#because Wow i cannot get in the drawing mood anymore tonight

[retiredcultistredux]

(Non-story) Don't burn urself out! You dont have to get everything out so quickly! We can wait! - Lollipop anon

((ok that's cool to hear thank you /gen))

[loseitall-ff]

16.

“Is there anything else?” Leandra gawked at my suitcases “do you want to pack the whole house while you’re at it? I remember when you used to leave with just a handbag” walking back off into my bedroom “that was before I had Liana, I need to make sure I have everything with me. I just feel like this album is going to be a long process. I am going to be eating, sleeping and living in that place they found me” playing with the ring on my right hand “I can’t wait to see that place they rented, I guess I will take these down for you” looking down at the ring, this is the ring Chris bought me for my birthday and it was like an engagement ring in which I thought that my damn self, but it wasn’t. He spent so much money on me and he was so young, I felt bad but Chris was so smitten with me back then, he is now but then he was so head over heels, I kept this ring, I love it.

Sat in the dining room with Leandra, Mel and Jen “it’s so nice to have the whole crew back together, y’all do know you are all on babysitting duties” Leandra looked over at Liana, Liana looked up from the paper she was drawing on “she is the devil, she never listens to me” looking at my daughter’ face, she knows we are talking about her “I mean, why can’t Chris have her? We can go out, have fun. Find a man, turn up” Liana slipped off the dining room chair, watching her run around the table “I wouldn’t let Chris have her for that long, he struggles for the most part but he tries” Liana tapped Leandra’ leg “ugly!” Liana spat and ran off towards me, Leandra gasped “the devil, see what I mean. Who teaches her this” Liana climbed onto my lap “who do you think?” wrapping my arms around Liana, she wrapped her arms around my neck “the devil himself, that is mean Liana Fenty” Liana pressed her cheek against mine “say sorry now, don’t call Auntie Lee ugly. She is pretty. In her own way” Mel chuckled “I don’t know why I agree to coming with you bitches anywhere” pressing a kiss to Liana’ face.

Watching Liana on my phone, she cried for my phone so I gave it her, I am not in the mood to hear the crying right now “so where is your mind set at right now? Album wise” Jen asked, I shrugged “I am just going to let it flow, I do what is right when I am in my own zone so that is why I don’t want to have Liana running into the room, she will throw me off” looking up at Jen “I choose morning” Mel put her hand up “afternoon” Jen spat “oh nah, I heard what she is like at night” I chuckled “y’all mad rude, I will be around still. I will more than likely work through the night and morning sometimes” Liana shifted in my lap “mommy, I see daddy” Liana held my phone up, my eyes widened seeing the filthy picture Chris sent me of himself “no!!” I spat, snatching the phone from Liana but she moved the phone so I ended up hitting the phone out of her hand, the phone fell screen first down on the ground. Placing my foot over the phone “Jesus! Liana!” my heart beating fast, looking up all wide eyed at Leandra, Mel and Jen, they are just staring at me in shock “ooohhh daddy” Liana giggled saying, I look so suspicious “wow” Mel broke the silence between the three of them “that was some move” picking Liana off my lap, placing her on the ground. Moving my foot off my phone and slowly looking under the phone, it has switched off “thank god” I breathed out.

Looking at my phone, I am so glad I didn’t break my screen “Liana, you can’t have my phone. Ever” switching my phone back on, the picture Chris sent me last night was of him trying to get me to send nudes and I said no. But he sent me a picture of himself in the mirror naked, luckily the sink just cuts off the penis area, but you can see the top of it. He wasn’t even hard “what pictures do you really have in there?” Jen questioned “just a picture of Liana and Chris, I just didn’t want her to see things” I shrugged, Leandra slapped the table “what is the truth Robz?” I jumped at her hitting the table, side eyeing her “that is the truth, I am hungry anyways” getting up from the chair, that was a close call thanks to Liana.

