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Three's a Sideshow
Spencer Reid x Fem!Reader
Summary: Spencer misses an important date and ends up paying the consequences Trope:Angst w.c: 4.2k a/n: this is one of the many many requests of @lavonee (her exact request was: maybe spencer misses an important date/anniversary because of jj and reader is finally fed up being second place to her) trying my best to address all of them. Not proofread. Comments and reblogs are highly appreciated! š masterlist
The hazy dim light of each candle on the white linen covered table gave the restaurant an orange hue. Various aromas of meat, wine, and complimentary cheese wafted through the enclosed space. Sensual tones of the saxophone lightly played on the speakers perfectly weave through each muted conversations between loved onesācouples and families. The high-end restaurant basked in good food and great company.Ā
Everything was perfect.
Every costumer joyous and warm from the delicious wine.Ā
All except for one, alone by the corner booth, phone pressed to your ear and eyes scanning for the tall, lithe form of the date for the night.
Beep. Beep. Beā
You grimaced at the busy line tone that answered you,Ā again.Ā Hands gripping the draped linen, trying your best not to tap your newly manicured fingers on the tableātrying to blend into the background, unsuccessfully.Ā
You stuck out like a sore thumb. All dressed up with no partner or food on the table, just a glass of once chilled wineācondensation all around it like tears of abandonment and longing.Ā
The same waitress who escorted you to the tableā15 minutes ago, approached with a perfectly rehearsed smile.
āMaāam, are we ready to order?ā
You sighed. āActually, my boyfriend isnāt here yetāā
She bit her lip, nodding, before quickly averting her eyes to the queued up line outside the premise.
Right. It was a Friday night and every adult in the vicinity wanted a night out to unwind and start their weekend on the right foot.
You tightly smiled, the embarrassment of tonight painting your cheeks a deep maroon, unnoticed through the flickering of the orange candlelight. āāyou know what, I think Iād just have a slice of your chocolate cake to go. Yeah, Iām sorry about holding up the table.ā
The waitress nodded, understanding washing on her face. āThatās alright. Iāll have your order packed and ready to go.ā
āThanks,ā you murmured as you watched her leave.Ā
Tonight was suppose to be special.Ā
You dressed up in the same white with purple printed flower midi length dress, styled your hair effortlessly, and spritzed on your favorite perfume that smelled like a luscious garden after a rainy night.
Everything was just like how it was two weeks agoāincluding your boyfriend of three years, Spencer Reid, not showing up for the date.
You didnāt even know why you bothered. Why his promise of being here tonight made you feel giddy and trusting. Why his commitment on having do-over for the actual anniversary dinner that he missed two weeks ago made you think it was going to end differently and why you gave him another chanceā
Another chance to let you down.
Another crack in your belief that you were important.
Another heartache to soothe.
Another let down.Ā
When you first entered the relationship, you understood the gravity of his work. How his career will always come first and how unpredictable it all may be.
That partāaccepting those facts, were easy. You were always one to be tolerant and understanding ever since childhood, labeled as the easy kidāthe independent, the self-sufficient. Mixed in with your highly demanding career as a doctor, you got itāthe patience and consideration of a saint.
A martyr, your good friend once bluntly said.Ā
But what good was being a martyr when the person youāre killing yourself for didnāt notice?
It didnāt matter at first. Missed messages, missed calls, missed dates were just a work of rotten timing from both ends. Sometimes it was you having to run to the hospital for an emergency surgery and sometimes it was him having to catch a plane to a latest serial killer case.
The tandem of both independent and busy people in the relationship worked, love blossomed regardless.
What made it different was, there was three of you in the relationship.
The third party being an intense platonic, as he once defended, connection withĀ Her.
You felt it for the first time during a get together with his found family. Your set of eyes trained to read in between the lines for the truth patients unwittingly hide from their doctor. It was a skill that you honed and never hated, up until that moment.
The stolen glances when the other wasnāt looking.
The emotion veiled between the eyes.
The unsaid words that seemed to spill from the silence.
Never mind that there were two presences in the vicinity that could have their life altered in any minute from the secrets long hidden in vaults. It was as if you and her husband were considered ornaments, pieces of a possible aftermath not worth saving.Ā
You knew of their pastāSpencer admitting to having a crush on her during his early days with the team, asking her out on a baseball game date, and her recent admission during a case.
Everything was water under the bridge, your boyfriend assured you. But the thing was, water had a way of overflowing from confinement, turning deadly, and ravaging what once was an idyllic garden that bloomed from your affection.Ā
Now as you pay for the tab and collect your things, you felt the tides that destroyed the solace inside of you well up to your eyesāwanting the release youāre fighting to keep at bay.
A fight youāre bound to lose.
You whispered a thank you to the waitress, soft and quiet that you were unsure if she even heard it but that was the best you could do, the sobs closing your vocal chords and threatening to escape, making you a spectacleāleaving the restaurant alone, with a boxed cake on hand.
What a sad sight.
You fumbled with the phone again, hands shaking as you insert the key on the ignition.
Beep. Beep. Beā
Nothing.Ā
What even was the point of all of this, you wondered. All this emotion, love, that was once sweet and heavenly now all felt rotten, puss oozing from its pores and flies exalting for a feast.Ā
Slowly backing your black 4-door sedan out of the parking lot, you pondered if this was the endādid you have any more left to give? Or was this just a bump on the road for the your future selves to learn and heartily laugh about?Ā
āāā
The rattling of your keys as you dropped it on the ceramic plate across the main door disrupted the silent, empty apartment.
A small smile graced your face as you remembered spontaneously booking a ceramic wheel class with Spencer in tow. His initial worries about getting under the nails dirty and the bacteria that could be collected from any stranger that used the items before the both of you swept away with your giggles and assurances to double up on vitamins.Ā
There was a wide grin on his face then, accepting defeat from the sight of your enthusiasm and glee.Ā
It was one of your greatest memory with Spencer and when the glazed pottery came from the mailāyours, a wonky blue green plate and his, an uneven moss green bowl, you had him promise to take you again.
A promise that never came to fruition.
You sighed, eyes tracking the rented space you never quite moved in to. The walls painted this dark green color, reflecting the somber mood you frequently found yourself in and the shelves filled to the brim with books you never dream of reading.
in hindsight, maybe your subconscious was telling you something. Why you never agreed to Spencerās casual asking of you to live with him. Why you were adamant of keeping your own apartment regardless of the nights you spent outside of it.
This place became your pseudo-home, comfortable but never quite permanent.Ā
The distant murmur of a car being parked on the street had you clambering up from your defeated, slouched position on the leather couch. In your gut, you knew who it was.
You spotted them exiting the SUV.
The two figures that make the relationship threeāa sideshow for everyone to see.
Spencer andĀ JJ.Ā
They talked for a bit, probably saying pleasantries of goodbyes, before she leaned in for a hug. One that he reciprocated, patting her back as he went.Ā
They looked like a couple and if you were in your right state of mind, youād chalk the exchange up to nothing but you werenātāyou were wounded and unsure of your standing ever since you exited the restaurant.
Were you his first still?
Or were you just second place?Ā
They were questions you never wanted no,Ā needed,Ā to be addressed but it seemed like tonight was the night of reckoning.
As you watched Spencer enter the apartment, the smile on his face from spotting you slowly become a furrow between his brows, you fidgetedāpulling the coat tighter to your body, the one you never hung on the back of the doorāready to bolt.
āLove, Iām so sorry I missed our reservationāā
He went in for a kiss on your glossy lips.Ā
A simple act that you didnāt have the energy to accept, you turned your head to the side. His lips catching your cheek instead.
āItās fine,ā you sardonically replied. āIt wasnāt like I was waiting for you for half an hour to show up. Itās fine, Spencer.āĀ
His brow twitched.Ā
āIt sounds like itās not fine. Why donāt you tell me what you really feel? We promised to openly communicate, didnāt we?ā
You huffed, throwing your hands up in the air. āI said itās fine, Spencer. Why donāt you give it a rest?ā
āYou look beautiful,ā his calloused fingers gently caressing your hair. āIām sorry I didnāt show. Itās just thatĀ JJĀ and the teaāā
Your last thread of reason snapped clean from hearing her name.
āItās always going to be like this, isnāt it? Me coming after her?ā
āLove.ā
āDonāt touch meādonāt call me that,ā you pushed his hands away, tucking the escaped tendrils behind your ears.Ā
His own, raking the wavy brown hair you loved, in frustration. You could tell, with how his hands opened and closed, that he was itching to touch you, comfort you.Ā
āHer? You mean,Ā JJ? Sheās a friend. Just a friend.āĀ
āAnd if this friend wasnāt married with kids, would you still be here with me now?ā
Silence.Ā
There, you said it.
āWhatāyes, yes of course. Why would you ask that? Why would you doubt it? DoubtĀ me?ā
Your gut twisted inside of you. It was inconceivable for someone like Spencer to lie, wasnāt it? He was a good guy, one of the best. But all the hidden resentment in your heartāa pile you werenāt even aware of, no longer wanted to be silenced. It no longer wanted to be pushed to the side for optimism and denial.Ā
āI donāt know, Spencer. Maybe itās the way you look at herāā voice raising up an octave. Youāve lost control, verbally dumping out everything. āDo you think I donāt see it? You look at her with this,Ā this nostalgiaĀ andāandĀ this emotionĀ that I canāt compare toānever seen it when you look at me! Or maybe, maybe itās because you drop everything for her?Ā Including me?ā
āAre you talking about when Henry got sick?ā his hands finding a home on his hips. āI thought you understoodāyou of all, should have.ā
Your laughter turned into a sob. āI doāI did, until you dropped me of unceremoniously back here, in this apartment, just so you could rush out to her home. Like I was some kind of secret, you didnāt want to bring around her. Like I was some sort of disease, you didnāt want her catching. Didnāt you think I would be of great help? A licensed medical doctor?ā
āI wasnāt thinking straightāI thought you, you shouldnāt be exposed to the type of flu Henry contracted. You could have gotten sick too and could have passed it on to your other patients.ā
āItās my job to take care of the sick, donāt you think I take measures for my own health? Spencer, please, for once just be honest with me.ā
He tilted his head. āHonest about what?ā
āIf itās her you really want and if Iām just a passable substitute to settle down with.ā
You could see his eyes blazing with suchādisgust? Anger? You didnāt know what emotion it was before it was snuffed out, leaving his expression blank and almost sad. It was a look you were familiar with, hisĀ profilerĀ look.
āI donāt need you profiling me and my insecurities, Spencer. I just want the truth. The God-honest truth.āĀ
āI love you. I canāt imagine a life without youāI wonāt imagine it. Isnāt that enough?ā
Your hands drop to your side.
āI donāt know. Is it?ā
The distance created by the silence between you and Spencer was vast. Youāve never felt quite alone and isolated in the relationship until this moment. Was this it, then? The end to your once dreamed of happy ever after?Ā
āIām sorry I missed the dinner. Why donāt you let me make it up to you? We can book the same restaurant for next week andāā
āYou canāt just make up for a make up anniversary dinner, thatās not how it works in real life, Spencer. And besides, I donāt want to see the same pitying looks the workers there give me when they realize my date is again,Ā and again,Ā a no-show.ā
He sighed, slowly invading your space. The arms that once felt like home to you, circling your waist, now felt foreign. You never imagined youād get here but then again, who did?Ā
Your hands clasped his button down before loosening its grip. Taking in one more whiff of his cedar-wood and mint perfume, you pushed him away. Stepping backwards from his presence and all he had to offer.
