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sparring-spirals · 1 year ago

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Went through my kith and kin tag after that last post and once again lying on my floor thinking about. vex snarling at vax about his judgement being swayed by a pretty face-

(another person vax is brave enough to love, even if its dangerous. looking for the good and the kindness and the humanity among the darkness, trying to bring it forward, let vex experience it, even when it can leave him bleeding)-

and vax snarling at vex about her judgement being swayed by her desperation to be accepted-

(another time vex sees a way to secure safety and security and approval, which is safety and security, in a different form. for her, her and vax and trinket and everything she loves, safe in one place, where they can belong, they can stay)-

and. oogh.

Holding these twins in my hands. squishing them like playdough. one of them fights desperately to find the kindness and good and light even when its a fools errand. leaves himself open and hurt for a little bit of light. if it keeps vex safe, happier. one of them counting and calculating and running and cruel because the world demands it. keeps the counter going and going and does the hard things if it keeps vax whole, and okay. one close range and one long.

they'll hurt each other if it keeps the other whole. they'll gladly get hurt if it keeps the other safe. the world is harsh, and they are surviving. what the fuck. theyre such a fucked up pair. they love each other so much.

#critical role #vex'ahlia #twins meta #spar speaks #vax'ildan #every time i set out to write about just one of them it turns into both- not because they arent rich individual characters #but the kith and kin versions of themselves especially are so intentionally wrapped up in each other and the safety and wellbeing #of the other that even actions that are exclusivelt about them- for them- just them- are irrevocably impacted by their long term goals and #the way they have so inextricably tied their lives and their modes of operation around each other and its So Interesting to pick apart!!!#also because if i dive too deep into vex's desperation and her pose as a cage and a shield in one and the cruelty and regret and constant #calculation. or how easily vax bleeds for love- and how easily he loves. i will scream :) even their flaws are so tied to how used they are #to having the other at their back like vax knowing vex will keep that long term vision and vex being brusque and calculating with her charm #bc vax will probably actually like them. its not swt in stone ofc but theres a default there and it makes me. Yell.#anyway if i ever watch c1 ill probably explode. thats all.#the twins #vex meta #vax meta #my meta #ish #ok sleep time!!! :)#kith and kin

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