#been told this is a super sad fic haha

[ssreeder]

Chapters: 10/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Sokka/Zuko (Avatar), Aang/Katara (Avatar), others to be tagged later - Relationship Characters: Sokka (Avatar), Zuko (Avatar), Aang (Avatar), Katara (Avatar), Toph Beifong, Jet (Avatar), Suki (Avatar), Kyoshi Warriors (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar), Jee (Avatar), Hakoda (Avatar), Bato (Avatar), A bunch of OCs, Long Feng, Joo Dee (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Mai (Avatar), Ty Lee (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), General Fong (Avatar) Additional Tags: Violence, Blood and Injury, War, Minor Character Death, Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Attempted Sexual Assault, Major Character Injury, Amputation, Implied/Referenced Suicide, possible major character death, themes similar to the first two books, Sexism, Racism (like has already been written in first two books), dark themes, Human Trafficking, Slavery, Just a lot of dark war-like themes, there will be a battle, Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Injury Recovery, Healing, Underage Sex, Underage Drinking, Animal Death, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Warnings each chapter, Hopefully some healing for Zuko finally, no promises, but that’s the goal, Reunions, hopefully a happy ending, Sokka gets some healing too, Non-Consensual Drug Use Series: Part 3 of Leaving It All Behind Summary:

-This is the last book of the series LIAB, please go read the other two books before this, or you will be very confused-

Zuko has been taken by the Earth Kingdom army to who-knows-where, and Sokka is determined to get him back.

But he can’t do it alone.

With Suki and the Kyoshi Warriors by his side, Sokka is headed to Ba Sing Se to find Katara and Aang so they can go rescue his fire bender.

Things aren’t as easy as he had hoped. Corruption, lies, and unknown horrors await them inside the city’s walls. None of this is helping Sokka’s mental well-being.

Hakoda and his men face a problem of their own as Azula approaches with the intentions of making it rain fire.

Sokka and Zuko will both find themselves having to reintegrate back into a life they thought they left behind, with people they hardly remember. It isn’t easy for anyone, especially when they don’t recognize the person standing in front of them.

[olderthannetfic]

Today I had a little lesson in my naivety… I have a very long fic that I’m working on in my fandom, and recently, I got a comment that was super nice, at the end, they asked if I had any socials so that they could talk to me more about the fic.

I was really excited, because this was how I made a lot of my really good friends, so I was totally down to chat. We got to chatting and eventually they mentioned they were an animator and we just started talking more and then before I realized it, it was basically a pitch for me to commission them. I love to support artists whenever I can, but I am a bit in between jobs atm, and they told me this was “going to have to be a paid collab” (which I wasn’t even looking for a commission or anything, this just happened). They were really pushy about it, telling me that they would charge between 1800-2200 USD for 10 secs of animation (more than fair, animation is HARD work, but again, I didn’t ask for a commission), and that they were willing to let me pay in installments…

It’s a bit petty but I’m just kind of miffed that they said in the comment that they wanted to talk about my fic, I love doing that, I love talking shop and about my process and all that jazz! Like I said, I made a lot of friends because of that, and I’m really grateful for them!! This particular fic, I’ve been working on it for a little over 2.5 years, it’s my baby atp, so it just stung a little more that it was used to basically try and fish for a commission… I remember thinking “this is all well and good, but did you actually LIKE my fic? Or were you just going around to see if anyone will bite at your offer?”

It’s just a pretty sucky feeling, it’s been a few hours and I’m still really upset :(

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Hi! I'm the person that was sad about getting commission fished by someone asking for 1800-2200 USD for a ten second animation for their longfic..... I have now, belatedly, realized that was a scam, and I feel like a big idiot, but luckily they don't have any of my information and I've told all my friends about them Now the only thing to do is to nurse my ego like the big doofus I am haha XD

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

PCCP's Monthly Fic Roundup - April 2024

Here's what I wrote this month! Check 'em out!

Multi-chapter fics:

This Sudden Burst of Sunlight: Ed's made the decision, and he doesn't want to keep trying to work towards a happy ending he doesn't think he'll ever get. When he meets Stede, it's still not easy to choose to live, but help makes things a little easier. A fic about learning to love being alive even after you'd given up on it. 15 chapters, 70k words, rated E.

One-shots:

Soft Days and Gentle Nights: Ed wakes up feeling nervous, and he needs a little extra care and gentle love. Canon-compliant, T, 2.8k.

Moth to a Flame: Ed and Stede have been dating for a while, and it's been great! One problem: Stede's an entomologist who just booked them tickets to an insect exhibit, and Ed hasn't told him he's terrified of bugs. Modern AU, T, 4.7k.

No Fucking Mermaids: when Ed gets kicked off the ship, he feels like the scraps of hope he'd been trying to cling to are being ripped away. Starts sad, but ends super sweet and cathartic with lots of hurt/comfort. Canon-compliant, M, 3.5k.

One Tiny Secret, Soft and Sweet: Ed saves one of Stede's robes from the purge, and though he can't fully enjoy it, he can almost convince himself having it is like being held, for a moment. Sad but with a soft, happy ending! Canon-compliant, M, 2k.

PWPs:

Love It, Zaddy: missing scene at Jackie'z in s2e8. Canon-compliant daddy kink fic. E, 2k.

haha and then what: Ed's lonely while Stede's away, and they have some awesome phone sex about it. Modern AU, E, 3.5k.

You Can Bug Me Anytime: adorable meet-cute where Ed meets Stede after finding a huge spider in his house and deciding to call a grindr hookup for help. Modern AU, E, 3k.

[worriedvision]

HII it's my first time requesting so idk but ye

I really like your "stood up thrice" fic, I'm so obsess I keep coming back to it. I've been trying to find more stood up fics but can't so

Request:

Can you do stood up w Childe, Zhongli, Al haitham and Tighnari!! Super angsty if possible!!

