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9 Peeps you'd like to get to know better

tagged by @nickelkeep

Three Ships: Charthur (RDR2) Reid/Foyet (Criminal Minds) Hancon (DBH)

First Ever Ship: Vegeta and Bulma

Last Song: Rather Be by Clean Bandit

Last Film: Last movie I watched was "The Wind Rises"

Currently Reading: Charthur fanfiction

Currently Watching: I watch/listen to a lot of Game Grumps (my comfort background sound) but I am watching Adventure Time, Great British Bake Off and Triple D usually

Currently Consuming: Coca Cola

Currently Craving: Not sure really, I'm craving food stuff but also emotional stuff

Tagging: @starstrucklucky @t3acupz @thosetwistedtales @daddyfuckedme @mrsdanieljackson @boopthemanbooster @savage-rhi @badheroes @tilliwriteapine

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@thosetwistedtales

I've been away so long and stayed so silent. Trapped inside my own head and trying desperately to be okay for other people while I've been drowning inside. Utterly Joyless... But I'm back. And I hope this time it's to stay <3

[cup-patience]

Begita cici4

[fateisme]

Aku tahu ke mana tempat ternyaman dan tepat untuk mengadu. Ya, ke haribaan-Nya.

Masalahnya adalah sudah begita banyak dosa yang kubuat secara berulang setiap harinya. Lalu ketika masalah datang bertubi-tubi, aku mengira ini adalah teguran.

Apakah doa atau aduan pendosa masih didengar? Apakah pantas pendosa ini datang dan menceritakan segala sesuatunya?

[whatwhyhowsworld]

"Semakin banyak kamu melihat, semakin banyak yang kamu inginkan"

Ini adalah kalimat yang tiba-tiba terbersit dalam benak, saat aku begita banyak berangan-angan. "Barangkali" kataku "karena terlalu banyak mata ini memandang kenikmatan orang lain, yang membuat saya juga menginginkannya". Karena, tak mungkin saya tiba-tiba menginginkan sesuatu yang sebelumnya belum pernah saya lihat atau saya dengar informasinya.

Dan apapun yang dilihat, bisa foto dan video, atau suara yang didengar, akan memberikan informasi pada otak. Otak akan mencerna, dan nafsu juga akan bekerja. Saat melihat makanan, tentu saat badan sehat, akan memberikan stimulus pada perut untuk lapar. Begitu pun pada hal-hal yang lebih kompleks. Misal saat saya melihat gambar atau video tentang buku, saya sangat senang dan memotivasi saya untuk segera menamatkan bacaan saya. Ini sangat unik. Begitu seterusnya. Apapun yang kamu lihat apa lagi terus menerus, tentu akan memberikan efek pada pemikiran, cara bicara, gaya tulisan, perasaan, sikap, tindakan, dst.

Maka penting untuk sadar dengan apa yang sering disaksikan. Seperti logaritma media sosial, yang akan menampilkan apa-apa yang sering disaksikan penggunanya, manusia pun akan menampilkan apa yang ada dalam pikiran, hati nurani, dan jiwanya.

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Wasn’t tagged but wanted to post. But I will tag @themechaneer @boopthemanbooster @weird-and-gifted @mrsdanieljackson @rohrkatze @nekonightwing @starstrucklucky

I was tagged by @winebearcat ! Things saved to my phone that describe me:

Tagging @sulky-valkyrie @grimmcake @okthisway @wesslesprout @perlen-gold @trans-ruffboi & anyone else who wants to.

