. idk if theyve responded to any of these allegations bc theyve blocked me but atp idgaf. theyve both dragged my friends into this situation so it stopped being about ME a longggg fucking time ago.
#call out post#beware#tw grooming#pacman and the ghostly adventures#exe community#horrorbrew#mario's madness#toontown corporate clash#rainbow friends#<- for reach#if you are in any of these fandoms pretty pls stay safe and keep away from them#i wasnt originally gonna speak up on this bc it was just m.#well then it turned out curse was victim blaming me + being a fucking two faced mean girl.#and theyre both username / account hoppers#so atp i feel as if i have a responsibility to speak up on any platforms they frequent#because if some other poor kid got hurt because of me not speaking up i'd never forgive myself
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The first mistake I see people make is assuming there are completely "nonviolent" ways to be transphobic. It seems like some people conceptualize transphobia as being either violent (which is always physical in some way) or nonviolent (which is "simple" emotional, verbal, or psychological abuse)
It seems, also, that people presume that when somebody has "noble" intentions for their transphobia - "I'm trying to save you!" for instance - it is suddenly nonviolent. Consider, though, how a transphobe would "save" a trans person. Would they allow that person to exist unadulterated (including being able to transition), or would they prefer to put them through conversion therapy, or revoke their access to bodily autonomy, or force them to have children, or anything that will prevent them from transition or even identifying as trans or otherwise tying them down with the obligations that prevent transition or identifying as trans?
There is no true "nonviolent" way to be transphobic because being transphobic relies on denying one the ability to autonomy and personhood. Fundamentally, even the transphobes who "want to save us" only do so in their own self-interest to save them from the horror of knowing that more people than they are alive and thriving.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#transphobia#transphobia tw#it's just very frustrating when i see people act as though some transphobia is more acceptable than other forms...#...simply because it isn't overt with how much it wants trans people eradicated...#...transphobes will do whatever it takes both for their comfort and also to wipe the world clean of trans people#in some cases it looks like infantilism ('youre so young! poor thing you're being MANIPULATEDđ') or...#...it could look like outright cut-and-dry violence (conversion therapy or physical abuse). it all depends on the situation...#...what stays the same is the sheer level of hatred and scorn for trans people and the trans condition...#...and it is in that hatred and scorn that you find that ALL forms of transphobia are united...#...so it is just as important to combat ALL forms of transphobia#abuse#abuse tw#abuse mention tw
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"Yet when he tried to picture her, he only saw the wife heâd killed. He had sobbed each time he struck her, and afterward carried her down to the rocks to give her to the crabs." ~A Feast For Crows, The Iron Captain.
Don't you just hate when your sex slave salt wife cheats with, and is knocked up by, your mean brother, forcing you to beat her to death? So rude!
Bonus version with shittily drawn Euron and Balon in the background:
Balon is so done with this shit
#And then poor Vic didn't touch another woman for three years#Honestly he really ought to just stay celibate#And I know this scene should probably have been more gory but oh well#Also I was too lazy trying to draw a dress but the woman being naked just makes it more dramatic or something!#asoiaf#asoiaf art#valyrianscrolls#a song of ice and fire#victarion greyjoy#house greyjoy#Victarion's third salt wife#female nudity#my art#tw abuse#tw blood
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Nightmares were no stranger in the GoldenHeart household. Even if the Institute was gone, and with it the Director's influence, that didn't keep all three people from sometimes jerking awake after their dreams showed them their deepest fears. Ambrosius was haunted by visions of his lover lying in a pool of blood, arm nothing but a stump, while he's helpless to save him. Ballister is plagued by visions of the Queen's death, always left wondering if he could have saved her.
Nimona?
Nimona's nightmares consisted of Gloreth. It would start off happy, with her carrying an elated Gloreth on her back as a horse. Napping amongst the foliage and exploring the forest with her. Then, it would shift. Much like her.
"No, Gloreth, wait!"
"I'm not a monster, I promise!"
No matter what she pleaded, the dreams were always the same. A sword pointed at her heart. A gaze that bled uncertainty, ignorance, distrustâŚ
"Go back to the shadows from whence you came." With that declaration, pain. Blinding, burning pain. ThenâŚnothing. A vast expanse of nothing that left Nimona feeling hollow. Like someone had scraped out her insides with an ice cream scoop.
'Gloreth?'
'Boss?'
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'Ballister?!'
