#babe wake up it’s gose day

[17-todate]

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230809 GOING SEVENTEEN

🩷 GGOYO-ILER EP. 88

Today’s GGOYOILER🤫

Cute(tn:?) Mingyu 🐶

What’s the result of half asleep half awake mission?

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[jun-of-love]

i will spend my whole life loving you- kim mingyu

tw: none

genre: fluff, angst, kim mingyu

words: 1.7k

pairings: yn × mingyu

a/n: this a very random scenario that popped up in my head. it's all imagination, and does not in any way reflect mine or mingyu's opinions, values, thoughts etc. with that being said i hope you like it :)

“Hey Y/n, is something wrong with Mingyu?”

You had just parked your car when Seungcheol’s text popped on your screen. You read it, sighing deeply. Mingyu had been behaving really weird lately, no one knew what was going on in his mind. Considering that his contract with HYBE was expiring soon, you gave him some space as you figured that he needed time to figure out the specifics. The date was still far away, and the renewal discussion had just been initiated, there was seemingly no reason for Mingyu to act so disturbed over this. You closed your eyes and massaged your temple, the events of last week replaying in your head.

“Gyu, how was practice??” you chirped as soon as he entered the house, eyes void of energy. “Hey, is something wrong?”

“It's everyday babe, nothing special. I’m just tired, I’m going to sleep in the guest bedroom.” He picked up Uri, your cat, and slammed the door shut. You were left with Doori, your other cat in your lap meowing at the shift in the energy. You didn’t want to tire him further or initiate any fights so you left the incident at that, even though it was only in the most intense fights that one of you would sleep in the guest bedroom.

However, before you could even wake up, Mingyu had left the house to go god-knows-where. All he left behind was a lame sticky note saying ‘Don’t worry about me, I had to head out early for some work.’ You were surprised but also concerned; Mingyu never lied, you both had each other’s schedules in your phones, and there was no reason for him to get out of the house at 7 in the morning. You texted and called him multiple times, but he had his phone switched off, further irritating you. You had no time to worry about this, as your own work started in a few hours and you had to get ready for another hard day of dealing with patients.

And so it continued for a week. Mingyu refused to interact with you, or anyone else for that matter. He would sleep early if he reached home before you, or came home after you fell asleep and left before you could wake up. He would only talk as much as necessary with his members and would be on his phone or staring off in the distance for hours. The latest episode of GoSe they shot ended up giving little to no screentime to him because of his low enthusiasm. For a roaring extrovert like him, this behavior was getting very concerning.

You stood in front of your apartment door, deciding to end this episode once and for all. You hadn’t sent him your regular text telling him that you’ve left work. You were back early, and you could hear the sounds of some activity going on inside. You quietly entered the house, leaving your things on the sofa and tip-toeing your way toward the kitchen.

There he was, back hunched over the sink, doing the dishes from the meal he had just cooked. Mingyu had a habit of humming or talking to himself while doing household chores, but he was eerily silent today. The sound of water splashing and utensils clanking against each other was deafening when not paired with his sweet humming. Your eyes prickled with tears, he really wasn’t feeling okay.

You walked towards him slowly, hugging him tightly from the back. A confused “Huh?” leaves his lips as he registers your presence. “You’re back early.” He said, in a vague tone.

“Kim Mingyu, what is wrong with you?” Mingyu shifted uncomfortably at the mention of his full name, but you refused to let go. “You haven’t even looked at me properly this past week. You’re not talking to me or anyone else at all,” You made him turn around, looking deeply into his eyes. “Did I do something wrong? Please, please talk to me.” Your tone turned into a pleading one without intending to, you had never been the one to hide your emotions well.

It felt as if all hold Mingyu had over himself fell apart. He hugged you tightly, his body slightly shaking, indicating that he was crying. You only stroked his back, trying your best to comfort him despite your overwhelming concern for him. Exactly what could have happened for him to break apart like that? He had been through malicious scandals and stalker fans yet this was the first time you had seen him so vulnerable.

“Y/n, I don’t want to do this anymore.” Mingyu managed to say between sobs. Your mind went blank and your body went cold, he wanted to break up with you?

“Do what?”

“This. Whatever I’m doing right now.” He continued. “I want to stop being an idol.” He stared into your eyes, desperately looking for validation. “I’m tired of this life. I’ve been working to the bone since I was fifteen, I have achieved more than I have ever dreamed, I just-” He hiccuped, “I just don’t want to be public property anymore. I don’t want to fake my personality, my emotions, my opinions 24/7, I’m sick of this.” He held your hand tightly, “Earlier I didn’t care, I had no one to come back home to, I could spend as much time as I wanted to in practice rooms, studios, broadcasts what not. But ever since I’ve met you, it kills me every time I have to hide our relationship for our safety, leave you and our daughters alone for months to perform on tours and even when I’m here, I always have some goddamn schedule to follow, and it's getting sickening to me! I just want to live with my family for as much time as I want.”

You didn’t know what to say. You knew his career was his dream, passion, and everything he has ever wanted and you also knew that he was slowly getting sick of it, but to this point? All of this to be with you? All you knew was that you would support him no matter what. “Let the contract expire then.” You said.

“What?”

“I said, fuck your idol industry. Leave your job. Stay at home and do whatever you want. Let’s spend all of our days and nights together. Let’s scream out our relationship to everyone. Leave all this behind if it is making you so miserable.”