[frenfamhong]

Recuperavo la Live #7 della vet run dei buon @cydonia_pm & @mike.of.the.desert Ed era d’obbligo il tributo al sacrificio del nostro eroe “BEGITA” Riposa in Pace guerriero! #illustrator #artist #art #arte #mangaboy #digitalart #beginnerartist #drawing #draw #animedrawing #anime #manga #animethighs #characterdesign #digital #digitaldrawing #digitalartwork #illustration #instaart #pokemon #dragonball #cydonia #sabakunomaiku #vetrun #twitchitalia https://www.instagram.com/p/CpaXJLroccT/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Life Update

Hey Guys

I know I said I was coming back, and I fully intended to. Then I injured my back... badly

I ruptured a disc in my back on one of my lowest vertebrae and now have lost most of the feeling in my left leg :(

In the next week here I'm being scheduled for spinal surgery.

Strangely I'm doing okay. Since my last post a lot of things have gotten sorted (mostly family drama) which has taken a huge weight off of me. Then I fell on the stairs. I only fell down two steps but Ianded hard on my butt and then hit my back against the stair.

This was almost 2 months ago, and I was going to physio for it until my disability decided not to cover it. I was sent to an "Impartial" specialist who had the nerve to tell me that most of my pain was likely "Psychological" haven't had that kind of flippant disrespect about my health in awhile.

On the 30th of October I went to lay down for a nap, when I woke up just the act of sitting up left me in agony. My wonderful husband then spent the next few hours with me using hot and cold compresses and trying to help me get through the pain because the hospital said it was probably just sciatic pain... Halloween rolls around and I've lost all feeling in my left thigh.

I decided "FUCK IT" and went to emergency, where after a good 9 hours I finally saw a doctor who would take me seriously. And by that time my entire left thigh, part of my calf, and most of my back end and groin were completely numb. They took my sock off and my foot was grey. It was pretty scary.

The doctor there did a battery of tests for everthing he could think of, he did manage to get a bit of feeling back into my calf and foot with an injection. But everything else was still pins and needles. I had an MRI and well.. as you can see the lower disc was pushed so far out it was impinging on all the nerves to my left leg.

I spent Halloween and most of the next day in emergency. Had a lovely panic attack, got mildly sedated, there were no beds so I was stuck in a shitty recliner in a corner between two drug attics. One who wouldn't stop complaining and then throwing fits and the other who had some kind of blood borne illness with open sores. It was fucking terrible.

Today I had to drive almost 2 hours to another city to see a neurosurgeon who was also livid no one had done anything for me in over two months and said that even with surgery I may never get full feeling back in my leg (cries) This then followed more X-rays, blood work (7 vials taken oi vey) and an ECG.

Turns out I also have a rare heart defect - that only one other person in my family has - that causes my heart to skip a beat every third beat. They also (because I'm anemic) had to go through the process of signing a ton of forms for the possibility that I may need a transfusion during or after surgery....

This was supposed to be a short post I swear -_-

Thursday I have to go for a full physical and do even MORE paperwork, and then drive again 2 hours away to another city to have my surgery.

FML

So yeah, I still very much want to be creating and posting I just haven't been able to sit or concentrate much as I am taking pain killers (that do not want to work with my antidepressants) so I've either been completely out of it or just stuck doing one thing and one thing only (which has mostly been just riding around in RDR2 hunting, fishing and exploring) I also finished the new Zelda game cuz... well I've been laying down a lot.

Holy Jeebs have I been bored. In between that I've also been trying to keep GiraffeBarn active and get into a few local stores again.

2024 has been hectic and chaotic.

I'm hopeful that the new year will bring me some much needed peace and clarity.

So yeah, I'm not gone, I'm still lurking about and I still plan to post again (when I can)

I miss you all so very much (especially my wifey <3)

Hope you all are well

much love

B

[femmepeterparker]

begita....

[realityisthefeywild]

Begita from the ACNH Island Taboato thank you so much for the Tangy poster! I'm afraid I can't remember who you are but I do know you are awesome and kind!

