#before that i was just rping with my friend online which is like technically still fandom stuff

[adhdvane]

Have you ever been one to be active in fandoms?

oh??? i was very active in fandoms, like a decade ago (god it feels to weird to think 2013 was a decade ago rip). 2012 to about 2015 I was pretty damn active. I withdrew from a lot of fandom activity around that time due to mental health problems (and a certain fandom that sexually harassed me to the point of leaving). It was a good break for my mental health. I still participate in fandom here and there nowadays. My brain has just mostly occupied myself in smaller fandoms, and creating art/writing takes a lot more energy than it used to + i have less time for it. i guess it really depends on what you mean by "active in fandoms" as well. i am here, on my tumblr, almost every day, looking at my dash xD I draw a lot less (bc god I used to pump that shit out), and I don't always post everything I do. I am also HORRIBLE AT FINISHING MY WRITING ENOUGH TO POST ANYTHING ANYMORE (which sucks, god i used to write like crazy pre 2012 when i was a hs student, tho 90% of it was never uploaded anywhere, some of it was… of ff accounts that don't exist anymore lol, i think i posted on ao3 before then too but those fics are also long gone.).

tbh, i think at this point my deal is, i don't have the energy to do anything beyond posting stuff i do create and talking to people if they find me. i some times think about going out and looking for people to talk to but i always end up going, luci no one out there wants to listen to your shippy granblue rambling and half written fics for it lol (bless jellyyy for being the one to listen <3 the one who pulled me into this hell in the first place)

[cristobalrios]

All of them. All of the joy. Spread it. Fuck you. <3

Spread the Love! Meme | Accepting!

This is an aggressive request to spread joy, but. I will take it.

Also, here's the jerk :p person who requested all of them I mentioned earlier.

1. What's a roleplay blog whose characterization you admire?

So we only have one thread but @therapardalis Thera is fun and honestly what Cris needs at this point in his storyline. He's in an extremely reclusive part of his life and Thera has quite honestly an excellent balance of light conversation ("light" as in small/not delving into details, not content-wise)/asking (and answering) questions and not pushing for details even though he's clearly got some Stuff going on. It's good for him to meet someone like Thera and know he's not the only person going through this kind of thing, and would be more so if/when he learns a bit more about her story and obviously their stories are not identical but they're similar enough in certain ways that it'll be good for him and make him feel less alone.

2. What's a roleplay blog whose writing style you admire?

@agnespjurati (@talvenhenki) Orion, both for Agnes when they RP her and the fics they've written. Also, I know this is stepping out of the RP sphere but shout out to @procrastinatorproject because I adore Lili's fics<3

3. What's a roleplay blog who always has the best plot ideas?

I'm saying Dean @assasenach again because we have the most threads and we talk ooc about ideas/headcanons all the time every day, so.

4. What's a roleplay blog whose artwork/edits/icons you admire?

@musikcr Nix! We just started following each other but her blog is so pretty, honestly. Like I said when I reblogged your promo, your edits are gorgeous.

@heartfledged Sarah's blog is ridiculously gorgeous and also her art is beautiful, whenever she'd post her stuff in the Discord I would have heart eyes. So pretty.

@assasenach Dean has great taste in aesthetic and it's simple compared to the other two mentioned but clean, efficient and pleasing, and I always like the edits he makes.

5. What's the roleplay blog you've been writing with the longest here?

Yeah obviously obviously that's Logan @manenimittliv, February was our, what? 7th anniversary of the first interaction between our first ship Erik/Anna with my Phantom blog @princeofconjurers and their OC (we'd interacted a little bit before that with their Raoul but that was like, a week or something before that, and then at sometime even before that very briefly with their version of Christine's father Gustave Daae but I didn't realize that until sometime later that that was also their blog). We've jumped multiple fandoms together and we pretty much autoship. They're my bff and the only originally online friend I've ever gotten to meet irl (three times) and I love them to death<3

6. What's a roleplay blog who's an absolute joy to talk to ooc?

The people I talk to ooc the most are @manenimittliv Logan and @assasenach Dean my current bffs so obviously I adore talking to them ooc (although I wouldn't say Dean is "joyful" talking to him does make me happy, so before you say anything, shush). I've primarily been talking with @iamselfmade PJ out of character but we're RPing now too but yeah, he's great and I love doing streams with him. I said Serena @empathicstars already for the "friendly mun" thing which honestly this question is rather similar to so maybe I should save some people for that question below, slkdjf

7. What's a roleplay blog you love whose character you didn't know until you started writing with them?

Well, besides OCs, I'm not currently RPing with any canon characters I did not previously know the character before I RPed with them, but I'll say Vasher back when Sarah @heartfledged RPed him on @cosmoshearted (which I would still love to continue/redo if/when you ever revive him as you've said you might do in the past, as well as the stuff with Resool, and I'm always up for stuff with Av<3). I did not know anything about that fandom but it turns out my brother-in-law loves it and he got my mom to start reading those books and I'm just like oh! I've heard of that! That's where Vasher is from (I realized it because my mom mentioned Kelsier who I also heard of from Sarah too) and I will get around to reading it at some point, I promise.

Also, PJ made a blog of a character I don't know and followed me on it and we talked about him and Elnor doing something so I'm gonna put @fifty-one-doc here too

Shout out to the OCs who of course I didn't know until I started writing with them but who I love, Anna @manenimittliv, Lorian/Paris previously Sylar @assasenach, Ellie @mclti, Manny @perfection-reached, Thera @therapardalis, Cheryl @ckingsbury1967, Av @heartfledged, any and all of my friends' OCs! Those are just the ones I'm RPing with rn. Give me all the OCs, I love them.

8. What's a roleplay blog with a friendly mun?

Dany hasn't really been RPing anymore but @empathyvslogic still counts. @heartfledged Sarah is great too. Jeanette @ltbroccoli, Logan @manenimittliv (yes I'm mentioning you again), Jamie @livedtough / @quantumstarpaths, Courtney @starsdestined, Eros @tongowheel, Hope @astraldestiny, Fool @strings-have-been-cut, Gin @alyafae, so many people I'm sure I'm missing some (as well as the ones mentioned above). Honestly everyone is friendly and I love all my mutuals<3

9. What's a roleplay blog whose dedication you admire?

So I've answered this question several times now but I know I did not include @mclti when I talked about multis and though I only roleplay with Ellie, Spyro deserves a mention for that "multis are so dedicated" thing I talked about here. I'm sure I'm missing things again too, but yeah. <3

Also, again I have to do a shout out to Lili even though it's still not RP because @mappinglasirena is a beautiful project and although it's technically more for fics, since that's what Lili writes, I as a Cris and Holo Squad RPer use it too, for RP purposes, so I say it counts as an RP resource blog like I did with the directory. And Lili is dedicated to this and I am here for it. I love our conversations about the tiny little details dearly.

10. What's a roleplay blog that always keeps you pleasantly surprised?

As other people have mentioned, this is kind of a weird question but I'm gonna go with Dean @assasenach. I'm not surprised by anything Dean does anymore, so "keeps" me pleasantly surprised isn't exactly right (although it is for certain things like whenever he compliments me I'm like ????) but this is here because the ship caught me by surprise. Like, OC/Canon (with me playing the canon) is my sweet spot when it comes to ships I fixate on, but I did not know they'd be shipped together until Dean posted a short fic about Cris and Raffi talking about then Sylar but now Lorian, Raffi asking Cris why he accepted his reassignment and Cris asking her what "t'hy'la" means and I was like Oh. Oh I like this, they're really cute (Note: I was already really liking their thread before Dean posted that fic, they had a great dynamic and chemistry and I was here for it) and now we're here.

