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clockworkbee · 6 months ago

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in that reading era where nothing less than a 3.5★ book sticks in my head all that much

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wonder-worker · 6 months ago

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Wild how we know that Elizabeth Woodville was officially appointed to royal councils in her own right during her husband’s reign and fortified the Tower of London in preparation of a siege while 8-months pregnant and had forces gathering at Westminster “in the queen’s name” in 1483 – only for NONE of these things to be even included, let alone explored, in the vast majority of scholarship and historical novels involving her.

#lol I don't remember writing this - I found it when I was searching for something else in my drafts. But it's 100% true so I had to post it.#elizabeth woodville #my post #Imo this is mainly because Elizabeth's negative historiography has always involved both vilification and diminishment in equal measure.#and because her brand of vilification (femme fatale; intriguer) suggests more indirect/“feminine” than legitimate/forceful types of power #It's still bizarre though-you'd think these would be some of the most famous & defining aspects of Elizabeth's life. But apparently not #I guess she only matters when it comes to marrying Edward and Promoting Her Family and scheming against Richard #There is very lacking interest in her beyond those things even in her traditionally negative depictions #And most of her “reassessments” tend to do diminish her so badly she's rendered utterly irrelevant and almost pathetic by the end of it #Even when some of these things *are* mentioned they're never truly emphasized as they should be.#See: her formal appointment in royal councils. It was highly unconventional + entirely unprecedented for queens in the 14th & 15th century #You'd think this would be incredibly important and highlighted when analyzing late medieval queenship in England but apparently not #Historians are more willing to straight-up INVENT positions & roles for so many other late medieval queens/king's mothers that didn't exist #(not getting into this right now it's too long...)#But somehow acknowledging and discussing Elizabeth's ACTUAL formally appointed role is too much for them I guess #She's either subsumed into the general vilification of her family (never mind that they were known as 'the queen's kin' to actual #contemporaries; they were defined by HER not the other way around) or she's rendered utterly insignificant by historians. Often both.#But at the end of the day her individual role and identity often overlooked or downplayed in both scenarios #and ofc I've said this before but - there has literally never been a proper reassessment of Elizabeth's role in 1483-85 TILL DATE #despite the fact that it's such a sensational and well-known time period in medieval England #This isn't even a Wars of the Roses thing. Both Margaret of Anjou and Margaret Beaufort have had multiple different reassessments #of their roles and positions during their respective crises/upheavals by now;#There is simply a distinct lack of interest in reassessing Elizabeth in a similar way and I think this needs to be acknowledged.#Speaking of which - there's also a persistent habit of analyzing her through the context of Margaret of Anjou or Elizabeth of York #(either as a parallel or a foil) rather than as a historical figure in HER OWN RIGHT #that's also too long to get into I just wanted to point it out because I hate it and I think it's utterly senseless #I've so much to say about how all of this affects her portrayal in historical fiction as well but that's going into a whole other tangent #ofc there are other things but these in particular *really* frustrate me #just felt like ranting a bit in the tags because these are all things that I want to individually discuss someday with proper posts...

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mossterunderthebed · 27 days ago

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#this one's for choso #my baby boi #his kind of devotion is something you could search the world over for and only find once #its not necessarily a good thing in some cases which i find compelling in a character #but im glad a lot of ppl seem to like him. it would be sad for ppl to sleep on him when he does so much for yuuji #somehow he manages to keep from becoming a Plot Device though so mad respect to Gege for that #i love my baby. i would have done more quotes just about him and his mindset but #you cant have choso without his little brothers #its part of who he is #so.#and it does mention i think (and if canon doesnt im hcing it) that he did love his mother as much as he could without really knowing her #if only bc she gave him his brothers #and i read a fic once abt how she tried to protect them even when she was in such a bad situation herself and how choso never forgot that #and always remembered her because of how she fought to protect him and his brothers #so. yeah.#i love choso #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #choso #i will not do him the dishonor of calling him kamo choso he would have despised that #who would want to carry the name of the man who ruined your life and your family and left you festering in your own juices for 150 years?#and we dont know his mom's name so just choso will have to do. its not as though he's ever been unhappy with it. my good boi.#web weaving

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montanabohemian · 2 months ago

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blocking every fucking idiot on this website that thinks that wwdits queerbait them because nandor and guillermo didn't fuck nasty on the stairs.