Closing the fridge door, jumping at Mel’ face “what is wrong with you bitches, creeping up on me” holding the eggs towards the kitchen counter “why are you smiling anyways” placing the eggs down “nothing, just you seem really jumpy. Especially with your phone” looking up at Mel “well I have private things on there” Mel snorted “this is me you’re speaking too, I know ya’ll was hugging up in your room remember. Tell me, I can see it in your eyes. You look so happy, full of life. I can see it in your face, skin and you have gained weight. Those magical gifts in your garage didn’t come out of thin air, that bear though and dog” she has got a point, sighing rolling my eyes “just Chris sent me a stupid picture of him, you know we talk. I just don’t want nobody to know” I won’t be telling Mel that we are back together, just we talk “dick pics? Chris acting like you ain’t had that thing several times” shaking my head smiling.

Blowing the smoke out from my lips watching the truck drive off with my cars, he needs to come back for the rest actually. This is just the start, I have so much shit to move. I am renting out a car garage for my cars and also storage for my clothes and paintings and other things, I need a bigger place because of my cars “the realtor is going to come next week to price the house up, we need the graffiti to be removed by then and the house done up” Ron ran over to me with the iPad in hand “get it done for me then please, I need to make sure JC gets my cars safely. I appreciate this, thank you” I kind of liked this home, it was big enough for my cars and the neighbours put up with my ways. Turning around seeing a half empty drive “Ron, you know my things in my room leave it. I will sort that out myself, nobody go in there. Just sort someone out for the graffiti for me and then call it a night” she gave me a faint smile walking back into the home.

I don’t trust anyone with my jewellery because these are so precious and expensive, also some piece of clothing I want to keep to myself. The storage is safe but still, I need these things sometimes. Tapping Robyn’ name to text her.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Babe, can you hold some of my things for me? Just the important things, I am putting a lot of them in storage, the little place I got don’t hold much and the apartment is having nothing in that, let me know then I will get Mijo to hold it for me.

Pressing send “so you really moving out of this place?” Mijo said, looking up at him as he walked over “yeah, new start. Just a change, I am sick of people knowing where I live, the hoes just come over when they like, it’s not ideal. Robyn lets me have Liana now so that is why, I don’t need to be here anymore. I got an apartment” Mijo’ eyes widened “forreal? Happy for you, so you downgraded and now you got no space” nodding my head chuckling “I got so much shit, I think I may get my mom and auntie to do a charity event, sell some of my things or just give some away. It’s unreal how much they are charging me for holding this” looking at the living room, this whole set up is still how Robyn left it and it has so many good memories, but I fucked them up, I am so stupid “could be a good idea, are you sure an apartment is good for you? I mean you make too much noise” apartments and I don’t mix “well Mijo, I am not going to be fucking around. I want to keep the apartment good” I lied, I won’t even be living in that thing, only when the boys want to stay at mine. My phone pinged in my hand, stepping back from Mijo slightly and looking at the text.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

Like what? As long as they can be hidden in my closet then yes, this doesn’t mean you get the key to my home just yet :) and I do charge, I can take payment in different forms ……

Robyn is playing with me, she did this to me last night. She got me to send nudes and then acted like she didn’t want it, annoying ass.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

A nigga like me don’t need a key, I will climb through your window and you know I will. This can fit anywhere, even where you keep your stalker pictures of me. Will my tongue do?

Grinning from ear to ear, Robyn starts this and gets me all horny and tells me goodnight and sends me a picture of her hair in a wrap “funny text?” Mijo said, looking away from my phone “could say, can you do a favour. Can you call JC ask if my cars are good there” walking off with my phone in hand, seeing Robyn is texting me back already.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

I don’t doubt your ability to do that actually…. Don’t bother lol. What pictures? You mean down the toilet? Weeeelllllllllll………. My kitty needs cleaning

I hate Robyn so much, she knows I am dying. I cannot deal, this is not happening again.

To: Robyn

From: Chris

Don’t play me, you’re still carrying the sextape around. Let me come over tonight then? You going tomorrow right? Let me see you please!!! I will be good, I have not seen you in so long.

I do not like that Robyn is going to New York, for an album too, it will be so long for me. I do actually have a lot to do here but still, no Liana or Robyn.

From: Robyn

To: Chris

No! You’re too horny, you cannot stay the night. The girls are here so you can’t.

