#bc i was like why would you bring csa into this?

[revacholian-girl-utena]

There are no stars. There is no light. There will be no future. (Requested by @thediscoelysiumlesbian )

Alt text: Screencaps from Revolutionary Girl Utena with overlaid text. 1: A closeup of Anthy's eyes, hair down and no glasses, staring down Utena in the moment she discovers Akio abusing Anthy. Text: "Oh, yes."

2: A closeup of Utena's eyes, wide with shock, from the same scene. Text: "This is real darkness."

3: A framed photo of Akio and Anthy, half in shadow as the window shades rise to reveal the room. Text: "Real darkness has love for a face."

4: Anthy's silhouette, hair flying wildly, pierced by many blades. Text: "The first death is in the heart." End alt text.

[truckstoptigers]

why can't i have a dad that's nice to me

[marlboromiles]

okay story time about the crazy grown ass woman from when i was a teen that would dump her hcs about otis csa from his dad and try to get me to tell her sex hcs about spotis cause it "helped her stress" and harass me for fanart

back when i just turned 16 there was this bitch who found me cause id post otis art on insta. grown ass adult woman btw. and she started to dm me and beg me for detailed hcs about sex (cause at 16 i was an obnoxious kinnie about spaulding and she shipped spotis) which in retrospect was extremely weird but that wasnt the fucked up part. she had like 10 different fics, some going over 40k words, where shed have entire chapters describing otis as a kid getting brutally raped by his dad. she was also super obsessed with otis having an ED and hip problems from where his dad broke his hips from raping him so much as a kid (keep all this in mind for when you read the screenshots). shed dm me randomly outta the blue while i was in class for my GED telling me her otis csa ptsd hcs. that was the shit that made me so disturbed. all of this was unprompted. and at 16 i was going through a lot with being homeless and my dad going to prison for dv so i was just letting her yap in my dms bc these things dont trigger me but it sure was fucking weird.

flash forward to about 2 years ago and she tried to ask jack for the otis bio pics and he was like hey....wait....aint you the cunt who used to fantasize child rape in my man's dms when he was a vulnerable teen and she deleted all her fics like they never existed. crazy shit.

screenshot dump just so yall can see how....strange this chick was:

^ this one isnt too bad its just so random. source? what the hell are you on about? why are you fantasizing about the irl man bill moseley with your weird ED fetish?

^ her randomly bringing up otis getting raped as a kid. again. as she always did. left the first part in just so you can see how she'd just shove it into every convo.

^ the first screenshot is showing how shed fucking interrogate me to give her descriptions of her weird fetish. also she wouldn't stfu about woobifying otis for it. love how you can essentially see me being like Why Are You Thinking About This So Much

^ this is just a general cringe screenshot cause im like yeah they used to rob places and kill people together of course cutter's dug a bullet or two out of otis before and vice versa. and shes like Fuck.....if otis went to the hospital.......how was my 16yo ass less cringe and more logical than this grown woman

^ i actually clearly remember i was ghosting her during this time period because of school and also just. i didnt wanna keep having her bring up kid rape about my man every 4 messages. and here she is doing it again unprompted.

^ ANOTHER UNPROMPTED OTIS RAPE HC !!! LET HIS HOLE REST GIRL GODDAMN.

^ im talking about my surgeries and this bitch just pops off with "otis hates sucking his dad off" i remember the whiplash this gave me and its been 6 damn years. it still takes me off guard every time i remember.

^ to end this on a lighter note cause this always makes me laugh. ma'am do you even remember who youre talking about

[opla]

Hello. I hope my message doesn't come off as mean or judgemental. I wanna talk about the OP/OPLA fandom.

I fully agree with the criticism of Taz Skyler, but 98% of the OP fandom worships Oda like a God when he's friends with 2 mangakas who are child predators (the Kenshin and Toriko creators)... I love OP as much as any other fan (I don't give it my money though), but I wish fans didn't feel the need to kiss the creator's ass so much, or make excuses for him using his clout and money to promote his predatory friends.

People in the fandom saying that Taz or the potential casting of Jamie Lee Curtis as Kureha will "taint" OP when the creator already did that feels like people don't take CSA as seriously as they should. Almost anyone who brings up Oda's terrible taste in friends gets shut down with poor excuses or treated like a "hater".

OP is also a story full of fatphobia and misogyny, where Oda makes it clear that the only women worthy of being seen as attractive and worthy of devotion need to be thin and have big breasts. People fight me on this one all the time, but the treatment of fat female characters like Alvida and Shinobu proves I'm right.

Again, I love OP... but it's been flawed before Taz Skylar tweeted anything.

hello! it's not mean at all & i agree 100%! oda is incredibly flawed & there's a lot to criticize about the original manga. i've actually spoken about oda's misogyny in my own personal blog before.

this is why i'm not acting like still enjoying opla is a sin (or one piece in general), even tho the cast may be problematic. if i did, i would stop running this blog at all. i am merely withdrawing my personal support from the cast for the sake of my sanity to be frankly honest.

i'm glad you brought up these issues & sent this message, so thank you! honestly part of the reason i'm excited for the live action is to see them hopefully rectify some of the major issues with the animanga, like the horrendous fatphobia, certain characters' (like sanji) misogyny & queerphobia, etc.

i agree that judging opla & its cast, while pretending that oda & the original content does not have plenty of issues is indeed incredibly hypocritical. i'm also not a fan of ppl using the genocide in palestine to speak ill of opla in general bc they never liked it to begin with. it's honestly disgusting & disrespectful.

i think the bottom line is that it is important to be aware & critical of what we enjoy & the ppl involved in it.

thank you once again for taking the time to send this message, i really appreciate it!

[sunflowerdigs]

I’m not expecting a mencken x roman hookup and that doesn’t bother me at all, this show features very little sex especially since s3 and the sexual tension/flirting is enough. But explicitly canon queer roman feels so easy to do and considering how progressive the writers team is, I don’t really understand why they’ve been holding back? they don’t even need to label his sexuality imo, I wouldn’t be surprised if roman himself doesn’t know, they can just make it clear that he’s attracted to mencken and that that’s been part of the driving force behind his actions this season. I wonder if they’re concerned about the fact that roman is established to be into a lot of supposedly deviant, transgressive sexual stuff and they don’t want to draw a correlation between that and being lgbtq+? (Plus many people hc him as a csa victim) Or they think he’s the “worst” of the bunch/perceived to be the most terrible and don’t want to equate being gay with a villain? (I feel like this would be especially dumb bc really everyone main on this show is almost equally horrible)

The thing is, because Roman is so heavily queer coded, the correlation between queerness and everything you listed has already been drawn. In particular, his relationship with Jeryd is already highly homoerotic. So, they might as well bring it into the light and make it canon instead of continuing to treat queerness like this dirty, secret thing that shouldn't be spoken of or acknowledged in text. I agree, for a progressive show it is very strange that they're dancing around this thing that they should just portray frankly and honestly. Like, when people come down overly harshly on Shiv, we can call out the misogyny. We all know why people are unusually harsh on Roman but we can't call it out because technically he's not canon queer.

[oddmerit]

i try REALLY hard to like cohost dot org and there IS a lot to like about it, legitimately:

most of the staff are jewish gaytrans furries so they Get the need for firm moderation that accounts for “plausible deniability”-type bigotry, even if they slip up it’s pretty quickly rectified (see below)

good 18+ filtering, pro-posting queer hole

NO BULLSHITE ALGORITHMS. chrono timelines only

css/html/markdown crimes

that being said.

the general culture there is rough bc a lot of the prominent powerposters are friends or friends-of-friends of the devs by nature of how they conducted the closed alpha, but bc of the lack of public metrics it’s considered taboo to claim that there ARE powerposters in the first place. and because powerposters are just a few degrees removed from the devs, people who WERENT part of the alpha want to emulate that general vibe. part of which means getting extremely hostile and defensive if anybody says something that could be construed as putting the devs down and claiming they’re “twitterbrained” or whatever and that people who “expect too much” of the devs are going to be the downfall of the site

the most recent incident of this stemmed from a moderating misstep where someone i followed reported a nazi channer who followed her and was part of an antisemitic harassment campaign, but hadn’t posted anything to the site yet. the staff who handled her report said “this is concerning so we’ll wait and see BUT we don’t take action based on offsite behaviour”, despite that being untrue based on previous moderation actions (notably TERFs getting nuked from orbit before they could even start posting). the person who reported them got upset and several of her followers (including me) were like “what the fuck, that’s unexpected and shitty”, some saying that made them feel unsafe in case that ever happened to them. once the decision got traction (and other people started reporting the account) the staff went back on its decision “based on internal review” and suspended the account in question, which is where this story should have ended

except, the day after it happened, i woke up to a post on my cohost dashboard that was someone screaming their head off about people who had said “this is disappointing and makes me concerned”, and kept quoting one specific person who they claimed had overreacted and was symptomatic of the above-mentioned “twitterbrain” and that it was all “bad faith”. like, if THAT is gonna be the community reaction to someone being alarmed about inconsistent moderation, why would you ever publicly bring up moderation concerns at all?

its one thing to ask site members to be considerate of staff (its a small team and half of them were at a con AND it was a weekend AND they eventually backtracked and apologized anyways so it was all good at that point) but its another thing to go off on a rant quoting mostly one specific person while claiming its really “just general you” and claim that they’re the reason the site will go under. if you’re going to claim that you need to bite your tongue over missteps “for the good of the community” that’s a HUGE fucking red flag! bc thats how resentment will grow and eventually explode into something MUCH worse! it wouldnt turn into “intra-community infighting” if everyone was like “cool, thank you, please make sure this doesnt happen again” after the issue is solved instead of dragging it out and turning it into an example of “oooo look how PRO-HARASSMENT twitter has made you, you’re HARASSING the devs by voicing concern”!