“Really?” Mingyu asked incredulously. “You don’t have a problem with it? I’ll be unemployed. You’ll have a jobless husband.”

“Aha, you’re going too far Mr. Mingyu, you gotta put a ring on my finger first before calling yourself my unemployed husband.” You chuckled, careful not to show how giddy the word ‘husband’ made you.

However, Mingyu looked unaffected. “Don’t joke around.” He said sternly. “I won’t be able to be the man you deserve. I won’t be able to contribute to the house, or buy you pretty things, or give our daughters the best toys they deserv-”

“Gyu, are you crazy? You are the man I love. I don’t even care what I deserve, and even if I did I’m sure I’ve gotten way more than that.” You kiss him softly on the lips. “Retire and do whatever you want to do. Plus, I don’t get why you’re so worried about the financial part, have you forgotten how fat your bank account is? The bigass investments your accountant has made sure you have?? You own a fucking building for God’s sake, who put all this unemployment bullshit in your head?”

“Are you okay with me being a house-husband then?” Mingyu challenged, “What if I tell you I want to spend the rest of my life taking care of you and our fur daughters and in the future, our children, and not work a day in my life ever at all ?!?” His eyes were so determined it made you laugh.

“Mingyu, what the hell are you talking about??” You giggled. “I would love that. I don’t like that domestic stuff as much anyway, you know that. Coming back home from work to a warm meal and a delicious man? How could I possibly say no??” His confused face made you laugh more, and hug him out of pure adoration.

Mingyu continued pouting,” I won’t be a high-value man then.” You snapped his head towards him, where was he getting all this stuff from? “Wouldn’t you be embarrassed when people ask you what your husband does and you have to say that he does nothing?”

“Who told you that? Let people believe whatever they want to believe. Who cares what people say, Gyu? As long as we’re happy together, as long as we’re balancing our relationship and our home properly, I don’t give a flying fuck about what anyone says.” You grab his face looking straight into his eyes. “I will yell and announce to everyone that I have a stay-at-home husband and everybody will be jealous to the very bone, you just see. Having you as a partner is such a flex, babe, don’t let this high-value shit get to your head, it is all bullshit anyway.” Mingyu smiles lightly, mostly from your overwhelmingly passionate speech. “Even if you were to sell your investments and your buildings, and donate that money to charity, I will still be able to support the house comfortably so Don’t. Worry. About. The. Money. Your girlfriend is a dentist” You finish your speech with a smirk, making him chuckle.

Mingyu just held you in his embrace tightly, words like ‘thank you’ and ‘I love you’ couldn’t possibly suffice for the extent of adoration and respect he had for you in his heart. He felt emotions that he couldn’t quite describe, but he was sure that relief and gratitude were some of them. A huge burden had been lifted off of him, and he could only hope you knew how much you had helped him till now. The grave concerns and issues bothering him for so long felt so small to him, now that he had your support. He could take over the world, or live his dream domestic life, everything was possible as long as you were by his side.

[little-svt]

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Falling For U pt. 1

After seven months of dating and three months of being his caregiver, you’d finally found a good groove together. Jeonghan always seemed to be on the edge of regressing when he was comfy, sleepy or clingy which was most times.

It used to be a little overwhelming but you’d notice how regressing frequently helped him stay in control, even typically staying a happy medium age of around 6 years old. He never had to stray far from that. But it also depended on who he was with and his needs. Recording during a demanding Going Seventeen episode wasn’t always a good environment to let it out. Especially when GoSe was on the road, taking them to Jeju for the next two episodes.

Thankfully Jeonghan had talked you into coming along this time, saying he’d put you in his suitcase if he had to. It hadn’t taken much convincing, you were sure you’d get to enjoy the island just a little, even if it was for work.

An hour flight and a fifteen- minute car ride later and the two of you were checked into your hotel room with plans to have dinner with the guys once you’d settled in. Some drinking and babysitting would be involved, no doubt. Jeonghan had taken the chance to nap of course even though the flight had been short. Very on character, he’d probably fall asleep again if given the chance.

Still waking up, he hauled his suitcase onto the king sized bed in the suite, taking a moment to glance around as he tucked his hair behind his ears. It wasn’t the nicest suite he’d stayed in but it was still fairly good. It was two connected rooms. One with a large flat screen, a small table with two chairs, a sofa with a coffee table and stands to match. The other was the bedroom,the mattress seemed pretty comfortable from what he could feel with his hands and the closet space average, another tv mounted on the wall opposite the bed. Luckily there weren’t too many mirrors outside of the bathroom so he’d already spotted the perfect place to do a live for Carats later on the trip.

Unzipping his personal suitcase he decided to get some things set out in case he came home drunk later on. While moving stuff around and setting them on the cream-white comforter, he happened to notice something was absent. Deciding not to think too much of it, he swapped out his hoodie for an oversized t-shirt and jacket for dinner. When you finally came out of the bathroom and began to do the same as him he glanced over at the contents of your suitcase and again did not find what he was looking for.

“Babe? Did you pack Shuji in my clothes?”, he commented as nonchalantly as he could, as if it didn’t set a spark to his nerves, setting his suitcase in the closet area to worry about later. Rubbing his hands on his pants as they began to sweat, he looked at you, hoping you had the answer. He’d never traveled without it since Joshua gave it to him, even if he didn’t plan on regressing.

