#because i'm not picking fights with strangers on internet

[sadlynotthevoid]

I think I finally figured out the reason why I don't like Tim Drake. That is:

He gives me Denzel Crocker vibes.

Like, a slightly less unsuccessful young version of Crocker. Which feels just wrong.

Crocker's— and therefore Tim's— level of success should be non-existent. Failure.

Yes, he's right. That doesn't make him any less crazy.

[genderqueerdykes]

now more than ever it's blatantly obvious that people go out of their way to erase trans men from communities and queer history. it's always been happening, but it's way easier to watch it in real time now thanks to the internet and social media. we are watching people basically gloating that they misgender trans men and don't see them as men. we are now watching people kick trans men out of queer spaces because they are often "femme and them" or "nonbinary and woman" support groups, conflating nonbinary identities with womanhood, and denying trans men or transmasc nonbinary people places to go. many of them get told that their presence would "scare" the lesbians, women and enbies because they have trauma.

where do the trans men with trauma go, though? we can't go anywhere. when i was struggling with domestic violence that ended up destroying my right leg, i was denied shelter in queer spaces and even women's spaces even though i have F on license. domestic violence shelters especially will turn trans men away if we pass. even if we partially identify as women, we can't go in because 'our voices are deep and scary and we're loud and aggressive and threatening and might prey on the defenseless scared women'

finding transmasc support groups is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. i've seen numerous organizations across the US have transfemme support groups, nonbinary/genderqueer support groups, and then nothing for transmascs. where the hell do we go when they won't let us go anywhere?

we try to exist online and they try to erase us from here, too. bickering and arguing about how we're not real men, sending trans men death and sexual assault threats, acting like they're saviors for kicking out the "dangerous ugly men" from the queer community, as if we don't belong to it at all.

i refuse to be erased. i refuse to sit in silence while people tell me my problems don't matter because now i "have male privilege". I don't. once people find out what my legal name is they view me as a woman. strangers however view me as a cis man and will deny me help, either through programs, or because i'm a "strong young man, i should be able to pick myself up by my boot straps." i'm not white. i'm not abled.

i'm proud to be a trans man and i will be here to fight for other trans men's rights to have a platform to speak, and spaces to occupy. i will not rest until trans men & mascs have safe places to be and meet other trans men.

trans men are queer. we belong here. we are taking up the space we rightfully deserve and we are not leaving.

[icycoldninja]

Can you write the DMC boys with a reader who’s extremely wary, if not, straight up paranoid around men?

Like on the surface, you can see that she’s seemingly chill around men, but internally, she’s shitting herself due to how uncomfortable she is around them

To sum up how badly paranoid she is around them, I can give you some examples:

- If she gets called by someone whom she knew is a man, she’ll most likely would not pick up because she can’t tell a difference between a kidnapping scenario and a normal phone call -> leads to her sometimes not picking up their phone calls ( intentionally) unless someone else whom she trusts is beside her to rescue her

- If a man ask her to accompany them to somewhere else, she would internally panic because she thinks to herself “Should I propose to going out in public so incase he did try to kill me, I can easily scream for help?!”; “Will he ask me out?! How would he react if I reject him?! Will he orchestrate a plan to kidnap me and rape me?!” ; etc when in reality, that man could be asking for her help, shining the flashlight so he could fix his car easily -> leads to her only hanging out with the boys in public or anywhere that has the presence of other people, which means, not a lot of privacy between both of them

- If the boys and the reader sleep together, she would lowkey be ecstatic but mainly paranoid as hell, to the point where she could imagine 100 kinds of scenarios in which the boys could be taking advantage of her when she sleeps so she secretly hides a dagger underneath her pillow and pretend to fall asleep so the boys do not grow suspicious of her. In reality, she’s very much awake and alert, staring at them eyes wide open, not dare blinking asleep with a dagger close to her heart, ready to fight back -> her having sleepless nights and grows extremely exhausted much to the boy’s confusion, wondering how tired she must be even though they do saw her falling asleep ( presumably )

-If she had to walk home alone, she would hold her precious Swiss knife close to her heart, ears and eyes always be on the lookout for even a faint sound or image, ready to strike and would stare down at a man across the street to back off and leave her alone, even when the man could be minding his own business -> leads to her being too independent sometimes and not wanting to accept their help taking her home because she thinks they would take advantage of her as well which honestly dishearten them

-She always carry around a pack of condom in case if she did unfortunately get 🍇’d, she can still prevent sex-related diseases and unwanted pregnancies

That affects their live life a lot because they felt that they’ve never been connected to the reader as she always seemingly repulse from them. It isn’t until they saw how comfortable she is around women and uncomfortable around (not only them) other men as well

That leads to them coerce her into answering them, not straight up being a pushover did she sobs and told them

P/S: That’s how I act around men and I can’t help myself….It’s exhausting because I can’t feel connected to anyone and have genuine friendships and relationships with someone of the opposite gender without coming up with multiple scenarios of how they would kidnap me, torture me, sa’d me

I'm so sorry to hear that. I know my words are meaningless since I'm just a stranger on the internet, but I hope you can heal from whatever is causing this, because as someone who has a father and brother, I can tell you not all men are like that, only the real trashy ones. Hope you enjoy.

