#because I'm impulsive like that sometimes💀

[floofypan]

Day 4 of Kreate10 : Continuation of LMK AU animatic (snail's pace at this rate, lmao)

I'm hella busy and I gotta do my homework... why did I do this challenge again? Bruh moment, myself 💀

But I can't say I 100% regret it. It's been so fun to draw and brainstorm when I do have the time. It's just life being busy that's hindering me a little. Smh.

Anyway.

⚠️SPOILERS FOR SEASON 4 ⚠️

Not very happy with today's sketches, didn't get to spend much time on them. Only had time to outline my thoughts and draw like 3 things :,,D

[somewhereinneptune]

Astrology Observations II

Note : these are based on experiences and personal observations. Observations mentioned may not accurately apply to everyone 🩷

🫀Someone's life path number could be the number which is strongly tied to that person's signature sign in their chart, either being the number of the house that originally rules their signature sign or a characteristic that is tied with that signature sign.

Examples: My signature sign is Aquarius and I'm a life path number 9 , life Path 9 is associated with being the humanitarian and serving the collective

My mother is a life path 3 and her signature sign is Gemini , which is originally ruled by the 3rd house. My brother is a life path 6 and his signature sign is Virgo, which is Virgo’s house. I also read about life path 4 being strategists and I've known someone who's signature sign is Capricorn which corresponds with such energy

🫀Unpopular opinion but if I had to switch the signs elements, I'd put Scorpio as a fire sign and Aquarius as a water sign. With Scorpio it's probably because it was originally ruled by Mars, Scorpio always gives me such a fire energy compared to Pisces and Cancer. Not exactly Scorpio sun but dominating Scorpio energy in the chart, i think it's also the intensity they ooze and the level of confidence and also self- assertion, they have such a commanding presence which gives me fire energy too

As for Aquarius, despite having the characteristics of being quite distant at times or having difficulty with opening up, it's usually for how intense they are, it's a form of protection. I've made the mistake in the past of seeing aquas as detached until they actually unfolded which shocked me, the amount of depth and intensity of emotions they hold is a 360 and I've observed the same in my chart. It might be due to them being a fixed sign,but definitely that depth doesn't give the air sign vibe. Another reason is how they tend to be more introverted or reserved compared to Gemini and Libra, it gives me that water energy too

🫀Chiron in first is such a difficult placement in my opinion. It either puts you in a constant self - conscious state or you project your trauma on every situation and blur reality from there

🫀Uranus and Neptune in third 🤝 mental illness. That's it, that's the post

🫀Pets and the 6th house man….Aries / Taurus on the cusp is a cuddly adorable pet but one that will literally not do what you say no matter what, also energetic asf and has attitude esp when you say no to them- oh and very reckless, will do things that will have you question your life choices and have a heart attack on the spot because they were curious about something like jump off a high desk and not care or run into something that would harm them, literally no brain cells just impulse

🫀The degree of the planet could indicate the age that planet unlocks for you , and weird thought but hear me out : that degree could stretch up until it's time for the next planet to unlock

Example : I have Jupiter at 24 and I'm turning 25 this May . Yes I've been in my Jupiter theme and actually it seems it's only going to properly expand even more. Now the only planet left for me is Saturn at 29, and I have the theory i’d be living the Jupiter theme until I turn 29 or untill I officially start my Saturn return

I  also have most planets at 5 too like Uranus , and Venus and Neptune at 1 : i was literally the calm kid that has a crush each time she gets (and sometimes is front about it without shame 😭😭 literally one time in second grade my crush's tummy was in pain and the teacher asked who knows their house to help them go home and i stood and said MEEEE in front of everyone and kept asking to be the one to take them home til i got yelled at 💀) i also had 4687357766 anime crushes as a kid and for Uranus , was the type to get mad and throw things on the ground when told no (I threw my tea mug once cause i didn't wanna go to school and slapped my kindergarten teacher cause she didn't let me go home with mom when i saw her visiting the principal 😭😭😭)

🫀Saturn in Aries 🤝 almost dying of cringe and shame at the thought of acting child - like and doing goofy stuff/ having fun

🫀 this is popular but Leo placements and secretly checking your own posts and stories and giggling at them lmao

[number1jazzsimp]

You hoes honestly have to stop babying Mammon , yes his sin is greed but you wanna know what he also is? A fucking Demon, yes sometimes the other brothers go a little too far with the insults and the fighting and the name calling but that’s literally what almost every pair of siblings do and for the record he does fuck up a lot of shit for people, for example he almost got us killed when he took Beel’s food and forced us to eat it, which quite literally DESTROYED OUR ROOM. Please stop acting like he’s innocent 99% of the time, it’s fucking annoying. 😭💀

How dare you say we should piss on the poor!! No but like, did you read this bit : "Now I'm not dismissing that, or saying he doesn't deserve any consequences" Did you? Because it feels like you didn't.

I honestly wasn't even going to answer this at first, but I feel like I should get my stance on the matter out there in a way people can understand, even if nobody reads it, so thanks for the opportunity to do that.

First, I want to say that I have siblings. I know what playful insulta and fights look like and feel like. I also know what the genuinely hurtful shit is, stuff said with the intention of making you cry if you upset whoever says it too much.

And yeah, they definitely do that to him. It is definitely not all fun and games especially considering that they have canonically made him cry and his very concerning response to the MC comforting him.

I agree with you that hes not always innocent, in fact, he is guilty half the time, but one hundred percent of the time when he is involved in something bad his brothers are absolutely terrible about it.

And about the thing with Beel, I went back and replayed the story segment you were talking about and, yeah it is partially Mammon's fault. In fact, I would even go as far as to say mostly at fault because he was fucking with Beel's sin BUT his brothers fuck with his sin all the time with little to no consequence and earlier that day (at least, I'm assuming that's the timeframe) Beel stole Mammon's food and showed zero remorse.

