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uncanny-tranny · 1 month

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What some people don't realize is that some trans people don't know they were trans as kids, but not for the reasons you might think...

Like when I was a kid, I would watch movies with women in them and I'd be like, "okay, I guess I'm a straight guy. These are very heterosexual feelings," and that was the end of it. What I didn't think was that that made me trans, because as far as I cared, I started life as a straight little boy.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #my first 'celebrity crush' that i can remember clearly was kristen stewart too #it was specifically when she played the sister character in Zathura (2005)#don't rag on me i was like... a child #i knew i was straight before anything #nowadays i see myself as equally gay and straight (i use bi because it's more understandable for putsiders but it isn't Me per se)#if you're a real one you get exactly how i feel #i think this is a funny experience of mine so hey #i never identified as a lesbian - i always saw myself forst and foremost as a Man or even a Guy #not to say that those are always diametrically opposed but for my own self it was because it wasn't my identity Ever

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time-is-restored · 10 months

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anyone else thinking about how us crows canonically reacted to that diorama in the aquarium? like. imagine being q!phil, desparately trying to convince himself that none of this is happening and his dreams are just dreams... while all of the crows surrounding you are going NUTS

vocalising, ruffling their feathers, flapping their wings - immediately and viscerally reacting to all of the trappings of endlantis and the king.

im just. can you even imagine trying to process that. imagine ur kid wakes up and can't see any of the shit that's driving you + ur entire murder to hysterics, even when they're all Clearly reacting to... something in the aquarium. imagine phil trying to say he's fine and that he just needs air while the crows are fucking RIOTING.

we knew + were shouting abt the king and endlantis LONG before q!phil was able to acknowledge it. and the dissonance of that is just,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, OGH!

#qsmp #q!phil #q!philza #there's more i want to say abt. q!phil's simultaneous knowledge and lack of certainty abt hardcore #but i don't actually know for sure what q!phil/cc!phil have said on the topic so far. wasn't hardcore one of the last things q!phil #remembered before the island? and then he dreamt he was back there WHILE 'dreaming' about the birdhouse?#imo if the birdhouse was just a dream and he's leaning HARD into denial for it he's gotta be trying his best to repress what he does/doesn'#know abt hc too. yes its only dreams yes it was the most vivid thing he's felt in his life yes he knows its lore and entities by name yes #none of its real bc they can't get to him bc if they CAN get to him there's absolutely nothing he can do to stop them. y'know?

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n7punk · 1 year

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i love when horde prime suddenly gets robot soldiers in episode six because they wanted to show she-ra absolutely eviscerating fools without actually tearing people limb from limb

#and they were so real for that she's on her hot girl shit in that ep <3 #i honestly dont remember them showing up before that but it's possible since i wasn't rewatching the entire season lol #she-ra #words and things #don't mind me just rewatching for totally innocent reasons. you can trust me #*trust me to make it better eventually #tr

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meowmeowuchiha · 2 months

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Yknow

I will never understand the trend of Siren!Rhys

Like I just don't fucking get it

It makes zero sense to me and holds negative appeal.

I mean more power to all of you who like it but I just don't get it.

#Borderlands #Seriously I'm so confused by it #In no small part bc of the whole sirens are always women thing #And before anyone comes at me talking about Troy or making Rhys a trans dude #Troy wasn't a TRUE Siren. He had some Siren like ABILITIES #but it was tied to his sister and he could only leech from sirens. He leeched Maya's powers and could use hers afterwards #But they weren't truly HIS. He was a pseudo siren not a real one.#As for making Rhys a trans guy. I can't remember where it was stated but I'm like 90% sure it goes by gender not sex #So a trans WOMAN could be a siren but a trans MAN could not #So unless y'all are making Rhys a trans woman or just doing a straight up genderbend #It just doesn't work #Like I said this is just my personal opinion on the matter I'm not attacking those who enjoy it #Just explaining why I don't

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captain-hawthorne-thesecond · 6 days

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Scrolling through the Outer Worlds tag at night without my glasses and coming across an advertisement really gives me pause because it all feels like parody on the hyper-corporate structure of the game. Especially when it's an ad about making silly faces with your food and the face looks much like Moon Man.