Sparda boys + V x Paranoid!Reader headcannons

¤ Dante ¤

-Dante doesn't understand why you're so paranoid. He knows he might come off as intimidating to some, but he's not a bad guy, trust him!

-He won't push you to hang out with him because he's sure that if he gives you space, you might warm up to him.

-This only partially works, as you don't ever want to go anywhere with him unless other people will be around, which made it really hard to establish a relationship.

-Dante refuses to give up, though, and kept trying, mostly communicating with you over the phone, even though you rarely picked up. Most people would have just given up and left you to your devices, but he refuses to let that happen.

-When you guys eventually establish a relationship and sleep together for the first time, you're still paranoid as hell and keep your knife under your pillow. Of course, once Dante starts cuddling up to you, your fear starts to dissipate.

-Indeed, for while Dante could easily snap your neck in half, he would never do such a thing. He loves you with all his heart and does nothing but try to protect and soothe you, even when you resist.

■ Vergil ■

-Vergil understands he is a very imposing man, so he does not question your fearfulness. He leaves you be, not wanting any drama, and just some quiet time so he can read his book.

-You got a lot of encouragement from the DMC girls to go up and talk to him, but you always refused. At some point, the whole DMC staff had to go on a giant mission, and since everyone would be there, you figured it would be safe to go too.

-It took Vergil saving your life from a particularly nasty creature for you to understand that he is looking out for you, even if he never shows it.

-You're still very on edge around him, especially at home, but after watching you take your knife with you to the bathroom, Vergil decided to put an end to all that and sit you down on the couch before explaining that he has never even thought about harming you in any way.

-It's unlikely you'll be getting over this fear anytime soon, but at least you can rest a little easy knowing Vergil isn't going to try anything without asking you first.

-And when he said he'd ask for permission, he meant about everything, he might as well ask if he can breathe the same air as you.

□ Nero □

-Nero was recommended to you by Nico, whom you trust. She gave him glowing reviews, and even dragged you over to say hi.

-Nero was informed beforehand about your paranoia and did his best to make you feel comfortable, though that was very difficult.

-You guys only hang out when Nico and Kyrie are around, but still, you managed to create a pretty strong friendship.

-You still refused to pick up the phone when he called or answer any of his texts, but you guys managed to make it work, somehow.

-When you guys finally get into a relationship, you're still pretty nervous, but Nero is so nice and protective of you, you can't help but wonder if your fears are no longer necessary.

-He really is the sweetest boy in the world, and may be the key to healing you.

● V ●

-V is not like other guys, literally. He has a talking bird that encourages you to say hi, always whispering things in your ear.

-Yes, you're terrified and uncomfortable beyond comprehension, but V just doesn't seem that bad. He actually looks harmless.

-Griffon is constantly assuring you V wouldn't do anything to hurt you, because he can't really fight without his familiars, and according to Griffon, all his familiars love you.

-You are still extremely wary and keep your knife about you at all times, even when you get into a relationship and all that.

-V is such a sweetheart, though, doing his best to make you feel loved and comfortable, not trying anything unless you want him to.

-When you need space, V will give you space, no hard feelings, no worries.

[laterkatersays]

Ashley Johnson is ruining my life (but I still love her to the moon and back)

Sometimes it feels like being a callowmoore shipper this campaign has been an exercise in frustration.

Not only are we fighting against a dedicated section of people who never got over the shard incident and still believe Ashton hasn't apologised enough (four times in one conversation was not enough, apparently) or done enough to be forgiven (despite the work they put in to open up to the party, make commitments to be better and actually follow though).

Then there are those who vocally insist that callowmoore is being forced and that Fearne has better chemistry with Chetney or Imogen or Teven or Braius. I honestly don't care when someone ships Fearne and Ashton with other people (and while I am not, a lot of callowmoores are multishippers, or want Ashton and Fearne to be polyamorous). The only time I mind is when someone starts bad mouthing callowmoore because they weren't paying attention to the way they've been flirting with each other since episode 1 (then I care long enough to roll my eyes and find the block button).

But to get back to my thesis statement, despite the fact that I adore Ashley Johnson in a way that one can (entirely platonically) adore a stranger that you will never meet, she has consistently driven me up the wall this entire campaign with her insistence that she can't share what Fearne is thinking and feeling without exploring it at the table first.

Don't get me wrong, it's an approach I admire. I would not be capable of it in that situation. I would be much more of a Liam, admitting to having romantic feelings in a 4 Sided Dive a good while before it was revealed at the table. Even Taliesin is sharing Ashton's feelings about Fearne now, I suspect because some of those feelings are easier for Ashton (which I plan to explore in another post because fuck it, let's ramble on the internet while the world falls apart).

Everything we've ever gotten from Ashley has been eked out in miniscule portions. We had one initial (and, I suspect, accidental) confession during a 4SD that Fearne might have deeper feelings for someone (back in October 2023, a month before the shard incident). And then ever since we've been living off crumbs.