YOU'RE ALL FUCKING DUMB.

#wwdits #wwdits s6 #wwdits spoilers #you people are so god damned tiring #SO WHAT they didn't kiss #what they did was MUCH more intimate than making out and professing their undying love for each other #NANDOR BUILT A SECRET LAIR JUST FOR HIM AND GUILLERMO?????#ARE YOU KIDDING ME????????#also: this show was always about found family AND THAT'S HOW IT ENDED #you fucking dumbshits #guillermo and nandor may have been a lot of the drama of that #but ultimately it was about family and not whether two characters were going to get together ON SCREEN #IT DOESN'T MATTER #that was never the fucking point #y'all latched on to this ship and determined that an entirely queer set of characters somehow queerbait you because 2 of them didn't kiss??#like maybe you should have actually watched the finale and PAID ATTENTION #because you need to grow up #AND REMEMBER THAT THE FOUNDATION OF THIS SHOW IS THAT IT'S JUST A SILLY FUCKED UP VAMPIRE SHOW #THAT IS OUTRAGEOUSLY FUNNY AND SWEET AND GROSS AND WONDERFUL #but it was NEVER anything but a fart and shit gag show #like my god #(and i say all of this as someone who has shipped these two characters since day *one*)#(so kiss my actual bisexual ass motherfuckers)

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souenkun · 2 months ago

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Is anyone ever curious about why the house that takashi's parents owned was never taken over by any youkai, even when it has been abandoned for years, when this series has given us plenty examples of youkai inhabiting a human's dwelling, whether there were still humans living there or not (and either because they like the house, or they just want to mess with humans)? I do wonder if this is relevant to the main plot in some way (like the natsume family name being a ward on its own, hence youkai naturally avoided takashi's parents' house as a result, or if someone had set up wards when the house was built that are still up and functioning to this date, in which case, the question is who would go to that length to protect the natsume family)?

#don't mind me! this has always been on the back of my mind ever since i binge-watched the anime... and i only remembered to type it now :o #i just find it interesting though. we've seen several stories about youkai inviting themselves into a person's home but somehow the old #and abandoned natsume house was the only exception among them? when it's been empty for maybe 10 years with no one looking after it daily?#i might be reaching though. with the packed lore in this three-chapter section there'd be no way for midorikawa to squeeze in another youkai #to haunt the house. or it might just be free from youkai just because. i just found it odd. especially with how youkai were introduced here #natsume yuujinchou #natsuyuu #natsume's book of friends #natsuyuu manga #natsume takashi #nyanko sensei

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rat-rosemary · 4 months ago

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Tommy looks at the forest, the others shuffling anxiously behind him

It has been expanding (well, it was expanding from the first day) but it finally got big enough for someone else to notice he guesses. It only took them three months

He's not quite sure how they made the connection with Dream tho. They're right, but he has no clue how someone who didn't see it would know that Dream is at the center of this

(They probably just assumed. It's almost tradition at this point to blame everything on Dream)

The group of manhunters, about 10-ish people with Sapnap and Quackity in the front, look as prepared for a fight as they could be, their netherite armor shining like beetle wings in the sun

(Except Wilbur, who has nothing but his clothes and his cigarettes)

...if Tommy decides to lead them into the forest he's leading them to their deaths.

The armor is heavy and noisy. It shines obnoxiously in a way that would make it easy to spot on the pale oak even if they did manage to climb into a branch without letting every single creaking in the forest know exactly where they are, and it's too heavy to climb the dark oak trees

No one seems to have any invisibility potions either. He spots healing and regeneration and weakness and instant damage but no invisibility or night vision

He can help them with their search for Dream and by doing so he'll seal their fates.

"Tommy? Ready to go?"

Quackity catches his attention and Tommy turns to him

...he remembers afternoon after afternoon spent trailing after Wilbur as he and Quackity did. Whatever the fuck they were doing. Their weird sex rituals or whatever.

(He remembers watching The One That Bleeds, his wounds never healing as he sobs, crawling out of the blood oak, red roses tangled into his white hair. The burned brand on his back always seems fresh and it makes Tommy want to gag. He hopes that one is Dream's ghost. It seems too cruel for it to be him)

Tommy nods, walking into the forest, the fog welcoming him as an old friend as lillies of the valley grow angrily in-between his curls

He'll warn Tubbo and Fundy about the monsters and the false trees with guts and the flowers and the things that scream. Maybe Sapnap even. The rest of them? It was time for them to get a scare.

