#bc its 4am and ive been reading (and crying) for hours

[reading-writing-dying]

Google search: how normal is it to cry after reading romance stories

[ammerynth-moved]

honesty hour: tell me about your dreams, tell me what you're thinking about, rant about stuff!!!, talk to me about aliens~

lmao if id seen this as soon as id got it it wouldve been perfect bc it was like... 4am here when it was sent, but i was asleep rip

honestly i have no idea what i want to do in the future except maybe get a cat, i did work experience in a research lab for a few days and i guess id like to do that?? but its not really something id call a dream i guess.. i also want to get, like. Real Good at art which im working on but im absolutely not there yet :o

i woke up crying this morning because i had a nightmare that i slept in and was 20 minutes late for an english exam. i dont even do english any more. but holy shit it was terrifying, exam stress is real and it follows me everywhere

also i was wondering how many followers do i need before i start getting random anon hate lmao

todays ssss update was the Big One i mentioned a while ago when i recommended it, it was........... upsetting and i dont want to talk about it. u should all still read it though its excellent and my offer of warning which pages might be disturbing still stands

i believe in aliens tbh i think its impossible that theres NOTHING else out there but idk i dont think about it much, so i dont have any developed ‘theories’, just what ive picked up from other people. like, the ‘great filter’ is something like thumbs, or the jump from single cells to multicellular life. would aliens even have cells? maybe not, who knows. theres probably multiple filters, like the biological ones and then the civilisation ones.maybe they communicate some way humans cant perceive or even comprehend. they probably look cool as shit though.

[chanxyeollie]

do i need to even say who i was tagged by ofc u know it was @stan-the-best-stan-monsta-x my fave thx boi

THE LAST …

1. drink: pepsi

2. phone call: my coworker/close friend lol because my manager apparently did not recall my texts lmfao

3. text message: rofl it was to my friend abt jikook’s cover 😂

4. song you listened to: actually yeah it was also jikook’s cover of we don’t talk anymore

5. time you cried: i teared up yesterday watching p101 tbh,,, i won’t lie

HAVE YOU EVER …

6. dated someone twice: not even once 😎

7. been cheated on: see above lol

8. kissed someone and regretted it: ?? no

9. lost someone special: .......no...... *knock on wood*

10. been depressed: i mean i once cried on my floor for five hours in a row but,,, after i was fine so i’ll say no

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no!!! :D

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS (12, 13, 14):

black

pink

mint green OR like a nice muted gray i guess

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU …

15. made new friends: @stan-the-best-stan-monsta-x lookin at u bud

16. fallen out of love: umm,, like with a band. but like otherwise no

17. laughed until you cried: yes. always at like 4am. until i couldn’t breathe. also probably bc i run around when i laugh?? like what

18. found out someone was talking about you: no? o wait yes someone at work smh

19. met someone who changed you: ,,,,,,no

20. found out who your true friends are: unfortunately i did it the hard way but ya

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: haha

GENERAL STUFF

22. how many of your facebook tumblr friends do you know in real life: :( none of u because im poor

23. do you have any pets: three cats~~~

24. do you want to change your name: (réka u are correct) um yeah bc shocker secret:::::: aluri is not my birth name gasp

25. what did you do for your last birthday: no one said happy birthday to me so one of my only friends who did took me out for lunch rip thank u friend

26. what time did you wake up: 9:30? 10?

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i was...on tumblr...reading? lookin thru a tag? on youtube? idk to be honest

28. name something you cannot wait for: fuckin, a day where i don’t wanna die instead of go to work lololol

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: at 11 before she went to work. she listened to a murder podcast with me lol

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i wasn’t a socially anxious person i feel like i would cruise thru life if i wasn’t so D: all the time

31. what are you listening to right now: minisode 16 on the my favorite murder podcast. if you like true crime and cats, check it out.