11. What's a roleplay blog you admire from afar?

Good question. Umm, I'm going to say Jamie @livedtough / @quantumstarpaths because we've talked plenty ooc and we're in several Discords together, I love Jamie, but we haven't actually RPed together and I would love to change that at any time (we have talked about some things in the past throwing ideas around just never got to writing them).

Kame @cadetxtilly / @maldonadonco again we're in a Discord together and ze's really sweet but we haven't RPed, so

And just. Anyone in the Discords I'm active in that I have yet to RP with/have only RPed with a little bit. I love all of you.

[rkxluda]

rkfifth

I really can't remember my first rookies muse, but she must either have been one of my Soyeon muses, or Park Shinhye. I've tried to find her on the old main, but welp. But I do remember how I first found rookies. The first rp I ever joined was university themed one, which feels like forever ago. After it closed, I wanted to bring my muse somewhere else, so I asked if anyone knew any interesting rps and I was told to look at rookies. My first reaction was kind of... neutral. The whole idol thing had never interested me too much, never having been interested in being famous myself, so rping a muse who did felt difficult. Obviously I eventually decided to join anyways and that should've been around 4 years ago. I've had my fair share of muses here, most of them pretty short-lived, before Luda, the longest was a Soyeon for around 6 months I think. They all had a focus on singing and most of them were soft singer-songwriters, who wanted to make the world a better place with their music.

One thing that I saw a lot of posts mention positovely, used to be a big problem for me. Everyone always seemed to have so many friends here at rookies, but it never seemed to apply to me, especially during aim times, worrying whether the message really didn't get sent or whether I was too weird to plot with. So the reasons that I left often was feeling excluded, besides simply losing muse. But during those past 4 years I'd like to think that I've grown and learned some things and that rookies helped me with that. While I learned a lot of this offline, being here helped me understand that I wasn't always being excluded but that I was excluding myself, both while rping but also in my daily life. I still have problems with social situations (so if it takes me a week to answer, I promise I haven't forgotten, I'm just still worrying over how to reply. Even if I say I forgot that's just easier to explain if that makes sense. Any longer than that, though, and my birdbrain probably attacked), whether they're online (especially group chats) or in person, but I'd like to think I don't panic quite as much anymore when I try to reply to ims or dms and that's something. It might sound a bit much (and I promise the sob story will be over now) but rookies (and roleplaying in general) really helped me with that sort of stuff.

Back to my muses, though, I feel like I've had a lot more than I actually did. There were multiple Soyeon's (Laboum), a Park Shinhye, a Juniel, a Jeon Boram, former aoa member Choa and I think that's it? At least that's all the muses I remember/which's acceptances I've saved as screenshots.

And of course now I've got Luda! I can't believe I've had Luda for this long already. She was first accepted on the 29th March 2017, but at the end of the year there were some *coughs* technical errors on my side *coughs* so after missing an activity check, she was soon back at the 10th January 2018. She started out not being interested in becoming a singer as I thought developing that over time would help me keep the muse – finding a way into this together, so to speak. And it seems to have worked since I've still got her. From having her dreams crushed because she was overworked, to fleeing herself into the dream of idol-hood and joining the mgas on a whim, she's surely come a long way. I never expected (or even intended) for her to stick through the the mgas for so long, I was dead sure she'd be kicked out after the first round. She hadn't been practising for long after all and most of her development happened as solos, barely any development through plots with others. I honestly still can't believe she's made it this far! I know I've been saying that since the mgas ended, but I can't help it. And while I don't expect her to debut any time soon at all, having her be a trainee already gave me so much joy and excitement and I've got more muse for her than ever.

Even if I still kinda suck as a mun, being slow as a sloth and all, it's incredibly fun to write for her and I hope to bring a new muse over the next weeks, though I want to get things settled for Luda properly first, so maybe not before next year. I really want a muse being more the opposite of her though, so one day!

So in conclusion, while I may still be too awkward to really hold conversations for long, for the past two years I've felt super welcome at rookies and both muse and I have accomplished things, I'd never expected (even if that sounds super silly). I don't usually talk about personal stuff too much online, for the fear of coming off as weird, but figured what better time than this? I've read a lot of you describe rookies as a safe haven and I guess I can agree (after all, no matter for how long I was gone, I always came back in the end and now here we are).

[dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt]

Will you ever tell the story of that person and what happened?

Technically there were 2 people, the first one was super bad and our relationship lasted for 4 years, the 2nd person only lasted about 9 months, because when she started showing signs of being abusive I gave her 1 chance to y’know, not take all her anger out on me and drop-kick me right in my insecurites again, and when she did it again without remorse I told her to please get therapy and noped out bc I literally could not deal with that again.

I actually wasn’t planning on it bc I didn’t know anyone wanted to hear it but?? I can??? Story is under the cut, be warned, it’s uh very long and kinda depressing?? and has mentions of my ED and suicidal thoughts and self harm and emotional abuse and panic attacks and all that so, ye. All the trigger warnings.

Note: I’m going to leave a few things out because I really don’t want to talk about them. But most of it’s gonna be here.

I met my first abuser online when I was 14, on a site called Quotev (basically just a writing and quiz site, I’m sure you’ve seen it around.)

Up until that point, I wrote almost every day (with the exception of writer’s block which everyone has, y’know.) I would write from 7AM till I went to bed at 9PM pretty much. I was having the time of my life. I only had mild anxiety (mostly social) and no sign of depression. But I was also home-schooled and didn’t really like interacting with people, so I had never really had friends or deep extended social experiences. In short, I was very happy, very eager to please, and very, very naive. I saw only the good in people and didn’t know any better.

My abuser was a girl, 2 years older than me, so she was 16 when we first met. She was Canadian (lmao don’t trust stereotypes.) For this story, I’m going to call her E, yeah?

So, E and I met when a complimented one of her quizzes. We started RPing (role-playing) together, in a LOTR world. Everything was great. I looked forward to talking to her, and we talked every single day. She quickly became my best friend. Since I was so eager to please and just wanted to make my favourite person happy, I would compliment her a lot and try to help her get over her insecurities. To me, she was perfect, and I wanted her to know that. I developed a crush on her, obviously.

Soon, due to some nerfs the mods had made on the site, she decided that we should move to Skype and RP via email. A few weeks after that, RPing and talking to her took up so much time I didn’t really have the time to be on the site at all anymore. I gave all my other (healthy) friends on there a stupid excuse as to why I was “taking a break” and then left without a word for 3 years. I’ll always regret that, it was a dick thing to do, but I wasn’t thinking clearly. Because I thought that’s what best friends did for each other, made them priority. Like I said, I was extremely naive.

Now that I was isolated, things started to change, very subtly. If I ever seemed to be having too much fun in an RP, she would “forget” to reply to my part, only replying to the part about her. When I got confused and asked her, she blamed it on her ADHD, and since I didn’t have it, I couldn’t exactly call her out. 

She always picked the RPs we did for the day. She always had her ideas in the RPs. If I ever suggested an RP, we would do it for about 20 minutes before she wanted to do one of hers, or she got bored, etc etc. She also LOVED Angst. I mean, an unhealthy amount of angst. She would start at LEAST 2 new RPs every day and every SINGLE one would be angsty. Every. Single. One.

She wanted to RP smut with me but back then I was very uncomfortable with it. Still, she pushed, so eventually I gave in and did it. Then I found out I actually really liked to write smut and asked her more often, but suddenly she didn’t like smut and wouldn’t do it. Because I liked it. And it was something she knew she could control me with, but I had no idea.

