#bc she also sucks a little bit and we need to not ignore that

[therosevest]

ok and tonight was also fine! i did a good job not rlly engaging with her unless she initiated it and even then. limiting it. she always finds a way to get under my skin tho and tn it was me not paying attention to what was going on, looking up, seeing that she was watching me and basically going ‘lol what?’ to which she said nothing and just kept smiling and making eye contact before slowly looking down and away. for that i might need to fight her.

[15-lizards]

I'm not the genderswap Robb ask but can you genderswap the rest of the stark children? Fashion or not you're just so good at headcanons

Anon can we kiss

Male Sansa you are so beloved my sweet boy. The heir to winterfell but everyone thinks he’s a little bit ridiculous bc of his adherence to gentlemanly, frivolous southern customs despite being the future warden of the north. However he’s still courteous and charming enough to win over his fathers men. So he’s the odd one out but everyone still enjoys him. All the girls love how much of a sweet gentleman he is, and they love to watch him ride gracefully, dance gracefully, and spar gracefully. However he can be a bit snotty at times, despite his good intentions. So this means he frequently buts heads w/ Arry bc he doesn’t behave properly for his rank. Begging his father to betroth him to the princess (Joffahina? Idfk) so that he can become king consort and live in the south like he wants to, which Ned reluctantly agrees to. And we all know how that turns out…

Arry my bad ass little kid who I raised…also I know he’s aged up but Harry Gilby is so perfect for this idk just imagine him as a child. A true wild Northman, he fits in more than his brother does, but he’s not as physically imposing as others, nor does he respect authority enough (which is very northern behavior in some cases, but also very disrespectful in most others). He’s the classic ASOIAF unruly second son. Everyone’s headache, constantly shrugging off his duties to go riding or sparing or exploring, ignoring social conventions to make friends with every kitchen boy and serving girl. Thinks his brother is a stuffy ass of course. Once his brother gets engaged to the princess, Arry is suddenly the new heir. Goes south to court and avoids every betrothal his father tries to make for him, learning the braavosi style with his dancing teacher instead. Once all hell breaks loose he certainly has A Time trying to get home and eventually going to Braavos to shrug off his identity as heir to winterfell to become Nobody

Baby Branwen my child. Curious and stubborn little girl who isn’t quite at the age where she needs to start acting like a proper lady, leaving her mostly free to climb and explore and generally do whatever she wants. She’s quite taken with the idea of how the queen became a renowned female warrior, and has dreams of becoming one too someday, begging her father for riding and sword lessons, of which he only gives her the first at the moment. Her fall ruins the widely expected idea of ever getting her married, and her own idea of becoming a warrior, thus leading most people to believe she has become a generally useless burden. After her and the Reeds escape from winterfell and beyond the wall, she starts leaning more and more into her greenseer and skin changing abilities with aid from the three eyed raven, but despite this slow loss of morality she’s still just a scared child

Tiny Rina. Not much to say besides the fact that she’s still a feral three year old. No big changes from her male counterpart. However she IS riding back to winterfell on that damn unicorn I am making that canon in my head.

Joanna Snow the most hard headed ambitious stubborn teenage girl in the world with a superiority AND inferiority complex she’s everything to me. Doubly ignored and scorned for not only being a bastard but a female bastard. Useless in Westeros’ eyes. To her she only has one option, and gets shipped off to like an “elite” woman’s fighting force instead of the wall but surprise surprise this place also sucks balls and it’s still as cold. It’s mostly full of other bastards, former prostitutes convicted of crimes, and third and fourth daughters who didn’t want to join the faith. Total asshole at first but is eventually ride or die for most of her girls and the organization they’re in bc she is nothing if not loyal to her word.

[stellarxdeath]

thanks to @galileo-figero for prompting this addition to accompany my previous tags on the bad smut booktok post.

[ take all of this with a grain of salt bc i have not nor will i ever likely read any of these smut books and I'm A Faggot]

But essentially, through a bit of rambling in Galileo's messages [ thanks btw ! ], these kinds of booktok reads are part of a genre I shall call: The Hetrosexual Status Quo, or PanoptoPorn [ thanks user fleshdyke you will be missed ] - Smut primarily written by CisHetero White Women who engage with their desires as the patriarchy has dictated to them.

To save everyone the incoming ramble if you don't feel like reading pedantic pontification on Porn For White Women, TLDR; These 'Spicy Booktok' Authors, stuck in the bubble of shame built for them since birth, write porn in which Misogyny is the foundation.

Ignoring the brief "Getting fucked by thanksgiving leftovers" screenshot bc that one doesn't exactly count; The way in which the foundational misogyny manifests in each book is sorta formulaic, bc you can't really Iterate or subvert Misogyny without shattering the framework of the smut you're trying to make. You have the Young Spunky Female Protagonist, likely a virgin, definitely "innocent" but adequately sassy and Independent* - the pinnacle of purity without being.... Boring. [ it's still fucking boring ].

Spunk and sass, the "I don't need no man" attitude is actually what's being broken here. This nameless protag, is just capable enough until the Daddy Dom Love Interest shows up and, through a sticky series of borderline assaulty events, ends up "Curing" Female protag of what little autonomy she had - I use that word extremely liberally here. That's really all there is to it, though, in regards to the contents of this content.

The issues begin to arise when you Blink to readjust your eyes and come to understand that these books make no effort at all to break out of the aforementioned Status Quo. The uncomfortable, stunned humor most of us probably feel when reading these brief one-liner ads is because this is Just fetishized patriarchy. These writers fundamentally don't understand BDSM or kink dynamics, they cannot conceptualize sexual desire from men as anything other than borderline abusive, predatory and controlling and because they either Haven't confronted it, don't know how to confront it or simply just don't Want to confront it - "it" being The Entire Fucking Patriarchy and how it works.

But please don't misunderstand me; I am not trying to claim that each and every one of these women are Bad for writing these books. They are, in the end, still victims under the system and I wouldn't be surprised if this was all one complex coping method [ albeit unknown to the writers, oops ]. However, I must also acknowledge that these are Grown adults and we live in the year of our lord 2024; Remaining uninformed is... Difficult, to say the least.

Instances of Misogyny don't just stop there either, from what I've seen and heard, most of these Spunky Sassy female protags are no older than 25 and behave like "Bratty teenagers". Sexy Sexism requires you to write women like they're fucking stupid and frames the "I don't need no man" attitude as frustratingly and even attractively naive for the Daddy Dom in the story. The Idealization and sexualization of youth and Purity.

This is just... Rape culture in a velvet box. Go back to the post and read each screenshot, seriously. "He knocked her out and tattooed his name on her finger" "She pretended to be dead but he did it anyway" "When he pays 1.6 mil for her vagina" "You'll need a safeword when I'm done with you." What the fuck does that sound like? A woman saying no and not being respected, a woman trying to avoid sex but failing, straight up prostitution [ which isn't bad, I'm no anti-sexwork pundit, but the context of this sucks], and flagrant misuse of safewords in pseudo-kink situations.

Of course, all of this is fictional, so what's the hullabaloo? Honestly, I don't know. I can't truly assess the morality of these books bc they too exist in a state in which all fiction does where nobody irl gets hurt, and that's all I personally care about. I think I summarized the issue in a message I sent to Galileo:

this isn't as simple as "oh it's just cumbrained self-insert erotica" it's "oh no these women have fetishized an abusive institution personified into a hollow facsimile of what they wrongly assume BDSM dynamics look like."

Ultimately I suppose my conclusion is that I think I feel sorta bad for them. Sex and Romance and Desire can be so much more intricate and intimate and tender, even in it's most brutal or whumpy/snufflike forms in media, literature or art. From where I'm standing, having such a reductive, restricted view on love and sex is tragic.

[horsetailcurlers2]

back again with my obnoxiously long stream of thoughts while watching greys anatomy for the first time (SEASON 17 bc the show is going downhill but i’ve invested way too much time to give up now)

-i really don’t like watching the covid seasons of tv shows. it just makes me depressed

-i have been getting to the point where idk if the show is worth watching anymore, but i’m going to stick it out and also cut this season some slack

-i like the flashback thing. maybe this is dumb but i’m wondering if some of that was footage they already had before covid happened and they found a way to repurpose it??

