#bc i am an academic at heart i do want to write a lot of papers and do studies and make moves in whatever field i choose but also i want

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

it’s contemplating if i should change my major even though i’m graduating in december hours….. again

[marigoldbaker]

making a list of good things that happened this year because there's too many and i need them recorded for posterity

visited bonus mom in england and it rewired my entire brain chemistry. i did not blog about it a lot i don't think and i don't talk about it often because it was such a joyful celia is fully present experience, but i will say that when i first arrived at the airport i was so fucking nervous and i was all kinds of shaky and fucked up and terrified that this six year long relationship would fall apart when we tried to translate it to irl and then i saw them there with a sign for me that is now on my wall in my apartment and something in my heart snapped into place and i literally physically flung myself at them and tripped over my suitcase and my knees gave out and i ended up dragging them down to the floor and we hugged for like at least ten minutes (conservative estimate probably). true story

jess is an entire bullet point on this list. funny sweet important passionate talented dedicated hardworking academically iconic definitely needs to take more naps keeps me apprised on extensive sims lore is coming out to visit in february is incisively thoughtful and we've made up beef for our dnd characters together. i love you a lot jess. i would say more things but i bet even these things are going to make you hide under a pillow. so.

so many other friends! like??? insane???? quite a few irl friends which is so cool! particular love for hal and silvain and rj (calendiles dnd crew i love you i'm so glad me putting down jenny has not meant putting down our friendships bc you're all such marvelous people) and gabby and silvain (silvain gets a double mention for Reading Literally All Of My 200K Word Fic reasons. erudite, and immensely appreciated)

and the new bg3 friends i'm beginning to associate with who i don't wanna name by name bc i'm shy and i care overly but PLEASEEE know if we've texted more than once about bg3 i probably adore you greatly and admire your creativity and thoughtful opinions and am trying to play it cool but im bad at it. yes this is about you. i deeply hope we will continue talking. probably about jaheira bc im obsessed with that woman.

being part of like 2 different dnd campaigns this year right around the time i started playing bg3 for the first time was REALLY fucking cool.

ACTUALLY ON THAT SUBJECT THE WHOLE BG3 THING WAS REALLY FUCKING COOL. it feels really special to not like....idk, this year is the first year of my life i have not been labeling myself as That Jenny Calendar Girl! i don't feel like i'm That Jenny Calendar Girl. i am celia :) i like a lot of different things! i like video games, i like bookmaking, i like drawing, i like cooking and food, i like fashion, i like writing, i like little calico critters <3 ironically my url is still the same but i think i am going to keep it that way for a little while, because i like remembering what brought me to this blog in the first place.

fell in love with my neighborhood! it was always bound to happen, but the moving-in process was rough, and it took me a while to connect with the place. now i know what drink i like to order at the local cafes, i know where i want to go for coffee and for pizza, i know about farmers' markets and local events, i know that There Is A Fucking Swimming Pool Across From My House. i do not think i can ever leave.

started to FINALLY feel comfortable in my job! i still don't totally know what i'm doing, but i don't feel like i'm sleepwalking through work while badly dissociating, and i really love the work that i do + the position i fill. i'm so hopeful that i can continue to work with teens. being a teen librarian is oft a difficult position to find

learned how to cook! did not do it often this year but oh well. i was busy.

went to the chicago art institute for the first time ever and got to see a sunday afternoon on the island of la grande jatte by georges seurat which was really insanely meaningful because sunday in the park with george is one of my dad's favorite musicals, and he went and saw that painting a long long time ago, and he also went and saw the monet paintings, and we texted a bunch about it

kept connected with my dad and my brother, and am starting to realize that having my own adult life means i fit a lot easier into theirs.

was briefly and meaningfully reunited with the actual love of my life (the pacific ocean)

VISITED A ROCK BEACH IN ENGLAND. if no one else got me i KNOW rock beach got me. everyone i have talked to is like "no, beaches need to be sandy" but i don't think they understand the sensory experience of sitting among 10000000000 rocks and picking them up and playing with them and finding a piece of rock chalk and drawing faces on the rocks and leaving all the rock faces for someone else to find and hopefully be unnerved by and then having your bonus mom's partner be like "celia are you just abandoning your children there" and reconsidering a lot of life choices but not enough to take the rock faces

i love you lake michigan im sorry i spent 80 percent of this year being mad at you for not being the pacific ocean im done having emotional problems i promise

went and saw wicked 3 different times

went on a couple of really meaningful and sweet dates and even if they didn't go anywhere i think the fact that i'm capable of feeling like that about another person is super awesome to know, and makes me so excited to keep on trying with that

went on a bunch of REALLY wonderful friend-dates and made new friends :) who i have been hanging out with on and off when our schedules allow for the last few months, and who invite me to parties and things!

