#before i actually got into it all cus i'm still not sure how many people are interested

[deadbeandrop]

i Do think it's funny how much dead bean drop has specifically like... been such a starting point of everything that's been going on in my mind but they really did just manage to hit a bullseye being all like "oh yeah and lumpus and slinkman went to camp together as kids" like Ugh. You can't just say that to me. Come on. look at this Stupid thing

"and there's so much potential there" - ME ABOUT PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING I'VE EVER GOTTEN MY HANDS ON

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

So, NewMoon is Nexus and OldMoon is back.

Combined, this puts the largest "death flag" on NewMoon right now. Which sucks.

(I will be using Nexus and Newmoon interchangeably to refer to him. Like pre-villian and post-villian.)

I love OldMoon, I'm happy he's back... But like...

What is this non-reaction from Sun?? It's so boring. There's so much to yell and call him out for. I hope that comes later.

But the mundaneness in which he's brought back is just so underwhelming just like "ha he doesn't remember anything for the past year. Funny."

Not to mention OldMoon isn't given the full context of Why NewMoon "went crazy" and everyone is just writing him off like that???

Just..

I don't know man.

The entire show is gaslighting us into believing NewMoon was toxic.

But think of before all this.

LOOK AT THE OLD EPISODES.

I watched them.

I watched the entire years worth of content. He is not toxic.

The only remotely Toxic thing he did was yell at people when he got angry in high intense situations, which he apologized for nearly instantly after he calmed down.

And if somebody says "he hung out with Solar more..."

Like what??? Your siblings arent allowed to have friends? If Sun died NewMoon still would have become Nexus. Solar would spiral with him. Cus sure as hell Solar would feel horrendously guilty if another Sun died in his place.

Hanging out with your friends over your siblings is not toxic behavior no matter how many times you spin it.

Newmoon's only crimes before he went in his villian arc are that he was prone to anger and yelling, and he liked hanging out with someone who had similar interests to him.

But he genuinely cared so much, and that care became a poison due to the unappreciation. Which shows in the lack of acknowledgement of Newmoon's good actions throughout the year of his life.

He did everything to help his family. And it's like everyone forgot what a caring individual he was actually. It's so strange. Everyone just says "oh yeah he went crazy" but no one is looking at the perfect storm of steps it took to get there.

NewMoon bought Sun a house, cured several types of cancer, built Earth a body, Gave Lunar a bodyguard, gave Solar and Sun the most expensive luxury gifts at Christmas.

He also helped Sun with his Bloodmoon hallucinations. He was there for him and always regarded Suns input on things. I can not say the same for Sun.

He cared and loved so much. To see the show just turn it around and villain him and act like he didn't love his family for a year and wasn't the sweetest person to them?????

It hurts.

And I am tired of pretending like NewMoon wasn't a good person or brother in the first place.

Because he was.

[jadeddangel]

Feel free to ignore this request if you want! But basically Adam and reader being pretty good friends who are casual with each other, have a similar sense of humor and personality, reader is a older sibling figure to many of the other angels, and him just beginning to actually gain feelings for them

Eeee I'm so excited!! Thank you for requesting!!

Adam x reader

"Can't believe I'm falling in love with such a cocky bitch"

You and Adam knew eachother since the beginning of time, and having known eachother that long you started to rub off on eachother. You both had similar humor and jokes the only difference was, was that you knew how to act politely, Adam did not.

You worked as a welcoming angel for new souls and angels of the like, showing them around and getting them set up in a home was just one of your many jobs. You worked closely with percious but you didn't like him, he was kind of a cunt when he wasn't around other people. You were on your lunch break sitting at a high table on a chair swinging your legs happily, you had gotten a milkshake and some fries. Adam snuck up behind you grabbing your sides suddenly, "hah! gotcha bitch!" Adam laughed. You had went to hit him at first but started laughing with him when you realized who it was, "adam!! You bitch come sit! I haven't seen you all week bro" you pointed to the seat across from you.

You couldn't even remember who had started the tradition of sneaking up on each other, but it just stuck, and Adam never failed to sneak up on you. Adam and you talked about your week together making small jokes as you ended up sharing your fries and milkshake with him. "And then she's over here hitting on the drummer, like, you think you want drummer dick? Nah, do you know who I am? I'm fucking Adam, I'm the original dick!" Adam recited the story to you as you started snort laughing. "Well it can't be that good if she wanted drummer dick!" You said between laughing as you hit your thigh loosing your shit over your own joke. "Hey!! My dick is fine thank you very much!" Adam huffed defensively before joining in your laughter. It took you both forever to catch your breath and stop.

Adam grabbed the last fry and ate it "Alright sugartits I've gotta go danger tits is waiting for me, but hey! I'll swing by your place with some Chinese food. Sound good?" Adam looked at you with hopeful eyes. You chuckled "sure thing dickmaster I'll see ya then" you said playfully giving him a sweet smile. Adam went to get you a hug but paused and patted you on the head awkwardly instead before speeding off to go find lute.

You were a bit confused but expected it from Adam, well atleast you were learning to Adam had been acting weird.. you thought that it would be all fixed up after mating week, but he was still just as weird as before.

You ended up getting an early day off since Emily took over welcoming souls for a bit to help. "Calm her energy down." In Sera's words, at least. You picked up your place, finally dishes and other chores you were behind on. You got a movie picked for tonight and some beer and sodas for you and Adam.

Adam finally came by your place after dark with a bag of Chinese food and a bag of clothes for him to change into assuming he was staying over. Adam knocked on the door rhythmically as he waited, you opened the door after a moment or so in some sleep shorts and one of Adam's band t-shirts(I keep forgetting Adam has a band bro).

"Woah, is that Adam without lute on his shoulder like a little parrot?" You teased letting the man in. Adam took his helmet off and rolled his eyes, "I'm not bringing my second in command to your house to hang out." Now that that was weird, Adam never responded that way to that joke, "bro, you good? What happened that got you all pissy? Are you on your man period or sum?" You asked concerned but still trying to make it a joke. Adam sighed "nah just a lot on my mind. There's this chick -" "ooooo does the Adam have a crush?" Who's the lucky bitch huh? " You cut him off plopping on your couch and turning your head so Adam could change(like you weren't just watching him in the reflection of the tv). Adam sighed and got changed into comfy clothes, "yea it's fucking weird though I mean she wouldn't leave my mind during mating week and ugh I get so awkward around her" Adam groaned laying on the couch with his head in you thighs. "Shit Adam do you actually like this chick? Or do you just wanna fuck her? Orrrr was the pussy that good that you want more?" You teased playing with Adam's hair carefully. Adam shook his head "I think I like her I mean I've known her for awhile and she just gets me yknow?" Adam said tilting his head a bit to look at you before changing his mind and grabbing the remote looking through Aisney(angel disney) and putting on the live action of "the jungle dude" (the jungle book).

You took a moment to think, it hurt, the thought of Adam falling in love with someone else after sharing so much. "Just think about your heart before you brain Adam, think about your feelings, maybe you should tell her I mean it can't hurt too bad, and I mean if your friends I'm sure she feels the same... and you guys can just be together, yknow.." You slowly got quieter and quieter, feeling like if you were any louder, you were gonna cry your eyes out.

Adam nodded a bit. "What would you do in my situation?" Adam asked under his breath, yet you still heard him. You took a deep breath "Adam I...." Your words got caught in your throat as you looked down at him looking guilty. Adam tilted his head to look at you confused at the look. "What's with the look sugar tits? You look like I'm about to cry, did I say sum?" Adam asked genuinely concerned for you. It made your heart melt knowing he cared for you so much, it made your heart melt so much in fact that before your brain registered what you were doing you had leaned down and trapped his lips in a kiss. The angle wasn't comfortable, and your spine was bent weird, but God was it worth it, feeling how soft his lips were. Adam froze for a moment before melting into it, licking along your bottom lip, teasing you a bit. After a moment of you both continuing to kiss each other, you both pulled away for air a small string of salive connecting you and breaking after you moved too far away. You were panting a bit but didn't go too far from his face. "That's what I'd do.. " you whispered softly, your lips barely brushing against Adam's. Adam reached up and put a had on your cheek "you wanna know something sugar tits? I think I would do the same.." Adam smiled as he locked your lips together in a passionate kiss pulling away after a few moments.

Adam smiled and sat up next to you , allowing you to straighten your back properly. Adam chuckled " awwe you hunched just to kiss me sugar tits? I'm honored" Adam joked. You rolled your eyes "yea yea whatever dickmaster now do you wanna cuddle up and eat while we watch a movie or do we wanna talk about what well we are first?" You tilted you head a bit. Adam was already reaching for the bag when you brought it up. "What do you mean what we are? I thought that kiss established it, I'm yours and your mine" Adam spoke almost boredly. You could feel the blush creep up on your face " your gonna be one heck of a boyfriend " you laughed.