-“i’m not okay with you dying, owen” very unrelatable, teddy

-at the risk of sounding like i care for owen hunts well-being, i am BEGGING for him to just be single for once in his life. figure your shit out without having to have a new wife every five minutes. i thought he’d make progress with that therapy thing but at the end of it he was just like “figuring out the root of my trauma made me realize i DO love teddy :D”

-DEREK??????

-i know she’s not dead but this also isn’t the same limbo from the drowning incident so i’m confused

-so are we saying that heaven is canon in the greys anatomy universe??????

-owen has every right to be pissed at teddy, but it sounds like he’s forgetting he also cheated on his first wife lol. not that that makes it okay, i just mean that some of the things he’s saying are beyond hypocritical

-i am the worst person in the world for shitting on a child actor like this but the little girl that plays zola sucks at fake crying

-NO NOT DELUCA

-a death has not upset me this much on this show since mark and lexie

-part of the difference in the writing that i was talking about with the last few seasons is that i feel like they aren’t letting us draw our own conclusions about how we’re supposed to feel about things anymore. like they’re telling us through dialogue exactly what we’re supposed to think and feel about every situation and it’s kind of annoying. or it’s spelling out exactly what each character is feeling all the time instead of showing us. the dialogue is just sort of forced and clunky and after-school-special-y

-i like that there’s been more of a focus on teddy. other than the henry storyline, she’s sort been a bit unexplored until recently

-damn teddy’s life really has just been rife with tragedy

-tell him amelia !! get his ass

-is teddmelia a ship??? i kind of want it to happen

-lexie and deluca would’ve gotten along like a house on fire :(

-the beach is beautiful and the scenes are great but i DO NOT need to be seeing derek’s bare feet and ankles so much

-“i just really need to be crying right now” amelia is so real

-this season is the most upsetting to me i think because it’s the most real. i think that’s why i don’t like covid seasons of shows. other seasons might draw inspo from real world events but in 2020 there was no way to write a show without talking about all the awful tragedy going on so even if they try to infuse hope into all the bleakness there’s no escapism. which i’m not saying is a bad thing at all. like it would’ve been worse to just write the storylines as if nothing was happening in the real world.

-baileys immediate reaction to the guy who thinks covid is fake being to go to the stairwell and just yell “WHAT? WHAT?!” is so real

-i like the idea of jo switching to OB but i think it’s a little ignorant and naive to say it’s because it’s “happier” than surgery. like realistically it’s bc she likes the idea of bringing babies into the world bc she’s been unpacking the way she came into the world and stuff. but saying it’s happier just feels like a way of saying “easier” and i thought we were past the weird elitist attitude a lot of the characters had towards obstetrics and gynecology in the early seasons.

-i’m happy for tom with his activism and his hospital shares

-a semi public proposal and using the kids to pressure her (inadvertently?) does not seem like amelia’s style even if she hadn’t been questioning whether or not she wanted to get married.

-overall a good chunk of this season was alternately too bleak or too boring. i wish we got to know winston a bit more. everyone felt just slightly off kilter. giving it a pass bc covid season. hopefully the next season (and my possible reaction/commentary??? if it’s worth reacting to) will be better

[viilpstick]

THIS IS MY REVENGE. HOW DARE YOU. HURT YUUNA... RAHHH

But to be fair I'm unsure that this will make u that sad since it has a hopeful ending🧍🏻‍♀️ I tried. Also. May I add. This is like years after their marriage (so they're well in their mid 20s/late 20s), pregnancy was by accident yada yada... I thought this idea would be good for Leona's character development when it comes to children since he would learn to not be afraid of treating his child like crap because he just would want to have them so bad, aka Kyra was a very wanted child by him. Also "them" is used bc I don't like using "it" for an unborn child and I didn't know if leobelle knew the gender of the baby yet

Also tw: m1sc4rr14ge, plus it's probably not well depicted but hey I did my best

•••

When Leona finally arrived home he didn't want anything more than to jump on his bed with Isabelle and sleep, though he was certain she would complain his ear off about wanting to sleep so early, that there was still stuff they could do… sometimes his wife was a real workaholic.

“Isa.” Leona called, the nickname now rolled off his tongue nicely, but he remembered a time where it felt strange, unnatural. He couldn't even remember now how he was so far away from Isabelle. “Isabelle?” He called once again, not finding her around the house.

Leona walked around, going from room to room and quickly stopping to take a look at… his child’s room.

When Isabelle had come to him, all worried with a pregnancy test showing positive, his heart sank for two reasons: one, the fact that Isabelle was worried about his reaction to her carrying his child, and two, the fact that… she was right to be worried, and unfortunately, he couldn't find much joy in the matter.

Leona knew himself, through his experiences with Cheka he was aware he had a problem with children. No, he didn't hate them, they're children; however, he had a very difficult time dealing with them, their lack of personal space, lack of ability to read a room and just their constant energy made Leona tired and irritable. He didn't want kids, he knew he would be an awful father because of his lack of patience and understanding… and deep down… he was scared his child would be mistreated because of being the son or daughter of the failed second prince.

But now Isabelle had a child growing inside her, and he couldn't just ignore that fact. 

Leona looked around the yellow room, the toys they had bought, the little crib… he sighed. He needed to suck it up and be a man, not only for Isabelle and that child but to himself.

Suddenly, he heard sobs. 

“Isabelle?” He called, walking a bit faster to the bathroom, where he heard the noise. His hand on the door handle. “Isabelle, are you alright?”

No response, the sobs just continued like she couldn't even hear him, but he couldn't leave her there alone, he needed to see if she was ok. He opened the door, and his eyes widened in shock, looking everywhere around the room.

Isabelle was crying, hugging her legs, and beneath her and around other parts of the floor there was blood. So much blood. 

“Wha– Isa, hey, look at me.” He urged, crouching down in front of her, grabbing her arms and face to make her look at him. She avoided his eyes and she couldn't stop crying, and Leona looked everywhere around her to understand where she was hurt. “Isa, where are you hurt? What happened? Can you get up?” After he finally got a hold of her face, she held his wrists and broke down once again, her tears falling down fast and she couldn't stop. Leona was so insanely worried, his mate was hurt, but he couldn't see where, he didn't understand. The smell of blood was making him sick, but he couldn't nor did he want to leave her alone like this. “We need a doctor. Wait here, I'll get the–”

“I lost them.” Isabelle mumbled before Leona was able to walk away, his hands being held by hers so he wouldn't leave. She looked at him desperately, almost as if begging for help. “I lost them, Leona. I lost them.”

He stared at her, then, his gaze made its way to her belly.

No.

“Isabelle, what do you mean?”

“I'm sorry.”

“Isa.” He urged, crouching down once again, holding her face gently as he felt his eyes sting. “What do you mean?” 

Isabelle couldn't answer, his question seemed to make her cry even more, as she threw herself in his chest and held onto his shirt. She kept apologizing, kept saying how this was her fault for not taking better care of herself, for not resting enough, for not eating as well as she should. Leona couldn't speak as he himself started tearing up.

He lost them. Before he could even meet them. Before he could even show his love for them or try to fight his awful habits.

They was gone.

•••

“Your highness, please, you should try to eat a bit, I promise it's–” the servant was interrupted by Leona as he took the plate and water from her telling her to go fulfill other duties. The servant bowed down and left, Leona sat on their bed.

“Isa.” He said softly after putting the plate on his lap and the cup of water on their night stand. “You need to eat, my love.” Isabelle didn't even move, she just kept with her back turned to him, hugging her body. Normally, she would blush and ask why he was suddenly using such a sweet nickname, but right now, there was no reaction. Leona sighed. “Please. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for me.”

Isabelle stayed quiet, but after a few seconds, she slowly sat up, her blanket falling on her lap as she looked down to her hands. Her eyes were red and puffy from all the crying, her hair was a mess from trying to sleep the day away… it was like a mirror, really. She looked just like him when he was still at NRC.

All the more reason to take care of her.

