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fixing-bad-comic-art · 11 months ago

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just like a quick heads up and bit of housekeeping, for "I was raised Catholic and by fucking God does that mess you up" and "over the years people have made exceptionay kind offers" reasons, going forward I'm going to try to be more active on this blog and with every edit I'm going to be including"like my stuff? support me here" links. Those links will always lead back to various charities helping folk in places like Sudan, the Congo, and Palestine. I'd Uber appreciate it if y'all lent them your kindness instead of directing it at me and preferably played along with the bit however best suits you.

#tldr im ass broke and am going to be spending a month or so in hospital and cant like afford that so im going #to be e-begging on my other blog but because of the aforementioned catholicism im literally incapable of asking for money #when theres clearly people who need it more. So im hoping the number of folk who see the posts on this blog will level out that a bit #i know thats not bow it works but my shrink didn't give me a check in deadline for no reason and i cant afford to give more #than i already have. so like. idk help a brother out and help folk who need it.#not a fix #housekeeping

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sxnctxxry · 6 months ago

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im going to throw up over how much i have to study

#i have to review 4 years of all 4 science. and the test is in 3 days. someone said they passed with only stock knowledge but i cant do that #and i dont remember anything at all for chemistry and that part is 30% of the exam #i havent even started on reviewing this whole year of math which maybe i should prioritize because i have to memorize annuity formulas #i wont even study for the mock exams but omg theres so much to study #ive been trying to fix my sleep schedule because my body has been failing me and its probably because i might be anemic too #but i dont think i can afford to sleep early this week #my limbs are so weak and my head feels weird but i have so much to study im going to skfhkjlsdfkjsd #okay thats all im logging out again goodbye

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victusorflos · 2 days ago

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goth clown

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Where??!

#i thought it would be funnnnyyyyy......................#maybe I'll do a full version later i actually kinda like the design now #its a bit repetitive tho maybe i need to try something new #cant afford that rn tho im lowkey dying from a fever #which shows because normally i would draw something like this in 15 mins and instead it took me a flippin hour #....#and i still feel like i need to fix something #art

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narutomaki · 3 months ago

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I... was approved for the DTC? I can't feel my face

#its still up ij the air im not convinced im reading it right but oh my god ? oh my god....#if i was the maximum amount i can retroactively receive is making me nauseous #i can pay off my debt? i can put money in savings? I CAN FIX? MY FUCKING WALL????#i can maybe actually afford to donate now instead of cutting back on food and not eating so i can donate 50$/month #im going to black out plsplsplseasplease i need this #edit: need to be clear here there is no way i am going to receive the Maximum Amount because i cant work #but like. vibrates

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rigginsstreet · 8 months ago

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i simply will never understand these parents who hand their children smartphones and ipads if only for the fact that that shit cost money and children are reckless idc what kind of safeguards you got on. trust a child with a glass screen? bitch my family is poor no such shenanigans wouldve ever happeend

#if we had smartphones growing up the LAST thing anyone in my family would be doing is handing us one #ok well maybe id get to because i was a responsible careful child #but like my brother surely would not have been handed one because everyone would be like 'no youre gonna break it and we cant afford to fix #it/get a new one' like who are these people

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princessmyriad · 13 days ago

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#personal #it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog #or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on #that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares #to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems #but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago #and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that #thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna #which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be #the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat #im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better #ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything #my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill #i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone #when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite #i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about #is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for #hours. a whole days worth of hours almost #my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room #in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now #all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help #the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again #lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time #like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of #would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles #24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave #or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people #but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able #to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave #anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time

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katvazamo · 5 months ago

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cant believe i almost pay a hundo bucks every month purely on entertainment 😅

#does anyone know how to fix this #i pay for netflix youtube premium etc and its already a hundered #dropout also increased their price to three dollars because of the exchange rate im guessing #*#how do people live exactly ???? thanks #also more creators think thats the acceptable way to mitigate the ads on you tube is to start separate streaming services that i have to pay #individually for essentially youtube channels 🤯#id rather just get premium actually and pay for yall one shot #i just wanna support / watch but literally cant afford it rn #feel like im missing out on loads of dimension 20 especially with the bew season arriving 😔#disheartening #as fuck

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nexus-nebulae · 9 months ago

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absolutely fucking screaming ripping my hair out over the stage of tech today

#I CANT LOG INTO MY TWITCH ANYMORE BC APPARENTLY MY PHONE IS TOO FUCKING OLD #SORRY!!! YOU CAN'T AFFORD A 1000$ PIXEL 5925! TOO BAD!!! NO TWITCH FOR YOU #DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU ALREADY PAY A SUB ON TWITCH!!! YOU DON'T GET THIS BC 5 YEARS IS TOO LONG TO HAVE A PHONE!!!#CAN'T USE MY FUCKING HEADPHONES BC WINDOWS UPDATES REMOVED THE OPTIONS THAT WOULD LET ME FIX IT #CAN'T USE HALF OF MY APPS BECAUSE WINDOWS *CONFLICTS WITH THE BUILT IN SHIT ON MY PC*#NOTHING WORKS YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO FUCKING OWN ANYTHING AND EVERY OPTION YOU LIKE GETS REMOVED #AND IF YOU DON'T WANT SOMETHING RIDICULOUS TOO FUCKING BAD SPEND 5000$ ON THIS BC WE DON'T SUPPORT THE OLD THING ANYMORE #WHERE THE ACTUAL FUCK IS RIGHT TO REPAIR OR EVEN FUCKING RIGHT TO OWNERSHIP ON FUCKING PURCHASE