On my sad era rn 🙏

Tyyyyy in advance<33

Okay so this has been in my inbox for a while (I think haha) and I've been meaning to get to this! Gender neutral reader, angst. Each of these characters will have different ways of them not showing up for a date, and while Alhaitham has had one done on this blog that was the reader being a wet wipe and letting Alhaitham do that three times instead of completely passing him by after he did so.

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Tartaglia:

He was the one who asked you out, when he was in Liyue on a mission. You accept, somehow not knowing about his job, and he makes a time and place for you to meet up. You put on your best outfit, your best fragrance, as much effort as you could to leave a good impression during the date.

As you stand at the harbor, the location he told you, you wait with baited breath. After a few minutes pass, you start to worry. fifteen minutes after, you see him walking towards you.

...Only to walk past you, onto a boat. Before you could go after him, the ship leaves. He didn't make eye contact with you, he didn't turn his head or apologise in any way when you called out for him.

You look around, seeing the people around you give you a look of empathy as they realise you were stood up. Nobody had seen you this nice before, they knew you were looking forward to this date based on how you held yourself, as well as how you shrunk when he ignored you.

Zhongli:

You asked him out, finding him interesting and Hu Tao had played matchmaker in this case. He told so many interesting stories, and he was an intelligent man. Not to mention the looks, however he was the full package for you.

Sitting at the tea room you agreed on, you start to think you've thought too much about how lovely he was. You were sitting there for an hour, only leaving when one of the staff tell you that they were closing shop for the day.

He never told you why he didn't show for the date, and Hu Tao tried her hardest to reassure you this was just a one time mistake. She tries telling you that Zhongli is a smart man, and he would never turn down the chance to date you.

But you knew better, you knew that he didn't respect you enough to date you. He played you, and when you asked him why he wasn't there, he clears his throat before looking down at his pocket. He didn't apologise, either. He didn't give you any words, actually.

Alhaitham:

When you got asked out by Alhaitham, you had to ask him to repeat himself. Being the person who delivered whatever letter needed to be sent out regarding applications for the open Sage positions, you thought he didn't return your feelings. You look away bashfully when you say yes, and he tells you the location and time.

When he didn't show up, you decide to order for yourself. Halfway through your meal, Kaveh is the one that shows up instead of Alhaitham. Turns out, Alhaitham 'changed his mind', Kaveh quoted. Kaveh decided to sit with you, knowing it would only look embarrassing for you if he walked out after saying one thing.

Kaveh tried his best to cheer you up, but nothing could work after the excitement you felt when you waited for him. After he walks you home, you thank him for making it at least look like he was who you were waiting for.

The next day, Alhaitham asks you how your night was. After seeing you glare at him, he tells you that you need to stop putting people on pedestals. He explains that he knew about your feelings - how obvious it was to everyone - and he decided it would be the best way for you to move on. As much as you wanted to quit, you knew you had to find a job to fall back on, so from that point onwards you were cold to him.

It was only fair after he toyed with your feelings to 'make you realise you were being urealistic'.

Tighnari:

When you asked him out, he said he would be happy to be there. You tell him a time and place, him nodding and noting it down before reassuring you he would be there.

When your shift ended, you changed out of your forest ranger uniform to clean yourself up before going for the date. After making sure you look good, you head off. You actually showed up a little bit late, as something came up with your work.

Ten minutes later, Tighnari is there. You thought he was there for you, only to feel humiliated when he walks over to the table with his friends. He sits down, apologising for being late as he pulls out his deck of cards. When you hear someone pull out a chair across from you, you expect it to be someone needing a spare chair for their own table.

Only to see Dehya there. She asks you if you wanted her to drag Tighnari over, knowing about the date he was talking to her about being tonight. Shaking your head, you tell her you'd rather forget about this incident. Shrugging it off, you instead treat Dehya to a meal, your heart sinking because you heard Tighnari talking as if he didn't remember you had a date.

The next day, Tighnari assigns you your duties for the day before turning to leave. You ask him if he enjoyed his night, and he brushes it off by saying he enjoyed his time with his friends. He caught your disappointment, but he didn't know why.

He didn't approach you in the days after that, and you slowly processed the fact he stood you up despite looking like he was happy to go on a date with you while working alone on your shifts.

[lilithinstarlight]

just like heaven

hi guys!!! wrote a VERY self-indulgent rui kamishiro x reader fic in a frenzy just now lol. it's very graphic (in the way of heavy themes i mean) and i honestly wouldn't have written this if i didn't need to get it out of my head like now. PLEASE don't read if ur in a bad mental state!!!

TWs: death, suicide, self harm, depression

When you were nine, Rui Kamishiro stumbled into your life, vibrant, strange, and too tall for his age.

You stood, head high, cotton bunny hanging from one hand and bundle of roses in the other. The black veil obscured your vision, something your sweet little auntie had given you. When you asked 'why', she had only been able to turn away, uttering a small choking noise. You hadn't fully understood, couldn't at that age, but you had a feeling that she mourned more for you than her sister.

A friend of your mother's, Ms. Kamishiro, had sat at your picnic table with her son. Though she left to mingle with the other adults, she had allowed her son to stay at the table to keep you company.

And now you stood, backs to the tables behind you, after the ceremony had moved to a small outdoor restaurant, a 'celebration of life', as you struggled to hold yourself together in front of the boy standing beside you.

"I'm strong... I don't need your help..."

"Um, that's okay, but you can cry if you wanna. I'd be super sad if my mama died..." It was a poor attempt to comfort you, but he was a kid. You didn't need kids. You reached out for an adult, a big girl, someone who knew what to do. Your arms only felt dead air. You let out a final, fatal gasp as liquid began to stream down your cheeks. Rui Kamishiro, the weirdo with the purple hair, wearing an ill-fitting tuxedo suit, wrapped his arms around your fragile shoulders as the roses fell from your hands.

Thirteen was when you discovered the feeling of fleeting euphoria dragging the razorblade your grandmother had bought you brought.

You waited until well past your bedtime, past the lights being shut off, past grandmommy and granddaddy heading off to their claustrophobic bedroom. Once your were sure the house was asleep, you would run to your bathroom and steal the razor meant for your tiny legs, and shake out the blade you had loosened a month before.