We - or should I say, I - would write drabbles for her, sometimes based on RPs, sometimes just ideas I had. I would write at least one (around 2 pages) for her every day, occasionally multiple drabbles a day. 99% of them were all angst btw. There’s only a limited amount of angst ideas out there but I managed. Bc I wanted her to be happy. For every, 20(???) drabbles I wrote her, she would write me one. That would be half a page long. Eventually she started saying things like “is that it?” or just wouldn’t say anything when I sent her the daily drabble, and when I asked if she’d liked it she just said “yeah” and move on to talking about what she wanted to RP for the day.

If I ever said anything she didn’t like, or annoyed her, she would just stop talking to me, completely cold shoulder, until I got frantic and started begging her to talk to me again and I would write something for her to make up for it.

If I actually gathered all my courage to ask her if she could write me something, she would yell at me and curse at me and call me selfish and tell me that I KNEW she was going through so much shit with her bad family (though now I actually doubt her family was bad at all because anything she vented about actually just sounded very petty and not the crushing stuff she made it out to be??) and her mental health and how she was TRYING. And when I apologized about 10 times she finally let it go and said that she would “put what I wanted on the list” and “try to write it” when she could. (Spoiler alert: I never got a single thing from that list. But she did write herself 15 pages of content in 2 hours and showed me all of it. So it wasn’t like she couldn’t write. She just wanted to write for herself.)

Even when she DID write me something she wouldn’t write anything I wanted, it would be angst like she liked and it would STILL somehow be about her, not me.

Almost every single day she would be having a bad day, because she knew if she told me that I would do anything she said to make her feel better. If I ever had a bad day, she would just say “that sucks” and move onto talking about RPs or herself and how she was having an even shittier day. She would be short-tempered and constantly be on the brink of shutting me out or blowing up at me. I felt like I was walking on eggshells constantly and I had to second-guess everything I said and did because I didn’t want to upset her. If I made a mistake in an RP (bc of course we both had different ideas of how things looked or what placement things were in) she would laugh and tease me about it even when I told her it was hurtful.

At this point, I was talking to her all day, every single day. From 9AM when I got up, often till 2AM or even later because she always found a way to keep me up, either by having something bad happen or just because she “missed” me. I was exhausted and the constantly anxiety of watching everything I did and trying so hard not to get yelled at just made it worse. Literally from the SECOND I woke up, I would be hit by a wave of dread and anxiety so strong I’d feel physically sick and dry heave at the idea of eating anything. I would go out to my computer and log in and pray and pray it was going to be one of her good days. Occasionally (and I mean, once every few months) it would be, we would have a great fun day where everything was equal and if I was really lucky she would write me something (I would end up having to write her 2 or 3 things to make up for her writing 1 thing but at least I got something!) Because of how anxious I was the relief that it was going to be a good day was like an actual fucking high, which only made the fun better. Most of the time though, it wasn’t a good day, and my stomach would drop, I can’t really express to you how much fear and dread I felt on those days, anyone who has been in a similar relationship will know what I mean.

I felt so, so worthless. I wasn’t worth any effort, I wasn’t worth anything. Every good thing I tried to do was either not enough, or I ended up fucking it up and upsetting her. I deserved to be yelled at or have things taken away from me because I was the one who messed up I apologized in every other sentence for every single thing I did just to try and stave off the yelling if it irritated her. Because I felt so sick from anxiety all the time and because I wanted to have SOME form of control, I started to restrict my eating, more and more over time. Because I was constantly anxious and thus extremely physically tense, I started getting awful headaches and ended up taking pills to dull them every day. Unsurprisingly since I was taking them every day, I got addicted to the pills and whenever I didn’t take them I got migraines and felt even sicker. If I had a migraine and physically couldn’t be online bc I couldn’t see the screen, she would send me messages upon messages, sometimes getting up into the hundreds asking me where I was and why I wasn’t online.

She would always say she loved me and that I was pretty and that I was her favourite person, but when I finally, finally was done enough to tell her outright that she made me feel worthless, she just said “you’re not worthless” and then changed the subject. I should mention that we had our own kind of unspoken language with emojis and the way we wrote. For example, if she made a smiley like this :D it was genuine, but if she made it like this :) it was passive-aggressive and meant that I’d done something to annoy her and every time I saw it I would immediately start panicking and trying to think of what I could have done wrong. (I still have a jolt of panic to this day lmao embarrassing.) And if she sent no emojis at all it meant I’d really pissed her off. So when she sent the “you’re not worthless” without any emojis and immediately changed the subject, it meant that she didn’t want to hear that and that it made her really angry.

If I ever liked a fictional character and wanted to RP with them, she would make me ship them with her just so I knew they were hers and I couldn’t have them, so now I have a very hard time getting attached to canon characters.

Writing, a thing I had always loved and enjoyed more than anything in the world, the only thing I thought I was really good at, became a job - not even a job, because I had no reward. It became a chore. Something I dreaded and even hated. I didn’t want to waste energy and inspiration on writing things for my own enjoyment when I should have been writing a drabble or two for her. Sometimes I tried to write a bunch in one day so I could have a few days of blissful rest until I’d used them all up and had to start again. If I didn’t write for her, I’d get the cold silence. And since writing was my therapy and way of venting all my emotions, and I wasn’t writing anymore for those reasons, my feelings just stayed inside me and rotted. To this day, a whole year and a few months later, my writing is STILL not back on track.

NOTE: YES, THIS IS WHY I AM SO PROTECTIVE OF MY FRIENDS WITH IMAGINES BLOGS. BECAUSE THE WAY THEY DESCRIBE BEING BURNT OUT AND FEELING LIKE THEIR WRITING IS WORK IS EXACTLY HOW I FELT. AND THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL GOOD PEOPLE WITH AMAZING WRITING TALENT AND I DO NOT WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED TO ME HAPPEN TO THEM.

At the end, I started thinking about killing myself. I couldn’t cut bc in summer time I had a lot of bare skin showing and so I didn’t have anywhere I could really hide cuts from my parents. My ED and the hunger pains where my only form of self harm and that just wasn’t enough anymore. So I started accumulating a stash of pills under my mattress. I was squeamish and didn’t want to die by slitting my wrists. I knew I’d need a lot of pills bc I had built up a tolerance to them so I kept steadily collecting, taking them here and there where I knew my parents wouldn’t notice (my Mum has chronic pain and takes pills regularly, which is why I had to be sneaky.)

I only got out of the relationship because I started having full-blown hyperventilating, sobbing, borderline screaming mental breakdowns out of absolutely nowhere (to them.) They finally got the truth out of me and told me that no, it wasn’t healthy, and I had to get out right now. Luckily, E wasn’t being so subtle anymore and was so confidant that she broke me she could just bluntly tell me whatever she wanted and know I would do it. So I left. Left her a good bye note on Skype and to this day I haven’t gone back on.

(Also I did find out later that she had tried to copy one of my OCs and I’m not joking when I say my vision turned red bc you can fuck with me all you want but if you look funny at my OC babies I will beat you to death with a crowbar)

I weaned myself off the pills I was taking for my headaches. I’d made a Tumblr account out of curiosity a few months before and started talking to some people, so I started spending more time on Tumblr. I started trying, bit by bit, to eat more. I went to see a therapist. But I felt even more worthless than before, because what was the point of me if I wasn’t existing to make her happy? Honestly that was how I felt. That was my thought process.