Leona grabbed her chin, making her look at him. “I need you to eat. Even if it's just a bit. Do you think you can do it?”

“...I can try.”

“That’s more than enough.” Leona got a bit of the chicken soup in the spoon, blowing on it so it wouldn't burn Isabelle's mouth, then, he offered it to her. She ate it without saying a word, chewing on it very slowly, and swallowing it as if it hurt her. After five bites or so, Isabelle started rejecting the food, and Leona sighed. “Isabelle, you must eat to stay healthy.”

“I wasn't healthy enough to carry our child, so what does it matter now?”

Silence. 

“The doctor said it wasn't because of your health. The embryo just couldn't develop properly.”

“The baby couldn't develop properly.” She corrected him, her eyebrows furrowed as her eyes started to sting. “Why do you refuse to call them that?”

“Isabelle.” The beastman said, a stern tone of his voice and the woman flinched. She knew she crossed a line, but goodness she was so angry. She was so sad. She didn't know what to do. 

“Why do you refuse to call them a child? You even refused to get into our child’s room, the servants had to take all of our baby’s stuff for themselves.” She questioned, her eyes tearing up, and once a tear fell she dried it right away. Sorrow, anger and pain filling her heart. “Why are you being so… so cold?”

“Because if I call them a child, if I look at their stuff I won't be able to live with myself.” He finally explained himself. Isabelle stared at him. Leona felt his own eyes sting so he blinked a few times to try and push the tears away. He put the plate on their night stand. “Isa, I– I don't talk about it because I can't. I knew I wouldn't be a good father but– that was my child. I didn't even get a chance to try.”

Isabelle went quiet at that. She started fidgeting with her hands while seeing from the corner of her eye Leona resting his face on his hand. She's been married to him for years now, she's been dating him for even longer, she knows how he functions and right now? She screwed up.

Isabelle was the mother, and there was a special bond with her and her lost baby… but Leona was the father. That was also his child, his baby. His cub.

“Leo.” She called, he didn't look but she noticed his ears twitch at her call. “I'm… I'm sorry. I was being insensitive.” Isabelle rested her head on his shoulder, grabbing his free hand and rubbing circles with her thumb. “I’ve just… I'm just so sad and angry with myself– I wasn't able to see where you're coming from. I'm so sorry, dear.”

Leona sighed, drying his cheeks. He had cried without Isabelle noticing… that was another blow to her heart. Leona sniffled, grabbing her plate once again.

“If you're so sorry then eat.” He put another spoonful of food in front of her face and she let out a faint smile, eating it right after.

“For the record…” Isabelle started after swallowing the food. “You will be a wonderful father, Leona.”

Leona felt his heart ache, his throat dry and his eyes sting. He cleared his throat, trying to ignore the sensation and gave Isabelle a long kiss on the forehead, filled with affection. 

“And you will be a wonderful mother.”

Will. Soon enough. 

me: does a really small scenario about if yuuna left, leaving her to STILL have a happy life even though she is away from vil.

mah: . . . i can do it worse.

HOW. HOW DARE YOU.

U KNOW WHAT? GO TO TIME OUT.

[stevesjockstrap]

kinktober days 13-15: Chrissy/Multi (part 1 of 2)

(Jonathan/Steve/Chrissy) & free use & double penetration & creampie

cheating and counting this as multiple prompts because I’m behind 🖤

read on ao3

MNDI - rated E - cws under the cut

Cw: unsafe sex, possessive behavior from Eddie even though he’s sharing, dom!Eddie bc I’m me, honorifics, dirty talk and expected explicit activities

“You really need it bad, huh babydoll?”

“Yes, sir,” she gasped. Sliding her wet pussy against his length didn’t give her the satisfaction she needed, but she couldn’t stop doing it. “Please? I’ll-“

Eddie tsked at her, making her teeth click as she shut her mouth and her pussy clench around nothing. “Don’t make promises you can’t keep, babe. And you know you’re going to get my cock. Then everyone else will have a go at you.” He ignored her low moan and settled his hands on her hips. “But your first and last orgasm tonight will be mine. Why is that, sugar?”

“Because I’m yours, sir.”

“Good girl.” He finally reached between them to grab his dick and Chrissy held her breath as she sunk down onto him. “So fucking wet for me already,” he groaned.

She knew they didn’t have much time before people started showing up for the party, but she also knew Eddie wouldn’t care at all if they had an audience. His fingers gripped her hips hard as she rode his cock, probably wanting to bruise her up. As much as sharing her got him off, he was just as possessive of her.

Chrissy was drawn from her thoughts by Eddie pulling her bralette down to suck a nipple into his mouth. She gripped onto handfuls of his hair. He thrust up into her, meeting her grinding and she realized how close they both were. He’d make her come first, hopefully just once if she was meant to last the night, before-

“Gunna fill you up, baby. Make sure whoever else comes in this perfect cunt tonight knows who it belongs to- oh fuck,” she pulled on the handfuls of his hair as she ground her clit against him, spasming around him as she came. “Good girl,” he rumbled before flipping them, shoving his dick back into her roughly. She cried out and she heard someone laugh from down the hall. Someone must have let themselves in.

“Yeah I know, go ahead and be loud, show them who’s making you scream, love.” He pounded into her, spurred on now by the thought of someone hearing them. Another orgasm was building and she moaned when his fingers found their way to her clit to send her closer. “Come with me, that’s my girl.”

They both groaned as they pushed each other over the edge. Eddie continued to fuck his come into her until he had to pull out. His mouth came down on hers and bit into her bottom lip.

“Stay right here, you’re gunna be my good little doll while I’m gone, right?”

A shiver went through her, wondering who would come in first. “Yes, sir. Thank you, sir.”

“Oh you’re welcome, my love. Have fun.” He pressed a kiss to her forehead and walked out of the room, leaving the door open behind him.

She didn’t bother covering herself up, merely closed her eyes and waited.

A hand trailed down her leg and she opened her eyes.

“Look at her. She already looks all fucked out. Bet we could fuck her stupid, Jon,” Steve said, somehow charmingly. Jonathan nodded, giving her a small smile, already sliding out of his flannel. “That what you want? For us to fill you up with more come? Make you all sloppy?”

“Yes, want it.” She nodded aggressively. “Please.”

Steve unbuttoned his pants while she watched, Jonathan not far behind him. In some unspoken agreement, she waited as Jon settled against the headboard before turning over, pushing up on her knees and maybe wiggling her ass a bit at Steve.

“Fuck, you really do want it. You gunna be so good for us?” Steve swatted at her ass before grabbing a handful, using it to push for forward. She gasped and got the message. With a glance up to Jon, she slid his cock into her mouth. “There you go,” he breathed.

She squealed around her mouthful as he pressed in without any preamble.

“Oh shit, do that again,” Jon groaned. Steve slid out and shoved back in, making her cry out again around his length. He grabbed a handful of her hair and pushed her down further, gagging her.

Steve pushed and pulled her onto both of their cocks, all three of their groans colliding in the room. Fingers rubbed around her clit and she choked on a gasp.

“C’mon little doll, I know you’re close. You’re gunna milk all this come out of me and then it’s Jon’s turn.” He slapped a hand across her ass again and sent her over the edge. “Jesus Christ,” Steve groaned as he fucked her through it.

After a few more thrusts she felt him spill inside of her and pull out. “Oh shit. You’re going to be sloshing around in there, Jon.” She groaned as he pulled his cock out of her mouth roughly and encouraged her to straddle him. He shoved in and she gasped at the intrusion and the loads of the come sliding out around him.

Her eyes dropped closed as she rocked herself on his lap, not having the energy to lift herself up. Steve came up behind her, his hands sliding across her breasts to guide her back into his chest. He and Jon used their hands to raise her up and down on his dick while she whimpered from the overstimulation.

Jon’s thrusts became ragged and he grabbed her hips harshly. Chrissy cried out as she came again, squeezing around his length.

“Oh fuck, she gets so tight when she comes,” he said through clenched teeth, rocking his hips up fucking her through it.

“How many times is that, doll?” Steve asked in her ear.

“F-four,” she groaned.

“God, I’m gunna come. Oh oh-“ Jon stuttered and held her hips down as he pumped more come into her.

