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phantasmanatic · 1 month ago

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watching my almost 1 1/2 years relationship slowly fall apart bc my partner despises my autistic traits and not being able to tell if

a. i mostly unmasked relatively early on and he’s just hit the point of being fed up with dealing with me

or. b. i masked for like a whole year and now he’s realizing he hates everything abt me bc i finally started to unmask but he feels in too deep to just leave

#i hate this :)))))#and i keep trying to communicate and he keeps stonewalling me #and i can’t tell if im putting up with more bullshit than i should #or if im being too rigid and harsh #starting to realize how much my abusive relationship fucked me up in regards to my others #bc i’ll be hurt by my partner and then be like well he’s 20x better than my abusive partner #and then i have to remind myself ‘YA THEY LITERALLY ABUSED YOU’#basically anything is better than that #so maybe im actually not getting the care i deserve #but maybe i am and refuse to see it #i don’t know i hate it here #audhd #adhd #actually adhd #actually autistic #autistic things #autistic adult

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