I suspect that Ashley even asked before the final 4SD that the rest of the cast not bring up Fearne and Ashton (which is why we had a whole conversation around Caleb's tower without actually addressing why the tower configuration specifically caused issues that episode, namely that Fearne and Ashton had trouble finding somewhere private to fuck) because Liam made that little joke, almost underneath the rest of the conversation, "Enough about your callowmoore," as if it was in reference to a prior discussion.

I've been shipping these characters for two and a half years (July 2022, episode 28, Fearne fell in the hole, Ashton tried to pickpocket her while helping her out again, and I suddenly realised pickpocketing was flirting for people who were bad at feelings), and don't get me wrong, while there were some hard times, the payoff of watching these two emotionally stunted people find their way to each other has been brilliant. There is a unique joy in picking a ship before anyone else is paying attention and then being right (and hopefully getting to see them have a somewhat happy ending if they don't all get murdered by Predathos/Ludinus/the Gods in the next episode).

So I'll wait for the resolution we get in game, when Ashley and Taliesin do their thing and work out how Ashton and Fearne fit together when the fate of the world isn't at stake. And I'm sure it will be brilliant, because those two have already captivated me with this small story, this bare beginning of a romance, told in fragments of moments, within the hundreds of hours of Campaign 3. I think about callowmoore every day, when I'm supposed to working, or cleaning my house, or sleeping. So much so that I've somehow written 14 callowmoore fanfics, and I'm currently working on 4 more (2 of which are 40k+ words each).

But fuck me, if they don't dive into it, really dive into it, in the campaign wrap up, if Ashley Johnson doesn't finally reveal Fearne's thoughts and feelings, and the changing pattern of them across their friendship turned romance, I am going to... Well probably be really fucking sad and then write a bunch more fanfic tbh.

[mcsm-confessions]

Everytime romesse is brought up on here it’s just the same fucking “it’s problomatic because-“ GODDD do you guys ever get tired…

I’m sincerely sorry to the confession admin I know ur probably tired of this tooic and I’m only adding to this fire but it’s genuinely so infuriating just seeing the same arguments from people who dislike something because they don’t bother to look past the single choices they picked in a “chose your own story” game.

I’m not saying you have to like it, I’m not saying you’re wrong for whatever reasons you have for disliking i, you can have whatever opinions you want I don’t care but the way you guys act is just so immature to say the least..