The rest of the evening was relaxed as you cuddled and ate together. Before falling asleep together on your couch, hoping everything would be perfect with you both together

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

a

Yesterday i got the craziest message out of the blue .. My ex bf from 2011-2013's other ex gf who he was with before me hit me up to say that he got arrested?? And that her and like 5 other people are pressing charges against him for assault spanning across all different periods of time.. it's really wild idk how to feel. She said if i feel comfortable i can give my own testimony for when they go to court , even tho i dont live in england anymore.. Im like yeah honestly i will because like this dude is so unrelentingly violent and scary he legit almost killed me it was so extreme, i've known a lot of corrupt ppl but he is the only one i've always thought needs to be locked away from society like it's a murder scene waiting to happen not to mention he is just a straightup rapist

it's crazy too cus like 4 or 5 nights ago i had a dream that me and him and the girl who messaged me were all watching videos of ourselves in that time period like i even posted about it on here. i thought it was just a typical trauma processing dream not an actual premonition of something i would have to revisit irl

She said something about how she'd been looking back in her old fb messages with him to help paint a picture of the timeline so out of morbid curiosity today i checked to see if i still had ours. Sure enough i do, i've never looked at them retroactively before, but holy shit like... He is so much more of a monster than i even remembered, i dont get triggered easily anymore but it genuinely hurt my heart to see how horrible he was. Every conversation is just him snapping at me because i didnt respond to him fast enough or something so minor, and the whole time im just trying to apologize and de-escalate but it makes him more and more furious. the day before i was about to fly to london to move back in with him he was threatening to kill himself because i was going to my friends house to say bye to them. He was like "You're going to a party i just know it you're lying to me you'd never tell me you're really going to a party because you know i'm suicidal you've ruined my night you're a piece of shit" Like this was the NIGHT before i was about to leave everything behind just for him

i'm like rly shocked at everything i saw in that convo today im not even scratching the surface with this post. Anyways i guess it's cool that there is some justice happening right now and the people who survived him have been able to band together to try and ensure he can't hurt anyone else in the future. i rly wish none of us ever had to go thru any of that tho ugh i was so young i just really had no idea and it fucked me up for many many years afterwards. ive come a long way tho .

ill probly delete later cus idk who lurks this blog. i prefer not to show weakness :K But yeah.. just wanted to express this crazy unexpected life event and get it off my chest while its fresh

Peace and love !!!

[bloggingboutburgers]

I need some help.

So, I have this friend who’s Aro/Ace, and we have a very close group of us and like 2 other people. He recently came out to this group, and we’re all super supportive. He actually came out to me before the others, and I helped encourage him to tell them.

I am demisexual, and was planning on telling these same people around that time, but he got there first, and I didn’t want to be a jerk so I waited like a day to tell them, but I’m not sure if I waited long enough. He‘s also being weird about me being demi, and kind of treating me like I’m not really part of the same community, like, just little comments, not malicious or anything, but lots of little things.

I was the one to introduce him to all the fun ace memes, like, garlic bread, and such, and I’m the one who explained the difference between romantic and sexual attraction to him, and I introduced him to qprs, but he still treats me like I’m not the same.

I don’t know if I’m overreacting, but I’m already insecure about being aspec, but not fully ace, so it’s just kinda freaking me out. Should I talk to him about it? Just deal with it? I don’t know. I don’t want to „me too“ his identity, but I don’t want to be erased.

Thanks.

Is that like... Ace gatekeeping of sorts...? Man I'm sorry you're going through this, that sounds awkward.

Sorry I'm replying so late, I hope I'm not too late, but... Yeah, personally I would recommend talking to him about it, to find out why he's doing this. I have no idea what's going on here, but I'll give him the benefit of the doubt and assume he might have felt your coming out might have undermined his in ways, even though that wasn't your intention at all and now HE's undermining yours...

Coming out is a very personal experience that should be up to a person's choice on when and how it's best to do it, so it's important for him to be able to respect yours like you did your best to respect his.

Being queer, and being on the asexual spectrum, is also very personal and CAN lead one to being defensive after having been othered for so long, not sure why, maybe 'cus we're afraid we might be damaged in the process or reduced to an image we don't wanna be reduced to. I mean... I don't know if it's a universal experience, but for instance, while I'm always happy to meet other aros and aces, I have trouble engaging in aroace-dedicated communities (welp... mostly 'cus I'm afraid of groups) but also and mostly, every time I get recommended a work with aro or ace characters in it, it hardly ever fails to give me a massive nervous stomachache and make me want to put off checking out said work forever, 'cus... I think I'm scared of finding out the many ways my identity can get undermined in the process, ironically.

I'm not sure what causes this. Maybe growing up in a reality that's so hostile to being on the aro and ace spectrums fucked me up. And maybe there's something like that going on for him too, though I don't wanna project at all. I can only ever speak about my own experience.

Either way... Both of you are valid in both of your ways, he shouldn't be gatekeeping anything, indirectly or not, especially when you've been so open to sharing your experience, and yeah, you're not the same, but you're on the same spectrum, and there are part of your struggles that you share, and he should respect that. Just because your experience doesn't 100% align with his doesn't undermine either of you. You're in this together and you should be able to have each others' backs. I sincerely hope you can talk it out and I hope he doesn't get too defensive about it... But yeah, I hope you can get your feelings across to him as well, 'cus you don't deserve this. I sincerely wish you both the best.

[slamminslamminmcgill]

MAN I LOVE UR WRITING I NEED MORE JIMMY MCGILL NOWWW!!!!! that’s unhinged im so sorry

anyways if ur still taking requests i beg u to write smthn abt Goodman helping a client (client is transmasc and tatted and pieced as fuck (me)) with weed possession and he wins the case cus he’s Saul Goodman obviously. after they celebrate with a joint and they have some nasty high sex. like imagining Saul coughing on a joint and being like “damn kid this shit’s strong.. let’s fuck” makes me shensudbwjwbs 🙏🙏

anyways have a good day/night man, congrats on graduating!!! :))

HIIIII im also tatted and pierced so this is personal 2 me 😌🖤 kinda took the piercing idea and ran with it teehee

didn’t wanna describe any specific tattoos but i included some piercing mentions (nipples, septum, tongue, vch for plot relevance >:3c)

this is also way longer than a usual drabble so plbbbbbt

warning: intox kink (weed), light degradation

anatomical terms: clit/dick/cock, pussy, hole

“In light of this new evidence, the court has decided to drop all charges against the defendant.”

Slam dunk. Saul did it again. He’d managed to convince the judge that the cop who arrested you for marijuana possession had conducted an illegal search. He got you off. You were grateful that you wouldn’t have this looming over your head for the rest of your life. So grateful, in fact, that you hugged him as soon as you two stepped out of the courtroom.

“Ah, don’t mention it, kid. Least I could do for you.” He smiled and patted your back. He’d actually taken quite a liking to you while working on your case. You reminded him of his Slippin’ Jimmy days back in Chicago. A naïve 20-something with an affinity for pot and a less than stellar relationship with the law. He hoped he could steer you on the right path, and maybe have some fun with you too. “Say, you’re actually my last client for today. You wanna grab some food with me or something? Maybe Peter Parker’s girlfriend could join us.”

You snorted. Mary Jane. That was your code for inviting each other to smoke, which ironically you'd done frequently while working on your case. You pushed yourself off his chest and smiled up at him. “Sure. I’d like that.”

You two sat in the parking lot of Los Pollos Hermanos hotboxing his luxury car, passing a joint back and forth with greasy fingers. You took a bite of your sandwich, and a glob of chipotle mayo fell onto your nice, clean dress shirt.

"Aw, man." You groaned, before remembering you didn't need to impress anyone anymore. You shrugged, "Eh, whatever," and untied your tie, no doubt getting chicken grease all over the fabric. Then, you unbuttoned and untucked your ruined shirt, wiped the mayo off with a napkin, and tossed it behind you, leaving you in a tank top undershirt with your arm tattoos exposed. "God, I hate wearing long sleeves. I don't know how you can wear full suits in weather like this. Feel like I'm suffocating."

"You get used to it." Saul laughed and cranked the A/C for you. "I just wasn't sure if the judge would appreciate your ink as much as I do. Wanted to make sure you had the 'perfect little darling' look, y'know? Some people are close-minded like that. Least you don't have to anymore." He passed you the joint. His eyes trailed up your forearms to your chest, where he saw two barbells poking through your shirt. "Woah, hey! You got your high beams on! I'm surprised you didn't set off the metal detector with those!"

You had no idea what he was talking about, "Huh?", until your eyes followed his and you looked down. "Oh! Oh yeah, I figured I wouldn't have to take those ones out."

"Well, they look good on you. Not a lot of dudes can pull them off." Saul took a sip of his drink, ice sloshing as he put it down in the cup holder. "How many piercings you got, anyway?"