received some really incredible and personal holiday gifts from a couple of friends, making me subsequently realize that maybe i'm not impossible to give gifts to

drew an entire wall of art for above my bed

bought a four piece microwave safe dish set in colors i love that remind me of marigold. for $10. will absolutely never let anyone forget that or change my blog title (which is a reference to the fact that i went insane that day to the extent that a woman leaving the shop saw me sitting outside with my cardboard box of dishes and went "are you still enjoying your dish set?" and i did not know who she was bc i blacked out and told everyone in the store about how much i loved the dish set. apparently)

i cannot even talk about marigold without getting so unwell and feeling in my chest just this indescribable feeling. i spent like eight years unwaveringly obsessed with a minor character from a 90s tv show who i really was just making into my own original character, but she never could feel fully mine, and the experience of creating my own girl from scratch (baking her, lol) when i was regularly dissociating and vaguely suicidal and having her be the thing that made me figure out how to connect with things and be happy again has been probably one of the best things i have ever experienced. to know unequivocally that the thing that makes me feel strong and centered is something i made for myself out of all the complicated insecurities and worries i feel. she brings me so much joy. i don't think i'm ever going to put her down. that 90s girl was not my baby, and that 90s video game woman, as beloved as she is, may not be around in my heart forever (though i strongly suspect it's going to be another decade, lol) but marigold? that's always. i love her. she's the girl i made for me

[merakiui]

Hii!! I just wanted to pop in and say I hope you're doing well :-) bc I've been,,, incredibly inactive for awhile.

Also. I was sick awhile ago when you dropped your little online Christmas tree and Cannot Remember What I Wrote. So augujghhh please forgive if it has typos or somehow doesn't make sense bc I was Definitely out of it on cold medicine lmao 😭 but I don't think it was that bad. Still wanted to say something abt it though,,, just in case.

But !! Idk I wanted to see what is up!! What is going on in Mera Brain Land !!

- :3 anon

OMG HIII :3 anon!!!! I'm so happy you're feeling better now. :D and please don't worry about the tree message!! I'm sure it's lovely, with or without typos!!! o(≧v≦)o thank you for writing a message! I look forward to reading it when Christmas comes hehe!! I guarantee it will leave me smiling as your messages usually do. 💖💖

And I'm doing well!!! A few days ago my eye hemorrhaged, but it was thankfully harmless!!! All I needed to do was restrict my screen time and it gradually healed itself. The one thing I dread about final exams and projects is that it boosts my screen usage to unhealthy levels. >_< but now that I've finished everything on my academic to-do list I can return to healthy screen times!!!! ദ്ദി(˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧ I am finally free uuuwaaa,,, orz orz

So much is always going on in Mera Brain Land. >:D lots of Halloweenie stuff hehehe. I love giving Fellow consecutive headaches because his employees are just so silly. And Skully!!! Putting my entire heart into writing him as the most cutest, sweetest, soggiest puppyboy gentleman.

[fluxweeed]

Hii, I just discovered your fics and am reading my way through them. Love, love, love the ones I’ve read so far.😊 I was just wondering what your favourite Draco is you’ve written, and what your fave Draco is in fics written by others? ☺️

ACK thank you!! what a question!! i've considered this v carefully and it turns out i have………a lot of thoughts. i will keep them under a cut so nobody is accosted with a full 700 words of my Draco Opinions 😂 so my quick answer is:

my fave draco i've written: the taste of țuică my fave draco ever: rookie moves by peu_a_peu

draco is an interesting one for me bc i don't really LIKE him? but i have sooo many feelings about him. really not sure i could summon the same fervour for harry, for example, who is my number one boy forever and always.

(i saw a thing once that said a pairing becomes ur otp when u relate to one of the characters and want to fuck the other one, and 🙈 i mean, i think you're supposed to relate to the gryffindor, aren't you. whoops.)

OKAY SO HERE'S THE UNHINGED DRACO MALFOY ESSAY BY FLUX W. EED.

listen. i love and respect people who are Refined Draco enjoyers. connoisseurs of redemption arcs. appreciators of majestic malfoy bone structure and ethereal grey eyes and soft windswept hair. fans of dracos who insult harry (with hidden affection) and who are a bit snobbish (in a rich, sexy way) but ultimately have realised the error of their teenage years and have become a better person. perhaps this draco has built a potions business and helps the aurors. perhaps he IS an auror. either way, he has a biting sense of humour, maybe, but he's a good guy.

unfortunately, the draco of my heart is a horrid mean little rat man.

i've never actually managed to write him the way i love him. i tried to aim for immoral bastardy in what's mine is yours but i got so caught up in trying to nail the feelsforbreakfast-style humour in the narrative that i ended up focusing much more on that and much less on writing genuine bastardhood.

i've written him as reserved and clever (in the four doors – this draco was written entirely for @jovialobservationanchor, who had a weak spot for closed-off academics with soft centres) and as a traumatised self-loathing mess (in two to lie and to some extent for lack of wanting and say no to this) and hopelessly sexually/emotionally horny for one harry james potter (in, um, most things) but i've never managed to capture the genuine cruel streak and flawed personality that is sooo so important to me.

WHICH IS WHY i picked țuică!draco for my favourite of the ones i've written. he's still a bit too emotionally intelligent to be Just Right, imo, but i think he's maybe the closest? he's unrepentantly rude to people. he's not attractive. and he has a streak of self-destructive fucked-upedness that is some form of wartime guilt, but certainly not a pretty one.

HOWEVER. rookie moves?? NAILED it. i adooored how genuinely fuckin MEAN he is, even tho he's an auror. i love love LOVED that he's kind of bad at his job in a way that's in complete opposition to how drarry!draco is often written these days:

The look on Malfoy’s face was not only troubling, Harry realized, but familiar. At once activated and dead behind the eyes, like an invasive species in an ecosystem that could not check it. It was the look of the meanest fucking teenager Harry had ever known, giving in to his urge to bully.