She dropped bonelessly back into Steve’s chest. He must have helped her lay down on the bed because before she knew it she felt the soft sheets under her back.

“Thank you,” she mumbled out. Eddie wouldn’t be happy if she forgot her manners during this.

“No problem, get some rest.”

@lighthousebeams

[bookishfeylin]

Hello! I popped in a few days ago to say how much I love your blog and I thought I would circle back a little bit with some of my (messy) thoughts on the ACOTAR series from an LGBTQ+ perspective. (Maybe I could make a side blog for this. God knows how I struggle with the horrible writing in the Dragon Age games on main). My credentials: trans man and bisexual, but I’d like to blanket that I don’t speak for the entire community and, of course, I am speaking from my own experiences.

So, the first lgbtq+ character prominent we’re introduced to in SJM’s bibliography is actually Aedion from Throne of Glass, and the only reason I’m starting off with him is because I’m really mad that he was our first prominent bisexual character in the books and there was 0 mention of his relationships with other men; it was a throwaway line before his romance with Lysandra (in which SJM butchered his character in the last book. Not to say that bi men can’t date women! I liked their ship but I was mad at how it was treated as tokenism).

Within ACOTAR, we’re first greeted with Helion, and the issue with his writing is… pretty glaring, I think. The promiscuous bisexual is a harmful trope that’s been toted around for a while; “oh, you’re bi? you must be down for sex all the time with whoever you want” which… ignores the fact that sexuality can be a spectrum and does assign bisexuality a sort of sexual morality that people have used to condemn us for a long time. Not to say that Helion can’t be promiscuous, but there is a focus on it as a huge aspect of his character when there are other ways to do it.

I feel like Morrigan is a little self-explanatory. It’s… not great, imo, that SJM isn’t being a little more clear about her (if she prefers sexual relationships with men but intimate romantic relationships with women, great! But please SAY THAT). The way she strings Azriel along is cruel and unnecessary—she shouldn’t need to feel afraid to come out to people who are supposedly “her best friends” or “are like brothers to her”. Hell, she felt safer coming out to Feyre, who’s she’s known for considerably less time! I’ll also touch briefly on the whole situation with Eris… insofar as to say that I think SJM writing it out with such violence was unnecessary and the optics of “I prefer women because men harmed me” that, while may not be necessarily true, the appearance of it being true reads really poorly because it’s what conservatives and conversion camps like to tout about lgbtq+ people (“you’re only like that bc someone hurt you”).

Thesan is another one, but SJM left his lover unnamed. C’mon. There’s barely any named NPCs in this series as it is, it wouldn’t have killed her to slap a name on his husband/mate.

Speaking of mates, I need to gripe about the mating bond too—in ACOMAF, I believe it is, but just in general, the bond is used to indicate NOT who would be happiest in love, but it is based on which pairing would “make the strongest offspring”. So, if we walk away from the heteronormativity of that explanation, how the HELL do you get gay mates? And if you’re gay, what happens if your “mate” is someone you’re not romantically or even sexually attracted to? Do you just have to deal with this uncomfortable and predestined tension and expectations to suck it up and make babies, anyway? And why should it be based on children and the ideal nuclear family? (We know why. But from a meta perspective, why?)

And as a brief aside, I still haven’t seen a trans character. Not that I’d want to. I think I would end up being terribly offended if she tried to do so. Sorry this ended up being so long! Maybe I should’ve devoted it to my own post 😔

No, you're fine! I'd had my own thoughts about some of these but I'd never considered the full extent of how abysmal her representation truly was. Tysm for this!

[thegeminisage]

STAR TREK UPDATE TIME. last night we watched voy's "scorpion part i" and "the gift." I HAVE FINALLY MET SEVEN OF NINE

scorpion part ii:

ABSOLUTELY loved this one. idk why i was so surprised when seven turned out to be their borg liaison like i had no idea how they encountered her...i guess i was picturing them picking her up like a lost puppy because of hugh in tng

seven hot it must be said. we haven't gotten into the meat of it yet but i do like her. i was a little worried that after all this i wouldn't!

janeway dealing with the borg was sooo fun. literally her no-nonsense take-no-shit mode

i loved also that chakotay was the one to essentially borg meld with seven since he'd had the prior experience...mwah. give him a little borg trauma as a treat

i also really enjoyed janeway and chakotay realizing that seven was right - their fighting and going against each other is why they were losing. what if our future third reminded us that we needed to renew our wedding vows and we were both lost in space?

ESPECIALLY BECAUSE. like on what could have been her deathbed while she was slurring her words she made chakotay promise to do the thing. and immediately he decided to do the opposite even though it broke his heart. like SO TRUE they needed the reminder mom and dad were literally fighting

i have mixed feelings about janeway sort of forcing the detransition from borg onto seven. like yeah no human person wants to be borg especially not the little girl she was when she was assimilated but it's very hard to hear and ignore her wishes NOW when she's stating them so clearly, and when she's so obviously suffering. like i don't think she could have done any different or that i would have done any different but whew! rough

i also think chakotay was SICK with jealousy that tuvok got to go into the cube with janeway and he had to stay out on voyager. i bet tuvcok was so smug about it. idk why but it brings me so much joy to imagine them hating each other and as an extent maybe also fighting over janeway's affection, be it platonic or not

also, i can't remember if this was in this episode or the next one but the bit where seven was in her cell fucking SCREAMING na janeway was behind her grabbing her...sincerely hoping the dyke energy only gets better from here cuz that was gay as hell

the gift:

rip kes...i'll miss you

ik kes left bc they were having difficulties with the actress, but it still sucks that her exit was so dumb. like oh no her powers are going out of control and even though we fixed it every other time this time we can't! anyway bye!

i do appreciate the actresses crying for what felt like...you know, for real, during the goodbye. i almost welled up with them. and ten years closer to home!!! that's 13 years down, 57 to go...

kes is such a rare person in the voyager cast because she has so many connections. she's good friends with tom, she's gort tuvok and the emh as her mentors, janeway as like her fake mom, neelix as her romantic interest...she's connected to so many people. if you name anybody from the rest of the cast you'd get 2-3 connections at most. so it's sad to see her go

and like i hated neelix when he was with kes but their goodbye conversation was so lame. i still can't believe that's all we ever got about their breakup. fucking crazy

on the other hand, seven in this episode was so good, especially with like, b'elanna - her disdain and her sarcasm are useless against b'elanna who can dish it back out just as well and does not give one shit about seven's deal so long as she gets the ship working again. also? lots of women on screen during that scene. let's lez out.

and seven at the end remembering her favorite color :( i was surprised she relented in her willingness to be aboard so quickly - but it just shows that janeway genuinely did get through to her somehow. WOMEN!!!

TONIGHT: ds9's "a time to stand" and "rocks and shoals"

[kny-agere]

I cropped ur ask just bc I wanted to be sensitive to other people’s feelings about ships :) I know you said you don’t hate and I trust that!! But regardless I wanted to make sure people didn’t feel upset at all.

Also ty fir all the compliments :p I don’t get them a lot bc a lot of requests are anon (not complaining!!) so I always love to see feedback <3

★彡☆彡★彡

“I wanna take care of you.” Koyuki is trying to pull Hakuji towards her but he resists her gentle urges.

“You still aren’t well.” He’s been resisting the urge to slip for a few days now. It’s bad enough that he’s been slipping a thumb into his mouth while sleeping.

“Hakuji-san, I won’t be well for a while. But I’m better than usual for now and I want to return the favor.” Her gentle touch is enough to tempt him to lean into her hold. She drags slow fingers through his cropped hair and watch as his eyes start to droop.

“I don’ wanna make you waste your energy on me.” Even as he resists the man also sinks his head into the hold of her palms.

She uses all her strength to bring him into the bed. Once he sinks into the futon she’s already won. Just to solidify her victory Koyuki brings on last thought into the air. “I think It’ll really help if I take care of you. It… boosts my morale.”

Usually he’d see right through her clumsy attempt at manipulation but when Hakuji is already ready to sink into her he gladly accepts the explanation. He moves underneath the blanket with her.

