#bc ANN'S IS SO GOOD IM IN TEARS

[sharpsuite]

♢  — WHICH OF THE 7 LOVE EMOTIONS DO YOU FEEL MOST?

whispers, then Shouts

you love quietly -little touches, little gestures, little words. At first other people might not get it, then they'll think that this is it -you just love quietly. But that's not true, is it? It swells just besides your heart, unsaid words, ungiven gestures, unfelt touches. You want to love loudly, to let your loved ones know how much they mean to you, to finally let all that pressure out. But you can't. You don't know how to love loudly anymore. Do you think people forget how to love? The memories are still there of course. So you traces the photos of your childhood and remember how it felt to love loudly -to love without fear. The words just won't come out of your mouth, no matter how much you practice them in the back of your head. You start to wonder how much more you can take, how much more feelings need to build up before you explode. They have to, right? You can't just hold them in forever.

honey, thyme and bread

you start kneading in the morning, your lover wrapped sleepily around you. Your hands effortlessly work around them, their presence so usual that you would feel cold without it. You smile at them and sprinkle the dough with their favorite spices. You press a kiss against their temple and work honey into your loaf. The both of you remain wrapped around each other even after you've closed the oven door, enjoying each others warmth before taking on your morning rituals. When you return into the kitchen with your hair in a towel, you feel it. Is love really a feeling? If it is it smells like honey, thyme and bread. Your lover is making tea while you pull the bread out of the oven. They hand you a cup, just how you like it, before you break the golden crust. You both bask in it, in sharing the same tastes and sharing the same spaces. You press the last slice into your lovers hands and watch them eat it while sipping your tea, watch their eyes shimmer with every sweet bite.

tagged by: i found it tagging: @cartelheir ; @saburaito ; @psielapki ; @samuhelll ; @crue11 + everyone else i didn't tag :)

[asoulwithadream]

TEASER REVIEW BECAUSE I'M DEAD

it's him. he's back. HE'S BACK. BESTIES HE'S BACK. i'm sick. his letter has caused my entire brain to shut down. "I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I LOVE BEING NEAR YOU. BREATHING THE SAME AIR" bestie how did you find ao3 in 1717? AND THEY GAVE US ALL THAT IN THE FUCKING TEASER TOO?????? dude he looks so fucking heartbroken– YEARNING RAAAAAAAH

THIS FUCKING SCENE— he CUSTOMISED THE TOPPERS TO LOOK LIKE THEM I'M CRYING SOBBING ROLLING ON THE FLOOR. omg omg omg omg they love eachother so much PLEASE. and poor sweet ed jesus he has been CRYING AND HE LOOKS SO EMPTY IM SICK IM DYING IM DEAD. i'm sick, i need the icu help. does this mean he's good at painting.

GOTH UNIFORMS. THEY'RE REAL. im so incredible sick frenchie has cat claws. HE HAS CAT CLAWS IM DYING. and JIM HAS A PAINTED BEARD and SHAVED SIDES. i'm actually going to burst into tears. my heart is going to stop at any moment. even FANG HAS A COOL NEW UNIFORM

i don't think i'm alive anymore at this point. THE PARALLEL. THE PARALLEL. and 9 guns he literally turned into the kraken. HE TURNED INTO THE VERY THING HE HATED HELP ME PLEASE (also did anyone notice the scene where he rose out of the ocean was very similar to potc??????? help??????) stede please stop looking lovingly out in the distance my heart has gotten enough beatings

competent stede in red. FABULOUS IM GOING TO CRYYY 2. izzy hands it's izzy isreal it's you PLEASE this is so reminisence of all the ao3 fics— izzy's finally realised what ed has become and needs to go find stede and bring ed back PLEASE HELP I'm GOING TO CRY IZZY AND STEDE BEING FRIENDS NO NO NO NO NO HELP HELP HELP HELP this is his road to self discovery and acceptance and love i'm feral

that's the same place mofos THAT'S THE SAME PLACE. THEY'RE CLOSE. omg they're going to end up FIGHTING EACHOTHER AREN'T THEY AREN'T THEY OR IS IT THE FIRST TIME THEY SEA EACHOTHER . (also, COMPETENT STEDE?????) HELP ME THEY'RE SO FIGHTING. OMG what if they're running TOWARDS EACHOTHER OKFLAIKHFL please this is insane i will cry david jenkins you have forsaken us all.

minnie what are you doing to stede. HE DOESn'T WANT IT. He'S UNCOMFORTABLE IN SUCH A STATE. LITERALLY THE NAME OF ONE OF THE EPISODES ANNE LEAVE HIM ALONE, (and do it to me) (please i'm desperate)

these two barbies are having the times of their lives.

im convinced that "susan" (whoever ruibo quan is playing) is a mermaid. buttons is being taught the way of the sea by her since she is part fish. she is setting him up with the ocean so they can make sweet love, instead of yearning like captain blondie and emo over there

WHO'S FALLEN IN A RIVER IN LEGO CITY. IT MUST BE SOMEONE ON BLACKBEARD'S SHIP MATES IS IT ED????? ED HAS FALLEN OFF A SHIP IN LEGO CITY. HELP ME WHAT IS GOING ON HERE. I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW OMG THE REVENGE ISN'T SINKING ISN'T SHE??? PLEASE DON'T DO THAT TO ME

THIS IM SORRY BUT WEE JOHN IS LOOKING ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS, ROACH HAVING THE TIME OF HIS LIFE, AND IS THAT PETE THAT MUST BE PETE IT'S PETE ISN'T IT IT'S BLACK PETE. we don't have enough content with pete. YOU KNOW WHY? or else it would have to include LUCIUS. HAH. got you there david

well. that concludes my current rant. other parts of the trailer have been excluded bc they deserve their own posts OR others have phrased it better than me LMAO (yeah because what i wrote is peak shakespeare)

october 5th can't come fast enough help me

**UPDATE: FULL THEORY BASED ON THIS

[obrother1976]

can u make like. ur top 10 books. freak books. anything. kisses your brain

sure!! these r not gonna be ranked bc god knows i could never choose between them & also im gonna be annoying and ramble a bit about every one

death in venice by thomas mann (classic. but its so rich w metaphors and symbolism. if you do read it, i'd recommend reading "the uses of myth in death in venice" by isadore traschen afterwards, bc it does a great job explaining all the freudian allegories and mythological symbolism and u'll literally be tearing ur hair out afterwards over how brilliant thomas mann was)

