#bc why the fuck are they so we i r d im gonna cry we. Love to see it.

[w3ath3r-0f-sw34t3rz]

as many ttpd thoughts as i can coherently write down

first of all grateful for the folklore x midnights x 1989/rep sound we have going on here. i hate comparing artists but seriously the best way i can explain it is phoebe bridgers this album sounds like phoebe bridgers. not like it's a bad thing it's phoebe fucking bridgers!!!

i feel like it's so easy to call music "intimate," whether because of lyrics that feel personal or just a certain raw sound, or whatever else, but this album truly is the most intimate thing i think taylor's ever given us. i don't know what sets it apart, cuz at this point she's written plenty of deeply personal lyrics, but the way i best know how to describe it is that it truly feels like she trusts us.

anyway i'm willing to admit that this album isn't a spectacle or a revolution or game changer, and i know it won't satisfy everyone (ngl i'm scared to see what everyone else is saying bc they'll never understand Like I Do) but damn it sometimes that much is more than enough. without further adieu

fortnight a solid vibe. i'd literally love any song with the lyric "i love you it's ruining my life"

ttpd love that lucy and jack cameo that's about it. but really who else is gonna hold you

mbobhft AUGGGHHH THAT HOOK. you'd think you'd be able to tell which tracks are entirely self-written but you'd never guess some of the best tracks would you? jokes on me. love the metaphor (as i tend to do), big fan of infantilizing men (no like actually)

down bad this song was not clicking at first but it won me over with the alien abduction theme

so long london aw fuck yeah i knew i was right to claim this one. that hook is delectable. every verse is like a juicy kiss on the mouth i love this song yOU SWORE THAT YOU LOVED ME BUT WHERE WERE THE CLU

but daddy i love him this was the point where i thought to myself "wow this album is a lot more romantic than i would've thought" which, in hindsight, idk if that can be the consensus but still--this is such a feel good happy lovely time

fresh out the slammer evermore would love this one. yee haw

florida i mean there was really no way for this song to be bad and damn. twas not. this is a screamer fs. how on earth they managed to make a song about fucking florida feel like this mysterious shady world that we the people are not apart of is astounding to me

guilty as sin yas girl let your freak flag fly!!! successor to false god fr

who's afraid of little old me oh. o,h my god. taylor. taylor r u good honey. this song is fucking batshit wild oh my god YES GIRL TELL EM i will never be the same i could end the california drought with these tear ducks holy shit im gonna go set something on fire

i can fix him i love this bc this is literally my best friend and now they're gonna know how they look. that "woah maybe i can't" both absolutely slaps and is hilarious. also love how horny that bridge was yas girl let your freak flag fly!!

loml oh god. lmao my ass rlly thought this album wasn't gonna be too depressing. they had me in the first half ngl. i'm not crying you're crying nahhh we're both crying and you know it. the lyrics here really popped off, like more than the rest of the album and that's saying something. bonus i remember seeing someone theorize that it was actually gonna be "loss of my life" instead of love, and while i was listening i had that in the back of my mind, but then i was like "ok no it's actually love" but then THEY WERE RIGHT and i felt so accomplished for no good reason. so if ur that person who called it, good job brother

i can do it with a broken heart this one shocks me so good oml why is this making me wanna throw it back. with all do respect if you didn't want us to enjoy your suffering why did you make your suffering such a bop. /j that "i'm miserable and nobody knows!! :D" gives me chills but like in a good way. "try and come for my job" literally get it queen i love you

smallest man who ever lived it's quite funny to me that literally nobody was claiming this track and then it permanently altered my brain chemistry. back at it with the hooks damn. wow this one really. this one is really sticking with me guys

the alchemy yay the vibes are back!!!! sweet simple romance you gotta love it

clara bow you had me at that intro. shove that guitar down my throat if u will. this is the better version of the lucky one (im not sorry.) damn "you look like Taylor Swift in this light" gets me every time i'm sorry that will never not hit

the black dog OLD HABITS DIE SCREAAAAAMMMIIINNNNNGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG i did not expect to like this one as much as i do but i can't stop thinking about it

imgonnagetyouback i had really mixed feelings but i literally can't dislike this song it's straight up good (also this song is so gorgeous-coded its wild)

the albatross idk i just love this one it is so sweet to me. in the way molasses is sweet but still

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus this melody has wriggled its way into the few folds of my brain and i don't see it leaving soon. i love me some good whimsy. fr as i'm listening to it again rn i'm realizing how good this production is. anyways bi rights

how did it end? you know................... i was really trying to not tie her real life into any of these songs, since i really don't know that much lore + i'm not a big fan of obsessing over celebrities personal lives--relationships most of all (especially when it comes to taylor)--in general, but damn i immediately did just that with this song and.. wow. but aside from all of that oh my god welcome back to Songs On This Album That Absolutely Haunt Me

so high school this one's kinda crazy bc damn it's such a taylor swift song but the sound is so new to her and it kind of makes me cry. but anyhow "touch me while your bros play grand theft auto" is the funniest fucking line i have ever heard in my life

i hate it here oh wow hahhahahhahahahha taylor what the fuck :3 imagine relating to this song on an cosmic level lmfaooooo

thank you aimee removing from irl context, putting this song next to mean genuinely makes me want to cry. like the maturity and growth both happy and sad is so evident it's like watching my child graduate

i look in people's windows another stellar string hook thank you and goodbye. ok but fr the visual here is inherently funny

the prophecy claiming this one for the neurodivergents

cassandra yeah yeah drama i know but damnnnn greek mythology BANGER

peter *taking notes* never... trust.. a man.. named..... peter.........

the bolter she's a runner she's a track star (can you tell i've run out of things to say it's just a good fucking album)

robin ohohoho i am an absolute SLUT for a good ode to childhood

the manuscript now that's a story

and at last--my current rankings:

who's afraid of little old me?

so long, london

how did it end?

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus

the smallest man who ever lived

florida!!!

clara bow

the alchemy

loml

i can do it with a broken heart

the albatross

my boy only breaks his favorite toys

i look in people's windows

cassandra

fortnight

i hate it here

the black dog

but daddy i love him

thanK you aIMee

the bolter

guilty as sin?

robin

i can fix him (no really i can)

the prophecy

peter

the manuscript

so high school

fresh out the slammer

the tortured poets department

imgonnagetyouback

down bad

now i know being critical is not one of my specialties but seriously it's a solid album ok. midnights is literally my baby and it has a skip for me so

now naturally my enthusiasm for each song will potentially decrease and most certainly increase over time cuz that's how i process albums buttttttt yuh 👍

almost any other artist building an entire persona about being an emo poet would make me roll my eyes but damn it she's so right

[pop-roxs]

hoo okay I can already tell this is gonna be long but manga thoughts!! i only read up to roughly 150 I think (Also hi hi I’m off anon! anxiety has been overcome >D<)

quick lil context of me even getting into this also! so my roomie and I have a tradition of watching really bad animes during finals weeks and this time my rookie suggested we watched black butler 2 (still so funny it’s just 2 not season two not book of ___ no. just two. Peak comedy) first half of that was laughably bad and then like ep 7 onward it was frustratingly good. Some bizarre pacing some bizzare writing choices but I liked it overall. anyways over winter break out of nowhere I got manga spoilers on my tiktok for Agni’s death and. It emotionally devastated me bc I loved him sm bc of the like one ep in 2 where he appeared. i told my roomie that and we decided to like actually watch the good parts of the anime so I could get a taste of the actual plot (and eventually we watched s1 lmao)

so yeah that bit didn’t impact me as much when I actually read it but 😭 Agni I miss you dearly you’re like one of the only people I’d trust to hold my drink in this series I KNOW you would take care of it and not spill anything. Also, I read the entire (post campania) manga while procrastinating studying for my organic chemistry exam bc chemistry is a pain in the ass and I didn’t want to look at it

right um. Other arcs. so the school arc has some BIZARRE pacing- (and i never got used to the just casually dropping the F word even if it was used iba like historical context) I was half skimming some of the pages bc I thought it was gonna be basically a fluff filler arc so that end caught me off guard- deffo enjoyed the soma content though! i sure hope he stays happy and nothing awful happens to make him stop smiling! hahah fuck.

Emerald witch arc is kinda funny to me. like yeah, okay queen of England, send this 13 (14?? I forgor) year old child to a different country to deal with werewolves. this isn’t even ur country girly what. Wolf and miss sullivan (can’t spell her first name) r fun characters I like their addition a lot. Could’ve done without the uh. weird scenes with sullivan but. whatever. (The scenes with finny taking care of ciel also were so sweet Omg I will cry- finny is probably one of my top 5 charas I love himmmmm he scares me tho )

that being said I fuckcking RECOGNIZED that shit was chemicals as soon as I saw that circle thing oh my FuckKING GOD. I literally put down my phone and stopped reading for a good while. I’m reading this manga to procrastinate my ochem I did not need it to insert itself like that >:’(((( it was good though I liked the arc a a lot (my roommate fucking burst out laughing when she saw me being angy and asked why.)

Sascha and Walmart will (sorry sir you are just not memorable) were cute! Hope we get more content of them in the future, or just more reaper lore. Please. I’m going insane all I want is lore (Also my roomie had already told me abt the reaper backstory so that didn’t rlly surprise me). Will and grell showing up for like one chapter was funny as hell, you know will was pissed bc that whole convo could’ve totally been an email or a pigeon or whatever. i missed them though so im not complaining

Idk what to call the next arc. the return of the school guys was… funny ig?? i have to be honest I kinda disconnect whenever they appear I just don’t really care for them 😭 the whole band group off was so funny though and the tonal whiplash was something I was NOT prepared for. It wasn’t as jarring as the paving of the school arc but like hWUH THATS A LOT OF PLOT AND BIG REVEALS HAPPENING REALLY FAST NOW-

love othello though. I’m a forensics chemistry major and I love the forensics part of it significantly more than chemistry so seeing a funny guy doing that is so very !!! ya :D also love the dynamic with Grelle. they’re both trans and besties you can’t change my mind- ALSO OTHELLO JUST . THROWING HIS SCYTGE AND THEN BIDING BEHIND GRELLE. Love him. ronnies still my fav dont get me wrong I am endeared with his talk-shit-while-getting-his-ass-beat mentality but othello is very close behind

wish we had more reaper lore . I would kill to know these guys backstories- Ronald and sascha seem so much you her compared to their coworkers it eats at my brain. sascha especially like aaaaaa kid what happened for you to end up here :(? MAN (also I could fight abt the reaper lore for so long. they don’t deserve this. this shits unfair. AGH…

i had more stuff that I wanted to say but forgot. sorry if this isn’t very understandable i just wrote as I thought of things- basically. reapers my beloved . I’m begging for lore please . soma my king I hope you’re okay. when will Ronald come back PLEASE he’s been gone since like campania 😭

BRO ROOMMATE ANON REVEAL!! i hope you dont mind me still using the roommate anon tag,,

agnis death def threw me off. i wasnt expecting yana to kill him off, especially after having him around for so long. that whole scene was very surprising. and yes i agree with you!! hes probably the most wholesome character in black butler next to some others like the phantomhive servants and soma.

i actually quite liked the school arc(and a lot of people in the fandom would agree w me)! but i get how you wouldnt. i personally was only mostly focusing since i just wanted to get back to grelle T^T.

i didnt really like emerald witch at first. i was mad when it had the honor of being the 100th chapter. but its grown on me since(n yeah those scenes were weird..).

i LOOOOVEEE SASCHA!!!!!! THEYRE SO CUTEEEEE X33333 they remind me of my best friend since they both have that same cheery vibe. like little guy is just making the best out of their afterlie and havin some genuine fun. i fw it. grelles outfit was also sooo hot in that chapter gaw dayum. i want a piece of that reaper PLEASE

you can call the return of the school guys the boy band arc. it was weird but i really enjoyed it.

i find it funny how everyone automatically says that othello is trans. one look at the silly science man provokes the Feeling.

trust me man, everyone wants more reaper lore. i am clawing at yanas feet and begging her to tell me what in the ever living fuck happened to grelle in her time as a human. WHAT THE FUCK KINDA LIVES DID THEY LIVE. WHAT DROVE THEM TO SUICIDE.

i understood everything you wrote, dw!! :3 im hoping soma is ok as well </3

[f1nalboys]

Peacemaker S1 Ep5 Monkey Dory (last episode for the night 🙏) @tinalbion

-giggles :3

-ugh him drinking the eggs

-worst trope ever

-eagley :((( he’s so worried abt chris

-he looks so fucking pathetic uhm…. guys…. 😼 SORRY

-NOOOOOOO eagley brought him a squirrel to eat to feel better :(

-noooo this episode is gonna be so sad i can feel it

-ADRIANANNNN

-sorry

-“they go in through the butt??” JFJEIDNDJD

-superman w the poop fetish 😭😭

-now that we know murn is a butterfly im confused as to why the rest of them don’t know

-but i get it

-NO RHE EXPLOSION IN THE POWERPONTISIDJSIJD economous is so me

-HIM NAMING ALL THE PEOPLEKDJWINDJSBX

-“the fucking cunts from riverdale”

-ADRIAN ANSWERING THR RHETORICAL QUESTIDONCKSNX

-“fargos on tonight” ofc he watches fargo

-he’s so baby girl!!!