anyways I’m very sorry to the blog admin for only adding onto the fire so I’m genuinely very sorry

~~~

I say this a lot, because it's applicable in many situations, but you don't have to agree with someone to be nice to them. "Nice" as in not going out of your way to harass or make fun of them. Basic respect as a person for a person.

I understand that shipping drama is complex and there's multiple issues layered together, but there comes a point where the whole issue just needs to be let go. I've seen this sort of argument in this fandom countless times in the duration that I've been part of it. All we get from arguing is mad at each other.

Internet strangers shipping two fictional block people together, that you don't think should be paired up together, is not the end of the world. I'm not forcing you guys to become best friends with the people on the opposite side of the ship war (if it constitutes as such), or even to interact with each other on here, but I am asking for civility. Live and let live. Ignore them.

At the end of the day, we are talking about character interpretations of Minecraft: Story Mode. You don't have to ship Romesse, you don't have to hate it, but you also don't have to be a jerk to internet strangers for disagreeing with you. Fighting solves nothing but a lack of problems.

[aew-regression-cove]

This is just a reminder that no. Age regression is not a kink, It's a coping mechanism.

And no. It's not always voluntary.

I don't understand why some individuals are SO hateful.

If you don't understand age regression (and don't want to), if you don't like age regression, if you choose to believe that it's some form of kink then that is on you. No one can stop your opinion or your beliefs. HOWEVER there is literally zero reason to be spreading hate to anyone. Noone is saying you can't have your own opinions however y'all have to learn to leave regressors alone because we are not hurting anyone!!! We are minding our business, so you mind yours. Stop sending hate and threats to random strangers on the internet because you don't agree with their choices. It's not up to you. Especially when you are targeting a community that is literally a way to cope and is filled with both adults and minors!!!

Stop interacting with us if you don't like us!!!

If anyone wants to add onto this then go ahead!!!

— I'm not trying to pick a fight with this post I'm just absolutely fed up!!!

[theradicalace]

i'm trying to get better at not picking fights with people on the internet because arguing with random strangers is pointless and will never be a good or worthwhile use of my time but god, sometimes i just can't help myself

[possiblyunhinged]

The time has come… I am officially old enough to preach about kindness. Think me Jesus. Or, you know, an insufferable millennial with too much time on her hands.

When I see the news about more and more young people ending up in A&E with self-inflicted wounds — and the mental health crisis getting worse every year — I can’t help but wonder if maybe, just maybe, turning the internet into a constant emotional lynch mob isn’t helping.

Growing up inside a culture that demands moral perfection, picks and chooses when vulnerability is a virtue based on identity, and treats every human mistake like a crime... good luck surviving that. Honestly.

And plot twist: it's not just the right wing doing it. It's "our" side too. The same "left" that fights for people's right to live authentically, while making a hobby out of destroying anyone who shows even a flicker of human messiness. Perhaps a slither of hypocrisy?

Watching grown women frame the Jojo Siwa/Chris Hughes thing like it’s a major justice issue — reframing feelings as "facts" to spin narratives that either satiate the most embarrassing parts of our psyche, or just to project our own experiences and demand accountability from strangers — made me realise I’m officially too old for the internet now.

Because honestly? It just reads like a bunch of weirdos who can’t be arsed to get their own eggs in order... That may or may not be the correct phrase...

But no, sure, let’s crucify a Love Island himbo and a girl from Dance Moms instead. That'll fix it.

We’ve built a culture that stunts emotional growth in favour of performing outrage. It's terrifying. It's sad. It's setting up an entire generation to be too scared to live.

And I know, I probably sound like a miserable aunt after a few bevvies, crying into a Babycham at a family gathering, but it’s fucked. It’s ridiculous.

I feel so deeply sorry for young people now.

The messaging is: The planet’s dying, billionaires are speeding it up, and meanwhile here’s a daily feed of manosphere bullshit, virtue-signalling wars, and the guarantee that every mistake you make will be logged and archived forever.

Fuck. That.

It feels like we’re tying our own noose.

I know it’s deeply unpopular to expect nuance or compassion anymore, but if we don't start practicing it — in ourselves, in each other — we are genuinely not going to survive what’s coming.

And bonus? Being kinder to others actually makes it easier to be kind to yourself.

Ultimately, what I'm trying to get at — in a very long-winded way — is that we're all hurt. I'm hurt. We feel powerless. And I honestly think a lot of the culture brewing online reflects that desperate need to see accountability somewhere — even if it’s just through pop culture drama.

But in the process, we're sacrificing what it means to be human — and forgetting that the growing pains of figuring out who you are sometimes involve acting like a twat. It just does.

Even though it feels selfish and impossible, we HAVE to allow ourselves to be human — messy, complicated, learning as we go.

No one is any use to anybody if they’re tangled in a web of shame they spun around themselves. Shame does nothing but destroy whatever it clings to.

And yes, I’ve probably called a million politicians cockwombles on here, so the hypocrisy is there sweeties — but honestly, being a jobsworth 24/7 is destroying people’s wellbeing.

Maybe... just maybe... we could lower our collective blood pressure and make room for reason or... y'know... a deep breath x

[midsummer-semantics]

Tagged by @hornedqueenofhell

this is exciting!

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1. How many works do you have on AO3?

37

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

552,698

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Stranger Things primarily, but I have written for Harry Potter and Marvel

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

- Free-Use Healthcare - Forehead Kisses - Big Dick Energy™️ - cherry on my lips - Gold Rush

5. Do you respond to comments?

I didn't really respond much in the beginning but I try to respond every time now. Even if it's just a heart or "i loved this," I want everyone to know that I appreciate them taking the time to read AND leave a comment.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

