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Balor Fanart. Forgot to upload.

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He haunting my narrative

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commission for @thumbswears 🌾🌾🌾

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Yknow I was thinking about the P headcanons u posted yesterday and was considering how much angst material could come out of it. Especially a low-humanity P refusing to acknowledge that his love could ever do anything wrong, and always putting their thoughts and feelings on a pedestal. Cuz what if they get sick of that? Of his outright inability to get angry with them when they've done something wrong? Of his unwillingness to admit that his feelings in this relationship matter?

I think he'd basically idolize humans at first and need learn that he can be angry at things, that he can have opinions and that it's ok to have conflict with the people he loves. Idk. Just thought about it lol. You always provide so much food for thought. And not a lot of people want to talk P x reader stuff these days.

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING WRITING IT!!!

(and I have too many thoughts of him, rant incoming lolll)

I've always thought that, especially with P just kinda letting Geppetto get away with odd shit in the beginning, letting (fake) Alidoro step over the obvious boundary of NOT going to the Hotel, and more recently asking Lumacchio if there is "some way to work this out", that P not only trusts humans a little too easy, but he also lets humans step on him a little.

I always viewed it as "they're so fragile and he doesn't want to hurt them" and that's reinforced by their being so little humans around him when he awakens/Sophia enforcing the idea of protecting them in the Hotel that he now just generally lets people get up to a little bullshit as long as they don't pose a massive issue immediately.

(that and the fact that he's still a puppet and might be subconsciously subjected to a lot of "Grand Covenant behavior" though he's not bound to the Grand Covenant itself, like just listening to humans, or acknowledging a place below them rather than beside them)

So yeah, a lower humanity P would very much just let their lover do whatever they want and, once again, unless it poses a major danger to him or multiple people, he won't go against it. If P has a good partner, they'd probably try to instill some kind of "Hey, it's totally cool to be mad at me/what I do. You have opinions too." and it might be a source of a lot of disagreements, but it'll only really hit him in high humanity when he's REALLY thinking for himself.

When it comes to if his feelings matter? I think that even in high humanity he'd have a hard time outright communicating something he's feeling for a bit- connecting with a lot of the P speech headcanons and these recent ones- he'd probably very quietly and downright meekly ask for things or voice things to his partner. It's a pretty sad show in my mind, he'd need some (or a lot) of reassurance when making his own decisions social-wise, voicing his opinions, etc. Even if he doesn't show it, he's gotta be a jumble of emotions inside with how overwhelming his day to day is.

He'd also probably feel terrible going against something someone he loves thinks or does in high humanity, not really like a crippling upset, but more of a nagging feeling from his inner puppet that makes him think he should just yield and get over it. HOWEVER, he doesn't usually listen to that- connecting to those headcanons AGAIN- I think instead of taking the easy way out, he'd just outright approach and tackle it head on. Reckless? Awkward? Maybe a little messy sometimes? Yeah, but he's figuring it out, and it's better than the yielding he did with low humanity, and I feel like his lover would overall appreciate regardless because it's showing his growth.

Anyways- too much talking, too many thoughts in my brain, send help, etc etc.

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I can't get over how forgiving and loving Pinocchio is. Literally to his own detriment. He repeatedly trusts the fox and cat despite the bullshit they're always pulling on him. He gives them as much gold coin fruit as they ask for while they literally mock and exploit him up until the last minute when they decide "ok you're kinda cool actually, thanks for helping"

And that's not even touching on the stuff with Geppetto. Pino is so innocent, he just wants to be loved by his father (who he loves unconditionally) and he grieves Geppetto's death after he not only tried murdering him but also yelled derogatory shit about puppets at him from across the arena the entire time.

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My lovely boy <333

I'm playing dlc and it's great!

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P is the kind of man who admires you from afar.

P is the kind of man who always puts you first, pushing aside whatever he may be feeling because it's not as important as what you might be feeling.

P is the type to be terrible at reading you at first, but after being around you enough, he knows the ins and outs of you.

P is the type to get a little jealous when you aren't around him as much as he'd like.

P is the type of man to think you can do absolutely no wrong.

P is the kind of man to always ask, silently or with words, if he can touch you.

P is the kind of man who would never avoid a conflict with you, but instead face it head-on to solve it.

P is the kind of man who would love nothing more than to lay with you, your natural warm skin on his cold, fabricated body.

P is the kind of man who would feel like he often doesn't deserve you.