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What Malfoy wasn’t good with was people. Despite his repeated insistences that his upbringing had equipped him with impeccable manners and a facility with society intrigue, the truth was that he rubbed almost everyone the wrong way. He was, undeniably, annoying. Witnesses were put off by his snide, dismissive tone, and he didn’t know how to coax out information with curiosity, warmth, or strategic silence.

that's not to say unrepentant cunt draco is the only one for me!! i DO enjoy the classic redeemed drarry draco!! i love a quirky draco, à la wwpwcs or maya's drop dead gorgeous. gallaplacidia's draco is sooo painful for me to read (complimentary) that even though i adore her fics, i still haven't read them all bc i have to space them out, for my health. and i'm sure there are dozens more dracos that i'm forgetting how much i like – basically, as long as he isn't super suave, absolutely gorgeous and/or obviously tom felton, i'm on board.

[maenecoon]

inspired by @/bluestjayy !!

i've only been writing for 1.5 years on ao3 and i've been blessed to have met so many supportive readers and friends along the way ^^ this year has been pretty special bc i finally started writing multi-chaptered fics (that somewhat have plot lines, lol). i used to shy away from doing those but gathered the courage to do so just a few months ago, and i'm very grateful for all the support i've gotten <33 thank you guys from the bottom of my heart!

mmyoao has a special place bc i really really enjoy bdsm aus/dynamics in general, and i have so much i want to explore in that fic. especially the side couples that don't have the main spotlight (kinnporsche, chanbig, khunpolarm). i just wish someone could pick apart my brain and translate all those ideas for me LOL. and puppy boy has so much more to give but aaaa college is busy as fuck and it really never stops, am hoping i'll be able to get a better control of work life balance and not succumb to the weight of academic pressure 😭😂

also i know i say this a lot but i'd really love to chat with y'all ^^ lmk what you think about my fics, writing, kimchay, what you like or dislike, what i could improve on, etc! i know i'm not a perfect writer and i'm bound to have preferences/fallacies, but i hope my writing has been enjoyable nonetheless! have a good year ahead everyone~

[thegoldencontracts]

Bro this is gonna seem so entitled of meeeee and I really don't mean to complain but why is it that so many x Riddle fics (no matter the ship) are just so fucking one-sided...

don't be a coward show Riddle in love... It feels better when they get together that way too

In canon hes so nice and reasonable... Don't do this to him COME ON STOP MAKING HIM A DOG SHIT BOYFRIEND WHILE HIS PARTNER JUST TAKES bro.

this is bc of an Azurido fic I read recently tbh... I love the ship so much but at the same time a large part of the charm is how at first neither of them like each other - Azul is envious of Riddle but begrudgingly respects his power and vice versa but then that changes during book 6 and these two academic rivals can't help but warm up to each other Azul isn't fucking in love with him while Riddle just doesn't gaf BRO

Low-key wanna write a kinda spitefic angst with a happy ending where Azul gets insecure bc Riddle shows basically no affection and is actively cold to him a lot and ends up acting like a fucking dick to Riddle and then there's a lot of angst and drama and it's like three or four, maybe even six chapters of tea and angst and emotions featuring other charactere and exploration and it ends with them having a big sweet heart to heart amd GOD IM LOVIMG THIS PREMISE

but I know that it would fucking flop like that one Jeiazu longfic I started and gave up on T_T

Why? Bc on top of azurido being a rare pair, NO ONE WOULD LIKE THAT IDEA BUT ME... Because it's just not a common preference just like no one wants to talk about Jamil's pining in pre-relationship JamiAzu

BEING DIFFERENT ISN'T WORTH IT GUYSSS,,, I am a creature of yapping I need someone to tap to about this but I HAVE NO ONEEE bc it is universally depicted as a bad take

Also how the fuck did I go from 'I feel like this is a common mischaracterization of Riddle' to 'WHY ARE MY TAKES EVAPORATED GIVE ME THE COLD WATER TAKES I MUST YAP'

Idek man

[redphlox]

Do you think a lot of meta writers for MHA were based on their own biases on what the story was shown. Or was this a theme that HK genuinely was portraying from an outside perspective that didn’t fall through for the villains to survive? In the end they were quote on quote saved, as AM put it, saved their hearts (which is so half assed ngl.) Do you think that was HK message all along? Or was it just being misread the entire time considering a lot of people felt like the LOV was going to die in the end, which they did…

You must be new to my blog but I have been consistently saying since the story ended that the writing was wishy-washy on what it wanted to do with the villains and that the author just set it up that they would be redeemed or saved in some way and then he chickened out.

The story basically said: here's a society that has villains. Oh but actually it's Society who makes the villains by ostracizing them in a " I will reject the society that rejects me" fashion. Oh but actually everyone deserves a second chance... but only certain people and especially not those main villains that Society drove into villainy. Good victims only bad victims can die. Also killing is bad except if you have a license to do that. Also, there are these kids that understand the villains but in a " sorry that your life sucks" kind of way. And when the villains die at the end Society doesn't understand that they are the ones that brought these very villainw upon themselves and the kids who kind of are aware of that don't ever speak out but they do other things that kind of help but not in a deep societal level.

