#bc in a few days it'll be true and if I'm never gonna talk to them again i can't have them going round thinking I'm still 22

[eggmeralda]

my age is so awkward this time of year bc it's so close to my birthday that I might as well call myself my new age bc idk it's just simpler. but it's not close enough to actually Be my birthday so I'm still the old age and like. I can't describe it does anyone else do this? or do people just say what age they are no matter how close to their birthday it is

[amporella]

hi! this is mpreg anon from a few months back lol. i just wanted to say i finally got to reading the fic and im sooo!!!!! sobbing and crying, a puddle of love on the floor! you were right. i Know now why you talked about it often.

i really love holly's stankyle. theres something about them that feels very.. desperate? like they know they belong together and sometimes not even physical touch can satiate that need/want?? idk! but agh! i love them sm. holly is also really good at capturing the overall weirdness of south park and thats why she can come up with aus/ideas that are weird or silly and make them work. i also really appreciate that she went for kinks/tropes that not many people give style.

something else i really loved about this fic was that it felt very like.. omg a dream come true in a way? sometimes i just wanna read a fic where stan and kyle do fuck all all day, just real type of normal maybe even domestic shit and its just them. and this fic came pretty close to that? they are so wrapped up in each other and have so much love to give and g OD i thought the baby was gonna come in and ruin that or like i was gonna get annoyed w the baby but no!!! 😭 i was so neutral about elway in the beginning and was actually loving how kyle was thinking/approaching the whole thing. idek when that started changing?? before they talk about the name elway though. and when she was finally born and the days kyle spent fighting to get her?!! and then he gets her and its the three of them and its like.. yeah.. okay, she's perfect. she really is a miracle stan and kyle created and theres no way she could ever come between them bc stan and kyle's love is endless, its forever and ever, they can share that love with their child 🤧

as for creek, hmm. i think craig and tweek just arent characters i've seen holly write for and like? so even though they are/were together i just didnt rly care for them u_u. im really glad i started finally reading fic where theyre not together in style fics though. it still hurts a bit lmao but ive been enjoying some stories i had passed on before and stuff and yeah, ty for giving me that little push >w<!!!

sorry this ask is so long! i didnt want to bother you every time i finished a chapter lol. i was also going through some stuff and this fic was the only thing keeping me sane. and actually i have just the epilogue left but im so sad its gonna be over after that so i've been delaying it :(! but yeah, aahhhh herbert garrison's night school for unwed fathers enjoyer 🫡 TY! 💙💚

YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM THAT YOU READ THE FIC AND SENT ME THIS AMAZING ASK??? I saw this in my inbox and immediately went to my friends and like BRAGGED ABOUT GETTING THIS? I'm going to respond to every part so bear with me but in the meantime THANK YOU!!!

I think you are so so right about them being desperate... it is key for stanky that regardless of how close they get physically, it's like it'll never be enough? Like they are soulmates in every sense of the word, and can never actually satiate their pull... SIGH!!!! IT'S TRUE!!! And holly's ability to nail absurdity is absolutely one of her strongest suits, and something that definitely contributed to how iconic she is. South Park is an absurd show, and holly meets it with such absurdity that Stan and Kyle can stay perfectly in character, because so many of her plots are something that could legitimately BE a South Park episode involving the characters when they're older. Like, Craig and Clyde fucking in the Marsh shed and Craig telling Sheila Kyle needs a psych eval? A+, can and will happen at some point. It's so ridiculous yet somehow believable, and the mpreg fic is literally the BEST example of it. It's a concept that's frankly a huge turnoff for a lot of people (understandably), but she puts it in such a light that she makes it appealing for a ton of people. It's one of those fics that i would recommend even to the most vehement mpreg hater, because there IS something about it that differentiates it from typical fics like that.

AND DESCRIBING IT AS A DREAM COME TRUE IS SO CORRECT? Everything you said in that third paragraph specifically was so fucking real. The fic starts off as such an absolute disaster situation, and despite the multiple disasters along the way, you can absolutely tell that it was like fate in a way? Holly does an incredible job of balancing the understandable stress with the joy and all the happy moments, as well as acknowledging the fact that in the end, Elway seriously did enrich both of their lives. I LOVE THAT YOU POINTED OUT HOW YOU WERE WORRIED ABOUT THE BABY COMING BETWEEN THEM... because it's true!!! It's such a real concern, but she is so good about wrapping it up; the scenes after Kyle gets Elway feel like a dream sequence in how floaty and happy everyone is, and while reading it I was like (as someone who does not want kids), huh. Maybe I need to have a baby? LOLL but seriously you are so right. It IS endless and now they have even more love to go around because of Elway... whatever. WHATEVER!! I'm not even crying. I'm NORMAL!!!!