Even on her better days they take this carefully. Hakuji gets his energy out during the day so when he crawls by her side she doesn’t have to deal with an excited toddler squirming around. When that happens Hakuji is usually pushed to tears, not content with her gentle care.

But now he slows his breathing and tucks his head under her chin. “Does anythin’ hurt?” Hakuji’s tone slips into something curious and innocent rather than protective.

“Hmm, well I think my shoulder might be a little sore.” It’s a lie, but one that’s worth it for the excited look he gives her.

“Can I give it a kiss better?” There’s trust that the pain wasn’t actually demanding medical help.

She slips down the sleeve of her kimono just enough to expose the pale skin lying underneath.

Hakuji’s eyes widen as he slowly moves his lips towards the slope of her shoulders’. He’s breathing a bit too heavily and the “kiss” (he really just touches his lips to the spot briefly) is awkwardly damp. The boy pulls back much less gracefully, slamming into the futon.

Koyuki winces at the action. “You have to be careful still. We don’t both need boo-boos right?”

He ignores her gentle admonishment. “Did I make it fixed?”

She pats the area. “Oh my goodness! I think you did. Are you magic?” The women runs her fingers over his stomach until soft laughs are forced out.

“Um… maybe.” He admits it shyly as if it’s too grand of a word for him. “I just give kisses.”

“Magic kisses! That’s a special gift to have.”

Again Hakuji shrinks back. He’s flustered. A finger slides between his lips until Koyuki grabs hold of it.

“Do you need something to bite on?”

“I don’t!” The boy answers a little too fiercely, wrapping his hands into fists. “I was just givin’ my finger a magic kiss too.”

“Oh, Is your finger hurt? Come here and let me see.” She pries his hand open. “I don’t know if there’s anything wrong here.”

“That’s ‘cause I already fixed it with my kisses.” He’s smug to have found such a wise answer.

“You didn’t just want something to suck on?”

“No I’m a big boy!” He asserts proudly.

“Of course you are!” Koyuki leans forward to press a kiss to his cheek. “You’re so strong too. I couldn’t ask for a sweeter boy to take care of.” She smothers his skin with a few more pecks. Eyelashes tickle his skin, pulling out pleased laughter.

“I love you.” Even regressed he can’t help but express his affection. Strong arms wrap around her neck.

Tears well up in the corner of Koyuki’s eyes. “I love you too baby boy.” She places a much firmer kiss on the edge of his lips.

[tmwcs]

RAEEEEE GUESS WHOS HERE ABOUT DT SUPER LATE🤩

Me😌

Im sorry BUT NOW IM GONNA START READING IT AND YOULL GET ALL MY LIVE REACTIONS🤭‼️

"Gently rubbing his fingertips along your skin, swaying them back and forth"

RAE😭😭 WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO USSSSS, pls pls take our well being into consideration 😔😔

“Good girl... you even know how to pronouce it correctly"

good girl? GOOD GIRL???? AND HE HAS THE AUDACITY TO WINK AFTERWARDS???? im done I cant with this guy

“Maybe….we’ll see.”

Maybe yes, hopefully not😌

“Night sweet thing.”

Boy im no object 🤨🤨 (but since its you saying it, I dont mind as much😋)

“Let us know if you need anything.”

You sir pls?🤯

Gazing at the message that you had just received, you saw that it was from Kurt, who expressed how good it was to see you again. “…Hmm…I wonder….” You mentally noted as you came up with an idea and messaged back.

No no pls dont "wonder" it usually ends bad😨

OMG IM LOOKING AT THE PICS YOU ADDED RN AND IM- SUISHSEESDDD let me suck your dick pls??? (Both)

“You would look so pretty in a wedding dress.”

THIS AND THE PICTURE UNDERNEATH IT????VBYXDGHHHHH, Heejeong does smh unexplainable to me😣

“Yeah?.....I beg to differ.”

SIR???? STOPPPP

“Hey, y/n. I’m finally here, sorry I missed the ceremony, but I’m glad I could make it in now.”

You missed the ceremony what else you here for boy?💀 also rae pls pls dont do what im think you're going to do pls pls dont

You had invited Kurt, as a manner to introduce him to the family since you had recently decided to give him a chance and accept his offer to begin a relationship

Bye.

WHYYYYY TELL ME WHYTYYY???????? I dont even know what to say🤯🤯

Im kurt number 1 hater #kurtkys #kurtleaveynalone #kurtpullasamuelsoicanhaveareasontohateyou

Im never forgiving you for this rae

"Im good Mrs....um..."

Bro doesn't even know the name of his girlfriends mother 💀💀 this is way worse then what samuel did I think I have reason to hate him now😌

Heejeong merely looked down at Kurt’s hand before glaring back up at him….then over to you.

YES BAE IGNORE HIS DIRTY HANDS WHO KNOWS IF HE EVEN WASHED THEM???😨‼️

"Nice to meet you. I’m Kurt.”

No one cares bro you can stop💀💀

You figured they were disappointed that you hadn’t told them about Kurt sooner

Nah babes they're mad bc they want to fuck you

"We’re dating.”

Im so done with y/n

"They were busy.”

Pls keep em busy🙏🏻🙏🏻

"It’s okay….” You bit your lip as you chuckled once more. Leaning in, you whispered out. “Should we try again?"

NO???? how about y'all DONT try again💀

"So..."

FINALLY OME OF MY BAES🤭🤭

"Come again?....”

Y/n bae in the nicest way possible, stfu🤗

"Nuh-uh. Come here, we need to have a little talk, you and I.”

Okay lets talk😋 OMG THE PICTURE????? IM DYING DJJDUDJEJD

“Shhh….come here…..COME HERE.”

Come here and get some~~

ANOTHER PICTURE???? *this user has died*

Okay ill continue dying after i finish this ask 🔥🔥

“Stop! This is wrong! You’re insane, get off!”

Dont stop! This is feels so right! You're not insane, dont get off**** sorry had to fix your typo😰😰

"Dont be like that…..haven’t I shown you kindness and affection?....Haven’t I shown just how much I ADORE you?”

BAE PLS PLS FORGIVE MY DEAR Y/N, SHES JUST BEING SILLY 🤗🤗

"Those are some pretty strong words princess…..are we fighting? Hmm? Tell me…..” placing a hand on your hip, he starts to motion your body to grind against his crotch as he whispers out the last bit. “Are we fighting?”

I might have to resume being dead soon bc oh my god i cant handle this

"Tell me baby….since we’re fighting…tell me what I gotta do to fix it…tell me.

Nothing babe you're perfect 😌‼️ #loveyourself #changeyourselffornoone #beyourself

"Come on baby…tell me what I gotta do to fix it….so we can get along…”

OH WAITTTT, that shitty gf of yours💀 we can get along then👍🏻

No princess….dont think I will……I don’t think you want me to…..that’s okay because that’s what I’m here for…..”

You're right, pls dont stop😣

"Boyfriend hasn’t touched you yet…has he?”

THANK GOD NO 🙏🏻🙏🏻

"Let me fix it."

Yeah this is my last straw, im dead 👍🏻

Okay kids, lets all thank rae for the amazing chapter 🤭🤭

Bro the way I laughed at this….this is…this is gold. I’m literacy saving this right now so I can refer back to it bc this was just absolutely hands down the best Silky. Omg. Lol! I loved that enjoyed the chapter. Bro..the part where Heeseung was like “let me beat it up and say sorry to it with my tongue later” I died lol. Could you imagine? I should have chapter 6 posted by tomorrow maybe since im working on HHP ch 20 rn ;)

[mekatrio]

too sick to draw or do anything else which means its the perfect time to watch mca and be a little autistic nitpicky bitch about it. planning to do a post like this per episode, this one's for episode One. well episode one part one bc nothing in my life is easy and i keep forgetting theres a fucking image limit for posts 🙄

- I HATE THIS FUCKING ANIME ok i needed to get that off my chest...... groaned so loudly at the first four seconds fucking... Church Bells and POLES?!?!? POLES?!?!!! i hate shaft's enviromental choices ok moving on

- how the fuck did i not realize that ayano's VA is rena ryuugu lmfao its all i can hear nowadays

- right theyre on a fucking clock... for some reason.... also honestly i dont like ayano's voice that much. like the voice is fine but i dont think it fits ayano's character

- also this clock sucks i wish it was like more More you know more gears more machinery like ep12 insanity ok wait. are shinaya 3d models here lmfao.. maybe?