-“nice penmanship asshole and fargos not on till tomorrow night you fucking nerd” followed by adrian’s laughter JFJSJDJDJ

-larry is sexy

-ugh. i hate his dad

-leota defending economous <3

-“i didn’t care bc i don’t have emotions like other people do” when he clearly has shown multiple emotions like ok

-“i got bullied too” “how” “by the other kids calling me a bully all the time, saying i was abusive” SHIT UPPPPPP

-they’re finger printing what’s his face

-can they just lie and say he did it anyways

-also fuck larry is. sorry i just love a good silver fox dad bod man

-hehe i love that he loves glam rocks

-they’re bondinggggg :3

-me starting a show: i jsut want everyone to be friends :D

-has he been a butterfly this whole time? like even when he was back doing whatever?

-“evan you fucking pussy!” JFNSODNISHD

-“i finger bang you, i’m not using my pinky” IFNWOFNISD good point king!

-“i forgot women had fingers” IFKOWNCSIND

-stop this shows humor is nailing it for me tbh

-“UGH FUCK i’m never ever gonna kill someone with a chainsaw it’s so not fair” adrian u can kill me w the chainsaw. ok???

-chris and leota r my fave friendship actuslly like idk why but they bounce off of each other really rlly well

-JFNWONFJD

-LEOTA SHOOTING EACH PERSON AGTER CHRIS KILLS RHEM SHES JUST LIKE ME

-ok i’m eating breakfast so who knows how much i’ll type as i watch

-show me some fighting 🗣️🗣️

-why didn’t they just blow this place up

-YESSS BUTTERFLY FIGHTING LETS GO

-who the hell is charlie

-is that the like major guy that’s giving them the stuff

-OH EHAT THE FUCK

-“idk i invented it this morning” he’s smart

-EAT PEACE MOTHER FUCKERS

-poor economous just having to watch :(

-THE GORILLA

-HDJSJCKSKJDS

-IM LAUDHISICIWBDIS

-all of them fucking this gorilla up together <3 teamwork babey

-YESSS

-ENONOMOUS CAME IN W THE CHAINSAW LETS GOOO

-ALL OF THRN HAVING FUN TOGETHER IN THE CARTRRT

-🥹 they just mean a lot to me guys

-all of them dancing 🥹🥹

-WAHHHH HARCOURT TAKING A PIC OF THEN :,)

-HEHEHHEHEEH

-the guy who agreed to help murn is making sure chris’ dad stays in jail 🙏🙏

- ew not him trying to gaslight my queen 🙄🙄

-go get larry and get his ass

-“so we can assume butterflies can use any life form as a host” “chihuahua? :D” “probably wouldn’t fit” “would be cool tho!! :3” adrian chase. i have feelings for you. major ones.

-everyone being mean to adrian he’s just silly guys!!!

-he’s not a thimble

-“we can trust him” “what’s his name” “judy” “JUDGE JUDY???”

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-“we can trust him!” “so you’ve said” “and plus he’s my uncle” “😳” Hhehehehehe

-WAHHHHH

-HARVOURT MAdE A GC FOR THEM

-NAMED 11TH STREET KIDS

-IM SOBBINGGGGGG

-there’s 11 minutes left in sad

-adrian using the merman emoji hehehe

-“he says it means happy sad and everything in between” WAHHHHH

-:,) he wants to hang out w JFNWKNFKWNFJD

-sorry he wants to hang w leota and she goes “are you trying to fuck me but claiming ur dicks a lesbian or something” JDNSKNFJS

-he framed his first newspaper article about himself.

-guys i’m crying now.

-ok had to pause to send a video crying abt this to tati i don’t wanna play it i don’t want them to be sad

-her almost throwinf the drink up HFJSIJDJRJRJ

-they’re having a beer together :3

-LEOTA HELPING HIM W HARCOURTJSIFNIE

-oh i’m giggling

-“don’t talk about her tits or her pussy” “yeah but…what abt when we’re fucking” STOP ITTTT

-john cena plays christopher smith so we’ll it pisses me off

-“you really aren’t a bad guy. you just use being s fuck as a way to push people away, but if you would just take second and just drop that and be Chris Smith, i think people actuslly might like you” WAHHHHHH

-THEYRE BESTIESSSSSS

-“i just never had this before” “what?” “this, you, you know, giving me advice and having my back” SHES HIS FIRST FRIEND GUYS WAHHH

-I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY IM SO SCARED

-him crying :(

-leota still planting his diary :(

-NOOOOOOO

-her voicemail to her wife :(

-OH NO

-oh no

-FUCK. she’s using chris’ helmet and she’s gonna see that he’s a fucking butterfly FUCKKKKK

-LEOTA IM SO SCARED FKR HER

-NO

-LEOTA GET THE FUCK OUT GHERE

-OH MO OH NO OH NO

- THATS HOW THE EPISODE ENDS

-WHAT THE GUVK

-i was gonna stop after this episode but i have to start the next one i jsut have to

-end credits

-THE NAME DROPPSSSS STJDISJDNKWNFKS

-silly end credits

OK THOUGHTS ON THID EPISODE: holy fuck! just!!!! OMGGGGG i love leota and i love her bonding w chris (even tho she still put his journal there :/) but FUCK I KNOW SHE DOESNT DIE BC ID BE PISSED BUT NOW I HAVE TO WATCH EP6 TOO

its 6 am so i’m a little tired but my god ALSO harcourt has officially grown on me see i just needed her to get away from that ‘strong girl doesn’t like girl stuff or other people’ thing, strong women r allowed to have friendships and close bonds and stuff !!! and now i lowkey ship her and chris -_- annoying i know hehe

anyways episode 6 time

[fungal-rot]

Questions Tag Game !!

thank u @strang3lov3 for tagging me <33 i love these they’re so fun

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Do you make your bed? yes. not everyday bc i don’t always have the energy but i feel like a neatly made bed really ties the room together and makes it look so purdy. i used to work housekeeping years ago so i know how to “properly” make a bed and i use it to my advantage. but then my bf messes it all up bc for some reason he has to sleep under EVERY single blanket the bed has.

Favorite Number? 2. idk why. i just love twos.

What’s your job? i work in retail ! i am a backup department head :) (essentially backup department manager/lead whatever u wanna call it). i work the fun stuff like health, beauty, and whatnot. the miscellaneous grocery lol

If you could go back to school, would you? see, now this is a tough question. i would love to bc the thought of working in retail the rest of my life is,,,, unsettling. and that is due to being constantly told i would be A Loser if i made that a career (despite making decent monies). but at the same time school has literally had such a negative impact on my mental health, i never wanna do it again. (i also dont want to be in debt).

Can you parallel park? [sweats nervously]

Do you think aliens are real? DUH. you cannot tell me we are the only living sentient things in this ENTIRE ASS UNIVERSE. i have always had a love for space, extraterrestrial, planets and all that like i am 100% certain aliens are real.

Can you drive a manual car? no <3

What’s your guilty pleasure? idk? tbh ?? like i genuinely can’t think of anything for this one.

Tattoos? all sorts of small ones. they’re also all stick ‘n poke that i did myself. sue me idc. the biggest one i have is on my forearm— it’s the snail from adventure time and he’s kinda ugly buT HES MINE I LUV HIM

Favorite color? G R E E N. mostly dark/muted greens. like phthalo green ?? *chef’s kiss* i also like any sort of dark reds. phthalo blue is another good one. i like dark colors

Do you like puzzles? i will fuck up a jigsaw puzzle any day. there are some i dislike bc i am Dumb™️ but those little mini puzzle things in video games like Bioshock or something? Those are fun.

Any phobias? yES. okay-

Acrophobia (fear of heights): idk where this came from. i used to not be afraid of heights as a kid. i fell out of a tree once when climbing it, but i don’t hurt myself or anything. i DID get the wind knocked outta me bc i fell straight on my back, but to this day i will still climb a tree. nothing can stop me from doing that. but the moment i am leaning against a railing or im on a high floor and look out the window? instant vertigo. i get so dizzy and my palms start to sweat. i fear the wall or railing is just suddenly gonna give out and im gonna plummet to my death or some shit. again, i don’t know why.

Scoleciphobia/Vermiphobia (fear of worms/being infested by worms): And I don’t mean things like earthworms. I mean maggots specifically. I cannot stand them. I see them and i get so itchy and anxious and i will cry. this one actually comes from a trauma thing but that’s a whole ‘nother can of biscuits. i hate it tho bc i love rice, but i’ve got a slight food aversion with it bc it reminds me of, well, ya know.

Agoraphobia (fear of places and situations that might cause panic, helplessness, or embarrassment): i feel like it’s self explanatory. but it’s gotten WORSE over the years. i genuinely believe i have avoidant personality disorder. but its worse being so self aware about it bc i know i am simply being irrational but despite knowing that my brain won’t stfu

Favorite childhood sport? i never got to really play sports as a kid unless it was in gym class but i LOVED soccer. also that game you could get in easter baskets with the two velcro mits and tennis ball? loved that too.

Do you talk to yourself? yes. not like i’m talking to another person or anything lol i just be mumbling shit aloud or in my head as i go about my day. helps keep me organized in a sense i guess.

if ur reading this, tag ur it <33

[baekhvuns]

Ikr 😭 but the social presence thing is so right, i remember I got swayed by my frnds around 8th and 9th grade to install these apps and i did but then corona happened and I got enlightened!

Yes, the moodboard did and honestly i had never read a good fic before, well technically I had never read even simple fic bfr so when I saw tht divorce mention...i was like sign me up for the trauma! No imagine my first fic was lnfila...i was already prepared for so much. Actually I'm glad tht was my first fic.

Omg yes, well as far as ik, YK how people take out a divine and perfect time to tie the rakhi right? So this year there was a lot of confusion bcz it was informed tht the auspicious time was from 9:30PM of 30 aug to 9:30AM 31 Aug. So typically the much religious people followed this schedule but the other ones just celebrated the festival normally. Even today many people celebrated it so yeah it was fun honestly! I mean I'm all for the food and money sooo-

Man imagining his reactions PLSS ✋😭 he would be so creeped out first of all!!

OMAHGAH NO U DIDN'T JUST PUT JANAM JANAM IN D&TG BESTIEEE

Idk if its just my obsession with the song but mai agr kahun from om Shanti Om 😩 liek the violins and all. Ofc!!! Just frnds would be incomplete if we didn't put fashion movie songs in it bcz i can imagine all the runway scenes and 'jalwa' playing as a backtrack 🤌🤌omg i had almost forgotten abt tht song WOOAHOOOOHHOHHHH man kk rlly gv the bollywood industry some amazing songs.

LMAO DIVORCE?!?! 😭 Yeah ok i side with rabta, i cn totally hear it at the start when hwa declares the divorce. ....khronus and veer Zara....they fit together 🤧🤧 (my tears play a big role in it) YESS BG AND TERI MERI THE SEPERATION PART 😭😭BRO U JUST READ MY MIND BCZ IK DAMN WELL TUM SE HI WOULD GO SOO WELL WITH BG LIKE THT RAIN SCENE ✨

Hawayein and rewrite the stars, how come i didn't think of that? Bcz come on the lyrics THEY LYRICS!! Ofc i remember patiala house how cn i forget it just like tht, 😭 it was my childhood!! And the way I fell for Akshay in tht idkw but I did, bcz he always plays tht macho role, so when he did tht soft boy role i just melted.