the carnivorous lamb by agustín gómez-arcos (idc that i've already talked about this a gajillion times on here. its literally the best book i've ever read. i'll forever be obsessed and i wish there was literally anything that could ever hit as hard as this did. if u read it, anon (if u havent already) dont go through the carnivorous lamb tag on here bc u need to experience this without any big prior knowledge. trust me)

erotism: death and sensuality by george bataille (ik im just listing the classics atp. but how could i ever leave that one out. this ones a lot and depending on how into bataille & philosophy in general u are it could be too much. but if u havent already read this one anon, just read the introduction. trust me ure gonna loose it from that alone)

gemini by michel tournier (this one... took me ages to get through it on my first read bc of the way its written, but it was so worth it. not even gonna say much about this one - its basically like if twins by bari wood was good lmao)

incest: from a "journal of love": the unexpurgated diary of anais nin, 1932-1934 (or every anais nin diary ever in general, but this one especially. there was just no one that got it quite like she did)

indecent theology: theological perversions in sex, gender and politics by marcella althaus-reid (sorry for literally recommending theory. im pretty sure u were asking for fiction lol, but this (& althaus-reid in general) is everything to me. if u've any interest whatsoever in theology u should check this one out)

the sluts by dennis cooper (slightly controversial opinion i think? not that the book itself is controversial, just that dennis cooper is very hit and miss at times. this book tho, definite hit. its so intense and convoluted and i loved every second of it. read this before death and sensuality and u're guaranteed to think of nothing else for at least a month)

querelle of brest by jean genet ("those knock-out body fluids: blood, sperm, tears!". kind of a classic since theres also the fassbinder movie but i prefer the book tbh. its been a while since i've read it but it'll forever be in my favourites)

crash by j.g. ballard (yeah ik we've all seen crash but i need more ppl to read the book. hold on actually i need to insert one of my favourite bits from it here:

Reaching through the fractured windshields and passenger windows around me, I marked my semen on the oily instrument panels and binnacles, touching these wound areas at their most deformed points.)

ada, or ardor: a family chronicle by vladimir nabokov (one of the most beautiful books i've ever read. probably not the most helpful recommendation bc im pretty sure its a classic but i cant not mention it.)

also some bonus recommendations of books that didnt make the list bc they're either not freak books or bc i havent read them yet:

christopher and his kind by christopher isherwood (not a freak book. not even remotely. but will forever have a special place in my heart.)

the sparrow by maria doria russell (read this one anon!!! this would be on the list, but im not fully finished w it yet so i cant officially put it in my top 10 yet)

exquisite corpse by poppy z. brite (havent read that one yet but its on my list!!)

autobiography of red by anne carson (not a freak book. beautifully written, a work of art really)

as meat loves salt by maria mccann (havent read that one yet. hoping its as good as everyone says)

skagboys by irvine welsh (one thing about me is that i'll always find a way to mention the trainspotting books)

[spectacular-skywalker]

DWTS S33 EP 3 Commentary

I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who read my word vomit.

That was a long intro. I enjoyed it though. Why is Steven in a wig 💀

I did not know Rosie Perez was a dancer. Slay.

I have high hopes for you Phaedra!! Good choreo. Dress fabulous. Good opening. Footwork definitely not perfect. Good effort and energy. Val looks great as usual. He's suchh as hammm. Julianne's commentary kills me. Good scores.

That's a horrible color on Ilona.

Ilona is so well spoken. Fire song for her. Oh no did her feet lift at the end?! Carrie Ann is that allowed?? (iykyk) Anyways looked pretty good. She did good in frame. I feel like some of her transitions look strange. Like in all her dances. Not major at all though lol. Yay i think she did good, especially based on judges comments. LMAO VAL

This is making me want to go get flare pants.

ONCE AGAIN Derek was so wrong with that 4. Dude im sorry but it is not that serious. (dude is Derek).

Awww his wife helping. Sweet. Britt gorgeous as usual. SWEET. Loved that ending. I thought that was much better too. Carrie Ann is so right!

With that hair Stephen looks like someone but I can't place it. DANIEL MENTION!!!! STOP THATS SWEEETTT (even the other bit LOL) GEEEZZZ derek CHILL. I also love his attitude.

He's literally so cute. I just want to pinch his cheeks. Also that was so good. Rosie gets it. I am always amazed when he does flips as if hes not a gymnast. Bruno and his syncopation. Mood tho. Carrie Ann says it so well. I agree with the all! I LOVE YOU STEPHEN. he got it he just needs to control it

AH I SCREAMED WHEN GLEB POPPED HER TOP

I'm glad shes very interested in learning if that makes sense. that doesnt sound right but i hope yall get it. such good luck witht heir chemistry yall just say ittttttt

Ok. What she did looked good. Storyline goes crazy. I feel like there should've been more content though.....EW DEREK AHAHA. okay so I am not the only one who felt it was just not enough. but thats Glebs fault. Once again, Carrie Ann said it all. Rosie also said it good. BUTTT i lowkey think its Glebs fault. IDK if hes just lost in the sauce but he needs to focus a bit more bc she does have potential!

their faces 💀

He said i know how to do a backflip. and then says the last one i did was in high school. That was so good. Im sure not perfect but SUPER GOOD. Joey is surprising me and I honestly think that he deserves more attention. He got very good musicality and stage presence. OKAY ROSIE. Jenna is also a fab choreography. I think Joey is going to top all of them. 8s across the board. OH GOSH. WOWWOWOWOW they deserved those 9s.

Dwight is very charismatic. I thought that was good enough! I cant take his seriously with that wig and that song is traumatizing for me. oh nooooo. i was wrong 💀 oop- they both knew it though. they knew it could be better. boogie woogie woogie LOL Derek why are you doing this. you are not Len. calm yourself.

Im getting sleepy so these are going to get shorter.

I loved that. I missed Whitney and im so glad she's back. Yes he is getting better each week. He's gonna come up at some point fast and shock yall.

I do love emma and Reggie. they needed each other. I do love Reggie. hes so sweet and cute and he makes me want to cry happy tears. Derek say you have to judge one more time, i dare you. yeah carrie ann is me fr. Hoping for the best woth Reggie cause i love him. At least another week.

I love Jen. She's cute and reminds me of one of my best friends. THAT WAS STUNNING. OBSESSED. Okay so they should take down the infomercial sections of the show to let the judges fricking talk. We'll deserved scores.