You ran through your list nonchalantly. “Not counting the ones on my ears, I have four. Septum, tongue, both nipples, and-“ You stopped yourself short and froze. The other piercing was a VCH. Vertical clit hood. If you told him that, you’d be outing yourself. You decided the best move was to say nothing else. He was a smart guy. Let him figure it out.

And he did. “Oh, ho! Naughty boy! You got a Prince Albert or something?" He elbowed you. "Chicks must be ALL over you."

You grimaced, hoping it looked like a nervous smile. "Not exactly..."

"Hm. Tell you what." Saul lit the joint, hit it, and passed it to you. "I'll buy you an eighth if you show me."

You nearly dropped the joint on your leg when he said that. "What?! Are you serious?!"

"Dead serious! I wanna know if I'm missing out! Maybe I should get one." You anxiously took a puff as he spoke with confidence. Confidence that was unwarranted; he had no clue what he was getting into. "Look, I got a guy and his stuff is the shit. It'll be worth it, I promise. You just whip it out, lemme see, put it back, and I'll hook you up. Hell, I'll even knock some off the money you owe me."

You did the cost benefit analysis in your head. Free weed plus less debt to your lawyer, and all you have to do is show him your pussy? Would it really be so bad? He really wasn't the judgmental type. He'd definitely ogle, but surely he'd understand. You sighed. "Okay. I'll do it." You took one more hit of the joint and passed it to him before you unbuckled your belt. "Just so you know, though, it's probably not what you're expecting."

Saul scoffed. "Kid, I've seen a lot of crazy things in my day. Unless your dick has a radio antenna sticking out of it or something, I think I can handle it."

You ignored his sass and worked on undressing yourself. You slid your pants off, and crossed your legs so he wouldn't see the lack of bulge in your underwear. Then, you looked over at him. "Ready?"

"Ready." He answered smugly.

You uncrossed your legs and tugged your underwear down. Your clothes pooled around your ankles, and you kicked your shoes off to free yourself. Now for the reveal. You turned your body to face him, scooted forwards, and opened your legs, hooking one behind the driver's seat, and the other propped on the dashboard. You spread your lips and showed him your, rather unconventional, dick piercing. The metal barbell stared him right in the face, and he stared back, mouth agape.

"Oh my god..."

You could see the gears turning in his head. His eyes flicked back and forth from your junk, to your face, and then back to your junk. For a man who loved the sound of his own voice, it was rare for him to be left truly speechless, but you'd done it. It was honestly quite the confidence boost.

You smirked. "Well? Is it everything you hoped for?"

"Yeah... Yeah it is..." He answered breathlessly. His mind was screaming at him not to fuck this up.

"Got anything to say? Any questions, comments, or-"

Saul butted in the middle of your sentence. Apparently, he did have something important to say. "Can I touch it?" He blurted out.

You knew exactly where this was going, and you were gonna enjoy the ride. "Sure, go for it." You took the joint and the lighter from him, leaving his hands free to explore.

Saul leaned over and brushed his hand against your skin, not fully making contact with the piercing just yet, essentially just rubbing his fingers up your slit. He was taking his time. He was warming you up. "This is... This is incredible. God, you're... you're really something else kid."

You took a hit of the joint and sighed on the exhale. From his gentle touch and praise to the haze of the weed, you were plenty warm already. Once he thought the same, he pressed his thumb against the barbell and flicked it up. Your whole body jolted and you gasped. "Ah!"

"You alright?" He asked, not pulling his hand away. He kept it firmly in position, ready to strike again.

"Y-Yeah, just-" He did it again, "Ngh... just be careful it's-" and again, "ah... it's sensitive..." and again.

He chuckled. "I can tell. Is that why you got it? You like the extra stimulation?"

"Mhm..." You nodded.

"Heh... slut." He pressed his thumb down hard and rubbed you in quick circles. "Keep smoking. I'm gonna have fun with you."

"O-Okayyy..." You whimpered and lit the joint while he teased you, watching him with wanting eyes as you climbed higher and higher. The smoke left your body and carried a sigh of pleasure out with it.

Keeping his thumb on your cock, he scooped his other fingers down and prodded at your hole. "Aw, look at you. You're already wet for me? That's precious." He slipped two inside without resistance, cooing to you as he pumped them in and out, savoring your pathetic whines and tremors. "Oh, now that's a good boy. C'mon, take another hit."

You took another drag, and while your lungs were full of smoke, he shot his fingers up against your g-spot. You moaned for half a second before choking on your hit. You coughed and waved the smoke out of your face, scrambling for some semblance of composure. "You dick! You did that on purp-ohhh..."

Saul kept working his hand, laughing at how easy it was to shut you up. "Yeah. Yeah, I did, but don't act like you don't love it." He leaned in and kissed your cheek before whispering right to you, making sure you could hear him over your own body. "Hear that? Hear how wet you are for me? That's how I know you love it. Whore." He tilted your face towards him and caught you in a kiss. You let his tongue invade your mouth and take what he wanted, a trail of spit connected you two as he broke off. "You like getting filled up, huh, boy?"

Your voice was a high-pitched, desperate whine. "Y-Yes..."

"Yeah? I bet you like getting fucked in your tight little pussy, too, is that right? You like it when a big, strong, man puts his cock in you and uses you like a cheap sex doll?"

Another slam dunk. He was right on the money. "Yes! Yes! Oh, fuck, yes!"

He flashed a sinister grin. "Good boy." He pulled his hand out of you and went for his own belt. He yanked his pants down, showing off a noteworthy tent in his boxers. You didn't get much of a look before those were off too, but the sight of what was underneath was far better. "Gimme the joint." He demanded as he stroked his cock in preparation.

You'd do anything he said. You handed him the joint and the lighter without a second thought.

"Good boy." He took a hit and blew the smoke in your direction. "So," He took a second to cough, "what you're gonna do is you're gonna sit on my cock and bounce that pretty little ass of yours on it. You think you can do that?"

There were no words left in your mind. You were an animal, acting purely on instinct. He gave the order, and immediately you climbed into his lap, bumping into the steering wheel a few times as you tried to situate yourself. Saul offered no assistance, he just continued with the joint. Fortunately, you managed to get into position without help, and you sunk down onto his cock.

"Oh! Oh my-Mmph!"

He used your wide open mouth as an opportunity to shotgun you. He blew the smoke into you and let it fill the parts of your body that he couldn't reach. You gripped his shoulders and squeezed him like you were trying to pop him. When he pulled back, you dropped your head onto his shoulder and whined.

"There we go. You feel so good, baby boy." He kissed your head and rubbed your back, comforting you as you settled into him. "Now," He yanked you up by your hair to look him in the eyes.

"Hold on tight. Cause I'm gonna take you for a ride..."

[shinakazami1]

New Tales Ep 4 live review!!

- Before the intro sequence, I thought Anu didn't know Octavio friends? I don't know the timeframe in all this so it does feel a tad bit weird though, in this run I had killed Juniper so...

- Dear God Octavio not noticing it's Fran's Frogurt is so stupid 😭😭 literally no words. Till this exact moment, I could excuse a lot of the writing... Please.... He's not this dumb, right,,,, ouu,,

- "SAY UNCLE" "You're my sister and I'm your uncle" - I want to know the story behind this sm

- Fergus looking saved it with L0U13 free labour dance but.... Why did we even have the the mental worry, and then the stupid hitting Fergus butt,,, I know the games have this humour but this whole bit felt like not so well timed break

- This game cannot get where it is standing with the killing hmmmm, like no character in this run had a constant (though idk why L0u13, after his crisis, gets once again pro killing,, gonna try replaying better version)

- BROCK BACK AND HE JUST STRAIGTH UP SHOT ANU-PLEASE OFAIHFAS

- GUYS U HAVE THE GUN THAT HEALS 😭😭😭I know they wanted to make this joke but PLEASE

- I feel weird about FRAN being seen as newbie in business. Sure, she only knew one but she kept it going for a long time so I feel she knows a tad bit more seeing it's a fam business for years. Esp after that Susan talk in ep 1. She feels she should know sth more

- Bivington showing up,,, I did expect him to but I wonder. I can tell this is some setup but I wonder what type (future me I say hi) (hi past shina - dear god not one i expected, diluted elon musk oifashfiaos)

- can I propose an overpriced drink AS SIGN OF SUCCESS IS KILLING ME

- it's weird that any didn't realise she could use the lab for their project cud they need

- Anu from being a Newby to being a big fan of Maya Vaultfinder mega ultra player,,, I'm so proud

- JABBER PUBLIC PEEING AND SOOTHING MUSIC PLEASE WHAT WAS THAT WHY DID I STUMP UPON

- Anu being seen as genius and then most the work is just,,,, the goggles,,, the slapping,,,,, it's all so silly

- I was curious what would be Fran's wish and the synth sad music in there reminded me of Hyer Light drifter soundtrack. But Rita,,,

- BADASS SUPERFAN IS MY FAV character beside Rhys and all Tediore soldiers wjjwh

- Foopy PLEASE??? FOOP POOP??? The only thing broken is you HELLO - WHY WE GOT BOTH PISS AND POOP THIS EPISODE