- i like this line. saur mysterious

- hahaha.... the Kaien Panzermast

now that i think abt it i have no idea why its called kaien panzermast. like i what its referring to (the song siren thing thats telling kids to go tf home) but what the hell is a Kaien Panzermast?

- this scenery is near meaningless to kagepro literally just a whole bunch of nothing when i say i hate shaft's choices for this anime..... like what is any of this shit. also orange??!? orange of all colors..... god damn man

like yes ok its the evening BUT THIS IS KAGEROU PROJECT. GIVE ME MY RED AND BLUE!

-- this part is cool tho. a bit too heavy handed in the symbolism but i appreciate the gesture

- lol at this:

BECAUSE SHE DIDNT! not until 2017 lmfao. this makes me suspect that the revelations from mr2 were initially supposed to be in the anime. but in the end for whatever reason it couldnt fit itself there, so the only revelation we got was The First Tragedy Exists. and no elaboration.... now that i think of it, iirc me and many fans were pretty thrown off from this opening back when it first aired cuz this was like, the first time we've seen ayano act like this. wait. let me check my timeline

ok nvm lol. second time. first time shes ever like this is in the manga:

but anyways back in 2013/2014 before the LTM episode, there was like no context whatsoever for Why Is Ayano Like That. so that was a doozy

- damn can u imagine working on some songs writing a novel and getting these amazing voice actors to voice ur characters... ohhh i wouldnt know how to act

-HJEKHJSKDFHASJKDFH THIS LOOKS CHEAP AS HELL HELP ME

i mean thats um. one way to show a timeline getting thrown away... I Guess. ignoring the fact that Mary Has Long Hair (which she shouldnt), its a cool visual idea but the execution is um... hfjkssjk

- hehe

headphone actor mv on the left and mca countdown thingy on the right. holy shit they are near identical damn, i just thought they were similar but no, its practically identical. thats so cool T_T if only the rest of this anime was this cool.... whatever onwards i go

- shintaro's stupid futuristic high-rise apartment... i loathe thee

- the fuck is this

- first instance of shaft's trademark of putting random shit on the screen and im already annoyed its gonna be bad for me for the rest of this rewatch if i can even last that long. i know i will at least til ep 10 (11???) cuz i need to see baby mekatrio

- no aku benci lmfao shaft hates to animate so much they threw this story into the future so they could just conveniently project things onto shintaro's cyberwall hahaha..... i fucking hate this anime

- looks like shintaro was drawn by 4 different artists in these various shots that only span like 5 seconds

- damn in the anime its not even ene's fault that shintaro spilled the soda lmfao. thats all on him this time

- also shinene's voices are srsly perfect

- XX you say...... 🤨

- storyboarding sucks shit they went from flashback to not a flashback to flashback again my fucking god dude. the only reason i can make sense of any of it is cuz im rewinding every little thing

- literally no reason to add 'roomie' to this translation but it made me laugh so I GUESS

maybe i should hunt for the official crunchyroll subs. but im too lazy

- lmfao

text from Mekakucity Talkers 24, translated by x0401x. only difference from tht and the screenshot is that shintaro still has hair lol

- hm. i wish it made a bigger deal of shintaro leaving the house. yeah he threw a fit but i wish the actual stepping outside aspect was more dramatic yknow. like how Children Record emphasized it

- WHY IS THIS CITY SO EMPTY

- also curiously this episode is missing this sentence from shintaro abt someone rebuilding the city bit by bit which is in the novels and the manga, which is meant to foreshadow saeru's influence. but then again the first 17 manga chapters are taken nearly word-by-word from the novels so maybe thats all it is 🤷

- also it took like 6 minutes for shintaro to leave the house... theres other things being done ofc, establishing shinene's dynamics, quick exposition of how ene ended up with shintaro to begin with, and spilling soda onto the computer and leaving the house. but i feel like it wouldve been better if the anime stuck to what the novels + mr1 does, where ene blares a loud fucking alarm. that quickly establishes shinene's dynamic and easily leads to a So You Must Be Wondering How I Got Here type of thing, and then knock over the soda leave the house bam easy. instead the anime really took its time with like..... idk making shinaro look ikemen. yeahhh not the best choice, especially considered how rushed the last few episodes are gonna be. ok back to watching the anime

- also aku benci x2 like its only futuristic when its convenient which is soo fucking Lazy. theres literally no reason for this story to be set in the future. like all this city scenery is based off actual modern day Kashiwa its just... ugh. barely any care put into this anime at all

- this anime is cool sometimes

- reused this pencil texture from the start of the episode... wonder how many times ill be seeing that

- the fucking comedic timing of these terrorists lmfao. and right theyre clowns... for some reason....

- also dude ill still never understand why only their thumbs are the only parts ziplocked like what. also isnt that harder to animate... THIS STUPID ANIME

- this is a completely fair reaction to having kano shuuya speak to you for the first time

- no the fuck he isnt he hasnt thought of shit my god.

that comic person on here was not lying shaft really fucked up the order of events here bigtime. kano only speaks to shintaro after shintaro's done brooding.... also seto doing fuckall lol. ik he'll say smth in like 2 seconds but i do find it funny that we've seen him for like the past minute and he hasnt said shit

- ok but its cool that kano's hand just doesnt obey the ziplock.... very clever of the artists to just make him put his hands behind his head and other gestures to indicate that theres something up with him

- why are his eyes red.

[andiwriteordie]

Yooo Lucas + his water ending + bloodbending was so interesting like dang okay. I really enjoyed the ethics of it like yeah it has this whole morally gray area bc it takes away others control but I could Help combat super bad ppl and also help save someone's life but also. Rough.

I also really liked how Jason is not just an evil crazy psycho like. Personally? I loved when Jason was just like. A kinda asshole dude but he was also not That bad like clearly he was just some generic white jock of a bully that would probably grow out of it when he was an adult (and after his girlfriend break ups with him) but he genuinely liked her gf ??? And he just went a little crazy after she was. Yk. Brutally (and super brutally) murdered. I liked the idea of one of the minor "antagonists" to just be some dude who didn't know the truth but kinda jumped to conclusions so he's a pain in their sides but also not. A murderer himself? And then he reallyyyyy went into the deep end with kinda suck so I felt nothing when he died but he could've been so good as a very morally gray character like wow

Anyways. Kinda like how in the atla au he's not a good guy + still a bit assholery but also not the Bad Guy so like yes 👌👏👏

part 1 | part 2

i love love LOVE lucas sinclair, ok? like he's just such a good character, and i also (obviously lmao) love the bloodbending ethics arc that lucas gets to go through as he also reconciles his feelings towards his waterbending being used for healing more so than combat and then bringing in the added layer of bloodbending into it!

