#because it did get easier

[inkskinned]

it is hard to explain without sounding vain or stupid - but the more attractive others find you, the more you're allowed to do. the easier your life is.

i have been on both sides of this. i am queer and cuban. i grew up poor. for a long time i didn't know "how" to dress - and i still don't. i make my sister pick out any important outfits. i have adhd in spades: i was never "cool and quiet", i was the weird kid who didn't understand how "normal" people behave. i was bullied so hard that the "social outcasts" wouldn't even talk to me.

i got my teeth straightened. i cut my hair and learned how to style it. i got into makeup. it didn't matter, at first, if i actually liked what i was doing - it mattered how people responded to it. like a magic trick; the right dress and winged eyeliner and suddenly i was no longer too weird for all of it. i could wear the ugly pokemon shirt and it was just "ironic" or a "cute interest."

when i am seen as pretty, people listen. they laugh at my jokes. they allow me to be weird and a little spacey. i can trust that if i need something, people will generally help me. privilege suddenly rushes in: pretty does buy things. pretty people get treated more gently.

i am the same ugly little girl, is the thing. still odd. still not-quite-fitting-in. still scrambling. still angry and afraid and full of bad things. of course it became my obsession. of course i stopped eating. i had seen, in real time, the exact way it could change my life - simply always be perfect, and things can be easy. people will "overlook" all the other things. i used to have panic attacks at the idea others would see me without makeup - what would they think? even for a simple friend hangout, i'd spend a few hours getting ready. after all, it seemed so obvious to me: these people liked me because i was pretty.

i worry about how much i'm being a bad activist: i understand that "pretty" is determined by white, het, cis, able-bodied hegemonies. if i was really an ally, wouldn't i rally against all of this? recently there's been a "clean girl" trend which copies latinx aesthetics: dark slicked-back hair, hoop earrings. i almost never wear my hair like that; i can hear the middle school guidance counsellor advising me that i might fare better if i toned it down on the culture.

the problem is that i can take pretty on and off. that i have seen how different my life is on a day where i try and a day where i don't. i told my therapist i want to believe the difference is confidence, but it's not. and when you have seen it, you can't unsee it. it lives inside your brain. it rots there; taunting. i get rewarded for following the rules. i am punished for breaking them. end of story.

pretty people can get what they want. pretty people can feel confident without others asking where they got their nerve from. pretty people can be weird and different. pretty people get to have emotions; it's different when they get aggressive, it's pretty when they cry with frustration.

of course people care about this. of course it has crawled into you. of course you want to be seen as attractive. it's not vanity: it's self-preservation.

[mango-dolphin]

(Part 1) maybe the two of them have something in common. i doubt it'd be easy to see, though

dialogue under the cut:

Ishmael: Great. Ok. Fine. As though we needed anything else to go wrong today. Caption: It's raining.

Quixote: Ah! Mine comrade! Allow me to shield thee from this most drenching of downpours! Hong Lu: How ingenious...! It won't drip too much on me, will it? Quixote: ..... Ishmael: Well, whatever. Rain won't affect our mission in any meaningful way. We should just continue onwards. Ishmael: Let's get—

(offscreen) Meursault: Peheh

(offscreen) Meursault: Ha ha ha.

Meursault: Hahahaha.

Hong Lu: ...Huh? Heheh.

Sinclair: Meursault... is everything alright?

Meursault: ...

Hong Lu: ... Ah~. Hong Lu: So that's what it is. I see now.

[marblerose-rue]

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whaddaya think makes tracks like that? / needletail and violetpaw

[actual-changeling]

This post is something that can actually be so personal and no I am not done talking about it. There's a whole concept behind it and the fucking hair ties are just one way of channeling it but oh boy is it a good one. This works so well with the hair braiding too and i cannot think about it to much or i will spontaneously combust, but I had to so I hope you enjoy the result of it.

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Joel has a hair tie on his wrist because Ellie forgets to take a spare and when the first one breaks or she loses it somehow, he can offer it to her before her hair becomes an annoyance.

He has one because she gives it to him sometimes when they're laying on the couch and her ponytail makes resting her head on a pillow or against his chest uncomfortable. At times she also takes it out simply because her scalp is especially sensitive that day and the constant pull becomes painful after a while. There's always another one in his jacket pocket, too, so when Ellie asks him for braids afterward or allows him to do her hair he isn't limited to simpler styles.

It starts with hair ties in Jackson but there are months of different acts preceding it.