and dont get me STARTED on the shitfits people were throwing when staff said “we don’t allow loli on this site”. people understand “cohost isnt a free speech absolutist site like twitter” when it comes to hate speech but they absolutely do NOT understand it also applies to jerking it to fictional csa lmao. cohost isnt overrun by “puritans”. the devs will not ban queer hole*. the devs post queer hole. its fine

(*the only way i can see NSFW getting banned is if stripe drops them for processing cohost+ subs or the future tipping system and even then i trust staff will fight for Queer Hole as hard as they can)

[nerdfighterwhatevernumbers]

#don't forget than many autistic aces were also told#that they /were/ really autistic but they weren't ace they were just 'being desexualized by ablists and don't know better'#the most condescending infantilizing bs#many people touted 'aces can be at pride!...if they're also REALLY queer (gay trans etc)'#otherwise we're invading spaces and should make our OWN events#i still flinch when i see posts about 'gay public spaces besides bars and clubs'#the concept of gay cafes REALLY made the aphobes come out#accusing us of calling them all sexual deviants bc some people liked the idea of a place without the expectation of going there#to meet potential partners#heaven forbid you were demi/graysexual and not even 'really'ace#bc 'that's just how everyone is you just want to feel special!'#the people who claimed we couldn't use the term corrective rape bc it originated from Black lesbians describing their experiences#meanwhile Black lesbians were like 'we don't care if they use it wtf?'#and like the autistic ppl correcting them about 'aspec' they ignored them or claimed they were lying about their identity#saw posts from a bi woman I used to follow#about how it'sokay to bring her straight BF to pride bc he's with her and is allowed to be there as an ally#and it doesn't make her less bi to be with him#and in the same post say 'but straight aces don't belong there and need to go somewhere else'

All this but also the constant assertion that aces were uniquely homophobic. There was homophobia in ace communities, but there were also troll blogs pretending to be homophobic aces, sex-repulsed aces who were just talking about sex-repulsion in general, and lots of homophobia from other queer blogs that weren't ace. There was and still is homophobia in bi communities, trans communities, and even gay communities, but somehow aces were singled out.

There's still a refusal to talk much about alloaros and there was this idea that the only people who would be alloaros are misogynistic men who want to have meaningless sex with women, then in the same breath they'd say aces are the ones slut-shaming. They said demis and grey aces were hypersexualizing others because if you think you experience attraction less than others you're allegedly saying other people are naturally horndogs and sluts. Not only was saying kids could be ace sexualizing them, exclusionists claimed it was putting CSA victims in danger because hyper interest in sex is a sign of sexual abuse and if kids can be ace then they can be allo and we'll ignore a kid expressing sexual interest.

For some reason, we were told we aren't allowed to use general queer terms. A very popular queer blog said they disapproved of aros and aces using the phrase 'coming out'. We couldn't call people trying to make us allo 'conversion therapy' or say we were subject to comphet even though everyone is. Queer blogs would have lists of what queer identities could reblog their posts in case an aspec accidentally related to another queer person's experience. One lesbian blog specifically allowed everyone BUT aromantics to reblog their posts.

There was also responding to any post about queer platonic partners with 'You mean friends?' and saying the only way you could think of a QPP is if you didn't have real friends to know the difference. If you wonder why people define QPRs in the most restrictive terms of 'living together and raising children together and even getting married' it's because that's how far we had to go to explain that we understood the difference between friendship and partnership.

They treated being aspec like you were saying 'I'm 1/16th Cherokee' to get into a meeting of POC and ignored any stories of people being abused, raped, or taken off needed medications in an effort to make them allo.

One blogger I unfollowed last year said they only believed aspecs were discriminated on an individual level and not a systemic level. This is true in very specific matters like gay marriage, imprisoning trans people in the wrong jails, dadt- it is true some things won't happen to certain aspecs. But it ignores that conversion therapy is systemic and happens to aces, the medical discrimination faced by aces who are given or denied meds based on their asexuality, the way the legal and economic system are designed around couples and not single people so a non-romantic partner is denied inheritance or hospital visits and you can't afford to live without a spouse, the way single parents are disadvantaged and discriminated against, the fact that I'd have to lie or file for common-law marriage for my QPP to be on my insurance...

But if you bring this up, oh, that isn't against aspecs, it just HAPPENS to be against single people and people perceived as not attracted to the opposite sex enough. Which somehow doesn't mean people with no sexual or romantic attraction. And if you really want to be oppressed, you should be hate-crimed more, but obviously if you don't tell someone on the first date you're ace that's not avoiding violence, it's entrapment.

I don't think younger/newer users fully grasp the shit show that ace discourse was around 2014-17

It was so hostile that, to this day, discussions that begin to derail just enough can make me physically nauseous, some specific mockery trigger crying sessions years later. We lost most accounts with any sort of ace positivity. There was no information, no support, and all this damage was done predominantly by other queer people.

All this to say that you, however you identify yourself, should be engaging with aphobic comments the same way you do any hate. We don't sugarcoat or try to be comprehensive with people who are blatantly racist, homophobic or terfs, so why give it a pass just because it's coming from a queer person? I see how this tolerance goes and it's done enough damage as it is.

[motelpearl]

ok i have another (very long) rant. tw: csa

so my parents friend (I'll call him B) is apparently under investigation for some kind of csam & the police apparently raided his house. he's denying it completely but it seems like the evidence is all pointing towards him being guilty

he's mentioned having legal trouble sometime around 2010 - 2015 & every time he's brought it up he's said "but I can't talk more about that haha noooo wayyy I could ever talk about that" so I thought that was weird. I've looked his name up & couldnt find anything but I've also looked up a relative who I know for a fact has gotten arrested (robbery) bc I visited that relative in jail & had no results. the relative was arrested in the same city that B (& my family & I) live in so maybe our city doesnt publish all arrests? both B & my relative have rich conservative christian parents & I wonder if they couldve paid to have any arrest records taken down (bc I know my relative's parents at least attempted to hide his arrest records.)

B has also gotten blackmailed for unknown reasons. all this time I thought it was some kind of phishing scam thing bc the blackmailer "threatened to release incriminating information about him if he didnt send x amount of bitcoin." I should mention that we didnt see any of these messages & it's just what he says happened. If I got an email like that I'd probably just think "scam" & delete it but he was so shook about it that he literally went to the police & there's an ongoing investigation. idk if the blackmail investigation is linked to the csam investigation but I do wonder if the police uncovered something while investigating the blackmail. it also makes me wonder: if he was guilty of csa related crimes would he go to the police over what seems like a typical fearmongering scam email? but then if he's not guilty what "incriminating information" is he so worried about?

anyway his/my parents close friend (I'll call her C) has cut B off over it. C has children of her own & was friends with him for 10+ years, possibly even during the first legal issues. he also often brings up the fact that a guy he was friends with got arrested for SA of teenage girls & maybe this is just me reading into things too much after the fact but why bring that up so often?

the biggest red flag for me if that he said "I wonder if I'm being framed because I criticize trudeau on facebook" or something along those lines. (conservatism is such a mind cancer bc in my other rant I wrote about how my stepmom blames the liberal party for her own reckless spending but that's canadian conspiracy theories for you.) like dude......literally no one knows you. even if the liberals were proactive & tyrannical enough to carry out smear campaigns against random citizens why would they privately go after you instead of someone with a platform? why wouldn't they just arrest him & publicize the charges & ruin his life immediately instead of giving him some kind of warning, but a lax enough warning that he says he "can still leave the country if need be?"

it's all just weird to me nothing adds up it feels like crucial pieces of the puzzle are missing. B has known me & my siblings since we were kids & he's never done anything to us but I've never liked him. my parents say they're going to write a letter of character for him but mmmmm idk if I'd do that! especially not if they're buying into the idea that he's being set up by trudeau LMAO could you imagine being the cop who has to read the letter like "it's a setup bc he dogwhistles about brampton on facebook muh vaccines muh convoy"

idk. if you've read this far tell me if I'm overreacting or is this actually sketchy

[selchwife]

on a more serious note (spoils c&w for everyone reading this blog bc we're far past that point. as a people. you guys all know plenty about what's going to happen in this fic)

i think the mortician and the rake actually do have a kind of interesting relationship precisely Because like, the mortician is an emet expy but i've created circumstances that prevent him being romantically interested in the rake, so there's something else going on there but it's still quite strong.

like the mortician was working with the rake, essentially, during the rake's time as a spysassin in the great game, and the mortician is not a fucking idiot so he was aware of how the rake was being treated by the procurer (as were most people, honestly, bc the rake was not the first or last child to be victimized by this creep). but when you're involved in the game there is often not a lot you can do about things of this nature, and despite the many other scruples he'd happily abandoned in order to meet his goals, it really galled the mortician. and he was fond of the rake, in the way adults are SUPPOSED to be fond of obnoxious teenagers, and despite generally finding him annoying still tried to treat him nicely enough in a way he knew he wasn't getting from other adults, although they weren't close.

i think the rake going to prison is kind of what hardens the mortician's heart permanently, honestly. what little he could do for the rake was not enough, so why even bother with sympathy anymore? the only real like, morality chain he has left in the neath breaks. and this is when he goes from pretty bad to MUCH, much worse. eventually the rake does get out of jail but rather predictably he wants nothing to do with his old life anymore, so the mortician knows that he's out and knows he's avoiding ever seeing the mortician again and i think it does kind of hurt his feelings that the rake remembers him as part of the problem rather than as someone who wanted to help him and couldn't.

also like, on top of everything else that would make the mortician having a romantic attraction to the rake impossible, i think having known him during the time that he was facing CSA specifically is like. he would just feel like he was revictimizing him, so that's another dimension to his being completely disinterested in him.

and of course the fact that he can't cheat on the corpse in his basement he's trying to bring back to life, but