Now, Mammon is expected to control his sin. If he doesn't, he gets punished. Makes sense, right? Except the punishments are far too harsh and none of his brothers are held to the same standard as him, despite being much more impulsive regarding acts of violence when they're set off.

As far as I remember (though I may be wrong) Mammon is the only brother who didn't try to literally kill MC. And nearly every other brother tried to kill MC because of lack of control over their sins.

I'm not upset over the fact that he gets punished for doing stupid or dangerous or bad things, I'm upset the punishments are so drastic and that he seems to be the only one receiving them. If anybody read this far, thanks for listening!

[not-goldy]

Sometimes I wish Jimin stop being so secretive on cam and basically a wallflower. I wish he speaks up more and calls out BS immediately, especially during lives like JK/Tae or Joon does or is it because he doesn't get much wierd comments 🤔. Also stop being so fucking humble.. like sir you are a history maker, everything you release are organic hits, have a huge fanbase, your bdays are celebrated as Christmas day, why tf would you think you don't even deserve a music show win ?????? Own your success and skills please 🤧

And I also wish JK stop being so impulsive, saying and doing absolute dumbest things 🤧 sometimes he sounds like those cocky boys who will say they'll make you come thrice in a row and will climax within 2 seconds lol. He's so cocky; knows he's hot and his impact but at the same time he still don't know what he really needs. So I wish he becomes more mature and get his shit together asap

Maybe if they use share these qualities a bit with each other it will be fine lol. JK sharing some of his cockiness with Jimin so he can go 'yeah that me, Park Jimin' bitches 💅' and Jimin sharing some of his level headness with JK, so he can think before doing and saying some things 🥲

Idk how they are even navigating through their relationship when both are on opposite ends of attitude and lifestyles, like is that even possible ? Won't both parties get sick of each other soon? ... or maybe like you said JK is the freedom Jimin is craving for and Jimin is the leash JK very much needed 🤷‍♀️

Set me free was liberating for me and I think Jungkook too cos he stamped his approval on it like you could tell Jimin frustrates him sometimes with the kill them with kindness vibes he has going on.

And I know Jimin is not a push over too cos there's some really hard core ghettoness buried deep inside his slytherine heart- he is the master of self control cos I'll be getting canceled every second if I were him🥲🥲🥲

I'll be dropping mid night rants talking bout yall could never be me😭😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Hash tag jealous

Hash tag up in your man's arms 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

And he lowkey be shading too but we don't talk about that🥲

He's constantly trolling haters posting Jungkook shirtless, leaning on him kissing up on him daring yall to come for Kook if he's your mans💔💔💔💔

This literally him on these streets he eats and wink

Shade is cool Jimin but throw the damn tree too🤣

They are both fascinating.

Oh lord not 2 seconds 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

You is going to hell for that😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Not gonna lie, I do enjoy his chaotic character most times. I'm big on diversity. If everyone acted the same way they'd be boring as hell plus I like my BTS a tad crackheads🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

JUNGKOOK'S a vibe. Not many idols like him. He be be tanking on the idol part sometimes- I don't think he even sees or thinks of himself as an idol😭😭🤣🤣

An idol is a whole personna carefully curated to appeal to an audience- when I tell you Jungkook ain't curating shit for no one and to please no one😭😭😭😭😭

Tell him to do aigoo I dare ya🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭😭

Sometimes I just play his memes and sleep. It's the new Netflix and chill for me.

Doesn't take himself too too serious, easy going non judgemental, quirky😭😭😭

And he is very relatable. We all don't say the right things all the time, or do the right things and overthink everything.

Some people don't find that attractive in Idols but I like it. That that I like that

Im a bit of a crack head myself so.... anywho

For an idol, yea perhaps he could be a bit more controlled and polished but not too much cos then he'd lose relatability and seem outta touch.

Frankly I think they are both perfect as they are💀

I wouldn't change much but you are right they both could influence eachother a bit and they do TRUST. 💜

[cycleoffates]

Just found you here after searching Pumpkin Panic (again). You see, I found that demo back in 2014-2016 and I feel like it made a huge impact on what my art aesthetic preferences are because your artsyle is super colorful and the game really gave me candy and Halloween vibes! So once I a while I search official art you have posted about it. Whether you come back to making games or not I wanted to thank you for creating that demo and showing your spooky ocs. Hope you have a nice day!

hello!!! thank you so much for sending me this message. apologies if my response has been somewhat late, Tumblr's a place I hardly check and free time isn't something I have as much as I used to. 🥲 sorry if this is gonna be a long response too! i didn't intend it to be but I'm feeling somewhat sentimental.

even if i've pretty much been radio silent all over the place, this message has been something I've been constantly thinking about for a while. well, this one and a few that have been left on one of my videos. 🥹 (I'm posting them rq bc they bring me joy)

Pumpkin⭐Panic (yeah, with the star bc i found out there's another game called that now) has always been very near and dear to my heart. i made that demo when I was still a kid in high-school w/ a lot of ambitions. the idea for it was very impulsive, bc it started out as me making a gift for my followers on Halloween. i have no idea how I managed to create a demo for it in under a month (I have no clue how I was able to do it back then 💀).

talking about and posting OC stuff has always made me shy bc I wasn't sure how people would perceive it (or rather, my original, non-fandom creations), but it warms my heart to know it's been (and is still) loved by a lot of ppl who remember it to this day, even if it's very old. not to mention, it's very outdated, littered with bugs and was made on a (now defunct) laptop with a broken audio jack (hence why the audio is so loud (LOL)). making a game by yourself is harder than it looks!!!

it's been......... maybe 10+ years now? i think since it's initial creation. wow. typing that out makes me feel OLD. during all that, I put out another game demo and tried to write visual novels, but none of them were finished/saw the light, either. I'm somewhat ashamed of that too. i wanted to make more stories, but I just found myself lacking the time and the motivation (Tumblr was dying, I started working towards a college degree, you get the gist).