Joel carried whatever he could for her, taking more than necessary sometimes because the slim line of her shoulders being weighed down by her backpack made his heart ache even when he couldn't admit it to himself back then, not at first at least. There are water bottles, sweatshirts she cannot quite fit into hers that day, all of their food, whatever first aid materials he can find, even a spare bar of soap.

Then he starts carrying hair ties once they get to Jackson and suddenly he needs to keep a brush on him, too, and with the brush comes a comb and with the comb comes a hat and with the hat comes a homemade creme he traded for since her hands are uncomfortably dry sometimes (she never said so but he knows her), and after that what started as a small piece of twisted fabric turns into him carry a bag around that is filled with everything his brain thinks Ellie might require at some point. Sure, maybe he is being a little bit overprotective and maybe Tommy jokes about getting him a purse several times, but he can offer her sunscreen and a bottle of water during summer, he gives her gloves and a scarf in winter when she doesn't remember to put them on before leaving, there's always one of her books in a side pocket, too, and as soon as he finds her a new one, her Walkman gets an especially safe place in his bag.

And yes, he fusses over her a little bit too much, maybe even to the point of being smothering sometimes (she always tells him to back off when that happens and he does without complaint), but Ellie grew up utterly alone and without someone to look after her for fourteen years, she deserves to know what it is like to be cared about by someone. Whatever she asks for, whatever she needs, he gives it to her even when she could walk home and come back with the thing in question in less than ten minutes. There's always a snack, a spare sweatshirt in case she gets cold, space for the one she takes off when she gets too warm, a small sketchbook and a pencil both as a distraction and so she can draw whenever she feels like it.

No one pays any attention to it, and while Tommy softly teases him about it from time to time, the smile that blooms on Ellie's face when he quietly gives her something she needs based on nothing but hardwired instincts before the words leave her mouth tells him everything he needs to know.

Joel might not be good with words, but he continues to carry a bag and hands her little pieces of his love time and time again, hoping she can put the puzzle together, hoping she knows.

Ellie does the same, hoping Joel notices it, hoping he knows what it means, that with every time she tells him to rest, every cup of coffee on his nightstand, every night spent in his bed when she wakes to the mere suggestion of a nightmare and brushes them away before they can settle so she can put herself in their place instead, every trashy action movie she borrows from the library for their weekly movie night, every handmade guitar pick she gifts him, every single gesture she does not have to do but does regardless because she wants to, she is saying I love you, too.

They notice, they care, they willing hand over carefully chosen parts of themselves and the puzzle they piece together is one and the same, because paying attention to things is how they show love and it is oh so easy when there is nothing to look at but each other.

[sweetest-honeybee]

How did you make your au know to others? I’m curious since I want to get my Wally au out there. Also what gave you the idea to make greyscale? (Sorry if the last question was already answered)

Uhhh, I dunno, people just ended up seeing it bc it spread pretty far 😂 It was just a simple concept that I wasn’t sure if anyone had done with or not, and I THINK (don’t quote me in this, I just hadn’t seen anyone else do it yet but the community is big and I’m not making any real claims here) that I was the first (maybe??) to do a greyscale Wally at the time that I did and consistently kept up with it anyways…?? (Fr I don’t know)

Grey Wally was originally supposed to be an apathetic Wally actually. Straight faced and hardly reactive and just. Grey. But the angst is pretty fun! I think people liking the angst aspect was also a big one

[alaraxia]

After a LOT of outfit/pallete trial n error I think I’m finally close to having an actual style down for Ordovic.

Main reason I haven’t wanted to practice drawing him as much was because I didn’t have a solid idea of his outfit and what his whole pallete should be, and so have spent months slowly circling ideas and poking at it.

[commsroom]

the other, much less funny thing about are space suits itchy? is like, yes - obviously it's another way cutter is messing with him, and not a real job (asking him if he misses pizza? really? you're just torturing this poor man.) but also... why this way of messing with him?

well. gabriel urbina said he imagined anne was about ten by the end of the show. there's no date on that mini episode, but we can assume it takes place in or before s1, meaning she was seven or eight at the time. likely either in third grade or about to be. "do you speak to your family?" in the supposed words of a kid the same age as eiffel's daughter starts to sound an awful lot like "remember why you're up there."