I'm sure there was some bias into it for some, but seeing as a lot of the meta writers who were theorizing that the villains would be redeemed/saved in the end study literature on an academic level and also teach it, I'm inclined to say that the writing set this up. Literally people who have studied literature read the story and used their skills to analyze it , and these are the same people who are finding fault with the writing. Also BNHA isn't a difficult story to read and analyze like Crime and Punishment or anything like that. It's pretty basic and straightforward which is why the holes in the last half of the writing are so obvious.

Literally the first chapter is all about how heroism has been glamorized and celebritized, and then the whole thing with the stain Arc and false heroes... literally imagine reading an essay that starts off like that and then at the end it circles back and says that heroism should be glamorized and celebritized. Like????

It's not that people wanted their favorites to live just because of their biases, it's because that's what the writing told us. You can look at my blog and other metas that I reblogged to read about that.

The writing was inconsistent and did set up the villains to be saved/understood. My issue isn't even that they died it's the way that they died and how their stories/trauma were villainized. The story set up for the villains to be sympathized and they were to their hero counterparts but overall they were still villains to society which is stupid because society makes its own villains per the story so.. it's just as big circle that we go around in because the writing is faulty.

I wouldn't say that the theme of bnha was that the villains had to live, it was that everyone deserves a second chance despite their past especially villains bc they are a product of society, and this was granted to some but not all. And then that's all chopped up and toxic positivity with double standards. It's disgusting. A teenage girl basically committed suicide because she was convinced that it was too late for her to be loved and accepted by the spciety that rejected her and drove her to villainy. I'm not sure what's inspiring or hopeful about that even if she committed the act out of love too.

[blujaishah]

hi! How’s it going?

This is a good opportunity to explain why I haven't been posting art dont read any of it if u dont want to it's more for me

Aside from normal academic stuff it's mostly because my school's literary magazine is allowing submissions and I really want to get my art in it (you're a published artist/author if you get in it)

Thing is last year I didn't get my art in it (I made a self portrait titled 'hearts' that I stupidly never took a picture of because I never got it back) but they had too many art submissions and not enough literary submissions so most of the art got cut from the magazine

So I think you can tell that I was pissy bc I really need to get my art in this thing

So now I have been focusing a lot on my submission because I'm writing something with it, it's gonna look like a children's picture book with multiple drawings and a story

I might post it here if it doesn't end up being too personal but prob not

It's taking me a while because one i want it to look good and two i want it to look painted and that isn't my normal style and three because I am not a writer

Another reason as to why I'm not posting is because I'm looking for jobs because ur girl does not have money and that's something I wanna prioritize

And the last reason is less fun and something that I genuinely need to type out and admit in writing is that my parents are absolute batshit crazy and I want nothing more than to complete my high school credits and leave my home town

My sister didn't mind leaving like I want to in fact she wanted to get as far away from us (specifically my dad) as possible but she has no problem having me with her and husband because they've somewhat settled down

She's traveled the world and she's pretty cool, she's at a very prestigious university, she went to Thailand in high school, she's been to Jordan, Lebanon, and a couple years ago she went to Palestine for a year and became a high school teacher there she's awesome

It would be amazing to go to college where she is (i'm in a position financially and academically where going out of state for college is very possible ESPECIALLY where she is) and also to get to know her husband more would be great cause we barely got to know each other when he was here

My brother on the other hand didn't want to leave our mom but really needed to get out of the house because of our dad so now he's in this really awkward position where he lives in an apartment literally a 15 minutes walk from our house and by extension his very comfortable bedroom, and also he comes home every night to see our mom

It absolutely sucks and I very much want to leave my home even though I say what my parents want me to say I'll do after high school when I'm around them

My dad is demented and I have no problem admitting that he's never abused me physically but he has verbally quite a few times and hinted at physical abuse and it gets to me a lot

mostly it's about academics which he is quite literally insane for thinking I don't do well academically

There's a lot of stuff with him that's god awful and i wont get into it because that's what I do in a therapeutic environment which I cant get without being gaslit by my family so yeah

I can't draw anything except what I have to with all this it's a lot to be thinking about because I'm still just a kid and idk i can't handle it maturely so I have to write about it on tumblr lmao

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Rachel,

I have a few questions if you don’t mind:

1. How do you get comfortable writing the story of your heart? I’ve been pushing off big story ideas that I want to write so that I can get better at writing. But like what if that’s making me feel less motivated or am I just being annoying about it? Maybe I should just suck it up and practice something easier because I honestly don’t have the skills for a complex novel idea.

2. Do you ever look at other writers progress and process and feel bad about your own? Because I’ve been feeling like that a lot lately and trying to adapt to every writers process is impossible and not fun. But I’m stifled by the fear of doing things wrong even though there’s not really a “wrong” way to write.

3-4. I want to participate in nano but I’m a student so it’s going to be a challenge. Since you also were a student do you have any tips? I’ve heard from others that I should just give up writing while in school and every time it hurts, even though I know they don’t mean me any harm. I just want to know if it’s really impossible. So I guess this really is a 2 part question: Do you have any time management tips for writing as a student and do you have any tips for starting nano for the first time?

Hi hi hi!

1. Tbh, my best advice is just to write what you want. If that’s the hard thing, then go for the hard thing. I skirted around difficult projects thinking I didn’t have the skill set for them but that just led me to never writing them. The truth is you’re always going to be missing something before writing a project—writing is an evolutionary art form for that reason, so it’s intrinsic that we learn and fail as we go.