YASSS CHANDLER

THAT SWING MOVE WAS COOL. they move so in sync. this sounds weird and creepy but i can't say it any other way but chandler has such nice legs. she did dance her pants off. YAY BRANDON GETS HIS PRAISE FINALLY. obsessed with them both

YES BRUNO SAID IT ANOTHER ZENDAYA YES DIHEISJOAOA ZENDAYA MENTION

YESSSS FUCK YEAH. LOVE THEM OMG

omg Dwight is at the bottom omg.

okay sorry yall it got crazy at the end. I'm also sleepy so it's gremlin hour too hehe. oh no double elimination. anyways SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW MUAH

[mayiiaya]

I am on the fucking verge of tears right now. I just love Aesop Carl so much like why was he put on this planet just to taunt me with his weird undead beauty. LIKE HIS MOUTH?? Someone on Twitter (I forgot who) pointed out the parts that have been extended make like a little frog smile and like that is so so cute

Like what? Bro stop being adorable. Aesop gets so much hate bc he killed Anne and Ganji as if half cast aren’t murderers too yall just hate autistic characters. Also a lot of people (that I’ve seen) like too portray him as like a “omg I hate people im so shy 🥺🥺” kinda guy as if he isn’t a cocky prick who is a little bit of an asshole (in a good way tho and even if he wasn’t I’d still love him so much).

He is so oinky boinky and I need to shove him off a cliff and put him in a comically large blender

[some-stars]

also if you read and love antigone you should definitely check out anne carson’s Antigonick which is not a translation but kind of a riff/transformative work and is STUNNING. (she also has a straight translation available but it’s not uniquely brilliant, there are several good ones.) and definitely the anouilh too. there are actually a LOT of interesting works inspired by antigone; the concept album by Clair Obscur (on bandcamp iirc) is one of my favorite transformative works of all time.

also i love euripides forever in general, even the weird unpopular ones (anne carson’s alcestis RUINED me), but i think tumblr users would really enjoy the bacchae. it’s definitely a weird one but it’s about dionysus being ambiguously queer (in both a sexual and political sense) and women tearing men limb from limb so, not much of a personal element or relatable characters like antigone or medea but extremely interesting nonetheless. to me, at least. (im also biased bc it’s the only one ive read in greek.)

also can i just say as someone w a classics degree, much as I love the Iliad it is kind of a slog to get through and not very accessible to ppl new to ancient literature so i wouldn't recommend it. (very few people have actually read it in its entirity also bcos basically everyone skims over the fucking catalogue of ships lmao)

The Odyssey and the Aeneid are both much easier reads (both are structured more like modern novels). a lot of Greek tragedies are also very accessible reads if you get a good translation. Agamemnon, Media and Oedipus are the stand outs.

some other recommendations:

u can knock out all of Sappho's surviving work in an hour or so

the Argonautica (Apollonius) is a breezy 175 pages & is a post-classical experimental take on the story of Jason and the Argonauts

Catullus is a fucking riot

[katieshook02]

i was tagged by the great @ it-spork

1. Are you named after anyone?

my full name is Katherine Anne. my first name comes from a great grandmothers name (can’t remember if its on my dad or my moms side) and my middle name is the shortened version of my moms middle name (Annette).

2. When was the last time you cried?

last night. saw a sad tik tok edit about elvis with his cover of unchained melody as the audio. instant tears in my eyes.

3. Do you have kids?

NOPE HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD 🙌🏼🙌🏼#beatteenpregnancy #fuckthemkids #godisgood

4. Do you sarcasm a lot?

i eat, sleep, breathe, and bleed sarcasm. so not really ig 🤷🏼‍♀️

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Girls- eyes, smile, and outfit; Boys- smile, eyes, and hair (in those orders).

6. What’s your eye color?

a greyish blue but sometimes they turn an icy blue.

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings 80% of the time, but scary movies during the whole month of october only.

8. Any special talents?

im fluent in spanish and have been since ive been able to speak full sentences.

if that doesn’t count then idk if i do. probably not.

9. What are your hobbies?

listening to music, reading, eating, sleeping, falling for men who wont like me back, hitting parts of my body on anything i can see or touch, whoring out over miles teller, watching elvis + top gun edits on tik tok

10. Where were you born?

Texas 🤠

11. Do you have any pets?

i have 4 cats and one family dog that thinks my cats heads are chew toys.

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

oh lawd..

ok i played soccer, tennis and did competitive swimming from age 5 to age 12, i did softball from my sophomore to senior year (minus half of junior year bc of Corona) of high school, i will play football occasionally, i used to play basketball from age 6 to age 8. i did gymnastics from age 7 to age 9, i did horseback riding from age 8 to age 12 and i played a little bit of volleyball somewhere in there. oh and i can surf, sorta.

13. How tall are you?

i am 5’8 so 172.72 cm

14. Favorite subject in school?

spanish, but i was also really good at history, geometry, english and lunch. spanish was just the easiest for me (even tho its my second language)

15. Dream job?

sports broadcaster/journalist for ESPN/Fox Sports. seeing as how jam packed my childhood was with sports it only makes sense imo 💀 but no ive always loved sports (obviously) and im currently like in love with hockey and sometimes nfl and mlb. i will talk about either one any day all day it doesn’t matter.

im not gonna tag anyone but whoever wants to do this feel free to!

[littlestpersimmon]

i started reading the series (aaa im not sure which part is the actual series name so sorry) with the fitz / the fool as a kid but i never got too far in the series so i was really surprised to see you post about tones of mlm (esp bc my dad was the one who owned this series and suggested i read it, and hes homophobic as shit) i was just curious, what is the nature of the relationship of fitz & the fool in the series? (the snippets you posted just before, seemed like unrequited love?) im esp intrigued of your interp of it as someone who is mlm. though, pls dont feel like u have to go into it if its too extensive to go into or anything though or if u just dont wanna!

Fitz and the Fool's relationship tends to go under the radar, but you wanna know whats hilarious though? Some of the oldest comments in goodreads and ancient forums online complain that Fitz should have realized that the Fool was actually a woman and that the Fool is Fitz' true love, lol. Canonically, The Fool is genderqueer, using he/him and she/her, depending on who is present, and the Fool is canonically, outright in love with Fitz. It's accepted that Fitz and the Fool are canonically romantic, but only at the very end of the series, in their deaths.

My personal interpretation is that Fitz is gay and not bisexual.

That's my Personal Opinion, as in, you guys can disagree. Molly never stops feeling like puppy love, like someone Fitz cares about because of what she represents and not of who she is as a person. I don't like complaining about canon, but rote is my one exception. People rag on Anne Rice all the time for being notoriously anti fanfic, but what she was saying at the time was shared by many other authors, Robin Hobb included, whose anti fanfic post made it to encyclopedia dramatica. Robin Hobb said "for Fitz to be gay is a destruction of his character". Robin Hobb said that nobody in realm of the elderlings gets a fairytale ending because that's not how the world works, while Burrich is conveniently killed so Fitz can marry Molly.