at that point, i stopped posting OC content as much (bc you know, social media engagement with fandoms and commissions gets you clicks!). i kept all those to myself (granted I didn't have a lot to begin with LOL) and only shared them with close friends. sometimes i'd post something on the bird-app, but it wasn't constant.

and then few years ago, a couple things happened to me (for the worse?). it opened my eyes and made me realize how impacted I (as a person) and my creations (as extensions of me) were by others who I shared personal connections with (through relating w/my characters). those things changed my life and made me anxious about talking about them again with others. i got scared. it was bad.

from then on, i shifted my gear towards making a lot of money as I could from commissions. flash forward to the beginning of last year, I had my "icarus-flew-too-close-to-the-sun" moment.................... yeah, burnout is NOT fun.

but at the same time, during those years of making bank and struggling, I was able to connect with someone again who made me love talking about my OCs again. i started roleplaying w/OCs again, I started writing and drawing OCs again. granted, they're not the same ones as before, but they're still my characters, and I want to share their stories with the world (someday). yeah okay, this is veering away from Pumpkin⭐Panic so i'm pulling the reins back on it again.

thank you again (from the bottom of my heart) for sending me this ask. this probably wasn't??? the answer you were expecting, but it made me feel something so HAVE AT IT. 🥹 I have attempted to create some semblances of art for a Pumpkin⭐Panic "reboot" but never got far, so it's most likely I won't be picking the game demo project back up. maybe I'll post them here if I remember to?

i've been thinking about giving the main game some closure at least. an artist I follow did something where when they decided to quit their webcomic, they posted the scripts/concept art/etc of said webcomic so fans can look at it. i think that's something I might try and do, if people are interested.

i also had plans for a prequel game (visual novel written conceptual draft)......... that? that's something I'm still thinking of doing one day, mostly because I have a new OC project now (not PP! related) that I want to bring to life but have no idea on the direction I want to go with. a friend told me that maybe trying to do an experimental visual novel with the prequel (of PP!) might help me get a feel for where I want to go for said new story. it doesn't have a proper name that I'm happy with, but............

i just think these goobers deserve that finished, at least.

thank you one again for your ask, sorry if it was sooooo long-winded, and i hope you have a wonderful day as well! <3

[batsplat]

this is an insane question to ask lmao but are there any riders you’ve noticed through the years who are like…nice to the umbrella girls hahaha. I’m generally not tooooo bothered abt them, like yeah I think it’s sexist, but I can also imagine that if I’d been into motogp at 19 I probably would’ve tried to be one 💀 but like sometimes I feel bad the riders just straight up ignore them :( is there anyone who talks to there umbrella girls? I’ve noticed Cal Crutchlow (random ik but I’m rewatching 2015 lmfao) doesn’t rly spray them with champagne which seemed polite of him lmao. And I saw a comment somewhere that Casey had his wife be his umbrella girl which is cute if tru <3 Ik Vale’s gf / mother of his kids was also an umbrella girl so like…obv he had to be talking to them sometimes hahaha. SORRY this question is so random but actually no one’s rly weighed in on this on Reddit or anything so im curious

nothing insane about this question but, and I'm aware this gets me a D for feminism, this is quite honestly an aspect of the sport that makes me actively uncomfortable enough that I just try not to pay attention to it. I get that if you have them around, you're right in that it is probably nicer to interact with them but also like... idk, I'd probably be minded to ignore them too on the grid before competing, and I just can't really give any points for men spraying these women with champagne on podiums. there's definitely quite a few blokes who do it, which I notice insofar as I usually just look away. the one vaguely positive example I can come up with is indy 2008, where a very cold and very wet valentino has to shed his jacket before headed on the podium (which quite honestly I would simply not do) and gives it to one of the women. she takes it off again at some point (I would also not do this) and then I am once again reminded of how weird it is that these women are half naked in the cold and the wet

with casey, yeah, his wife did do that, though this is also another thing that I have very 'eh' feelings about. they met when both of them were still young but she was very young, and she's following him around the world at an age where she just should not have been doing that. I'm not calling casey a bad person over it etc etc etc, I think this is a case where you needed some actual adults to step in and tell them that this just was not going to fly. preferably her parents. this isn't a knock on anyone who feels differently, it really isn't... but I just struggle to enjoy watching this girl constantly hold umbrellas for some bloke, rather than doing literally anything else with her time

again, this is absolutely nothing against the ask, it is interesting and I get the impulse! I'm just the worst person possible to get an answer from because I actively attempt to turn off my brain whenever I am perceiving a grid girl. which, again, I am also extremely aware isn't a particularly great approach. just ignoring the few women who are present on my screen for the sake of my own comfort is far from ideal. but that's where I'm at

[misc-obeyme]

I'm going on a tangent because i thought of silly things, I think I might try writing the next part tonight after work. This probably takes place way before what's currently going on in my rambles.

I'm imagining I impulsively bought something online and had to cut down on coffee (what did I buy? Who knows. Probably concert tickets for fob. I was scraping by when I bought those tickets last year 💀). I think it'd take Mammon two weeks before he finally caves and texts to ask if I'm okay. I sheepishly explain my purchase and why I haven't been around, and get left on read.

Later in the day, Mammon shows up to the shop with a coffee and a box of various pastries. He's blushing hard as he shoves the box towards me but gently sets the coffee down. I'm completely puzzled, and it's the first time Mammon has ever set foot in my shop. He goes on to ramble that he wasn't worried or anything, just had some leftovers and decided they should be able to tide me over and make up for lost orders.

The longest I've ever gone without stopping in is a week when I went on vacation maybe in the summer to visit family? But I had let him know ahead of time. And the other time was four days, and I texted him "i promkse ill wakenip ealry timorrow" and it was sent at 3 am, typed exactly like that. He texted back "ya better be asleep by now. Dumbass. Not like i miss ya or anything either." He replied back after 5:30 ish when getting up for the day. I did keep my promise and showed up, even if I definitely looked out of it.