2. I don’t really feel bad when comparing myself to other writers but this probably is mostly because I generally don’t have negative self-talk anymore (IDK WHERE IT WENT LOL) but you’re absolutely not alone in this feeling (& I know I’ve felt this way in the past). You’ve got it right that there’s no one process, and tbh, the thing you might have to do is just constantly remind yourself of that when writing in order to push through. A lot of the time if writing is sticking for me for a more abstract reason like this I have to grit my teeth and keep reminding myself it’s okay to be imperfect, etc.

3. To be verrrryyy honest with you, I struggled to balance writing & school and while I don’t think you have to give up writing while being a student, something a lot of the times naturally has to give since being a student is so time consuming. Not to be discouraging at all but just as a precursor because I was never able to successfully do NaNo when I was in school (not even in high school) EXCEPT for in 2022, and that was for a couple reasons. Mostly, I just put school on the back burner haha. I’m not recommending this but at that point in my degree I was tired of how I was being treated & not being able to prioritize my own writing & I started to push the boundaries of my academics to see how much I could let go in order to write. This is not something I responsibly recommend, but it’s what I did. I wrote a lot in lectures (….. oops lol) & pulled back a bit on assignments (I still did as well as I typically do which is when I realized for me I could put in less effort into school & get the same results—just MY experience, again not a recommendation).

So I’m not saying it’s impossible but I don’t want to make it seem like I was able to juggle both. I wasn’t lol! I skipped classes, I BS’d assignments & that’s bc school wasn’t my priority anymore (this was 100% best for my mental health & I surprisingly academically performed the best I ever have & also graduated #1 in my faculty BUT I thrive off of chaotic timetables & doing things when I’m not supposed to lol, so again not a recommendation & just context as to how I did it).

Otherwise, a couple things I did: edited late at night when I was too tired to draft & added words through line level edits. Used scene ideas from old books & propagated them into the new book. Prepped a little in advance by drafting (or you could outline) so I knew where I was going. Got ahead by 1k as much as I could. It also helped that I was at the exact right place at the exact right time to do nano (literally got right to the climax at the very end), so a lot of my success I think was also luck.

My biggest tip for starting NaNo for the first time is to be open for your expectations to change & to listen to yourself as you go because a word count isn’t worth your mental health! If you can plan around busy days that can also help too. November was always the worst month for deadlines when I was in school, so if you’re falling behind it’s soooo okay! Have fun with it—NaNo isn’t supposed to be stressful, so if it is it’s okay to amend the goal to suit your lifestyle! :)

[cieloclercs]

hiya! congratulations on 1k, i can't think of anyone more deserving 🥺

can i request a lover, you should’ve come over for f1/f2?

here's a description of me - i am...

a 5'1.5 asian american girl (the 0.5 really matters for shorties like me 😔) with dark brown hair and brown eyes who is a lover of STEM (particularly chemistry and math), golf (and ofc f1). i will be a chem major in college but i am currently taking a gap year to do an internship and maybe spend some time in france 🤷🏻‍♀️. i am hoping to pursue medicine after college and i am trilingual and (fluent in Mandarin, English, and French). on the astrology side, i'm a libra, ascendant in gemini, and moon in virgo. i've played piano for at least 14 years and guitar for like 2 or 3 years. the absolute loml is my sister's dog bella, who is a cojack (jack russell and corgi mix).

also nobody quite writes angst like you do, so can I also request grace for charles and just like friends (in love) to strangers? idk if that's really a trope but i just need to be fed 😭

if you want to expand it 😉that would be even more amazing but no pressure

i ship you with mick schumacher!

— something about mick and a stem!s/o just makes sense to me i’m not entirely sure why 😭 i can imagine him asking you loads of questions about your schoolwork and just staring up at you with those puppy dog eyes all amazed bc you’re so smart 🥹 pls ask him to help you revise !! although don’t expect him to be a whole lot of help, he’ll probably get distracted watching you and forget he’s supposed to be asking you questions (he’s such a cutie) ☺️

— i think it’s a running theme in this that mick is just in awe of you and everything you do, sooo when he finds out you’re not only a super smart academic but you’re a musician as well ??? he’s obsessed. he’ll literally sit down and ask you to play for him just because he’s so in awe and he can’t believe how lucky he is to have you 🥹 basically he’s the sweetest angel on earth with the purest heart and he’ll do anything for you

— of course, there’s no mick without angie !! when you guys get together it’s a big thing introducing your dogs because you both love them so much, and it’s such a relief when they get on perfectly ! i can definitely see you guys taking them on joint walks to the park where you sit together on a bench and watch them play (hjshjshsh this concept makes me melt 🥹) cuddles definitely always have angie and your dog incorporated (they want attention so they won’t have it any other way). i can see you all huddled together on the sofa having a cute little family movie night 🥰 it’s all just domestic bliss with mick around :)

ps. i’ll be getting to the second part of your request asap 😉 i love the concept !! i can tell this is going to break my heart to write though 😭 (giving very much saudade vibes with the friends to strangers) 🥲

[faitsansorganes]

