#bangs my head against a wall

[wraithdolll]

i dont think i ever posted these here

[neurotypical-sonic]

thinks about sonic have small bases dotted around the world, places where maybe he stores some things, places where he can crash for an hour or two of he needs. thinks about the abandoned plane in the scrap years in sonic ova where sonic and tails have made a home

thinks about tails and how he has workshops and labs dotted around the world, tails who was raised by sonic who grew up with sonic and learnt from sonic, who is doing what sonic has been doing but in a more permanent/stable way

[o-i-w-u]

*realizes that in order to get more asks involving my Aus, i have to post more content about them to spark interest, but in order to do that i need asks-*

[kotaka-kun]

ill admit that i think too often i envy those big-name fandom authors. the ones whose fics are a staple to their fandom, their ship, the ones that everyone talks about.

i envy, perhaps even moreso, the big-name fandom authors that have a posting schedule and stick with it, further establishing an audience, a sense of community -- the authors that write so extensively and pervasively in one fandom, for one ship, that their headcanons become fandom consensus.

and at the same time i know that in the last few years my hyperfixations have jumped around too fast for me to establish myself in any fandom -- to establish a following.

and even now just typing out that last bit made me realize once again just how deeply ive bought into the culture of content creation. i started writing fic purely out of love of the act of creating something for myself. and yeah, validation is something i crave as much as anyone else, but also? to start creating seeking only validation feels disingenuous for me to do.

im not sure where i was going with this but i guess ive still got unlearning to do where it concerns creating things for myself first and foremost...

[dappledpaintbrush]

wip I can’t wait to butcher because how will I shade this

anyways pixl creator from the hit game super paper mario try not to transform your daughter’s soul into an immortal being against her will challenge (FAILED IMMEDIATELY) (JAYDES AND GRAMBI CALLED) (ETERNAL DAMNATION?!?!)

[yllowpages]

i was going through my drafts and i want to reply to literally everything but my mental energy is so low..............

[the-rookinator-3000]

i want everyone to know how much self control it took me to not mention rookie every 5 seconds during those hcs and I STILL FUCKINFNDID

[partyhardyontitanic]

Feeling a bit bad because I am seeing a lot of posts about platonic f/os or familial f/os and i simply never considered this as a thing, I've only got guys i wanna seduce I'm sorry I don't really think about things beyond that

[gwishinsong]

it was only a matter of time

[akinachiri]

oh god i unleashed the flood gates now i have the urge to talk abt said interests that i feel like i should not talk abt

[venln]

Just came to an awful realization abt one of my coworkers that I think is attractive. He’s very Wash coded.

[numerous-bees-in-a-skin-suit]

I’m rewatching sk8 (again) while doing Christmas food prep and god i don’t think there’s any way to interpret their whole thing as purely platonic there’s no way you can

I know what they are

[silvell]

JUST WATCHED THE SCRAPPED ANIMATIC FROM THE RISE PANEL…. I AM NOT OK

[navysealt4t]

sigh. i should . get a job soon huh

[unidentifiedwhistlingobject]

fucking relatable master yupa

[kasugas]

I need kiryu to come beat me up substory style so I can be normal again