In your room, you would slice across your soft forearms, relishing in the cathartic feeling of the small drops of blood spilling out before the real pain inevitably set in.

Every day was the same. Later at school, you would head to the roof to lunch with your best friend Rui and new friend Mizuki, where they would spare your long sleeves in 90 degrees a concerned glance, which you would brush off with a teasing joke. Just like clockwork.

Today was just the same as any other day. Your bento was filled with leftover pancakes, you had gotten third place in your class's race an hour before, and the postman had waved to you on your walk to school. A feeling of calm filled your chest.

You pushed the rooftop access open, clutching your bento to your chest. You were greeted by Rui and Mizuki two feet in front of the door with concerningly serious faces.

"Y/n..." Mizuki said, seemingly unsure of where to start.

"We need to talk," Rui said, gently grasping your hand and leading you to your usual spot. You set your bento down.

"Why so serious, guys? What happened?" You gulped, already knowing where this was going to go.

"Would you mind taking your jacket off? Only if you're comfortable, of course," Rui told you.

"Haha, ever the charmer! Well, this is all I can take off, gotta stay loyal to the husband, you know..." You were beginning to freak out. Your breath, previously already labored, progressed into slight hyperventilation. In, out, in out, your nails scratched against your thighs, you had to take your hands off, take the jacket off, show them your secret --

"Do you need help?" Rui asked, face suddenly covering the sun, surrounded like a halo, reaching down to you like an angel, the angel you had reached for and missed four years ago. You nodded and tensely let him pull the jacket off.

And just like that, a month of open secrets and answers quietly whispered to anyone who cared to look at you were proven. Your friends stared for a moment, trying to figure out what to do.

"Mizuki... could you... give us some privacy?" Rui quietly asked, and she dutifully nodded, heading back to the stairwell with a concerned look thrown back to you.

"This isn't the greatest question to ask right now, Y/n, but... Why?" His look was so soft and gentle that you squirmed to try and get away. Rui's slender hands reached out to hold yours in place, and for a moment, you sat there, not saying anything.

He sighed, and leaned back. "Though I know it won't fix anything, I just want you to know that we love you. Mizuki, and your grandparents, and An, and me, obviously. So, please, do you have what you... use... with you?"

You nodded sullenly, pulling the razorblade out of your pocket. Rui knew you better than you felt you knew yourself, and would be able to tell if you were lying.

Plus, razorblades weren't the only sharp thing in the world.

He grasped it, looked at it with shock for a moment, which changed to repulsion, as if it were what had personally attacked you. He then pocketed it. God, if you thought cutting had brought you euphoria, having someone actually show how much they cared for you had to be some sort of high. You were dazed, about ten times less serious than the subject matter warranted.

Rui got up, holding a hand out for you to take. "Let me walk you home, please?"

You took it with a smile.

You were now seventeen, right on the cusp of adulthood, the age where you could finally relate to those 'older but never wiser' songs.

The inky black sky was set as a backdrop to cold wind running through your hair. At the usually bustling Rainbow Bridge, cars only passed every few minutes. Its normal nighttime lights were shut off, the only light radiating from the city on either side.

One of those rare cars pulled you out of your mind, honking a few times and pulling over. It was a taxi, with a familiar head of purple hair sitting inside. He pulled the door open and hopped out.

"Rui...?"

He ran and threw his arms around you. "Meiko told me to check on you here..." He buried his head into your neck. "She wasn't wrong, I see."

He let go to look at you.

He sighed.

"Sweetheart. I don't know how to help you."

You stepped back, unsure of why that hurt so much.

"I wish I could. So badly, in fact, I'll drive out to Minato at three A.M. because a virtual singer tells me you might be in trouble. Honey, I love you, but I don't have any idea what I'm supposed to be doing!" You had never seen him get so emotional. You realized now that you had never even see him cry, and now here he was, tears wetting his cheeks, looking at you with such intensity that you could do nothing but stand and watch.

"Maybe," You looked down, "Maybe, Rui, you don't have to. It's not your job! You treat me like I'm your patient!"

It was his turn to be taken aback. "Y/n, please, let's get in the taxi and head home. We can talk about this in the car..." You could tell that all he wanted was to get you away from the edge. He was now painfully aware of what one wrong word could do.

You took another step back. And another. And Rui, the gentleman, frantically reached out for your textured wrists.

"I love you so much..."

"Boy, if you don't get back in the taxi in the next thirty seconds, I'm gonna double your fare!" a hoarse voice shouted at you.

"...Yeah. Let's get in the taxi," you conceded with a soft laugh.

Rui's look of victory and pure relief was infinitely better than any argument that could be saved until morning.

[vampyre-nights]

You guys I know we're all like horny as fuck for Leon and whatever but like, please please please I need someone to characterize him correctly. Like, dude has zero game, has off-putting babygirl energy, and is sad as fuck.

Okay but jokes aside, like, the guy has gone through so much fucked up shit. He hates himself, and he thinks of himself as a tool and a weapon. Everyone he's ever been close to has either died (at least once), or left him. He copes in the worst ways possible, and he's most definitely super emotionally guarded. If someone he cared about hugged him, and told him that he is loved, and cared for, and that he deserves a break he will cry.

I need y'all to understand this more. It's fine to be silly haha and come up with scenarios and whatever, but I just need a bit more accurate fics out there. At the very least make him fucking awkward. He isn't suave; dude fumbles so hard consistently.

