#because no matter what stiles has faith that he’ll show up every time he calls

[patolemus]

Okay but what if Stiles wasn’t worried about Derek being dead because he knew he wasn’t?

Like, we all know sterek in season 3 is all about Stiles becoming Derek’s anchor, right? That’s the end game, at what they point at throughout the season. And we know because of Scott, that if your anchor is a person, you (that is, a werewolf) can hear your anchor’s heartbeat from insane distances, almost as if it weren’t the actual heartbeat but a sort of psychosomatic reaction/apparition for the werewolf’s sake. It wouldn’t be a stretch to say it could even be some sort of weird anchor magic, because it’s not like the show ever gave us rules of any kind on anchors (or on anything, really, but this post isn’t about that).

So, with that information, let’s say there is a connection between werewolf and anchor, which of course there is because we’re talking about a werewolf and their anchor, but I mean a more literal connection. Like Scott being able to hear Allison’s heartbeat from very fucking far away. Like Derek being able to break from a love spell by looking at Stiles.

Like maybe Stiles knowing, for some reason, that Derek isn’t dead?

the thing that gets me most about sterek is it's a guy who's been hunted for all his life and blames himself for his family's death, who is fundamentally unsafe because of what he was born as, finding safety with someone who'd probably bite someone if they looked at him wrong

conversely, it's this guy who forced himself into a sort of pseudo parental role for everyone around him (including his own father), who's been so intensely terrified about everyone's well being that he has multiple, ONSCREEN panic attacks about it, trusting this guy, with probably THE highest ratio of screen time to mortal peril, to be entirely fine, even to the point where in the episode where every other main character is grieving Derek in some capacity, it doesn't really seem like stiles thinks he's dead?? he's not,,, but that's WILD

[celestialvoid-fanfiction]

Sterek AU where Stiles and Scott are police men. Stiles always tells Scott how lucky he is to have Allison (a paramedic), because dating as a cop is hard; there are three types of people: those who run at the sight of the badge because they’re intimidated, those who are in the services or army who understand but are never there when you need them, and those who only want to play with the handcuffs.

To prove his point, two guys across the room keep eyeing them up. Finally, one works up the courage to come over. Stiles counts down, “Three… two… one..” and pulls back his jacket to show the badge clipped onto his belt. The man turns and runs away, making his friend burst out in laughter. “And that one,” Stiles says, pointing at the man laughing. “Is thinking ‘I don’t mind the handcuffs’.”

Later, when Stiles goes up to the bar to order another round of drinks for him and Scott, the other man walks up to him.

“If you’re going to ask if we can play with the handcuffs, then the answer is no,” Stiles says before the man can speak.

“Actually, I was going to say you have a nice smile,” the man says.

Stiles turns to look at him. “You in the services? Army?”

“Fire brigade,” the man answers.

“Figures,” Stiles says.

“Let me guess: the three types of people you date?”

Stiles looks at him, surprised. “How did you know?”

“We get it too. They’re either services or army, unable to commit to someone who will drop anything and everything when the pager goes off, or they want the poles, the uniform, or what’s on the calendars.”

Stiles can’t help but laugh.

“I’m Derek,” the man introduces himself, holding out his hand.

“Stiles.”

They get to talking, and slowly get to know each other. They go on a couple of dates and later move in together. Derek asks Stiles about the anchor necklace he wears, and Stiles explains that it used to be his mother’s; faith, hope and charity (a cross, an anchor and a heart), and when she died, she gave it to Stiles. He lost the other two pendants a while ago and thought about replacing them, but at the same time, he likes it how it is; because no matter what life throws at you, there’s always hope.

Derek tells Stiles about how he lost his family in a fire and now he only had his sisters and his uncle, and none of them know he’s gay. Stiles tells him it’s okay, whenever his family’s around he’ll leave the apartment, or he’ll just introduce himself as his friend. He tells Derek that it’s his choice, and he can tell them when he’s ready.

On the day that Derek decides to tell his sisters, he gets called away to a building fire. The blaze is out of control and the police are called in help contain the situation. But when they get there, Stiles asks for a brief and the lieutenant tells him that they’ve evacuated the building, but they can’t get a reply from Captain Hale.