#the dog barks #'should I lead my friends(?) to their deaths?' *remembers being forced to babysit tntduo while they flirt* 'yes I should'#dreblr #more nonsence snippets #from the same thing as dream burryibg his heart #two things that look likr Dream can crawl out of the tree (that tommy calls the blood oak)#The One That Bleeds who has Dream's heart but is always wounded #and The One Who Fights that has a creaking heart where his should be #tommy's guess is that one of those two is Dream's ghost and the other is him but fucked up somehow #hes trying to figure out which #The One Who Bleeds has roses on its hair and The One Who Fights has creaking flowers #Tommy perhaps got too close to the blood oak when he shouldn't so now theres lillies of the valley growing on his hair #he pushes them back with the bandana an no one really notices #c!dream #c!tommy #i wont tag everyobr else because theyre just mentioned here #dsmp au #god of the forest #the scrolls

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coollyinterferes · 5 months ago

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The unmistakable sound of footsteps approaching begins to fill the air. Whoever is coming seems to have brought some company along…

They are getting closer… and closer… and closer…

…and closer…

……until..................

"Goooooood evenin'!!" Comes the loud greeting from a certain blond man. A big smile on his face and all.

"We beg your pardon for our prolonged absence. It was completely beyond our control..." Then adds the gentleman standing by his side, apologizing on behalf of both, offering a genuine smile along with the apology.

"...BUT! We're back!" And hopefully for good this time…

#[HI HIIIIIII~~ HOW'S EVERYONE DOING?? 8)]#[IDK IF ANYONE REMEMBERS ME OR MY MUSES ANYMORE?? BUT HELLOOO]#[one million years later but we're backkkkkk]#[i'd like to start by apologizing for completely disappearing for months without any announcement]#[life has been far from kind all this year so far and this has greatly and negatively impacted me emotionally]#[like..very VERY badly (harmful stuff and etc)]#[all to a point where i've had to take some time off from most social media]#[and which is also why i haven't checked or replied to any messages anywhere in a while]#[not that i'm the most social and most active person ever but you get what i mean here ;v;]#[the original plan was to come back here like a month or so ago but as you can guess i was unable to due to the same irl issues]#[i'm not gonna lie i'm still not doing well]#[but i wanted to come back or at least try to]#[since writing for these two and the ogre street guys always brings me joy and i also missed everyone here!]#[i'm still unsure if dropping threads will be the way to go for now or not #because i have no idea if my partners are still interested in any threads we had prior my unannounced hiatus]#[or if anyone's still interested in interacting with me and my muses again ;v;]#[so if we have ongoing threads i'll likely be jumping into your IMs over the course of the days to ask about it]#[i just need to check my thread tracker first because i can't remember what i owed last time ;;;;;;]#[as always: we can start new stuff any time in case you're no longer feeling whatever threads we had]#[and we can also start from scratch if that's best too]#[so no worries there!]#[enough blablah from me for now]#[i missed you all so much!]#[and to the new followers this blog somehow earned in my absence: Hi!! Thank you for following and I hope we can interact soon!!]#[hope everyone has been doing great during my absence!! <3]#;speedwagon says (( ic ))#;jonathan says (( ic ))#;ic #(??#;speedwagon withdraws coolly

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ragnarssons · 6 months ago

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i don't get people saying that they ruined alicent because they made her "grovel" at rhaenyra's feet in the last episode... erm, what did rhaenyra do on 2x03? didn't she grovel too? 🤷‍♀️ she literally was begging alicent for a way out of this war.

#house of the dragon #rhaenicent #like ok she nodded at rhaenyra talking about taking aegon's head #but this is about alicent abandoning compromission more than anything #as rhaenyra says because alicent has always thought she could have it all #like have her son on the throne but somehow save rhaenyra #it's impossible #i feel like people give this conversation so much importance because it's in the finale #but let's remember it wasn't meant to be #alicent still has no power she still has no power to make aegon or even helaena do anything #and she has no power to stop this war

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suddencolds · 7 months ago

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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as #someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL #i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like #(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending #even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head #and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it #if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth #missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with #seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt #(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like #do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but #how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that #when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them #the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of #weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me #because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this #then good morning or goodnight

