#elle-cosmic-chaos

[needyoulikeaheartbeet]

the tortured poets department: the anthology - first listen

THIS IS SO EXCITING So I have been exhausted 25/8 because of work and my body constantly aching from long covid (i love ma life) so I only got to listen the next day I tried to stay up until midnight but I literally only made it to ~11:45 lmao

My eyes popped out of my head when I woke up to a double album drop - 31 SONGS TO LISTEN TO IN ONE GO I WAS SO HYPE I also laughed bc ofc taylor did a surprise release and now we have 31 new gems to treasure HERE ARE MY FIRST THOUGHTS !!

1. Fortnight SOFT SYNTH OH HER VOICE?????  OH I LIKE THIS  Y DID THAT REMIND ME OF FLORENCE OL ENDLESS FEBRUARY… I LOVE YOU ITS RUINING MY LIFE  I really like post malone  HELL YA  FLORIDA She said america its like she said my name

2. The Tortured Poets Department Ok drum O no fuckin body alright gf SPARKLY Charlie poot  You awaken with dread, pounding nails in your head  I laughed in your face and said - i like how she sings that!!! Wow her lows and highs in this song are wild! Bridge is best rn in this song !! oh wow jack lucy wowee  Omg the ring?????????????  Hello jack

3. My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys Oh okay her VOICE Miss voice The deep parts helloooooooooooo  This wasnt the sound i thought we’d get for this song at all but this is cool (i was expecting like a sultry old timey jazzy "my boy" song in the same like arena of the start of christmas tree farm old timey version lmao) Litany This is gonna get stuck in my head often i can already see it i can already tell  Danger in the heat of my touch  Once i fix me hes gonna miss me???? Wow thats so real  Told me im BETTER OFF  Imma shake my fist

4. Down Bad THIS SOUND HELLO? Ok but her oice?????  YAAAA What is this noise bro  Oo cosmic love But the way she sings the verses???  Ofc hi jack  Its gonna grow on me ik aaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA bubble sound There are so many f words  I might just die it would make no difference real  Ok but these worbly sounds are nice  THAT SOUND AT THE END GIVES lana vibes

5. So Long London Hello choir  Oh so SO long LONG OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Lmao Oh  Ok i kinda love htis  Ok i love her VOICE HELLO?  OO Omg Omg Omg THE SPINE BRAIN MAKE LAUGH LINES WOEOWOEWOEOWE (why did i write brain? HAHA) OH THE TRAGEDY STUF that is so good  Whoa holy shit the lyrics  ALL THAT YOUTH FOR FREE???? N HER VOICE? WOW  2 graves 1 gun  OH LAYERING IS THAT PIANO OR SYNTH IDK ITS SO GOOD My mouth has been open Her voice im screaming i love it and the FASTNESS SO GOOD  THAT GUITAR  Bro????????????????????????? I want to put this on repeat

6. But Daddy I Love Him I want to prance on my tip toes and throw leaves one by one  Reminds me of a 2000s movie Omg jack and aaron on this one  Im vibin Ok bitchin Omg thats a WILD part lmfaooo HELLO?  Thats kind of crazy lmaoooo like i get it but wowee  Its giving ours vibes  Im having his BABY? yeah you should see my face LMAO What is happening in this song lmao IM NOT CATCHING ALL THE LYRICS YET ITS TOO SOON AND NOW I FEEL LIKE THAT MR KRABS MEME   i like when she sings it was chaos etc

7. Fresh Out The Slammer OH HELL YEAH ELL  YEAH I AM ALREADY INTO IT Interesting drum  Wow her range in this song too that was so low  Is that a violino PRETTY MELODY O it slowed down  Ok i like the ending bit

8. Florida!!! her vocals MUAH LIL REVERBY GUITAR the drums threw me off ok florence vocals! so flowy bodies body in my mind they sink into the swaMP???? ok the home and town part is nice at the end here oo