Now tht i think abt it apart frm the mainstream actors in Bollywood there are so many underrated visuals, and i personally stand with reitesh deshmukh!! Like he's just so ....idk but he just is!

I was re reading the trouble with hating you AND WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY TO ME RN?? 😭 like idk it just got funnier! And hwa is so random here Literally! Bcz who the fuck brings their ENTIRE dinner set for he library 😭😭 i laughed at this for straight 1 minute LIEK THE VISUAL!! I JST CAN'T- or when he said "so dolphins are like the dogs of the ocean??" WHAT DOES THT EVEN MEAN??? 😭😭😭 MY MAN HERE IS THINKING WAY TOO DEEP ABT THE OCEAN WHEN HE HAS AN EXAM TO STUDY FOR if I was there i would've died laughing!

im glad that u liked the fic and that being ur first fic fbsnbdkw 😭😭😭 my inbox was bursting the day of that release fbanjfksjckc

YEAAAAAH that time of hour like my mom was all panicky trying to tell everyone not to tie them in the morning 😭😭 some kali thing was happening fbwkfjsk UR RIGHT THE MONEY AND THE FOOD IS ALL THAT MATTERED every brown man on that day was my brother 🤚🏻

LMFAOOOO JANAM JANAM BEING ALL THE LIFES THEY GET REINCARNATED AS HEHE PLS NOT THE ATZ SLANDER WNBDMS

no ur right i was gonna put dastaan as the khronus one bc it’s slightly haunting!! RIGHT I COULD NOT NOT PUT JALWA IN THEIR SCREAMING THATS THE BEST ONE kk’s oooohoOoOoO >>>>>> what a voice honestly

NO HEAR ME OUT IN RAABTA WHEN THEY SAY “it’s said that god has made someone for someone” THAT WAS MY INTENTION W IT BEING IN DIVORCE THKWHDKW

khronus and veer zaara r cousins ackshully TUM SE HI SUPREMACY >>>>> !!!! HONESTLY IT FITS THAT FIC LIKE A GLOVE AND THE VOICE 😭😭😭

no omf bc that movie’s beginning made me cry a lil fhwmdbsn I ALSO RLY LIKED THAT ONE he’s always played some comedian or macho guy but this one i was pitying his character the entire time 😭😭 O GET IT I GET IT W RITESH but his wife???

LMFAOOOO TROUBLE W HATING U HAD THE BEST DIALOGUE IN MY OPINON??? like that one part “u don’t talk much,” “do u want me to moan?” that fic is so funny to me gbmebdkd THE ENTIRE DINNER SET LMFAOOOO THIS IS BASED ON SOMETHING VERY IRL FHWJDHKS HE’S STUDYING FOR THE WRONG EXAM 😭😭😭

NO SRS VISUALIZE IT,, A WHOLE DINNER SET, IN A LIBRARY, ALL THE PLATES SET AND ALL AND HE HAS A CLOTH ON HIS COLLAR FOOD IS STEAMING HOT AND HES TALKING ABT DOLPHINS 😭😭

[minastras]

also BARE WITH ME hjdskahsdjak im finally here to leave my thoughts on a match made in heaven jake sim's brain and MINA!!!!

the way jake has been trying to match yn FOR THE LONGEST and been telling heeseung about yn too T_T where is my best friend jake to do that for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for jayhoon tbh? LOL

About him being “your dream man”, which made you mime throwing up every time Jake said it.

the way i wanted to punch jake myself dhsjakdhsajk he is so funny!!!

The fridge door abruptly slammed shut. “Jin, they said no,” the fridge guy said firmly, subtly positioning himself between you and Hyeongjin.

THIS RIGHT HERE! S T A N D A R D tyvm and the way i cackled at "fridge guy" HAHAHAHAHA

“Oh, in that case, hi. I’m Heeseung. You must be Y/N.”

the way they met and fridge guy is heeseung :3 PRECIOUS

and then heeseung understanding how yn was uncomfortable from the party after that hyeongjin smh AND THEY WERE A MATCH MADE BY JAKE ANYWAYS, went out for a ride and to the diner T_T

and then jake calling later "I LOVE YN" duuuuuude hahahaha the way i can see him panic irl like that and run through the entire house looking yn.

“I barely know what they look like because you show me the shittiest pictures of them. How am I supposed to help you?” Heeseung countered. So it wasn’t just you, then. 

THE PETTINESS HEESEUNG DID HAHAHA I LAUGHED SO HARD LIKE WELL DESERVED, JAKE LMFAO

And the rest of where they continued hanging out T_T heeseung being a gentleman he is, apologizing each time he mentioned the overshares jake did LOL too cute like <3 we love that jake just love his two favorites and wants them together. i cry!!!

He looked up at you with a boyish grin. “Stargazing. Come join me.”

the way i screamed because stargazing A+

“Hello,” he said playfully.

You giggled. “Hi.”

SO. FUCKING. CUTE. Again, i melted.

you're so good at making a situation cute, silly, a bit worrisome for jake lol BUT still good and cute and i T_T i cant wait to read more!

AHHHH TY TY TY FOR WRITING ALL OF THIS !!! this was the first time i posted my writing publicly and your words mean sm to me <333

\i will let u in on a lil secret .. i have a sunghoon + best friend heeseung fic AND a jake + best friend sunghoon fic in the works. can u tell i have a problem (i didn't even realise it until now LMAO but i'm gonna give jay his own fic probably)

FRIDGE GUY YES bc this is exactly the way my inner monologue labels ppl when idk their names

jake is so well-meaning and earnest but let's be fr men do not know how to choose good pictures!!!! also like bro u're so close to both hee and y/n just bring one of them along with u for lunch one day or sth why must they meet at a PARTY !

in my mind y/n knows some embarrassing stuff abt hee too but they're a bit more self-aware than he is aalsjdnalj

AGAIN tysm for your kind words my heart is rly so full rn !!!

[kof-xiii]

anyway blackmadhi aquarium date.

[gunmetal-ring]

I'm actually looking forward to next week's episode tbh like I know so many of us are dreading it and are having a lot of anxiety but I have a rly hard time believing that Leah will be introduced independent of the reapers, meaning that she'll likely rip off her mask and dramatically be like "daryl... the group that just killed some of your group... They're My Family"

meaning that Daryl will internally be like, in order

A) omg wait Leah is alive?!

B) wtf?!

C) wait why is she with the bad guys?!

D) wait she called them her family?!

E) she's voluntarily with them?!

F) why?!

G) hang on she's been hunting maggie?!

H) oh shit she's probably still pissed that I bounced

I) she's probably double pissed that I chose Carol- uh, um, I mean Rick/and now Maggie over her, even tho it was only temporarily, but she doesn't know that bc she bounced before I came back

J) oo and she's probably triple pissed that I didn't bother looking for her the way I looked for Rick #BromanceOverRomance (and only decided to stop looking for Rick when Carol asked me to, whoops i mean -)

K) hmm alright how am I gonna survive this one

Then, knowing twd, the end credits will roll, and then the next time we resume that storyline it'll be

L) alright well maybe I'll ask how the hell she's still alive where has she been what happened etc you know, all the awkward run-in-with-the-ex catching up they have to do

M) probably gonna get some snarky remark because hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, and then he's gonna be like well you know what I gotta stay alive for this bc how else will I ride off into the sunset with Carol?

N) so he'll say "hey psst secret is that I hate Maggie too, i was trying to kill her too I super swear, let's join together and do it also I love you 5ever Im totally telling the truth I super duper swear for real pinky promise"

O) and internally he'll be like not only will this keep me alive so I can ride off into the subset with Carol but it will also help me to accept the fact that my value as a person does not rest on whether or not I can save people

P) bc as we know, the girl was cuckoo for cocoa puffs back when they met, and has probably only turned cuckoo-ier since she bounced, seeing as how she's on a murderous rampage with a bunch of dudes in creepy Halloween masks

Q) and then he'll realize that She Can't Be Saved And TBH Wasn't All That Great To Begin With, And It Probably Wasn't A Great Idea To Date Her In The First Place Anyway, Especially Since I Was Actually In Love With Someone Else The Whole Time whoops I mean -

R) and then she'll die or fuck off forever somehow and Carol will be like omg Daryl I'm so sorry that your creepy woodswoman long lost love is gone for good, it's probably my fault to some degree, just like your its-not-like-that long lost love is gone for good also because of me

S) and he'll be like um jsyk when I say "It's not like that" I mean "it's not like that" so no I don't love Connie it just sucks that she went AWOL for all the normal reasons, and also have you considered the fact that the thing I loved about leah was that she had Dog and gave me a sense of purpose while I was failing to find rick bc if I can't find him at least maybe I can save her from herself

T) and Carol will be like OK well and Daryl will be like no okay well just LISTEN to me the main reason I didn't love either of them is because I love YOU always have always will

U) then Carol will start crying and he'll gently wipe away her tears and be like BTW I know you love me but I get it if you can't be w me bc of all your trauma and whatnot

V) and Carol will be like yes I love you I've been repressing it for the last six or seven seasons bc i thought you didn't love me but you know what I'm working thru my trauma as best I can

W) and he'll be like oh great so.... this means I can kiss you right

X) and she'll be like um duh lay one on me

Y) they kiss

Z) they ride off into the sunset and star in a spinoff all about middle aged dating in the zombie apocalypse when it's just the two of you out on the road all alone for the rest of your lives the end

[myelocin]

akaashi keiji would be the best boyfriend hands down!!! also who do you think would be the best boyfriends and why?!

he would 🥺 but alas he is not my type ndkdnddj i feel like akaashi is too perfect for me to vibe w lmao i literally fall inlove w ppl who will insult me back if i insult them plz send sos

but not to be biased or anythinnnnnn,,, on my definition,,, as a woman who loves nothing more than to have banter in relationships my top 5 would be

1) hanamaki takahiro

i am working on a whole fic to explain why i love him sm so look out for that,, but in short he seems so relatable?? like,, lazy jokes and highfives but also soft kisses and “lmao u love me dont u” “no the fuck but i’m gonna kiss u anyway” energy 🥺 eating icecream when its 2am and u rlly shouldn’t but u let slide anyway bc 2ams with hiro means deep talks and wistfully staring into the sky while hopes for the future together are spoken into existence. hiro is so real and present so i think he’s the perfect blend of best friend and lover which i CRAVE

2) iwaizumi hajime

MAN i just wanna b held and loved normally sometimes idk. when i think of haji i think of someone who would go to the ends of the earth just to get u that kind of biscuit u want. like yeah on the car ride he’d be like “why is yn always so fucking pICKY its a damn BISCUIT” but then thinks of the dopey smile u get when u eat the said biscuit and just goes soft,,, like “yeah yn is worth it tho”

3) matsukawa issei

oh my god i want to just marry him pls issei. when i think of him i think of love language that’s more on the little things and not the grand gestures. he’d def be the type to cry when u say i love u lmao but then would say a poop joke to lighten up the situation 😭 like issei pls stop talking ab ur shit we r trying to have a moment

4) tsukishima kei

ahh yes, the king of “the fuck u mean i love u? gross” but secretly has a recipe book of all the food u mentioned briefly that u rlly liked eating. he knows your boundaries when it comes to banter and knows to never cross it but will prod at the edges of it anyway LMAO,,, kei seems also as emotionally constipated as i am,,, im never good with partners being excessively open w their romantic guestures so kei’s naturally reserved nature vibes w that.

5) kuroo tetsurou

i look at the pic of him in 402 with his arms crossed and looking proud and i feel like crying all d time bc the energy he gives off feels so familiar,,,, he’s so dorky i cant 😔🤚 just jokes said as if he’s the funniest shit but you laugh at them anyway to make him feel better LMAO. i hc him as the best friend and first love type tho,,, relationships w him run so deep that whatever happens u never really lose him nor he lose you. the place in ur hearts where u took root in,, ya thats never goin away

[seduceme-lovestruck-thearcana]

Im gonna make one long post about my whole danganronpa day today so:

Aw now I feel bad for Kazuichi. He says his family is really poor and that the family runs a bike shop🥺. Please don’t tell me he dies😭.