[bpd-shuichi-togo]

Now that you mention it, what are your thoughts on chapter 12 actually? Why do you seemingly imply it’s worse than any other chapter before it? Do you agree with that one person who described it as Act 2’s equivalent of Act 1’s chapter 8? What do you think about Fuxi and Smoky God, about each of their departures from the game and about LW’s liberal interpretation of the characters? Of course, I’d like to hear your thoughts anyway even without an answer to all or any of the questions above.

really sorry to disappoint you but i didn't read through this chapter myself, and i don't intend to (except MAYBE to skim through for togo content, but likely not even that bc i hatehatehate cullen's sprite). everything i've gathered about it, i've gathered from @vegetarian-macan so you'd be better off asking them for these specific insights. but to give my thoughts despite that: (under the cut for LENGTH as well as csa/incest/sexual abuse as pertaining to foosie :|, tl;dr i'm not reading all that)

good god i'm not reading all that. like quite sincerely, i'm not reading all that, for a few reasons. those particular reasons aside for the moment: the creators were so crudely shoehorned in and i find both hecate and kuniyoshi so unpleasant just as concepts that the thought of having to sit through any length of creators' screentime immediately turned me off from the chapter, even before i learned about the other shit. like what do you think you're doing. i don't CARE about these guys. you can't just abruptly yank me away from the shit i actually have an investment in in the story and drop me with a bunch of randos, at least 2 of whom i find unbearable, to do? idk i didn't read that far i think you get the point. also correct me if i'm wrong but just from what i understand, All That wasn't even really necessary, from a writing perspective? like, if the point of All That, plot-wise, was to start to alienate the protag from the majority of app users, have them meet the creators (who presumably will be more relevant in later chapters), and get them where they need to be to encounter smoky and later tindalos… they don't actually need to be abruptly separated from all the other summoners for that to work. imo All That would have been alot better with at least one of the others there, at least initially, for the creators to play off of as they're being introduced- and more importantly, to carry over the tension from shuichi bringing up the possibility of them betraying the protag. fucking UNBELIEVABLE that they would have that conversation happen, have people start turning against the protag, and then just separate the protag from the summoners immediately after instead of reckoning with that at all. remember how the protag has memories of being murdered by their friends? what a great time to address that! and then they don't. man, can you imagine if hecate had her 'oh this seems like genuine hatred between you' line (or whatever it was idk), but instead of being about the protag and some guy they just met and have no relationship to, it was about the protag and, like, toji? saying all this and realizing how much better it could have been executed is so annoying -_-. all this with a grain of salt or whatever ig

aside from that there's like. i just don't like act 2 lol. ch12 continues to move parts of the story in directions i don't like, like how the shuichi-duo conflict is being handled (CHRIST ALIVE.), and- more significantly- the mononobe-solomon thing. good fucking god i hate the mononobe-solomon thing. but these are topics for their own posts probably. basically PLEASE just let shuichi process his negative feelings surrounding duo or at the very least Acknowledge that duo… genuinely did do him wrong even if he didn't actually ditch him, and for the love of god the whole POINT of mononobe is that he is a normal man. i DON'T like act 2.

in any case. as annoying as all that is, i would have suffered through it (with a healthy dose of griping) just for the togos (cullen is in this chapter!!), were it not for 1) foosie's presence. obviously. 2) The Reveal regarding the protag's origin or whatever.

going to address 2 first since it ties into your question re: ch8 pretty neatly: this is an ABSURD comparison. ch8 is the climax and conclusion of act 1, so unless i missed something and we're now on act 3, ch12 quite literally can't be its act 2 equivalent. moreover, ch12 couldn't reach ch8 with a fifty foot pole and a running start, and it's perfectly illustrated in their Big Reveals. the revelation in ch8 that not only can there be a destiny set into one's role and rule, the protag in particular is doomed to die thanks to theirs- and moreover, they have died, over and over, including at the hands of their friends, because tokyo is trapped in a time loop- is, imo, simultaneously one hell of a rug-pull and a fucking phenomenal culmination of act 1's exploration of Narrative, which it had been building towards from the moment the protag declares their Role as wanderer. ch12's limp attempts at being meta with '~the character customization screen was canon~' and (presumably) alluding to the player just are not going to impress me after that- even if they didn't contradict the premise of the story and overwrite what the protag brought to the theme of 'the violence inherent in imposing a narrative onto a person' by erasing that they were a normal human from an alternate tokyo until they were pulled into the game and connected with boundless tail in a process that cost them all their memories and could have obliterated their capacity for personhood altogether… which i also just Do Not Appreciate.

frankly, i'm insulted. what the hell is this. i want to know what's going on in the writers' room just so i know whose face to spit in for this. like I Am Not Reading All That just for it to culminate in a cheap twist that undermines the quality of the writing, especially not after chapters 7 & 8. ooh the character screen was canon get the hell out of my face. i didn't read ch12 disclaimer once more. god i hate act 2

as for foosie. skimming the summaries before 12 got translated i read something regarding him from late in the chapter that made me decide i'd probably skip reading it. and then i forgot! and then after it got translated literally his first line made me remember and also quit playing immediately. if everything else about the chapter were fine, i still wouldn't be able to bring myself to read through 12 just because of foosie's presence. the whole 'teenaged protagonist in imminent-to-immediate danger of sexual abuse from a grown ass man who btw is using them as a proxy for his sister' thing would be too visceral for me to stomach, even if it weren't utterly gratuitous and was executed/handled well. and from what i understand it was not handled or executed well: afaik foosie added nothing to the story but a gratuitous, gross, and honestly confused portrayal of incest. like they simultaneously wanted to fetishize and romanticize/sanitize incest, both of which individually are repugnant, but also are basically mutually exclusive so it's like… morally this is abhorrent and from a writing standpoint this is incoherent. they portray foosie as unbalanced, possessive and predatory, accentuated by the fact that he's pursuing a child, who he allows something horrible to happen to that leaves them alienated and incredibly emotionally vulnerable before completely isolating them and making advances, all of this reflecting on- and painting a HORRIFYING picture of- his relationship with nuwa, who he is pursuing through the protag. and then after all this, the problem with his and nuwa's relationship is supposed to be that he was too distant and dismissive of her or something, as though his whole thing this entire time has not been being obsessed with her. you know how all the severance-wanderers were killed/violently banished from their worlds by their respective representatives? like, that's the whole thing? not so here, apparently! she ran away of her own volition without any instance of foosie being violent towards her or actively harming her in any way! perhaps you'd like to buy a bridge! and they send him off not only trying to illicit sympathy for him (FUCK OFF???), but with the parting note that now that he knows to be less dismissive he hopes to reunite with nuwa and have a healthy incestuous relationship. kiss my ass.

^feel free not to correct me if i'm wrong on any of this btw, there's no possible permutation that is going to be even remotely tolerable.

and for what? someone please tell me what he was supposed to add to the story. or don't! he's literally only here bc someone thought sexual violence was titillating! afaic there's nothing this even theoretically added that couldn't be done in some variation without the fetishization of sexual abuse or the sanitization of incest! i really do hate this fucking game

anyways.

i didn't actually gather much about smoky. before 12 got translated i thought he'd been working together with foosie so i did not care for him at all, but it turns out that's the literal opposite of the case so he can hang. honestly very curious about what's going on with him?? i've seen alot of vitriol for him, but i don't know what he did, let alone what could be so bad as to be memorable with foosie right there. more and more i feel like i shouldn't be surprised but i cannot fucking believe they introduced a brown man literally just to die horribly. on that note, re: his and foosie's departures: man wouldn't it have made so much more sense for smoky to have been the one to peacefully resign from the game, with foosie- the gambler, having bet it all and lost- as the one to somehow die so hard it's permanent? so the guy who 'tricked the app and the gates' is still alive so that can be explored later bc wtf does that even mean.

altogether, i'm not reading all that shit. (Man Who Thought He'd Lost All Hope Loses Last Additional Bit Of Hope He Didn't Even Know He Still Had voice) really does not leave me optimistic about the direction this game is going. still though, i'm still VERY invested in the togos' plot line(s), especially cully-wullen's potential fratricide arc. despite everything somehow i'm looking forward to reading 13 when it comes out, for isaac if nothing else.

[foxie-paws]

Hi, (no pressure to publicly answer this if you don’t wanna block up the feed) just wanted to say that I really really appreciate you making this blog. I relate a lot to andrew and thus have the assumed amount of Stuff Goin On and morals have been a very hard thing for me to figure out as of late. Explaining what specifically was wrong about things andrew did is really helpful to my own thought process, so thank you for taking the time to go in detail about it. Having trauma is not an excuse for giving others trauma. I try my hardest to remember that.

TW: SA - PLEASE BE CAREFUL

Hello! I hope u don't mind I made it public.

I must admit I spend some time thinking about a response to this. Your comment made me decide to put sth out there. I feel pretty safe and anonymous saying this on this hell site. So here is the thing: I am a CSA survivor. It took me many years to actually understand what happened. At some point I was sure I made it up, but how could a kid made sth like this shit up? I remember that at some point my younger self knew that sth is NOT RIGHT. I tried to tell it to some I was sure would get it. Unfortunately, I could not find the right words, so I ended up saying sth that had the same meaning like "xyz has a crush on me". I got a warm laugh and a pat on the head bc "silly kid, probably watched too many disney movies". Sure af never tried again.

It's pretty funny to me how my story history is similar to Andrew's. His "I was seven" is mine "I was five" (and many other people's unfortunately). Maybe, that's why he bugged my for so long. I feel that I more or less am on the same lvl and can "see the world through his eyes" (to some point). As silly as it sounds. That's why I was actually horrified by some things he did.