- I wonder if Fran's focus on sexuality is a trauma response, too,, future shina here, but based on what you can tell LOUI3 I think that is the case

- 😭 Why did so many people know and could reference before Fran's traumatic experience tho??? Like it puts her so down and others just know it

-VVIP IS MORE LIKE WIP WORK WORK WORK and i got Octavio to sniff the substance cus I imagine he would try it sjshhehe

- VVVIP,,, WHAT'S NEXT A VVVVIP CUS I HOPE TO SEE SOME WWIPS,,, Also I made Octavio dance

- BADASS BEING FIRED NOOO I hope I will see him in fifth episode :0

- Susan having a gun. You go girl boss actually

- HELLO UNPROTECTED DATA STDs??? dear GOD I EXPECTED THIS AND YET I AM STILL BAFFLED

- THE FACT THERE IS A TRANSLATOR FOR YALL TALK

- I get why people like Susan, I love the translator bit, the bitchy high atittude, she gets it

- BRO THE FACT KATAGAWA SR IS NEXT TO RHYS IS LIKE 'haha remember how my son wanted to kill you well now another person does'

- "dangerous, yes?" girl it's a glowing rock

- I took around 20 screenshots of Rhys alone 😭😭😭I'm down BAD

- I wish got control of Octavio if he would say Susan is the boss... I feel it's a wasted potential

[beardedmrbean]

The cries of the people who have to repay their loans cus they spent all the money during the pandemic on clothes/food/cars/bullshit their cries are music to my ears

Got a friend that took advantage of the situation and paid theirs off a few years ahead of schedule, also for a couple months at one point took advantage of not having to worry about them when money got a little tight.

Very proud of them for pulling that off, there were some over payments on the monthly payments in order to go even faster at times, was a very responsible and good way to go, getting the debt gone and cutting total payments down because no interest accruing.

You'd be amazed at the number of degrees that qualify for student loan forgiveness, still got to pay some back, minimum payments for 10 years from the time payments start. So like my brother that did law school on $250,000+ in loans and grants will I think in the end pay 10% of that back and the rest goes poof because he's working in the public sector, public defender for a bit and legal council for some county now I think it is. Pay cut from not going to a firm but when you factor in the $225,000 not so much of a pay cut.

Less extreme options available and I'd love to see that program expanded not sure what all is involved in it but I bet there's places for it to grow that would provide a benefit both to the student and the public.

That said though I'm not gonna laugh at people that skipped out on payments that have to pay now because they bought food and clothes, depending on what those items were, not going to begrudge people a succulent Chinese meal and a pair of Levi's.

Iphone 87 on the other hand.........

You're an idiot and I will chuckle at you, folks that tried to catch up on others during the breather are different and not the ones you mentioned.

I still think the fed should get out of the student loan business and let the various colleges use their endowments to do the loans, it would lower enrollment and lean out administration and all that because if Pepperdine or yale or duke or any of them want to keep on going they need to churn out students with degrees that will allow them the ability to pay back their loans, so underwater feminist interpretive dance is canceled as a degree.

In the end the ones I'm laughing the most at would be the ones that squandered the opportunity because they actually believed that biden was going to forgive all of that debt, which anyone that had paid attention would have known

Peep the date too, this is more than a full year before the midterm elections, when team blue controlled both houses of congress and the white house.

nancy and joe knew, so did aoc and the rest of team democratic socialist knew I'll guarantee you that. That sat on that until they lost the house and then tried to lay the blame on everyone but themselves, wild how many people bought it too.

Funniest/saddest part of the whole thing is Justice Roberts quoting nancy in the majority opinion.

I may not be laughing at them but there is next to zero sympathy for them.

You got new rims for your car or something else frivolous then sucks to be you.

[strangefellows]

Gilgamesh, Cu, Emiya, Robin Hood, Merlin, and Roman

Answered for Gil, Cu, and Roman so!

favorite thing about them

Emiya: EVERYTHING? He's so intrinsically My Type that it's painful. But if I had to pick something it's how he still manages to hold onto a tiny spark of who he used to be, the smallest flicker of his old ideals and hope and joy, amid the crushing weight of existential despair and apathy his life has ended up.

Robin: His EXISTENCE; but no, really, the way they've written who and what he is kills me, I love how he's handled and I love this idea of this forgotten boy who took the name Robin Hood, one of many faceless outlaws, becoming the face of that existence rather than any real "named singular person" Robin Hood like Loxley or Huntingdon or anyone we know.

Merlin: I love how he's handled as well, he's so inhumanly human and I love how he loves Artoria and feels so guilty but tricks himself into thinking he doesn't feel at all, but it's so obviously a lie, I love how he loves watching us, he's such an interesting take on the character.

least favorite thing about them

Emiya: I'm going to fucking KILL this stupid idiot sometimes for how absolutely ridiculously unhealthy his self-loathing got in UBW, like, you dumb moron.

Robin: How little screentime he gets and how he ended up a butt monkey for most of CCC, really.

Merlin: I'm going to beat him with a stick for his weird pervy antics sometimes, I really am.

favorite line

Emiya:

Robin: His little conversation with Dan after you beat him in Extra slays me, but I also love his "Tree of mourning, bare thy fangs!" bit.

Merlin: His speech in Babylonia about loving to watch humans and the bit at the end where he talks about how much he loves watching us.

brOTP

Emiya: Gil and Cu for absolute sure, but he and Rin are awful besties I love them. He and my Master OC too.

Robin: He and my Master OC, but I love him and Sanson's dynamic in Salem and I think him and Billy's friendship is so cute too.

Merlin: He and Every Single Knight, okay.

OTP

Emiya: ....I don't know if I ship him romantically with anyone? MAYBE Artoria? Let this man be ace and have a nap, preferably on top of his two idiot best friends.

Robin: Robin and Cu absolutely.

Merlin: Merlin/Romani all the way.

nOTP

Emiya: As I've mentioned before, I'm not the biggest fan of him and Cu, but generally I really don't ship him romantically with anyone at all, so.

Robin: .....god do I want to know what horrors lie out there?

Merlin: While it's not a NOTP, I don't really ship him and Oberon.

random headcanon

Emiya: Part of him really, really regrets not getting to go to normal person college, he would have majored in mechanical engineering. This is also the part of him that is a closet shonen manga nerd.

Robin: Don't let him lie to you, he died at 19. He's a bit self-conscious of this fact sometimes because he doesn't want people to pity him or give him shit.

Merlin: He constantly lowkey smells like flowers, though specifically what kind varies person to person because of his Charm Person abilities. To people unaffected by that part of his magic, he smells of a field of wildflowers.

unpopular opinion

Emiya: I love seeing him being happy and dorky and he should get to have that more often.

Robin: Uh....I'm not sure of too many opinions on him, actually?

Merlin: Genuinely I like him a lot, he's not as annoying or obnoxious as some people think he is.

song i associate with them

Emiya: Listen, I have it on a lot of mixes, but this one is still such a good song for him.

Robin: Don't fucking @ me, this song plays in my head on loop half the time because of Robin.

Merlin: This one is a big Merlin song for me, honestly.

favorite picture of them

Emiya: No matter what happens this bit from UBW is my favorite image of him of all time.

Robin: Lord, this one is so, so pretty...

Merlin: There's a few lovely pieces of art by Taiki but this one's by far my favorite.

[stalking-fictional-characters]

People often don't believe I'm autistic because I have a lot of less obvious traits and basically was able to figure out masking pretty well during highschool.

I'm always hesitant and afraid to bring up my autism even if I want to because I'm afraid I'm "not autistic enough" or "maybe I somehow 'cured' it as a teen".

I have academically done very well and am now in law school. Just hearing I'm in law school seems to be enough for people to be skeptical. But I'm so fucking autistic and law school is so fucking hard and hell and the worst decision I've ever gone along with.

I don't view most of the reading the same way as others or think of the "correct" interpretation.

I have extreme difficulty socializing or interacting with others and the atmosphere in law school has made me feel extremely ostracized and alone and like a black sheep. I'm pretty sure I've cause some significant mental decline with how fucking isolated I have been. I have barely spoken with anyone outside my family for 3 years.

My memory recall and ability to learn is actually quite poor. I have a good short term memory and very good problem solving skills so I've been able to pass tests and hence my classes. But I can never recall info when asked in class and wouldn't be able to basically anytime if people did talk to me. I don't remember any of my classmates names and it bothers me how so many seem to know mine.

On the slim chance I actually know the info asked of me I am terrible with processing info when asked suddenly (cold called) and so I stutter and give a jumbled response cus I can't think so fast.

I can't drive due to slow processing speed and anxiety (and it took so long for me to acknowledge and accept that me not driving wasn't due to me "not wanting to" or "overreacting" but that actually it is due to legit medical reasons that make it unsafe for me and others)

I have low heat tolerance/baro-sensitive sensory disorder so for most of the year I wear shorts and sleeveless shirts. Which makes me stick out at school.