I drank a little so now it's my followers' problem if they decide to read this post (unwise decision)

anyways why do I always latch onto some professor (or in the past teacher) as a free parent when they can never be that. and I have so many conversations with them in my head where I pretend they are praising me or telling me things are going to be alright because that's what I want really. even though when I do impress people no matter how much it's never enough but still I crave it from these people I reverse-adopt in my head. and I feel so bad about it it's so weird to have someone you elevate mentally so much when really they're just some guy who happens to have a position in shaping you and yet to you they're like something you hang your entire sense of self on. which of course I can't tell them about bc this is insane right. anyways why did I start thinking about this right it's because well (as some who have the misfortune of reading my posts may have guessed) this year it's my philosophy professor and the academic year is coming to an end. less than a month of classes left, I only have him for lectures and the one this coming week I can't even go to because for another class we have odrabiane zajęcia (not translating this bc we never had odrabienie zajęć in the states so I have no idea wtf to call this) which my classmates voted to hold at the same time as the philosophy lecture. so like... two more lectures? maybe I go to his office hours one more time and that's it. and yeah literally that's all our interaction has been, my going to his office hours a few times to ask questions (and I feel so unconfident it took me two times going to the philosophy department building before I finally got the nerve to actually go to his office to talk to him) from which he supposedly thinks I have "exceptional talents" but what are those? going and complaining about Kant? fucking up my grammar spectacularly? that's another reason why I can't feel too happy at his praise because he's a very kind-hearted man so he says for example I "speak Polish wonderfully and write fantastically" but that's not true. my speech is communicable (very messy) and my writing is decent but that's all. I don't think he would lie but I think he has too gentle an opinion. I don't know what my talents are. it's nice he thinks I have some though

also the thing is I don't even know, I might end up working with him next year if everything works out and I get into the interdisciplinary program I want because each student gets a "tutor" right. and they can ask whoever technically but certain ones will be suggested based on interest. and anyways I'm planning to focus on philosophy bc irregardless of my wish he was idk basically my father I guess it's also just very fascinating to me and then I think my secondary focus will be Japanese which he is also interested in so I can him being suggested especially when I think I have a lot more philosophical interest in common with him (fucking works in the aesthetics faculty hahahahahahahaha and interested in phenomenology, left politics, etc.) than say a professor of logic or ethics but even so. he might be too busy for that or maybe someone else will be suggested for other reasons in which case I will be too embarrassed to ask him or maybe I won't get into the program for circumstances reasons. but either way it's pathetic for me to care this much right? I objectively shouldn't and it's weird as hell

I forgot how I planned to end this post and now I'm sobering up anyways so idk. posting this before I get too entirely embarrassed. oh yeah I was wondering what am I going to do when I'm older? it's already laughable when I could have theoretically graduated university already if my life weren't so ??? and I'm still doing this but what about when I'm wrinkled?

I'd like to believe I'll have a better sense of self by then that doesn't rely on latching onto poor people just going about their lives. that's a nice thing to hope for. let's end this post on a positive note!

[i-willstealyourtoes]

✚✚ ABOUT ME ✚✚

(Just realised I haven't made one yet lol)

✚General✚

Name: 'IWillStealYourToes'

Nicknames (in order of pref): Toto, To, IWillStealYourToes (bit ominous saying my whole username 💀 /lh)

Pronouns + Gender: She/her + Female

Sexuality: Bisexual/a-spec(?) + maybe polyam (I'm open to trying)

Languages: English, though I'm learning German and Spanish too :)

MBTI: ENFJ(-T)

Other: I'm neurodivergent bc I have OCD (and maybe smth else like ADHD)

✚Interests✚

Academic:

Languages - Ever since early Highschool, I adored all languages! I currently only learn German and Spanish, but if I could I would learn French too. My dream is to be at least tri-lingual!!

Maths - I think since I was young I was always good at maths, which I'm very grateful for. I think my favourite type of Maths is probably shapes in triangles or something like that, though algebra in general is fun :)

Accounting (ik ew) - In the beginning I found it difficult, but the more I learnt the easier I found it. Sometimes it's nice just sit and do numbers and nothing super creative.

Non-academic:

Gaming - I love gaming with all my heart. I think I've always been interested in games since I was at least 9 or something. My current favourite game is probably TF2!! I started playing in 2019 and haven't stopped loving it since (although the a lot of the playerbase can be toxic)

Drawing - I'm not the best at drawing, but a sketch now and then always helps me, especially when I want to make a new OC! I also like sketching up outfit ideas for me to try out later. I usually draw fem people, since I'm not that good at drawing masc people :(

Writing - Of course I love writing! I started writing 'x reader' fics when I was on Wattpad then moved to Tumblr!

Playing piano - I'm self-taught so I'm not that good, but I still enjoy playing simple tunes now and then. Last song I was learning was 'I Giorni'. :)

Swimming - I don't take classes, I just enjoy relaxing in the water. Sometimes it's really nice just to immerse yourself in the water and not make a sound, you know?

✚My current fandoms✚

TF2 - I think this is probably my special interest lol. I love TF2 more than anything, if I can relate it to TF2 I probably have tbh-

My fave character is Engie or Demo and my main is Medic!

PAYDAY 2 - Something about shooting things as a team is just rlly fun to me lmao. The OST is genuinely so good if you can't get the game just listen to it pls- I usually am a stealth guy but omg M1 garand yippeeeee- Used to be my hyperfixation lol

My fave character is Sokol or Dallas and my main is Joy (I play Sokol or Dallas sometimes)

Undertale - Probably the first game I actually loved??? It's literally still on my favourite list fr- I would play it again but I did the True Pacifist run and I don't wanna ruin Frisk's life 😭

My fave character is Papyrus!