I still planned on killing myself. Wasn’t so much an if than a when. I was kind of drifting through life, idly wondering what would be the last straw that broke my back and kind of wishing it would hurry up already. I didn’t want anyone on Tumblr getting super attached to me bc I didn’t want to hurt people. I had my goodbye note written out. I waited.

This is going to sound stupid but I have heard that suicidal people’s brains don’t want to die deep down and will cling to literally anything that might keep them alive. My slap upside the head wake-up call was actually a friend’s OC: steverogershield’s Conrad. A character who was struggling a lot but trying to stay functional for a loved one. It was such a small, dumb thing, but for some reason it hit me hard that maybe I was not as worthless as I thought I was, and maybe people actually would miss me for longer than a day if I died.

Again, that’s dumb. And embarrassing. But Enna and her Conrad are the reason I’m still here so. go and thank her for my continued dumbass meme presence. 😂

The second person isn’t that involved. She obviously had some kind of anger disorder and knew it but she also??? just didn’t want to go to therapy?? like straight up just didn’t want to so she didn’t, and just expected people to put up with her mood swings and explosive temper that was fine one minute and yelling and cursing the next?? So she yelled at me once over a mistake (fair, my bad), I told her please not to do it again and instead try to tell me without yelling when I did something wrong bc of course I didn’t want to do something that upset a friend. She also seemed to be really inconsistent with her ideas and contradict herself constantly so I never knew what was the right thing to say, but that may have been a language barrier so. She lost it with me again anyway a month or so afterward and so I left. I knew my limits and I knew I couldn’t deal with that again. I still wanted to die for a little bit afterward but I knew I could weather it that time so I did and here I am. Because of my first bad relationship I now know the signs and knew EXACTLY where the second relationship was going so I could say “lmao no thank u please get help” and leave before it could too bad. I still don’t really blame this person because I know it was just a disorder and not really her fault but I do hope she got some help, she could be a really nice person in the good moments, very smart and creative and funny and kind, and with therapy I know she could have gotten better with her bad mood swings. She was also the same person who told me she had to imagine beating her cat to death when she got angry and just… if that isn’t a huge red flag idk what is.

Anyway. That’s the crux of it. woooooo. 

[serlymurly]

A RANT ABOUT CHARACTERS, CREATION, AND THE PROCESS OF BEING INSANE

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Let’s have a rant. A good, old fashioned rant about something that’s been nagging at my mind. First, paint the scene;

It’s 6 in the morning. The sun is rising outside. The love of my life is asleep in bed, our cat is in a box lined with a fuzzy blanket that I could have draped around my shoulders because frankly, it’s a bit cold. We have no creamer, and I think coffee wouldn’t help this headache that’s pounding away at my skull - and I have four people talking in my head.

Did I lose you yet? Probably not. It’s pretty straight forward. First - the puppy nailed to the wall. Four people talking in my head, what? Well - technically, I think they’re all me. But on a different level, only two of them are me. Got it?

One of me is going on about how this is all, in fact, a terrible idea and that to post any of this is to admit to a certain kind of insanity that I really shouldn’t be admitting to. This isn’t normal, on any level; I’ve never heard people talk about it, and the only person that I’m aware is actually on point with how I do things in writing is asleep.

The other part of me really wants banana bread, and frankly, I can’t fault that. Can you? Of course you fucking can’t, unless you’re allergic to bananas. Fuck yeah, banana bread.

Then, there’s the other two. One is a face that people who follow me are familiar with; James Oaklen. Don’t know who he is? Probably not! I’ll talk about him later. And he’s having a lovely conversation with this newest creation, this newest part of my intracranial house - Aeslen. But I won’t talk about her. Not yet.

So, yes. Four people. All adamantly talking their points, all actively going on and doing their own thing; existing in some level on a scene that I’ve always had in my head. Let’s explain that bit, shall we? Sorry this is disjointed - again, no coffee.

Flash back I don’t know how many years, and I was a young, young boy. I barely had any understanding of how to type; I’d never played a game outside of Banjo-Kazooie and Super Mario 64, games that required a controller.

I will spare the dirty details, but life at home was not perfect. There was yelling; there was hitting, there was strife, and a family that was slowly tearing itself apart. I could see the writing on the wall when I was 7, that’s how bad it was. So - my mom decides it’s a good idea to introduce me to this game she plays.

A game called Ultima Online.

And holy crap, that was amazing! I spent hours doing nothing of any importance on her computer, on our shitty internet in that crappy home in Ohio, just exploring this world with a character that I had created with my own two hands in a whole other world. This was a concept that I had never experienced; this was a new and exciting frontier for me. I named him Krill because that’s a COOL name and it sounds COOL. I gave him flaming red hair, I made him a paladin, and I spent hours just trying to kill skeletons in a really easy area at the start of the game because I kept forgetting how to fight things.

And then, one day, everything changed. UO, it turns out, maybe just the server I was on - had a very active community of this thing called ‘Role Players’. Weird, right? People who actively played out their characters as real, living things - in this world. Personalities, histories, everything. I stumbled on them by accident when I got lost in the big castle in the main town of the game.

There, at the time, was a bunch of high-end guilds. One was the Orcs (it was just people with orc masks on, but they pretended to be orcs and they rocked at it). There was the Highlanders (they wore kilts and I REALLY WANTED TO BE ONE). There was a merchant guild, and - all these other guilds I feel bad not remembering. And I was just this little seven-year old kid with a character named Krill with flaming red hair that walks into the middle of this big, IC meeting they were having. Imagine them responding to me with actual respect?

Imagine them actually… explaining what they were doing? With respect? I was so awestruck, I asked if I could play. They made me door guard. Boy, LET ME TELL YOU, I took that job so seriously. I stood just outside the meeting and I could see all their little talk, all while making sure nobody entered without permission. I was so hyped.

That, that stuck with me. Okay? Remember that. The idea - the concept that they had presented to me, this way that you could live another life through a digital form. That stuck with me.

But - well, things change. People. Lives. I never really got into the RP scene on that game; I wandered around and pretended to be part of things, but it was mostly them politely recognising me and letting me watch them do stuff. I only had an hour each day online, so it just - wasn’t enough. Eventually, my mom stopped paying for her UO account due to issues. So - back to the nintendo and other things.

Flash forward. Divorce imminent between the two parents. The world is collapsing around us children. My sisters are massive assholes, my brother and I feel like we’re alone together in a sea. So… in a desperate attempt to keep his spirits up, I introduce him to the concept. “Let’s pretend to be Link and go slay invisible monsters!”

Stupid, right? So we pick up sticks and start staying as far away from our house as we could. We’d talk about all the things we were fighting, we’d hit each other with ‘swords’, we’d drag our local friends into it! We just - disassociated. I think for him, it was mostly the swinging the sticks that was interesting; always fighting, always smacking things. But for me? I was using my mind to, you know. Envision such grandiose and wondrous things for us to be fighting! I was imagining landscapes, unspeakable monsters, and the type of person that I would be!

That evolved. Stuff happened again. We moved from where we’d been living to a new environment; Michigan. I like Michigan, don’t get me wrong; fucking love it there. But, well - we were young. I didn’t know anyone, and it was 5th grade. And then - more stuff happened.

I won’t go into nitty details, but one of my sister’s had a major incident occur. This lead to the family being put under more strain, which eventually finally snapped the cord. Grandparents died. One suddenly, one from cancer shortly after. A nasty, nasty divorce that left me feeling horrible. I was convinced that I could have stopped it - all of it. I was convinced that I should have; since I wanted to be that big hero, remember? Since I wanted to shoulder all the burdens.