Fitz is terrified of coming out to Robin Hobb.

Maybe that's why the Fool says Fitz shows his love from his actions. Fitz says he could never desire the Fool sexually, but when faced with the possibility of the Fool being intimate with someone else (Jofron), he is devastated. Fitz doesn't like Amber because not only does Amber (who is the Fool as a woman) forces Fitz to confront his own transphobia, she also makes Fitz uncomfortable with his own homophobia. The Pale Woman is also a good example of this. She promises to give Fitz what Beloved could never give him, she promises to "perfect" What Fitz has with Beloved, and all the while, the Pale Woman's most effective weapon against Fitz is of how much she reminded Fitz of the Fool.

Robin Hobb made it a point that her series always veered toward unsatisfying endings because that was how realistically the world worked, so it makes me wonder why Fitz didn't end up with women like Jinna or Starling, who both would have been more narratively interesting (imagine Starling, who hated the Fool, popping out Bee, a kid who looked just like the Fool.)

Fast forward to Fitz in Withywoods where he is unhappy with his life. His relationship with Molly is never shown but told, and you, as the reader will just have to be convinced of it. He stays in his little room aching for his wolf and his friend, never telling anyone about them, always feeling like a part of him is missing.

Fitz never takes the initiative when it comes to how he loves people. The way he loves is unassuming and reticent, and not everyone will understand that, but the Fool did. Throughout his entire life, starting from their childhoods in the castle as outcasts.

They're canon kind of by the 3rd book of Farseer, but the flirtation between them is deeply subtle, always brief, it's like Fitz only seeing the Fool through a hallway made of sheer curtains until the very end of the 17th book where he tears down all the thin walls between them to be wholly together.

It's funny how the Fool is the one throughout the series poking and prodding Fitz, needling him and initiating the little proclamations of love and devotion and you get angry at Fitz for not reciprocating until you realize the Fool is also guarded, has his own walls up.

To Molly, Fitz is newboy, to the Farseers, Fitz is the son of Chivalry, to Starling he was the promise of a song, but to the Fool, he is the closest he will ever be to Keppet, the boy who was loved by his mountain mother, and the boy who was loved by the white prophet

And in the very end Fitz is the one who has the resolve; that he wants to be with the Fool, more than anyone else, in his dying thoughts he wanted only to be with the Fool, who still has his walls up, until Bee tells him

"don't you realize you were loved the best?"

[renegadeshroom]

i will NEVER recover from the amphibia finale but thats fine thats fine while im lying here on the ground in a puddle of tears? headcanon time: for one thing the last scene is absolutely the beginning of sashannarcy moving in together bc 1) anne and sasha have both most likely finished/are in the process of finishing their tertiary education, and marcy certainly seems to have freed herself from the burden of academic study. 2) all three of them appear to be settling in to stable careers/jobs, and on the ten year anniversary of the core's invasion of earth it would be all the more poignant for them. hitting em so hard in the feelings and the nostalgia and everything, and they all absolutely still love each other despite having apparently been apart for the vast majority of the time. its the PERFECT opportunity for a fresh start in their early-to-mid twenties. marcy absolutely has the financial freedom now to be able to do it also anne absolutely helps dr. jan coauthor a paper on medieval amphibian-norse contact and terri is for SURE still working on portals so ofc theyre gonna reunite with the amphibians soon. anne's gonna become earth's leading xenoherpetologist and GOOD FOR HER. between terri, ally, jess, and dr. jan, that portal is gonna be a cinch for annes bday present (though probably next bday :b) also anne got a big ugly pet toad and named it grime and is SO excited for marcy to meet him (sasha already met him when they started moving in to their new place while waiting for marcys flight and she loves him.) when they reunite with the amphibians they show grime pictures of grime -- anne is a scientist, it would be incredibly irresponsible to introduce even more alien organisms to amphibia -- and he tries to be stoic and manages it for all of 2.5 seconds before he breaks down crying and says he loves him and wants to have him. sashannarcy all say "NO!" in unison. he cant have him but he can visit

[jaekaicx]

quick dont think abt an au where marcy ended up moving away from los angeles and amphibia never happened

dont think about marcy being disappointed abt the box not working and then hating themself for hoping it would work in the first place

dont think about marcy not telling anne or sasha abt moving away til the last second. abt how he just wouldnt be able to bring himself to talk abt it or bring it up. or how theyd hype themself up and try to force himself to just tell them, but couldnt.

dont think abt marcy planning something epic for his last full day in LA, working out an awesome, fun-filled, perfect day to try to make the most out of their last moments with their friends. dont think abt anne and sasha thinking abt how odd marcys been acting or how its strange how… desperate marcy seems today, but brushing it off.

dont think about marcy making every excuse to stretch out the day, trying to stay with his friends for just a couple more hours, another half hour, a few more minutes. how theyd scramble for more things to do and run out of reasons to continue.

dont think abt anne or sash saying they have to go soon because theyve been out for too long and they need to get back before curfew or their parents are gonna worry. dont think abt marcy begging them to stay for just a bit longer, but they just cant stay anymore, sorry

dont think abt marcy breaking and blurting out that “IM MOVING TOMORROW” and this is their last chance to hang out together. or abt the silence that follows

dont think abt the three of them cuddling together during a last-minute sleepover. dont think abt the drying tears lingering on their cheeks

dont think about them waking up early the next day bc “my parents wanna leave early so we can get to the new place before it gets late” and sasha and anne waiting at the doorstep as the wus pack up

dont think abt their final goodbyes. or their final hugs. dont think abt marcy diving into their arms and making annes shirt wet with tears and mumbling how he doesnt wanna leave and theyll miss them and they dont wanna lose them. dont think abt sasha being a bit awkward but trying her best, or anne comforting marcy as best as she can but breaking into tears soon after

dont think abt the group hug lasting for too long. or abt marcys parents calling him saying its time to go. dont think abt the whisper of “i dont wanna let go”

dont think abt anne and sasha watching the wus finally pile into the car. abt marcy trying to pretend theyre not bawling his eyes out, being ashamed abt crying so much.

dont think abt the car pulling out of the driveway as anne sasha and marcy lock eyes through the car window. how marcy holds their gaze for as long as he can from the back seat.