9. Guilty As Sin? Ok beat AM I ALLOWED TO CRY !!!!! Ok chorus is NICE  Ok so far this is my second fave!!!!!!  Ok i really like this  WHAT IF HES WRITTEN MINE ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIND Without ever touching his skin HOW CAN I BE GUILTY AS SIN BEECH Theyre gonna crucify me anyway HOLD ME OO Wow religious hello  Nice bridge Oh I choose you and me religiously eEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Oh wow interesting way to jump back into the chorus that is different I LIKE IT Ok IM INTO THIS

10. Who's Afraid Of Little Old Me? This is reminding me of 2013 idk why  OHHHHHHH YOUDONT GE TTO TELL ME ABOUT SAD YES BEECH OH WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YES  OK YES  The guitar and the intonation and her VOICE YES SCREAMIN HELL YAAA Omg i love this  Ok another top song  Omg i love this  Ok this is #2 … or #1… !! Everything about this !!!!!!!!  WHOS AFRAID OF LITTLE OLD MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe SELF WRITTEN YAS Oh the but what ifs so real lmaoo  Omg yes Asylum where they raised me?? Bb :(  drunk on my own tears???  Lol put narcotics into all my songs ha ha Circus life made me mean Lured hurt taught caged ??? calle dcrazy? Aw :( i am what i am cause you traine dme??? Oh

11. I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) Ok i liked that first sound Good guitar Shes delulu ? Texas part was lana like Wow face… that was really low   Domme vibes ????? good boy? Come closer? Ill show you heaven if youll be an angel all night? Okkkkkkkk maam ! Oh i liked i told you hes my man hec ya Lmao whoa maybe i cant thats funny

12. loml Pinnano Ok this is going to be nice  Omg i thought i was better safe than starry eyed ok!!!!! This sounds sweet  I like  Topper  Aw the way she said you said im the love of your life about a million times  Blew in with the winds of fate omg  Omg the fakes line  CONMAN WOW Omg never before and ever since HER VOICE STHUSHGRJ THIS IS A STORY WOWOEWOE OWEER I love this Omg the vocals in th eback  Mr steal your girl then make her cry wow  UNRECALL SONG!! Omfg cant get out of bed bc something counterfeit is dead OKKKKKKK This is a top song Valiant roar  Bland goodbye Woweweowoeoweooweotwetirfv Nfkjnksjnsn Braids of lies !!!!!!!!!!!!! This is so good stfu :(  OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YOURE THE LOSS OF MY LIFE SHUT THE FUCK UP SOMEONE GUESSED IT WOULD GO FROM LOVE OF MY LIFE TO LOSS OF MY LIFE SHU T UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP Im crying btw holy shit that was so good.

13. I Can Do It With A Broken Heart Oh zippy  HEY EY EY Lol  Aw while on tour Mirroball? Hello lol  He said he’d love me all his life  Omg thats so fuNNYYYYYYYYYYYYY SHUT UP LMAO Barbie !! It's giving Barbie!! LOL Im laughing so much this is great  Im so depressed, i cry a lot  Amaizing. So real. What a professional  LMAO i cannot  IM SO DEPRESSED I AC TLIKE ITS MY BIRTHDAY EVERY DAY <3  I CRY A LOT BUT I AM SO PRODUCTIVE ITS AN ART Ok i love this so much lmaoooo  Cause im miserable! And nobody even knows!!! What a professional queen  LMAO TRY AND COME FOR MY JOB? I love her stfu  I wanna listen to it again please omg

14. The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived Ofc jw lmao help me  who the fuck was that guy  Oh the beat is building  Omg ? Who tf ghosts taylor swift ? im gonna fight Rusting my sparkling summer wow  Oh my god this is savage i dont miss what we had but could someone give a message to the smallest man who ever lived KNGKJFNG Deep voice Oh bridge vocals YAAAAAA STRINGS YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA You deserve PRISON?? GIRLL Slip through the bars that was nice  CRASHED MY PARTY NICE  PERFORMING nice i love how shes singing these parts !!!!!!!!!! Ok i like how that tied up and ended neat