I took it upon myself to never show any problems outwardly, after that point. I just smiled and acted silly and nobody really paid me much mind. “Oh, he’s always fine!” It’s about this time I got into (GASP) UO again. Freeservers, this time; technically, I think that was illegal, but who cares. I got deep into it; I made my first *real* RP character, who was of course a massive dork. Leone, a grey elf ranger that ate lemons - because I’d convinced *myself* that if you ate enough lemons, you could spit caustic spit? I don’t know, I was weird.

Leone would be my staple character for a long time. So long, in fact, that I began to wonder - as maybe we all do - where he stopped and I began. Sure, he was an elf with magic and grey skin - but personality wise, I felt he was a lot like me!

Then I learned that was a cardinal sin of roleplay. Apparently, you should never - EVER - make a character like yourself. You become too attached - which I did. You become too personally involved - which I did.

Games change, years move on. I went to SWG, I played a new character - Stodosmo Oci (horrible name I know). He was a security officer at a hospital! It was great. I loved it. It was a long, boring time of just sitting and watching doctors RP it out with patients in Mos Entha. And then.. I don’t know. Things. Again.

Went from there to WoW. Technically, I’d been in WoW since Vanilla - but the lore had never struck me as interesting enough to roleplay in seriously until just before BC released. I had a series of characters there, all sharing the same last name; Rodetan. Eventually, as Wrath came to a close, I decided to consolidate them into one large family tree.

WoW’s timeline sucks. That’s all you need to know about that.

Who remembers the early days of WRA? Alliance-side, there was a guild called ‘Stormwind’s Army’. Yes, it was just another military RP guild. Yes, we did a lot of patrolling and policing. It was fun, though; my character rose from an unwashed bum to chief recruitment officer. And then - drama happened. The guild split. I followed the ‘rebels’, and we formed the Vanguard of the Alliance (VotA). That was also fun.

Anyways, I’m sparing you all the nitty-gritty details - but this is where the story, once more, becomes interesting. After so long, VotA eventually fell apart. We all went our separate ways, and eventually three of the officers let me know that they’re still RPing in-game with this new group - Blood of Arathor, I think it was called. I’m asked if I want to join them. I say - sure, but not on the character I’d been using.

At the time, I was - kind of embarrassed of that character. I still am. He’s my best success story, yes, but he felt - I don’t know. Too close to me, in some ways that I won’t get into. So I thought - why not make a NEW character?!

OH BOY.

But there was a problem. And this is what most of this rant was building up to.

I had to build a new character.

From scratch.

Alright, that doesn’t sound so bad, does it? - Except somewhere along the line of creating him - he came alive. In designing him, in creating his personality - I suddenly found that I was physically talking to myself - and in my mind, this quiet man was responding. James Oaklen, Knight of Stromgarde, was telling me about himself.

His goals. His life. His loves. His interests. All about himself; his world. How he felt about certain foods, how he felt about everything.

At the time - I had very, very acute problems in the real world. I was taking drugs, drinking heavily, I was obnoxiously depressed to the point of being borderline suicidal - and… well, this happened. What did it mean?

Don’t answer that. It’s not a real question, because it doesn’t matter.

I accepted that he was who he was - and he’s become one of my favorite recurring personalities in my characters. And he’s not the only one, anymore. At some point, this - new way of creation, this way to create characters that exist in my own mind - just, settled in.

So.. I wanted to document how it works. Sort of. Maybe you at home can replicate it?

I start by closing my eyes. I think about what races there are to choose from, what classes or skillsets; and then I just… start to see a person. Whoa, weird, huh? Just an outline. A faint outline.

So, we reach out with our mind, and we call to them; and they slowly come forward. We get an imprint, a basic idea for what they look like, in our minds. So - we go to the creator and we try to do that. As close as possible.

Then we look at the character. Scars; how did they get them? Each scar is a story in itself, and as you look - they begin to tell you about each one. As if just explaining casually. James has a scar along his neck, which he earned when he almost died defending his Lady - something that he constantly thinks about as a time that he failed.

Or, other big features? James - again, using him as an example - has a large, bushy black moustache. It’s his family’s staple, a sign of their masculinity and proof that an Oaklen has come of age.

And so on. Then, by the time we get to the point where we have to name them, they’ve already told us the most important things. We don’t just have a vague outline in our little mind shack; now, we have a PERSON. And the name? Well… That’s a limitation of the system, baby. Pick something as close to what resembles the name they called themselves, and stick to it.

I could go into more depth. I could go into the process of creating a video where I create a character, but - well, why? It’s just this vague idea that I want to get across right now. I really doubt anyone will read this five-to-seven page long spiel all the way through. But it’s just - interesting, to me. It constantly is there, this - process, these characters, these people. And not just them; worlds come just as easily. Is that the product of an over-active imagination from a man that was desperately seeking to avoid reality and paint a better fiction for himself to sit in? Probably.

But… I don’t know. When it boils down to it, I just let it happen. I get ideas in my head all the time for wondrous worlds, characters and things - but the most agonizing problem is that they can never seem to translate into text or print. I can’t paint worth a damn, I can barely draw - and the one medium I have for escape, Roleplay, is something that I barely do anymore.

So - how do I make it stop? Do I want to make it stop? Should I? How do I harness this? How do I focus it into something specific?

If you made it this far, congratulations. I don’t know how to end it, so I’m just tagging all the mmo’s I’ve ever played or remember playing for giggles. Kudos if you get all of them!

[nightspsyche]

       As many of you know 2017 has not been the easiest of years for me. I lost an uncle at the beginning of the year very suddenly after a cancer diagnosis a few weeks before. My grandmother's health has been declining over the course of the last year (as of last December actually). I myself have been dealing with some mental health problems, and I nearly lost my best friend because of it all. Thankfully we were able to resolve the issues there and come to understand that we both were dealing with some similar (though not exactly the same, mind you) issues at the same time. Now I think our friendship is closer than ever.

   Next month will mark the one year anniversary of Elana's return to Tumblr and the RP world. With bringing her back, I was able to slowly work my way through my problems. I was able to eventually bring back a lot of muses I once loved to write for, but lost that love due to issues that really set me off when it came to my anxiety. I couldn't bring myself to write for them until I got my head back on straight as it were.

   So to not only celebrate a new year coming in, I want to make this post to celebrate Elana's one year return, and to thank a few people for a few things. I have a lot of people to thank for not only following me, but sticking with me through my three month absence of all things online. I also have a lot of people to thank for being here for me when I've needed it most.

  Here we go!!! In no particular order:

@speedxandxnetflix : For being patient as hell for me to come back and to pick things up where our muses left off. I know three months is a long time to wait for someone here but, I'm so grateful that you  did. I always enjoy our ooc chats, and appreciate everything we've talked about over IM and asks recently. Also thank you for going along, and hearing out some of my crazy RP ideas.

@wintermae : For simply being here. I mean it. Over the years it's been great to RP with you and get the chance to know you a little better ooc. Not only that but you've been there for me when I just needed someone to kind of talk to. It helped so much to be able to just unload a few things in a safe place, and it means the world to me that you were there for me. I honestly can't thank you enough for that.

@wardenforaking : For being one of the most patient people I know. You've let me vent to you so many times about anything I've needed to and I appreciate that to know end. I know you've had a rough time, and to take a moment out of your day to listen to me complain; it speaks volumes about who you are as a person. You're a saint!