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Now that I’m spending time with Ibuki, I know I would LOVE to spend time with her. She’s a music person and she loves it and so do I! I would love to teach her the violin (if she didn’t know) or explain more techniques or even play some and maybe she’d teach me the guitar!! Bruh I would love to be with her-

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She says “Well, isn’t it obvious?! You should be a part of Ibuki’s music club from now on!” YES I WOULD LOVE THAT!’

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Kazuichi really wanted to go to the girls while they were on the beach knowing they just wanted it to be girls??? That’s really messed up but whatever.

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NOOO WE FOUND OUT MAHIRU’S DEAADD. AND NOOO. THE MASK!!! IK WHAT TRIAL THIS IS AND I DONT LIKE IT😭😭😭. I already know who did it😭😭.

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I’m in the trial and I’m so mad at Hiyoko. Calling everyone else bad words and then expects sympathy when she cries-

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NOOO IK WHO DID IT AND I DONT LIKE IT😭😭. PEKOOOO-

I knew bc I watched someone a long time ago. I’ve liked the DR franchise for awhile, but never played it until now but I remember this trial and gosh…..this is gonna be saddddd.

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She used her sword to escape the bathroom…..Peko no…..

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HAH PEKO ADMITS THAT SHES SPARKLING JUSTICE AND KAZUICHI IS LIKE

“WHAT THE FUCK!?”

I love you sir.

And seeing Fuyuhiko so upset at her admitted her crime is….sweet in a way. He cares about her and doesn’t want her to do this…..

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HNNNG!!! Fuyuhiko is hesitating in telling the truth and seeing Peko like this must make him upset…..

AAAAAH HE COULDNT GO THROUGH WITH IT!!! Peko wanted him to just lie and tell them it was ALL her (it was but not really) but he couldn’t do it bc he cared for her and he couldn’t let himself rely on someone he had been since birth😭😭.

Peko says he’s got a kind heart…..and he even admits she isn’t a fool to him…. AND THEN SHE ASKS HIM TO AT LEAST REMEMBER HER!!! PEKOOOO

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“Jeez…why don’t you get it yet…? You stayed by my side…all this time… Why don’t you get it…? I never needed…a sword…or a shield… I never needed…a tool…S-so…You didn’t need to become a tool. You just…you just needed to be yourself…

I…I never wanted a tool! I just wanted you! Only you!”

“Young master?” (Peko)

“Wh-Why!? Why couldn’t you understand!? We’ve always been together, ever since we were kids!”

And then Monokuma says it’s PUNISHMENT TIME AND THEN FUYUHIKO SAYS, “P-Please Peko! Don’t go…!”

AND THEN THE “I need you! Don’t leave me!”

AND THEN SHES CRYING TOO WHEN SHE SAYS YOUNG MASTER. NOOOOO. I KNEW THIS TRIAL WAS SAD😭😭😭😭.

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BRUH FUYUHIKO IS TRYING TO JOIN THE PUNISHMENT!! LIKE!! HES RUNNING TO HER BUT THE SAMURAI ROBOTS ARE IN THE WAY BUT WHEN PEKO SLICES A ROBOT!!! HE’S RIGHT THERE!!! And I think he gets sliced too?? Not sure but ANYWAYSSSSS. She then holds him when she lays on the ground and then a robot comes up behind her and stabs her one last time. Then a pile of them come over to her and stab her.

Now the question is whether Fuyuhiko survived. It wasn’t his punishment really. But idk. ALL IK IS THAT THIS WAS REALLY SAD-

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BRUH HE IS STILL ALIVE SNABSBW.

Monokuma apparently is taking care of him….idk if I like that compare-

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DNABSH. HIYOKO HAS SUCH A KIND HEART??? DOES NOBODY?? SEE?? WHAT SHE SAYS TO MIKAN??????!?!?!?

They all notice when she’s getting bullied but when Mikan is they just don’t notice?!?!? IDC if I was in the middle of a trial, I would’ve called out Hiyoko for yelling at Mikan like….she has no right.

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Bruh Hajime is reading the Usami x File and it’s talking about the tragic event and nearing the end of the excerpt it starts to become filled with boxes. It’s like this:

“Ther◻️fore….it is a subvers◻️ive movement fu◻️l of despair. Hope’s Peak Academy became the or◻️gin of the incident, and was forced to put an end to th◻️ir long history…As f◻️r the students who surviv◻️d, they w◻️re f◻️rce◻️ to k◻️ll e◻️ch o◻️◻️er as a lesson in despair ◻️x◻️”

And babe….can you not fill in the boxes??? Like do you even know English😭. I get what he means tho since the boxes are a nuisance but it’s not impossible to fill in the boxes and know what the words are. The only one I can’t figure out is the one with the x. What is that final word? Or is it a signature? Idk but other than that I can read it completely-

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OOOH WAS THE LAST PART ABOUT MAKOTO AND STUFF?!? THE PART ABOUT KILLING EACH OTHER OFF?!?!? Please tell me someone other than Genocide Jack was mentioned😭. I wonder what Kyoko would be doing in this moment. Makoto would’ve been such a good detective at her side….

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FUYUHIKOOOO!! YOURE ALIVEEEE!!!!! AND BREATHING!!!!! He’s got a bandage over his eye and on his arm, so at least he’s getting treated!

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AWWW WHEN HE FELT ‘BETTER’ HE CAME TO GREET EVERYONE!! HE APOLOGIZED AND ADMITTED THAT IT WAS HIS FAULT!!!

And then he fell to his knees and cut his stomach open?? I’m not sure if it meant that his stomach wound REOPENED or that he literally just cut his stomach open right then and there. If he did it right there, then dang that’s pretty intense. He says he’s sorry and I feel bad. I shouldn’t bc he led to two peoples death, but I do feel a little bit bad for him. I wish Peko didn’t have to die. Well, I wish none of them had to die.

I honestly wish they could’ve told each other their feelings outside of this mess. It would’ve been better but also more sad if they did that then came here. Hnnnng I knew their whole thing was SADDDD!!!

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Okay!! This wasn’t from one day but still!! I love this game!!! I’m gonna stop this one post so it doesn’t become too long but yeah!!! I love it!!! Most of the ending part from Peko and Fuyuhiko is from today (Sunday) and not yesterday (Saturday) so yeah!! But I’ll start a new one bc I’m obsessed with the games!

But anyways!! I’m taking a break real quick to eat and give my eyes a rest. It’s not good to keep repeatedly covering my eyes everytime I hit X on my PS4 so I don’t have to see flashing lol.

[teamjacobthot]

some ppl can get very... let's be nice and say 'interpretive', when it comes to the cullens. but I can't understand why they are so excited about midnight sun. The cullens will not act like they do in these peoples lame repetitive textposts. Racism and mormon ideals shaped the the entire saga and the cullens will be the same unlikeble characters smeyer wrote in the other books and people will be disappointed. I think it's very telling how some can say fuck smeyer yet give her their money..

you’ve made some points. however, ppl have the right to be excited abt their faves (unless you stan the confederate which is 😐) no matter how boring and unlikable they are to others. i dont think cullen stans will be disappointed by midnight sun if what they’re looking for is new content. this whole book is literally just team edward/cullen fan service. now if theyre looking for GOOD content.........well this book IS written by smeyer so................ 

i think the fandom (or at least the people i interact with) understands that this book isnt gonna be particularly well written, groundbreaking, or even like.......good. ofc, the twihard communities on facebook and instagram are gonna love it, but that’s why we don’t claim them lmfao. i think midnight sun will just be more content to make fun of. i personally loveeeeeee making fun of twilight bc it’s just so easy to and some of yall are funny as hell, so i’ll take my meme folder and totally legally obtained copy of the book and have a blast with the absurdity, as well as rightfully drag the inevitable racist parts and call out the cullens bc i was gonna do that anyway. thankfully i have the capacity to do both and my contributions wont put any coin in smeyer’s purse whatsoever.

now when it comes to ppl saying “fuck smeyer” yet giving her money anyway........ i have some thoughts....

ofc i can only speak for myself, and obviously, all of this is my opinion. ppl can spend their money however they want, but im definitely gonna side-eye the “i bought the book BUT i still hate smeyer/donated to the tribe/reblogged anti-racist resources/etc” crowd. like do you really hate smeyer then? do you REALLY? maybe im just built different. or maybe racism holds more weight to me bc i’ve actually experienced it as a Black person and it doesnt exist as some new internet concept for me. idk. either way, there is just no “BUT” to me when it comes to racists, especially if you have the choice NOT to financially support the very racist you drag on the internet. 

talking shit on this blue hellsite is free. rereading the twilight books you got back in 2009 before you knew better puts zero dollars and zero cents into smeyer’s pockets. buying a brand new copy of midnight sun literally does put some dollars and some cents into her pockets though, even if you donate to the Quileute nation too. as twilight fans, i feel that we should all donate to the Quileute nation anyway, whenever possible. but even if you pay for a brand new copy of midnight sun AND donate to the tribe, you’re still giving the racist author your money. you just are. no amount of money donated to the tribe can negate smeyer gaining money from you buying her book. it is what it is. you can spend your money how you want but like...... *jane voice* keep that in mind. obviously its better to buy the book and donate rather than buy the book and NOT donate, but maybe ask yourself why having a new, amazon supplied copy of ~*twilight again but in edward’s perspective*~ is worth the cognitive dissonance when paired with the abundance of ���fuck smeyer” posts on your blog.

oh and also! it’s so easy to get the book in ways that dont give her any/as much money! there are local libraries. there are secondhand bookstores. i know damn well it’s gonna end up in value village in a couple months right next to all the other twilight books. there are p*r*t*d copies BOUND to end up on the internet within a week of the book dropping. i probably couldnt get away w this this bc im Black, but fuckin steal the book from target or walmart or something!!! use that white privilege if you got it!!!!

if youre like me and wanna read midnight sun but dont wanna give a racist your money, there are ways to get it. but pls spare me if youre gonna cry “fuck smeyer” on here and still buy the book lmao.

[soulwillower]

i hate you  • bill denbrough

(bill denbrough x reader smut)

requested: ‘hate sex w bill.. just saying..’ do it.. just saying 😳  +   girl if u do hate sex with bill... we have no choice but to stan!!    +   GIRL if you post hate sex with bill i will PASS OUT please do it

warning: swearing, smut, hate sex, kaspbrak!reader oop, brother’s best friend!bill bc im a slut for that shit, rough smut, mild degradation, dirty talk, some cumplay ngl, choking, unprotected sex, unedited lol

jesus u guys i’m...., wow

[losers + reader are 18+ in this.]

1.8k words

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"ma, we're home!" you hear eddie call as he walks through the door. you grin, glad that your brother's finally back and you're not alone with your mom in your boring house. 

you fly down the stairs, "eddie, i have to show you thi-" you cut yourself off when you see he's not alone. "oh. why's he here?" you say, gesturing to bill denbrough, one of eddie's best friends, as he toes his shoes off behind your brother. 

he's always been a dick to you - so you've always been a bitch. he deserved it, though. no matter what your brother said.

both of them roll their eyes, but bill speaks first. "g-good to see you t-too, sunshine." he says sarcastically, shooting you a sneer that had no business being as sexy as it was. "why are you here?" you direct it at bill this time. "he's staying over. ma said he could have dinner with us." eddie says quickly, brushing past you with a warning look that says: behave, y/n. 

bill winks at you as he slips past you, chest pressing against yours. you cross your arms as your cheeks heat up.

"does he have to be here?" you whine, glaring at bill's head as he talks to your brother at the dining room table. "y/n. be nice, he's a good boy." your mom smacks you lightly on your arm and you sigh, shaking your head. you look to eddie and he sends you a look, making you roll your eyes again.

 everyone in this fucking house likes bill more than you. "no he's not." you mutter as your mom thumps out of the dining room and towards the kitchen. bill looks at you, "you kn-know, y-you're not very f-fun to b-be around yourself, y-y/n."

you scowl, "fuck you, bill. can you just leave? nobody wants you here." you spit as you sit at the dining table, crossing your arms.

