#been looking for an excuse to post it LOL

[reasonreblogs]

Same for both. The thing with explaining the reasons with an apology for me is part of the “I recognize how this action was wrong and how I ended up doing this thing that hurt you. I will be making an effort to stop this behavior. I hope you feel okay calling me out on it going forward. I want to assure you that I am aware of what I did, why I did it, that I am going to be working on it, that this hurt you, and that I’m sorry I did this.”

To me the reasons and why it happened shows that they understand and how likely they are to keep doing the same things or if thy ran it, that kind of thing. I’ve had someone who was basically overdosing on Xanax day spent the most horrible shit to me, hitting every insecurity I had about our friendship and after the fact *not* apologize and just said something like “I didn’t reply mean it, I just said crazy shit because I was prescribed a higher dose of Xanax than a person should be.”

Like… okay, I get that… and… it would mean something if you said “I’m sorry, I know it hurt you and I said a lot of things I knew would hurt most. I didn’t know I was prescribed higher dose than I should’ve been until recently and it really fucked with my head in a way that I wasn’t myself.” Instead, I wasn’t sure if she actually meant what she said looking back or if she’d do it again only without her mind being fucked up.

She gave the reason without the apology which made it an excuse and a “so you can’t be upset with anything I said” when she could scroll back and see exactly the things she said to me even if she didn’t quite remember. However, with an apology, I would be able to believe she didn’t mean it and was in a state of mind where she was actively looking to be as hurtful as possible rather than actually believing hat she said. It’s kind of like how some people go turn out to be suicidal try to make everyone around them hate them before going through with it under the notion it’d “hurt less” when it happens. I think of one or two popular youtubers who did exactly that, posting outrageous bigoted shit before disappearing and after hearing they killed themselves, it clicked that’s what they were doing.

As for the telling a story for how thy relate (as I did above actually lol) it’s like… “listen here’s a thing I went through… to me it sounds like what you’re going through, so I hope what I did to get through it helps or if talking to someone who might understand better makes you feel okay talking about this.”

It’s like… it adds some weight or legitimacy to what the person you’re talking to is saying for me. I’d be more likely to take their advice or reflect on how I handle or perceive it vs how they might have. When someone isn’t grasping at all what you’re saying, it turns into defending why you’re feeling and going through rather than being able to just… talk about it.

Idk, been thinking on the nuance of this for a while. I like reasons, I like getting an idea on if this will happen again or not. There’s just a lot of “depends on the person/situation” tho.

[kangel92]

First Encounter🖊️⭐️

okay so uhhhhh this may look off topic from all things I’ve been uploading to this blog, but lemme explain lol:

This is like a super weird excuse but— I’m on college and our marketing teacher asked the whole class for our social media…. She assigned us to schedule posts from Nov 11 to Dec 11 and is gonna be checking we at least upload something new twice a week xD

I don’t have enough material to post from Parental Control AU; although I’m planning new things for it, I highly doubt I’ll have enough time to make at least two comics per week (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

Buuuuut I DO have a lot of yumeshipping material so we’ll be using that for the scheduled weekly posts hehehe

Dw about it. As I said above, I’ll still do parental control. Just. Don’t freak out if you see some out of context drawings of J kissing a blue haired girl lol. Next post for this (my sona reference sheet!) is scheduled fooor Saturday;D

Thank you for understanding I know this is like a super weird situation but it is what it is

[koobiie]

bestowing my highest honor as an artist to ffxv (drawing the characters in fun outfits)

thoughts under the cut

RREAAAGHHHH SO EXCITED TO BE DONE WITH THIS!!!!! it took me forevarrrr but i soldiered through as an act of love. now excuse me. yap time

OKAY SO the concept behind this was originally specific fashion subcultures for everyone!l ike noct emo ignis dark academia etc. but then decided i didnt want to pigeonhole it all and just freestyled outfits i thought would look nice on everyone

noct - i do think noct would still be emo-ish but also opt for comfy baggy stuff a lot. something you could just fall asleep in on the spot. note the details of bass pro shop shirt (of course) XV necklace, little moon + stars accents, carbuncle + fish keychains. i also wanted his metal band logo shirt to spell LUCIS but i forgor some letters but its not very readable anyways

ignis - ignit ooohghh ignos ignaurs. sorry i made him serve so much cunt it will happen again. i drew him first cause that kind of inspired this whole thing i love him so bad if i didnt draw it id explode. not much detail to note except his collar pins are like his double blade thingies

luna - lunaaa the concept was “clean girl aesthetic” idk if that happened but im actually really happy with how it came out! might be my favorite of the bunch just because she looks so pretty and happy. your honor she should have been able to just be a normal girl and just. chill