Stiles begins to panic, but picks up on something, the broken static of the receiver that’s linked to Derek’s channel. He begins to write it down, deciphering the Morse code. M-A-S-K/B-R-O-K-E/C-A-N-T/B-R-E-A-T-H-E/L-E-G/S-T-U-C-K

Stiles grabs the receiver. “Derek, listen to me. Hold on. I’m coming to get you.”

“You can’t,” the lieutenant objects. “The building’s not stable enough. You step in there and the whole thing will come down on you and Derek.”

“There’s got to be a way to get to him,” Scott insists.

“Tunnels,” Stiles says. “There’s service tunnels under every large building in the city. We can go under the building, get Derek, and get out.”

“With Captain Hale stuck in that building, I’m in charge and I can’t authorise my men to go on a suicide mission.”

“Then don’t. I volunteer,” Stiles says, walking over to one of the trucks and gathering the equipment: oxygen mask and a fire-proof suit. He runs over to the ambulance that’s waiting nearby and looks at Allison. “How ballsy are you feeling today?”

“You’re going in, aren’t you?”

“There’s a man in there. He’s pinned with a broken mask; smoke inhalation and a possible broken leg,” Stiles explains.

“I’m in,” Allison says, joining Stiles at the truck and suiting up before grabbing an oxygen mask for Derek, some medical supplies, and a stretcher.

“I’m coming with you,” Scott says.

“No.”

“You can’t carry Derek out alone; you need two people to carry the stretcher and Allison will be treating him,” he points out.

“Fine, suit up.”

At that moment, he sees a young girl go racing towards the building.

Lieutenant Parrish is quick to grab her, but she tries to fight her way out of his arms. Stiles recognises her; Derek’s little sister, Cora. She’s screaming about going in to get her brother, but Parrish tries to pull her thrashing body back towards the crowd.

Stiles calls out her name, pulling the necklace from his neck and giving it to her. “It means hope. Derek would never forgive us if you went in there. I’m going in to get your brother, I just need you to have hope.”

She takes the necklace and nods, tears trailing down her cheeks as Parrish walks her back over to Laura.

Stiles, Scott and Allison go in through the tunnels, finding Derek unconscious under a fallen beam. Stiles and Scott hoist it off him and Allison quickly goes to work trying to treat the wound in his leg where a metal bar has impaled him. When he’s stable, Scott and Stiles hoist him onto the stretcher and they get out, just in time because the building collapses.

They get him to the ambulance and Allison rushes him to hospital. Stiles goes over to Laura and Cora, telling them to follow him as he gets into his car and follows the ambulance to hospital. He waits with the sisters until Derek’s out of surgery and then waits in the hallway while they sit by his bedside.

As Derek regains consciousness, he sees the anchor necklace around Cora’s neck, gently reaching up to touch it and whispering Stiles’ name over and over again.

It doesn’t take long for Laura to work out that there’s something between the two of them, but she stays quiet, knowing that her brother will tell her when he’s ready. And he does, a few days later when he’s strong enough to speak. He tells them that he’s in a relationship with Stiles and they just smile and hug him.

[alphas-and-angels]

SOMEONE PLEASE WRITE THIS

NOTES - DEREK NEVER DOES ANYTHING ROMANTIC OR SEXUAL WITH ANOTHER, EVEN WHEN UNDER JENNIFER’S CONTROL. HIS LOVE FOR STILES PREVAILS ALWAYS. KATE DID KILL HIS FAMILY IN THE PAST BUT THEY NEVER HAD A SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP. IN THIS FIC DEREK IS A VIRGIN AND STILES TAKES HIS VIRGINITY

I WOULD LOVE IF SOMEONE WROTE A FANFIC OR DREW FANART BUT MAKE SURE TO CREDIT THE IDEAS TO ME PLEASE. FEEP FREE TO MESSAGE ME IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS

BASED OFF “THE WORLD IS STILL BEAUTIFUL”

Teen Wolf AU (Stiles is a Rainmaker / Stormbringer)

Title: Love Like Rain (gentle and sweet yet rough and harsh and all-encompassing)

Stiles was born with a beautiful gift, a gift he shared with his mother before she died - the power to create rainstorms. Claudia’s ability was weak, at most she could create a slight spring shower. Stiles’ true abilities become clear the night his mother dies, with rage and despair in his heart he sings to the heavens and the skies open up, letting torrents of water drown the land below them. A horrible storm racked the land for a week before he fell weak and fevered, his voice gone from the strain of singing for so long.