"i-i think im w-wanted here more than y-you." the boy says, lifting a brow at you with a smirk. you gasp and look to your brother, who holds his hands up. "c'mon, don't make me do this again. i'm staying out of it." eddie mutters sassily, rubbing his eyes. you kick him in the shin and he glares at you. bill butts in. "i know that y-you're happy to h-have me over for d-dinner, y/n. you d-don't have to lie." he says with a teasing grin. you want to punch that cocky grin off his stupid sexy face. 

"i would rather marry that trashmouth asshole than willingly spend an hour with you." you state, glaring at him. he rolls his eyes, jaw clenching. “i’m gonna strangle you.” bill responds with a dirty look, making you scoff. “you wish you could." you spit. he glares at you but before he can speak, eddie slams his phone on the table.

"DON'T!" he yelps, face red in anger. you roll your eyes as you look to bill, who smirks at you.  you have to tear your eyes away at that look and you listen as eddie starts to harp on you for being rude to his best friend, all of you shutting up when your mom walks in, serving dinner. 

when dinner was done, you'd escaped to your room after clearing the table without a run in. you'd just finished showering, wearing only panties and a shirt as you sneak down to the kitchen for some water. you jump as you walk in to find bill scrolling on his phone, face lit up by his phone. you immediately scowl as he looks up at you.

"i l-like the look." he says, eyes running up your figure suggestively. although his eyes make you clench your thighs, you turn red and scowl. "why are you even still here? eddie's just went to help bev with homework." you mutter. bill shrugs, "h-he's coming back in an hour. im s-staying the night, it's p-pointless to go home for an hour and a h-half."

you roll your eyes. "whatever." you say, watching warily as he rakes his eyes over you. "what? you like what you see, douchebag?" you ask, snapping your fingers so he looks up at your eyes. he smirks, "k-kind of. if only you weren't such a-an unbearable b-brat."

your jaw drops and you stalk up to him. "says you. you couldn't fucking handle me, denbrough. you're too much of a coward." you spit. he drops his phone on the counter and it clatters in the quiet. "r-right. and now you're just trying to p-piss me off, huh? s-so desperate." he whispers, green eyes dark as he looks at you. 

"i hate you so much." you say, mustering the best glare you can. he raises his eyebrows. "oh, r-really? is th-that why you're s-so wet right now?" he says. your jaw drops - how did he know?

he laughs at the look on your face. “you’re so t-turned on already? th-that was fast,” he says, moving closer but not touching you. you're breathing heavily through your nostrils. "did you get wet when you saw me walk through that door earlier?" he whispers, smirking like the devil he is.

"you'd like it if i did." is all you can say. he just chuckles and before another stupid thing can leave his mouth, you're pushing up onto your toes to kiss him harshly.

he laughs mockingly into the kiss, his hands gripping your hip and pushing you into the kitchen island. his tongue is strong and warm as he slides it into your mouth, making you let out a small, involuntary moan.

 "what? d-does that feel good?” he says against your lips. you roll your eyes as you pull back. "fuck you, denbrough." you say breathlessly, your lips plump and chapped from being mauled by his own.

he smirks, head dipping to nip at your neck and you grip his shoulders. "don't leave any marks." you order, making him mutter against your neck, "y-you don't get to t-tell me what to do, princess." 

he bites down on your neck after this, making you yelp. his head snaps up, "sh-shut up, y/n. d-don't want s-sonia hearing, hm?" he asks lowly, rutting his hips against yours. you whimper quieter this time, rolling your eyes despite it. he’s already hard and you feel him against your stomach, waves of lust coursing through your body.

you fucking hate him. "think you can fuck me like you mean it, denbrough?" you say. it's a challenge, and the look in his eyes shows that he knows that.

quickly, he flips you around, pressing you against the island so your chest lays against the counter. he squeezes your ass in his large hands before pulling your shorts down. 

you crane your head to look at him with a glare, "if we get the kitchen messy, eddie and my ma will kill you." you spit. he leans forward with a glare of his own and you feel his bare cock against you, big, warm, and dripping with precum. in a quick moment, you thank god for birth control.

"i'll have to cum inside you then." he whispers, hand pressing your back so you lay flat against the cool marble of your kitchen island. you shiver at how how that was but quickly become impatient as he teases himself on your slit and rubs your clit, making you buck your hips in need. his hand stops your movements and he pushes you harshly against the counter. “s-stop it.” he barks, lining himself at your entrance finally. 

he pushes into you swiftly, making you gasp in pleasure and discomfort. he's so fucking big, but you bite your lip so he doesn't get the satisfaction of seeing you like this. "th-think you can take it?" he asks mockingly. you mutter a shallow, breathless and broken "i fucking hate you."

he laughs mockingly and pulls out, slamming into you at your words. you gasp, hands clutching the edge of the island as he thrusts harshly into you, the feeling of his cock stretching you making you whimper in bliss. 

a sharp pain on your ass cheek accompanies the sound of a smack and you drop your head onto the marble, loving the stinging of bill's hands smacking your ass as he pounds you into your kitchen counter.

"t-taking me so well. f-fuck, such a d-desperate bitch." he mutters, hands running up your sides as he fills you, hips snapping into yours. you hate how hot his words are and how good he feels pounding into you. 

you can't say anything and your legs are weak as his arm sneaks up, his fingers gripping your throat. you moan weakly as he squeezes his fingers and you think back to dinner. good to know he was not joking when he said he could choke you.

“you like my hand wrapped around your th-thoat, d-don’t you?” he says into your hear, squeezing and smirking at your flushed face as he snaps his hips. “s-say it.” he mutters. 

you let out a broken half-moan half-sob, nodding, “yes, f-fuck. i love it when you-when you choke me.” your face is red as you speak, feeling humiliated in the best way. he laughs at your words, hips snapping impossibly deeper and making your toes curl in pleasure. “wh-what do you say?” he mutters, fingers squeezing again. you gasp, “th-thank you, bill.” you mutter. 

he laughs maliciously, kissing your cheek as he fucks you into the counter. it’s delicious in the best way and you hate yourself for loving it. 

"bill!" you whimper quietly as you clench around his cock. he groans, hitting you deeply and squeezing your throat harder. you whimper, tears forming at the corner of your eyes. 

the feeling is overwhelming and his size and skill alone makes you realize you're about to cum. "oh my god." you mutter, voice broken as his grip on your throat doesn't let up.

"already cumming around my cock, hm? pathetic." he mutters into your ear. you squeeze your eyes shut as you cum, whimpering as your legs go weak and you hit a peak higher than any you ever have before.

"aw, are y-you crying?" he says tauntingly, making you whimper, the feeling of his cock thrusting hard into your sensitive pussy making you weak. "poor y-y/n." he whispers, sucking a mark onto the spot under your ear, hand still on your throat.

he pounds into you a few more times before his thrusts get weaker, groaning into your hair as he stills, muttering your name as he cums. he pulls out of you without any warning, making your legs almost give out and he chuckles, pulling your chin to the side and kissing you hotly on your mouth.

you hear him pull up his sweats and then he's pulling up your panties, rubbing your sensitive clit over the fabric and making you yelp quietly. he pats the seat of your underwear. "k-keep me in there, why don't you." he spits in your ear teasingly, slapping your ass as he pulls away, walking out of the kitchen.

you stay leaning against the kitchen island for a few moments, catching your breath and trying to comprehend what you and bill had just done, and why it had been the best sex you'd ever had.

[staysuki]

i never thought of shipping y/n with seungmin but when you mentioned it last ask, a part of me subconsciously gets flustered 👁️👄👁️ hahahahhahaha kaw talaga may kapakan ng lahat, charot. scratch what i said, im shipping y/n with everyone. ill just support whoever seems to be winning the race :">

"you knew what you wanted, and Hyunjin wasn’t a part of it." 👀🤭

hala ang gago AHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA omg umaasa na seungmin niyo uWu btw this was the part where y/n debated on telling seungmin about lias situation or not but proceeded to do the latter and told a lie about seungmin looking good. seungmin does look good tho 😠 he s smoother than my face, i want to cry. and wtf pasimple pa siya, “Not like anyone’s gonna see us enter at this hour.” -> oke beh 🕳️🚶

hahaha yes minho get your girl. yuhss omggg minho, we kenat let seungmin win 😠 bruh i actually dont know why i keep on denying on wanting to ship seungmin and y/n when i secretly want more cute scenes of them together ahhahaa yess minho you go girl ! YESS FELIX HELP AND BE CLOSER TO Y/N SO THAT THE OTHER 3 WOULD GET JEALOUS AF

OHH WTF THE CLOWN WAS HARLEY QUIN?? LMAO WITH A LOT OF AHAHHAHAHHHAHAHAH 😭😭😭 i still dont understand the 2nd-4th emojis tho,,,,“You can go have fun upstairs, I’ll be with Seungmin.” felix, my boy, mustve been heartbroken as fuck . <- colored red bc im serious xd

aaaaaa hyunjin, its ur time to shine pare 🤩 haha changbin, saksakin niyo na lang ako. the confrontation ive been waiting to happen for like 3 chapters (??) was finally going to take place but nO :<

“Uhhh.. I didn’t have anyone to hang out with.” 1. 👁️👁️👁️👄👁️👁️👁️ 2. 🕳️🕳️🕳️🕳️🚶🕳️🕳️🕳️🕳️ 3. 👼

he had good intentions, not in hyunjins perspective though :< idk but if i was y/n, id have long forgotten the main problem. i MEAN srsly with a seungmin looking like that in front of you? im not exchanging that for anything. EHALOJ, featuring THE lee heeseung 😎 hahaha seungmin:"> srsly tho, if seungmin has been chosen to be endgame all this time, i regret focusing on lee know and hwang hyunjin. felix, its fine, you ll get an smau soon <3 HONEST CONFESSION: i want seungmin to be endgame lmao (oh yeah i forgot, you havent decided who y/n ends up with, well 1 pt for kim seungmin ig)

omg so many things are happening between them aaaaaaaaaaa yes fix his hair cmon >:( EHALOJ, featuring THE solar 😎 LMAO JEONGIN WON? HES OUT THERE PLAYING NINTENDO 😭 let the child play in peace

omaygad yeji wat da fuuuuqqqqq "That crown is mine." -> another one of those famous queen bee lines 🤩 bruh i still cant hate her character, damn. i keep remembering (INTW- too long, forgot title :">) yeji, shes such a queen there i love her ugh.

"you’ve spent so much time staring into his brother’s that you got used to the stunning effect." YUHSS hyunjin still be out there saving y/ns ass. i hope hyunjins endgame uWu friends (?) 2 enemies (???) 2 presumably a one-sided crush 2 lovers, wut

omg eto na, bardagulan na dis PUCHA THATS WHAT THE 💅 MEANT LMAO pusa ka ate gurl? i thought it was hyunjins time to shine (2) already, but ig chan could do it. bruh r u srsly adding chan to the harem?? omg yuhs our girl y/n be out there collecting boys like pokemons, but unintentionally 😌💅 omg what if, y/n develops a crush on chan but chan be like nO sorry i dont like you SO this would be some kind of love triangle but one corner would be crowded with a bunch of ethereal looking men.

iza prank !!! i think you meant to write this scene platonically lols omg it is my dumbass turnt delusional LMAO anyways, i now know what the emojis were supposed to represent, all of them. YESS tapos na siya :(( idk whether to celebrate or be sad bc its alrdy finished :< OMGGG AAAAA SEUNGMIN AAAAAAAAAA HE SENT A HEART WAT DA FUQ AAAAAAAAAAAAAA HE SAID THEY D DANCE AGAIN AAAAA PLS SEUNGMIN ENDGAME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 hahaha i look like a fool here screaming at my laptop

THIS was the best chapter out of all your works yet ! omg i didnt even feel the 7 and a half k. i dont how long i was reading it but it felt like less than 10 mins, legit. one more chapter left, right? aaaa i ll miss it so much. it did not just NOT disappoint, it was perfection. it felt tense with bits of humorous scenes that made it entertaining to the max level. hyunjins redemption arc prob in the next one? what abt yeji? 🤔 im really really excited for the finale. and yes, justice for president chans screen time 😔💔 and changbin :(

continuation in the next ask, im sorry but it was so long i felt bad for flooding your ask box :<

- bs

“i’ll support whoever is winning the race.” YES BESTIE, that’s how we win in gambling 😍❕and please, i’m here to make everyone flustered with the ships, i will NOT hesitate to pull everyone along and break their hearts 💢.

y/n really almost making seungmin commit vehicular manslaughter with one compliment. we stan 😭♥️. also the 🕳🚶 toOK ME OUT PLS 🤧 seungmin really pulling up with all of his flirting game rn.

yes minho time 😎. you literally have the “i will ship y/n with whoever comes up” vibes rn. o see look it’s felix’s time naman 💀.

felix really heartbroken rn :((( dw sadder stuff coming soon beh.