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icewindandboringhorror · 26 days ago

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recent things and such~

#photo diary #image 1 - kind of interesting lacy looking clouds. Image 2 - pinky purple sunset stuff #image 3 - These REALLY cool flowers I saw in a field ? growing wild so like.. weeds I guess. but I like the color of them and how the #petals are small and layered. Image 4 & 5 - More recent hair growth progress. I still think it will never get much longer because #it's been basically the same lenght for multiple years now BUT I do feel like maybe it's getting like... just the tiniest bit longer?? Just #not as obvious of progress as the first few years. Like now if I take it out of the braids and actually hold it so it goes straight down th #very tips of the hair on one side goes down to the tip of my pointer finger. and on the other side goes a little past my thumb. and I #remember maybe last year or two years ago it was only to my knuckles or like midway down my thumb. so.. perhaps it's not reached a #maximum genetic possible length just YET as I'd thought it had maybe lol.. perhaps I could slowly gain a cenitmeter or two #here and there gjbjh.. Unfortunately incredibly doubtful it will ever be down to my knees though as I had wished. oh well.#image 6 - writing again... as always... Slowly chipping away... And looking for ways to make it go faster lol. The original premise was 8 #main characters with 6 quests for each. Then it was 5 with 6 quests. Now it's 4 with 4 quests each. And even that I'm like hmm... what #about having only 3... so it could be done faster... lol.. I think mostly just because I have no gaurantee of investment. So it's like #I could spend years and years doing 500.000+ words of writing and then have about 3 people total actually play the game and nobody cares #and nothing ever comes of it. You know? So I have to balance that somehow. And rather that put out the 100% complete version #be putting out like 'here's ENOUGH of it for you to see what the concept is and what it's like. and IF theres any investment then I #can put in the effort to finish the few bits that I left in more of a preview form'' type of thing. And then it's like.. well if I'm #limiting the initial scope anyway - how much is enough to cut away? and how much would be TOO much? etc. etc. I'm pretty sure I #already have it down to a balanced minimum but some days when I'm very stressed over my ability to actually finish anything I'm like..#ehhhh..maybe I could make another main character into a side character.. as a treat lol..#image 7 - cabbage noodle beef stir fry sort of thing. As usual I kind of cook the beef too long because I'm afraid of getting sick if it's #underdone despite preferring medium rare steak lol.. Funnily because usually making something at home has the advantage of you #being able to do it Exactly The Way You Like It whereas me cooking meat is often like.. ah yes.. the worse way that I dont even like. love #to make a tough chewy anxiously overcooked protein puck for myself. :3 Images 8 - 10 -- various plants from the deck. though #some of these pictures are old and they're no longer alive lol.. Most of my plants actually do live through the winter because I #painstakingly move them inside and outside and inside and outside depending on the temperatures. But sometimes.. one cannot #help but be lost. Especially the temperature change sometimes can make them more prone to mold and stuff. and humidity is #hard to control indoors. There's always one or two that deteriorate despite my best efforts. But that's better than every single one of the #dying because they alll freeze when it gets to 20F one night and I left them outside or something lol #ANYWAY.. hrm.. still working on friend quiz thing... and sculptures.. and videos maybe?? costumes... rghhhghhrrr.. (< to do list angst)

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sonknuxadow · 1 year ago

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just remembered that back while the metal virus arc was happening there was a Lot of discourse about whether or not that whole thing was sonics fault because he let mr tinker go . and looking back i think its kind of strange that some people were mad that, in a long running franchise where the main villain always has to come back no matter how many times hes defeated, sonic and shadow didnt just kill eggman or something. like you understand why they couldnt do that from a writing perspective right

#and even if sonic DID make a different choice in that whole situation #and did something other than just letting mr tinker chill in that village and hope he doesnt get his memory back #eggman STILL would have come back somehow. because he always does he always has to its like a law of the universe or whatever #actually if i remember correctly they did kill eggman for real in archie once. but they still found a way to bring him back later #i dont remember the exact details . but i highly doubt they could get away with something like that in idw anyway #metal virus #< taggingfor blacklist

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californiaquail · 1 month ago

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anyone else feeling fundamentally incapable of adjusting to society. also just discovered there's a 30 tag limit which i can't believe i've never hit before