That was supposed to be a silly scenario but now I'm thinking of the actual concert date taking place after they start realizing their feelings for each other (the cutting back scene was during the presale). And them getting worried about me going alone. But ticket prices are insane the closer to the date since I originally bought mine during the presale, and the seat I snagged managed to be on the floor. So even if they wanted to join, they'd have to shell out a lot of money, and wouldn't be sat next to me.

Unless ....... Mammon had an older brother, who was working for someone else.... who was the ceo of a company, and said company was sponsoring the tour.....and could get them front row seats together...... Only in fiction can things work out like this !! 🤣 Imagine your first concert also being a date. Crazy.

also thinking about nicknames. The most common one is 'treasure' from Mammon, and I usually use that for my character. Maybe 'lucky charm' for solomon? as long as it is, it's cute. I gotta brainstorm

- ✨ anon

OHHHHH but I love Mams being all cute and blushy and bringing you pastries! Absolutely adorable! And that text... not like I miss ya or anything!! Yeah yeah, you keep tellin yourself that buddy!! LOL.

Concert date concert date!!! I am all about it lol!

Isn't it amazing how convenient things can be in fiction?? Listen, it's not like it'd never happen irl! People always complain about how things seem to "work out" just right in fiction, but yo. That happens in real life too, friends. Just nobody's complaining about it because there is no Almighty Author pulling the strings!

Anyway, slight tangent there but the point is I say it's perfect!!

I think "lucky charm" is cute! Maybe it sometimes gets shortened to just "lucky" I think that's cute, too! Ahh nicknames make me soft lol!

[hunterbunter3000]

Hi! I was the one who wrote the spy x assassin boyfriend Au idea! It made me so happy that you enjoyed my brain rot so much! I love your blog so much ✨

I had a few other random brain worms from Sweetheart and Boyfriend’s relationship in the AU that I wanted to share but I didn’t want to flood your ask box so much 😁

1. Boyfriend and Sweetheart have matching stabing scars from the fight that turned into a confession of love.

2. Boyfriend definitely activates Sweetheart’s cute aggression, that man has at-least one bite mark on him all times. Lowkey Sweetheart will bite him on sight without no words exchanged between the two 😂

3. Cuz I love Sweetheart as an agent of chaos, boyfriend is definitely 90% of Sweetheart’s impulse control. Everyone is shocked when Sweetheart’s Orange cat energy is dialed down when boyfriend is around. (Boyfriend loves Sweetheart’s chaos, he has that you-are-doing-great-sweetie energy ✨)

You don't understand how loud I'm screaming rn 😭 AND IDC IF YOU FLOOD MY ASK BOX DO IT AND IM SO HONORED THAT YOU LIKE MY MESS THANK YOU 🫂🫂❤️❤️

And Sweetheart being described as a cat is something I never thought I'd hear, yet here I am and I'm loving it McDonald's style

Number one is DEFINITELY gonna be in the fic. Like that's so sweet in a brutal way

AND NUMBER TWO IS TICKLING ME

Bf: Sweetheart?

Sweetheart: Hm?

Bf, smiling: What're you doing?

Sweetheart: Oh yknow just- biting.

Bf, chuckling: On my chest?

Sweetheart: Ey, these are man tits and you know it. Babies these big need to be marked!

And OMG with the no words exchanged, Sweets legit just latched onto his shoulder with her mouth and hung there💀💀 HE'S DOING CHORES AROUND THE HOUSE AND SHE'S LIKE A DAMN LEECH ON HIS SHOULDER LOL

And number fucking three cannot be wrong because what the hell

I feel like he's both- he's the calm and the storm💀

Sometimes he's just:

Bf: Sweetheart- SWEETHEART PUT THAT DOWN

Sweetheart, holding a grenade launcher: But I wanna use it!

Bf: N O

And then sometimes he's just:

Bf, with hearts in his eyes: You're doing great sweetie!!

Sweetheart, pulling out someone's eye: 😁👍

I'm so invested in these two man 💀 UGH WAIT I NEED TO NAME HIM AND WTF DOES HE LOOK LIKE

[bluelolblue]

Hellooooo ask time!

are you impulsive?

would you ever want to get married?

what is your main goal in life?

HIIIIIII thank you so muchhh <33

Are you impulsive?

I think yes. Yeah. Sometimes very much, that's why I'm tweaking so much 💀 I can act on a sudden feeling, desire, or without thinking, but I'm actually trying to get that under control. But sometimes it's still difficult. So yeah 😭

Would you ever want to get married?

Oh this is the ✨️ Ultimate Blue Question ✨️ when I was a kid, I used to tell ppl who asked me that as a joke, that I don't want to get married. Like, idk why that idea was just not for me. And honestly I'm still thinking about it and now when I'm older, I think I figured out why I feel like that.

1) Because I don't want a child. A lot of couples have babies when married (or before marriage) and that's NOT for me for many reasons. Family life, I think, is not for me, I'm not like that. I want to have freedom, I don't think I can take care of a baby anyway, not to mention the whole pregnancy ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOT. I'm not mentally or physically stable for that due to issues with me 💀 and I just simply don't want to. It's too much.

2) I'm very scared of getting hurt. Hurt in anyway, mentally or physically cuz a lot of people show their true form once married and... I'm scared that I'm very unlucky and that I'd made a wrong decision that will destroy my life. I witnessed that and... I don't want to go through the same thing. I think it could happen to me, too.

3) I was never in love and idk how to act in a relationship since I never was in one, and the thought of spending my whole life with someone like that... scares me 💀

4) "Honey, I'm home!" And he's on the sofa drowning with beer.

BUT WHAT IF I'M LUCKY?

1) I would (probably) want to get married if the guy treats me right, respects me and listens to me ✨️

2) He would HAVE TO respect that I don't want a kid.