Star Wars: Clone Wars - It's an amazing show with great characters and visuals! I definitely have it as one of my special interests... It's really interesting to watch the show and see how each season the animation/visuals improve. I wish there was a separate show or smth where the clones actually get a good ending for once... 😭

My favourite character is Fives, Tech or Plo Koon :)

(I literally just found out the graffiti on Plo Koon's ships say 'Plo's Bros' and I can't stop thinking about it)

Lethal Company - I love this little horror game so much! I had a hyperfixation (no longer) to the point I actually made a 67 slide PowerPoint about it... I might have a problem. I like playing it with my friends the most, since I get scared alone really easily!

Republic Commando - Recently got it and I am hyperfixating fr 😭 I love these lil guys so much I sure hope nothing bad happens to them (especially to Scorch and Sev haha) (/s, I know what happens)

My fave character for sure is Scorch :) He's just a silly guy (he has committed several murder-sprees and will continue to do so)

[kittyoverlord]

This is something close to my heart. I am someone who tried to go for a career in entomology via academia and would have been better going for a zoo employee as a career.

Bugs have always been my special interest, but as a kid no one suspected I was neurodivergent, so I just barreled ahead assuming entomology was going to be my perfect career. Many adults tried to caution me, but never gave me a good enough alternative that both acknowledged my interests and balanced the difficulty of a scientic career.

College did not go well for me. I struggled with serious mental health issues and ended up quitting halfway through junior year. However, even if college had gone well, I think I would have been better served going for a science communication career rather than an research entomologist, which is what I assumed I would be. I even went to one of the few colleges that had an entomology undergrad degree. Some of the work was fun, but a lot of academic entomology is writing scientific papers. Very boring. (for me)

My favorite thing about entomology was learning cool facts and sharing them with other people. The most fun I had was as a volunteer at my local arthropod zoo, sharing insect facts with the public and helping take care of the animals. At that job, the head of the organization had to have an entomology degree, but most everyone else did not need a degree (though having any kind of college degree increases payrates in any job).

I now work in a completely different field - I'm an admin assistant at a public defender's office - and have bugs as hobby. I found once I got into the workforce, admin work was my favorite thing to do on the day-to-day, and working in public service makes me feel fulfilled in my job. These are the things no adult told me to consider when choosing a career, but ended up being more important to me.

There's also an element of: as soon as you turn something you love into a job, there's a risk of it not being fun anymore. This isn't always true, but I've found that I'm more comfortable keeping fun things un-monetized to avoid that potential.

This is just my experience, but I wanted to share bc it's rare to hear of someone else with a similar interest that I may be able to provide some advice on. But everyone is different, and you may have massive success in entomology!

I would just say try to figure out what it is about it you actually like, and be realistic about what different careers in entomology may offer in relation to that.

Is it difficult to become an entemologist? Do you know if any other fields of work with insects that may not require like? A whole degree in it

Just asking for curiosity sake since… bugs are a special interest of mine ahaha

It really depends! There are a lot of possible careers within the entomology field, which have wildly different duties, education requirements, and so on. I think when a lot of people think of entomologists, they think specifically of insect taxonomists, the people who do the work of describing and identifying insect species, and often teasing out the phylogenetic relationships between them. These are usually the people working as curators for museums and large institutional collections. But there are also insect ecologists, medical entomologists, integrated pest management entomologists, forensic entomologists, etc.

The above all generally require advanced degrees, but many of them also need lab or field technicians, which generally don't. Field positions are usually seasonal but I know a lot of people who've been doing seasonal insect collecting work for various agencies for many years and are happy with that life. Entomology museums are pretty much always in need of workers to do the grunt work of sorting, labeling, etc, but they're also in my experience usually short on funds so a lot of people get their foot in the door through volunteering until a paid position opens up.

IDK if any of the at was helpful but it's about as good as I can offer. You might also check my entomolgy tag on this and my more bug-focused blog since I've answered similar questions in the past on both.

[subhumanselflover]

Not a request, just thanks for writing for Guilty Gear. We've spent so long as a small fandom before strive every blog counts. From the bottom of my heart this is great and I hope you keep doing this as long as it makes you happy cause what youre doing is good and your writing is also good and im rambling but yeah, just thanks for writing for guilty gear and have a good night:)

anon you are so sweet i am not going to lie this made me tear up a little. thank you so much for your kind words :’-D i haven’t really done any non-academic writing in a while and so i wanted to get back into fandom writing now that i have a lot more free time, so that and fixating HEAVILY on guilty gear has lead me here. i’m so surprised i didn’t get into it before last year bc it’s such a perfect piece of media for me. i hope to keep writing and to keep getting fun requests <3 thank you again so much for your kind words, i hope you have a lovely night as well and please enjoy any new writing i may put out!!

edit actually one last thing to say: anon i hope every time you bite into a piece of fruit it is so perfectly ripe

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

Hi Ange!!! ✨

Ahh jumping on this game train because this ask game is so cool. Stealing some titles from songs, what would you do for “War of Hearts”, “Don’t Go Insane”, or “Meant to be Yours”? (You can choose one or all, I just couldn’t decide since they all sounded interesting!)