prompto - prompotoooo i had trouble picking his vibe!!! my first thought was techwear?? because weeheeeehee he loves tech and well... you know... but then i realized i didnt really like the look of anything i saw + it was so bulky and dark and serious for him! ending up going with some more youthful and baggy. i was considering something more loud and colorful but ended up not going with it. i feel like in canon he'd be too nervous to have such a flashy fit and would want to just look "cool" to fit in with the boys lol. itty bitty details here - chocobo keychain, pompompurin and bi miku buttons, and his lanyard is kings knight themed! i also thought it was funny to write LUCIS on his shirt like you know those shirts that just say BROOKLYN or TOKYO or SAN FRANCISCO and thats it. thats what its like

gladio - okay i know this is going to sound like a lie but im not horny for gladio like at all, hes my least favorite, i think he's just alright. but also i KNOW in my heart of hearts that he would LOVE being a leather daddy and so i had to make it happen. main detail to note here is that his tank top has the motifs of a cup noodle! i didnt know what else to add cause you know.. hes the cup noodle guy.. but also i didnt want it to be so in your face about it with a big as logo so kept it subtle!

(side note the leather daddy gave me an idea for a post where its like noct and prom go to a gay bar all nervous but then they run into gladio and its like "p: GLADIO YOURE GAY?" "n: nevermind that PLEASE dont tell ignis we snuck out" and then ignis walks up and theyre all like WHAT THE FUCK!!!! caption would be "the gang finds out theyre all bisexual." probably wont draw it but i think its very funny lol)

iris - iris my sweetheart.... definitely leaned into the scene vibes here and also that one image of the blonde emo anime girl. details here - of course the moogle big ass backpack and keychain (can you tell i love keychains), but also her buttons are an iris (the flower) and also a crown with hearts (haha symbolism)

anyways oh god i didnt mean to write an essay down here. usually i keep this in the tags but this time i just had Too Much To Say. can you tell i put a lot of thought and love into this . anwyays. *walks off into the sunset and fuckig dies*

[transzsonix]

happy october everyone

[soosoosoup]

critters

[clowningaroundmars]

page full o' hobies 🎸

top pose inspired by @spectra-bear

process pics under da cut ↓

[pizzaqueen]

Eddie is forever grumbling about “losing” his shirts, storming out of their room and flopping dramatically on the couch, declaring his favorite shirt is gone forever, it was there one minute and now it’s just gone. Gone gone gone!

And Steve will sigh and say it can’t be lost, shirts don’t just get up and walk out and Eddie will say this one did! all but harrumphing. So Steve will go in their room, look through the same pile of shirts Eddie looked through a moment ago, and come back out, holding it up, saying “this shirt?”

And Eddie will say it wasn’t there when he looked and they’re all black, it was camouflaged, and take the shirt half-annoyed, half-sheepish and murmur something about how there’s definitely a shirt stealing gremlin living in their walls that takes Eddie’s shirts then puts them back for Steve to find and make Eddie look like an idiot

And Steve will roll his eyes and try not to smile knowing it will happen again and again. And some days he finds it amusing, others annoying, but it’s all part of living together

[abd-illustrates-art]

Working on next week's video!

Make sure to keep an eye out for it, ‘cause it’s gonna feature a very special announcement…! 👀🦝🍁

[stealingpotatoes]

oh PLEASE rebels content it’s my favorite stared warrs

i have some ready-made rebels stuff from my sketchbook!! so here u go

[glacier-shrimp]

Done with our favorite Spider-Boy! Spiderling? Spider... What was his name again?

Avengers paper cutout 6/?

[freebooter4ever]

[pizzainator]

I watched Jacks stream oh my gosh...

I thought I could handle a Dsmp stream in 2024 but nope. just- that felt SO much like just a stream that would happen in like 2021. the wandering around falling into random creeper holes, chat telling jack to get philza to help him, and to find michael, the mobs interrupting and how unplanned it all was. unscripted lore my beloved forever and ever.

the way that it's like in tommy and jacks conversation- they're talking about things in character that also relates to (presumably) their feelings in real life. just gosh...

when jack and tommy said their goodbyes and jack looked back at technos house to see the sun rising- like its so perfect in a way that the incidental roleplay always was. Like in the way I know I'm reading into it but it still works and it feels like real life when something happens and you find yourself in that moment and life looks almost like a movie- everything in it's proper place for the scene- but it's all just coincidence. the sun didn't rise because a writer wrote that it would. the sun just rises and falls and the conversation just happens to end at that exact moment.

idk just- I really felt it. It captured the feeling of peak dreamsmp that I've missed so much.

I don't even have a problem with nuke ending personally I think it's perfectly fine as an ending. How I've always seen it is: Everyones been hurt by everyone and violence begets violence so the great final act is nukes that will kill everyone that have all ready been launched so it can't be taken back. Then in the prison tommy sees the early parts of the server through Dreams pov and sees the good that was there at the start and how much that has been corrupted since and he wants that simplicity again (he and dream were even friends at one point) before everything went terrible for everyone. Dream turns his back on his plan that he's been building up to for so long cause what he really wants is the same thing as tommy. for things to be simple like at the start. but it's too late- its too far gone. the nukes have already been launched there's no going back. just the hope that maybe in another world things could've been different.