#the outer worlds #not a log #outer worlds #something about fruit snacks i think i dont remember #but i REALLY had to squint before i realized it wasn't RIZZO'S but in fact a real actual ad

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blazingblorbos · 5 months

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oh god. oh god. oh.. oh gosh. I didn't expect this so soon. I didn't expect this today, I've been busy with life related things so the HYV calendar is really unbeknownst to me, is this update really next week already?? where can I rant about this- whERe can I rant about this-

oh. I made a blog for that exact purpose ! OKAY—!

fuck. fuck me, dude holy-

FUCK.

the slightly worried look on Arle's face as Snezhevna is reaching out her hand, only for her face to seemingly revert back to cold and neutral once the camera actually focuses in on her. Her tone is cold but her words are reassuring,,,,,,,,

ALSO GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. HOW GENTLY SHE HOLDS HER HAND.

the d o o r. the DOOR. THE FUCKING DOOR, CHAT. the slow opening at first, and once you can make out that it's certainly Arle's silhouette she shoves it fully open - both doors, both hands. incredibly attractive—. the FEAR in that man's eyes.

The crossed hands. We can't see her face but you know what expression she's making (it's not really an expression. it's neutral but you can feel it). THE FUCKING F E A R ON THAT MAN'S FACE.

Oh- she literally just grabbed him by the throat. Just like that- ! There's the expression. Oh, you feel it, alright. If you go frame by frame, you'll notice her eyes narrow in the slightest right before ->

POV: you're getting chocked out by Arlecchino, and that's actually the least of your worries. (my god she is beautiful).

I did not expect him to simply be thrown down to the ground and I ... d i d not expect her to step on his FACE. [insert gay masochistic joke here. you know the one]. Did not expect her to smile (this is the ONLY scene wherein we see her smile even slightly... huh...) *And the reason I say "I did not expect her to smile", is because with the momentum we were getting I thought she was straight up going to crush his throat, or stab him (hand, weapon or otherwise). It looked like she was digging the forefoot of her shoe into the guys head and not the... .. y'know deadly fucking heel, so that.. confused me. (and the sound when she supposedly stomped his head in did NOT sound all that impactful) but ANYWAYS I digress-

I'm of course assuming more happened after the cut to black because . madam where did you get that bloodstain on you—

BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE!?!?!? (more on this in a second)

Freminet??? Freminet feature ! (not Lyney or Lynette.. interesting). :(((( the poor boy sounds so,, desensitized. His father

holy shit quick intermission. After the mental chronological fuckfest that was "The Song Burning in the Embers" I don't think I can look at Arle and the HotH the same anymore because she's.. she's like not even 10 years older than them (?) it's insane this doesn't make any sense- ANYWAYS.

HIS FATHER comes back with what we later see to be real blood on her face. Tells him "I've acquired new funds". We know what that means... HE knows what that means!!, and the way WE - THE AUDIENCE - know that Freminet knows what it means is because the boy replies "Oh.. Okay.."

LIKE-! chat omg this is truly just routine for them,,,, Like out of the 3 siblings, Freminet always gave off the biggest child assassin vibe, but wow. To see that routine and desensitized nature of the HotH's line of work just,, splayed out in a Character Trailer is . wow. and the look in his eyes as he says it is- wow.