[queerstudiesnatural]

being autistic is like. so nothing is ever going to be easy? it's always going to be this hard? no amount of medical appointments will ever make me better? my entire life i'm going to be told that it can't be that bad if i was able to get a job and get along with people and there's really not much they can do for me. that they can address the symptoms (depression, anxiety, etc) but i need to do a blood test first to see if it's not just anaemia, and have i considered that i'm just tired out from work? and i seem fine honestly it's probably not even autism, everyone gets a little bit overwhelmed sometimes. here, have some magnesium. if you eat more vegetables you'll be fine. there's nothing else we can do. my computer says you're not autistic because you were able to make friends and you show signs of empathy. no i haven't updated my autism research since 1996. you're making a big deal out of nothing you seem fine. we can't help you. you seem fine. we can't help you. we can't help you. we can't help you.

[archersartcorner]

Just a fuckton variety of Skip n Norm doodles. *points* I like the sluge…

[merakiui]

more beans day azul vignette that i really like!!!! orz he’s actually so pathetic it’s really too cute.

[humanmorph]

every few months I go "maybe I DO want to play ttrpgs" and then usually nothing happens because I get too nervous and also realize that I don't care for roleplaying (you know. ttRPg)

[twiiqh]

// DIRECTORY FOR NEW EPISODE LINKS: (CLOSED ON REQS)

amphibia (S1 folder) (S2 folder) (S3 folder)

the owl house (S1 folder) (S2 folder) (S3 folder)

the ghost and molly mcgee (S1 folder) (S2 folder)

hailey’s on it! 

big city greens

ducktales (2017)

star vs the forces of evil

hamster & gretel

infinity train

don’t hug me i’m scared (ch4) [gdrive]

moon girl and devil dinosaur

over the garden wall

tartakovsky’s primal

kipo and the age of wonderbeasts

bluey

kiff

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notes + alternative ways you can watch episodes under the cut!:

notes:

1. I don’t have individual links to all the episodes posted because I started doing this quite late into the shows. others will be in folders linked above. (AMPHIBIA: bessie and microangelo onwards; TOH: echoes of the past onwards; TGAMM: all; PRIMAL: S2 onwards)

2. troubleshooting + updates are under #candy links 

3. if there is a link problem (file cannot be accessed anymore, not showing up etc.), please let me know and check the original post on my blog for the new link. reblogs don’t reflect changes, welcome to tumblr.

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alternative ways to watch episodes:

1. join the respective discord servers of the shows!

amphibia, the owl house, the ghost and molly mcgee, etc. you can find them by searching on the wikia or on the subreddit pages. these servers host watchalong sessions where they stream the episode just as it’s released!

2. you can check elmundodeanneysprig (amphibia), theowlclub (the owl house), espectralmcgee (ghost and molly mcgee)

these teams are dedicated to putting up great quality eps, usually within a day of the episode release. just note that these websites are in spanish, but are safe to use + easy to navigate as a non-spanish-speaker!

3. stream the episodes on their respective streaming services (disney+, disneynow, U.S. cable streaming services)

if you’re reading this list, chances are: you don’t have any way to legally access the episode on time and this point doesn’t apply. BUT, disney has recently announced its move to relying on streaming for releases and shutting down its cable channels outside of the U.S.

if you do have disney+ in your country, please stream the episodes when they’re released to show your support to the showrunners and crew!

[13eyond13]

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[codgod-moved]

making it my goal to push myself out of my comfort zone with art and like. draw more environments and stop drawing guys posing on flat coloured backgrounds as much. i have GOT to start pushing myself more with my art i feel like my skills are stagnatiiiing </3 and things are getting boooriiiing

[lockandkeyhyena]

well. first day back at school was a fucking disaster

[emile-hides]

I never do anything seriously for long so don’t expect much but I’m taking Commissions again

Rules and such

For character sheets I need a bare minimum reference. A Picrew or sketch of your own will be fine. A color pallet would be great.

In one person character sheets the personality doodles and sketches can be swapped out for up to 3 more detailed items important to the character instead (things like weapons, books, second outfit, etc.)

Nothing is going to be clean perfectly rendered types of art pieces, everything will have a little sketch left over or colors out of line. 

Fully Lineless is very limited request, I’m gonna turn down a lot of asks for it just because it takes a lot of energy and has very specific limits.

I’ll try and get to you with inbetween sketches but sense I usually do everything at once I may have things done before you have a chance to respond.

I really struggle with Furry and Mech. This isn’t a rule against the two, more so a warning that it might come out sketchier than human characters

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