dont think abt anne running after the car, calling out marcys name. or sasha running after her. dont think abt marcy pressed up against the glass, watching as her friends slowly shrink into the background.

dont think abt anne finally stopping as sasha catches up. dont think abt how they can only chase after a moving car for so long.

and dont think abt marcys car turning onto the main road, falling out of sight. gone for good

[doyouremem8erme]

I would love to see a directors cut of the vivisectanne au, it's my favorite fic series of yours (I am very mentally ill)

WOOO this may get longish im just gonna rant abt all sorts of stuff i did in there. under the cut for length and discussion of. the topics of this au! so cw for mentions of vivisection, torture, self harm, and suicidal thoughts, and passages from the fics that may contain descriptions of those. even if youre tagged you dont have to read through all of this. its heavy.

so first off the first chapter was originally all i wanted to write! i heard darcy's line at the end of tbote and i was like. woah i can do something cool with that. however i just.... kept writing. this means each installment is much more cohesive than my usual multichapters i'd published before, since i try to write them all at once before posting!

so it all started with good old vivisectianne. i wanted a bit of a callback to tc&tk with some of the first scenes:

this place, right here, where it took apart marcy's phone, is where it then takes apart anne! why did i say that so cheerfully–

ok heres an actual funny fact

this exchange originally consisted of something like this:

"...you may call us darcy."

"that's cringe."

"YOURE CRINGE!" (immediately stabs anne)

i didnt even rewrite it until i'd finished the entire fic and was rereading it for editing! it just. no longer fit the overall tone whatsoever.

ok chapter 2 comments:

dont have a lot of comments here. basically, when i decided on the length/format i wanted the fic to be (4 chapters each), i chose to have each of the first three chapters be from a different point of view, with the last being sort of a "finale." so here we switch to sasha pov!

And once she does, the robot can do nothing to prevent her from sending a punch into its eye that leaves it sparking on the ground, and Sasha wipes the blood the shattered glass has left on her fist away on her bottom hem of her tunic, and runs through the door.

^ decided to try my hand at foreshadowing stuff for once lmao, since very soon sasha will lose her eye to darcy. the actual eye loss happens offscreen between chapter 2 and 3 but this clues a careful reader in on what may be to come.

this fic was written shortly after the all in promo, so the fight between darcy and sasha is inspired by the theories revolving around that!

when sasha mentions that "olivia told [her] what it did to [marcy]," this is bc i wanted to make sure that sasha knew the basics of what had actually happened to marcy. since they were imprisoned together for a brief time during the events of the first chapter while anne was having a bad time, olivia did a bit more explanation than whatever the heck her warnings in tbote were.

ohohoho time to talk abt one of my favorite chapters... chapter 3 of icduysg!!!

people who have caught on to the pov switching would likely guess that this chapter was marcy pov. however i wanted to write the opening scene to be ambiguous for anyone else, so that the reveal sort of . comes slowly.

She wakes up on the floor of the basement with a stabbing pain in her heart. Or what’s left of it, after everything. She can’t see, she can’t—she scrabbles at her head, fingers glancing off glossy metal, and throws the object covering her face to the ground with a clank. Her hands are covered in blood. There’s a flame-edged scythe on the floor beside her, and Frog she hates that fiery blade because it’s too familiar to one she knows all too well.

the first lines could be a giveaway, but everything that comes afterward makes it more and more clear whose pov this is supposed to be.

“Please, Marcy! I—I forgive you. For everything.” And yet her words hit her like a sword to the back. And she remembers. Fire and pain and blood and dying and waking up and almost safe and claws on her scalp that tear into skin and cold metal restraints and the helmet’s slow descent and pain and screaming and screaming and screaming and orange and lightning and loneliness and darkness and the Core and—

of course i had to take the cheesy way. why not? "i forgive you for everything" / "thank you for everything" stab ME in the chest when i hear them too! rlly loved using the simile there bc it has greater meaning with marcy yknow. the way the return of memories is written in this fic, as seen also in the next chapter, is inspired by some of  nosferatank's incredible prose!

a close reader will notice that something is wrong with marcy as soon as she can't move her arms to hug sasha: she's losing control again throughout this scene. and then, though it isn't explicitly stated, sasha sees something wrong with marcy's eyes. it's marcy pov, she wouldnt be able to look in her own eyes and know that they're orange. the reason marcy remains lucid throughout it regaining control here is that the helmet is gone: i believe this is discussed in the sequel, i'll go through that when i get to it in here lol.

The invasion goes smoothly, she’s told the next time she wakes up. She doesn’t ask how it went, only knows that the castle is back in Amphibia, and that Darcy has pulled her from the tank at last, and that her world has been thoroughly conquered. It’s been about a month since they tried to rescue Marcy, apparently. A month since it took Anne apart to see how her powers worked, callous to her screams of agony.

we start out the finale chapter with a timeskip and another ambiguous pov. it's anne this time, at least at the beginning of the chapter.

and we get the next example of that style of implementing rushing memories:

Pain and screaming and blood hot on lips and pleading-desperate for this to end and flaming heat and obsidian-sharp agony and—

the basment scene with marcy waiting for anne and sasha to go through with their plan is one of my favorites. had a lot of fun with the usage of light:

Light does return, in the form of a streak of yellow light painted against the black.

andrias extends his sword in the darkness of the basement. marcy, of course, is terrified.

this fic by @skibs-scribbles is an influence throughout the last section of the finale of this fic and the tone of the entire sequel! one of my faves.

last note on this fic:

But on the nights when they get to be together, even for a few hours, they sleep in each other's arms, and let the nightmares and tears and phantom screams run through. And then they stare out at the smog-blotted stars over a world that once seemed so bright, like the kids they were before this world broke them.

this is just one of my favorite lines from the fic, im super proud of it. suits being the last line of the fic.

on to sdlgwyd!

as a marcangst lover, i chose to make this entire fic be from marcy's point of view, as she seemed the most interesting character to follow in the au. her guilt, even more intense here than in canon, seemed like an interesting place to pull from, not to mention that she's my favorite character.

a lot of this fic ends up being an allegory for self-harm, given that not only are there themes of it throughout, but the core's methods of torture very much resemble common forms of self harm.

most of the first chapter is just intended to set up the rest of the fic. this means it's establishing how the core and marcy function, the situation anne and sasha are in, etc.

one thing i think it's funny to point out, given that i wrote this before all in:

Sasha jokes, once, early on, when they still think that this may be a temporary arrangement to buy them enough time for an escape, that they now match: the deep, slicing burn on her own chest; the gnarled line of scar tissue mirrored on Marcy’s front and back[.]

look how close i got to manifesting canon! if sasha had been facing away from darcy during that scene in the last fic i wouldve straight up predicted that wild bit in all in lmao.