#like it was one thing when i was in high school and college like wasn't socialized as a child due to not receiving schooling and growing up #sda blah blah whatever but like i'm almost 27 and i am barely functioning lol like i feel like i'm struggling to have a normal conversation #even more than i used to and i think my speech cadence is noticably off which i don't think it always has been #some of it is definitely from chronic exhaustion from having to get up too early and the stress of having a frequently panic inducing boss #but like. come on now. i can't even drive despite finally having a license because i'm too scared/distractible/poor reaction time #over a dozen antidepressants have not worked. adderall is not working great either #i'm SO much dumber than i used to be and it's driving me quite literally insane #i don't even think it's from getting covid in july because i was noticing it before although it definitely became way more noticeable after #i got this job. i've never been this bad at a job in my life and it's something anyone who knows me would assume i'd be good at #it's embarrassing. i cannot fucking remember anything i struggle to do the most basic of arithmetic to fill prescriptions i make the same #silly mistakes multiple times i am constantly asking stupid questions and still somehow fucking up all the time #it's not as bad as it was a couple months ago and frankly i'm shocked i haven't gotten fired i keep thinking that's going to happen #of course i wanted to quit this job four months ago but now i'm at like a sunk cost fallacy point unfortunately #this is obviously not like any kind of career position for many reasons but i don't know what else to do unless i move across the country #again. i'm not even qualified for anything besides animal related things and summer camp which are fine obviously but not great if you want #things like benefits or paid leave or not to get burned out as hell lmao #i don't even feel like i could do any customer service jobs because i literally struggle to put a coherent sentence together on the spot #everything is so slow. soooo slow i'm literally losing my mind which is catastrophic because my mind is all i've ever had going for me #and i'm having kind of a horrible existence lately which is exacerbating all my problems except the problems make it mostly impossible to d #anything to fix it. ok going out and doing some fun stuff for a day makes me feel better that's great. except then i need a day after that #to recover from doing things the previous day. so the only feasible day for doing things would be saturday. except on saturdays i'm #recovering from working. i literally only work 4 days and barely over 30 hours it's Not that crazy. i mean the boss is crazy and the job ca #also be crazy obviously but 30 hours a week is minimal compared to other work schedules i've maintained before #anyway but the most i can do after work is go to the store if i need to but i almost never have energy for anything fun #and the fucking bus doesn't run on sundays and walking miles to get literally anywhere takes a lot of energy i don't have #i'm about to move next weekend and i'm dreading it because it's going to be so much work and i'm so fucking tired #and i don't have any friends to help me with cleaning i might be able to get help moving my stuff but i'm not even confident about that #i might have to rent a uhaul but i would honestly rather pay somebody to help because i'm that scared of driving even for one 30 min trip #whatever....sorry i had to feel bad for myself in the tumblr dot edu tags again i'm not in therapy rn #(<- guy who should be in therapy)

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archangeldyke-all · 8 months ago

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wow, okay, transphobia isn't fucking welcome on this blog! and if you have a problem with that i'll block you, bitch!

#i got a horrible ask from someone clearly going through a lot in their life because it was just cruel and disgusting.#i encourage ALL the cis queer women following me to take a second to remember that the only reason we have gay rights and pride in the usa #is because of two trans women.#trans women have always existed #and in today's society they're one of the most unprotected minorities in the world.#it's insane to me that you as a queer person can know first hand how heartbreaking it is to be discriminated against #for something you literally cannot control #only to turn around and discriminate against trans people because you think sexuality is diverse and expansive but somehow gender isnt?!!?#the cognitive dissonance in terf spaces is fucking insane.#i could write a sociological essay on how terf-ism preys on young queer women who feel powerless.#because it's so freeing to let your frustrations with the way the world treats you out through hatred of those you don't understand!#but what terfs don't understand that attitude and behavior is the same attitude and behavior that allows patriarchy and colonialism 2 thriv #sorry for the essay. it's pride month please take the time to educate yourself on transmisogyny and transmisogynoir.

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unma · 6 months ago

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Cats

What's not to love about these lovely creatures? Honestly, growing up I was always a dog person (even despite the fact that I was attacked by one when I was young). But then I realized I wouldn't be able to take care of a dog for, well, a buncha reasons, thought about how it would be to have a cat, and thought, yeah, it would be nice to have one. For so many reasons. The eternally lethargic me could never take care of a dog properly. A cat, though? I probably could.