Years later he is captured by servants of a neighboring kingdom - the Hale kingdom. Their land is constantly sunny, the harsh hot rays beating down mercilessly on their land destroying their crops and leaving everyone hungry. It is said the kingdom is run by a cruel tyrant, the very same man who kidnapped Stiles from his family. Stiles is the kingdoms only option to end the drought, but when he arrives he refuses to sing for the king, for the man who took him away from his father. The kings sisters, Cora and Laura, try to attest to the fact the Derek isn’t evil, but his murderous glares and haughty attitude speak volumes to Stiles about his character. Still Stiles sees how hungry the villagers are and he even begins to notice how much Derek cares for his kingdom. He can also see how much Derek’s uncle Peter wants the crown for himself, so much that he’s willing to plan an assassination.

The day that changes Stiles life forever starts in tragedy, Derek Hale is trapped in the castle by a fire set by his executioners (this is how his family died) Stiles does something he said he’d never do again after his mother death, he opens his mouth and sings. He sings for Derek, to save him from the pursuing killers, he sings for the loss of his father, but most of all he sings for his mother, to his surprise the heavens above answer by sending a calming spring shower that washes the land anew, bringing health and nourishment to the crops while also providing a distraction for Derek to capture his pursuers. Stiles is amazed at the rainfall that reminds him so much of his mother, he vows to remember her more by singing for the king who suddenly doesn’t seem so bad anymore, in fact Derek himself seems more than a little awestruck by the beautiful abilities of the boy before him, and maybe the pure beauty of the special creature…although he’d never tell him that, and Derek definitely doesn’t find the sight of Stiles, wet hair slicked back by the rain, droplets of water rolling down his face and across his broad shoulders to his slim waist attractive at all, not in the slightest

His singing is the most beautiful sound anyone has ever heard, inside his voice one can hear the gentle soothing harmony of falling rain, or they can hear the wild untamed power of a lightning storm, all electricity and power washing over them. When he commands the wind you can hear the whisper of power underlying his unearthly voice

His rain doesn’t only enrich the land, it helps to heal the hearts of those that are hurting. It even is able to heal the memory of the terrible Fire that has been haunting the Hales since their families demise

In order for Stiles to summon the rain he has to see the beauty of the land around him, to be surrounded by the natural world in order to draw inspiration for his song, and Derek is the one to show him this world through necessity. Stiles spends his days attempting to show the beauty of nature and the world to Derek who has lost faith in beauty and kindness since his families untimely deaths

Inside the Hale kingdom Stiles faces discrimination, fear, and disgust from many different people. They call him different offensive slurs like Sorcerer and Demon because they don’t know the source of his powers and think that the rain and dark clouds are evil omens and aren’t used to seeing supernatural abilities. Derek doesn’t know how his guards and royals treat the young boy until he witnesses it firsthand

He sings the same song for gentle rainfall and brutal storms but they are sung with a different tone and inflection

Since Stiles song is meant to heal and nourish his rain takes on calming properties, the water is warm and soft, covering everyone in a cloud of love and healing. The raindrops give off soothing sounds as they beat against the ground and walls. The water reflects the light of the harsh sun around rooms glittering and gleaming with beauty. But when he’s angry and is using the rain as a distraction or weapon it becomes brutally cold and hard, beating down on his enemies (he doesn’t like to use his sacred gift as a weapon but he’ll do anything to protect those he loves)

Every weather worker has a different song that focuses their abilities. The lyrics of these songs sync with the thoughts and desires of each singer. In order for this song to manifest the weather worker has to be introduced to the natural wild beauty of the land around them as well as the true nature of the human souls they’re surrounded by so they can find the inspiration their song is born of.

Stiles focuses his power through a hummed melody as a child (he didn’t have enough inspiration for lyrics) but after entering the Hale kingdom he finds awe and inspiration through Derek after he realizes how much depth the cold king has and how badly he is hurting on the inside. Stiles is surprised to find how much he wants to heal that pain, this need to heal and help has Stiles opening his mouth to let out a verse of beautiful lyrics to match his melody. When a weather worker finds their song their abilities are strengthened ten fold which allows their weather to not only affect the physical but the mental and emotional as well (Stiles can not only nourish the land but the souls and hearts of people around him)

Verses of songs are discovered throughout the weather workers life, some may never find their complete song. At Stiles wedding to King Hale the last verse of lyrics pours from his mouth, completing his song and gathering the most beautiful and gentle cloud of rain above them.