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes but not since high school. OH FUCK WAIT A GUY NAMED THOMAS (same thing) CREEPILY ASKED FOR MY NUMBER LAST YEAR GSHDDFGHGADFK

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my skIN CAN U PLEASE CALM DOWN I WATER U I NOURISH U WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT

34. most visited website: tumblr/yt/mweor

35. elementary school: ?? do i need to say the name i mean im not going to but i went to three anyway, one in england, two in canada

36. high school: catholic af we had mass and everything

37. college: yeah im enrolled in uni rn i hate it

38. hair color: dark brown

39. long or short hair: like,,,, titty length lmfao idk

40. do you have a crush on someone: yes his name is chanyeol

41. what do you like about yourself: my eyebrows are straight fire they’re the perfect shape and it was the only thing i was blessed with

42. piercings: earrings

43. blood type: no idea. my parents don’t even know.

44. nickname: n o

45. relationship status: single cat lady

46. zodiac sign: capricorn, allegedly very hard working

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: my favourite show ended but it was how i met your mother

49. tattoos: none

50. righty or lefty: a smudgy lefty im afraid

FIRST …

51. surgery: i had a piece of my mouth/gums snipped off but like it took 2 seconds so it doesn’t really count

52. piercing: ears i was a smol bab my mom didn’t give a heck

53. best friend: her name was chelsea that’s all i remember.

54. sport: .....hip hop classes lmfao *looks at 2 left feet* what was i thinking

55. vacation: fuck i have no memories idk

56. pair of sneakers: white sketchers lol

right now …

57. eating: air

58. drinking: pepsi

59. i’m about to: get ready for work :(((((

60. listening to: still minisode 16

61. waiting for: my next paycheck //shakes fist six more days

62. do you want kids: yeah i mean my kids will be true memes i can’t pass up that opportunity

63. do you want to get married: yeah but then again what am i saying ive never experienced romance what do i know

64: what career do you want: something in entertainment, realistically tho nothing like wtf i have no idea

WHICH IS BETTER …

65. hugs or kisses: i have only experienced one

66. lips or eyes: eyez eyez eyez

67. shorter or taller: taller? i mean what truly IS short and tall u know

68. older or younger: always been into older men :/ and actually,, older friends my younger friends are special rare exceptions ily

70. nice arms or nice stomach: well i feel like im not gonna know unless someone strips in front of me so like either or whatever

71. sensitive or loud: well it depends if u’re only always sensitive or loud i would struggle to get along with u 

72. hook up or relationship: relationship?

73. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker,, i can be the only hesitant one here or everything would be ‘oh,,,r u sure,,, is this okay....are we okaY????’

HAVE YOU EVER …

74. kissed a stranger: nO

75. drank hard liquor: No!

76. lost glasses/lenses: like for a short period of time

77. turned someone down: dgsdgfafvdf yes

78. had sex on the first date: nooooooo

79. broken someone’s heart: no unless someone was secretly pining after me

80. had your heart broken: yeah but after crying for five hours i was literally fine dfgsfdjg

81. been arrested: nO but like,,,, i have had two seperate run ins with the police and it was very very awkward

82. cried when someone died: ...on tv

83. fallen for a friend: yeah and fucking yeah it was not a good time

DO YOU BELIEVE IN …

84. yourself: like in what context. do i believe in myself making a killer grilled cheese? yes. do i believe i can get all A’s in school? NO

85. miracles: coincidence but not miracles

86. love at first sight: mmm no

87. santa claus: if i say yeah do i still get presents

88. kiss on the first date: ?? well like its not something to believe/not believe in like it isnt a mythical creature lol

89. angels: if there are where is mine :/

OTHER …

90. current best friends name: aluri. did i just name myself? yeah. you bet.

91. eye color: hazel/green with some orange in there.

92. favorite movie: walk of shame!!!! good heckin movie woohoo i finished before work im proud!! anyway whoever read this lmao you’re the real mvp thx. and im not gonna tag anyone because i always tag the same two ppl im so sorry rofl so if anyone wants to do this,,,, like pls do it and tag me so i can learn abt you.