3) He has to love animals, specifically cats and dogs. We can have fur babies tho (pets).

4) He is a rich hot Italian (named Santino D'Antonio) 👀

So, I yapped a lot. In short. I'm not that sure. 50/50 probably leaning more to NO bc I want my freedom.

What is your main goal in life?

OH MYYYY HMM? I want to accomplish things in life that I would be proud of. I want some of my ideas to work out, I wanted to have my own business... I wanted... to write a book or make a comic or even animated series. And all that was for Beast of Burden but... that's only my dream. I want to also help people and animals (if I can). But I really want to accomplish things and be my own boss, I don't want people to yell at me when they feel like it.

Ask game

[husbandograveyard]

good to hear!! i'm the anon from before!! :D would it be alright to request some headcanons for yamato and a fem!reader who's quite his opposite (reserved, organized, serious a la law & luffy 💀) relationship headcanons? i really love yamato!!! he's so cute!

thank you Hazel! ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡

Hiya anon, no idea if you were still around, but if you are, I hope you enjoy this little thing. It's my first non-drabble writing in a whole long while, so I may be a little rusty. I ended up going for a GN reader since it truly didn't matter for the prompt for them to be explicitly fem? I hope you don't mind!

Yamato and an S/O who is his polar opposite HC

2nd person. Gn reader.

Yamato is enthusiastic in mostly everything he does, including love and relationships, including his love and affection towards you. 

Initially, it can feel a little overwhelming, especially considering he’s also extremely forward and honest in voicing his feelings pretty early on, while you like to think over the options, consider the future, and all the other things that could matter when entering a relationship with someone, especially with the world you live in. 

But it’s the straightforwardness and honesty and unbridled enthusiasm that you end up falling for anyway. He compliments your more brooding nature beautifully. He makes you come out of your shell, go outside and do things when your plans were to stay inside and do something that was not too active. 

On the other hand, you act a little bit as his impulse control, making sure he’s not going 100% all of the time. He likes that you can make the quiet moments a little less boring, and he does find it easier to relax whenever you’re around. Malleus 

The biggest pitfall is your organized nature versus his more chaotic one. Although most of his antics make you laugh, it does sometimes feel like he’s not taking some of your routines seriously, or is a little too chaotic and even messy for you. It’s something you’ll have to work on, and he does secretly likes your tidiness, it helps him keep his own things organized as well on the occasion it does rub off on him. 

To other people, you seem like an odd pair, but you couldn’t be happier. Yamato loves intensely, and never misses a chance to sing your praise or shower you with affection, sometimes much to your embarrassment. Please communicate your love languages with him clearly, because he might go a little overboard in his own way, but he will never miss a chance to love on you the way you like best. 

And when there is downtime, some of your best quality time is spent together. You don’t always need words, dates, gifts, or anything else to feel truly at ease. There is comfort in knowing you have each other’s back, and that there is a bond of unbreakable trust and loyalty that no one can get between. 

Downtime leads to late-night conversations, both of you too stubborn to give in to your tiredness, and these are the moments you truly know you are in the best relationship. You are both able to share your dreams, your fears, and everything in between. No judgment, no secrets.

[squarebracketsmileyface]

BE SAPPY AND WEIRD ABOUT YOUR PROJECT!!! YOU DO DESERVE A HAPPY ENDING!!! AND YOU DESERVE TO TALK ABOUT THE WAYS YOU REALIZED THAT YOU DESERVE IT!!! ARRRARARA YOURE MY FRIEND AND I LOVE SEEING MY FRIENDS HAPPY

I will CRY /threat

Also I took this as an excuse to ramble, because actually thinking about it, damn this fic has done a lot for me. Like this is dramatic as shit but genuinely writing this fic has changed my life in such a good way. You don't have to read all this lol, it's a mess and weird and ended up extremely long, it was just nice to put it down in writing cos it's been meandering around in my head for a while but I haven't spent much time thinking about it in a coherent way and it was nice to get all my ducks in a row with it all

God though, this fic has helped me figure out so many things, and it's so important to me. Like half of what it helped me figure out isn't even things I could put into words properly, like I can't bullet point most of those things, they're just weird emotional things that are just there.

Anyway, back to my dramatic ass "this fic changed my life." Like just for one I've made friends because of it which is amazing, but also like, just the things this fic has helped me process and understand? Like idk they feel like they shouldn't mean that much and should be fairly inconsequential, but they just aren't? Like the whole "hey maybe I can allow Lark to have a happy ending in an "everybody lives" au of this AU" kinda came about at the same time as I started to really settle mentally into my relationship with my boyfriend and stopped feeling that vague threatening feeling of "this is going to hurt like a bitch when something goes disastrously wrong and ruins our relationship, whether platonic or queerplatonic, forever". Like I started really properly feeling and believing "hey maybe it won't go disastrously wrong and he is just a very lovely guy who absolutely won't turn around and be evil and purposefully hurt me at some later date" instead at around the same time I was like "hey maybe Lark's relationship with Tim wouldn't fall all the way the fuck apart and maybe she'd actually get to raise her kid and be a good mum with a good partner and live a nice life where everything would turn out fine in the end."

And also like, another thing this fic helped me figure out a bit is like, just people mentioning how much the way I write Jay makes them think he'd have bpd in this au? Like I think you were one of the first people to mention that and honestly it's put so many things in perspective for me about just, the way my brain works that I didn't have an explanation for before? Or I did, I tried to explain it with Autism but it didn't quite fit perfectly. And like, I still don't know if I have bpd and I probably won't for a long while, but I write all my characters as me in some way, and Jay especially started out as basically just a self insert wearing a terrible wig and those mustache glasses. But from what I've looked into about bpd now it does seem to fit pretty well, especially the parts people have talked about with like, "very intense but unstable relationships with others"? Thankfully I'm better about that now than I was a few years ago? Tho sometimes I still get scared I'm about to become obsessed with my boyfriend in that way that ruins my relationships with people 💀💀 And the thing with like acting really impulsively? Though I've gotten better at stamping down every rage fuelled "hey you should throw this water bottle at that person's broken arm because they hurt you" type impulse since I was a kid. I now know how not to just lash out and harm people way more than they've hurt me, even when it's all my brain can think to do. So like?