When a weather worker sings their voice splinters, creating many different echoes of their song that make up harmonies and melodies and back up. To everyone else it sounds as if the worker is singing an arrangement

If a weather worker experiences severe trauma and negative emotions before their song manifests then their powers can be twisted to evil and dark purposes. Their powers become violent and damaging to both the body and the mind, this is what becomes of Jennifer Blake.

After spending a lot of time with Stiles, Derek begins to open up to those around him, accepting the love of his sisters and friends and beginning to finally heal after his family’s murder. Around that time he begins to fall in love with Stiles voice, his song, and maybe even the boy himself. So of course he’s scared when a neighboring kingdom, who’s noticed all the wealth and joy that Stiles has caused with his powers, starts a battle over the weather worker himself. Derek is terrified of losing him, so he refuses the boy when Stiles asks to sing for the opposing army, hoping to use his powers to put love and peace in the hearts of the harsh men. That’s when a mysterious woman appears at their doorstep claiming to be another weather worker.

Jennifer Blake is a beautiful woman, but her beauty is cold, harsh, and cruel (like frost or diamonds) and Derek finds himself craving Stiles warm eyes and mole dotted skin. Her song mirrors her looks, it’s a somber ballad with haunting lyrics that summons freezing snow and ice, yet Derek can’t help but compare the haunting sad notes to Stiles joyful, calm melodies and he realizes that she is nothing compared to the boy he is beginning to love. She offers to help him win the war, and Derek can’t refuse the offer in order to keep his love safe. She turns her snow against his enemies, freezing the entire army in a matter of minutes, everyone is awed by her strength and power yet during her song Derek feels something inside him ice over, the numb overtaking his newfound warmth for his family, friends, and Stiles. That’s the power of her enchantment, Jennifer’s inner desire to make others suffer and feel numb and cut off from others manifested her ability to literally freeze the hearts of those she encounters. Yet even after that when she begins to seduce Derek he refuses her at every turn, knowing deep inside that this wasn’t right.

Stiles realizes what has happened and makes a stand against Jennifer, but when Derek takes her side Stiles loses faith in his abilities and he falls under her snow and ice and is thrown in the dungeons. Eventually he realizes how much he loves Derek and how much he needs to save him and how much Derek must be hurting himself so he finds confidence again in his love for the grumpy King and uses his rain on the guards to make them feel love and compassion so they set him free. He then confronts Jennifer in the throne room where she’s sitting with a crown on her head and manages to beat Jennifer and Derek’s heart unfreezes and he tells Stiles that underneath the numb cold he felt all the love he had for the warm weather worker and he would’ve made it through eventually, he would have come back for Stiles because he loved him so much.

Eventually Stiles and Jennifer face off and she taunts his ability, stating that a little bit of water could never compare to her ice. Stiles feels nothing but pity for the woman and proceeds to show her his true power - love and healing. Her ice falls against his rain and even she begins to thaw out. At the end of the story she has healed completely of her numbness and she works at the castle, her true abilities allowing an individual to see the genuine beauty in a person, inside and out. She even falls in love herself, with Laura Hale.

As a young girl Jennifer Blake was beaten repeatedly by her father and told over and over again that no one would ever love her because she was broken and an evil witch. Everything changed when she fell in love, but the wolf Kali strung her along in order to use her powers for her own personal gain before leaving her cold and alone saying he could never love a sorceress. She felt cut off from others, numb and broken. Her powers twisted, becoming an imitation of their former beauty. She begged for vengeance and was given the evil ability to make others feel her pain, to make them feel lost and alone and frozen. After Stiles heals her from that pain, her abilities revert back to the course they were originally supposed to take - to make others see the inner and true beauty in a person and the world around them, while her snow becomes soft and beautiful, the cold transforms from treacherous to refreshing and awakening (making an individual feel alive and aware)

Sequel: The Argent kingdom has been waiting, biding their time for when they’ll be able to attack the Hale kingdom, who killed their princess Kate after she murdered the Hale werewolves.