She will not deny me this, calling Robyn’ phone instead, I want to see her before she goes. Listening to the phone ring out, jogging up the stairs “yes” Robyn said down the phone “please, I won’t do anything stupid. I mean I can’t say anything will happen but I really want to see you. Don’t do me like this” I sound so whiney “look Robyn, I say shit but I won’t do it unless it’s right ok? Just let me see you, I was going to see Liana tomorrow anyways but I can’t be us with them around” she can’t deny me this “you sound so cute, fine. I will text you when everyone is asleep, don’t cry” walking into my bedroom “I will cry when my penis enters you” Robyn giggled “bye Chris, use your hand” she disconnected the call, how rude.

I am trying to get my manager to get me some type of work in New York, he thinks I am crazy as fuck because one minute I am refusing everything and now I am begging for work. I also have my court case coming up but Mark said I don’t need to be there for it, I may just go there just because I want to be an asshole and laugh when the restraining order is put in place. I do not want Ava near me, or for her to be in the club because it will make shit difficult for me “Sweetie why don’t you just move with me? Why have two places” blinking several times “two places? What makes you think I have two places mom?” is she stalking me “well Robyn sent me the address to your place but the apartment you showed me doesn’t match” scrunching my face up “why on earth did Robyn give you that?” she has just blown my cover “because I called her, you went missing on your birthday” I did go missing on my birthday “I rather not stay here, I feel too grown for that but thanks for asking. It’s just temporary. Anyways changing the subject, you was saying Desean needed something?” if my mom ever sees us together in that home, then this is on Robyn “oh yeah, you barely spend time with that boy but he really wants you to come to his school. You know his father is not in his life so he hasn’t asked but Tootie wants you to do it, you don’t spend time with him just please do this for me” why is my mom acting like I don’t care “ma, I care about my nephew. I will do it because I want too, I love y’all man” rubbing my face, maybe I need to be more family orientated.

You know what I hate about this, is the long walk to Robyn’ place because I can’t bring my car anywhere near there. I have to creep to her place, I always get seen around here but has never been leaked to blogs about it. I think once we go public I will just move here, the place is nice but my cars won’t fit. It’s nice to see Robyn actually leaving the gate open for me, she would be having me climb over these gates if given the choice. I have so much more to give Robyn to put in her place, but I can only carry these two bags that hold my boxes of jewellery. The light in her yard lit up and I froze, I feel like I just got caught by the police. Staring ahead not moving, the left hand side of the double doors opened. I swear to god, I am going rip that hair wrap off her head. She waved me over.

Reaching the front porch, dropping the bags on the ground “fuck, I missed you” Robyn opened the door wider, but I can’t help myself. Stepping inside, wrapping my arms around Robyn “missed me that much huh?” feeling Robyn wrap her arms around my body under my jacket “hell yeah” pressing a kiss against her neck, my hands slowly dropping to her butt “creep” Robyn giggled, placing her hands on my chest. Gripping Robyn butt grinning “I missed your face” staring down at Robyn “let’s go upstairs before someone wakes up” I am happy to keep my hands on Robyn’ butt and stay like this, reluctantly moving my hands. Turning around and picking the bags up, the gates closed “I waited for you, I saw you on the camera walking so that is why I put the light on which scared you” Robyn whispered, seeing the suitcases in the lobby which kind of upset me “what time are you leaving for New York?” watching Robyn press the security code in “flight leaves in the morning, eleven” Robyn walked ahead of me, following behind her.

I don’t think Robyn is actually wearing anything under that long tee, I am trying to make her bend over “I am actually tired but I rather spend some time with you, I also wanted to speak to you about the whole sex thing. I don’t want you to think I am denying it, I am teasing you a lot and I do find it funny. I trust you, you’re the only man I would trust but I want that moment to be not rushed, I don’t know maybe I am being stupid but, you know” getting up from the edge of the bed “I understand, I do. You don’t have to explain yourself, I know what you went through and it will happen when the time is right and I need to do that myself. I just think it sucks you’re going to be in New York for only god knows how long” chewing my bottom lip “I will do something special for you, I will make it happen in New York. I got a plan in my mind” I said, Robyn giggled “so I guess I will see you in two days” she shuffled over to me saying “two days? How about the next day, but on a real. I am going to miss you both, I will feel you both so far away. It don’t sit right with me, where you going to be at anyways?” Robyn wrapped her arms around my body “rented out a mansion there, no hotel. Just the whole place, I won’t be out barely” that sounds better, more privacy.