YEAH UHH BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE??/ The lighting in this scene now is evidently less saturated. And it's just- oh my FUCKING GOD it does so many things:

the blood on Arle's face looks... dry. it doesn't look as fresh as you may expect which could mean many things. It could mean she spent,,, hella long in there with that guy doing what needed to be done. It could mean she took care of something else immediately after dealing with that guy (perhaps smth related to the children Snezhevna wanted to save). But regardless, it means she didn't put in the effort to clean her face and hide what happened. OBVIOUSLY !!! that is so . obviously her style but to S E E IT IN MY GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER TRAILER it's- oh my god

it serves to highlight the really, truly, bleak nature of the scene now that we know plain and simple Arlecchino just killed a man. There's no subtext, there's no reading between the lines. The only thing that didn't happen is that we didn't see contact nor see a body. But, no sugarcoating, Arlecchino killed a man. No one is hiding it. You are not surprised. No one should be but damn.

and ofc it acts as a representation of Snezhevna dying...

because it seems like the saturation is back once the camera switches to looking at Snezhevna laying in bed.

And is it me, or does it look like Arle's allowing herself to actually display a tinge of worry in her expression this time? And also, EVER so slightly in her tone as well. You can feel it, it's gentler.

"Once I'm better I'll start my next mission.."

THIS. THIS!! IN SO MANY WAYS THIS!

OKAY. so bear with me. I haven't actually read any of the sibling's character stories yet, so there could be a LOT of info I'm missing but:

There's still a pretty thought-provoking conversation going on (in MY mind, at least) about just how intensely these children are being trained to be soldiers for the Fatui. They're obviously in an environment that indoctrinates them into being soldiers of SOME kind, but I still don't know what kind of soldier that's supposed to be. Are they all ALWAYS extensions of the Fatui? Or are they more-so extensions of Arlecchino specifically..? Snezhevna was obviously trying to help those children she came across, and I'm assuming that happened on her latest mission, so was the mission for a charitable cause?? What was her next mission supposed to be?? Same line of work? Saving people? Or would it switch up and was she going to be sent to "take care of" (kill .) someone???

So I don't know whether to interpret that line as a hint of them being overworked and 1) feeling like they need to continue their work out of pure fear that they'll be deemed ineffective and useless... or 2) feeling like they need to continue their work out of a sense of loyalty and duty to the place that took them in and raised them. Or both..

and ofc the funeral scene. I can't say much more than what's already shown right on the screen.

and am I bugging? Or is the location of the grave....

#LONG post #first of all. I am kissing Genshin Impact's (HoYovere's entire) artstyle on the mouth.#second of all #Erin Yvette #oh my god Erin Yvette.#the 'My child...' line.. what if I literally blow up the world I'm going to explode #Arlecchino is drop dead gorgeous in this. That's a given but what kind of gay person would I be if I didn't say it anyway #it's always a given with their trailers. A l w a y s.#she's so drop dead handsome oh my god I fucking hate gender #blazingramble #holy shit new tag wtf #I try not to do these on here often but...#meh. my blog #I needed a place to write it down and I'm honestly getting self-conscious abt using my discord server #I say the kids at the HotH are desensitized 'cause like.. it's FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE that they DON'T know!!!!#they can ACT like they don't !!! sure! repression is very real and these kids are exposed to a LOT of trauma. Yes #but they are NOT FUCKING IGNORANT about it #the older ones at least; of course the younger they are the more likely they're sheltered from the Fatui's violent practices #like Lyney Lynette Freminet and other kids their age are child assassins. Now I'm PRETTY FUCKIN CONFIDENT they've killed people #like it wasn't hard to believe before but (and remember I haven't read their character stories) before it was mostly believable conjecture #I can't get over the scene where she returns to the bed #Arlecchino #genshin impact #genshin #genshin arlecchino #the knave #Genshin the knave #blazingshitpost genshin edition #blazingshitpost #Youtube

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loveletterworm · 2 months

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on the topic of deliriously specific visions of deltarune chapter 3. This is one that is really inconsequential and I guess is more in the territory of like. those elaborate chapter 3 fanfictions where they just make up every character. But I don't think I've ever seen anyone else ever try the thing that I think would be cool, which is that a secret boss for chapter 3 could have a greyscale color scheme because that would not be out of place in the TV-themed chapter (especially for a secret boss, i'd say), but would also have visual overlap with the goner npcs from undertale...I just sort of feel like someone else would have thought of that but I've never seen anyone that has. I think it would be clever.

