#because you’ve fucking doublebind yourself into a path you’re ashamed of but believed necessary

[fellhellion]

The way Miles accidentally hits what seems to be - given the severity of Miguel’s reaction - such a huge fucking bruise with the “Are those claws? Dude, are you sure you’re spiderman?” and it’s this trigger for Miguel just fucking. Exploding with everything he’s kept under lock and key like. Resentment over the way he seems to feel deeply isolated in the emotional burden of what he does, blaming Miles for what he believes was the catalyst which led to him being in this position (RIPeter’s death), hitting back (verbally) to hurt with the anomaly comments when it’s like dude. If they keep your origin intact, you’re both the so similar, and because this kid is living proof of every doubt you’re trying to suppress.

[winterinhimring]

#the breakdown genuinely fascinates me because like.#I see people pull this as a gotcha card against his argument when it’s like. I don’t personally think if it takes Miguel hitting absolute#emotional rock bottom before he flips over from ‘Miles is spiderman therefore to protect people he needs to adhere to canon’ to#‘miles ISNT spiderman in this framework he CANT be’ its like. something he’s consciously considering#or at the most it’s part of the doubt he’s trying to suppress#he hits emotional rock bottom and THEN flips hard#tries to cram his understanding of miles back into the canon framework but from the opposite side#from the side of someone who wasn’t ‘supposed’ to end up like this#IS THE PROJECTION PROJECTIONING FROM INSIDE THE HOUSE MIGUEL#you lash out but what was said was literally fuelled by your own doubts#so you try force it all to still make sense within the same framework even if it doesn’t#it CANT#because you’ve fucking doublebind yourself into a path you’re ashamed of but believed necessary#and your lives experience is TELLING you there’s consequences to flouting this#so if there’s not in actuality#what does it mean. what does it mean about you. what does it mean about what you chose to do#you’ve doomed them all again regardless (via @fellhellion)

The way Miles accidentally hits what seems to be - given the severity of Miguel’s reaction - such a huge fucking bruise with the “Are those claws? Dude, are you sure you’re spiderman?” and it’s this trigger for Miguel just fucking. Exploding with everything he’s kept under lock and key like. Resentment over the way he seems to feel deeply isolated in the emotional burden of what he does, blaming Miles for what he believes was the catalyst which led to him being in this position (RIPeter’s death), hitting back (verbally) to hurt with the anomaly comments when it’s like dude. If they keep your origin intact, you’re both the so similar, and because this kid is living proof of every doubt you’re trying to suppress.