They plan their attack around a young girl, a weather worker, they discover that has the ability to manipulate the winds. The Argents beloved princess, Allison, is charged with seducing the fiery young girl and persuading her that the Hale kingdom is dangerous and violent. But over time Allison falls in love with the smart, beautiful girl before her, and they secretly plan to overthrow the evil tyrant Gerard.

Lydias entire village was murdered while she hid away, this resulted in the intense desire to be able to protect others and know when something bad will happen so she can change it. This trauma kickstarts her abilities, giving her powerful control over the winds and air currents, which is so powerful she can even create tornadoes. Meeting Allison and seeing her beauty and compassion inspires her and lyrics manifest to match the melody of her song. With the lyrics of her melody comes the mental ability to use her winds as a buffer, blocking the physical and mental abilities of other weather workers, along with the power to sense the oncoming deaths of others which manifests itself as a piercing scream that rips its way from her throat.

Lydia and Stiles battle a few times, she’s eager to prove herself worthy of Allison. But after a couple of months Allison overhears Gerard saying that after the witch defeats the Hales he would kill her so she couldn’t turn her power against him. Allison is heartbroken and immediately leaves, taking Lydia with her to protect her. They make their way to the Hale kingdom where they’re met with suspicion. After Gerard brings his entire army of men and witches to the Hale’s doorstep, Derek has no choice but to let them go free in order to help. The three weather workers gather their powers together, their songs merge to form one achingly beautiful melody that no one can resist. The songs form the largest, most powerful storm any kingdom has ever seen, none of the evil witches from the Argent kingdom have the power to go against the weather workers and Gerard is finally defeated.

In the end Allison returns to her kingdom as queen with Lydia by her side. Her father is pardoned after he realizes how wrong he was and Chris becomes her new advisor

Witches in this universe are dark, twisted creatures that are addicted to the rush of their magic and use it to cause pain and suffering on others, their evil power is feared by many

Sequel: Erica Reyes grew up bullied because of her disease, epilepsy was ruining her life. It left her weak, exhausted, acne prone, and with over protective parents. She was utterly miserable, this misery produced a strong desire to save others from feeling the sadness she felt, and that’s when she heard the first lilting notes of a melody hum through her ears. As she hummed them out loud the sky above her responded, the sun growing bright and warm, sending strong shafts of light around Erica, the more she hummed the stronger the sunlight became, over time she was even able to start small fires and burn others. From the second that beautiful tune floated across her mind her disease dissipated, and all her symptoms. She became beautiful and confidant, her power to control the suns rays became second nature and she loved it. With just a few whispered words she can channel the light of the sun through her hair, the golden tresses lighting up with fiery reds and oranges, filtered through with a bright persistent gold sheen (she uses this to temporarily blind her enemies)

She eventually meets a kind young werewolf named Hayden who’s in a loveless relationship with an angry boy named Liam. Hayden ends up breaking off the relationship in order to spend more time with Erica, the strength and determination of the girl before her gives Erica enough inspiration to find a verse of her song, allowing her to bring happiness to others

Rain Melody - Stiles can influence the weather through song. He sings a song of joy and happiness and a light refreshing rain cleanses the land around him, however if he sings a song of sadness and rage the land will be destroyed by floods of water and strikes of lightning

The sadness born today, It soars up high above the grey clouds and hides away. The sky opens its eyes, And calls upon a wind on which my heart can learn to fly.

I’ll keep you safe so don’t you worry, I want to share my destiny with you.

Every tear that you cry, When your heart begins to sigh,

I will hold you in my arms when you feel blue.

It’s a tender rain, May this song reach where you are. And however far, I know I’ll see you again.

So trust in me, If you believe, Then these words will heal your soul.

So let the love you feel make your heart whole.

Singing in the rain, Every drop shines in the sun, Each and every one, They will wash away the pain.

And for this time, The sky will shine, And the world will bloom again.

Although apart, Love in our heart remains.

Please, come the tender rain.

If one day this all fades, I know the passion in your eyes won’t go away. As long as you are here, The world could fall apart and I still would never fear.

To show you that I love you deeply, And understand the feeling that you hold.

Where you’re lying on the ground, There are flowers all around,

And just like you’re heart, they all begin to bloom.

It’s a tender rain, Falling softly through the air. When you call my name, I will always be right there.