āItās late. Weāre both tiredāā
He nervously smiled. Intertwining his fingers with yours and started to walk backwards to the direction of the bedroom. āYeah, we can talk about it in the morning once you feel better.ā
You wiggled your hand free.
āActually, I think I have to go.ā
Spencer paused, panic coloring his face. āThatāsāthatās not what I meant, love. Anything but that. Please,Ā please I love you and Iām sorry.ā
āMe too, Spence. Me too.āĀ
You slowly gathered your things, sans the chocolate cake left opened and untouched on the coffee table.Ā
āHappy anniversary, I need space to think this all throughāto think us through.ā
He stood still, blocking your way, trying to wrap his head around the direction this was going to. The inevitable downfall of him and you. It was a car crash no one could no longer escape from.Ā
āPlease, let me fix this. I can do it, justātell me how. Do you want me to limit my time spent withĀ JJ? I-I can try, just please, donāt leave me.ā
It wasnāt a promise, you noted. With how many broken promises there were between the span of your relationship, you wondered if that was a conscious choice of wording from him. It sounded hopeful, gleaming with oath even. But they were just words at the end of the day, packaged pretty for you to swallow.
āI need time, Spencer. Iām not breaking up with you, I just need space,ā you placed a kiss on his cheek, wet from tears. āCan you give me that,Ā love?ā
He choked a sob.Ā
āPromise me youāll be back.Ā Promise me.ā
You tightly smiled, making your way back to the door. The unanswered plea hanging in the air like a blade, waiting to slash down between youāwaiting to sever the connection that was once shiny and new.Ā
Shakily removing the spare key of the apartment from your chain, you chanced one last look at his hunched formāsobs emitting from his sweet lips and acid rain spilling down his cherub cheeks, regretting that this might be your last memory of Spencer Reid.
You didnāt know if youād be back.Ā
If the thought of being second place will ever go away.
But the sinking feeling in your gut tells you the truthāthat this is it.
This is final.
This is the end.Ā
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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Hard hours are open and I'm ready!!
Size training with yunho and how it takes a few times for you to adjust to his thick cock whilst he's fucking you.
He'd be so gentle and so fucking proud at the same time.
heyyyyy so i know this ask is over a month old....but i got really obsessed with it all of the sudden š
and this ended up a lot longer than i meant for it to...
but anyway-
size training and yunho just go together so well. itās like a match made in heaven.
because he takes so much pride in it. pride in the training that is. (though he is also incredibly proud of how massive he is and how much prep it usually requires for someone to take himā¦šāāļø)
and i just canāt help but feel like heād enjoy size training as foreplay. like of course he wants to make sure youāre comfortable and safe, but FUCK if he doesnāt love how you beg for him to fuck you probably.
i get the feeling that heād take at least a coupleā¦sessionsā¦before actually having you try to take his whole length.Ā
heās a patient man. and you know how big he is. you can feel it every time you sit on his lap while you watch a movie. youāve had your fair share of tired nights when youāve jerked him off in his pants while he plays with you through your underwear.Ā
but when you first got together, he let you know immediately that you might not be able to take him. especially not right away. and you were so horny out of your mind about this man that you had begged him to at least try. your desire had almost brought you to tears. but he stood his ground. cupping your face and kissing your forehead telling you that āyou just need a little training, babyā and promising āi wonāt leave your pretty pussy empty for longā
that first night is so important to him. he wants you to understand that he can make you feel good even without his dick inside you. his hands will 100% do the trick. they do it for him, too, to be honest. watching his fingers disappear inside you is almost enough to make him cum in his pants. and watching how your eyelids flutter when he adds a third finger.
heāll use toys too to build you up to it. whether theyāre your own or his, he loves to watch you go a little crazy every time it gets bigger and he loves to hear your gasps every time. toys arenāt his favorite though because itās less skin on skin contact. if he could, heād just use his fingers, but he understands the importance of buildup.
when you both finally decide that youāre ready to try and take him, he makes sure everything is perfect. he makes sure the sheets are fresh, the room is cool, and that no one even has the possibility of disturbing the two of you for the foreseeable future. and he sets the expectation that it might not happen tonight. but youāre determined.
he always starts in missionary. itās easier for him to control that way, and he finds thatās usually where his partner is usually the most comfortable the first time. maybe heāll even put a pillow under your lower back and make sure youāre as comfortable as possible. and he absolutely has lube on standby if itās needed. heās a big hand holder too, so heāll grab your hand against your stomach and caress your knuckles as he lines himself up with your entrance. āweāll start with just the tip, ok baby?āĀ
and heāll push into you ever so slightly. the stretch is still a lot to take, so heās so fucking gentle, heās constantly reminding you to ābreathe, babyā and he makes sure to ask you every time if youāre ok to go further. and he lets you gasp out your āyesā before trying to fit in another inch. he keeps the reassurance coming even if he canāt help himself from crossing the line into condescending
āgood girl, taking my cock so wellā āoh you fit me so perfectly, angelā ādo you feel good, baby?ā āyeah?ā āoh you canāt even think straight anymore can you?ā
when heās about half an inch from bottoming out, you grab his hand, squeezing hard, āyunhoā¦ā you choke out. āare you ok, angel? whatās wrong?ā you shake your head āno iā¦fuckā¦i canātā¦iām so closeā and he feels you tighten around him at the admission. āfuck ok. hold on baby.ā he presses his body up against yours and brings his lips to your ear, āweāre almost there, ok? just hold out for a couple more secondsā all you can do is just whimper and nod as he pushes himself in the last few centimeters.
āoh fuckkk babyā he brings a hand to your clit āyouāre gonna cumā mhmm you nod frantically, burying your nails in his backĀ
āyouāre so bigā you barely gasp out. āi know. i know, baby.ā he kisses your cheeks and lips as he plays with your clit. ācan you come for me? please? come on my cock?ā thatās all it takes for your warm walls to tighten around him and he holds you to his chest while you come.Ā
and part of me all of me feels like, as long as youāre okay with it, that yunho would want cockwarming to be heavily involved in the early stages of his aftercare. like heāll flip you over so youāre seated in his lap. and heāll stay inside you while he kisses your neck and shoulders. and making sure you get plenty of vocal affirmation āyou did so good for me babyā āiām so proud of you, prettyā āmy good girl, you did so wellā eventually, when he notices your discomfort at the constant stretch, heāll pull you off of him and clean you properly. but at least for a little while he wants you to have aā¦physical reminderā¦of how good you did.
#yunho smut#yunho x reader#jeong yunho smut#jeong yunho x reader#ateez smut#ateez x reader#yunho x reader smut#jeong yunho x reader smut#ateez x reader smut
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Steve being the one who is actually a fountain of queer knowledge because he has a gay uncle in San Francisco or New York, one of the cities that had the biggest queer communities.
Robin not having much information because she's a closeted teenage lesbian who can't drive, so she has nowhere to source that information without raising the suspicions of her parents.
Eddie doesn't have the chance because he can't afford to spend weekends in Indianapolis or Chicago, because weekends mean parties, and parties are one of the best times to deal. He might go occasionally, but just hitting up a bar to find a dude to hook up with, not getting into queer theory because he doesn't really care to. He doesn't bother to learn about hanky code or anything else, because he's not interested. All he's interested in is getting a little action.
But Steve? He spent a lot of time with his uncle, Hank, while growing up. Anytime his family was in the area, they would stay with Hank. Sure, Steve's parents would try to explain his partner, Joe, as a friend or a roommate, but Steve always knew. He could see how in love they were, even more than his parents.
It became normal for him. He heard the words that other people would throw around, how they would talk about how dangerous, how disgusting two men together was. But he couldn't understand why people thought so badly about it. Because Hank and Joe were so happy together and they weren't hurting anyone.
When he was twelve, they were the first people he told when he had the conflicting feelings of having a crush on a pretty girl named Annika in the grade above, but also really wanting to kiss Tommy every time the other boy laughed at one of his jokes. Joe and Hank just listened to him, then taught him about bisexuality. That it was perfectly normal to like both. They gave him gentle warnings, that he would have to be careful because people were cruel.
And because his parents had left him with them for a couple of weeks, they took advantage of it to introduce Steve to other people. They took him to a tiny queer bookshop that was run by a friend of theirs, giving him a space to learn in safety. Because of them, he met people of so many different orientations lesbians, bisexuals, gay men. Self-proclaimed dykes and faggots. Transexuals, men who were once women and women who were once menĀ¹ and people that pushed the boundaries of gender entirely. He felt in awe of all these people, but also loved and accepted by everyone he met.
A few years later, the summer of '82, age 15 and between freshman and sophomore year, he was sat down for a more serious conversation. The day after he arrived, Hank and Joe sat him down for a serious talk about safe sex, in way more detail than what he got from his parents, which was just a pack of condoms appearing in his bathroom on his fifteenth birthday, with a note saying to use them so he wouldn't get a girl pregnant. The talk emphasized the need for a barrier during any type of sex, and brought up the very real risk of GRID, which had yet to be renamed AIDSĀ², to point out why he had to be incredibly careful with everyone he had sex with. But they also made a point to reassure him that they were both okay, that he didn't have to worry about them. They made sure that he knew that they were always there for him, just a phone call away if he ever had any concerns or questions.
A year later, at 16, they decided he was ready for more information. They provided him with pamphlets and zines, covering everything from rights movements to AIDS to secret codes. He took an interest in the hanky code, but felt a little intimidated about what some of the colors meant. They also provided him with a fake id that declared that he was twenty one and that his name was Mark. While he was staying with them, he joined them out in the community. Meeting the people affected by AIDS, learning about the real effects of it and not just the few scare stories that were breaking through on the news. Hearing more stories of lived life, getting a better understanding of the people around him.
Just a few months later, November '83. When everything went to shit. Steve was terrified when he saw the photos Jonathan had taken from outside his house and developed in the school dark room. He couldn't help getting stuck on the what if? What if it wasn't Nancy he had in his room? What if it had been that night when he and Tommy got a little too drunk and kissed each other? What if he'd finally got the nerve to bring a guy home? His life could have been destroyed in seconds by an asshole being a creep.
He became more on guard, scared that at any point someone could be taking photos in his backyard. Then seeing Jonathan with Nancy in her room, it pushed him further. With the fight the next day, he just wanted to make his words hurt. He dug deep and threw out accusations that he'd never wanted to say. Allowing his anger and fear to take over. The moment the word queer left his mouth, he felt an uneasy sense of regret. Accusing someone else of being what he was, as if it was a bad thing.
After it was all over, the details were shared, the cover stories were given, the paperwork declaring that nothing had happened had been signed, Steve felt lost and alone. Even after apologizing, he still felt dirty for calling Jonathan queer. After a few days, he breaks and calls Hank and Joe, and tells them, well not everything, but what he can. The photos, the camera, the fight. What he said to Jonathan. They understood his anger and his fear. They disagreed with his choice of words, but told him that if he'd apologized and meant it, and it had been accepted, there was no point in him continuing to beat himself up about it. That he couldn't change the past, but he had to try and be better in the future.