I'm all for problematic characters, really. But in my opinion a good problematic character has to be pointed at and called out on their shit by the canon media (and fandom). Unfortunately, Andrew's actions, in the books and in the fandom, never really get addressed? Of course there are posts pointing some behaviors out! But mostly it's just "Well Andrew is Andrew!" Then, applying this logic, someone can say "Riko is Riko!" or "Nathan is Nathan!". Neither of those three felt any regret about their actions (yes I am aware that you cannot put = symbols between those 3 bc their actions don't have the same harm lvl) as cruel as it sounds.

It kinda hit me bc some people justified his actions by the trauma he has. And sure this certainly influenced his character, but it's not an excuse. Unfortunately, in psychology there is this phenomenon when the abused become the abusers themselves. And to some point I think it's the case with Andrew.

Morals are fluid, and they depend on what life position u are. They can get changed by the things around us. I am in no position to tell anyone what their morals should or shouldn't be. At the same time, I know that my history doesn't give me any right to inflect pain to other innocent people. Andrew as a character has many aspects. He is not only his trauma, his decisions are his doing.

My history doesn't give me any higher moral ground to judge anyone (real) in fandom — I want to make this one clear, especially knowing there are, unfortunately, more people with stories like mine. I can only speak for myself and share my opinions. I don't want anyone to feel personally attacked or feel like I'm pointing fingers.

I would never bash anyone for liking Andrew! Do it! If he brings you comfort and u relate to him — it's 100% valid.

Well that was a ride. I hope that my lengthy response didn't overwhelm anyone.

If my post helped u in any way, I'm glad! Thank u for you comment once more!

Disclaimer: I know there will be some people thinking that I made my story up or threw it out there for some brownie points, so I have only one thing to say to them — my story was not for you, you can go and fuck yourself with a broom stick!

[wifegideonnav]

the actual short version is: read this pesterlog and try to tell me that 1) vriska doesn’t see herself as inherently “bad” and corrupted (a killer is a killer, and she’s definitely a killer) and that 2) she doesn’t absolutely hate herself and wish she could change

long version under the readmore

im not gonna super edit this bc i don’t. want to. so understand it was originally directed at someone who hasn’t read the comic and therefore it overexplains certain things. that being said, let’s a-go:

why do people hate vriska? and more importantly, why are they wrong?

basically first in order to understand vriska you gotta understand the society she was raised in

alternia is a very violent society, with death and violence being a lot more commonplace than it is in our world. also, the way the society is set up, the only people left on the planet are the children. once they mature they leave the planet to go work on the conquest of the galaxy. this is partly for practical reasons vis a vis empire building, but also for practical reasons vis a vis preventing the adults from killing the entire population of children

you're left with this planet populated entirely by children, raised in a society steeped in violence. their only caretakers are literal monsters who also cant even talk. obviously this is going to lead to troll kids having very very different lives than human kids

so that's the first thing. people ignoring or dismissing the context of the normalized violence and dog eat dog nature of alternian society

then there's vriska herself. she is blatantly being abused by her lusus who will literally kill and eat her if she doesn't bring it a constant supply of other trolls to consume. this creates a dynamic where vriska is constantly terrified of being killed by the creature thats supposed to nourish and protect her. for the first 13 years of her life, vriska is forced into this position where she has to go out and literally hunt and murder her peers in order to survive. which obviously does quite a number on one's psyche

because you've got that double combo of 1) violence and murder are less of a big deal to trolls AND 2) vriska is forced into a position where she has to be more ruthless than she genuinely is on the inside

thirdly, apart from the abuse from her parental figure, she is groomed by a literal child predator in a pretty transparent metaphor for csa. this pedo, doc scratch, is an omniscient, evil being who manipulates vriska into attempting to kill one of her friends, starting a cycle of violence that ends with tavros paralyzed, terezi blind, vriska armless and eyeless, and aradia dead.

readers obviously care more about the violence done to characters that we know and care about rather than the faceless masses that she killed before, so this is what a lot of people get caught up on, along with her constant cruelty to others, which i'll get to. but it's also obvious that vriska is eaten alive by guilt and deep seated shame because of her actions, and desperately wishes she could undo or fix the situation without having any idea how to. im holding off on including screenshots of convos, but this is not some subtle thing. anyone who reads what she's saying should be able to understand how destroyed she is over what she did

so going back and picking up the cruelty thread: vriska is a bully. there's literally no question about it. she's mean, and snide, and says some pretty terrible stuff. i would never argue that those things dont matter. bc she *is* a morally grey character, which is the part that people cant handle. she does plenty of shitty stuff, and whether or not shes sorry about it doesnt change the fact that it happened.

however, it's also painfully obvious within the text that the person she's cruelest to is herself. this is especially apparent in the conversation between her and her dead alt timeline self, whom she verbally eviscerates. like, tears her to shreds, leaves herself crying. vriska isn't cruel to others because she's an inherently bad person, she's cruel to others because:

1) the specific way she was abused means that she learned early on that weakness was unacceptable. in order to survive, she had to be tough, ruthless, and remorseless. however, internally, she's a very sensitive and insecure person (also. because of the abuse). therefore she's cruel to herself for not meeting the expectations she has for herself. also, this ties into an aspect of herself i haven't mentioned yet, which is her ancestor mindfang. mindfang was a ruthless pirate queen who basically did whatever she wanted and left a trail of devastation in her wake. vriska idolizes mindfang, and wants to be her. she even roleplays as her extensively. this is just another layer adding to her belief that being "weak" or "soft" is an unforgivable deficit

2) because of this, in some twisted way, she believes that her cruelty helps people. she picks on tavros over and over again because she wants to make him "better," especially since she feels so guilty for paralyzing him. she believes that other people just need to toughen up and go after what they want

3) she also bullies other people, especially those who she views as weak or deficient, because she's so angry and jealous that they've found a way of life where they don't have to be the way she thinks she has to be. when she confronts (vriska), her dead alternate self, (vriska) has become a lot more happy and vulnerable during her time in the afterlife. (vriska) tells vriska that she'll never be happy acting the way she does, and points out that she's miserable. vriska is furious because she *wants* to be like that but believes that all sorts of bad things will happen if she does

so some of this requires a little bit more critical thinking than other parts, but most of it doesnt require any kind of deep dive to notice

vriska is very blatantly an abused child lashing out at the world, who hates herself for not being what she was raised to be, and who has no idea how to even approach any of her issues. and honestly that's the other big thing that people leave out when they're hating on her. she's a child!! the comic covers her from ages 13-16. of COURSE she's selfish and mean and emotionally unintelligent. she's. a child. who has had NO positive guiding influences in her life.

vriska is absolutely not morally justified in what she’s done. there’s arguments to be made about moral relativism, but it’s quite clear that despite alternia’s violence the trolls actually have humanlike consciences. so vriska is absolutely culpable for all the shit she did, from bullying to murder. her remorse and self hatred do not at all forgive her or excuse her. but also… she does lots of good things too. she *tries* so hard to be good. and i genuinely believe that with an author interested in giving her a character arc she could have a very believable and satisfying redemption/growth arc

tl;dr i don’t think that her backstory excuses her from her actions, i just think it’s so important to note that those actions have deep reasons behind them and also that… vriska never really stood a chance

so did vriska do anything wrong?

hiiiii *twirling my hair* do you want the 1800 word essay i texted my friend or the short version. which is that yes but it’s ok bc i forgive her 😌

[transsexualhamlet]

okayokayokay i have like. Q U E S T I O N S because i have *wanted* to read no longer human but have been afraid to SO -

1) what's it like? what do u think of it? im sooo curious 👀

2) do u think that asagiri-sensei based bsd dazai sorta off the book more than off the actual authour? i seem to remember reading that once but i dont remember if it was speculation or not

3) .......just infodump as much as you want, really; im Curious™️ and it looks like ur having fun with the book XD

p.s. - have fun with crime and punishment; thats a book ive DEFINITELY been meaning to read (but i havent had time to yet djfjdjfjf)

AHHHHHHH HI TYSM I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK. I read the entire book in 2 hours before going to bed like four days ago, though it probably wasn't the best time to do it, that shit is nightmare fuel

I'm just gonna preface this with I know basically nothing about the actual author other than what's in the book, also I read the manga version (the junji ito one, yeah) so yeah I'm not sure how much that differs from the original text.

So for how much he based it off of the book vs the actual author, I couldn't really tell you- no longer human is somewhat of an autobiography, so I'd say that those work together. (it's complicated, bc the main character of no longer human is not actually dazai, but dazai is there, and they like??? basically say that that character and dazai are like actually the same person???? and they like, switch places at the end?? its really confusing, but basically, I'm treating the mc of no longer human as dazai himself.) The important stuff about the author that I know of worked into dazai's character is all in no longer human too so,,, yeah. I think saying that it's based more off of that book is probably true, though I don't know what asagiri was thinking.

But about the book itself- Yeah uhhhhhh seriously, I don't really recommend reading no longer human if you have much of a sensitivity to basically anything, especially the graphic novel version because when i say graphic novel i mean Graphic there is so much nudity, sex, s/a, addiction, violence, Mental Illness of all types, religious trauma, obviously suicide, and frankly just visually horrifying stuff

So everything under this is gonna be under a cut just cause Uh Yeah It's A Lot and i do not want to subject everybody to it

But reading it was certainly something I am glad I did, because it did teach me a lot about dazai and how he was created, as well as confirming a lot of theories I had about him that can't be confirmed or denied in bsd canon.

Like me and my friend were just like examining his character and kind of coming up with ideas about him- like we both agreed that he had Motherless Energy TM and that his dad had to have been an absolute fucking piece of shit. Also, we thought that he definitely had to have had A Lot of csa trauma and probably issues having to do with his neurodivergency when he was a child.

Literally all of that ended up being true within the canon of no longer human, so I was kind of impressed that we were so right?? It makes me feel better for thinking a lot of those things, especially since they're just Pretty Fucked Up.