“Hm? Oh. No-”, you thought for a moment trying to remember your packing process. The day you’d packed, only a week ago, Jeonghan had had a particularly exhausting day and you’d decided to help him regress, spending the evening snuggling and putting together a Lego set,”- you didn’t pack him?”

Quickly you realized the mistake both of you had made. The bunny plush Jeonghan had grown so attached to sat at home in the center of your bed. He hadn’t always been a plushy man, but Joshua, his first caregiver before you came along, was the first to notice Jeonghan’s habit of keeping something with him, usually spoons for comfort, to feel more secure. The plushy friend, named after Joshua, became something Jeonghan couldn’t travel without. Most times it would sit at home, sometimes finding it’s place in his arms when he slept, but when he had a show or especially when he traveled, little bunny Joshuji was the first thing in his suitcase. A grown man getting anxious over such a thing, Jeonghan was already beating himself up.

“Hold on. Let me check.”, you closed your own suitcase and went to the door to lug his other suitcase to the bed, only to find it filled with clothes as you worried it would be. When you looked up again, you found his anxiety reflected clearly on the outside as he stood tense, fists balled tightly at his sides, any emotion absent from his face as he swallowed loudly, trying to stay in control.

“Jeonghan?”, you crossed the room, your fingers smoothing over the fabric of his jacket, straightening it, just a bit of comfort as you searched his face. But that little bit of comfort, your touch made his lip quiver and his nose twitch as he tried to fight off his tears.

“Need something…”, he jerked away from you, frantically closing his eyes, his hands clenching at nothing.

“What? What do you need?”, you stepped back, surprised that he wanted space instead of being his usually cuddly self and melting into your touch as he usually did. Instead his breath quickened and he wiped his hands anxiously against his pants, grabbing at the fabric. He only acted like this on the rare occasion he needed to fight off his regression. Jeonghan wasn’t the type to regress involuntarily but that didn’t mean it hadn’t happened once or twice when he was stressed out of his mind.

“Dunno.. something? Spoon?”, his eyes shut tighter for a moment, fluttering as he took a step back, then two until he met that wall, pressing his palms to the cold, smooth texture. But it wouldn’t be so easy to go back to spoons or chopsticks after having his bunny.

”Joshuji. Want my bunny.”

Tears slipped from his pretty, tired eyes as sweet short sobs left his pretty lips before you could even try to look for a spoon or something to ground him.

“Baby… aw. You’re so stressed aren’t you sweetie.”, you sighed, cautiously reaching to pull his head to rest on your shoulder, which he gave into tensely but no longer resisted your comfort. It wasn’t often something that seemed so small would make him regress.

“W-what am I gonna d-do?”, he stuttered, his hands quickly clinging tightly to your shirt, his tear streaked face snuggled into your shoulder. Jeonghan relied heavily on the stability of something like his bunny when the world around him was so out of his control. The relief that he could come home and recharge or carry is with him, it would always be there. You couldn’t help but feel at fault for forgetting something so important.

“Hannie, it’s okay. Hey, look. We can go out first thing tomorrow and get a new plushy friend and surprise your bunny Joshuji? Hm?”, curling his long dark hair around your fingers in a gentle, repeated motion, you soothed him and allowed him to cry his heart out, in between accepting and not accepting the fact that he couldn’t have his bunny now or for the rest of the trip.

Walking him to the bed, sitting him next to you and removing his jacket, you kept his head on your shoulder. Though his tears began to slow, his eyes, nose and lips were already red and puffy.

“I’m so sorry, baby. Mommy forgot to pack him.”, you whispered with a heavy heart.

“We get Shuji a friend?”, he asked sadly with a little nod between wet sniffles, looking at the floor while playing with the hem of your shirt.

“Of course. I promise, angel.”

Going out with the guys obviously wasn’t an option anymore, Jeonghan had exhausted himself within less than an hour after arriving at the hotel. Sad Hannie was a needy Hannie. Especially when he was sleepy as he was getting, luring you to the head of the bed to lay in your arms and tiredly miss his little plushy friend.

“Cheol?”, you asked, the background rather noisy but that wasn’t out of the norm.

“No, it’s Chaann~”

You didn’t ask why he had Seungcheol’s phone, Hannie pouting up at you to make the phone call quick so it could be the two of you again.

“Jeonghan isn’t feeling well so we’re not coming out tonight. Let Cheol know. And don’t let anyone drink to the point where they can’t walk tonight because I’m not coming to save you.”, chewing the inside of your cheek waiting for the noise and laughter on the other end to turn into words.

“Yea, got it y/n! You and Jeonghan Hyung have fuun!”, you could almost hear the wiggle in his eyebrows. With a roll of your eyes you hung up and sighed, your little one snuggling closer again and becoming fluid against your body.

As you eyed the room, seeing if the television remote was within reach, Hannie drifted off on your chest, peacefully suckling the tip of his thumb. A distant knocking at the door, alerted you and made your little one squirm a little when he was so close to sleep. You’d put the ‘do not disturb’ sign out when you’d entered the room so it couldn’t have been room service. Pressing your lips together firmly, you looked down at your baby with his eyes closed, eyebrows wrinkling together at the noise before relaxing again as he fell a little deeper, his dreams just in reach.

Another knock assured that whoever was interrupting your exhausted Hannie’s sleep was not going away.