JASON YEAH OKAY so jason annoyed me in the show because he took up too much time in my opinion, but i like the concept of him. i like the idea of a character who just doesn't understand and doesn't quite have the full picture, so he makes decisions in the show's canon that are really, really shitty. but also like? lowkey can't blame him for losing his shit after chrissy was murdered. he definitely should not have gone on some holy moral mission and hunted down eddie, but jason always interested me in how he was just a portrayal what the combination of ignorance and grief could do to a person. and then how he's so charismatic and able to rally people together through their fear? TERRIFYING. THE SMALL TOWN/SMALL MINDED KIND OF MENTALITY. SO GOOD.

in stranger things/atla world, i love thinking about where jason fits into lucas's arc after lucas saves max's life with his bloodbending. jason doesn't die in that battle (tbh i'll kill him off eventually, homie doesn't need to stick around), mostly to be a challenger of lucas's moral compass. because now, we have lucas sitting in the aftermath of this battle with the spirits, where max nearly died, and he has learned about the awful things that happened to el and will in their time away from hawkins. and lucas just... wants to cry. he feels awful. he never wants to be put in that situation again, because he's scared. he's scared that he's taken the first step down a slippery slope into something that will make him into a person he doesn't want to be.

it's one day, maybe a week or a couple weeks after the battle, that jason comes into max's hospital room and has a talk with lucas. they don't beat around the bush, and jason states the obvious: that lucas used bloodbending to save max's life. and lucas can't lie. jason was there. he saw it. so lucas just nods.

and that's when jason asks him how it felt—if he felt the power the moon had blessed him with that night. if he could feel the ocean in his veins and in max's veins. if he felt closer to his waterbending and to his healing that he'd ever felt before. and if it felt good.

the answer to all those questions is yes. the answer is yes, and lucas hates it, so he doesn't say anything.

but his silence speaks volumes.

jason begins to tell him that maybe this is a good thing. lucas is a great waterbender, and jason has seen that potential in him for a while now. and jason doesn't believe in all that spiritual mumbo jumbo—especially since the spirits are literally trying to kill all of them—but maybe lucas was given a natural inclination to healing for a reason. it's difficult to bloodbend, after all, but lucas was able to do it with ease—like a natural extension of his healing gift. so maybe, this is a good thing.

and the thing is, lucas has wondered the same thing. he has. he's stared at max's body—unconscious but alive—and has wondered what else he could do with his bending. if he could study this more, if he could learn it, could he save other lives? could he heal? is that even something that he wants? it shouldn't be, right?

and... and sometimes it's not. sometimes it's not, when lucas notices el doesn't use her waterbending as much anymore, the way that she used to shy away from it when they first met. sometimes it's not, when lucas notices that will gets tense around any waterbenders except lucas... because el and will... they don't know what lucas did to save max's life.

there are too many questions for lucas to deal with, so he just doesn't answer jason. and jason gets it, so he tells lucas just to think about it and to let him know.

and so, lucas is just left with all those questions and all those thoughts—none more prominent than one.

if bloodbending can be used to save a life—if he used bloodbending to save max's life—it can't inherently be wrong, can it?

[snakegills]

your mind amazes me i need your top book recommendations. any amount u could throw 5 books or 20 books at me right now id probably find time for all of them

Ah thank you so much! Here's a quick list of books i mostly read this year absolutely love in no particular order for you! Under the readmore bcs it's quite a bit

- repo virtual by Corey j white

One of the best books I've read all year. A cyberpunk sort of story that follows a few different characters, the first one being a repo man in a virtual game that the entire world plays. More stuff goes down and we are introduced to an amazing cast of characters. Honestly just a beautiful read and I super recommend it for anyone.

- The first 4 halo books (fall of reach, the flood, first strike, ghosts of onyx) genuinely they are incredible for many reasons but I personally love the description of battles. You do not need to have played the games beforehand BTW! In fact it's a much better book without having played the games

- the locked tomb series

Genuinely very good. I avoided reading them for a while, but they are actually as good as people say! The author very much has the vibes of a fanfic author but in a good way yknow? Also women are treated like actual characters. Love that.

- even though I knew the end by c.l polk:

Set in the 30s? Or so? Kind of a detective thing with angels and demons and a woman trying to solve a string of murders to save her soul. A Short read (4hr audiobook) but it honestly got me to finally understand the appeal of noir and detective stuff

- challenger deep by Neal Shusterman

This book is about a teenager dealing with his sudden development of schizophrenia and how it changes his life. Its based on the authors son and the personal experience makes this book incredibly heartfelt and compelling. Also the fact that Neal shusterman has written books I've loved since I was 10 helps

- some desperate glory by Emily tesh

Very interesting read from the pov of a very brainwashed girl in a cult made of the last remaining humans still fighting the war on aliens that destroyed earth. It really sucks you in with the world building and plot! I really love the main character she's the solid snake of lesbians and I need her like carnally.

Interview with the vampire + the vampire lestat by Anne rice

If you like vampires and are okay with things getting a little dark (the concept of a vampire child and everything that comes with it. And incest in the second book) these books are really good! The language she uses is incredible and very Gothic. I tried to read the third book and super hated it but it's not like it was bad I guess

- Carmilla by sheridan le fanu

One of the first vampire novels to be published in Europe! A very interesting read, especially if you have had a life long love of vampire stories. Definitely recommend it over Dracula.

- song of achilles

A great read if you're into Greek legends, especially Achilles and Patroclus. Read it in high-school and it's stuck with me ever since. One of the most compelling love stories of the human race in my eyes.

- Wolf in white van by John darnielle

So im a huge fan of the mountain goats so of course I read all of John's books BUT this one? This one is the best. The way the story is told is just inspirational. He truly writes books that are the journey not the destination. I highly recommend this particular book, but his other works (Devil House and Universal Harvester) are good too. If you are gonna read all three save wolf in white van for the last, it is the best.

- this is how you lose the time war by amel el-mohtar

Everything you've heard about this book is wrong. It is better than what you've heard. Ignore all the Trigun fans that say this book is vashwood it is BETTER than that. A love story between two woman that transcends time and space and just ugh... ugh. Its good.

-in the mountains of madness by hp Lovecraft

If you read only one thing by Lovecraft make it this one. Its his best work. Reads almost like a tale you'd tell around a campfire. )If you liked this one and want to read more i personally recommend the case of Charles dexter ward)

And finally I'm leaving off with a few rapid fire suggestions

- enders game by orson scott card (only enders game do not read anymore you will hate the rest)

- I have no mouth and I must scream, harlan Ellison compilation works

- mister b gone by Clive baker

- jurassic park

-1984 + animal farm

- do androids dream of eletric sheep?

- we have always lived in a castle

- camp damascus by Chuck tingle

- cats cradle by Kurt vonnegut

- the outsiders

- lord of the flies

Anyway I love to read and I've read A Lot of books so if you want a better description of Amy of these or to talk about them I'm always down.

[roobylavender]

not just the first chapter, it’s the entire SERIES! he can’t go a single panel without groping her in some way or another sticking his grubby little face under her skirt, messing w her while she’s asleep, etc etc, and it was just so painful to witness . it’s the fact they’re put in a romantic relantionship too that pissed me off, but most of this happens before they’re even together ! i read this series back when i was younger and bcs i genuinely enjoyed many aspects of it i’d ignore the fanservice and pervertedness of it all but i tried to do a reread recently and couldn’t get past it 😭 it really sucks too bcs imo suzuki making one of meliodas’s main defining traits sexual harassment put a damper on the entire series … and it really made me go 😨 when (sorry this is a bit of a spoiler) it was revealed that meliodas and elizabeth (the girl )were soulmates, and she was living a reincarnated life every time and her most recent reincarnation had come across meliodas when she was a baby… A BABY ?!?! yeah idk man the authors weird as hell for that also another one of the main pairings has a grown man with a girl who doesn’t look a day over 12 yrs old but in reality is a thousand yr old fairy 🧍‍♀️ it’s clear suzuki has a passion for these weird tropes esp w the sequel to 7ds following into the exact same pervert trope as meliodas and elizabeth and those characters r only 16 so:/ like cmon shounen writers we could be so much more than this it’s depressing

TT-TT it’s just so [incoherent screaming] like i truly believe meliodas could’ve been so much better without the unchecked sexual harassment for giggles sigh overall 7ds is pretty mid and has a lot of questionable story lines and characterizations (women just falling for men randomly i cry bcs it happens all the time in this series and in the sequel a woman who had a crush on one of the og characters makes a move on his son via nonconsensual kiss and it was so 😖😖 the brain-washed excuse was just so iffy to me like that entire scene was so unnecessary ) but alas i couldn’t help myself at the time lol

sorry for the rant i didn’t realize i needed to speak 😭

damn this sounds so offputtingjflkdsjgdfhlsgfd

[littlesecretdiary]

Okay so I wanna talk about why I've been feeling insecure. Apart from just the not having sex thing, which has, you know, really impacted my self esteem, I've been feeling insecure because I feel like I'm being excluded from your hangouts with Nichole.