The following summer, 1984, he joined them with a new hatred and fear of the government. He felt safer with them, not feeling like he was looking over his shoulder all the time. But he was also so worried, what if the Upside Down came back when he wasn't there to help. He threw himself into helping others, knowing there were so many ways that the government was willing to screw over citizens. Wanting to do the little he could when he could. It brought him some peace of mind, being able to do something.
After Starcourt, after getting discharged from the hospital, Steve confides in Robin. He tells her about Hank and Joe. About how much he'd learnt from them. He tells her that he's bisexual, a word she was unfamiliar with, but she embraces him anyway. He spins a story of all the different people he'd met, people that proved it could be okay for people like them.
It formed an even deeper bond between them, a shared understanding that they couldn't find in anyone else their age. They share secrets about crushes, about realizations. Judging how attractive customers are together once they got the jobs at Family Video. Steve showed Robin the zines, helping her pick up more pieces of information, about how many others there were out there.
Steve clocked Vickie pretty quickly, almost certain she was bisexual like he was. Robin struggled to believe him, not wanting to get her hopes up, or to risk getting hurt.
When Eddie crashed into their lives during the spring break from hell, Steve found himself falling hard and fast. He'd noticed the black bandana Eddie wore tucked into his back left pocket, and wanted it. He had never considered being into s&m, but would be willing to take anything Eddie gave him.
He tried to bring it up subtly to Eddie, only to be met with confusion. Even trying less subtle ways of questioning it, Eddie still didn't seem to get it. Steve had to ask if he was flagging, and Eddie responded by asking what flagging was. Steve felt mortified, and stuttered about it being a code, and he thought Eddie was gay. Eddie assured him that he was gay, but still had no clue what Steve was talking about with flagging.
Steve showed Eddie the zines as well, going through all the different colors of the hanky code. Eddie got a little embarrassed when he realized what he'd been signalling, but some of the interactions he'd had with guys the few times he'd been to a gay bar made a lot more sense.
It took a few more days after that for Eddie to realize what Steve had been getting at by bringing up him flagging. There was another awkward, and slightly embarrassing conversation to confirm that yes, they were into each other, and no, neither of them were actually into s&m.
(And of course, Hank and Joe got a kick out of the story when they were the first ones Steve told, other than Robin.)
Ā¹I wrote it this way, as it would have been a way that twelve year old could understand different gender identities in 1979. Different language and terminology was used. I believe that it is up to individual trans people for how they describe and consider themselves pre and post coming out and transition, as it is a very personal thing. I'm non-binary and I consider anything about myself under the age of 17 to be a girl, because that's how I identified at that time. Ā²(AIDS was known by a bunch of different names, some less kind than others, including GRID [Gay-related immune deficiency] and 4H disease [Heroin users, homosexuals, hemophiliacs and Haitians], until the summer of 1982. The name AIDS was proposed on July 27th 1982, and came into use by the CDC in September of that year. The term HIV came into use in 1986.)
This was supposed to be a quick little headcanon, and it ended up taking me nearly a month to write 1.5k words. And I now want to write so many parts about Steve with his relationship to Hank and Joe. They're the gay uncles everyone deserves.
#steve harrington#robin buckley#eddie munson#platonic stobin#steddie#pre steddie#steve harrington x eddie munson#steve x eddie#atimeofyourwrites
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the gang with a soc!reader
authors note: sorry the last one was kind of all over the place. i tend to ramble when i write so ill try to stay more on topic this time. in this preference, you and the characters will already be a couple :3 im also wondering if people are clicking the hashtags then they see my posts?? so if thatās whatās happening and you can see my posts when you click the hashtags please tell me because i have no idea if itās working LMAO
includes: ponyboy, johnny, darry, soda, dally, two-bit and steve
word count: 2.0k
warnings: mild cussing, mentions of fighting/getting jumped
PONYBOY CURTIS
you both are academic BEASTS so youāre somewhat rivals and trying to get to the top of the class
but youāre still together, itās a healthy relationship
most of the time, youāll actually walk him home from wherever you are since itās safe for you to walk home on your own, but since heās a greaser itās not safe for him
when you met the gang they taught you how to fight in case some greasers or even some socs tried to fight you
by walking him home, youāve actually prevented him from getting beat up
you like to take him out to get food or something he wants when he gets a good grade since he gets happy when theyāre high
sometimes youāll get lower grades than him and you two will study together, or reversed
youāll get him a new book every time he finishes another one, by the end of the year he has a new shelf just filled with books youāve given him
you occasionally read him to sleep when heās having a hard time, or again reversed
he falls asleep pretty quickly when you do this and he really appreciates it
you always sit together during assemblies and choose to be each others partner in the classes you have together
if you donāt decide to do track one year youāll go to his meets, and after you always take him out to eat since youāre proud
if heās extra tired then heāll ask to go home so you will
you learned how to cook so he can have big nice meals, along with baking chocolate cake when soda and darry arenāt there to make it
pony thinks you make it better than darry but will never tell him that
he really loves spending time with you and feels like youāre the first person besides johnny to really understand him
you made him think about socs in a different way too, in a good way
yall are just humans doing what you know best, some in different environments and had different parents with different parenting styles
you like to bring him to the best places in tulsa to watch the sunsets
you also get the best polaroids of the sunsets and the colors are so beautiful
JOHNNY CADE
as soon as he told the gang that he was dating someone they were excited for him, then they found out you were a soc
dally told him to break up with you without even knowing you, johnny told him to give you a chance
when johnny invited you to the curtis house to meet his friends, you brought presents for all of them since you wanted to make a good impression
you had your ways about finding what they like and donāt like
they immediately took a liking to you when you gave them presents and a kiss on johnnys cheek
youād patch him up and give him bandaids to take home after getting beat up by socs or his parents
sometimes youād give him money and he would use that money to get you something youāve been wanting for a while
heās always so thankful for everything you do for him and everything you give him
since your parents donāt really care about the differences between greasers and socs, they let johnny stay over since they know things are rough at home
sometimes theyāll take you and him out for dinner with them and you think itās so cute
he was nervous your parents wouldnāt like him since most of the socs parents would think heās gross
heās always proud of you for naturally getting good grades and seeing the smile on your face when you get your report card
sometimes when heās upset you two will cuddle in your bed or youāll drive him to a restaurant or fast food place
he always feels bad about spending your money but you tell him not to feel bad about it since you have more
DARRY CURTIS
things got more financially stable when you came into his life
youād help him pay groceries and the bills if he was struggling, you also helped around the house
sometimes heāll wake up to the smell of bacon, waffles, eggs, etc and suddenly its like he doesnāt have to be the responsible one 24/7
having you in his life has improved everything, and his brothers are so thankful to have you there too
youāre like a mother to them and theyāre comfortable enough to open up to you
sometimes youāll ask him out on cute little dates randomly just so he can get a break of hard work
heāll take the day off and get all dressed up since you told him you were taking him to a really fancy restaurant
occasionally youāll get your nails done just for your dates and he always notices
youāll ask him āwhich color is betterā and heāll say āarenāt they the same?ā then you have to explain to him that one is darker than the other
he still doesnāt see the difference but chooses one anyway since he likes to see you happy
heās literally so in love with you and how youāll do romantic and domestic things for him
youāre so beautiful and perfect in his eyes, and sometimes heāll stare at you and his brothers will tease him
he really loves being around you and having you by his side
you also helped him become calmer, that pony and soda have their own problems and darry yelling at them probably just makes them scared
he starts to actually communicate with them and youāll give him gifts for completing or succeeding because why not
heās always like āhon, you didnāt have to get me thisā¦ā but you can see heās happy with whatever you give him
he just loves you so much and his brothers love you too but obviously not romantically
SODAPOP CURTIS
people actually think the both of you are socs, i mean theyāre half right
they think soda is a soc since heās so handsome and think youāre a soc because of your mannerisms and how youāre very beautiful
youāll always visit him at the DX just to hang out with him
your parents love him and how he treats you so they also let him stay over at your house
sometimes when itās sodas turn to get groceries from the store, youāll go along with him
he just wants to be around you whenever he can
youāll offer to pay for the groceries plus stuff he doesnāt need but instead wants
once he got a pimple and he freaked the fuck out
you bought him some cleanser, moisturizer, sunscreen and pimple patches
you taught him how to use them and when, and in which order to use them in
his pimple went away in a few days
since youāre so smart and get good grades, youāll help pony with his homework sometimes
soda will stare at you helping him from far away, he thinks itās adorable that you two are bonding
when the two of you are in your room, youāll play frank sinatra and the little dippers while having a home-date with sweets :3
you two have so much fun and he even opens up to you about his problems
you offer to get him a therapist but he says itās that bad, you tell him to talk to you if he wants to talk about it again
he legit treats you like a princess and you love it
yall are the most attractive couple EVER no one can tell if they wanna be you or be with you
DALLAS WINSTON
when he realized he liked you he knew he had to protect you with his life
he needed a break from loud and annoying girls, then he found you
you could get quiet at times and you werenāt constantly screaming and acting like an annoying 12 year old boy
you got him to steal less since you could pay for things on your own
he didnāt really listen and still stole money from other people so he could get you things
whenever he got put in prison you could always bail him out due to the money you have
if he had to serve time then youād give him money so he could spend it and get necessities
youāll also make diy crafts for him on your guys anniversary and his birthday
he brings you to meetups with the gang, and they love you being there with him
you spoil him rotten and he loves it
makes him feel like a princess, weirdly enough
heāll steal money to spoil you too, pays for your nails sometimes
you told him you wanted specific flowers once and he got you flowers sometime the next week, he acted nonchalant about it but he loved the happy look on your face
TWO-BIT MATTHEWS
sometimes youāre quiet but he always finds a way to bring you to tears after laughing so hard
heās literally the funniest person youāve ever met
he never really expected a soc to get so loud since they were normally reserved and didnāt talk to many people
anyway you brought him to fucking disneyland once and he LOVED it
you booked a hotel and everything so yall saw mickey mouse
two-bit kinda laughed at him but he seemed happy so he didnāt care
he loves traveling with you and brags about it to the gang all the time
they say itās cool then act like they donāt care but theyāre kinda jealous he gets all that stuff
theyāre happy for him though
sometimes youāll get him little mickey figurines and heāll put them on his nightstand, sometimes even carry it with him if itās a keychain
he never wouldāve expected a soc to be so nice to someone like him
heās really glad that you love him and you show it
STEVE RANDLE
before you two started dating he tried to avoid you at all costs
he kinda thought youād beat up him and his friends so he just stayed away from you
anyway when you guys started dating youād drive him to the DX
youād give him tips just for fun even if you didnāt buy anything from him
youād buy him all sorts of little trinkets and such just so heād have something to mess around with
i donāt have a lot of knowledge on him bro pls bear with me LMAO
heās almost always with soda so you kind of became his best friend naturally
youāll buy steve food on his breaks and drive him to restaurants or fast food places and youāll eat on a bench or in a field together
you talk about some shit that happened at work while he listens
heāll occasionally get you some food since he knows you like sweets
then you repay him with something heās wanted for a while that heās been asking for
whether itās a book or food or a trinket idk
he loves you so much and is glad soda gets along with you so well
sorry this oneās shorter! iāll try to make the preference longer next time. iām gonna try to post at least twice per week but if im feeling good ill try to post more š thank you for reading!