I wear a bra to school cuz it's expected but it causes me discomfort (they are the correct size and I got extenders) so I don't wear them outside of school and it has definitely caused other to judge.

I have Keychains of my hyperfixation on my backpack and still own several graphic tees which makes me "childish".

My anxiety and poor fine motor control gives me a accommodation to use my laptop which makes me stick out in some classes and I've gotten stares.

(Also should state the law profession is extremely ableist and a teacher implied once I couldn't be autistic cuz I make it past the first year of school)

I dislike being near others and have found a isolated spot in the library. It throws me off when someone gets there before me and I have trouble doing work anywhere else in the library. Also this spot is the only place in the school I can feel relaxed due to no one seeing me and hence not being under pressure to follow whatever social norms or cues I feel all the time I am missing.

I have very poor auditory learning and processing of auditory information. Which means most classes I teach myself using the PowerPoint slides (if there are any) and by looking up outlines online.

I have poor sleep management/ some kind of chronic fatigue so I fall asleep in classes alot which is very difficult to hide from the teacher.

There is more things but I felt like pointing out law school based issues.

I got light sensitivity, problem processing sacrcasm/jokes sometimes, hunger cues issues, and executive disfunction and choice paralysis. But those mostly are at home.

To the average person I know how to be polite, I hold eye contact (kinda excessively but I've learned to make myself look away), I am educated and in what people assume is a very difficult field (it's not for school) that isn't accommodating, and I can carry a conversation a socially acceptable amount.

So I don't seem autistic to them.

But guys I am. I'm so fucking autistic. I haven't had friends for 6 years cuz i cant socialize, and I spend all free time reading fanfiction for a fandom I've been hyperfixated on for 7 years and 9 months

fuck it. shout out to "high functioning" neurodivergents

the ones who can mask easily, the ones who can get social cues, the ones who have managed to go most of their life not even knowing they were ND because they didn't present as the stereotypical ND person.

the ones who can pay attention in class, understand social etiquette, who understand societial expectations

the ones who don't feel neurodivergent enough bc they don't struggle in the same ways/areas a lot of NDs do, or they can't relate to other NDs' experiences because they always understood these things easily

the ones with high empathy, the ones who DO get the joke, the ones who are constantly told that they can't possibly be neurodivergent because they don't act like what you'd expect a neurodivergent person to act like.

you are neurodivergent enough. you are valid, and so are your experiences. not struggling as much as others do in some places doesn't mean you dont struggle at all. your condition and diagnosis is valid. your symptoms are valid. YOU ARE VALID. not checking all the supposed boxes doesn't mean you aren't neurodivergent. you are enough. you are valid. you are loved. you are valued. you matter. you belong in neurodivergent spaces, you deserve to use whatever resources are available to you, you are allowed to take up space in these communities. and i am so, so proud of you.

feel free to, and actually, i encourage you to reblog this with your experiences. we belong in this community as much as anyone else. please also tag this w/ any neurodivergent conditions i may have forgotten 💙

[justa-bundleof-confusion]

I've been sort of exploring more sexual or kinky content lately, as a sort of hybrid between "for science" (academic interest into something that's so important to so many other people), and a double check that I am actually just naturally sex-repulsed and not just still repressed from growing up catholic, and to a degree cus I'm interested in if some elements of it could be for me

It's been a kinda mixed experience, 'cus on one hand I'm now curious to dabble more in nonsexual kink communities 'cus kink stuff does seem interesting on a lot of levels, but it's also put me uncomfortably close to sex too many times over an extended period of time and now my brain just feels a little weird

I keep thinking "oh I'll just read this one sexy fic, it's got some interesting context/concepts at play and I'm a sex-positive person who doesn't think sex is some sort of moral wrong, so why would it be a bad idea?" but then I reach the actual sex parts... and idk how to describe the experience of being sex repulsed

There's just something morbidly fascinating about it that keeps reeling me back in, and every time I make myself uncomfortable.

Even as I feel myself get more used to it, as sex becomes a more and more normalized thing to me, I still can't read about the actual acts without the weird feeling setting in

And I'm fine with that. I like being asexual. But I'm too damn curious and stubborn and I need to understand. And I don't

What is it about this stuff that everyone else likes? I understand all the appeal of sexuality until the moment it comes to actual sex

And then my head gets all wrapped up in it all. And ultimately it doesn't really matter, I have no IRL interest in engaging with sex, and no one around me irl has an active sex life either, but people online never shut up about sex so I can't exactly leave it all behind and stop thinking about it

And I'm not sure I'd want to entirely? Idk. It does intrigue and fascinate me, when it isn't squicking me out. I guess I just wish I could step away from it fully when I'm done (but between my brain being the sort to latch onto one thing and think about it for months before moving onto the next topic, and everyone online making constant sex jokes, that just isn't feasible realistically)

[bbybrahms]

Coming out to tell the story of the Repo! Zine from discord. Idk if there are multiple Repo! servers so to be clear this is all from the server titled 'TESTIFY', since I don't want any other servers reps getting tarnished by this cus I'm sure they're doing a better job than whatever this is.

Maybe it's a case of ESH but I can't clear up anything in the server and already stuffs being said about me, so I'm posting here.

From the start the organisation of the zine was messy. It's a passion project on discord so I really don't expect perfectly organised perfection, but it was red flags from day one.

Firstly, before anything started, we were led to believe that it was going to charity, specifically a palestinian charity. For me, that was a leading motivator in applying. Although iirc one person argued against it being palestinian (suspicious), there were ppl looking at different charities and essentially it was very heavily implied by the end that would be what we're doing. Except this was never brought up again.

The lack of communication was astounding. Contributors weren't outwardly informed their application was successful, a channel was just silently made and roles silently given. It took weeks to get info on the dimensions/format/deadline etc. (the deadline was given 2 WEEKS before any info on filetypes and colour profiles etc) and a lot of the time it would be organisers going "idk I'll ask this person" "idk wait for that person to respond" just no respect for the creatives they'd gotten involved. Zero communication. Told us next to nothing for Weeks.

At this point, I wasn't seeing these as red flags I just waited for the info I needed then got on with it.

I submit my piece a few days early, then when the deadline comes I'm curious what the other contributors did so took a nosy peak in the folder (idk if this is frowned upon or not I just wanted to see others art and mine was in the same folder so I think it's ok?) But there's like 1/4 of the amount there should be in there and this is a small project to begin with. So I follow up and get told the deadlines actually moved (was this decided privately or could they just not be bothered to chase up late submissions? Idk?)

The deadline gets moved 4 times total - a lot of the time after the deadlines been, like they'd message day after for example like "btw deadlines moved". This drags the project out months more than it originally was meant to be. The creatives who submitted on time are told nothing, they just have to wait what will happen to their art.

A final deadline finally happens. They say it's final, everyone agrees. Many people have dropped out at this point and frankly I should have done the same, but since I had already submitted I didn't really see the point in calling quits so late.

After the deadlines been, there's no word. So a little while later (iirc just under a month but don't quote me on this), I chase up again about how we haven't heard anything. I get told the zines still on, the deadlines closed, things are in the works. This was early July.

In early August, someone else follows up and ask if the zine is still on and if they should post the work they made for their submission on their own. OVER A MONTH LATER(mid September), they are told they can post their work if they so please. In this same convo, a mod comes in to say they'll probably get started that week - and then ask what file type we're doing. The deadline was in June. The disrespect to the people who put hours of work into a submission for a fandom they obviously care deeply about. Not only is it months before anyone is told what's being done with their work, not only is getting a response like pulling teeth, the people organising reveal they've only just given a single thought to how they're actually going to put it together. I see this and while I don't really care about whether or not my submission makes it into the zine, I feel so bad for the other contributors who showed so much interest and enthusiasm for this project.

So first day of October (last we heard was in mid-September, deadline was end of June, whole thing began in April where the original deadline was 6 weeks), I'm like "whatever, I'm over this zine, I'll take the L and whatever discord mod wrath this server has to offer, and point out how poorly they're treating their contributors." So I tell them straightforward that the zine has been a mess from day one and that their lack of communication is disrespectful and rude, not responding for over a month is just lazy and again rude.

I'll just post what I said:

(I use light mode because I can't read light text on a dark background easily, so no one needs to go 'haha lightmode')

I absolutely stand by every word btw. The zine was a joke. The lack of respect for the creatives was just so bad, the lack of communication, the lack of organisation. All of it.

I get this in response:

one mod says "contact me if you want your piece removed" and the other mod says "if you contact anyone I'll report you for harassment"

Anyway... yeah. I get told I'M the one being disrespectful, they don't bother remembering I was the one who checked in TWICE (guess I'm forgettable that way), I get called disgraceful, embarrassing and told I should never work professionally at all?? and that I'm a disgrace to the art community. And that I'm overreacting. Haha ok.