She deserves it. The Core agrees. And she’s not sure which of them started that line of thought anymore.

this line was surprisingly hard to word right, but i liked what i ended up with. this becomes important throughout the fic: does marcy actually think she deserves this pain, is the core only telling her that, or is it true?

when marcy goes to visit olivia and yunan in the dungeons, we get this line:

She stops in front of where it should be. The cell is drowned in thick shadows, draped over the stone like swaths of gauzy black cloth. 

the "swaths of gauzy black cloth" simile is very much intended to give a sort of funeral, mourning, etc. vibe. it seemed fitting, giving how they've likely been crying over marcy all this time.

She pauses for a glance down at the carbon-fiber bracers she knows are in place around her forearms, covering from palm to elbow in dark, dull-metallic, charcoal-gray, covering the scars that lie there. They can assume it’s only using the chair, the very place where they saw such horrible things happen to her, once again, for all she cares. They don’t need to know what happens when it picks up a glinting blade, the same one it’s used to make the changes it deems necessary for her body so long as it’s shared with a computed mind. 

this is one of the most prominent examples of the overarching allegorical theme of this fic. marcy hides the damage the core has done to her using her own hands. for whatever reason, she doesnt want them to know how it's actually been hurting her.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Is that all she can say anymore? Only those words that dribbled from her lips along with a shower of blood the night she was so violently killed, left to bleed to death with a smoking wound? Will she ever find another way to justify the fact that she’s still alive, ask for forgiveness for her existence, the pain she’s caused?

wanna point out this passage not just bc im absolutely obsessed with how i wrote it but bc. marcy girl. you need help. her mental state is in shambles bc of the suffering the core has caused.

when marcy gets back to the trio's chambers, she overhears anne and sasha discussing plans to escape. the core is not happy about this.

not only is this a pretty deep look into marcy's thoughts, theres another reference to a separate fic! during the "escape lies..." passage, there's this section:

Escape awaits off the edge of the protruding form of that ancient weapon from the top of the highest level of this castle, jutting into the void, high enough, even with the castle resting on the ground. High enough, though she won’t test it, she tells herself (the Core wouldn’t let her die anyway, she knows. It would stop her, or catch her, or do whatever it takes to repair her, bring her to life again, no matter how broken she becomes).

this is a bit of a shoutout to a plot point in beauty and the beasts by @your-local-hurt-comfort-junkie-1, another fic i adore. i wont spoil the exact thing, but if youve read that fic, you likely know what i mean.

another shoutout in this scene is "'We can’t leave.' Her words are not entirely her own." this is of course a reference to awakening by oh geeez: "lately my head's on fire and my voice is not my own..."

the next chapter contains yet another fic shoutout:

this passage is a reference to this evil thing that @maldito-arbol did in the wjh series lmao.

and then of course, inevitably:

And that subconscious wish has been granted. It’s her skin filled with gashes once again, worse than it’s ever drawn them before, her own blood splattering her face as the Core digs deeper and deeper.

...she gets that wish granted.

Not even Olivia and Yunan can help anymore, their words falling upon dulled ears and their touch upon numb skin, like she’ll never perceive the world as brightly as she once did ever again.

core bestie. you need to stop. your host is gonna break if you kepe this up.

the finale chapter of this fic is fun!

we start out with a confusing dive into a scene without context, set up to match marcy's confusion here. eventually, you can figure out what happened: marcy was knocked out by sasha and anne so that they could deal with the core.

after they succeed in their plan, they head off to kill andrias.

“I wanna kill him.” Her voice has a coldness Anne’s never heard from her. And it trembles, because she knows there was a time Andrias truly cared for her. But he’s gone too long letting the Core torment her, pretending he’s blind to the torture.

guess how much i listened to hayloft ii while writing this chapter lol. yeah it was a lot. the emphasis on "her" is of course to clarify that the core has used her voice to speak like this to anne: that's what it did back in the first chapter of icduysg.

By now, Marcy has recovered from the removal of the Core’s data enough to stand, albeit shakily, and most likely soon won’t be able to at all, after the exoskeleton finally gives out when the background functions programmed into her brain stop running.

marcy doesnt have time to confront this right now, but itll come up in the third installment! without the core powering her exoskeleton, she won't be able to walk on her own before long.

a couple scenes in this chapter are inspired by pieces of art i couldnt stop thinking about. here's the first one:

It feels heavy in her hands. She’s never held this before, only a smaller version, crafted for the Core to use in her own grasp. This is the weapon that killed her. This is the weapon that will kill her murderer. 

and the art:

the dialogue in this scene is somewhat inspired by anne's speech in all in: this was written after the finale episodes aired. meanwhile, i tried to emphasize marcy's frazzled mental state through her own dialogue. for example:

she's just not doing so well rn. havent watched arcane since last year but the vibes of this might have jinx killing silco energy??

and then andrias's actual death scene is very likely an obvious reference:

yep, direct shout-out to true colors. marcy's "you brought this upon yourself" is meant to parallel "now look what you've made me do," while "i'm truly sorry for what i did to you" lines up with "i'm sorry for everything."

anne and sasha assisting in holding the sword while marcy stabs andrias is inspired by the other art i mentioned:

and finally the fic ends on a hopeful note that's been missing since the very beginning. i really wanted this to have the same sort of distinctly soft and gentle ending seen often at the end of some epic story, when things return to a status quo. similar tone to the end of adventure time, before the island song montage, or something. a sense of saying goodbye. there's an important detail mentioned in the last section of this fic, but i wont point it out bc it spoils some of the vaugely planned plot points for the next fic in the series!

hope you enjoyed this very deep dive in to the au, this took so long to write lmao.

[spyrkle4]

owl house and amphibia destroyed me this week rip Sparks

and im gonna talk about them

so uh first owl house

(spoilers under cut u know the drill)

-THE DREAM SEQUENCE.... SO CUTE ;-;

-King just wants both his families together ;-;

-The flashback sequence Luz is not Okay

-Also she feels so bad for contributing its not ur fault Luz bby ;-;

-HOOTY AND KING GIVE BEST HUGS

-COOL AUNT LILLITH TO THE RESCUE

-I made a post about this but how dare they have Eda cry worrying abt her kids that is the face of a worried mother and i am hit emotionally in the gut just LET THEM BE OKAY

-WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE DAY OF UNITY IS IN A WEEK. HELLO?!