ALSO HERE’S THE EXPLANATION FOR THE EMOJIS 💀 parang qaqo lang yung hints, i’m so bad at emojis.

1) seungmin dressed handsomely giving y/n one single flimsy flower

2) yeji blocking the door from ryujin and yuna

3) yeji getting caught in 4k

4) chan watching the cctv footage on felix’s laptop

5) the clown mr. yang jeongin wanting to play some mario instead

6) yeji injuring y/n

7) the halloween coronation where everything went down 🤧

the confrontation was just a lil teasey tease mwahhahahaahah.

ALSO WHAT DO THOSE EMOJIS EVEN MEAN. YOU’RE EVEN WORSE THAN ME 💀💀💀

if seungmin looked like that in front of me, i’d forget my name entirely 🤧. also hyunjin is the one with the future smau hidden in the basement 😔💔. the voting pLEASE, i thought you were in everyone’s side 💀. yes, i haven’t decided BUT i have narrowed it down to three choices hmmm 😏😏😏😏 try and guess huh.

so many seungmin x y/n moments this chapter, had to make up for the fact that the student council were all invisible all throughout the fic, justice for their screentime 😔💔

also hyunjin was supposed to win but i thought it would be funnier if it was jeongin 🙈. really pulled up in a clown costume, ran away from all his dates, played video games in a hotel room but STILL won the crown.

dw this will probably be the last fic with antagonist yeji 🤣 i love her too much too. NOW YOU’RE ON HYUNJIN’S SIDE PLEASE.

also who knows if it’s platonic or not hmmm 😏😏😏🤧🤧🤧. if y/n was collecting men as pokemon, who would’ve been her pikachu then 🤔🤔🤔.

YOU’RE BACK TO SEUNGMIN ENDGAME NOW? 💀 parang iba lagi sinusupport kada paragraph pLS.

i’m glad the humour was still there, i really didn’t want to make it feel too dark. i’m still going for the cheery slice of life feels and not really full-on dark academia vibes. :)))) tysm, i love hearing your thoughts and reactions so much so don’t worry about flooding my asks. i’m always waiting for it 👩‍💻

dw about the screentime, they’ll get their own arcs soon and the other boys will be the one left in the background 🤧 just had a hard time balancing so many characters in one fic omo.

also there’s still three chapter left 😎💢❕chapter 29 is the season wrap up because i wanted season two to start as “chapter 30” medyo perfectionist sa numbers 🤣. the next two chapters are the reactions and then the final one is another written part mehehehehehehee. i’m spoiling ya’lls.

i’m also dropping hints onto the future season arcs oop 🤭

[baekhvuns]

Was The Crown good? I'm so behind I didn't realise it came out, pretty sure I haven't finished the previous season 😬

Maybe it's good I don't live in LA, because I would go bankrupt with all the gigs and prices..

I'll start calling you Baeksussy from now on, because you're always up to no good 👀

Literally, because I see people celebrating Taemin's return this month and I'm like "besties, I have some bad news..." unless they surprise us and he comes back early. You know what, I actually don't know who Taemin is???

Me going to see Seonghwa at the night club I came here to drop some money, dropping all my money

Oh yes big accounts are guilty of taking jokes too far and being annoying in general, that's why I have 50% of Atinys blocked akdhiagshahahaa can't stand their asses.

Not stalkers at it again... On a lighter note, Wooyoung paid for Atinys meal, me when. Pay my rent!

You know who should invite Key? Drag Race South Korea, it's apparently happening sooooo

Seonghwa, Ddeonghwa, Hwaseong, Mars, Hwa, Seong so many different personalities. (I set the wallpaper 😭). Truly Seonghwa is genuinely so sweet, nerdy, wholesome, sensitive, smart and sexy too?! He needs to calm down

It's good your friend is using kaddy, it should be much easier! Wish her good luck, may the force be with her. :3

Platinum CEO Hwa in theatres near me? Can he come to my house?

The lacey blouse he's wearing for Paradigm :o we're in danger!!!

Not Seonghwa trying to rename Shinestars again?! What does he have against that name it's so fucking perfect. No Ddeongwives, no Ddeongps.... S H I N E S T A R S

Yes, I'm very into Seonghwa's shoulders and arms era 🥴 and clearly I'm not the only one

Twins AU? But how do you choose :///

Hwa's shoulders are already nice and wide, he wants to commit to the Dorito shape even more 😭 I didn't mind gym lessons, because it meant I could do the bare minimum, but the only thing I do at the gym is exercise my legs (track, bike) lmao. Omfg those exercising games can be fun, but not when the whole school is watching and waiting for you to embarrass yourself 💔

I wonder what's gonna happen in PD3, hope D*sn*t doesn't fuck it up completely

I know a few people who would love to be pulled over by Wonho. Yes, he is!

Uh I think BTS showed up in my dream recently, but only for a second, I was also crying lol

That fucking nose on Hehetmon, Yunho why 😬

"See you later" just like "European dates will be announced soon" right 🤡

Please

Aaaaand we got Sanhwa patisserie!!!

Hongjoong looks cute, but Seonghwa... between him looking like an adorable grandpa, SPREADING, big ass shoes and a tin of crisps I don't know where to look

Me at Seonghwa Kino wife material, lol

I got "full moon lighting up my lovers face"

Bestie, Seonghwa's vlog, so far I saw arms and him flexing his Black Opium perfume.... - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Was The Crown good? I'm so behind I didn't realise it came out, pretty sure I haven't finished the previous season 😬

im at the last ep, and tbh i haven’t moved on them the last season characters esp the queen! but the diana this season is just sOOO 🤌🏼🤌🏼🤌🏼 its crazy how their facial features rly match! truly the best diana ever. literally.

diana and her pakistani men <33 mr mohammed al-fayed and his friendship with diana >>> and mr dodi is very 🧍🏻‍♀️ ive been quoting this for the past few days and i cannot stop this is an addiction with the fact that i have a sudden urge to speak in their posh accent

Maybe it's good I don't live in LA, because I would go bankrupt with all the gigs and prices..

no seriously 😭😭 every god damn thing just happens there and for it to be so expensive but not even clean is 🔫🔫 its so romanticized too! i feel like one can sign bankruptcy the second they look at a door to a house, bc YOU KNOW THE DOOR BE MAD EXPENSIVE TOO

I'll start calling you Baeksussy from now on, because you're always up to no good 👀

BAEKSUSSY JEGDKWHDKSHKCUKC 😭😭😭 IM SCREAMING

Literally, because I see people celebrating Taemin's return this month and I'm like "besties, I have some bad news..." unless they surprise us and he comes back early. You know what, I actually don't know who Taemin is???

saw a panchoa article saying “idols who’ll return from the military next year” and it said baekhyun and on this date then taemin it said n/a and i lost it,,, i need this man to drop a date we are thirsty. hungry. not breathing.

NO BC ONE OF THOSE WHO BE CELEBRATING IS ME IN MY DELULU 😭😭😭 ur right, who’s taemin? taeyeon’s cousin? taeyong’s brother? no idea.

Me going to see Seonghwa at the night club I came here to drop some money, dropping all my money

LMFAOOOO id waste all my money on him tbh,, as long as the stripper in him continues take my money 🤲🏼

Oh yes big accounts are guilty of taking jokes too far and being annoying in general, that's why I have 50% of Atinys blocked akdhiagshahahaa can't stand their asses.

YEAAHHH its the way ppl dickride them without pointing out where they’re wrong is very 🔫🔫 ur so right on that, blocking and moving on lowkey was glad that twt was gonna seize to exist 😭😭

Not stalkers at it again... On a lighter note, Wooyoung paid for Atinys meal, me when. Pay my rent!

LMFAOOOO FBQKDJWLDKW PAY MT RENT 😭😭 PAY MY TUITION WOOYOUNG JUST GIMME UR ROLEX I WONT ASK FOR ANYTHING ELSE

You know who should invite Key? Drag Race South Korea, it's apparently happening sooooo

STOP. STOP STOP HE’D BE PERFECT STOPPP ID WATCH IT JUST FOR HIM, he’d judge so hard too and without any bias 🤚🏼 if sm sends boa again 😭😭

Seonghwa, Ddeonghwa, Hwaseong, Mars, Hwa, Seong so many different personalities. (I set the wallpaper 😭). Truly Seonghwa is genuinely so sweet, nerdy, wholesome, sensitive, smart and sexy too?! He needs to calm down

he’S SO AGGRAVATINGLY HANDSOME, WHOLESOME no how can someone be a wholesome sexy? how. who tHE FUCK CAN EVEN DO THAT (im so glad u did bc it reminds is of our roots) BESIDE HIM??? WHAT WONDER DID HE DO LAST LIFE TO GET THIS IMMENSE EVERYTHING ???? god’s favourite truly, when is it my turn to BE UR FAVOURITE

It's good your friend is using kaddy, it should be much easier! Wish her good luck, may the force be with her. :3 /// Platinum CEO Hwa in theatres near me? Can he come to my house? The lacey blouse he's wearing for Paradigm :o we're in danger!!!

its really going good for her! thank you for your expertise!! she’s currently stuck trying to get good thank your cards <3 will be making a batch 😭😭 WDYM IN UR HOUSE BESTIE HES THE MAN UR ARRANGED TOO, HES IN UR HOUSE FOREVER <33 WE’RE IN DEEP DANGER. HAHA. he looks like he’s about to star in the house of dragons with that on

Not Seonghwa trying to rename Shinestars again?! What does he have against that name it's so fucking perfect. No Ddeongwives, no Ddeongps.... S H I N E S T A R S

he’s what

Yes, I'm very into Seonghwa's shoulders and arms era 🥴 and clearly I'm not the only one /// Twins AU? But how do you choose :///

if he drops one more photo like that, im quitting kpop 🔫

hear me out, one’s the nerd. the other’s the resident fuckboy or whatever. yn likes the nerd twin (let’s name him hwaseong) and seonghwa (the fuckboy) finds that out and decides to make his mission to tease yn about it bUT they come on an agreement where yn begs seonghwa to help her in getting hwaseong and her together which obviously he’s gonna say no too, but then eventually comes around! and so then it starts,,, he’ll tell her what he likes and just watch yn fuck up dbwmdhsk all while he enjoys <33 tho it’ll def be confusing with using the names 😭😭

Hwa's shoulders are already nice and wide, he wants to commit to the Dorito shape even more 😭 I didn't mind gym lessons, because it meant I could do the bare minimum, but the only thing I do at the gym is exercise my legs (track, bike) lmao. Omfg those exercising games can be fun, but not when the whole school is watching and waiting for you to embarrass yourself 💔

he knows exactly what gets everyone triggered, the dorito bod, the looking so fine in suits, and what’s next. he drives with one hand, does the reverse with one hand? 😀 OH UR LEGS MUST BE TONED AS HELL !!!!! tripped and hurt my knee during one of those <333 felt amazing bc i got to sit out dhsmhdjs

I wonder what's gonna happen in PD3, hope D*sn*t doesn't fuck it up completely

UR RIGHT I HOPE THE STORYLINE STAYS ON POINT AND DOESNT INCLUDE THOSE STUPID JOKES AND REFERENCES FROM SOCIAL MEDIA OR SOMETHING

I know a few people who would love to be pulled over by Wonho. Yes, he is! /// Uh I think BTS showed up in my dream recently, but only for a second, I was also crying lol

i didn’t when read the first part, tell me everything about the last part. ppt format.

That fucking nose on Hehetmon, Yunho why 😬 /// “See you later" just like "European dates will be announced soon" right 🤡

yumho surprises me everyday, i don’t even know how to say this but he’s a true man. a man. men.