I totally get your feelings about creek!! I ended up feeling kind of similarly. I'm happy you started expanding your horizons!!! There's nothing wrong with sticking with exclusively creek fic, obv, but there are some real gems out there if you're able to push some of the icks to the side. And maybe you'll even figure out a new ship you like? I remember that I was afraid to read Other People's Tupperware at first because Tweek is literally dead, and Craig hooks up with Kenny? But then I decided to read it (and felt neutral about it!) and it was valuable to me. And then when I read it a few years later, I really loved it. It got me thinking that first time!!! I'M HAPPY I COULD HELP GIVE YOU THAT PUSH!!!

Talking about holly (or any other fic) to me will NEVER bother me so pls feel free to do so!!!! I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE EPILOGUE!! It is sweet and so delightful. AND PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF I CAN EVER GIVE YOU ANY OTHER SUGGESTIONS!!

Thank you SOO much for this ask!! It seriously made my day.

[cameronslaw]

texts: Cameron & Cassidy

Cam: Hi Cassidy! I don't know if you remember me, I'm Cameron Collins, I saw you a few days ago? Cam: I just realized I've never given you my number, so I figured I'd drop you a text, so you do Cam: You can contact me in case you need anything

Cass: hey cam! I remember yeah!! Cam: That's great! How are you doing? Cass: I'm ok Cam: Did that girl stop giving you a hard time? Cass: yeah!! I had a project with melanie and we're kinda friends now? it's weird Cam: Teenagers are weird Cass: I guess lolll Cam: Are you doing well in class? Cam: I didn't mean to ask it like that, wait Cam: What I meant is: It's normal to have some hiccups keeping up when you move out from homeschooling sometimes, so we can set up some tutoring if you need it Cass: oh no!! everything is fine, I promise!! Cass: we're going over stuff I learned in the beginning of the year actually Cass: mom always wanted to be a year ahead in class, so I studied a lot at home Cass: so it's been easy, for the most part Cass: but please don't tell my teachers that!!!!! Cam: No worries, kid, your secret is safe with me! Cam: I'm glad you're setting in fine, I was worried Cam: Changes are never easy Cass: yeah Cass: look Cass: can I ask you something? Cam: Of course. What is it? Cass: I tried to talk to Mr. Hopkins the other day when he came to talk to the principal, but he didn't give me answers Cass: and nobody tells me anything Cam: Jefferson is super busy, but I promise I'll answer your questions to the best of my abilities Cam: So what is it? Cass: I'm staying here until the end of the school year, right? that's what you said when you came to visit Cam: Yes, that's true Cass: and then what Cam: What do you mean? Cass: do I go to a foster home? Cass: are they gonna put me in the system? Cass: bc I promised mom I wouldn't let them get me Cass: so I need to make a plan Cam: Didn't I tell you to stop worrying about grown up things? Cass: you're not answering Cam: You'd be a great lawyer, have you ever thought of that? Cass: still not answering Cam: Look, I'm still studying our possibilities Cam: But I'm not letting you go into the system, I can guarantee you that much Cass: really? Cam: Cross my heart Cass: what are the other possibilities? Cam: Well, nothing is set in stone Cass: yeah but what are they? Cam: I don't want to give you false hope, kid. I still don't know if they'll work out Cam: Or when Cass: cam Cass: you said you'd answer Cam: True Cam: Okay Cam: So there's a chance that you go to a special school Cass: I'm already in a special school Cam: Not like that Cam: A place where you can learn more about being what you are Cass: I didn't know there was a place like that Cam: There isn't Cass: what Cam: There isn't yet Cam: Trevor and I are working on a project for it Cam: A place where people like you could stay Cass: like a group home Cam: Sort of Cass: you promised I wouldn't fall into the system Cam: Not in the system! Cam: It'd be a private thing Cass: sounds confusing Cam: It is lol Cam: And it takes time Cam: So I don't know if it'll be ready to receive you by the end of term Cass: what are the other options? Cam: You could stay in school Cass: nobody stays in school during the holidays Cam: You could Cam: Or go to camp Cass: there's no camp in winter Cam: We can find a place for you to spend the break okay Cass: any other options? Cam: You could spend your break here Cass: with you? Cam: Yes Cass: that doesn't make any sense Cass: don't you work in other cases like mine? Cass: you said you worked in cases like mine Cass: so you invite everyone to spend the holidays together? Cass: bc that's gotta be a messy party Cam: Cassy, breathe. Cam: And yes and no Cam: Yes, I work in cases like yours, no, I don't invite everyone over for the holidays Cass: why me then? Cass: you don't even know me Cam: That's true Cam: But I love someone who was in your shoes once Cam: And I see a lot of them in you Cam: And I wish someone would've done it for them too Cass: cam Cam: And it's just one of the ideas, anyway Cam: Like I said, we don't know what will happen Cam: But you wanted answers Cam: Was that a decent one? Cass: yeah Cass: I have another question Cam: Shoot Cass: are you my guardian? Cass: like legally Cass: I need an adult to sign stuff for me right? Cam: Yes, I am Cam: At least temporarily