#the outsiders x reader#the outsiders dally#the outsiders sodapop#the outsiders darry#the outsiders johnny#the outsiders ponyboy#the outsiders#the outsiders two bit#the outsiders steve#ponyboy x reader#ponyboy curtis#ponyboy michael curtis#johnny cade x reader#johnny cade#sodapop curtis#sodapop x reader#darry curtis#darry curtis x reader#dally x reader#dally winston#dallas winston#dallas winston x reader#steve randle#steve randle x reader#two bit x reader#two bit matthews x reader#two bit the outsiders#winstonsns
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WAS IT CASUAL WHENā¦ PART TWO
note - this was heavily requested! itās a continued version of this piece if you havenāt read it, i would before reading this! enjoy my loves :3.
you and sero had been really hitting it off and TODOROKI did not like this at all. although he was supposedly in a relationship now, you still have a very valuable place in his heart. he doesnāt know why he got into a relationship unprovoked without talking to you, knowing heād been stringing you along for awhile. you and sero had started talking a bit right after todoroki practically ditched you for someone heād only known for a week, but you were still hurt about it so you were distant towards sero. itās been about 2 months since then and youāre over it now. you told sero about how things with todoroki ended and he reassured you in every way possible, you were lucky to have him because he was so understanding about everything. āi wouldnāt do that to you, i promiseā, he said holding his pinky out waiting for you to intertwine your pinky with his. you hooked your pinky finger to his and smiled. shoto definitely regrets what he did, as he watches you be loved the way you deserved to be from afar.
it had been about a month since you stopped talking to KAMINARI. today, you were in class and got assigned a group project. you and ojiro got partnered together for it and kaminari didnāt think anything of it. but as yāall began to work, he heard how much you laughed and talked to ojiro. he felt his chest tighten, making it hard for him to focus on his project. āyou alright?ā his partner, tsuyu asked him and he profusely nodded. āyeah, yeah, iām good! just brainstorming.ā he rambled on, still overhearing you hit it off with ojiro. denki chewed on his bottom lip as he thought to himself; he knows he said he didnāt want to be anything more than friends with you but seeing you act the way you acted with him towards someone else made him feel sick to his stomach. even if you were just being friendly and having conversations, he used to be the only who made you laugh like that, the only person whose head youād talk off. he wishes he could go back in time and change what he said to you but he wasnāt going to try and come back into your life after hurting you.
SHINSO sat in class, thinking about how he treated you at the mall, full of regret. he wanted to apologize to you, so he made it his mission to talk to you after class. when the bell rang, he hurriedly made his way out to the hallway, seeing you talking with kirishima. he furrowed his eyebrows when he saw you laugh and put your hand on his bicep. once kirishima made his way to class, leaving you alone, shinso approached you. āyou into muscular guys now?ā shinso hummed and you looked over, shocked to seem him next to you āwhat do you mean?ā you asked him, his eyes trained on the ground. āi saw you grazing his musclesā, shinso said mocking your actions. āso? itās not like weāre datingā, you quoted him. you were being petty, which he expected because itās one of the things he loves about you. āiām sorryā, hitoshi said lowly, now looking at you. āi donāt want to lose you, i was being stupid.ā he added and you sighed. āi agree, you were being stupid. but i forgive you.. for now.ā you said, rolling your eyes and he lit up. he pulled your favorite candy bar out of his pocket and placed in your hand, āthank you for putting up with me.ā
jealous wasnāt even the word, BAKUGO was infuriated seeing midoriya seated next to you, sparking up conversations and seeing you giggle at him. of course, you and deku were just friends but something about him putting a smile on your face struck a nerve with bakugo. a couple minutes later, izuku excused himself to the bathroom and bakugo decided to take that opportunity to warn him not to talk you, he waited outside the bathroom for deku to finish, startling him when he came out. ākacchan! whatāre you-ā, midoriya began before getting cut off by bakugo. ādonāt talk to them anymore, got it? youāll distract them from getting better and improving.ā bakugo stated and simply walked away, leaving midoriya in the hallway confused as to what bakugo was talking about. katsuki wanted to be with you, but he also wanted you to be the best you could be and he was worried he was stopping you from achieving that. so from here on out, heād make sure no one got in your way.
āø all published work belongs to sanipoyo! do not copy/plagiarize.
#my hero academia#mha#bnha#mha x reader#mha todoroki#shoto todoroki#todoroki x reader#sero x reader#hanta sero#sero x you#todoroki x you#kaminari x reader#denki kaminari#ojiro mashirao#ojiro x reader#mha ojiro#shinso x reader#shinsou hitoshi#kirishima eijirou#kirishima x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou katsuki#bakugo x reader#deku x reader#midoriya x reader#izuku midoriya#mha midoriya#mha headcanons#mha bakugou#shinsou x reader
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listen to me, this is important. some of you are heterosexual and women and are likely very normal looking, but are convinced you're not attractive. and in some ways you are right, you are like a normal boring person, maybe with a couple odd qualities like a big forehead or snaggle tooth or something. you've probably been teased, perhaps bullied, been told you should "try harder" or are "ugly" or a number of other things that make it seem like you will just always be a normal, boring, ugly person.
okay and probably you will to some degree.
this post isn't about convincing you you're beautiful on the inside, whatever that's your journey I can't convince women who hate how they look not to hate themselves.
this post is warning you about the MEN who will grab hold of you, and try to make you feel lucky that they love you because you are so boring looking and normal and you're just a normal looking every-day person who was called ugly growing up. and they will take you on dates, and be nice enough, and move in with you, be polite to your parents, maybe even marry you. BE FOREWARENED: they are NOT nice!! When someone loves you, you are the sexiest hottest most awoooga person in the world to them. when grown ups love their partners, they want to eat them up slurp them down put their mouth all over everything and they will never ever ever make you feel lucky to have them, they will be like how how how do I have an angel living with me!!!!
YOU! CAN! ALWAYS! DO! BETTER! Do not let lame, boring, unmotivated, exhausting, unskilled, uninteresting, unsexy men catch a free ride on YOUR one wild and crazy life, because they sniffed out the opportunity to grind your self-confidence to dust by guessing that you, like most women, have some body image issues, so that they can guarantee you will be hard pressed to leave them when they "forget" yet again to do their laundry (can you do it?), or pick up their groceries (let's just get pizza), or plan the trip you've been begging them to do for you (I don't know how!). These men will be pleased to give you crumbs, and expect you to lap them up thankfully because you are soooo so so so quote unquote YOU GEE ELL WHY.
NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You do NOT have to be beautiful to be loved, and you are absolutely capable of not only find a better man, but thriving without any man!!! YES. YOU. ARE. You do not want to wake up, age 40 - and realize my god I've given this man 15 years of my life, and we haven't seen paris, and we haven't adopted dogs, and I haven't written my novel, and we don't have a retirement plan, and now my knees hurt too much and our mortgage is so expensive. You want to wake up tomorrow, 25 years old, and think "I have 55 more years to have earthshattering orgasms every day and do whatever the fuck I want, god be damned to hell" and then go do that at all possible costs. The perfect nose, chin, and eyebrow does not make your clit work any better.
Do you understand what I'm saying?? THE PERFECT NOSE, CHIN, ASS, BOOBS, WEIGHT, OUTFIT, NAILS, AND EYEBROWS DO NOT MAKE YOUR CLIT WORK ANY BETTER.
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Falls First, Falls Harder
Multiple characters: Rafayel x reader, Pinocchio x reader, Aventurine x reader
Rafayel:
Of course he fell first. You saved him. You befriended him. You encouraged him. You supported him. You bestowed your heart in his hands with a smile on your face. And you betrayed him. His love haunts him, for only he recalls these memories. And yet! And yet, he finds himself unable to detach from you. An urge beyond a mere bond. Your relation in the modern day, a palimpsest of new experiences atop old emotions. Itās new and old, scary and nostalgic. He doesnāt know if this path will end the same as every other path. He is a god. His every act demands a grand sacrifice, even from himself. And yet, he chooses to fall.
You fell harder. Who was this strange, charming, enticing man? Initially a job turned into best friend. You couldnāt imagine being in a position where you find yourself reaching out to someone you barely know but fully trust. Rafayel was surprisingly fun. Always keeping you looped and eagerly seeking for you to entwine back. Touchy. Deep, and very caring. His loyalty astounds you when surrounded by the lights and smiles of admirers. No matter how high to the gods his talents take him, he always seems to look down only upon you. Itās a different sensation, yet very familiar. Too familiar as your dreams are too eager to play on familiar faces and memories. You really donāt know where life with Rafayel will take you, but youāre slowly finding it impossible to imagine it without him.
Pinocchio:
You fell first. How could you not? A sweet, quiet, gentleman-puppet with a mischievous streak. In the wreak of Krat, this sole life drew you in. Pinocchio shone for he remained every enchanted, ever curious with the world, no matter how decayed it was. It was addicting. He taught you to experience life anew. You couldnāt help the resurgence of feelings you thought died with Krat. But you held back. He was a puppet, brand new to life. You could not possibly foist such emotions onto someone so, young ā emotionally. Instead you savoured the friendship, and bitterly swallowed back your feelings, hoping they would go away one day. But they wouldnāt. So you fell harder.
Pinocchio is new to emotions, yes, but he isnāt a fool to himself. He may not be able to express himself as articulately as he imagines or desires, but he understands what he feels. The more he grew, the more he discovered. And so, to him, it made perfect sense to read a book and instantly connect the couple to him and you. And it made perfect sense to show you the book, point to the couple, and then move his finger back and forth indicating the two of you. He didnāt understand your frown and shake of your head. He didnāt understand your words or disagreement. Yes, you are friends. Yes, very close friends. But to Pinocchio, you are also what this couple was. Why else would he scrounge around for odd bits for you after a battle? Why else does he go to you first when he comes home covered in oil, mechanical hand in bad need of repair? What did it mean to you to be this couple? Yes, he would like to hold you. Yes, he does seek you out. Would you let him in?
Aventurine / Kakavasha
You fell first, but it took a long time. Aventurine would not show you any side of him beyond his persona of the gambling manipulator, and you could care less. For the longest time, he was just that guy you sometimes worked with. You worked surprisingly well together. Mostly because you let him plan everything out, putting in a voice when you knew your idea would work. It surprised you that he seriously considered your inputs. It surprised everyone else too, which was why you were unofficially Aventurineās work partner. People really learn about one another when theyāre exhausted, and their lives are on the line. Aventurine slipped his mask a little, but it was enough to see that there was more to him. You didnāt call attention to it, but quietly responded. If he noticed, he didnāt draw back. It was really the small things like holding his cup while he played, making sure no one slipped anything into his drink. Or carrying him to bed when he fell asleep at his desk again. You were just being a good person, until that moment. He was gambling, again, and you saw it. It was almost imperceptible, but after working alongside him, you knew when something was off. The stakes were high, and his hand started to tremble. You found yourself holding onto his hand. In shock, he let the dice go as he turned towards you. He won the game but attained a better reward. You.