#granted i do not seek out elaborate chapter 3 fanfictions i just very occasionally like the music so i see their beasts sometimes.#(when its not like sonic forces midi flips) (<- Nobody on earth remembers the sonic forces midi flip except me)#mypost #dt #...honestly the only thing that prevents the way i talk about chapter 3 fan characters from being immensely hypocritical #is that i never figured out how to draw the extremely specific ''prediction'' i have #which i like to think is well thought out but definitely has a major plot hole in it.#i just think the idea of the secret boss having a similar role to alphys in hotland (aside from having a boss fight) would be cool.#it makes more sense than paralleling muffet who wasn't that important (even though i do think they should have the purple soul mode)#and it would be similar to how spamton neo was like the mettaton neo fight that never was.#My prediction is they make alphys neo real. (The fanmade alphys bossfight from 8 years ago was called this)#Except with like 10 other things going on that really dilutes the alphys situation . This is the only idea I have that matters.#Which is why it is banished to the very long tags of this post and not in its acutal contents. Whatever #ive posted about it before like 2 years ago. WHatever.

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meownotgood · 1 year

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my brain rewarded me for working hard, last night I had a dream about aki sex ❤️

#thank you brain. I am thankful #kinda struggling to remember the bits and pieces #I remember that first I had a dream I was at work and had to clean #but then my dream flashed to me with aki #I'm pretty sure we did something together before the seggs??? but I don't remember that part at all??????#there were more important things to remember ok #we were in my room and in my bed under the covers #and he was behind me and holding me tight like spooning yknow #I also specifically remember his hair was still in topknot mode lolol #we were both nakey and it felt really real cause I could feel him against me...#I felt his chest rising and falling on my back and his heart pounding hard #and I could hear like... his breathing in my ear.... and the plap plap sound everytime he...... HRK #my eye is twitching rn......#he reached around and grabbed my hand and held it tight #I remember him dirty talking a lot but it's hard to remember what he said #at one point I was like 'right there' and he was like 'yeah? right here?' and it was so hot hnnnnnnbgggggggg #last thing I remember is him telling me he wasn't gonna pull out #then I woke up like a zombie #you know when you feel yourself waking up and you know you are but it's a good dream so you don't want to and you have to fight ittttt #aki. I want. you

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copiawife · 22 days

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i will say. i have a passphrase in my carrd but if you're a self-shipper i don't really worry if you don't send it in i mean i do appreciate it but it's mostly for fandom folks who want to follow me because they're on thin fucking ice and if they're going to follow they need to know and agree to respect my boundaries

#if i get another person reblogging content of my husband from me #and gushing about how hot they find him #i'm going to eat glass #i trust self-shippers to not be weird about that because i block doubles usually before they find me #but...ghost fandom (derogatory)#i remember one of my ghost mutuals i trust reblogged a clip i posted of my husband once #and it was a nightmare in my notes for a good while #because i kept seeing tags of people gushing over him in my notes #and it was VERY UNCOMFORTABLE i hated it so much #like it wasn't my mutual's fault but. ugh.#that's why i try to make all of my gush posts unrebloggable #but you can't do that with reblogs :/#anyway! just um. i don't want to hear about how much you want to fuck my husband.#i put my self-ship stuff (art etc) in fandom tags but that's IT #because it's very clear that it's me and him not just him #i'm not a ''fangirl'' not a ''ghestie'' i'm his fucking WIFE. his actual real wife #the trials and tribulations of having a popular f/o..#what do you have to say doll?

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mybrainproblems · 9 months

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sometimes you miss your ex bestie and then you remember they hetsplained your queerness to you and then friend-dumped you almost as soon as they got a serious partner and it's like.

yeah nah. missing them? wanting to try and patch things up? that's the devil talking.