But yeah its. No wonder he turned out that way when he was So Autistic and Masking So Much And So Badly and with absolutely no guidance as how to deal with his neurodivergency other than just fucking let anything anyone wanted happen sooooo he got raped, as a kid, like. A lot. A LOT. And basically ended up thinking that because of this all humans were just horrifying awful monsters and yeahhhhh things pretty much went downhill from there

I don't have a ton of time so you can send me more asks about it lol this is just barely scratching the surface this thing is pretty intense

A lot of other things that I think I can apply to bsd dazai as well, tho they're not gone into that much in the canon:

-This dude is like always fucking drunk or high, cause he just cannot stand being sober that much. He's a serious alcoholic and actually addicted to opioids and I cannot think that much differently about dazai. He's got issues.

but there are a lot of differences between Dazai and the no longer human mc, though there are enough similarities that this is definitely the dude he was based off of.

The main difference is that the no longer human mc is actually just a good guy. He's made a shit ton of stupid fucking mistakes, but he's trying to be a good man and he feels awful for the things he's done, which, I really cannot say Dazai has. Dazai is not a good man, I think everyone knows that. He doesn't really care that much lol

-both of them are like. Weirdly popular with women. Which is hilarious but like, with Dazai he doesn't really take it seriously, and he actually flirts with women. The no longer human guy like. He doesn't hes just like Tragically Attractive and women want to be with him and he has no clue how to say no so he just ends up being a whore bc hes socially useless. It causes a lot of problems bc hes like constantly cheating because of this lol.

-Dazai has a much more poetic view of it all? The no longer human guy is just fucking suffering and hes like why is this happening to me im so awful and i bring misfortune to everyone around me and its not fair and he wants to die and everything but it's not at all in the same way that Dazai does. Dazai acts more like an author than him, in the sense of his "I want a death that is narriatively satisfactory and I want to know the meaning of living by seeing the worst of it and observing how it is to be a human" yeah that's not the same at all. No longer human man really just doesn't understand them and is just. Not having fun

-Also, it's really the thing about Dazai having such an utter lack of religion compared to his original counterpart. Like, the main thing that kept this dude alive for so long was the fact that he had so much religious trauma and was constantly guilty and worried he would go to hell and basically scared of everything. Bsd dazai is like, nearly the opposite, he's the kind of dude who was born and raised atheist, and in the kind of way that he's trying to basically come up with his own meaning of life and religion to follow, whereas the original is struggling to live with one that's been perscribed to him. Both are Very Neurodivergent but it was, handled differently

And yeah i really do have to keep this short, you can totally ask me more and I have a lot more to say but one thing I want to bring attention to is the fact of something they do have in common- their masking. It's a big part of no longer human, about how the mc doesn't understand social customs and what is acceptable or how to talk to people or seriously be happy, so he basically comes up with this "clowning" which is basically, make a fool of himself on purpose all the time so people will never take him seriously or think he's good or smart. That's something dazai completely does, wholeheartedly, and something that fucks him up bad in no longer human. And I think that could be examined a lot more deeply, this dude has issues and so many of them are related to autism. God, I have so many thoughts but aghhhhhhhhhhhhh i hope u enjoy

[kevinbirthday]

Critically analyzing The All For The Game series

While this may seem like a hit piece on the books I will say that I absolutely adore the books beyond even my own comprehension. I own multiple pieces of fan merch of characters created by Nora and this series got me through incredibly tough times. I enjoy being critical of the media I enjoy so this is in no way meant to hate on Nora or drive you away from reading the books. The series will forever have a special place in my heart I am just a cynical person lol.

The all for the game series really is amazing, though there is subpar writing and glaring plot holes at times. Nora took lots of ideas I’ve never really seen in any other YA novel and ran with them, hell she even had a queer couple that didn’t exist solely for queer bait. I just feel like Nora had lots of ideas and there were so many concepts and half-baked notions of what should happen that not all of them were executed correctly.

I also think her putting out the extra content that contradicts the books multiple times was a poor choice. Yes, it’s great to get questions answered about things but I think if you have to constantly go back in and explain why something happend or when, then you should have spent more time on the books development. I have strong opinions when it comes to the extra content. Part of me believes it shouldn’t exist past answering a few questions about the books, not 300 paragraphs of random reiterations of the storyline and extra side stories that contradict canon.

I think a lot of the series was based on contrived plot points and driven by too many plot devices to make the story seem like a linear progression to me. The readers of this should also read the books on their own and form their own opinions on the book. Nora doesn’t alway do things incorrectly and I will never claim she’s a terrible writer on the basis that she self published the entire series. The books were never professionally polished and I think that is part of what gives this series so much charm. Suspension of belief is needed to read this series and it does inspire feelings of “What the actual hell. Did that just happen?!” Which honestly just shows the creativity of the series and proves that you can write a book full of morally grey characters and it be successful. As stated earlier I give Nora props for never making the main characters queer relationship be the entire focus of their exsistance. She did drop the ball on that when writing Nicky Hemmick’s character.

I also believe that while Nora was amazingly creative with this series, she created a whole new sport and badass characters for Pete’s sake that’s talent. I also Nora didn’t handle many things correctly or with the tact needed to pull certain things off.

Andrew and his whole meds situation paints medication and mental illness in an extremely poor light. I think she just wanted to throw something in to cover all her bases instead of researching pills. I agree it’s not far fetched to say that Andreil never say I love you in terms of vocalizing the words to each other because of the fact that they have their own private version of the words.

What I do find extremely far fetched is that Andrew never ‘heals’. Andrew Minyard goes to therapy even after the mandatory sessions are finished. Andrew agreed to go to joint therapy sessions with his brother to work their issues out! Tell me this man is not healing. Andrew will never not have bipolar disorder because it’s not something to be cured and he most definitely has C-PTSD after all he’s gone through. Those things can’t be cured but they can be managed by having a support system, going to therapy, and talking though issues within your family system. What is Andrew Minyard doing? Exactly that. He’s managing his symptoms which is part of healing, sure he’ll never be ‘normal’ but he’s healing as a person. The mindset that someone will never heal bc of their csa and mental health issues are ‘too bad’ is literally the worst mindset to have and is so damaging!

I also understand that you have to call on some suspension of belief when it comes to Andrew’s sentencing after he protected Nicky during the fight at Eden’s, but the only case I’ve ever personally seen someone be forced to take mind altering medication after a fight and not be sent to a psych ward was in the case of a combative schizophrenic and hurt someone and the person they attacked pressed charges. I find the whole Andrew on medication ordeal both infuriating and incredibly confusing.

Another confusing thing to me is the entire characterizaton of Nicky Hemmick. Can we all agree that it was incredibly uncomfortable? He was written as an extremely stereotypical gay man with rapey ‘undertones’. Who am I kidding with undertones he shoved drugs down Neil’s throat with his tounge and can’t take no as an answer. This being said, I do love Nicky’s character. I just don’t think that someone who was subjected to conversion therapy no matter if they had some to help them work through their internalized homophobia, would act so flamboyantly during the 2000’s. There were still commercials about not calling people gay as a insult, Paris Hilton had to tell people to use the word stupid instead. He was also one of the only explicitly stated characters as being a person of color and while I’d never say that Nora had racist intent behind that writing him as an extremely predatory gay man always rubbed me in an uncomfortable way.

At least he had some semblance of a back story though, due to Mr. Unreliable Narrator Neil Josten it felt like some characters were there just to prove that character’s besides the monsters, a few of the upperclassmen, and riko existed. Riko’s villain status seemed like it was something to make more of an immediate threat to Neil than Nathan. We had to have some reason for Kevin to be with the foxes and to go to a team so ranked down other than just Wymack being his father. What was Riko really there for other than to tell Neil that the Moriyama’s think he’s their property and then get shot in the head? I also think his death was just to wrap things up neatly and provide closure to the reader that all the ‘bad guys’ are gone. Evermore mostly served to further Neil and Andrew’s relationship and to provide extra drama. Nathan was too out of site out of mind to provide any suspense or drama for the readers. Riko was more of a plot device than a character in my personal opinion. We also only have the bare bones of almost all of the upperclassmen’s back stories. All we really know about the upperclassmen is that Dan used to be a stripper and her stage name was Hennessy, Matt’s dad sucked and he was an addict in the past and Andrew was the reason he went to rehab, Renee was in a gang and is a reborn Christian, Allison had an ed and was disowned and who cares about Seth because he was just killed to bring the foxes together. Was the team so dysfunctional Nora had to kill a man to get them to work together? I feel like his death could have been avoided and was completely meaningless. I enjoyed the the books but at times it was a complete information overload and I can’t even imagine how Neil felt in the situation when I as a reader will never had to deal with that firsthand.

[kob131]

https://naija-scammer.tumblr.com/post/612522722796453888/i-used-a-womens-change-room-today-and-im-happy

OH FUCK YOU. YOU RACIST PEICE OF SHIT.

You fucking white cracker idiot asshats always need to bring up black people bc you know your idiot arguments do not stand a fucking chance.

A. Ironic considering you just used racial slurs to insult me/

And B. You could literally replace ‘black people’ with any group that has been discriminated against and my point would be the same: it’s just the group that most people would agree with except Jewish people but I don’t wanna invoke Godwin’s Law.

Black people…BLACK WOMEN ARE NOT MEN. YOU RACIST PEICE OF SHIT.

WE FOUGHT TO BE SEEN AS HUMAN BEINGS. NOT FOR PEOPLE TO USE DIFFERENT FUCKING PRONOUNS

No but you’re both groups who have been discriminated against. And this isn’t about pronouns, this about you being violent and bigoted.

IF YOU HAVE A PENIS AND TESTICLES YOU ARE NOT A WOMAN. 

And trans women will have those removed so your point fails as always.

Woman is a COHERENT SEX CLASS. IT IS THE SAME ACROSS ALL RACE AND ALL CULTURE. .