I hope you’ve been well, I feel like I haven’t stopped by in forever 😩 I got really busy all of a sudden, but think of you often!! I got a new job that I’m really nervous but so excited about! I’ve always wanted to be a bartender bc I think they’re so cool, so I’m excited but it’s also a lot especially dealing with people that aren’t always the nicest. But I have terrible terrible social anxiety, so I think it’s kinda helping me work through that in a way even if i’m kinda being thrown into the fire every now and then. 😵‍💫

How are you doing? I hope life has been treating you kindly! And that you’re getting a break every now and then. How is work? Please stay safe and healthy, much much love to you, Ange!! 🩶🩶🩶

-Hannah Montana anon.

Hey, love!

I will pop my response under a cut, as it will be a long one!

For the ask game:

War of Hearts - I'd do an angsty Aemond fic for this one. Aemond is deeply in love with his wife, but goes off to war and in the ensuing chaos, also falls in love with Alys. His wife finds out via correspondence from Daemon and is heartbroken. Aemomd dies before he ever gets a chance to explain that he loved them both and never meant to hurt her. She travels to Harrenhal to seek answers from Alys and the pair learn they aren't enemies, just victims of awful circumstances beyond their control.

Don't Go Insane - I would do an academic rivals Michael Gavey fic for this one - but completely one sided. A girl on Michael's course gets consistently better feedback and marks than him and it makes him irate, as he can't understand why. When he finally decides to confront her about it, she's unaware of who he even is, which annoys him even more.

Meant to Be Yours - I'd do a Tom Bennett fic for this one. Tom is stationed on the HMS Exeter with the boyfriend of a girl he's been sleeping with and is secretly in love with. He has to watch as he receives letters from her, while she's also writing to him too, and him having to listen to her boyfriend talk about how he plans to propose when they return slowly makes him more and more jealous.

That's so exciting about the new job, congratulations! I'm sure you'll do great. I am wishing you all the luck!

This week is kind of a nightmare for me - we have a house inspection tomorrow, so I have been busy preparing for that. I also have to go into the office on Thursday, and we're going on holiday on Sunday, so I feel like I'm watching all of the sand rapidly trickle out of my hourglass. I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed and not enjoying not having any time for myself! Trying to find the time and motivation to write is hard.

Trying to look ahead to the holiday though, and how fun that will be! Plus things will be considerably calmer once we get home.

Sending lots of love to you! Let me know how the new job is going xoxo

[cosmicbrowniefan]

also if you feel like doing more than one set of hcs I am forever and always searching for platonic/qpr madwheeler crumbs 🙏🏼 🕯

beck, of course i'll do platonic madwheeler headcanons for you. after the contributions you've given to the fandom today, or at the very least, the strange chaos you've caused, you deserve this.

i think that max and mike have very similar food opinions and they kind of hate it? like why tf are you copying me??

but also it's validating to have someone that they can count on to agree with them

i think they both like those coconut macaroon cookies

they're the only ones who like them btw

but if they ever have differing food opinions?

all hell breaks loose

bc neither of them is wrong. they're just not.

for example, mike likes candy corn. max. does not.

also

i don't think either of them will admit it, but once mike starts growing his hair out, max helps teach him how to style it

also when he starts wearing eyeliner and painting his nails, she does that for him too

because he doesn't have a steady enough hand to handle that shit

we all know the party has a bunch of different mini sub-divisions that have sleepovers all the time and everything

but i think mike and max have literally scheduled to have a sleepover with each other at least once a month

because to both of them, the other is just the best possible person to vent to and blow off steam with, and they make sure to have a scheduled time for that so they can get their emotions out in a healthy way

of course they end up having sleepovers and venting more than once a month most of the time, but they just always keep that standard to make sure they have a set aside time for it

they go to break rooms together

(places where they give you safety goggles and just let you smash stuff, not sure if that's just an america thing or if they have those everywhere)

breaking stuff is just so therapeutic to both of them

also they do that tiktok trend where you write things on a plate and then you smash it

and max braids mike's hair when he's stressed and venting a lot of the time

he leans back into her lap while she does it and he just explodes with his feelings

but enough with them venting all the time, let's talk more positive things

both max and mike are INCREDIBLY intelligent

they're actually the dream team for group projects and things like that

everyone wants them in their group

even though you might think they'd argue over ideas, they really have the same ideas and opinions when it comes to academics

also they go christmas shopping for their boyfriends together!!

will and lucas also go shopping for max and mike together hehe

i have a hc too that max and mike are disney channel original movie junkies

they know the lyrics to every fucking movie under the sun, and can act out full on musical numbers just the two of them

they entered their school talent show together with "can't stop singing" from teen beach movie

they learned to tap dance for it.

so we know mike doesn't like getting his picture taken (unless he's in a picture with will), and max sees that

but she thinks mike has a great smile and she wants him to know that and understand that

so she gets a polaroid camera for the two of them to share and they take candids of themselves and their friends all the time

and max shows each picture to mike and tells him that, no matter how chaotic the picture is, it's beautiful because their friends are together and the pictures show so much joy

mike still doesn't LOVE having his picture taken, but he appreciates it a lot more now, and smiles for pictures more often

they both have just. the biggest hearts

and they both want to act in the best interest of others which is why they get in fights sometimes but i think they can actually talk it out and realize that they both want the same thing

their communication definitely gets better the older they get and their relationship gets stronger every day <3

i hope you enjoy @tntozier :)