Aventurine doesnāt pride himself on how long it took for him to let you in. He exaggerates kind acts because his life seemed to abstain from it, but he knows to be wary. That every open hand conceals a dagger. Which was why your nonchalance surprised him. You didnāt fawn over him, nor did you detest him. He was his himself around you, and he couldnāt bear that. But you were useful, and so easy to be around. So he pushed you and tested you, but it seemed that he was the only one who tired out. Aventurine cracked and Kakavasha peeked out. He expected a complete rejection, but you, you held his hand, and he has yet to let go.
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#. . . Five times Max refuses to acknowledge heās sick + one time he does.
request made by @lucien-calore. . . āhi, you asked for a max request and i shall deliver! can i please have a sickfic where max refuses to acknowledge he's sick (a flu or something, nothing too serious) but when he does, he acts like a drama queen?ā
#1
Youāre making dinner when you hear Max coughing from his streaming room, then the laughs of his friends making fun of him.Ā
You donāt think too much about it. That is until he canāt stop coughing while youāre eating, and when youāre getting ready for bed, and at all during the night.Ā
Itās only in the morning, as youāre making breakfast and heās feeding the cats, when you decide to say something.Ā
āBaby?ā You say, trying to look nonchalant while making the eggs.Ā
āYes?ā He puts the cat food away and makes his way to you. Max hugs your waist from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder. āWhat happens?ā
āIām gonna go to the pharmacy after pilates, do you need anything?āĀ
Max hums, like actually thinking about it before saying, āNo, love. Got everything I need.ā
āYou sure? Nothing for that cough you have?ā
āI donāt know what youāre talking about.ā He kisses your cheek and pulls away, grabbing an apple. āIām gonna be streaming, make sure to say goodbye before you leave, okay?ā
#2
āAre you okay?ā Itās the fourth time in less than an hour that Max enters the kitchen to fill his bottle of water.
āYeah, itās just that all the singing and screaming at the concert last night left me with a sore throat.ā
You try not to laugh but itās impossible. Itās been three days since he started with that horrible cough, which hasnāt stopped, but he still doesnāt understand that heās probably sick.Ā
āMax, Iām pretty sure it wasnāt that.ā You close the book and get up from the couch, he looks confused as you get closer and place your hand on his forehead. āJesus, Max, youāre burning up!āĀ
āIām hot, donāt you think?āĀ
āMax, Iām serious, you got a fever.āĀ
āItās probably nothing,ā He reassures you by placing a kiss on your cheek before turning around. āI fell asleep on the terrace. Iām gonna take a shower, okay?āĀ
āMax, I swear to Godāā
āYou look hot when youāre angry.ā Thatās the last thing he says, walking away.Ā
āMax!āĀ
#3
It's impossible. Youāve tried everything to make Max understand that heās sick and needs to rest, but he wonāt admit it.
This morning you practically begged him to stay in bed to rest and recover, but he did not listen to you, saying that it was nothing ā as heās been saying all week ā and actually dragged you to the Padel court because āIām gonna win this timeā.Ā
Daniās visiting, so, everyone got together to spend Sunday morning at their favorite place, promising to go to brunch after. But itās been three hours and they have just finished the second game. Whoās fault is that? Maxās.Ā
Itās no secret that Max is not very good at Padel, but now that heās sick itās been torture. Every couple of minutes they have to stop the game for him to cough, so itās been impossible to actually play and he doesnāt want to give up.Ā
And itās worse because Charles is his partner. Only a look at the MonĆ©gasque and you know he wants to murder him.Ā
āMax,ā You call his name, leaving your book aside and walking closer to the wall thatās separating both of you. āyouāre sick, why donāt we go home?ā
āBut, baby, I really think I can win this one.ā
āNo you wonāt!ā Lando shouts from across the court as heās stretching.Ā
āOh shut uāā
āMax, Iām serious.ā You donāt know what else to do at this point. Heās always been so stubborn, but this has reached new levels.Ā
āIām gonna win this for you, baby.ā He winks and turns around to join the rest of the group.Ā
#4
āMax? Why are you still in bed?ā You enter the room, gaze immediately going to the watch on the nightstand. Itās two in the afternoon. He never stays in bed past ten, not even during winter or summer break.Ā
āJusā tired.ā He mumbles, face hidden in the pillows.Ā
āIām gonna make you a cup of tea, okay?ā You sit next to him, stroking his hair.Ā
āDonāt want a cup of tea,ā He opens his eyes, looking up at you and pouting. It makes you giggle. āI want you.ā
āI wonāt kiss you until you admit youāre sick.ā
āThatās so unfair!ā He pouts again, this time grabbing your arm and trying to make you lie next to him. āIām not sick. Iām like super healthy.ā You snort, shaking your head and standing up.Ā
āThen, no kisses for you.ā
Max groans, hiding his face under the blankets. āI can survive without your kisses, you know.āĀ
That makes you laugh because you know Max, and you know how much he likes to kiss you at every opportunity. The chances of Max keeping that promiseā¦ Impossible.
āWhatever gets you through the night, Maxie.ā
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āHey, baby.ā Max places a kiss on your cheek as you leave the grocery bags on the kitchen table. āYou got everything for tonight?ā
āYes. I already talked with your mom and theyāll be here at around nine.ā Max helps you put the groceries away, frowning when he sees some medicine and a special broth he knows perfectly well among the things you will need for dinner tonight.
āWhat's this?ā
You try to hide a smile, pretending to be busy with anything just to keep you from looking at him. āYour mom said you used to love it as a kid.ā
āYeah,ā He says, still confused. āwhen I was sick.ā
āYou are sick, Max. I donāt know how many times I need to tell you this.ā
āI am not!ā He huffs, rolling his eyes. You can see from the irritated expression on his face that he's tired of you repeating the same thing over and over again. āIām gonna go play for a little bit.ā
You grab his hand before he can walk away, pulling him closer to you. āHey,ā Max raises his eyebrows, waiting for you to talk. But you cup his cheeks instead, placing a soft kiss on his lips. āIām sorry, okay? Iām worried, I donāt want you to get worse.ā
āYeah, whatever.āĀ
You can only watch as he leaves the room, Jimmy following closely behind.Ā
āWell, I tried.ā You mumble, looking at Sassy perched on the counter. She meows and youāre glad at least someone understands you.
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āSchatje?ā You hear Maxās hoarse voice say.Ā
āMmh?ā Itās your answer, busy peeling some vegetables. āWhat happens?ā
He hesitates for a second, you see from the corner of your eyes how he avoids looking at you, which makes you stop and turn your attention to your boyfriend.Ā
āIām sick.ā He whispers, surprising you. But he deserves a little teasing.Ā
āWhat? I didnāt hear you.ā You play dumb, and Max sees right through you.Ā
āYou were right, okay? I was being an idiot.ā
āYes, you were.ā He pouts, making you feel warm all over. You walk to him, placing your hand on his forehead. āYou have a fever. Why donāt you go lie down on the couch, uh? Iāll heat up the broth.āĀ
āIām sorry for being an idiot.ā He breathes into the air, blushing all the way from his cheeks to his neck. You know that admitting when heās wrong is not something easy for him.
āI know, baby. But,ā You reach up and boop Max on the nose with your index finger. āIām gonna take care of you, okay?ā
āBut I wanted to help you, everyoneās about to arrive.āĀ
āWorry about what your mom will say once I tell her how stubborn you have been.ā He sighs, closing his eyes for a moment. āIf youāre a good boy and take the medicine, Iāll think about giving you aā¦ reward.ā
If Max takes the medicine and finishes all the broth is only because he wants to get better. It has nothing to do with the reward youāre going to give him tonight.
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WIBTA if I tell a couple I'm a mistress for both of them?
this is a long one and a very weird situation but here we go. I (28F) have been seeing two people recently. I've been seeing C (30F) for a little over 5 months and M (29M) for almost 6 months. both relationships are currently in a state of non-commitment, even though I've expressed feelings in both relationships and theyve been reciprocated, but I'm naturally not a super commitment-focused person and both of the people I'm seeing have respected that a lot, so yeah.
anyways, both relationships have been great and I'm incredibly happy w them, and since neither are committed to me I've kind of just assumed that both C and M were likely seeing other people as well even if we haven't talked about it.
WELL. about a week ago C came over to my place to spend the night, which she does like once a week or every other week. she goes to take a shower and I start gathering laundry and grab her stuff to throw in with mine and take her phone out of her jeans. I glance at the screen and see a few texts from a contact called "my love <3"
I was kinda surprised by this because while not talking to me about casual relationships is not something I would care about, the contact name made me think she had a more serious relationship going on, which I don't mind but would like to be informed about.
soooo okay I did an admittedly asshole thing and read the text. and then read a few more. and it became apparent that this was a REALLY committed relationship. like, I love yous, I'll be back home soon, please remember to grab so and so from the grocery store, stuff like that.
the contact picture looked kind of familiar too so I clicked on it to see better and it ended up being a picture of M.
I kind of flipped at this bc this is kind of a ridiculous situation, and I left my apartment for some air. I came back like 30 minutes later and C was waiting for me and confused where I'd been (she didn't see/hear me leave since she was still in the shower).
I apologized to her for looking at her phone but told her that I saw the texts from her partner, and that I was feeling kind of hurt that she hadn't told me that she had a more serious relationship going on, since she knows I value transparency. I specifically did not mention that I was also dating M or knew who he was because I felt I needed to scope out the situation more.
she ended up breaking down in tears and spilled everything. told me that M is her husband, that he doesn't know she's been seeing me, that shes felt so conflicted and guilty because she loves him but has really grown to love me too, that she feels wrong and dirty for keeping everything secret. I'm upset that I've been made into a mistress without knowing, but I try to talk to her about everything, we end up staying up super late talking and crying and pouring our hearts out. I still don't mention that I'm dating M too because I feel like I need to talk to him about this before any big decisions are made on my part.
I ended up inviting M to stay at my place a few nights later, and I confront him about the fact that I know he has a wife (made up something about my friend seeing them out together) and ask why he's kept this from me. his reaction was really similar. guilt, not understanding why he's attracted to two people at once, saying he very deeply loves C and doesn't want to leave her but really loves me too, says he's confused and doesn't know what to do. I don't mention to him that I know C or that I'm dating her.
I asked him if he's heard of polyamory before, and he said yes but he doesn't know anything about it really. I ended up encouraging him to maybe talk to his wife to see if that's something she'd be interested in, but he was terrified that she'd be hurt by the suggestion.