Please

id literally die if he gets the mc job, everyday he’s gonna look all pretty and dress up all while im eating glass

Aaaaand we got Sanhwa patisserie!!! /// Hongjoong looks cute, but Seonghwa... between him looking like an adorable grandpa, SPREADING, big ass shoes and a tin of crisps I don't know where to look

seonghwa. FJAKJDKS ADORABLE GRANDPA LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 u think his grandkids would ask him to dance and its him doing bulnoriya while his knees crack but he’s so determined to show them his glory days and the fact that he’s still young. grandpa hwa <3

Me at Seonghwa Kino wife material, lol

male wife ☺️☺️

I got "full moon lighting up my lovers face"

😮😮 a hopeless romantic i see,,, i got sneaking downstairs to get more cake but it turned out to be a very wholesome au that I will write ONE DAY

“you're not even in your double digits, and your best friend who you have a secret crush on came over for your birthday party. it's after midnight, and you decide to sneak downstairs to eat more cake. you're both as silent as you could possibly be, careful not to wake anyone. you scoot a stool over to the counter and crawl up ungracefully, snatching two small pieces of cake and sitting on the floor to eat. you both whisper about what you'd gotten as gifts, and they tell you they have something else that they wanted to give you in private. when you get back to your room, they pull out a small box. you open it to see an action figure, one that looks like you. they tell you they were at toys r us the other day and noticed it was basically a little you, and begged their dad for it. he agreed, and they went home and wrapped it themselves, poorly but effectively.”

Bestie, Seonghwa's vlog, so far I saw arms and him flexing his Black Opium perfume.... - DV 💖

black opium. ysl. model seonghwa. just happens to be the one the yn and hwa endorse! just so happens! haha!

ok but this is so 😭😭😭 they should’ve let him go 😭😭😭 man missing a sibling’s wedding, damn, must be heartbreaking

🙂🙂

me when.

u know if boxer seonghwa was alive, this.

😭😭😭

[ajokeformur-ray]

I watched Joker tonight and typed out my thoughts as they occurred to me. Unedited; typos are guaranteed. I did this a few months ago and really enjoyed looking back at my thought process and I wanted to do it again so that I can look back and know that what I feel is real and true in my darkest times.

You're welcome to skip this; it's under a cut for ease of doing so. Warnings for occasional sexual comment lmao. There’s no self shipping in this, I don’t think.

word count: 2, 575.

I’M SOBBING and I’ve only just pressed play.

Heart squeeze Chest much ow

THERE HE IS

✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

Nooooo baby omg don’t pretend - let yourself hurt if it hurts. Don’t pretend. 

Carnival Carnival Carnivalllllllll 😍😍😍😍😍

I am a Simp for one clown and his name is Carnival

Someone help him, I????

That sign hit Arthur as hard as my love for him did ksksksk

MY EYES BE LEAKIN💔💔💔💔💔

bb nooooo

Oh honey let me kiss those bruises and replace the marks of violence with love, hm? You’re safe with me.

Breathe, my love. Don’t fight the laughter. Let it out, let yourself go. 

Screams into a pillow because????? much sad must kiss

“have you been keeping up with your journal?” LIKE HE HAS TIME

oHHHHH boi’s close to losing his shit

Do it, Artie. Give ‘em hell.

“I think I did” YOU TELL HER!!💖💖💖

I want to be his cigarette. Where’s Satan??? I got a new deal for my blackened soul which he took at half price😂😂😂😂

I’d have my hand between the door and his head so fuckin fast I swear

“I just don’t wanna feel so bad anymore” yep SAME

ohhhh peekaboo🥺🥺🥺

this makes me giggle ksksksk i watch this scene when i feel sad bc it always makes me happy for the time it’s on

he’s so good with kids; he doesn’t have to try and think about what’s funny, he just does it, he’s himself and it works

FUCK OFF LADY CAN’T YOU SEE HE’S STRUGGLING????

give

him

back

his

card

casually wrinkling my nose against tears lmao

ohhh the way he looks up at those stairs from the bottom

i can feel his exhaustion

me too, my love

step step step step

god i wanna get him the fuck outta gotham

and into my arms and a soft, warm blanket

“eat. you need to eat” LITERALLY WHAT I TELL MYSELF EVERY DAY IN HIS VOICE BC OTHERWISE I JUST WOULDNT EAT???? I’m losing so much weight asdfghjk its not enough tho

SUPAH RATS

Did Arthur come up w that joke or was it actually a Murray joke????

HIS VOICE IS SO SOFT IM CRY??🥺🥺🥺🥺

“I WAS PUT HERE TO SPREAD JOY AND LAUGHTER”

YOU DO BABY, YOU DO!!!! EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!!

go deepthroat a cactus randall - youre already a bit of a prick so🙃🙃🙃

“THE GUYS THINNK YOU’RE A FREAK BUT I LIKE YOU”

HOYT. YOU CAN GO SIT ON A CACTUS TOO

FUCK OFF

😡😡😡😡

“WHY WOULD ANYONE STEAL A SIGN”//”WHY DOES ANYONE DO ANYTIHNG?” HOYT YOU’RE SO FUCKING ILLOGICAL HERE IM????? ERIKA DOES NOT (ALSO WILL NOT LMAO IM A STUBBORN BIITCH) COMPUTE

Can arthur fuck me like he pounds the trash/????🥵🥵👀

those dark curls.... that crooked tooth... must kiss.🥺🥺🥺

pennys casual cruelty makes me so fucking angry

foreshadowingggggg ~  *JAZZ HANDS*

ugh the way he dances with that gun im👀🥵🥵🥵

he enjoys the power of it and his breathing gets deeper asdfghjk

clumsy baby omggggg i just COOED 🥺🥺🥺🥺

okay maybe im stupid but i genuinely dont understand this “senior who needs to graduate” skit i’m??? how is being an intro to western civ student funny im???? someone explain???

but also dont bc fuck that guy lmao arthur’s hilarious

true millenial humour (and brit humour lmao we’re dark asf)

THE WAY ARTIE TWIRLS HIS FINGERS AROUND HIS HAIR AND DANCES IN HIS SEAT IM???🥺🥺🥺

wanna curl up on his lap at night when hes writing and go to sleep with a 

blanket around our bodies🥺🥺🥺🥺

when arthur wears a shirt at home you KNOW it’s a daydream

THAT CROOKED TOOTH IM WANT KISS.

WAIT IS IT CALLED STAND UP COMEDY BC YOU STAND UP... AND ITS COMEDY???

23 FUCKING YEARS, PEOPLE... TO REALISE THAT🙄

WHEN CARNIVAL CAME ON SCREEN I NTHE HOSPITAL I MADE A PORNOGRAPHIC NOISE LMAO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

IF YOURE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT, SHOOT MURRAY

WOOPS WRONG LYRICS

😂

“doctor of laughter”🥺🥺🥺🥺

doctor i have a case of the Big Sad can you... do an exam? 😉😏

NO BB DONT BEAT YOUR HEAD UP THERES PRECIOUS CARGO IN THERE

in what world does chucking cold greasy chips in a girls hair being “nice”???

lmao fuck these guys

ohhh honey breathe. dont fight it, my love, just breathe.

my heart’s breaking for you, you sweet thing🥺🥺🥺

i love you so so so so so so so much ugh you’re an actual fucking angel

just breathe darling

i need to get you a cup of tea with honey in it, your throat must be so sore

ohhhh baby im so sorry

i’d take every single punch if i could

i’d die for you

i wish i could protect you

i wish i could look after you

and take all those hits

and kill those guys for you

im so sorry

sobbingggg

YES GOOD MAN THANK YOUUU

KILL THOSE ASSHOLES LMAO DESERVED IT

yeah i have a grey morality... im similar to deadpool in that way tbh

carnival comin’ to kill your insecurities

8 bullets in a 6 chamber???? mm-hm

DONT FORGET YOUR BAG THATS EVIDENCE

AND THE WIG

RUN BABY RUNNNNNNN

GO GO GO GOOOOOOOOOOOO

RUN LIKE THE WIND BULLSEYE

THE SOUND OF HIS FEET SLAPPING THE PAVEMENT IM👀

OOOOOH JOKER’S WAKIN’ UUUUUUP

fuck he’s so hypnotic

the way he runs his hand down his lower stomach asdfghj🥵

must kiss the inner tendons on his wrists and lick the blood off his face 

must kiss

he moves like water

fuck hes so fluid

bathroom scene = the scene in which my heart and vagina clench at the same time

im WANT

T POSEEEEEEEE

“i still owe you for that, dont i?”

PUNCH OUT IS MY FAVOURITE THING E  V  E  R

D O N T S M I LE

UGH I FUCKING HATE being told to smile if i don’t fucking want to so BIG mood

PLEASE SHUSH ME THE WAY YOU JUST SHUSHED PENNY IM???

but also dont lmao bc i’ll think you’re mad at me and i’ll hide in the bedroom for the rest of the day lmao i’m sensitive✨✨✨

i wanna sit on his lap and still his bouncing knees

“thats not funny”

fuck off penny yes it is

I JUST CHOKED ON MY COFFEE IM???

“but i do” god the  P O W E R

ugh that fucking sexist piece of shit comedian can choke “women look at sex like buying a car” 🤢🤮🤢🤢🤮

chauvinistic pigs can die thanks

his lil trip upstage im cry🥺🥺🥺

ohhh baby. just breathe, darling. it’s okay to be scared. dont fight it. just breathe. 

he and i both cover our mouths when we laugh/smile in the exact same way and it makes me feel closer to him

how can they think hes laughing at himself when hes literally gagging????

people only see what they wanna

the Penny imitation is👌👌👌

s m i l e

i remember when i came home from seeing this for the first time, i got home and dropped to my knees to cry in the bathroom. it was such an emotional release and so much love and i played smile to try to make myself smile but i only made myself cry harder lmaooooo ~ 

smile and thats life are my go-to songs if i gotta cheer tf up

danger sign = neither works

he looks so soft after his “date”🥺🥺🥺

“thats life” yeah but murray you dont even leave the studio so how do you know????

ngl arthur’s anger scares me.

anyone so much as raise their voice at me and i’ll cry really bad and i will shut myself away for the rest of the day and quiet anger terrifies me so his banging abt in the kitchen would freak me tf out😲

angry bb😭

he controls his anger so fast though omgggg ~ 

that soft please sends me

idk where it sends me lmao

down below probably

BARE FACED CARNIVAL OMG THIS SCENE IS SO CUTE

I LOVE THE MATCHING COLOURS ON ARTHUR AND BRUCE TOO ???

okay but the implication that arthur always carries a clown nose on him is🥺🥺🥺

hes such a good clown im?????

lmao im enjoying the show more than bruce is skskskk

arthur’s lil chuckle makes me🥺

his HUMMING im??? soft?????

his brows are so strong and dark omggg ~ he’s so beautiful

OKAY i’ll be honest i’ve seen this alfred/bruce scene and the thomas bathroom scene later on and the penny flashback scene a 100 times and i still dont fucking understand what did or didnt happen regarding arthur’s parentage im????

 ive seen interpretations to say he is thomas’ son and some to say he isnt and i still cant decide so? im stupid i guess 🙃

“a clown thing?” the  s a s s

“it’s exit only” yeah so’s my ass🙃

if i was there in the hospital room i woulda turned that tv off as soon as i realised what clip was gonna play

murray’s cruelty is d i s g u s t i n g

lmao hes an asshole

arthurs lil clap from joyyyyy ~ 🥺🥺🥺

did i say murray???

i meant  m u r r a t

🙃🙃🙃

sneaky baby

wayne hall either has super bad security or arthurs v quick on his feet

🤔🤔🤔🤔

he looks so good in red omggg ~ 

f o r e s h a d o w i n g

arthurs smile when hes watching chaplin is how he smiles when we all gush to each other abt him and ourselves!!!

hes so cuuuuuute🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰

“told me what” 

ohhhh honey🥺🥺 im so sorry. “crazy” is a trigger word for arthur; it made him start laughing in the bathroom with thomas

“touch my son again ill fucking kill you” yeah?? touch my arthur again and i’ll fucking kill you🙃🙃🙃🙃

^^^ that ones a joke do not come at me

the clerk in arkham was nice to arthur - he, gary and sophie are the good gothamites.

none of it was enough to stop his descent into joker, though, and i’d even say it was too late right at the beginning of the film, too... 

his sock puppet thingy “they cut all those” is such a Joker thing to doooo ~ 

the way arthur’s laughing in the hall at arkham turns into sobbing is gut-wrenching omg the poor thing😭

i wanna hug him and protect him and help him to process this in a healthy way

sweetheart, if i could take all of your pain and put it onto me... i so would. i’d do it in a heartbeat.

i wanna get you into a hot shower, make you some food and sit and listen to you. we can either sit in silence or you can talk to me, my love, and you will be heard and understood and loved.