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"DAAAAAD!" The scream jolted Ballister and Ambrosius from a rare bout of restful sleep. Fast little footsteps thundered down the hall and both men jumped up. Bal ran to the door, throwing it open. There, standing in the hall, was a frantic and very confusedâŚ
"Nimona?" Bal inquired. He lookedâŚyounger. Smaller, with longer hair that was a darker red than usual. Big pink eyes looked up at him,and tears began to spill over as Nimona let out a wail. Ballister had her in his arm before he could think. He turned to Ambrosius, who stood in the doorway shocked.
"Grab my arm, Bambi." Ambrosius reached for him, before remembering what he meant and running back into the bedroom. Bal sighed, turning back to the panicked child in his grasp. Nimona clung to his nightshirt, hiccuping and sobbing.
"I'm not a monster, Daddy, I'm not!" She wailed. Ambrosius returned, helping Bal put on his arm. He stood, scooping Nimona up. As he cradled her to his chest, Ballister pressed their foreheads together.
"I know, Mona. I know. You're not a monster. I know, it's ok. You're ok." She threw her arms around his neck, still sobbing. Ambrosius came closer, petting her hair.
"It's ok, sweetheart." He murmured. "They're the monsters, for sending you away. What happened is not your fault, ok?" She peeked up at him from her hiding place in Ballister's shoulder, sniffling. Ambrosius wiped her tears with a smile. The trio migrated into Bal and Ambrosius' room, and the former sat legs crossed on the bed. He cradled Nimona close, letting her cry into his shirt. Finally, she seemed spent, and went limp against his chest.Â
Ballister gently kissed the child's cheek, humming softly as he rocked. Nimona cuddled into his chest, sighing. Bal hummed sympathetically.
"Bad dreams, kiddo? That's no fun." Nimona shook her head with a sniffle. Ambrosius sat beside Ballister and brushed a strand of hair from Nimona's face. With a deep sigh, he guided his boyfriend to lay back down on the bed. The pair curled around Nimona, both holding her and soothing her whimpers with soft reassurances. Eventually, she fell asleep, and the tiny child was replaced by a stockier teen with a far more shaved hairstyle. The scared furrow of her brow remained, even in sleep. Ballister and Ambrosius made eye contact, and the blonde smirked.
"Dad, huh?" Ballister let out a breathless laugh.
"Not a word to her about this tomorrow, Ambrosius." He ordered, albeit quietly. Chuckling, Ambrosius leaned in and kissed his boyfriend. They snuggled into the soft pillows, soon following Nimona into a peaceful sleep. All the rest of that night, no nightmares plagued the GoldenHeart household. And if there were, they'd face all of them together.
#fic drabble#goldenheart#ballister boldheart#ambrosius goldenloin#nimona#my poor genderfluid baby shark#Ballister is Nimona's dad prove me wrong#nevermind you can't#Ambrosius being a supportive himbo#*casually forgets his bf is an amputee#tw nightmares#gloreth was a manipulated child stop villainizing her
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new gemini update was so good as always but I can't stop thinking:
big mama: there's nothing wrong with my sons
splinter: you fucked up two perfectly good kids is what you did. look at blue. he's got an eating disorder
wwhhhattttt? nooo, don't be silly. leo doesn't have an eating disorder.
leo and donnie have eating disorders--
#this is a Joke but also No It's Not#it's just different flavors lmao#but both of them have absolutely fucked relationships with food#my poor babies... :(... who did this to you...?#(it was me i did)#leo spends a lot of time worrying about whAT hes eating and how mUCH hes eating and if hes eating the rIGHT thing#largely due to his mom and also just being a celebrity/child celebrity in general#but also in part due to:#donnie has a lot of food sensitivities which have really never been accommodated for at all and as a result he just#has a very negative association with food and eating. he doesnt LIKE eating and he avoids it a majority of the time.#its stressful and unpleasant and he doesnt like it#which ofc only gave leo another reason to hyperfixate on food and calories and nutritional value etc etc etc#which leads to#ironically#leo (who def has an undiagnosed ed and restricts/denies himself food regularly): worrying abt making sure donnie eats enough#donnie will do the same thing back sometimes but not with the same obsessiveness that leo does#esp because the ideals surrounding eating and dieting set up around them really kind of just#lead them both to believe (at least to an extent) that leo is fine and eats a totally healthy and ok amount of food (esp in comparison to d#(no he doesnt)(and even when he does thats not the point)#tw eating disorders#cw eating disorders#eating disorders#tw disorders eating#cw disordered eating#disordered eating#gemini au asks#asks#anon
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