I really do love both of them and don't want to leave them. I've been poly for a long time and am very familiar with navigating ethical non monogamy, and to me this feels a lot like two poly people struggling to come to terms with and accept a facet of their sexualities, and they're just navigating that confusion and self discovery in ways that are...not great. but, I want to give them grace for their mistakes I guess?
so this is the part where I think I might be the asshole if I go thru with it. I've talked with both C and M separately about talking to their spouse about what's been going on and about polyamory in general, and they're both fucking terrified and really don't want to. so, I was thinking of inviting them both to my place at the same time to hash it out (without telling them that the other person will be there, since they still don't know I'm dating both of them). I think once they realize they've been dating the same person things might be easier to navigate, and will force them to confront what's been going on?? but also idk if springing this on them is the best thing I could do, but I really have no idea how to navigate this differently.
to be frank, if they love each other and both love me, my ideal outcome is that we continue things as they have been but with no secrecy and 100% transparency. I'm also afraid that even though they've both been seeing the same person and have expressed interest in polyamory after talking about it with me, they might feel personally betrayed by each other and everything could backfire spectacularly, AND I could possibly explode their whole marriage.
so, WIBTA?
What are these acronyms?
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When Your Boyfriend's a Reformed Mean Girl
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Time seems to do wierd things for Eddie Munson.
It's something Steve has gotten used to, in the year they've been dating. Eddie is attentive and affectionate, always makes sure Steve needs are being met, always goes the extra mile to let Steve know how much he loves him, how much he cherishes their time together. In many ways, he's the best partner Steve's ever had.
Just...sometimes things like approaching deadlines and important dates seem to literally not register in his brain until it's almost too late. And not even then, sometimes.
Eddie acknowledges that it's a problem. He puts every effort into finding workarounds. There is a calendar hanging at both his (brand new, government-funded) trailer and Steve's house, hanging right by the door with color-coded schedules and a pack of Post-It notes and a cup of pens sitting on a little table below it in case something changes or comes up. Steve has a dedicated half hour every night where he's allowed to remind Eddie of things they have coming up, or ask if they've been added to the calendar and Eddie is one hundred percent not allowed to gripe about being nagged in that thirty minutes. Not that he would, because most of the time there's at least one, "Oh, shit, forgot about that." When something slips through the cracks, he apologizes promptly and sincerely if it's something that affects someone other than him and he is always trying to do better.
Steve understands. Hell, after as many concussions as he's had, details get away from him too sometimes. There's several color-coded blocks on the calendar for Steve, as well. Sometimes, Eddie just forgets things despite his best efforts.
But their anniversary? The date that Steve has been carefully planning for almost a month to celebrate their first (of hopefully, many) year together as a couple? Really?
Eddie is going to be horrified.
He is going to feel so bad, and so guilty, and he is absolutely going to go all out to make it up to Steve. Steve knows this. He knows Eddie loves him, and that Eddie was looking forward to tonight as much as he was, and that this is just an instance of Eddie's brain betraying him, and not him actively trying to hurt Steve, or be dismissive of him. Eddie is going to feel awful when he realizes that he stood Steve up on their one-year anniversary to fight imaginary dragons with the boys. Hell, the boys are probably going to feel awful when they realize they gave Eddie something else to focus on in the lead-up to his one-year anniversary.
Well. Dustin, Lucas, and Will are going to feel awful. Mike will probably think it's hilarious.
The point is, Steve knows Eddie didn't do this on purpose, and it's not that Eddie doesn't value his time with Steve enough to remember the date, and so he's merely irritated. Maybe a little exasperated. Not truly angry.
All he has to do is radio over to Wheeler's place and remind Eddie what the date is. His boyfriend will literally drop everything, will probably not even bother to pack up his precious miniatures and dice before he's tearing out of the driveway and breaking every traffic law imaginable to get to Steve's house. Steve doesn't actually want Eddie to get a ticket or anything, though. Besides.
He's feeling a little petty.
There's steaks waiting to be tossed on the grill, twice-baked potatoes in the oven, and a fucking homemade chiffon cake with fresh strawberries and whipped cream chilling in the fridge. Eddie's gift is sitting on the counter, in an elegant little gift bag tied with black ribbon.
"Hey Rob, you wanna come over for dinner?" he says into his walkie, deciding to let Fate decide if his boyfriend is listening and catches a clue.
"Do I get a piece of that cake you made?" Robin replies immediately, amusement already dancing in her voice because she's his (platonic) soulmate and she can read his mind.
"You can take the leftovers home," he says.
And then his (romantic) soulmate, who can usually read his mind, comes over the channel as well. "Have fun, babe!" Eddie says brightly. "This is probably going to run later than I thought. I'll probably just pick you up for breakfast tomorrow, okay?"
Steve rolls his eyes fondly. "Okay."
"Love you!" Eddie says, and signs off.
Robin brings a bottle of wine she stole from her parents' pantry and they demolish the dinner and half the cake. Steve does get another package of steaks out to thaw in the fridge for tomorrow, though, and blows out the fancy candles he'd lit before they burn too low to be used again. Fuck if he's making another chiffon cake, though, persnickety little thing. He calls Enzo's and orders a chocolate marble cheesecake to be picked up tomorrow.
"So you gonna milk this for a nice present or what?" Robin asks as Steve is packing the remains of the cake for her to take home, as promised.
"Nah. He's fucking perfect like 90% of the time...I'm not gonna get mad at him for the other ten." Robin smiles at him, a little gooey-eyed. Steve returns it with a smirk. "But I'm not letting him off the hook entirely."
He has just finished putting the dishes away when he hears the rumble of Eddie's van in the driveway. He glances down at his watch, laughing to himself a little when he notes that while late, it is far, far too early for a gaming session to be done. He scoops his little gift bag off the counter and saunters to the front door just in time for a frantic knocking to sound. He schools his features and opens the door.
"Steve! Stevie, baby, I am so, so sorry. I swear to God, I had tonight written down in like five different places, but Dustin wanted to try a new character class and we haven't done this campaign yet, and I got so excited...I'm so sorry I forgot, but I'm here and I SWEAR I will make it up to you!" Eddie pauses for breath, wild-eyed and panting.
Steve holds the silence for a moment, and then shakes his head, leaning forward to drop a kiss on Eddie's cheek. "You're such a nerd," he says, affection dripping from his words. He sighs. "I hope you know, now I'm expecting flowers tomorrow. And I get to pick the movies for, like, two weeks with no complaints."
Eddie almost wilts in relief. "Absolutely none," he promises, reaching out to grip Steve's hand. "I will make tomorrow night AMAZING. I promise."
Steve smiles at him, his chest aching with the love he feels for this man. But he's still feeling just a little bit petty. He holds the bag out to Eddie, tilting his head coyly. "You can still open this tonight, though."
"Babe! I thought we said no gifts." He takes the bag in his hands, plucking at the ribbon.
Steve's smile turns just a little sharper. He worked fucking hard on that cake. "It's kind of for both of us, really. It's what I was gonna wear up to bed tonight."
Eddie peeks in the box, his brow furrowing. "Stevie...there's nothing but strawberry lip gloss and a bottle of lube in here." He looks up, and freezes as his brain catches up with what his mouth just said.
Steve leans forward and kisses him, hard, long, and absolutely filthy. "Suffer," he whispers against his boyfriend's lips.
Then he shuts the door in his face.
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Winners [MV1]
Summary : Max decides that it's finally time to put rumours to rest and share your relationship with the world.
Pairing : Max Verstappen x Ice Skater!reader, Reader x OC
Word Count : 0.8k
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Max was jealous to start off with there was a connection between you and your partner -Luca- but that was just something that he learned to deal with over time. He started to understand that you put your life in Lucaās hands every time you stepped out onto that ice. If Luca dropped you wrong or if you fell wrong, that could be everything over for you, and he learned to accept that.
Everyone had warned you about not falling in love with your partner, and that was never exactly a problem. You tried it once, but the connection wasnāt a dating connection. It was a trust connection.Ā
Finally, your competitions and Maxās races finally lined up - Miami - it allowed you to visit a race, and Max visited one of your competitions. Luca decided to join you because there was nothing better to do.Ā
Walking into the paddock laughing with Luca, Max passed you with a couple of members of the Red Bull team. He reached his hand out, and you took it. He pulled you forward with a smile. His arms wrapped around your neck to hold you close. One hand sliding down your back and into the pocket of your jeansĀ
āWhat are you doing, Max?ā You whispered, looking up at him.Ā
āI think itās about time we share all of our relationship with the world and not just the part we were planning onā Max replied, and you looked up at him, eyes wide.Ā
āYou want to go public more than just dating?ā You asked as he took a step backĀ
āYeah, I left a little surprise in your back pocket. GP and Rupert are waiting for you in the garage. Theyāll get you both sortedā Max walked away, and you turned back to Luca and started walking. Your hand reaches into your back pocket to see what Max had left in there. Your engagement ring.
Max had proposed a few months ago, but everything about your relationship was private. Only people close to you knew about it.Ā
āYouāre doing that today?ā Luca exclaimed, hand resting on your lower back as he led you into the Red Bull garage. Slipping the ring onto your left ring finger, you noddedĀ
āMax decided it was time, and if heās ready, then weāre doing it because Iāve been ready for monthsā You smiled. GP greeted you with a hug as the SKY TV and F1TV cameras panned into the garage. Luca and yourself showing up on the TV with your names written in the bottom of the screen as Rupert handed you both a pair of headphones connected to the radios that also block out the noise for when the race starts.Ā
Lucaās hand stayed protectively on your lower back until Max came back into the garage. Max wrapped an arm around your shoulder, pressing a kiss to your head with a smileĀ
āI need to go get ready. Iāll see you before I get into the carā Max explained
āLuca make sure sheās safeā Luca nodded
āObviously, wouldnāt let anyone or anything hurt herā Max hummed in response to Luca and walked away to his driver's room. Luca and yourself walked over to the VIP corner bit they had and sat down.Ā
It felt like forever until Max kissed you before getting in the car watching the race in person was terrifying. Max made his way up the grid from P9 to P1, also setting the fastest lap. His trainer walked over after the raceĀ
āIāll take you down to the podium Y/N. Luca, you coming?ā He asked as you got upĀ
āMade a promise Iād keep her safe so Iām comingā Luca laughed. Lucaās hand rested on your waist you kinda leaned into him as Rupert led you both down to the podium. Surprisingly, even while being in the public, eye crowds were the worst thing youād ever come across.Ā
Standing at the front of the barrier, when Max got out of his car, he jumped into the arms of his team before moving along to greet you. His hands rested on your jaw as he leaned forward and kissed you. You smiled into the kiss before he pulled backĀ
āYou did so great loveā You smiled, holding his handĀ
āIām so glad youāve finally been able to come to a raceā He smiledĀ
āYou get weighed and that trophy so we can celebrate laterā You pushed him away as he laughed turning to the podium before you knew it the Dutch anthem was playing through the speakers the team cheering for Max and Checo during the Austrian anthem. Walking back to the garage, cameras were now focused on you and Luca after your helmet kiss with Max.Ā
Getting into the garage, Max pulled you into a sweaty champagne covered kiss one with true meaning this time. Your hands wrapped around his neck as his rested around your waist, pulling you closer to himĀ
āLooks like weāre both winners hereā He pulled away, referring back to you and Luca winning your competition the other day. Winning felt great, but nothing would ever feel better than being able to be in public with Max sharing how much you truly love him with the world.Ā
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yourusername Just a couple of winners this week. I love you so much, Max, and I'm so happy to spend the rest of my life with you. Luca, I have the most respect for you being able to deal with us over the last week.