-King finally got his letter

Me before this ep: Im mad at Hooty for eating the letter 

Me after this ep: actually Hooty was right to eat it

-hhhh family feels with the pirate

-huh i guess if there were more than 1 titan then there’d be more than one isle

-i wanna know how that portal works

-but wow titan hunters??? cool

-until the twist of the ep 

-When I heard the leader is named “Bill” I totally thought of the satan dorito from Gravity Falls... im not the only one right???

-KING IS A TITAN?!?!?! WH?!

-HE JUST WANTS TO PLAY CATCH I AM SOBBING

-Oh god if King is a titan the owl house might wanna expand bc he is going to end up very tall

-Wait if King is a titan WTF happened to his dad?!

-Also if the Collector kills titans does that mean it was trapped by a titan I NEED ANSWERS

-ALSO THAT ENDING WTF I AM AFRAID

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Okay now for frog show

-Three armies was good but WHO GAVE POLLY WEAPONS?!

-Also am sad bc look what Andrias did... he made the three races of amphibia hate each other its just... sad... very sad...

-that bit where Anne was a known meditator back home was SO cute, Anne really out here using the power of friendship

-The team building exercises I liked the knot part where Sasha’s group did super well it was wholesome

-AND THEN ANNE GOING SUPER SAIYAN ON THE GROUPS FOR FIGHTING LMAOOOO

-The message being that “they cant forget the past but they could work together to build a better future” is great

-MOTHER OLM COMING IN TO DELIVER THE LATEST NEWS AHAHAH

-the second ep destroyed me from beginning to end that flashback start???

-Marcy feels... so many mf-ing marcy feels

-I did not expect Sasha to bring up the whole “Marcy was the one who brought them to Amphibia thing” but ig it’d be weird if they rugswept it, and her not even sure if they can repair their friendship???

-i hate it here

-Grime doing a battle playlist so cute

-he’s just vibing and i love the implications that Sasha shares her phone w/ her toad dad

-The part where Anne tells Sasha that forgiveness is hard but its worth it ALL THE FEELS. ig it shows that while their friendship isnt the same anymore that doesnt mean things cant be okay, I mean Anne and Sasha were besties the second half of the season

-OLIVIA  AND YUNANA HOLY COW

-oh they’re mind controlled should’ve seen this coming

-THAT DANCE BATTLE PART WAS GLORIOUS

-Oh no

-Oh no Darcy

-Oh no them doing that “you weren’t a good friend ever” to Sasha how dare u 

-Also ANDRIAS IN THIS EP

-THE PART WHERE HE ENTERS THE FIGHT

-AND THE BIT WHERE THEY LOST THAT IS SO SAD WTF

-im so glad Anne managed to buy some time that is some quick thinking.

-The “Shut up Andrias” with Darcy hahahah

-OH NO EARTH LOOK OUT OH NOES

-PLEASE TELL ME ANNE’S PARENTS ARE OKAY

-THAT CREDITS SCENE FUCKING BROKE ME OKAY?! THE PIANO MUSIC AT THE END WAS WHAT GOT ME AND NOW I AM IN TEARS AND I AM GOING TO EAT COOKIES AND LOOK AT MEMES TO TRY AND COPE WITH THESE EPISODES BC GOD THEY BROKE ME

[happi-tree]

marcanne for the ship ask!!

also i just wanna add i love how you refer to everyone as lovebirds like it akes me all warm and gooey inside djhsdkjfd im rambling okay byeee

!!! Hi, Elle!!! Hope you're having a good day, lovebird 💙💙💙

Okay so. I have many many Thoughts abt them

When I started shipping them: I got into the show pretty late comparatively speaking, so I basically went from "Marcy at the Gates" to "True Colors" in a matter of days. And though season 3 had already started airing at this point, I decided to wait a bit bc. Well. *Gestures at all of tc* yknow. But! During that break, I decided to check out ao3 and wound up reading a little fic called "Don't Drink Unlabeled Potions", followed closely by another one called "Stranded." Idk, maybe you've heard of them? But yeah. I was immediately sold as soon as I started reading haha!

My thoughts: Their dynamic is just. So much!!! I love a good childhood friends-to-lovers trope and their relationship with each other just seems so real and well done??? Like, they're just two kids who get to goof off together but they're also some of the most important people in each others' lives and they have such a desperation to stay together, to not lose the other, and! *Dissolves into tears* While their relationship definitely isn't perfect and they're both very flawed characters (both in terms of their identities separately and also in terms of their interactions with each other), I really do think they can turn it around and work on it! Just gotta work on those communication issues, kiddos.

What makes me happy about them: Their little nicknames for each other, the way they casually hold hands and poke each other all the time, the way they try to protect each other, the way that they can be really silly together <3

What makes me sad about them: God. God where to begin. Marcy thinking that Anne will never forgive her for what she's done to them and that she genuinely hates her - so much to the point that it is Marcy's literal worst nightmare in her last moments of consciousness. Anne trying her absolute hardest not to think about Marcy at all, stubbornly saying that she's sure Marcy is okay when all the signs point to her being dead. Marcy wanting Anne (and Sasha) to be with her forever so much that she decided to literally give up her world - all of their worlds - so that they'd stay, and it only ended up driving them further apart. Anne confessing to Marcy that she doesn't want to lose her again, and Marcy responding with a promise that she breaks at no fault of her own. I am soooo normal about them </3

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: Marcy is not the only flawed character in this relationship! Anne has flaws and nuance to her, too! She's not "too good" for Marcy because they are both just kids with a lot of problems and communication issues!!! It's honestly kind of rare (at least in what I've encountered) for me to find a work with the above concept of their dynamic, but when I do find one??? I simply exit the tab :)

Things I look for in fanfic: Hurt/comfort babeyyyyy!!! I love reading people's takes on them post-canon. And the little "what-if" scenarios of Anne breaking through to Marcy while fighting the Core are also very, very tasty! I am truly not picky, though - canon, au, and anything in between works for me!

My wishlist: For both of them to get the biggest, warmest hug of their lives in s3b. Also to get therapy bc good lord do they need it </3

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Sasha Waybright is Right There for both of them, obvi. Sashannarcy and any of its forms goated (real)!

My happily ever after for them: Happy and healing and together (possibly long-distance), whether as friends or as gfs! More healthy communication, aired grievances, working things out in a healthy manner, paying attention to each other, etc (also Sasha is there, too, ideally, because you can't separate the trio)!