So is bigotry, what’s your point?

And your are so fucking gross. 1 in 4 women who are black are sexually assaulted before 16.

Sure, and white people are killed en mass by black people right? I should just buy propaganda upfront right.

1 in 6 women will be sexually assaulted in their life. 

Considering people push for the definition of sexual assault to basically mean ‘do as I say or else’: I don’t buy that.

CUT THE SHIT. Acting as if rape is such a rare occurance. I lived that shit. I am a CSA survivor. You dipshit.

And my best friend is the same. And yet he’s better than you.

If transwomen were women we would NOT CALL THEM TRANS.

No, we wouldn’t call them ‘women’. 

We would just call them women. Your gross shithead. Oloriburuku. 

what’s next. gonna call me a dodohead?

I am so fucking sick of you crackers using black people struggle and plight to excuse your bullshit. ITS NOT FUCKING WAY COMPARABLE.

A. There you go using racial slurs again.

And B. How isn’t it? Other than ‘it affects me’?

And funny how you throw in I should go to prison to get raped.. Why dont you give your idiot advice to transwomen…

A. I didn’t say that. That was just me pointing out how stupid your paranoia about rape is when you openly admit to doing something that would put at a greater chance of being raped than anything else. It’d be like a racist saying he’s afraid of black people killing him so he’s gonna dash into a minefield.

And B. That’s because not all transwomen are the same.

Cool. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqVOmKagtcM

So since we’re thinking all people of the same group are the same, should I assume you wanna commit baby genocide?

No, I didn’t think so.

But you won’t huh?

Considering that you’d be more fucked than trans women if I did-

You should be grateful.

God you oyinbo idiots are so fucking disgusting and insufferable.

*God you africaner idiots are so fucking disgusting and insufferable.

KEEP BLACK PEOPLES NAMES OUT YOUR MOUTH.

*KEEP WHITE PEOPLES NAMES OUT YOUR MOUTH.

See you just proved my point. This shit of ‘look at these select people from this group, they’re all bad now and we should treat them lesser!’ is exactly the same thought process used against black people to justify racism. Not to mention Jewish people and Nazism...

And you showcase your bigotry even further because all I had to do was literally swap the races in your shit and suddenly you sound like a klansman. Which means you also sounded like one.

You didn’t prove jackshit. All you did was give Richard Spencer some jackoff material. You’re a bigot. Your justifications and actions are the fucking same and I know if some white person tried saying ‘a black person abused me as a child, we should treat them as lesser’ or ‘a woman abused me as a child, we should treat them as lesser’, let alone the two combined, you wouldn’t buy it.

Face facts: you’re a bigot. You’re wrong. Deal with it.

[hey-hamlet]

BNHA AU Ideas: Don’t Praise the Almighty (Part 2)

Also on AO3!

TW: Child Abuse (all kinds implied, explicit verbal and physical abuse), implied CSA

TL;DR:

Things you must sacrifice to make a hero: Humanity, Empathy.

Things you must sacrifice to be a hero: Everything.

But with the end of a symbol come the end of the hurt. 

Starting with I-Island Expo

mellissa calls them over like canon, shouto basically demands he gets endeavours spot. aizawa and yamada go too, mostly because yamada was going there for his show and they heard whispers of all might, and were worried about a possible izuku attending so aizawa went as a plus one

the other kids are there for the same reason, but other than scissors paper rock for the tickets it was a tournament brawl because ochako demanded combat.

she won, of course

anyway, they meet up w david and melissa, and izuku and her go explore the expo when melissa tells izuku shes quirkless he just give her the strangest look, and she's a little confused

i-island was a very chill attitude towards quirks. if you have one, cool, but they aren't useful to the inventors so its nbd if you don’t. and she says ab how she's a researcher and all the and he just looks at her like shes speaking gibberish

"they,,, they let you?"

and melissa looks dumbfounded "obviously? i mean, my grades are good enough?"

and izuku just start to cry. melissa is panicking bc she's already adopted this little hero as her little cousin because he's basically uncle might's kid. she like, hides him away in a corner and tries to understand what's wrong

and all she can get out of this crying kid is

"i used to be quirkless" and "don't tell all might"

she gives him a big hug and he talks ab how he was treated in middle school, and about how he hasn't told anyone in ua. she asks why he said don't tell all might and he murmurs that allmight doesn't think is very befitting of a hero to cry

deep down that doesn't sound right to her. but she only nods, hands him a tissue and they giggle about it behind a fancy model car

back in the office david and all might are talking

all might tells david that he knows his quirk is fading but it's ok, because he's training a successor and izuku is going to be perfect. that sounds ok to david. he's warmed by the total faith all might seems to have in his student, and the close relationship they must have to call him by his first name

all might confesses he’s looking forward to retiring and nurturing his student and david calls off the whole heist (well. he tries to. not that they listen.)

so Yamada and Aizawa are walking around the showroom floor and they see a "i was just crying but im trying to hide it and going an ok job" izuku with some random fucking blonde girl and they s w o o p in bc these are some worried dads

basically Yamada keeps her busy while aizawa says "oh i have to talk to you ab something" izuku goes over to aizawa and hes freaking the fuck out quietly. aizawa just leans down to look him in the eye

"you ok, kid?"

and izuku is confused

"what do you mean?"

"you looked a little upset back there, do you know that girl? is she,,, doing anything? to you?"

and izuku feels all warm and fuzzy inside and smiles at his teacher bc aizawa cares!! ab him!!

"no sensei, shes all mights kind-of-niece, she was just showing me around the expo"

and aizawa winces a little at the all might comment but what can he do

"well, don't forget you can talk to me, ok? i know i gave you my number on an emergency basis but i also want you to know your definition of an emergency is terrible. just call whenever you want"

melissa, bc she understands social cues unlike izuku, and also bc shes fucking 18 looks at yamada and says "what's wrong?" and yamada feels all the force of an 18-year-old girls glare of "ive adopted this kid and ill kick you for him"

"just worried about the little listener is all, he looked a little down"

melissa just sighs and nods

"yeah."

yamada expects her to continue but she doesn't. they both just kinda fiddle around with some random buttons until aizawa brings izuku back, who looks significantly cheerier now. melissa declares lunch is on her and that the teachers are coming too

aizawa and yamada try to wiggle their way out of it, until izuku also tries to so they all double down on going to lunch and izuku gets dragged along

when they get there he's fretting ab what won't ruin his diet plan, and aizawa and yamada feel bad. melissa just tells him to get what he wants

"but i dont want to upset-. i should be sticking to my diet plan though."

aizawa loudly declares hes getting a chocolate sundae and pork cutlet sandwiches. melissa, equally loudly, decides on carbonara. yamada fumbles for a bit looking for something unhealthy because hes a mess, finally finds a chicken karrage bowl and points at it like hes very proud of himself

melissa loses her shit laughing, izuku just giggles softly and aizawa fuckn snorts at the crestfallen look on yamada

izuku quietly asks if getting katsudon would be ok and melissa just looks into his eyes

"izuku i would kill a man for you of course pork katudon is ok"

anyway, the other students turn up, and momo shouts them all food, ochako proudly declares herself the winner of a fighting tournament and aizawa just slumps in his chair

"if i didnt hear that, you dont get detention for using your quirks without supervision"

and ochako just smiles with a scary amount of teeth

"who said we used quirks, sensei?"

and ochako proudly shows off the bruise on her upper arm where jirou punched her and jirou is whining bc she has a foot shaped imprint in her stomach s t i l l from the last round

everyone is talking n shooting the shit. it strikes the kids (and the teachers) a little weird that izuku is in his hero costume (the only other person there in costume is yamada, who is representing his agency. aizawa is in free dress but also his scarf bc he wanted to ask how the fuck it was made) but they just kinda, don't mention it

anyway, the bit w the quirk display

they hound aizawa into doing it, and he makes time pretty similar to bakugo and everyone is cheering for him and he's trying very hard to maintain his "im a professional hero not a dad getting cheered on by his stupid kids"

yamada wants to do it, but aizawa won't let him bc people need their ears

all the hero kids give it a go, including ochako, jirou, momo, etc. izuku (who at this point is like at 10%ish full cowl) makes time tied w Todoroki and izuku is talking ab how amazing todoroki is, and tenya chimes in with "you are quite amazing as well!" and midoriya blushes so hard he looks like a strawberry. he is very very flustered and keeps trying to deny it

eventually, everyone piles on the compliments (even katsuki bc this is the most fun hes had in ages) until izuku gets so flustered he hides behind aizawa like "you won't do this to me right?"

aizawa fuckn ruffles his hair and says "you're a good kid"

izuku just cries but he's smiling so wide everyone knows he's happy

so its the night of the party

izuku is dressed to the nines and he's sad ab it bc he wanted to wear something cheery and bright but instead he was dressed in a charcoal black suit, vest and a dark red tie. black shoes too

the one bit of cheer he shoved in were some red laces bc all might didn't mind them bc he was so "good" ab the suit fitting and the poking and prodding so he wears the bright red laces and he's very happy ab them

all might is in his hero costume, and he's very proud of the fact he and izuku match like a pair with the same shade of red bc that's his successor! his boy! all might tells izuku he can wait outside for the rest of the kids to show up and izuku is so happy! so he thanks allmight a lot more than he needs to and waits outside the door (all might was early to the event bc he needed to schmooze)

aizawa and yamada come later to a surprisingly well dressed izuku waiting patiently off to the side

they ask him why he's out there and he happily chirps that he's waiting for the other students that attended, they smile at him and walk in . all might sends them a glare from across the floor that aizawa returns just as spitefully

anyway, iida texts that he's stuck out the front bc the door won't open so he scrambles over to let iida and, apparently ochako as well, in (for the purposes of this au, todoroki, iida, ochako, izuku and melissa are the only ones of the kids at the beginning, todoroki's melodramatic entrance is stolen by jirou and momo. no mineta or kami bc they just,,, arent there lmao)

so the doors slam shut and melissa is like "wtf wtf" and the announcement sounds. they pile up the stair to look down to the dining room, teachers and other heroes tied up

the kids know a bit of sign from various hero class training bits by aizawa and "fun facts" by mic

so they brokenly sign to allmight and aizawa (the only teachers that can see them) that they are going to fix this

all might nods

aizawa looks panicked. these are kids. his kids. they shouldn't have to fight people with fucking guns

izuku says "ill keep them safe" and aizawa wants to cry because he believes him, but who'll keep izuku safe

so iida starts on his whole "we cant use quirks" speech before melissa can even remind them ab i islands quirk laws, izuku just murmurs