“i had a bad day”

IT’S OKAY I DIDNT NEED MY HEART ANYWAY OMG YOU POOR SWEET INNOCENT THING IM LOVE YOU🥺💔

THAT ENTIRE LATE NIGHT SCENE LAUGH/SOBBING GOT ME -

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

i just wanna hold you and protect you and help you and love you

I’m so fucking sorry, darling. i wish i could take it all away from you

“i havent been happy one minute of my entire fucking life”

NO ONE SHOULD LOOK THAT ANGELIC AFTER COMMITING MATRICIDE IM????

get

that

fucking

gun

away

from

your

face

boi dont test me ill fucking go feral or - no, tell you what, i’ll point the gun at me and see how you like it

im looking respectfully at the green speckled undies scene....👀👀👀

“coming” 😏😏😏

“my mum died im celebrating” and “i stopped taking my medication” and you STILL stayed in the apartment with Arthur????? dudes those are 🚨🚨🚨 signs

woe betide anyone who underestimates arthur fleck lmaoooo

randalls death scene makes me laugh every time omg i feel so vindictive

get WRECKED

i wanna lick the blood off his face. i really want to

ngl i think i have a blood kink... 

“dont look just go” ME WITH MY ACNE WHEN I SEE IT IN THE MIRROR 😂😂😂😂

JOKERJOKERJOKERJOKER 

ASDFGHJKL

J

O

K

E

R

ERIKA.EXE HAS STOPPED WORKING

JOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERJOKERRRRRR

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 MY BABY MY MAN OMG THERE HE IS IM CRY???????😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺

my mind is literally blank rn im just staring and crying and smiling so hard my face hurts????? im love him so so so so much

sweet thing’s so used to pain he gets HIT BY A CAR AND KEEPS GOING????

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

hghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

euirrrrrrgkjbgkfbirsghigrbugr

*incoherent keyboardsmash to portray utter love*

ohhh baby no dont cry. oh honey😭 i wanna sit on your lap and kiss your tears away

“i love dr sally”

you have a WIFE at home

“DO YOU REMEMBER?” THAT WAS YOUR CUE TO APOLOGISE LMAO GET FUCKED MURRAT

he’s so CUTE

omgggg ~ 

my hearts gonna give out its SQUEEZING SO HARD IT HURTS

YOU MOCK THEM, BABY!!! THEY GOT IT COMING

“i wanna get it right” hes so passionate

my comments have deceased in number bc im just too starstruck and in love to even think clearly lmao

jokers all i know rn and this is the most peaceful ive felt in WEEKS

im sobbing

ugh fuck this hurts so BAD

youre speaking the truth, darling. im so so proud of you and i love you so much

“THEY COULDNT CARRY A TUNE TO SAVE THEIR LIVES” LMAO INSIDE JOKESSS

literally sobbing right now ugh what the fuck youre in so much pain and in the middle of a breakdown and no one saw you

ugh baby im so sorry, you deserve so much better

you tried so hard and you were gonna fall no matter what

IN THE WHITE ROOM

“hi” baby they cant hear you but im COOING 🥺🥺🥺🥺

you’re so fucking cute

say the word and ill burn gotham to the fucking ground for you

i wanna sit atop that car and cradle your head in my lap and wipe the blood off your face and help you stand up and be there for you and and and😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love you so so so much. 

i’d be so much worse off without you in my life. you brought a splash of colour which has never dimmed or faded. it never will. 

b l o o d    s m i l e

=

im wearing my inside on the outside now and it still hurts

angel💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

i see you and your pain. i love you.

i see you, angel. 

his genuine laughter is🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

that cute lil “ksksks” he does im🥺🥺🥺

i always laugh with him omg the two of us are laughing together ugh its the closest i will ever get to sharing in his joy

 t h a t ‘s    l i f e

i love the hallway daaaaaaaaaaaaaance ~ 

them hips dont lie😉😉😉

i love you i love you i love you i love you omg the sun’s like a halo ugh i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you im singing along to thats life while i type out how much i love you at 220am lmaooooo ~ 

i   l o v e    y o u

[raedas]

nove nove ok so i was looking back a bit and scythe curie mentions Thunderhead????? isnt that a book title in the series???? or something like that/????

anyways ive stopped at chapter 17 but heres all the stuff ive complied:

quotes:!!!!:

“Even when you’re food shopping, death is hiding right behind the milk.” -- god citra thats so deep???? what

“It never hides,” the scythe told them with a world-weariness that was hard to describe. “Nor does it sleep. You’ll learn that soon enough.” -- skjssjks GOD i am living for this shit???????? what/???????????

“I am your completion,” the lead scythe said loudly to the dying. “I am the last word of your lives well-lived. Give thanks. And thus farewell.” -- jsdskjdks i was a mess this entire chapter and this line?????? BYE I AM A WRECK :(

It was the first time in her life that she aspired to fail. -- ur HONOUR i am a mes sdksjdksjdksjdksjdksjdks

—but who was she to fight against something that rang so clearly of destiny -- esme……..u know what ok yea ur right

There was a lesson to be learned in every gleaning, and today’s was one she would not soon forget. The sanctity of the law . . . and the wisdom to know when it must be broken. -- ksjdksjdksjdksj NO WORDS I AM CRYING SIMPLY

“Perhaps everything will change again.” -- what the fuckity fucking fuck

one minute i am eyeing goddards entry in this book very :/ what are u doing-dly is he ok -- After all, this is a perfect world—and in a perfect world, don’t we all have the right to love what we do? —From the gleaning journal of H.S. Goddard

and notes:

- scythes are so ominous the FUCK - sksjdks i understand why both rowan and citra dont want to be scythes so……go Them

- rowan :( i am love him ur honour :(

- but also rowans parents what the fuck ur son literally said hes going to be a SCYTHES apprentice do u have no mind?????? what???????? 😐😐😐😐😐

- after faraday said No to romantic relationships between them or whatever citra?????? miss girl why do u want rowan to be disappointed????? why are u mad at rowans grin???? huh???????? nskjdksjdkskd this is hilarious

- not the grandmas husband being a bot😭😭😭😭

- me: says citra and rowan are pretty similar

also me: yelling casually seeing how staple and reasonable rowan is and how extrangavent and dramatic citra is 😌

- ur honour this unsavoury kid is not very smart is he dear fuck

- that TEST faraday made for them i am CRYING i love rowan and citra so so so much

- i shouldnt be crying at this gleaning but Emotions :(((

- citra seeing rowan as not very emotional??????? girl if only you knew :(

- rowan :( i am loving him and his humour :( jsdjksdjksjdks he :( /all pos connotations

- seeing how the gleaning-choosing-process works is so sos so fucking cool

- this scne e>>>>

nove nove ok so i was looking back a bit and scythe curie mentions Thunderhead????? isnt that a book title in the series???? or something like that/????

anyways ive stopped at chapter 17 but heres all the stuff ive complied:

quotes:!!!!:

“Even when you’re food shopping, death is hiding right behind the milk.” -- god citra thats so deep???? what

“It never hides,” the scythe told them with a world-weariness that was hard to describe. “Nor does it sleep. You’ll learn that soon enough.” -- skjssjks GOD i am living for this shit???????? what/???????????

“I am your completion,” the lead scythe said loudly to the dying. “I am the last word of your lives well-lived. Give thanks. And thus farewell.” -- jsdskjdks i was a mess this entire chapter and this line?????? BYE I AM A WRECK :(

It was the first time in her life that she aspired to fail. -- ur HONOUR i am a mes sdksjdksjdksjdksjdksjdks

—but who was she to fight against something that rang so clearly of destiny -- esme……..u know what ok yea ur right

There was a lesson to be learned in every gleaning, and today’s was one she would not soon forget. The sanctity of the law . . . and the wisdom to know when it must be broken. -- ksjdksjdksjdksj NO WORDS I AM CRYING SIMPLY

“Perhaps everything will change again.” -- what the fuckity fucking fuck

one minute i am eyeing goddards entry in this book very :/ what are u doing-dly is he ok -- After all, this is a perfect world—and in a perfect world, don’t we all have the right to love what we do? —From the gleaning journal of H.S. Goddard

and notes:

- scythes are so ominous the FUCK - sksjdks i understand why both rowan and citra dont want to be scythes so……go Them

- rowan :( i am love him ur honour :(

- but also rowans parents what the fuck ur son literally said hes going to be a SCYTHES apprentice do u have no mind?????? what???????? 😐😐😐😐😐

- after faraday said No to romantic relationships between them or whatever citra?????? miss girl why do u want rowan to be disappointed????? why are u mad at rowans grin???? huh???????? nskjdksjdkskd this is hilarious

- not the grandmas husband being a bot😭😭😭😭

- me: says citra and rowan are pretty similar

also me: yelling casually seeing how staple and reasonable rowan is and how extrangavent and dramatic citra is 😌

- ur honour this unsavoury kid is not very smart is he dear fuck

- that TEST faraday made for them i am CRYING i love rowan and citra so so so much

- i shouldnt be crying at this gleaning but Emotions :(((

- citra seeing rowan as not very emotional??????? girl if only you knew :(

- rowan :( i am loving him and his humour :( jsdjksdjksjdks he :( /all pos connotations

- seeing how the gleaning-choosing-process works is so sos so fucking cool

- this scne e>>>>

- scythe….goddard….i am wathcing him 🤨🤨🤨

- CURIE!!! SCYTHE CURIE!!!!!!!!!

- im scared whos gonna be the scythe…..thinking its citra skdksdksk

- rowan is an idiot but also i am love him :)

- NO WHAT THE FUCK

- THE FUCK FUCK FUCK????????????????????????? NO NO WHAT THE FUCKITY FUCKING FUCK

- whats the sychtes name???? rand??????? somehting??? KSJS I HATE THEM :(

- but also!! whichever wins….can grant the loser immunity instead……..or soemhig…….idk if one of them dies i will scream >:(

- /….they just…..kis…...u know what ok ill shut up before i yell too loud

- ...oh rand is goddards junior asscousaite??? making sense!!!!!! but thanks i still hate it

- what?????????? faraday did not gleam himself thats impossisble?????????/ but aslo u know in scythe curie’s entry????? theres:

is That foreshadowing…..cause then faraday should not be dead

anyways im going to take a break (or just read without documenting bcs im kind of tired of this but!!!! nove i hope you have a good day and i love you a lot 💗💘💝💕💓💞🥺!!!)

THE WAY I COMPLETELY FORGOT YOU SENT THESE REACTIONS ??? i promise i enjoyed them. so much. i just somehow forgot to answer ???

YEAH THE MILK QUOTE WAS JUST SO *INCOHERENT SCREAMING* scythe has so many amazing quotes actually

your reactions are so funny in hindsight knowing you’ve now read the rest and know exactly hwat happens LGSHHDFAKLSJ

yeah rowans parents are kinda 😀

HELP HIS GRANDMA BEING A BOT WAS. SO SO FUNNY

its about the way they contrast each other 

HELP ARE CITRA AND ROWAN FOILS. I THINK THEYRE FOILS OH MY GOD

so... so many emotions :(((

YEAH ALL THEIR DIFFERENT GLEANING METHODS....

SCYTHE CURIE MY BELOVED !!!!

im screaming with you bestie

“- but also!! whichever wins….can grant the loser immunity instead……..or soemhig…….idk if one of them dies i will scream >:(“ the way you predicted the ending im sobbing

the f o r e s h a d o w i n g 

aaaa okay !! ily more kiri 🥺 /p