@docspeedflamevibes : For being such a sweetie!! Seriously, any time I have a bad day you're one of the ones I've noticed posting on my ooc posts. I know it may seem like such a tiny gesture to some but honestly, I appreciate it to no end. It always brings a smile to my face <3

@xanisher : I know we don't chat too much lately, mostly because this time of year is hella hectic! But since meeting you over on CCF it's been great to have another person I can keep track of from there. I miss the group but it's good to know that I can still chat with you. I know it seems silly and sentimental but that's me! lol

@themanbeneaththehood : Speaking of CCF! I can't forget this person! Holy crap I'd have to kick my own ass if I did! Seriously adore this person so so much, and I'm glad that while Elana's time in the group was brief? I'm eternally grateful for the chance she was given over there. I don't think she would be the muse she is currently without that experience over there. It helped her grow in ways I could never have imagined.

@notjustascienceproject : You're someone I've always enjoyed writing with, and our plots always hold something of interest. Since we first started RPing I've always looked forward to getting your replies, because I know every time they'll push me to do my best replies I can possibly do. You've helped Elana find a bit of a open side to herself, where she can talk about her past and I think she really appreciates Aaron for that. I also have to thank you because our recent ooc chat really made me feel a little more comfortable in bringing a certain muse back to life.

@promisingagent : For putting up with my ass for years! With Sigyn, Linda and Elana and... Jesus friggin every muse I've written! I'm serious I think every muse you've written Sam with, they've become fast friends. Which says something about your muse. Like she's just a sweet heart like her writer.

@dear-indies : While technically not a RP account, I also don't care. BAHA. Seriously though these precious human beings. Let me tell you a lil somethin', somethin' about them. Was having a really rough, down, over all gross day a little while back.. And one of the people behind this blog, still not sure which but again it doesn't matter, IMed me to check up on me. Not just to check up on me but also to help me find a few places where I could help myself blow off steam and be rid of my anxiety. On a website like Tumblr this is such a rare, yet wholly wonderful, thing! I can't imagine how impossibly busy they are with their blog but they took the time to do that. Not gonna lie I cried about it a little (a lot).

@lemmeaskyasumthin : So maybe this seems a tad backwards all things considered. But really, nope. It's not. I know we've spoken so much ooc lately and we've yet to really RP. Which is absolutely fine! But our chats have helped me realize that the things I've used while in my own recovery from grief, or recovery from anxiety etc? I've learned that I can use those tools to help other people too. At the same time, I've been able to find a super cool person behind the character, rather than find the character first and then meet the writer. It's been such a fun experience getting to do it that way, and to get to know you to some degree as well. If anyone can understand what a shit bag 2017 has been? I know that you can. I'm sorry you've had such a rough year, but am also glad that I was able to have met you despite it all.

@thesharpestsmile & @frightfortheharvest : For being cutey patooties and nothing more <3<3. And also sharpest, for nerding out when you realized Elana was back. Honestly one of the best feelings this year has had to offer me :D. I miss you both!

@crimsonscomet : Because I still miss you dude! Come back to Tumblr and be nerdy with me and Elana! [weeps big ole baby tears]

Last but not least, certainly not least by any means. @hiddeninthecolors : And her slew of wonderful (>.> fight me) muses. This right here is my best friend in my entire world. My sister, my fake wifey, my everything. She has been there for me through so damned much, and we had fallen out of touch for a long while up until a few years back. This year hadn't been the best for us but we still managed to pull through. We took some bumps, we took some bruises. But we came out swinging on the other side. I think we both proved to ourselves, and to each other, that we're stronger than our diseases. We've proven we have the drive to beat them and that we can do it together. We've got each other's backs through this, we're each others support systems. We'll also verbally kick the shit out of anyone who bothers the other lol. Basically if I were the type to believe in soul mates, weather it's just friends or not? I honestly do believe you're mine. Friend mates ya'll! I love you, don’t ever forget that okay? No matter what happens, the hell we got to go through, I love ya. I’ll always be here for you, just say the word and you know I’ll be there <3

[koszmar-zycie]

Thanks, @stonestridernerd! I’m replying here in a proper post to avoid ‘character limit’ cut off.

🌺 - How much do you draw on personal experiences when roleplaying?- A decent amount! Since most of my RP in the Warcraft setting has been personal interactions regarding friendship and politics at best, I haven’t had to worry about anything terribly lore-deep or combat heavy. So actually a fair amount, depending on the character! (though most are relatable to me in some regard.)

��� - How much do you think you have achieved with your blog?- Ehhhh. Really nothing, beyond sharing some good ideas and weaving some fun stories and relationships with various muses. (You) Stone, have RPed with me (pretty much singularly, barring a couple one shots and plans that haven’t gone through yet), but RP aside, I’ve met a few really cool people here. You, Mora, Corvid, Feliks, and a handful of others (very sorry if I missed you, there are some WAY cool mutuals, and we don’t talk but I really love you guys a lot).

So you know, that’s kind of what I value most. 

But seriously. Message me, people. Let’s RP. I’m dying here. lol

🌼 - Do you think you could ever stop roleplaying now?- Probably not! Like I mentioned before, my RP partners are minimal, and we do our best whenever we can. But even IRL I’m in the process of setting up THREE new separate DnD groups (as a DM), as well as trying to write new books. 

Soooooo, in one way or another, I’ll probably continue RPing at all times of my life. lol I think that if I don’t have an outlet for my thoughts and creativity, I’ll literally die.

🌻 - What do you do between replies? - Write, think about characters and stories for future RP and projects, play games, and (try) to keep training in my scuba training. The training is my biggest strive, but my freaking shop STILL hasn’t kept contact, so hopefully my dad’s friend can finish my Advanced cert for me. I’d like to make Divemaster as a flexible and steady side job that I can love to do while writing.

🌸 - Have you ever been in a group? Would you do it again?- Sort of? Besides tabletop RPGs which I’m ran as Master and played as a player for years, I’ve done a couple group RPs back in the Gaia Online days. I kind of feel like that time is past though, and group RP appeals to me for in-game WoW mostly. Sadly, I’ve got no active groups or guilds or anything. :(

🌹  - Have you met true friends through roleplaying?- Absolutely! There was one from GO who was way cool, but sadly we slowly lost contact. Technically my best friend coooould be considered such, though we met first through cosplay advice regarding how to make fursuit parts for my rather elaborate Asriel Dreemurr cosplay. - BUT, besides just advice, we really started talking because I found out that she played WoW, and she ended up bringing me back into WoW via her RP guild. (inactive :( I’ve done so much for the guild and am still bottom rank - c’mooonnnnn lol) So in short, yes. lol

🍄 - What’s one bad habit you know you have in writing?-  Bad habit... Hmm... Hard to say? I bet I have loads. I reckon that one is not really giving much of a damn about literal perfection to structure and such. While I have a tendency to be a stickler for spelling and grammar, I generally don’t apply it much to RP. (even though I can get a bit stuck on fixing my own misspellings and grammar :\ )

🍁 - How do you want to explore your muse further? Is there a wishlist?- I do plan to, but can’t really say how just yet. One thing I DO plan on, if BfA turns out the way it looks, is to explore character alterations. Most of mine are pretty solid in terms of their beliefs and stuff, and beyond non-RP characters, I haven’t really done much “turning” or anything like that.

Adramalech (my Demon Hunter) is the only one who really has so far, and that was before he started getting used, so that’s more of a buried past prologue thing.

I intend to explore Koszmar’s negative side more, if things in BfA end up the way they look, as there would be much to send him into a less hopeful mindset, and have a much more hostile outlook on the Alliance.