"all might gave me permission to fight. it'll be ok."

melissa freezes bc,,, she knows adults shouldn't be letting these kids fight, even if that's exactly what she's going to help them do. she mentions the quirk law anyway

now todoroki is pissed at all might but the bitch was gonna fight anyway. ochako is 100% roaring for a showdown

now they are,, a little more cautious. bc they are a smaller group here but izuku is like double the power so its not realllllyy an issue. the middle fight happens, they gain the wlw and mlm solidarity pairs (Jirou + Momo, Kirishima + Bakugo)

then pretty quickly lose bakugo and momo for a hot minute as they stay to finish up the fight while sending the others on

oh izuku totally has the punchy punchy thing from melissa i just forgot to mention it

so, bc melissa's dad didnt actually,, want in on it this time he's fighting back. he's stalling, pleading, backchatting; everything he can do to give someone a chance to fix his fuck up before it kills someone

so melissa and izuku make it to the top of the tower

izuku has been at shot more times than he's really happy about, just he has nothing more than a few grazes. melissa has a nasty bruise on her face and a cut on her arm from where she redirected a blow that would have stabbed izuku

the villain is talking ab how this was David's idea, and he's trying to explain to the kids that he's sorry, this was a mistake. he tried to call it off but they wouldn't stop. at this point he is totally away these people are real criminals and has been since the heist began

he's trying to convince them to run because as proud as all might is of izuku, and as proud of melissa he is, they are to young. they don't deserve this

izuku takes out the goons but the villain has already escaped with david and the quirk enhancer

izuku promises melissa he'll keep her dad safe and shes left in the control room crying alone because who'll protect the kid that's been nothing but kind and gentle yet has the weight of the world on his shoulders

also just an fyi bc you needed to know- melissa is down her heels and she lost her hairpin when she stabbed someone with it, she threw her heels at a villain too bc she was running out of ideas. melissa literally tied her hair in a big knot so she could fucking see

izuku is down a jacket - threw it over someone's head then punched them and his waistcoat is unbuttoned bc he need to punch. his hair is going fucking hog wild, even in the tighter clip yagi likes it kept in

anyway, when the alarms go off, all might fucking rockets to the roof and aizawa is fuming bc those are his fucking kids too

he and yamada have to take the goddamn elevator to the roof. its certainly not a slow elevator but aizawa is so fucking tense. yamada isn't much better

all might won't let them fight. he hands david and melissa off to them and tells them he and izuku will handle wolfram and aizawa is so pissed bc izuku is on his last fucking legs here

aizawas quirk doesn't work w the enhancer so he admits there isn't much he can do, but yamada is perfect here. but all might won't move out of the way long enough for mic to let his quirk go. honestly, hed be tempted to do it anyway if not for izuku also being there

anyway, all might and izuku do their lil double detroit smash and its all very sweet

kind of

bc,,, aizawa can see how izuku is shaken up, and close to passing out. visibly in a lot of pain but he's swallowing it all down and acting as if everything is fine and aizawa sees izuku with small might again and wonders why, why do they know each other?

yamada and aizawa feel vaguely ill when izuku and all might return to their shared hotel room after all might grabs a few bandages and alcohol wipes from a first aid kit. bc,,, aizawa can see how izuku is shaken up, and close to passing out. visibly in a lot of pain but he's swallowing it all down and acting as if everything is fine

aizawa and yamada stay with the kids, trying to cheer them up and bandaging wounds that don't need urgent medical care. melissa is just blankly watching out the door izuku left through

"why didn't they stay?"

aizawa just aggressively tightens the bandage around his sliced up arm. todoroki looks pissed. iida just kind of looks down

"im not sure, melissa. im... im not sure"

the next morning, as aizawa and yamada stumble downstairs to eat shitty hotel breakfast food, yamada glances out the window and looks like he's about to cry bc izuku, still battered and bruised, is stepping out of the gym over the road. its only 7am

they basically pounce on the kid and drag him to breakfast, where they find out he has been training since 5 and hasn't eaten yet and he's fucking, sheepish about it

"i got up a little late, so i just to my light routine for the morning, ill have to make up the time a little later"

aizawa just shoves pastries at his kid. izuku tries to stammer out that they arent part of his diet but,,, they look really nice and he's really hungry and stressed,,, and he caves pretty quick

so aizawa yamada and izuku are sitting around a table, both of his teachers arent totally human until they've had a coffee so izuku is happily babbling about some new hero teach he saw as aizawa grunts in affirmation

allmight shows up and izuku blanches. aizawa and yamada are a little too tired to realise until yagi is already over by the table. izuku quietly puts down the pastry and just cringes into himself

"im,,, im really sorry. i - i just"

"i got it for him" aizawa says totally deadpan as he slams back a whole ass cup of coffee

deep down inside he did it to flex on mister "i have no stomach so im not allowed caffeine"

all might sighs and gently chides izuku for not sticking to his diet plan. izuku nods miserably and excuses himself back to the room to 'get changed out of his sweaty clothes'

yagi sits and eats breakfast with aizawa and yamada as they try to understand what,,, what exactly happened there. it hurts both of them because they aren't sure what all mights doing

mic has seen one instance of something nasty going on, but other than that its just been a collection of terrible vibes

Training Camp Time Baby.

after that total clusterfuck of an event training camps still on

all might wants to go but nezu no sells him bc "you literally attract villains, all might" and like bitch is smart, he knows something is up. he's not sure what yet, but he's working on it

all might gives aizawa a personalised training schedule for izuku that he takes one look at and throws it out the fucking window

basically all might goes as "all might's secretary" to monoma

"very worried about my boy, and i think aizawa is training him too hard, could you please give me a run down on what happens each day?"

monoma, starry-eyed: of course all might

and there is this little,,, list of things he doesn't want izuku doing and he phrases them in ways that make it seem like he's being perfectly reasonable. like allergies or bad habits izuku is trying to break or whatever. izuku has to tell all might what happens at the end of every day anyway

all might,,, wants hourly updates,,,, but he realises that's not going to happen w aizawa's deep hatred of students on cellphones lmao

he hears izuku mentioning to todoroki that "yagi" wants to know what's happening at the camp and that he's excited to talk to his mentor about all the training they do. and aizawa is caught between wanting to find some bullshit reason to take izukus phone, or just pretending he didn't hear that bc who knows how much trouble not answering yagi could get him in

he makes an announcement that cellphones are to be on mute for the duration of the camp anyway.

yagi wanted to go on the camp, aizawa wouldn't let him, monoma is yagis mole etc we have covered this

in this au the league never latched on to bakugo, it's izuku that shigiraki wants, but to backtrack

getting off the bus its funny in a sad way bc izuku was so prepared to get hit by one of the teachers "training" them at any time he dodges the landslide

they all just kinda sit there for a second, stunned. izuku sighs quietly and jumps after his classmates

anyway so, they get to the camp a lil faster bc izuku is More Powerful, izuku (bc hes faster than iida on uneven ground) runs shinsou to the campground, they mind control pixiebob to stop the earthbeasts then run back to show the rest of 1A the way out

they get there in 2 hours

aizawa is very proud of his boy for thinking of that! and he ruffles izukus hair and its cute

in this au izuku isn't confident enough to say hi to kouta, but he waves. kouta just glares at him and he hides behind iida

they do a little extra training because 1A finished the earth beast thing so fast, half of the training is all of 1A trying to stop Izuku from going overboard. they get a little,,, disturbed when they realise just how long izuku can train without visibly breaking a sweat

they go to chill in the baths and iida sees izuku walking out of the changing rooms and freezes

because he's c o v e r e d in hand-shaped bruises

he tries not to react bc he doesn't want izuku to be uncomfortable and change his mind ab hanging in the bath w all of them

kaminari goes to say something and kirishima just fucking pulls him under the water before he can say anything, mineta is socially aware enough to not open his fucking mouth

they chat n izuku can kinda,,, tell,,, something is wrong but most of the bruises are places he can't see/doesn't look, like his shoulders, hips, back, back of his legs

and the ones on his wrist he just kinda brushes off bc he's still convinced this is normal. the thing w mineta happens, izuku helps kouta, iida comes with him to give him to the wild wild pussycats

and pixiebob looks like she wants to say something bc who is hurting this kid? and iida just catches her eyes and he looks so worried. she keeps her mouth shut, but makes sure to mention it to aizawa. she feels terrible when aizawa just curses and pulls his hair in frustration

anyway, 1B shows up and its hilarious bc 1A is going hog fucking wild other than izuku, aizawa is forcing izuku to learn to cook

so bakugo is screaming and blowing shit up, todoroki is in a fucking barrel, iida is running like afo is chasing him and aizawa is patiently showing izuku how to scramble eegs

monoma is losing his fucking mind

but yeah aizawa and izuku are sitting in front of a little stove w their legs crossed, izuku is trying to cut tomatoes and aizawa is supervising. they are making breakfast for 1A. slowly. all of 1A is being very careful to not disturb them, so there is this little bubble of calm around the egg station

"why,,, why arent i training?"