Sorry anyway 💀💀💀 that was such a weird ramble to go on. But speaking of obsessions that ruin relationships

I haven't really talked about it much on here, but when I was 16 I was in a sort of similar place to Jay with Alex, not the friends with benefits bit (though yeah there were a few Very Interesting sexual things going on there that I'm definitely not gonna talk about in anything but the broadest strokes 💀) but definitely the "I'm going to string you along because I like you back but you like me way more than I like you and i dont know how to deal with you, so ill have my fun then ignore you the rest of the time," kinda stuff. And like, I was still pretty angry about that when I started writing this fic and it actually kinda helped me feel less angry at the guy? Because at first Alex was at least loosely based on him and the feelings I had about all that (and then later on Alex became a bit more Also Based On Me like Jay is lol). Like, in my case it was apparently a lot more that guys fault than it ended up being with Jay and Alex? I just kinda assumed it was entirely my fault for not texting him first enough cos I was terrified of annoying him by acting as clingy as I felt 💀 but apparently my guy was just actually a little shitty? (again, not gonna go into that here, it's a mess 💀), but like, for at least some of the less Actually Pretty Fucked Up things he did I kinda got to understand where he was coming from through thinking about Jay and Alex and thinking about Alex's pov. Like, he wasn't trying to be cruel, he just didn't like me as much as I liked him. I got obsessed with him and he was just there for some casual sexting and flirting etc lol

But like, yeah. This fic is so important to me, especially Jay and Tim's relationship. I haven't been thinking about that quite as much recently because I've been focussing on If It Ain't Broken and Jaylex, and I might not even get to focus on it in exactly the way I want to for the next Jam fics in the series, but like. Jay's hang ups over Alex and feeling scared that "what if Tim is just the same" is loosely something I've struggled with too. I'm better with it now than I was a year ago, but even so, every now and again not getting a reply to a message pretty much straight away can send me careening down "oh my god I've annoyed him, oh my god he's not going to talk to me for two weeks straight" street lol. Plus other weird hang ups that Jay most certainly doesn't have 💀

My boyfriend puts up with so much, he's wonderful, ily Vin if you're reading this.

Hell, even the way Jay and Alex end up leaving things at the very end of If It Ain't Broken is actually kinda similar to how stuff ended with me and my guy, I didn't even think about that till now. Alex is just gonna go off with Amy out of the blue and Jay isn't going to know what to do, even though he sort of saw it coming? Like he could kinda tell something was up but he doesn't want to accept it because like "oh well it's probably nothing maybe Alex is just busy. And my guy just texted me one day to say "How do you feel about me? Hmm? Oh yeah? Cool I no longer like you, actually, yeah sorry, I know you think you're in love but. Yeah I've been talking to someone else for a couple weeks now so I think this is the end of our little thing. Bye" lmao. I didn't even realise I've planned the Jaylex 'break up' to parallel that 'break up' 💀 tho honestly Jaylex's 'break up' will probably be slightly nicer on them coa Alex is going to move uni's and they're not going to see each other. So no panic attacks on sight for those two, lucky fucks.

[viiridiangreen]

there is Real Shit happening in the world but my idiot brain decided to rant about Funko Nerds for a sec sorry

listen it's whatever i'm not about to pull a picture of someone's ShelfieTM(💀) and have an aneurysm over it like Some Twitterheads did over pics of white ladies' stupid pointless consumerist stanley cup collections which ARE dumb and annoying and woefully uncreative expressions of suburban soulrot etc yet. harmless in the grand scheme of things (esp when some of those ladies' husbands collect firearms lmfao I DIGRESS). im not gonna name names im not gonna repost anyone's pic im not gonna go be an asshole in their comments.

but i do need to rant On This Here My Toxic Dump Of A Blog for a sec bc i just don't get.... the breed of collector that i'm gonna call Funko Nerd 4 short

like i GET the impulse to be Part Of The Club and ig a couple pieces of official merch have At Times caught my eye. a few have made me deranged obsessed unwell. I DID make that extremely silly art trade with this furry i met online where i drew its fursona in exchange for a code for bluesky which i ended up using like twice and the chance to buy a years old yet unworn Very Cool destiny sweatshirt off them. i was Besotted since that particular merch drop Dropped because it DOESN'T scream to the four winds that it's A Game Merch but instead it all had the First Light Lunar Installation logo.... stealth nerd apparel my beloved. i don't wanna look like a fan of the thing i wanna look like someone IN or FROM the thing. designers of shit like that you get it. i love you. i would've gone for the boots too on either that or the Europa drop if i'd had disposable income at the time.

BUT. UHH. if i ever found myself or a close loved one filling shelf after shelf & maybe getting a whole dedicated piece of light-up furniture for like. Licensed Merch perhaps even Still In Its Box & Meant To Remain There i'd just. i'd want piglet to pull the trigger yknow? lmao

and like i FULLY GET the impulse to collect shit. gathering Trinkets and Thingamabobs and Tchotchkes is the absolute shit. minimalism be damned magpie swag is hot & sexy etc whatever

but WHY.... THE HELL.... would someone choose to collect samey mass produced shit when fanmade merch sometimes even HANDMADE is fucking RIGHT THERE ?????

and the folx who collect Funko Shit tend to have -10000 sense of visual harmony & taste. they just throw all the shit together and expect that bc fellow nolifers know how much it costs how long delivery takes how limited the runs are they'll be impressed but i just. gag. even when each individual thing is a nice & well made figurine or charm or pin or whatever instead of pukeworthy to begin with & only lent value through Licensing the way it happens w actual funkos..... it looks sososososo ugly just thrown together like that.