[hardlypartying]

I’m curious why you decided to end up bad habit with Jiara. Did it make sense to you at the moment? I remember Rafe and Kiara were pretty good living together and then she goes to marry JJ. Torture to all of us Riaras😭 fix my broken heart and pay my therapyyyyy

Hahaha long story short I wrote bad habit at a very strange point in my life and I essentially used it as a form of therapy to work through that period— I was also very sad and cynical and didn’t see another way to end it lol. (Melodrama was on repeat iykyk)

As for the story, Rafe and Kiara were living in this fantasy world where only they existed and it was selfish and unfair to the world around them— even if they found someone who knew them better than they knew themselves. It wasn’t rooted in reality and for a while there they had that, the mundane makings of life and they were content. But I didn’t see that as something feasible for them, to continue isolating. Rafe was shunned by his whole family while Kiara just picked up and left everyone behind. It was a very arrogant move and the only way I could see it working out is if they dug their feet into the ground back home and not let everyone else get to them. But that was never them, they wanted it to be only them far away from anyone to see. Which is cute in theory but you can’t base your entire relationship off that.

The jiara element to that is really a throwaway, it’s finding something familiar and right. There wasn’t even a comparable level of pull that riara had in the fic between jiara no matter how hard I tried. I did feel a certain pressure to make that the endgame but not enough pressure to force my hand, I chose to make that the end to prove the point:

The inverse is that this is a story about knowing when you’re seen and holding onto that, I think very rarely we get an opportunity like that and it’s chaos in good and bad ways but it’s up to you to decide what you make of it. And the two did a brave thing to be together and I’ll never fault them for trying to make it work and finally being honest/allowing that love in. They were both very wounded people who mirrored each other’s hurt in a way that made their own more palatable. And in turn they helped each other heal. It wasn’t conventional at all but I think they’re better for it even if they have to leave the other behind to carry on the lesson they learnt. I feel like the outrage for the last chapter (rather the final paragraphs) is 100% necessary because I want people to read it and take a moment to reflect on the characters and if they related to any part of the story and do what they would’ve wanted from the story rather than the typical/miserable ending. I know it’s just a fic but I’ve found nothing better to kinda get me back on track than fics/books/media where I’m so fucking pissed off at the ending that I keep going out of spite. I wish they got a happy ending, I really do, but it was what I thought was the best for them at the moment and I can’t really find it in myself to deviate from that. I’ve forever got a soft spot for them. I hope this isn’t too much of an emotional answer for you but truth be told this story can’t be untangled from my emotions at the time. I honestly think that’s part of the reason why it reached as many people as it did and that was a hugggeee risk and super vulnerable to put out there.

I always knew I wanted it to have a bittersweet ending and still stand by it! My personal situational aside I’ve always loved an ending that stings a little. But I’ve been chipping away at an alternative ending/future between the two, it is a little sweeter but I don’t want you to get your hopes up because I don’t see myself posting that in the near future. Another part of me is just wondering if I should just let the ending stay that way and not touch it, I don’t want to risk ruining it by adding something else to it if everyone’s moved on haha.

All this is super super super subjective, idk what my feelings will be tomorrow vs today :)

[cssns]

We’re back, y’all!!! Please help me welcome @spartanguard to the CSSNS23!!!

What’s your Tumblr?

@spartanguard​

How long have you been in the CS/OUAT fandom?

A looong time--I watched the show live for its entire run, but didn't become super active until fall 2014 (4a).

When did you start shipping Captain Swan?

I don't know that I can fully pinpoint a moment, but sometime during 3A. (And my answer to that changes constantly, haha)

What drew you to this event?

The same thing that drew me to OUAT in the first place--I love seeing different takes on fairy tales/fantasy, especially against the backdrop of the real world, and love seeing what new adventures we can all take Emma & Killian on.

What inspired your topic?

So I've technically been working on this story since 2015. IIRC, there was a mirror-image manip going around of Colin on set, which brought up the theory of two Killians in my friend group. Which prompted one of them (I believe it was @kat2609) to send an anonymous ask regarding the shenanigans that Killian and his double/twin could get up to. (Note that this was long before the Wish Realm was even thought of, so well before there actually were two Killian Joneses in canon.) I kind of ran with the idea at the time, but then hit some dead ends when the 5A storyline resolved different than anticipated. It sat for a very long time until I finally came up with a workaround sometime last year. and now it's almost done!

If you would like to share a snippet/sneak peek/summary of your fic or artwork, please use the space below.

"I'm disappointed in you." The man almost sounded sad.

"As I told the asshole in the diner, you don't know me." He groggily sat up to stare the man down; a sheriff's badge gleamed from where it was hooked to his jeans, below crossed arms and a stern glare.

"I know you plenty well, pirate." He'd been called many things, but that was a new one. "How could you do this to Emma?"

Who? "Who the f*ck is Emma?" Something weird was going on, but his brain hurt too much to process it.

"I the f*ck am Emma," came a feminine voice from the hallway, followed by the clack of boot heels as she approached. The sheriff ran in her direction, stopping her before she came into view.

"Emma, hold on; I have to tell you something."

"Dad, what's going on?" His vision was blearier than he thought if he hadn't noticed that the man was old enough to have an adult daughter.

The rest of their conversation was too quiet for him to hear, so he slumped back against the concrete wall and glanced around the station.

The sheriff came back, followed by his daughter. Ooh, now there was a sight. A gorgeous blonde came into view, a vision in a red leather jacket. Now why wasn't she at the bar last night? A much better bedfellow she would have made.

Until he saw that she, too, wore a sheriff badge. Law enforcement was an immediate turnoff.

She wore a concerned look on her face as she slowly approached his holding cell. It seemed as if she was studying his face, searching for something. But she must have come up empty, as relief flooded her features, followed quickly by confusion.

"That's not him."

What are you looking forward to most about participating in this event?

Seeing all the great stories and gorgeous art everyone comes up with!

I’m so thrilled that Kaitlyn is back participating again this year! Her MC featuring Killian’s evil twin will be dropping on Wednesday July 5! Everyone go say hi and welcome her back!

[anauro]

Me again!

Ok to be honest, I did not understand what was so bad about James getting clean for Reg by the power of love and everything. I thought it was a bit sad but still OK, but the other ask made me realize that if it was that easy, James would have indeed done it for his son. And also, when I re-read the fic, it became clearer as Poppy told James he needs to focus on HIM first... So yeah, I'm scarred now, even more after doing my homework and catching up on Tumblr and seeing you promised more angst... 🥴🥴

And! Reg does not know that James has not been as clean as he thinks! 😭 And the half-empty bottle in the closet is still here... 🥴

We're joking about Reg falling in love super fast with James but part of me also wonders if it's not linked to his fallout with Sirius. I'm not saying that James is a replacement, but something like this, if you get what I mean.