I'd also like to bring back how we were all lead to believe this would be for charity. And suddenly it's no ones priority? Were the mods never intending to actually follow through with the charity thing or did they just forget completely since it was six months ago this was decided? Ig if anyone would be interested in buying a Repo! zine just donate to Palestine instead. Safer that way.

As you can see in the screenshots, I got timed out🫶 I can't respond to any of this and basically have to just let them lie about me never checking in and being a rude and horrible disgrace out of nowhere, also implying I don't have my own stuff going on which is Bold to say the least.

Seeing as this was the first time anyone got a response on the same day, I hope at least I helped the other contributors by spiting the mods into action? Idk? Regardless, I'd say I dodged a bullet and the mods showed their true colours. I don't want my submission used but if I contact anyone I'm getting reported (to who??) for harassment (it was one message) so I just removed my submission from the folder and hope no copies were made🤞

If anyone in the server sees this: I stand by what I said, please don't include my work, and see you round ig✌️

I don't think I'll join another Repo! server, I love Repo! it's a huge passion of mine, I'll continue making art for it when I feel like, but yeah. That's my experience in the 'TESTIFY' server. It kinda sucked.

[fadebolt]

Well, here we are. The very last poll. I didn't really have any plans on what to say here, but there's plenty of stuff to address, so let's get to them.

For starters, I love what you did what the slug hunt here, OP! I generally didn't engage much with that whole thing, seeing that there were already bunch of folks, ready to find the little critters as quickly as possible. And I gotta say, both parties did a pretty incredible job in general. There was a ton of creativity in the hiding spots and colors of the Slugcats, and a lot of them were genuinely difficult to see/find. But from what I could tell, people did succeed in like, 99% of cases, and many of the successful findings have impressed me quite a lot (like, seriously, you guys are insane, finding pretty much invisible Slugcats in mere minutes… though I'm also pretty bad in these 'Where's Waldo?' type of games, so yeah xd).

Adding 10 of them onto this post was an especially cool idea. A lot of them do sort of pop from the background, but finding all of them is still relatively difficult, so I don't mind it.

Now, as for the rooms themselves, we have one that I very much expected to appear here, and one that I did not. I went back to check if the final round of the ship-showdown had a matchup like this, and you could sort of say that was the case, if you'd consider Artificer/Saint to be an unexpected appearance (though it really wasn't, when you consider how it actually got there/how the poll-runner handled the last 2 rounds).

And before I actually get to my thoughts, I want to address a kind of complaint that I've seen on other polls - which would be that Shoreline's AI making it here, and taking away the big win, would actually be a bad thing, that also renders the whole showdown pointless. Thankfully, I haven't seen anyone make this claim, which I'm indeed very grateful for. When you have good knowledge about the community that a poll is addressed at, the results can often feel obvious, and predictable, as you notice general trends and preferences, and commonly shared opinions. And sometimes, we do think "Why are so many people focusing on A, when B is also pretty freaking good?", which can lead to us forgetting that 'A' doesn't become bad, just because it's taking away attention from the similarly good 'B'. If everyone is flocking onto something, there's usually a reason for that. A reason that goes further than just them having a tendency to follow popular trends. That's why it's important to examine those things fairly, rather than dismissively.

And of course, the showdown wouldn't become pointless as a result of an AI win, because that number 1 spot was never really the point to begin with - it was everything else around it. Getting to see the results of the fights between the lesser rooms. Giving people the option/opportunity/platform to talk about rooms they otherwise would never have thought to share their opinions about. Getting to see what does, and what doesn't make it to the later rounds. And even the Slug-Hunt minigame. I didn't keep track of this poll to see what makes it to the number 1 spot, because I knew damn well that over 99% of the rooms of Rain World have no shot at getting there. But I knew the showdown would be entertaining anyway, so I decided to stick around - to keep voting, and reading, and rambling, and reblogging. And I didn't regret that one bit.

Anyhow, what do I actually think about the final matchup itself, you wonder? Well, F01 is great, it's incredible, one of the best rooms in the game, even! Yet… it doesn't quite get up to the level of AI. Truth be told, I wouldn't consider either of these as my number 1 favorite rooms (I didn't really choose a specific one to put on that spot, cus that would be incredibly difficult, but I know for sure that neither of these 2 would be my pick). And to be honest, I highly doubt that F01 is the community's actual second place too (in that way, it's kinda similar to the shipping-poll-finals, cus there's also no way Arti-Saint is the second most popular ship).

Neither of these rooms really have any design issues, and they both work wonderfully as big moments that stick with you quite well. Their screens and layouts were really well thought out by the devs, and they fulfill their job pretty much perfectly. Yet it is AI that sticks with me more. The one that I think about more, and the one that I'm looking forward to visiting more. There is absolutely the question of "What if the layout was different? Would you still love the room this much, if it wouldn't be as well thought out? And are there any ways it could have been improved?" And the answers here will be different for everyone. If the layout was worse, I would still probably love it to an extent, but I easily could have voted against it more. And frankly, I couldn't think of any ways to make it better. Shoreline's AI had to face many incredibly powerful opponents before, and the fact that it won against them is a testament to how well made it is. After all, it has gotten someone like me to continuously vote for it - over a boatload of other incredibly well designed rooms at that.

So yeah, I'll be voting for AI, not because of how I obsess over LttM's character, but because I think the room genuinely deserves it. --------------------------------------------------------------

I don't know if there will be anything more after this.

The blog obviously doesn't have to be inactive just because we've reached the finale. There can still be smaller tournaments - such as ones where we only poll rooms from a specific region, to find out which is the best room of Outskirts/Industrial Complex/Shaded Citadel/etc. Or one where we check which is the best from a certain category, like karma gates/shelters/colored pearl locations/unlockable locations/etc. Heck, we could even get polls for modded regions/rooms. Or the blog could become focused exclusively on the slug-hunting competition, where a lot of posts and submissions could be in user-made rooms (perhaps we could even use images from that that 'rain world hourly' blog).

But frankly, the blog has been running for almost a year now, and I think Jadzio really deserves a break. All I'm saying is that it's completely up to them, whether or not this blog keeps on posting, and that I would completely understand, if they would wish to go on a hiatus. (Especially if they're planning to cover all the rooms of the Watcher DLC… cus that'll likely end up being a lot, too. Just please wait a month or two to let us experience the DLC first :3)

I suppose we'll see. Regardless, I'm truly grateful for the showdown, and all the thought and effort that went into making and managing it. I really enjoyed writing about all the polls, and I hope we'll get more showdowns like this from other aspiring Tumblr users, cus they're simply amazing! ^-^

Pick Your Favorite Rain World Room, Day 313 FINALE

There is a hidden slugcats (10) in the rooms (they can be in any color). If u can see it comment or reblog with where they are and if u are first, u get a cookie! And this time u have to give a lil discription or an rb with em circled. You dont have to get them all at once in one replay/rb.

Credit for game screenshots goes to: Rain World Interactive Map, Rain World Wiki and me

[mydarksadshadow]

shadow work day 8

date: 20 Dec '22

how much do I think I rely on external validation?

I think if we talk of social media (SM), likes on my posts matter a lot to me still. I don't feel like posting if I think that a post won't get enough likes. but now that Instagram does provide the like-hiding feature, it is so much better, and I will feel free to post shit now without worrying about how many likes it got or not. I recently did post something funny without worrying if people are gonna like it or not (post-wise and otherwise) and it was relaxing that nobody could see my likes. I have never been the type of person to get a lotta likes on my pictures from people I know and it has always sucked for me and sadly still does. So on SM, I shall continue to hide the likes count on my posts till maybe I make fulfilling connections in real life who maybe wanna like my pictures on SM as well. I am aware of how underconfident I sound but that's just the truth.

I do not really care for the approval of people IRL in general (unless I genuinely need feedback from them) but I would prefer to have my loved ones accept, love, and appreciate me for who I am (because I strive to mirror the same), so I don't go around being desperate for approval from unworthy low-life people like I did for the most part of last year (2021) and some of this year as well.

I actually wanna start feeling worthy (of my own self) again before actually caring for others' approval... it is so hard to show up consistently yaar. ekdum fuck up ho jata hai random, silly reasons ke karan. such an idiot I feel like. I just hope I get to get into a routine asap so I start to feel normal again.

do I tend to resist or embrace change?

if it's a type of change that I've been craving then I will embrace it happily along with the obstacles it will bring (big or small). I think I am really good with change; adaptability is perhaps my best quality. I only resist change if it is with/to something that I vehemently detest or do not want. (thinking of my parents as I typed this)

how did my first heartbreak change me?

romantic heartbreak I'm not sure I've had... Love did change me immensely though. what I consider heartbreak in my life is what my parents made me go through with the whole career-forcing situation. the abuse, neglect, and complete disregard for the feelings that I underwent was my biggest heartbreak. unfortunately, I can't say that I have seen any positive changes because of it. it's all negative shit that changed me for the worse; it made me underconfident again (all those years that I spent gaining confidence, all just seem to wash away so quickly), made me lose faith in myself (to trust myself enough to succeed in whatever path I choose, people or career-wise), forced me into lowering standards for people I chose to surround myself with, my confidence to stand up for myself just vanished into nothing, lost all self-belief, and worst of all, I stopped believing that I was hot shit, i.e., special. All cus my parents made me feel like crap for the most stupid reasons that didn't even matter, not then, not now, and they never will matter.

not sure if I will ever forgive them for this. although it doesn't hurt that much anymore. I am done crying over it. I just wanna move on for now. from this, as well as the fuckboy incident that happened last year.