“Mommy’s gotta get up, angel. Go ahead and sleep. I’ll be right back, I promise.”, you tried to shimmy out of his hold but there was no way he was going to let you escape his hold without a fuss.

“Noo…”, he whined, sitting up with you, rubbing his eye with a pout. Sighing, you stood from the bed and held out your arms. If he was small enough for you to carry him around, he’d have crawled into your embrace easily. But instead he has to crawl out of bed, clinging to you as you brought him with you to answer the door.

Joshua turned back to the door as it opened, hanging up the call just as your phone began to ring.

“Sorry.”, he gave a short laugh, observing the waddling, sleepy baby that clung to your shirt that lifted a hand to rub the sleepy from his eye.

“Hey, buddy! Did uncle Shua wake you??”, Joshua spoke softly as he stepped through the door, closing it behind him and lowering his posture a bit to get a good look at the pouty angel’s face with a smile.

Not all of his members knew about Jeonghan’s regression, but Joshua was one of the trusted few that had filled in as his caregivers before you’d met.

“Nuh-uh”, Hannie gave Joshua a confused look before shaking his head sleepily. Though, Joshua definitely had.

Needing to de-stress after Hannie’s little breakdown, you were a little relieved Joshua showed up when he did.

Seeing his little guy with puffy, red eyes, Joshua could already tell you needed a break and a little help even if it meant he was on babysitting duty, time together with his Hannie wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. Putting his phone in his pocket and kicking off his shoes, he pat Hannie’s head and took his hand and walked him to the sofa, sitting down with the little one in front of him who had followed without question. Well, maybe a little question but he had the real life Shua right in front of him, the perfect replacement for his bunny would be the real thing wouldn’t it? He certainly wasn’t gonna fuss about that.

“It’s been a while since we got a good snuggle in, hasn’t it, bubs?”, he gave Hannie a meaningful look, his soft Bambi eyes shifting to you, gesturing that he could take it from there.

Crawling into his lap, sleepily, Hannie snuggled against Joshua’s shoulder contently, caring little about whatever show that had been put on to soothe him now that he had the attention of his Joshuji.

Seeing Hannie so comfortable with Joshua as circles were rubbed on his back, you relaxed, slipping on your shoes and grabbing your jacket to venture out and scavenge dinner for the three of you since no one would be going out tonight.

When you finally returned, settling on Kimchi jjigae since spaghetti didn’t seem to be something you could quickly find in the area, you let yourself into the room as silently as possible, Joshua sat with Hannie in his arms, stroking the hair from his face and admiring him lovingly. It was picturesque, the two of them together.

“You’re really a natural. You cared for him a lot before, didn’t you?”, you smiled softly, hanging your coat and setting the takeout on the glass tabletop.

“A few of the guys, Cheolie, Dokyeom, and Myungho mainly helped out when the opportunity came up, but yea. It was mainly me and him for the past few years. Siince he first started regressing, really..”, he nodded, trailing off. The air was heavy with emotion; a shared appreciation of the other, your guilt and his regret. Moments passed before he continued, your fingers walking over the cool glass of the table, glancing away when your eyes lingered too long.

“I’m grateful he has you but I do miss this.”, the corner of his mouth curved up, contented to be able to have this bonding with his little one again, even temporarily.

Hannie whimpered, stirring from his sleep to find his arms empty of his plushie, making Joshua’s instincts take over. His effortless aptitude, caring and passion for Hannie was decidedly his most attractive feature.

“Hey, hey. I’m here. I’ve got you. I’m right here…”, he stroked Hannie’s cheek, making sure his pretty dark hair was out of his eyes so he could see clearly that Joshua was right in front of him. How quickly your angel seemed to settle left you in awe.

“Daddy here..?”, Hannie nodded, sniffling in his half awake state as Joshua cooed, calming him further. It had been a long time since his Daddy had been there to comfort him, he couldn’t help but need reassurance.

“Yes, little one-“, Joshua sent you a pained look of apology, he had nothing but pure respect and admiration for you but Hannie’s headspace came first, especially when he regressed this young, “- Daddy’s right here, angel.”

Hearing that, Hannie relaxed, his arms folded into his chest as he curled again his Daddy, until he realized something was missing, someone was missing.

“What’s going on, buddy?”, Joshua cooed as Hannie’s eyes fluttered open, but he was already lifting his head and looking around for what was missing.

“Mommy??”, anxiously, his eyes darted from the door, around the room until he found you seated at the table. In all honestly, you couldn’t help but have felt left out of their bond, but the way he searched for you, he needed you, it soothed the ache in your heart and brought a smile to your lips.

“I’m here, sweetie.”, you assured him.

Shifting in Joshua’s lap to face you, he made sleepy grabby hands. Standing from your chair, you came forward to take his hand but he frowned, tugging at it a little.

“What is it, baby?”, you asked, but Joshua grinned, knowing exactly what the needy baby wanted.

“You wanna cuddle with both Mommy and Daddy, angel?”, he questioned, looking up at you.

Hannie made a little noise of agreement which you pondered over. You felt a bit shy and anxious yourself in this situation, Joshua being his first caregiver. It wasn’t that you were uncomfortable but you weren’t sure you had the heart to take this from them. It’d had to have been months since they’d been able to have time together like this. Daddy and Hannie time.