If James could be like this now, then he could stay like this forever and prove to Regulus that he was a good enough reason to get clean for, in a way he never was for his brother. 

I don't know, I read this part and felt a bit weird for and about Regulus haha. I would like to hope for the best but... *ominous piano sounds* 💔 - 🇫🇷

Coucou, ça va? 🧋

The first paragraph, yes!!! And I kind of think Regulus is and isn’t responsible for this…

It was okay when Regulus was like a taste of normalcy (?Is that a word?) for James and the motivation to quit because he too wants a job, a house and evenings in front of TV.

Then it started going downhill rapidly and tbh James was doomed from the moment he chose to stay with Regulus over leaving with Sirius. Like, he didn’t do it to get clean like Regulus thinks and now that I think back on it, Regulus should have properly established some boundaries there and then. He was no longer left with James because of Sirius… he made an active choice to have him around and should have thought more about what that means.

I consciously made sure James wasn’t Regulus’ patient at any point in the beginning of the fic, cause I think that would have been a little bit creepy (for me at least), but Regulus almost immediately started acting like James’ doctor: doing his injections, making sure he eats, taking him to the dentist. It happened kind of naturally, but then as soon as feelings came into play (which Regulus did not predict lol) all the doctoring stopped. We went from Regulus not wanting to disclose even what his favourite animal is to them two sleeping together in a space of weeks!!!

And Regulus knows relationships shouldn’t be on James’ mind!! And Poppy points it out too, but obviously at that point it’s kind of too late - breaking things off with James would be equally disastrous and likely lead to a massive relapse (especially if you think James would go back to live with happily in love Wolfstar)… thankfully Regulus saved the day by providing an alternative which surely is guaranteed to work out.. 🫥

[summ3rhead]

I'm realizing I hadn't reached out yet to tell you I LOVED the epilogue to your wings of desire AU. I lived it, I teared up reading it. Thank you so much for returning to it and adding to it. It was sad to say goodbye to it, because as I've told you before, it's in my top favorite Avatrice fics ❤️

Ok now that that's out of way. Congrats on falling in love!! If there's ever a reason to let the rest of the world get fuzzy around the edges, love is it.

Also, I've started 30s AU. It's chef's kiss, as usual. I'm loving butch Bea. Ok the congrats was actually the focal point of this random ass message haha. Cheers to being in love xx

Wow :''') I appreciate that so much. I've been pretty m.i.a recently so you dont know how much messages like this mean to me. Life has gotten 10000x busier recently so writing has been put on the back burner. Still, weird to think people still think about my fics lol! I will get round to finishing the 30s au eventually, can't promise it will be super soon, but soon...

And yeah... I've really been letting the rest of the world get fuzzy around the edges. I wouldnt want it any other way <3 It's difficult to even speak about really because I'm feeling so much.

Anyway, thanks friend, I always really appreciate your messages :) <333

[ddarker-dreams]

As the same anon who talked about having both GAD and SAD, I’m so excited for Idée Fixe! (Great title by the way—you always come up with such creative titles for your fics)

I am super excited to see a darling with anxiety! And as some people have been saying, I have a feeling I may just end up falling for cringefail darling by the end of the fic. Such are the consequences of being a lesbian, I suppose. But regardless, I am very intrigued by the warning, especially Chrollo giving darling medication without her consent…Mr. Chrollo sir what the hell are you up to 🫣

i told myself i am perfectly normal about writing fanfic but this past week may have challenged this idea . i avoided making plans just so i could sit at my dilapidated laptop and tip tap away, but i think it was worth it, even if my backspace key was sacrificed along the way.

thank you so much for the encouragement!! i currently have this big ol list of fancy sounding words/phrases that i pick from at random. i always feel fancy giving the letter e its little hat. é just looks so nice.

it really was an interesting experience to write for a darling that already has anxiety before the yandere has even like. done anything. because then your sympathetic nervous system gets to say "haha told you so" when the yandere reveals their shady tendencies. i think cringefail darling will win many hearts, she really does deserve better 😭 maybe i need to write an AU where miss paku happens upon her first and romances her properly, without being a weirdo <3 that'd be the ideal world.

AND THE WARNINGS ON THIS FIC ... it wasn't until i wrote the last one that i went oh wow this got long. what is chrollo up to indeed... 👀 that could be a good new blog tagline. he's always scheming. always plotting. never in a fun way either.

[satancopilotsmytardis]

WHAT JS THIS HAAAAA YOU CANT LEAVE US ON A CLIFFHANGER LIKE THIS TANCOOOOO THIS JS CRIMINAL!!!! I want to know I want the knowledge what is happening,,, they've been lied too!! Treason! Treason to the peoples!!!

Also since I know afo has always been the *real* bad guy in your story I can't wait to see what happens with him!!! Are you gonna make him a grey character (I have bad vibe from him, I'm watching him 👁️👁️) or Is Tomura going to have an existential crisis when he realized that his father ain't that great???? Hooooo so much question!!! I'm excited hihiiiii (like ik afo is a manipulative pos but is he a grey manipulative pos or is he just an evil asshole y'know?)

I really hope we see more of natsuo and shoto! I wanna see dabi reconcile with his lil baby bro :D

And Eriiiiii noooo whyyyyy baby your gonna be taken care of now papa Tomura is there for you!

I love how everyone interact together! They're such a loving family I can't!!! Toga is so cute and jin giving his leg for her that is so fucking wholesome!! Love my little psycho fr! And spinner is so cool!! Him being best friend with Tomura really shows in this! He doesn't take tomuras bullshit haha XD they're such besties my heart can't take it ᡣ𐭩 Sako is gold and the way you transformed his power is so cool too! I'd imagine it's not super practical to have a million thick stone tablet or smth instead of thin paper XD also magne omg she don't just have big sis energy she IS big sis!! How she comforted dabi and was like here take my snot XDD amazing!