and aizawa fucking pauses

"this is training, keep up problem child."

and izuku looks so fucking lost but the eggs smell good and he gets to cook the bacon next. each part of the fucking breakfast is cold by the time 1A gets to eat it bc izuku was cooking it 1 by 1, little portions at a time

everyone just tells him its fucking wonderful

he joins in training after breakfast, ragdoll is placed on "izuku watching duty" which izuku has 0 clue about. if he gets hurt/sore/too tired someone gets sent over to get him to do something else

when she looks at him the first time she wants to cry bc,,, he's not tired, he's more rested than he's been in ages. but the places that hurt, before hes even been training, are sending blaring alarm bells in her brain

anyway, its amusing bc everyone is 'going beyond' and they are just trying to get izuku back so they can know what is 'going beyond' and what is 'going so far beyond how are you still moving'

everyone is fucking wiped and izuku is like 'this is the easiest training ive had in months what' and aizawas want to yell bc while hes being soft on izuku, they arent taking his training lightly, and this is easy?

he gives the curry to kouta like the show, they all go to sleep

izuku has a nightmare and shouto - the only person not asleep - tries not to hear the things he's saying. he can't hear much, but he wishes he hadn't heard anything. anyway at least they all wake up well-rested

unfortunately in this au the villains actually have a half-decent plan, and fucking, communicators -which isn't great for the kids

so muscular sees izuku and is like "oi compress move your arse over here" while he tries to kill kouta. so we get the joy of izuku saving kouta, getting him to aizawa and just as he hands over the kid, compress takes izuku and kouta just starts to cry

"izuku is kidnapped" time is a ride

the only thing they give him is a set of quirk suppressors and dont give him a key to get out of the bar. they are about as nice to him as they are to each other, a little softer on him bc he's young and they pretty much know what's happening to him

like, he gets out of compresses marble and he's panicking and crying, dabi just crouches down next to him and rubs his back, asks him if he's gonna be ok

shigiraki is trying to convince izuku to join then and his face just kinda falls when he sees izuku looking resistant

"you,,, you don't know that what he’s doing to you is wrong, do you."

and izuku looks like a deer in the headlights

"what do you mean? no ones- nothings- nothings wrong."

dabi just sits on a chair bc he knows where this is going and he doesn't like it. shigiraki looks at izuku

"if its not wrong, then tell me about it"

and izuku clams right up

ok but afo wants to talk to izuku. in this au he has literally 0 beef with the kid

he has only so much beef with the ofa users in general and he's typically pretty soft on them for being part of his brothers legacy, as soft as he can make killing them if they won't stop getting in his way, but still

but he hates allmight so fucking much and he's never been totally sure why

anyway, he asks to talk w izuku and this kid is shaking like a leaf and afo tells him

"you are a child. i have no intention of hurting you, i just want to know what all might has done to you."

"hes not done anything bad, i swear!"

"then why don't you tell me about it?"

izuku sits there quietly and afo feels just generally disgusted with humanity tbh

"how did you two meet?" izuku slowly opens up about the day they first met, and afo feels a stab of empathy for izuku, because being quirkless now is pretty comparable to being quirked before, afo doesnt interject beyond nods and encouraging him to keep going

but eventually, izuku totally clams up, starts crying and can't say anything else. afo wishes he didnt look as scary as he did because he wants to give the kid a hug. he calls tomura to take him back to the bar and get him something to eat

it gets to the point that all of the villains are super fucking soft for izuku. he's very nice, treats them well, and has seen some horrific shit

so when all might shows up to "rescue" him, they close ranks. they don't even pressure him to become a villain, because each of them has felt society push them into boxes they didn't want, and they don't want to do that to izuku

anyway, they get to kamino bc the usual fuckery, and izuku is just stranded behind villains crying and looking ill

the rescue squad : bakugo, todoroki, ochako, kirishima, iida, and one stubborn shinso that befriended the hero departments resident nervous wreck

they look across the field and they feel ill because izuku looks sick. but they feel a little better when twice gives him a bit of a hug.

confilcted, but better

they see afo talking to him gently but quickly, gesturing both to the villains and to the section of wall the rescue squad is hidden behind. izuku tearfully points to the wall, afo nods, ruffles his hair, and goes to send him off when all might rockets in

basically afo has looked at izuku and thought "wow he's me but a good person" and thinks he's what his little brother would want a hero to be, so, while he's very much going to continue his villainous thing, he's going to go out of his way to avoid hurting izuku bc this kid is what his little brother wanted OFA to be

and allmight is exactly what he would have hated

so, all might takes a step forward to drag izuku, the villains push him behind them

dabi is basically saying something along the lines of

"so does being in the top ten require you to be a total dick, or is it just a running theme?"

"give him back"

"why all might, izuku is his own person."

"izuku, get over here, now."

izuku lets out a sob and vaults over the villains, hiding behind allmight and all might looks horrifically smug. izuku whispers something to all might, but all might shakes his head (he was asking if he could run away)

the fight begins

a few reasons he won't let him leave:

its punishment for being 'weak' enough to get kidnapped

its backup if afo gets the better of his because hes made sure izuku is more than a force to be reckoned with

he wants to know what dabi ment and hes very read to ask izuku ab it

izuku is honestly shaking like a leaf, quirk going bonkers and he can't turn it off. the rescue squad does its thing, and their hearts break when they see izuku look at them tearfully and shake his head

they all hide in the crowd and cry as they watch the fight go on, izuku shakily pulling people from the rubble in the background. when hes gotten all of the people free he can, izuku kind of runs out of reasons he isnt actively helping allmight. he grits his teeth and dives into the fight with the other villains

hes trying to keep them away from all might and they all look heartbroken ab having to fight him dabi is saying something along the lines of "we know he hurt you, but how? why?" and izuku is just crying

all might can hear this too

izuku actually misses a few kicks and punches bc his eyes are too filled with tears, but the villains are careful not to hurt him too much. they just want to get him down and out of the fight, but as uninjured as possible

but that's a little fucking difficult when compress and kurogiri are down for the count and everyone else has nasty death quirks

eventually, it gets to the point that trying not to hurt the other villains is only hindering afo, and all might is pulling exactly 0 punches with izuku present, so afo teleports the villains away, they feel bad ab leaving izuku behind but there is no way this little hero would go with them. they know that now

afo goes to deal the final blow to all might, izuku just moves

cant stop himself from planting himself between them and trying desperately to catch the punch. hes hurt, badly. but he's not as dead as all might would have been

there is a vicious edge to all might’s smile as izuku is blown across the battlefield, and lays there w/o moving

afo feels sick, all might just looks pleased

"ive done pretty well wouldn't you say?"

afo just stares at him

"ive created the perfect hero. selfless down to the last breath, filled with overwhelming power and determination."

"he's flawless. isn't he."

afo wants to gag

"so, in creating your 'perfect hero', you find it acceptable to sacrifice your own humanity?"

"absolutely"

(all mights been small might for this conversation i just forgot to mention it l m a o )

they exchange their final blows

izuku shakily gets up from where he lays crumpled on the ground and staggers over to all might, where he stands victorious over afo

iida, todoroki, shinsou, Bakugo, the people who have seen what yagi has done to izuku and how he has treated him are now slapped with the realisation that the number one hero and the person hurting their best friend are one and the same

shinsou punches a wall, bakugo looks like he's about to be sick. iida and todoroki look shell shocked. ochako is just lost and confused

all might wraps izuku is a hug, where izuku hides his sobbing face. all might whispers something in izukus ear, not that the cameras can pick it up

"come on now, heroes don't cry."

izuku takes a breath, wipes away his tears and steps back. All might rests a hand on his shoulder and looks into his eyes, and loud enough for the cameras to pick up and announces

"you're next."

izuku nods solemnly

in the back of a conference room, vlad watches as aizawa goes deathly pale in realisation. at ua, nezu watches on with a degree on concern. at the hospital, the clueless members of 1A cheer. those who know more feel nervous, those who know the most feel sick.

the internet goes fucking bonkers. all might transformed, defeated a crazy villain, and literally declared his successor live on television

izuku and all might end up in the same hospital room, and all might,,, allmight.. ye.

anyway, the kids from the rescue attempt call aizawa over and over and over. every teacher, student, pro

any hero of ua staff they have anyway of contacting, begging to find out where izuku is right now. aizawa would tell them if he wasn't going exactly the same thing himself

eventually recovery girl calls him and he hightails his way over. fyi inko isn't there bc shes passed out drunk at home uwu

he bursts into the hospital room with as much dignity as he could possibly have and it's not really very much. doctors are hovering around, stitching wounds, taking blood, and watching an ecg pretty closely (they felt the room for a minute and izukus started going crazy, so they thought something may have happened to his heart)

the amount izuku perks up when he sees aizawa is heartbreaking he rushes over and immediately starts looking him over, apologising and telling him he's brave and that he's sorry he couldn't be there to help and izuku tears up. all might is glaring a hole in his back but aizawa doesnt give a shit right now, his kid basically go taken by the boogeyman and his unstable son, then has a target painted on his back on live tv. aizawa gives 0 shits ab all might right now

izuku just looks stunned, and then he lets out a watery giggle

"you shaved, sensei."

and aizawa is caught between crying and laughing. gently asks izuku if he can give him a hug, and izuku looks so shocked he was asked aizawa heart breaks again. izuku nods shyly and gets a Good Dad Hug

aizawa stays until izuku falls asleep, then he rounds on all might

“I don’t know what you’ve done to him, but he looked more afraid to be stood next to you than a man who has killed countless. Whatever you did, you won’t be doing it again.”

All might goes to say something, anything, but aizawa grabs him by the front of his hero costume

Aizawa tells him in no uncertain terms that he’ll never be alone in a room with izuku again for as long as he lives.

And with that, he storms out, leaving all might to stew.