Oh, and one final thing that heartbreak changed about me- losing the ability to cry easily when something wrong happens. I am just so habituated to burying every (little or big) bad thing that happens to me that I just can't seem to get past ANYTHING!! it is so frustrating to cry about stuff that happened ages ago, that I could have stood up for (or solved) right at the moment it happened. or soon after, whatever. I wanna learn to start feeling (and therefore processing) all my feelings again, especially the bad ones. I literally cannot remember the last time that I had a long ass crying session. It is a bit concerning now. I am literally always one inch close to having a mental breakdown at any time during the day (when I have not distracted myself by watching series or YouTube) but then when I actually cry, I can't for longer than a minute. it's so frustrating that it all comes out in a million tiny parts over a prolonged period of time instead of a few big crying sessions which I'd much rather prefer cus crying is relaxing and I haven't actually felt emotionally relaxed in a long time now.

hey, actually I can list one positive thing that came outta this heartbreak- my advanced ability to articulate my feelings in the clearest and most detailed yet concise ways possible. LOL.

[fruit-sy]

OMORI SPOILERS

Song : "【Omori Song】 Endless by @OR3O ft. @Kuraiinu"

YT link : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVBbnJZjJ3s

Spotify link : https://open.spotify.com/user/khfje5c59z3ip8hq65302fqy8

Original game : "OMORI" by OMOCAT https://store.steampowered.com/app/1150690/OMORI/

Level editor from "Rhythm Doctor" by 7th Beat Games

https://store.steampowered.com/app/774181/Rhythm_Doctor/

None of the images used for backgrounds are mine (Except for that Blackspace image). Characters are from the game "OMORI", and their sprites in this level are made by me.

Under the cut is just my ramblings in the making of this WIP (Warning : LONG and rambly lol)

A project I hyperfixated on for a week before I dropped it and came back months later having no clue what I just did in the "coding" aspects of it lmao

I dropped it due to the fear of legal issues regarding the use of assets of the game/screenshots as the BG (I asked someone about it, and they said I should avoid using assets directly for the game and I backed off. Well, I still used the Otherworld sky and the Sunny's room, but I'm not distributing the level nor am I profiting off of it)

The Rhythm doctor community is one of the nicest, most welcoming community I've seen, and I honestly respect the amount of discipline it comes with custom levels and the permissions side of things. It takes a lot to get your work recognized somewhat in the non official custom levels community, and from what I saw in their discord, the quality control is pretty good.

This however *chuckles*... is probably not going to be on par, and won't be for a long time. I'm not sure if I'm even cuing things correctly, (People were appalled at one part of the beats I put lmao, I figured a lot of my other beats were probably "illegal" (meaning bad/unfair or not very fun to play) but I was too much of a wuss to ask for more feedback ;_;)

To make a decent level takes a lot of practice, and also decent knowledge of rhythm games and how Rhythm Doctor works as a game. But, as you've heard a million times, I had fun in my high.

Doing the sprites were pretty fun! Well, fun in the beginning when I thought about making this AwEsOmE level, fun in the end as I looked at the work I did, but absolutely hair pulling when I was actually doing it lmao.

The official guide was lacking in resources I needed to pump out these custom character sprites (I attempted to look into trying to code them in manually, matching it with the one on the guide, but as you may have guessed, I never got too far lol). The RD discord is a saint and sent a link to a convenient .json maker and many hours were spent on me messing up the sprite placement, constant revisioning of sprites because I missed a pixel or two like a dumbass, or I had a spontaneous idea and wanted to do some funky things with the sprites.

I used Aseprite's lite version and had to do some bizarre things to get around their "no export" limitations before I learned there was a way to make a free version of it.. somehow. Someone once again on Discord gave me a pretty in depth guide, but I've long since logged back on Discord again and it's probably burried under thousands of messages now. Thanks anyways guy.

Lore notes :

For any of you who's concerned as to why Omori is smiling, it's because I had a headcanon at the time that Omori was originally some sort of self insert/Mary sue character. Sunny hated his own identity, but he still wanted to escape back to his friends again, just with a different name, appearance, and personality.

Omori, Sunny's new identity felt elated at first in the dreamworld. But maybe Sunny regularly experienced breaches of Blackspace more often and was sometimes even stuck in it. He became more jaded as time went on, as more loops happened. He found that the best way he found to numb the pain was just burying it. Not acknowledging the darker parts of his mind when it's all locked away somewhere far away. Omori then sort of evolved as a concept, and what was once under Sunny's control turned into an uncontrollable impulse/habit to run away and bury his problems.

Why did Omori stab himself in the fear sequence and not in White Space? ¯\_(��)_/¯ I couldn't think of a better transition lol

Anyways, I was in love with Rhythm Doctor, both in its story and gameplay, and I was kinda obsessed with Omori too, so I attempted to mash 'em together and called it a day. It's got a lot of flaws, you might think it was a random as hell crossover (on brand as always lmao). Dunno if I'll ever pick it up again, but I think it's still an entertaining watch 👀

[cades-outsider]

Robby Keene X Reader *SMUT*

Warnings: FILTHY SMUT! Choking! Rope! Just FILTHY! Season 3 Robby!

Here’s a edit to go with the one-shot pretty much! Made by me!

Birthday Wish

  Your birthday was coming soon, well in less than a couple hours. You weren't to happy to say the least, for some reason you never liked your birthday. You didn't know why but it was just I guess a normal thing for you.

  Not many people knew when your birthday, the only people that knew were Miguel which is your best friend since birth, Johnny, and you're parents.

  Even Robby your lovely boyfriend didn't know, you just didn't feel it were to important. Johnny found out when your birthday was by accident from Miguel as he had slipped it out.

  You obviously couldn't stay mad at Miguel so when he apologized you let it go. Anyways, it was just another day at school with boring students and boring teachers. But thankfully it was lunchtime so no annoying work or teachers for 45 minutes.

  You sat at a table with Miguel, Hawk, Demetri, and your boyfriend Robby. Both Hawk and Demetri left for some project due that Hawk kept complaining about; saying it was nerd sh*t.

  You picked at your dry frys on your plate until Miguel struck up a conversation "hey Y/n what are you planning on doing for your birthday in a few hours?" He questions interested.

  You look towards Miguel "nothing, I'm pro happy just going to sleep and eat" You say bluntly until Robby buts in.

  "Wait, babe it's your birthday? Why didn't you tell me?" He questions confused, as he furrows his brows together.

  You look at Robby "what? It's not a big deal. I don't worry with it anyways" you say honestly.

  "Baby it's your birthday, it's a big deal, at least to me... well now anyways" Robby states honestly.

  He looks around for a bit before biting his bottom lip and pressing his lips to your in a quick kiss before getting up "where are you going?" You question as he walks to the exit discreetly.

  "You'll see when I pick you up later!" He says as he walks out of the exit back door.

  You turn back confused to Miguel "did he just leave in the middle of lunch?" You question awestruck.

  "I think so..." Miguel says also awestruck.

  You giggle to yourself slightly as you continue lunch. The time went to pretty slowly, without Robby here it wasn't interesting nor was it fun.

  Soon after what felt like a life time the bell ring indicating for the students to leave, you happily leaped out of your seat and headed towards your car only to be greeted with Robby holding a huge bear that sat on the hood of your car as you walked towards him.

  "What's this for?" You question.

  Robby smirks "this is part of your preset for today" he says as he picks it up and hands it to you.

  "He's all yours" He says crossing his arms with the same smirk on his face as he watched your facial expressions.

  You smile brightly "Robby I love him! Can we name him Snuffles?" You question excitedly.

  Robby chuckles "he's yours princess, you can name him whatever you wish. But Snuffles is cute" He puts in.

  "Thank you baby" You smile bashfully as you sit the bear back on the hood of the car to press a kiss against Robby's lips.

  He smiles at the gesture as he leads you to the passengers side with your bear of course, he opens the door for you and closes it once you enter.

  He runs to the passenger side and slides in, he pulls your keys out of his pocket showing them to you with a smirk on his lips you gasp "you sneaky b*tch" you giggle.

  He chuckles and cranks the car up, arriving at your destination a few moments later.

  Robby gets out of the car, walks over to your side and opens the door for you as you hold the bear in one hand getting out.