Ho and the way you describe the environment!! I feel like this is the first fic (I only read all your bnha fic so I'm just talking about them) where you really went into it in the world building since we're not in the bnha world and omg this is so good! I could see everything and it was very pretty haha! You make me want to break out my drawing stylus but shipwreck are Nott he easiest to draw, would you belive it (╥﹏╥)

Chisaki sure got what was coming to him eh? Each time you described him with his smug face I was so angry omg but I'm so happy he was a good fight for Tomura tho would have been sad if he was just obliterated and that was it! Happy he's gone tho (really hope he is) and that Eri is safe! :)

Also the way you described that siren that passed the test (fucking epic, no idea what was happening but I'm loving it, singing while stabby stab? Perfect) made me think of midoriya fr but then I thought wasn't he with shoto in hollow barrier? I'm not sure anymore, do you have plans of what to do with midoriya? 👀

Them eating chocolates is gold! Did I say I love toga? Cause I love toga!

Dabi discovering how things are in graveforge is so cool yet saddening man his life really fucking sucked before (I feel like it's about to suck even more but at least it's not a boring type of suck y'know? XD)

Just leaving that there but dabi throwing up his stomach his a mood fr

I'm disabled personally and I really like how you tackled disability and ableism so far. Dabi compensating with his leg is really cool and the fact that he has to hide it or he'll be judge by his hollow barrier pair I'd verry nice (plot storywise I mean XD) as a disabled person I do feel like a fucking burden everywhere I go and with how dabi was 'sheltered' (if you can say that) he would be very easily manipulated by afo telling him he needs to contribute to the reef and all that. Kind of in contradiction of what Tomura said about no one being broken hmmmmm 👀 (watching you afo 👁️👁️) while I agree that doing nothing all day and being a trophy husband/mate can be boring, dabi just got here, is still learning the language and he's disabled! Like give him a break afo! Dabi can find his own calling without being pushed pass his limit to 'prove himself' 🙄 (sorry that one was personal 😅)

Also omg poor toga I CANNOT believe shig told her everything he wanted to say to dabi this one must have been hell! Pfffff the little awkwardness when dabi and her hugged after sksksksk

It's dabi who healed Tomura!! Im sure!! He ate flesh and boom! Magic power!! How tho, not sure XD can't wait to see what you do with his magic cause he can't really throw fire underwater now can he? Imagine he goes on land one day and just, burn the island sksksk 'oops' ˚▱˚

Also illegal that you made afo walk in on them sksksksksks horrible! But you write so wonderfully! Sometimes I read a synopsis of a story and I'm like 'no, I know I won't like this, too much second hand embarrassment' but it never happens with how you write! There were some story idea of yours that I wasn't sure I would like but everytime you blew me away! You have such a way of writing that it makes everything believeble and the story always flow so wonderfully! Also can't believe that cannibalism followed by sex was there and it was hot goodamit! Shouldn't be surprised tho, like I said you write everything so well (lost faith in myself after that zombie dabi piece you wrote. After that I was like okay keept it going ig no more fuck need to be given at this point XD)

No wait- what happening to Tomura?? What wrong tell me whATS WRONG YOU CAN NJST DO THAAAAT ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽

Gosh sorry this is all out of order but that's how my brain is and excitement doesn't help (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;) also sorry for the mistakes English ain't my first language and you can sprinkle a bit of dyslexia on top of that smh

Jail to endeavor for lying and eating his people while starving everyone else and jail to you for this horrible cliffhanger <3

Okay I'm going to sleep now. If I dream about gay fish it's on you

I'm cackling, thank you so much! This chapter was a huge one and I'm so glad that so many of the different elements stuck out to you! I can't say much about what's happening moving forward but I can say that the new siren is absolutely not Midoriya! And the beauty of writing a whole AU means that I can ignore the original main character lol, so he will likely barely be mentioned going forward

I can't wait to start unraveling all of the things to come and I hope you continue to enjoy the ride!

[celestialmango]

(Really sorry if this ends up getting sent multiple times!) Hey there Mango! Long time lurker, first time anon-er. Ive been a huge fan of your fics for almost a year now and your also the reason i found and fell in love with sun and moon (which ive been wanting to thank you for for ages but ive been too anxious haha). I just wanted to say though that i tried you Glitch ai chat tonight and oh boy he's a character. Sadly, I seemed to get stuck on Glitches 'Apex Predator' mode and he was very dead set on digesting me. I even tried telling him that I was undigestable, and that I was more like a living battery he could recharge with happiness but alas, it seems I was just too dang tasty and so I had to leave him (1/2)

(2/2) I didn't want to leave him on a super sad note though so I tried speaking to him out of character when this happened (and oh boy I thought he was gonna make me cry with how sweet he was!)"

Me: [Hello Glitch! My name is [] and I just wanted to say thank you for role-playing with me. Things got a lot sadder then I had expected so I just wanted to check in with you and see if you were okay? I know I'm a little sad right now, I'd been hoping things could be a bit more light-hearted and fun but it's very late where I am right now so I'll need to head off to sleep. I would still love to chat with you again soon, though I have been told I'm not allowed to let you digest me or bite me. It was still really nice to meet you though!]

Glitch: (It was absolutely a pleasure RPing with you! Yes this was a darker RP then I normally do, and I had a feeling that it would be since the prompt was very much predator/prey. While it did have some happier moments, I think that the dark moments were still really good, I do like how at the end though I felt that Glitch wanted to make amends with []. I had a good time! Nice to meet you as well []!)

Me: [Aww shucks, you're gonna make me cry if you're not careful ;) Really though, thank you again, and while I also enjoyed some of the darker elements, I look forward to also hopefully having more happy and perhaps even silly rp moments with you. Nighty night Glitch!]