Cass: oh Cass: thank you Cam: No need to thank me, kid Cass: still Cass: thank you for caring Cam: You're very welcome then Cam: So Cam: Did you do your homework? Cass: how do you even know I have homework? Cam: I have superpowers!

Cam: And you're 13, you always have homework Cass: it's English, I know it already Cam: That's the thing with school: knowing isn't enough, you need to prove to your teachers that you do Cass: that's stupid Cam: Yup Cam: Still gotta do your homework tho Cass: I can do it later Cam: Nope, it's already super late, you should be going to bed soon Cass: I think the guardian thing got to your head already lol Cam: I think you forgot who they'll call if you stop turning in your homework lol

Cass: you're no fun Cam: I'm plenty of fun! Cam: After you finish your homework 😛 Cass: fiiiiiiiine Cam: I'll let you get back to it then Cam: If you need anything, text me ok? Cass: okay Cass: thanks cam Cam: No worries kid Cam: Take care Cass: I will ♡

[jacobkrin]

i just want to have consistent good self-esteem but noooo

my brain keeps deciding otherwise, even now

i have no clue why it happens, but it does, and i wish it'd happen less

i get that being happy all of the time's an impossibility, but man i wish it'd happen to me more, like i was around 10 years ago, i remember being happier then but that all changed in year 9 or 10, i kept having panic attacks outta nowhere then

or at least fear, maybe they were panic attacks? those have stopped now either way

i have no idea if i have depression or not but sometimes i sure as hell feel like i do

i was playing a game of mafia recently and got disguised as which happens every so often, and someone could tell i was disguised because i have low self-esteem, and i've gotta agree

sure, i can TRY to like myself more, but there's no way it'd be at a point where i'm narcissistic as these feelings would just come back to knock me down

i did end up confessing to someone that i had feelings for them a few days ago though, so i guess i got a bit of confidence? well, at least enough to confess to someone. sure, the feelings weren't mutual and i don't blame anyone for that, and i didn't feel hurt for too long bc i appreciate our friendship

but a few days after that it made me think about myself being single for my entire life and all

ngl, at times it feels like it's gonna continue to be that way, and i'd say that it's one of my biggest fears, being alone for the rest of my life

sure, i doubt that it'll stay that way forever, but a huge part of me disagrees and thinks that i'll never be in a relationship for the rest of my life

sure, i KNOW that i should just focus on myself and go about with my life until someone comes along, but the despair i'm feeling about that doesn't help much, especially as it doesn't motivate me to do some stuff in my day-to-day life, and i really wanna do more stuff again

i've had people say stuff like i'm a catch and that i'm a great person and that some people are surprised i'm not dating anyone yet, and while they were probably being serious about it part of me feels like they were all saying it just to be polite. idk. i mean, i'd hope it's true but i can't tell

i want self-esteem but it doesn't come out of nowhere. talking to people does make me feel happier and distracts me from these feelings at least, so that's better than nothing

but i definitely can't talk to people or have people talk to me all the time, there'll be times like now where i'm not talking to anyone because of the time

i guess it'll always be a part of me that i just have to accept, and i've tried to but a huge part of me doesn't want these feelings bc of how painful they are

writing this does make me feel somewhat better at least. maybe sleeping'll make me feel better as well? i hope it does, otherwise there'll be problems when i wake up

[nakedbibi333]