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lmao omg what is this supposed to be???

enter your tumblr username in the ai pokémon generator:

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Hey everyone, I have started a gofundme as a means to get some help with my spinal recovery and mounting bills - I would really appreciate any support you can give whether you’re able to donate or share the post anything would help me out. Thanks so much 💚🙏

- B

https://gofund.me/230fd164

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Ramadhan 1441 H

Ramadhan kali ini berbeda yaa, gumam semua orang. Yah, memang amat berbeda dari Ramadhan yang pernah dilalui manusia abad ini. Masjid tak lagi ramai dengan sholat berjamaah. Bukan karena kita ingin, tetapi keadaan yang memaksa. Tak boleh ada sholat tarawih berjamaah, begita fatwa dari ulama. Otomatis masjid kosong, tak harus menunggu sepertiga akhir ramadhan, bahkan dari awal Ramadhan. Siapa yang tak sedih dengan kondisi ini. Semua pasti sedih, kalau kita masih punya iman di dalam hati. 

Tahun ini Ramadhan di rumah saja. Jauh dari keramaian segala agenda Ramadhan yang entah berfaedah atau tidak seperti biasanya. Jika godaan Ramadhan biasanya adalah ngabuburit dengan kegiatan - kegiatan diluar yang jauh dari nilai - nilai Ramadhan, sekarang godaannya berbeda. Godaan terbesar adalah waktu luang. Yah, seperti yang pernah Rasulullah katakan salah satu yang sangat sering manusia lalaikan adalah waktu luang. Nah, sekarang tinggal kita memilih mau kita apakan waktu luang kita? Waktu luang itu bisa menjadi sebuah potensi besar di Ramadhan ini, menanam sabanyak - banyak amal sholeh yang balasan kebaikannya tiap detik berkali lipat besarnya di banding bulan lain. 

Ramadhan kali ini jadi berbeda. Biasanya semangat Ramadhan itu kita peroleh dari kajian bareng menjelang maghrib, sholat berjamah lima waktu, tilawah bareng di masjid, bertemu teman - teman sholeh, sholat tarawih tiap malam, dan momen khas Ramadhan lainnya. Namun sekarang semangat Ramadhan itu harus kita dapatkan sendiri, dalam diri dan hati masing - masing, Dan apakah semangat itu masih akan tetap muncul kala kita harus sendiri? Jika tak ada semangat seperti biasanya, kita patut introspeksi, jangan - jangan semangat Ramadhan yang dulu itu hanya euforia belaka, tak ada nilai keimanan di dalamnya. 

Ramadhan kali ini memang berbeda. Namun jangan sampai menjadikan penyambutan pada tamu yang paling agung tiap tahun ini menjadi berbeda. Sambutlah ini dengan lebih bersemangat. Memang Ramadhan kali ini, kita harus mengkarantina diri di rumah masing - masing karena wabah, namun yang lebih penting lagi jadikan karantina ini momen untuk lebih dekat kepada Allah hingga hubungan kita menjadi intens kepadaNya. Sungguh jika iman itu masih ada di dada kita, banyak hikmah yang bisa kita dapatkan dari kondisi saat ini. Tentang rasa syukur karena masih bisa bertemu Ramadhan, saat banyak saudara-saudara kita telah gugur karena wabah. Tentang rasa sabar karena bagitu banyak keterbatasan untuk segala ujian dan keterbatasan dalam berbagai hal. Tentang rasa takut karena bisa jadi ini adalah peringatan dariNya karena ulah manusia. Tentang rasa harap yang begitu besar agar segala kondisi ini kembali baik-baik saja. Begitu banyak rasa, yang bisa jadi antara aku dan kamu mengecap rasa yang berbeda. 

Marhaban yaa Ramadhan, jangan pernah lemah semangat kawan karena Ramadhan kali ini akan tetap dengan berbagai macam keutamaannya bagaimanapun kondisi kita sekarang. Segerakan selalu amal kebaikan, kurangi rebahan. 

Malang, 4 Ramadhan 1441 H

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Begita-sama 🤴🏻👑💪🏽👊🏽

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Ethan

Remove the first and last letter of your name. Let’s see how cool is your new name.

Ranci.