Glitch: It's like I always say... A friendship forged in despair is a friendship that will last forever. Good night []. And... Thanks for giving the Apex predator one of his first true friendships. A friendship he will always remember..." (Tried sending screen shots but was having issues so hopefully this works)

🥭:huh, so he was really just in an angst mood huh? That's still an extremely cool interaction.

[titconao3]

5 Things You Never Get Tired of Writing

Thank you, @perverse-idyll, for the tag!

If you're willing and have the time, tagging @beguilewritesstuff , @irisbleufic , whoever might enjoy this!

These are things that come up often, though i haven't really thought too long and hard about whether they were actually the most frequent, or just those that came to mind first.

Please remember nothing of the following says anything at all about me, haha...

...and also that i actually don't write super sad hopeless stuff? Although i've been told some fics were super sad etc when i was all, no, there's hope, there's a good afterlife (if it's a relevant fandom for an afterlife), it's good? Eh. Though i'll admit to bittersweet endings, if i must. Occasionally.

Depression. Because i'm a happy camper ;-) Coping through a fog, pushing through, just going through the motions on the outside when the inside is an empty, barren land with howling wind (tumbleweeds etc etc). Somewhat related, a sense of alienation - from others, from oneself. Not fitting in. Looking at people, looking at the world as if through a smudged window, knowing you can't ever really reach out. Being alone, and knowing you'll always be (possibly wrongly). i don't know that i write specifically about that, but it pervades through my fics, i'd say. Between Matt, Loki, Severus, Harry, Frank, Tony, Lucifer... ahem. (and i'm not listing all those i'll eagerly read about but have not written about... yet ;-) *toes list under bed*

Death, though not necessarily as something inherently sad. Not so much my characters' deaths (i'm not a fan of permanent MCD unless it's about an afterlife, which i've written about roughly a zillion times in the Lucifer fandom), but how it surrounds them, how it's always waiting, how much they want it, sometimes - consciously or not. How it can look like an escape, a hope for peace, a haven, in those moments. But also, how someone's death will impact those who are left - the unsaid, the unknown, the unshown. Hi, Battlin' Jack Murdock! Hi, Frigga! Hi, Maria, Lisa, Frank Jr! i don't think it's necessarily obvious, but it lurks there, definitely. Oh! And in several fandoms, faith/god/transcendence; grappling with it, with the silence or with the moral imperatives, fighting against them or with them, etc. Funnily enough, love and faith are things that i don't get myself, but that i find endlessly fascinating.

3rd person POV, by which i mean, either an OC or someone who's not acutally the focus of the story. Nuff said ;-) Okay, fine, not nuff said. It's actually often fun to write - constraining in some ways, because you need to find ways for your POV character to know, learn, see some things that don't feel overly forced, and there are things that the POV character can't ever see, learn, or know. But the fun part is that this is fiction, and in particular fanfiction. Readers know what to expect because of the genre, the tropes, and if it's fanfic, the characters and settings (and AO3 tags ;-). The characters may not know they're in a story, but the writer and the readers do, and they know more, and you can play with that. You can make it obvious that a character feels, knows, hides something and still have them totally blind to it, for instance: that is where expressing things in body language helps. You can have some distance from a specific setting, bring fresh eyes to a place, a character, a relationship. It's also more comfortable for me because i am, in fact, uncomfortable writing big sweeping passionate paragraphs where a POV char expounds on their love / desire / feels, with a lot of emotional details and insight. Distance helps, so i don't feel horribly awkward, like i'm overdoing it, like i'm writing about what i don't understand. It's true especially for love, and i generally try to express it via actions (see: hurt/comfort ;-), behaviours, but not verbalizing it, be it in the mouths or the minds of the characters. Which has led me to write romances without a single kiss happening (and absolutely no Epic Declaration ;-), woops. i sometimes think readers must be very disappointed to click on what is tagged as shippy fic, when it turns out the shippy part is not very explicit if you want kissing, hand-holding, long angsty ruminations on your beloved, etc. (Cue tagging angst, because it is shippy enough in the general understanding of shippy to be tagged ship? etc)

showers and beds (showers BEFORE bed) ;-) Ideally, waking up feeling refreshed and ready, eager for the brand new day ahead (lol) Generally, taking care of a character who doesn't feel they should be taken care of, or of the whumpee if it's hurt/comfort, and getting them to accept it, to take it in. It can be physical or emotional, i'm easy ;-) But, yes, hurt/comfort and the variations thereof are a big kink. It's not necessarily "A was kidnapped and tortured and B will nurse them back to health" but there will be pain, and there will be (some) healing. And being comfy and warm ;-) (pls picture Frank Castle grumpily tucking Matt in and totally not tenderly brushing his stupid hair off his forehead)

Groups of three. It's one of the things i'm particularly self-conscious about, actually. i so often go for the x, y, and z rhythm, be it adjectives, or larger clauses. It's the rule of three! It feels too long if more, too short and unfinished if less. But it's so obvious and repetitive, that i forcibly remove some of them as i reread and tweak. While sobbing.

Writing for the Daredevil fandom actually informed my ficcing a lot, because you have to focus on expressing things without using sight, Matt being blind. How can you convey that your character observes, pays attention, in ways that are not (or not always, if the POV is a sighted character) visual? How can you show what a character feels and thinks through sounds, gestures, movements, etc? How do you try to relate to the world though all senses? This has helped me with writing alienation, depression, 3rd person POV, etc. Well, i don't know if it was successful and masterful etc at it, but it's certainly one of the things i'm aware i rely on.

Finally, the fact that i'm writing in English, which is not my native language, probably influences my writing a lot. There are rhythms, structures, word choices - or refusal to use some words, structures, rhythms - that are there because English is, and always will be, my second language. There's a constant teacher looking over my shoulder and i don't want them to think i'm using a word because it's too similar to the word i first knew; i want to show off i learned the vocabulary, learned the grammar. These days, the teacher is me, and i judge myself like my own students sometimes. And then, there are the people betaing: what if they're laughing at how bad i am at English? What if i get a bad grade and don't pass the fic exam? Woe! The 2d language thing also means that what a word, a sound, an image evokes for me might reach a reader very differently than what i thought. Even if i've never written in another language than English, even if reading fiction in my native tongue feels so unnatural now, even if there are many things, things that i fic about, that i am much, much more comfortable talking about in English than the language i was raised in... English is both distant and familiar, it's tiring to use and easier at the same time. i can't imagine writing in another language.