“How about, we fill little hannies tummy and then Mommy and Daddy can cuddle you until you’re sick of us?”, Joshua took the lead, helping a giggling Hannie sit up who was elated at the thought of having his two favorite people all to himself.

“Momma got stwawbie milk??”, he asked hopefully, lifting his head to search the contents of the table to see the familiar little carton.

“Yes baby. But only one with dinner so it doesn’t hurt your little tummy”, you laughed, standing to set out places for the three of you.

Heaving Hannie up in his arms, Joshua lifted him from the couch easily, carrying a squealing little boy to the table, giggling and laughing.

“Yea, no extra sugar for you, little man. You’re getting heavy.”, Joshua teased. Of course he wasn’t, but teasing was one of their love languages. Part of you wished you could carry your baby like that, so easily Joshua was able to make him feel small in every way he deserved.

Joshua looked to you, asking with his eyes if you wanna take him but it was refreshing to see the two of them like this. So a quick smile and Joshua was setting Hannie in his lap and feeding him every other bite as you all ate dinner together.

Just after they’d finished, Joshua’s phone rang, Cheol calling to check up on them. With a gentle pat on Hannie’s head, he left the bedtime bath to you.

Once the tub was filled with bubbles and Hannie settled in the warm water, playing with the travel sized soaps like little dolls, he asked you and interesting question.

“Mommy like Daddy?”, he asked, walking the tiny bottles across the edge of the tub, mumble singing a made up tune.

Thinking on it for a moment, you remembered how Joshua had introduced himself as ‘Uncle’. Joshua truly was a gentleman, taking a step back to respect your relationship and distancing himself. But that wouldn’t work with your stubborn baby boy at all.

“Yea of course!”, you weren’t exactly sure what he’d meant but Joshua was easy to be around, and two caregivers would always be better than one when their bond was as close as it was, “Do you like Daddy being around more??”

“Lub Daddy and Mommy. Want mommy and daddy to hab lub too.”, he rested his head, squishing his cheek on the edge of the tub.

“So cute.”, you pinched his other cheek and brushed it off as the innocent ramblings of a three year old. But your little matchmaker deserved a little more credit than that.

While you dressed Hannie, pulling his shirt down and over his head, Joshua walked into the bathroom as if it was the most natural thing in the world, taking the towel from the sink and playfully ruffling over Hannie’s damp hair.

“Let’s get you all dry, bubs.”, Joshua teased, peaking under the towel at Hannie’s giggling face, punching at his smiley, glowing cheeks.

“But ‘m already dry, Daddy!”, while his body was dry, Hannie always forgot they still needed to dry his hair.

“Oh are you? Huh, then maybe Mommy needs to dry off?”, Joshua asked, grinning as he threw the towel over your head.

Huffing, it took all your power not to laugh as you threw it back at Joshua who only gave you an impish bunny smile, sharing the moment with you before it was back to business..

“Alright, we gotta dry your hair for real this time, okay? Come here.”, swiftly, Joshua extended the corded hair dryer from the wall and called Hannie to sit on the floor between his legs and Joshua sat against the wall. It’d be pointless to stand, the warmth was sure to have Hannie dozing off in no time.

Getting ready for bed yourself, you watched Joshua with nothing but patience, expertly dry your little angel’s hair as he all but fell asleep in his lap. Ignoring the flutter in your heart for the upteemth time seemed to be redundant. Having Joshua around was comforting, you were sure you could speak for both you and your little one. It was a talk for big Hannie, but for now, this was okay.

The moment the hair dryer was switched off, Hannie opened his eyes and frowned at the loss of the warmth, opting to turn into Joshua’s arms. That was okay with Josh, he’d planned to carry him to bed anyways. Tucking Hannie into bed, you crawled in next to him. Joshua lay on his side over the covers, running his fingers through Hannie’s hair and staring between the two of you purposefully through the stillness as he planned his goodnight and goodbye.

“I should get going, angel…”, he spoke regretfully, slow blinks eyes his eyes looked for yours.

You could only tell who he was speaking to because of the nickname he’d added, his gaze constantly shifting between the two of you.

“Joshuji!”, Hannie huffed in defiance, holding on to Joshua’s shirt, tugging on it grumpily.

“What is it?”, Joshua laughed, sighing as he sunk back into the bed. You hadn’t told Josh about forgetting Hannie’s bunny at home, he could have easily thought Hannie was just talking to him.

“Mommy forgot his bunny at home. Looks like you have to stand in as a replacement.”, you giggled, earning a sleepy, amused twinkle from your little one as he agreed. Thinking for a moment Joshua rolled to turn off the lamp on his side of the bed, a smaller lamp still giving a dark glow to the room.

“Is this okay, bubs?”, he asked about the light, most of the time Hannie had a hard time sleeping if it wasn’t completely dark.

“Daddy stay?”, Hannie asked, rolling to face him, his hands searching for Joshua’s, playing with his welcoming fingers.

“Okay.”

After an emotional evening, Hannie was finally out like a light with you drifting off beside him. But Joshua wasn’t quite there yet. It really has been a long time since he’d felt something like this. Or even allowed to feel something like this. Jeonghan in front of him, his little one again in his arms, so easily slipping back into his heart and bringing someone along with him. He wasn’t sure when a strand of your hair had fallen over your face, but on impulse, his fingertips were already there, brushing it back and waking you in the process.