I'm not asking to be there like every time or anything!!!!!!! But I really would like to spend time with her, and she's really not ever available for me (she doesn't ever text me and almost every single one of our 1:1 plans have fallen through, but she quite literally is at your apartment multiple times a week lol, so that feels pretty shitty for me), and I know I've expressed that to you AND I've also said I would really like to be included in your hangouts before, and that also hasn't happened, except for accidentally.

For example, the other night when I didn't know she was over and I asked if I could run up to kiss you, and you said yes, I could come up, Nichole was there, whatever, but instead you came downstairs (I know to get your DQ but hear me out) and even though I did, yes, get what I asked for (kisses and a little bit of attention), I also got further excluded that night. I didn't get even the option to say hi to Nichole, and it felt like I was purposefully being left out again. I was really sad about it.

And again, I really, really don't have to be involved every single damn time, but literally just one invitation would change this whole thing for me. Also, I know I already talked with you about feeling like she maybe doesn't like me, and I know you said that isn't true, but part of me still worries that it is, and that I really was the reason for her leaving early on the day I accidentally crashed your plans.

I really didn't mean to stay, I was going to leave before she got there, but then she got there and I couldn't leave without making it awkward, and I felt so fucking uncomfortable because conversation felt forced and weird and I felt like I was interrupting or intruding on your time together or something.

I know you said her leaving early wasn't related to me being there, but I still feel like she was uncomfortably surprised that I was there when she came over, and I kinda feel like you don't really always want me around while she's over, too, which sucks. And of course you guys hung out the next day again anyway bc she left early the day prior, and that also felt like you were redoing your hangout because I was there, which wasn't your plan, and that felt pretty miserable too.

And I know I can't expect your attention all of the time, but when you hang out with her you don't really reply to my messages as often as you usually do either, and when that happens I feel like I'm being ignored, or like I'm bothering you when you're preoccupied.

Also.....on my really bad day (this last Saturday), I was hurting a lot too because there was a point where we were talking about my Big Sads, and you invited me to come up when she left (which like..... I really don't like that the only type of invitation I get when she comes over is "come up when she's gone"), and then you didn't follow through with that either. I wasn't going to ask to come upstairs you know? Like. I felt like such a burden that night, and I felt so unwanted and isolated and insecure, and I really kind of felt like I needed to see you and get reassurance and comfort, and I stayed up for.......longer than I'd like to admit hoping you would ask me to come up. But you forgot, maybe, or assumed I was asleep or something idk what, and I felt so so so small.

I've wanted so badly to talk about this with you, but I'm afraid to, even still. I don't want to be an issue. I don't want to upset you. I don't want to be misunderstood....and I really don't want to be the kind of person who makes you feel like you need to put more restrictive boundaries on what you do or who you do it with. I don't want you to feel like you have to limit your time with Nichole because I've been struggling with my own dumb insecure shit. I don't want to make myself into a problem for you and/or her.

I also don't want to feel like I'm not important or am unwanted because you're too busy with your best friend (who, let's face it, is fucking gorgeous so I already struggle with feelings of jealousy and insecurity about that bc she's so fucking pretty and I'm.....me......... and this is pure insecurity talking, but I don't really know what you see in me in the first place and watching the two of you interact makes me wonder why you don't date her, even though I'm sure there are reasons........... but this also reminds me of the time you told me "even her parents are on Team Kevin" and want you two to date...... And like. Fucking OUCH. That honestly completely crushed me but I couldn't say anything about it because Jesus Christ I don't want to be the jealous girlfriend......).

I'm sorry that this is a lot. And I'm sorry that I feel this way. I've been feeling so guilty and shitty and small for feeling jealous. I feel mean and cruel and ugly for it. I feel so sad and so anxious to talk to you about it because one, I don't want to hurt or upset you and two, I don't want to be like your ex, and I worry that saying anything about Nichole will feel like I'm attacking your relationship with her.

The last thing I want to say is that I am trying to not give a fuck that she stayed overnight the night it stormed (like I get it and I understand why), but waking up to a message from you saying you were getting breakfast for the two of you made me wanna fall through the damn ground, and it caused all sorts of intrusive worry thoughts to spawn.

I trust you and I respect you and I don't think you would do anything to hurt me intentionally, but also I would have liked to know that she was staying overnight. Not like I need to give you fucking permission for that or anything but it would have been nice to know that it was happening? I don't know. Maybe I would've handled it worse if I'd known, I really don't know.

Again, I'm really sorry about this. I know it's a lot and it's probably frustrating and brings up some uncomfortable stuff for you. I don't want to feel shitty and insecure, and I think the longer I don't say this, the more insecure I'm gonna get. I love you so much and I'm really sorry. I've felt like a bad girlfriend and just a bad person lately because I've been harboring all this shit. I've been so scared to talk about it. I don't want to be dramatic I don't want to be overwhelming and I don't wanna be a bitch. I'm just struggling and I'm really sorry. I hope you understand.

[melodyplucked]

multiples of 5 for the sad hcs meme! (was gonna do multiples of 2, but figured this was a smaller number - if you're up for those as well feel free to do them though!)

sad headcanon questions

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5. how long can your muse hold a grudge?

this really strongly depends... because i feel like he doesn't tend to hold onto grudges too much. but if it's someone who like- really properly deserves it- for years or forever even. he'll be hurt over everything with his mom for a long time- yes she's his mom and he'll try. but he does hold onto those feelings, and especially going into the future as he and nini get married and have kids- she's going to need to prove herself if she wants a relationship with her grandchildren. he won't forget the past. he needs to protect his family, even from someone who is supposed to be his family too. so i suppose to put it this way- he doesn't tend to hold grudges- but if he Does... he can hold onto that forever. people who've mistreated him are easier to forgive than those who've hurt say nini or their babies or something... it really does just depend on the situation.

10. what is the worst illness your muse has ever had?

honestly... this was a tough one bc- i feel like he actually doesn't tend to get sick very often. built up a strong immune system as a kid. which is good because his parents were very much the suck it up and go to school type unless he was like- really sick... this doesn't count as an illness per se but in a similar vein- he had a pretty gnarly injury skateboarding back in the day. it's the reason he's not pursued it professionally in all the main verses like he likely would've otherwise. broke some bones to the point of even needing surgery. that was his worst medical thing in his life.

15. what might others consider your muse’s worst failing to be?

i know a lot of people say that ricky bowen is a selfish person. i'm not necessarily someone who actually would consider that to be an accurate assessment of his character, but we can unpack it a little bit here nonetheless. ricky's very driven by his feelings. we see that fairly consistently. whether it's external stimuli or internal. he can be somewhat impulsive when put into certain situations, and do things that can be motivated by pain rather than the truth of his heart. that can go in multiple directions... he cares a solid amount about what people think, if he thinks he's "supposed to" value those people's opinions especially. he's willing to put himself on the line for others- he does so a lot. but well- people still think he's selfish and that's their prerogative i suppose.

20. what is something your muse wants to tell others, but is too afraid to? 

this was kind of hard- because even though ricky does keep stuff back, he also doesn't necessarily have any strong desire to share those things he's holding back? maybe that the snide comments they make about him actually do bother him. especially after a while. friends tease each other- he's guilty of that too at times, it's all light-hearted and fun. but sometimes people who are supposed to be his friends really do take it too far. ricky doesn't care ricky just waltzes in and he doesn't deserve what he gets in life, etc. etc. he's not okay with that from his friends. they're supposed to care about him and believe in him and it really sucks that they don't. his life isn't all too easy just because that's their perception of it. he tries to ignore it- but certain unnecessarily harsh criticism does sting.

25. does your muse recognize their faults, or do they have trouble with self-reflection?

both? both is good. i'd argue he's fairly decent at self-reflection. he can be impulsive at times- but he does his best to fix things after if he's made a mistake. it's why he does go talk to nini after the events of the 1.01 flashback and apologize to her and explain before she goes to camp. she doesn't leave thinking he doesn't love her, that he doesn't want to be with her. he's just scared... they're capable of communication, and he's capable of self-reflection. i think ricky can struggle sometimes in the moment in emotionally laden situations- things that trigger his issues with his parents especially, but i do think he's good at reflecting after the fact, knowing what he needs to do better in the future, and apologizing.