Thanks again! <3

[olivieraa]

birthday of my fave character in the world

I cant even describe how much this kid means to me

Ima side track here for a bit tho, cause

I say kid and I mean, if you wanna get technical, he’d be WAY older than me by now

its never been clear in ygo what the ages of the characters are from the beginning and what age they are when it ends. I’ve seen many people analysing it and coming to different conclusions so I don’t know who is right?! its kind of all over the place. the dub throws you off even more cause dub!Anzu says “something something something the last four years” which I think was just how long the show aired in America, but for all we know, everything happened in the span of a year or less. and like, I’m so confused about the Japanese school system. “middle school” and “high school” are not terms used in my country. and I thought it would be middle school = primary school and high school = secondary school but apparents its not. I think, I THINK, both middle and high are secondary, and primary for them is elementary? or something?

pre sure the gang start off in highschool

now... if I was to match up how my school system works compared to Japan, me entering what they label highschool would be me at 15. I’m younger than all my friends tho so the average age is prob 16. 

so Joey and the gang are 15/16, no doubt.

like the tournaments may seem like they go on forever but they take like two to three days in canon lol very similar to HxH but HxH was more clear with that

also they’re in their last year of highschool in DSOD, cant remember how long after the series that takes place. Kaiba needed to build that lift into space lol

I’ma need to do some research, but okay, I’ma pretend Joey was 15 the year the first manga came out which was 1996. man, I was fucking 4

so... my baby would be 47, close to fucking 50 man. twice my age

yowza

BACK TO THE MAIN POINT

I have made a post or two before, a lon time ago tho, about how I have a pretty fucking good memory, but there are some things I specifically can’t remember how I got into them. kinda like when people say they have no idea what they did before tumblr despite knowing they were online a lot, but doing what they don’t know lol

Joey (and Puppyshipping actually) are a part of those that I don’t know how I got so into them

I know when my love GREW... but that’s it

timeline would be:

fell for Yami (age 10 or 11)

also really liked Anzu, never hated her

watched s!0 (age 17?)

watched abridged straight after (cause of all the abridged “green hair” comments under the s!0 youtube vids

rewatched ygo from where I left off many years ago (season 4)

I THINK I went straight to Vex and read all of the fics.

got friends into the abridged, who have no interest in anime, and we quoted it to each other all the time. both friends loved Kaiba despite me never even thinking twice about the guy. after my friend said he was “hot” and I was like “what? no way” I finally looked at him and went “holy shit how did I not see it before”

then somehow I got into Puppy. I know I didn’t like Joey when I originally watched and still didn’t care much after the rewatch, but I think cause I wanted to read a lot of Kaiba centred fics, I opted for Puppy? I’m making guesses here

started watching AMV’s

made friends with the creators

ended up accidentally roleplaying (was forced into it)

actually asked by someone else did I want to roleplay (after they saw me do it with the first person and I hesitantly accepted)

ended up rping Puppy. had lots of fun.

made a Joey RP a/c on youtube (and a Kaiba) and ended up RPing Puppy, switching between both characters, for a few months

also RP’d as Anzu as well

RPing as Joey somehow made me really think deep about him and his character and I started falling for him. my original faves lists went 1. Yami 2. Bakura 3. Anzu 4. Kaiba 5. Joey. eventually changed to 1. Kaiba 2. Bakura 3. Anzu 4. Joey 5. Yami

created my tumblr Joey RP a/c and just... continued on from there, after a few months he rose to the top of my faves list cause I just fell in love with him the more I discovered about him. I was RPing him for months without even knowing the facts and I still somehow got him right??? made him a paper boy without knowing that, in canon, he was a paper boy. things like that kept happening. I’d come up with headcanons that ended up being canon. it was crazy

I’m usually pretty humble with things I’m good at, thinking “ah I’m not that great” or “nah there’s people better than me”

with Joey and his characterisation, I allowed myself to be cocky. I admitted that the reason I believed I was so good at Joey is cause I really put myself into his mindset and was why I would absolutely SUCK at playing any other character.

re-reading I can see that I didn’t start off AS great as I thought, tho I kinda knew that, I wasn’t 100% sure on Joey as a character in the beginning. but it only took a few months and I honestly was really impressed to the point where I was like “did I ACTUALLY write that? did Joey possess me??”

every time I think “I prob don’t love Joey that much”, I then see a pic of him or an AMV and I get butterflies, I start crying, I x out of the screen cause I feel emotional

honestly its pathetic lmao

I love a lot of characters that are so precious to me, from Meruem to Kagura to Greed. but Joey is just this other level I can’t describe.

I love the fucker a lot.

I never think I can love him more than I already do, not possible, yet it happens.

Happy Birthday to the light in my fucking life <3

[krying-katia-blog]

Rules

~BASICS~

First and foremost, if you happen any of the soon to be listed rules. Don’t sweat it! Well, don’t treat it lightly either. I don’t insta block anyone that breaks one of my rules, usually I just go into IMs and ask the rule breaker if they could stop doing that so we can both have fun. If you do happen to break my rules multiple times, sorry but I gotta block you.

Please never assume my muse knows yours. Unless we plot it through IMs or an ask meme says that our muses would know each other. If it’s just randomly in a thread we haven’t planned or started with an ask meme, that’s a no go for me.

Due to the nature of Prequel, we don’t have much info on Katia’s backstory, so that’s where this blog will be veryheadcanon based. Just be warned.

I won’t always answer every ask in my inbox, but I try to answer them as often as I can.

If you RP with “matt-and-exeitor” I will be hesitant to interact with you.

OCs are completely welcome here so long as I can get enough info on them off of your blog.

This blog is also crossover friendly with the following fandoms: Sonic Mega Man Nintendo in general Non-fandom muses Night in the Woods muses And Undertale/Deltarune (I’m picky though)

~SHIPPING~

This blog is multiship, so always feel free to ship with me! I love that sort of stuff.

Also there won’t be any cheating unless its fine with the mun RPing my muse’s s/o.

You’re always more than welcome to come into my IMs and talk to me about maybe shipping our muses, I’m always up for more ships.

If you ever want our ship to be in its own special verse for whatever reason, talk to me about it! I’d be happy to do it.

No massive age difference ships. 20 year old with a 22-24 year old is fine. 8 year old with a 22 year old is not. In any way.

No incest ships. Like, even if this is an AU and technically my muse isn’t say, the mother of your fan child. It’s still a no from me.

I also reserve the right to not accept certain ships.

On that note I’ll never break my muse’s sexuality just for a ship.

Platonic and familial ships are just fine! If you want my muse to be your muse’s best friend, let me know! Or if you want my muse to be your muse’s parent/sibling let me know! I’d love to do something like that! The same goes for hate ships!

~THREADS~

This blog, is highly selective/mutual only. Depending on what’s up, I may RP with some non mutual blogs but for the most part I’ll only do mutuals only.

The way I write for my threads is always in third person. And I always start a new paragraph after a line of my muse talking. Just the way I write, even I don’t know why.

I don’t have the best of grammar when it comes to certain things. Often times I can use certain phrases wrong or even use the wrong way of spelling certain words. My hope though is that whenever I do it I get my point across and maybe even keep the way you pronounce the word the same.

I hold the right to not RP with certain people and have the right to drop threads. If I do have to drop a thread I promise to tell you before I do.

The length of my threads varies depending on what’s up. Usually they’re rather medium sized. Like, two paragraphs. But sometimes I call pull of three, usually those take time to do though.

With that in mind I try to get to as many threads as I possibly can, so if I haven’t replied to a thread in a while and haven’t said anything to you about it, don’t worry, I’m just too nervous about talking to you about it because I’m usually sitting in front of the drafts screen just trying to will my fingers into writing.