“I’m sorry.”, he whispered with a wince, sending you a thoughtful smile, a blush one could only feel, radiating from his face in the darkness.

“Shhh!”, you suppressed a giggle, doing your best not to wake Hannie who was deep in a much deserved slumber, though your heart was having other ideas, thudding, booming louder than a thunderstorm.

Those soft Bambi eyes again locked with yours as the two of you lay blissfully with your head against the fluffy hotel pillows. You weren’t sure who fell asleep first but his warm, adoring gaze was the last thing on your mind when your eyes closed for the last time that evening.

🧸Endnote: posting this as to not break my every Tuesday streak but I can promise part two will be out soon ㅠ ㅠ lowkey out here squealing and kicking my feet. Still can’t believe this will be my longest work ever completed and it’s only part one. Anyways, you can bet on me to write the most delulu thing you can think of 🤩 also I have this song looped 24/7 eheheh already working on part two and as always, feedback is much appreciated 😖🤧💗 I SWEAR I’ll post something other than Josh or Hannie the next few weeks!!! ~ 🐶🐰🍓

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[glitchtrapfan]

Losing someone you love

Everybody including me were at are hangout spot,playing some spin the bottle.

We were doing it on the floor having a rug below us from the cold floor.

Hilda spins the bottle and it lands on me.

“Hey look at that the old love birds must kiss.” Von bon says making kissing noises.

“Shut up shortcake.” I say holding my petals so I don’t have an outburst.

“She’s not kissing my boyfriend nobody can kiss my boyfriend.” Nathan says.

“If you didn’t want that then why did you bring him here.” Specter says.

“NOBODY ASK YOU CASPER.”

“Alright let’s get this over with.” Hilda say as she comes over to me and kisses me.

We stop and she gose back to her spot.

It was mine turn so I spin the bottle trying to forget what just happened when the bottle landed on Blind Specter.

“Alright babe we are leaving,it’s been fun you guys.” Nathan says getting up from his spot.

“He’s not wrong I do have to check on my flowers but I can’t leave until I kiss him.”

“Well then I will make it quick.” Specter says kissing me.

We stay like that for 3 second’s until Specter breaks up the kiss.

“You taste like honey.”

“I taste like candy.” Von bon says

“Well nobody cares.” Beppi says

“You want to come here and find out yourself.”

“I would like to but your breath smells like it has not been brush in centuries.”

“Your dead.” She says as she takes out her candy shotgun from her back.

“Hey now no need for fighting we’re here to play a game not kill each other.” Hilda says trying to handle the situation.

“Alright me and Cagney are off see you guys tomorrow.”

Me and Nathan leave the hangout spot to head back home but then Hilda comes outside.

“Cagney can I speak to you alone.”

Sure,Nathan you can go without me,make sure my flowers are alright.

“Ok but don’t be gone for too long.”

I go over to Hilda to see what she wants.

“Hey I wanted to say that I’m sorry about earlier with that kiss.”

“No it’s fine I just didn’t expect it to happen so fast.”

“Your were thinking about how we use to date weren’t you.”

“Yeah I was it’s just some days I miss us being together.”

“I know you do but we have changed from are old lives and now we are finding new people.”

“I know it just that.”

“HEY YOU!” I was cut off by somebody.

We turn around to see a lizard come to us with a gun in his hand.

“Slick Skin I thought you were in jail.”

“I was but my tail helped me get the keys to my cell and the rest was easy.”

I try moving to him but he points the gun to me.

“I don’t think your going anywhere now tell me what are your last words.”

I thought I was going to die but Specter came trough the wall and try to stop him from shooting us.

Slick shot his gun before he was knock unconscious by Specter.

“Is everybody..oh no.” Specter says looking at are direction.

I see Hilda falling to the ground but I catch her.

“Hilda what’s wrong.” I then see blood in her chest.

“No no Hilda your going to be fine.” I say pulling my thorn out and using my blood to cover up the wound.

Everybody comes out from the hangout spot and seeing me holding Hilda.

“What the hell happen.” Beppi says.

“HILDA!” Cala says rushing over to her.

“I need to get her to the hospital.” I say as I leave.

“Ca..gney” she says.

“Your going to be fine Hilda you hear me”

We make it to the hospital and the doctors take her away.

All my friends make it to the hospital while I was waiting outside of the operation room.

“Is she going to be ok.” Cala says tears in here eyes.

I walk away from them I could not handle this.

“Hey were you going HEY!” Von bon says.

I left the hospital and head back home,why you ask.

Because I knew Hilda wasn’t going to make it and I was right.

3 weeks later.

I was at my house still there from that night before.

Nathan took care of the flowers for me.

I was just laying thinking about all the things Hilda could had have if she was still alive.

She could have had a nice girlfriend with Cala,she could have gone to be a great inventor and she would of have me by her side at all times.

I blame it on me for not doing anything to stop him from shooting.

Another part of me says it was Specters felt,if he did not come out and try to stop him he would have not fire that gun.

I wanted Hilda back I was desperate for something to bring her back.

Even if that means making a deal with the devil.

I head over to the casino,open the doors and head over to the bar where King Dice was.

“Hey Dice.”

“Cagney it’s good to see you again what brings you here this evening.”

“I want to make a deal.”

King Dice looked shock when I said that.

“I did not expect you to say that,especially after the last time you said that you end up looking like a mess.”

“Please I need to see my friend again.”