holy palmers' kiss I suppose has the angstiest ending considering it exists in the canonverse. At the very end, Steve thinks "Maybe we can save each other," but we know from a fan perspective that Eddie dies because Steve isn't there to save him that Steve and Eddie live happily ever after.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

This is entirely personal opinion because I really only do HEAs lol It's either my big boy The Fool, The World, and Everything in Between because Steddie fight to live as normal a life as possible in the wake of s4 and end up getting engaged at the end, or it's Best friends, ex-friends ‘til the end (better off as lovers) because they bonded, like, a day into being reunited because they were soulmates.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Aside from one comment from someone being marginally racist about how Italians aren't darker skinned (Steve is Sicilian in one of my series and Sicilians are notoriously darker skinned), not really. But I recently heard that some people use priv bookmarks to make sure they avoid reading something again, and while I think that's counterproductive to the bookmark count, I don't really want to know if it's happened to me.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yep! Almost exclusively, but I do have a few fics that are smut-free which I'm always surprised by. All Steddie, all gay, and it ranges from soft love-making to filthy, dirty, wet and messy sex.

10. Do you write crossovers?

The only crossover I've written was for Marvel, and that only counts on a technicality that it was a crossover between Eternals and Daredevil.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, but I haven't actually scoured the internet to check. I hope if something was stolen, the people reading it still enjoyed it.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I think so? I had a HP fic translated into Russian but I never followed up on the website to see if it ever got posted.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

When I wrote the Marvel fic, yes. I was working on and Eternals Ikaris/OFC while my best friend wrote a Daredevil/OFC and my other friend wrote a Jessica Jones/OFC, and we had them all in the same room multiple times.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Steddie, hands down. Nothing has had be in a chokehold quite like this.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

So many, and I've lost interest at the moment in one I was actually posting, but I'm hoping to pick it back up after the Big Bang is finished. Probably with massive re-writes.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm funny, so I would like to say I have a lot of really solid lines in fics that make people laugh out loud. Also my world-building tends to be extensive (so much plot in my porn every damn time), but I don't want to classify that as a weakness so strength it is.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I don't tend to plan things out. I usually have a scene or two in mind and then I write around them and piece it together like Frankenstein's Monster. It's worked out for me so far, but I wish I planned things better sometimes.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I've done it a few times. For my Italian Steve/Mexican Eddie series I have both boys speaking second languages but not well lol I just make it part of the bit because, like Eddie in this, I also speak Spanish but not well. This is my official request that if you do speak another language that I've written in and it's wrong, feel free to let me know lol

19. First fandom you wrote for?

My Chemical Romance. I was 13. We don't talk about it.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I'm really attached to The Fool, The World, and Everything in Between because it's a chonky boy (107k words) and it took me 9 months to write, but We'd rather be six feet under (than be lonely) is a very close second because I really got to play with Steve's inner monologue there and I think the approach I took to the fake dating trope was really original.

non-pressure tags: @tedewitt @malikat24601 @mojowitchcraft @lexirosewrites

[kimmimaru]

The thing about having a diagnosis of ASD is that although its almost like a relief, I know why I am the way I am, it also changes how everyone treats you. I'm in my late 30's, a fully grown adult with a child of my own, but I have no control over my own life. I need help in some areas, for example general life organisation and stuff, but people have now taken it to the extreme. This week the child beast has off school, I wanted to go meet up with my sister and her kids so the cousins can play at the park or something while my sister and I catch up. But I can't do that because the person who is supposed to be helping me had booked back to back appointments for the entire bloody week. They do this way too often. I don't get to choose whether I have these appointments or not. Everyone else decides. I feel like a child, its rediculous. I don't make desicions for much at all anymore, everyone else does it for me.

I don't understand how it happened, maybe its my fault. I'm not living, I'm currently just existing. Feel like I'm stuck in stasis. I wanted help to give me MORE independence, not to have it taken away. Every time someone asks me to do something lately I feel so angry. I don't get angry very often, annoyed, yeah, not 'I want to hit someone' angry. I'm not a violent person, so far from it that I can't even handle watching boxing on TV. It makes me feel sick. Like, this isn't who I am? I lost myself somewhere these past few years and I don't know where to find me again. I've been sick this past week with flu, normal flu. Nothing serious. But the person helping me freaked out like I was dying. It was weird. I just wanted to rest but if I asked for a few days to rest they said I needed to go to the doctors or hospital? Insane overreaction. Its flu, not the plague. I'm autistic so there's very little wrong with my body, I can walk, talk and everything. I just need help organising my self and my home, that's all. Now I just feel useless. I'm trying to teach my daughter to look after herself and surroundings right? So I give her chores. Like any child, she is not happy about this and fights me on it. She's 11, this is expected. An abslutely normal thing for kids to do, everyone hates chores. But the person I have helping me is telling me that perhaps my daughter won't be able to live independantly and I shouldn't make her do stuff. This child gets herself up every morning, goes to school on time, gets herself dressed, gets breakfast, everything. Every single day. She is also autistic but she IS capeable. I know what she's capeable of and what she's not. The reluctance to do chores is just normal kid stuff, she would much rather be watching TV or playing her games or something. Its natural. But they tell me I need to be hovering over her, doing her chores for her and stuff. If she couldn't do it, I wouldn't expect her to do it? Its just picking stuff up off her bedroom floor and putting her things away? I'm not asking her to deep clean the entire house or wait on me like a servant. I used to write and draw so much and now I have nothing. Absolutely no desire to do anything anymore. I'm probably depressed tbh, but that is nothing new I'm not suicidal so no worries there. I have my child beastie to look after and the doggos. I'm telling random internet strangers because if I tell my family the obsessive coddling will get worse and that won't help at all. What I would give to have the money to just move away somewhere, but I suppose the grass is always greener or whatever. So I am just going to endure. Put up with it and just go on drifting through life. Bleh. Boring. Everything is so fucking boring.