whatever. it's not Bad it just Deeply Offends my sense of aesthetics. if i'm gonna spend money on silly vidyagaem / generally geeky stuff i want it to approximate the look of something that came From Within The Thing's Fictional Universe. & not just give "Worthless-Until-Licensed Plastic Garbage To Make Money Off The Thing" vibes.

i'd rather have like. a tiny handful of things that were made with love for both the inspiration and the craft. that feel good as hell to hold or use or look at. that would only get clocked as Nerd Shit by someone who's been in the trenches & has crawled exactly as deep inside the creators' asshole as you have....... than a whole spare room's worth of things designed by an overworked underpaid intern to fulfill the collectibles quota or w/e. but that's just me!!

this goes for tattoos too. every time i see someone get a TRADEMARKED LOGO ETCHED DIRECTLY INTO THEIR INTEGUMENTARY SYSTEM i projectile vomit inside ✨💖👌

this Grievance is Especially Silly coming from ME like. my living space objectively looks (& functions) like shit. these ppl showing off their Nerd Caves tend to At Least have like. Real Indoors Finishes And Furnishings instead of unsealed concrete nonsense and Insect Condos masquerading as walls. but. yeagh i like to imagine that if i lived in an apartment that was Made & Meant To Be An Apartment (instead of a halfassed halfconverted storage area / outdoor garage...) & had a moderate budget for decoration (???? fucking bougie propaganda brainrot 2 even think abt that in my situation lmfaooooo). i'd make Slightly More Tasteful Choices.

also i'm not vagueing anyone i've literally only seen this nonsense on facebook / lil bit on twitter

[analogwriting]

ok I feel a bit weird sending in another message today, but the newest chapters put me in such a killer mood I wanted to read more for him

and I must say??? We need more killer writers pls 😔 I love oneshots, hcs, all that stuff, but where are my longfics??? not to complain (i am), but WHERE IS THE SLOWBURN??

ambrose you are a godsend fr fr… I get so picky with this kind of thing because sometimes i’ll say “Oh I don’t like slowburn THAT much” but the moment I find a good slowburn, I will eat that shit up. I will be HOOKED on my phone for hours at a time and let my work pile up because yeah, these fics have me forgetting I need to sleep

Wish I could give you all the kisses in the world because you really just spoil us with ur amazing writing… ive never felt so blessed by an author before cuz the way the slowburn is so agonizing it has me ripping apart my lungs, my heart aching, myself going insane… I live for it.

Respect to you and other slowburn authors, cuz it takes a lot of work to write one… I always find other law or killer fics and the relationships always feel so rushed 😔 please, law and killer are such slowburn potential characters and i hate to see them act so impulsive in other works. I love how u write tho. So so so much. everything is so slow and i love it

(one day I’ll get to reading your law fanfic…hopefully this weekend)

anyways, me 🤝 number 1 kese hater, next chapters are rlly gonna get me 😭

-long rants anon

first of all, don't feel weird. I love getting asks, replies, or anything. no matter how many times. I eat that shit UP ✋✋

second, FKSKFKEKOD???? got me ugly crying on main frfr with this ask. i literally called my bsf crying 💀 you're so fucking sweet??? im just a funky little guy that had a few dreams and decided to write em out bc fuck it and to know that people are enjoying it that much is so insane to me 😭😭😭

im a sucker for slowburn and would eat that shit for breakfast lunch and dinner if I could. i just never really found it of my favorite characters so i was like "dammit if i want this shit gonna have to make it myself ig" i always felt like the law stories kinda happened to fast as well and i wanted some PINING. and then when I started my killer fic, there was hardly any killer content in general. there seems to be a surge in content for him tho which I am forever excited about my mans deserves it.

like the last time I wrote fanfiction it was a decade ago when I was first starting off high school. (not counting rps n shit with friends that continued forever)

never in a million years did i know people would enjoy it as much as they are and that shit makes me so unbelievably happy. like y'all have no idea. when i say i be giggling and kicking my feet n shit I MEAN IT

like this is me every time I get y'all's comments n shit. like I be giggling and just glowing all day. (it's partially why I just kept the trend of posting updates at night so I can wake up to them nice messages 💅 start the day off RIGHT)

like my head is reeling from this ask and im on cloud nine frfr. you are so fucking sweet and i just want to tuck you in my pocket and keep you safe. like FJSKDKDKS I'm going to be thinking about this all day and probably the rest of the week if not forever 😭😭😭

but seriously, from the bottom of my soul, thank you for this. shit makes my year frfr. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[everythingaboutjude]

Admin i'm a fan of Jude since BvB but i do think Jude has anger issues . Not only on the pitch i believe people who know him see the reactions we don't . And by the little that i see i can tell . This can be true or not but if its true he should start doing something cos anger issues is not a joke many of men who has it end up beating women and regretting it their whole life cos of impulsiveness . And jude is impulsive

I mean there always some noise all these years about Jude mean side that not everybody knows .i do think he is impulsive not talking only about football but him sometimes he reacts just lead by aggressive emotions that can really make him do or say things he clearly regret ours later . I won't say how i know this but even when he was younger at school if toby was here with a lie detector and they asked him if he do believe jude have anger issues even outside the pitch the answer will shock you lot . He has become more angry with little things happens to him could be cos the amount of hate he receive that increases it but he clearly show symptoms of someone with an anger management problem. He says that he dont care what other says but i believe he does and the more he hides he dont the more anger he guard inside him for that sometimes he react like that and blow up meaningless things cos of the amount of things he dont react at the moment . Not only about beating a woman i'm nit talking there guarding so many emotions can cause anger issues too i saw so many signgs in jude with all this anger ish topic

"I won't say how i know this but even when he was younger at school if toby was here with a lie detector and they asked him if he do believe jude have anger issues even outside the pitch the answer will shock you lot." of course anon. Everyone will believe you. Especially that you came here with it now when it's convenient because of situation but never mentioned about it before. 💀