“Alright then follow me.”

I follow King Dice to the back room where the Devil was sitting in his throne sleeping.

“Master wake up we have a visitor.”

He wakes up and sees me.

“Well will you look at that it’s you Cagney am I right?”

“Yes and I’m here to make a deal.”

“After all that happened to you,you still come back here for another deal I should just be laughing.”

“I want to bring my friend back from the dead,her name is Hilda.”

“Now that’s a hard deal to pull off since I need to sacrifice someone to bring back somebody from the dead.”

He looks at his list of people and finds someone who he can use.

“I found somebody,there name being Bilnd Specter.”

“Wait your saying I have to sacrifice Specter to Bring back Hilda.”

“Yeah pretty much or if you don’t want to then the deal is off.”

I had to make a decision.

“Hilda is your best friend and Specter was the one who got her killed.” I said to myself.

Here I’ll make your choice a little more balance since you seem like your choosing one side here.

He hands me a crystal ball and I look trough it.

I see Specter sitting on his bed crying.

“It’s all my fault if I didn’t interfere with Slick,then Hilda wouldn’t have been shot.”

“How can Cagney forgive me for that.”

I hand back the crystal ball to him.

“How do I know that’s not a trick.”

“If I did that as a trick I would have not even gave you that crystal ball.”

If he really thinks that it was his fault then I should not make this deal it’s what Hilda would want.

But Specter was the reason she died in the first place.

I decided what choice I was going to make.

3 days later.

I get ready for today putting my petals into the back of my head,holding them together with a rubber band.

I had outside flowers at my side and I had to my destination.

I make it there and find what I was looking for.

Hilda’s grave.

I put the flowers on her grave and start to talk.

“Hey Hilda I’m sorry for not coming to your ceremony last week I was deeply upset after you died.”

“But I wanted to say that I figured out who was truly to blame for your death.”

“It was me I could have taken the shot I have a thick skull so a bullet to the head would not kill me.”

“Instead of protecting you I just stood there while somebody else took care of the situation.”

“Only problem was that it lead to you dying in my arms.” I started to cry

“I’m sorry I couldn’t be the man to save you from death but I promise to live on for you to make you proud of me.”

“So me and others would like to say...goodbye.” I say letting my tears fall from my face onto the ground.

I turn around to see Specter waiting for me to be done.

“You want to get going.”

“Yeah I’m done here.” I say whiping away the tears from my eyes.

Me and Specter walk away from the graveyard,Arms around each other.

I didn’t want to make this but I had this idea for a long time so here it is,hope you all are not crying like I was.

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Projected #03488971

Dr allys: ………………they been working together….i don't like it….

Sic! Stary: w-what do you mean?

Dr allys: test rat f13965…it’s been helping the other tested rats…

Sic stary: …..what about test rat number c61173? She’s all ways was careing for him

Dr allys: hehe well see her care for him after i inchaite him with determination

Sic stary: w-wait Dr allys! It’s not been tested it will Mel-

Dr allys:*grabs starys by her neck and slams her to the wall* dose it look like í care?

Sic stary: n-no s-sir….

*hour later*

????:number f13965 and number C61173 please send them down to the testing room

F13965(yoyo): ….what are they gonna d-do to use brother

C61173(jayjay): í dont know….just stay by me ok?

F13965(yoyo): ok..

*in the testing lab* Dr allys: *puts C61173(jayjay) on the lab table*

(jayjay)C61173: N-NO LET ME GOT W-WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO!?!?!

Robot:e.s.do.s..s.supjet C61173 needed for DETERMINATION#o387..s.13.

C61173( jayjay): w-wait what!! I don’t want th-*stabs him with a needle filling him with determination and black stuff* AHHHGGGGGGGG!!!!! OW OW OW MAKE IT STOP PLEASE!!!! IT HURTS STOP PLEASE NO MORE!!!!!!!*his eyes are turning color**his eyes are now gray and red*

F13965(yoyo): *crys cuz she hates hearing people in pain * b-brother!!! Please Dr allys stop!!

Robot: subject.#C61173.0.3.4/# has be finished

C61173(jayjay): *cry’s* i-i-it h-hurts *pukes up black stuff* UGHHHHH END ME!!!

*they go back to there rooms*

*yoyo hears jays cry’s of pain all night * *the nextsed morning*

Gaurd: Wake up bitch!!

F13965(yoyo): I-Im up s-sir!!!!!

*they walk down to the fighting room*

*yoyo sees jay half way melted*

C61173(jayjay): …….օֆօֆչթլէժքպռչթնթ?…._օֆչթլ`խժո_չֆճոժո

F13965(yoyo):BROTHER!!!!!!

Dr allys: have fun fighting!~

F13965(yoyo): bro oh god*she gose by jay but is hit by him* o-ow please s-stop brother im here for you!

Dr allys: she’s failing as i seen before she will die unless she fights…heh let hope she killes something to day

| End of part one|

Oh boy longest thing i done so far just jay jay and yoz life story this is just 1/3 hope ya like it and picrures are comming soon i just wanna say something sic stary lived in yoz time and is now 56 years old whatever

Yoz,jay,and Dr allys blong to me

Sic stary blongs to @cherry-babe-1238

[17-todate]

YOUTUBE

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🩷 Going Seventeen EP.93 Rock Paper Scissors #1

[17-todate]

YOUTUBE

230920 GOING SEVENTEEN

🩷 Going Seventeen EP94: Rock Paper Scissors #2

Note: Going Seventeen will be on a break until October 18 with a comeback special

[17-todate]

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230906 GOING SEVENTEEN

🩷 Going Seventeen EP.92 Point of omniscient Interfere penalty #2

[glitchtrapfan]

Your still beautiful

Today was special day for Inkwell as we were having another party.