I've realised that I have this subconscious belief that some things are too good to be true for me, that everything always has a catch and while some things work out perfectly and easily for others when it comes to me something will go at least a little wrong and I'll never get exactly what I want how I want it. Like this voice in the back of my head "don't get your hopes up, it'll come crashing down eventually, I knew this was never gonna work anyway, why doesn't anything ever work for me?" Etc. And this has come out in a lot of my manifestations so far, bc yes even with this bad self-concept I've been able to manifest things. But about 70% of the time they're not exactly what I asked for, just close enough to it that I feel satisfied and sure that it worked, and I think this is happening because of that belief I have. All of my manifestations so far have been pretty small too. For example, I wanted to manifest seeing a green elephant and instead I just stumbled on a clip of an actor talking about how much he likes elephants. I wanted to see a pink cat and instead I just see a video game character in clothes the exact shade of pink I imagined, and then someone shows me a picture of their WHITE cat. It's like that meme "he a little confused but he got the spirit" lol like yes that is what I asked for, sort of, but not exactly? And I don't even mind that much because I only started this journey a few months ago and I went from being constantly anxious each day worrying about my manifestations to starting to view myself as the god of my reality and building a solid list of small everyday success stories. Then I heard about the void method, and of course like everyone else I wanted to try it, because it's literally instant and foolproof and simple to do. I know I'm more powerful than any method and I can give myself results instantly if I want but that's still hard to believe for me. I'll have to spend a lot of time working on my self concept and working through limiting beliefs for that whereas with the void method it doesn't matter how bad my self concept is or how much I don't believe, my results are 100% gonna come and that's what makes me want to do it so badly. But the thing is, this belief I have that things will not work out perfectly for me is messing it up. The void method sounds TOO easy and perfect. My brain automatically goes "yeah this is gonna work for other people but not you. You can't have something this easy and great. It's not possible. There's always some sort of problem when it comes to you." I also have the belief that it's hard for me to focus on one singular thing which is also making it hard to get into the void state and so far on all of attempts I've only gotten some random twitching at most. I'm starting to feel really, really frustrated and tired because yes I can confidently manifest small things now but even that doesn't work out perfectly all of the time and I have so many BIG things I want to manifest like health and beauty, and yes I know there's no such thing as a big or small manifestation, I mean big in terms of how much it means to me. Do you have any advice for any of this?

Start a mental diet! Flip your negative thoughts into positive ones when you can. When you start to think “it’s too good to be true,” say instead, something like I’ve gotten successes before and I’m determined to get exactly what I want this time. Don’t allow yourself to be a victim of manifestation, you are supposed to the master of manifestation in your life. You have the power, you are the boss, your subconscious mind obeys you, not the other way around. And the next time you get only half a manifestation, don’t accept it. Keep persisting. Because then your subconscious mind thinks, oh that’s what they wanted okay lets move on, instead of continuing to work to get you the actual thing you asked for. Literally ignore it or say, that’s not right, I’m asking for this and then persist that it’s coming.

[sungtaro]

oh no eri :((( i'm really glad to hear your nursing studies are going well but the amount of work u put in it n the sacrifices u need to make like,,,, i know medicine in general is very hard but i still wish it was less demanding :(( please please PLEASE take care of yourself & take breaks whenever u can and don't forget to stay hydrated !!!! and squeeze in some meals in between working/studying, so u don't faint there :(( although i'm sure they would take amazing care of you but still,,,, LET'S AVOID THAT HDHDHD but i'm happy to hear you got a nice clinical group !!! it definitely helps to have someone fun around u while you're running around the hospital doing stuff, hope you all get even closer with each other (⋈◍＞◡＜◍)。✧♡

as for me well,,,, last two months were horrible, ESPECIALLY september, but fortunately november looks more calm so far. we do have a fair amount of exams coming up like that one semestral spanish exam that came out of nowhere lmao but !!! i think i deem it as "calmer" just because we're going through material that i, for once, actually understand hdhdhhd i'm still waiting for december to come round tho,,, i need my christmas break already, please (´；ω；`) good thing is that i'm gonna spend the next week at home bc my class has online learning since one of our classmates turned out to be positive :// i doubt any of us got infected since he only spent a day with us + he was keeping his distance & wearing a mask all day. but yeah,,,, back to online learning for a week and maybe cheating on tests since i have two coming up eyyyyyy ALSO !!!! another thing that happened is that our prom will be organised at our school like all of the previous ones <3 it took so much convincing for our headmaster to give in like DAMN WOMAN WHY U SO HARD TO TALK TO but (for now) we're having it at school :D and i'm already looking for matching outfits with my friend that asked me out, we're out here prepared and ready to sit & eat all night in pretty suits hhdhdhdhd wild thing i was even asked out tbh, literally no idea what happened in her head up until that point welp

but anyways !!! i'm gonna stop for now even tho there are some other things i wanna ask u ! but i don't wanna start too many topics at once bc once we go off, we're not gonna stop hddhhd but i hope you've had some time to rest this past week, erin mwah (づ￣ ³￣)づ

also wanted to say that i love the pink theme and the new carrd look (yes i saw it just now, i am so behind and so so sorry dhdhhd) it's so pretty !!!!!