P is the kind of man who fears nothing more than losing you, so he'd be overbearing, overprotective, because he loves you so.

P is the kind of man to stand between you and someone who isn't getting along with you- an argument with Alidoro? He puts his body between yours and his, staring him down until he calms or buzzes off. Getting a bit loud with Venigni? Even if it's just a passionate debate, P finds himself standing between the two of you too, which leads to Venigni laughing it off and teasing you about it later.

He usually does this with men more so than women- call it a quick understanding of societal norms.

P is the type to let you manhandle him- poke at his cheeks, moves his arms, mess with his hands... He doesn't care what you do. He just lets you.

In short- P is the kind of man who, when he loves, he loves passionately and protectively. He treats you like precious Ergo, life force he cannot replace or replicate. He wouldn't trade you for anything, not even his own life and humanity.

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Maple's list

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Pinocchio pulling you over to him with 1 arm and effortlessly scooping you into his lap

Pinocchio sweeping you off of your feet in a split second to carry you somewhere

Pinocchio lifting you up onto his shoulders so you can reach something

Pinocchio smashing a door in for you to pass through, with a single punch

Pinocchio using the raw impact of his legion arm to flatten a whole ball of cookie dough for optimal cookie cutter space utilization

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Sassy P

Bonus: (spoilers)

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For all fanfic authors, you guys don't know how important your work is. It doesn't matter what you write or how, the fact that your write beautiful comfortable inclusive works for free is something I will always be thankful for.

For those of us who are adults being told to be this and that, molded into roles we don't like or resonate with. To always be on the outside of everything, especially relationships, to always be told were wrong or stubborn or will live to regret our decisions. To those of us who refuse to compromise, fanfic is such a comfort. Because really in our society and world, there are few people who just want to be with you because they enjoy you as you are and want to take every day with you like an adventure.

It's really sad and embarrassing to admit but I have found more comfort in fanfic and fictional characters than people. I know the psychology behind fanfiction but honestly who cares. It's nice to read and if it gives you the boost you need to make it to the end of the day, indulge a little.

So thank you to all you who write fanfiction because it's not easy to go through the day and then create your own stories to console yourself and others and then do everything again the next day. If my writing gives you even a tiny bit of that comfort, I'm glad.

Sometimes the only constant we have in our life is our maladaptive day dreams fanfic.

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What if Rafayel was never meant to fall for MC? What if MC was intended to be a sacrifice? What if bride in Lemurian culture and language implied sacrificial being? What if both Rafayel and MC were "brides"? What if Rafayel challenged the notion of sacrificial bride to a person that one loves? Adding Lemuria's highest value on MC, thus placing her from lowest rank to the highest rank??

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My dear husband

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Sea god Rafayel thoughts

So I have not been keeping up with any of the timeline and lore cause it's too complex.

I think we can all agree that merman Rafayel is hot 👌👌👌

But I'm curious is there a difference between God of tides and God of sea? Because the older flashback depicts a shorthaired Rafayel, and just his general appearance matches current timeline Rafayel. It could be that he ascends to God of sea through that ceremony but then, the stories don't match well because the older story mentions the ceremony going wrong and soon after MC disappears. But in the recent trailer, MC is clearly spending a lot of time with God of sea Rafayel, so are they seperate timelines? It's odd because of how similar they are in concept.

Also how much does Rafayel know and remember of his own past because why does he distrust her so much if MC saves him and sacrifices herself for him??

How does this memory connect to the sea witch memory?

Also love the play on the original Little Mermaid because that story has the mermaid sacrifice herself, turn to foam, and return to the sea to save the prince.

I'm curious how this memory impacts the general themes of motifs of Rafayel's story. Rafayel is shown in every past timeline to always seek a solution that doesn't demand a sacrifice, often avoiding paths that result in MC's death. He clearly doesn't like the "sacrifice one to save them all" solution. So is it because of this upcoming event or something else?

God I love how they remembered small things mentioned earlier like the crying pearls and playing instruments from older events.

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i’m late but this myth… GOD I’M SO SAD. we sacrificed ourselves to save rafayel, and that hurt him. in this life, we both protect each other. he hired us as his bodyguard to stay close with us, but we’ve seen him protect mc too :’)

i’m excited to read through the whole myth and connect it with his branch of the main story. this shot from the trailer immediately reminded me of the one from the main story!

he’s also really hot sorry not sorry