[augustinewrites]

augustine beloved im LATE but anyway:

most memorable scene would be the whole suna piece when they were struggling to conceive suna suki :( i will literally never shut up about this fic i remember distinctly sobbing in my bed when i first read it and having tears in my eyes everytime i reread it T^T cant remember the specific lines but i can remember all of suna's frustration and reader's desperation and my heart aches every time

and also the osamu comfort fic that came right before it always has me!!!!!! the way he was so insecure about not being able to take you to a resort like atsumu did for his s/o, and being so upset that read had to be there with him doing manual labour to get his shop up and running :(

these are neither lines nor scenes LMAO MY BAD BUT YEAH

you picked two of my favourite fics ann :’)

idk why i keep writing angst for suna but it just? hurts so good??? bcs it’s suna rintaro who would never dream of being stressed over things like this, but wants to give everything to you anyway :( he just cares so deeply and when he finally has his little daughter??? he just cherishes her so much

omg 13:25?? when ari made me listen to free love i couldnt not think of osamu. osamu who hasn’t realized that as much as he wants to make you happy, you want to do the same for him. who sometimes needs to be reminded of just how much you love him 😭

anyway thank u so much for sending this YOU ALWAYS MAKE MY DAH MWAH ❤️

[petruchio]

i LOVE ur hunger games opinions - it's my favorite series I always go back to!! I was wondering if you had any other book recommendations

omg!!! angel!!

in terms of young adult recs, i don’t read a huge amount of new ya so these are probably pretty basic, but the ones i would recommend are:

gregor the overlander!!! suzanne collins’ other series, its a little more ~classic ya~ than ya dystopia of the hunger games but still just. so well written bc its the queen suzanne

the entire anne of green gables series <3 literally gilbert and peeta are the two ya love interests that i have been obsessed with my entire life and the books are actually SO good!! there’s a lot i could say about them too like the messages and themes are really quite intelligent and they get written off as just “children’s lit” but they’re truly SO good, even the later ones in the series!!

i’ll recommend six of crows and, i suppose, the original grisha trilogy if you feel like tearing your hair out. ive written a bit about my mixed feelings for that series on my blog but like. the world building is GREAT but the original trilogy just has a few moments that are so deeply frustrating. but its good

howl’s moving castle the book!!!! so iconic, so different from the movie but just also SO good... dianna wynne jones my beloved

this summer id like to reread the golden compass if i have time! i havent read the books since i was a literal child and i remember nothing about them except that they were good but i want to reread it so i can watch the show hehe

i also read last summer a book called why we broke up by daniel handler and i thought it was beautiful and really poignant. it also has amazing illustrations and the story i thought was really well done

i also loved the ingo series as a kid!!!! yes its like. mermaids but also its really well written lol

a few books that aren’t ya:

homegoing by yaa gyasi

there, there by tommy orange

it is my personal (and insanely pretentious) belief that everyone should read les miserables but. thats just because im insane. but i do genuinely love that book 

also the entire jane austen catalogue with special attention to emma <3

normal people because like. yeah (that might be ya actually not sure how to categorize it but. amazing book)

recently i read the plague of doves by louise erdrich and really loved it!! im hoping to read more of her work but she’s an amazing author

i’m also a big fan of modern retellings of stories, last year i read a retelling of pride and prejudice called eligible by curtis sittenfeld that i very much enjoyed

outside of that i also love to read really shitty romance fiction and hyper specific historical non-fiction because i read so many impossible and insanely difficult books for my degree and i just can’t recommend any of those in good faith haha... once i graduate ill honestly probably have better book recs because right now i read so many books i DONT enjoy and write 15 pages essays on why i think they suck... but those are just a few of my favorites!!!!! 

[kodzukyan]

Hi mandy!! so i just reread one of your kenma pieces and it had me feeling too many things so i am here after screaming in the tags (you can probably figure me out from this oops but i am too shy to dm you directly asdkfjdsk SORRY) bUT i just wanted to say i absolutely love the way you write??? Its so incredible and im so shookt i hope you saw my tags cuz im officially out of words to describe how beautiful your writing is and i just wanna thank you for sharing all these masterpieces with us cuz its honestly so comforting to read even when im not even hurting in the way you write your ocs to be hurting (and even then i can feel??? their pain cuz thats just how good you are at protraying all these feelings in your work)

Also if you noticed theres someone who keeps unliking and liking your masterlist that would be me askdjsfk IM SO SORRY but ive been meaning to read the rest of your works but uni has been kicking my ass but i dont want it to get buried under my other likes so i do that to make sure it stays at the top askjskdj 😭 but if it annoys you ill stop im so sorry sdfkjsdh. I really cant wait to reading the rest of your soulmate aus but i wanna read them when my readings and tutorials are not staring threateningly at me from out of the corner of my eye so that i can appreciate them and scream about them appropriately without feeling impending doom from procrastinating on my schoolwork hELP HAHAHAH

Anyways sorry for the long message thank you for everything and i hope you drink lots of water and get lots of sleep :> hope you stay safe and have a good day/night!! ❤️ ~ann :>

ANN STOP IM ACTUALLY GOING TO CRY 😭😭😭 this is so sweet and i am vvv overwhelmed (in like a good way) bc i'm just literally 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 rn ?!!?!?!?? like i have no words but i just... i just feel like this is one the biggest compliments i can ever get and 🥺 just thank you (sorry i'm not v eloquent w my words LMFAO). pls do know i reread your tags like 38482929x bc they make me so soft and i get so much serotonin from them T^T

thank you for reading (+ liking) my brainrots and my emo hour pieces HAHAHA. (not you calling them masterpieces i'm going to SCREAM!!!!!) i'm literally just emo all the time and i just want my anime bfs to pat me on the head and tell me it's okay and i hope that translates well T___T and pls my soulmates aus... LMAO i barely update them (pls... i have ideas beyond my writing ability level send help lskskcnwudhsb) so please take your time!!! LOL.

and i don't mind at all!! pls dont apologize omg!!! i hope uni is treating you well && please take care of yourself first and foremost! (AND I TOTALLY KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING LMFAO i cri as my exam materials is staring at me like 👁👄👁 while i'm bumming on tumblr fjskkakakak) i am sending you much love (+ motivation)!!!! get that bread bby!!!! but also please remember to stay hydrated (drink water so you can replenish those tears !!!!!) and well-rested (bc sleep is part of the fight too!) 🥺💖

thank you for the lovely message + thank you for being so sweet T____T i truly appreciate you & i hope you have a day as kind to you as you are to the world! ily mwah!