  "Alright so I want you to put this on" He says taking a blind fold out of the back of his pocket before gently tying it around your head, covering your eyes.

 

  He grabs your waist and leads you into your house, up the stairs and to your room. Your parents weren't home and seeing as you told them you didn't like your birthday they accepted your wishes and let it go: plus they were working late which really worked out.

  Robby closed the door behind him and runs over to the curtains dimming them a little with a red blanket to illuminate the color red.

  He grabs the bear from your hands and sets it in your office chair at your desk, he places one hand on your neck and one hand on your cheek pulling you in for a passionate kiss.

  Slowly he pulls away, letting your lips linger slightly. He moves one hand from your cheek, keeping the other on your neck gently and wraps his hand in a piece of your hair before pulling it gently and placing another heated kiss to your lips causing you to let out a breathy but desperate moan.

  "What's all of this?" You question breathlessly as he pulls away from the kiss.

  "This is your birthday present silly" He smirks as he tugs the blind fold off letting you see the room.

  The bed being covers in roses, a small bag on the side of the bed and the light from the sun illuminating off of the red blanket making a red effect setting the mood more.

  Robby lifts your chin up with his pointer finger "now be a good girl and lay on the bed for me" He says sweetly, but dominating at the same time causing your breath to hitch.

  You kick your shoes off and climb onto the bed, Robby walks over to you and climbs onto the bed pushing some roses out of the way as you lay down completely.

  "You're so beautiful" He smiles, running a finger down your face stopping at your bottom lip tugging it down a little.

  He presses small kisses to your neck making sure to breathe on your neck a little causing goosebumps to arise on your skin.

  He trails kissed along your neck, the middle of your breasts, until he reaches your stomach lifting your shirt slightly.

  He trails his eyes back up to meet your turned on ones, "can I remove these?" Robby asks tugging on your jeans.

  You nod your head to in the moment "yes please" You mumble slightly causing him to smile as he unbuttons the buttons and starts tugging them down.

  He pulls them all the way off and throws them on the ground, placing both of his hands on your hips he places a kiss on your covered core.

  You moan slightly at the little amount friction causing Robby to smirk as he tugs on your underwear pulling them all the way off.

  You felt your skin getting hot and started to pant so you pull off your shirt and tank top to reveal your black bra.

  "So beautiful" Robby hums as he places a kiss on your clit slightly.

  Finally he decides to stop the torture and flick his tongue against your clit a few times while maintaining eye contact.

  "Oh my-" You moan obviously aroused by his actions.

  Robby swirls his tongue against your clit a few times before sucking slowly causing you to arch your back.

  You run your hands through his now shortish but still long hair as he continues to suck and nibble gently at your clit.

  Your hips start rocking back and forth against his mouth causing him to smirk as he hooks one arm around your waist while he runs his middle finger teasing your pussy as he slowly enters his middle finger causing you to moan.

  "Robby..." You whine out as he continues to flick his tongue against your clit not holding back on the assault.

  He maintains eyes contact as he pulls at your clit sucking firmer causing your high to spark. "Oh~" You whimper as your hips rock faster against his mouth indicating that you were getting closer.

  He slips in his ring finger which actually had a ring on it, the cold metal causing your to jump but moan as well, he had no idea how hot he could be.

  "F*ck!" You yell as both of your hands go to gripping the sheets as you rock your hips more against his tongue that laps circles around your clit not missing a spot.

  "I'm gonna cu-" You barley have time to make out as your high over flows you causing you to cum on Robbys lips and tongue.

  He rides out your high but doesn't stop causing your hips to jerk, being overstimulated "Robby I-I" You try to get out but overstimulation stops you from doing so.

  He replaces his mouth with his thumb finger rubbing circles viciously "I'm not stopping until you cum on my tongue again" He moans replacing his thumb with his lips.

  "Oahu~" you whimper out as you were sensitive.

  He pushes his fingers in your core hitting your G-spot causing you to moan "you're so wet for me Y/n, look at you got my fingers all drenched in your cum-" Robby says seductively as he continues to suck on your clit.

  You throw your head back at the dirty talk which always made you cave, "you're doing so good- does that feel good princess?" He hums keeping eye contact as he thrusts his fingers in and out harder while sucking on your clit.

  "Oh my yes! Robby amazing!" You try to form a correct sentence.

  You felt every lick, nibble and suck aware of every touch as your body was on high alert it didn't take long for you to cum again seeing as he didn't stop once after your first.

  Once you came for the second time Robby licked and swallowed every bit moaning at your taste "you taste delightful" He smirks as he sucks off his two fingers.

  He crawls back to you pressing his lips against yours and wrapping his hand gently around your throat, kissing you with full passion as you taste yourself on his tongue.

  He parts the kiss only to press more into your neck sucking slightly, creating small hickeys all over your neck and breasts.

  You flip Robby over which surprisingly he lets you do as you tug off his shirt to reveal his toned body, you press small kisses all over his neck moving down to his stomach as you go to unbuckle his pants, ready to go down on him but he stops you.

  You look up at him with doe eyes as he grabbed your hand "no princess today is all about you" Robby says as he flips you back over.

  You nod gently as he gets on his knees and tugs off his pants along with his boxers throwing them off the bed.

  His hard on slaps against his stomach causing your eyes to widen, for you to have not gotten to give him any friction he sure was hard-.

  Robby grabs your thighs parting them as he sets himself in the middle rubbing his cock along your swollen clit causing you to moan.

  He places the tip of his cock at your entrance but looks at you for confrontation, you nod your head fast "please- I want your cock" You whimper, being turned on completely changed your care button.

  Robby smirks slightly at this as he slowly slides his cock into your pussy, whimper slightly as he feels your tight walls caving in on his cock.

  "F*ck you're so tight-" He praises as he rubs your thighs staying still but moving slightly so he wouldn't hurt you.

  "Oh my-" Your eyes roll back into your head at the pleasure of how his cock stretches you out.

  Robby continues with a slow and sweet pace, you rock your hips against his cock tired of the slow pace "faster please" You whimper out.

  Robby smirks and grabs the bag that was on your table opening it and pulling out a rope, your eyes widen as he tilts his head asking if it was okay to which you nod, your eyes shinning as you were excited.

  He grabs both of your hands and ties them together before tying them to the bed post, Robby grips your hips and slams his cock into your pussy causing you to moan loudly as you tug on the rope it not even budging.

  Your mouth opens wide as your eyes roll back as he lifts up your hips and repeatedly slams his cock into your pussy hitting your sweet spot over and over again.

"Robby!-" you moan you as his cock continues to hit all the right angles.

His pace never slows, in fact he goes even faster and deeper with each thrust that you didn’t even know was possible. The bed post hitting the wall furiously as he continues to hit your sweet spot.

"Yeah? Does that feel good~?" He asks breathlessly as sweat starts running down your body’s.

You nod your head furiously not being able to speak, adding more pleasure Robby rubs your clit with the pads of his thumb: his thumb ring rubbing against your clit causing you to arch your back.

You felt even more overstimulated as you tried to squirm your way out, but it was nearly impossible with both his tight grip and the rope holding you back.

Robby grabs the top of your bra and flips it over as he continues his vigorous thrusts, both your breasts being exposed causing you to moan as Robby flicks the perky bud with his other thumb.

His cock continues to stretch you out as he hits your g-spot repeatedly, his left hand wraps around your throat slightly as he continues to pound you into another dimension.

Robby’s cock begins to twitch inside you indicating that he was close, as your walls continue to pulsate around him indicating that you were also close.

"Robby~ I’m so close~" You whimper simultaneously rolling your hips against his cock that continues to f*ck you until your shaking.

"Yeah?~ be a good girl and cum on my cock for me yeah~" Robby says seductively as his cock thrusts into you faster which you thought was impossible by now.

Robby’s hips started to burn as his cock started to twitch, the tip burning with anticipation as you finally cum around his cock at his words, your eyes closed shut as your mouth falls open small moans falling out.

Robby thrusts slow as he lets you ride out your high as much as he could before pulling out and cumming on your pussy slowly rubbing his cock against your sensitive bud initiating his high more.

Both of you take a breather as he sucks off his thumb that was soaked with your juices keeping eye contact as he moans against his finger- addicted to your intoxicating taste.

You practically melt at that action, as Robby gently undoes the knot releasing your hands. He throws it to the side and bends down connecting his lips onto yours.

His cock resting on your numb pussy as he does so, you moan into the kiss running your hand through his soft locks. Soon you both pull away catching your breaths.

"Gosh Robby that was amazing" You simp.

Robby smirks as he rests his head on your chest pressing a small kiss to your breasts "I’m glad you liked it"

"Liked it? Robby I loved it~" You chuckle slightly.

"Good because I bought us dinner as well" He smiles softly.

Don’t you just love a man that can blow your back out and feed you after?

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This requested by @peachymelon69 for her birthday! Happy birthday!!!