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im2tired4usernames · 8 months ago

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My parents should be fuckin ashamed

#you borrow 80 bucks then can only find me 21 back then i put that 21 into good for your kids then spend the rest of my paycheck getting #diapers pull ups medicine more food for kids and then i fill up the 15 passenger van and then when dad asks why i don't have money to eat #on my lunchbreaks at work like I'm some over spending wild irresponsible bitch when he's the one going to concerts and paying for fancy dat #s and jewelry for his gf and buying groceries for her but you know it's fine #take all my time and energy #so that i literally am a zombie and fall asleep on the very very very limited free time i get #(after doin extra chores to earn said free time)#wo that i fall asleep half way in which isn't fair to my partner and isn't fair to me #take all my income so i cant afford anything #take all my time #take all my energy #YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED YOU GROOMED ME AND MESHED THE FAMILY'S ENTIRE LIFE STYLE FOR ME TO BE LIKE THIS #I CANT MAKE HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS BECAUSE I JUST CAN NOT FUNCTION IF I'M NOT GIVING EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE #IT SUCKS I HATE IT #THEY'LL NEVER ADMIT THEY FUCKED ME OVER #EVER #THEY'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING TO FIX IT OR CHANGE #AND I HAVE NO HOPE FOR ANY CHANGES #MY LITTLE SIBLINGS SEE WHAT I DO FOR THEM AND THEY HUG ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH THEY LIVE ME #'thank you so much for taking care of us' that tell me all the time 'you do so much for us'#it breaks my heart i wish i could give them the world i love them so much they deserve so much better #my mom lost her chance to be decent my dad better learn soon otherwise all his kids minus his favorite will hate him #i love ny parents #and i know they live me and my siblings #but they groomed me into the most miserable personification of elder daughter syndrome and they should be ashamed for what they've done #and be ashamed that they sucked so bad that they're own child had to step up

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genekies · 10 months ago

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screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

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eldritch-crabbo · 1 year ago

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Dad: “You’ve never consistently walked every day how do you know it wouldn’t help?” (my chronic fatigue and perceived laziness for only doing as much as I need to and no more)

Me: “I literally walked (up the steep ass hill leading to our neighborhood) every day with 30 lbs of textbooks on my back for 7 years.”

Dad: “And you had more energy and were 100lbs lighter back then! See it works!”

like literally 1. no, I definitely did not. there’s (many) reasons I didn’t do homework and was failing every class bc of it, and a lack of energy was a big one. 2. lmao I gained like 30 lbs since I got out of high school if he really thinks it was 100 he’s deluding himself. 3. i only did all of that because i literally had no other choice. what was I going to do as someone who has a massive fear of punishment (in large part because of him), not go to school? skip class and get treated even worse? this is the man that cut off my access to running water for like 12 hours as punishment once. i can’t believe i ever thought that shit was normal

#venting about the massive fight i just had with him. get this. because i only cut enough bread for myself when he’s not even—#—eating any tonight. as if me not cutting the entire loaf into slices is some huge moral failing #‘you do the bare minimum and only ever think of yourself’ yeah ok i fixed a nice lunch for both of us today and youre gonna say that—#—not even 5 hours later huh. fuck you.#can’t tell if i wanna die or want him to die or both but I sure as hell am sick of this bullshit #doesnt help that ive been unmedicated for months now bc we lost our medi-cal. mom got a job with enough pay that it took our eligibility #which. good for her! she got insurance at that job too! proud of her.#but theyve been separated since dec 2020 and it completely screwed us bc they arent legally divorces #ill be getting on my own medi-cal soon enough (if i can muster the energy for it) cuz imd be kicked off theirs at the end of the year anyway #since i just turned 26 #but yeah cant afford all those medications with only $12 in my bank. had to ask mom to pay for an inhaler cuz mine was out and i need that—#—for emergencies. cant be without an inhaler when i have an asthma attack #gonna stop now cuz im getting turbo depressed

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famewolf · 1 year ago

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having a car Sucks

#[static]#i like my car but i do Not like paying for the upkeep #they still dont know where the small leak is coming from and everywhere online says it either costs $15 or $3k to fix lol #but i wont find out until after the winter time because i cant afford to #gotta buy all new tires this week too ):#and i still need to find a shop that does tire alignments cuz none near me do #its just general upkeep of an older vehicle but im poor so it sucks

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synonymouslyyours · 1 year ago

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