There's nothing more I want in this world than to continue skating and spending the rest of my life with you and start creating our future even with Luca as our adopted son.
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maxverstappen1 : I love you so much, Schat. We're gonna be a power couple winning all these competitions with our adopted son nearby
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A/N : I might write a part two if anyone's interested in it. My only problem is that I know nothing about ice skating and only had this idea from the movie I was watching. But if it's requested, I'll do it.
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Second Confession: Part 1
Pairing: Joel Miller x f!reader
Chapter Summary: Already having a crush on Joel for a year now, she was asked to be his patrol partner.
Chapter Warnings - Angst, One-sided love, Unrequited Love, Idiots in Love, a hint of fluff
WC: 1.6k
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A/N: This is my first time committing to write a complete series of a fic. Also my first time posting it on tumblr so i'm still navigating and figuring things out. I love reading unrequited love with a happy ending stories so this has been living in my head rent free for awhile. I speak broken English most of the time (singlish iykyk) so there might be errors in my writing here and there, sorry bout that. Idk if anyone is gonna read this but if you do, i hope you enjoy it. This is prolly gonna be a 5 part series so the next few chapters will be longer than this.
Knock, Knock, Knock
You finish up washing your hands in the sink before shouting over your shoulders, āComing!ā
You dried your hands before making your way to the front door. You quickly put on your coat before opening the door and finding Tommy leaning against your porch with his hands in his front pockets.
āGood morning!ā he say with a smile, āReady to go?ā he asks, turning his body to gesture them to walk out front. You nod your head and turn to lock your door. Both of you walk out and make your way to the cafeteria for breakfast as usual.
The cafeteria is filled with people in the morning. After getting your food, both of you made your way to the table in the corner with Maria, Ellie and Joel already seated eating their food. As you get closer, Tommy went to Mariaās side and bent down to kiss her on the cheek before sitting beside her. You sit down beside Ellie and gave your greetings to the group.
āGood morning,ā you greet them.
āMorning.ā Ellie greeted back with mouthful of food still in her mouth.
You get a nod from Maria as she looks up at you while eating her food. Maria has been nice to you from the moment you got to Jackson. Even though she can be strict and tough at times, that is what makes you admire her. You, on the other hand, are reserved and laid back. You are not a leader but more of a follower. Thatās why you respect her a lot because of what sheās doing for the community.
Itās been 3 years since you arrived in Jackson, tattered with the remnants of the past andĀ the pain within you. It was difficult to adjust to the community at first but the couple currently sitting in front of you embraced you into the community with open arms without any judgement. They taught you everything that you need to know about Jackson and since then, you have been living here without much difficulties.
Unlike Maria, Joel does not even acknowledge your presence and keep on eating his breakfast with a frown on his face. You wonder if you will get to be the receiver of his smile one day. You had seen him smile a couple of times while talking to Tommy and you want to see his smile more often.
However, Joel is someone who distances himself from everybody else and has a tough exterior. People in Jackson find him intimidating and stay as far away as possible from him, scared to agitate and make him angry. Heās always tensed around everyone except the ones that he consider his people like Tommy and Ellie.
Joel and Ellie came to Jackson a year ago to find Tommy and that was when you saw him letting his guard down for the first time when embracing his brother in the middle of the town. After that, he had returned back in his shell refusing to open up to anybody. In the beginning, you tried to come up to him and strike a conversation but he always reply with one word answer or silence or a glare that can burn through your skull. You understand that after everything that happened to this world, itās tough to live with optimism and hope like before.
Ever since he arrived, he had caught your eye. With his rugged appearance, tic in his jaw every now and then, a face that doesnāt show you a hint of happiness and you still canāt take your eyes of him when heās around. You donāt know why you seek to look or ask about him when heās not around. You have been harbouring this feeling towards him for a year now. Itās starting to bubble up on the surface and youāre afraid that you canāt contain it anymore.
You shake those thoughts away and start to dig in your food. Breakfast is filled with Ellie telling everybody on the table about things that she learned in school and asking us about life before the outbreak. Tommy and Maria answer her questions and Joel scoffs at what she said sometimes. You watch her talk about life before the outbreak with wonder in her eyes and you canāt help but smile at her. She brings up the feeling of serenity in you when you see the curiosity in her eyes.
Seeing the world through a kidās eye is something that we adults cannot afford to do anymore. You are caught up in what Ellie is saying that you donāt realise that Joel, who is sitting on the other side of Ellie, is looking at you. You stare in each otherās eyes for a few seconds before he look away and go back to finishing his food.
āHow are you feeling today?ā Maria ask you.
āIām good,ā you answer, tearing your eyes away from Joel.
āDo you mind covering Tim on patrols next week?ā Joel looks up hearing this. Tim is Joelās patrol partner. Theyāve been partners for almost a month now. Apparently, Tim and Joel donāt get along well. I mean, no one gets along well with Joel. Anyone that got assigned to be his partner always backed out after a few weeks. They cannot find anyone that can handle him except for Tommy. For awhile, Tommy was his partner but they cannot let him stick with him all the time as they needed Tommyās help somewhere else sometimes.
You look at Joel to gauge his reaction. His stern look towards Maria is not breaking.
āYeah I donāt mind.ā You turn your head to look at the couple. Tommy is giving you an apologetic look knowing Joel is difficult to work with. He look at Joel who has turn his eyes away from Maria and now towards him.
āJoel, please. We donāt have anyone else.ā Tommy says with a begging look on his face. Joel stares at him without saying anything.
āOh come on man, is it so difficult to not be mean?ā Ellie breaks the silence. Joel frown at her as she continues to speak.
āSheās my friend and sheās nice,ā her eyes widen to emphasise her words.
āI donāt want you to infect her with your āold man attitudeā,ā she air quote annoyingly, making Joel to soften his eyes a little bit.
āBesides, sheās the only one that can stand you and your grumpiness.ā Joel look at her confused. You are confused too by what she said. What does she mean by that? Tommy and Maria exchange glances before Maria speaks again.
āIf everyone is ok with it, Iāll see you at the gates for patrol next week.ā She looks at everyone for confirmation before stopping to look at you. You give her a nod before she stands up to start her day. Everybody quietly leaves before you are left with Ellie alone who still has a little bit of food to finish.
You timidly ask her about what she meant earlier, āEllie, what do you mean when you said Iām the only one that can stand him and his grumpiness?ā
Ellie looks at you with a mischievous glint in her eyes. She smirks and continue to eat her food not answering your question.
āEllie!ā you urge her to answer you.
She just laugh at you and stands up to return her tray. You are left alone being confused.
Feeling a little bit sluggish from the day, you make yourself a nice hot tea and make your way to your front porch. You sit down on your chair, immersing yourself in the calm stillness of the night. You have always enjoy the nights in Jackson more than the daytime.Ā
As you are relaxing, what happened earlier today, creeps up in your mind. The way Joel was looking at you makes your heart beat faster. What was he thinking while looking at you like that? Also, what did Ellie meant when she said that Iām the only one that can stand him and his grumpiness? You did not spend a lot of time with him alone for her to think that way.
You are perplexed on joining him on patrols, knowing the fact that a lot of people had a tough time with him. You cannot back out from it now and you are taking this opportunity to get to know him better.
While you are in thinking about Joel, you hear the strumming of a guitar nearby. It must be him. Joel lives adjacent to your house and you know that he plays the guitar some nights thinking no one is around to hear him play. You are not able to see him play because he plays the guitar at his back porch all the time. You did get to see him play once when he was back facing you, sitting at the edge of his porch, taking in the sunset. You had thought it was a beautiful view even though he wasnāt facing you.
You did not tell anyone about your feelings for him but you think that maybe Tommy has caught on to it. Sometimes he caught you looking at his brother and he would give you a mischievous smirk.
You have been wanting to tell Joel about your feelings that youāve kept for about a year now. You also know that it is a risk as he will probably react badly to it. You do not expect him to accept it. You are doing it mostly for yourself. Call it selfish or whatever but you think itās better to let those feelings out and move on with your life without keeping a secret that will only eat you from the inside.
Having a crush for a year is a long time and you think that it wonāt progress any further so youād rather do it fearlessly with no regrets. With a determination to confess , you let yourself listen to him playing the guitar for awhile more before calling it a night.
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Hello! :3
Could you do how Jeff, EJ, Toby and Ben (all separated) would react to Y/N being uncomfortable because of stretch marks on the thighs (or other parts of the body)?? Like what would they do or say about it :D
Sorry if it was a very long request or something ;)
Have a good day/night <3
Luv ya !! ā”
EJ, Jeff, Toby, and BEN with an insecure partner
ā§ļ½„āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°*ā .ā ā§
MWAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA I LOVE THIS. As someone with stretch marks I totally get being insecure about them. BUT ALL OF Y'ALL LOOK SO HOT AND SMEXY WITH THEM I JUST WANNA EAT YOU UP KAGAKGSKAGJAMZ
*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”
EYELESS JACK
Bro does NOT care
He's genuinely so confused when he figures out you're insecure about them
Stretch marks? So what?
He literally has tar leaking out of his eyesockets, why on Earth would he care about you having stretch marks?
When/if you explain why you're insecure about your stretch marks, then he'll understand
He completely gets being insecure about the way you look, he feels the same way about himself sometimes (all the time)
I also like to think that because of the whole demon transformation that Jack also has stretch marks because his body changed so quickly
He just doesn't care about his stretch marks, considering everything else he has going on
He'll think about telling you that he has them too, and he doesn't care about them, so why would he care about yours?
But then backs out of it because he thinks that he's ugly and doesn't want you seeing yourself in that light
Instead he'll reassure you every now and then
The way that he reassures you is a bit different to say the least because he doesn't entirely understand social cues or social "rules"
He just will very bluntly tell you to not be insecure and that you look good. I like to think that EJ can catch onto your mood very fast because of how observant he is, so he'll know that something is up almost immediately
You'd be feeling down about your stretch marks and he'd know that you're upset, but not know what it's about.
Once he catches onto you being a little extra insecure that day he'll try his best to cheer you up in his own little way
He will, in fact, headbutt you like a cat that wants attention. He does it in an effort to distract you with something that he knows you like about himself. He also does it because he knows you'll smiling at him everytime he does it
He just doesn't want you to feel bad about yourself in the way he feels bad about himself
*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”
BEN DROWNED
He doesn't give a shit
LMAO
He thinks that you are already so perfect and gets almost upset that you'd ever be insecure about yourself
I think that he would get very obsessive when in a relationship and that's just one of the things he does
He gets upset that you think your stretch marks are "ugly" because in his eyes you genuinely have NO flaws
He does comfort you but his way of doing that is with words of "affirmation"
Or at least that's what he likes to call it
He'll see you looking all cute and immediately whistle and say something along the lines of "looking good, hot stuff" or something cliche like that
He would definitely reassure you by touching you, he's already a person that likes physical contact so this just gives him more of an excuse to grab at you
Stretch marks on your thighs? Boom him hand is there. Tummy? His hand his already there, babe. Literally anywhere you have stretch marks? You bet your ass he's on it
He would FOR SURE send you memes about it to cheer you up, he already sends you couple memes but now he's gonna go overboard with it
*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”
JEFF THE KILLER
He deadass doesn't understand bro
And not in the "aw you're so cute" way. It's more in the "why the fuck would you even think that?" way
He doesn't understand certain insecurities because he hasn't experienced them and because he is pretty obsessed with himself
You will have to literally sit down with this man and explain why you're insecure about your stretch marks, and he STILL wouldn't fully understand
He would understand that his partner is uncomfortable with their body and try to comfort you in his own way, but his way is rather aggressive(?) to say the least
He will literally yell words of affirmation at you from across the room when he even feels like you're getting SLIGHTLY insecure, sometimes when you're not even feeling that way
He'd buy you a cute little outfit and then make your ass stand in front of a mirror and have you call yourself beautiful/handsome
"Jeff, I don't know about this.."