Why do we always have a party every week.

I was writing in my notebook thinking of ideas for a story when T bone came in.

“Hey Specter you going to that party everybody else is going to.”

“No because every party I go to it dose not end well for me.”

“I’m sorry that you can’t get along with the people around here.”

It’s ok I got friends who care about me so I don’t need anymore friends.

“Well if you say so I’m off to bed night Specter.”

“Night dad.”

“Don’t call me dad.”

“Sorry mister conductor.”

Oh so your calling me different names now here’s one,my son.

I turn around to see a smug look on his face.

“Thanks that was a good one.”

“See you tomorrow.” T bone says as he leaves to go sleep.

I continue to write in my notebook.

Now thinking about it I’m thinking about getting a journal.

I was at the party with Nathan who only came because of me.

The party was held outside of Isle 2 their the carnival.

“Then I said that she was crazy for thinking I would help her with here dress like I have no time to help with dress up.” Von bon says holding a wine cup in her right hand.

A fly then lands on her forehead.

“Alright Grim you know what to do hit it with your tail but also not hit me.” She says like the end of the world was going to happen if they don’t do this correctly.

Grim swings it’s tail,the fly leaves right as Von bon gets hit in the face.

“Did you...get it?”

“No sorry Bon.”

“It’s fine just take me home I need a makeover.”

I look for Hilda who was working on one of her invention.

“Hey Hilda.”

“Hey how’s the party going.”

“Fine but not really fun.”

“Yeah I know these party are always not a fun time.”

“Specter seems to not have come.”

“The party’s from last time must have gotten to him so now he hates party’s.”

“Well I’m bored so I’m going to go see Specter.”

“Alright see you tomorrow when I show you my new invention.”

“It looks like a coffee machine.”

“Very funny Cagney,just go already.”

I leave to had to my house to get some playing cards I have to me and him can play together when I see a shadow.

The shadow came from Nathan who was completely drunk.

“Where are.. you going babe.” He says sounding like he’s trying to get me in the mood for so time alone.

“I’m off to go see Specter.”

“Why do you like him so much he’s just some guy who knows no better.”

“Because he’s actually very nice and dose not drink his sorrows away which I’m surprise you have.”

“Listen here bitch your not going to your...friends place will are staying here and that’s final.”

“Leave me alone Nathan I going to Specter and you can’t stop me while your drunk.”

I move past him and had outside but he pulls my left arm and throw’s me back inside.

“So you want to be some big guy now that I’m drunk well I’ll show you who’s the boss around here.” He says as he closes the front door leaving the room in darkness.

I decided to head to Cagney’s place since he might have left the party out of boredom.

I see Nathan outside and I stop and hide behind some bushes.

“Something is not right here.” I say to myself.

He leaves the front door heading to somewhere giving me the chance to head in.

I notice the door was lock but I just phase trough the door.

It was pitch black so I turn on the light and when light filled the room I saw Cagney on the floor facing backwards.

I see that one of his petals were missing.

I went over to him and turn him around to see if he was alive when I saw something that made my body freeze.

Cagney was missing a eye.

You remember when Rocksville removed Cagney’s eyes well the difference between then and now was that Rocksville was some evil guy,Nathan was his god damn boyfriend.

How can you do that to your own boyfriend.

I check his pulse and find it still beating,I side in relief.

I bring him to the hospital where they check if anything else was wrong.

His arm was broken and his eye was gone,that was it.

I stayed there until he started to wake up.

“Cagney you alright.”

“Where am I?”

“Your in the hospital,Nathan mess you up pretty bad.”

He checks his eye to see it was missing.

“I know this might sound like this is coming from nowhere but do you think I’m ugly.”

“What makes you say that?”

“Nathan never said I was pretty like ever and i thought that was suppose to be the main thing about a flower being pretty.”

“Now I look horrible one of my petals are gone,I have a broken arm and I’m missing a eye,I look so great am I right.” He says angry.

I go over to him and lay right next to him,Then I grab his face and look at him.

“Listen I don’t if you were missing all your petals your still the most beautiful person I ment.”

“Who could you say that.”

“Because I’ve been friends with you for the longest time so I know that if you did look completely different I’ll still know it’s you.”

“You sound so dumb when you say it like that.”

“In short if you look different I would still find you beautiful.”

“So If I was cover in guts and blood would you still think I’m beautiful.”

“Sure but that would never happen.”

“Your so stupid sometimes you know.”

“I know,hey you want my eye for that one socket.”

“Sure.”

I put my eye into his eye socket and it gose right in.

“Never thought of having this again.”

“Yeah,I don’t know what will happen to Nathan.”

“He will get away with it since his mother is rich.”

“You want me to sleep with you.”

“Sure I would like that.”

We both sleep together on the hospital bed his petals on my face.

They smell quite nice.

Sorry for the title sounding similar to this other ghostblossom fanfic on tumblr. I hope you all have a spooky day. Specter it’s not that time of year yet. It’s a joke Cagney.