I’ll never stray, Or go away, I will stay right by your side.

I’ll always give what my heart can provide.

Singing in the rain, May this be your lullaby. Every word I say, Is a raindrop from the sky.

Through time and space, My warm embrace, In the dark will light your way.

Until the day that we will meet again.

Here comes the tender rain.

No matter where our fate may lead, Our love it will succeed, Cause without you, I cannot breathe.

No matter how your tears fall, The rain will clear them all, And fade into blue skies.

It’s a tender rain, May this song reach where you are. And however far, I know I’ll see you again.

So trust in me, If you believe, Then these words will heal your soul.

So let the love you feel make your heart whole.

Singing in the rain, Every drop shines in the sun, Each and every one, They will wash away the pain.

And for this time, The sky will shine, And the world will bloom again.

Although apart, Love in our heart remains.

Please come, the tender rain.

Come, tender rain.

Air Manipulation - Stiles discovers that his abilities allow him to control the dry air of the Hale kingdom in order to protect himself and others. All he has to do is whisper a command and the wind is at his beck and call

[otg2012]

Summary:  Stiles confronts Jackson about his behaviour after they found out about their son's disability.

Author’s Notes: This is part 95 of my series “All I Saw Was You”. Feedback and kudos are always a great thing.

“This has to end, you know?” Stiles says as he enters Jackson’s office in their house, closing the door behind him.

Jackson looks up from the laptop, pushing his glasses further up his nose. “I don’t want to argue with you. Besides, I’m busy right now.”

“Yeah, and when aren’t you busy exactly? Lately, it’s like I need an appointment to talk to you.” Also, he can’t talk about it in front of the kids either.

“You really love being dramatic. Usually it’s adorable, but right now, I really have to finish this.”

“No. You’re not doing that. You’re not shutting me out. We’re talking right now.” Stiles walks until he’s in front of the desk and bends over it, reaching with his right hand to close Jackson’s laptop. He knows Jackson had time to stop him but didn’t, instead he leans back against the armchair, looking away from him.

Stiles rests both hands on the desk in front of Jackson.

“I want you to see someone. You can’t go on like this. We can’t go on like this. This has lasted long enough.”

“See someone?”

“Yeah. You know perfectly what I mean. A psychologist, someone who can help you. A professional.”

“A psychologist? Are you crazy?”

“It’s obvious that I haven’t been able to help you. So, it’s the only thing I can think of.”

“I don’t need any help.”

“Really? Don’t do this,” Stiles says, shaking his head.

“I’m not doing anything. You’re the one who is here judging me and ordering me around.”

“Shit, why do you have to make it so hard?” Stiles shakes his head. “You know you’re not okay. Fuck, everybody knows you’re not okay. So, you’re fucked because this mate thing works both ways. And I can’t live like this… and I don’t want you to feel like this.”

“Stiles--”

“No, don’t Stiles me, okay?” Stiles interrupts him, raising his right hand to shut him up. “You’re gonna listen to me. You’ve got to stop thinking about it. You’ve got to stop thinking ‘what if… whatever...’. There’s no ‘whatever’ and there’s no-one to blame… You will never know why he’s deaf and it doesn’t matter. Whatever the reason it’s not important. I know you wanted perfection and I know better than anybody how you get obsessed with it but perfection doesn’t exist. He’s exactly the way he was meant to be and you fucking need to accept it. Starting today. Right now.”

“I haven’t accepted it?”

“Of course not.” Stiles shakes his head. “Because I know how you’ve felt since we found out. You’ve felt all kids of things, but acceptance isn’t one of them”.

“You can never understand how I feel.”

“I’m your fucking mate. Of course, I can and I do. I feel it every day. You’re disappointed, you’re moody, worried, restless, uneasy…”

“Shit! I carried him! Not you… So, stop judging me, stop saying that you know what I’m going through because you have no idea.”

“The accident wasn’t your fault! You fucking know that!”

“Yes! But everything I did after that was. Everything I didn’t do. I think I didn’t care! I stopped caring about him. I didn’t listen… to your father or Derek… I was irresponsible, I know that now. I lost so much weight. I--”

“You were traumatized! You were worried… You did the best you could! Nobody is blaming you and I never will.”

“You don’t know that.”