[theotherwesley]

this isn't new information and i'm not saying anything that hasn't already been said. this is just a catalogue of my anger and despair and grief and frustration.

there are something like 3 million people who all need tens of thousands of dollars/euros to get their families across the only open border into Egypt, which is demanding astronomical fees of each individual person to enter the country. i assume most do not want to go to Egypt, they want to go home, but home is gone and if they stay where they are they will die. international aid is being severely bottle-necked, on purpose. the limited and incredibly poor-quality resources available to them while they wait crowded around the only door out are hot-spots for being murdered. they barely have internet access, most of them have lost everything that ever belonged to them. and the only recourse left to them is to desperately parade their personal agony online to total strangers in a horrible sort of popularity contest to try and convince people on social fucking media to add 20 bucks here and there to their gofundme accounts. --And gofundme having become the defacto way for people to crowdfund their debilitating medical bills and living costs is already one of the most depressing phenomena of the era, but this is a new kind of absurdist hell. millions of people, all equally deserving of life and dignity and justice, crowdfunding their survival while they are actively starving and being murdered (and competing against innumerable spam accounts, because of course they are), fighting for internet access so they can check and see if the rest of the world still remembers them, leaving caveats in their gfm profiles that if everyone in their family dies before their goal is met, the funds will be distributed to other refugees. If I emptied my bank accounts today and sold all my worldly possessions I'd have enough to maybe pay for one person's way to freedom. So why don't I just do that? I want to! How could you possibly compare the value of some electronics or a month's rent to a person's life? But most of what I own is unsellable trash that would take months and months to try and hock. And it's millions of people. All of them need it. Any of them could be killed tomorrow. Who do I give it to? Do I break it up into uselessly small increments? Do I buy into the popularity contest and pick someone based on their Suffering Resume? I'd rather pull out my own intestines. And meanwhile, my own fucking tax dollars are being funneled into the side that's shooting kids through hospital windows.

This is tumblr right now-- doing your daily scroll through fandom memes and self-help tips, regularly interspersed with the most profound human suffering imaginable-- all you can do is try and amplify the number of people who see that suffering in the hope that they, too, can put 15 to 100 dollars towards someone's escape from hell-- all while knowing that seeing too many posts begging for help will (inevitably, unavoidably, regardless of good intentions of viewers or posters) have the opposite effect. And no one on the fucking impoverished-disabled-queers website has any money. We don't have any liquid fucking assets. Even if we did, if we were all sponsored instagram influencers, it is, again, millions of people. who need $5,000 or more per person. per family member's life. it is bailing out a sinking ship with thimbles, while someone else just behind you is gleefully dumping sand in with a truck. obviously it is not enough. obviously there is a vast machine at work grinding up people on one end and millions of operators trying to slowly halt its progress. but you can't NOT DO IT. I'm jewish and i'm american and my identities are being used doubly to justify to this fucking horror, this shame before god and humanity.If I have not weighed in before now it it because I did not feel at all qualified to do so, and that my opinion was a thoroughly unnecessary addition to the noise. But i have to believe that if nothing else, the PR game matters; changing one's awareness of the reality of this situation and not looking away matters because it informs how you respond. It seems like nothing until you meet the people who are NOT looking, who write the whole thing off as "too complicated", and have never updated their fully propaganda-based idea of israel as a nation of victims, and how easily dispelled their justifications really are. It is worse for everyone when you don't look and do not allow yourself to care.

[foxymoxynoona]

idk why i’m telling you this but man… i feel extreme humiliation whenever i am out with my mother. she’s so rude to waiters/waitresses or just about anyone working in the service industry. she always speaks to them like they’re beneath her—never saying please or thank you because she thinks “it’s their job to service us and be helpful”. and she always leaves a huge mess on the table and whenever i try to at least stack the dirty dishes and glasses together to make it easier for the busser to pick up she gets furious and goes “this is what they get paid for, why are you doing their job for them?” and she always… litters. she’ll nonchalantly throw used up tissue/food wrapper out on the street and whenever i confront her about it she always goes “someone gets paid to clean that up”.

i don’t know why i never noticed this about her until i’m all grown up and moved out. it always ends in a huge fight whenever i try to talk to her about this appalling ‘karen’ behavior of hers. i always get anxious whenever i go out with her and pray she doesn’t cross the line any further than she already does. it’s so mentally exhausting to always watch out for what she says or does to service folks. i can never relax and i’m always constantly feeling like a shitty person by association even though i really wanna scream that i’m nothing like her, because people always give me this look that says “hey maybe teach your mother dear some manners?” whenever she acts up. and i can never say anything to her about this because she always pulls the “do you want me to die? because you unnecessarily stressing me out like this will certainly lead to that” card.