15. The Alchemy Ok i like this alreadyyyyyyyy It's reminding me of Glitch??? idk why Love white wine  Ok yaaa ! Smooth  Low vocals allooo  But even the instrumentals i love  Top ranking  song  Oh winning streak sound in the back i love

16. Clara Bow Ok i like the heaviness of the guitar yes Think i might die! Aw lights of manhattan  Promise to be dazzling Stringy sound!!  Stevie nicks!  Knew this was aaron  Suits in LA - i love when she does this in songs man idk she does it so well :)  Im dancing  Beauty is a beast etc nice  Girlish glow flickers just so omfg nice  Its hell!! On earth!! oMG THIS PART IS SO NICE STFU You look like taylor swift?? Omg  The futures bright dazzling DUDE SHE DOES THIS SO WELL SHUT UP I LOVE SONG WRITER TAYLOR SWIFT. this is so soft Reminds me of The Lucky One

17. The Black Dog This sounds sad already Oh  Oh that is sad Oh its a bar You forgot to turn it off  :c  Best laid plans!!!!!!!!!!  Oh in the shower  Rain soaked body was shaking omg ............................. IS THIS MY SHOW. ok erica not everything is abt u BREATHING CLEAN AIR SMOKE OGMKGJF Aw :( set fire to all my clothes  hello jack Omg our/my dreaming

18. imgonnagetyouback WE WONT GET FOOLED AGAIN NONO Thats the vibe Ok nvm

Oh Thats nice This will grow on me fr sure NICE BRIDGEEE LOL even if handcuffed Oooo play the game part Im poison either way skfjdn Ok going back into chorus was v nice end chorus is so nice w back vocals

19. The Albatross AARON VIBES  I like how her voice sounds it is TO MY TASTEEEE Ok this is a top so far i think  It is giving folklore  Oooo vocal range  I'm dancing And i tried to warn you about them that is very taylor sounding 

20. Chloe Or Sam Or Sophia Or Marcus Why cant my name be chosen Oh i like the piano hello??????  My bones out?  Oh the guitar? Bro this is SO pretty Oh this is so good wowowowow Its building up ?? i love this This tops the albatross  Depths of your sigh??  Her breathin?? Float in your orbit Her voice !!! stop it! I love this SAY YOU LOVED ME AAAAAAAA Oh vocals i love Will i always wonder TOP SONG HOLY SHIT i am hurt

21. How Did It End? Ok hi vocal i love u  SO MUCH? Wow Omg the QR CODES Flower! I love the piano and her voice wow  Oh i love that so much the VOCAL TUNE Learned the right steps to different dances!!! Top song i think idk omg  I would do so bad singing to this by myself between verse and chorus oof lol Oh guitar heading into bridge i loooooooooooooove this stuff Yes aaron My beloved ghost and me thats cute I cant pretend like i understand either

22. So High School GUITAR BEBIIIIIIIII very good DRUMS This is p different!! LOW Cute this is giving like 2000s romcom vibe  Lol thats cute marry kiss or kill me INTERVIEW - OMG BETTING ONALL THREE?  Awwww car door This is so cute Ok this part is cute and catchy you knew what you wanted and boy you got her !!  She is so in luv very cute  Ok im dancin this is really cute I feel so high school every time i look at u !! TRUTH DARE SPIN BOTTLES thats so catchy i love it  I can dance around to this for sureeEEEEEEEEEEEEe ok i love

23. I Hate It Here I hear u countin This is so aaron I like the concept of secret gardens I also hate it here  1830s good clarification omg shes so right This is good??? LUNAR VALLEYS !!!! Only the gentle survived Wow this is so REAL I dreamed about it in the dark the night i felt like i might die? Omg. is she me?  This is very real i am hurting Ill save all my romanticism??? HELLO? Made me feel worthless? CURRENT FLIES THROUGH ME? LOVE  Wow i love this song? This is a top im not kidding  An anthem  YOU ARE A POET TRAPPED INSIDE THE BODY OF A FINANCE GUY LMAO?  Sorry Finance guy 

Thats so funny I loved this song Im kinda crying now though i feel seen  Tbt the story i tried to write in high school called the art of disappearing