~MEMES~

If I ever reblog an ask meme, please, send it/something from it in if you’re gonna reblog the meme. If you don’t want to, which is just fine and understandable, go to the source. If the source is deactivated, then go ahead and reblog from me I’ll understand.

~OOC~

Please, call me Burning!

I am a male mun. If that is a turn off for you, I hope you can work through it and maybe get back to me later on. If not, well bye I guess.

I am also Bisexual. So much like the previous rule hope you work through any ill will towards Bi people and get back to me, if not bye.

Almost, but not always, time I don’t interact with a new mutual is because I’m an anxious nerd. So if you want to interact with me, please approach first. If you’re just as anxious, I’ll wiggle my way into interacting with you.

I have no triggers myself, but if there’s something that you need me to tag so you can blacklist it please let me know.

I want this blog to stay as apolitical as possible. Which means I want politics that aren’t fictional or mentioned in a joking way away from this blog. I have no ill will towards anyone that talks about politics on their blog though, I just don’t wanna post/reblog anything about politics on my blog cuz this is the place I want to escape from reality. Why would I want to bring that stress here?

I’m never, ever, going to reveal my age to anyone online. If we meet in person one day far off in the future, then I’ll tell you if it comes up. But as of right now, I’m not telling anyone. Same thing goes about my true name.

I often shitpost memes. It’s fun and I like it, if that’s not your sort of thing, I often tag them as {Dump Shit} so you can blacklist that tag if you want.

~NSFW~

So without going into detail, I just wanna say that smut can happen here. All of my muses are of age. If you want more detail on what can and cannot happen in a smut thread check out this link. Also be aware that drunk Katia get’s incredibly horny so uh, yeah.

Anything overly graphic (smut or intense gore) will go under a read more.

Gore of almost any kind, raunchy jokes/actions, and other things are also welcome here. Depending on how graphic each one of these things are, they’ll either be tagged as “NSFW” or “NSFW-Ish”.

You can ask me any NSFW question OOC through the inbox or IMs, I’m no prude.

You’ve reached the bottom of this rabbit hole! Thanks! Now that you’ve read my rules go ahead and send me a “Want some mead?” through my inbox to let me know! I’d appreciate it.

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RULES

~BASICS~

First and foremost, if you happen any of the soon to be listed rules. Don’t sweat it! Well, don’t treat it lightly either. I don’t insta block anyone that breaks one of my rules, usually I just go into IMs and ask the rule breaker if they could stop doing that so we can both have fun. If you do happen to break my rules multiple times, sorry but I gotta block you.

This blog is multimuse, so if you ever send in an ask could you specify which muse you want to answer it? It just makes things easier for me. You’re also always allowed to send an ask meant for everyone.

Please never assume any of my muses knows yours. Unless we plot it through IMs or an ask meme says that our muses would know each other. If it’s just randomly in a thread we haven’t planned or started with an ask meme, that’s a no go for me.

Also, this is an AU blog. Massively AU, so some characters will not know other characters. Keep that in mind depending on who your muse is.

I won’t always answer every ask in my inbox, but I try to answer them as often as I can.

If you RP with “matt-and-exeitor” I will be hesitant to interact with you.

OCs are completely welcome here so long as I can get enough info on them off of your blog.

This blog is also crossover friendly with the following fandoms: Mega Man Nintendo in general Non-fandom muses Night in the Woods muses And Undertale (I’m picky though)

~SHIPPING~

This blog is multiship, which means that let’s say Maw has a ship in my mainverse you are more than welcome to also ship with him in the secondary verse. It’s there for a reason ;)

Also there won’t be any cheating unless its fine with the mun RPing my muse’s s/o.

You’re always more than welcome to come into my IMs and talk to me about maybe shipping our muses, I’m always up for more ships.

If you ever want our ship to be in its own special verse for whatever reason, talk to me about it! I’d be happy to do it.

No massive age difference ships. 20 year old with a 22-24 year old is fine. 8 year old with a 22 year old is not. In any way.

No incest ships. Like, even if this is an AU and technically my muse isn’t say, the father of your fan child. It’s still a no from me.

I also reserve the right to not accept certain ships. Usually due to sexuality.

On that note I’ll never break my muse’s sexuality just for a ship.

Platonic and familial ships are just fine! If you want my muse to be your muse’s best friend, let me know! Or if you want my muse to be your muse’s parent/sibling let me know! I’d love to do something like that! The same goes for hate ships!

~THREADS~

This blog, is highly selective/mutual only. Depending on what’s up, I may RP with some non mutual blogs but for the most part I’ll only do mutuals only.

The way I write for my threads is always in third person. And I always start a new paragraph after a line of my muse talking. Just the way I write, even I don’t know why.

I don’t have the best of grammar when it comes to certain things. Often times I can use certain phrases wrong or even use the wrong way of spelling certain words. My hope though is that whenever I do it I get my point across and maybe even keep the way you pronounce the word the same.

I hold the right to not RP with certain people and have the right to drop threads. If I do have to drop a thread I promise to tell you before I do.

The length of my threads varies depending on what’s up. Usually they’re rather medium sized. Like, two paragraphs. But sometimes I call pull of three, usually those take time to do though.

With that in mind I try to get to as many threads as I possibly can, so if I haven’t replied to a thread in a while and haven’t said anything to you about it, don’t worry, I’m just too nervous about talking to you about it because I’m usually sitting in front of the drafts screen just trying to will my fingers into writing.

~MEMES~

If I ever reblog an ask meme, please, send it/something from it in if you’re gonna reblog the meme. If you don’t want to, which is just fine and understandable, go to the source. If the source is deactivated, then go ahead and reblog from me I’ll understand.

~OOC~

Please, call me Burning!

I am a male mun. If that is a turn off for you, I hope you can work through it and maybe get back to me later on. If not, well bye I guess.

I am also Bisexual. So much like the previous rule hope you work through any ill will towards Bi people and get back to me, if not bye.

Almost, but not always, time I don’t interact with a new mutual is because I’m an anxious nerd. So if you want to interact with me, please approach first. If you’re just as anxious, I’ll wiggle my way into interacting with you.

I have no triggers myself, but if there’s something that you need me to tag so you can blacklist it please let me know.

I want this blog to stay as apolitical as possible. Which means I want politics that aren’t fictional or mentioned in a joking way away from this blog. I have no ill will towards anyone that talks about politics on their blog though, I just don’t wanna post/reblog anything about politics on my blog cuz this is the place I want to escape from reality. Why would I want to bring that stress here?

I’m never, ever, going to reveal my age to anyone online. If we meet in person one day far off in the future, then I’ll tell you if it comes up. But as of right now, I’m not telling anyone. Same thing goes about my true name.

I often shitpost memes. It’s fun and I like it, if that’s not your sort of thing, I often tag them as {Dump Shit} so you can blacklist that tag if you want.

~NSFW~

So without going into detail, I just wanna say that smut can happen here. All of my muses are of age. If you want more detail on what can and cannot happen in a smut thread check out this link.

Anything overly graphic (smut or intense gore) will go under a read more.

Gore of almost any kind, raunchy jokes/actions, and other things are also welcome here. Depending on how graphic each one of these things are, they’ll either be tagged as “NSFW” or “NSFW-Ish”.

You can ask me any NSFW question OOC through the inbox or IMs, I’m no prude.

You’ve reached the bottom of this rabbit hole! Thanks! Now that you’ve read my rules go ahead and send me a “Ready for Enlistment.” through my inbox to let me know! I’d appreciate it.