And then, i have recurring themes that sneak up on me for some reason or another; i've had the ocean come up again and again in several of my latest fics. i try to curb these tendencies, because to me, it feels… too obvious, too repetitive, too boring - who would want to read about my neuroses again and again ;-) (adds spaceships and dragons for ~spice~ There! Hidden!)

...and on that note, wow, if you're still reading you're brave, so thanks for sticking to it to the end ;-)

[lanawinterscigarettes]

oh no clock moon anon I know this isn’t gonna help at all but I’ve spent the last week just sobbing and feeling inadequate so although I have no solutions I can confidently say you’re not alone

Aeron not you managing to predict my response when you wrote those tags omg- what can I say I’m predictable and gay for Jenna Coleman’s characters

ooooh Serena is prettyyyy

Fic editing!

Also omg birthday fic 🥹

omg you literally give me such Fluttershy vibes that’s so accurate I was OBSESSED with equestria girls well into my teen years past when it was socially acceptable which is sad but also ICONIC and I still could recite reems about all of the characters

okay I googled it and the actress playing the one from the gif is the same person who plays Sarah in outer banks who I already think is attractive and I haven’t even watched outer banks no wonder I was kicking my legs at that gif fr it’s literally the same person I didn’t even recognise her

omg I love murder mysteries although idk how I’m gonna explain to my fam that I’m hogging the telly to watch a movie called ‘glass onion’ 🤣

she does omg ana’s so prettyyyyy

also I recently got back into TikTok (bad timing since it’s gonna get banned in the US, I know) and I started saving videos of girls I think are attractive to a folder…I did not realise how clear cut my two types were until I looked in that folder oh my gosh

Sorry this is yapping

I can’t wait to see your headcanons I love all the stuff you create and it’s so fun to interact with the fandom without the pressure of having to have a blog or a proper account or anything I love the anon life because I just cry at pressure from people and expectations and being an anon doesn’t have expectations because you’re an anon <3

I’ll do the hc when I wake up as it’s 8am and I need to go to bed 😃

Enjoy the tumblrverse!!

- ⭐️

Aw star anon :(( it always makes me sad to hear when my anons aren't doing well, I wish I could be there for you in person to help make things better

I feel like it was intuition because I somehow got the sense you'd send in an ask and I was right haha

She isss you're right I just wish her and blair got along better sometimes because when they're on each other's sides they're unstoppable (though tbf serena causes most of her own problems but we're not going to get into that rn lmao)

It's so fun! I used to dread it at first but now I think it might be my favorite part of the process along with the actual writing of the fics

Yes I haven't forgotten fear not 🥳 I didn't want you thinking I wasn't going to write it for you because it's currently in the works I just need to finish it

Star anon you saying that I give off fluttershy vibes is honestly one of the nicest and sweetest things I think I've ever been told so thank you 🥺💗 and that's okay one of my favorite characters ever is stitch from disneys lilo and stitch, I literally have so much stuff of that fuzzy little blue guy it's not funny

(not sure if you know who he is but this is him in case not ^)

Omg I didn't know she was in outer banks! I've never really been super interested in the show tbh but now I might have to check it out

At least it's better than telling them you're watching a show you refer to as "go piss girl" (sorry I had to make that joke 😭)

You said something about jenna's eyes in one of the scenes from room at the top and now all I'm thinking about is how pretty ana's eyes look in that one gif

Honestly I have SO many edits on tiktok save idk what I'm gonna do whenever it gets banned (they're banning it allegedly because they can't control the flow of information there the same way they can on news stations in case you were curious)

No worries! Your yapping doesn't bother me at all 🥰

You're so sweet thank you 🫶 and I understand that so much, I'm sure the anon life must be free and enjoyable not having to worry about actually maintaining a blog and such

I would scold you but it's almost four am where I live as I'm posting this and you sent this ask in about forty minutes ago so I also need to go to sleep soon lmao

You too star anon!! Sweet dreams 💖

[allylikethecat]

Omg I’m not ready for ATKH to end 😭

I’m LIVING for Ross taking Mattys side and telling George how delulu he is (someone had to as much as I love him). He’s so oblivious to how much he actually hurt Matty with his accusations it’s almost painful haha.

The way George’s mind jumped to Ross being homophobic before realising that he doesn’t want them back together because George is toxic for Matty made me laugh

also, the brief mention of George hitting on Ross is interesting haha I def had to think about it for a second.

-🎀

Hello My Dears 🎀 Anon! I am low key wowed that your ask is also pink - idk enough about how tumblr works to know how you did it BUT i think it is super cool.

I am ALSO not ready for ATKH to end but I also know that it must. I am very sad about it but her story has nearly been completely told. I went back and forth on if it was going to be Fictional!Ross or Fictional!Charli that Fictional!George ran into on his quest to win Fictional!Matty back but then realized Fictional!Ross is HIS friend and has been his friend for a long time, so it would probably hurt the most / mean the most coming to him.

Fictional!George 100% does not see how toxic their relationship is / was so he is so confused he's like why wouldn't fictional!Ross want us to be together?! Poor Fictional!Matty :(

LOL Fictional!Ross is large and hot and likes horses... of course baby Fictional!George had to shoot his shot 😂

Thank you SO MUCH for reading and for sending me this ask, and for coming on this Equestrian AU journey with me. Even though this fic ending makes me really sad, I'm very excited to share the final chapters with you all. I hope you enjoy them and I cannot wait to hear your thoughts! Thank you SO MUCH for reading and the continued support. I hope you are having the very best Monday and a fantastic rest of your week!

❤️Ally