24. thanK you aIMee I like her voice  Down the stairs? I cri lmao  I cant forget the way you made me heal!!  Laughing at each baby step i take? Same searing pain!!!  Aw. prayed that one day i could say !!!  You know what i am totally with this fuck you aimee hell yeah  KGNKFSJGFSNGFSKG ANDREA LMFAO PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WISHED YOU WERE DEAD??? ANDREA!!!! LOL  OMG I BUILT A LEGACY THAT YOU CANT UNDO. GOOSEBUMPS.  Wow  Bro this is good?  Aw bea tmy spirit black and blue  Im laughing so much about andrea PLEASE Aw i pushed each boulder up that hill  This sounds country This warm my heart idk ilu taylor what a complex feeling to capture

25. I Look In People's Windows Same Dancing to this guitar  I spied the catch in your breath ooo  Chorus is fun  Omg what if your eyes looked up and met mine OOOOO LOVE VOCALS If someone looked at me while i was looking into their house id scream This is a nice song  Does it feel alright to not know me  OMG Im addicted to the if onlys  This is so good LOL like im some deranged weirdo  The downtown part man wow

26. The Prophecy I heard the countin  Oooo i like where this guitar is taking us  Ok so far im enjoying this  Caught lightning in a bottle  Oh!!! Cursed like eve ot bitten!!  Change the prophecy wow  Aw Just wants someone who wants my company :(  Ok dude this is so good??????  This is literally so good?  DRUMS HELLO IM HYPE  Very last drops of an ink pen  This is so good????? BUT EVEN STATUES CRUMBLE IF THEYRE MADE TO WAIT Greige Aw So someone will tell me itll be okay Is that string instrument?? This song is the version of the hello god its me when will it be my turn meme Omg vocals wow that was magical  REminds me of seven

27. Cassandra Placing daydreams  PIANOOOOOOOOOO Omg in ym tower weaving nightmares? They say what doesnt kill you makes you aware what happens if it becomes who you are  Payroll line is like the vibe i thought my boy etc wouldve sounded  Omg no one heard NICE SNAKES omg i understand  Do you believe me now omg  A mourning warning no one heard wow  Omg she sang so low how does she do that

28. Peter Oh i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE this piano  I wanna learn it  This is self written  Omg peter pan???  Promises ocean deep but never to keep Is the sound muffled I LOVE THAT OLD TIEMY 25???  Oh shelf life omg  Lost to the lost boys chapter of your life !! Oooo the way she sang the light speak now vibe  I really love the piano  the repetition is an interesting choice i need my brain to process it and figure out what it mean

29. The Bolter I like the soun I like story :)  Cute melody  Oh WHORE ok!! caught me off guard ngl  lmaoo  As she was leaving it felt like breathing !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Making him care oh All roses portrait poses omg  LOL what a charming saturday!  Oooooooooo littlest leaks  races/aces sound nice  Escape in escaping nice  Hands around each others shoulders and swaying to the beat and singing lmao  Then i would jump abt all her lives lol  Sounds nice 

30. Robin Pinnano Her voice sounds so clean and smooth  Omg thats the aaron beat  Wow deep voice Her range  Aaron guitar sounds or is tha tbass  Looooooooooooooooooooooong may you roar  In sweetness  tiger…WOODS?  Tbh idk whats happening in terms of lyrics i am not processing them right now but her voice is pretty  This is about a child? And childhood before you are CORRUPTED ? owwie :( wholesome :(

31. The Manuscript PINNANO Good voice i like I love the story tellin  Is this the first time she said sex  I eat kids cereal  Oh :( owwie Aaron sounds  Good vocal omg One last souvenir  Oh but the story isnt mine anymore wow!!!  What a journey! 

this album is incredible

[reyraccoon]

One of my besties @elle-cosmic-chaos made a DTIYS and you KNOW I had to try my hand at it! I just want to say I want Anne’s hoodie now lol

Now go follow them, Elle’s super cool! Off you go~

[jaekaicx]

for the doodle request, can you do some draw the squad memes of the clamity trio?