sorry. i should probably talk to a therapist about this instead of to you, a stranger on the internet.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. I hope you at least can find comfort that the reason you didn't notice this until you were a grown up is that you have effectively established your own identity and morales that exist outside of her, and so now you notice the ways in which you are in conflict! You are most definitely not a bad person by association. It's easier said than done to try and impact especially a parents' behavior. I have dealt with similar things with my parents and realizing how helpless I am for their particular struggles.

I totally encourage you to talk to a therapist BECAUSE I very much did and it helped me find specific techniques that actually have improved my relationship with my both my mom and my dad. At the same time, there are some things they are unbudging on and therapy helped me learn how to protect my own sanity in those situations --which in the extreme actually means that my husband's mother is cut completely from our life because it was the only way to stay safe. I've experienced the whooooole spectrum of these relationships and sympathize with how hard it is. The tools you have available for managing it also really vary based on your age and financial dependency and so much more. Hang in there --and know that more people sympathize with this and recognize when you are trying to correct or not condoning her behavior

[dojae-huh]

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Mark grabbing Jae’s pc from Doyoung’s hand and it flying back into Doyoung is one of the funniest and most fated things I’ve ever seen lol.

Before I discovered your blog and even now I think I always felt this way also about DoTae; it’s simple things like Doyoung picking the gift that was Tae’s, them ending up as trip mates to Japan I think? Like you know that feeling when two people are meant to be either way or another in each other’s life,sort of destined/fated?

Anyways,since I found your blog (about one month ago maybe?) and I’ve began reading,I’ve also seen this little patterns in JaeDo and it’s so lovely. At first I was like well maybe there was a crush but I don’t know about dating; but since knowing this blog I’ve began rewatching content,especially DJJ content to be more specific (keep in mind I’m a new nctzen,my first 127 comeback was fact check lol) and watching from this POV is just wow,there’s really things that are inexplicable unless they’re dating,if it makes sense? I don’t know how I didn’t notice before but they only make sense or make you begin to question if you go in with this mindset,even if it seems far-fetched at first.

You start to notice their little reactions to e/o,the looks,EVERYTHING. It kinda hits you like a truck lol.

So yeah,I’ve been meaning to send this message for a while now,thank you for your dedication to our JaeDo! (For what it’s worth I was the anon that asked a while back about the JonhDo fight and assumed Dy was going to be relying on Jn during Ty enlistment)

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Fans follow the group for years and still don't see JaeDo or TaeDo as even close friends, and with the shipping culture in fandoms and fanservice in k-pop it's natural to be apprehensive of the claims of dating. That's why I always say don't believe me as a stranger on the internet, read what I write and check where I'm pointing at for yourself. Some take years to start to see, you took just a few weeks. Although DJJ was a breath of fresh air after several years.

Individual moments are confusing, it's when you start to see the patterns, how it really is becomes clear.

First impressions are often wrong because we make them having limited information (and because people wear masks). Like with JohnDo, you came in at the time when they finally patched their friendship and was fed the fandom's overly favourable opinion about them.

Both Jaehyun and Doyoung are into soulmates and meeting by destiny.

Jaehyun wanted to act in a re-make of a movie about soulmates. He was casted, but the project was cancelled. He was supposed to play the reincarnation (high school student) of the protagonist's (male, teacher) true love (female, arts college student). The student retained his past-life memories and fell in love with the teacher despite being same-sex. They eloped.

And Doyoung always says how 127 meeting each other was a destiny.

JaeDo story is worthy of ecranisation. When Jae was a child his family moved to US for work, but cameback to Korea. Jae didn't plan to become an idol, but was street casted. Do was going to send his audition tape to multiple idol agencies when he got a confirmation call from SM. They were chosen among all trainess for ShowChamp. Then they were chosen for Tende, despite Jae initially practicing rapping, and t7s unit. Do was supposed to be a part of another unit (not confirmed, but highly speculated), so he didn't debut with 127 at fisrt. Circumstances changed, he was added to 127. There happened to be no homophobes in 127, so JaeDo could start dating without damaging their group. Both are popular members, got BA deals, acting roles, etc. ahead of others, can match each others' success. SM is not a homophobic company, let them even debut in DJJ together.

These pictures were cherry-picked, of course, but enough of them exist to highlight the pattern of third-wheeling. JaeDo tend to stand closer to each other, Jungwoo often does a different gesture, looks in a different direction (he is on his own, not in the bubble), more often than not Woo doesn't put his hand on Jae.

[lockedtombbrainworms]

Oh no a big long politics post that's only tangentially related to what I'm here to post about!

The realisation that there are actually terfs in the locked tomb fandom, who know the books well enough to have actually engaged in some level of analysis of them as texts, is fucking terrifying to me. I should've realised they'd be here, they're everywhere now, but like, it really sucks. Lemme explain... Ten years ago, when I was a recently-out trans woman, I was a lot less afraid of terfs in fandom spaces because they were just another kind of weird internet bigot, like the homophobes and the misogynist nerd bros. They could be a threat, sure, but they were the sort of threat you had a much better chance of avoiding. Now their movement has gained the sort of political traction where they're actually impacting policy and having a tangible negative effect on trans people offline and in the wider online world, the idea of having them in a social space with me fills me with actual fucking dread. I'm no stranger to fighting these fuckers, I've counter-protested them with my friends and my comrades, met them in the street when they came to my town and said "not here or anywhere, not now or ever". I'm not coming from the perspective of someone who thinks terfs are these incomprehensible eldritch horrors that will rend me asunder without me being able to do anything about it. I'm just pissed off because I don't like having to watch out for terfs in my fucking downtime when I'm on tumblr reading about my fucking blorbos and their gay little adventures with swords and necromancy.