“Yes, I do. And honestly, the fact that you can’t see it, worries me. Do you need me to call Derek so that he can tell you himself?”

Jackson snorts. “You wouldn’t dare,” he says with confidence.

“I don’t know what else to do,” Stiles says, in defeat. “I believe he’s exactly the way he was meant to be. Sometimes I think you really wanted him to be a wolf too--”

“That’s not true. That’s not… why do you have to say that? I’ve never--”

“Because it’s the only thing that makes sense! I’ve been trying really hard to understand you. Because humans can be born with any sort of condition or develop it afterwards. DNA is a fucking mystery and there aren’t any guarantees that you’ll get a perfectly healthy baby. And hell, he is healthy… yes, he’s deaf but with technology he can hear and he’ll have a totally normal life.”

“I didn’t want him to be a wolf, okay? Never say that again. I like that he’s like you… that he looks so much like you. And I’m not disappointed… that word… it doesn’t… that’s not how I feel. But yeah, I’m worried, of course, I’m worried. And maybe you’re right. Maybe it’s not my fault. But I can’t really shake that thought out of my head. It doesn’t happen just because you want it to. At least not yet. I guess I need time for that. And you pressuring me is the last thing I need right now.”

Stiles snorts. “So now I’m pressuring you? That’s so not fair. If it was the other way around, you wouldn’t leave me alone. You’d be lecturing me every day and my father, Scott and probably even Kane would have been here weeks ago. You wouldn’t have been so understanding, that’s for sure.”

“Understanding? So, that’s what you’re being? You’re being understanding?” Jackson frowns.

“Yeah. Yeah, I am. You think this is easy for me? You think I’m not fucking worried and sad sometimes? You think it doesn’t break my heart too? Because it does. Every day. But we can’t let him or Daniel see that. We have to be strong for him. We have to be positive and show him that he’s gonna be okay. And we need to be united in this. I need to feel that you’re… I don’t know…” Stiles’s voice breaks for a moment. “With me. That you’re with me.”

“Of course I’m with you. Why would you even say that?”

“Why?” Stiles raises his eyebrows. “You need to ask?”

“Stiles--”

“You’ve been keeping your distance from me. You’ve been so focused on yourself you probably haven’t even noticed. And I’m not talking just about sex, okay? I’m talking about you and me having…” Stiles runs his hand through his hair. “I don’t know… what we had before this whole thing started, you know?” Before they found out that something was wrong and everything changed.

“I don’t remember being married before,” Stiles continues when Jackson doesn’t say anything. ”But I remember how it was when Ilya was born. I remember what being happy feels like and this is not it. And… shit, I want it back. I want…” Stiles waves his arms as he tried to find the words. “I want you back.” After everything they’ve been through, he’s not going to settle for anything else than that.

“Stiles,” Jackson says, getting up, walking around the desk until he’s standing next to Stiles. “You have me.” Jackson reaches out to rest his right hand on Stiles’s shoulder and for a second Stiles thinks that maybe he shouldn’t let him. Maybe he shouldn’t make it so easy for him to touch him.

“And maybe you’re right. Maybe I’ve pushed you away but it wasn’t on purpose, I swear. It wasn’t because I don’t want you... or need you.” The truth is that he wasn’t really aware of what he was doing but how does he explain that? “There’s not a single day I don’t need you. I’m sure I’ve been difficult. But that’s why I need you to tell me when I’m being a shitty husband.”

Stiles smirks, resting both hands on Jackson’s waist. “In that case, yeah, you’ve been a pretty shitty husband.”

“Okay.” Jackson licks his lips. “I can admit that. But I’m still not seeing a psychologist… what I… we can do though, is sign up for those ASL classes you talked about.”

“Really?” Stiles smiles.

“Yeah,” Jackson steps closer, resting both hands on Stiles’s neck. “Really. I mean, I can’t promise I’ll be any good at it… but we have to at least give it a try, right?”

“Come on, you’re gonna crush it. I’m sure,” Stiles says with absolute confidence.

Jackson snorts and smiles. “I think sometimes you put too much faith in me.”

“I love you, and I trust you. That’s never gonna change, and I know you can do this. We both can.” Stiles says before finding Jackson’s lips, kissing him deeply and pressing their bodies together at the same time as he slides his hands up and down Jackson’s back.