#tbh my only *real* regret at this point is not calling them the fuck out for the hetsplaining bullshit #i was planning to and then as we were talking i realized i had zero investment in the friendship anymore and it wasn't worth the argument #i can't remember the convo that well bc i was so thrown but they made a comment about me being asexual and uh. buddy i'm not?#you were literally there for me going through five different labels in two years? we've had multiple conversations about this??#in retrospect we were just absolutely talking past each other for a while before the formal friend breakup #i do not know why ppl get so combative about when you're saying literally the same thing but diff wording but only THEIR wording is right #also: main character energy so off the charts that idk how they get through life like that #not everything has to be Something. things can just be.#feels weird to keep getting annoyed about this bc i don't miss *them* but i do miss having a best friend #i do feel pretty fucking betrayed by getting told that they thought of me as a pseudo romantic partner even if unintentional #to claim the friend breakup had nothing to do with their new partner and then say THAT? oh fuck all the way right off.

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blusical · 3 months

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sidenote: that bubba wallace fine was fucking bullshit btw

#bubba wallace #alex bowman #nascar lb #nascar #lyric:liveblog #like yeah what wallace did was... kinda dumb (though he was still so real for that)#but the fines still bs *ESPECIALLY* when drivers have done similar things before and got away with it #and besides bowman himself wasn't upset with wallace either as far as i can remember

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aethernightmare · 6 months

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#i'll be real i've been feeling some kind of way this week and needed this reminder.#the refusal by him to go to therapy is also a conscious choice.#the refusal to at least attempt to get sober is a conscious choice.#the refusal to still pin blame on you when you're not the addict and you didn't lie or cheat in the relationship is a choice.#the refusal to improve any area of their life (job - therapy - medication - better friends - an apology to those they hurt) is a choice.#so much of what i mourn is that my partner was genuinely a different person before the substance abuse.#i don't know who this current man is but it feels like a stranger who murdered my husband and stole his body.#because the man i loved might as well be dead. i don't even see glimmers of him anymore. not towards me or other people.#there's no comparison anywhere. not even in appearance.#i can't even know if he'd go back to the way he was if he got sober - because it was impossible to get him to quit more than 3 days.#if it wasn't alcohol it was weed. if it wasn't weed it was alcohol. often blended with days of not logging off mmos.#like none of these things in a vacuum are bad but his relationship to them at the expense of everyone and everything else was.#to this day he thinks i 'left him' when -in an inebriated rage - he told me to never talk to him again. so i haven't.#when he was the one who burned our bridges - so it's also his responsibility to improve and reach back out. even just as friends.#which he said he'd do - but never has.#he may not even remember some of the awful things he said and did to me at the end because he was always getting blackout intoxicated.#but as a result he thinks i was the one gaslighting Him when his memory was full of holes. because he thinks he's above being that affected #he probably thinks i'm manipulative for wanting him to get help and do these things.#but if he actually went to therapy (and was honest) or attend AA he'd see these are the professional steps - not ones i 'randomly made up'.#idk. some days are harder than others to deal with the absence and the silence and the trauma he left behind. today is one of the hard ones #a letter to my ex

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that-spider-fan-over-there · 7 months

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*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?

#hello :D so I've been missing since September- scheduled queue aside #Life was stressing me out and I needed to cool off to focus on wrapping up the year else I'd lose it #then Life got worse by Sep-Oct (y'know. horrible real life events + personal stuff + holy shit I need to learn how to Adult)#forgot my password for a while so I was mostly on Twitter and it was Not Fun (and it still isn't)#and I remembered it by the end of January where I was getting most of my shit together and was mostly on Discord with friends #who were the reason I wasn't completely losing it so if you're reading this. thank you and I love you very much <3 #but I missed being on Tumblr and the friends/moots i made. just got nervous to come back here. idk why. brain works in weird ways.#it looks like I'm justifying why I wasn't here and on one hand. yeah it's kind of an update #but it's mostly because I don't like going out and returning like stuff wasn't happening so it's really a me thing so anxiety won't spike #idk if I'm gonna go missing like that again or not but. yeah i'm still alive #(felt good to write that last phrase so maybe *something's* going right in life)#but yeah i think i'm back (not 100% because. Life) and will do a pinned. if you read all of it thank you! :D #okay i'm gonna post this now before my brain decides it's a bad idea-

