arseholism

[arseholism]

If I could reach the stars, I’d pick one out of the skies

I’d hold it dear, because I miss the sparkle in your eyes

If I could find a wine, that tasted like your ruby lips

I would drink day and night, I’d spend eternity succumbed to vice

If I could fly towards the sun, I’d leave this world behind

Feel it shine so bright, until it left me burnt or blind

Because all I can think about is your beautiful face

And now the nights are cold, and you are always on my mind

If I could plant the perfect flowers, that smelt like your golden skin

With every breath I take, I’d be less dead within

And if I could find a drug, that could numb this pain

I’d overdose and I would live out my days in sin

If I could find a song, that matched the melody of your voice

I’d listen to it on repeat, and drown out every noise

And if I could have just one more day of life with you

I’d trade it for everything, for anything and never question that choice

[arseholism]

I’m not scared of my demons

What’s the worst they could do?

I’ve made friends with the monster inside me

So boo fucking hoo

We’re all a little bit broken, fucked up inside

We’re all bound by hope and destroyed by pride

I’m not scared of the darkness

I’m used to it by now

I’m not scared of being broken, or abject rejection

I’ve spent forever being unloved

This miserable experience, this existential dread

This fear of life ending is just like going to bed..

I’m not scared of tomorrow, the future is bleak

I’m not scared of being old, I’m not scared of being weak

I’ve shed inhibitions, I’ve shattered the dreams

I’ve dried up the tears, I’ve muffled the screams

So don’t try to get inside my head, you’ll end up all twisted and lost

Don’t you dare call my bluff when you don’t understand the cost

Sit down my darling, sip on your drink

Raise a toast to being here today, and let me live on the brink

[arseholism]

That broken swing, that ancient tree

That patch of dirt where you always sit down with me

That placid lake, that pretty view

You’d say it’s so beautiful, but I can’t take my eyes off of you

That gentle laugh, that wicked smile

Was it lack of courage or am I just living in denial?

Then came that night, under the starry sky

Your head on my shoulders as I had to watch you cry

He broke your heart, and that was the end

I could never risk it all, so I’ll just have to pretend

The creaky swing, the gentle breeze

The smell of your perfume brings me down to my knees

This perfect love, the innocent embrace

Will have to be enough to get me through to end of my days

And if you wonder how, if you wonder why

Just know that I love you and don’t ever want this love to ever die.

[arseholism]

It’s like holding on to water, doesn’t matter how hard you try..

These feelings of despair and longing, they’ll fade, they’ll die..

You will rise from the ashes, you’ll learn to smile again..

You’ll dance and laugh in time my friend, just work through this blinding pain..

The tightness in your chest right now, will be replaced by butterflies..

For every darkest night you’ve ever seen, there’s always a beautiful sunrise.

[arseholism]

Trapped in an endless cycle of hope and trepidation

I’ve taken blow after blow and stayed on my feet

Words used like ancient weaponry to slash at my soul

I’m broken, I’m hurting, and there’s no shame in retreat

Trapped in an endless cycle of chance and intervention

I’m constantly wondering if the choices I made were wrong

Should I have seen the signs? Did I make a mistake?

Should I have known that the pain was coming all along?

[arseholism]

Alright. That’s enough of that.

There will be a time again in the not so distant future where I might be inclined to respond again.

Until then..

Shhh!

[arseholism]

well you were very kind to me a while back, and i appreciate that

I’m glad :)

[arseholism]

What inspires you to write? (Btw i love your poetry!)

Usually mental imagery, emotions or certain thoughts

Thank you

[arseholism]

I want to make you feel so good you never write sad poems anymore ❤️

I like writing sad poems.

[arseholism]

are you scared? Go check your dm and let me know if it didnt make you hard

F U C K off.

[arseholism]

I want to cuddle you and read 🥰

Just read.

[arseholism]

Check your dms king ❤️

Nah

[arseholism]

Ever been skinny dipping?

Yes

[arseholism]

whats the first word that comes to your mind right now?

Meticulous

[arseholism]

You are SO rude! 😒

I am

[arseholism]

I want my head in your lap 😘 in cute and sexy ways

All these wants.. and needs.. will go unfulfilled

[arseholism]

Current mood?

Bored