"CALL YOURSELF GOOD LOOKING RIGHT NOW"
He'll most likely stand behind you and watch you do it. Probably propping his head on your shoulder and wrapping his arms around you
He's so silly I love and hate him so bad
*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”
TICCI TOBY
Oh, tic tac tobiathan
He is so sweet when it comes to this
He'll understand if you explain it to him and is pretty sympathetic when it comes to being insecure
He is also insecure about a slew of things from his gash to some of his tics, so he completely gets being insecure about something that you cannot control
When cuddling he'd like to trace patterns on wherever you have stretch marks and whisper to you about how they're so cool/pretty
He thinks that they're so cool
Definitely calls them cute names like "tiger stripes" or "lightning marks" and even "snake skin" if you'd let him
Tries his best to make you forget about your stretch marks when you feel bad about having them
He would definitely distract you in an effort to make you feel better because that's what he would like
Would literally do anything in order to make you happy in that moment, he'd let you play with his hair, cuddle, watch a movie and snuggle, anything that would make you feel better, he'd do
I like to think that Toby is kinda like Ben, in the sense that they both get obsessive when in a relationship
Toby will hyperfixate on you because of how much he loves you so he would catch onto you being insecure about yourself FAST
Before you can even realize it, he's already distracting you with anything that he can in order to cheer you up
He'd also bite the shit outta where you have stretch marks
LMFAO
I'm sorry but that boy is MUZZLED because he BITES
So why wouldn't he bite you as a form of affection?
He'd like to bite you wherever you have them also because he likes the texture of it, he'd just sit there and gnaw on you until you physically pull him off
I love him sm I'm gonna kiss his face violently
*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”ā *ļ¾ā +*ā .ā ā§āā Ėā Ė³ā Ā°ļ½”
I'VE FINALLY DONE IT GUYS, I'VE FINISHED ONE FANFIC šššš
Lmfao thank y'all for being so patient w me and waiting for a gazillion years š«¶ I have been VERY busy with school but it thankfully is not kicking my ass this year
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could I request hcs for franklin, trevor, and michael on how they would go about apologizing or making it up to you after they did something wrong (I feel like I'm not making sense lol š but basically I'm asking how would they get back on your good side after messing up big time) if requests are close, I apologize!!
(This totally makes sense, no worries! And my requests are always open, so feel free to send an ask whenever youād like- Iām just a little slow atm. Also, Iām sorry about the long wait, and I hope you like it āŗļø)
Franklin, Trevor, and Michael making up with you after an argument:
Franklin Clinton:
Arguments with Franklin are fairly rare. Heās a pretty level headed, loyal partner. But, like every relationship, arguments do happen.
Despite being kind, loyal, and loving, Franklin is also stubborn. It can be the cause of several of your arguments. And can also lead to him refusing to admit heās wrong right away.
But once he does realize heās been wrong, and understands that heās upset you, heāll go to the ends of the earth to make it up to you.
Heāll come to you like a sad puppy- curling up beside and gently taking your hands in his. Heās had time to think about what went wrong, and what was done to start the argument to begin with. He wants to talk it over, wants to get to the root of the problem to make sure it never happens again. Heāll stay up all night talking with you, and apologizing, until heās sure everything is resolved and that youāve forgiven him.
He may buy you something small and sweet the day after the fight. A teddy bear or a bouquet of roses arenāt uncommon after the two of you have had a disagreement. And for a few days afterwards, he treats you especially gently. He hates hurting your feelings or making you mad. So, he wants to prove just how much he does love you. Even if you two do argue.
Trevor Philips:
Arguments with Trevor are fairly commonplace. Heās set in his insane ways, and always self assured that heās right. Heās more apt to listen to reason when it comes to you. But his erratic, wild behavior, and bad, dangerous habits are normally the root of arguments between you two.
There are several ways things can go after you two argue. But more often than not, itās a couple days of passive aggressive comments and the silent treatment, until heās convinced that this is the fight thatās going to split you guys apart. And then comes the waterworks.
He comes, literally, crawling back to you on his hands and knees, sobbing and snot nosed as he begs you not to leave him. Heās usually fairly high when he breaks down like this, so talking to him is slightly difficult. But he babbles at you non stop- telling you how much he loves you, how sorry he is, how heās āsuch a worthless shitā.
The true talking it out usually comes the next morning, or afternoon, depending on how fucked up he got. But after his tears dry up and heās caught his breath from all the sobbing, his usual method of making up with you is desperate, clingy sex. He doesnāt have a very good grasp on such big emotions, so he shows them physically instead of verbally. And you can feel his love and remorse through every press of his lips and every touch of his rough, scarred hands.
Michael De Santa:
He has issues with loyalty and honesty. You knew that before you got with him. But it doesnāt make the arguments that ensure because of it any easier.
Heās stubborn, self assured, and hot headed. Getting Michael to admit heās wrong is like pulling teeth. And getting him to apologize is harder than winning a one man war. Once you two start to fight, it can last for days. And because of his petty, passive aggressive attitude, he sometimes tends to make things twice as bad.
Itās almost never that you hear him actually say āIām sorryā. But eventually, after a few days of fighting, he realizes heās being a child and understands that he was wrong. Even if he wonāt admit it. So, he shows it the best way he knows how. Through gifts.
Youāll come home to find expensive jewelry on your pillow, or a new outfit hung up for you in the closet. Heāll have your favorite dinner made, and heāll buy the wine he knows you like the best. He wonāt apologize to you. But over dinner, heāll take your hand, tell you how beautiful you look, and say something like āLetās not fight anymore, angel. You know I hate seeing you upset.ā
You know heās too prideful to apologize. So, usually itās just easier to cut your losses and accept that, while heāll never verbally apologize, this is his version of saying āIām sorryā. You know he truly is apologetic, and you love him, so you both agree to let this go and move on. Heās a good man, heās just a little emotionally immature at times.
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Misheard, Misjudged
Lando Norris x Leclerc Reader
Genre: Angst with a pinch of spice
Summary: Lando overhears a conversation and thinks itās about him
Warnings: Landoās self-esteem plummets
Notes: Iām aware I have things to do but Iām doing a friend a favor
Masterlist
Lando and the little Leclerc are everybodyās favorite couple. He clings to her every second of every day and she gets livid when her brother call her little. Younger then Arthur by a minute and she never hears the end of it.
Their families love them, the fans love them, but most importantly is that they love each other.
They met when Arthur started racing again. She was bored without her partner in crime, so Charles took her on as is social media manager. Needles to say they banter a lot. Charlesā fashion choices are horrendous at times but she loves him nonetheless.
Charles teases them all the time about how they are practically glued together. Which is probably true, considering they are like magnets in the paddock.
So in Landoās head, it makes no sense why she would say such things about him. In their home. With her friends.
āSure heās good looking, but like - is there really anything else? Heās so childish and whines like a bitch. Also, have you seen how clingy he is?ā
He couldnāt listen anymore after that. Is he really that clingy? And for all intensive purposes, isnāt she also clingy? He never thought it was that bad. Sure, people tease, but who cares what they think? Or, maybe heās just overthinking and he should just ask about it.
Scratch that - a terrible plan. Instead he shall withdrawal himself and see if it makes her happier.
The first week she looks confused and a little hurt by his actions, but she doesnāt say anything. No more initiated physical contact. No random hugs and kisses. He doesnāt cling to her during the race weekend like normal.
See! He isnāt cling! if anything, sheās definitely the more clingy one out of the two.
Week two hurt more then the first. He catches snippets of a few phone calls between her and Charles. Sheās locked in the bathroom and her voice is cracking. āI donāt understand what I did, Charlie.ā
Doesnāt understand what she did? You canāt just say things about a person and expect everything to be okay after. Why doesnāt she talk to him about it? If she wanted more space he wouldāve just rather have talked about it then have overheard the love of his life shattering his heart into pieces.
He turns her back to her in bed starting week three. She looks tired over the next few days. Not just yawning, but the dark circles under red eyes screams that something is wrong.
she starts leaving sticky notes on his things, on the counters, the insides of cabinets, and even plastered all over thee mirror.
He ignores them. Yet his mind starts to wonder if maybe he should just ask her why. But itļæ½ļæ½s not like she talked to him, so why she he talk to her now?
He wonders again when he catches Max glaring at him.
And again when Oscar grows concerned.
And then when George gives a PowerPoint presentation with how to communicate properly.
Yeah, ok - so this wasnāt the right way to go about this. He really wishes George and his stupid PowerPoint had come earlier.
The icing on the cake is when he comes home one day and passes Charles as heās leaving. He doesnāt look happy at all, and honestly, Lando canāt blame him.
He goes straight to bed, face buried in the pillow. Limbs tossed dramatically like a Disney princess in despair.
āLando?ā Her small voice shreds every ounce of strength he has left. She sits on the bed beside him. He doesnāt look up and she sighs heavily. āPlease talk to me.ā
When he does finally look at her. Truly, for the first time in months, he sees just how broken she looks.
āWhatās there to talk about?ā He curses himself and his tone because she flinches away at it.
āWhy are you avoiding me? I donāt understand what I didā¦ā
He scoffs. āDonāt know what you did? Last month at your little get together? Calling me a clingy whiny bitch behind my back?ā He chokes on the last part.
She looks at him, head tilted in confusion. The same look she gives when heās trying to read directions. Confused, loving, patient. Why is she smiling?
āYou didnāt hear the beginning of that did you?ā
āNo.ā He pouts.
āLando, love, light of my life - that was about Charles.ā
His entire body freezes. Itās true that her friends like Charles and she hates when the fawn over him. Oh, heās been an idiot. An Absolute asshole.
āIām so sorry.ā He throws himself at her and every ounce of anxiety over the past month is washed away as soon as her fingertips touch his skin.
āCharles is terribly clingy to everybody and heās my brother. Of course heās a whiny bitch in my eyes.ā He would respond but his brain is mush at her hands in his hair.
āI just got so in my head. Iām so sorry I didnāt talk to you - George gave me the whole lecture about proper communication.ā
āI Know. He said you were hopeless.ā
āHow encouraging of him.ā
Lando pulls her on top of him. Her warmth, her skin, her full body weight is everything he ever needs to survive.
āI canāt believe youāre smiling at me.ā
āIām mad at you, but maybe we can make up.ā She raises her eyes suggestively.
āI think I can make that happen.ā
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