“So you’re going to wake up in the morning, creep outside and then ring the doorbell and act like you have just come?” Robyn questioned looking down at me as I laid down “yep, good plan right?” Robyn shrugged, lowering her head. She pressed her lips to mine and I immediately parted my lips but couldn’t help but smile “what?” Robyn said against my lips “just, I know you want me. Stop being hard headed” Robyn latched onto my bottom lip, biting down a little and pulling back until my bottom lip left the grip of her teeth “I am going to miss you so much, it will be that feeling where you won’t be there. I will feel it” Robyn finally admitted “then don’t go” Robyn side eyed me “I got no choice now” she pecked my lips “I love you and wait, I didn’t tell you. So Liana had my phone, I wasn’t paying attention but she said daddy, I looked down and I see your picture you sent me yesterday. Mind you I was with the girls, I was a mess Chris” I smiled, just watching Robyn tell this story to me. She is so happy. A small laugh left my lips “you know Liana is a snitch, you got to watch her” Robyn’ lips grazing mine ever so softly “I am just glad the girls didn’t see” Robyn’ hand met the side of my cheek “I am just glad to be seeing you before you do go, just to be us” even though my dick is suffering.

Feeling Robyn lick my earlobe, slightly nibbling on it. I was going to speak but I didn’t, let me keep my mouth closed because she will do what she deems she feels comfortable with. Closing my eyes, letting a sigh leave my lips. My eyes shot open feeling Robyn grope my manhood atop of my boxers “don’t tease me” I mumbled “who said I was, just going to help you ease that tension” I have not had this kind of action in so long, I feel like I am going to cum just thinking about it “was you getting hard on me just kissing you? Your dick is already semi-hard” Robyn pushed the bed covers back from us both “my dick gets happy thinking of you baby, what can I say” she just needs to show me some leg and I get hard, I get off on anything.

I feel so emotional “you are going to let me cum right? You not going to tease me? My heart can’t take it” Robyn giggled kneeling at the side of my hips “to see you in pain brings me joy but no, I feel bad that I will be away from you and also, show you how much you missed” this is about to be good, I can’t wait.

Placing my palm against the shaft curling my fingers around it to get a firm grip. Not too hard and not too soft. Slowly and steadily stroking my motion up and down the length, All the way up, then all the way down “shiiiiit” I honestly missed seeing his dick, continuing my strokes up and down. Switching up the speed and pressure of my fist around his shaft gradually speeding up and then slowing down. Looking up at Chris, he looks like he is in heaven, he is really getting off on this. Squeezing and stroking as I smiled at him.

Using my both hands, as one hand strokes up the other hand follows “my god, your fucking bomb with your hands, ahhh” Chris’ eyes firmly closed, leaning down and placing my lips just above the head staring at Chris as I did so, his eyes shot open. Staring into Chris’ eyes as I continued to stroke his shaft with my one hand, my tongue dragging over the tip “come for me, show me how much you missed me” I can feeling his dick pulsating under my palm, swirling my tongue around the head “oh fuck!” Chris spat, moving my head. Seeing his hips buck as he came, his toes curled as he did, cursing out.

Chris is a mess, he got his cum on my bedsheets, but luckily the bed is big so we can use the other side “you’re still the best with your hands, just wish I could’ve held on for a little longer” watching Chris walk towards the bed butt naked, dragging my eyes up from his manhood just swaying freely “I really wanted to make you suffer at that moment, you made a mess of my bedsheets on that side so  we can sleep on this side” I thought Chris would have put his boxers back on but he didn’t, he got into bed. Placing the covers over himself and wrapping his arm around me “you know if I do come, which I will come. Will you see me in New York, just low-key of course? I will come on my own” resting my head on Chris’ chest “of course, you know I will see you baby. Just do what you need to do here first. Get rid of that trash place, any trace of the past just get rid. You can put things here if you like, I will give you the passwords? I know it is costing you a lot” I trust him so I would give it “I think I will be ok, I will ask you if I need it, just please be safe out there. You both mean so much to me” he gave me a little squeeze, pressing a kiss a top of my head, that means so much to me.