[chryseis-lxve]

im no expert at this, but overdominance of certain things in the chart leads to negative results. for eg i have leo mars at 25 degrees (mars degree) in 3rd house, in purva phalguni nak. conjunct venus. now, ideally, i should be brave, courageous, physically appealing and outspoken. but it's quite the opposite with me. I think you understand hindi so you'll get what i mean by the word- 'dusahas', having the courage of doing things impulsively. of course, now there are two ways this can manifest based entirely on other factors of your chart which determine how aligned with justice, ethics and morals you are.

arvind kejriwal is an example of this, but he is kinda debatable since he's a politician and i'm not going into any discussion on politics here; but you'll notice he has a tendency of, 'fuck it, we ball, gotta call out the bitches, we'll see what happens later'

overbearing energies turn negative, instead of manifesting positively. with myself, too, i have noticed i do certain controversial things and go, fuck it we ball. other than this, there is a tendency towards excessive rage, a nature of criticality towards the world and just excessive tendencies towards destruction. like i just burn things when i am on the edge, or i completely break them to the point of no repair.

ofc, it doesn't have to manifest similarly for everyone, since the entire chart matters. for eg, i DO burn stuff when i'm mad, but it's just harmless stuff, because i'm a fairly rational person. it's a game of snakes and ladders in my head sometimes, no chances for missteps so you don't see me going full on godzilla; but if your mars is overactive, and you have like an aries moon, leo rising or stuff then god protect the one in front of you💀

seeing some of your other posts and then finding out about your mars and aeies rising really makes sense tbh, no offense intended🙏🥲🌸

How is it that, numerologically, all my important numbers are 1 and I'm an Aries rising with Mars in 1st and STILL not courageous and Brave enough, like 😭😭😭

I'm impulsive but not brave, you know, there's a huge difference, and I wanna be brave not impulsive. My mom's life path number is 1 as well, and she's brave, powerful, hardworking and self dependent but she's ALSO, dominating and stubborn but I'm ONLY dominating and stubborn🥲

[unagrancantidaddepanes]

sometimes I go nah their not gonna make snufmin canon but then I remember snorkmaidens introduction scene and just go what the FUCK what the HELL was that 💀💀💀

NO BECAUSE CAN WE SIT DOWN AND. TALK ABOUT THIS SCENE.

like it's snorkmaidens introduction scene, it's the set up and first impresson of snorkmaidens character and moomintroll and snorkmaidens relationship. Like for example the first appearance of sniff shows him being impulsive and quite silly. He also trys to start a business with moomintroll but moomintroll declines and seems quite annoyed with him. Like the first appearances are set ups for the characters relationships and is something your suppose to remember throughout the show. It's suppose to clearly show how the characters and relationships are and what to think about them.

So why the HELL is snorkmaidens introduction literally just moomintroll ignoring her in favour of snufkin 😭😭😭 LIKE IT JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE ?????????

Like yes, it shows that moomintroll is kinda nieve and their relationship is kinda comedic BUT IT ALSO JUST SHOWS THAT HE ????? PREFERS SNUFKIN ????????? TO HIS GIRLFRIEND ?????????? 💀💀💀💀💀 like what this scene does is literally just. Establish that snorkmaiden and moomintroll are both unhappy in their relationship and not only that IT LITERALLY SHOWS US HE WOULD RATHER BE WITH SNUFKIN 💀

Like. Oh my goodness. Snorkmaiden trying to talk to him and him looking away just daydreaming about snufkin. Snorkmaiden getting angry at him for it. WHAT GETS ME IS HE DOESNT DO THIS WITH ANY OTHER CHARACTER EITHER????? NOT ONCE IN THE SCENE BEFORE WITH SNIFF OR ANY OTHER CHARACTER LATER DOES HE JUST START COMPLETELY IGNORING THEM TO THINK ABOUT SNUFKIN LMAO

hE QUITE LITERALLY. oh my god. OH MY GOD. HE QUITE LITERALLY. CALLS HIS GIRLFRIEND SNUFKIN BY MISTAKE. CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS FOR A MOMENT ??????? LIKE THAT WAS WEIRD RIGHT. THAT WAS WEIRD. The establishing scene of moomintroll and snorkmaidens relationship. Is moomintroll. ACCIDENTALLY CALLING HIS PARTNER 'SNUFKIN'. THAT WAS WEIRD RIGHT?????? RIGHT??????????? I'm gonna scream I'm gonna loose it.

He quite literally ????? Starts swooning??????? Over snufkin???????? AND ITS NOT ME EXAGERATING SNORKMAIDEN LITERALLY CALLS HIM OUT ON IT 💀💀💀

'ITS ALWAYS THE SAME THIS TIME OF YEAR, THERES NO ROOM FOR ME'??????????

THE WAY HE SAYS 'until snufkin comes back im all yours' UNTIL SNUFKIN COMES BACK?????? LMFAO EVEN HIM TRYING TO SAY HE LOVES HER CIRCLES BACK ROUND TO SNUFKIN LIKE????????????? Saying 'you are my whole world' THEN IMMEDIETLY TURNING AWAY AND DROPPING HER WHEN HE HEARS A SOUND THAT COULD BE SNUFKIN???????? he really said sorry ur not my whole world because of snufkin ok OK 💀

SNORKMAIDEN STORMING OFF SAYING 'unless ur names snufkin ur wasting ur time'???????????

AND THEN THE SNOWDROPS?????? 'THEY HERALD THE RETURN OF LOVED ONES'????????? 'THE MORE WE PICK THE MORE LOVE WE GET'???????? SNOWDROPS BEING HELD BY MOOMIN LATER IN A SNUFMIN SCENE??????????

IM DONE. IM DONE 💀💀💀💀

Enjoy my bandicam recording lmao