Drive that shit out. Stand together and don't let your friends slide down the rabbit hole. The terf ideology is melding with the far right and it's not just trans people they've got their sights on. They're after all of us, and they try to pick people off and radicalise them against the rest of us, because if we're divided we don't stand together against them and they can run right over us.

I've been seeing this shit for ten years and it isn't always the cartoonishly obvious fuckery like "hey, the trans movement is making my daughter think she's a boy, how disgusting".

It starts with trying to demonise queers for anything - for the way we dress, the way we act, the way we talk, the way we fuck, the way we love. It works its way in through feminism, by saying "how dare these gay men make a mockery of womanhood through drag and then expose our children to such misogyny", or "how can you support women selling their bodies in the sex industry by suggesting sex workers should organise and work together to keep themselves safe".

They try coming in through leftist ideology like "how dare these transsexuals complain about being misgendered at work or raise money for something as bourgeois as cosmetic surgery when there are real working-class people who can't even pay their rent". They try and launder their ideas through appeals to reactionary tendency like "aren't polyamorous people just a bit... weird? Look at all these horror stories you hear of people turning a polycule into a miniature cult, surely that can't be good!". They appeal to your inner prude, "kink is weird and violent and how can people consent to that? Hey, don't you think these queers might be a bit dangerous? Look what they get off to!".

All that shit is leading you astray. Stop caring so much what other people do. Stop inventing convoluted justifications for pouncing on your fellow queers by playing 5D chess to come up with a way to explain that actually, a man dyeing his hair pink is doing misogynist violence and therefore you have to write 10,000 words online about him. Get out there. Find the people near you who are making the world a better place, who are running food banks and soup kitchens and homeless shelters and clothes exchanges and support groups and whatever else is out there and GET INVOLVED. If you can't physically go out there, see what logistical support those organisations need that you can do from home. Fuck, knit hats to keep people warm. Just do something.

It'll feel weird. You'll see some shit that'll absolutely smash your beliefs about how everyone outside of your little bubble is evil. Some 75 year old boomer will say the most radical shit you've ever heard about solidarity between oppressed people. The crustiest middle-aged cishet punk dude you'll ever meet will go on a drunken rant about how cool his trans friends are and how he wishes he could help them more. You'll think you're a lesbian and then suddenly you'll kiss this dude you met at a punk show that your buddies from the food bank took you to, because you liked the look in his eyes when the band played a song about queer joy and resistance and tearing down borders. Weird shit will happen to you and it'll be great.

This was about the locked tomb fandom at first I promise. It's turned into the post I always end up making on every social media platform I end up on, which is "I'm getting too Online because of this platform and I'm not gonna be around as much, you should try that maybe"

[kagore]

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Added June 10th, 2025: I realize that because this blog is an angry-driven one, things may need to be calmly laid out and that's fine by me! It's the Internet.

What's my stance on the conflict?

I don't like death or people killing each other.

Up to you to believe me or not. Though if you're the type to just scream at a person's inbox, there's a chance I'll just block you. It's a blog in the public, yes, but here's a really handy-dandy phrase from the fandom community:

Don't like, don't read.

"There's a genocide--"

There are dozens happening. The world sucks and is scary. It was sucky and scary before you were born and yet here you are, alive and well and picking fights with strangers online.

--

Hi everybody! This is my separate account from my main one where I vomit out all of my thoughts and feelings and rage (imagine No Face) without making my happy place fandom blog get gunked up.

Or another way to put it, I don't wanna see really depressing news on my feed between pictures of guys going at each other (violently or sexually or both). Kinda tasteless and tacky if you ask me.

If I'm following you on my fun and main and proper account, I'll probably let you know. I'll still post about fandom but from an angrier and snider stance because of how the conflict itself has become a fucked up fandom of its own! And it'd be general fandom not the ones I'm specifically in.

The Confilct = I/P one

If I reblog with a comment it's me expressing thoughts. If you respond and I don't it's probably because I had nothing to add, thought I responded, or just outright forgot because that's how it be sometimes.

As for the picture and banner--it's a picture I took of the pathway to Belzec and the banner is also of Belzec.

My grandmother's cousins and aunt were murdered there. Or on the way. Or maybe both since there were 4 kids and a mom to spread it out. Who knows! The place served its purpose in wiping out the local Jewish population, so it didn't need to stay up and running for long.

Anyway. I'm angry and full of spite, so this is where it all goes so I can have some shreds of happiness elsewhere.

[defiantdreemurrs]

who could ever take a tranny like you seriously when you resort to death threats and "ur mom" jokes? would you tell another trans woman to kill herself because you can't accept john as a reality? why would i talk to the face of someone who wants me to jump in front of a train? not even you are that brave. i'm not putting words in your mouth, i'm feeding you bak the hatred you spew. the idea that transmisogyny is some universal constant or necessary in june's narrative is poor writing. i hate most of all the idea the june/john will never be happy unless she is a woman is all poor writing. but i'm just a dumb tranny so who cares what i think huh. guess i should jump in front of a train and let you fuck my mom's corpse.

i resort to those things because if someone isnt willing to have a genuine conversation then why fucking bother? YOU came into MY inbox to tell ME what YOU think i am, and did so anonymously because youd rather sit behind a screen and insult a trans woman for disagreeing with you about a fucking fictional story.

i dont want to waste my time trying to talk normally to someone who from the very beginning refused to engage with me in good faith. from the very start of this you have assumed my beliefs and stances on everything because you wanted to have an argument. all i did was respond in kind.

i hope one day your life stops being so miserable that you pick fights on the internet with strangers. maybe then ill apologize about the mom stuff and we can have an actual discussion about things. until then, go fuck yourself.