(also the added context of nuke ending being an elaborate character/relationship/map reset to setup a season 2 that never happened.)

So there's my nuke ending defense lol. I know it wasn't very popular with a vast amount of people and that's okay too.

I think ending something like dsmp was never gonna be easy or satisfy everybody, with how many individual povs there are and storylines. I always expected there to be things left unfinished. (unfinished symphony ;) Even if that's pretty unsatisfying for us viewers. (there's a particular stream I really wish had happened with foolish, dream, and eret)

idk there's a post I always remember when thinking about the ending that was like: "Maybe they couldn't write a happier ending at that time in their lives." (super paraphrasing) obviously talking about techno's passing. it's a bit assumptive but the CC's have talked publicly about how much that has affected them (of course it did). With something like that I imagine giving your minecraft server/roleplay character a happy ending is the last thing on your mind.

Todays stream felt like grief and nostalgia and complicated feelings for a time that has passed but still left it's marks on you:

“are you happier?” “I'm getting there”

like, that just says it all.

[alangdorf]

Sorryyyy for dropping off the face of the earth; got kinda shy after that last post but mostly I’ve just been writing though I cannot guarantee that any of that will ever be finished (also I’m very insecure about my writing AAAH). Figure I might as well post the valentines I had done (like two months late lol); interestingly this turned into more of a hand lettering exercise than I was expecting lol

[jichanxo]

how it started:

how it's going:

[soosoosoup]

snowzone

[gravityqueen]

i rewatched re3 and i think carlos in re3 is often remembered for his "I know. You wanna ask me out. All the foxy ladies love my accent. It drives them crazy." line that understandably got cut from the remake, and re3make carlos seemed like a good guy all around, but i think carlos in re3 ironically felt a bit more complex imo despite the change to try and make him sound more appropriate through genuine praise with occasional playful flirting

jill finds carlos and in each version he has some kind of line where he kinda flirts. idk if he was written this way concerning his race, and the voice actor definitely tries to play into that latin lover stereotype compared to the remake's version, but out of all the resident evil men that make some Comments towards their female partners, he's really the only male character i'm giving the pass for making flirtatious comments in inappropriate moments, bc there is no way he really means it any of these times. carlos can say these lines after being chased by zombies, awoken from being unconscious alone, and narrowly missing nemesis multiple ways and one with jill scaring him into thinking they both could have died.

What I noticed here is that in the original, carlos is a lot less perfect. Compared to the remake, he has no introduction where he's the one saving jill or heroically stays behind for her to go on ahead, instead he's hiding, running, fighting, or unconscious (those scenes where he makes the jokes).

Furthermore, in re3 he attempts to be heroic (albeit in a very goofy way that'd definitely need to be reworked for a modern game), but he only takes out a few zombies and ends up unconscious, possibly again, making jill think he's died and he half jokingly admits being a hero is hard.

i'm not really sure why, but jill and carlos are split up from the train in re3r, i think it's to hit you over the head that umbrella is arresting and silencing important figures, when re3 a bit more subtly shows that carlos and his coworkers are all just disposable to umbrella. re3r carlos is much more noble, caring about who they were supposed to detain and why, and jill who crashed in the train. in re3, they both crash together but are split up for a bit before carlos really starts getting concerning about his own chances of survival.

Carlos can either reject Jill, saying he's not allowed to rest because he's one of the wicked (associated with umbrella), or flat out start despairing and is now serious about how he's one of umbrella's tools that don't matter. i cant tell by the cutscene if he means to kill himself, but his words imply it. he's hit by jill to snap him out of it, then he runs away from her.

while in re3r, he's heroically talking about staying behind to save the city, unfazed by nemesis and no mention to jill or anyone about how he isn't really with umbrella, and he doesn't seem to be putting on bravado to mask his feelings, unlike earlier in re3. the clock and church area in re3r was cut, but they replaced it with a short section of carlos going back to the area in re2 under the impression he's trying to rescue someone, instead of how his re3 self is starting to freak out about how everyone's dying.

later, carlos can either muster up the courage and come back and attempt to defend jill, or he'll come back too late and cry out, regretting that he wasn't there in time, which leads to him to try and make up for her wounds and personally save her life.

it just feels kinda ironic that re3r carlos is calling jill braver, when that fits much more w re3 carlos. re3r carlos has very little qualms about action in this game and rarely shows any uncomfortable emotions.

i think all his flaws concerning his fear and confusion makes the scene where you can finally play him to save jill meaningful. he goes from just doing a job that went horribly wrong and should have no chance of survival, to being inspired by a determined jill wanting to help others, and he is fully supporting her now instead of umbrella.

carlos once again joking (after saving jill twice in a row) is satisfying, and he goes back to genuinely trying to save each other and telling each other not to give up, even in the "bad" route he desperately doesnt give up, and its really good.