#the void asks back #I physically still can't bring myself not to freeze up or get away when a dog is nearby #despite the fact that I still love them #my first thought when one is nearby is always “what if it decides to attack me?”#obviously the answer is that it won't but childhood trauma does shit to you lol #that's the first time I've ever called it trauma but now that I mention it it really is huh #still remember sobbing afterwards about the wounds on my back #shame I never got any scars #the least I could get for going through that #fun fact: The next house we moved to after that incident had a dog that was chained that I played with #one of my strongest memories with the dog was of accidentally hurting it because of how sad and guilty it made me #like damn I really liked that dog #despite the fact that I still couldn't get too close given the whole recently formed trauma thing #I do also remember getting chased by a crocodile with my aunt back in the same home the dog attack took place in #or was it an alligator #but honestly I have trouble believing that memory wasn't a dream #even though that's the only memory of that time I'm unsure is a dream or not #one day I should ask my aunt if it was a dream #also we were in the house's compound so we were able to run inside and be fine #but somehow I doubt that that really happened #oops there I go rambling in the tags again

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naamahdarling · 11 months ago

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#my psych who prescribes my psych meds is a resident and is moving on in a couple of months #i don't even remember the names of them all at this point #this happens over and over and I cannot find a clinic that will put me with someone who intends to stay #thst will also prescribe my adhd meds #and my anxiety meds #and the real kicker is that twice now they have LIED about it and said they would #only to reveal after all the hoop-jumping that oops sorry they didn't really mean it #so it's a risk i have to take any time i leave #and rhen there's the issue of new people almost always wanting to DO something #but instead of talking to me about it they just decide that my meds need overhauling and pressure me to go off shit that works #but that they morally object to i guess #and my psych for some stupid reason has decided she wants bloodwork for my cholesterol and blood sugar stuff and im just like #what hell does THIS presage because if she harasses me about the results or tries to put me on drugs for that #I'll give her a nasty scrap about it #im not interested in those meds at all #and im certainly not messing with my diet since food is the only pleasure i get most days and even that is marginal at best #and removing that would just make me worse #but medpros for the most part really don't give a fuck about that #and so now im afraid - because i do not and cannot trust them - that if i disapprove of the meds they will retaliate somehow #which good luck proving that when management and oversight often don't even care if they course of treatment will HARM you #if it relates to being fat or having bad numbers #they just gotta pathologize!#so yeah im sick of everything and just kind of want to bury myself in a bog forever #i shouldn't have to deal with this

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that-foul-legacy-lover · 5 months ago

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today just will not let me rest huh. reasons are in the tags but i get very emotional just be warned

#hush n shush wifi #just a tad sad #actually more like angry as shit #okay let me TELL YALL about my day #first: the annoying #i was going shopping at a grocery warehouse and you know how those parking lots are always super crowded?#well it was. there were no parking spots and there were so many cars and people trying to go everywhere #i scraped my wheels too which is fine but one of my relatives who likes cars acts like it's a sin #so that shook me up enough that i didn't go outside for the rest of the day #and THEN #OHHHH AND FUCKING THEN.#if anyone remembers the absolute ass of a person from last year who i thought was my friend but said horrible things to me out of the blue #WELL THEY CAME BACK #i never got a chance to block them initially because they blocked me first #BUT I GOT FUCKING MESSAGES FROM THEM TONIGHT #AND ALL THEY WERE SAYING WAS ESSENTIALLY THAT THEY MEANT WHAT THEY SAID #they said some bullshit about the execution being wrong and that their ex wrote it for them #which by the way is just scummy on its own #and that they get mad emotionally which is a horrible excuse #and had the AUDACITY TO ASK IF I HAD ANY QUESTIONS #IN WHAT DELUDED SELF CENTERED WORLD DO YOU HAVE TO LIVE IN TO THINK I WOULD EVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN #my trust is a VERY VERY FRAGILE THING #AND THIS IS A VERY LARGE CONTRIBUTOR TO IT #this isn't an apology. they regret none of it #this is a way for them to make themself feel better #the scariest part is that this person by now is almost/IS an adult #which is terrifying if that means there are more people like that out there #i try not to wish ill will but i genuinely hope no one ever has to suffer through being their 'friend' ever again #anyways they're blocked on all of my platforms now.#if the person is somehow reading this. hi! never talk to me again. you're a horrible human being with no consideration for other's feelings

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