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magentagalaxies · 4 months

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hey so i'm not making a DNI because i don't want to (i initially had a longer attempt at articulating a reason and then i realized i don't have to explain more than "i don't want to") but the past few blogs that have followed me are very harry pottter focused and given the actions and rhetoric of jk rowling i'd appreciate it if any blogs who prominently post harry potter themed content would kindly refrain from following me.

you can probably still reblog my posts, not bc of my moral stance but bc honestly i don't really notice who reblogs from me unless they have a huge red flag in their url, but in terms of following my blog i'd prefer it if harry potter bloggers could just not

and i know there's always the excuse of separating the art from the artist (like people who continue to post about harry potter but end every post with "fuck jkr tho"), and not everyone even knows why jkr is a horrible person bc a lot of the discussion is very online (that's the reason this is worded so empathetically, i'm assuming harry potter fans who follow me are in either of these two camps but if you're just an outright terf then go fuck yourself of course). but even if you're entirely dedicated to balancing every harry potter post with a post about hating terfs, the fact that harry potter is still being promoted in a way that's uncritical of the content itself makes me uncomfortable and by making the harry potter brand maintain relevance that's still supporting jkr no matter how many times you put "fuck terfs" on your blog

disagree with me if you want bc i can't control whether people post about one of the largest fandoms in history, but i can make a statement being like "hey if you follow me and your most recent posts are all harry potter gifsets i will be blocking you so honestly for your own convenience please don't put in the effort of following me"

#this might honestly come across as TOO forgiving but i want to assume people have good intentions #in terms of cognitive dissonance about the issue or just not knowing about it #also ngl even aside from the controversy i just don't think harry potter is even that great of a story?#like yeah i enjoyed the first few books in middle school but honestly anything after book 4 just felt miserable or boring imo #and there were ABSOLUTELY problematic aspects people should have picked up on #(even the very system of ''hogwarts houses'' annoyed me. like yes i know british private schools did actually have houses)#(the hogwarts system still sucked tho i hated it even as a little kid)#i remember in like 2017 before the terf thing came out i would frequently peruse the ''anti jkr'' tag #bc all of my friends were like ''yeah it has its problems but here's a fix-it fanfic that does it sooo well!!!''#and i'd be like no i don't want harry potter fanfiction the real fix-it is just reading a different book jfc #and i did once end a friendship because someone assigned hogwarts houses to the characters in other girls #(that wasn't the only reason i stopped being friends with them they were a shitty person in general but that was a Moment)#anyway harry potter blogs can y'all please unfollow me i don't want to spend minutes of my day blocking you i have better things to do

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theophagie · 6 months

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I've been watching some videos on jojolion since I stopped reading it before it ended and I don't feel like picking it up again from the beginning, and I'm glad to see that apparently I wasn't a complete dumbass for being left ?????? by so many things about its second half

#the retrospective video yeah yeah #halfway into pt2 and all i've been thinking is ''OH so it wasn't just me ok''#also i'm not sure yet but i think i actually came really close to seeing its ending in real time 🤔#i don't remember what the last thing i read was but god that damn doctor chase. it felt never-ending in the monthly chapters #but i think something was already going on at the house by the time i dropped it...? or maybe that was before idk #i did see the green son guy die for sure though #mytext #animanga #jjba #jojolion

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apollo-zero-one · 6 months

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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!!#or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head?#This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch.#No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings.#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!!#and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck.#Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he?#was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board.#Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself??#'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person??#Are you just living in some other reality???#callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

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