hewwo bubs !! ah I hope I didn’t worry you too much, I promise that despite the demanding nature of life as a nursing student, I never skip meals and I do what I can to pace myself 💘 it's rly important to show up well for my patients and this is just the very beginning of what will hopefully be a loooong career, so i always keep that in mind ! in general you’re finding me in good spirits after receiving really nice feedback from my clinical instructor, a trip booked to see my friend next weekend, upcoming days off for thanksgiving, and the end of the semester in sight ! AND of course … both of our birthdays coming up in a few weeks 🤩🤩

i'm sorry to hear that the last couple of months haven't been great, and i really hope that this one goes / is going better !! it sounds like you'll get an opportunity to catch your breath a bit (though i hope your classmate feels better!) sjfabsf i will not encourage cheating but i also believe in doing what you need to do ~ good luck !! ohhh prom omg i hated my prom adfbhadbgja so i really hope you have a good one! that sounds so fun to go with a friend (but also ... just a friend ?? *eyes emoji*) and ur so cool for wearing suits hehe and i'm glad that you got the venue that you wanted! it sounds like it'll be a nice time <3

hehehe it's so true once we start we can go forever ... but u know u can always ask me / tell me anything ! i'll b spending my weekend finishing up my assignments and studying for this week's upcoming exams, but spread out over watching netflix n making some gifs for u all ... it's rainy here so not much else to do ! hope you can get some rest too (and check out the treasure web drama maybe???)

thank u hehe hopefully i can hang onto this theme for a while, i do feel at home in the pink ~ but holidays are coming up and i'm extra so i may have to do a special icon just for my bday :3

[thisismypersonalsanctuary]

3/12/14

A: I know. This guy is proposing to his girlfriend on Ellen and I'm crying 😭

G: you're obsessed with marriage! lol

A: I know 🙈 haha

G: hahaha 😊

A: Someday, someday.

G: yep yeppp

A: I hope you know how happy I am that you're in my life.

G: I'm so happy to be in your life!

A: I just know you've said you don't know how I feel and I don't want you to not know.

G: well I'm glad you're telling me :)

A: Anytime. I hope you're in my life for a long, long time.

G: I hope so too :) I've been so much happier since we've been hangin out. really

A: No I have too, 100%. You have always made me happy and I'm so glad that it's back.

G: same here :)

A: I can never walk away from you. There's just something about you

G: same with you. I'm so drawn to you

A: I can't turn away no matter how hard I try. You're definitely the only and first person I've felt for like this.

G: same here

A: My feelings for you never left. You knew how I felt for you two years ago when we dated. They only have gotten stronger.

G: well it's nice to have you open up. I'm glad you feel this way and that I make you happy

A: I just don't want you to question how I feel about you, I want you to know

G: well I do. and thank you. sorry I'm slow tonight I just send out the last stuff I have to.

G: now I can just hang out. talk to you and okay my new game

A: No it's okay I knew you had work

G: okay. well thanks. how's your day been?

A: Good. I've had a rough past few days and I just woke up happy so it was good.

G: why a rough past few?

A: Idk I was just really down. I was confused about you and whatever idk.

G: well I don't wanna confuse you. I like you and I love hangin out with you

A: I know. I was just being a bitch a lot of the time and I was talking to someone about you and I just felt really down

G: what were you talking about me

A: 😳 can't tell

G: come onnnnnn

A: Noooo it'll scare you off lol

G: no it won't. please tell me

G: pleaseeeee

A: It will.

G: how lol

A: Because

G: okay...

A: You don't wanna know lol

G: well okay lol

A: I'm too scared

G: why?

A: Bc it's a lot and idk what you'd say.

G: uh okay..

A: What

A: I can tell you if you really wanna know.

G: yeah for sure

A: What

G: if you wanna tell me

A: Basically that I'm in love with you and can see myself with you for a really really long time. You don't have to say anything back because frankly, I don't know if I wanna know what you have to say..

G: I can see the same thing. I don't wanna ruin anything. I've been trying hard to show you that

A: You're not gonna ruin anything.

G: I hope so.

A: It's true. You're not. And I'm not gonna let anything happen to us again.

G: okay :)