for you :D

[happi-tree]

marcanne for the ship ask!!

also i just wanna add i love how you refer to everyone as lovebirds like it akes me all warm and gooey inside djhsdkjfd im rambling okay byeee

!!! Hi, Elle!!! Hope you're having a good day, lovebird 💙💙💙

Okay so. I have many many Thoughts abt them

When I started shipping them: I got into the show pretty late comparatively speaking, so I basically went from "Marcy at the Gates" to "True Colors" in a matter of days. And though season 3 had already started airing at this point, I decided to wait a bit bc. Well. *Gestures at all of tc* yknow. But! During that break, I decided to check out ao3 and wound up reading a little fic called "Don't Drink Unlabeled Potions", followed closely by another one called "Stranded." Idk, maybe you've heard of them? But yeah. I was immediately sold as soon as I started reading haha!

My thoughts: Their dynamic is just. So much!!! I love a good childhood friends-to-lovers trope and their relationship with each other just seems so real and well done??? Like, they're just two kids who get to goof off together but they're also some of the most important people in each others' lives and they have such a desperation to stay together, to not lose the other, and! *Dissolves into tears* While their relationship definitely isn't perfect and they're both very flawed characters (both in terms of their identities separately and also in terms of their interactions with each other), I really do think they can turn it around and work on it! Just gotta work on those communication issues, kiddos.

What makes me happy about them: Their little nicknames for each other, the way they casually hold hands and poke each other all the time, the way they try to protect each other, the way that they can be really silly together <3

What makes me sad about them: God. God where to begin. Marcy thinking that Anne will never forgive her for what she's done to them and that she genuinely hates her - so much to the point that it is Marcy's literal worst nightmare in her last moments of consciousness. Anne trying her absolute hardest not to think about Marcy at all, stubbornly saying that she's sure Marcy is okay when all the signs point to her being dead. Marcy wanting Anne (and Sasha) to be with her forever so much that she decided to literally give up her world - all of their worlds - so that they'd stay, and it only ended up driving them further apart. Anne confessing to Marcy that she doesn't want to lose her again, and Marcy responding with a promise that she breaks at no fault of her own. I am soooo normal about them </3

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: Marcy is not the only flawed character in this relationship! Anne has flaws and nuance to her, too! She's not "too good" for Marcy because they are both just kids with a lot of problems and communication issues!!! It's honestly kind of rare (at least in what I've encountered) for me to find a work with the above concept of their dynamic, but when I do find one??? I simply exit the tab :)

Things I look for in fanfic: Hurt/comfort babeyyyyy!!! I love reading people's takes on them post-canon. And the little "what-if" scenarios of Anne breaking through to Marcy while fighting the Core are also very, very tasty! I am truly not picky, though - canon, au, and anything in between works for me!

My wishlist: For both of them to get the biggest, warmest hug of their lives in s3b. Also to get therapy bc good lord do they need it </3

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Sasha Waybright is Right There for both of them, obvi. Sashannarcy and any of its forms goated (real)!

My happily ever after for them: Happy and healing and together (possibly long-distance), whether as friends or as gfs! More healthy communication, aired grievances, working things out in a healthy manner, paying attention to each other, etc (also Sasha is there, too, ideally, because you can't separate the trio)!

[cottoncandysprite]

not to be weird but you seem like a very cool person and your remind me of clay and hard lavender soap

Bruh that's such a lovely compliment?? Excellent vibes thank you!

[insaneillusionist]

Freeze! ✧ ─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ You’re under arrest for being so lovely. Copy this message to 10 other blogs that you think are beautiful and deserve it. Keep the game going and make others feel beautiful!! 💜

Bestie! Thank you! You're great as well!

[kitkat578]

i want to hear about carter and their crimes :)

Ah thank you for asking!! Now that it's being asked, I actually don't know what to say about them asjkds. I guess I'll start with the basics lol

This is Carter!

They're one of my more recent ocs and is a werewolf! The best I can describe their personality on paper is they're a bit of a jokester and easy-going dumbass, but with some unresolved trauma from their dad passing away at a young age that's putting it lightly I don't wanna get too heavy with the angst here lol.

Their crimes consist of breaking and entering churches to steal holy water (it's for killing vampires), swiping property that is not their own, murder, eating chicken hearts, photographing crimes and not reporting it to the police, and being a general menace to their boyfriend. Carter's basically the living embodiment of "be gay, do crimes" but with chill vibes, just a little gremlin.

If you want to know more or something, ask away!

Also @sydmarch since you wanted to hear about their crimes as well lol.

[loversarcanas]

mac and cheese and aqua~

thank you elle!! I missed this in my inbox before but it's so sweet ty <3

[subterra-rose]

1-8 for the art style asks!

I just did 1 so ill do 2-8 lol 2.What's your favorite thing about your style I love the way I draw hair and eyes <(Vain) And the way I shade when I actually put effort in

3.what's your least favorite thing about your style I sometimes put too much detail on stuff when I'm working really small

4.favorite thing to draw Hair >:3

5.least favorite thing to draw Weird as it sounds, arms tbh? The attachment points always mess me up so I feel like they look odd

6.warm colors or cold colors Warm I guess? I dont actually have a preference, I love soft more muted tones so either or

7.show us a WIP This is just a timed sketch I did for pose practice, but I do wanna finish it sooner or later bc I like the pose

8.what's the most fun and the least fun parts about your process I usually go straight to lines without sketching so the process doesn't take me long so I can colour faster! However bc I go straight to lines I feel like I mess up my anatomy a lot and then don't realize until I'm starting to render RIP...

[gaylittlefrog]

for the ask game,,

*wii music*

thats it. thats the answer.

thank you, you are very cool

[weedplantar]

happy valentine day!!

also im hoping your recovering from all those allergic reactions seriously are you okay-

happy valentines day to you too!!! <3 <3 <3

and yes i am!!! i finally found a skin care product that i can use reaction free!!

[maritasdump]

this day has been a mess i tried to press the ask button nd i accidently unfollwed and then i almost pressed archive-

anyway 1-5 for the ask game also happy valentines day!!

KSBSKSBSJS RIP HOMIE AND THANKS!!

1. What was the last meal you ate?

Meal? Lunch, precisely chicken and rice

2. Have you ever used a Ouija board?

*googles Ouija board* OH LMAO NOPE

3. Are you an observant person?

Actually yeah you could say that. I also have 2 eyes here look 👁️👁️

4. Do you have different playlists for different moods?

KSBDKSDHSJS LMAO NO I'M- I'M MESSY I LITERALLY DUMP ALL THE SONGS IN ONE PLAYLIST 💀💀

I also have a playlist for workout and then the rest are just like, OSTs of different shows to keep them in one place (Hawkeye both volumes, Arcane all 3 acts etc...)

5. What was the last test you took?

QMB 210, Business Math, last exam of the semester. Let's just say i got a grade for effort and still passed the course 🤠

Random Asks

[jaekaicx]

for the ask game: sasha blushing

w whwen you finally get ur besties back but u may or may notve realized youve cuaght feelings ��

[happi-tree]

lunges by florence th machine!

Hi, lovebird!!! Thanks for the ask! Hope you're doing well today 💙💙💙

my favorite lyric: I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map / and knew that somehow I could find my way back / then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too / so I stayed in the darkness with you

my favorite song: "Dog Days Are Over", simply by virtue of it being the first song by her I've ever listened to! It reminds me of the friend who introduced me to her <333

the song that makes me cry: "You've Got the Love" but like. In the best possible way

the song that’s a fucking bop: "Kiss With A Fist"! I love the guitar <333

the song i most dislike/least love: Tie between "Girl With One Eye" and "My Boy Builds Coffins". They're not bad necessarily - just happen to vibe with me the least.

[fullmusicbardsquared]

Early am radio and stained bathroom sink

excellent choices but i will inevitably make you listen to five talking heads songs in a row sorry :(

[reyraccoon]

happy valentines day rey!!

Thank Elle!! Happy Valentine’s Day bestie! ❤️❤️❤️